WHAT HAPPENED TO MY BUDGETING PLAN??? ALSO THE ENTIRE STORY OF MY HISTORY WITH SHOPPING UP UNTIL NOW

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  • @genevieveve
    @genevieveve 3 ปีที่แล้ว +174

    I've never been on a no buy, never even thought about needing to go on one. It's not the reason I watch Hannah's videos.
    I watch for sentiments like this: "I'm working on becoming a person that is the source of her own contentment. And that is what I want that for you, too."
    I don't know Hannah in real life, but certain things just speak right to my heart and I swear that was one of them.

  • @suryabaray8227
    @suryabaray8227 3 ปีที่แล้ว +206

    Can I just say how much I ADORE the way you articulate yourself?? You always know just how to express these complex feelings in the most comprehensible and relatable way! I've been with you since the nobuy and it brings me so much joy to see how well you are and how everything has evolved! I actually teared up at the end, thank you for being my constant companion on my own karmic journey and helping me so much without even knowing it ❤❤❤

    • @lisasmall8745
      @lisasmall8745 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I, too, love Hannah’s manner of speech. I wish I could articulate myself the way she does. #articulationgoals

  • @robrobben6066
    @robrobben6066 3 ปีที่แล้ว +130

    It would be weird if there was still mainly no-buy-content on your channel. We all change and develop - well let’s hope at least! I am not and have never been a make up person but I still enjoy your content because I love when somebody is so passionate about beautiful things and has such a adorable way to put her thoughts into language. You are a constant reminder for me to enjoy what I already have. Thanks Hannah 🙏

  • @ohjaybeauty
    @ohjaybeauty 3 ปีที่แล้ว +132

    I just binged a lot of your no buy videos and this one came at the perfect time. I have a very addictive personality and love makeup so I often use the act of spending money as a coping mechanism for when I’m feeling out of control over my life (since spending money is the one thing I can control, and having the latest and greatest gives me a surge of serotonin). I keep buying new things and they just get put away in a drawer and almost never get used. Don’t get me wrong, I love makeup, but this has gone beyond the fun aspect of makeup - it’s a very bad habit that I now need to force my brain out of, so I can get back to actually enjoying the art. Thank you thank you for this 🙌🏻

    • @HannahLouisePoston
      @HannahLouisePoston  3 ปีที่แล้ว +23

      you can do it! being able to articulate what you are doing is a huge and challenging first step that you have already taken

    • @jamieepf9806
      @jamieepf9806 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Oh wow, I just commented before having read your comment and it's insane how similar my feelings are to what you are explaning here! You've got this♡

    • @staceym4469
      @staceym4469 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Yes I am the same

    • @embellishmarin4647
      @embellishmarin4647 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Yes. Exactly this.

    • @ruth8911
      @ruth8911 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I'm in exactly the same boat but it's so much easier said than done.

  • @SamanthaMarchxo
    @SamanthaMarchxo 3 ปีที่แล้ว +90

    I love hearing about journey Hannah! Also, you look amazing x

    • @HannahLouisePoston
      @HannahLouisePoston  3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      thank you so much, Samantha!! Sending lots of love to you!

  • @nooraj.3622
    @nooraj.3622 3 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    I recently unsubscribed from a lot of beauty youtubers after coming to the conclusion that watching so much beauty content makes sticking to my budget an unnecessarily hard struggle. Not from you, though, your channel is the only one that never makes me feel that compulsion to shop, and it's because your content is so thoughtfully made, truly rare in the beauty space! I recently watched your year of no buy videos and they helped me see how unhealthy my beauty shopping habits had become, thank you so much! 💖

    • @cgomez113
      @cgomez113 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I also curated my Instagram feed along with my TH-cam feed. They were distracting me. Now I follow a couple creators so pretty pictures not in front of me all the time.

    • @nooraj.3622
      @nooraj.3622 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@cgomez113 I definitely feel what Hannah said about how different people will have to make different choices on how to deal with these things, and for me limiting the amount of "pretty" that gets put in front of me daily helped a lot! Glad to hear it helps others too.

  • @maureenott214
    @maureenott214 3 ปีที่แล้ว +80

    Just saw an article where Jordan Chiles was asked how she was coping with all the stress of the Olympics and her answer was ‘online shopping’. It made me realize I’ve been doing the exact same thing the past few weeks to deal with the stress of an urgent health situation with a family member. Think it may be time for another no buy… 💖💖💖

  • @allisontaylor5182
    @allisontaylor5182 3 ปีที่แล้ว +47

    My therapist says it’s ok to not be hard on yourself...& not always judging yourself. So I think you are accepting your growth & the hard work you have put in. Great job! And I love that you are sharing it ❤️

  • @annepapillon
    @annepapillon 3 ปีที่แล้ว +44

    Omg, I don't pay you enough on Patreon. This content is priceless. Thank you so much for sharing!

