"It individualizes us to the point where we can't identify or empathize with other people" is such a brilliantly succinct explanation, thank you for that and for this whole video.
HI! I'm a Neurodivergent BIPOC Queer person and I deeply appreciate the clarity of your points (and your call-out from inside "white culture")! It's TRUE, the erasure LAYERS! The angles of marginalization push people further and further from stability and inclusion. In terms of disability advocacy, it requires all the more "spoons" on-top, just to reach the same conversations when dehumanized for additional identity factors. Trying to be one of those voices out here and I thoroughly enjoyed your video! I have a series on my @spookyjthebard channel called "Neuro Spicy Jam" that aims to reframe BPIOC-ND experiences through music. It's all about telling OUR bigger story together! Subbed and liked! Blessings in your work and life, Kindred!
It's time for Disability Advocates to go beyond requiring ramps to businesses and so forth. It's now a matter of broad cultural representation and personal psychology. It's time to move into the gray areas...
Brown buddy with cerebral palsy. I have never seen a video like this. It’s pretty cool! I think white activists are awesome. I appreciate the time you took to film this! Thanks again
Whenever I think of disability, I picture a PHYSICALLY disabled person but I'm getting the feeling more and more that disability advocacy includes (and may actually be a majority) MENTALLY disabled persons. Is there friction between the two groups? And I also get the feeling that those who identify or have been diagnosed as neurodivergent/autistic make up a large portion of the mentally disabled group. Do those with other mental health diagnoses like, for example, schizotypal or bipolar disorder or schizophrenia feel heard in the disability advocacy community?
You're asking a really great question and I'm going to try to answer it the best I can without getting too off topic lol. I can only speak to what I have seen and I can't speak to how everyone feels. I do think that there is a lot of division in the disability community. This is not because we are naturally adverse to one another, but rather that when you become or find out that you have a disability a lot of times the only context you have for it is the ableism that is spoon fed to us. As someone who was born with a physical disability with siblings with ADHD/autism as their main disability, my mental health and disabilities were missed by everyone including myself. I struggled with a long time thinking of ADHD as a disability when, to me, my disability meant that my friends with the condition were dying. There's a lot of comparative things that happen in advocacy spaces that frustrates me. For example, when someone says, "you wouldn't touch a wheelchair so why are you touching a dog?" As a service dog handler and wheelchair user I can tell you both happens frequently. So sometimes people can get stuck on the comparison that they miss the fact that both groups are having strangers touch them/their aids in ways that they shouldn't. I don't think that people with physical disabilities have gone anywhere. I think that we are seeing a rise in ADHD/Autism activism bc being at home helped people get diagnosed, including people who have a physical disability. I think that there are a lot of young autism/adhd advocates, especially those who are white, are making a lot of white young advocate mistakes. I think that true advocacy work is happening on the ground every day. I think that people who are more visibly disabled are pushed to the side and patronized on the internet, but that doesn't mean they're not doing the work. I think this is also where a lot of young disabled (newly disabled) advocates run into a wall is actually doing the work besides raising awareness. Like I said in the video, telling people about a thing will only get you so far. As far as other mental conditions, I have bipolar disorder too. It's hard for me to separate down my conditions. I can tell you that I tell people that I have a physical disability, but I do not tell them I am bipolar until I can absolutely trust them. There's so much stigma there. But I don't necessarily feel left out, but I put my other conditions forward first because they are first in my mind. Great question though! I hope more people will comment with their own thoughts.
