Lyrics from genius [Chorus] I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself [Verse 1] Yeah, late nights are the worst for me They bring out the worst in me Mind runnin', got me feelin' like it hurts to think If this is all that I wanted, I don't want it, gotta be more for me All the core beliefs And every mornin' I wake up and feel like I am not worth it 'cause I'm at war with peace I go to Hell, walk up to the corpse of me Look at the body like, "You ain't nothin' but poor and weak" It's kinda weird Lately I been feelin' like the only way for me to get away is if I pour the drink That's more deceit, more defeat Is this really what I'm born to be? That's what you get for thinkin' you're unique So poor, but I'm so wealthy Need help, but you can't help me What else can the world sell me? Tell me lies, I still buy 'em like they're goin' outta stock But it's not healthy [Chorus] I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself [Verse 2] Yeah, late nights get the best of me They know how to get to me Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief So don't talk to me like you think I'm so successful What is success when hope has left you? I am not a spokesman, I'm a broken record I'm sick of doin' interviews 'cause I hate myself, agh! Come across like it's so easy But I feel like you don't need me When I feel like you don't need me Then I feel like you don't see me And my life has no meaning, drain me Hands out, tryna ask for love But when I get it, I just pass it up Throw it away and think about it later Diggin' through the trash for drugs Wish I could give you what you needed, but I can't I'm scared because [Chorus] I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself [Verse 3] I walk through the ashes of my passions Reminiscin' with the baggage in my casket Get lost in the questions I can't answer Can't stand who I am, but it don't matter We scream to be free, but I stay captured Knee-deep in defeat of my own actions Feel weak, but the peace that I keep lacking Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it But I can't have it Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it But I can't have it Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it [Chorus] I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Hate myself But it's hard when I hate myself Hate myself But it's hard when I hate myself [Outro] When I hate myself It's kinda hard when I hate myself I hate myself It's hard when I hate myself
I've listened to this song every night for the past four years. I've been through so much heartbreak and depression that I've thought of ending my life on multiple occasions. I feel like this song was written for me specifically. I know barely anyone is going to see this comment, but if you do, and you're dealing with the same shit I've had to go through, just keep pushing. Suicide is never going to fix your problems, it's just going to make those who love you sad. Life is meaningful, even when your can't tell sometimes.
I hope that you are doing better. Or at least that you are still pushing. I dont know with what exactly you are dealing, I just hope it will be better for you as time goes. This song resonates in me hard as well. Live just to listen to it again if it is something that helps you. Keep pushing stranger on internet
I’m literally sending it to everyone who has suicide thoughts that are in my friends group, including myself, or to people who literally just hate themselves, and that is myself as well.
@@ella4953 being a working dude its hard to find time. Then when you do have the time you feel so drained of being depressed you just want to sleep. It's like a cage that I could open with effort but outside that cage is giant mountain to climb. With one slip up I'll fall back In that cage...
@@erickrogmann1881 dude I know the feeling. It's work. But you are worth it. When I first started going to counseling I would return home to the same depressing room. And just feel so overwhelmed with life. But I kept going even on the days that I would make excuses. And by building the foundation. I kept going. Cratering the trust. To be able to talk about real life. Like I said b4 it's work. But it's necessary for me to stay in a better place. Not saying that all the problems go away. Far from it. But it helps Eric Krogmann you are in my prayers brother. God bless. You worth it. FACT!!
Nate..I know, this song is 3 years old now and I'm sure you' ll never read this, but thank you. My mom died 2 years ago losing her battle with cancer. Since then, 3 of my best friends have left this world, as well. I'm so totally and utterly alone in this world...until I listen to you. I cry everytime I listen to your music. Sometimes, it's jsut the fact that your putting words to my emotions. Other times, it's knowing that...I'm not alone. There's someone else out there, feeling just like me. Thank you...I hope I can make it through like you, but every day gets harder and harder. Who knows if I'll be here tomorrow, but today, your words will give me solace and I'll tough it out for 1 more day.....again....Thank You....
Do not feel alone, we all have difficult moments and if the truth is very painful for what you are going through but have hope, they would have wanted you to have a good life, live it friend
This is true...😔 I have a best friend but she doesn't understand me. And all my Friends broke me...😔 Sorry is anything wrong with my Grammer because normally I speak german.
@deron underwood I know what you mean. Most of my "friends" put little effort into friendships. I have 2 close friends and they do not even live in the same State as me. It is hard to tell when people actually really appreciate your friendship and presence. Be well
"I dont want to die, i just want to get relief". Going through anxiety, literally all the physical symptoms and deperosnalisation/derealisation. This is exactly how I feel!!
Crazy when I was at my lowest like 3 years ago and thought about going through with my plans. I kid you not the next day day at school I was listening to music in class and stumbled across him. His Music Touched me a way I never felt before. Like I could cry without being ashamed. He really saved me when I realized I wasn’t the only one who had these feelings..who felt what I felt. And listening to his music helped me focus and realize I can get through it. That maybe im strong enough. I hope I still am
Nf if you see you this comment just know that God is still with you and still loves you I can relate to a lot of your songs so much and they've helped me a lot through hard times keep doing what you do God bless you and your family
@@ultracosmicenergies8881 "Talk to God because he's the only one who listens, even when you think He isn't" There's always someone there for you, God, and usually someone else comes along too. ❤
@Keksmo im oke changed my life around for the better but still come back to this kind of songs these days with a smile on my face i have been listening to this song for over 2 years when i was depressed and now for almost a year while im fine (3years in total) to remind me back how i was feeling back then and to realize that i made it work for myself and trust me if i say i've seen some rough and dark things and that it goes way deeper then a broken heart caused by an cheating girl or something What i said 9days ago also was in memory of my past But i'm writing songs in my own language and that helps me as a Therapy besides that i just started 2 businesses got a child started to work out i stopped smoking weed stopped drinking alcohol and me and my wife are doing oke so i'm good thanks for asking
@Keksmo kinda yes i've watched alot of videos of Jordan Peterson Robert kiyosaki I did read his books too i made a time schedule for my whole week i do this every week from waking up to going to bed and i did learn alot along the way made some connections met some good people and now im living a decent life can give some life tips too haha How are you btw?