    • @HannahLouisePoston
      @HannahLouisePoston  3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      just being a patron for ANY AMOUNT makes the biggest difference in the world to me!!!

  • @withgrace712
    @withgrace712 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    You were trying to fill an emptiness before. In the last three years you've filled that emptiness with something different: a cool creative enterprise, a beautiful life with friends and Joe, a badass career of your own making, a stronger focus on compassion towards others, a community of supporters and a new confidence in yourself, and so much more. ❤💙💜

  • @EiLpigreco
    @EiLpigreco 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    I just love the way you speak. Listening to you is just a pleasure 💖 such a gem in the beauty space where everybody speaks the same way, using the same words, screaming and with bad grammar 🙈

    • @ceciliajohnson8812
      @ceciliajohnson8812 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Hilarious! You are so right.
      Hearing bad grammar and nonsense like 'you need this in your life' bother me. Even worse is using bad language. 😑

  • @celucero2
    @celucero2 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    Thank you for inviting/taking us along on your journey.

  • @courtneyteems9840
    @courtneyteems9840 3 ปีที่แล้ว +28

    I very much needed this video right now. Bracing myself for a no buy- I’ve been overspending to cope with anxiety and hard situations.

    • @ruth8911
      @ruth8911 ปีที่แล้ว

      Same here 😩🙈

  • @caitlinstark9321
    @caitlinstark9321 3 ปีที่แล้ว +43

    I needed this video right now. I'm trying to figure out what is coping mechanisms and what is exploring new things and trying to elevate my look. It's hard but your videos constantly help me find new ways to explore that and draw those lines.

  • @frumtheground
    @frumtheground 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    The 6 month mark thinking you did it and then the re-trauma sounds like an extinction burst! That's hard stuff. It's so cool you made it through it all tho! You're definitely an inspiration!

  • @millieonaire7212
    @millieonaire7212 3 ปีที่แล้ว +31

    I really relate to your sandle story, as you were speaking i realised i did the same thing recently. I decided i wanted an oversized fluffy hat, but like a really big one, and i spent a few days looking online for one. I didnt buy anything, and 3 weeks later i have lost interest
    Thank you for sharing your journey and self reflection 💖

  • @kathrynbrunhaver
    @kathrynbrunhaver 3 ปีที่แล้ว +27

    As a a loyal viewer since the beginning, I had a secret feeling/hope that the training wheels would fall off this year. Thank you for sharing your journey so vulnerably with us. It has truly been a joy watching you grow! ❤️

  • @hannahmoeller2848
    @hannahmoeller2848 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    I missed this type of content from you so much! I am getting married in a few days and really relate to the sentiment of wanting to spend on a joyous occasion without stressing about whether the money is coming from the wedding budget or my personal spare funds.

  • @FairyBogFather
    @FairyBogFather 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I'm a young person who has basically grown up being completely saturated by advertisements and rampant consumerism. It's exhausting. Your videos, your beautiful thoughts have been so refreshing to me. Thank you for the work you do!

  • @angiec8784
    @angiec8784 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    You no buy year playlist was SO HELPFUL for me during 2020. Kept me from stress buying. And I still find myself asking similar questions from your videos for anything I want to buy. I find myself rewatching your no buy year playlist when I feel like spending money

  • @RK-re1wm
    @RK-re1wm 3 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    I'm so happy for you that moderation comes more naturally to you now. It sounds like you are in such a good headspace when it comes to shopping.

    • @HannahLouisePoston
      @HannahLouisePoston  3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      thank you! The journey isn't over but I do really feel like I'm out of the woods. It's a big relief!

  • @MalloryEagar
    @MalloryEagar 3 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    I loved listening to this- I've been a ardent admirer since the og project and it's been a parallel journey and helpful voice to my own experiments and no buys, budgets, etc. I feel like your intuition is 100% correct here. When I worked in healthcare, we used Six Sigma, and part of that was tracking if any given metric was "in" or "out" of control. The idea is that just because there's a problem, you don't want to expend resources "fixing" it if it it is not out of control because on some scale, there will always be mistakes. I kind of like that as a metaphor for personal issues. I know what out of control spending feels like and looks like, and I know that is when I need to employ tools to help things get in control. I feel like you are describing an in control system. The alternative, which I see sometimes, is to almost fetishize spending as if every purchase is evil, the spender is bad and must punish him or herself, and so on. In reality it's just a matter of balancing the things one really values against each other. Anyway, continue to love your journey & content and am grateful for all that you share (but also fully support the fact that you do not need to share everything with us).

    • @HannahLouisePoston
      @HannahLouisePoston  3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      I love this, thank you so much for sharing. This is why I included the story about the fuzzy shoes shopping. It's been so freeing to realize that "being okay" doesn't mean never ever slipping into that mode of being focused on shopping. Imperfect or less-than-ideal behavior can still be an "in-control system" as you say, one which is gently handled and improved upon over time rather than battled and punished!

