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rainy owl
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เข้าร่วมเมื่อ 28 ต.ค. 2016
hey what's up! i like making videos about things that interest me and sharing them with you!
3 years after - i documented my breakup
this video is really personal to me and takes place over about 3 years after a huge breakup. the relationship that i was in was toxic and there were abusive aspects of this relationship.
i spent countless hours editing this video project.this is the story of the time i overcame one of the most intense challenges of my life so far as someone in my now early 20s.
i share this in hopes to speak to those who have felt the ways that i have... utterly lost, hopeless and consumed by bitterness, paranoia, insecurity, rage, and despair. it doesn't matter who you are or where you are, abuse is not okay.
it is possible to get through it. it is possible to change and to heal. feel your feelings and get the support where you can and take it one day at a time.
trigger warning: su*cidal ideation, depression, cheating, anxiety, mental hospitals, trauma
resources for getting help or education:
www.thehotline.org/resources/what-is-gaslighting/
www.domesticshelters.org/search#?page=1
www.center4research.org/the-cycle-of-domestic-violence/
th-cam.com/video/bARpudRvNgA/w-d-xo.html
www.thriftbooks.com/w/the-body-keeps-the-score-brain-mind-and-body-in-the-healing-of-trauma_bessel-a-van-der-kolk/8899394/?resultid=07a0ad35-b75b-46e9-9ca8-686eb46f0510#edition=8946322&idiq=16213191
th-cam.com/video/VbDRfxNB6EA/w-d-xo.html
th-cam.com/video/XRICIFc1Nb4U/w-d-xo.htmlSA
hotline: call 988 or for 24/7 text support: Text HOME to 741741
UK hotline: call 116 123 or text SHOUT to 85258 for 24/7 text support
(if you are located somewhere else and in need of support check out this link please: www.psychologytoday.com/us/basics/suicide/suicide-prevention-hotlines-resources-worldwide#united-states )
please like, comment and share to help support my channel and to help me to make more content!
i spent countless hours editing this video project.this is the story of the time i overcame one of the most intense challenges of my life so far as someone in my now early 20s.
i share this in hopes to speak to those who have felt the ways that i have... utterly lost, hopeless and consumed by bitterness, paranoia, insecurity, rage, and despair. it doesn't matter who you are or where you are, abuse is not okay.
it is possible to get through it. it is possible to change and to heal. feel your feelings and get the support where you can and take it one day at a time.
trigger warning: su*cidal ideation, depression, cheating, anxiety, mental hospitals, trauma
resources for getting help or education:
www.thehotline.org/resources/what-is-gaslighting/
www.domesticshelters.org/search#?page=1
www.center4research.org/the-cycle-of-domestic-violence/
th-cam.com/video/bARpudRvNgA/w-d-xo.html
www.thriftbooks.com/w/the-body-keeps-the-score-brain-mind-and-body-in-the-healing-of-trauma_bessel-a-van-der-kolk/8899394/?resultid=07a0ad35-b75b-46e9-9ca8-686eb46f0510#edition=8946322&idiq=16213191
th-cam.com/video/VbDRfxNB6EA/w-d-xo.html
th-cam.com/video/XRICIFc1Nb4U/w-d-xo.htmlSA
hotline: call 988 or for 24/7 text support: Text HOME to 741741
UK hotline: call 116 123 or text SHOUT to 85258 for 24/7 text support
(if you are located somewhere else and in need of support check out this link please: www.psychologytoday.com/us/basics/suicide/suicide-prevention-hotlines-resources-worldwide#united-states )
please like, comment and share to help support my channel and to help me to make more content!
