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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 16 ก.ค. 2024
- since i haven't seen any hypersexuality playlists that don't romanticize it i made one
tw: sexual themes
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this playlist touches on a very complicated and misunderstood complex: hypersexuality
usually caused by trauma, sexual/physical/emotional abuse, mental illnesses, distress, or early exposure to sexual content in your childhood, hypersexuality is (usually) a means to give yourself power or help you gain control through sex/doing sexual things/objectifying yourself which can cause sex addictions, an unhealthy or confusing relationship with sex, trouble in relationships, and interference with your daily life.
(disclaimer: i'm not a professional i probably messed something up so don't trust my definition, however i am someone who experiences all of this so)
this playlist is sort of my (unhealthy) coping playlist for my hypersexuality so i hope you enjoy!! if there's any ads i'm sorry it was not my decision
art credits: i've looked everywhere for this artist but can't find their name!! if someone knows PLEASE tell me i read every comment
character: stranger from omori (video game)
tags: hypersexual playlist basil
timestamps!!!
wet by dazey and the scouts - 0:00
sour switchblade by elita - 2:54
bathroom bitch by HOLYCHILD - 5:21
stay soft by mitski - 8:12
earned it by the weeknd - 11:27
liquid smooth by mitski - 15:33
closer by nine inch nails - 18:29
freak by doja cat - 24:45
so wet by elita - 29:22
take a slice by glass animals - 31:57
perverted by elita - 35:48
uhh by framed - 38:58
sorry for the quality idk what happened the video quality was perfectly fine before i put it into youtube maybe youtube compressed it? idk but at least the sound's good!!! enjoy!!!
on spotify now at open.spotify.com/playlist/0GzQzvrvJLvXEwzidmi0Od?si=QZi2x8O2Rd2hGAeyifqlRQ :)
You know its good when it starts with wet
Could you pin this?
@@Unknwn_Identity_M_A didn’t know it wasn’t pinned!!! thank u sm
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Mommy issues? Codependency and impulsivity.
Daddy issues? Insecurity and increased sexuality?
Both? Congrats, we now have a playlist for you.
That sums it up pretty well!
Omg literally a summary of me
yay...
Not something to make jokes about or stereotype (coming from a hypersexual kid with a majorly abusive family)
Not how that works at all.
When I was 8 I started seeing adult content on accident without my mom knowing. And then it became an addiction. I learned about sex and kinks and all that stuff when I was 9-10. And now I’m hypersexual. I’ve never touched myself, I just cross my legs. Anything can make me aroused, even my own clothes. And I feel so fucking disgusting. I hate the sick feeling of guilt after doing it. I always feel like I live in a game or a tv show. Where everyone can see what I’m doing. They’re literally watching my life. I always feel watched ever since I was 5. It’s a horrible feeling. I feel disgusted at my own reflection. It’s ruining my life.
I'm a recovering sex addict. Theres hope, hun.
I can relate :((.. I've been trying so hard to stop, but I keep on doing it everyday and I feel so ashamed and disgusting. I hate the feeling after I do it.
I know how it feels, dear. It's a huge pain some of us have to deal with. . .
@@_the.hunny.bun.system_ I'm here for you guys. I've been thru things as well & am in recovery from sex addiction
Real... I thought I was the only one...
I’m both disgusted by the idea of sex and anything sexual, yet I’m also somewhat hypersexual at the same time and it’s so confusing. I was unfortunately exposed to lots of adult content when I was 7.
I know this comment is old but I wanted to say: I'm lithsexual, which is an asexual term. I like the idea of sex, but seeing, hearing, or acting on anything sexual makes me feel sick to my stomach
This is exactly me too! I'm so glad I'm not alone. I hope you're doing okay 🤍
I know it’s a big time difference, but I know what you mean.And the fact is you think about it too, then hate yourself and promise to never again but you relapse. You make me feel not alone.
This is normal and due to the way western society sees and views sex. If we had more honest conversations with our children you probably wouldn’t feel this way at all.
The comment section is giving me a sense of belonging because I always felt weird about my hypersexuality. I started long before my period even began and I had it way before people around me. I was never touched or abused and I never had a reason for it so I always felt guilty. It's a bittersweet feeling that I am not alone.
Don't feel guilty, there's no reason to feel guilty. You were just unlucky to develop it, just like these people were unlucky to have developed it due to trauma. You are valid, you do not need to have a trauma to develop any disorder. Some people develop it due to masturbating, some watched porn way too early so they developed it, some people have been sexualized from a young age, some people have been abused so they develop it, some were just unlucky to live on a sexist society which manly representation of a gender is always sexualized so they were exposed to it since they were kids, some saw rolemodels being sexualized or having sex, some were just unlucky to have hormonal problems and are just like that because they are. Regardless of the reason why are you like this, the only thing that matters is that you need to recover to live a better life and take care of your mental health. (Which is just as important as your physical health) Anyway, take care and hope you get better. ♡
Thank you for this. I didn't think about how much I needed to hear that 🥹
This is so true, there's some things people never talk about and im glad you did
@@Molunu this is so comforting to read dude thank you so much. i needed to see this.
it's like:
Oh, there's a name to this, damm I felt this for how long?
I need to stop sexualizing myself to fill the void, but the voice in the back of my head won’t let me stop. I hate everything about it but the validation feels amazing :(
YES. I honestly felt like no one would understand. sometimes it feels like it's my fault. Like I shouldn't talk to them but they feel like the only person who can validate me and make me feel truly loved. do you relate, or am I just crazy haha
EXACTLY, Im 17 now. But when i was way younger i got groomed and i kept like, going back to him, and now i like found a funny guy, and the type of relationship i have with him is similar to that guys, omg I'm just now realizing, im hypersexual for guys. Girls are literally the only ones i wanna be romantic with. Wtf is wrong with me
@@lynxrunningdude same.. ;-;
real..
I’ve never been touched or assaulted but I sexualize myself to the point I cry when I have to take a shower and I can’t face my parents. what do I do? I feel so disgusting. I’m only a child.
I feel you, I've never been touched or assaulted but because of the internet I thought sexualizing myself was normal or good. I was really young. I'm so sorry that you had to go through that. _hug_
I feel it can be a coping mechanism for some people even if they have a good life. But this coping mechanism may lead to someone actually touching you and if it does happen you either get more sexual or not at all any more. You can try talking to a help line or someone trusted. You deserve so much more. I wish you well luv
I took it to far don't please God don't Take it to far
A little bit of knowledge, adhd and autism can cause hyper sexuality, you might wanna get tested (if you haven’t already)
This makes sense since I also show signs of ADHD and I have felt and experienced what the main commentor have said.
This video and comment section might have made me realise that I, in fact, *are* hypersexual and not just "in a silly teenager phase".
I just love reading other people’s stories it makes me feel like I’m not alone and even tho I feel bad for everyone who goes through this I’m glad I’m not the only one.
TW !!
ever since i was a kid i've always over-sexualized myself because as an afab person, that's how i thought people would love me. short skirts, tight shirts, all that. i'm trying to break out of the habit but god, it's really hard, i know i'm worth more than just my body but that's not what the world taught me.
