This is the first time I’ve ever commented on a TH-cam video but I feel the need to bring some awareness to the impact of this post. I’ve been following your account for quite a while (while I myself was suffering from my ED and using your videos as a source of catharsis because I related to you so much). I’ve since gone to residential and partial treatment and can say that my life has changed tremendously for the better. Watching this video, today, triggered me in a way I didn’t realize I could be triggered at this point. I suffered from anorexia and had to weight restore. It’s been hard, painful (physically and emotionally), long, and expensive. Seeing you come on here flaunting your thigh gap, skinny arms, abs, and “bloat” feels like a punch in the gut. I know you are happy and feeling great, which is amazing for you! And I know everyone should find confidence in their own body to the point where videos like these don’t matter. But we all know all too well that that kind of confidence is rare and hard to come by. I’m sorry but you must keep in mind who your audience is before you publicize your thinness. Not everyone who underwent recovery is in a small body like yours and we fight every single day to accept our bodies anyways. I wish you had been more considerate of that before posting this
Thank you for your comment and i say this in no harsh way. But must speak my mind... I have said multiple times in the last several months that I do not wish to be apart of the ED community anymore. I am NOT my eating disorder, and I have left that behind. I am who I chose to be... fitness, food, sports, family.... that is all apart of my life. I am not going to hold back and not post what I want on my channel because I am afraid some people won't like it or be triggered. I am so very sorry to those people who are, but then I encourage them to stop following me or watching me. Again- I have said many times, I am moving away from ED content, so I have warned my audience: I will not put my videos through the ED filter, and I will not hide what I have worked so hard for. At one point, yes I did- and I catered specifically to that crowd. But that is the problem with this community- once you are labeled as eating disorder recovery, people expect you to stay stuck here forever. And then anything that is totally fine and healthy when done with the right mindset (ie fitness, protein shakes, workout clothes, muscle gain etc..) people get angry and upset and worried for me as though they never expect me to do those things again. That is NOT the way life should be. We grow and we move on. At least I have.
Stephanie Marie Frank I completely understand your point and agree with it wholeheartedly! I also am enjoying my life, working out, doing as I please, and re-discovering what I enjoy in life. Please believe me when I say I understand you and don’t at all wish for you to stay “stuck” in the ED community. I am misled by your TH-cam channel’s name and also by the fact that you’ve always been a beacon of ED recovery on this platform. As someone who follows this channel for that reason, this video was a shock. You’re right; I will unfollow to protect myself from triggering content. I just might suggest rebranding your channel (ie removing recovery from the name maybe?) and starting anew to better represent your current interests. It’s phenomenal that you’re doing this well and I really am happy that you’re ready for the next stages of life after the ED
@@jollyjumpersgirl thank you so much for you understanding response. I did rename the face of my you tube some time ago, but i didn't change the intro in the videos. ill work on that. I wish you the best :)
jollyjumpersgirl Triggers are everywhere. And different for everyone. YOU have to take control, be an adult, and if Steph triggers you... don’t watch. She has said that multiple times. Steph is living HER life. And she can’t be responsible for how HER life affects YOU. She has said multiple times that she is not a recovery account and if her videos bother you to simply unfollow.
Kim Hoeltje you must not have read the comments between Stephanie and I because that’s precisely the conclusion we came to... no need to be aggressive when everyone is in agreement
Coming from someone in anorexia recovery i love to see a TH-camr who is fighting for a life where not every waking moment, every action is based around an eating disorder. Its hard when you try to move from the recovery confinement, and a lot of people will seek permission to eat still from your videos, and maybe to fill a void themselves so they can eat through watching you? You do you Stephanie, I'm excited for the new content and person you are to show us!
Be careful, because I've seen so many "recovering" girls being into fitness, when in reality they compensated for what they ate by excercising, because they were afraid of not being size 1 anymore. If you want to distance yourself from ed and recovery community, why put into your thumbnail "after recovery" and then showing your thin body for like 5 minutes. Ok, we get it. You are skinny and recovered, good for you for being proud of it. Also why did you have need to say "it's in size small" ??? Yeah, we can tell you are small. You are only two years into your recovery, it takes aproximately 7 to recover, so don't try to fool people you are already recovered, when this was just one big body check.
Shinon Naman I’ve shared my whole journey and never claimed to be fully recovered. Sorry you so obviously are struggling with comparing. Keep doing that and you will never move on. If you a chose to be triggered by my size that’s on you so please don’t watch. Wishing you the best
Shinon Naman by letting things like this affect you, you are letting yourself be triggered because you are comparing and that is a choice. You could chose not to compare to anyone, you can choose not to watch the video, you can choose to move on. It is not my responsibility to cater to everyone’s triggers... then no video would ever be made because everyone is triggered by different things. The body checking was not checking my size- I was checking to see how the clothes fit since they were brand new. Alf there is no shame in noticing muscle gain and progress in ones body.
