FENTANYL POISONING: Joshua Gillihan's Story
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 30 ก.ย. 2024
- A story of one family's loss to fentanyl poisoning, recorded during the DEA Family Summit on Opioid Overdose and Fentanyl Poisoning.
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The actual home footage is so chilling and brave of them to share. Schools need to have this as part of their curriculum. So sorry for your loss
@@jcar4lifemancity4life5 its not about weed G. its about these kids thinking its cool to do hard drugs at any age. Weed is fine and if hed just stick to that hed be alive but every kid around america thinks its cool to shoot up dope right now
@@jcar4lifemancity4life5 I know exactly what you’re saying, i’m not saying the mother is bad at all but if they talked with the kid and told him that weed isn’t bad at all and let him know all other drugs could potentially kill you and don’t know what’s in them most of the time.
@@DMONSKULLthey don’t think it’s cool they just want to do it
@jcar4lifemancity4life5 ok before you attack me for saying weed is bad please hear me out….
At that kids young age, all weed is going to is have negative effects on brain development. There are countless studies that back up claims that weed can have long term impacts on memory, cognitive ability etc… and can induce anxiety, depression etc…
Now once he’s old enough where he can decide what’s good or bad for himself, his mother was definitely not wrong for being concerned with her 14 year old son smoking weed.
Only weed addicts will rebuttal this, and will always be the case unfortunately.
@@DMONSKULL What world do you live in? No kid thinks that it’s “cool”. Most of the people dying on this aren’t even kids, they do it because they *want* to do it. The fact that you’re calling it “shooting dope” shows how far y’all are out of touch with this.
my school showed this in class today, and it’s just chilling, a few even cried. rip joshua
That's great that it was shown in your school and used a tool to teach kids the dangers of drugs.
You guys have to understand.. yall can't experiment with ANYTHING anymore. It's just not like it used to be.. This young man looks like my own son. I have this talk with him often because I don't ever ever ever want to feel the depth of pain these parents do... Im empathic, so I internalize it, and it takes days sometimes weeks to heal from seeing and feeling things like this... But at least I can.. These parents don't have that option. Please, PLEASE, don't take shit from anyone! idc if it's your cuz or bestie or even your parent.. PLEASE DON'T TAKE IT. It's just not worth it anymore. RIP you, sweet boy. Mama... im so very sorry this happened. Sorry, it isn't even worthy enough, honestly..RIP to all of the beautiful souls that have been tragically taken by this shit.
@@sarahwalters4428 ofc, I’ve seen what it can do and it’s not worth it! it’s so sad and I even know a guy who smokes 🍃 And buys it from the guys at his work, and I’m like “dude, one day you’re gonna get something that’s laced with sum shit” but he don’t care🤷♀️ im never gonna take shit from no one
Mine started laughing
@@syedmustafa3138 bro☠️
The home security video footage is extremely heartbreaking, but seeing the video footage sends such a powerful message. I’m very sorry for your loss mom ❤
It wasn’t real
@@RMCOVERS. what makes you think that wasn’t real?
@@user-lk6tr7my5k she wasn't calm, she was in shock. reality probably didn't set in for a long time
@@RMCOVERS. having to deal with the drug dealers and cartels giving our youth this poison and stop this madness is hard enough and dumb** like you don't help the situation at all.
@@VillPom it's a reenactment they do this a lot to show how it might of been
Joshua’s story literally saved my best friend’s life. She had a Percocet in front of her when I randomly sent her your video and instead of taking it she got a testing kit - it was pure fentanyl. Thank you for sharing Joshua’s story ❤
Oh wow
wow thats actually extremely shocking
Wow, thank God, you sent it to her when you did. It's like divine intervention.
Praise the Lord 🙏
You say it was "pure fentanyl" but can you even get test kits that can test how much is actually present? Of course any amount would probably be a really good reason to get rid of it.
This video needs to be shown at every school nation wide if possible, the live footage is heartbreaking, I can’t imagine bearing anything of this nature, my deepest condolences ❤
yes it should, thank you so much...
Absolutely
ThugWife I don’t disagree with your comment and the video may be enough for some but not everyone. I never thought my son would ever abuse drugs until he overdosed. Thankfully the police arrived, administered narcan and eventually he regained consciousness. The EMTs planned to take him to the hospital but he refused. He declared that it was sleep apnea and didn’t need to go. I was curious why he didn’t go but he is old enough to decide and I accepted that. The next day I was speaking with a friend, telling him about the circumstances of the day before. He told me I shouldn’t be so confident by eliminating the possibility of it being an overdose. I shook my head and could hear myself saying “never say my child would never do that”. So I began to research information about overdosing and types of drugs. I spoke with nurses, family doctor, therapists, counselors eagerly wanting someone to say sleep apnea is a probable cause. But no one ever said that. I confronted my son with the information I found. He denied it. I was able to obtain narcan in case it happened again. Eventually he went missing for a week. During that week, the man I was dating received a FaceTime call from my son at 3:00a.m. He told me he could hear two voices but neither were my son. He also said one of the guys said “he’s fucking dead, dude”. My boyfriend continued to watch and realized they were in a car when the dome light appeared. The call ended when one the the men noticed my son’s phone was on. I don’t know what they did with my son at that time...but after having a conversation with him, one of those days he woke up in an emergency room. So I question the actions of his buddies...did they pull the car over, remove my son and leave him? My son overdosed again in February. Coming close to death wasn’t enough for my son to quit...an addict thinks of no one but themselves. I hope this video will save someone’s life.