Oh yeah i've watched other people too Warren buffet Donald Trump even Andrew Tate and more they give some great advice too but i dont agree with everything they say
When you hate yourself too, it seems like there is no hope left, because in the end you don't even care about yourself anymore. And this is very dangerous, unfortunately
This song was the starting point for me to understand why I was feeling so suicidal, that line "I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief", keeps poping up on my mind every time I feel like I am falling into it again and it motivates me to instead work hard in order to feel and enjoy that relief one day..to everyone that is passing through a hard time, shit happens in life all the time, but there is always a way to escape hell, take a deep breath and think about it hero, you got this ;)
If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best
I’ve listened to this song for a while and just now the lyrics hit so much deeper. On a completely new level of depth for me. It’s so crazy how relatable this song is right now
@@jakob3044 what I was saying is for example people that get bullied almost become immune to those criticisms (at least in my case) or if you are insulted about something most of the time you brush it off but for someone that hasn’t experienced that before will be deeply hurt by that unlike someone that has experienced it many times. So basically if you are insulted about the same thing over and over you aren’t going to be affected by that anymore. This is in my case not sure about others
If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best
I’m sorry that you hate yourself..I know the feeling..I hate myself too. It would be a lot better if you would let them help you, don’t make yourself try to figure it out on your own. Stay strong and I’m here even though you don’t know me
The first time I heard this song I was having an awful depressive spiral. My OCD, Depression, Anxiety, and disassociation was in full swing almost all at the same time. I even had thoughts about drinking to ease the pain, just to get relief, despite my personal vow to never drink alcohol, ever. I just broke and decided to play this song. I remember it still. I started to break down as I listened to the song, but the moment "Feeling like the only way for me to get away is if I poured a drink." The moment I heard that verse, I broke. I just started uncontrollably crying and sobbing. All of the pain I had came out. Everything just hurt. Everything hurt in such a deep, intimate level. I cried for over an hour, just letting it out. Ever since that day, I have started healing a bit more. This song in my opinion, changed my life. It saved me. This song encapsulates my life to such a degree that hearing it even now still hurts. Thank you NF for making this song, for sharing your pain.
i googled "i hate myself" because i didn't know what to do anymore and this popped up. now i found this album and it hits so hard. glad my self deprecation at least led me to find some good music lmao
I heard him sing this at a concert after waiting in line for 6 hours. His voice caught at the end of the song when he repeated "I hate myself" several times. You could hear the pain in his voice 😥
My girlfriend left me a month ago mainly because I didn't show her how much she means to me and how much I love her. Truth is, I didn't know how much I needed her because I was drowning alone in my thoughts, all my stress and all my self-hatred. This song made me realise that in order to love someone, you need to love yourself. I don't know how I'm gonna do that but I just know that I lost the woman of my life simply because of me and it's killing me
If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best
@@nordiques8298 Sorry to hear that man, there will be many regrets in life but all that matters is the present moment. Dont beat yourself up over things already done. Stay strong, you got this
The pain hurts a lot man. And it wont be easy. I went through the exact same thing a year ago, exact same situation and exact same reasons. I wish I helped myself before her also. And I am still here today, a year later, feeling the pain of losing the love of my life because of me.. and I see her having moved on a couple of times and it hurts more each time because you know that if you got a chance, you feel you can make it right. You just have to believe the time will come and prepare yourself for, no matter how dire it seems. I sadly still am and maybe one day it will pass but it feels impossible. But you just have to keep pushing on and try to focus on you
You know sometimes I feel my life isn't worth it anymore and when I do I just listen to NF's music and I know my parents tell me the music you listen to is depressing but NF's music is a therapy for me and when I have no where to go I come here to listen to his message.
Your life is worth it. If you are struggling please don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. Life is worth the pain we go through so stay strong. I wish you all the best
@@skyler519 I see. In that case I recommend reading the books "Mans search for meaning" as well as the "Power of now". They did more for me than anything else could
Hey! You know even if you have a difficulty seeing your worth know that you are worthy every day that you get you were blessed with because you were put here in the world for a reason. If you want someone to talk to lmk! stay strong much love ❤️
Is it me, or does NF sound more vulnerable on this record and more open? Like his vocals are more cracked, more high. Really seems like he's becoming more and more of him, less of his angry persona he sometimes puts on. He really feels like this is his most out there effort now. Edit: If anyone's interested, I reviewed NF's new album, haha. cheers! :)
Yes. I like both sides of him in his songs. He does a lot of music like this actually. The one that blew up lately seemed aggressive. But I love both. ☺
John-Tyler Trefil FOR ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE COME HERE TO LISTEN TO THIS AND FEEL DEPRESSED, please. listen to me. i know from experience and so do millions of people !! omg i swear, it DOES get better and even if you have nothing at all, come to the comments of a sad song and connect with all the other people experiencing the same feelings and struggles and you !! whatever you experience in life, you will never be alone - there are 7 billion people on the earth, you are one of them - how incredible is that ?! you are living, breathing, you have endless possibilities !! you are trapped in a horrible, depressed but if you try to make one difference and you cut off or escape toxic things in your life then you have to power to change !! you are so beautiful and even though i don’t even know you i want to reach out to everyone feeling so terrible. when i am older, i hope to work with mental health helpline or charities ect. i want it make someone else’s life better - please hold on, it ALWAYS gets better but you just cannot see that right now because you are blinded but this sick, nasty things called depression !! i am begging you so much to hold on, life IS BEAUTIFUL but you can’t see it because of your unfortunate circumstances. if you hate your life, change it, as much as you can !!! you, more than anyone, has the power to do that !! you won’t believe me because i haven’t explained it very well😂 but coming from someone who went through a terrible mental health time and came out the other side with an extremely healthy lifestyle and mind and immense appreciation for life and opportunities, i am telling you that life gets better !! please seek help and please help yourself, there are so many people willing to help you get through your struggles!! please, hold on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ if anyone is struggling, talk to the other people in the comments - they are here alongside you for the same reason xxxxxxxx
Guys, NF’s music is great. But, comment sections... there honestly depressing. So get out! Watch a cat meme or some thing. Whatever stuff your going on...YOU GOT THIS I’m rooting for you. P.S. this is not for likes and you guys may not see this but if you do. Don’t quit, your a great person
This is why NF is the greatest rapper ever. No matter where you are in life you can always relate to his music. If you're happy you can enjoy his music. If you're sad, you relate to it. NF will always be my favorite artist. He doesn't get enough credit. Thank you, NF. Thank you so much.
I've listened to the rest of the album and I can't pick one, they're all so amazing I can't even describe it, I honestly feel nauseated and can't stop shaking cause of these songs.
@@gaelsdaddy2341 Nah, the best one was "How Could You Leave us" He even said it himself. If you havent heard, trust me its very emotional and it hits home HARD.
Listening to this, It's been about 2 months now since my older brother (29) passed away. This song helps but hurts. I just wish I could've done something to be there and help. I still hate myself.....
Don't hate yourself, you deserve love. Please stay strong and positive because on the other side of lifes struggles lie happiness and meaning. If you're struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust and consider seeing a therapist. I wish you the best
he’s come such a long way.... he deserves so much 🖤 I remember when I first started listening and when I listen back to the first songs I think about the place I was in.... we grew together, separate lives but still felt so close . he’s such an inspiration to many , love you NF
The darkness is a place that feels so good and right, but it leaves you down an even darker path. I’ve seen darkness in death first hand and you don’t want to. But even in the darkest path, there is a light, it may be dim, but it can shine more than the sun if you let it
and they cant see my tears. I dont like silence because when it is, these thoughts get louder and no one can hear my quivers of not being able to cry. im tired, we all are. One day hopefully this battle will end in our victory. I only wish you all a happy ending, remember i care and your not alone.
Hey, bro. Whatever you may be facing, know that Jesus loves you, and He delights in your casting your burdens on HIm. You are never alone. Jesus is signalling at you, waving his hands heads high. Trust in him
I'm in tears. I've heard this song many times, but it is really hitting hard right now. I am struggling to be the happy person that people want me to be when that's not really me. I'm in my own prison with a smile on the outside.
