I’m Experiencing a Schizophrenia Stress Episode
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 8 ธ.ค. 2023
- Hello, everyone. My name is Stephen. Today, I want to share with you a deeply personal experience - an insight into what it's like living with schizophrenia, particularly during a stress episode.
The Onset of Stress
The day started ordinarily enough. I went with my dad to pick out our Christmas tree, a seemingly simple activity. However, on the way back, I was unexpectedly overwhelmed by anxiety and stress. It's difficult to pinpoint the exact trigger, but the experience was intense and disconcerting. This is often the nature of schizophrenia; stress can emerge without any apparent reason.
Physical and Emotional Impact
Upon returning home, I was visibly shaken. My stress levels were high, my heart rate was up, and I even noticed myself physically shaking - a testament to how mental health struggles can manifest physically.
Coping Mechanisms
In the face of this stress episode, I've learned the importance of self-care and recognizing my limits. My coping strategies include:
Taking Time for Myself: I find solace in solitude, allowing me to unwind and process my feelings without external pressures.
Informing My Support System: Communicating with my parents about my state is crucial. They understand when I need space and offer support when necessary.
Engaging in Relaxing Activities: Playing games, watching comedies, and enjoying shows like "The Andy Griffith Show" help distract and soothe my mind.
Reflection and Understanding
As I reflected on the episode, I realized a couple of potential contributing factors. Skipping meals inadvertently (I hadn't eaten properly before we left for the tree) likely played a role, as hunger can affect my mood significantly. Additionally, the act of getting a Christmas tree, reminiscent of happier times before my illness, might have triggered emotional stress.
Recovery and Self-Awareness
Post-episode, I took a hot shower and allowed myself time to relax, significantly improving my mood. However, I acknowledged the lingering effects: physical and mental exhaustion that might persist for days. It's a reminder of the importance of managing my energy and being patient with myself.
The Therapeutic Power of Sharing
Interestingly, creating and sharing this video became a therapeutic process. Talking about my experience, even in a digital space, felt cathartic. It helped me process my feelings and, I hope, provided some insight for others into the reality of living with schizophrenia.
Conclusion: A Continuous Journey
Living with schizophrenia is a continuous journey of managing symptoms, understanding triggers, and learning effective coping mechanisms. Episodes like these are challenging but reinforce the importance of self-awareness, self-care, and support.
I share my story to shed light on my personal experience and offer hope and understanding to others who might be going through similar struggles. Remember, you're not alone in this journey.
Thank you for watching, and I hope this offers some insight and solace. Wishing everyone a happy and healthy day, and I look forward to connecting with you in my next video. Stay strong, and keep surviving.
Stephen
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Glad you can tell us about it. We are here to listen.
Stephen, thank you, thank you, thank you!!! Thanks for posting this video of you struggling with stress! It is real, honest and candid! It helps us understand how are loved ones are feeling when they are struggling! You are awesome!! Wishing you a restful, and uneventful next couple of days.❤
Whenever I feel stressed and weak I try to maintain and not run away. I feel the more you push through the better off you are next time. Keep calm and try to keep your mind clear. When I feel weak there is something in me that reinforces strength. Hard to explain. I guess all the struggles and faith pay off in that area.
Thank you for sharing and for your support!
my partner has schizophrenia and it makes me happy to see you post this content even if its unpleasant to experience, i wish we could normalise this conidtion and show it empathy rather than annoyance or fear, i hope now your doing alright and your symptons are manageable!! all the best
I’m so happy you’re feeling much better 🙏🥰. I’m sure your parents understand when u treat them “sharp” ☺️. But it’s nice to recognize it which gives u an opportunity to apologize. I’m sure they’ll appreciate that gesture. 🥰
Stephen ... well done for sharing this.
I run a small project in the UK called 'its Okay 2 Say' who's simple message is to encourage people to talk about their wellbeing and, hopefully, better manage their mindsets.
We always talk about it being that first small step on the longer journey to 'being as good as you can be' in your own special circumstances.
Tak care fella ... Nigel
Thank you! That sounds like a wonderful project! Have a happy and healthy rest of your day!
Stephen, you are a hero. When you feel stressed try and step back and hold onto the calm centre of who you really are. You are brave and truly inspirational. Stay strong and continue shinning your spiritual light. I wish you absolute victory at every moment. Slow and easy wins the race 🎉
Thank you for sharing this anxious time. It helps me to understand my son better. Holidays are so hard.
