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Keep working on it mate. You seem like a lovely person with great awareness.

I have stuttered all of my life. I am now 71. In the first part of my life, my stuttering was especially severe. During childhood, I received speech therapy from therapists that were associated with the public school I attended. The therapy did not have any effect. Later, while at college, the college I attended had a hearing and speech dept, that had a clinic that offered speech therapy. I received therapy there for approximately eight months. It improved my speech, but that improvement was only temporary. By my early 30’s my stuttering was creating problems at work so severe that it endangered my economic survival. To make a long story short, I was suffering from PTSD that had been caused by the stuttering-related experiences I had endured over the years. (I could recount some bullying experiences at school that would make your hair stand on end). Medication HELPED ME A GREAT DEAL. I will also say that PTSD must be adequately treated before speech therapy can be effective on stuttering. Given my experience and reading, I suggest first trying Paxil for PTSD. If that does not work, consider Xanax. Do NOT take Clorazepate long-term.

Very best wishes to you in your therapy, Salvadore! I think you are very brave! I am wondering if you can help me understand what it feels like to have no sense of self? What does the world look like to you and how do you navigate your way through life’s interpersonal challenges? Do you feel and identify your own emotions and how do emotions (yours or other people’s) affect you? I am not trying to “put you on the couch” here so I apologize if it feels that way! I have a highly functional but uncaring older sister who has always adopted the personalty characteristics of whoever she’s with and it’s been suggested that she has BDP/NPD, and I’m just trying to understand what that’s like for her. I still care about her even tho I had to cut her out of my life due to her damaging behaviors, so I can’t ask her. Your openness and honesty is very refreshing and I want to personally thank you for working through these issues with a therapist. Your willingness to do so makes the world a better place! I know it’s hard work and I am cheering you on in my heart! Very best wishes to you!! ❤

Crying right now. Thank you for this because i been trying to explain to someone something. And you just got it right. Thank you so much.

I think you did a great job explaining your experience of BPD, as well as demonstrating it some through the way you were freely expressing yourself without pre-organizing the information. Sometimes the best communication is what comes out when you just show up and speak authentically in the moment. Thank you for your video.

Developing self is the key. Develop a secure attachment to yourself. Look into CPTSD based content. BPD related content/therapy never helped me, but healing the underlying trauma that caused it did. For the record, I have BPD, CPTSD and Autism. Hope this helps.

Thank you.

I have situational stuttering too, mostly in the forms of speech blocks/pauses and speech elongations. I’m mostly fluently but it acts up when making phone calls or food orders. And yea anxiety makes it worse

Hey if you ever want to chat to a random person... Ill make space to chat 😊

Maybe this girl is your new fp?

She sounds absolutely insufferable, it isn't your job to deal with her nonsense, but I think you know that already. Personally, I think it's best if you cut ties with her in a way that gives you proper closure, how she feels about it doesn't matter. What is it that you're getting from that friendship anyway? I'm glad you enjoyed the concert without her and it's good to see you post.

Dawg you washed her dog? You shouldn't of told her before the concert, you should've told her a long long time ago. I won't lie for a second I thought this was satire or a comedy sketch. I'm sorry but literally any other person would've cut her off right from the start so you kind of only have yourself to blame :/

Romans = 10:9 = Eternal life

At the 6:40 mark when you’re talking about getting be child like, I want to add that is a beautiful thing! If it recall correctly, the Bible even mentions the importance of remaining childlike in spirit. I know personally I have a playful, fun and childlike aspect to me and as I’ve gone through some hard challenges in life it has been hard to not lose that aspect of myself…. NEVER change that. Instead just keep working on the fruits of the spirit in the Bible such as slow to anger, patience, not being envious etc. We are all on our own path, but your awareness and genuineness is already way ahead of many. Lastly, thanks for being vulnerable and sharing on YT.

Also I just heard you say you tried hard to make her like you and want to be your friend. With the right friends, you won't have to try very hard. Don't try to get people to like you. Let them like you or not and move on if they don't.

I've had this happen a lot in the past. From experience, drop that friend if they've done this more than 1 or 2 times. You deserve better people in your life and you don't have to accept less than you deserve.

Also hope this isn't too personal but what drugs were you addicted to and how did you manage to get sober? I've been an addict for different substances for years and I've gotten over them for the most part but there's still one that I just can't seem to kick. How did you do it? I also appreciate you being so open about all this stuff, it's very validating and comforting to see another man going through similar things. Makes me feel normal.