Keine Ahnung, ob es jemand versteht, aber dieses Lied spiegelt genau das wieder, was in mir vorgeht. Einfach weg sein... Nichts mehr dergleichen fühlen... Es ist so schwer in den Spiegel zu schauen und sich selbst zu ertragen. Ich bin für vieles selbst verantwortlich und will keinen Trost oder ähnliches. Dieses Lied trifft es einfach zu 100%
Am I the only one who hides everything from mom and dad?🥺 Edit: I really appreciate everyone sharing their story’s and I’m really taking the time to listen to anything everyone says
No but why do you? Sometimes it’s for good reasons sometimes you should tell them. A parents job is to be there for your kiddo. If they’re worth their salt as a parent you should tell them everything
Just wanted to let yall know, someone out there cares. No matter what happens, someone will cry when you die, feel sad when you get hurt, and even if they dont always show it, someone always cares.
most of us googled "i hate myself" and reached this song. and if u did too, then u r really deeply hurting right now. not really sure about the future, but i wish that someday we all google "i love myself" and reach that song, and be really deeply feeling peace , bliss and contentment.
I fell so useless i can't tell anyone what I feel I feel like once I cry i feel that i' weak and I have a abusive dad sometimes like I'm not there i tried hanging myself i tried overdoseing myself it suck i just want to disappear for the world and i was raised well but i cry when no ones is looking but when i'm around people i hid my feeling with happiness i say to myself it okay but its not I can't talk to my friend anymore because my mom thinks that i'm sad because i'm around her but no its because i finally telling her my feelings
Never has a poem or song spoken to me and about me like this. This is an immaculate description of the intricacies of not only depression on the surface but exactly how it affects people. Haunting. Truly haunting.
This is probably one of my most favorite of NF songs. Somehow, the man takes the thoughts out of my head. Kind of a therapeutic experience. Every day is a fight to stay alive. That one line “I don’t wanna die I just want relief” is exactly how I feel but not many can understand unless they walk the depression road themselves.
Man i feel ya. Ive been doing good the past few weeks due to many things and changes in my life. Keep living, everything will be worth it, even if it doesnt seem like that at times.
@@adammclean1679 the word interviews can also be taken non literally meaning when people ask you about yourself you hate answering because of your self-hatred
@@adammclean1679 Tthis comment upsets me a lot and idk why. anytime i click this song i see this. i am clearly understanding nf. this is he saddest song off the album and realest. him saying those lyrics explains a lot .. you maybe have 3 nf interviews on youtube. therefore him describing why.. youre clearly here for a reason. you are sad and thats fine. this aint migos, its nf. were a squad. hes real music, why youdumb
This whole song breaks me. I miss my father. I came home this time last year to be with him. Saw him Jan 11th and on the 1st. He died early Feb. Talk to your family as much as you can . No matter if you feel like shit or hate yourself
I used to think that I would never try and think of doing it because it will hurt the people I love,but do I have that any more? No. I don't. I think about from time to time. But I will try not to do it. Life will get better I just have to hope it will.
Lyrics: I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Yeah, late nights are the worst for me They bring out the worst in me Mind runnin', got me feelin' like it hurts to think If this is all that I wanted, I don't want it, gotta be more for me All the core beliefs And every mornin' I wake up and feel like I ain't my worth 'cause I'm at war with peace Or go to Hell, welcome to the corpse of me Look at the body like you ain't nothin' but poor and weak It's kinda weird Lately I been feelin' like the only way for me to get away is if I pour the drink That's more deceit, more defeat Is this really what I'm born to be? That's what you get for thinkin' you're unique So poor, but I'm so wealthy Need help, but you can't help me What else can the world sell me? Tell me lies, I still buy 'em like they goin' outta stock But it's not healthy I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Yeah, late nights get the best of me They know how to get to me Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me But I don't wanna die, just wanna get relief So don't talk to me like you think I'm so successful What is success when hope has left you I am not a spokesman, I'm a broken record Sick of doin' interviews 'cause I hate myself, agh! Come across like it's so easy But I feel like you don't need me When I feel like you don't need me Then I feel like you don't see me And my life has no meaning, drain me Hands out, tryna ask for love But when I get it, I just pass it up Throw it away and think about it later Diggin' through the trash for drugs Wish I could give you what you needed, but I can't I'm scared because I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself I walk through the ashes of my passions Reminiscin' with the baggage in my casket Get lost in the questions I can't answer Can't stand who I am, but it don't matter We scream to be free, but I stay captured Knee-deep in defeat of my own actions Feel weak, but the peace that I keep lackin' Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it But I can't have it Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it But I can't have it Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it I don't see you like I should You look so misunderstood And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Pray to God with my arms open If this is it, then I feel hopeless And I wish I could help But it's hard when I hate myself Hate myself But it's hard when I hate myself Hate myself But it's hard when I hate myself When I hate myself It's kinda hard when I hate myself I hate myself It's hard when I hate myself
@Keksmo good to hear that also you can talk to me too if you want to i am not of much but at least i can listen although i gotta ask, what made you ask me if i'm alright or not? as far as i can tell i didn't say that i'm going through something or not
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"Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me
But I don't wanna die, I just want to get relief"
That one really hit me HARD
Relatable
Me too buddy. But it gets better. Itll always be hard but well make it
Thanks for pointing that line out.
Relatable
Same... if I could commit I'd be successful or dead...
Eyes: CLOSED
NF: ON
World: OFF
Yesss
F the world
I just wanna end it all
@@promisemewborn4858 f the World f what people think
@@ZarTeeQ yes you get me🖤
“Is this really what I’m born to be? That’s what you get for thinking you’re unique” wow
Many nuggets when you listen to this Man
"when I feel like you don't need me I feel like you don't see me and then my life has no meaning"
That hits scarily close to home for me
Yes💔
"Depression is living in a body that fights to survive, with a mind that wants to die" -unknown
Why is that true for me i feel like that too
I recommend you ask Saint Dymphna for a prayer of intercession.
@Keksmo Stop with this shameless advertising.
@Keksmo Why do you keep spamming this same message?
@Keksmo How is spamming the same message helping anyone?
This entire album hits a little to close to home...
Timothy Simmons for real😑
Especially trauma that got me shook
Hey, I know I'm a stranger on the internet but if you need to talk then I'm here for you
Yep. Always with nf. Sigh.
Each of the video drops for this album have perfectly correlated to my life at the time and I’m like 🤯.
Lyrics from genius
[Chorus]
I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
[Verse 1]
Yeah, late nights are the worst for me
They bring out the worst in me
Mind runnin', got me feelin' like it hurts to think
If this is all that I wanted, I don't want it, gotta be more for me
All the core beliefs
And every mornin' I wake up and feel like I am not worth it 'cause I'm at war with peace
I go to Hell, walk up to the corpse of me
Look at the body like, "You ain't nothin' but poor and weak"
It's kinda weird
Lately I been feelin' like the only way for me to get away is if I pour the drink
That's more deceit, more defeat
Is this really what I'm born to be?