  • @MIOLAZARUS
    @MIOLAZARUS 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    My heroine online. Thank you Hannah. You have helped me change my life💘😚

    • @MIOLAZARUS
      @MIOLAZARUS 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      also that nailpolish color with the brown shirt is chef's kiss!

  • @deniseb7370
    @deniseb7370 3 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    I have rewatched your videos from the year of your “no buy” numerous times! They are so raw/real, which makes them relatable to those of us guilty of over shopping. ❤️

  • @Michelle-js5kh
    @Michelle-js5kh 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    Hannah, I’m so proud of you! I remember you wondering if you ever could successfully moderate, and you’ve done it. Congrats.

  • @notafangirl
    @notafangirl 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    This month of July will be the first month since some time 2018 where I have not purchased a single beauty item in a whole month.
    These journeys can take so long and I've been so happy to have your videos and experiences alongside that. In my own time I've been in therapy and digging into my soul's garbage and those have been the biggest things to help get me out of the cycles.
    Life is never structured or as strict as we'd like it to be. Allowing that ebb and flow to exist is what I percieve to be the healthiest of ways to exist. I'm glad you haven't had us or anyone in the digital spaces of your life looking over your shoulder at every single decision you make in terms of spending. It sounds like its taken a type of pressure off yourelf. 💖

  • @putocuchinta
    @putocuchinta 3 ปีที่แล้ว +24

    there's this great thread that I was apart of on r/shoppingaddiction talking about the "hyperfocus" part of online shopping or habits in general. I think it goes hand in hand with the experience you were speaking of in the first part of this video. I love videos like this btw, it feels like shopaholics anonymous 😅
    even though you no longer plan to make dedicated no-buy makeup content, hearing these messages sprinkled throughout is much appreciated!

    • @putocuchinta
      @putocuchinta 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      adding on to your ending message, I think it connects to the concept of minimalism vs essentialism. Lately minimalists are seen as those who take part in having less and having the concept of less being a tangible goal to reach. Essentialists tend to distinguish themselves as only focusing on what is needed for the individual, not necessarily the attainment of less.

  • @kerrynieh6850
    @kerrynieh6850 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I’m so thankful to hear this video. I was using alcohol to also band aid and not feel. I quit that in the beginning of 2020 and started watching TH-cam makeup videos to pass the time- now I started shopping for makeup akin care and realize I’m using that in the same way I was using wine.... I’m inspired by you.

    • @SamanthaD89
      @SamanthaD89 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Congratulations! That’s awesome and a huge accomplishment! Not the shopping but the quitting drinking

  • @hanakadlecova
    @hanakadlecova 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I just love listening to you talk. You have such a talent of phrasing ideas and crafting metaphors that are really on point. I could listen to you for hours.

  • @sadcap
    @sadcap 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Congratulations on the engagement, I'd totally missed that! The way you think through your choices very consciously has always been so useful to me, I'm so happy you're in a place where they've become more natural. ❤

  • @BlushingForeigner
    @BlushingForeigner 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Hannah, you are the Ram Das of the beauty community on YT. I appreciate your wisdom, your generosity and candor, and the soulful insights you unveil for us. Thank you THANK YOU.

  • @cinmingrl
    @cinmingrl 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    Congratulations on identifying as whole and healthy! I've been along for the since the end of your no buy year. It was a beautiful moment to see you say that, and see you feel it in your heart. To me it parallels but is many times elevated from your revelatory moment buying the Maybelline lipstick all that time ago. I am so happy for you!

  • @user-vy5dj2rj3x
    @user-vy5dj2rj3x 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I’m so happy for you that you don’t need to do public budgeting anymore. I’m also going to miss your budgeting contents because I love them.🥰 Please do share with us your purchases if possible. I just really appreciate your taste in things and I always love your fashion contents.

    • @HannahLouisePoston
      @HannahLouisePoston  3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I will keep sharing purchases from time to time! Get ready for the next video :)

  • @jessicalugo2827
    @jessicalugo2827 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    You’re my inspiration on my road to recovery from shopping addiction. 🥳😊😊

  • @SaplingTarot
    @SaplingTarot 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I'm so unbelievably happy for you, this feels so natural and healthy and it's just wonderful to see.

  • @EvaLoVerde
    @EvaLoVerde 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I'm about to complete a rewatch of your whole channel, and see this video in particular makes me feel so proud of you and inspired to do the work myself. I can't wait to see how your channel will evolve and transformer, thank you for being so public and vulnerable up until now!

  • @framboise8845
    @framboise8845 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Can we pause here to recognize how beautifully, how poetical, how well you express yourself? Following your thoughts as you speak is a pure delight. That, and the fact that the more you say, the more I think "This is my long lost twin!". And I'm sure I'm not the only one thinking this. I too when younger reflected on my love of dressing as "drag", and I too love this intricate, sensitive, most beautiful art form. You convey your journey in such a refined and nuanced language that is pure pleasure to listen to.