Yes
100% right this should be shown at all levels of school .🙏 to the family.
my younger brother was born in 2008, he’s 14 as well. i can’t imagine him being gone so soon. i started smoking weed when i was 16… i can’t imagine a 12 year old smoking weed or doing any sort of drugs… it’s crazy out here. you NEVER know what you’re getting. trust no one. talk to friends, talk to family. they care about you. this stuff is serious. rip josh, i wish the outcome would have been different for you. sorry for the family
See it’s wild huh…cuz you said it’s crazy someone will start at 12 but I’m like damn 16 is young asf as well. Then I hear of people starting at 9 and shit. I started smoking at 19 when I got to college and have tried so many drugs since college. I’ve slowed down and only doing weed now thank God but shit
in two weeks i will be turning 16.
i was twelve when i started smoking, weed, vape, e-cig, anything i could get. when i was 13 i went cold turkey due to personal issues and covid. i was 14 when i relapsed , i just started freshman year and became friends with people who smoked , it didnt take long to get back into it. i just turned 15 when i quit (in february i started dating the nicest and supportive guy. we just celebrated 10 months). its been hard for me. in june my dads lung collapsed (he was a heavy smoker of cigarettes since before he was even a teen) and it opened my eyes, that smoking any thing doesnt matter if its weed, vape , cigarettes. you can almost die in a flash. my dad is okay he was forced to quit after they took parts of his lung out . hes doing better and i'm proud.
my boyfriend has been supportive and hes always checking in with me, he makes sure i dont relapse , because he cares about me and my health. hes a sweet heart
i'm almost 1 year clean again :)
@@Manlyoldman Congratulations keep going !!!
When I was 12 I was doing a lot of stuff…
Tbh smoking weed at 16 is still crazy af.
I’m 26 and have lost 11 friends within the last 10 years. I struggle with my own addictions. This is very very real. God bless you all
oh wow im so sorry to hear that
Sorry for you loss'. I'm 37, started using opiates at 9. I've lost almost everyone I know in the damn near 30 years I've been using. I am coming up on 18 months clean. I jus lost my fiance 3 months ago. She had 2½ years clean, but thought she could use once and no one would know. Been a rough past few months but just gotta keep our heads up.
Man it’s hard dealing with addiction and seeing things like this happen makes me realize how lucky I am yet stupid for putting myself in the situation to begin with 😫
Christ loves you
@@anghellicone87 dawg idk know you but you a trooper for sticking it out, shits not worth it and i hope you stay strong the rest of your life. peace and love
I am so sorry for your loss. We just lost our 19 yr old daughter this week, June 7th. We are so numb, Jetaya went into cardiac arrest, and she went over 20 minutes without oxygen. She was brain dead. She was an organ donor and just saved 5 lives yesterday. We feel people must know how dangerous fentanyl really is. Thank you for sharing your story. This is the only way to get the message out there. God bless you and your family.😢❤
Very sorry for your loss. We have a private Facebook group made up primarily of people who have share their stories with us or people who wish to. Many of the members also have other Facebook groups addressing the same issue. If you’d like to be a part of our group, send us an email and I can reply with an invitation link. The people in the group comfort each other. It’s kind of beautiful. You’re not alone.
Amen 🙏🙏✝️✝️
I am so, so sorry.
Rest in peace Jetaya Lucero I lived in Gardner and knew Jastin may god bless your family and recovery from the tragedy 😭
So very heartbroken to hear of your tragedy. Your daughter lives on in the people whose lives she saved. What a hero.
Sending you 💕 💕.
I’ve been wanting to tell my family’s story but it’s so hard to even think about. My son was 19 yrs old serving in the U.S. Air Force when he was found unresponsive from an accidental Fentanyl overdose. My only son.
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A parent should never have to lose their child no matter their age. I’m so sorry for your loss. 🖤
My heart aches for you.😩💔Im extending my condolences to you. I lost my God brother, DJ on 10-29 of this year. U are in my sincere prayers. ❤🙏🏾
Only 14... This is beyond sad. He really didn't know what he was getting into. If there's anybody reading this thinking about trying pills off the street, consider this video your warning. RIP Joshua.
He won't read your RIP in this comment section. He is dead.
@@mimibee626 what is wrong with you
True shit kids dont pop pills off the street shit will kill
@@dviousgremlin nothing , he’s being rational
@@Monkforilla boy that ain’t being rational that’s bein fuckin disrespectful, @mimiBee have some respect 🖕
He was still so little. I’m so sorry about your loss. Your son was a good kid, and you are a good mother! This tragedy could happen to anyone. 💔
I do believe he probably had something that he was escaping. It is unusual for a 12-year-old to start getting high. He might have experienced a trauma that his parents were unaware of (common one would be sexual abuse). So he was showing warning signs at an early age.
"good kid"
@@lemurianchick what? It’s rare?
@@r-du was he just pure evil in your opinion?
@@r-du if drugs makes someone bad you have a piss poor view on morals
This makes me so sad to watch, this live footage brought me to tears. I feel so much for this child's mom, she sounds like she really was trying to get the help her child needed. My sister passed away this past June from a fentanyl overdose, just a couple days after her 17th birthday. Unfortunately she knew that she was taking fentanyl as well. She had her own struggles, but I felt like we were finally building a relationship and we were actually growing close for once. Growing up in a family of addicts, you think you'd know all of the signs, but it's not always that easy. I feel like schools definitely need to do a better job at making kids aware of the impacts that drugs can cause and stress to them that they don't always know what they are getting their selves into. The only thing that was offered to me in school was a DARE class in 5th grade, which lasted a very short amount of time.
that dare class part reminded me of the spongebob meme of the student driver sub teacher was like "no talking" and offered some food to the students and one of the students aka a fish wanted one and got one and the sub teacher asked how was it and the fish said it was good and then the sub teacher ripped his head off x.x
I am so sorry for your loss. May she rest in peace 🤍
Damn man she was using at 17? 17? That's crazy I would never imagine that shit to be used by someone so young and full of life.
Honestly you could have saved her by talking to her
@@OhSoNasty You are disgusting for even mentioning that. Nobody knew she was doing fent and she had been talked to multiple times about the dangers of drugs considering our family history. If you think that I wouldn’t have tried talking to her about this had any of us KNOWN, then you’re very wrong.
