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Update With Last Psychosis-related Hospitalisation Story | DreammyRainbow
I am back. With an update on past 9 months, ups and downs with ED plus a story on my recent hospital stay. feel free to leave comment below. Thanks for all your patience.
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Extreme Low Potassium | Post-Hospitalisation | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 1.9K7 ปีที่แล้ว
Sorry it's been so long since my last update. I was in a really bad shape and went into hospital. Thanks for staying to support me Facebook Page: dreammyrainbow?ref=bookmarks Nelly's Craft Page: nellys.craft/ Snapchat: Nelheranalis Folo me on IG @trapped_eternally Subscribe for more updates th-cam.com/users/subsrciption_center?add_user=dreammyrainbow
Extremely High Anxiety Before Trip | To Go or Not | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 4837 ปีที่แล้ว
I have so high anxiety that I didn't know what to do. I was freaking out before the trip and on the first day. sorry i don't have much trip footage. Facebook Page: dreammyrainbow?ref=bookmarks Nelly's Craft Page: nellys.craft/ Snapchat: Nelheranalis Folo me on IG @trapped_eternally Subscribe for more updates th-cam.com/users/subsrciption_center?add_user=dreammyrainbow
I Am Still Alive, Feeling Like A Failure | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 6337 ปีที่แล้ว
Facebook Page: dreammyrainbow?ref=bookmarks Nelly's Craft Page: nellys.craft/ Snapchat: Nelheranalis Folo me on IG @trapped_eternally Subscribe for more updates th-cam.com/users/subsrciption_center?add_user=dreammyrainbow
Suicide Trigger | My Plan Probably is Right | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 6988 ปีที่แล้ว
I am sorry. I am just suicidal with a plan, which faltered but it's again triggered by something that just happened so I wanted to share the incident. Facebook Page: dreammyrainbow?ref=bookmarks Nelly's Craft Page: nellys.craft/ Snapchat: Nelheranalis Folo me on IG @trapped_eternally Subscribe for more updates th-cam.com/users/subsrciption_center?add_user=dreammyrainbow
Losing Hope | Bulimia Trouble with Clogging Toilet | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 1.7K8 ปีที่แล้ว
I am losing hope with ed and depression. My bulimia creates trouble and i feel like a total burden. Can't live with myself. Facebook Page: dreammyrainbow?ref=bookmarks Nelly's Craft Page: nellys.craft/ Snapchat: Nelheranalis Folo me on IG @trapped_eternally Subscribe for more updates th-cam.com/users/subsrciption_center?add_user=dreammyrainbow
True Life of a Bulimic & Anorexic | 12,000kcal Binge | Pokemon Go Helped me Run 8km | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 4.5K8 ปีที่แล้ว
It's my first update after the trip. my life is currently boring and stagnant. same routine everyday. i ran 8 km on one day though. Facebook Page: dreammyrainbow?ref=bookmarks Nelly's Craft Page: nellys.craft/ Snapchat: Nelheranalis Folo me on IG @trapped_eternally Subscribe for more updates th-cam.com/users/subsrciption_center?add_user=dreammyrainbow
My Vitamin & Body Check | Water Weight Cheating | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 7K8 ปีที่แล้ว
First video update after trip. Do I look any different? I feel so fat still. Dr apt sucks and I have to cheat my weight... Facebook Page: dreammyrainbow?ref=bookmarks Nelly's Craft Page: nellys.craft/ Snapchat: Nelheranalis Folo me on IG @trapped_eternally Subscribe for more updates th-cam.com/users/subsrciption_center?add_user=dreammyrainbow
Revealing My Binge Food | Lonely Walk Back While Others Eat Dinner Buffet | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 4.6K8 ปีที่แล้ว
This is the last day flight. For the first time I am revealing my binge food for that night. Others are enjoying buffet dinner. Finally I get to go home. Facebook Page: dreammyrainbow?ref=bookmarks Nelly's Craft Page: nellys.craft/ Snapchat: Nelheranalis Folo me on IG @trapped_eternally Subscribe for more updates th-cam.com/users/subsrciption_center?add_user=dreammyrai...
Standing In the Raging River | Awkward Ending | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 1248 ปีที่แล้ว
It's really my first time rafting. Actually I hardly raft, I sat and had fun. Sorry for the blurry part because the case was blocking or the water splashed. hope you enjoy :) Facebook Page: dreammyrainbow?ref=bookmarks Nelly's Craft Page: nellys.craft/ Snapchat: Nelheranalis Folo me on IG @trapped_eternally Subscribe for more updates th-cam.com/users/subsrciption_cente...
Stuck on Zipline | Swimming with Fish | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 2018 ปีที่แล้ว