I'm hypersexual due to being exposed to sexual things at a young age(sex bots, lesbian sex, gay sex, etc...) So it rlly messed with my brain so I usually read smut and listen to inappropriate songs, as well as drawing NSFW jst too help me calm down. I also had a nightmare abt being r#ped by 100 men when I was 7 bc of a literal song called "100 men" So- also rlly fucked me up. I'm asexual and hypersexual... Is that weird? I hope it isn't!
not at all, hypersexuality is a way of coping and it definitely doesn’t define you. ily 🌹
I’ve never met somebody else who is ace but also hyper sexual this validates me so much
AWW THIS MADE MY DAY 😭😭😭💓💓 DW IT'S COMPLETELY NORMAL!!
Omg im asexual and im hypersexual too. Never knew anyone else was like this, its comforting in an odd way to know im not suffering alone. Hopefully someday we can all get better.
TRIPLETS TRIPLETS TRIPLETS :D!!!!!! But yeah I hope so, too
The thing that hurts the most about hypersexuality, at least for me is the fact you know that it’s not good for you, but the validation and the pleasure makes all of tears and shame worth it. That part of your body and touching it or making suggestive comments about sex can relive so many people, but the disgust afterwords is horrible. It’s been this way for so long that I don’t even feel shame for it anymore. Only when it hurts people, but not as much as I used to feel.
It’s a comfort for many people, and it is for me.
I wasn’t even in the world for 3 months before my father looked at me and saw nothing but a sex toy, and then it all started. As i got older, things got worse, the abuse became emotional and physical, but he shaped me into something i hate. Myself. i was silent for an entire year with him, I let him touch and hurt me. Pleasure me. Anything he wanted to do, i didn’t even know how to spell my name right. It’s been over a decade since I’ve last seen him, but I’m turning 18 in two years, he’ll be able to legally come see me. I’m not ready for that, but I’m gonna find him. I need answers.
It’s stressful trying to relieve myself so many times a day, or getting turned on by EVERYTHING, thinking griss thoughts about people. Whoring myself around and being a sex relief for people, even letting my friends take their stress out on me. I hate that I was made into a masochist and now it’s the only way I can deal with my problems. My problem fucking me when we weren’t even 8 didn’t help any better either. I just feel numb.
I don’t know if there’s anything inside of me to feel at all, as if everything is just a delusion.
I'm so sorry you had to go through all of that I hope you can get well soon it's hard to deal with this:(
My sibling had me listen to part of this, and it's weird bc I objectify myself
It's like self harm and self care at the same time. It's odd.
I know right
That's the best way to simply describe it
i understande how that feels
Fr tho…
I feel so gross. Sometimes I laugh and it's funny on other times I feel gross and terrible. I can't stop. I think of people in gross ways. My friends. There lovers. Myself. Adults. It won't fucken stop. I want to be normal. I want to stop thinking about myself and others in disgusting and vulgar ways. I feel like a creep when the thoughts start rushing in and it makes me uncomfortable. I joke around about sex a lot and I've developed a habit of constantly apologizing to people and saying "sorry if I'm making you uncomfortable" to people. I hate it.
I’m hyper sexual and I don’t know why (I’ve never been sexually assaulted or abused), thank you for this playlist.
It’s probably my neurodivergence tbh.
no youre not lol
maybe you discovered rule 34 at a young age like i did?
@@FurbyFlash ye
@@just.ur.average.artist.6701 hm, i feel like that could warrant it
i personally discovered it when i was 7
vent!!!!
when I was about 9 I used to look at ykw on the internet and that formed an addiction later on that is still ongoing. I am turning 16 in august.
I thought it would make me more mature and i only wore certain dresses and i always said in my mind "it makes me look sexy".
In 2021 one of my ex-friends kept telling me about a genre of prn and i kept watching it and felt so disgusting afterwards.
now i have awful delusions of myself getting s/a'd by everyone around me and it makes me sick. I force myself to wear tighter clothing to show off my chest because its the only part of me i like.
ive sexualized myself to older men online and i feel so guilty after, ive stopped now but it makes me feel really bad. Sexual jokes make me feel gross whenever i like them.
being in school doesn't help either with the fake flirting and grabbing.
My next door neighbor ansd his friend sit in front of me in my health class and they said "i want to r/pe a girl one day" this scared me so much, i didnt leave the house alone for months. this fed into my delusions and intrusive thoughts.
ill never forgive them and im planning on telling someone soon
I also imagine people around me sa'ing me or people around me being sa'd and you know the ironic part of all this? Im an anti-proshipper
@@RubenDuenas1 proshipping has nothing to do with that. /nm /lh
@@maonyanooo yeah idkwhy my comment said that tbh
I’ve been harassed sexually and as a trans man I’m never sure what to think. I hate my feminine parts but everyone else loves them. What am I without the cherries? I don’t like them and I feel masculine but people always like when I show them off. This playlist makes sense. Thank you
Omg this. I feel the exact same way. Everyone else seems to love my large chest when I show it off, but...I don't. I hate my chest. It's gotten to the point where I've cut it out of blind anger. I'm so sorry someone besides me has to go through this... *hug* 😞
exactly.
Same I hate it how they only ever want us when we're not us or when we're the perfect "girls" for them
I feel exactly like this.. like I hate them but also without them wouldn’t I just be seen we nothing? 😭
this. I feel this so hard. my chest and feminine parts of my body make me so dysphoric but they make everyone else so happy? I feel like I’m defined solely by those aspects of me sometimes, and as a trans man it just gets confusing
I was exposed to sexual content at the ripe old age of 9, during the early 2010s, all because youtube was that much more lax about its content back then. I saw way too much stuff that i wasnt supposed to. Because of it, i am so overly sexual that i cant find joy in things unless theres something inherently sexual about it. This has ruined my relationship between pieces of media i enjoy and even my real life friendships. A lot of stuff has happened lately because of it, and i dont know what to do. Im barely an adult now, and its making things so much worse. I dont even know how to ask for help with something like this
im so sorry, i relate to this a lot and it seems like it’s causing you a lotta pain, please know you’re not a bad person for this, it seems like more of a trauma response than anything, and maybe could be worked on in therapy? pls stay safe ily /p
@@amongthedevils thank you man, really means a lot. i wish i could try and seek therapy, ive been wanting to for years now, but unfortunately my mom is the one who dictates that still, since I don't have anything to my name still, including an ID. ive tried to ask her if i could get a therapist on multiple occasions, but it still hasnt happened. i hope i can get a therapist in due time.
i wish you luck, just make sure that you find one you're comfortable with talking too. Im year three into therapy for anxiety and am very uncomfortable around my therapist. Comfort is of upmost importance!
I feel crazy right now. I clicked on this playlist for just something to listen to while I do my homework but read a couple of the people sharing their stories and now I see how much I relate to them all. I always thought these things were normal and now I’m kinda stuck in my own mind but it might just be me overthinking again.
SAME IM LITRO JUST TRYNA FINISH MY ART PORTFOLIO?!?!
At 8 one of my classmates told me abt sex.
Me and other 3 girls(2 of them were my bullies) created this "club" where we would talk abt s3x and other s3xu4l things...After some time we stopped.
