I'm autistic and adhd and my thing was meth. It really helped me gain the energy to overcome my "demand avoidance" and executive function failures. I can't believe there's not more research in autism and addiction being that drugs run rampant in the autism community.
idk if its because I'm severely depressed, but meth has helped me a lot too. I've never smoked it, or binged on it. It helped me keep my last job, because as soon as I ran out, I got burnt out and quit.
Same. It didn't help my anxiety at all but it did make me do social stuff where I developed PTSD. cause being around felons and addicts and crazy stuff happening :/ 3 years clean now
Hello so I got in a relationship with my partner 3 years ago and we had two kids he been addicted to drugs but we moved to Minot and he got a hold of meth he became very abusive when he thought I cheated he would lash out and forget what he does he started being very distant and he gain. a hobby of shoot birds and I noticed that something is wrong because how bad acts isn't normal Recently we were moving and I'm not sure why he was so upset but my son had spilled water on him and it made him over the top angry he throw the food everywhere got out and was walking back and forwards and I lock the car bc my kids were crying and scared he got mad I didn't let him in itase him even more upset he was just everywhere he end up tryna break his way in the car I let him in after I felt like he clam down and his whole mood change the cops came and drug him out the car he then called me from jail and was so up set and keep asking me if in still with him and he doesn't remember anything and he hate that he gets like that with me he doesn't know why he blames the drug but says that it helps him control his self he use to move his leg alot and tap his fingers and when he gets real frustrated he yells or leaves and he drives fast and i dont know why but he says it calms him down and shoot birds does to but like to the extreme he would keep his bbgun rt by him and his bbs for it and would stop anywhere to shoit something and always wants me to look and would get mad if i didnt want him to bring it he would spend hours doing that and now he is in jail and i just thought about this disorder bc it reminds me kd him alot and he has to smoke weed or his meth like a much when he git angry he has to hit it and he misuse it so much and i wanna get him check bc if he has that with trauma from childhood and he mistreats drugs he needs help not to be punish and his mom knows there is something wrong but she just babys him and gives him money for the drugs instead of getting him help he has been telling me he needs help but never tells me what's wrong like I could be talking to him and he would be like okay I'm go smoke or ask can I smoke now or when he does something nice he like gets nervous and turns angry fast like if we all looking at him it's like he freaks out and just wanna run away from the attention I just wanna know from you reading this does it seem like he could have it I did a test with him before online and it said he had it high and it would make sense bc how he gets angry with him or hits his self and when I say I'm leave he freaks out and he is only like this with me no one else but he is a good person just seems like lately he is having a very hard time controlling his self and having trouble talking to people and his reactions or just over bored and he hates it bc he crys to me about it he says he doenst know whats wrong with him but let me remind you this was his first time leaving his mom house he moved hours away and she knew how to clam him and only she knows how to I think she knows he has a problem but she doesnt get it look at she just gives him what he wants to make him feel better but it made him a drug addict and he lost in his mind doesnt know how to cope or handle his emtions and hate his self bc how he treats me and he says he doesnt know why he lashes out how be does or beats hiself up but i feel like he has the disorder and his mom never got it look at and now since he is living by his self be doesnt know how to controll his self bc his mom use to have to clam him down he never is clam his self
I was late diagnosed audhd and have been addicted to every substance you could name, been sober for quite a while now. Looking back I think I found refuge in drug culture because it was a community where weird and unusual behaviour was expected so you could fit in as an autistic person and of course escaping pain and trauma
I very much agree. However, in retrospect, it is kind of comedic that there were hard core narcotics addicts saying that I seemed to be "not all there."
I’m autistic and I’ve been a 2 pack a day cigarette smoker for 20 years. I’m also a heavy weed smoker, I smoke almost an ounce of weed every week. I spent my childhood in a group home where I was physically and verbally abused by the staff on a daily basis, and I even became homeless for three years once I aged out of group home care once I turned 18. That’s when I took up smoking both cigarettes and weed, as it became the only way for me to escape the trauma from my past
@@turquoisemama33 yep. I'd give anything to be able to quit smoking though. I've quit 1,000 times, I've talked to my doctor, I've tried the spray, the patch, the gum, but nothing ever works for me. I wouldn't wish the health issues I experience on a daily basis on my worst enemy. I can't even walk up stairs without getting out of breath, I wake up every morning with a violent cough, all my clothes and all the furniture in my apartment has a fixed stench of cigarettes and weed now, like I wouldn't wish this shit on my worst enemy
@@HalJordan0 I care about you enough to tell you straight up. You have to deal with the trauma. You have to get rid of any bitterness. You have to forgive. Not an easy process, it could take years. But, the sooner you start, the sooner the wanted result. Praying for you.