The first day was miserable weather, but it's not rainy the next day. So we finally got to do the most fun things on this trip, which was zipline and 'snorkeling'. It's the best out of so many days. Facebook Page: dreammyrainbow?ref=bookmarks Nelly's Craft Page: nellys.craft/ Snapchat: Nelheranalis Folo me on IG @trapped_eternally Subscribe for more updates th-cam.com/...
Torturous Weather with House of Moths | Cow Licked My Jacket! | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 1598 ปีที่แล้ว
The mountain view is great but not so the weather. It's horrible and wet. with insects. The next day is much better and we visited farms. Facebook Page: dreammyrainbow?ref=bookmarks Nelly's Craft Page: nellys.craft/ Snapchat: Nelheranalis Folo me on IG @trapped_eternally Subscribe for more updates th-cam.com/users/subsrciption_center?add_user=dreammyrainbow
"Intermittent Fasting" | Why Can't I Be Normal? | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 7598 ปีที่แล้ว
This is a tough struggle. My first two days on Sabah trip, trying to restrict and fast but not only i am made to eat. I am tempted so I eat like a binge, which i have to purge afterwards Facebook Page: dreammyrainbow?ref=bookmarks Nelly's Craft Page: nellys.craft/ Snapchat: Nelheranalis Folo me on IG @trapped_eternally Subscribe for more updates th-cam.com/users/subsrc...
Threatened Inpatient Again | No Holiday Trip? | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 5628 ปีที่แล้ว
My dr is threatening IP with no holiday trip because of my weight. I am terrified now. There's no way i would gain the weight. Facebook Page: dreammyrainbow?ref=bookmarks Nelly's Craft Page: nellys.craft/ Snapchat: Nelheranalis Folo me on IG @trapped_eternally Subscribe for more updates th-cam.com/users/subsrciption_center?add_user=dreammyrainbow
Lost Weight | AN and Bones | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 1.2K8 ปีที่แล้ว
Talking about my weight loss with AN/ED in my head. Trigger warning for some at the end - I showed my bones. Facebook Page: dreammyrainbow?ref=bookmarks Nelly's Craft Page: nellys.craft/ Snapchat: Nelheranalis Folo me on IG @trapped_eternally Subscribe for more updates th-cam.com/users/subsrciption_center?add_user=dreammyrainbow
First "Meal" at 5pm | Watching Others Eat |DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 3148 ปีที่แล้ว
First "Meal" at 5pm | Watching Others Eat |DreammyRainbow
Bangkok Street | Argument Over Food | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 4778 ปีที่แล้ว
Bangkok Street | Argument Over Food | DreammyRainbow
Deprived of Sleep While Traveling | Psychosis is Back | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 3648 ปีที่แล้ว
Deprived of Sleep While Traveling | Psychosis is Back | DreammyRainbow
DO Fail | Dim Sum Day | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 2498 ปีที่แล้ว
DO Fail | Dim Sum Day | DreammyRainbow
Compulsive Exercise | Purging Anorexia | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 1.9K8 ปีที่แล้ว
Compulsive Exercise | Purging Anorexia | DreammyRainbow
Lab-Rat Experience in Hospital | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 2888 ปีที่แล้ว
Lab-Rat Experience in Hospital | DreammyRainbow
Over-Glamorised Eating Disorder | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 2298 ปีที่แล้ว
Over-Glamorised Eating Disorder | DreammyRainbow
This Height? My thoughts... | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 3478 ปีที่แล้ว
This Height? My thoughts... | DreammyRainbow
Starved & Cut | Gifts for Sis and Dr | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 1798 ปีที่แล้ว
Starved & Cut | Gifts for Sis and Dr | DreammyRainbow
Restricting Day | AN Voice Telling Me to Lose Weight | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 7698 ปีที่แล้ว
Restricting Day | AN Voice Telling Me to Lose Weight | DreammyRainbow
Sad Day | Feeling Destructive | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 2228 ปีที่แล้ว
Sad Day | Feeling Destructive | DreammyRainbow
Mother's Day Dinner | Relapse Again? | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 1908 ปีที่แล้ว
Mother's Day Dinner | Relapse Again? | DreammyRainbow
Supportive Stickers | Mother's Day Gift :P | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 2118 ปีที่แล้ว
Supportive Stickers | Mother's Day Gift :P | DreammyRainbow
"Cartoonised" Explanation of My Psychotic Episode | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 1618 ปีที่แล้ว
"Cartoonised" Explanation of My Psychotic Episode | DreammyRainbow
Psych Med Amisulpride Review | New Trimming Dog-Style | DreammyRainbow
มุมมอง 13K8 ปีที่แล้ว
Psych Med Amisulpride Review | New Trimming Dog-Style | DreammyRainbow