I have schizophrenia too. I agree with the food part. My hallucinations increase if I am hungry and went out shopping or something else.
Stephen, I think you are doing great right now, this video is proof of how self aware you have become, a skill that many do not reach with schizophrenia or not. I know that your feelings were full of anxiety, and painful, but I see your tenacity in overcoming those inner experiences. Peace to You, Always.
Thank you very much! Peace to you too! I hope you have a happy and healthy rest of your day!
I’m so glad you made this video. I also have a family member with this illness. You remind me to do no more than to try and understand. Remind me no expectations. More than anything I hope making the video helps, realizing how many you comfort❤️
Thank you so much! Your comment means a lot to me and makes me feel good!
You are doing brilliantly🙏keep talking, keep sharing, keep being you❤️
Thank you very much!
I've recently started living by myself after many, many years of living with others and I see the benefits. The stillness and silence put us in touch with the divine. I say this as a panentheist without any particular religion. Keep looking to stay calm and for composure, Stephen. Keep it simple as complications are for the chessboard. Peace :)
Thank you very much!
I’m sorry for what your going through you are very brave for sharing this with us I respect you trying your best not to be so upfront at least you recognised it and decided to control it ,stay strong 💪 and keep taking your medication on time I wish you all the best and please look after your well being ❤❤❤
Thank you Stephen for sharing this. My loved one suffers from severe stress episodes (panic attacks)with her schizophrenia. Many times these episodes are so severe that she wants to go to the hospital because she thinks she is dying. Her hospital visits have always lead to a medication change which turns out as a good thing. I appreciate listening to how you cope because for her going to the hospital or calling 911 during her episodes are not always feasible. Describing what your symptoms are and what medication you take to alleviate your symptoms will also help me to understand more what the symptoms are and what medication might help my loved one. Thank you Stephen!
Thank you for sharing and for your support!
Such a brave young man for making this video am sure this will help someone else in the same position as yourself I wish nothing but the best for you take care stay strong 💪
Thank you!
You are a courageous and wonderful person. You have learned some positive strategies to reduce your stress and anxiety. You are doing your best to practice those strategies even though it's hard to do. That's awesome. Bless you. You will feel better and get better at managing the stress. My warmest best wishes to you. ❤
Thank you so very much!
Thank you for sharing this with us. Everyday is different. You're self aware and that's good.❤
I can tell you’re going through something 😢. What’s good is that u recognize what you’re going through & can work on getting yourself out of it. Some recommendation that helps my brother…. He’ll put on very relaxing music & stay away from everyone & try to nap. Also praying. I’ll be praying for you Stephen. 🙏🙏🙏. May God give your mind peace that passes all understanding 🙏🙏. Lay down & try to get some sleep. May Gods angels surround you everyday. ❤️
Thank you very much!
I am so glad you have an outlet and can share your thoughts, feelings, and anxieties, and I think it helps and gives us all encouragement to know we all share in experiencing the occasional. waves of anxious episodes that sometimes hit us out of nowhere that can be paralyzing; Schizophrenia or not...
Thank you very much!
You're doing a great job. Many people get anxiety. Sleeping and talking helps. Having your illness doesnt make you any different to anyone else in my opinion. Your coping mechanisms are great and you are very self aware. You should be proud of yourself.
Thank you very much!
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Hi, It will pass soon. Nothing is permanent so relax. I can understand but I am amaze sumone making video with it and telling truth. You are motivating more people. I will keep you in my prayers 🙏🏻. Lotss of Love Stephen from India❤️❤️. Do whatever makes you happy, try something creative. I am new subscriber. Take care dear.
Thank you so very much! I really appreciate your support! It means a lot. Have a happy and healthy rest of your day!
Hi dipika.....I too from India.....we live in Mysore Karnataka from where you are.....my sister had this issue
Do anybody in your family has it?
I wanted to know the right treatment available here??
@@lakshminandish5037 I would suggest along with medical treatment take some help of astrology-kundli chart too. My one of friend got 50% relief. Just a suggestion. 🙏🏻🙏🏻Bhagwan aapki sahayata jarur kare yahi meri prathna hai🙏🏻🙏🏻
@@Dipika_Ksure dear.... how she is now?? Anybody else in her family had this??