Oh my gosh I love this video. I was diagnosed with bpd and now they saying autism and ADHD. I struggled with opiates, they make me feel normal like I can live like a normal person! I thought what is wrong with me. It's exhausting just living sometimes, the noise and lights and constantly trying to figure people out.
Cannabis and occasional psychedelic use in safe settings has been beneficial for me. I want to do a PhD on these types of substances in clinical settings for treating and healing autistic burn out, trauma, and related mental health conditions due to camouflaging and other stressors related to living in a neurotypical world and being autistic.
For quite some time ive used mushrooms for "processing" whatever was going in in my life at the time. The integration was definitely the difficult part, but in retrospect doing psychedelics has given me insight to my own psyche and deeper understaning as to why i am the way i am. Didnt know i was Asp/autistic unti last year so this info fills in a gap within my mind
Thank you so much for making this video, this particular niche isn't getting attention for whatever reason. Thank you for spreading awareness and fostering connection. You havve a beautiful soul & I hope you are okay and have peace and love in your life ♥️
Wow…we have had a lot of the same experiences, for the same reasons. I had Opioid Use Disorder and am still struggling with PTSD and am autistic. I also have a diagnosis of bipolar disorder, but several of the features are similar to autism, like sleep issues and getting deeply absorbed in specific interests, for longe periods, so I’m not sure if it’s a co-occurring disorder, or mislabeling, sometimes. I think it’s probably accurate, because I haven’t heard of many autistic people who went on spending sprees, often, before they were treated and I did! Thanks for making yourself visible and sharing some of your journey with us! I strongly support both Peer Recovery and Harm Reduction. You are doing great things! ❤
I‘m autistic too and was in a very deep hole of coke. It made me feel social I finally could talk openly and energetic to strangers. I overshared a lot and told them things about me I wouldn‘t even tell my mirror. The high was so good everytime but man the comedown.. I felt really depressed for the next 3 days or so had no energy and my mask falls everytime on comedown. I hate everything about myself in that moment. I thought I could handle it but it just drains me.
@@kissfan8675309 microdosing 🍄has saved my life. No come downs or withdrawl to deal with. It calms down my brain and all my anxiety goes away so I'm able to socialize without the awkwardness, it's amazing. It won't make you feel like you're tripping, it's just enough to make you more clear minded and you're perfectly functional.
Im an autistic teenager who’s trans and has major ptsd. I got really into oxy when I was 15. I had a prescription due to pain but I started using it to feel nothing. To feel free. I knew drugs was bad and I told myself I’d never use drugs but I did. My use got to the point where couldn’t go to school unless I had my oxy, I couldn’t function and have to mask if I didn’t get them. I’ve been able to get clean by myself. My parents don’t know I’ve struggled. I’ve ruined several relationships due to my use and I feel really bad but I’m gonna break the cycle. I’ve been clean of oxy and benzos since July 2023.
I'm kinda getting emotional watching this!😢because,,I have recently got clean,but I'm fifty odd years old and feel like a fish out of water without street drugs,but the addiction got out of control and nearly killed me several times,but now like I said,a fish out of water is how I feel.
Nicotine, weed, and kratom are my drugs of choice and I use them all at the same time. Drug pairing is a really bad habit I have. Idk if I’m autistic or adhd or just have anxiety. It’s really hard to tell. I’ve spoken with therapists that say I might have adhd because my brother has it, but he’s more hyperactive and I’m not. I don’t want to self diagnose. Ever since I was a kid I felt a sense of falling behind everyone and not fitting in. Social gatherings became a nightmare especially in college where I am now. Smoking a shitload of weed and drinking til I was basically stupid was the only way for me to cope back in those days. I don’t really do social events anymore because I binge drink every time and I like alcohol too much and don’t want to be an alcoholic like my dad or stepmom. When I became an adult I also realized that my parents are both very odd in comparison to the rest of society. Both incredibly anxious people. I wish I could make the daily anxiety I feel go away, I am tired of embarrassing myself every hour. Long comment, thanks for sticking around lol
I medicinally use meth am I a horrible person? I do not get twacked I eat healthy brush my teeth and shower and sleep everynight. without it I'd probably still be a heavy drinker and heroin addict 1 year clean from thos but I use meth to curb my Nerodivergence and it works great I'm able to hold a job and have conversations and not have existential dread and I like doing stuff when before if I made plans I couldn't wait to cancel them and isolate. please tell me I'm not bad.
