I’m shocked I was able to upload this video. I’ve experienced SO many technical issues over the last week. My main camera is broken, my cell phone kept refusing to upload the footage I filmed, my DJI camera wouldn’t upload footage, my laptop crashed every hour, I spent half of Friday on the phone with Apple and DJI, Final Cut Pro corrupted my video when I downloaded it, and then TH-cam stopped uploading my video halfway through the upload process. Jeesh! I didn’t get this video uploaded until 3am. Here it is, though…somehow. I hope you all have a wonderful Sunday ❤. I appreciate you.
Well, you just keep having chances to prove to yourself just how strong GOD made you. Shedding tears of frustration is natural and nothing to be embarrassed about. I can definitely relate to the feeling of being different. We appreciate you, too.
Woahhh… that is some effort you put into this!! It can be so so frustrating when ‘everything’ seems to conspire against the task we want to complete Your tenacity paid off! Many thanks for another beautiful video with your focus on ‘real van life’ … this is what I come here for.. I started following you when you lived in your car, and have always been so admiring of your persistence, and your calm demeanour… when I ‘grow up’ 😂 I would like to have the character traits of you and Lady Bugout (another van dweller) …
Monique, never feel bad about crying. It isn't a sign of weakness, it's a sign that you are a feeling, sensitive human being. I know everyone who watches your videos can empathize and relate to you. I sure can! It was very brave of you to share....sending much love from California, from a fellow introvert. 💞
My beautiful young sister, you have such a beautiful blessed spirit. I know the Most High is watching over every aspect of your life. You are a true inspiration for women of all ages. I salute your honesty, integrity and that you are transparent and real. Just keep being you, love ya beautiful
I spent 5 hrs at the local park yesterday and walked 7.1 miles💚💛🧡 I just flat out talk to myself! People look at me funny! I could care less what they think
I find this hilarious in remembering back to when I first noticed people starting to talk aloud in the grocery store, and they would say, "hello, hello," and I would turn and say, "hey! How are you?" Only to realize that they're trying to speak to someone on a phone. 😂 Now, I just answer them whether they are talking to me or not. I have no idea, but at least I spoke. Re: talking to self...I started looking at it as I'm never really talking to myself..... Because somewhere someone out there who looks like me is talking to me, too!😊 Makes sense to me!🎉 P.S. Good for you on the 7+ mile walk! I'm up to about 4 miles a day walking the halls of my elementary school when they're clear of little legs.
What an incredibly real video. Thank you for sharing and trusting us. I literally laughed and cried with you. The story of the girl sitting by you and security was priceless.
I'm a dad, I have a home, I live in a big city, a Christian, but I find you relatable. Like, if your spirit was giving off a frequency that you feel is maybe undetectable, it's not. You are not weird. The frequency thing is a weird analogy to use by I won't delete it coz I sense you'll get it. Stay safe out there and praying you hit your short-term and long-term goals.
It’s nice to have a community of people who think the same as you do, you’re never truly alone 💕 Just remember, this is only a bump in the larger plan you have for yourself!
Our miracles are about to come to fruition so hang tough Monique! So many of us are in the same place either in a van, house, car, truck, street! I’m here to help you keep your head up! I appreciate you also!!!!! There are no coincidences! It’s just another test Sister MuchLove Colette
I am in my 70’s and bc of language barrier and culture difference’s I tried for decades to assimilate to American culture but could not! It’s been 50 yrs of torment for me bc ppl don’t understand me and I can’t understand their way of thinking! So I’ve been isolated all these decades but now I finally have free from trying to assimilate! It’s only by the grace of God that I’ve been freed. I really enjoy listening to you bc you make so much sense. Stay safe.
I can totally relate to you feeling different, not being able to do small talk, being an introvert, a “cave woman”, living in isolation, not being understood. I am all of that. I also have had to “pretend” to be like the “others”. It is draining. Now I don’t care anymore, not worth the exhaustion. Those who follow you surely can also relate. You are not alone 🤗💕
If you like parking around semi trucks in certain places you would probably benefit from Trucker Path which is a free app meant for truckers but useful for Rovers, Van Lifers as well because it shows you location and info regarding parking places like Walmarts, Lowe’s, truck stops, rest areas and has a comment review section for others previous feedback/experience. Im a retired trucker which my channel was dedicated toward. I was solo cross country so I know about keeping safe and how to find parking for semi and van living as I’ve done that too. The way you explained to us where you’re from is a perfect answer “nowhere and everywhere”. I love that actually.
I go through similar. My whole life feeling like I a a stranger in a strange land. For me, it turns out I am neurodivergent. It took figuring out that the folks I found I vibed with the best have always been a tribe of folks who were basically also this, hahahah. So now when I go through all the trials and tribulations I now know it's just that I really AM different and that's totally okay. I don't have to try to figure it out as much. Now I do everything I can to prioritise my solitude, do my own thing unapologetically and feel my feels (or not) and explore the world on my terms as best as possible. We as humans want to connect, just not all of us want to do it in the same ways... I enjoy your content so much. It is very soothing to watch.
This was particularly relatable! I don't have the standard, 'acceptable to much of society', answers to those questions either, and I often feel awkward because of other's reactions to anything outside of their comfort zone. I'm not a van lifer, but I love watching your channel, along with others. I enjoy seeing others living differently. I love the travel aspect and vicariously visiting more places too. Content matters, but who people are - specifically their authenticity - makes a channel worth watching for me. Thank you for sharing. Glad you made a nice connection with Charmaine (not sure if I spelt the name correctly). Good luck getting the camera fixed. Hi from Scotland, UK, by the way. 👋
I relate to so few humans I was starting to wonder about me. It was very refreshing to hear someone else express a lot of the feelings I’ve only expressed to my dog.