I’m in tears. This is heartbreaking no parent deserves to find their child this way. She’s so strong for speaking & reliving that moment just to bring awareness to parents. This is something that should definitely be seen nationally. My condolences go to her 😢🙏🏽
"So we kept him under a tighter reign, we even forced him into counseling to see why he wanted to self medicate then we did that for a long time and it was a "battle" and then we started testing him for THC so he got Percocet instead."
Not saying it was her fault, but she placed tremendous stress onto him when he was already probably already stressed for other reasons.
@@thatguy5801 What should the parents do? They leave him on his own but he keeps taking drugs,they became "strict"and that put more pressure on him? REALLY???
No it's NOT the parents fault!!
Teenagers are PUTTING TREMENDOUS pressure on their parents! No matter how the parents react,the kids Take advantage of them and PUNISH them in the most horrific way: By killing themselves!
@@thund3rbolt54 Shoulda just let him smoke the herb and only the herb, he'd still be here today.
@@thatguy5801 this is not always true if you’re too deep in to drugs but it seemed like he was just trying to find a new way to get high because of the test so you could be right.
@@tb-pi6hc I am right, she even installed cameras pointed directly at his room, INSIDE THE HOUSE. This was about total control. Forced counseling, THC testing, cameras, WHO DOES THAT?
I can't imagine what he had to make up during his counseling visits just to get through it, or how it must have been knowing your parents test you for THC or everytime he walked out his door he was on camera, and lets not think about what goes on between these events, would she yell and scream? Was the mom over controlling and manipulating, I know she wanted the best for him but sometimes it comes "the best she imagines for him" and that's where she went wrong.
I dont understand why this is not a national emergency either momma. I lost my 22yo son in June to fentanyl. He took what he thought was something else and it had fentanyl in it. It's an unbearable pain amd I'm so sorry that so many of us share this pain.
cause it's not a national emergency, it's not a crisis, it can't be stopped. chemists, police and government distribute these drugs just as much as drug dealers. Mac Millers drug dealers had a history of lacing their drugs with fent. Why weren't they arrested before? because his drug dealers where chemist doctors with PHD"s who had a license to develop and "prescribe" recreational drugs. this is never going to stop because it's allowed and big pharma controls it.
so sorry for your loss as well.... not fair, not right... pain is unbearable
@rvoit Who gives a fuck?
@R Voit Really?
@R Voit what he thought it was is truly irrelevant. What is relevant is that it wasnt what it was supposed to be and now my son is dead
I've watched all of the fentanyl poisoning episodes and, to me, this one is the most painful. The one that filled me with horror as she checked on her son only to find him dead. Watching the video of Joshua being carted away in a body bag. Even the police and EMT's were affected. Sharing this video with us is most powerful because you actually see the shock and grief, hear the mother scream. The agony must be unreal.
That first Bellow came from her soul and made me instantly tear up I cannot imagine how she felt. Christ. RIP young man.
Me too….I wouldn’t have been able to stop yelling
Bellow Yellow Mellow.......
Me too. I'm crying now. This hit my heart so hard. I will never stop telling my 20 year old I love him. We went through some real hard times.
Yeah, so sad 😔
Agreed I was listening and not watching and it made me cry…I had to rewind it
Oh my gosh. The camera footage is just absolutely heartbreaking 💔!!! I'm so sorry for your loss, and I agree that this needs national, every day attention.
yes it does... thank you
How about you just DON'T inject toxic drugs into your body? Not hard to figure out!!!
@@kimgillihan6778 I want to express how sorry I am for what has happened to your baby but words don't seem to hold the weight of this. Stay strong momma and keep speaking out everywhere everyday
I thought it was an reenactment, then realized it was real footage...so sad 😭💔 She tried her best.
@@De.D1 same here. When I realized it's real, tears welled- up.
Man this is hard. I’ve sat here and watched every Poison video and it’s heartbreaking. My cousin passed away in August due to this and it’s torn us apart. He was like a brother to me and we never knew he was having overdoses
So sorry for your loss
Damn smh
so sorry for your loss...
🙏sorry for your loss💔
Sorry 🙏
She is beyond courageous and resilent to show the actual footage of her loss in order to bring awareness and to do "something" . God Bless your family after the loss of Joshua.
Absolutely agree!
Why can’t this youngins just stick to smoking and working out and having a good time with some beers why pills jack WHYYY
I am a single father of a 14 year old son, we lost his mother to an OD in 2020. I could never imagine losing my son at any age let alone at 14. I am so sorry for your loss, something needs to be done ASAP we are losing future generations at a horrifying rate. The Government could care less, they need to be held accountable for murdering our children.
Amen brother!
Oh my God I’m 14 and lost my mother to an od in 2020 also. You’re so very right the government needs to be held accountable. I’m so sorry for your loss.
What did she overdose on ?
the government isn't killing them, it's the parents, when you take a good child and make them feel like shit believe it or not they look for a way to fix the problem, and as much as you think you're a great parent, you're not, a child's brain is a sponge; if you lash out at them one time, they will refuse to talk to you about how that made them feel to prevent you from lashing out at them more, and they will always have that memory in the back of their head, so when a drug makes them feel euphoric and uplifted, they love it and keep doing it to get that feeling back in order to "forget" that experience, coming from a 17-year-old man who has been told his entire life that my experiences don't matter because I live in a suburban area, I feel for the kid in the video and I know something happened that she's not telling us about.
that was hilarious
Seeing the DOB breaks my heart even more. I was born in 2000 so it gives me chills. Prayers to all the families suffering.
Never do drugs of any kind. Weed, nicotine and alcohol can lead to more drugs. Marijuana is safer than other drugs but it can still lead people to other drugs.