I’m really enjoyed everything you had to say on the matter- please bear with me, I have a solid 7 minute +/- 90 second attention span, and from there I sacrifice either understanding or information. So I’ve been fascinated by this very concept of Lies 1- blurring into Lie 2 ever since I had my first ‘real’ (not small/superficial) talk with white non-NJ people. This matters as the most shocking takeaway for me was that they legitimately did not see ignorance as a fault or deficit of the ignorant which was SHOCKING and very VERY WTF to me as the Court of Law is VERY blatant when it comes to addressing accountability even when ignorant. So, ever since then, I have come to define very strict distinctions as I do feel it is my duty to educate ignorance (I have benefited more than most exploiting my ‘passing’ demeanor and relishing in white privilege) since the least I could do is be a voice for the systemic voiceless. So, I have just come to emphasize, the overall structure of the system when it comes to white supremacy literally existing in every corner of our society. As in, many cultures would address and emphasize land in their Laws whereas Western governments never did that and since they were the ‘colonizers’ deciding who was a person or not- obviously those laws and their supporting structure designed by colonizers were white-centric because those were the only humans and everything else were merely resources, not to be factored into law only as property when needed. So, I know you began with good/bad- but any discussion I have I explicitly state that is not a valid argument and if that’s your only position, you do not have one to provide. If they try deviations, but not really- then, I immediately switch to how good/bad can be replaced with ignorance. They eventually concede and so begins my dismantling of why at the core of their ignorance is an unconscious support for white supremacy- usually by emphasizing how if land was not considered and up to 1865 only ‘white men’ were people, then obviously the overwhelmingly white male government in USA (60% vs general USA population of white men is like ~half that) is going to keep pushing a system their literal grandfathers supported (because average government elected is like retirement age of 68/70s vs general population being like mid/late 40s or so). Turns out, many of the ‘ist/ism’ supporters struggle with using ‘logic’ and ‘research’ to argue their points when you impose on them strict timelines w/ the points you addressed about ‘advocacy’ and the constant push for a ‘sob’ story- which by the by, is a hugely CONDESCENDING element to consider- we mostly feel’ bad’ because we think the sob story stems from a ‘lost’ or ‘hopeless’ situation and therefore ‘not like us’ perspective. If the story of disability was meant to make us all feel ‘relatable’ there would not be a need for the pity element. So dehumanizing, I do not have the clay to highlight it anymore.
PS- sorry, my biggest point about my ramble, which I totally forgot was that I actually legitimately feel that this is why DEI is such a current ‘boogeyman’ especially for white b00yz of a physical adult age is because the whole idea of DEI initiative flips the notion of Lie #1 entirely in their court. DEI initiatives are a ‘symbol’ of how now they will be held accountable and responsible for their ignorance- just as it is imposed and done to BIPOC individuals- and they will be seen as ‘bad’ for choosing to be ignorant of a minority’s situation in society. Hopefully, something I rambled on about made sense to you!!!
Let’s definitely deconstruct some white supremacy. Here is an example of some white supremacy written by one of the white people falsely masquerading as “bipoc” who you cited as a resource: From the March 2000 issue of Fireweed Title: “ammachi stories: excerpt from the last boat, biomythography in progress” Author: Leah Lillith Albrecht is writing here as Leah Piepzna-Samarasinha (pen name) Prior to this Leah had written under several other names including Leah Lilith Albrecht-Samarasinha (LLAS), as Leah Lillith, as Leah Albrecht, and as Leah or LL, with the last names completely omitted. But at the time of this March 2000 essay, Leah had changed it again to Leah Piepzna-Samarasinha. Note: Leah was not yet using the name Lakshmi. That was added a few years later. Leah was one of several white riot grrrls who were frustrated at being rejected by some mainstream presses so they made the unfortunate decision to “work the [publishing] system” by taking on self-bestowed ethnic sounding names with the explicit intent of defrauding small bipoc presses. Essay text: “Ammachi stories Excerpt from the last boat, biomythography in progress” By Leah Piepzna-Samarasinha 5 years I think after she died & I barely noticed, my grandmother starts talking to me from just under the bedroom ceiling. Things I don’t even want to hear about the father I don’t talk to. 1943, Kuala Lumpur It was almost too late when we got to the Singapore boat. *Buddhu amme*, the bombs coming down, one time two time everywhere all around the house, Ayah Nancy screaming, Jeremy, God-rest-his-soul screaming, all I can think about is Christabel and G and Renee. How they didn’t move away. They didn’t move to Malaya because of any damn engineer job, or to start the labor revolution someplace that wouldn’t kill them. Wild Alvis girls settle down quite nicely, thank you. I’m seven months heavy with Christian, the belly sticks out of my skinny body. I feel every bomb hitting like a fist pounding my womb, & I think, *stupid*, *superstition*, *is that what the nuns taught you*. Maybe this is the Almighty’s punishment. For how I made this baby, even though Ellis still