  • @sophielapierre8987
    @sophielapierre8987 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I find it really amazing the capacity you have to share your joy and excitement. Yes, your content/style of videos has changed over the years but in a smooth transition / evolution (although it must not have felt that way for you) and as long as your journey is bringing you Closer to your truth, your videos will always be a pleasure to watch. Thank you for continuing your Journey with us!! Luv ❤️

  • @jackieinartime4598
    @jackieinartime4598 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Perfect timing!! It's time for this beauty-lover to reign herself in again!

  • @maggiewiles1741
    @maggiewiles1741 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    It has been a true pleasure to watch your evolution these last few years, Hannah. Your insight and emotion reading Ram Dass (who, weirdly, I somehow didn't know until Kackie recommended one of his books and now it seems I'm seeing his words *everywhere*) is exactly what I needed to hear today ; thank you

  • @geekbabe100
    @geekbabe100 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank you for keeping me in check! I realized I am a hospital worker, I need to mask daily, I wear safety glasses and scrub caps because washing my hair every day wasn’t happening. I did a ruthless makeup declutter & gifted things I had never used to friends, tossed lousy products. What I have now I love, my purchases now are things like new work shoes, good work socks, skin care. My treats ? The new shade of Auric & the life’s a draft palette. I have learned that just because I want it doesn’t mean I am going to die if I don’t get it. LOL, three weeks later I basically have forgotten the thing I just felt I had to have.

  • @kristinelewis5373
    @kristinelewis5373 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    You are hands-down one of the most important people that I follow and have discovered on the Internet. Sitting with you and sharing in your feelings, even if I’m usually a quiet watcher, feels like being back in English classes in college with my friends, grappling with the world around us and trying to articulate it, and it really makes me feel like things are going to be OK. I’m really proud of you, Hannah.

  • @silkehuybrechts7832
    @silkehuybrechts7832 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I’m SO proud of you, Hannah! Not only for putting in so much hard work to keep growing, but also for recognizing how much you’ve grown.

  • @beverlylina3294
    @beverlylina3294 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I had a similar journey, after doing a 6-month no buy alongside your videos, I really processed through what was making me want to shop and spend money, and I became addicted to the feeling of not spending money and seeing my savings grow. The pandemic forced me to learn to cook (because eating out was my vice), so now instead of having to create strict rules around that category, I am able to eat out occasionally without overdoing it and maintaining an actual budget.
    It’s amazing what a no buy can do! So happy for you Hannah.

  • @mariazhang9435
    @mariazhang9435 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    "My name is Hannah and this is my no cake year" 😂

  • @augustlunaonline
    @augustlunaonline 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    So glad to hear you’re learning to “organically” budget & buy beautiful things! ♥️

  • @Iheardyoulikeplants
    @Iheardyoulikeplants 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    This is my favorite kind of content in general, and particularly from you. I appreciate the effort you put into contemplating your own behavior and making videos about it, and you have helped me (and a lot of other people) find a healthier relationship with shopping and find good life coping skills. It's also cool to see your progress in real time, how a no buy can be successful and how a person could follow it up and continue to improve their life. Thank you!

  • @josshl5064
    @josshl5064 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    While I love your beautiful things content, listening to you muse and reflect will always be my favourite. I wholly appreciate you point of view, you have really helped my own relationship with money. You gave me the framework that appreciating something’s beauty doesn’t have to translate into ownership.

  • @ems_h.eartnotes
    @ems_h.eartnotes 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I turned 40 last weekend and got given money as presents from various relatives. Spent some on dining out, a mascara and one item of skincare, and now I have money to spend on beautiful things. Yet, I filled my cart with things I have had on my wishlist and just don't want to go through with it! I've gotten so accustomed to monthly beauty budgeting that I feel weird about spending a lot of money at once! Is this the Hannah Louise Poston effect?
    edit: watched the whole video. Been here since the no buy year and it's been beautiful to watch and share in your journey, and embark on my own 💃

  • @tammyroy9042
    @tammyroy9042 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This was like looking into a talking mirror for me. Wow - not sure you can ever realize what an inspiration this has been for me.
    You sharing your story has made a difference. THANK YOU ❤️🙏❤️
    Xo Tammy 🇨🇦

  • @daniphelan9200
    @daniphelan9200 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Brilliant! I remember finding you when you were mid no buy year, I watched thinking woah, I wish I could be more Hannah and continued on splurging for another 18 ish months 🤦🏻‍♀️
    I kept referring back to your videos from the no buy year and started formulating my own rules , that seemed to fit my patterns, Started downsizing , starting to be realistic about my consumption, one thing at a time, falling off the wagon and getting to the root of my problem .
    My aim is to love what I own and stick to my low buy rules, and be more mindful about my choices . I want to thank you for sharing it all with us and for your point of view as i feel it’s sorely needed , especially on this platform 💋

  • @vsm6847
    @vsm6847 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I cannot get over your eyebrows. Every time I watch your videos, I’m so distracted by your amazing eyebrows.