Hi Stephen, be not afraid, you are allowed to be stressed now and then. That fast heart beat must be a real pain. Luckily you have a routine to deal with it.
On a nice day sometimes its nice to put on an eye mask and lie on a blanket on the ground in a warm part of the garden ( not too warm). Feel the warm earth under you and the healing it provides. Feel the sunshine on your face. So relaxing.
Do your breathing exercise and perhaps pick a mantra to say. Something like, "chop wood, fetch water" or "Josh u ahhh" whatever. It's nice to do this even if not stressed.
Some people need to run to use up the excess adrenaline. Again whatever works.
I admire your fortitude.
Maybe touch the Christmas tree and make peace with it. Feel its bark and soft pines, smell its lovely aroma and look up slowly through its branches to where it points and back down to the soft pines in your hand.. Look up the lyrics of the song " Oh. Christmas Tree" and think of these as you touch it. It's there to make our world more beautiful and to provide shelter to wildlife. We chose it at Christmas as a solid piece to gather round. It represent all that is possible with family and friends.
Thanks for sharing Stephen.I like the new haircut, very handsome.
Thank you so much Noreen for your continued support and encouragement!
We love you, Stephen! ❤
Thank you very much!
I have schizoaffective disorder and I see sparks in the air around me
Thank you for sharing. I see that sometimes too
High pitched whining noises too?
You talk clearly and well.
Good on you. You do have next good week to come .
God bless you day by day !
Hi Stephen! Thank you so much for being vulnerable enough to share this moment with us. You are such a bright soul ⭐️ thank you for being here with us, and sharing your story. You are so loved 💗
Thank you so much! That really means a lot to me. I am feeling much better today. Have a happy and healthy rest of your day!
You said you are affected by all the complicated stresses and triggers of the holidays. It is hard on so many of us. Being aware of how you are feeling and working through it, is what you do! Relax. You've got this! Also, I wrote before that my loved one developed schizophrenia from a vitamin D deficiency. However, there are a ton of articles online about how gluten or food sensitivities can trigger schizophrenia. People also eat different foods around the holidays, combined with stress, can definitely make things worse. Also, my son is allergic to certain pine trees, molds and pollen. If he starts to feel stuffed up, it can turn into a full blown panic/asthma attack. He knows to use his puffer, down a bottle of room temp. water and wait for it to pass. Also, don't underestimate the power of water. Dehydration causes your heart to race which can start the stress triggers to kick in. My son finds his water/puffer routine really empowers him. If you haven't had your blood tested for food or other allergies, I would highly recommend it. Doctors often neglect looking into what triggers these kinds of episodes.You do great work Stephen. Be well! Also, love Andy Griffith! The old shows are simple and relaxing.
Thank you for your excellent advice! It is very important to know. Thank you again!
I don’t have what you have buddy, so I could never understand exactly how you feel but I do have bipolar and I have the same kind of panic/anxiety attacks (of which I wouldn’t wish on my worst enemy) stay strong my friend.
Hola Esteban! Estoy diagnosticada con el desorden de ansiedad y panico, equizofrenia.... No tomo medicamentos , solo uso tecnicas de relajamiento y musica suave, tecnicas de respiración y repetir constantemente que no tengo ninguna enfermedad y estoy sana, mi cerebro lo registro y a mis cadi 72 años estoy bien! Estás muy joven y puedes salir adelante, no te aflijas y ten fe en ti mismo! Vales mucho y espero que cuando hagas tus videos compartiendo lo que sientes , sea una especie de descanso interno para que no te concentres en los sintomas de un ataque y pade pronto!!! Tu lo puedes hacer!!!!!!! Adelante !!!!
This happens to me all the time with ADHD and Autism, possibly also bipolar paranoia too. What would be interesting is what your thoughts actually are which cause this reaction. You seem pretty composed but i understand, just like myself, when its really bad you wouldn't be making a video.
It took me a long time to realize that because I haven't eaten, I start to loose control. I don't realize that I am hungry just realize that something is wrong, anxiety starts to build
Thank you very much.
You are so brave Stephen. You are helping so many people in sharing your struggles. You are an inspiration! ❤❤ ❤❤
Thank you so much!