pat my belly and smiles, clueless. Maybe I’ll lose it & it’ll be all for the good. All that pregnancy, ay-o, I’m in dread. Who know what colour the baby will come out? I pray every night for him to be light, anyway, even if not blonde, like Frederick. Then while I’m trying to sleep I think no, damn them all, no! Let him be dark as his father, dark, and bitter as tamarind pulp, with great black eyes like Roshan’s. Then Ellis will leave me, all the aunties will cluck in trembling disgust and smack their lips over me. I don’t care! All this going through my head as- boom- the window glass crashing out of the frame- boom- the almyrah tips over- boom- Ellis is going red and brown, in and out, like a puffed up balloon and then like a hollow man. There’s no rickshaw, no, nothing. The servants have fled or are hiding under the house with the kingsnakes. I grab the two photograph albums before Ellis grabs my arm and I grab Jeremy and we are running through the streets. There we see a few rickshaw but even for a rich Burgher family with a 7-month gone wife and Ellis, waving a fist of money and screaming, and a little screaming blonde boy, maybe especially for us, they don’t stop. The last boat comes when we have been standing for hours. I’m shaking all over, flying glass has cut my scalp & we are all plastered to the knees with red brown mud. I grip the albums under my armpit, and as we get onto the last boat out, going back to the family I spent all of me fleeing from, they are the only thing I take back. I clutch them to my mud-streaked breasts, the home I’ve spent all my life running away from. [this is only part one of Leah’s essay but I can only address so many lies at once]
Let’s start with the word Ammachi. Leah is using that word here to mean grandmother. The problem is that Leah’s real grandmother, Louise, was a European woman and an English speaking Anglican Christian. She was of Dutch and Portuguese European heritage. She spoke English. Leah’s grandfather Ellis was of Dutch/German European heritage. He also spoke English and was an Anglican Christian. So if we are going to be changing the language and applying a different term of endearment to Leah’s grandparents after their deaths that she never used for either of them when they were living, then “ammachi” is not even close to the right word. These are not “ammachi” stories at all. The Dutch/German word for grandparents is Oma and Opa. In Portuguese both grandmothers and grandfathers are referred to as avo, but the pronunciation is different. Avô for a grandfather is pronounced "a-voh," with the variant vovô being pronounced "vo-voh." Avó for a grandmother is pronounced "a-vaw," with the variation vovó being pronounced "vo-vaw. But no matter what, Leah has never had an “ammachi” That’s a lie.
The next problem I notice in this essay is that this “history” Leah is claiming to possess knowledge of is not coming from a living person but instead from… the ghost? or a spirit Leah presumes to be her grandmother, who takes the form of a disembodied “voice” coming from a talking ceiling in Leah’s New York bedroom in 1996. Leah’s grandmother Louise died in 1991 near her home in Victoria, Australia. In 1996, which was five years after Leah didn’t even notice or care that her grandmother died, Leah Lillith Albrecht was living in New York going by the false name Leah Lilith Albrecht-“Samarasinha”. No one in Leah’s family and none of her ancestors have names like “Samarasinha”. Leah pulled that name out of her ass in an act of ethnic fraud intended to obscure and hide her actual European heritage. And a disembodied voice from a talking ceiling is not a reliable source of genealogical or historical information. Leah is basing her entire fake identity on bogus family lore that she herself concocted out of nothing. She’s a horrific fraud.
The next problem I notice is that in this essay Leah falsely claims her grandparents lived in Kuala Lumpur in 1943 when Leah’s grandmother Louise was seven months pregnant with Leah’s father. Leah’s father, whose name is actually ROGER was born March 18, 1943. So Louise was seven months pregnant with Roger around January, 1943. Roger was conceived approximately July 1942. Leah claims that her pregnant grandmother caught “The Singapore Boat” from Kuala Lumpur with her grandfather Ellis, a blond haired blue eyed child named “Frederick”, and an infant named “Jeremy” in 1943… …while bombs rained down around their Kuala Lumpur house. This… is such a MASSIVE LIE. For so many reasons. This “biomythography” Leah is writing is complete and utter fiction. It is fraud.
1. Louise and Ellis did not live in Kuala Lumpur in 1943 2. Louise was only ever pregnant twice. Neither of her sons had blonde hair or blue eyes. Leah is getting into some really deeply f’ed up crap with these fictional children she calls “Frederick” and “Jeremy” 3. Louise never had any children named Frederick or Jeremy. 4. Furthermore Louise actually didn’t have any other living children at any point during her pregnancy with Leah’s father Roger. At no point from summer 1942 when Roger was conceived until his birth in March 1943 did Louise have any other children. 5. There was a boat that at one time did go from Kuala Lumpur to Singapore. That boat was not running in January 1943. 6. At no point during Louise’s pregnancy with Roger did any bombs rain down anywhere in their vicinity. That did not happen. 7. There was no bombing of Kuala Lumpur or of Singapore in 1943. 8. There wasn’t any naval evacuation of Kuala Lumpur or of Singapore in 1943 or at any point during Louise’s pregnancy with Leah’s father Roger. 9. The mythical “last boat” of 1943 is entirely myth. It’s fake. 10. Leah is a massive lying fraud.