It seems like you're experiencing a range of emotions, mainly when things don't go as planned. For instance, your camera isn't working, and you're also having issues with your iPad. It's normal to feel frustrated or cry when things don't go smoothly; sometimes, it can feel like everything is falling apart. It is common for people, including myself, to talk to themselves frequently. I find that practicing meditation and taking time to decompress help me better manage my emotions. I enjoyed watching this video and am excited to see the upcoming episodes. 💜💜💜💜
I've always considered myself a non conformist. Outsider, walking past, cause most outsiders looking wondering what they're missing. Express what you need to express when you need to express it
You are the 1st Muslim woman who has a van life. This is admirable! I am very intetested in living in a tiny house with my cats some day. I want a big garden, tbh. 😁 I gotta say that I chsnged from being an introvert into an extrovert over the years. I am happy talking with people just for the sake of making jokes (I mainly make the jokes and study their reactions). But I live like an hermit with my 2 cats. I enjoy the healing moments of silence.
It is suspicious as heck that that girl was interrogating you on your address. WTH? Like once you said your city, what is the pressure? What you just said about the military brat thing is the perfect answer. I am a military brat, I live everywhere. I am glad you are finally normalizing crying in front of people. Vulnerability is power. It is not natural to hold back tears. Amen it is therapeutic indeed! Blessings
Emotions are what makes us humans.. I got emotional the other day as well ,and at the same time I felt grateful for actually having those feelings. Thanks for sharing your videos!
Honestly, Please do not judge a book by its cover. May be the girl you met would have loved to know your experiences and would have found it super cool and inspiring. I feel you yourself feel more awkward about it and that makes you feel others would, too. Give them a chance, even though you may have had bad experiences with some, most people love to hear about experiences they don't (or cannot) have. You are such a badass, strong-headed, insprirational woman. You are doing what many of us don't. I would love to randomly bump into someone like you (although, may be you won't being an introvert 🙂)
I’m a new subscriber and I thoroughly enjoy your videos. You are so poised and strong. You are also intelligent , soft and vulnerable. What a beautiful spirit you are. 🤗
Your attitude about socializing reminds me of me when I was your age. Your honesty on this vlog is priceless, and you have no idea how precious you are. Keep up the remarkable efforts.
Thank you for sharing. I was so honored to receive the replies from you 😊. YT is a very special place where people who are authentic will always connect with others on a whole other level. Unfortunately, this is why I had to temporarily stop my channel… however I do look forward to my return soon! 🙌🏽 I really appreciate the YT community of positive, supportive people! I’ve been fortunate to have formed some very solid friendships with people I actually met and keep in touch with IRL. As humans we are all connected when we are truly ourselves! 🩷 The camera button is wild! I hope that you get your camera back soon. I am glad that you were able to send it back for repair/replacement.
The security should have already known you got out of that van if they were so concerned, and with that many people. It's rude to ask about your vehicle.
I personally am very impressed by your determination to go for what you want. I had an old friend who gave me an assessment of my personality. When I told him that I was an introvert. He told me that I suffered from PTSD. I'm like me for childhood abuse by my mother that hated my father, and I looked just like him. I think that he said that, because I have little problem talking when I want to. You can talk when you want to. You are extroverting yourself by showing your life. I always remember that knowledge is power. Few people have the courage to do what you are doing. Be proud of it. This is the land of the free and the home of the brave. Ask them! They'll tell you! You must always be vigilante. Crackerbox or not. That's what I consider apartment living. Some billion getting rich off of draining my resources. Keep on MOVING girl!
It is okay too cry. You are kind and sensitive. Your videos are wonderful and I appreciate. All the work you put into them. With editing and any problems that come up. In addition to working and cooking also cleaning. Don’t be so hard on yourself honey.
Every time I watch you, you warm my heart. You’re so authentically you. You present as very grounded in the present and yearning for grown and knowledge. You’re an inspiration to me and I’m sure nearly all of us watching. Thanks for sharing and being a source of light on this platform. 🤍
I completely understand. I also don’t fit into a box. ‘Where are you from?, has never been a simple question to answer. People want to put you in a box and when you don’t fit, things often get awkward.. We are outliers because of how we think and our unique upbringing. Big hugs, Sis.
Hello beautiful. You are not weird. There is nothing wrong with being an introvert. I'm outgoing and too friendly, but relate to anyone. When I meet people who ask too many questions that I don't want to answer, I smile & politely say I'd rather not answer. Don't feel compelled to answer every question a stranger ask. It's okay to cry when you need to. I can't wait for you to buy your land & hopefully share your experience. I pray your camera is fixed quickly & you have safe & fun travels. Our cycles will have our emotions all over the place . I'm sure not having your things organized & upcoming cycle played a major role with your mood . Many blessings.❤❤🎉🎉🎉
I feel like you just described my entire life and my entire personality. I'm so tired of the awkward looks because of my answers. If no one else understands, God understands. I love you listening to you speak. I appreciate your aunthenticity. Shalom.
Monique, dear - I just watched this video - late I know - but I'm so glad I did. We are so blessed to have someone so gentle and truthful to tell us all about vanlife and ALL its realities. Your tears are perfectly understandable - you experienced true compassion as you've rarely experienced it outside your immediate family. Those of us who are different in any significant way - even not so obvious ones - can totally understand the tears of feeling like someone finally understands... 🥺 💖 🙏🏼 I pray many blessings come your way, for you are such a beautiful and helpful creation from God.
Yes blue light is a real thing, and it emanate from all screens. Blue light blocks melatonin, the hormone that makes you sleepy, and increases the hormone that keeps you awake. Also, eye strain from looking at bright screens for ling periods can definitely give you a headache. I would try turning down the brightness. That helped me. God bless you and keep you safe!