I started watching p0rns at 9.
I had a rough childhood, my parents were violent and manipulative(they are still manipulative), so one day i told my mother abt the things my classmate told me.
I was in tears, i felt bad bcs i hide this thing to my mother.
She always hated to see and talk abt s3xu4l things, even now that i am 17.
I started to hate s3x and feel disgusted.
When i was 11 i did things that i don't even wnat to talk abt bcs i feel disgusted oft myself, I hope the people involved don’t remember anything
I stopped watching and in general thinking/talking abt s3x again.
I started touching myself at 13, it's almost 4 years now and i've never came(i'm a v1rgin), i still find difficult yo understand my body in this things.
I'm comfortable talking abt this things with other people.
I've never saw anything wrong in me getting to knoe this type of things at such a young age, i bleamed my mother for not beeing open-minded, but after having read some comments i undestard that it was wrong.
It's the first time that i write abt all of that and i talk abt how i feel, i've never did it even with myself
P.S.: Sorry for my english
Wth, this is almost the same thing I went through but I didn't tell my parents and I didn't heard it from my classmates, it was just unrestricted acess to the internet...
I was groomed for 12 years, which caused me to become hypersexual. This playlist is honestly so amazing and accurate.
I've never been sexually abused at all... Why do i hypersexualize my self?
Im confused.
Im glad others feel the Same way, it's nice to not feel alone in this.
I have been exposed to it, i am in mental distress for different reasons... Weird.
As a persona who has been repeatedly s/a and touched by people from a young age I’ve been so used to just over sexualizing myself and I’ve just recently noticed that that’s not normal, I relate to this a lot ty for the awesome playlist, it’s hits close to home ( edit ) I was typing this right as liquid smooth started playing aaa
OF COURSE!!!!!! ty for listening!!!!!!
@@sunny-xf6cu aakakakakak ur too nice! I hope you have a good day/night!
@@Cloudy01187 u tooooo!!!
I have the same experience and this playlist is so comforting and on the spot
It only started when I was like 11 or 12 but same. Even a couple years of it will completely change how someone sees themself and others
I started touching myself at a very young age (5/6 I think) and I discovered about sex a bit later, I was obsessed ig, I had a “club” where I manipulated my friends into joining and used them to feel satisfied sexually by games that had a bit to physical contact I also let myself be touched by 2 male friends since I was like 7….even tho I still objectify myself and sexualise myself I feel disgusted for what I did…I don’t even know why I did it….does someone know what could have caused this? Have a good day to everyone reading!!..💕💕
Maybe hypersexuality, since you said you were obsessed with it.
if you experienced sexual abuse or harassment as a child that might explain it
Even if not, young children like playing with everything. You might have witnessed something. There's no telling. Your parents should've intervened before bringing in your friends in
You should definitely apologise to your friends you manipulated. My sister did the same thing to me and it was not fun :/
@@RubenDuenas1 I already did, thanks and I’m really sorry that happened…I hope your sister apologized as well..
The internet, SA, and getting into sexual role-play with my ex best friend ruined me. Touching myself, posting pretty selfies on my stories (nothing inappropriate), dressing semi revealing clothing (compressed socks, shorts, etc) is my coping mechanism to it all. I believe the only time I can ever feel happy and loved is when I reduce my self worth as a sex object. Most aspects of my life were focused on being sexual. It hurts because deep inside, I wanna be a normal person that wants a soft and gentle partner. Now living a normal life with a sweet partner isn’t enough for me.
After being touched in certain parts by a relative when I was taking a shower at the age of 7, being forced and manipulated into having sex by a relative multiple times, getting watched taking a shower by my uncle, and groomed on discord(I didn’t tell anybody..) I just realized what I was and objectified myself and thinking my female genital parts are ‘slutty’ and said to myself that ‘I look like a whore’ even though I didn’t wanna be feminine or objective and I had gender dysphoria it’s kinda sad
it's comforting in a way to know that even though i haven't been sexually abused, my hypersexuality and persistent shame due to early exposure + interest are valid.
Bro, I hate myself for letting pedos sexualize me:(( but I really like this playlist
I genuinely hate myself cause there have been so many times I could've prevented myself from getting groomed but my stupid brain kept convincing me I liked the attention :(( I wish I was seen as a normal person instead of a sl*t
They manipulated you. It's NOT your fault.
Trust me dude, I'm here for you
You were lied to, theyre all to blame
Its spelt paedos tho
Oh my sewing god. Reading those vent comments of people made me feel so bad for them.. On god, I wish i knew how to comfort you guys, but I can't, I feel so sorry for you, you don't deserve any that, i'm really really sorry, please don't think and let people sexualize you in a discomfortable point, you're WAY WAY more than that.
I hope everyone here gets better, I'm sorry, i just can wish for that as i don't know how to help or even comfort you.
Editing this comment because the things that happened to me were really personal and now I have actual people I can go to, and I don’t feel the need to vent in public places like this anymore. Thank you to the people in the replies, they helped me realize how serious those things actually were. I’m moving away from my mom as soon as I can. Thank you for the support :)
I’m so sorry for you, and I feel so frustrated at myself that I can’t help you or tell you what to do.....I’m so sorry...
I'm so sorry to tell you, but this is genuinely sexual abuse. Please, if you can, tell a trusted teacher or other trusted adult. This isn't okay and I'm so, so sorry this has happened to you. This isn't your fault by any means. I hope in time you're able to heal from this and that you get the justice you deserve. Wishing you the best.
@@Void-ey4jg I talked to her about most of the stuff here and she said she’s sorry and won’t do it anymore. I know that doesn’t fix what she did but it’s better than before, and I’m figuring out how to handle it better. Thank you for being concerned.
@MiniMia48 I'm glad that she said she'll stop. Still, like I said, if you're able, PLEASE tell a teacher or other trusted adult about what's happened. 🫂
I'm sorry that happened to you. Like the other replies said, you really should tell a trusted adult. She knows full well what she's doing and how it's harming you. At her age there's no excuse for her behavior. I hope your situation improves soon ❤️
I don't feel safe sharing my experience with hypersexuality here but it's kinda comforting to know I'm not alone in this, even thought it's such an uncomfortable experience. It breaks my heart to know there are so many young persons in here going through similar things I went through. I hope things improve for you all.
I objectify myself. I've been groomed and sa'd. It seems if I sexualize myself people stay longer. Anything to keep another person. I relate to this playlist
I know it's not my place to say this, but please don't sexualize yourself for other people to stay longer. They should stay for you being you and not objectified you. Anyways, throughout life, you're gonna get people that you don't have to think this way around, so disconnect from toxic people. As long as your doing it for other people, your words are gonna become more true (sorry if that seemed rude, but if you keep doing this, it's going to be even harder to come out of the hole and you'd just be digging yourself in deeper) or their going to start thinking this way about you. Plus, they actually might just like you for you and kind of ignore that aspect? It really depends on the people you hang out with... however please know that this isn't normal and you need to do something about it. I'm really really sorry that you had to go through grooming and being sa'd but you need someone trusted to talk to or seek help. I'm by no means trying to blame you and I know it's easier said than done. I just hope you know I'm proud of you for reading this whole thing.