*Buddhu amme* For those who don’t know, a Buddha is literally an enlightened one, a knower. Buddhists believe that a Buddha is born in each aeon of time, and Buddha-the sage Gotama who attained enlightenment under the bo tree at Buddh Gaya in India-was the seventh in the succession. But a Buddhu is actually the antithesis of a Buddha. Using that term is the equivalent of calling someone an unenlightened stupid dumbass. Who is Leah calling a Buddhu? An amah/amme or ayah is a woman employed as a wet nurse or as a caretaker of someone else’s children. They are a domestic worker employed to care for babies and children. Like most of the characters in Leah’s fake story, Ayah Nancy is not an unenlightened stupid dumbass because… 1. She’s not a real person! 2. Leah’s grandmother Louise was an Anglican Christian and did not have a Buddha because she wasn’t Buddhist!!! 3. Leah’s grandmother Louise didn’t employ a domestic worker to care for her children in 1943 because… SHE HAD NO CHILDREN IN 1943!!!! At no point during her pregnancy with Roger did she have another child. There was no blonde-haired or blue-eyed children in need of a nurse. Leah just made that shit up. She pulled those children out of her ass to sell her story to a small bipoc publisher. It’s all completely fake.
At some point it will need to be acknowledged that European culture was far more sophisticated then any other culture. The reason "white people" are drawn to European culture is because it has a higher standard. American culture use to be closer to the European model which was more difficult. In turn created more resilient and intelligent people. It would be better to hold everyone up to the same high standard. Then you can truly judge accomplishments instead of people getting handouts and pity.
My first question to you is, what is European culture? Europe has a wide array of cultures within it each with their own unique history. If you mean colonialism then you're just wrong. Colonialism destroyed and stole science, art, and knowledge from people that countries like Britain and Spain thought were barely human if that. Colonialism destroyed sacred, ancient land that had been protected by indigenous people for centuries. Destroyed food sources and whole species of animals for sport and nothing more. The consequences we are facing today. Are you talking about today where there are multiple European countries which prioritize giving people with disabilities access to euthanasia over appropriate healthcare? Or, are you talking about indigenous groups like the Sami from Norway or the Irish who fight every day to protect their ancestral land and cultures? I would say those are resilient cultures. The grand colonizer culture is not a "high standard" or create "resilient people." It creates people who cannot bare to hear anything that is remotely different. It is a bully at the playground who lashes out because it is afraid if it doesn't then it will lose the power it never should have had in the first place.
@@disabledconstellation Can you really not see all that you benefit from that has come from Europe? When I speak of Europe I speak of the whole of Europe and all of the accomplishments from that region. You would not even have this phone with the Internet if it were not for Europeans. You probably wouldn't be able to read had European Christians not placed value on being able to read... All civilizations have done terrible things to one another. The Middle East which you brought up earlier for their achievement of math was also the place that had the largest slave trading operation in the world for the majority of it's history. Africa was involved in that as well especially when they were higher in power. They traded in gold and people. Persians were certainly not remember as being kind people. They were known for their brutal fighting tactics and dominance over other cultures. If you were disabled in the past you would most likely not make it long if any famine or war came. Plus there probably wasn't the sophistication we have today in care for a disabled person in general. Personally I think the direction of hate towards all white people is wrong. People with white skin also don't owe anyone anything for being born the color they are. Life is difficult, no one is perfect. I think you may have more of an issue with corrupt wealthy individuals more then whites as a whole.
You are parroting white supremacist rhetoric because you don't know anything about other cultures and fail to see the value in them. "European culture" created a horrendous class system where thousands of people toiled away to funnel wealth and power upwards to the lucky, lazy few. Funny how the exploitation by the rich is never decried as a "handout" despite the fact that those in poverty are forced to work the hardest.
"It individualizes us to the point where we can't identify or empathize with other people" is such a brilliantly succinct explanation, thank you for that and for this whole video.