@@StephanieMarie95 I respectfully disagree with you. I don't think that person's issue is that they are comparing themselves to you. People who have experienced anorexia or ED can spot someone who still is engaging in those behaviours a mile away and it can feel important to call them out... Especially if that person seems like they might be presenting a different story on TH-cam than what they truly feel? If you broke your back and then went skydiving a few months later, people would tell you that that seems like a poor choice given your history. Likewise, someone who has had an ED who makes a video that is all about panning to their body and what they look like in tight workout clothes and lifting of their shirt will probably get the same reaction. It looks like a body check. Your reaction to that comment came off to me like "even though I showed my body a bunch throughout this video, I hope you don't think about or notice my body too much." Your audience is highly body conscious. Fine... It's not your responsibility to not trigger people ....... But I think you could at least respect that much of your audience is highly body aware and might not want to see someone is the recovery realm flaunting their body this much. When I was unwell, I wanted everyone to think that I ate so much and wasn't gaining weight. To me, that was the image I wanted to have... Skinny girl that loves food and eats a lot. But in reality, I ate way less than I said, and I was terrified to go one day without working out. I by no means am projecting all of this onto you or saying I know you and your story, but that is how you have come off to me. You don't have to defend yourself. I am open to believe that I am wrong, but I hope you consider your thoughts and behaviours. Are you really healthy and happy? Yes? Cool. No? Then keep pushing. Best wishes
Jane Johnston I’m sorry you feel that way- but this is who I am and I am doing very well. If it bothers you, please don’t watch, I won’t be upset- I understand not everybody shares my opinions or values :)
I just wish that not every recovery account falls into the fitness hype 😒 For many with ED not very helpful to see this, especially in the time now where it seems everyone does 😣 I hope you know that you have a examplary function here...
little.peanut I am not “falling” into any hype. I literally said in this video and am NOT a fitness youtube me or guru. I simply just went to the gym omg. There is nothing wrong with exercise! It is GOOD for people who are healthy, which I am. Also- what do you mean about exemplary “function” ?
I’m so proud of you..♥️ You literally kicked eating disorder’s butt and I appreciate that I could be a part of your recovery because you shared your journey with us🖤 And I’m glad you still make videos even though (like you said) your life is not about eating disorder as much as it used to be.. 🖤
I MEAN THIS WITH RESPECT: Hon, I think you need to be more conscientious about the content you are putting out. I’m sure you are well aware about who your viewers are, and likely- there may be a person who is earlier in recovery. This can easily cause confusion and reassessment and shame and more body image issues. You’ve been given a great story of recovery. We look to you for support. I understand you are moving on, but what if that causes someone who is working on recovery to relapse.
Alina Bibik it’s not her responsibility to filter everything she says /does because others aren’t in the same stage of recovery. they shouldn’t be on the internet if they are so easily triggered.....
For me, the biggest change in your videos is to see you sparkling. When you're fitting clothes, it makes me happy to see you being proud of who you've become, how far in recovery you're now and to have more freedom. I really think you look gorgeous and I'm so proud of you! Whatever people might say, you deserve to be happy with yourself and negative comments shouldn't be allowed, 'cause everyone has the right to choose his own way in recovery and so do you
The past couple of weeks I've started intensive eating.Ive been not thinking about what I'm eating and going for what I want to eat.The thing that keeps holding me back besides my thoughts is the bloating and constipation.My stomach feels like it's dying all the time.Its so painful and I don't want to eat snacks when I'm hungry cause I'm like u already have enough in your stomach you don't need to eat.But then I remember what would Stephanie do?She would eat and if she can do it u can do.So thank you for helping me fight my eating disorder:)
Honestly, I don't really understand people who comment on this video with criticism. I think your chanel is and has always been a very good representation on how recovery is and how to stay on track and to keep pushing even if it gets hard. I watched every video of you when I was deep in my ED and when I started recovery. They always helped me and still do sometimes when I have time to watch them. I don't think it's bad that you talk about doing sports since it actually shows: BECAUSE of recovery you are able to do sports again. You have the energy and strength again due to recovery. The only thing you could do is to put out a disclaimer, saying that people who haven't been in recovery for long or only just started shouldn't do sports or definitely shouldn't do it for the wrong reasons. PS: Though, you put out your journey. It's not your job to fake anything for other people's likes and now doing sports is part of your journey and showing it is definitely okay. PPS: Yo, if you read all this, thank you😅 Hope you have a great day ❤
Congrats on your sponsorship🎉 That is so well deserved❤ Also your real personality that you won back is AWESOME. Proud of you. Life is literally making me speechless every day since I am recovered and I am so so happy for you🎉
Girl! You’re the BEST! I love seeing your absolute joy for life radiate through your video. I can’t wait to see what plans God has for your life-he already has and will continue to use you in amazing ways!! Your old videos encouraged me to initially recover, and these new ones remind me that there is SO MUCH MORE to life and it’s OKAY to leave old ED things behind (forever!) Keep shining, Steph! (also-and soon as i know I’m mentally okay to work out again, I’m DEFINITELY ordering some of those workout things...SO cute!)❤️