I'm sorry for giving out unsolicited advice as a stranger on the internet. But you've probably heard this whole thing before so I apologize if this seems overbearing. Um... hope this helped? Again I'm proud of you and I hope you start loving yourself! You're gonna be in a better environment in the future if you do something now! Bye - bye!
💜💙💚💛🧡❤🤎🖤🤍 💝💖💗💓💞💕💟❣(all the heart emojis I could find, but not a single full pink heart! >:( )
this is so good, literally the only playlist that fits hypersexuality that i've found, thank you, i needed this
OFC!!!!! hypersexuality is so glamorized it’s so hard to find playlists for it so i’m so happy you enjoy!!!!!!
I never really had a father figure in my life, he would get into domestic violence with my mother, disappear and come back and repeat, and I was just torn about it. I then grew a daddy and mommy issues, I think its what people call it, but that wasn’t the only thing though. I was touched sexually as a kid multiple times too, and I both like and hate hypersexualizing myself, it’s almost like a copying mechanism to escape reality or just whatever.
I'm sorry.. I hope ur ok, remember that ur worth it and ur totally valid and I understand you, you can always vent to me :)
I was around five or six years old when I began becoming interested in sex. It started with websites I found online from lack of parental supervision, including my cousin that encouraged my behavior through touches. Luckily nobody took advantage of me to a serious extent. Now that I’m older I realize why I’m so hyper sexual. :))
TW! I js feel like if my partner doesn't sexualize me excessively I'm not loved because the only way my father showed me affection, it was in a sexual manner. That's how I send n*des to these guys who only love me for my curves. I had a partner who literally treated me like a goddess but she didn't sexualize me so I left thinking she didn't love me and I still feel guilty. I hate myself for not letting myself be loved. I get a new boy every week that js wants my body and shows their friends. I literally hate myself and I have no idea what to do now.
Maybe talk to the girl and explain why you did what you did, which might involve explaining tr@um@.
@@skylarthompson299 I explained everything, she completely understood but never told her what the trauma was, we're dating again :)
@@ElenaisCool999 Yeeee!…
Have you told her now oof
(I helped, also never objectify yourself Pls)
Now are you better? It has been a time. Is your relationship going well?
I’ve never experienced sexual trauma really, though I’ve always had more “odd” thoughts, as a kid I did nsfw roleplays aswell as purposely looking for gacha heat videos. At the age of 11, I found out about stuff like “corn” and m4sterbat!on. Though last year at the age of 12 I was severely depressed and also had a problem with sh. I knew I needed to find a better way to cope instead of sh, so I turned to m4sterbat!on to cope. Though eventually it became an addiction and got out of hand to the point where now at the age of 13 everyday I constantly feel sensual urges that just won’t go away to the point where I can’t focus. I’ve turned myself into a disgusting freak, A SLVT.
I am really sorry for you.
I hope you can be helped.
Wow our stories are very alike, I hope you can recover!
I know it’s very hard to deal with, so I am praying you can get over it ❤
I recently found out about hypersexuality, turns out thats why I'm how I am.
I was exposed to sex at the age of 5 and now its an addiction due to me being a 29 year old mans sex toy for 4+ years.
@@Yourinternetangel dude that sucks so much i hope you're doing better and i hope that man is getting what he deserves
this playlist is amazing , people always romanticize hyper sexuality, hyper sexuality is not fun or quirky, it often gets played off as such tho, i objectify myself for validation, and it is NOT fun. its led me to multiple terrible things in my life, i was exposed to such nsfw things as a child and i suppose that is the reason for it, but its nice to know i'm not alone in this.
I was forcibly kissed twice by an older girl i knew/was fake cousins with when I was about kindergarten age or younger and she tried to make me touch her sleeping brother's penis before our moms ended coming home and the overwhelming feelings of fear and dread I felt in that moment led to me being afraid of physical affection with people I don't even let my family kiss or hug me normally I once brokedown crying after being hugged by someone I wasn't fully comfortable with I was diagnosed with depression and anxiety I possibly have autism and I also have Passive Suicide Ideation (Basically suicidal thoughts without intent/plan to go through with it mostly because I am a coward who's afraid of pain) I often oversexual myself and fantasize about being forced to do sexual things against my will even though I know it's wrong and I often find myself crying when I do this I don't know what to do I feel so lost when I get like this and I start to hate myself and think I will never be good enough and nobody will ever love me I always feel so alone in this world and use these stories as an escape from it I stay up all night and sleep all day I don't eat properly I either skip meals or eat a lot till I feel sick when I sleep I end up going back to sleep as soon as I wake up because sleeping is my onlry real escape from the world without killing myself I know I vent to strangers online because I don't think my family would understand me or my mind my mom would probably threaten to lock me up in a mental hospital or they would tell me to stay away from them 😅.
I didnt know PSI was a word butrhat def describes me
And no ur not a coward mwa
We are very similar
@@RubenDuenas1 Thank you 💙
I'm sorry for what you've gne through, and I find it interesting that I'm not the only one who feels that way, so... you're not alone. You'll surely find someone that truly loves you, someone whom you'll be truly comfortable and safe with.
@@deboralobato7833 Your words are very comforting and I truly hope I do find someone like that 💙
I'm currently 19 and I still deal with my hypersexuality. I've learned about things that no child should at a young age and have done things. I have parents who didn't take care of me enough. My Mother was always away elsewhere (and of which had access to objects and reading materials which was carelessly left open) and my Dad was always working. The only other adult who lived there, my Aunt, just mainly sat in her room all day instead of watching over me. I had no restricted access on the internet either. I feel so disgusted with myself and so helpless. I get my rocks off near daily and I end up feeling so drained, empty, and numb. It even lead me to discover and reach out to seek taboo content to get the dopamine going. Especially weird fetishes. I am always so lost in my fantasies and just have it on the mind constantly, even when I don't want it to be. I am so well at hiding it, apparently. They all think I'm so innocent. It hurts really. It pains me how just anything can get me to feel something. It's gross, sickening even. I just can't bare to imagine what my friends would think if they knew.
I did also have some trauma that had also lead to this such as having an online relationship when I was 13-14, that lasted until I was 17. I've made stupid choices that I still regret to this very day, even if I know I'm not at fault for most of it.
I don't wanna be hypersexual it's so annoying I can't stop I need a way to stop 💀
Having been groomed multiple times before and having a past groomer {and harasser?}(i just realized he was grooming me) who visits my house (relative), i sexualize myself to the point that sometimes other people and even i can't recognize me as a child sometimes,, this is exactly how it feels
This is sad. I'm sorry.
Wow, Finally a fucking playlist that i dont feel like my frustration is being Glorified. Thank you
Reading these comments are both extremely comforting (knowing theres so many other people who have had very similar experiences) and absolutely heartbreaking (so many other people having gone through these awful things), such a weird feeling
I only got sexually assaulted like three times by men which actually should play a model role in my life and I often got looked at by random men, it's a struggle which every woman has to go through. I repress my hypersexuality because I saw how lots of women, even girls, get used for their bodies in the town where I'm living.