Thx for the recc
HI! I'm a Neurodivergent BIPOC Queer person and I deeply appreciate the clarity of your points (and your call-out from inside "white culture")! It's TRUE, the erasure LAYERS! The angles of marginalization push people further and further from stability and inclusion. In terms of disability advocacy, it requires all the more "spoons" on-top, just to reach the same conversations when dehumanized for additional identity factors. Trying to be one of those voices out here and I thoroughly enjoyed your video! I have a series on my @spookyjthebard channel called "Neuro Spicy Jam" that aims to reframe BPIOC-ND experiences through music. It's all about telling OUR bigger story together! Subbed and liked! Blessings in your work and life, Kindred!
Thank you so much! Your comment means a lot. I just wanted to make the video that my 16yo self needed.
It's time for Disability Advocates to go beyond requiring ramps to businesses and so forth.
It's now a matter of broad cultural representation and personal psychology. It's time to move into the gray areas...
Brown buddy with cerebral palsy. I have never seen a video like this. It’s pretty cool! I think white activists are awesome. I appreciate the time you took to film this! Thanks again
Whenever I think of disability, I picture a PHYSICALLY disabled person but I'm getting the feeling more and more that disability advocacy includes (and may actually be a majority) MENTALLY disabled persons. Is there friction between the two groups? And I also get the feeling that those who identify or have been diagnosed as neurodivergent/autistic make up a large portion of the mentally disabled group. Do those with other mental health diagnoses like, for example, schizotypal or bipolar disorder or schizophrenia feel heard in the disability advocacy community?
You're asking a really great question and I'm going to try to answer it the best I can without getting too off topic lol. I can only speak to what I have seen and I can't speak to how everyone feels. I do think that there is a lot of division in the disability community. This is not because we are naturally adverse to one another, but rather that when you become or find out that you have a disability a lot of times the only context you have for it is the ableism that is spoon fed to us. As someone who was born with a physical disability with siblings with ADHD/autism as their main disability, my mental health and disabilities were missed by everyone including myself. I struggled with a long time thinking of ADHD as a disability when, to me, my disability meant that my friends with the condition were dying. There's a lot of comparative things that happen in advocacy spaces that frustrates me. For example, when someone says, "you wouldn't touch a wheelchair so why are you touching a dog?" As a service dog handler and wheelchair user I can tell you both happens frequently. So sometimes people can get stuck on the comparison that they miss the fact that both groups are having strangers touch them/their aids in ways that they shouldn't.
I don't think that people with physical disabilities have gone anywhere. I think that we are seeing a rise in ADHD/Autism activism bc being at home helped people get diagnosed, including people who have a physical disability. I think that there are a lot of young autism/adhd advocates, especially those who are white, are making a lot of white young advocate mistakes. I think that true advocacy work is happening on the ground every day. I think that people who are more visibly disabled are pushed to the side and patronized on the internet, but that doesn't mean they're not doing the work. I think this is also where a lot of young disabled (newly disabled) advocates run into a wall is actually doing the work besides raising awareness. Like I said in the video, telling people about a thing will only get you so far.
As far as other mental conditions, I have bipolar disorder too. It's hard for me to separate down my conditions. I can tell you that I tell people that I have a physical disability, but I do not tell them I am bipolar until I can absolutely trust them. There's so much stigma there. But I don't necessarily feel left out, but I put my other conditions forward first because they are first in my mind.
Great question though! I hope more people will comment with their own thoughts.
thank you
Thank you for the resource list!
Again. Not relevant but your background is so beautiful
I’m really enjoyed everything you had to say on the matter- please bear with me, I have a solid 7 minute +/- 90 second attention span, and from there I sacrifice either understanding or information.
So I’ve been fascinated by this very concept of Lies 1- blurring into Lie 2 ever since I had my first ‘real’ (not small/superficial) talk with white non-NJ people. This matters as the most shocking takeaway for me was that they legitimately did not see ignorance as a fault or deficit of the ignorant which was SHOCKING and very VERY WTF to me as the Court of Law is VERY blatant when it comes to addressing accountability even when ignorant.
So, ever since then, I have come to define very strict distinctions as I do feel it is my duty to educate ignorance (I have benefited more than most exploiting my ‘passing’ demeanor and relishing in white privilege) since the least I could do is be a voice for the systemic voiceless.
So, I have just come to emphasize, the overall structure of the system when it comes to white supremacy literally existing in every corner of our society. As in, many cultures would address and emphasize land in their Laws whereas Western governments never did that and since they were the ‘colonizers’ deciding who was a person or not- obviously those laws and their supporting structure designed by colonizers were white-centric because those were the only humans and everything else were merely resources, not to be factored into law only as property when needed.
