Lyrics: In a nightmare, I am falling from the ceiling into bed beside you You're asleep, I'm screaming, shoving you to try to wake you up And like before, you've got no interest in the life you live when you're awake Your dreams still follow storylines, like fictions you would make So I lie down against your back, until we're both back in the hospital But now it's not a cancer ward, we're sleeping in the morgue Men and women in blue and white, they are singing all around you With heavy shovels holding earth, you're being buried to you neck In that hospital bed, being buried quite alive now I'm trying to dig you out but all you want is to be buried there together You're screaming And cursing And angry And hurting me And then smiling And crying Apologizing I've woken up, I'm in our bed, but there's no breathing body there beside me Someone must have taken you while I was stuck asleep But I know better as my eyes adjust You've been gone for quite a while now, and I don't work there in the hospital (They had to let me go) When I try to move my arms sometimes, they weigh too much to lift I think you buried me awake (my one and only parting gift) But you return to me at night just when I think I may have fallen asleep Your face is up against mine, and I'm too terrified to speak You're screaming And cursing And angry And hurting me And then smiling And crying Apologizing
It's been over a decade and it still feels so fresh. I hate what my abuser did to me. I hate that they've made me this way. I feel like I died back then. I feel buried.
It's been five years for me, and I know exactly what you mean. I feel the same way. I used to think that it would fade with time, and it just hasn't. Every day I think of them, and every day I get some little flash of memory and I'm right back in that place, feeling it all over again. I'm a completely different person because of them. So much of my mental and emotional energy is still focused on them, all these years later. It feels like, on some level, I still belong to them. I managed to leave the person, but I can't ever leave their memory behind. My abuser is just going to haunt me, forever, their face up against mine while I'm too terrified to speak. You're not alone. I know it feels that way; I feel that way too. But at least we get to know that we aren't the only ones who've ever been through this. That's why we flock to this song, right? To remind ourselves of that. I understand what you went through, and I know how much it hurts, and I'm so sorry for that. And we're still here. That's something.
That's the main place that makes me cry. I think it's something about him simultaneously realizing that this ending is final but still having unprocessed emotions and feelings that he may never fully come to grips with that makes it so heartbreaking.
@@ametxa9 I imagine it is talking about someone dead who comes back to him as a ghost while he is sleeping and awakes him. He awakes to see the ghost's face, and the ghost reenacts the sort of things they went through. The ghost shouts at him, and curses him, but then apologizes, just like they had argued that way when the ghost was alive. I am aware this isn't the true meaning of the line, but it's what I imagine. The face against his is the ghost laying with him.
This song is dope and so relatable to other situations. I just listened to it and it felt like the situation I am in with this silly person and it's like one moment everything is good and then the next minute it's like I want to just be over it..
What kind of a person (I wonder to myself) would monetise this type of music that is usually played when someone is struggling over the loss of a loved one so chances are they wont have even the gumption to get up from thier bed to skip the commercial. That reads extremely thoughtless to me and even borderline sociopathic.
Danielle Perry I think the song itself gets written as a way for the (songwriter) to express this thing they have inside them. And later on, like any good piece of art, they make the decision to share it coz they feel people will get something from it (/they'll make $$$ out of it). Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton was like that, super sad story.
The guy obviously went through something quite tough and managed to put it in words and notes. I'm happy he put it out there. It speaks volumes to abuse victims. He got money out of it ? Well deserved.