@xeno dude..even weed can be laced. Any drug can be laced and you wouldn’t even know because most people don’t get their drugs tested! Ppl assume their drugs are safe! A family member of mine almost died from laced weed. Drugs are bad period!
the kid's fault for doing anything except smoke weed. parents fault for drug testing for weed. if the kid literally just stuck to weed and his parents stopped dick riding him this wouldnt of happened
@@Aurora-rw9lp its true weed theoretically can be laced but theres no point. weed is legal in my state so where i live its literally just 18 year olds with med cards selling to people not even that much younger then them. fent is laced in powder like coke to weigh the bag down cuz fent is cheap. with weed all someone has to do is buy from the dispo for 15 dollars then sell to some kid for 35
@@Aurora-rw9lp my ex-husband's sister and her husband were found by his oldest brother in their bed. Mark my ex had their only baby girl Maria of 3 years old at the time. They were a close family. Everyone kept calling & trying to contact them. They went by their home & friends of theirs looking. Finally Stephen their older brother (Stephen, Maria & Mark) went to their home & kicked in the door! That is when he had found them both in their bed both dead. From laced marijuana WEED! After dropping their daughter with her uncle they went to a known ladies house purchased the weed and only weed from her. Went home smoked and died lying on their bed together. Their bodies laid there for 3 days until Stephen found them. Needless to say Mark and Stephen do not smoke weed or do any other drug following this. Unfortunately Stephen has become very, very found of the "drink" since then. I can't imagine finding my baby sis or any sibling like that for that matter. Stephen and Maria were also very very close & silly 🤗😇😂. All three were but, Stephen and Maria were the closest and did everything together so after finding her and his brother in law he has and I don't think will ever be the same again. So yes, you are right. I can't believe that idiot actually shared that!.
Man, I wasn't expecting to see the real footage. I have never seen that before on this series, that was really sad and powerful.
I rarely ever get emotional due to trauma, but this one struck me hard. I struggled with addiction for many years growing up, lost plenty of very, very good friends in my immediate circle due to it as well. I beat addiction and got myself clean…and one of the things I am most thankful for is that my parents never had to experience this moment…god bless and RIP young one, we will all meet again.
Did you blame the government for your addiction?
Stay strong and stay clean you are a strong person to quite drugs I’m proud of you GOD BLESS YOU
never go back either. Its a life-long fight. Finding a passion will help immensely
I have teenage daughters. I can not even imagine. That video caught me off guard. Hearing you scream out just broke my heart. Thank you for sharing this and my healing thoughts are with you 💙🕊
Mothers. Show your kids this. It’s real. It’s not an overdose. It’s POISON.
This was me and my momma was talking about like they don't even investigate the deaths they just Label them overdoses
My brother watched his friend die next to him of a fentanyl overdose
And it was laced weed
No, it's a drug overdose. Textbook definition.
@@passive-brawlstars That's what they are.
I'm from Canada... I lost my son 17 years ago.. accidental OD. I'm sorry for your loss. I will tell you that in some way or manner you will heal in the years ahead. We never forget
So sorry for your loss. May your son's memory be a blessing.
@rvoit you have no clue what you're talking about!
I am in absolute tears watching this. I have a 14 year old daughter and 11 year old son. As soon as they get hone we're gonna watch these videos. I've talked to them about taking drugs but they need to see this.
We have several stories in the series that are about young teens.
@@TexasPicturesI am so glad I found your channel. It is a great service for parents and teens. God bless Texas!
The footage has to be a blessing and a curse. My heart breaks for you as a mother
Truly touching - I messed around with a lot of pills/dumb shit when I was a kid. Thankfully, I am still here to write this comment. I've lost plenty of younger friends to fent - it's no joke, something HAS to be done to try and stop this.
You stopped doing it and others did not. Often when they are addicts and/or homeless organisations offer their help to get them off drugs and get their lives on track but it does not always work. There is such a thing as accountability for your own actions.
@@CatinthehatOct1989 Feel you brother - shits a lot different these days. We're all from different times there just needs to be more personal responsibility. Same boat as you bro - stay up and keep that mental sharp.
@@cleopatra1633 I feel you, and I feel for them as well
@@CatinthehatOct1989 100% - glad you're still here brother.
@@Rickatang I dont feel for people that do not take accountability, facts and hard action is the only things that help. I do feel for young children and especially the ones that have to see this adult selfisch people in their neighbourhood, only thinking about their own needs and not caring for anyone else but themselves
As I’m watching this, I’m explaining to my Eight year old son about the dangers of fentanyl. I have six kids in total and I pray for each and everyone of them every day. My heart is broken for his mother and for all the families who go through this.
It's awful isn't it? It's awful that we have to speak to our 8-year-old children about things like this. They're growing up too fast and honestly I blame the internet. They're exposed to so much more than we were as kids and that's just the way of life now. There's nothing we can do about it other than to make them aware and the open with them and do the best we can.
Can I ask will u show thus video to ur child? I also have a child ur sons age and want to speak to him about the dangers. Not sure if he is too young to watch this footage?
@@fiphuket2010 agreed. Sounds like it’s going to raise more curiosity than anything
@rvoitFor one thing, not really! I have known people who trade food stamps for drugs, and they usually have to trade their whole month food budget for a wake-up! A very small amount…
@R Voit Why are here, in this comment section? On this video with that sh-??? What’s wrong with you, you think you’re funny?
This mother and father seems like great parents. They did everything they could they told him the consequences, why he shouldnt do it, and what seems alot more. I hope they dont think its their fault.
I wasn't expecting to see the ACTUAL VIDEO. My goodness!! This is so heartbreaking!!
@R Voit go away, seriously
Never underestimate the depths a woman will go to for attention...showing the footage from when your brown son OD'd is an all new low though
@@whiteyfisk9769 What's wrong with you. She's clearly showing this to show the absolute inexplicable HORROR of the situation. You don't see him, his privacy was never invaded. You call it attention but she clearly wants awareness. Jesus Christ.
@@whiteyfisk9769 bbbbb based
@@whiteyfisk9769 this footage needs to be shown don't be a fool. Bunch of gen z idiots that need to be taught
The fact we're in an age where there's the ability to capture someone's worst moments on camera in what should be a happy private setting is heartbreaking but so important to make an impact
having cams inside your house is weird as hell
@@maxtm3000 i think most people have them so they can watch their pets while out the house.