Awesome fucking heroic video. Ace, and a salute to you Millie, and the people behind this channel. What about Cannabis? Have you tried Cannabis? Or even CBD? Or even 1:1 ratio of CBD with THC? Lastly what about psychedelics like Shrooms, DMT, Ayahuasca, Ibogaine, and Salvia? Peace.
I'm autistic and have ADHD and for a really long time substances helped me relax around people and also not be bothered by sounds, smells etc in social situations. Discovering ketamine felt like coming back to a friend I never knew I had, it got out of control though so now I'm just trying to raw dog reality
Being bullied by bad environments can be avoided be keeping away from bad environments. We all can be bullied by exposing ourselves to bad environments. Autism and Neuro Diverse people learn that we have choices. Using drugs and substances is also a choice. Try to find someone where we are not bullied. Avoid being bullied by chemicals. Avoid bad environments.
I was NEVER a rule follower. I was unable to follow rules if I tried, but I seldom tried. I used a lot of drugs when young. Then I got into recovery at age 23. But I sometimes used for medical reasons. Now that I am older, I am having low energy and chronic pain, so I do take a little this and that to get through the night sometimes. I don't buy street drugs at all, because the stuff on the USA is absolute poison, and besides, I don't want to go back to being an REAL active drug addict these days. Evan, just booze would kill me fairly quickly, I think. And getting prescribed painkillers prescribed in the USA is damned near impossible these days. So the stuff I use is pretty mild, like over the counter cough syrup, Valium tea, CBD, and Neurontin, and so forth, and coffee. My mother, father, and aunt all started getting severe arthritis in their fifties and were really bad off by their sixties, and they all used intoxicants of one sort or another to deal with it. I was kind of judgmental, but not so much now, especially when doctors are confirming my situation, but have no more advice to give them "Don't walk much."
omg I cannot believe how many similarities there are between my case and yours, I started doing drugs to cope with overstimulation and trauma as well, and opiates were my drug of choice, for a year and a half it worked way better than prescribed medication, after that I started going downhill and overdosing frequently, now I'm 2 months clean, it's very very hard but it's possible
I have ADHD and I'm also autistic, which means I'm neurodivergent. I had an anxiety attack when I lost my phone and I wasn't able to control my emotions or overall physique during that moment in my life. I have my own way for my Autism and ADHD when I'm by myself in my room and practicing my method of self-care and self- compassion.
In my 60s now and very late diagnosed. At this stage in my life I rarely drink, never smoke or take any drugs but that was not always the case. In my youth I used drugs and alcohol to try to fit in and take the edge off the relentless anxiety but it really was not effective for long. The one class of drugs that really did change my life experience was psychedelics. Looking back, it seems a natural choice for neurodivergence. It doesn't take much and I don't consider it recreational or casual by any stretch. It served more or less as a complete unmasking of self and the world around. I was able to connect dots and recognize patterns that had so long eluded me. It helped a great deal with PTSD and CPTSD. I'm not an advocate for masking pain and distress with drugs and alcohol. LSD, mushrooms or other such substances in a well planned, thoughtfully considered setting can be highly therapeutic. It's been many years since I've been on that journey but I expect there may be one more trip before I'm done.
I quit smoking weed for about six months, during which time i slipped deeper and deeper into a depressed state. I had occasion to smoke one little hit and suddenly i was BACK!!!! I felt so much better. It did not solve my problems and brought other problems i dont like, like drowsiness and munchies. Hate that part.
I was self-aware about my addiction. I was ruthless about my routine because of it. I recently started to go AA because I relapsed during covid pretty terribly.
My roommate has untreated autism and doesn’t go to therapy or anything like that. He drinks from right when he gets up until when he goes to bed and he chain smokes cigarettes and also smokes a lot of weed.This all started a year ago. Before that he seemed clean aside from some weed. Now I’m wondering if it’s ethical to just be around this and not say anything or do anything. His family lives far away and doesn’t know. He is 35 ish.