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This and Two Headed Boy Part 2 are the most beautiful album closers of all time
what a god fucking awful night
This album tells quite a heartbreaking story. I've just found a new favorite band.
the final instrumental makes me instantly cry. this album is gut wrenching
Lyrics:
In a nightmare, I am falling from the ceiling into bed beside you
You're asleep, I'm screaming, shoving you to try to wake you up
And like before, you've got no interest in the life you live when you're awake
Your dreams still follow storylines, like fictions you would make
So I lie down against your back, until we're both back in the hospital
But now it's not a cancer ward, we're sleeping in the morgue
Men and women in blue and white, they are singing all around you
With heavy shovels holding earth, you're being buried to you neck
In that hospital bed, being buried quite alive now
I'm trying to dig you out but all you want is to be buried there together
You're screaming
And cursing
And angry
And hurting me
And then smiling
And crying
Apologizing
I've woken up, I'm in our bed, but there's no breathing body there beside me
Someone must have taken you while I was stuck asleep
But I know better as my eyes adjust
You've been gone for quite a while now, and I don't work there in the hospital
(They had to let me go)
When I try to move my arms sometimes, they weigh too much to lift
I think you buried me awake (my one and only parting gift)
But you return to me at night just when I think I may have fallen asleep
Your face is up against mine, and I'm too terrified to speak
You're screaming
And cursing
And angry
And hurting me
And then smiling
And crying
Apologizing
Was wondering
i always shed a tear by the 30 second mark
Fuck... that outro is just... too beautiful.
It's been over a decade and it still feels so fresh. I hate what my abuser did to me. I hate that they've made me this way. I feel like I died back then. I feel buried.
It's been five years for me, and I know exactly what you mean. I feel the same way. I used to think that it would fade with time, and it just hasn't. Every day I think of them, and every day I get some little flash of memory and I'm right back in that place, feeling it all over again. I'm a completely different person because of them. So much of my mental and emotional energy is still focused on them, all these years later. It feels like, on some level, I still belong to them. I managed to leave the person, but I can't ever leave their memory behind. My abuser is just going to haunt me, forever, their face up against mine while I'm too terrified to speak.
You're not alone. I know it feels that way; I feel that way too. But at least we get to know that we aren't the only ones who've ever been through this. That's why we flock to this song, right? To remind ourselves of that. I understand what you went through, and I know how much it hurts, and I'm so sorry for that. And we're still here. That's something.
Ya gotta move on
This song is beautiful, sad, and should always be relevant.
2:30 line always gives me chills.
That's the main place that makes me cry. I think it's something about him simultaneously realizing that this ending is final but still having unprocessed emotions and feelings that he may never fully come to grips with that makes it so heartbreaking.
@@ametxa9 I imagine it is talking about someone dead who comes back to him as a ghost while he is sleeping and awakes him. He awakes to see the ghost's face, and the ghost reenacts the sort of things they went through. The ghost shouts at him, and curses him, but then apologizes, just like they had argued that way when the ghost was alive. I am aware this isn't the true meaning of the line, but it's what I imagine. The face against his is the ghost laying with him.
so much i can say about this song, its so good and yet so so painful to listen
Masterpiece
Is this a different version than the album recording? This sounds way richer and clearer
TheCivildecay This is a more official version of the song
This song is dope and so relatable to other situations. I just listened to it and it felt like the situation I am in with this silly person and it's like one moment everything is good and then the next minute it's like I want to just be over it..
who listening in 2022
me
@@kaigyoku me too
Just listened for the first time in a while. Devastating as ever.
and crying
Listening in 2023 my friend
this song is just too much
What kind of a person (I wonder to myself) would monetise this type of music that is usually played when someone is struggling over the loss of a loved one so chances are they wont have even the gumption to get up from thier bed to skip the commercial. That reads extremely thoughtless to me and even borderline sociopathic.
Danielle Perry
I think the song itself gets written as a way for the (songwriter) to express this thing they have inside them. And later on, like any good piece of art, they make the decision to share it coz they feel people will get something from it (/they'll make $$$ out of it). Tears in Heaven by Eric Clapton was like that, super sad story.
I know that I am over a year late to this but the album is meant to tell a story and the antlers deserve the money they make for this amazing album
Don't know why you would expect anything more from a corporate channel, bud.
The guy obviously went through something quite tough and managed to put it in words and notes. I'm happy he put it out there. It speaks volumes to abuse victims.
He got money out of it ? Well deserved.
I think op might be referring to TH-cam playing ads at the beginning of the song