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  • @juliefr0g
    @juliefr0g ปีที่แล้ว

    still remember you

  • @ElliottTaboneAPS-dg6ut
    @ElliottTaboneAPS-dg6ut ปีที่แล้ว

    Hi, I know you made this 7 years ago, so I hope I don't bring up anything triggering. But were you, like, legally banned, or whatever, from your trip? Or just... advised not to. Ive never tried to go on a trip when very sick before, so I want to know what to expect.

  • @KlaraStandley
    @KlaraStandley ปีที่แล้ว

    I love you and I really hope you’re still alive

  • @KlaraStandley
    @KlaraStandley ปีที่แล้ว

    I just want to hug you

  • @KlaraStandley
    @KlaraStandley ปีที่แล้ว

    You are so beautiful inside and out I can’t explain it

  • @KlaraStandley
    @KlaraStandley ปีที่แล้ว

    You are literally the most beautiful person inside and out I can’t really explain it it’s so weird and empty everything. It’s beautiful and so are you don’t die please❤️❤️❤️

  • @Suutswonderland
    @Suutswonderland ปีที่แล้ว

    Would love seeing an update video, I was chased by the police when they randomly sectioned me, really sucked, they cuffed me and put me in the back of a van then went over a speed bump fast so I smacked my head off the roof of the van.. Scotland for you.

  • @jonathanrodriguez8219
    @jonathanrodriguez8219 ปีที่แล้ว

    Goodluck on your journey~

  • @AhmedRaihane-ru6nc
    @AhmedRaihane-ru6nc ปีที่แล้ว

    Great review!

  • @sudarshanforabetterworld
    @sudarshanforabetterworld 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    How are you now?

  • @nazrimustaffa6145
    @nazrimustaffa6145 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    👍 solian (amisulpride)

  • @FroggyTWrite
    @FroggyTWrite 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    hope you are doing okay, and would love to hear what you've been up to!

  • @JohnMark-bx1ks
    @JohnMark-bx1ks 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    from where r u ma am?

  • @JohnMark-bx1ks
    @JohnMark-bx1ks 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    i love it amisulpride, 😘😘 good as Gabapentin & Clonazepam. Valproate is depressing 🤯

  • @Anna-wd6vg
    @Anna-wd6vg 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    You okay? ❤️

  • @RynaxAlien
    @RynaxAlien 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Choose vegan fed pets

  • @bill20581
    @bill20581 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hi! I hope you are okay now.I use amisulpride (solian) since 2006 recently because of the cost of the medicine I decided to change it with isofredil which is exactly the same medicine with solian but it's generic.The result was to come my psychosis back again.The doctor said is not happened that because you change your medicine.Anyway he gave me 10 mg diazepam (stedon) per Day for almost 2 months and I am ok now.What is your opinion about generic drugs? As for amisulpride i use so long time I do not know what to do.....maybe i need to change medicine...it makes me to be bored all time.

  • @aazimrashid3307
    @aazimrashid3307 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thanks

  • @MylarBalloonLover
    @MylarBalloonLover 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Amisulpride makes me gain weight

  • @wut_1459
    @wut_1459 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I hope your still doing alright 💕

  • @1990guptaraghav
    @1990guptaraghav 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    hi dear, hope you are better now

  • @lovebefree8460
    @lovebefree8460 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    You look sick

  • @TSITIHAJARALHAJr
    @TSITIHAJARALHAJr 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    I dont know efect amisulpride when i eat this tablet amisulpride.

  • @TSITIHAJARALHAJr
    @TSITIHAJARALHAJr 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    Hmmm i same like you eat pil amisulpride🙁

  • @JuriesVlogs
    @JuriesVlogs 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    You can do it ! I want to ask you how did u register for isat 😭

  • @maxheinrichliebow
    @maxheinrichliebow 4 ปีที่แล้ว

    I had a similar experience. Within days I felt better. I was on 800mg but this was too powerful - I was constantly sedated and unable to function. They checked this wasnt just Negative Symptoms, but it appeared that I had the motivation, just lacking the energy. Ive been on 400mg since and I feel a world better now!