That's what you get for thinkin' you're unique
So poor, but I'm so wealthy
Need help, but you can't help me
What else can the world sell me?
Tell me lies, I still buy 'em like they're goin' outta stock
But it's not healthy
[Chorus]
I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
[Verse 2]
Yeah, late nights get the best of me
They know how to get to me
Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me
But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief
So don't talk to me like you think I'm so successful
What is success when hope has left you?
I am not a spokesman, I'm a broken record
I'm sick of doin' interviews 'cause I hate myself, agh!
Come across like it's so easy
But I feel like you don't need me
When I feel like you don't need me
Then I feel like you don't see me
And my life has no meaning, drain me
Hands out, tryna ask for love
But when I get it, I just pass it up
Throw it away and think about it later
Diggin' through the trash for drugs
Wish I could give you what you needed, but I can't
I'm scared because
[Chorus]
I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
[Verse 3]
I walk through the ashes of my passions
Reminiscin' with the baggage in my casket
Get lost in the questions I can't answer
Can't stand who I am, but it don't matter
We scream to be free, but I stay captured
Knee-deep in defeat of my own actions
Feel weak, but the peace that I keep lacking
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it
But I can't have it
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it
But I can't have it
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it
[Chorus]
I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Hate myself
But it's hard when I hate myself
Hate myself
But it's hard when I hate myself
[Outro]
When I hate myself
It's kinda hard when I hate myself
I hate myself
It's hard when I hate myself
I've listened to this song every night for the past four years. I've been through so much heartbreak and depression that I've thought of ending my life on multiple occasions. I feel like this song was written for me specifically. I know barely anyone is going to see this comment, but if you do, and you're dealing with the same shit I've had to go through, just keep pushing. Suicide is never going to fix your problems, it's just going to make those who love you sad. Life is meaningful, even when your can't tell sometimes.
I hope that you are doing better. Or at least that you are still pushing. I dont know with what exactly you are dealing, I just hope it will be better for you as time goes. This song resonates in me hard as well. Live just to listen to it again if it is something that helps you. Keep pushing stranger on internet
Strenght for you♥️
sucks to sucks
@@TTV_Its_Midniteyou suck to suck bro tf.
I'm pushing and pushing and the devil pulls me back I just need some weed and I'll be fine...
“Depression is being colorblind, and constantly being told how colorful the world is” - Atticus
💯
i love this man
@Isabel Linares yeah that's what I thought lol
That's 100% true...
@Keksmo you such an amazing person for saying this
“I don’t wanna die, I just wanna get relief” someone finally put this feeling into words.
YES
@@bumblebee8120 Gotta love when that happens
🙌
Very relatable. :(
It’s true but don’t give up
1:38 “Suicide thought come and go like a guest to me” these lines I relate too so much, that’s why this is my fav NF song
This song needs more recognition it's so underrated
So r u this song helps a lot of ppl
It's not underrated because we know this song
I said it's underrated and needs more recognition because this song could help a lot of people I know we all know it and love it
@@Jacxk_ umk
I’m literally sending it to everyone who has suicide thoughts that are in my friends group, including myself, or to people who literally just hate themselves, and that is myself as well.
“The worst feeling is when you feel like your annoying the person you want to talk too”-Unknown
That hit.
that hit hard
really really hard
when all you need is someone to talk to but you feel like you are anoying them by always asking to talk
Turns out I was annoying the person I wanted to talk too
They said it to my face
I need to talk to someone who won’t judge me for being me I act like I’m perfect and nothing is wrong with my life
@@n.o_n.a.m.e them I’m sorry it always has to happen with the people that you love the most
They say when your depressed and you tell someone you just want attention
But how are you supposed to get help if you don't ask........
@@ella4953 being a working dude its hard to find time. Then when you do have the time you feel so drained of being depressed you just want to sleep.
It's like a cage that I could open with effort but outside that cage is giant mountain to climb. With one slip up I'll fall back In that cage...
A therapist is 200$ an hour I cannot afford that shit
@@erickrogmann1881 dude I know the feeling. It's work. But you are worth it. When I first started going to counseling I would return home to the same depressing room. And just feel so overwhelmed with life. But I kept going even on the days that I would make excuses. And by building the foundation. I kept going. Cratering the trust. To be able to talk about real life. Like I said b4 it's work. But it's necessary for me to stay in a better place. Not saying that all the problems go away. Far from it. But it helps
Eric Krogmann you are in my prayers brother. God bless. You worth it. FACT!!
@@t.e.freaper7801 thats facts
Right
"Music raised me more than my parents did"-NF
This quote describes his entire life in one sentence and its sad.
Are you doing OK?
Nate..I know, this song is 3 years old now and I'm sure you' ll never read this, but thank you. My mom died 2 years ago losing her battle with cancer. Since then, 3 of my best friends have left this world, as well. I'm so totally and utterly alone in this world...until I listen to you. I cry everytime I listen to your music. Sometimes, it's jsut the fact that your putting words to my emotions. Other times, it's knowing that...I'm not alone. There's someone else out there, feeling just like me. Thank you...I hope I can make it through like you, but every day gets harder and harder. Who knows if I'll be here tomorrow, but today, your words will give me solace and I'll tough it out for 1 more day.....again....Thank You....
Do not feel alone, we all have difficult moments and if the truth is very painful for what you are going through but have hope, they would have wanted you to have a good life, live it friend
You are not alone, live your best life in honor of them. One love
Keep going homie
"The mirror is my best friend because when i cry it doesn't laugh" - Unknown
Damn that's deep and true😓
That was Charlie Chaplin when he was depressed after his career was ruined.
This is true...😔
I have a best friend but she doesn't understand me.
And all my Friends broke me...😔
Sorry is anything wrong with my Grammer because normally I speak german.
So true
wow, I never though of this. Even my sister laughs when I cry...
NF is the only rapper who makes me say: Relatable
same here
Honestly yeah
This dude ain’t heard tyler Joseph
None y'all heard of K.A.A.N. have you. Dudes a poet who raps
Same
Anyone here today ?
Barely brother, but I'll figure out my reason
Here
@@dividebydanwe’re here for you 🙏
I hate myself
2 weeks later? Good enough
"I feel like you don't need me, when I feel like you don't need me then I feel like you don't see me and my life has no meaning."
"The saddest part of life is when the person who gave you memories becomes a memory" - Unknown
sad 😔
It is sad to think that the last time you saw someone might actually be the last time.
@deron underwood I know what you mean. Most of my "friends" put little effort into friendships. I have 2 close friends and they do not even live in the same State as me. It is hard to tell when people actually really appreciate your friendship and presence. Be well
It nearly hurt but every time I look at your Pfp I start dying of laughter
Naurto
“don’t want do die, I just want relief”- this gave me so many chills. don’t give up, it will get better
Brody Dean I felt that
😞 I love him so much and pray he finds relief and everyone else does too
Gonna cry
This is amazing
That hit hard 😟
anyone here in march 2024?
Yeap
👋
Yep
👋
Yessir
"I dont want to die, i just want to get relief".