I don't know why so many people are being negative in the comments. Stephanie, you're doing so amazing! I really am inspired by you. I am trying to get into a better relationship with fitness, and you give me the hope for the day when I will have a good relationship with fitness. I've been doing really well with eating for about three years, but I'm scared that when I go back into fitness I'll over-exercise. Is there any particular way that you dealt with that? Was there any time limit that you put on yourself for exercising? I just feel like when I start exercising I won't be able to stop. Anyways, I am really proud of you and I really enjoy your positive videos! Don't let the negative people get you down. Keep doing these videos!!! They help a lot of people!👍🏻😚💕😊❤
It’s so cute to see you being proud of your gainzzz, you have all the right to be! Never hide that, definitely never feel the need to hide yourself and what you’re proud of, there will always be criticizers, that’s not on you, you know how it is. I’d love to see more of these type of video’s from you :) Love and best wishes xxx
can't you make a video where you talk about how you started training again? I have NO idea how to begin after not being able to work out for years... like how do i start? how do i form a workout schedule? how do i know what my body can handle after not training for so long? how did you know what to do in the gym and how does your workout plan look like know vs in the beginning of working out again. I hav sooo many questions about this cos i really want to start working out again but im so afraid of beginning (as well as being a noob at the gym as i've haven't been able to build my muscles for quite som while). And how do you know how much more to eat know whe you're working out? Lots of love!! xx
Thanks for being so real about the Bloat!!! It’s a good reminder that nobody is always has a 100% flat stomach! I’m so glad your feeling good and working out!!! You go girl!!! 😁❤️💕
Be careful about exercising before your period returns. I made this mistake many times before fully recovering & I see a lot of my clients make that same mistake. I know it’s hard to stay away from the gym, especially when you love it, but taking that little bit of extra time to let your body fully heal will be something you’ll thank yourself for in the end. ♥️
I love your what I eat in a days, please continue doing them, you don't have to talk about ED related things as I totally get that it's no longer a big part of your life anymore so why keep thinking about it. I just love your full day of eating vlogs and I just wanted to thank you for taking the time and effort out of your day to film, edit and upload these videos ❤️
Hey just a helpful reminder yo change your About profile in your channel if are deciding on changing your theme of your channel and focusing away from recovery talk. This way people who watch your channel won’t be thinking that it’s about Ed recovery anymore
I understand that you are trying to shift your channel away from ED-based, which I completely respect. I know a lot of people have commented about all the 'body checking stuff' because of the fragility and 'impressionable audience'. I understand that your counter-statement is that it is not your responsibility to protect your audience due to your beliefs on the level of control people have over behaviours such as comparison, body checking, and self-triggering. While I may not agree with this, it is not my place to say. What I will say is that regardless of your thoughts on the matter showcasing your physique online in such a way and the language you use in relation to it is often cited as the source of peoples orthorexic/ anorexic behaviours i.e. without truly considering what it is you are saying, you may be 'planting the seed' of unhealthy attitudes in the mind of any person (regardless of history of ED). If this is something you do not wish to take responsibility for (which I believe is immoral, ignorant, immature, and, as a fellow Christian, I believe it is incredibly against what Jesus teaches about the importance to 'love one another as I have loved you') it is your decision.
Darcey Evans thank you for your comment and the way which you worded it. Definitely something I need to rethink and be more aware of. I will be more conscious of my viewers the message I portray in future video ❤️
This makes me so excited! I, too, come from a rather ‘sporty’ background, so I’m trying to get back in the swing of things because I ENJOY them- not because I’m trying to control my physique (which seems most people assume😕). Anyyyways, I find I get anxious about working out (& often don’t end up exercising at all) because I’m afraid of that past obsession... which I think is a good indicator that I shouldn’t be anxious because I am so aware of my tendencies.😝. Balance is HARD, oy vey! Did you ever feel that way? In other news: I’m finally way beyond my goal weight, sooo I’m allowed to run a half marathon with my best friend next summer!😁🎉 I’m super pumped because I wasn’t allowed to earlier this year, which low-key shattered my heart.😂 Have an incredible day, Steph, I hope you can do something fun today (orchard?) & maybe climb an apple tree for me! 🍎 Happy fall! 🍁
Lina Ortmann hey! I just wanted to say that if you are worried about going back to old tendencies it is possible you should trust those instincts... I don’t know your situation of course and you should just do whatever you think is best I was just thinking about how this relates to my own situation. I’m sending you my love❤️❤️❤️
J H Hey girl! Thanks for your support & care, I appreciate it.😊 I have taken a looong break from exercise & I don’t get anxious if I don’t workout, but I’m just a *really paranoid* person, so I think that’s my issue. I just need to trust that everything will be ok, and realize that I’m not a girl with an ED anymore.🤷🏻♀️ Have an amazing day!💕
i know this video was posted a while ago but I'm sorry for all of the comments about how your "not recovered", this whole video is just you body checking", etc. please don't let it stop you from posting anymore because out of the over 11,000 people who have watched this only about 100 commented things like that so don't let them make you discouraged because you know what's best for your body they don't know you. i love you videos and all your content so please dont let those dumb comments get to you
All these comments !!! people let her live her life !!! fitness and health is important in life ! steph is a smart girl and can live the life she fought so hard for ! you inspire me so much girl !! and damn that body be 🔥 🔥😍
How do I let myself eat freely and still hit the minnie maude guidelines without tracking all day at each meal? I find it causes me to restrict myself to the 3500 and I wont let myself go over that number.