    • @MiguelSanchez-bj4vo
      @MiguelSanchez-bj4vo 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Hello, did amisulpride help you for the negative symptoms?

    • @maxheinrichliebow
      @maxheinrichliebow 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@MiguelSanchez-bj4vo its certainly made them less intense but sadly still frequent.

  • @barryfennell9723
    @barryfennell9723 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    You're not fat at all. Bread and sugar is poison. eat real fat.

  • @diazmesada8347
    @diazmesada8347 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Y

  • @araohollow16
    @araohollow16 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Olanzapine makes me super sleepy and fat....then i change it to amisulpride

    • @danielruvalcaba5561
      @danielruvalcaba5561 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Me too bro, the ones that haven't taked olanzapine, don't know how much you can sleep, and weight gain tho.

    • @MylarBalloonLover
      @MylarBalloonLover 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      I gain weight on Amisulpride

  • @katherinewarren5260
    @katherinewarren5260 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    I hope since you posted this video that you have found someone to help you. You are a beautiful young lady and you deserve a life that is peaceful and full of light. Please find the help you need and find the life you are meant to have.

  • @poppydyton4415
    @poppydyton4415 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you this was helpful, I’m going to Thailand next week for the first time (I’m from the uk). I’m spending one week volunteering in an elephant sanctuary and one week on leisure. I’m going with my mum and she is aware that I have recently been restricting/ purging subtype. She thinks I’m eating healthy amounts at the moment and I’m terrified of this holiday which I was originally looking forward to because she keeps going on about all the amazing foods we will try. I’m absolutely terrified of putting on weight :(

    • @dreammyrainbow
      @dreammyrainbow 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      always rmb to bring your safe food as snack in case at certain meal you really can't have much of those on offer. Lots of vegetables and salad. Im sure thailand has loads of such food available because they are my go-to food which i absolutely feel safe eating. Fresh fruits too. Sugar is a great source of energy since you will be volunteering and working out, and sugar can be used up in the body really fast. Eggs are healthy and it's mainly protein. I snack on them whenever I need some food to get me the day or hunger. Just avoid oily or fried food. U can still try and have a bite. Share it with your mom so your mom isn't worried or annoyed that you're not willing to have a taste. The main thing to bear in mind is to really try to enjoy yourself on this trip. I know that fear of gaining weight is overwhelming as i have experienced it many times. But thinking back, I wish I could do more or at least try more. Because what we thought was going to happen may not actually even if we did the act in the end. Hope you have fun. I'm here if you need to talk. You can do it here or add me on IG xoxo

    • @poppydyton4415
      @poppydyton4415 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      dreammyrainbow thank you so much! This is really helpful and appreciated. This has put my mind at rest quite a lot as I’ve been worrying for the past couple days a lot. I will definitely add you on IG in case I need to talk xx thank you again.

  • @chs18311
    @chs18311 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Are you still alive?

    • @dreammyrainbow
      @dreammyrainbow 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      yes, I am still alive. Thanks for watching my old videos. I am thinking of starting to do videos here again. Loads have happened and I think I can share it with you guys xoxo

  • @badreibnouelmadani1630
    @badreibnouelmadani1630 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    hi i take solian too and honestly apart from the numbing feeling i feel great compared with my previous years of psychosis.

  • @Fogtownproductions
    @Fogtownproductions 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Flash news et yes No the vous êtes chier

  • @navyajoy6587
    @navyajoy6587 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Is talking to doctor by online safe? And if yes which one is reliable site?Please reply...

    • @dreammyrainbow
      @dreammyrainbow 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      NAVYA JOY i think you should probably find a doctor u can talk to face to face. I don’t think an online one is reliable. There may be charges to such service and it’s not easy to track this person afterwards if there’s more issues u want to discuss. At least if the doctor has a clinic, u can make appointment any time u want.

    • @navyajoy6587
      @navyajoy6587 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@dreammyrainbow Thanku mam for your info😊

  • @navyajoy6587
    @navyajoy6587 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Which is the best medicine with least side effects for schizophernia?My mom is having this and she is taking1/2 of sulphitac(100 mg),1/2 Risperidone (Resnia +).But she is reluctant to take medicine.Her moods changes frequently.What to do?