I have always been disgusted with myself about my hyper sexuality. I'm only a kid and I think sexually about everyone, during class, someone looks at me weird, my own clothes pushing against me in a way. It always grosses me out. I barely touch myself, and when I do, I feel like I shouldn't, and that I'm wrong for even thinking about it.
I was sexually harassed and assaulted when I was younger, didn't think too much about it, but I became almost obsessed with the idea of sex. I finally found someone to talk with about my feelings, and they don't think I'm a bad person for it, I'm so glad I have someone, everyone should have that.
issue: i dont want to be. but i am. and i blame the ✨internet✨
It took me years to realize this has been what I've been feeling since I was a small child.
i literally only feel good about my body if i wear tight clothes but i still hate my body so i cover it by wearing long sleeves to cover my arms and chest but when i wear comfy clothes, i feel so unattractive
yall a guy i liked just told me its my fault for being gr@@med
:P (plus i went back to this guy because i thought hes the only person who can love me because he could pleasure me and validate me buttttt 😝)
im a hypersexual, and overly sexualize myself everytime i get into a relationship. i hate it so much but istg its the only way theyll stay
I hate myself because I’m 14 and already hypersexualising myself and I just want to stop but I cant
thank you for this,
as someone who is hypersexual after being repeatedly sa'd as a kid
I'm glad I finally found a vent playlist I relate to.
Now are your better? Sexual assault is one of the worst experiences in the world
@@galh29 I am doing a bit better now, it's been hard but therapy has going well :)
@@galh29 sa is a way to kill a person without really killing them :/
The fact I relate to this playlist because I have recently started to sexualize myself for some reason and I kinda hate it but yeah
when i was 10/11 i discovered sexual things and kinks and stuff and became addicted to wattpad ,otome games(if u dont know what that is its like dating sims and the ones i played where 18/19+ or just 16) i shouldn't have at that age,i stayed up all night reading wattpad and the occasional boyfriend nsfw audio at age 12,anything can make me think about it anything that has the slightest relation to kink,my own clothes, i stopped wearing childish clothes cause i didnt like them (i objectified myself to the point where i w anted to look like a adult),the first time i ever touced was when i was 11 and i felt disgusted and haven't done it since. im 14 now and still feel like im being watched,i feel disgusting and vile and unworthy of love..nobody understands and i hate it it theres no awareness cause when i say the internet raised me people usually think of creepy pasta and stuff..my life is ruined and its my fault
Wanting so badly to be touched because its the only confirmation in my mind they love me but crying when it feels like thats the only reason they love me
As girl that has been sexually Abused as a kid when i was only 5 i can confirm this is my playlist
I’m so sick of my body and I’m so sick of being perceived. I hate the way people view me and I hate the way I view myself. I constantly feel like I deserve to be treated like an object like I deserve to be dehumanized. I can’t stop fantasizing about finding someone to hurt me and mistreat me. And two days ago as of writing this I was taken advantage of in a way that was deeply personal and it’s fucking with my head. I did things for this person im ashamed of. My friends convinced me to block them because I mentioned that this happened. Even after my friends have told me numerous times I’m a victim and it’s not my fault I still feel like it is. I feel like I deserve to be used the way they used me. And I don’t know what to do about that
this. makes me feel so seen omg
I am both hypersexual and sex-repulsed, and have been SA'd in my past. This is so real.
TW VENT: being hypersexual really is the worst the intrusive thoughts the addictions i hate it sm. it even effects my dreams i really do wish i wasnt exposed to such awful content, i just wish i could avoid being groomed so often. im only a kid why do i have to go through this? its so painful.
i been exposed to pxxn at the age of 7 and grown a addict of it. its so unhealthy and I even convinced a friend at 9 to touch themselves in front of me while they where 7 and we were both girls, Im disgusted with myself and i want to apologize to her now (I'm 13 right now). I've grown away from pxxn but now I read it like yaoi, yuri and stuff of that nature and if i dont read i get disgusting thoughts about people, and by people i mean anybody, to the point where I'm so aroused it hurts. i feel so disgusted with myself because i accidently showed something to my little sister and now I'm doing all i can to stop her from becoming like me. and anytime someone older wants to "talk'' i just let them because i lost my self-respect a long time ago and it makes me feel something for a little while, its makes me feel wanted. i just hate myself so much, i slit my wrist and yet i still breath, like god is playing a sick joke on me.
The fact I did almost the SAME exact thing to my BFF (who I've known since 1st grade) in my bedroom in your first sentence. I too also feel fucking disgusted due to this. I only did this because I was a minor (age 14-15) and yet me her were very close like sisters, I thought what I said was ok, but I don't think it was to her at least. I also guiltily I was being sexual toward my friend (this was when I was like 12-13? Keep in mind that I touched her chest) during a 4th of july event at an area where we watched fireworks. I'm guilty because I didn't fucking know better. I'm disgusted, I feel guilty, but hey I've grown to be shameful of my hypersexuality and it fucking SUCKS.
Me and my bff are no longer friends unfortunately, due to her mother not liking me for dating older men (when I was GROOMED at the fucking age of 14/15.) which convinced her I was just a troublemaker person who shouldn't be talking to her adoptive FUCKING DAUGHTER.
to be fair, it isnt our fault we're groomed and grown to get attracted to older men, and its not like we asked to have unrestricted access to the internet. and its not like we asked to be this way either@@SpectacleSpark
I'm hypersexual due to being released to the internet at a young age and learning to pleasure myself in only 1st grade (I was 7). I also learned what sex was at an early age. It really messed with my mind, and now I feel absolutely disgusted with myself. I feel like a monster. If I could do one thing and go back in the past, I would honestly give 7 year old me a hug if anything. I haven't discussed this with anyone, I am scared. I feel as if I will be shunned and unpure for knowing so much at a young age (I just started middle school). My mom also does this thing where she touches my thighs, she's done it for a while and when I said I was uncomfortable with it she threw a fit and called me rude and played everything off as I joke. My other family does something similar but they don't just touch my thigh, they put their hand under my shirt.
I was harassed sexually when I was 9. I hypersexualize myself and I feel disgusting every time. This playlist lets me know that other people are going through the same things I am. Sometimes I avoid my parents because I’m so disgusting. Thank you for making this
I used to be so pure and I didn't understand what was being done to me. It was just playing pretend back then. Now I have nightmares, guilt, disgust, and shattering body dysmorphia. I can't stand my body and mind. No matter how hard I try to find solutions, they're only ever temporary, but so is this, right?
I'm sorry to see so many people struggle with this, but at least none of us are alone. You're all beautiful and shouldn't feel ashamed of what you can't control. I'm so proud of you for making it this far, and you can make it so much farther.
Love you all, and you have my best wishes.