I have really bad anxiety and I watch certain movies I find calming to wind down. Comedies don’t always do it. I watch “where did you go Bernadette?” A lot because i think it’s calming. I can’t explain it. But sometimes slower and serious works too. I’m BP and probably BPD. I’ve never been diagnosed with schizophrenia but I have family who have. So, I look to your videos for clues as to how I might be similar. Regardless, I just think you are a really brave and important person for mental health in general. Fan! Proud of you kiddo!
Thank you for sharing and for the suggestions!
I hope you feel better soon, Stephen. Finish your walk and go play a video game. Do something you enjoy. I can tell you aren't well. It ok to feel that way sometimes. Get some rest and this shall pass too.
Thank you very much!
So sorry you're having this episode. Thank you for sharing it with us. Holidays can be stressful for many of us. I can see how it can be magnified when you have an illness such as schizophrenia. Sounds like you have a good plan to try and bring your stress down. We're rooting for you to feel better soon!
Thank you very much I appreciate your kind words and support!
I'm sorry you're feeling so stressed, Stephen, I hope you will feel calmer soon. I'm feeling pretty stresssed as well this morning (it's morning here in the UK). I'll be talking to a friend later, which will hopefully help. I'm really not feeling in control of my life at the moment...
Thank you for sharing. I hope you are feeling better!
@@SurvivingSchizophrenia Thanks Stephen, and I hope you're ok still. I did feel a little better, but back into stressed-out mode again, unfortunately..
Appreciate you taking out the time to explain how you're feeling.
Would be very beneficial to those with young suffers if you would convey exactly going on in your mind. Especially in respect to other voices or dark thoughts like hurting yourself or others.
I'm so grateful you are taking this time to face your anxiety and acknowledge the situation. You have a plan for a solution. Bless you, friend.....
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This too shall pass❤ Stephen I hope you better😊
Thank you very much!
Steven take care of your self Christmas can be very stressful ppl can get trigger by past memories ❤ and can be very hard to cope through the holidays.
I felt exactly this way today ,,, and my
Mood is like torture ,,, all I know is I’m overwhelmed, not sure what exactly I’m so stressed about or if it’s a little of everything
Taking time alone with silence is my go to ,,,
But
I’m Not diagnosed with any mental illness
Thanks for sharing
Stephen, you are such a wonderful human being. You teach us such courage, resilience, kindness and resolve that you help us all, and you are an inspiration. Thank you for your great channel.
Thank you very much for your inspiring words! They help me so very much and make me feel better!
683 good ok
I hope you're feeling a bit better Stephen. When I get overwhelmed with stress and anxiety it's full blow fear and terror for me. I turn around and go home to.
I want to run full speed away, but from what. As soon as I get home my beloved ESA cat Angel
❤️🐈⬛ is right there to get me through it every time. She's a miracle worker, she clams me down and makes me smile. I understand the agitated mood too. Your parents understand, no worries there! To much over stimulation at the holidays I'm extremely happy to be home with my two girls
🎄🐈⬛🐈⬛ Quite and lovely. 🙂
Thank you very much Pauline! I really appreciate all of the support you have given me and for sharing. Have a happy and healthy rest of your day!
I'm glad you have such supportive parents. I hope you feel better soon. Did you say play some EVE?
Thank you! I don’t play EVE
Sweetie i feel for what you go through as i have a loved one who also has episodes. Your a brave young man to share with others what your thinking and feeling during these times. Its only been 5 years since his bad accident causing head injuries. If your willing perhaps think abt putting info out on what you felt and acted like prior to you understanding what helped you calm yourself during episodes. It would help others that don't know whats occurring especially family that lives with someone suffering that refuses to take medication. Take care young man, your doing very good from what ive been watching. God bless you and your family. Have a Merry Christmas 🫂
Thank you very much! Your words mean so much to me. Wishing you and your family a very merry Christmas!
@@SurvivingSchizophrenia thank you sweetheart 🫂
You are a warrior!
Thank you very much Jane!
When I go out to stores it can stress me out. I get exhausted and feel weak and slow when I go to the store. Listen to hz music. Some of it calms me down. It would help you I know. Music is a big help
Thank you very much for sharing and the suggestion! I’ll look into that music.
Also harp music. I have a feeling you believe in Jesus. Harp music is good to calm too. I’m a believer.
Stephen, I wish i can give you a big hug. I experienced these scenarios with my son. Sleep for a few hours helped some. It is a constant battle and you are beautiful person with a good understanding of your schizophrenia. Sadly, i wish my son was still here to watch your videos.