    • @dreammyrainbow
      @dreammyrainbow 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Have you or your mom talked to her doctor about her reluctance to take the med? It could be the unpleasant side effects she gets from taking the currently ones. Different anti-psychotics have varying degree of different types of side effects. For example, Med A may work better for mood but it may cause more weight gain compared to Med B which may not work as well for mood but less weight gain. For my case, I have tried many medicines before finding one that can strike a balance. I used to be on Quetiapine, it's an anti-psychotic and mood stabiliser. It helps me mood wise but high doses makes me really tired and sleepy the whole day, I'd recommend you to first discuss with ur mom's doctor to explore what other medicine is available and suitable for your mom's situation. Olanzapine is very effective for psychotic-related symptoms, but most people gain weight easily on it. Some don't. So it really depends on your mom's bodily reaction to the medicine. It's like trial and error.

    • @navyajoy6587
      @navyajoy6587 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Are these medicines really harmful?she always complains of having stomach pain after eating these medicines.Is these just her thought or really is it painful.I dont know what to do.I cant understand her.How can i convince her?

    • @dreammyrainbow
      @dreammyrainbow 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      NAVYA JOY I don’t know if her stomachache is real or some sort of psychotic experience. It can only be dealt with through a real psychiatrist or doctor. She needs to see one to prevent relapses. Without med, it’s very risky and she can easily slip back to her szchophrenic behaviour. And then it’ll be even more difficult to communicate with her and convince her to take medicine. The priority is to see a doctor.

    • @thameekstaninjahman8337
      @thameekstaninjahman8337 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Probley vraylar

  • @daviddean7174
    @daviddean7174 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thanks for sharing. I take solian too.

  • @frankmurray5313
    @frankmurray5313 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thanks for sharing your experience. 👍

  • @calliebaites9207
    @calliebaites9207 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    I was in a psych ward I'm still embarrassed they wouldn't let me get up to use the ladies room at all

  • @takutoyo6311
    @takutoyo6311 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    are u on any medication right now?

    • @Spicyshrek526
      @Spicyshrek526 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Where did she go?

    • @dreammyrainbow
      @dreammyrainbow 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      yes i still am

    • @dreammyrainbow
      @dreammyrainbow 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      i m here. I haven't posted for quite a long time.but hope to get back to it

    • @pierce_atthedisco9584
      @pierce_atthedisco9584 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@dreammyrainbow ik im not the only one still here ik it’s been years but I think ab u and ur wellbeing I want u to know that

  • @filmfuggo
    @filmfuggo 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    i also take amisulpride 350 mg and it helps me. I drink some black tea in the mornings, when i feel tired and sleepy. Coffe also helps, but for me it lowered the efect a little bit. I am very sensitive to coffee. If i drink coffee after a long period i have to take more of the medicine.

  • @CarePeers
    @CarePeers 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Last Christmas Eve's Evening (24th December, 2018), I prayed for you and I lighten up a candle for your health and recovery in my church in Hong Kong. God Bless and wish you good health!! :)

  • @sweetclarity564
    @sweetclarity564 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you for uploading this, I'm suffering from depression and I have had comments from people saying "You're not depressed, you're just looking for attention" I hope you have a nice day 💖

  • @dakota7532
    @dakota7532 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    You haven’t uploaded in a while I really hope you’re ok :(

  • @lucad6649
    @lucad6649 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    Are you ok???

  • @OliviaWonka
    @OliviaWonka 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    I really hope you're doing a lot better now and you're just taking a long break from social media. I wish all the best for you. You're incredibly smart and creative. I know you'll do well with whatever you out your mind too because you're so determined. I do miss and think about how you're doing a lot of the time. I hope you're focusing on getting healthy again, Nelly. You're a great person. I look forward to another update whenever that will be. Hugs! xoxo

  • @Hannahlife-hn7cs
    @Hannahlife-hn7cs 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    Nothing good here. Have lemon water, a smoothie with lots of berries, a big green salad no dressing, some sort of green vegetable to add to any meal and green juice that you juiced yourself. This will help balance hormones and also to help get rid of toxins and waste from Colin. This is not nutrient food. If you want fish have salmon. If you want Yogurt have natural unsweetened Greek Yogurt

  • @dhanalakshmi4686
    @dhanalakshmi4686 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    Where we have to get the rawmaterial plz tell me

  • @CarePeers
    @CarePeers 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    Well!! I responsed to your video before. Here is a song that may make you feel better: th-cam.com/video/NQHn9A-WqcI/w-d-xo.html&lc=z13bdf1w1vjlxjlac04cf5kpexq2idagxok0k.1539495761037341

  • @gregbrown5020
    @gregbrown5020 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    10 psych meds would put down an elephant - malpractice. You're intelligible and likable though come across as medicated. You are a tortured soul who possesses better than average looks (when not starving yourself) yet sees a monster in the mirror. Not sure where the strenght came to make these videos.