Omg Monique this made me emotional too ! It was so nice meeting you. Your truly beautiful inside and out. I know exactly what you mean about intrusive questions. I get the same way when people start asking tons of questions. It can be very overwhelming. I'm so glad you feel comfortable sharing with all of my us. I'm truly touched ❤
Awwwwwww those are healthy tears! Emotions make you cry sometimes and it's OKAY! Plus I get in my feelings before my cycle too...I be like WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!! But it's okay. I love your videos they are so Genuine! Continue to be Blessed ❤
It was the Mercury Retrograde, my friend. All kinds of electical and communications stuff went wonky. 7:26 - 😂 I can totally see me doing this down the road. Facts-Cover your windows. I like that, "I'm from everywhere." 15:30 🫂 16:47 Truth. It's all good. Shout out to Charmaine! Beautiful. Dinner looked greatThanks for sharing your week. Stay safe 💛🧡
Hugs from another that "holds breath/tears in", My ford transit connect passenger is micro mini, Im just now creating my sacred buggy on wheels. I appreciate your honest, authentic expression. I understand you!! more HUGS, i know no strangers, thank you for sharing, ur fellow introvert.
Thanks for being so honest with us. It's refreshing. Girl, a good cry is necessary. It's a cleanser and it helps us know when there are things we need to work through. I can relate with being the "black sheep" in my family. No one gets me. I have no doubt you'll find your tribe. TH-cam makes the world smaller. A word on blue light blocker glasses. Get them ASAP. The moment I started using one, no more headaches, no more night glare from other vehicles. Can't recommend enough. Keep doin yo thang, girl. Thanks for taking us along with you. Hope the camera thing works out well and quickly for you. Blessings.
Thank you for sharing all of these unforeseen events. These things happen , I believe, to challenge us. I feel that God knows how strong you are . These things just make you stronger . You handled the young lady well, the camera breaking, the men standing outside your vehicle. You did a great job because you share your day with us and it’s truly amazing to me how you get through with a sweet smile! God bless you sweetheart. God has you . He loves you . Keep doing what you’re doing and continue to stay bold. You are bold and confident, I love that ! April ❤ Va
As salamalaikum sis ❤ Eid Mubarak 🎉 I’m so glad your channel exists alhumdidullah, I’m a revert and I’ve honestly never related to a Muslim girl more than you 🥲🤲🏻✨ thanks for being so real with us 🥹🙏🏻 may Allah remove your struggles and continue to bless you and your family sis. See you on the next episode ❤️❤️❤️🌹🌹🌹✨✨✨
I should not be laughing this hard 😂 I’m literally cracking up because I’m the same way like m’am I don’t know where I live okay and work?! Child whatever gig I feel like doing that day
*hugggzzz* Those tears are cleansing. IAm that odd Human* out in myFamily and in general. As I grew older I began 2Love myDifferences. ThankHz for sharing Sister Mother Monique. Wholeness n Essence of Love ((-;
I used to cry in sujood. Now that my R knee has been replaced, getting down on my knees is challenging, and I truly, truly miss being able to prostrate before my Rabb. A belated Eid Mubarak to you btw. May He (swt) guide, guard & protect you as only He can.
Hi there. I’m a newer sub and absolutely love your videos. Honestly we have not much in common. I’m a french Canadian with kids your age. I don’t live a nomadic life. I do, however, see a beautiful girl ( inside and out) and find myself cheering you on and praying for you . Keep being you and never, ever worry about what others think about you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Wow listening to your story it made me re-evaluate the kinds of questions I'll ask as I get to know new acquaintences. I heard someone do a talk where they were comparing and contrasting how people from different cultures find certain questions really invasive and rude. And it struck a deep chord in me. Really made me think. I stopped asking certain questions to new acquaintences then, and now I have several more to add to the list.
Yeah, I relate to you in this video. I was in my car for 6 months. I had window coverings on every window. No one was ever worried about that, but I am in an area where care break In's happen a lot so I think people expect you to do what you can to prevent them. I was living in my car (small prius) but an attempted breakin (while i was in the car) made me want to shift out of the car quickly. Plus a few arguments and such in or around my car. I lived in a really populated area and found finding quiet places to sleep hard. I'm back in apartment living and working a 9 - 5. Not my plan at all. But I may have to just ride this out until I can find an out to a simpler existence. My hope is to save up for a sturdy vehicle like yours, and get a van that has less windows, and can be set up for a water system, and big enough for using the bathroom in, so I don't always have to go to places like Planet Fitness to use bathroom and shower. I'm tall and using the bathroom in the Prius was too small. In any case, I've been following your journey for like 2 years now, and you've taught me a lot about how to center your joy and happiness in how you live your life. Thanks for that. Keep thriving. I'm excited to see you camping again when you get the chance. Now that it's been a few months since the beet harvest, do feel like you might do it again? Since you might know what to expect going into it now? Or maybe some other form of seasonal work?