I know you will get past this episode. ❤
Thank you very much! I really appreciate your support
stephen I hope you are okay happy holidays stay strong be optimistic never give up.
Hope you're feeling better now. Remember you are an inspiration for other people suffering from mental poor health. You really are a wonderful young person ❤️
Thank you so much! That means a lot to me!
Dear Stephen,
An incredible video of sharing in the moment exactly how you were experiencing stress mentally and emotionally! Courageous and raw you allowed everyone to witness these difficult and challenging real life moments. You are helping others to understand and evaluate themselves and others going through uncomfortable situations! I knew you would recover as I remember you going through these episodes throughout the years. You are so much better recognizing these moments and being compassionate with yourself! That’s really good medicine!
Hope you're doing alright.
Some days will be rough but getting through it is what helps us so we can have better days later.
🌞
Take it one day at a time. 👍
Thank you for your great advice!
Are you subscribed to LivingWell With Schizophrenia here on TH-cam? Lauren posts lots of episodes that really help me. I bet you’d love her.
Yes I am subscribed to her channel! Thank you! Have a happy and healthy rest of your day!
Stephen you are such an inspiration, sorry that you had this episode today, some days are just overwhelming. Hopefully, by now you are at home in your own quiet environment and well on the way to feeling better. Thank you for sharing this and your strategies for regaining calm and composure will be helpful to others.
Thank you very much RosiePosie! I really appreciate your support from the very beginning of my channel!
@@SurvivingSchizophrenia Yes, your channel continues to be educational and empowering. I am pleased when you post a video whatever the topic or challenges that you are dealing with. Keep up the great work!
Stephen hope you are doing good I am glad you are helping educate people about mental health keep the good work thank you.
I am okay thank you Stephen for caring
I wish you peace and prosperity.
I hope you know it’s fine you have to take time alone even from your parents and it’s beautiful your finding a way to cope always know your loved
Hi Stephen! I hope you're feeling better. Being emotionally overwhelmed means to be completely submerged by your thoughts and emotions, to the point where you lack productivity and feel frozen or paralyzed. When you begin to feel overwhelmed, cortisol surges through your body and leaves you overloaded with intense emotion and anxiety. When you're emotionally overwhelmed try to take a deep breath, accept your feelings, be kind and don't blame yourself. Just remember that the feelings you’re having are temporary and they’re going to pass. Thanks for sharing your experience with us and take care!❤👍
I absolutely love what you stated accepting feelings. My nephew who is bipolar had an emotional episode a few days ago yelling about just wanting to be "normal." He's extremely intelligent and wired high during manic attacks. Those feelings go for all of us who have mental differences, or know someone who does. I love him tremendously and have educated myself on mental health. I will always be there for him.
@@Carol-oq2rw Thank you for your kind words Carol! It's very nice of you supporting your nephew. That's awesome! Wishing you and your family Good Health, Peace and Love! Thank you for commenting, take care and have a great day!👋❤🙏
@@JIMKATSANIDIS Thank you.
Thank you very much for your support and encouragement!
Take care man! 🤞🏼👍🏼🙏🏼
Thank you, Stephen for sharing your insight!
Hi, Stephen, I hope you doing ok..I am always glad to see your videos
Thank you so much for your support!
Hi Stephen, I just wondered if you get acid reflux.. This sometimes presents as stress / uneasiness, then it snowballs into actual stress.
No I don’t think it was acid reflux, though that is a good question. I will talk to my doctor about it! Thanks!
You seemed like you calmed right down talking through it. Thank you for your insight and showing us that sometimes the simple things can overload
Yes! Recording the video was very therapeutic for me! Have a happy and healthy rest of your day!
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Pray for you ❤️🩹
Hope you can find some de stressing coping structure.Thinking about you lad.
Hi, I hope you are ok. May I ask, do you take any regular vitamin and mineral supplements?
Anxious daily and I have Schizoaffective, really hoping new meds help next week. Had enough. I understand how you feel because I'm the same. Take care friend and know we love you
Thank you very much! And I am wishing you the very best. Take care friend! Have a happy and healthy rest of your day!
Cheers mate, i know how hard this is. I feel it too. Love from UK@@SurvivingSchizophrenia
Happy new Year@@SurvivingSchizophrenia
Hi Stephen I hope you are feeling better and you enjoy Christmas and get time to relax and celebrate with your family 🎅
Thank you very much Graham! Merry Christmas!