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Youre way too obsessed with this dude
The show is not pro vegan. In fact a large part of the show is grappling with the fact that the carnivors not only want to eat meat. But on some level, NEED to eat meat. That the substitutes they have can not fullfill them. Legosi going full vegan, was bad for him. It was making him sick, and only forced him to unhealthily repress his natural urges more. To the point his jaw strength was severly lacking and he only starts regaining his strength once he eats an insect and Louis' leg. Louis meanwhile, can not digest meat at all, and was withering away when forced to consume it. He needed a vegetarian diet or else he would die from starvation. To make the point more pronounced, the vore aspect of this show, often show cases that herbivores have an innate instinct to be devoured. Haru in bed with Legosi. Louis offering his leg. Herbivores often asking the question "will you eat me" in flirtatious situations. Both as a metaphor, and very literal. Your hypothesis that saying "they don't need meet it's a choice" is very ignorant and ignores the broader themes of the show. Some being literal like "your bodies are different, and as such you will need to eat different diets to sustain yourself. And there's no shame either way." hell if you've gotten to season 3, the ocean philosophy goes even harder with the ones we've been made accustomed to. Saying that to eat and be eaten is natural and we must respect the balance and not hold grudges for having these natural instincts." A more accurate term is you should respect where your food comes from. Let it live its best life if possible and thank it for the eventual sacrifice when you eat it. So try and find respectful and responsible sources to buy your meat from if possible. But yeah I don't thibk the show that says "I'm eating your leg not just because I need to, but because I WANT to." Should be considered pro vegan. Especially when that's shown and described by the narrative as "pique friendship."
thank you for sharing your story.
I moved in with my childhood bff and we stopped being friends bc a roommate got between us. And it was extremely public so I made a video about it. My peers were shocked i aired it out on my TH-cam. No one would listen to my story so ... Be proud you finished ur videos. This is how we process breakups, friend breakups etc.its like a video essay for urself . Most ppl repress it instead
Thank you so much for this kind comment. It takes a lot of bravery to put yourself out there in general, specifically about such sensitive topics! It has helped me process the entire situation so much.
I really appreciate the work you're doing, I wish that more people could see this
Thank you! Feel free to share with friends if you know anyone interested! I did a lot of research for this video since it was a speech for a class.
Thank you for this wonderful video, I can tell you really are a good person, considering the lives of every living creature
Thank you!!
howd you get there?
my car lol
But are you concerned?
if you know info about him you should make a documentary type video, i think that would get good views, at the end of the day you are just analizing his drug use and nobody cares lol we have always known he likes to get high and no one gave a shit then or now, he can be sober or he can not,
It seems obvious that the allegations that went public from his ex, and his "hard time" have to do with grappling w/ his past, the situation with his ex, it's like they mutually realized that he was grooming her and others, and he had a reaction.
While I appreciate dude's art... He was a predator towards teens during the mid-late myspace days. He kinda reminds me of Drake Bell...
really? that's the first time i've heard about that actually
He just posted a statement saying he has officially retired from music and will now be focusing on his true passion. Painting.
he does that a loootttt
I think he's just trying to hard to be different or weird for art purposes
you can now play Zoo Tycoon 2 without the CD, I downloaded it onto a modern laptop from a free website :)
what website?? is it the original? imiss those free demos
The Main Reason Zoo tycoon 2 isn't updated is Because Blue fang doesn't exist in 2022, nor in 2024. they went bankrupt in about 2014
screaming and crying
@@rainyowlstar I'm glad I didn't subscribed. if this your response. i was merely stating a fact.
How localizate a Cristopher drew
His brother was murdered asshole
No Cristopher free noth happend now
noooo, you accidently skipped the theme song 😭😭😭
I just came across your channel and was almost worried this was going to be an anti-vegan video but was pleasantly surprised.
I thought you were him😅
haha
I feel like when he started making songs he was so innocent and pure and after getting reception from the whole world he began to resent that and tried to destroy the innocence in himself in his pursuit of becoming “a real musician” instead of a MySpace teen heartthrob and in the process he destroyed what made him beautiful. It’s sad cause he became such an ego maniac. He can’t see the true blessings in his life. He also abused the mother of his child which is something I’m very uncomfortable with. He needs to truly get help, quit drugs, and try to be who like that kid he tried to destroy. It’s so weird for me because I was such a huge fans I literally tried drugs because of him. I’m grateful that I made it out and hope he can too. Fame and drugs are truly evil.
He doesnt look 40 he looks 65
omg
Cringe brotha
You look like a bum lmfao
god forbid someone acts in a way you personally find odd
it is not that he is acting "odd" it's that he has, and is repeatedly showing signs of addiction and that he shows signs that his mental health is spiraling downwards. perhaps if you watched the video thoroughly you might understand that this is more of an open discussion about how he is doing, and not a personal criticism of him, but a statement and overview of what he posts and why it is alarming.
i dont think a trans person has any authority to talk about mental health@@rainyowlstar
Way to completely miss the point. That was almost impressive.
This is more of a PSA. He is bringing attention to the guy nit doing well. How could you possibly take this as slander lmao.
