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Yo, I’m looking for a wife.

Every time you post something expressing how desperate you feel I warn you to stop because someone’s gonna end up taking advantage of you. I really can’t keep repeating this cassie. I don’t want to see you get hurt but I can just keep warning you forever. You may have to just learn on your own. That said, look into vulnerable npd. Try talking to NPD creators online. Many of the things you say, sound like things I hear them say. Don’t talk to your mother. She’s more concerned about the way your content affects her reputation than is concerned with your wellbeing.

I recommend experimenting with psychedelics if you’re able to safely.

You are doing amazing, thank you for making these videos.

I just watched one of your older interviews, sad to know you and your friend/caregiver fell out or are in the process of falling out.

You're all very beautiful people, inside and out. Thank you for sharing your stories. 🙏

Bless her heart. My mom is from Barbados and this is exactly how she acts about my personality disorders and it hurts.. You’re strong girly 🥺😮‍💨

It's not that you can't find sex, you can... you don't want to have random sex with any guy.

I agree with the safety concerns of other commenters Theres a lot to contemplate on in this video, but theres one thing i really wanted to share: every ounce of happiness I feel, I have to fight for. I was dx'ed with dysthymia about 6 years ago and ive thought many of these thoughts for a long time. I have to fight back my negative thoughts and force myself to find *something* positive even when I dont want to. Especially when I dont want to. I hold onto whatever I find desperately; its often entirely unrelated to what i might be upset about. Its really damn hard, and some days im just too tired and beaten down to find anything positive. But im to a point now where the days i lose are outweighed by the days I win. It takes time and tenacity. It takes forgiveness for yourself when you cant win. It takes rest (even if you must force yourself to relax). Im rooting for you 🫂

“Sit in grass and destress”. “Im getting bitten!” 🤣🤣

I know you know 'the word' as in the good news. I've been 'in love' it is OVERRATED. (I joke, I empathize with you, but better to come into your wholeness first so that you are not prey to any more abuse). I have been following you a while, I just saw an interview you gave a few months back. I commend your courage. Focus on love based on the word. You don't need a 'relationship' to feel love. In the interview I saw, you said you felt bad for hurting your friend. I understood what you were saying, I have always questioned your ASPD diagnosis because someone on that spectrum would not feel bad for hurting someone. THAT IS a form of love. You are beautiful, you are articulate, you are VULNERABLE do you know how hard it is for people to share vulnerability? I'm allegedly NT and II have a rough time. You were created with purpose. 1 in 33 are on the spectrum today, it was about 1 in 148 around the time you were born. It's on the CUSP of being normal, it's just a matter of waiting for all the 'average' folk to 'get it' UNTIL then, please continue to do what you're doing because AWARENESS is needed and I thank you so much for the work you do. Someone I love very dearly is on the spectrum and you ARE doing 'God's' work because there are a lot of people hurting and lost and your sharing VALIDATES so powerfully. You will get there...there is a shoe for every foot. You are in my prayers...patience is hard, but it's a virtue. God bless you sweet soul.

Greeting from Philly, I'd like to thank you for having the courage to share your story with the online universe. You have opened me to a reality that I did not know existed and for that I express gratitude. Out of concern for your safety and well-being I would caution you with your open invitation. I do not think it is wise to attempt to create relationships with people if you are in a state of desperation. It typically does not attract compatible mates, but rather predatory individuals. Also it could have a counterproductive effect with potential compatible individuals for they will feel like you are a charity case. From my experience good healthy relationships happen organically. Sometimes our biological urges want us to do things that our brains are not prepared for and vice versa. Regardless of whether or not you attract a spouse, you have a special purpose to speak for those who don't have a voice.

This has helped many find love www.needgod.com

She really pulls off the septum piercing. Only a few can.

Would you find it easy to do a favor for a favor? Do you do considerate things because you see it as a nice way to pay it back?

You'r not around enough autistic people. The vast majority of so-called highfunctional autistics wouldn't want to have "husband/wife and kids". You just want that because you don't have that (compared to people surrounding you or/and people of who you know about), you don't want that because you know it feels nice and good (and not just temporarily, but also in the long-rum).

You are so relatable.

your brain isnt fcked up

Does anyone know the name of the song?

You’ll find you purpose and drive to live when you find Jesus. I pray that you find Jesus soon and commit yourself to building a relationship with Jesus.

Kinda hilarious listening to how no one’s gonna watch! To watching it til the end

You are so aware of yourself and your needs..you know what you want and what works for you, and that is a beautiful thing. Spiritual Healing would definitely turn your life in the right axis. It did for me. Seriously consider getting a healing from Oliver Nino!!! Oh and I notice that you self abuse and convincing yourself to settle is never ok, so don't.

I share a lot of similarities with you. I took the time to love myself and enjoy the things that truly embody my soul..and if you have a hard time finding those joys, start with your 5 sense. Don't reduce yourself to a diagnosis. Hit the reset button, and don't give anyone your passwords.

Ignore any and all messages about relocating. Seriously, don't do it.

Sending lots of love and light to you sis.. ❤

You are awful hard on yourself, you sound honest and thoughtful. You are a beautiful person!

I know there isnt much I can do to help but I truly wish things get better for you. I hope one day you dont feel this way. Im so sorry

❤🎉 Hey Cassie Keep hanging girl Love from 🇸🇳

You are the most important person in your life. Move on from anything that doesn’t make you happy, even though life can be tough and hard to accept at times.