I can totally relate to feelings when you are the odd one & the strange tears you feel when someone touches your heart. I too just want to cry when everything seems to go wrong, or even just one thing no matter if it’s small & I have to talk myself out of it like I’m going over a ledge. But you Feel & that’s what is important ….so many people are out of touch with themselves & don’t even know it
Gurl! When u said ur dad is the only one that cries in front of the family....I fell out 😂. I wasn't expecting that. I know that's right pops, let it out! 🖤
Hi Monique! I wanted to say thanks for sharing because of your experiences I’ve been able to start my van living journey and it’s been so freeing. I love that you show the hard parts too because it is! But it is also so much fun. I appreciate you thank you
Stay Blessed 🙏🏾❤ I wish I was there to give you a hug and a shoulder to cry on don't feel shame to let your tears flow🙏🏾 God understands you sister 💕 😘
Monique, sometimes life is rough and inconvenient. Please be encouraged, pay to get whatever fixed that needs fixing, and let this short spell pass. I’m an introverted extrovert😆 and have felt different for most of my life, as well. I accept and embrace it, though, and refuse to allow others to make me feel badly. I feel isolated quite a bit, especially lately bc I had colon surgery, on top of chronic illness, which has made me not want to get out to do anything. I haven’t even bumped into strangers at the store, which is an important part of my tiny social life, because I’ve been in the house recovering. My dr wrote a RX for a light-weight electric wheelchair to help me become more mobile, hence more social. Waiting for insurance approval. I can walk, just not for long periods of time, nor can I stand for extended periods of time. 🌻Let’s be encouraged and do what we can to have a good week! Take care, hun!🥰
Thank you for this video, Monique. I completely understand how you feel. I've felt awkward most of my life also. I'm social sometimes but prefer not to be. I totally get it. Love your videos. Thank you 😊
The part where you made a friend reminded me that while being in solitude is so important, connecting with like minded people is part of the nourishment our mind, body, and spirit seek🤍🙏🏽
Hey Monique I understand what you are dealing with. I experience the same thing when I go to a masjid no one really talk to you if they don’t know you or they ask where are you from all the time to put you in a box. I live in my van, and I say I live with my daughter. Ramadhan Mubarak
Ife is not perfect all the time. I know you're frustrated but when I get that way I go into prayer and self love mode. There's bigger trials that will come our way. We must not faint, but listen to our inner spirit and move forward
I wish we could have an awkward people meet-up! I appreciate you keeping it real for us, not the stereotypical social media perfect portrayal. May you be blessed with peace, safety, and good health.
Dollar Tree is a good place to get cheap containers and they usually have lots, at least here in Canada. (Don't know how accessible a store is to you, though.) Thanks for being so real in your vid. Life is not easy and sharing your emotional moment helps us all to remember everyone is going through stuff and a little kindness to each other goes a long way.
We're in Mercury Retrograde and there's a solar eclipse tomorrow. Addicts know all about plasma donations and recycling cans along with the homeless. I hope things smooth out soon for you!
Hi, Monique. I really enjoy your videos, I can relate I'm such a introvert also, and fell misunderstood as well. Fyi Cracker barrel let's you park overnight and stay days on in. Be safe you got this!!
Your experience sounds so much like a cartoon, when the protagonist goes to a "weird" event and meets a "weird" character. 😂 I always think when things happen like that, at least we both got a story out of it 🤭
Thank you for sharing your journey and being vulnerable with us. It’s so refreshing and thoughtful of you! It makes me happy to see a sister wearing the hijab doing this. It goes to show that manifesting and trusting God makes a whole lot of a difference! I was also curious on how you keep up with the daily prayers while living in a van? Jazzakallah Khair for sharing. May Allah reward and protect you, Ameen. Ramadan Mubarak.
Hey Monique, would you do a video on fasting? I’ve heard so much info it’s overwhelming about fasting for women and the right and wrong ways to do it with hormones ect… would be great to know what you do. 🙏🏼
Hi! I don't think I know enough about fasting to make a video on it. I just try things and if I notice some abnormal side effects, I stop. If not, I'll keep doing it. I've been intermittent fasting (and doing full day fasts) for a while now and have not experienced negative effects on my hormones (or anything else), so I'm still doing it.
I’m shocked I was able to upload this video. I’ve experienced SO many technical issues over the last week. My main camera is broken, my cell phone kept refusing to upload the footage I filmed, my DJI camera wouldn’t upload footage, my laptop crashed every hour, I spent half of Friday on the phone with Apple and DJI, Final Cut Pro corrupted my video when I downloaded it, and then TH-cam stopped uploading my video halfway through the upload process. Jeesh! I didn’t get this video uploaded until 3am. Here it is, though…somehow. I hope you all have a wonderful Sunday ❤. I appreciate you.
Mercury Retrograde is upon us
Happy Sunday Simple Enough
Get thee behind her…….Amen
You stay in my Prayers!
🫂 to you Monique 💙🐢
Well, you just keep having chances to prove to yourself just how strong GOD made you. Shedding tears of frustration is natural and nothing to be embarrassed about. I can definitely relate to the feeling of being different. We appreciate you, too.
Woahhh… that is some effort you put into this!! It can be so so frustrating when ‘everything’ seems to conspire against the task we want to complete
Your tenacity paid off! Many thanks for another beautiful video with your focus on ‘real van life’ … this is what I come here for.. I started following you when you lived in your car, and have always been so admiring of your persistence, and your calm demeanour… when I ‘grow up’ 😂 I would like to have the character traits of you and Lady Bugout (another van dweller) …
Monique, never feel bad about crying. It isn't a sign of weakness, it's a sign that you are a feeling, sensitive human being. I know everyone who watches your videos can empathize and relate to you. I sure can! It was very brave of you to share....sending much love from California, from a fellow introvert. 💞
Thank you ❤️
Agreed. Trust your instincts about your safety and cry whenever you feel the need.
My beautiful young sister, you have such a beautiful blessed spirit. I know the Most High is watching over every aspect of your life. You are a true inspiration for women of all ages. I salute your honesty, integrity and that you are transparent and real. Just keep being you, love ya beautiful
Thank you ❤️
crying IS very therapeutic.
thank you for sharing that vulnerable moment.
I spent 5 hrs at the local park yesterday and walked 7.1 miles💚💛🧡
I just flat out talk to myself! People look at me funny! I could care less what they think
I find this hilarious in remembering back to when I first noticed people starting to talk aloud in the grocery store, and they would say, "hello, hello," and I would turn and say, "hey! How are you?" Only to realize that they're trying to speak to someone on a phone. 😂
Now, I just answer them whether they are talking to me or not.
