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I got 90 hours in the first week, then stopped playing

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I'm crying, thank you for this

man i'm like a serial starter too lol this sucks! i want to start so many things! Even down to my career(s) ....*sigh* bachelor's in Animation, now working on IT Networking Certs...such a different turn of events lol

2:41 OH MY LORD apex HUNTER lmaoooo. thank you for this video bro, we're doing great. keep it up guys.

Protip: Cyberpunk is a long todo list, it’s easy to stop playing because it never feels like your work is meaningfully rewarded except that you get to move onto the next todo item. Cyberpunk 2077 is just a corporate job that goes no where.

The timing of my playthrough of Cyberpunk 2077 and my decision to make small changes in my life to create a larger change probably isnt a coincidence. I find myself saying whenever i get mad "Calm down, choom. Its all good."

Lost my father a little over a year ago. You hit the nail right on the head. Keep it up man

I love your videos. I can relate to them alot. This one was very helpful.

I subbed

Nice job man, thanks for sharing some truth❤

Man just found your channel and deam it put me back to reality was so lose in thought your channel really helping me see some aspects in live and remember my younger self really appreciate the content hope you keep it up

Im glad we all found each other here. The comments are sad and wholesome. Keep supporting each other! We gonna make it

Beautifully said.

I miss Jackie

I really needed this. I felt like I lost a part of myself last year. Like I was changing into something else...worse. All I did was realize what I needed to do to grow. For a long time I held onto the grief and guilt from my grandfather, and someone I saw as family, dying. All I could think of was how I could have done better for them. My grandfather was like a father figure to me and my brother. I did not feel deserving of forgiveness, but eventually I let go. I may have let go of those heavy feelings but that doesn't mean I did not care or do not have a connection with them anymore. Letting go of all the pain I've had in the past has let me focus more on the present and realize what I need to do to grow, the motivation, the desire to grow. I may not be apparently different outside but inside I am different now than I was a year ago. The future may not be ideal, it may not be what I envisioned in my childhood, in high school, college, adulthood, but I know that I can make a future I can be happy with myself for who I become.

Love the wisdom. Keep it up. Someone needs to hear what you have to say.

This video released on my birthday date ...

2024. Was very dark. 2023, and to that year, it’s been bad. Not only did quarantine affect me terribly, I’ve had manipulative, harmful relationships. If you pursue your dreams and hobbies, and workout, it’ll be worth the time :)

What is the name of the song again?

I envision a caterpillar changing into a butterfly. Do you think dissolving feels good for the caterpillar?

3:10 "All women become like their mothers. That is their tragedy. No man does and that is his" --Oscar Wilde

great video as usual, thank you for this reminder. my gut reaction to the title was that no, growth doesn’t feel like loss really, but that’s only because i’m sitting here in the fun part of a year-long growth arc in the beginning of this year it was definitely painful. i had the same experience as you, going to therapy and feeling like i was making little progress. making steps toward my goals but feeling like any meaningful change was so far away it wasn’t even worth doing then in the summer all this effort i had been putting in converged and started a snowball that has become huge now that it is the end of the year. i got what i was looking for and was already happy about that, but your video made me appreciate it even more because i haven’t reflected on what it took to get here in a while one of the biggest lessons i’ve learned this year is that growth isn’t linear. often we have to work at something without seeing much of anything for a time before any sort of breakthrough happens

very well said

I lost my mom last year. The only way i can be closer to her is being more like her. But i dont know how to be kind, i hate people, i have an abrasive personality and i despise small talk. My mom was a social butterfly and everyone loved her. No one likes me, ive been a horrible lying shitty human for so many years... Ive told the truth to those i lied and lost all of them, and i still feel so far from whatever it is im trying to do... I hate who i am, but i have to be better because she believed in me, and i have to prove to myself that i am the person she loved and supported. I have to be better.

At the end when you said "cool?", I felt my mind reflexively say "cool" right back. Thank you for this video 🧡

I'm glad I stumbled upon this video. I struggled with a lot this past year, but I've grown a lot and I hope that I can be a blessing for others and use what I've learned to continue growing this upcoming year.

Sometimes, you hear something at the exact moment you need to. Thank you. I've been working on killing version 2.0 of myself to make way for version 3.0, and I've been struggling with that discomfort lately. Kind of having an identity crisis. Who am I? But these are all problems of being in the lonely chapter. 2025 WILL. BE. MY. YEAR. I just need to hold on a bit longer as I shift into 3.0.

HOLY SHIT

Thank you.

Good video. Not sure if I agree with the outgrowing part. Personal growth shouldn't be reflected in other people. The other people in our lives are not there to help us and then be discarded. Sure, not every relationship will last forever and it's okay to part ways with your partner if they don't have the same life and relationship goals for the future, it's okay to stop being friends with someone if you think or realize they're not a good person. But conversations feeling empty and things like that can be solved with communication. Sometimes those things may even be a sign that you need to take care of your own mental health, you know? Sometimes it's the place and the situation we're in and... Sometimes it's our own heads. You can keep growing, always, all the time. And still, you can be with the people around you that you love and that loves you. And you can keep putting in work in that relation so it grows too. And help them grow too as people. People are not there just to be used by us as stepping stones.

