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LIKE, REALLY SERIOUS TW: When I was young, about 5 or 6 (bc I can't remember), I remember my half brother repeatedly asking me to play a game, and I decided to play it. We were really poor as a family, 8 kids (two boys, 6 girls, not including the parents) all squished in what you would call a shed with two haylofts, so in order to play his "game", he told everyone to go outside in play. He then proceeded to pin me down and do downright awful things to me. Things you would call r*pe, but as I child I never understood that. He'd continuously do that to me, occasionally giving me a few weeks to rest before doing it again, and it lasted till I was 8 when my mother kicked him out for getting in her stash of weed. During the time he'd do that to me, I found p*rn online as well as gore, and for some reason I found comfort in that. P*rn was to make me feel good about myself, and gore was to imagine my dad (who never cared about us kids, while mom was struggling with possible Bipolar and addictions) and my "brother" being the victims in those videos. I'm 16, and when I was 13 I got out of my gore addition, 14 my p*rn addiction. I've never felt more disgusted in what I called "home" what I've went though, and what I did. I was a violent child, but never had a voice to call for help despite having a mouth. Still dealing with hypersexuality and having a girlfriend of four months now, I'm terrified that if I tell her I'm struggling with it she'll leave me out of disgust. I've never told anyone about my hypersexuality, not one soul, and yet I wish to tell her bc I feel like I'm hiding something important that she needs to know, yet feel so disgusted with myself and that I don't deserve her. I feel disgusted at my own reflection in the mirror, not only from body dysphoria as a trans masc, but just because one boy couldn't keep his pants off and his hands off a child. I don't know how to tell her, or how to explain what it is, but she's all I've got. She's, in reality, the only person I go to nowdays, about everything. So if I loose her, I loose everything. I'm so lost and don't know what to do.

wish It's Only Sex by CSH was in here-

Groan by Dazey and the scouts could be on this playlist too, but it's already incredible thanks :D

I'm so tired of all of this. Life is so confusing. I don't know what I'm faking and what is real, am I really that complicated or did I just convinced myself I am? At one point I'm asexual and then my body feels ways I don't want to feel, that I'm really tired of feeling.

started when i was in second grade. and here is a digital hug bc i cant do real ones cus my hands and mind wander!!!

at first i thought this was about object shows but.. i was wrong :[

TW: I was SA and exposed to p0rn and I had literally 0 restrictions to the internet but I thought that feeling these things were just bc of hormone imbalance but it happened before I started my period to so being hypersexual makes a lot more sense. I always feel this disgusting sense of shame towards sexual thoughts and actions but I thought that was bc of me being SA'd (It probably played a part in it) but reading these comment made be realize im even more fucked up than i though :P

I didn't even know this was a real thing and it just happens to me, but I guess not.

I really don't know if this is the right place to put this, but I really feel like I might have DID. Nobody is responding so I just want to put this somewhere where I know it's safe. I've been constantly having problems with friends. I'm a therapist friend, so they always vent to me. I've told them that I don't like people venting to me because it overwhelms me. They don't care. They vent anyways. This has caused me to bottle up my feelings and try to help them. Trying to help them led to me finding out what they like, what they dislike, and what they are like. I took these things and I morphed myself to be what my friends liked. I'm sitting here and I'm starting to realize that it's fucked up. I don't even know who I am anymore. I don't know what I really like or what I really dislike. I don't even really know who I am. My favorite color isn't even blue, but I've told everyone that it is for the past 3 years. I'm overwhelmed and I've created personalities for my friends that don't fit me. I use these personalities so much that I don't know who I am. I just wanted to get this out. If you read it all, thank you for listening. <3

So im sorry if this isnt acc s/a but i feel in danger, my teacher is kinda giving me werid vibes.., hes been making comments on me, on my body. And hes been touching me (my head mostly ) in a werid way. He made a sex joke and told me his preference in women which he said its me.. im 15 hes like 30/40 Maybe im overreacting idk

Love being in school and having to leave the room bc ive imagined a girl eting me out!

silly gacha life videos

being hypersexual is strange. The thought of doing it with others irks me, yet I crave it. It used to disgust me, thinking I was horrible and flawed, now I know it isnt me, and i accepted that its my brain's way of coping. Hearing these songs calms me, knowing that im not the only one who struggles.