Seeing the poor mom leaving the room heartbroken absolutely kills me! I imagine that being my mom and it breaks my heart putting my poor mom and dad and family through that ugh and I’m an addict and iv put my parents through absolute hell half my life but now ive been on a much better path for the past 5 years
Amen
I lost my 30 year old daughter December 17, 2022 to Fentanyl.. you are so right something should be done. So sorry for your loss.
Yes, sorry for your child passing..mine also, sweet Thea 23yr.old in 2017
So sorry about both of you losing your children. So awful.
I feel so lucky that fentanyl was not prevalent in drugs when I was a teenager. I did all sorts of drugs. Snorted coke, molly, smoked dmt, ate mushrooms and acid, smoked pot, drank... I would've been dead if this shit was around then. This was only a decade ago. Fentanyl has really exploded on the scene very recently. I'm so sorry you experienced this, and continue to live in this reality. Your message of educating parents and kids will save countless lives. Thank you.
R u sober now?
i did the same besides coke i was lucky i knew da real and went to a lab before so i could tell if it was fake or not
Yeah, a lot of us did. But here’s the thing, the majority of fentanyl is being found in downers. Are some dealers mixing it into coke, MDMA, or other kinds of drugs? Sure but just take a look at the videos on this channel. Pretty much every one of them says “he/she thought it was a percocet”. I did a lot of drugs but I never bought that kind of thing. That’s really new.
@@witchsiIver probably, he said he was a teen and now hes making this comment so most likely it was just a teen phase
Fentanyl was just starting then, but was very rare. Now its in almost everything, even weed sometimes.
I’m sobbing. I’m so sorry mama. This wasn’t your fault. Much love to you and your family ❤
No, apparently it was the government's fault.
@@mimibee626 nah just a skill issue from the boy
@@TheChupapiPapi Way to reveal your age, kiddo.
@@duh4895 ok mr bonobo with a spongebob picture, you're a such an adult, maybe try some fentanyl :)
So sorry for your loss. 😢my worst nightmare for my son who was contemplating suicide.
This mother is one of the strongest women I’ve ever seen and I want to say thank you for sharing your god awful experience to try to save another person from this horrible fentanyl epidemic
Wow. Seeing that live footage was so awful and will stick with me forever. So awful. I’m so sorry for her loss. That wail she let out when she first realized as she was dialing 911… sent chills through me.
My son, Nicholas Joseph Bell, died on September 24, 2021 when he took a pill he thought was Xanax but it turned out to be fentanyl. He was by himself in a hotel room in Tijuana and we couldn’t help him. Rest in Peace to my baby and to yours 🥲
My best friend finally got clean from years of Xanax addiction. She got the right medical care and had come full circle. Then one night she rolled the dice and bought 1 Xanax off the street. Her granddaughter found her dead the next morning. We were middle age housewives not teenagers. This is a poison that no one is safe from, unless you are totally abstinent.
Don't break your loved one's hearts.
It's been awhile, but I think of my dear friend everyday.
I’m sorry to hear that. That’s so rare for fentanyl to be laced in Xanax. It cost more then.
@@ezbred8145 Yeah, the whole point of using fentanyl on things like this is because fentanyl's so cheap actually, and they want to make extra money. It's cutting it close with xanax, so I don't see why they do that either. I can understand doing it with blow, or other opiate pain pills.
@@sarahalbers5555 Sorry about your best friend, that's awful. So many drugs are cut with fentanyl these days. The dealers are so greedy and try to make any extra money they can. Fentanyl is so cheap so they cut things with it. Xanax is cutting it close though, that's crazy. I have even heard of weed having fentanyl in it in very rare situations. Drugs are way more dangerous than they used to be. So tragic that you lost your friend to this nonsense.
Sorry about the loss of your son Nicholas. I can't even imagine, that's terrible. Fentanyl is so dangerous these days, it's completely out of hand. I hate seeing people lose their family and loved ones because of this. RIP to your son.
This has to be one of the most heartwrenching videos I have seen. Watching this poor Mama on Video trying wake up her son and he's gone!!! Momma it's not your fault. Do not blame yourself. I want to thank you for sharing this. I pray this video your so selflessly shared will save lives. I'm so sorry for the loss of your son.
It’s obvious that she is a good mother who did everything she could to keep her family safe and, still, you can’t. I lost a cousin I was close to, to this drug. I lost my Dad to drugs, and I almost lost my life. We need to surround our children with love, educate them, treat them with compassion when they do develop chemical health issues, and solve this problem!
I had an art class with Josh and he was a very nice kid he was very generous I didn't get to know him that well but my friend Eliana was really close with him
I wish I would've gotten to know him better but he was a very good kid
Rip Josh
🙏🏻🥺
Rest in peace
I wonder why this "good kid" was doing drugs?
@@janethefriend-awakened33 I wonder what Kind of A-Hole would put up such a Cruel Comment!🤨
@@janethefriend-awakened33 your profile content explains it all.
When she hollered after realizing… I felt that 😢. My condolences ma’am. And condolences to anyone who has gone through this. 🙏🏽
The video felt like I was there. How brave and unselfish of you to display this video and your feelings. How so sad.😢 Thank you so much for sharing.😔
This one made me cry so hard seeing them bring that child out of that house and hearing her when she first found him. Prayers and strength to you. My heart hurts for you and I wish I could help.
thank you so much...
My heart broke for her. 💔 . To not even know you had to worry about this, and find your child gone…
I’m terrified to have children because you can’t be there to protect them 24hrs a day. The world is an unsafe place. Rest In Power 🙏🏻
One of the biggest things you can do for your kids is give them a stable early environment! Don't send them to daycare! If you have to work better part time at home or at least bring your mother to your house to care for the child. We are raising a generation of anxious kids that feel a need to self medicate. 0-3 is a time when the brain experiences crucial development. In an unstable environment or even in an environment where a mother is dropping a young child off at daycare daily the brain is at greater risk of developing hypervigilance, anxiety, emotional reactivity, depression, etc.. Give your kids a good start. At least most countries in Europe mandate very long periods of parental leave like 12 months etc.. That at least is somewhat helpful. Dumping kids of at daycare and getting them later involved in countless back to back activities is a remedy for anxiety laden kids that feel the need to self medicate with marijuana, Xanax. Percocet, alcohol, etc..