Disclaimer: These are suggestions only. I don't know the situation and you are under no obligation to care for your roommate. If you want to help him and feel able, perhaps you could offer to take him to therapy (specifically, autism-centred therapy, if possible) or to the doctor for a check-up? You could even offer to stay during the appointment or do the talking for him. It might help to have him write out his immediate difficulties so that you can read them out for him if he struggles to verbalise his problems. Autistic people often struggle with self care but some will go along with it if you offer a practical helping hand. If he gets on well with his family, you might want to quietly let somebody know of the situation so that they may be able to help. On the other hand, this might be unhelpful if they are not in good terms. At the end of the day, it is not your job to look after your roommate. If your roommate's lifestyle is impacting on you, you might want to find a new roommate when you can. Good luck, however you choose to proceed.
Super functional authisam and opiates. Was on heroin 15 years back, then long break between only party drugs MDMA and so on, and from the last year kratom codeine oxycodone. Kratom was for me like a dream, similar to heroin, very social, natural, no side effects. But I am learning to low dose it, I just take 1-2 spoons once a day or even every 36-48 hours. Less you use, stronger and longer the effect
Yes. Kratom works very well w me too. Improved every aspect of my life. Very similar to the energy / euphoric effect of a low dose of oxycodone but all natural & legal & dont need a script for it as u do w oxycodone. Also its very inexpensive & available. Im very thankful for it. Thx
Kratom got me off the worse drugs, but I take a lot now and am definitely addicted. I start having withdrawals (exactly like opiate withdrawals) every four hours on the dot and need to take more. So there is that risk, BUT it has been the absolute only way I can function amongst society and in my relationships so I will probably never stop. Try and keep the dose your at now and you shouldn't experience any negative side effects (like withdrawals) I take so much, too embarrassed to even say how much. 🤦🏼♀️
U know when they describe healthy coping skills they are referring to someone who gone through a minimal amount of BS. This is not you, and u therefore deserve to have amped up support system to comfort u n give u some relief now, not suffer for another couple years while they attempt to psychoanalyse u. Then comes the trial of publically approved meds that make u sick, addicted and don't work. Sorry ranting. Check out Dr. Gabor Mate, I wish u some real help n peace ✌ 🙏.
I got a serious serious question because Im not diagnosed or anything but almost my whole family has it and I show signs so have you ever tried psilocybin mushrooms? I been doing them and I feel so normal
I'm pretty sure low micro doses of meth will almost dampen or "rearrange" synaptic communication between neurons and also effect serotonin and dopamine in the brain. Especially to certain sections such as the prefrontal cortex, frontal lobe, etc. the sections most effected by ASD? I wonder if there's ever been studies yet on the effects of micro low dosing of these types of drugs with people with ASD?
I'd be on an IV drip of dabs if I could - only thing other than nicotine that makes life somewhat bearable. Here i am having to quit again to try and get a job on a fucking oil rig because I have no clue what else I can do to make enough money to live a normal life that doesn't involve the risk of serious bodily injury! Not looking forward to being physically and mentally uncomfortable, having nightmares every night because I know where this is going and I don't like it. Wish me luck because I'm gonna need it - even if I get the job I gotta live in a man camp for weeks at a time with people I don't know and that's a whole nother' level of terror I have to prepare for 😂
Why are you promoting using drugs to cope with autism? It’s one thing to show empathy towards someone who is using drugs as a coping strategy but it’s a completely different thing to support them in it.
I'm autistic and adhd and my thing was meth. It really helped me gain the energy to overcome my "demand avoidance" and executive function failures. I can't believe there's not more research in autism and addiction being that drugs run rampant in the autism community.
idk if its because I'm severely depressed, but meth has helped me a lot too. I've never smoked it, or binged on it. It helped me keep my last job, because as soon as I ran out, I got burnt out and quit.
Courageous. Every millennial with half a brain is suicidal because the Western culture is currently made up of old, traumatized jackasses.