I really loved this video. I think a lot of the comments mean well and people just care so much about you, but at the same time, we as viewers have to right to assume/judge the things that you’re doing. It seems you are happy, and if you truly are that’s GREAT! I know a lot of people who get into fitness after recovering from an eating disorder. It is really really hard to do so, and personally it is a toxic thing for me, but it’s only toxic if you let it become toxic. It’s all about it creating the right mindset and sticking to it. I hope all is going well for you, Steph! We love you so much! P.S omg those sweet potatoes waffle fries are soooo delish! I eat them all the time (if I’m thinking of the right brand - Alexia) 😋😉❤️
I know u probably won’t see ethos but I’m STRUGGLING I just want to loose weight I’m in recovery bet I just want to loose a bit of weight and idk whyyyyyy😖😖😖😖
Kelsey Othling it all depends on YOU, your mental and physical health and maybe even asking a doctor:) I had a weight I set for myself quite a while ago that I would not let myself exercise until I hit. I hit that and surpassed and got the ok from my doctors. Also my mental health is in a very good place 😁
Have you ever tried another nut butter? I use like peanut, cashew, almond, pistachio & more! nice to switch it up everyday ! congrats on everything you have accomplished
Hi Poogie! :) My exercising has no affect on you personally :) check with your doctor or a nutritionist if you need guidance on how much you should be doing :)
@@StephanieMarie95 You are right! I should really stop comparing myself to others 😣 You look great by the way, you really motivate me and I am so proud of you! ❤️
well yah lol- when i am trying on new (very tight) clothes- i am checking out everything;) also- i am dang proud of my body....sooooo :) BUT I will try to be more aware of that in future videos;) body checking is something I need to work on;)
@@paulinessx9468 interesting point because I haven't had time to watch all her videos recently, but I look for some fitness inspiration because my mom is a heart disease survivor and she had open heart surgery back in 2002 and I inherited those genes I actually tend to have high badcholesterol and high tricyglercerides and I have had high blood pressure in the past which through excercise I have gotten my blood pressure down but still the cholesterol is bad, so despite having an eating disorder which I have been working on I have to make sure I stay active for my heart which I not only inherited from my mom, I got from my grandfather, great grandfather and aunt.
@@smilesandhearts15 Oooh, I feel very sorry for you and your mom. Hope you both are fine. It's great that you want to improve your health and prevent the heart diseases. Go for it, do workouts, use blogilates videos if you like them but please don't get affected by her current diet mood which is very present on her channel at the communitiy tab since she is trying to lose weight. That can be very triggering for ED affected people. Wish you the best :)
@@paulinessx9468 thank you so much for the kind words and caring that means a lot to me and thank you for the advice too it very much appreciated and I wish you all the best of health and happiness too : )
A lot of « anorexia recovery youtubers » are stuck in diet culture and don’t see it... This bloating thing girl 😖 If you wan’t some eye opening content, I suggest thé Food psych podcast and Thabitha Farrar : no triggering crap and real help... Wish you well in your recovery Stephmarie, but remember your audience
Sarah Pelletier but see, you are missing the point. I don’t want to be your “therapist”, I don’t WANT to be associated with anorexia anymore- if I continue to cater toward that audience, I won’t grow PAST that audience and away from that mindset. Yes please go watch Tabitha- I listened to her a lot when in recovery because that is what she is- a recovery coach. I am NOT. I am a normal girl who can do normal things and enjoys them. Wishing you the best.
congrats, Steph, you looks amazing. Struggle with ED for long period of time. If I would eat the same amount of food as you are, I will be obese very soon. It seems that I gain weight just because I look at food:(
marie korseltová that’s not true, maybe you have just told yourself that for so long and if you have been restricting then your metabolism is lower, but you CAN eat without restriction and still be healthy!
Showing your bloat on camera & zooming in on your abs...was that very necessary? This is something recovered women like What Mia does next, etc, say just triggers girls and boys still deeply entrenched in their disease and it's not helpful.
dreamy realist I’m sorry it bothers you, please don’t watch then and watch Mia. I admire and respect her, and she is a coach for that reason. I am not. I want to move away from ED stuff so I am not catering toward people’s “triggers”. There was no zooming in on and- just doing a product review for a company. Simple as that.
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This is the first time I’ve ever commented on a TH-cam video but I feel the need to bring some awareness to the impact of this post. I’ve been following your account for quite a while (while I myself was suffering from my ED and using your videos as a source of catharsis because I related to you so much). I’ve since gone to residential and partial treatment and can say that my life has changed tremendously for the better. Watching this video, today, triggered me in a way I didn’t realize I could be triggered at this point. I suffered from anorexia and had to weight restore. It’s been hard, painful (physically and emotionally), long, and expensive. Seeing you come on here flaunting your thigh gap, skinny arms, abs, and “bloat” feels like a punch in the gut. I know you are happy and feeling great, which is amazing for you! And I know everyone should find confidence in their own body to the point where videos like these don’t matter. But we all know all too well that that kind of confidence is rare and hard to come by. I’m sorry but you must keep in mind who your audience is before you publicize your thinness. Not everyone who underwent recovery is in a small body like yours and we fight every single day to accept our bodies anyways. I wish you had been more considerate of that before posting this
Thank you for your comment and i say this in no harsh way. But must speak my mind...
I have said multiple times in the last several months that I do not wish to be apart of the ED community anymore.
I am NOT my eating disorder, and I have left that behind. I am who I chose to be... fitness, food, sports, family.... that is all apart of my life.
I am not going to hold back and not post what I want on my channel because I am afraid some people won't like it or be triggered. I am so very sorry to those people who are, but then I encourage them to stop following me or watching me.
Again- I have said many times, I am moving away from ED content, so I have warned my audience: I will not put my videos through the ED filter, and I will not hide what I have worked so hard for. At one point, yes I did- and I catered specifically to that crowd. But that is the problem with this community- once you are labeled as eating disorder recovery, people expect you to stay stuck here forever. And then anything that is totally fine and healthy when done with the right mindset (ie fitness, protein shakes, workout clothes, muscle gain etc..) people get angry and upset and worried for me as though they never expect me to do those things again.
That is NOT the way life should be. We grow and we move on. At least I have.