Going through anxiety, literally all the physical symptoms and deperosnalisation/derealisation. This is exactly how I feel!!
hi
@@Yusuf-cb5hl hi
hey man
All you're fans are proud man everyone's got demons takes alot to admit that keep living life and enjoying the small things
Thats the damn truth man
That’s the truth!
Your*
your*
Your* otherwise it reads "all you are fans are proud man..."
Crazy when I was at my lowest like 3 years ago and thought about going through with my plans. I kid you not the next day day at school I was listening to music in class and stumbled across him. His Music Touched me a way I never felt before. Like I could cry without being ashamed. He really saved me when I realized I wasn’t the only one who had these feelings..who felt what I felt. And listening to his music helped me focus and realize I can get through it. That maybe im strong enough. I hope I still am
Same this song saved me and it's still saving me now...
@@thenoobreturnz8968 Keep on Going Strong 💪🏼 If You ever Need To Talk I’m Always Open. Okay!
:)
your comment inspired me
@@jhintonic3429 me too
Nf if you see you this comment just know that God is still with you and still loves you I can relate to a lot of your songs so much and they've helped me a lot through hard times keep doing what you do God bless you and your family
Amen.
Thank you!
This is the official Nf deserves a Grammy button
⬇️
True
HE DOES
fishing for likes and recognition smh how about you actually do something with your life
I didn’t say the Grammy deserves NF, I said NF deserves the Grammy
And I am not fishing for likes I am using my comment to prove that Christian rappers can still will Grammies
I tear up because he speaks out loud whats in my mind...
i start crying because i think about every thing wrong about my life
@@grayz_storiesflipaclip8859 Same. my family even turned against me.... So now I have no one to turn to.
Vio Viking Same.. It's a Dark Place 💔
@@carriedarkpoetry9751 Everything is dark...
@@ultracosmicenergies8881 "Talk to God because he's the only one who listens, even when you think He isn't" There's always someone there for you, God, and usually someone else comes along too. ❤
3 years later and this is still the most underated NF song.
Can't believe it's been three years of listening daily since it's release..
Same....
Same here
@Keksmo im oke changed my life around for the better but still come back to this kind of songs these days with a smile on my face i have been listening to this song for over 2 years when i was depressed and now for almost a year while im fine (3years in total) to remind me back how i was feeling back then and to realize that i made it work for myself and trust me if i say i've seen some rough and dark things and that it goes way deeper then a broken heart caused by an cheating girl or something
What i said 9days ago also was in memory of my past
But i'm writing songs in my own language and that helps me as a Therapy besides that i just started 2 businesses got a child started to work out i stopped smoking weed stopped drinking alcohol and me and my wife are doing oke so i'm good thanks for asking
@Keksmo kinda yes i've watched alot of videos of Jordan Peterson Robert kiyosaki
I did read his books too i made a time schedule for my whole week i do this every week from waking up to going to bed and i did learn alot along the way made some connections met some good people and now im living a decent life can give some life tips too haha
How are you btw?
Oh yeah i've watched other people too Warren buffet Donald Trump even Andrew Tate and more they give some great advice too but i dont agree with everything they say
"Don't want to die, I just want relief"
PARALYZED- "I'm scared to live, I'm scared to die"
"I'm scared to live, but I'm scared to die" *
too* too* too*too*
Nhaila Turner to is the right one😄
@@draganab02 yea lol
NF has come quite a way to understanding himself...
Its hard to save someone from drowning when you're drowning, too.
no Yeah.. 💔
no i'm crying so hard right now.
Yeah it's VERY difficult
This should be note-worthy! This is so good
no
That depends, are you willing to push the other person up by pushing yourself further down?
never come across a song that describes me so perfectly, word for word. glad I've got Nate to say what I can't.
Are you doing ok?
@@TK-uz4ts 👍
@@TK-uz4ts always mate
When you hate yourself too, it seems like there is no hope left, because in the end you don't even care about yourself anymore. And this is very dangerous, unfortunately
Depressed people don't want to die they just want a different life
True. Suicides is just helplessness. Seeing no other way out.
I never wanted another life. I just wanted changing
I really do
I just want to fix the life i have...
Yeah
"Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me, but I don't want to die I just want to get relief." -What millions of us go thru
Yep
True
It’s hard. I’m in that group.
No this is by NF not by what millions if us go thru
@Faith Kellum me
This song was the starting point for me to understand why I was feeling so suicidal, that line "I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief", keeps poping up on my mind every time I feel like I am falling into it again and it motivates me to instead work hard in order to feel and enjoy that relief one day..to everyone that is passing through a hard time, shit happens in life all the time, but there is always a way to escape hell, take a deep breath and think about it hero, you got this ;)
fr bro
How's life? :)
your music is why im still alive. i feel that the music is something i can relate to
If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best
🩵
*"But I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief."*
*well if he didn't hit how i feel head on...*
I'm here if you need a friend. I'm always willing to listen
"Keep speaking to me but I can't have it." Hits me way harder for some reason.
@Gravitrax well if u die im gonna be sad so dont die for me please
God is relief. I can say He is the only thing that keeps me alive. He is the only reason I live today.
💜
It’s pretty sad when you can relate more to a person you have never met then the people you have known your whole life
I care about you and i hope that you become well soon and stay safe
I agree. That’s the only reason I’m on the internet tbh. Love your pfp by the way!
I know
Relatable
🙋🏽♂️
Every couple of years i get the worst depressive, and suicidal thoughts, and everytime, NF's music is a blessing that makes things a little easier
I’ve listened to this song for a while and just now the lyrics hit so much deeper. On a completely new level of depth for me. It’s so crazy how relatable this song is right now
“The strongest people suffer the most” -unknown
That's how they become strong ..😔🙌🏻
@@irina_love911 sadly yes
God gives the strongest people the hardest fights because he knows that they can fight and overcome them
I dunno, isn't 'strength' just happiness? I suppose you could gain such from suffering, yet I still feel like the statement is incorrect.
@@jakob3044 what I was saying is for example people that get bullied almost become immune to those criticisms (at least in my case) or if you are insulted about something most of the time you brush it off but for someone that hasn’t experienced that before will be deeply hurt by that unlike someone that has experienced it many times. So basically if you are insulted about the same thing over and over you aren’t going to be affected by that anymore. This is in my case not sure about others
Other rappers: I'm gonna rap about drugs, guns, sex, and violence because that's what kids are growing up with and can relate to.
NF: hold my heart
Well, he did mention drugs.