Lyrics for each song in the replies
also thank you for this playlist. helps me feel a little less alone. I hope you're doing okay
Song 1 - 0:00 - wet by dazey and the scouts
All alone in my bedroom
With the lights turned down and my roommate gone
I know it's over, still I cling on
'Cause I'm my own right-hand girl
And I don't need anyone
But sometimes I miss your stupid face, and your taste
And your smoking gun
It's so depressing how the tear ducts in my eyes
Are so much wetter than the space between my thighs
Oh, oh, oh, I can't help if thinking about it only makes me cry
It keeps me wet, you know you keep me wet
'Til I run dry
It's nights like this that remind me of my deepest fantasy
Where I'm all alone and I feel the cold, dark earth caressing me
'Cause I'm six feet under nearly, and I don't have anyone, but
This wouldn't be the first or last time that
Both my tears and I have come
It's so depressing how the tear ducts in my eyes
Are so much wetter than the space between my thighs
Oh, oh, oh, I can't help if thinking about it only makes me cry
It keeps me wet, you keep me wet
'Til I run dry
My blood runs cold, my thoughts are plasmic
From not letting go
And letting go could be orgasmic
But I guess I wouldn't know
It's so depressing how the tear ducts in my eyes
Are so much wetter than the space between my thighs
Oh, oh, oh, I can't help if thinking about you only makes me cry
It keeps me wet, you know you keep me wet
'Til I run dry
Song 5 - 11:27 - earned it by the weeknd
You make it look like it's magic
'Cause I see nobody, nobody but you, you, you
I'm never confused
Hey, hey
I'm so used to being used
So I love when you call unexpected
'Cause I hate when the moment's expected
So I'ma care for you, you, you
I'ma care for you, you, you, you, yeah
'Cause girl you're perfect
You're always worth it
And you deserve it
The way you work it
'Cause girl you earned it
Girl you earned it, yeah
You know our love would be tragic (Oh, yeah)
So you don't pay it, don't pay it no mind
We live with no lies
Hey, hey
You're my favorite kind of night
So I love when you call unexpected
'Cause I hate when the moment's expected
So I'ma care for you, you, you
I'ma care for you, you, you, you, yeah
'Cause girl you're perfect (Girl, you're perfect)
You're always worth it (You're always worth it)
And you deserve it (And you deserve it)
The way you work it (The way you work it)
'Cause girl you earned it
Girl you earned it, yeah
On that lonely night (Lonely night)
You said it wouldn't be love
But we felt the rush
It made us believe it there was only us (Only us)
Convinced we were broken inside, yeah, inside, yeah
'Cause girl you're perfect (Girl, you're perfect)
You're always worth it (You're always worth it)
And you deserve it (And you deserve it)
The way you work it (The way you work it)
'Cause girl you earned it, yeah
Girl you earned it, yeah (Earned it, no, no, ooh)
'Cause girl you're perfect
You're always worth it
And you deserve it
Song 6 - 15:33 - liquid smooth by mitski
I'm beautiful, I know cause it's the season
But what am I to do with all this beauty?
Biology, I am an organism, I'm chemical
That's all, that is all
I'm liquid smooth, come touch me, too
And feel my skin is plump and full of life
I'm in my prime
I'm liquid smooth, come touch me, too
I'm at my highest peak, I'm ripe
About to fall, capture me
Or at least take my picture
Kuzurete yuku maeni
I'm pulsing, my blood is red and unafraid of living
Beginning to end
I'm liquid smooth, come touch me, too
And feel my skin is plump and full of life
I'm in my prime
I'm liquid smooth, come touch me, too
I'm at my highest peak, I'm ripe
About to fall
How I feel this river rushing through my veins
With nowhere else to go, it circles 'round
I'm liquid smooth, come touch me, too
And feel my skin is plump and full of life
I'm in my prime
I'm liquid smooth, come touch me, too
I'm at my highest peak, I'm ripe
About to fall, capture me
Song 9 - 29:22 - so wet by elita
Minds blank
Can't think of anything to say to you
My heart sank
When you told me that you want me too
Then he said
I think that we could have some fun
(Have some fun)
I fantasize about you all night long
I think that we could have some fun
(Have some fun)
I wanna stay with you all day long
So wet
I can't seem to get you off my mind
Cold sweat
I want to tell you but wait, nevermind
Then he said
I think that we could have some fun
(Have some fun)
I fantasize about you all night long
I think that we could have some fun
(Have some fun)
I wanna stay with you all day long
So Wet
Song 11 - 35:48 - perverted by elita
Do you really wanna know what I like?
Cross your fingers 'cause you might be my type
I'll play nice when I tie you to the chair
Show you a trick where I can make you disappear
Put on a scary mask and sneak in late
Watch me sleep and wake me up, getting late
I want you to stab me with your knife
Is it too much to ask for you to end my life?
You watch the light go in my eyes
It feels the same as when you're inside
I am perverted, sick and sadistic
Covered in your blood, it's ritualistic
It's okay if you think that I'm sick
I know you like it, but you won't admit it
You'll play nice when you tie me to the chair?
Tell me that I'm not going anywhere
I want you to stab me with your knife
Is it too much to ask for you to end my life?
You watch the light go in my eyes
It feels the same as when you're inside
It feels the same as when you're inside
tw for; grooming + sexual abuse
rambling will b in replies
I've been groomed n sexually abused by everyone who groomed me since i was like 13 (I'm 20 now), this playlist makes me feel not alone as someone who oversexualized themself to people bc thats what i thought was what i had to do to be liked by people. i dated alot of older ppl (i think all of them in their early to mid twenties) while all of this happened to me online, it still traumatized me n fucked me up because several adults got sexual photos of me and one of them even spread the photos to someone i had known at the time when i was 15 and they were 13 (the person who got my photos sent to them by my groomer) but anyways, im doing my best to cope with the trauma I've gone thru over the years with the help of my partner since I'm unable to get therapy due to some things.
to whoever reads this, you're not alone in anything you've faced, your trauma and what happened doesnt define you as a person n doesn't take away your value n worth as a person, be safe and try to take things little at a time when recovering, never push yourself over your limits :]
I hope to anyone seeing this that you can heal and recover from this
im just 12 and the amount of older guys that used me for my body is sad:/
Same-
When you finally realize that your grandma wanting to shower and take baths with you and just generally be in the bathroom while your naked or getting ready isnt normal.
She also just says weird stuff about my body, like that I 'have a nice frame' or 'baby birthing hips' or that whoever I marry will be so lucky...its just weird..
Same oml
Since everyone is telling their story i will aswell.