So, I know you began with good/bad- but any discussion I have I explicitly state that is not a valid argument and if that’s your only position, you do not have one to provide.
If they try deviations, but not really- then, I immediately switch to how good/bad can be replaced with ignorance. They eventually concede and so begins my dismantling of why at the core of their ignorance is an unconscious support for white supremacy- usually by emphasizing how if land was not considered and up to 1865 only ‘white men’ were people, then obviously the overwhelmingly white male government in USA (60% vs general USA population of white men is like ~half that) is going to keep pushing a system their literal grandfathers supported (because average government elected is like retirement age of 68/70s vs general population being like mid/late 40s or so).
Turns out, many of the ‘ist/ism’ supporters struggle with using ‘logic’ and ‘research’ to argue their points when you impose on them strict timelines w/ the points you addressed about ‘advocacy’ and the constant push for a ‘sob’ story- which by the by, is a hugely CONDESCENDING element to consider- we mostly feel’ bad’ because we think the sob story stems from a ‘lost’ or ‘hopeless’ situation and therefore ‘not like us’ perspective. If the story of disability was meant to make us all feel ‘relatable’ there would not be a need for the pity element. So dehumanizing, I do not have the clay to highlight it anymore.
PS- sorry, my biggest point about my ramble, which I totally forgot was that I actually legitimately feel that this is why DEI is such a current ‘boogeyman’ especially for white b00yz of a physical adult age is because the whole idea of DEI initiative flips the notion of Lie #1 entirely in their court. DEI initiatives are a ‘symbol’ of how now they will be held accountable and responsible for their ignorance- just as it is imposed and done to BIPOC individuals- and they will be seen as ‘bad’ for choosing to be ignorant of a minority’s situation in society.
Hopefully, something I rambled on about made sense to you!!!
Let’s definitely deconstruct some white supremacy.
Here is an example of some white supremacy written by one of the white people falsely masquerading as “bipoc” who you cited as a resource:
From the March 2000 issue of Fireweed
Title:
“ammachi stories:
excerpt from the last boat, biomythography in progress”
Author: Leah Lillith Albrecht is writing here as Leah Piepzna-Samarasinha
(pen name)
Prior to this Leah had written under several other names including Leah Lilith Albrecht-Samarasinha (LLAS), as Leah Lillith, as Leah Albrecht, and as Leah or LL, with the last names completely omitted.
But at the time of this March 2000 essay, Leah had changed it again to Leah Piepzna-Samarasinha. Note: Leah was not yet using the name Lakshmi. That was added a few years later.
Leah was one of several white riot grrrls who were frustrated at being rejected by some mainstream presses so they made the unfortunate decision to “work the [publishing] system” by taking on self-bestowed ethnic sounding names with the explicit intent of defrauding small bipoc presses.
Essay text:
“Ammachi stories
Excerpt from the last boat, biomythography in progress”
By Leah Piepzna-Samarasinha
5 years I think after she died & I barely noticed, my grandmother starts talking to me from just under the bedroom ceiling. Things I don’t even want to hear about the father I don’t talk to.
1943, Kuala Lumpur
It was almost too late when we got to the Singapore boat. *Buddhu amme*, the bombs coming down, one time two time everywhere all around the house, Ayah Nancy screaming, Jeremy, God-rest-his-soul screaming, all I can think about is Christabel and G and Renee. How they didn’t move away. They didn’t move to Malaya because of any damn engineer job, or to start the labor revolution someplace that wouldn’t kill them. Wild Alvis girls settle down quite nicely, thank you.
I’m seven months heavy with Christian, the belly sticks out of my skinny body. I feel every bomb hitting like a fist pounding my womb, & I think, *stupid*, *superstition*, *is that what the nuns taught you*. Maybe this is the Almighty’s punishment. For how I made this baby, even though Ellis still pat my belly and smiles, clueless. Maybe I’ll lose it & it’ll be all for the good. All that pregnancy, ay-o, I’m in dread. Who know what colour the baby will come out? I pray every night for him to be light, anyway, even if not blonde, like Frederick. Then while I’m trying to sleep I think no, damn them all, no! Let him be dark as his father, dark, and bitter as tamarind pulp, with great black eyes like Roshan’s. Then Ellis will leave me, all the aunties will cluck in trembling disgust and smack their lips over me. I don’t care!