@@blackknightofmarma1892 all I have, how could you leave us is were I heard pills that all I remember
He means that they rap about taking drugs the whole time
Also I thought he was letting his heart air out
2:02
Best song for heal your sadness
This is the most relatable for me i hate myself but i still cling onto my relationships like they will help md but i wont let them
If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best
I’m sorry that you hate yourself..I know the feeling..I hate myself too. It would be a lot better if you would let them help you, don’t make yourself try to figure it out on your own. Stay strong and I’m here even though you don’t know me
all these songs getting dropped has been the highlight of my day😂
Year*
ALA_2003_ argueta tru tru😭
*life
Bbyjayy same here 🖤🖤🖤
ayye bless up
He said it perfectly: “i don’t wanna die, i just want to get relief”
curvedgaming this isn't an English lesson dude
No one will ever understand how hard it is to comfort someone when your in pieces trying to tape them back together
The first time I heard this song I was having an awful depressive spiral. My OCD, Depression, Anxiety, and disassociation was in full swing almost all at the same time. I even had thoughts about drinking to ease the pain, just to get relief, despite my personal vow to never drink alcohol, ever. I just broke and decided to play this song. I remember it still. I started to break down as I listened to the song, but the moment "Feeling like the only way for me to get away is if I poured a drink." The moment I heard that verse, I broke. I just started uncontrollably crying and sobbing. All of the pain I had came out. Everything just hurt. Everything hurt in such a deep, intimate level. I cried for over an hour, just letting it out. Ever since that day, I have started healing a bit more. This song in my opinion, changed my life. It saved me. This song encapsulates my life to such a degree that hearing it even now still hurts.
Thank you NF for making this song, for sharing your pain.
i googled "i hate myself" because i didn't know what to do anymore and this popped up. now i found this album and it hits so hard. glad my self deprecation at least led me to find some good music lmao
You're first time listening to nf?
Emberrr might have listened to some of his songs earlier but i don't remember it lol
@@diamondust2054 listen to his other songs and albums dont just listen to this one song
Emberrr yeah i've listened to this whole album several times already, and as i said, it hits hard
@@diamondust2054 listen to therapy session
I heard him sing this at a concert after waiting in line for 6 hours. His voice caught at the end of the song when he repeated "I hate myself" several times. You could hear the pain in his voice 😥
I cant wait too see him in March💔 I know he talks a lot about what the song means to him in between songs - Im just gonna cry😭😭
that is really sad but glad you have that experience.
He has a true heart. I love his music it speaks to my heart!!
I'm going to see him in april and i'm really hoping that he does this song. its so relatable.
oof
My girlfriend left me a month ago mainly because I didn't show her how much she means to me and how much I love her. Truth is, I didn't know how much I needed her because I was drowning alone in my thoughts, all my stress and all my self-hatred. This song made me realise that in order to love someone, you need to love yourself. I don't know how I'm gonna do that but I just know that I lost the woman of my life simply because of me and it's killing me
If you are struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. I wish you all the best
@@TK-uz4ts I am seeking help, I just wish I would have realised I needed help before I lost her…
@@nordiques8298 Sorry to hear that man, there will be many regrets in life but all that matters is the present moment. Dont beat yourself up over things already done. Stay strong, you got this
The pain hurts a lot man. And it wont be easy. I went through the exact same thing a year ago, exact same situation and exact same reasons. I wish I helped myself before her also. And I am still here today, a year later, feeling the pain of losing the love of my life because of me.. and I see her having moved on a couple of times and it hurts more each time because you know that if you got a chance, you feel you can make it right. You just have to believe the time will come and prepare yourself for, no matter how dire it seems. I sadly still am and maybe one day it will pass but it feels impossible. But you just have to keep pushing on and try to focus on you
Tell her bro tell her
NF is awesome. friendly, real, meaningful, and epic. that's why he's my favorite rapper
“But it’s hard when I hate myself”
That hit on a personal level..
same
Same
Same
Ruby Villanueva ikr I’m up and it’s 5am listening to the song on repeat questioning my ENTIRE life
same 😭
i can’t believe there’s a rapper that can rap so hard without cussing
I hate it people say that
Swiral shameless copy paste
That's because hes a Christian
K-Rino is another historical rapper that doesn't cuss.
bruh juice has songs where he cusses like once or none in half of his songs and he was one of the biggest artists so dont talk like nf the only one
It's like Nate took all the thoughts out of my head and made a song about what he saw, I love every single song you've wrote, your amazing ❤❤❤❤
You know sometimes I feel my life isn't worth it anymore and when I do I just listen to NF's music and I know my parents tell me the music you listen to is depressing but NF's music is a therapy for me and when I have no where to go I come here to listen to his message.
Your life is worth it. If you are struggling please don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust or consider seeing a therapist. You are not alone in this. Life is worth the pain we go through so stay strong. I wish you all the best
@@TK-uz4ts I don't really trust anyone not even my family and I tried getting a therapist but that didn't work so I feel alone and not worth it
@@skyler519 I see. In that case I recommend reading the books "Mans search for meaning" as well as the "Power of now". They did more for me than anything else could
@@TK-uz4ts Thanks for the recommendation. Have a good day/night.
Hey! You know even if you have a difficulty seeing your worth know that you are worthy every day that you get you were blessed with because you were put here in the world for a reason. If you want someone to talk to lmk! stay strong much love ❤️
Is it me, or does NF sound more vulnerable on this record and more open? Like his vocals are more cracked, more high. Really seems like he's becoming more and more of him, less of his angry persona he sometimes puts on. He really feels like this is his most out there effort now.
Edit: If anyone's interested, I reviewed NF's new album, haha. cheers! :)
YES, completely, he sounds more comfortable/confident, he really knows what he's doing now and I'm living for it.
He does, but also he handed 2 of his balloons (burdens) to the guy behind the curtain in leave me alone
Yes. I like both sides of him in his songs. He does a lot of music like this actually. The one that blew up lately seemed aggressive. But I love both. ☺
So vulnerable.....and that's so hard for him! I feel every single word he says. It hurts.
J Morris the Review Guy 💯💯
"we don't want to die, we just want to be dead"
- The voices in my head
John-Tyler Trefil FOR ALL THE PEOPLE WHO HAVE COME HERE TO LISTEN TO THIS AND FEEL DEPRESSED,
please. listen to me. i know from experience and so do millions of people !!
omg i swear, it DOES get better and even if you have nothing at all, come to the comments of a sad song and connect with all the other people experiencing the same feelings and struggles and you !!
whatever you experience in life, you will never be alone - there are 7 billion people on the earth, you are one of them - how incredible is that ?! you are living, breathing, you have endless possibilities !!
you are trapped in a horrible, depressed but if you try to make one difference and you cut off or escape toxic things in your life then you have to power to change !!
you are so beautiful and even though i don’t even know you i want to reach out to everyone feeling so terrible. when i am older, i hope to work with mental health helpline or charities ect. i want it make someone else’s life better - please hold on, it ALWAYS gets better but you just cannot see that right now because you are blinded but this sick, nasty things called depression !!
i am begging you so much to hold on,
life IS BEAUTIFUL but you can’t see it because of your unfortunate circumstances.
if you hate your life, change it, as much as you can !!!
you, more than anyone, has the power to do that !!
you won’t believe me because i haven’t explained it very well😂 but coming from someone who went through a terrible mental health time and came out the other side with an extremely healthy lifestyle and mind and immense appreciation for life and opportunities, i am telling you that life gets better !!
please seek help and please help yourself, there are so many people willing to help you get through your struggles!!
please, hold on ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ if anyone is struggling, talk to the other people in the comments - they are here alongside you for the same reason xxxxxxxx
Same
I never wanted to kill myself just end apart of me -KING ISO
Don't think like that u have worth...God loves u
Guys, NF’s music is great. But, comment sections... there honestly depressing. So get out! Watch a cat meme or some thing. Whatever stuff your going on...YOU GOT THIS I’m rooting for you. P.S. this is not for likes and you guys may not see this but if you do. Don’t quit, your a great person
Every song is a banger and it resonates. NF is a savage.
