My depression started for me 4 years ago series of events that have forever changed me leaving me feeling lost and alone, My Mom passed away unexpectedly after her trip to the Emergency room for a sore on her arm that was not healing she was admitted into the hospital The doctor told her she had acute leukemia, she went to sleep that night and never woke up passed away the next night. a month later my adult son (29 ) was arrested and ended up sentenced to 6 years (2 more years to go ) 6 months after my mom passed my father passed heartbroken, a week after my father passed, my father in law passed away (he committed suicide) (20 years earlier his son (my husband ) committed suicide) Then 6 months later I was in Family court fighting for child custody over my 13-year-old his father decided he wanted to move out of state, I am still in and out of family court financially and emotionally drained. You are right no one else can understand what someone else is going through I am glad to have found your page.
Hi Gem! Sorry to take so long to comment, I wanted to but those two last weeks have been quite difficult. In here we're in lockdown again, and you might be too where you live. I've decided to spend this period alone, not with my boyfriend (we live separately) because the last lockdown was hell and I didn't want him to endure my mood. And also I want to learn how to be more independant, but it's hard... I've kept a good routine for the first four days, since then I had two 'crisis', my parent came to pick me up for some days at their place. I feel like I can't feel good anywhere. But I know it will get better, as no moment is permanent :) I've learn that, hard to believe sometimes but it's a fact: everything changes. So yes I've spent a lot of time in bed doing nothing, oversleeping, sometimes reading but quickly tired. I spend a vertiginous amount of time on my phone, to the point I don't search for anything, I scroll barely looking at it. Most of the time also I have my phone in hand, and my TV on, even my e-reader, it's like I need saturation of input so that I cannot think of anything, risking to feel hurt. I'm not even focused on whatever is playing on my phone or TV, I'm just sitting there with all the sound, the images, showering me to the point of saturation. But those last days I've succeed in going out for a walk outside, I enjoyed to see you and Baxter :) I hope anyone reading this is doing ok, in any case you're doing the best you can for yourself. Take care :)
I loved your video and year I do have days when I don't wanna get off my bed,but it's all about living for the small moments like you mentioned your precious dog.I love your honesty and courage,keep going❤
'I just wanna sleep, b****!' I love it! 😂💗 But yes, some days, it's a total failure to launch, and I *try* to just accept the fact that apparently it's a bed rest day (but the inner critic usually has something to say about that). THANK YOU for posting this.
I actually feel worse doing stuff, more brain fog , more fatigued, more dizzy than being in bed . I dont even want to try anymore because everytime i do stuff i feel worse
Hi Gem! I wen through a stage in my life of ALWAYS cancelling on people, especially right at the last minute. I did it so much that even now, years later, it's what certain friends and members of my family actually expect me to do, so they just don't invite me anymore. By the way, I spent so much of your video just nodding in agreement thinking "Yep! that's me." Or "Yep! Been there, done that!".
I hope you're doing well. I just want you to know that I appreciate you sharing your experiences. I have Major Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, and PMDD. I've struggled with psychomotor retardation a lot, especially after going through so much trauma in my twenties. I'm functional now. I take a combination of four different meds. It's my magic combo, but I still struggle to this day. I have a job, but I feel like I can't keep a regular day job.
I feel the same. 31 age male and it's bringing me shame. As an oldest in my family who is unable to provide and still rely on my old father finances. Just an ugly ugly feeling overall. And this is my loop of being stuck in my own shit. Shame. Slimey shame.
hello i have death anxiety and deep existential thoughts about god i had anxiety most of my life and catastrophize. i like doing yoga and exercising because it helps me i havent worked a so called job in in years and years i get a lot of benefits esa pip and disabilty money which im grateful for. ive got 2 guineapigs which i care for and love. i also smoke about 20 rollies a day for years. im gonna do some voluntary work soon maybe with animals. i also have support workers and i am also a very sensitive person and deep thinker from chris in exeter devon
Thank you for making this. Mental is an illness is what I am finally understanding. I thought it was only a brain thing. I am thinking of taking l-dopa which is a popular supplement. I am reading it will help give me energy to get up and function. Does any here take it ?
I have poorly developed sense of self at age 20. Have recently consulted a psychiatrist she said I don't have BPD or any other disorder to be specific. Now am going through CBT and some coping mechanism of DBT. Will it help me to regain my sense of self? Please reply mam. I have been commenting in your almost all videos. Please.
Hope you are doing well, came across your channel and felt connected ❤
Avoidance is an awful part of mental illness. I'm so glad your back x
My depression started for me 4 years ago series of events that have forever changed me leaving me feeling lost and alone, My Mom passed away unexpectedly after her trip to the Emergency room for a sore on her arm that was not healing she was admitted into the hospital The doctor told her she had acute leukemia, she went to sleep that night and never woke up passed away the next night. a month later my adult son (29 ) was arrested and ended up sentenced to 6 years (2 more years to go ) 6 months after my mom passed my father passed heartbroken, a week after my father passed, my father in law passed away (he committed suicide) (20 years earlier his son (my husband ) committed suicide)
Then 6 months later I was in Family court fighting for child custody over my 13-year-old
his father decided he wanted to move out of state, I am still in and out of family court financially and emotionally drained.