So when i was 9 years old one of my classmates was talking about giving birth and i was terrified by that. I went to the library that day and found a book that explains sex. It wasnt really graphic or anything but the idea of having sex with someone terrified me. I tried getting it out of my mind but i just couldnt. Few years later when i was in 6th grade covid happened and everyone was on lockdown. Just like every other person i spent more time on the internet and always saw 18+ content and while one part of me was like ' Hey you know you hate that , why would you even click on it to see it? ' But the other part was curious. So i started to learns more about sex , kinks and other stuff. I know way too much about sex and its actually terrifiying. I just dont understand my mind and cant stop hating myself when i read NSFW webtoons or fanfictions , listen to nasty music and enjoy it. I just cant understand my mind , thought of having sex scares me but than i enjoy NSFW content I DONT UNDERSTAND... I try to wear bras bigger than my actual size so my breasts look bigger or wear short crops to reveal some parts of my breasts because people tend to spend more time with me when i do that. Some people might call me sl#t or an attention h0e and i cant argue with that i constantly want attention from people i dont care how i get the attention but also wouldnt want to have sex with anyone am i just stupid or weird i dont know. So overall i dont like and am scared of sex but also always thinking about sex and having fantasies every single minute.... So yeah have a good day if ur reading this , know i love you and ill be here 💕
i was assaulted twice when i was sixteen. i felt horrible for not being “traumatized” immediately after, and the years preceding it. i felt like there was something wrong with me. i felt like maybe it wasn’t that big of a deal and that i ruined his life over nothing. but in the past two years or so, it’s catching up to me. it’s starting to hit me hard. i can feel it starting to effect my work life and my marriage. i don’t know where to start in my healing journey but i think this playlist might be a first step, no matter how small. thank you so much ❤
I don't struggle with this as much anymore and am better now kinda but as a small child I struggled with this so much. It was so hard to struggle with this alone and felt so disgusting for it. I had been sa'd and it resulted in being overly sexual. I'm so glad I got better and listening to this playlist also helps me feel not alone and validating to my inner child. Now I just comfort other people who struggle with this. Tysm
Same. When I was 11 there were times in which I could barely sleep at night because I had so many thoughts about people having sex and I would look at porn a lot.
I’ve never been touched or assaulted or anything like that, but I grew up on the internet and I was exposed to a lot of horrible things, it made me think sexualizing myself and putting myself out there, now I’m hypersexual, but the thing is I hate physical touch from others that I know like family, whether it’s a handshake or a pat on the back, I despise it, it’s even like that with some of my friends, but at the same time I feel so touch starved to the point I have to sleep hugging a pillow, I can’t even look at myself in the mirror anymore because I feel so disgusted with what I’ve become, and I don’t want to talk to someone I know about this because with the people I’m around they would probably think I’m fucking psycho.
I started watching explicit content when i was young 11 or 10 ,without my mom knowing,it became an addiction and i watched it everyday,i knew about kinks and all when i was 12,and till this day im 16 and i still find it hard to stop watching them,i never touched myself cause im scared but i cross my legs and do that literally everynight bc it helps me relax,im getting very disgusted by myself anything turns me on,even my clothes rubbing on my n!pples,im really struggling and cant stop,hope anyone who knows what i can to stop plz say.
i wont go to into detail about this but ive been hypersexual since like 8 or 9 years old. i was exposed to the orange and black website and i loved it. i would constantly seek male attention aswell (probably due to my daddy issues lmao) years later i was manipulated by more than 5 guys, always showing them my cherries despite hating them (im trans masc), i kinda stopped after that, theres huge gaps of memories from 9 to 11, but when i was 12 i started dating an adult, i was groomed by him, he r worded me in my sleep, and peer pressured me alot. i didnt get out of the relationship till 14, now im hypersexual, and possibly have c-ptsd, with- giving into the hypersexual "urges" being my coping mechanism. i love this playlist, but i still feel so alone. so many people that i know say their hypersexual, but nobody relates to me and i never relate to them, i just wanna be normal again. im only 15, i should be worrying about getting good grades, not dealing with my trauma in the worst way possible :/
your loved, and itll be okay stranger, thanks for reading!
I'm so sorry that all happened, I hope everything is okay now.
The number of young people on here reporting being exposed to sexual content in childhood is really concerning.
earned it hits different... he used that towards me and now its my anthem..
I’m in middle school and I sexualize myself to the point where I am assaulted on the regular. I hate when it happens but that’s all anyone wants from me. If it’s means they will stay, they can have all of me. I hate it. I hate it all.
Discovered porn at the sad age of 5 it made me, this 🙁 I'm do sorry to everyone who also experienced this
I'm here silently sobbing about all I've done to myself for years up to now and how I've wrongly responded to another who's dealing with this disorder. And over the countless others really struggling. I think I doing better and I hope others do too eventually. I'm so sorry.
My existence only exists just to be pretty. Just to be gawked at and stared at like a zoo animal. I’m so depraved. Nobody will ever understand what I think about. These thoughts won’t go away.
For the people here,it gets better. I swear it gets better with the time. As a person who suffered s/a during like 4 years,it gets better. Therapy,talks with friends,bundaries. Yall just have to endure it. My best advice its to go to therapy. If you cant pay therapy (what its totally understandble) find something that calms you,and do not,or at least set the bundarie of "Not sexualising myself to adults." Please. It feels right in the moment but its not. It leaves open wounds. Its not worthy.
MAJOR TW: EATING DISORDERS(specifically restrictive ones)
(id like to preface this by saying im a trans guy lol i never wanted to look like the girls i compared myself too, it was more about fitting a beauty standard)
So, a year ago this month id say was when my eating disorder started. i hadnt really thought much about my body(I was on the chubbier side as a kid and preteen) until i got bullied in middle school, constantly being called fat by my friends(i wasnt even close to obese either) so i just became kind of insecure? but nothing came of it. and then a lot more things happened as i got older, and i started to get more and more traumatized. i developed borderline personality disorder, and ended up in a codependant relationship online. when that person broke up with me and cheated on me, my mental state plunged, like hard. and i started taking comfort in online vent videos, like youtube videos and tiktoks, ect. and i stumbled upon a lot of people talking about having anorexia, body dysmorphia, and not thinking they were pretty enough ect. and i....i thought to myself "god theyre so pretty, i want to look like them."
keep in mind, this was not about super bone thin, malnourished anorexics(the stereotypes). they were seemingly healthy looking(lots of anorexics dont look anorexic) beautiful people. so i started starving myself to be as pretty as these "normal" people and here i am a year from now.....not super skinny, not fat by any means...i definitely am attractive. but because i place my entire self worth on my appearance, i objectify myself a lot, to the moon and back lol.
I'm in my later teens and very touch repulsed, asexual too, but if someone wanted to have sex with me id probably let them because i wouldnt really believe someone would want to have sex with me if that makes sense? i dont want to have sex, not really, but if people find me desirable in that way id practically throw myself at them just for that crumb of validation. i was exposed to sexual content at a younger age but i was so numb i just? it didnt register with me that much? but it probably has some influence on why i feel like this now. other than being harassed a few times by older men(not seriously just catcalling and the like) and a few scares where i thought someone might be stalking me, i've never been sexually abused or harassed, but sometimes in a sick way i wish someone would abuse me sexually so id feel validated in feeling so hypersexual. sex has to do with everything i do somehow. i cant even read regular books or fanfiction anymore because i get bored if someones not fucking lmao its so wild
I type vents on youtube all the time but usually delete instead of commenting, but im feeling brave this time lol. Thank you so much for this playlist I dont think any other playlists sums me up as well as some of the songs here :)
As a child i didn't really know how to get love from anyone and really needed attention so when i saw how men acted around pretty women i tried to act and dress like the tv characters that were admired the most. Later i hated how much of a attention hoe i was and tried to distance myself. I had a very bad depression for a few years and thought when i use my body like pretty women on tv someone would like me and help me out. Later i found it so disgusting that i couldn't even look at mgself anymore and also had some religious trauma i think bc everytime i thought what i was thinking was so wrong (which it kinda was but for the reason i thought).
I became really scared to do anything sexual but always thought abt it.