PARENTS IF YOU CANT STOP YOUR KID FROM SMOKING WEED ATLEAST MAKE SURE ITS FROM A TRUSTED PERSON
This one was particularly heart wrenching and powerful. I’m an only child and I know if my mom ever lost me it would be so devastating to her. It breaks my heart.
So sad. Jonathan, my son died of the same poison. Many in the government don't care. We are only numbers to them. Thank you for having the courage to make this memorial and trying to save one. So very sad we can now search TH-cam and find similar stories, in these comments find other destroyed souls. May God's grace be with you and yours and the others that read and see this story.
I’m so so sorry! It breaks my heart!
How is it the governments fault ur child did drugs?
@@playboi6591 read the room
@@yocarsi I don’t have to read the room she is literally blaming the government for her child doing drugs and dying
@@playboi6591 not so much blaming the government, more so just showing frustration toward the lack of attention being spread on the substance. Now, what we don’t know is if her kid was straight up doing fentanyl or if he bought something laced with it, so either way we don’t know enough bout their situation to put the blame all on her son for “doing the drugs.” Could’ve just been laced weed 🤷♂️
Gosh, just seeing Joshua’s year of birth and his young face it broke my heart and then realizing it was there only child 😢it broke my heart but then to see the actual footage of the house and his room is just devastating RIP Joshua prayers to mom and dad you really did do what you could do in the end I hope you won’t be too hard on yourself.😢😭😭😭😭
Same. I have a cousin who just turned 14 himself, also born in 2008. I held him in my arms in the hospital when he was born. He’s more like a little brother to me than a cousin. He’s not interested in much more than video games and fencing, so it just makes me absolutely sick to know another baby his age was playing Russian Roulette with his own life. I lost 2 close friends within less than a year of each other to fentanyl poisoning (both were long term heroin users and got hot doses) and because of that, I’m going to make damn sure he knows how dangerous this crap is. I don’t know what the hell happened to teenagers just smoking weed and drinking beer at parties like when I was growing up. Those aren’t particularly great ideas either, but I never saw it kill or seriously harm any of my peers. I’ve certainly seen dope and fent do it though.
@@skyofthelivingdead I feel the same way. my brother was born in 2009 and I worry about him constantly. Especially because he’s so naive
This took me to a whole other headspace seeing this home video from her finding him to them taking him out in a body bag. This should be shown in all drug classes, group meetings, schools, etc across the nation! My thoughts & prayers go out to his parents, family & friends. I'm so sorry. 😢
this is absolutely heartbreaking. i cant imagine how hard it was to post the raw footage on youtube. but you should know how impactful it is. i don’t think people truly understand or think about the real life consequences, until they see them. seeing this video really opened my eyes to how scary and real it is. thank you. you might have saved someone’s life by posting this. you are an amazing mother, god bless your soul, and may joshua rest peacefully.
We've created a series of these short films, 14 so far. We included the home security footage at the mother's insistence. The brave people in all the films in the series shared their stories to help others. Here's a link to the full playlist - th-cam.com/play/PLdCPA32W_p3-nQ02KBdGW81ca9-4FdJsx.html
14 yrs old.....im so very sorry for the loss of your son❤️
Giving us these images is so brave and for sure help people facing a reality shock..I am so sorry for your loss. RIP Joshua
These stories are so heartbreaking, but need to be shared. The actual footage displayed, is showing someone else's nightmare, but hopefully will help people realize how real this epidemic is.
I agree that this should be a more important issue than it currently is. I'm so sorry for your loss. That footage is absolutely heartbreaking and I felt it deeply.
My youngest brother was born in '07 and seeing this kid's age made this very real for me. My condolences to the Gillihan family. 🙏🏾💔
I was born in '07 too. This is sad to see.
We just lost my nephew on November 11th from fentanyl. My heart breaks watching you & your family in pain. Thank you for sharing this video it’s so important that people know what can happen just from taking one pill.
Dang and i was doing 40 pills a day the m30s
I lost my brother to this epidemic I watched my mom go through this! More people need to help US!!!
Hearing your scream is absolutely heart breaking, its so chilling, but understandable, the cry of pain from a parent from loosing their child is an unbearable pain 💔
Thank you for showing your heart breaking footage, I personally think, it should be shown in Schools around the world, to show, that it could happen to anyone xx
Loosing? You mean losing. Illiterate!
As someone who chose not to have children, I cannot fathom the pressure and stress all of you parents are under worrying about your children in these days. My prayers and best wishes to all of you. Hang in there.
When you parent your child or children instead of try to be their best friend and give them everything they want instead of the things they need in life you run a higher risk of mornings like you see in this video. Be the helicopter mom or dad, be the nosy parent that is rummaging through your child's belongings and laughs at the idea of privacy for a small child or a teen that lives in your home.
@@MattHelmSA overbearing parents make their kids extra sneaky and better at hiding, trust me. that absolutely doesn’t always work. you can pay so much attention to your kids and this would still happen
What you said is exactly how I feel as someone who has decided not to have children as well. I hate it here!
@@emich714 To me you’re both right which is partly why I’m glad I don’t have children. Raising them is such a delicate dance.
@@nbaoldgirl i agree
this is what happens when rich kids decide to not just live in the comfort they're provided with and think its cool to do class A's for fun
Seeing the actual home footage and watching is body being carried out, was absolutely heartbreaking 😞 So very young. My condolences to the family.
I lost my best friend of 20 years. I’m in pain every day. I miss her. I begged her too please stop. Now she is gone. The pain is real. It never goes away.