I have no idea, but at least I spoke.
Re: talking to self...I started looking at it as I'm never really talking to myself..... Because somewhere someone out there who looks like me is talking to me, too!😊
Makes sense to me!🎉
P.S. Good for you on the 7+ mile walk!
I'm up to about 4 miles a day walking the halls of my elementary school when they're clear of little legs.
@@kimberlyc84 I’m feeling it today Kimberly
lol!
I talk to myself and its so embarrassing im gonna try to rethink it like this. I literally need to think out loud or i cant hear my own thoughts lol
What an incredibly real video. Thank you for sharing and trusting us. I literally laughed and cried with you. The story of the girl sitting by you and security was priceless.
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Tears are healing. Emotions are valid. You are wonderful. 💜
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I just started hugging you through the phone!! ❤❤❤cry love cry, it's perfectly fine
I'm a dad, I have a home, I live in a big city, a Christian, but I find you relatable. Like, if your spirit was giving off a frequency that you feel is maybe undetectable, it's not. You are not weird. The frequency thing is a weird analogy to use by I won't delete it coz I sense you'll get it. Stay safe out there and praying you hit your short-term and long-term goals.
Thank you ❤️
It makes me want give her hug. She is very relatable I am very shy and awkward. I feel like I never fit in anywhere.
It’s nice to have a community of people who think the same as you do, you’re never truly alone 💕 Just remember, this is only a bump in the larger plan you have for yourself!
Our miracles are about to come to fruition so hang tough Monique!
So many of us are in the same place either in a van, house, car, truck, street! I’m here to help you keep your head up! I appreciate you also!!!!! There are no coincidences! It’s just another test Sister
MuchLove Colette
I am in my 70’s and bc of language barrier and culture difference’s I tried for decades to assimilate to American culture but could not! It’s been 50 yrs of torment for me bc ppl don’t understand me and I can’t understand their way of thinking! So I’ve been isolated all these decades but now I finally have free from trying to assimilate! It’s only by the grace of God that I’ve been freed. I really enjoy listening to you bc you make so much sense. Stay safe.
I can totally relate to you feeling different, not being able to do small talk, being an introvert, a “cave woman”, living in isolation, not being understood. I am all of that. I also have had to “pretend” to be like the “others”. It is draining. Now I don’t care anymore, not worth the exhaustion. Those who follow you surely can also relate. You are not alone 🤗💕
If you like parking around semi trucks in certain places you would probably benefit from Trucker Path which is a free app meant for truckers but useful for Rovers, Van Lifers as well because it shows you location and info regarding parking places like Walmarts, Lowe’s, truck stops, rest areas and has a comment review section for others previous feedback/experience.
Im a retired trucker which my channel was dedicated toward. I was solo cross country so I know about keeping safe and how to find parking for semi and van living as I’ve done that too.
The way you explained to us where you’re from is a perfect answer “nowhere and everywhere”. I love that actually.
Thank you for this tip! I just downloaded the app 😊.
I go through similar. My whole life feeling like I a a stranger in a strange land. For me, it turns out I am neurodivergent. It took figuring out that the folks I found I vibed with the best have always been a tribe of folks who were basically also this, hahahah. So now when I go through all the trials and tribulations I now know it's just that I really AM different and that's totally okay. I don't have to try to figure it out as much. Now I do everything I can to prioritise my solitude, do my own thing unapologetically and feel my feels (or not) and explore the world on my terms as best as possible.
We as humans want to connect, just not all of us want to do it in the same ways...
I enjoy your content so much. It is very soothing to watch.
Hello Monique... You do nomad life so well. It's nothing to be ashamed of. You're an inspiration.
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Omg her videos are so relaxing, unintentional asmr. When she put that choir type music I nodded off
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This was particularly relatable! I don't have the standard, 'acceptable to much of society', answers to those questions either, and I often feel awkward because of other's reactions to anything outside of their comfort zone.
I'm not a van lifer, but I love watching your channel, along with others. I enjoy seeing others living differently. I love the travel aspect and vicariously visiting more places too. Content matters, but who people are - specifically their authenticity - makes a channel worth watching for me. Thank you for sharing.
Glad you made a nice connection with Charmaine (not sure if I spelt the name correctly).
Good luck getting the camera fixed.
Hi from Scotland, UK, by the way. 👋
Hi 👋🏾 and thank you ❤️.
I relate to so few humans I was starting to wonder about me. It was very refreshing to hear someone else express a lot of the feelings I’ve only expressed to my dog.
It seems like you're experiencing a range of emotions, mainly when things don't go as planned. For instance, your camera isn't working, and you're also having issues with your iPad. It's normal to feel frustrated or cry when things don't go smoothly; sometimes, it can feel like everything is falling apart. It is common for people, including myself, to talk to themselves frequently. I find that practicing meditation and taking time to decompress help me better manage my emotions. I enjoyed watching this video and am excited to see the upcoming episodes. 💜💜💜💜
It’s okay Monique! It happens to me regularly and I don’t have a period!
I’m crying right now with you! I get you truly understand
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I've always considered myself a non conformist. Outsider, walking past, cause most outsiders looking wondering what they're missing. Express what you need to express when you need to express it
You are the 1st Muslim woman who has a van life. This is admirable! I am very intetested in living in a tiny house with my cats some day. I want a big garden, tbh. 😁 I gotta say that I chsnged from being an introvert into an extrovert over the years. I am happy talking with people just for the sake of making jokes (I mainly make the jokes and study their reactions). But I live like an hermit with my 2 cats. I enjoy the healing moments of silence.