  • @sondrahannan
    @sondrahannan 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Love you, Hannah! It's been so wonderful watching how far you have come since the no buy days. So proud of you!

  • @sarahbbb5281
    @sarahbbb5281 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Sorry for this novel of a comment, I just need to put these thoughts somewhere. Hearing you talk about your past shopping struggles resonates with me so strongly, except that I merely compulsively browse and pretty seldom purchase the things I've been pining over. Since middle school, I've developed a habit where I scour websites, usually for clothing but can be extended to any other item category: I have to look at every option, I have to do intense research on anything I might buy, I will repeatedly return to obsessively look at the items I want to hem and haw over them. I grew up with a frugality mindset that has been very hard to shake (hence the not purchasing part), but it clashes with the parts of me that 1.) are genuinely interested in fashion and clothing, and B.) hyperfocus on one thing or another. When you mentioned your hunt for a fluffy sandal, I totally saw myself in that. I'll get some idea in my head, and then spend hours, if not days searching high and low. I don't currently have a job and I am very sustainably minded which means that I do most of my shopping on Poshmark or Depop, which sounds great (and is in many ways, since I also love vintage clothes) but the sheer amount of items there are on these sites means I get sucked in that much more deeply, just needing to find one more amazing find that I will most likely never buy. In the that I have actually followed through and purchased something, the novelty wears off so quickly-- my brain loves jumping to new ideas, so once it's no longer new and shiny it falls out of favor (and I now have a closet where nothing matches because my tastes change so quickly and drastically). And to top it all off, it's not an enjoyable experience! It feels quite awful! In fact, I have this same problem with social media in general and only within the past year realized that I don't have an "addictive personality" as I always claimed, but I actually use these behaviors to self-soothe. I am intrinsically a very anxious person, and recently have become acutely aware of the way I jump to distraction any time I feel a twinge of discomfort or anxiety (and of course these behaviors ironically just make me feel even more frantic and anxious). I do this with podcasts, TH-cam videos, anything to take over and numb my brain and body a bit. It might not sound so bad since I'm not incurring debt, but when I consider the sheer amount of time, energy, and stress that goes into these things I very honestly begin to mourn all the time and happiness I've lost over the years. I also balk at how much time and energy I spend into watching other people live their lives, more than I dedicate to living my own life. It really feels like a death of a better life I could have had.
    Part of why I love watching this channel is that I greatly admire your resolve to undergo something as drastic and daunting as a no-buy, and I feel desperate to implement a similar program for myself as I have a very "all-or-nothing" personality, yet I don't even know what form it would take. I've tried digital detoxes to varying degrees of success, but it always comes back sooner or later. Could I possibly undergo a challenge of not using the internet for a year (except for that which is truly truly necessary)? Immediately my brain thinks of all the ways it could never work, but another part of me revels in the prospect of freedom that might give me. And of course I'm an externally motivated gal, so if it were to work I would need a big system of accountability; I toy with making a TH-cam channel about it, but that seems to pretty directly contradict my main goal. Anyways, I'm really grateful to feel a little less alone about all this and gather ideas for my own emotional and mental detox that needs to occur in some shape or fashion. I can't keep not living my dream life! 😤😤

  • @lifeasandrea280
    @lifeasandrea280 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank you so much for the mild vices comparison. I just came back from a trip during which I bought more than usual and felt really bad about. I felt so bad that I couldn't enjoy the things, but this comparison really makes sense. I usually have no problem with shopping but this instance I "ate a little too much of the treat, but its not unhealthy".

  • @malufrazao
    @malufrazao ปีที่แล้ว

    I've decided to do a no-buy year next year, and your videos have really inspired me. Thank you so much! It's really about developing the capacity to be one's own source of joy.