Stephanie Marie Frank I completely understand your point and agree with it wholeheartedly! I also am enjoying my life, working out, doing as I please, and re-discovering what I enjoy in life. Please believe me when I say I understand you and don’t at all wish for you to stay “stuck” in the ED community. I am misled by your TH-cam channel’s name and also by the fact that you’ve always been a beacon of ED recovery on this platform. As someone who follows this channel for that reason, this video was a shock. You’re right; I will unfollow to protect myself from triggering content. I just might suggest rebranding your channel (ie removing recovery from the name maybe?) and starting anew to better represent your current interests. It’s phenomenal that you’re doing this well and I really am happy that you’re ready for the next stages of life after the ED
@@jollyjumpersgirl thank you so much for you understanding response. I did rename the face of my you tube some time ago, but i didn't change the intro in the videos. ill work on that.
I wish you the best :)
jollyjumpersgirl Triggers are everywhere. And different for everyone. YOU have to take control, be an adult, and if Steph triggers you... don’t watch. She has said that multiple times. Steph is living HER life. And she can’t be responsible for how HER life affects YOU. She has said multiple times that she is not a recovery account and if her videos bother you to simply unfollow.
Kim Hoeltje you must not have read the comments between Stephanie and I because that’s precisely the conclusion we came to... no need to be aggressive when everyone is in agreement
Coming from someone in anorexia recovery i love to see a TH-camr who is fighting for a life where not every waking moment, every action is based around an eating disorder. Its hard when you try to move from the recovery confinement, and a lot of people will seek permission to eat still from your videos, and maybe to fill a void themselves so they can eat through watching you? You do you Stephanie, I'm excited for the new content and person you are to show us!
Be careful, because I've seen so many "recovering" girls being into fitness, when in reality they compensated for what they ate by excercising, because they were afraid of not being size 1 anymore. If you want to distance yourself from ed and recovery community, why put into your thumbnail "after recovery" and then showing your thin body for like 5 minutes. Ok, we get it. You are skinny and recovered, good for you for being proud of it. Also why did you have need to say "it's in size small" ??? Yeah, we can tell you are small. You are only two years into your recovery, it takes aproximately 7 to recover, so don't try to fool people you are already recovered, when this was just one big body check.
Shinon Naman I’ve shared my whole journey and never claimed to be fully recovered. Sorry you so obviously are struggling with comparing. Keep doing that and you will never move on. If you a chose to be triggered by my size that’s on you so please don’t watch. Wishing you the best
@@StephanieMarie95 i chose to be triggered? Lol, yeah I thrive in being triggered by obvious body checking, so that's my choice yay
Shinon Naman by letting things like this affect you, you are letting yourself be triggered because you are comparing and that is a choice. You could chose not to compare to anyone, you can choose not to watch the video, you can choose to move on. It is not my responsibility to cater to everyone’s triggers... then no video would ever be made because everyone is triggered by different things. The body checking was not checking my size- I was checking to see how the clothes fit since they were brand new. Alf there is no shame in noticing muscle gain and progress in ones body.
@@StephanieMarie95 I respectfully disagree with you. I don't think that person's issue is that they are comparing themselves to you. People who have experienced anorexia or ED can spot someone who still is engaging in those behaviours a mile away and it can feel important to call them out... Especially if that person seems like they might be presenting a different story on TH-cam than what they truly feel? If you broke your back and then went skydiving a few months later, people would tell you that that seems like a poor choice given your history. Likewise, someone who has had an ED who makes a video that is all about panning to their body and what they look like in tight workout clothes and lifting of their shirt will probably get the same reaction. It looks like a body check. Your reaction to that comment came off to me like "even though I showed my body a bunch throughout this video, I hope you don't think about or notice my body too much." Your audience is highly body conscious. Fine... It's not your responsibility to not trigger people ....... But I think you could at least respect that much of your audience is highly body aware and might not want to see someone is the recovery realm flaunting their body this much. When I was unwell, I wanted everyone to think that I ate so much and wasn't gaining weight. To me, that was the image I wanted to have... Skinny girl that loves food and eats a lot. But in reality, I ate way less than I said, and I was terrified to go one day without working out. I by no means am projecting all of this onto you or saying I know you and your story, but that is how you have come off to me. You don't have to defend yourself. I am open to believe that I am wrong, but I hope you consider your thoughts and behaviours. Are you really healthy and happy? Yes? Cool. No? Then keep pushing. Best wishes
@@StephanieMarie95 Why are you working out if you're not recovered?
I know you mean well but yeah, like a few others have already commented... There was a lot of things about this vlog that were alarming.
Jane Johnston I’m sorry you feel that way- but this is who I am and I am doing very well. If it bothers you, please don’t watch, I won’t be upset- I understand not everybody shares my opinions or values :)
I just wish that not every recovery account falls into the fitness hype 😒 For many with ED not very helpful to see this, especially in the time now where it seems everyone does 😣 I hope you know that you have a examplary function here...
little.peanut I am not “falling” into any hype. I literally said in this video and am NOT a fitness youtube me or guru. I simply just went to the gym omg. There is nothing wrong with exercise! It is GOOD for people who are healthy, which I am.
Also- what do you mean about exemplary “function” ?
I’m so proud of you..♥️ You literally kicked eating disorder’s butt and I appreciate that I could be a part of your recovery because you shared your journey with us🖤
And I’m glad you still make videos even though (like you said) your life is not about eating disorder as much as it used to be.. 🖤
I MEAN THIS WITH RESPECT: Hon, I think you need to be more conscientious about the content you are putting out. I’m sure you are well aware about who your viewers are, and likely- there may be a person who is earlier in recovery. This can easily cause confusion and reassessment and shame and more body image issues. You’ve been given a great story of recovery. We look to you for support. I understand you are moving on, but what if that causes someone who is working on recovery to relapse.