Same. It didn't help my anxiety at all but it did make me do social stuff where I developed PTSD. cause being around felons and addicts and crazy stuff happening :/ 3 years clean now
Hello so I got in a relationship with my partner 3 years ago and we had two kids he been addicted to drugs but we moved to Minot and he got a hold of meth he became very abusive when he thought I cheated he would lash out and forget what he does he started being very distant and he gain. a hobby of shoot birds and I noticed that something is wrong because how bad acts isn't normal Recently we were moving and I'm not sure why he was so upset but my son had spilled water on him and it made him over the top angry he throw the food everywhere got out and was walking back and forwards and I lock the car bc my kids were crying and scared he got mad I didn't let him in itase him even more upset he was just everywhere he end up tryna break his way in the car I let him in after I felt like he clam down and his whole mood change the cops came and drug him out the car he then called me from jail and was so up set and keep asking me if in still with him and he doesn't remember anything and he hate that he gets like that with me he doesn't know why he blames the drug but says that it helps him control his self he use to move his leg alot and tap his fingers and when he gets real frustrated he yells or leaves and he drives fast and i dont know why but he says it calms him down and shoot birds does to but like to the extreme he would keep his bbgun rt by him and his bbs for it and would stop anywhere to shoit something and always wants me to look and would get mad if i didnt want him to bring it he would spend hours doing that and now he is in jail and i just thought about this disorder bc it reminds me kd him alot and he has to smoke weed or his meth like a much when he git angry he has to hit it and he misuse it so much and i wanna get him check bc if he has that with trauma from childhood and he mistreats drugs he needs help not to be punish and his mom knows there is something wrong but she just babys him and gives him money for the drugs instead of getting him help he has been telling me he needs help but never tells me what's wrong like I could be talking to him and he would be like okay I'm go smoke or ask can I smoke now or when he does something nice he like gets nervous and turns angry fast like if we all looking at him it's like he freaks out and just wanna run away from the attention I just wanna know from you reading this does it seem like he could have it I did a test with him before online and it said he had it high and it would make sense bc how he gets angry with him or hits his self and when I say I'm leave he freaks out and he is only like this with me no one else but he is a good person just seems like lately he is having a very hard time controlling his self and having trouble talking to people and his reactions or just over bored and he hates it bc he crys to me about it he says he doenst know whats wrong with him but let me remind you this was his first time leaving his mom house he moved hours away and she knew how to clam him and only she knows how to I think she knows he has a problem but she doesnt get it look at she just gives him what he wants to make him feel better but it made him a drug addict and he lost in his mind doesnt know how to cope or handle his emtions and hate his self bc how he treats me and he says he doesnt know why he lashes out how be does or beats hiself up but i feel like he has the disorder and his mom never got it look at and now since he is living by his self be doesnt know how to controll his self bc his mom use to have to clam him down he never is clam his self
I was late diagnosed audhd and have been addicted to every substance you could name, been sober for quite a while now. Looking back I think I found refuge in drug culture because it was a community where weird and unusual behaviour was expected so you could fit in as an autistic person and of course escaping pain and trauma
I very much agree. However, in retrospect, it is kind of comedic that there were hard core narcotics addicts saying that I seemed to be "not all there."
Facts. My addict friends have undiagnosed ADHD and makes sense why most my friends are weird.
I’m autistic and I’ve been a 2 pack a day cigarette smoker for 20 years. I’m also a heavy weed smoker, I smoke almost an ounce of weed every week. I spent my childhood in a group home where I was physically and verbally abused by the staff on a daily basis, and I even became homeless for three years once I aged out of group home care once I turned 18. That’s when I took up smoking both cigarettes and weed, as it became the only way for me to escape the trauma from my past
There is healing from the trauma,
@@turquoisemama33 yep. I'd give anything to be able to quit smoking though. I've quit 1,000 times, I've talked to my doctor, I've tried the spray, the patch, the gum, but nothing ever works for me. I wouldn't wish the health issues I experience on a daily basis on my worst enemy. I can't even walk up stairs without getting out of breath, I wake up every morning with a violent cough, all my clothes and all the furniture in my apartment has a fixed stench of cigarettes and weed now, like I wouldn't wish this shit on my worst enemy
@@HalJordan0 I care about you enough to tell you straight up. You have to deal with the trauma. You have to get rid of any bitterness. You have to forgive. Not an easy process, it could take years. But, the sooner you start, the sooner the wanted result. Praying for you.
@@turquoisemama33 thanks 🙏
@@turquoisemama33 Forgiving is one thing. Forgetting is quite another.
I have been an addict my whole life because its the only way I have not taken my life. Undiagnosed for 37 yrs. Autistic. PTSD
Same, I'm 23 yo.
Same, 30, been using drugs to cope and feel “normal”. Finally realizing why I feel like an alien
@@HermesHeals💔❤️
@@mentalcelstefan7086 💔❤️ at least we know why now
Same❤️🩹 I’m a 42 y.o. Mom👨👩👧👦 Tysm for this VERY important video!🥲🙏🏽
Oh my gosh I love this video. I was diagnosed with bpd and now they saying autism and ADHD. I struggled with opiates, they make me feel normal like I can live like a normal person! I thought what is wrong with me. It's exhausting just living sometimes, the noise and lights and constantly trying to figure people out.