So thrilled for the many new subscribers.You deserve it.Also just wanted to wish you a Merry Christmas and Happy New Years Stephen and family❤🎉😂
Thank you so very much Greg! I really appreciate it. Merry Christmas and Happy New Years to you and your family as well!
Your channel is blowing up congrats on the success of helping people including myself and sharing your life stories and struggles
Thank you so much!
New subscriber, hey from Texas y'all ❣️ Thanks for sharing this with us bud. Good comedy, is a great way to refocus.
Thank you very much for joining our community here!
We"re all thinking of you and rooting a for you.Youre the best! I hope your feeling better now..
Thank you very much!
Just caught your video. I did wonder if you were getting an allergic reaction to the pine trees. Hope you're feeling better.
Thank you for watching! I don’t think it was an allergic reaction but am feeling better today.
Feel better, Stephen.
Thank you! I appreciate it
You are amazing hun… just keep in mind this will pass. The roller coaster of this infliction is so heavy at times… I can have days of incapacitation… I have to give in & curl up… drink soothing teas watch something light & remember you are beautiful soul. X❤❤❤
Thank you very much for your kind words and support! They mean so much to me!
@@SurvivingSchizophrenia 🤗💗
Thank you for letting us know how this symptom is for you. I know it’s very hard to be so vulnerable to us. You’re so brave!☯️💟
Thank you so much for your continued support Jane!
Hey Stephen! Hope when you read this you are feeling better. I don't have schizophrenia, but I have followed your story from the sidelines as I never thought I had a place to speak out. But you have taught me so much and I just felt the need to say thankyou for educating us and letting us see some of your most vulnerable moments. Feel free to reach out if you ever just want to chat about literally anything 😊
Thank you so much for your encouragement and very kind words! It means so much to me! I am feeling better today. Thank you again!
Steven, dear friend. Go to your room, assume the lotus position, and just sit. It will help.
Thank you!
Hope you feel better man
Thank you!
There's a book called Boundaries: When To Say Yes And How To Say No To Take Control Of Your Life. I highly recommend it.
Thank you!
Hi I hope you feel better soon. Holidays are stressful. Thinking of you. Best wishes
Thank you very much!
have you tried the equanimity(pain) meditation by shinzen young? Very badass for taking out stress
Thank you for the suggestion!
Thank you for sharing. You seemed to understand the process, and how to deal with it. I have experienced similar things, though obviously not to the same degree. Dealing with the big feelings associated with memories where the differences post illness and pre illness are obvious are fairly normal for anyone with illness. Especially childhood memories and illness. So that is totally understandable. Normal even. Illness is traumatic. Especially the kind you have.
But you developed a plan, took the focus off yourself, and showed others a little about a vulnerable time for you. Which is serving the purpose of education and discussion itself. Which seems to be a portion of the meaningful purpose you’ve crafted for yourself.
That’s actually probably a great outcome for two reasons. One is that it helps you to work through the problem, so you can get through to the next thing.
The second is that it means even in one of your most theoretically “unproductive” moments, which is a difficult monster for all chronic illnesses. That feeling like your illness is somehow taking away your worth. It’s not, but it feels like it. But here you are, doing something even in the middle of that, that helps to accomplish a meaningful task. Which is educating others and yourself on this thing that is not discussed, and tremendously painful and difficult.
On that last part, it doesn’t have to be a meaningful thing in the way people ordinarily think of them. It can be a painting. Folding laundry. Watching a show you think is good. Poetry. Or a video. Those are meaningful expressions if you find meaning in them.
The last thing I’d say is that even if you hadn’t, after you had your time, got back up. Not with any recklessness. But deliberately. When you had the strength. Which is progress. We all need progress.
On my days where everything is hard, I get up at least. Show up at least. Because wallowing in my pain tends to happen when I don’t. Which is a deadly habit.
Good luck man. This life is hard, but we are rooting for you, and appreciate the insight. Thank you.
Thank you so much! I appreciate your support! Have a happy and healthy rest of your day!
I hope you have a better day, Stephen. You are awesome.
Thank you! I’m feeling better today. Have a happy and healthy rest of your day!
Stephen, have you had artificial dyes in your food today? It can be colorful and tempting this time of year..