It is suspicious as heck that that girl was interrogating you on your address. WTH? Like once you said your city, what is the pressure? What you just said about the military brat thing is the perfect answer. I am a military brat, I live everywhere. I am glad you are finally normalizing crying in front of people. Vulnerability is power. It is not natural to hold back tears. Amen it is therapeutic indeed! Blessings
Emotions are what makes us humans.. I got emotional the other day as well ,and at the same time I felt grateful for actually having those feelings. Thanks for sharing your videos!
Honestly, Please do not judge a book by its cover. May be the girl you met would have loved to know your experiences and would have found it super cool and inspiring. I feel you yourself feel more awkward about it and that makes you feel others would, too. Give them a chance, even though you may have had bad experiences with some, most people love to hear about experiences they don't (or cannot) have. You are such a badass, strong-headed, insprirational woman. You are doing what many of us don't. I would love to randomly bump into someone like you (although, may be you won't being an introvert 🙂)
Please cry it out! You are a real person! That is who you are ❤
Monique, same, I have never felt like I fit anywhere. You have a community here! ❤️
I’m a new subscriber and I thoroughly enjoy your videos. You are so poised and strong. You are also intelligent , soft and vulnerable. What a beautiful spirit you are. 🤗
Thank you very much 😊❤️
Sorry you had so many technical issues!
Your attitude about socializing reminds me of me when I was your age. Your honesty on this vlog is priceless, and you have no idea how precious you are. Keep up the remarkable efforts.
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Good on you meeting Charmaine, she seems like good people 🎉
Thank you for sharing. I was so honored to receive the replies from you 😊. YT is a very special place where people who are authentic will always connect with others on a whole other level. Unfortunately, this is why I had to temporarily stop my channel… however I do look forward to my return soon! 🙌🏽 I really appreciate the YT community of positive, supportive people! I’ve been fortunate to have formed some very solid friendships with people I actually met and keep in touch with IRL. As humans we are all connected when we are truly ourselves! 🩷
The camera button is wild! I hope that you get your camera back soon. I am glad that you were able to send it back for repair/replacement.
The security should have already known you got out of that van if they were so concerned, and with that many people. It's rude to ask about your vehicle.
I personally am very impressed by your determination to go for what you want. I had an old friend who gave me an assessment of my personality. When I told him that I was an introvert. He told me that I suffered from PTSD. I'm like me for childhood abuse by my mother that hated my father, and I looked just like him. I think that he said that, because I have little problem talking when I want to. You can talk when you want to. You are extroverting yourself by showing your life. I always remember that knowledge is power. Few people have the courage to do what you are doing. Be proud of it. This is the land of the free and the home of the brave. Ask them! They'll tell you! You must always be vigilante. Crackerbox or not. That's what I consider apartment living. Some billion getting rich off of draining my resources. Keep on MOVING girl!
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Thanks for sharing your life. I get you and making plans to start my life on the road.
It is okay too cry. You are kind and sensitive. Your videos are wonderful and I appreciate. All the work you put into them. With editing and any problems that come up. In addition to working and cooking also cleaning. Don’t be so hard on yourself honey.
Every time I watch you, you warm my heart. You’re so authentically you. You present as very grounded in the present and yearning for grown and knowledge. You’re an inspiration to me and I’m sure nearly all of us watching. Thanks for sharing and being a source of light on this platform. 🤍
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Your vulnerability is healing and inspiring! Thank you for posting this video. One of my favs! And I am usually here for the food 😂
You do you! No explanations necessary. You are not obligated to give any answers. If you feel like crying, sit with it and cry. It’s all okay💕
I completely understand. I also don’t fit into a box. ‘Where are you from?, has never been a simple question to answer. People want to put you in a box and when you don’t fit, things often get awkward.. We are outliers because of how we think and our unique upbringing. Big hugs, Sis.
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Hello beautiful. You are not weird. There is nothing wrong with being an introvert. I'm outgoing and too friendly, but relate to anyone. When I meet people who ask too many questions that I don't want to answer, I smile & politely say I'd rather not answer. Don't feel compelled to answer every question a stranger ask. It's okay to cry when you need to. I can't wait for you to buy your land & hopefully share your experience. I pray your camera is fixed quickly & you have safe & fun travels. Our cycles will have our emotions all over the place . I'm sure not having your things organized & upcoming cycle played a major role with your mood . Many blessings.❤❤🎉🎉🎉
I feel like you just described my entire life and my entire personality. I'm so tired of the awkward looks because of my answers. If no one else understands, God understands. I love you listening to you speak. I appreciate your aunthenticity. Shalom.
Thank you ❤️. Shalom.
Monique, dear - I just watched this video - late I know - but I'm so glad I did. We are so blessed to have someone so gentle and truthful to tell us all about vanlife and ALL its realities. Your tears are perfectly understandable - you experienced true compassion as you've rarely experienced it outside your immediate family. Those of us who are different in any significant way - even not so obvious ones - can totally understand the tears of feeling like someone finally understands... 🥺 💖 🙏🏼 I pray many blessings come your way, for you are such a beautiful and helpful creation from God.
Thank you, so much. I really appreciate all of the comments you’ve been leaving ❤️.
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I’m glad you cry when you need to stay blessed, thank you for sharing
I’m a blackjack dealer. Every time someone ask where I’m from.. I lie 😂😂 I hate when they ask so many personal questions.
Hey girl, i know how u feel being very different from others there's nothing wrong with that being authentic, and unique that's how god created us😊
Yes blue light is a real thing, and it emanate from all screens. Blue light blocks melatonin, the hormone that makes you sleepy, and increases the hormone that keeps you awake. Also, eye strain from looking at bright screens for ling periods can definitely give you a headache. I would try turning down the brightness. That helped me. God bless you and keep you safe!