  • @grumpyschnauzer
    @grumpyschnauzer ปีที่แล้ว

    This came after I just went on a binge shop. Like you I’ve attempted budgeting and creating a shopping budget… then I moved and forgot about it. When I moved to the new place I needed some articles of clothing to help me get through their winters. In a span of 5 years weathering the pandemic and grad school and move across states, and miscarriage my body changed so much! I doubled in size and felt defeated when shopping. All this talk about fast fashion and how bad it is left me spiraling between, “I need to replace my only 2 pairs of pants with holes in the crotch” but “I love these pants” then “hold out for nicer better quality jeans” but “I can’t find them!!!!” So “fast fashion it is” and “well, it’s not the best but I literally can’t wear jeans with holes in the crotch” and finally “I need to accept the size I am and do my best”. So I went on a shopping binge and restocked my wardrobe and feel soooo guilty. But why? I haven’t bought clothes since 2 years ago and I learned more about dressing my new body size. Now, I’m having the reverse problem where I feel guilty for restocking my wardrobe. A family member will shame me for buying too many pairs of pants (3) or sandals (3 in neutral colors). So then to alleviate the guilt I have to say “I have holes in my crotch jeans and never wore sandals previously in my life not to mention my body has changed so much!” Is buying 3 new bras too much when my bust size has doubled without my okay causing me to replace all the smaller bras that don’t fit!?” LOL😂 Im recognizing I don’t regularly shop… I binge but I binge because my style of clothing and shoes is not always in style and I don’t want to settle for something that is not me. So I wait as long as I can until I feel inspired and then binge shop. But seriously Im still wearing hand me downs from my mom from years ago and still wear items I’ve kept for decades like my chuck taylors. Moral of the story… shopping ebbs and flows and removing guilt but making small improvements here and there to compound over time is part of the ebb and flow. But I don’t need to feel guilt whether I’m in a binge or not. Most of the guilt comes from peoples evaluation of my behavior, habits, and situation which they don’t know about.

  • @horsecrazykrissy
    @horsecrazykrissy 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank for the reminder that we must be our own contentment. It's so easy to get caught back up in filling the void with stuff. I needed the concept refreshed in this way!

  • @dawndee7952
    @dawndee7952 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This video has come at exactly the right time for me, so thank you so much. While watching I totally realised that I have been so successful in lowbuy on my beauty budget because........I've been transferring this spending on home wear and decorating. It's just another way of me trying to control my environment and achieve my fantasy self..... instead of doing the emotional work ON myself. Time to regroup and reassess. THANK YOU ❤️

  • @mymindfullife7554
    @mymindfullife7554 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This came out at the perfect time! I need a no buy reset. Went on vacation and I've been spending since then. A few weeks, but I don't want to let it keep going on... love these videos!!!!

  • @daphneb7115
    @daphneb7115 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Thank you, Hannah! Online shopping addiction is serious. I also wrote a book about my own shopping addiction and makeup obsession. The english version is coming out this fall with Coach House. Would love to send you a copy. It's a blend of memoir/essay and poetry and it won prizes, here, in Montréal

    • @dw7896
      @dw7896 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      What's the title? Would love to pick it up!

  • @nancyquixotic2422
    @nancyquixotic2422 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Oh Hannah. Anytime you have updates on the subject I get revived to do better. My shopping habits are probably worse than ever. I'm back in school, for creative writing actually, and that will help occupy my time, mind and money.

  • @sandysmith8377
    @sandysmith8377 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Hannah, I have been following you since your first video. I am so proud of you. I think you have worked out online the “human experience”. Many of us go through a version of these transitions, not necessarily via spending money and beautiful things, but most of us transition and mature inside our heads. I have told you before, through emails, that there is a book here and I still believe it. Congratulations 🎉 on your engagement 🥰🇨🇦.

  • @williamkazak469
    @williamkazak469 ปีที่แล้ว

    I understand your love of beauty. My own favorite phrase has always been, "beauty is my complete motivation". Nothing else hardly matters to me. No wonder I like your videos. Sometimes I have to remind myself to stay out of clothing stores. There is usually something beautiful in there somewhere. It is not really my job to find it but I can always find something beautiful and worth having.

  • @WildOoley
    @WildOoley 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    You are one of the reasons why I enjoy TH-cam. It's been educational and empowering to watch you navigate your own burdens with a mindful eye. Thank you for sharing your reflections!

  • @wplants9793
    @wplants9793 ปีที่แล้ว

    I have changed my shopping and clothes life dramatically after being bedridden with a chronic illness. Now I am all about comfort and having a few things that FEEL good. Also I got out of looking in the mirror. I haven’t had a full length mirror in 7 years.
    I too couldn’t imagine neglecting my relationship with beauty. But I ended up funneling it into flower arranging, photography, gardening, landscaping and in particular romantic English rose (of which I have 3) and tea herbs that smell and taste amazing.
    Sounds funny but not only are plants and my garden beautiful, but they somehow are like friends or family, or a connection to ancestors, as I am researching plants my Polish, Irish, Finnish ancestors used and why. Feels very nourishing.
    Also ~ After I quit Instagram, I had a very similar experience where after a number months I had a flood of grief and all the things I repressed/avoided came flooding back for me to deal with.

  • @rachaelnewton4320
    @rachaelnewton4320 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I love watching your channel Hannah and hearing about your journey of self improvement.. I am thrilled that you were able to practice self restraint even while navigating a stressful time in your life!
    You inspire me and give me hope that I too will be able to have a healthy relationship with shopping in time. Keep being you! You rock 😘
    Ps Your makeup was on point today!!! 🤩

  • @reilife121
    @reilife121 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I'm glad I found your channel back in your No-buy year because I got so much out of your journey. I wasn't on the same path as you but it definitely weaved it's message into how I think now about wanting things. I unknowingly took you "masterclass" lol. I'm so glad you ended with being the source of own contentment. It's what I reach for & encourage others to do as well. Whether it's taking that power back or just realizing it.