All this going through my head as- boom- the window glass crashing out of the frame- boom- the almyrah tips over- boom- Ellis is going red and brown, in and out, like a puffed up balloon and then like a hollow man. There’s no rickshaw, no, nothing. The servants have fled or are hiding under the house with the kingsnakes. I grab the two photograph albums before Ellis grabs my arm and I grab Jeremy and we are running through the streets. There we see a few rickshaw but even for a rich Burgher family with a 7-month gone wife and Ellis, waving a fist of money and screaming, and a little screaming blonde boy, maybe especially for us, they don’t stop.
The last boat comes when we have been standing for hours. I’m shaking all over, flying glass has cut my scalp & we are all plastered to the knees with red brown mud. I grip the albums under my armpit, and as we get onto the last boat out, going back to the family I spent all of me fleeing from, they are the only thing I take back. I clutch them to my mud-streaked breasts, the home I’ve spent all my life running away from.
[this is only part one of Leah’s essay but I can only address so many lies at once]
Let’s start with the word Ammachi.
Leah is using that word here to mean grandmother.
The problem is that Leah’s real grandmother, Louise, was a European woman and an English speaking Anglican Christian. She was of Dutch and Portuguese European heritage. She spoke English. Leah’s grandfather Ellis was of Dutch/German European heritage. He also spoke English and was an Anglican Christian.
So if we are going to be changing the language and applying a different term of endearment to Leah’s grandparents after their deaths that she never used for either of them when they were living, then “ammachi” is not even close to the right word.
These are not “ammachi” stories at all. The Dutch/German word for grandparents is Oma and Opa.
In Portuguese both grandmothers and grandfathers are referred to as avo, but the pronunciation is different. Avô for a grandfather is pronounced "a-voh," with the variant vovô being pronounced "vo-voh." Avó for a grandmother is pronounced "a-vaw," with the variation vovó being pronounced "vo-vaw.
But no matter what, Leah has never had an “ammachi”
That’s a lie.
The next problem I notice in this essay is that this “history” Leah is claiming to possess knowledge of is not coming from a living person but instead from… the ghost? or a spirit Leah presumes to be her grandmother, who takes the form of a disembodied “voice” coming from a talking ceiling in Leah’s New York bedroom in 1996.
Leah’s grandmother Louise died in 1991 near her home in Victoria, Australia.
In 1996, which was five years after Leah didn’t even notice or care that her grandmother died, Leah Lillith Albrecht was living in New York going by the false name Leah Lilith Albrecht-“Samarasinha”.
No one in Leah’s family and none of her ancestors have names like “Samarasinha”. Leah pulled that name out of her ass in an act of ethnic fraud intended to obscure and hide her actual European heritage.
And a disembodied voice from a talking ceiling is not a reliable source of genealogical or historical information. Leah is basing her entire fake identity on bogus family lore that she herself concocted out of nothing.
She’s a horrific fraud.
The next problem I notice is that in this essay Leah falsely claims her grandparents lived in Kuala Lumpur in 1943 when Leah’s grandmother Louise was seven months pregnant with Leah’s father.
Leah’s father, whose name is actually ROGER was born March 18, 1943. So Louise was seven months pregnant with Roger around January, 1943. Roger was conceived approximately July 1942.
Leah claims that her pregnant grandmother caught “The Singapore Boat” from Kuala Lumpur with her grandfather Ellis, a blond haired blue eyed child named “Frederick”, and an infant named “Jeremy” in 1943…
…while bombs rained down around their Kuala Lumpur house.
This… is such a MASSIVE LIE.
For so many reasons.
This “biomythography” Leah is writing is complete and utter fiction. It is fraud.
1. Louise and Ellis did not live in Kuala Lumpur in 1943
2. Louise was only ever pregnant twice. Neither of her sons had blonde hair or blue eyes. Leah is getting into some really deeply f’ed up crap with these fictional children she calls “Frederick” and “Jeremy”
3. Louise never had any children named Frederick or Jeremy.
4. Furthermore Louise actually didn’t have any other living children at any point during her pregnancy with Leah’s father Roger. At no point from summer 1942 when Roger was conceived until his birth in March 1943 did Louise have any other children.
5. There was a boat that at one time did go from Kuala Lumpur to Singapore. That boat was not running in January 1943.
6. At no point during Louise’s pregnancy with Roger did any bombs rain down anywhere in their vicinity. That did not happen.