I've not really been touched or assaulted, but I've gotten some weird comments about my body..and I've always sexualized myself i don't know why but it feels like my body just isn't mine, and it's for a man....i don't know why I'm just a young teen.....

I have…. Bad mental health, self diagnosed hypsexuality (I am not trying to cover up me touching myself at a young age, I just can’t/ couldn’t control it.), trauma, daddy issues, horrible luck, I knew too much at my young age, social anxiety (Self diagnosed), a cousin who talks about dating me and sexualizing me because I’m a *GIRL* (he’s underage, very.), and I have bad friends, I was also groomed online. So this playlist is pretty nice for me.

This life feels like an anomaly,,, like life itself...

I didnt usually sexualize myself but because i was touched i felt insecure to let others touch me sometimes i craved touch and used ph(but now no :3) and aplications like sex bots and things. I feel sometimes weird because im asexual yet i crave touch and i dont know truly what to do.

Idk if it is even derealization or any of these but if I get stressed or sometimes just randomly Ill feel like I’m watching myself through a tv, like I’m a ghost watching my body, it gets to the point where my motor functions don’t work as well and some of my senses won’t even work as good, like I truly can’t feel anything when it touches me, the only way that I can bring myself back is pain. Are there any other things I could try to bring myself back to normal besides pain?

The fucked up part about hypersexuality is that you cant tell anyone because they'll think you're a creep.

I dont know but I can relate to many people in the comments and all I wanted was to listen to the playlist... Story: so like when I was 5 i saw live sexual things because i was in the same room as my grandparents (note: they didn't know I was awake because it was midnight) I was super confused but then I knew by the internet... More specifically Google. I now dont really sexualize myself but the addiction and all that is just HORRIBLE! It's been years and I want to stop but it's like an adiction you cant get rid of

It’s hard to explain what it feels like for me, but it’s almost like my vision… like gains fov and tunnels out at the corners I completely lose feeling in my arms and my legs and body and I lose the ability to really control myself. I feel like a robot on autopilot.

I remember watching this video over the summer thinking, I’ve never been sexually assaulted, why do I feel this way? Then the memories kept flooding back as I started to realize, I was sexually assaulted. That’s why I could feel it in my mouth. My shoulders. I will never be the same. F*ck you Jazz. You said you changed but I don’t care. I can’t forgive you. You ruined my life. And now, when people just touch my shoulders or anything like that, I’m scared. If someone wants to kiss me, I’m scared. I think about ykw a lot, and when I’m hyper sexual I love it, but then when I’m not it disgusts me. I’m scared of anything intimate. I just wish I never met her. This would’ve never happened. (Does it count if you were both 10, girls, they begged you to say yes, and they only made out with you for a long time before doing anything else?? It happened twice.)

2 reasons why i clicked this 1- i objectify myself 2- BASIL!! BASIL!!! BASIL OMORI!!! BASIL FROM THE HIT GAME OMORI!!! BASIL REFERENCE!!! OMORI REFERENCE!! BAAAAAAASSIIIIIIIILLLLLL!!!

OMORI MENTIONED

Is that fucking Basil from Omori...

IM LIQUID SMOOTH,COME TOUCH ME TOO >;D

man tbh i just want some to use me idk why even hurting me works man i feel stupid

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wet is *the* hypersexual song ever

never knew what it was, until i did, and i felt so understanding and accepting of it, but at the same time, recognizing my disgrace, knowing i'll always be......