Happy new year man!

I love you man, your channel has to be one of the best things I have found on youtube and I actually resonate so much with what you say in these videos that I start tearing up. Happy New Year to you and to your whole family, hope you are hanging in there as well, I wish this year will be more kinder to you than the last one.

To grow we must endure the pain. And as you said: Growth is hard but is also really beautiful! What a wonderful video to start 2025 brother, thanks a lot! Cheers from Brazil!

Took me 49 seconds. 49 to click on the notification after the vid was dropped, the remaining 9 minutes were spent watching it entirely. Thanks for this open and heartfelt message ! I hope you’re feeling better !

What a great video! really something to think about

Damn this shit hits hard… I never finish games like cyberpunk or fallout because I wanna do all the side quests and see everything there is and I’m afraid of losing out on that, and then other games get my attention and I get stuck in that loop, barely ever finishing any of them, only finishing games with little to no side quests. It’s like I get lost and I figure it happens to me in real life too as I’m always starting projects and new things but then I never finish them because I could do this or that that would make the final project better but then that ends up making it so long to make that something else just seems more fun to try, just for the same old to happen again… Also I’m very indecisive in what games to play, often being stuck between two games I wanna buy just to when I finally choose the one I wanna buy most I’ve almost completely lost interest in it, which reflects me having a couple of different friends and friend groups that don’t mix well where I have to choose which friends to spend time with which often leads to me either dividing my time with each leading to me eventually falling apart with those friends as i meet new ones or getting overwhelmed with needing to choose and just spending time alone with nobody…

I always mess up and then reload a save, but in real life you can’t just reload a previous save..

I feel like I'm some ways this is true and some ways it isn't. Not finishing games is good if you have irl goals. Games these days can take 100 hours to beat. At the end of the day it's just a game you should put those efforts towards real goals Just popping into a game like cyberpunk and seeing what all the hype is about, enjoying experiencing a new cultural touchstone, and then leaving it before it takes all your time is a good idea imo

I fell out of a lot of games I used to spend most of my time playing, and now it feels as if I have no idea what to play anymore. Even though I have a lot of unplayed games on Steams .. none seems attractive enough for me to play. I fear I am losing my interest once again, when I recently collected myself after some traumatic life experience. I do not know what this makes me as a person, but I'm sure I'm slowly losing myself again. Life sucks, but I do wish I can still play games happily. I wish I don't lose this eagerness. Thanks for this amazing video.

At some point I have realized my personal responsibility in how I approach a game affecting my enjoyment of it. Like you said, rushing through everything focused on end goals kills the spirit and it is this way with everything in life. There is a nuanced balance in retaining the usefulness of having goals and a sense of direction--things to look forward to... while also indulging in fully immersive presence along the way.

Hi doozy! Sounds like you might have ADHD, with your experiences of losing motivation and not finding yourself able to finish things. To anyone else, if this sounds familiar: try not to beat yourself up! "Trying harder" is not the simple answer. It's can be nearly impossible for people with ADHD to form new habits. BUT there are a lot of supports available (including medications) once you get to know yourself. My best wishes to you!

Hey thank you for bringing this quote to my attention. I find my self burning myself out on games I enjoy by trying to "complete it". Since I first saw this video I've been attempting to slow down and enjoy more things in my life and my games. Thank you for bringing it to my attention, as I have been able to enjoy many things a lot more

No it's not. I play some games on "easy" because I work 12 hour shifts days or nights. And just want to chill. I don't do life "easy".

Damn speaking of cyberpunk the game is amazing, but I only played like 3 hours and stopped bc I didn't know if I should do more main quests or side quests and explore... just like getting intimidated by my own ambitious projects and giving up on those.

what videogames have taught me, and even some TTRPGs is that i tend to lean towards trying to be analytical, to try and to until i find my style; if something fails i sit down and watch videos to improve, that way i can do better; tho this is only on team games, like R6S, CSGO, Valerant; i like team games and i try to improve in team games but stuff like MMO i avoid like the plague. (not sure what that means) im glad this subject was touched, i often ponder the legitimesy of studying peoples behaviors in videogames and their real life reflections.

it doesnt sound dumb or clickbait. its actually very insightful. ive heard this same idea but it referred to something else besides video games. i forgot what though. its why trophies exist, why checklists exist, why character creators and transmog exists. its the industry learning what most players actually do in their worlds. its why a famous game like elden ring can have such contrasting parts of the fanbase. some hyperfocused on pvp and fighting techniques or animation canceling versus the other part focusing on lore like its liturgical text. its a sight to see and im glad to be alive for it.

I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL. you perfectly explain what my life is like. Start a project, burn out, start a project, play a new game, put it down, so on.

This is 100% relatable bro. I am currently playing cyberpunk also, but from the on-set, I have told myself I will finish the game; this is real, bro, very relatable, and I am challenging myself also. How has the progress been?

I’ve been playing world of tanks for 7 years, but I also have a hard time staying interested in new games.