Lost my best friend because she just would not stop drinking. Her drinking buddies threw her off a balcony. I let go of my anger and pain because she was helped by many people that loved her, but she just left her child to go drinking, I practically raised her daughter. No more tears.
showing the camera footage is so important...i dont think people think it can happen to them and this makes it more real. Bless his family and his memory
Thank you for sharing your story with us. I have 6 children 3 of them are in Joshua's age range. I showed them this today and it was pure silence. I cried, no mother or anyone for that matter should ever endure the pain of loosing a child to drugs. So sorry for your loss. 💔
I'm the oldest of 2 sister. Now only one as of 2 years ago. My little sister was found unresponsive due to fentanyl. She had only been 19 for a week. RIP Gisselle and all the fallen ones due to this. my heart goes out to all the families who've gone through this.
Holy mother of god. Seeing this in real time is different. I have a 16 and 14 y.o.. I will talk again to them. This is what scares me. The fentanyl is hidden.
Watching them take your son out in a body bag truly broke my heart. I’m so terribly sorry you had to endure this. Thank you for turning your pain into purpose. I will sit my own kids down and show them this video. You will save lives for this. Your baby’s tragic death will not be in vain.
Please never stop sharing these stories. They need to be heard! All these people matter. My condolences to all these families 💔.
I didn’t realise how dangerous these things are at his age. I also thought I could be careful and I’d know what to expect. The reality is that you can never know what you’re taking when it’s something you got of the street. It may seem so safe but I never is.
I agree 100 % this is a crisis. .something needs to happen like yesterday!! I'm so sorry for your loss.....I can't even imagine the pain you and your family are going through...much love and my whole hearted condolences.....
cause it's not a national emergency, it's not a crisis, it can't be stopped. chemists, police and government distribute these drugs just as much as drug dealers. Mac Millers drug dealers had a history of lacing their drugs with fent. Why weren't they arrested before? because his drug dealers where chemist doctors with PHD"s who had a license to develop and "prescribe" recreational drugs. this is never going to stop because it's allowed and big pharma controls it.
thank you
I miss Josh he was a great kid always got along with him I left that school he went to and just figured this out… I’m devastated 😢
That's heartbreaking. Very Sri. 💔
My brother/best friend passed in 2018 from an accidental fentanyl overdose. So sorry for your loss, so many gone from this. Mainstream media won't even talk about.
This video should be shown as some form of education in schools. I'm so sorry for your loss. ❤
I’ll be showing this video to both of my teenage sons. My youngest son is also named Joshua, also 14 years old and this video popped up in my feed. Thank you❤and god bless. A heartache no parent should have to endure😞
Please do…everyone needs to see this 😢😢😢😢
"So we kept him under a tighter reign, we even forced him into counseling to see why he wanted to self medicate then we did that for a long time and it was a "battle" and then we started testing him for THC so he got Percocet instead."
Not saying it was her fault, but she placed tremendous stress onto him when he was already probably already stressed for other reasons.
@@thatguy5801 parents are fucking stupid and clueless, they see that their kid has some problems, and tries to fix them with unhealthy coping mechanism, and what do they do? take it away without even trying to fix the problems, like, ,,i don't care why you do this just stop". Strict parents are the first to control their kids, and the last to give a shit about their problems. They also don't let you do normal activities with kids your age, so you don't develop normally and your life is ruined. I had strict parents, and when i went to uni and moved out i became depressed alcoholic. I just didn't know when to stop, and was drinking cause it was making me more ,,likable" and ,,normal", as i had no friends in school just being me. Turns out my alcoholism is caused by depression, which is caused by adhd and autism, which are incurable
First I just want to say how heartbreaking it is to here about your son Kim. He looked liked a nice beautiful boy who had his whole future ahead of him, I'm sending prayers for you and your family. I also would like to mention that I have a teenager right rn that is about to turn 14 and he knows about all the dangers of Fentanyl and yet somehow seems not care. He continues to use drugs and hang out with friends, i've tried puting him in a facility but nothing seems to work. I feel like I keep running into dead ends. Lets all pray for all the teens who run a high risk and hope that they get the help they need or change theyre lives around.
As an addict and former drug user, I pray for you. Kids are hard to get through too. Maybe show him real videos of people dying from this. It only takes one pill.🙏🙏
Prayed for your son and for anyone who might be affected by this horrible epidemic. God bless you!
As long as your son doesnt do any opiates he should be fine tbh, basically only opiates are spiked with fentanyl (mostly in the us), so if he's only smoking weed/doing psychedelics he should be fine. try and take him to a therapist
@@migerrancan554 Where do you see that he's smoking pot and not using Fentynal? 🤦♀️
My daughter is about to turn 15. This is definitely a video I will show to her. Thank you for sharing.
The footage of her actually reaction to finding him is very sad😓rip
This one hurts so much!! My son was born the same year as Joshua and I've started talking to him about the dangers of these substances. So so scary and painful. I'm so hurt for this mom and hope she always receive the comfort and support she needs as well as her husband and family. 🙏🏽💖
As a mother you did your best. Talks, counseling, etc. My own son was on a downward spiral into drugs and it took a tragic event to get him clean. I agree, this needs to be a national emergency. Our beautiful young sons are dying. Such a waste of sweet lives.
I highly advise against demonising weed though. Because to the 99% who don't have an underlying psychosis waiting to be triggered, it's just pot. Pot never killed anyone.
Testing your child for THC isn't the way to go. It will automatically lead to consumption of other drugs. Because weed dealers usually offer other substances as well.
I'm sorry for that woman but I really don't agree with her. Let your children smoke, they will do it anyway.
"But son, you gotta have a problem and we need to force you to go to "therapy" for that".
Nope. Weed simply feels nice. You wouldn't send someone to therapy for liking quality food and wine. It's like asking: "What's wrong with you, why do you like to enjoy yourself".