//// vent , nsfw , self harm I’m unsure if I’m actually hypersexual but I fantasize about being absused assaulted and used bc I feel like it’s the only thing I’m good for. and I can barely focus in class because of my thoughts. I ‘get off’ a lot bc it’s better than cutting ig and it’s one of the only ways I feel anything. I can’t even tell my therapist bc she’d have to tell my mom and how would I explain that hypersexuality to her without her looking at me differently? I hate this.

Honestly, my trauma made me the exact opposite. Even showing a little bit of skin or making contact with anyone- accidental or not- makes me ill to the point I sometimes get physically ill. Just the thought of being intimate with someone else genuinely nauseates me and my aversion to being touched at all has made me lose quite a few friends. Even when someone really needs comfort like a hug, I just can't without that overwhelming feeling of disgust.

When you hate sex sm but you sexualize yourself sm to the point where you’re throwing up in the bathroom at your own body and can barely even look at your own body without getting disgusted 🖤

i am asexual, have never had any sexual tendencies or issues, but somehow still don’t feel like i deserve human thoughts, life, oxygen, respect, affection, and love. why should i? i’m just a deadbeat, middle class, fool who doesn’t show emotions and can’t feel normal human empathy! i’ve wrote enough about me, it’s getting boring.

OMG I FJNALLY FOUND A PLAYLIST WITH YURLE

tw! i'm hypersexual, i'm not sure what is the reason. it's either bcs i was SAed when i was in grade 4 or i was exposed to porn at a very young age. i feel dirty and disgusting right after releasing the tension in my body, the guilt is corroding my insides and i feel less human

I was not physically assaulted, but i was incredibly groomed by a man online. I was ten, ten and being forced to read incredibly nsfw comics and called sexual nicknames, seeing this person message me fantasizing about me all the time and saying im the only thing preventing them from killing themself. They ruined a child.

been two years still fire n realest playlist

me when a random person begged me to have e-s3x on Royale high and I gave in because I felt bad if I said no again

Huh...never thought I'd see the day where people were talking about this freely. I consider myself somewhat of a hypersexual. And I HAVE been sexually abused as a kid (inappropriate touching, never went any further thankfully), but this...'fascination' (not EXACTLY sex itself, I didn't know what it was at the time) has been around for a while. Started even before I had access to the internet. I still feel sort of alienated, because on one hand saying I wasn't assaulted and I don't know why I'm this way feels wrong, like I'm erasing a part of my negative experiences. On the other, I can't really say I was assaulted like the others, because it feels to insignificant in face of rape or taking erotic pictures or being drugged ....I apologise if this sounds crude, but I don't know how else to describe it. I guess I'll just have to accept that I'm weird and disgusting. It hasn't been a source of great distress for me, unlike the others who I see here. I've always been somewhat ashamed of myself for this, but it has never interfered with anything. Ever since I ACTUALLY understood what masturbation was I do it every so often (if I'm not busy), maybe once every few months if I'm really busy. It does get kind of harrowing when I think about what others would think of me, and I can't help that, or intrusive sexual thoughts of people I'm definitely not attracted to and definitely don't want on me...well whatever. I can live with myself. If you've made it this far, I hope you have a good day and find a way to deal with your troubles! Everything passes and everything gets better, you'll learn to manage the needful in due course of time.