Cannabis and occasional psychedelic use in safe settings has been beneficial for me. I want to do a PhD on these types of substances in clinical settings for treating and healing autistic burn out, trauma, and related mental health conditions due to camouflaging and other stressors related to living in a neurotypical world and being autistic.
For quite some time ive used mushrooms for "processing" whatever was going in in my life at the time.
The integration was definitely the difficult part, but in retrospect doing psychedelics has given me insight to my own psyche and deeper understaning as to why i am the way i am.
Didnt know i was Asp/autistic unti last year so this info fills in a gap within my mind
Chemical addiction is a terror i wouldn't wish my worst enemies. The amount of autistic people on the streets in BC is nightmarish
I'm happy to see its not strange for me to smoke weed the way that I do. I am learning so much about my brain, so late in my life...
Thank you so much for making this video, this particular niche isn't getting attention for whatever reason. Thank you for spreading awareness and fostering connection. You havve a beautiful soul & I hope you are okay and have peace and love in your life ♥️
As an autistic woman 186 days sober from weed, thank you for the harm reduction promoted in this video.
Wow…we have had a lot of the same experiences, for the same reasons. I had Opioid Use Disorder and am still struggling with PTSD and am autistic. I also have a diagnosis of bipolar disorder, but several of the features are similar to autism, like sleep issues and getting deeply absorbed in specific interests, for longe periods, so I’m not sure if it’s a co-occurring disorder, or mislabeling, sometimes. I think it’s probably accurate, because I haven’t heard of many autistic people who went on spending sprees, often, before they were treated and I did! Thanks for making yourself visible and sharing some of your journey with us! I strongly support both Peer Recovery and Harm Reduction. You are doing great things! ❤
I‘m autistic too and was in a very deep hole of coke. It made me feel social I finally could talk openly and energetic to strangers. I overshared a lot and told them things about me I wouldn‘t even tell my mirror. The high was so good everytime but man the comedown.. I felt really depressed for the next 3 days or so had no energy and my mask falls everytime on comedown. I hate everything about myself in that moment. I thought I could handle it but it just drains me.
Stop stop stop!! This is 100% me but alcohol. I recently quit drinking. Just wish I could find that high somewhere
Literally almost cried because I’m horrible at wording my thoughts and you basically wrote them for me.
@@kissfan8675309 omg!! You are so loved
@@kissfan8675309 same I quit coke but my body feels the need to find the high somewhere else. Hope you‘re doing well and will be fine in the future.
@@kissfan8675309 microdosing 🍄has saved my life. No come downs or withdrawl to deal with. It calms down my brain and all my anxiety goes away so I'm able to socialize without the awkwardness, it's amazing. It won't make you feel like you're tripping, it's just enough to make you more clear minded and you're perfectly functional.
Im an autistic teenager who’s trans and has major ptsd. I got really into oxy when I was 15. I had a prescription due to pain but I started using it to feel nothing. To feel free. I knew drugs was bad and I told myself I’d never use drugs but I did. My use got to the point where couldn’t go to school unless I had my oxy, I couldn’t function and have to mask if I didn’t get them. I’ve been able to get clean by myself. My parents don’t know I’ve struggled. I’ve ruined several relationships due to my use and I feel really bad but I’m gonna break the cycle. I’ve been clean of oxy and benzos since July 2023.
I'm kinda getting emotional watching this!😢because,,I have recently got clean,but I'm fifty odd years old and feel like a fish out of water without street drugs,but the addiction got out of control and nearly killed me several times,but now like I said,a fish out of water is how I feel.
Thank you for your honesty. You are a blessing from God. Keep getting the truth out, you angel. 👼
Nicotine, weed, and kratom are my drugs of choice and I use them all at the same time. Drug pairing is a really bad habit I have. Idk if I’m autistic or adhd or just have anxiety. It’s really hard to tell. I’ve spoken with therapists that say I might have adhd because my brother has it, but he’s more hyperactive and I’m not. I don’t want to self diagnose. Ever since I was a kid I felt a sense of falling behind everyone and not fitting in. Social gatherings became a nightmare especially in college where I am now. Smoking a shitload of weed and drinking til I was basically stupid was the only way for me to cope back in those days. I don’t really do social events anymore because I binge drink every time and I like alcohol too much and don’t want to be an alcoholic like my dad or stepmom. When I became an adult I also realized that my parents are both very odd in comparison to the rest of society. Both incredibly anxious people. I wish I could make the daily anxiety I feel go away, I am tired of embarrassing myself every hour. Long comment, thanks for sticking around lol
I'm autistic and I use psychedelics for understanding myself and my needs better
What a beautiful testimonial. Thank you, Mille.