  • @wintermolnar3166
    @wintermolnar3166 ปีที่แล้ว

    I know this video is a year old but I just found your page and I am loving it so much. I made 10 rules so far because I have a serious problem with bored or sad shopping. This gave me so much hope ❤️

  • @paisleyhendrix43
    @paisleyhendrix43 ปีที่แล้ว

    I have tried to implement my minimalistic always chic grandmothers advice “ use what you have “ to look inside my head , heart and closet , home to identify the pull of the item , it’s connection to my existing items and whether or not my vision is a realistic one . Also looking on sites I crave helped me remember what I do have and how to put them together in ways I have forgotten or just wouldn’t think of . 6:40

  • @CBlake-xy5cm
    @CBlake-xy5cm 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Yaaay for you on so many levels!!! You've really put in the effort to make personal improvements, and to such good effect! It's been such a pleasure to watch your journey! I think it's so generous of you to share these aspects of your life. Thank you so much! Congratulations on your wedding engagement! All the very best to you and yours, Hannah!
    🦋🧡🦋

  • @emilyjanetecson9953
    @emilyjanetecson9953 ปีที่แล้ว

    I love how eloquent you express your opinions❤

  • @ariperez2608
    @ariperez2608 ปีที่แล้ว

    It is so nice to hear that I am not the only one dealing with this. I could not find the words to describe what I was feeling/going through for so long, but you did it so perfectly. Thank you for letting me know it is possible to change. I just found your channel about a week ago and I am so greatful I did. Thank you for all of your content and all you do! 💕

  • @taniaquinones3447
    @taniaquinones3447 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Congrats Hannah for your engagement and your path to personal growth.

  • @hmm9876
    @hmm9876 ปีที่แล้ว

    I just found you! It's like the clouds parted and you fell into my lap at just the right time. ❤❤ will be binging your videos this weekend.🎉

  • @romeogupta7341
    @romeogupta7341 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    You continue to inspire me HLP! I am moving next summer and it has been completely and totally liberating to start the process of near weekly declutters as I continue to think about fewer, nicer things in my own life. Thank you for bravely sharing your experiences and insight because I think we all need it. I really resonate with that internal feeling you describe where you had hoped to fill a void of inadequacy with stuff which ultimately never happens and always falls short of your expectations.

  • @bellebb8673
    @bellebb8673 ปีที่แล้ว

    This channel is so helpful to me. I'm doing a no buy year and not finding it that hard, but your channel has certainly helped. It's hard to find youtubes on this that aren't what I consider to be really extreme "minimalist movement" folks. That's just not me, and not what I want to be. I'm trying to find more channels on moderate low shopping projects, and also fashion channels that are more about styling what you already have rather than buying new things.

  • @mfenn7325
    @mfenn7325 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I was here since the early days of your no-buy and you have made very obvious personal growth and continue to have impeccable taste. I hope you are truly proud of your progress and take it as evidence of what you are capable of.
    Also, hoops with that hair? *Chef's kiss*

  • @bethrohman9612
    @bethrohman9612 ปีที่แล้ว

    Oh my goodness. Stumbling upon your channel recently was just so perfectly timed for me. Everything you said here resonated with me so profoundly. I'm so grateful to have found someone who has learned to embrace their love of beauty without falling down the rabbit hole of consumption. Thank you so much for this!

  • @kellymcdaniel6272
    @kellymcdaniel6272 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I can’t wait to hear the tale of the quest for the perfect panties!💜

  • @melaniemerkosky
    @melaniemerkosky 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I’ve been binging your content since last Fall, and decided to embark on a No Buy in 2022. I just want to thank you for your candor, your vulnerability, your articulation and your advice. You are truly inspiring.

  • @blessedshadows
    @blessedshadows 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I have a similar compulsion even though I’m blessed that I still have my emergency and school savings. I’m committed to healing, thank you for your videos ♥️🙏🏻

  • @arinmarkam1081
    @arinmarkam1081 ปีที่แล้ว

    I only just yesterday found your videos and your no-buy year playlist.. and can I just say I can totally relate to everything you explained.. about the addictive brain chemicals, the fantasy of my more luxurious self.. it all hit home. Hard. And I’m already planning to go on a no-buy year next year. Thank you for sharing your journey so beautifully and being open about your struggles 💐💐💐

  • @deirdrebridge
    @deirdrebridge ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I just discovered your channel and I’m looking back at some of your videos that speak to me. I recently made an actual spreadsheet of every bit of clothing and accessories that I own so that, even if my items are out away for the season, I can remind myself of what I own to make more intelligent decisions about what I buy. Also… good for you for figuring this out about yourself. And how great is the dopamine when you can smile knowing you’ve made such solid holistic decisions about your wellness 👏 ❤

  • @sarahboardman2881
    @sarahboardman2881 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hanna Louise Freaking Poston!! I hope you feel incredibly proud of yourself!!! Both for how far you’ve come on your journey towards natural moderation and for how gracefully you’ve adjusted your presence on TH-cam to fit your comfort level!

