end result @ 6:42
super sorry I've not uploaded in a year lmk if anyone is still here!
been having weird mental battles with making videos, i know that's dumb, sorry this video isn't good it just gets increasingly difficult to post anything at all when I haven't in so long
its super scary working on something knowing its going to be the thing that breaks the silence, it adds a lot of pressure so I'm just uploading this so that I've uploaded something on the channel aah
I've been trying to practice recording myself speaking a lot, I'm pretty awful at it so far but I really don't like competing with people & when I stopped being only person that makes videos like these I felt like I couldn't post my own because its competing with someone else's video.
Since there's no personality to my videos its hard to identify what I can even make for this channel without it being out of place, I'm not really sure what people expect to see from it.
I feel like I'd be a lot more comfortable uploading videos if they really felt like they were made by a tangible person, so I'm hoping I can get better at speaking & upload narrated videos at some point, let me know if you'd like that at all!
Thanks for reading this if you are, also if you used to comment on my videos but changed your youtube name let me know in the comments cuz I know people change names/pics a lot but I only have your name to remember you by =(
- five