I medicinally use meth am I a horrible person? I do not get twacked I eat healthy brush my teeth and shower and sleep everynight. without it I'd probably still be a heavy drinker and heroin addict 1 year clean from thos but I use meth to curb my Nerodivergence and it works great I'm able to hold a job and have conversations and not have existential dread and I like doing stuff when before if I made plans I couldn't wait to cancel them and isolate. please tell me I'm not bad.
It happens to the best of us. You aren't bad but I do hope you find a healthier way to cope with your neurodivergence.
I've been looking for videos like this. Very informative.
Awesome fucking heroic video. Ace, and a salute to you Millie, and the people behind this channel. What about Cannabis? Have you tried Cannabis? Or even CBD? Or even 1:1 ratio of CBD with THC? Lastly what about psychedelics like Shrooms, DMT, Ayahuasca, Ibogaine, and Salvia? Peace.
glad i heard a bit of your story, something Ifeel quite alone in.
I'm autistic and have ADHD and for a really long time substances helped me relax around people and also not be bothered by sounds, smells etc in social situations. Discovering ketamine felt like coming back to a friend I never knew I had, it got out of control though so now I'm just trying to raw dog reality
I’m also autistic and do Spravato (esketamine). Good to see your comment! Would you like to get in touch?
Being bullied by bad environments can be avoided be keeping away from bad environments. We all can be bullied by exposing ourselves to bad environments. Autism and Neuro Diverse people learn that we have choices.
Using drugs and substances is also a choice. Try to find someone where we are not bullied. Avoid being bullied by chemicals. Avoid bad environments.
I was NEVER a rule follower. I was unable to follow rules if I tried, but I seldom tried. I used a lot of drugs when young. Then I got into recovery at age 23. But I sometimes used for medical reasons. Now that I am older, I am having low energy and chronic pain, so I do take a little this and that to get through the night sometimes. I don't buy street drugs at all, because the stuff on the USA is absolute poison, and besides, I don't want to go back to being an REAL active drug addict these days. Evan, just booze would kill me fairly quickly, I think. And getting prescribed painkillers prescribed in the USA is damned near impossible these days. So the stuff I use is pretty mild, like over the counter cough syrup, Valium tea, CBD, and Neurontin, and so forth, and coffee. My mother, father, and aunt all started getting severe arthritis in their fifties and were really bad off by their sixties, and they all used intoxicants of one sort or another to deal with it. I was kind of judgmental, but not so much now, especially when doctors are confirming my situation, but have no more advice to give them "Don't walk much."
omg I cannot believe how many similarities there are between my case and yours, I started doing drugs to cope with overstimulation and trauma as well, and opiates were my drug of choice, for a year and a half it worked way better than prescribed medication, after that I started going downhill and overdosing frequently, now I'm 2 months clean, it's very very hard but it's possible
Beautiful empathy and insights, thank you.
I have ADHD and I'm also autistic, which means I'm neurodivergent. I had an anxiety attack when I lost my phone and I wasn't able to control my emotions or overall physique during that moment in my life. I have my own way for my Autism and ADHD when I'm by myself in my room and practicing my method of self-care and self- compassion.
Wow. Thanks for this. I needed to hear it.
In my 60s now and very late diagnosed. At this stage in my life I rarely drink, never smoke or take any drugs but that was not always the case. In my youth I used drugs and alcohol to try to fit in and take the edge off the relentless anxiety but it really was not effective for long. The one class of drugs that really did change my life experience was psychedelics. Looking back, it seems a natural choice for neurodivergence. It doesn't take much and I don't consider it recreational or casual by any stretch. It served more or less as a complete unmasking of self and the world around. I was able to connect dots and recognize patterns that had so long eluded me. It helped a great deal with PTSD and CPTSD. I'm not an advocate for masking pain and distress with drugs and alcohol. LSD, mushrooms or other such substances in a well planned, thoughtfully considered setting can be highly therapeutic. It's been many years since I've been on that journey but I expect there may be one more trip before I'm done.
I quit smoking weed for about six months, during which time i slipped deeper and deeper into a depressed state. I had occasion to smoke one little hit and suddenly i was BACK!!!! I felt so much better. It did not solve my problems and brought other problems i dont like, like drowsiness and munchies. Hate that part.