Alina Bibik thank you for your thoughts and opinion. I hear you and understand- I will be more careful with future videos ❤️❤️
Alina Bibik it’s not her responsibility to filter everything she says /does because others aren’t in the same stage of recovery. they shouldn’t be on the internet if they are so easily triggered.....
@@kaliealsip PREACH
For me, the biggest change in your videos is to see you sparkling. When you're fitting clothes, it makes me happy to see you being proud of who you've become, how far in recovery you're now and to have more freedom. I really think you look gorgeous and I'm so proud of you! Whatever people might say, you deserve to be happy with yourself and negative comments shouldn't be allowed, 'cause everyone has the right to choose his own way in recovery and so do you
Romy Thuy PREACH GIRL!! Omg thank you for saying this, you are an angel. I needed to read that after the criticism ❤️
The past couple of weeks I've started intensive eating.Ive been not thinking about what I'm eating and going for what I want to eat.The thing that keeps holding me back besides my thoughts is the bloating and constipation.My stomach feels like it's dying all the time.Its so painful and I don't want to eat snacks when I'm hungry cause I'm like u already have enough in your stomach you don't need to eat.But then I remember what would Stephanie do?She would eat and if she can do it u can do.So thank you for helping me fight my eating disorder:)
Way to GOOOOOO!! so proud of you for taking those thoughts captive! I know it's painful now, but it WILL get better!! Keep it up!! :)
Honestly, I don't really understand people who comment on this video with criticism. I think your chanel is and has always been a very good representation on how recovery is and how to stay on track and to keep pushing even if it gets hard. I watched every video of you when I was deep in my ED and when I started recovery. They always helped me and still do sometimes when I have time to watch them. I don't think it's bad that you talk about doing sports since it actually shows: BECAUSE of recovery you are able to do sports again. You have the energy and strength again due to recovery.
The only thing you could do is to put out a disclaimer, saying that people who haven't been in recovery for long or only just started shouldn't do sports or definitely shouldn't do it for the wrong reasons.
PS: Though, you put out your journey. It's not your job to fake anything for other people's likes and now doing sports is part of your journey and showing it is definitely okay.
PPS: Yo, if you read all this, thank you😅 Hope you have a great day ❤
Congrats on your sponsorship🎉 That is so well deserved❤
Also your real personality that you won back is AWESOME. Proud of you. Life is literally making me speechless every day since I am recovered and I am so so happy for you🎉
jo study_and_fit well it’s not a sponsorship.... but I understand what you mean and I appreciate your support. Love you girl 😘😘
Oops sorry. Language troubles 🙈
Thank you, love you too😘
Girl! You’re the BEST! I love seeing your absolute joy for life radiate through your video. I can’t wait to see what plans God has for your life-he already has and will continue to use you in amazing ways!! Your old videos encouraged me to initially recover, and these new ones remind me that there is SO MUCH MORE to life and it’s OKAY to leave old ED things behind (forever!) Keep shining, Steph! (also-and soon as i know I’m mentally okay to work out again, I’m DEFINITELY ordering some of those workout things...SO cute!)❤️
I don't know why so many people are being negative in the comments. Stephanie, you're doing so amazing! I really am inspired by you. I am trying to get into a better relationship with fitness, and you give me the hope for the day when I will have a good relationship with fitness. I've been doing really well with eating for about three years, but I'm scared that when I go back into fitness I'll over-exercise. Is there any particular way that you dealt with that? Was there any time limit that you put on yourself for exercising? I just feel like when I start exercising I won't be able to stop. Anyways, I am really proud of you and I really enjoy your positive videos! Don't let the negative people get you down. Keep doing these videos!!! They help a lot of people!👍🏻😚💕😊❤
It’s so cute to see you being proud of your gainzzz, you have all the right to be! Never hide that, definitely never feel the need to hide yourself and what you’re proud of, there will always be criticizers, that’s not on you, you know how it is. I’d love to see more of these type of video’s from you :) Love and best wishes xxx
can't you make a video where you talk about how you started training again? I have NO idea how to begin after not being able to work out for years... like how do i start? how do i form a workout schedule? how do i know what my body can handle after not training for so long?
how did you know what to do in the gym and how does your workout plan look like know vs in the beginning of working out again. I hav sooo many questions about this cos i really want to start working out again but im so afraid of beginning (as well as being a noob at the gym as i've haven't been able to build my muscles for quite som while). And how do you know how much more to eat know whe you're working out? Lots of love!! xx
GET THEM GAINS GIRL!!!!!! You're doing amazing super happy for you you deserve happiness
Thanks for being so real about the Bloat!!! It’s a good reminder that nobody is always has a 100% flat stomach! I’m so glad your feeling good and working out!!! You go girl!!! 😁❤️💕
this was an 18-minute body check video
from anorexia to fitness lol ok
it always happens
how interesting
Markéta Dobešová nothing wrong with fitness, it’s only toxic if you let it be toxic 😉❤️
Be careful about exercising before your period returns. I made this mistake many times before fully recovering & I see a lot of my clients make that same mistake. I know it’s hard to stay away from the gym, especially when you love it, but taking that little bit of extra time to let your body fully heal will be something you’ll thank yourself for in the end. ♥️
brehlie kanne thank you for you advice ❤️
I love your what I eat in a days, please continue doing them, you don't have to talk about ED related things as I totally get that it's no longer a big part of your life anymore so why keep thinking about it. I just love your full day of eating vlogs and I just wanted to thank you for taking the time and effort out of your day to film, edit and upload these videos ❤️
Hey just a helpful reminder yo change your About profile in your channel if are deciding on changing your theme of your channel and focusing away from recovery talk. This way people who watch your channel won’t be thinking that it’s about Ed recovery anymore
I understand that you are trying to shift your channel away from ED-based, which I completely respect. I know a lot of people have commented about all the 'body checking stuff' because of the fragility and 'impressionable audience'. I understand that your counter-statement is that it is not your responsibility to protect your audience due to your beliefs on the level of control people have over behaviours such as comparison, body checking, and self-triggering. While I may not agree with this, it is not my place to say. What I will say is that regardless of your thoughts on the matter showcasing your physique online in such a way and the language you use in relation to it is often cited as the source of peoples orthorexic/ anorexic behaviours i.e. without truly considering what it is you are saying, you may be 'planting the seed' of unhealthy attitudes in the mind of any person (regardless of history of ED). If this is something you do not wish to take responsibility for (which I believe is immoral, ignorant, immature, and, as a fellow Christian, I believe it is incredibly against what Jesus teaches about the importance to 'love one another as I have loved you') it is your decision.
