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Im a Autistic boy and one thing that always scared me growing up was the drains at the bottom of the pool. all I can imagine the drains opening up and swallowing me whole.

If I go to one of the facilities, I want to atleaet go to one thst cares about there patients and hygiene, but why was there blood?

what is this???

i just don't like taking a shower cuz i just want to be out of there and do something i actually enjoy (btw i have autism too :D)

Just give the patients hugs as staff boom

In every psychological ward if someone is crying, ⭐hug ⭐

wish i could dream like this

I stumbled across Pau’s channel literally less than a day ago and I can confidently say that my life is better after after discovering this silly little human. <3

Have you ever had one where trees of like float towards a person video game style who owned a sonic plushy but then they’re like cousin or brother threw it in the air and then underneath them like something that’s gives us energy could turn into

Have you ever had one where trees of like float towards a person who owned a sonic plushy but then they’re like cousin or brother threw it in the air and then underneath them like something that’s gives us energy could turn into

Do you have dreams? Where is basically the entire night you just see blackness but then when you’re about to wake up, you see like something that happens after you wake up late not right after like when you’re in school or when you’re working.

the oxxo in the background is real lmao. i love oxxo!

excuse me, i wanted to ask if you could look into your youtube not being able to change your notification status. for some reason i can’t put your post notifications on.

jesus christ, not even two minutes in and this sound like the special hell of a shut-in autistic person. i feel like i unlocked a new anxiety that i will somehow be sent here despite being completely healthy and stable. ok this is making it worse i'm probably gonna leave now

Opa,minha filha é......como eu posso te disser,pau é uma coisa muito complicada de falar aqui no brasil(brazil)

Hello. I am new to your channel. Just got the video recomendation from YT, and what you share about your experience at that psychiatric ward is plain horrible. I feel very sorry that you had to endure such a flagrant violation of your basic human rights. I was institutionalized once too for depression and suicidal intent. I am also autistic, but a cis male, so I imagine your position was different. Even then, MY experience at the hospital was overall positive. I recall the staff there as being kind (against the odds, I must say). They really cared about recovery, though some of their actions might have been incorrect. What I can say is that, in comparison, that facility you where in was criminaly ill managed, not deserving to operate. I could hardly consider it a legitimate hospital, more of a LGBT+ conversion clinic. I just hope that you can properly recover after what happened, both from your experience in there and what you were dealing before. Remember that you are valid, identity, strugles and all. Sorry if I'm, very wordy. As I said, I'm also autistic and English is not my native language. Blessings❤️‍🩹🤗

I am vengeance, I am the night, I am Pau!!!

Personally I'd Sue

I wonder if there was the second autistic child trying to figure out why is the school actin wildly . Also why do I hear death note OP

you really should look up the name of that institution and report their ass into the ground what they did to you is inexcusable i mean really giving you seditives when your going to bed is all leavels of F-ed up

My last visit to the mental hospital was very weird, one of my friends got called a Ching Chong by one of the nurses 😟

reason number 34 on why people are terrified of psych wards

I swear I feel like they should allow socializing. Maybe not with all patients (as some may make your situation worse) but allow ppl to visit you and for you to make at least 1 or 2 friends. The last thing you'd need at the time is social deprivation!

When would those idiots of the psych ward realize that the best way to treat people whose brains are sick is always Tender Loving Care, allow them to rest in their beds at their homes and give them cookie pizzas and chocolate milk!?!

Most of my dreams have been about someone trying to kill me for some reason or at least me being in some kind of danger. I usually don’t die in my dreams because my dream ends up switching over to something else, but one time, I did die, and I just became a ghost who tried communicating with my parents over a news channel 💀

HERMITCRAFT MENTIONED 🔥🔥🔥🗣️🗣️🗣️💯💯💯

You are not useless. You are loved and you are valid. I hope that you are growing a little bit every day.

omg ur voice is so f-ing cute! i almost got that cuteness aggression when i heard it, just wanted to give u a big hug and squeeze u... but idk if that would make u uncomfortable :3 anyways, i'm so so sorry you experinced this bad treatment and honestly, i'm so proud of u for getting through this and i'm so so glad you are still here <3

i dont understand how a psych helps. the staff are strict and unforgiving. from what ive heard its just a shit place to be

3:14 omg that’s so cool I’ll start doing that two :3

THAT TEACHER SHOULD GO TO JAIL (are u ok? mentally? that must’ve been really scary)

You did well thanks

I feel so bad for you 😢 god that was awful

oh my god your 3d model is amazing where can i do one

Psych Ward: We'll take care of you! Also Psych Ward: STOP CRYING OR YOU'LL BE STAYING HERE LONGER! 😶

could totally sue

I love the pixel animations how did you do that we need s tutorial! BTW love your stuff so much

I understand Pau so much I'm the same but it's my entire family.

I THOUGHT THOSE WHITE GUYS WERE PEBBLE FROM DANDY'S WORLD

u know what fun is, i might end up in a psych ward

Me: (Terrified and scared.. ) 😰

i am so sorry about all that shit that happened to you, some states dont really give a shit about their patients. Being in a ward was one of the most worst times of my life i have extreme complex ptsd and my very first full day there me and my pharmacist were attacked by a very violent kid he grabbed her and choked her with her feet off the floor and he bit me. he had to be watched 24/7 bur somehow THEY LEFT HIM ALONE IN A HALLWAY and because of everything going on i had dozens of adults and staff touching me without my consent it led to me having one of the worst episodes of my life leaving me with a concussion because of the amount of force i used to bang my head on the wall from the amount of stress i was enduring i hope i never go back...

Umm Pau, I'm a big fan of you channel but i've always had a question. Did you become trans when you we're a kid or when you got older? (You do not have to answer)

0:27 "MEAWWWWW" -SillyPau

i fell in love with your voice

why you go to the yard?

I remember my mom taking me to a child mental hospital twice last year, they took away my hoodie😭😭