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Omg Monique this made me emotional too ! It was so nice meeting you. Your truly beautiful inside and out. I know exactly what you mean about intrusive questions. I get the same way when people start asking tons of questions. It can be very overwhelming. I'm so glad you feel comfortable sharing with all of my us. I'm truly touched ❤
Thank you, Charmaine 😊😊❤️.
Awwwwwww those are healthy tears! Emotions make you cry sometimes and it's OKAY! Plus I get in my feelings before my cycle too...I be like WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU!! But it's okay. I love your videos they are so Genuine! Continue to be Blessed ❤
You have such a positive impact on me. Thank you.
It was the Mercury Retrograde, my friend. All kinds of electical and communications stuff went wonky. 7:26 - 😂 I can totally see me doing this down the road. Facts-Cover your windows. I like that, "I'm from everywhere." 15:30 🫂 16:47 Truth. It's all good. Shout out to Charmaine! Beautiful. Dinner looked greatThanks for sharing your week. Stay safe 💛🧡
I love that I came across your page. It is so refreshing to follow an awesome person such as yourself who is real and true to themselves. ❤
It’s all good my sister…let the tears flow and continue to be YOU🙏🏽❤️
Hugs from another that "holds breath/tears in", My ford transit connect passenger is micro mini, Im just now creating my sacred buggy on wheels. I appreciate your honest, authentic expression. I understand you!! more HUGS, i know no strangers, thank you for sharing, ur fellow introvert.
Thanks for being so honest with us. It's refreshing. Girl, a good cry is necessary. It's a cleanser and it helps us know when there are things we need to work through. I can relate with being the "black sheep" in my family. No one gets me. I have no doubt you'll find your tribe. TH-cam makes the world smaller. A word on blue light blocker glasses. Get them ASAP. The moment I started using one, no more headaches, no more night glare from other vehicles. Can't recommend enough. Keep doin yo thang, girl. Thanks for taking us along with you. Hope the camera thing works out well and quickly for you. Blessings.
Thanks for the info! I'm going to order some soon.
Thank you for sharing all of these unforeseen events. These things happen , I believe, to challenge us. I feel that God knows how strong you are . These things just make you stronger . You handled the young lady well, the camera breaking, the men standing outside your vehicle. You did a great job because you share your day with us and it’s truly amazing to me how you get through with a sweet smile! God bless you sweetheart. God has you . He loves you . Keep doing what you’re doing and continue to stay bold. You are bold and confident, I love that !
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As salamalaikum sis ❤ Eid Mubarak 🎉 I’m so glad your channel exists alhumdidullah, I’m a revert and I’ve honestly never related to a Muslim girl more than you 🥲🤲🏻✨ thanks for being so real with us 🥹🙏🏻 may Allah remove your struggles and continue to bless you and your family sis. See you on the next episode ❤️❤️❤️🌹🌹🌹✨✨✨
I should not be laughing this hard 😂 I’m literally cracking up because I’m the same way like m’am I don’t know where I live okay and work?! Child whatever gig I feel like doing that day
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*hugggzzz* Those tears are cleansing. IAm that odd Human* out in myFamily and in general. As I grew older I began 2Love myDifferences. ThankHz for sharing Sister Mother Monique. Wholeness n Essence of Love ((-;
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I used to cry in sujood. Now that my R knee has been replaced, getting down on my knees is challenging, and I truly, truly miss being able to prostrate before my Rabb. A belated Eid Mubarak to you btw. May He (swt) guide, guard & protect you as only He can.
Eid Mubarak ❤️
Let it out, if you feel like crying, cry. Don't hold it in.
There's nothing wrong with crying hun, n its your period that's on its way. Glad mine stopped, i couldn't stand it! We're are for you❤
Hi there. I’m a newer sub and absolutely love your videos. Honestly we have not much in common. I’m a french Canadian with kids your age. I don’t live a nomadic life. I do, however, see a beautiful girl ( inside and out) and find myself cheering you on and praying for you . Keep being you and never, ever worry about what others think about you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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You really earned whatever joy you got from that beautiful meal! What a rough couple of days & then of course time of the month comes along
Prayers for your continued success 🙏🏽
Wow listening to your story it made me re-evaluate the kinds of questions I'll ask as I get to know new acquaintences. I heard someone do a talk where they were comparing and contrasting how people from different cultures find certain questions really invasive and rude. And it struck a deep chord in me. Really made me think. I stopped asking certain questions to new acquaintences then, and now I have several more to add to the list.
Yeah, I relate to you in this video. I was in my car for 6 months. I had window coverings on every window. No one was ever worried about that, but I am in an area where care break In's happen a lot so I think people expect you to do what you can to prevent them.
I was living in my car (small prius) but an attempted breakin (while i was in the car) made me want to shift out of the car quickly. Plus a few arguments and such in or around my car. I lived in a really populated area and found finding quiet places to sleep hard. I'm back in apartment living and working a 9 - 5. Not my plan at all. But I may have to just ride this out until I can find an out to a simpler existence. My hope is to save up for a sturdy vehicle like yours, and get a van that has less windows, and can be set up for a water system, and big enough for using the bathroom in, so I don't always have to go to places like Planet Fitness to use bathroom and shower. I'm tall and using the bathroom in the Prius was too small.
In any case, I've been following your journey for like 2 years now, and you've taught me a lot about how to center your joy and happiness in how you live your life. Thanks for that. Keep thriving.
I'm excited to see you camping again when you get the chance.
Now that it's been a few months since the beet harvest, do feel like you might do it again? Since you might know what to expect going into it now? Or maybe some other form of seasonal work?