  • @embellishmarin4647
    @embellishmarin4647 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Oh gosh. I’m just starting this journey. The chemical reaction of shopping is very real. The chase never ends, the shame is terrible. I really appreciate the help that this video is giving me.

  • @mirny1509
    @mirny1509 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I think I’m also addicted to shopping. Like, I bought the new alter ego palette and told myself “this is the last makeup thing I’m buying this year until I use something up”, and then I bought a Sydney Grace palette yesterday 🤦🏻‍♀️ I really needed this. Thank you. LOVE you and your content so much.

  • @Maykono1
    @Maykono1 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. It has been so helpful!!

  • @LegallyBlondeEsq
    @LegallyBlondeEsq 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I can relate so much to this. Circumstances forced me into a three year no shopping break (basic and bare essentials only) that was very humbling and eye opening. Thank you for sharing your journey. It feels great to shop intentionally and invest in things you truly love, doesn’t it? So glad I found your channel. 😘

  • @flanamom
    @flanamom 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Your message is extraordinary, brave, heartfelt, and something I, and many of us, very much identify with. Your honesty in sharing your journey is so helpful and inspiring.

  • @mishieternity
    @mishieternity 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you Hannah. You inspire me and this video, containing your profound messages, was exactly what I needed to hear today. Thank you so much! I appreciate you being here in this platform. Xx

  • @alisonneverland
    @alisonneverland 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Hannah you are just amazing. Thank you so much for this detailed thoughtfulness.

  • @makeup_onhermind
    @makeup_onhermind 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    giirrrrl thank you, you are truly a bright spark on this platform, talking so personally to, as it seems, so many of us. sisterhood.

  • @Peter-Pantomime
    @Peter-Pantomime 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I've encountered your content over the last day or so at just the right time for me. I've known I needed to so some self-intervention for awhile now, but have been afraid to make the plunge, and seeing your journey has provided the last bit of motivation I needed - which is to say, it has provided hope. I've been working on excavating the sources of my desires and habits for some time now, but am now in a place where I thoroughly understand myself but am doing nothing to change the things I'm seeing. One of the things that makes that difficult (or is this reasoning just another excuse not to?) is that I've also been working on moderation over extremes, so there is something tempting about the hardcore-ness of a No-Buy year, there is also the fear that it would be an issue in its own way. But I also know that a lot of my extreme behavior in the past has burned out after a short period, and the idea of this long-term commitment is appealing, especially as we approach the new year. Anyway, I'll save the rest of these thoughts for my journal (or should I start a whole vlog series myself (another extreme?)?), but all that to say, thank you for sharing your experiences and worldview

  • @CoquetFleur
    @CoquetFleur 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    First of all I loved this video and really resonated with your analogy of Training wheels. For me watching your check ins was never about what you actually bought but more so the reasons why you wanted to buy it. Why this particular aesthetic spoke to you. If in the future you won’t do these videos I would really like something like aesthetics check ins like what are you currently Desiring and why. I also commented a long time ago on one of your old videos about the fact that I think you would be a perfect person to develop a TAG about personal aesthetics. Just my thoughts do whatever you desire. Kind regards from Germany 🇩🇪

  • @debraglasco100
    @debraglasco100 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Oh my goodness. This was an exceptional video of finding and wanting ones true self. I do hope you continue on your path snd lead us to a place of beauty in the way you so eloquently express. Here’s to finding all things beautiful in our authentic self on our journey.

  • @wildlyamy
    @wildlyamy 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Your whole story is so inspiring, but especially this part. It gives me hope that I can do better as someone who tends to emotionally shop. Thank you for sharing your journey. Your videos have helped me immensely. So much gratitude.

  • @letoyamcclay
    @letoyamcclay 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I woke up abruptly from sleep and decided to watch this video because your voice is very soothing haha and this ended up being the video I needed. Wide awake literally and figuratively, thanks, you have no idea how much I needed this. I admire you very much for doing the work and sharing it all with us. Now go live in moderation and enjoy your engagement season 🤗

  • @darcyreadssometimes3904
    @darcyreadssometimes3904 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Dang, what an arc. :) I’m so proud of you!!!

  • @ohnilisle4981
    @ohnilisle4981 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I loved the wrap up starting in the last five minutes. It’s been really fun having a similar journey that was inspired by you, and I’m very pleased that my relationship with buying things is also no longer compulsive. You rule!