(Just a quick tw for body dysmorphia, and possibly gr**ming, proceed with caution) Now, before I talk about what I’m about to say, no, I’ve never been SAed or abused in any way, and I’m extremely fortunate to be able to say that. However, there’s something I still feel extremely conflicted about to this day. Growing up, I’ve dealt with shame and bullying for as long as I can remember. To put it quite bluntly, I am an Ugly girl. It didn’t help either that I’m a Latina, but I was bullied predominantly for the fact that my appearance didn’t meet Latina beauty standards (or correction, what Americans expect Latinas to look like). Instead of silky smooth black hair, I have frizzy wavy brown hair. instead of glowing sun-kissed tan skin, I’m mostly pretty pale and covered in stretch marks and birth marks. Instead of being small and petite with a perfect hourglass shape, I’m taller than average and on top of that, chubby. Instead of having a perfect button nose and plump glossy lips, I have thin lips and a wide nose, along with the most boring brown eyes in existence. Aside from my experience from my appearance, I was also an undiagnosed autistic kid, so my behavior was seen as very unconventional and strange to the other kids. Sometimes even the other ‘weird kids’ showed no interest, so I was even an outcasts among outcasts. When it came to adults, however, they always said that I was ‘mature for my age.’ That I was ‘Wise beyond my years. You’re probably, why am I bringing this up? Well, because, I began to believe that my ‘maturity’ was why I didn’t connect with other kids, and I began to believe that ‘Boys my age are too immature to like chubby girls’, so..then, as a result, in middle school I would actively go on social media, or even straight up fat fetish sites and post pictures of myself, and…I would end talking to men twice my age. It didn’t matter to me how old they were, what vile and overly sexual things they would say to me, how they would always graphic detail about wanting to meet me, and what they would to do to me if they did. To me, it didn’t even matter. In the end, I was so beyond desperate for any ounce of validation or attention that I would allow myself to do this despite being ‘mature enough’ to understand what I was doing. And I noticed as of recently, I’m starting to fall back into that pattern. I’m currently 17, but here I am, still flaunting myself around to older men online just for even just a littlest bit of attention, just for someone…anyone to tell me that I’m beautiful, that I’m appreciated, that I’m desired, to not be seen as a joke or a burden…even if it means turning myself into an object to be used and fawned over..

i hate that i'm hypersexual. what happened to me when i was only 9 (13 now) is called different things by many. grooming, simply exposure, sexual assault, i'm not sure. but what i am sure is that i've seen all, ALL aspects of things that have to do with sex. from bdsm to zoophilia, to abdl to even pedophilia. i hate it. why did i have to mature so early? why was i masturbating so early? and now i watch people joke about my trauma and it makes feel nothing but self loathing and disgust and guilt.

Idk I've never felt as if I watched myelf from a distance but I do feel like my body is not my own. Like I'm in another persons body and this is not me. I also sometimes feel like my thoughts are fuzzy. Like I'm a blank space in a room of nothingness.

It hurts cuz I'm 11 and I relate to this...

Didnt tell anyone until 11 years old, they thought I recovered but I didn’t, only my 2 sisters knew and i hope they forgot .

I see myself but I don't feel like it's me I don't recognize who I see in my reflection and I keep hearing a faint voice that I think is me?? I'm not sure I feel like a different person sometimes but I don't know who I'm looking at

It’s so hard not to sexualize myself in from of my friends or in public I’ve never been sa’d or touched but I feel so disgusting that I crave that kind of attention I don’t wanna be like this. I’m scared and am still a minor and don’t know what to do

I dont know if im hypersexual. I'm scared of myself for some of the things i do. One of my coping mechanisms is literally making my characters have s/@ in their backstory and i hate it but it calms me down somehow. I draw nsfw and use ai bots and all that stuff and am just generally sexual. I am a minor. A fucking minor. I cant be doing it but it just makes me feel better. Ive never sexualized MYSELF fortunately, only ever making horrible things that i feel bad about. I don't wanna be like this anymore. I just want to be a normal kid in high school. I want to stop my bad habits but i cant when i try. I want help. Can somebody help me On a compoetely unrelated note can somebody please tell me the song name of that one song by jack off jill in the older version of this playlist?? Im begging bro istg i will sell my left kidney and first born child

I need advice… one of my best friends is trying to convince me to date him but he’s 2 years younger than me…(for context I’m 13) what do I do? He has been doing this for almost a month now and I can’t break his heart but I don’t want to hurt myself and my mental state anymore…