You are right no one else can understand what someone else is going through
I am glad to have found your page.
Hi Gem! Sorry to take so long to comment, I wanted to but those two last weeks have been quite difficult. In here we're in lockdown again, and you might be too where you live. I've decided to spend this period alone, not with my boyfriend (we live separately) because the last lockdown was hell and I didn't want him to endure my mood. And also I want to learn how to be more independant, but it's hard... I've kept a good routine for the first four days, since then I had two 'crisis', my parent came to pick me up for some days at their place. I feel like I can't feel good anywhere. But I know it will get better, as no moment is permanent :) I've learn that, hard to believe sometimes but it's a fact: everything changes. So yes I've spent a lot of time in bed doing nothing, oversleeping, sometimes reading but quickly tired. I spend a vertiginous amount of time on my phone, to the point I don't search for anything, I scroll barely looking at it. Most of the time also I have my phone in hand, and my TV on, even my e-reader, it's like I need saturation of input so that I cannot think of anything, risking to feel hurt. I'm not even focused on whatever is playing on my phone or TV, I'm just sitting there with all the sound, the images, showering me to the point of saturation. But those last days I've succeed in going out for a walk outside, I enjoyed to see you and Baxter :) I hope anyone reading this is doing ok, in any case you're doing the best you can for yourself. Take care :)
I loved your video and year I do have days when I don't wanna get off my bed,but it's all about living for the small moments like you mentioned your precious dog.I love your honesty and courage,keep going❤
'I just wanna sleep, b****!' I love it! 😂💗
But yes, some days, it's a total failure to launch, and I *try* to just accept the fact that apparently it's a bed rest day (but the inner critic usually has something to say about that).
THANK YOU for posting this.
I actually feel worse doing stuff, more brain fog , more fatigued, more dizzy than being in bed . I dont even want to try anymore because everytime i do stuff i feel worse
Hi Gem! I wen through a stage in my life of ALWAYS cancelling on people, especially right at the last minute. I did it so much that even now, years later, it's what certain friends and members of my family actually expect me to do, so they just don't invite me anymore. By the way, I spent so much of your video just nodding in agreement thinking "Yep! that's me." Or "Yep! Been there, done that!".
Please upload more videos 🤞 You are so relatable! X x x ❤ 🤍
Oh My! This is ME to a tee! Covid has crashed my best attempts at getting up and out and better! Hugs!
Thank you for doing this. I know I needed it.
Havent watched you for ages!
Thank you for this. I am afraid too.
Hope to see some more videos from you soon. Thanks for all you have done to date ...
I hope you're doing well. I just want you to know that I appreciate you sharing your experiences. I have Major Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, and PMDD. I've struggled with psychomotor retardation a lot, especially after going through so much trauma in my twenties. I'm functional now. I take a combination of four different meds. It's my magic combo, but I still struggle to this day. I have a job, but I feel like I can't keep a regular day job.
Thanks for this hope u doing ok. Im not. Lol. Bless and thanks. For honesty
God Bless You
Falling apart right now!!! Hit fuck it mode ...... tried so hard not to 😭
Hiding too 😢❤
i love this! i hope you make more videos.
I feel the same. 31 age male and it's bringing me shame. As an oldest in my family who is unable to provide and still rely on my old father finances. Just an ugly ugly feeling overall. And this is my loop of being stuck in my own shit. Shame. Slimey shame.
This last video is 3 years ago, I hope you are well. Will you post again? Love
Hi, I’m from 2024, it’s called bedrotting today
Just passing by and saying a little hello 👋 I hope you are doing OK
hello i have death anxiety and deep existential thoughts about god i had anxiety most of my life and catastrophize. i like doing yoga and exercising because it helps me i havent worked a so called job in in years and years i get a lot of benefits esa pip and disabilty money which im grateful for. ive got 2 guineapigs which i care for and love. i also smoke about 20 rollies a day for years. im gonna do some voluntary work soon maybe with animals. i also have support workers and i am also a very sensitive person and deep thinker from chris in exeter devon
I've only just found you through someone else. But I hear you 🤐
Thank you for making this. Mental is an illness is what I am finally understanding. I thought it was only a brain thing. I am thinking of taking l-dopa which is a popular supplement. I am reading it will help give me energy to get up and function. Does any here take it ?
I need an update
How's things going? X
Make more videos
I have poorly developed sense of self at age 20. Have recently consulted a psychiatrist she said I don't have BPD or any other disorder to be specific. Now am going through CBT and some coping mechanism of DBT. Will it help me to regain my sense of self? Please reply mam. I have been commenting in your almost all videos. Please.
Check out alan watts lol