I’m a completely different person when I’m high or drunk
I was self-aware about my addiction. I was ruthless about my routine because of it. I recently started to go AA because I relapsed during covid pretty terribly.
My roommate has untreated autism and doesn’t go to therapy or anything like that. He drinks from right when he gets up until when he goes to bed and he chain smokes cigarettes and also smokes a lot of weed.This all started a year ago. Before that he seemed clean aside from some weed. Now I’m wondering if it’s ethical to just be around this and not say anything or do anything. His family lives far away and doesn’t know. He is 35 ish.
Disclaimer: These are suggestions only. I don't know the situation and you are under no obligation to care for your roommate.
If you want to help him and feel able, perhaps you could offer to take him to therapy (specifically, autism-centred therapy, if possible) or to the doctor for a check-up? You could even offer to stay during the appointment or do the talking for him. It might help to have him write out his immediate difficulties so that you can read them out for him if he struggles to verbalise his problems.
Autistic people often struggle with self care but some will go along with it if you offer a practical helping hand.
If he gets on well with his family, you might want to quietly let somebody know of the situation so that they may be able to help. On the other hand, this might be unhelpful if they are not in good terms.
At the end of the day, it is not your job to look after your roommate. If your roommate's lifestyle is impacting on you, you might want to find a new roommate when you can.
Good luck, however you choose to proceed.
This video is important for me. Thanks.
Super functional authisam and opiates. Was on heroin 15 years back, then long break between only party drugs MDMA and so on, and from the last year kratom codeine oxycodone. Kratom was for me like a dream, similar to heroin, very social, natural, no side effects. But I am learning to low dose it, I just take 1-2 spoons once a day or even every 36-48 hours. Less you use, stronger and longer the effect
Yes. Kratom works very well w me too. Improved every aspect of my life. Very similar to the energy / euphoric effect of a low dose of oxycodone but all natural & legal & dont need a script for it as u do w oxycodone. Also its very inexpensive & available. Im very thankful for it. Thx
Kratom got me off the worse drugs, but I take a lot now and am definitely addicted. I start having withdrawals (exactly like opiate withdrawals) every four hours on the dot and need to take more.
So there is that risk, BUT it has been the absolute only way I can function amongst society and in my relationships so I will probably never stop.
Try and keep the dose your at now and you shouldn't experience any negative side effects (like withdrawals) I take so much, too embarrassed to even say how much. 🤦🏼♀️
@@peanut_toast999 gabas help: pregabalin phenibut. It shifts your perception from opiate receptors to gaba receptors
Thank you for making this
U know when they describe healthy coping skills they are referring to someone who gone through a minimal amount of BS. This is not you, and u therefore deserve to have amped up support system to comfort u n give u some relief now, not suffer for another couple years while they attempt to psychoanalyse u. Then comes the trial of publically approved meds that make u sick, addicted and don't work. Sorry ranting. Check out Dr. Gabor Mate, I wish u some real help n peace ✌ 🙏.
I’m autistic and have ADHD. I smoke cigarettes and weed everyday.
I got a serious serious question because Im not diagnosed or anything but almost my whole family has it and I show signs so have you ever tried psilocybin mushrooms? I been doing them and I feel so normal
Sending you love
i'm autistic too and i use medical cannabis. it really helps with only slight downsides.
I'm pretty sure low micro doses of meth will almost dampen or "rearrange" synaptic communication between neurons and also effect serotonin and dopamine in the brain. Especially to certain sections such as the prefrontal cortex, frontal lobe, etc. the sections most effected by ASD?
I wonder if there's ever been studies yet on the effects of micro low dosing of these types of drugs with people with ASD?
You look cool 😊 And your intelligent. Greetings from Finland
Great video
I'd be on an IV drip of dabs if I could - only thing other than nicotine that makes life somewhat bearable. Here i am having to quit again to try and get a job on a fucking oil rig because I have no clue what else I can do to make enough money to live a normal life that doesn't involve the risk of serious bodily injury! Not looking forward to being physically and mentally uncomfortable, having nightmares every night because I know where this is going and I don't like it. Wish me luck because I'm gonna need it - even if I get the job I gotta live in a man camp for weeks at a time with people I don't know and that's a whole nother' level of terror I have to prepare for 😂
Why are you promoting using drugs to cope with autism? It’s one thing to show empathy towards someone who is using drugs as a coping strategy but it’s a completely different thing to support them in it.
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