ChocolateAutizzy gaming?!😮

Same!!! 31 & I’m trying to live

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make art. sing, draw, paint, play an instrument, sculpt. a hobby is life changing. journaling a little every day maybe? these are just suggestions. & working out if great keep that up. i need to get on the phone with you to talk at some point

We are all are alone…it’s an epidemic… love is online! Dating apps are getting more popular! It’s helped me tremendously with the experiences you’re describing! You can find platonic relationships on there too! I hate seeing you cry. Seems like you need someone real to talk too someone who’s also a black neurodivergent woman like myself I wish I could get your ears for a minute bro! Most people give shitty advice that has nothing to do with how reality & psychology ACTUALLY work for certain folks! When people have avoidant or old out of touch parents it fucks them up but the reality is you’re in control! My advice?? You should try something new and out of your comfort zones cause doin the same tactics and expecting different results won’t get you your wishes❤️

Babygirl. I am concerned. The typos in the title and cover photo are making me feel like this is a rushed video. When you're wanting this love & marriage, you'd like someone with time and patience. I'd imagine if you saw a video posted by a guy saying the same stuff, those specific things would be a red flag.

The only one who knows you better than you, and can change everything in your life is JESUS.... ASK HIM AND SEE...

You did not wait too long. You don’t sound cringe u just want what you want.

I see the love that you have for each other. I believe that there is still some shame and blame that you both may be dealing with. I didn’t take what your mom said by saying “it could’ve been a lot worse” as bad. That’s her way to express something that happened and maybe she’s not the best communicator. Beautiful family, you all are absolutely gorgeous ❤

She is hella beautiful and intelligent

Idk what you’ve tried you seem extremely intelligent. My suggestion (and I’m no dr, just a single 36yo women with adhd autism cptsd depression obsessed with psychology and the brain 😂) but I would suggest taking some time and really dig deep with the right professional into your sa abuse. It could be the reason you have suppressed all positive emotions? May be worth a try if u haven’t? & I think you are stunning NOT average! I would marry you if you were into women and I already have 3 kids lol;)

As a young woman who has just been diagnosed with ADHD, I also similarly mask my emotions a lot. I recently saw you on Soft white underbelly and seeing how you call yourself “below average” immediately reminded me of my own mentality when it comes to looks. You are very intelligent and also attractive. Being able to be transparent and clearly articulate what you want is also a major plus. I know you will find the right person (hopefully I do as well lol)! Thank you for bringing awareness to emotional deficiencies! I feel like it is a topic not often spoken about that more people face than we acknowledge.

I can relate to you. Thank you for posting

Have you tried snris? Ssris aren't that great for more severe conditions imo. Also, I totally understand you might enjoy having people around you that motivate you, it's like body doubling, but it's okay not to be in a relationship. In fact, there's a million people who would be safer if they weren't in one, and neurodivergents are more vulnerable, even within neurodivergent paired relationships. The craving to constantly have someone around even if they're not actually what you need is very understandable but figuring out what's causing that will bring you the actual peace you're seeking. Also compulsory heterosexuality and historical societal expectations adds confusion to these experiences. I understand a lot of what you're going through, and shouldn't suppress your experiences or feelings to make everyone else comfortable. I've been through SA and indoctrination by toxic masculinity as we all have, and realised a lot of that affected my sexuality and understanding of how I navigate interpersonal relationships. Your words sound so much like mine in the past and I've finally been getting more support and advocating for myself and people like us, so I hope you feel seen and know that you can make life what YOU want. I too hit a point where I said I wasn't going to continue living the way I was because I wasn't, I'd been surviving for 20 years. I clawed through because I figured well I'm still here despite that shit, and if I can try some meds why not. Instead of thinking it will never get better, what if it all works out? All good things must come to an end, so all bad things have to as well. I'm glad I stuck around, because now I live for me. No, the voices and pain doesn't dissappear magically, but I can regulate FOR ME. I don't know a life outside of the constant pain, but I won't blame myself for anyone else's behaviour towards me. I will live in spite of them. I hope this doesn't come off like projecting and rambling, I genuinely wish you well. You deserve it.

😅😅😅😅 It's like watching a child become self aware after the toddler stage. Like you're finding out that you exist in the same world as others.... the Normies. But back to the points you touched on.... I think it would be a good experience/experiment to do a double date with your associates. Also, libraries, Comic-Con type events, tech conferences, maybe online ads might be areas where you'd have the best luck finding the types of men you described.

Thanks for sharing, Cassy! Yeah relationships can be great, but they're still very hard and that's with 2 emotionally developed ppl. I think you're more than capable of a relationship, just letting you know it can be a struggle.

Your emotions are valid. Trust them. Most men are supposed to give you the ick. If you said all men, which you didn't, then I'd be concerned. I truly believe you're being too hard on yourself. Live life and reacquaint yourself with your emotions! Seen you on Soft White Underbelly btw. You were great! Such a brilliant mind! Big up yuhself! ❤✊🏾🙏🏾💪🏾

I feel you so much. I truly, truly, wish we could find others like us in real life. I feel so isolated from, basically, humanity as a whole. I feel like a fraud everytime i interact with others, i feel like a fraud in my own real thoughts. Trying to date people who do not have these same experiences is hard, trying to date in general is hard because everyone is so shallow and stupid. Anyway, I really hope one day we can find others in real life who have these experiences. But its hard since yk, we mask all the time to the point that we dont even know who we truly are. Thank you sm for these videos!! Makes me feel less alone! stay alive!!

I agree with everything you've said in your interview, and everything you've said in this video. It's so weird and comforting knowing someone feels and experiences what I feel on a mental, social, and emotional level. I wish you the best, it's very difficult to find someone who has the patience and understanding, and the will to work with and love someone with such a different view of reality and relationships. Almost wish they made a dating app lmao

Thanks for being so brave and vulnerable. You aren’t the only woman experiencing this in the world. This was so inspiring and just made me feel better about how I want to help others