I relate to this completely. I feel like for people like us (borderlines) we love a lot and friendships mean a lot where as for non bpd people they don't really think too deeply into relationships and they just take things for granted. I hope you do find some friends who are as good to you as you are to them cause it is a struggle always feeling like no one appreciates you as much as you appreciate them. You seem chill as fuck and I'd hang with you fr. Anyway I hope things look up for you soon bro. Don't doubt your worth.

If you feeling you guy friend that means you’re Bi sexual, I guess of how you grow up you don’t want admit. It’s not usual for straight person to sexually attract a friend of same gender.

Stop this mentality of helping other ppl, now that ppl will love just who you’re without helping them. You deserve an unconditional love.. ok drop helping ppl to love you. You very brilliant person by just listening to you, I hope you know that. Thank you for your videos.

Man!! NBD is just most emotionally taxing mental illness ever.. other ways brilliant for creating things. Hope you reparent yourself at the end.

Respect you man

Also not to comment on your life but that girl sounds like a red flag. The way she treats you is wack as hell and a regular person wouldn't do stuff like that especially to someone they know likes them.

I'm always glad when i see you've uploaded.

Those personalities are fascinating, they way he deeply feels things to make him stuttering is just huge bro.

I've been watching ur videos and It's so relatable. It can be hard to us. One example I can't stand and I feel bad about it is when my favorite person loves a hobby, a friend, a family member, a pet whatever I get so jealous and feel I am competing with all that and I can't stand it, I take it too personal, it's so dumb.

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I love how you keep getting side track and saying random things in the middle of sentences. I do the exact same

I remember all the good memorias I wished and tried so hard but his BPD/NPD won he never said sorry I want to work this out, takes two people relashinship has to be reciprocal.

Your young, it's hard life in general. My parents died when I was 13, after I had to break my 12 year relashinship thought was the man that wanted to be with me for the rest of our lives he broke my heart cheated on me I did not know he had BPd I'm sure he didnt know either towards the end relashionship became toxic. It's hard I understand Your pain hang in there.

Dont give up your happiness life is worth it!

Try to find one thst specializes and understand BPD

Congrats feel proud especially letting go on the alcohol, my Bpd partner 41 alcholic in denial, try so hard to support him, think he had trauma childhood would never confess it to me so much secrets he has love hate relashinship with his mother I think is BPD NPD he has child trauma he himself the most ever said was his family was dysfunctional alcholic father never confronted them nobody gotten therapy, I was consumed loosing myself I still love him very much I did not know about bpd or npd now I know. The last thing I could do to help was tell him think he shows bpd needs to get help.

Go get HELP GET TREATMENT GET OFF ONLINE posting videos of miss information messing up the minds of younger people You are SICK if you can change it go get help!!! BPD is very dangerous you are a sick person

Male here with Quiet BPD, Covert NPD, cPTSD, ADHD, OCD, MDD and Asperger's. I'm a total clusterfuck, mentally/emotionally and in general. I'm conflicted with self-hate but project it onto everyone else via contempt/repulsion etc. I've isolated/withdrawn myself from everything that I'm basically a Schizoid hermit. Since I have next to no emotional attachment/bond with anyone, any relationship I didn't ruin via self-sabotage, I cut off the rest without a second thought. I want to be in an intimate relationship with someone but I know it's impractical with my bullshit that follows. My social anxiety and deluded paranoia keeps me from trying to go back to dating. I can't hoover any past partners due to pushing them to the point of hating me. Maybe it's better this way.

Some therapists tend to think this is a female only disorder. Men are often overlooked when they have the traits. Pretty sure my father is BPD.

I understand brother.. you’re not alone 🫡

I’m a female bpd and it’s hell to deal with

Fuck Ive ditched people for my FP all the time and I feel guilty after the fact but no one makes me feel like my FP.

great video good luck to you. I wish to know a cure or relief. I just had a recorded video interview for my first time. It was difficult because I felt I stutter, lost for words

Good work I appreciate your insights. Thanks man th-cam.com/video/73DBZ3xN3UE/w-d-xo.html

You are a beautiful person, inside and out. I'd be proud to fall in love with someone like you. I think I have BPD and I appreciate you posting these videos so I can hear your experience.

Big big hugs 🤗

I'm pretty sure I have this too. Thanks for sharing. I recently started seeing a therapist and so I have the ball rolling. But how do you deal with all the pain? Some nights I randomly sit and cry so hard.

Why are you saying you’re a “Covert Narcissist?”

thank you again for sharing your experience. appreciate it!

I do this

When is the next live video? 😁

Hey Salvatore, It sounds like you never had a parent figure who noticed you, what was going on with you, noticed when you needed comforted or valued. We all need that. I hope you’re getting better.

I don't get it!? You are young and rather handsome... Get out of your head. Find a hobby that excites your passions! Hook up with a counselor.