I smoke since I'm 16, it makes me a little lazy and shy and that's it.
this is super sad and scary to me, especially because i was also born im 2008. there are people my age who are experimenting and taking lots of drugs and i’m not sure they realize the consequences. a lot of my classmates are addicted already
I'm heartbroken for this mom, along with parents and family from the other vids I've watched on this channel. I know what it feels like to lose a child. I lost my only son in the Marines, and it's an indescribable pain to lose a child. This had to be exceptionally hard, to find him in the safety of their home.
I'm a new subscriber, and I'm praying for these parents. 🕊 😔💝
I'm so sorry for your loss. As a Mom who who lost her son almost 20yrs ago. I feel your pain.
@Terry Clish Please accept my sincerest condolences as well. I do understand. This past Oct 1st was also 20 years for me. I have so many wonderful memories of him, and I'm sure you do also. That's the blessing that we have today, remembering the beauty of their presence in our lives. God has truly been my strength.
Happy Holidays to you, and your family 🎄🕊
Your comment is grammatically perfect.
@@terryclish6177Don't capitalize "Mom."
I'm so sorry ma'am. I have 2 sons that I worry about constantly. Sending you a hug from Oklahoma 💔😪
I’m around his age and I didn’t even know half my friends vaped, drank, and have tested with drugs until about a month ago. There’s a lot of stuff we’re capable of hiding from parents. It doesn’t mean someone smoking or who’s on stuff is a “bad kid” it’s just a time of us needing guidance and kids trying to really feel something. I don’t know what Joshua was going through or what happened when he died but I know his sweet soul is resting easy in paradise 🤍🙏🏼. My condolences to his family, as well.
Hi. Why do you have to feel? Teenagers need to Think more. Be safe!
@@healthyliving4624 Hey, there :). I’m personally a teenager who hasn’t experimented with any drugs, alcohol, or marijuana because I know what it does to the body and brain, let alone a developing one. What I meant by that was that these kids need to “feel” something is because that is the reason many take substances. Personally, I feel that every parent should look out for the signs and then take their child to rehab or therapy, from there. Also, yes, teenagers should think more but they don’t. You stay safe too and thank you for your reply 🙃.
@@healthyliving4624 Taking drugs is unfortunately a normal human behavior and it's normal for teenagers to experiment with them. It's normal to be curious and like with any pleasurable behavior, people who are having problems or are predispositioned to addiction are more likely to try something and continue to use because it feels good. Unfortunately, as long as they're controlled by the black market, things like this will continue to happen, it's not an issue we can police our way out of. The DEA stops an estimated 10% of narcotics at the border with an 8 billion dollar a year budget and even in prisons, the most restrictive places on earth, drugs still find their way inside.
@@Blunt_Man best reply yet, thank you for touching on that. Really appreciate it :)
@@nadiac6042 thank you and God bless you, as well ❤️🤞🏼
YOU are such brave woman & mother to put such a private video out there for others to see. I didn't expect what I saw, so chilling to see what you went through. This footage needs to be shown in middle and high schools more than once a year. I'm so sorry for your loss. Keep fighting in Joshua's name.
Sorry for your loss. Thanks for sharing his story
I'm pushing 45 yrsold, & to see a birthday of 2008 & knowing this child is gone already is absolutely heartbreaking. I have 4 sons of my own & one is exactly Josh's age so this really hits home.
This is terrible. I tell people all the time, the days of buying anything on the streets are OVER. Not worth the risk. The days of "bad trips" are over. Its just death now. Bettee off smoking legal weed, or getting proper prescriptions.
Rest in peace young fella ❤ so sad that you felt the need to medicate at such a young age... so much love to his parents, I hope you are able to be at some peace with this one day and find extra purpose in life ❤💔❤💔
I'm curious to what he even took at 14. I would be surprised if he tried straight fentanyl on purpose. It must have been something cut with fentanyl,so sad and tragic. RIP to that young boy, only 14.
You sound like black people during the crack era except for we didn't get any help we got prison.. but I'm still sorry for your loss
Yep. Exactly
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This. It is sad but it seems like it’s a TRUE problem for other people because this time it’s not just black people killing themselves with drugs. Now it’s a crisis
My deepest and sincerest condolences to you and your husband. May your son rest in peace.
Thank you for sharing your heartbreak to help others. As unimaginable devastating your pain is I gratefully appreciate you letting the world in so maybe another Mother won't experience the same heartbreak. 🙏
thank you
This was brutal to watch, sending so much love and hugs to this woman!! I had my troubles in my teens, not drugs but mental illness, this helped me have a bit more empathy for some of my mom's behaviours about it all back then, especially since she lost her mom at a young age and was the one to find her.
The white dog knew. The door was already pushed open and when he followed the mom in, he immediately hung his head. Poor kid. RIP Joshua.
I live in Colombia South America, and my heart goes to you my North American brothers and sisters, America is one big family from pole to pole. I'm an addict to methadone, I've been off Iv heroin since 2014 (the biggest mistake of my life) , and I feel this is a complete tragedy, this crisis is just heartbreaking. i can't express...No matter the circumstances we all are human, and no matter where you are from or what language you speak, we are all human, and you have the strongest most beautiful democracy of this hemisphere and I truly feel for you. I just want you to know, you're not alone. I know it's stupid but I needed to say it. We are together in this, it's humanity vs the practical devil.
I’m so glad you’re sober and off heroin❤
Milo tell your story to as many kids as you can. It’s the only way to inform people of how dangerous these drugs are.
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That was beautiful. 🙏🏼💜
@@theway3058 I will sir! I promise you I will.
Until it happens to their family members...then it will be an issue
Watching this one, hit different.
As my only child approaches her teens, I can’t even bear the thought of losing her.
From the bottom of my heart, I am so sorry for you’re loss. May God be with you during these difficult times.
We just lost my brother’s girlfriend. My heart is absolutely gutted for this family.
Heart breaking. I’m so sorry for your loss and sadness. This video should be shown in schools. Praying for you and your family
The live footage absolutely devastated me…as a Social Worker/Criminal Justice Advocate, testimonies like this are crucial to bringing awareness to the poison that is Fentanyl…my sincerest condolences to the family❤