I am reading these comments and i feel happy im not the only one who feels like sexual stuff is intruding in their lives but sad at the same time its sad people go through all this me personally i was touched by my brother at a young age and it is messing with my life to this day because i am addicted to adult content and it really sucks and i hope anyone reading this has a good day ❤
I don't remember been raped or something like that, but I remember the multiple times older men would tried to persuade me to come with them to any random place as a 6 year old kid, it could be strangers, dance teachers, or even members of my own family.
Last one is special since is the only one I remember really really well. A 31 year old cousin who used to take care of me when I was a baby (1-3 years old) and met again on a graduating party at 11-12. We had a good talk leting me explain all of my ocs/stories, but my parents returned to home without me thinking I was safe, he got drunk, I thought it could be cool trying to drink also (I didn't got drunk so, meh), he took me to his car, and ended up talking to me sexually or even using his hand to squish my thights or private parts while driving. (Maybe thats why I also don't like when my mom tries to shave those parts, it has me uncomfortable)
Even though I have supporting parents they didn't ( and still don't know) any of this things bc I felt that it would increase my problems, so I used to feel somehow alone. Thats when I started to use the internet (having my first phone with Wattpad on it) and met people on an Undertale group.
This people used to make roleplays (it could be normal/interesting stuff) but sometimes they used to go for sexual things and included me since I hid my real age and didn't understood those sexual roles. But the moment I did gotta admit I got addicted to that. I started to understand jokes, kinks and special touches, words, sounds. It encouraged me to start watching nsfw and touch myself having fantasies of those old men/situations that happened to me as a kid, guess it made me feel cool. But the moment the pleasure ended I would start to feel "dirty" again.
The same happend with couples/people I like, now that I'm making an analysis I see a kind of pattern, used to like older people (even my actual couple has 6 years of age diference), playing with my voice and acts as if I was still a child, clothes, kinks, jokes. Etc. It hurts when some people ask me for sexy photos or videocalls, but at the same time it feels amazing having a kind of "aceptance". I'm not saying my actual couple is only a horny man, bc even thought we shouldn't be even legal he and I have similar thoughts/values and he always ask me if there's something making me uncomfortable so he can change or stop doing those things and I'm sure he'd stop if I tell him this, but... it's weird, y'know?
Right now I don't feel in danger, not with my couple, not with anyone, just that feeling of not knowing what you should do or what makes you comfortable anymore ... Am I the only one?
I've witnessed adult content at a young age too and that made me grow up being hypersexual and for no absolute reason I become aroused no matter what and after that I always felt disappointed in myself bc I thought that my own ancestors can see me and be disappointed
I learned about sex when I was like 7 and me the girl who lives next door used to pretend we were doing it, I started touching myself at 9 and I had sex with a girl at summer camp that summer. I’ve been sexually harassed and assaulted throughout my life, and that plus the knowledge and exposure of it from a young age caused me to constantly hypersexualize myself, just try to convince myself that if people see my body as my only good quality at least people see something in me. I started giving adult men pictures of my body on Snapchat just so I could feel some kind of self worth
I've always sort of hyper sexualized myself, i was s/a when i was young which i guess sort of brought my attention to it. I'm hyper sexual now and it make me feel guilty and disgusting. It makes it even worse that i came from a household that made sex seem like the ultimate wrong, i grew up covering my eyes when people would kiss on screen and I was made to do this for so long that i still do it now as a grown up. I was never given the talk, i had to figure it out myself by osmosis of those around me. I over sexualize myself but the shame and guilt that hits me right after makes me want to throw up most of the time.
first, thank you for this playlist
Been groomed multiple times from ages 10 to 13 and have always felt dirty and filthy no matter what, yet I also wanna that to happen to me again cuz I feel empty and it makes me feel so weird... This playlist makes me feel safe
Maybe, trying to solve it with an understanding partner or having substitutes such as hobbies and friendships could solve it? I would recommend hobbies that take lots of time and concentration such as that art that is made by people making points or crochet, this may help you find something that fills the empty, maybe trying to do any spiritual work like meditation may also help. If possible, go to therapy with a professional or participate with a supporting group of people who have similar trauma as yours. Anyway, take care of your mental health.
I've been sexualizing myself since I was like 12 because someone manipulated me into saying yes multiple times. I think its a way for my brain to try and reclaim power by saying I like being sexualized until I'm completely used to it. I didn't realize it was a problem until like three months ago and this playlist helps me realize I'm not alone. Thank you
I...have never known...that I was hypersexual until today... reading the comments I feel so so bad for these people but...I relate so badly to half of the comments...
I've been so sexualized since I was a kid, as early as 5 if I remembered correctly. Due to those instances, I've been hypersexual, and this playlist, at least I think, captures that really well, I feel seen through this, if that makes sence :)
TW: sexual assault and sexual topics
i was sexually assaulted when i was 8 at my first ever sleepover by my first ever friend. i never saw him after that but i could never shake the feeling of his tongue in the back of my throat. little asexual autistic me went to the internet for answers as i got unrestricted internet access at 3 and found out everything from my sexuality to all my kinks. i became hypersexual at 10 to the point where my own clothes could make me aroused, though for whatever reason i could never feel pleasure from touching myself to this day. i am now 14 and i cant help but feel ashamed every time it happens. i feel disgusting, like some type of animal that cant control itself. i have no clue how to stop it and im not about to talk to my physically and emotionally abusive parents about it anytime soon. not to mention im a trans guy, which just made the hatred i feel towards my body worse. i fucking hate myself, i can never stay wholesome no matter how much i try. my thoughts always jump to the worst and amount of times ive had to literally get out of class to touch myself is embarrassingly high. not to mention sometimes when im aroused my body heats up to the point where my mom has thought i had a fever and let me stay home multiple times. i feel miserable.
Albeit having never been touched or assaulted, I sexualise myself beyond belief. I am only a young teenager.
I hate it. I hate the fact that I listen, watch and am told so many sexual things. Being told to send them even in previous years.
I feel so dirty all the time even when I shower and scrub myself down as hard as I possibly can.
It’s not fun. It’s not fun to constantly have these sexual thoughts in my head, and there be people around me who are all like ‘omg look this song is so me cause yk yk’ (insert overly sexual song) and more examples on that as well.
I can’t face my parents, I can’t face my friends, I can’t face anybody who I know anymore because of the intrusively overly sexual thoughts I’ve had about them.
Don't blame yourself for it, intrusive thoughts are intrusive thoughts. This is not your fault.
i feel like filth and i cope with it by putting myself in situations that make me feel even more like filth and perhaps this is bad but i'm not going to stop because it makes me feel useful for something !
5 years ago i got SA'd by my ex partner almost everyday at school, ive told people about it before and cause it was only "oh theyre just being clingy" (they constantly pulled me onto their lap and touched under my skirt and got told stop every time) i was always told it wasnt a valid reason for claiming ive been assaulted and lost alot of who i used to see as my friends. I hardly warn people about them anymore. Im hypersexual and i cry everytime im aroused, im in my last year of school and im known as the lying SA victim, i cant wait to graduate
the comments are making me feel like finally someone gets it