No I haven’t. Thank you!
I wish you the best my brother 🙏🏻 my mother had this too, I know it’s a battle bro but you got it man
Hi Stephen.
Hope you and your family are having a great Christmas together.
From England :)
Thank you! Merry Christmas to you and your family!
Is that PTSD? Something about the whole Christmas tree shopping set it off. Could be the tree, the people random movement and noise around you or something. I was at a medical office for someone else the other day, I had to leave with tears because certain things set me off, including the wall it was too much the pattern/picture too big😂 It's something triggering you, not you going mad, so just run a deep bath to cover you, or close your door and cover your self with a blanket so you can get back to safety and reset xx
I hope you’re doing ok. Haven’t heard from you. Want to pray a New Year of Gods complete healing of your mind 🙏🙏🙏
Thank you so much! That means a lot to me! Happy New Year to you!
Take care Stephen, & if you need any extra ‘ talking ‘ support or being signposted, I’m UK qualified as a mental health nurse (full disclosure that I haven’t practiced/worked as one in years, but willing to offer freely if you ever need that kinda assistance. I say freely as I once offered advice & the person thought I would ‘ secretly ‘ extort payment from them, so just yeah, I just wanna help where I can, because I can, with a skill set I still retain). Bipolar myself too, so ‘ hyper-stimulation ‘ in environments I feel 💜🖤🧡
Sending thoughts of well being
I take an extra antipsychotic, and ly down. This works very well for me. Keep strong.
Thank you for sharing. Please have a good evening ❤
Hope you are feeling better, Stephen and wishing all the best for you.
Thank you so much! I appreciate it and am feeling better now!
Hope you are feeling better today. 🎉❤
Thank you! I am feeling better today
I feel the same when I have a stress period, I start to hear the voices trying to make me aware that I need to de-stress (usually a calm American woman’s voice, so I go for a lie down and listen to music
I wonder if your blood sugar or metabolic health plays a roll in this? I have found that eating protein, healthy fats and whole foods keep me satiated and less stressed, than current ultra processed breakfast foods. I also can't eat wheat or gluten, so those foods are easy to exclude. They no longer hold any power over me. I also take some key supplements that tests have shown I am deficient in, that have helped me greatly.
Thank you for the great suggestions!
❤💗🕊️🪽🙃🙃✨🥰😘😍💗💚Oh,..Stephen, you’re breaking my heart.., are you, okay??
I’m so sorry you’re going through that.
Please know everything is okay. :))))
You’re so beautiful and strong. And so amazing.
Yes, go try and relax and distract your self with comedy or whatever helps you the best ways.
Thank you for sharing all this with me and all of us bcs we all love you and care about you so much!❤ And we all support you! ❤💚💗🕊️🪽🪽🪽🙃😇💛
Please feel better soon!!
Much love, 💗 🕊️🪽✨😘🍋👍😇🙏✨💛Stephen
Thank you very much! I really appreciate your continued support and encouragement! I am feeling a lot better today, but am still exhausted from it.
I’m so glad to hear that, Stephen.
You’re so strong. And, it’s so amazing how strong you are. And, every time I see you in your videos, I see this amazing person, taking this amazing path. And, you’re getting there and getting there, and, it’s like, wow!, look how far you have come. And, I keep hoping, on your journey, you will find a companion that can walk with you and be with you on your amazing journey. That will enjoy you every moment, and be with you. And, be one of your best friends in life. And, love you and hug you. Bcs, of all the men in the world, you deserve the best, and, the best woman, God can give you.
And I know what you mean, about being exhausted, bcs, I use to get extreme anxiety attacks, many years ago. And it definitely wore me out a lot. So I truly get what you’re saying.
If you ever want to talk on the phone, to destress, let me know. I’m here for you. I’ll give you my email, if ever you need a friend.
I use to live in California. 28 years I did. Anyways.
Stay amazing and strong. 💪 🪽✨🪽✨🪽✨🪽✨🪽✨🪽✨👍
Much love✨🕊️😇🕊️✨
Thanks for sharing your story Stephen, it is really empowering!
Just curious, have you consulted a Spiritual teacher?
I ask because some of your symptoms seem to overlap into the Spiritual realm, and the age of 12 is an important age in Spiritual Alchemy.
Don't be stressed, I promise you are loved ✨🙏🏾❤️🤗
You got this friend....