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Oh baby, l know the feeling. Let it go. Let it flow. Understandable. Much love from Neptune City New Jersey !😊
I can totally relate to feelings when you are the odd one & the strange tears you feel when someone touches your heart. I too just want to cry when everything seems to go wrong, or even just one thing no matter if it’s small & I have to talk myself out of it like I’m going over a ledge. But you Feel & that’s what is important ….so many people are out of touch with themselves & don’t even know it
Hopefully you keep in touch with Charmaine . It may be good to Vibe with her once in a while. Good for the soul ❤
Gurl! When u said ur dad is the only one that cries in front of the family....I fell out 😂. I wasn't expecting that. I know that's right pops, let it out! 🖤
I understand how you feel, I feel like the girl is the only one who didn’t make you feel scrutinized. You’re beautiful and absolutely normal ❤
Thanks for being transparent. I am trying RV living in May in NJ and NY.
Hi Monique! I wanted to say thanks for sharing because of your experiences I’ve been able to start my van living journey and it’s been so freeing. I love that you show the hard parts too because it is! But it is also so much fun. I appreciate you thank you
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Stay Blessed 🙏🏾❤ I wish I was there to give you a hug and a shoulder to cry on don't feel shame to let your tears flow🙏🏾 God understands you sister 💕 😘
That looked really good at the end, thank you for sharing a sliver of your life with me🔥👍🏿✋🏿
Monique, sometimes life is rough and inconvenient. Please be encouraged, pay to get whatever fixed that needs fixing, and let this short spell pass. I’m an introverted extrovert😆 and have felt different for most of my life, as well. I accept and embrace it, though, and refuse to allow others to make me feel badly. I feel isolated quite a bit, especially lately bc I had colon surgery, on top of chronic illness, which has made me not want to get out to do anything. I haven’t even bumped into strangers at the store, which is an important part of my tiny social life, because I’ve been in the house recovering. My dr wrote a RX for a light-weight electric wheelchair to help me become more mobile, hence more social. Waiting for insurance approval. I can walk, just not for long periods of time, nor can I stand for extended periods of time. 🌻Let’s be encouraged and do what we can to have a good week! Take care, hun!🥰
I hope insurance doesn't take forever on that approval. Thank you for the encouragement ❤️❤️.
Thank you for this video, Monique. I completely understand how you feel. I've felt awkward most of my life also. I'm social sometimes but prefer not to be. I totally get it. Love your videos. Thank you 😊
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I’m happy that you met Charmaine!
I look forward to your videos!
You’re more than welcome! ☮️💟
Me, too! Thank you 😊
The part where you made a friend reminded me that while being in solitude is so important, connecting with like minded people is part of the nourishment our mind, body, and spirit seek🤍🙏🏽
I see you and I are alike in a way When I’m Frustrated I go straight to bed . I always do this and start fresh the next day ❤
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Hey Monique I understand what you are dealing with. I experience the same thing when I go to a masjid no one really talk to you if they don’t know you or they ask where are you from all the time to put you in a box. I live in my van, and I say I live with my daughter. Ramadhan Mubarak
Ife is not perfect all the time. I know you're frustrated but when I get that way I go into prayer and self love mode. There's bigger trials that will come our way. We must not faint, but listen to our inner spirit and move forward
I wish we could have an awkward people meet-up! I appreciate you keeping it real for us, not the stereotypical social media perfect portrayal. May you be blessed with peace, safety, and good health.
I understand you very well 😌 and I send you all my love 🤲🤗. Always forward 👣👣. Thank you for being the way you are 🙏.
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Dollar Tree is a good place to get cheap containers and they usually have lots, at least here in Canada. (Don't know how accessible a store is to you, though.) Thanks for being so real in your vid. Life is not easy and sharing your emotional moment helps us all to remember everyone is going through stuff and a little kindness to each other goes a long way.
Thanks for the tip! Don't know how I forgot about dollar tree. Love that store!
We're in Mercury Retrograde and there's a solar eclipse tomorrow. Addicts know all about plasma donations and recycling cans along with the homeless. I hope things smooth out soon for you!
Hi, Monique. I really enjoy your videos, I can relate I'm such a introvert also, and fell misunderstood as well. Fyi Cracker barrel let's you park overnight and stay days on in. Be safe you got this!!
Put your items in the back and close your curtains. If anyone look in your window they will only see front seats.😊
The story is super funny though😂😂😂😂 it's great😂😂❤❤❤
I enjoy watching your videos, it’s so soothing. 🙏🏾
Cry when you need to, It helps to release stress.😊😊😊
Your experience sounds so much like a cartoon, when the protagonist goes to a "weird" event and meets a "weird" character. 😂
I always think when things happen like that, at least we both got a story out of it 🤭
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You can only do. Your. Best. Don’t. Worry. About the. Rest ❤️
Thank you for sharing your journey and being vulnerable with us. It’s so refreshing and thoughtful of you! It makes me happy to see a sister wearing the hijab doing this. It goes to show that manifesting and trusting God makes a whole lot of a difference! I was also curious on how you keep up with the daily prayers while living in a van? Jazzakallah Khair for sharing. May Allah reward and protect you, Ameen. Ramadan Mubarak.
Thank you ❤️. I pray standing up in my van. I have to bend my knees and crouch a little, but I can still stand.
I totally understand how u feel Monique. ❤❤❤
Crying releases all the toxins in the brain for clarity and your mental well-being and letting go.
Ya gotta love #solovanlife #community Blessings dear one🌱
Hey Monique, would you do a video on fasting? I’ve heard so much info it’s overwhelming about fasting for women and the right and wrong ways to do it with hormones ect… would be great to know what you do. 🙏🏼
Hi! I don't think I know enough about fasting to make a video on it. I just try things and if I notice some abnormal side effects, I stop. If not, I'll keep doing it. I've been intermittent fasting (and doing full day fasts) for a while now and have not experienced negative effects on my hormones (or anything else), so I'm still doing it.