7. There was no bombing of Kuala Lumpur or of Singapore in 1943.
8. There wasn’t any naval evacuation of Kuala Lumpur or of Singapore in 1943 or at any point during Louise’s pregnancy with Leah’s father Roger.
9. The mythical “last boat” of 1943 is entirely myth. It’s fake.
10. Leah is a massive lying fraud.
*Buddhu amme*
For those who don’t know, a Buddha is literally an enlightened one, a knower.
Buddhists believe that a Buddha is born in each aeon of time, and Buddha-the sage Gotama who attained enlightenment under the bo tree at Buddh Gaya in India-was the seventh in the succession.
But a Buddhu is actually the antithesis of a Buddha. Using that term is the equivalent of calling someone an unenlightened stupid dumbass.
Who is Leah calling a Buddhu?
An amah/amme or ayah is a woman employed as a wet nurse or as a caretaker of someone else’s children. They are a domestic worker employed to care for babies and children.
Like most of the characters in Leah’s fake story, Ayah Nancy is not an unenlightened stupid dumbass because…
1. She’s not a real person!
2. Leah’s grandmother Louise was an Anglican Christian and did not have a Buddha because she wasn’t Buddhist!!!
3. Leah’s grandmother Louise didn’t employ a domestic worker to care for her children in 1943 because… SHE HAD NO CHILDREN IN 1943!!!! At no point during her pregnancy with Roger did she have another child. There was no blonde-haired or blue-eyed children in need of a nurse. Leah just made that shit up. She pulled those children out of her ass to sell her story to a small bipoc publisher.
It’s all completely fake.
At some point it will need to be acknowledged that European culture was far more sophisticated then any other culture. The reason "white people" are drawn to European culture is because it has a higher standard. American culture use to be closer to the European model which was more difficult. In turn created more resilient and intelligent people. It would be better to hold everyone up to the same high standard. Then you can truly judge accomplishments instead of people getting handouts and pity.
My first question to you is, what is European culture? Europe has a wide array of cultures within it each with their own unique history. If you mean colonialism then you're just wrong. Colonialism destroyed and stole science, art, and knowledge from people that countries like Britain and Spain thought were barely human if that. Colonialism destroyed sacred, ancient land that had been protected by indigenous people for centuries. Destroyed food sources and whole species of animals for sport and nothing more. The consequences we are facing today. Are you talking about today where there are multiple European countries which prioritize giving people with disabilities access to euthanasia over appropriate healthcare? Or, are you talking about indigenous groups like the Sami from Norway or the Irish who fight every day to protect their ancestral land and cultures? I would say those are resilient cultures. The grand colonizer culture is not a "high standard" or create "resilient people." It creates people who cannot bare to hear anything that is remotely different. It is a bully at the playground who lashes out because it is afraid if it doesn't then it will lose the power it never should have had in the first place.
@@catxtrallways Could you tell me one civilization who has had no war and killing of other groups of people?
@@disabledconstellation Can you really not see all that you benefit from that has come from Europe? When I speak of Europe I speak of the whole of Europe and all of the accomplishments from that region. You would not even have this phone with the Internet if it were not for Europeans. You probably wouldn't be able to read had European Christians not placed value on being able to read... All civilizations have done terrible things to one another. The Middle East which you brought up earlier for their achievement of math was also the place that had the largest slave trading operation in the world for the majority of it's history. Africa was involved in that as well especially when they were higher in power. They traded in gold and people. Persians were certainly not remember as being kind people. They were known for their brutal fighting tactics and dominance over other cultures.
If you were disabled in the past you would most likely not make it long if any famine or war came. Plus there probably wasn't the sophistication we have today in care for a disabled person in general.
Personally I think the direction of hate towards all white people is wrong. People with white skin also don't owe anyone anything for being born the color they are. Life is difficult, no one is perfect. I think you may have more of an issue with corrupt wealthy individuals more then whites as a whole.
You are parroting white supremacist rhetoric because you don't know anything about other cultures and fail to see the value in them. "European culture" created a horrendous class system where thousands of people toiled away to funnel wealth and power upwards to the lucky, lazy few. Funny how the exploitation by the rich is never decried as a "handout" despite the fact that those in poverty are forced to work the hardest.
@stacey7265 Its obvious you didn’t watch the video. You don’t even address a single point brought up in it. Why should I listen to you?