This is why NF is the greatest rapper ever. No matter where you are in life you can always relate to his music. If you're happy you can enjoy his music. If you're sad, you relate to it. NF will always be my favorite artist. He doesn't get enough credit. Thank you, NF. Thank you so much.
“Smile, because it’s easier than explaining what’s killing you on the inside” -the joker.
Exactly me
Me holding in tears: person: are you okay-? Me: balling my eyes out
@Hunter Varney wtf- 👀
@Hunter Varney so deep
“Never stop dreaming.” Freddy Krueger
This is the best song I've ever heard. Thank you so much NF
Gael's Daddy the best song he ever made was remember this I don’t think he could ever make a better one
I've listened to the rest of the album and I can't pick one, they're all so amazing I can't even describe it, I honestly feel nauseated and can't stop shaking cause of these songs.
@@Kingtheg omg yes remember this is prolly my fav too. Every line of it is facts
I thought Remember This was one of the best songs I have ever heard, but then he dropped this song
@@gaelsdaddy2341 Nah, the best one was "How Could You Leave us" He even said it himself. If you havent heard, trust me its very emotional and it hits home HARD.
Without NF I probably wouldn’t be here, thank you for the music to relate to and feel like you’re not alone in feeling this way
Listening to this, It's been about 2 months now since my older brother (29) passed away. This song helps but hurts. I just wish I could've done something to be there and help. I still hate myself.....
Don't hate yourself, you deserve love. Please stay strong and positive because on the other side of lifes struggles lie happiness and meaning. If you're struggling don't hesitate to reach out to those you trust and consider seeing a therapist. I wish you the best
Man I feel you my dad passed away if I may ask what happened to your brother if you don't want to answer me then it's okay
@@non-binery_owl4049 freak accident. Fell over a fence and broke his neck...
Hey I know you don't know me, but I understand hating yourself, the blame... There's still hope my friend I promise I'm here if you need anything.
I’m so sorry for your loss but please don’t hate yourself. It’s not your fault and you shouldn’t put that pressure on yourself.
he’s come such a long way.... he deserves so much 🖤 I remember when I first started listening and when I listen back to the first songs I think about the place I was in.... we grew together, separate lives but still felt so close . he’s such an inspiration to many , love you NF
Wow that's amazing and I can relate to this and thats why NF is my favorite rapper and I hope your doing well now
Nailed that description. Couldn't agree more🖤
I couldn't have said it better myself
Right!
angie perla same
I like the darkness because when it's dark no one can see my mistakes
me to and no one sees me
The darkness is a place that feels so good and right, but it leaves you down an even darker path. I’ve seen darkness in death first hand and you don’t want to. But even in the darkest path, there is a light, it may be dim, but it can shine more than the sun if you let it
Jesus sees and still loves you and wants you to come out of that darkness and into His light and love. 🤗 I can relate to how you feel.
I think you've mistaken the quote with, "I like walking near the sewer so no one can smell my farts"
and they cant see my tears. I dont like silence because when it is, these thoughts get louder and no one can hear my quivers of not being able to cry. im tired, we all are. One day hopefully this battle will end in our victory. I only wish you all a happy ending, remember i care and your not alone.
This is why I love NF he just gets it.. it feels like when I listen to his music im listening to my own thoughts.
I can relate to this whole song like I really always do feel hopeless
Yes, I understand
"I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief."
"I hate myself."
It's as though NF knows what I am thinking.
Hey, bro. Whatever you may be facing, know that Jesus loves you, and He delights in your casting your burdens on HIm. You are never alone. Jesus is signalling at you, waving his hands heads high. Trust in him
@@LincolnFalana Jesus has never done anything for me.
@@Joe.D.Sheppard Maybe therapy will. Have you tried it? I heard it helps.
@@hristiyantanev7631 I haven't tried it, no. I feel like it is overrated.
Consult a therapist dont go telling people in comments because whether your being serious your making someone depressed too.
"I don't hate myself, I hate the life I have to live." ~ Unknown
I mean ,not really... i hate myself coz its the reason why my life sucks.
love this
Same
@Keksmo love what your doing
I hate everything now
“Feel weak, but the peace that i keep lackin’ keeps speaking to me but i cant have it”
Like a nail ….
I'm in tears. I've heard this song many times, but it is really hitting hard right now. I am struggling to be the happy person that people want me to be when that's not really me. I'm in my own prison with a smile on the outside.
"...I don't wanna die, I just wanna get relief..." Is it just me, or is this relatable.
I relate to that
I don’t
I can relate
@Zhiyan (Katie) Li Yes, I know exactly how that feels.
@Zhiyan (Katie) Li Relatable
Remember in mansion how he said he was scared to open the door? he finally opened that door. And I'm happy he did.
Damn thanks for all the likes
maybe....or he's just letting us look through the windows. maybe he's just getting started
@@NIHILWR now that... I like
👏🏽
Thought I was the only one that noticed
Me to
Keine Ahnung, ob es jemand versteht, aber dieses Lied spiegelt genau das wieder, was in mir vorgeht.
Einfach weg sein...
Nichts mehr dergleichen fühlen...
Es ist so schwer in den Spiegel zu schauen und sich selbst zu ertragen.
Ich bin für vieles selbst verantwortlich und will keinen Trost oder ähnliches.
Dieses Lied trifft es einfach zu 100%
Been listening to this album for 3 years. Still every song hits like the first time.
Some of the lyrics just feel like they have been written for me.
Am I the only one who hides everything from mom and dad?🥺
Edit: I really appreciate everyone sharing their story’s and I’m really taking the time to listen to anything everyone says
VerXy_- __ I do too
@Rissa Dobre same
No but why do you? Sometimes it’s for good reasons sometimes you should tell them. A parents job is to be there for your kiddo. If they’re worth their salt as a parent you should tell them everything
Nope they barely let me cry in front of them so o just lock myself in my room all day
I used to not tell my parents, but later I realised it's better to tell them! Express how you feel! Keeping it in isn't good for you
THE ENDING WHERE HE JUST KEEPS REPEATING "I HATE MYSELF" BROKE MY HEART IN SO MANY WAYS
Be happy he save my life and many more
right??? it’s so raw
Try not to overthink it :) Just another brilliant song
@@emdormitalang1388 shut up
Why?
Just wanted to let yall know, someone out there cares. No matter what happens, someone will cry when you die, feel sad when you get hurt, and even if they dont always show it, someone always cares.
His song 'how could u leave us' is so powerful. I can't imagine how he felt in the studio booth
most of us googled "i hate myself" and reached this song. and if u did too, then u r really deeply hurting right now. not really sure about the future, but i wish that someday we all google "i love myself" and reach that song, and be really deeply feeling peace , bliss and contentment.