Darcey Evans thank you for your comment and the way which you worded it. Definitely something I need to rethink and be more aware of. I will be more conscious of my viewers the message I portray in future video ❤️
You are glowing . You are so beautiful and healthy . I have Anorexia and you helped me a lot . ❤ Love your videos!❤
If that's what you consider "bloat".... I dunno what to say....
Adam Waddington whatever IT IS, the point it is normal and doesn’t affect me negatively anymore:)
Love this video!
You are so inspirational! I love your video. I hope to see you post again soon!!!
I’m loving those outfits!!! Look at you getting sponsorships. So proud of you my love. You are amazing.
This makes me so excited! I, too, come from a rather ‘sporty’ background, so I’m trying to get back in the swing of things because I ENJOY them- not because I’m trying to control my physique (which seems most people assume😕). Anyyyways, I find I get anxious about working out (& often don’t end up exercising at all) because I’m afraid of that past obsession... which I think is a good indicator that I shouldn’t be anxious because I am so aware of my tendencies.😝. Balance is HARD, oy vey! Did you ever feel that way?
In other news: I’m finally way beyond my goal weight, sooo I’m allowed to run a half marathon with my best friend next summer!😁🎉 I’m super pumped because I wasn’t allowed to earlier this year, which low-key shattered my heart.😂
Have an incredible day, Steph, I hope you can do something fun today (orchard?) & maybe climb an apple tree for me! 🍎
Happy fall! 🍁
Lina Ortmann hey! I just wanted to say that if you are worried about going back to old tendencies it is possible you should trust those instincts... I don’t know your situation of course and you should just do whatever you think is best I was just thinking about how this relates to my own situation. I’m sending you my love❤️❤️❤️
J H Hey girl! Thanks for your support & care, I appreciate it.😊 I have taken a looong break from exercise & I don’t get anxious if I don’t workout, but I’m just a *really paranoid* person, so I think that’s my issue. I just need to trust that everything will be ok, and realize that I’m not a girl with an ED anymore.🤷🏻♀️
Have an amazing day!💕
@@linaortmann5124 That makes sense:) I'm so happy for you that you've made it to that point
I was a bit worried about you in this video lovely. Be careful x x
awww why do you say that? I am better than i've been in years :)
@@StephanieMarie95 because I care! 😘 Lots of gym stuff, body checking, protein shake etc. Xx looking out for you x trusting u to God. Lots of love
@@j_the_yeet_gamer7947 thanks love :)
@@StephanieMarie95 as long as u r OK xxx
i know this video was posted a while ago but I'm sorry for all of the comments about how your "not recovered", this whole video is just you body checking", etc. please don't let it stop you from posting anymore because out of the over 11,000 people who have watched this only about 100 commented things like that so don't let them make you discouraged because you know what's best for your body they don't know you. i love you videos and all your content so please dont let those dumb comments get to you
Yayy thank you ! So happy u uploaded!
I always called the ice cream Napoleon too! Hahah! I put my cookies in big ziplock bags too! I gotta try those cookies!
You look amazing, Steph. You should be so proud of all your hard work. You're killing it!!
All these comments !!! people let her live her life !!! fitness and health is important in life ! steph is a smart girl and can live the life she fought so hard for ! you inspire me so much girl !! and damn that body be 🔥 🔥😍
Kalie Alsip YOU. ❤️❤️🔥🔥🔥❤️❤️❤️🔥🔥🔥
How do I let myself eat freely and still hit the minnie maude guidelines without tracking all day at each meal? I find it causes me to restrict myself to the 3500 and I wont let myself go over that number.
I really loved this video. I think a lot of the comments mean well and people just care so much about you, but at the same time, we as viewers have to right to assume/judge the things that you’re doing. It seems you are happy, and if you truly are that’s GREAT! I know a lot of people who get into fitness after recovering from an eating disorder. It is really really hard to do so, and personally it is a toxic thing for me, but it’s only toxic if you let it become toxic. It’s all about it creating the right mindset and sticking to it. I hope all is going well for you, Steph! We love you so much! P.S omg those sweet potatoes waffle fries are soooo delish! I eat them all the time (if I’m thinking of the right brand - Alexia) 😋😉❤️
very well said!! thank you for you comment!! i totally understand and appreciate the concern, as well as your understanding. :)
Stephanie Marie Frank oh my, my bad!! I meant to say us as viewers HAVE NO RIGHT to judge and assume haha sorry
@@erikaschlegel3261 you're good! i understood!