Did you really hide the name of the girl, but name dropped the name of the baby?
good point though i think it's less important than her name
@@rainyowlstaryeah you’re probably right
Yet you got three videos about him ? quit instigating tired of u weirdos trying to leech of another individual for sun lame ass yt crap
Yo bro you got some bug eyes looking goofy af talking about another man check yourself bro look stupid af
You sound like a big ass hater, secret obsession type vibes. Are you like in love with him or something ?
I hope you know he is sober now and doing amazing! He's back to spreading love!
i do hope so
I don't think what he is going through is about him missing fame or caring about it to be honest. I think it's more just that he genuinely burnt out and lost passion for the one thing that he loved. A lot of artists and creative people go through that. Maybe one day he will come back to it, maybe not but either way he did make some pretty good songs so I'd be content with that. Also he might actually enjoy having less fame, being. in the spotlight from a young age undoubtedly drained him.
I feel like when he started making songs he was so innocent and pure and he began to resent that and tries to destroy the innocence in himself in his pursuit of becoming “a real musician” instead of a MySpace teen heartthrob and in the process he destroyed what made him beautiful. It’s sad cause he became such an ego maniac. He also abused the mother of his child which is something I’m very uncomfortable with. He needs to truly get help, quit drugs, and try to be who like that kid he tried to destroy.
thats true, i can't speak for him, but yeah it is true that fame at a young age changes the way that people see the world, human connection and the size of their egos. i think his drop in popularity hurt him, he lost his band, friends and seemingly a lot of other things
I was disappointed too
i'm sorry you learned that about him sweetie..but thats part of getting older thats why they say "never meet your heroes"
that's true.
<3
Whats his instagram handlr ?
Chrristoferdrew
I remember him saying he wants to be skinny but he was really young at that time. He’s older now he can’t physically stay the same size. I believe he just wants to just go back in time when everything was going his way I mean idk how to explain
that too, but also society shames men for talking out and seeking help for their eating disorders, it's taboo. he likely didn't get the help he needed.
He was a good looking bum before 👀 that’s sad though he does look like he’s going downhill. So sad I didn’t get to see him live back in the day.
that's a good way to put it.
Eh, he got older. We all get older.
Hey brother what’s your instagram?
This is cursed
Great video and great sweater
love u baby
Woahhhhh you’re so cool 🫶
He has ststes he brewing beer hissself. Achohol sucks lol
he's done some things quitttteeee harder than alc
i guess you don't know what a satire is😬😬😬
I would hope that ending was satire, it’s essentially the same as coin in the hunger games trying to do one more for the capitol kids
the point of this video is to critically the analyze the film and what it is saying. typically something that is satire still has something to say, just as all humor and irony does. the fact that it is a satire and it is easily digestible does not dispose the fact that it is still a feminist film. this video is me being critical about the film AND looking at the overlap this film has with the SCUM Manifesto since these are now both works of feminist art. One is radical, one is soft, the movie is soft yet if you are being very critical about it and radical about the film, you can look at it through the eyes of radical feminism.
You must be so gay to idolise a dude like that. You're obsessed with his image
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH REALITY IS CRUMBLINGGGgggGgGgGg
woah the scum manifesto? and the barbie movie? haha that’s a shock! cool video!
hi woe lad
He made another statement, he said that he suffered a mental breakdown, that he is starting a career as a painter, he is recovering through painting, which is good therapy, he also said that he does not intend to return to music in the future (but I am sure that the flame will awaken again when this bad phase is over)
@AnonymousQwerty No, but he is sometimes sharing on Instagram the remaster of the album "Advent Of Violet Soul" which has about 2 new songs.
Lmao buddy lost his MySpace fame and doesn’t know what to do with himself. The idiot is done with
@AnonymousQwertyThat was before the most recent episode when he stated that he was going to give up music and become a painter. It's so sad to see Chris struggling so much, but this has been a cycle for him; bouncing around from one thing to another and making statements about giving up music and returning to music. I hope he will find some stability. There may be some trauma associated with his career in music and/or he may have wanted his bandmates to join him in returning to music, but they might have refused and if that's the case then it may be a big part of his reason for stepping away from music again. I'm just speculating based on available information, of course.
Sounds like their was more to the story and people like you call it your possession
definitely not my possession, he lives his life in the public eye, people like me will talk about him, it happens to famous people, just sharing what i know with my thoughts to people who were or are still fans of him