I fell so useless i can't tell anyone what I feel I feel like once I cry i feel that i' weak and I have a abusive dad sometimes like I'm not there i tried hanging myself i tried overdoseing myself it suck i just want to disappear for the world and i was raised well but i cry when no ones is looking but when i'm around people i hid my feeling with happiness i say to myself it okay but its not I can't talk to my friend anymore because my mom thinks that i'm sad because i'm around her but no its because i finally telling her my feelings
Thanks
Haha you can guarantee that I hate myself but I just came here because im a huge fan of NF 🗝️
@@therichguy6844 I really Googled this now it Feels like it will never end
@@therichguy6844 hi if you need some one to talk to I would be happy to help you and come with open arms
17 mins ago NF dropped 15 songs. This puts a smile on my face
That was almost my exact comment on this album drop.
john reimers lol
Kitne sun liye
Me tooo
@@blackfox658 use hindi samaj nahi aata saale. English bolna
Never has a poem or song spoken to me and about me like this. This is an immaculate description of the intricacies of not only depression on the surface but exactly how it affects people. Haunting. Truly haunting.
When you want to cry but there is no more tears 😭🥺
Grow up little turd you'll see how life is
Once you grow up
Please help pull my ingrown turd out it's stuck in my ass and hurts very very much.. I'm crying the turd is Stuck inside my ass
@@Scottbrushchenko bro chill
@@Scottbrushchenko bruh just go see a doctor, it doesn't seem very healthy
Same here :(
We, NF REAL FANS are so proud of what you’ve become, Nate.
MR. COMMENT
What’s a real NF fan?
An Og
@@chrisgagnon5768 If u dont listen to NF since his first ever released song u are a famefan and not a real real fan! :^)
Yes. ❤
MR. COMMENT I HIT THE WRONG BUTTON😂💀
My whole life is shaped by this song,The most terrible part is that nobody can possibly understand how you feel.
This is probably one of my most favorite of NF songs. Somehow, the man takes the thoughts out of my head. Kind of a therapeutic experience. Every day is a fight to stay alive. That one line “I don’t wanna die I just want relief” is exactly how I feel but not many can understand unless they walk the depression road themselves.
Man i feel ya. Ive been doing good the past few weeks due to many things and changes in my life. Keep living, everything will be worth it, even if it doesnt seem like that at times.
“I’m sick of doing interviews cause I hate myself”... that line hits deep
Do you do interviews?
@@adammclean1679 the word interviews can also be taken non literally meaning when people ask you about yourself you hate answering because of your self-hatred
@@sooner9971 I APPRECIATE THIUS COMMENY
@@adammclean1679 Tthis comment upsets me a lot and idk why. anytime i click this song i see this. i am clearly understanding nf. this is he saddest song off the album and realest. him saying those lyrics explains a lot .. you maybe have 3 nf interviews on youtube. therefore him describing why.. youre clearly here for a reason. you are sad and thats fine. this aint migos, its nf. were a squad. hes real music, why youdumb
BTS: love yourself
Eminem: lose yourself
NF: hate myself Edit:thank you so much for the likes I hope you all are having an amazing day💯🙌🏽🙌🏽
nf lowkey shellfish do
Loser Loose nah u are
David taweel omg right #bts
All of those artists are good
The fact that i litsen to bts and nf i hate myself yet trying to love myself from bts . I thank both artists
This whole song breaks me. I miss my father. I came home this time last year to be with him. Saw him Jan 11th and on the 1st. He died early Feb. Talk to your family as much as you can . No matter if you feel like shit or hate yourself
NF is the artist i’ll always come back too.
"Suicide doesn’t end the chances of life getting worse, it eliminates the possibility of it ever getting any better." -Unknown
I used to think that I would never try and think of doing it because it will hurt the people I love,but do I have that any more? No. I don't. I think about from time to time. But I will try not to do it. Life will get better I just have to hope it will.
Thank you.
Technically it does both. But I agree with the sentiment.
when you are dead you have real peace. and thats the thing people dont want to acknowladge
I'm ok with that :)
No matter how popular Nathan gets, he will still be underrated.
I know I'm late but this is very true.
That's very true
@Keksmo I was actually replying to the comment above saying how NF will always be underrated. Sorry for the miscommunication.
@Keksmo good. I'm actually just working on my first album myself. Hbu?
@Keksmo Mostly rap and edm
“Pray to god with my arms open, if this is it then I feel hopeless” it’s so hard
When your depression leads you to good music 🥲
Lyrics:
I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Yeah, late nights are the worst for me
They bring out the worst in me
Mind runnin', got me feelin' like it hurts to think
If this is all that I wanted, I don't want it, gotta be more for me
All the core beliefs
And every mornin' I wake up and feel like I ain't my worth 'cause I'm at war with peace
Or go to Hell, welcome to the corpse of me
Look at the body like you ain't nothin' but poor and weak
It's kinda weird
Lately I been feelin' like the only way for me to get away is if I pour the drink
That's more deceit, more defeat
Is this really what I'm born to be?
That's what you get for thinkin' you're unique
So poor, but I'm so wealthy
Need help, but you can't help me
What else can the world sell me?
Tell me lies, I still buy 'em like they goin' outta stock
But it's not healthy
I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Yeah, late nights get the best of me
They know how to get to me
Suicide thoughts come and go like a guest to me
But I don't wanna die, just wanna get relief
So don't talk to me like you think I'm so successful
What is success when hope has left you
I am not a spokesman, I'm a broken record
Sick of doin' interviews 'cause I hate myself, agh!
Come across like it's so easy
But I feel like you don't need me
When I feel like you don't need me
Then I feel like you don't see me
And my life has no meaning, drain me
Hands out, tryna ask for love
But when I get it, I just pass it up
Throw it away and think about it later
Diggin' through the trash for drugs
Wish I could give you what you needed, but I can't
I'm scared because
I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
I walk through the ashes of my passions
Reminiscin' with the baggage in my casket
Get lost in the questions I can't answer
Can't stand who I am, but it don't matter
We scream to be free, but I stay captured
Knee-deep in defeat of my own actions
Feel weak, but the peace that I keep lackin'
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it
But I can't have it
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it
But I can't have it
Keeps speakin' to me, but I can't have it
I don't see you like I should
You look so misunderstood
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Pray to God with my arms open
If this is it, then I feel hopeless
And I wish I could help
But it's hard when I hate myself
Hate myself
But it's hard when I hate myself
Hate myself
But it's hard when I hate myself
When I hate myself
It's kinda hard when I hate myself
I hate myself
It's hard when I hate myself
thanks
@Keksmo i'm fine at the moment
thanks for asking
what about you?
@Keksmo good to hear that
also you can talk to me too if you want to
i am not of much but at least i can listen
although i gotta ask, what made you ask me if i'm alright or not?
as far as i can tell i didn't say that i'm going through something or not
@Keksmo i see
you are very kind
thank you
@Keksmo still fine
"Yeah, late nights get the best of me"
Me listening at 12am: 👀
Ryan 3 am*
@@isaaclee5897 shut up, its different timezones. it was 9 when the songs dropped here
Caleb Bastin chill I was just saying what time I was listening to the song
@@isaaclee5897 ok sorry. I've just been getting tons of stupid BS replys the last couple of days so yours looked like one of those
Caleb Bastin don’t worry it’s all good