Missed your videos! Keep the good work girl, I'm proud of you 💗💗💗
hi steph one question did you make the sausages or buy them which ones are them i like some. thanks recovering like you
Blankets? In my house we use towels 😂😂
lol same difference ;D
@@StephanieMarie95 jajaja
You've come so far, it's amazing! ILY ❤️❤️
You are looking beautiful as always! You are such an inspiration to me and my recovery❤❤❤
Love Natache Oceane! She has such a good perspective on life and health
Clothes look great on you!!! Much Love Steph❤️
Thank you KIM!
I know u probably won’t see ethos but I’m STRUGGLING I just want to loose weight I’m in recovery bet I just want to loose a bit of weight and idk whyyyyyy😖😖😖😖
How did you decide the right time to get back to exercise and how much?
Kelsey Othling it all depends on YOU, your mental and physical health and maybe even asking a doctor:) I had a weight I set for myself quite a while ago that I would not let myself exercise until I hit. I hit that and surpassed and got the ok from my doctors. Also my mental health is in a very good place 😁
Love the outfits and that smile. Can we get a workout routine video anytime soon?
Jessica Guthrie I explain why I won’t do that in this video ;) ❤️
Yay love your videos so so much , my absolute favourite 🥳🥳🤩🤩
I love your new life🤩👏🏼
Have you ever tried another nut butter? I use like peanut, cashew, almond, pistachio & more! nice to switch it up everyday ! congrats on everything you have accomplished
Loved the new video♥️🧡
Glad to see you back on TH-cam, eating vids please!
How often are you going to the gym? Twice a week or so?
Hi Poogie! :)
My exercising has no affect on you personally :) check with your doctor or a nutritionist if you need guidance on how much you should be doing :)
@@StephanieMarie95 You are right! I should really stop comparing myself to others 😣
You look great by the way, you really motivate me and I am so proud of you! ❤️
You’re constantly checking out your body 😂
well yah lol- when i am trying on new (very tight) clothes- i am checking out everything;) also- i am dang proud of my body....sooooo :)
BUT I will try to be more aware of that in future videos;) body checking is something I need to work on;)
I love your channel so so much. You are incredibly beautiful and being proud is the best feeling. I always look forward to your videos. Thank you.
Yewyyyyyy new vid 😽😽😽
You all should check out Blogiates, she promotes fitness but body positivity too and inspires me to be healthy.
But at the moment she sadly spreads the diet mentality
@@paulinessx9468 interesting point because I haven't had time to watch all her videos recently, but I look for some fitness inspiration because my mom is a heart disease survivor and she had open heart surgery back in 2002 and I inherited those genes I actually tend to have high badcholesterol and high tricyglercerides and I have had high blood pressure in the past which through excercise I have gotten my blood pressure down but still the cholesterol is bad, so despite having an eating disorder which I have been working on I have to make sure I stay active for my heart which I not only inherited from my mom, I got from my grandfather, great grandfather and aunt.
@@smilesandhearts15 Oooh, I feel very sorry for you and your mom. Hope you both are fine. It's great that you want to improve your health and prevent the heart diseases. Go for it, do workouts, use blogilates videos if you like them but please don't get affected by her current diet mood which is very present on her channel at the communitiy tab since she is trying to lose weight. That can be very triggering for ED affected people.
Wish you the best :)
@@paulinessx9468 thank you so much for the kind words and caring that means a lot to me and thank you for the advice too it very much appreciated and I wish you all the best of health and happiness too : )
thank you for the heart/love comment Stephanie.
Missed you so much ❤️❤️❤️
A lot of « anorexia recovery youtubers » are stuck in diet culture and don’t see it... This bloating thing girl 😖 If you wan’t some eye opening content, I suggest thé Food psych podcast and Thabitha Farrar : no triggering crap and real help... Wish you well in your recovery Stephmarie, but remember your audience
Sarah Pelletier but see, you are missing the point. I don’t want to be your “therapist”, I don’t WANT to be associated with anorexia anymore- if I continue to cater toward that audience, I won’t grow PAST that audience and away from that mindset. Yes please go watch Tabitha- I listened to her a lot when in recovery because that is what she is- a recovery coach. I am NOT. I am a normal girl who can do normal things and enjoys them. Wishing you the best.
I wish you post more your so inspiring
I want to post more... this video just got so many negative responses I wasn't sure y'all wanted to see any more of how I'm doing...
Stephanie Marie Frank you inspired me to want to go to treatment and get better I leave on the fist of November
Jwc 290 OMG SO PROUD! This will be so good for you, you got this! 💪🏼
I HAVE THAT DOG BLANKET
congrats, Steph, you looks amazing. Struggle with ED for long period of time. If I would eat the same amount of food as you are, I will be obese very soon. It seems that I gain weight just because I look at food:(
marie korseltová that’s not true, maybe you have just told yourself that for so long and if you have been restricting then your metabolism is lower, but you CAN eat without restriction and still be healthy!
Showing your bloat on camera & zooming in on your abs...was that very necessary? This is something recovered women like What Mia does next, etc, say just triggers girls and boys still deeply entrenched in their disease and it's not helpful.
dreamy realist I’m sorry it bothers you, please don’t watch then and watch Mia. I admire and respect her, and she is a coach for that reason. I am not. I want to move away from ED stuff so I am not catering toward people’s “triggers”. There was no zooming in on and- just doing a product review for a company. Simple as that.
You're really beautiful )❤💞