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0:41 my balls would explode if i did that

When it’s time to sleep and I have to be in my own thoughts, I feel empty and I feel upset. I’ll be doing something fun and I can’t get excited. But Anthony bordain… I will live in honor of your believes. I CANT take for granted what I have.

I could be wrong here, but if he spent more time with his daughter then that woman who consistently cheated on him, maybe he’d still be alive today. 🤔

I have been a depressive since 13 and am now 53. At 23 i had my first of (3) nervous break downs post divorce. I completely understand why many give up. Therapy, Lexapro and Jesus got me to middle age and im grateful.❤

Me right now .....

More than 38 times he talked about hanging himself on his show in the shower over and over and over again that was a cry for help and that’s exactly what he did. In a scene he talked about if he had to cook on an electric stove Anthony Bourdain said he was going to hit everyone in the head with a frying pan and then he was gonna hang himself on the nearest beam. He talked about suicide quite often until he finally did it is someone keeps repeating those words over and over and over again keep checking in on them.

He didnt kill them

I would be depressed too having to eat some of the vile foods he had to eat

all y'all folks talking about how "great" he was now that he dead. Im NOT afraid of some internet trolls so I'll tell it straight. Guy was a PRICK as far as I could see, fuck his problems everyone had them but not everyone takes it out on other people via rudeness. and dont give me that "doing it to teach" or "hE hAd pR0bLeMS" BS. plenty of ways to offer constructive criticism without being a total dick.! suicide is terrible- but if we had known him as the many cooks he talked down to did i highly DOUBT y'all crusty mfs would be making all these goofyahh tribute posts. just because someone is dead- even by suicide (which for whatever reason instantly makes them "a great person who will be missed rip :'(" instantly by y'all's logic) does NOT entitle them to Sainthood. if he was still alive in todays "cancel culture" y'all would be spitroasting him EVERY chance you got- probably for some made-up race thing out of jealousy of his success instead of something _actually _*_valid_* but still. Also, all these tears for some (guy who at least acted as the) scumbag who wrote a recipe book or two, but not a single comment of compassion for the confidence & dreams he tore asunder regularly on the various shows!! but definitely for him bc hes a celeb that died via suicide?? what about the people he probably pushed to that very same action??! fucking HYPOCRISY! there i said it, sns~ :') . edited for sp errors, i stand where i stand regardless if y'all even read

Just hearing this story from him and learning this form of pretentiousness was forced on him without his approval piss me off so much, the fact that he didn’t go along with it, and the fact that he expressed his disgust makes me respect the Man even more than ever. This guy is a true definition of genuine and integrity, he had the courage to even share to the world this story and be transparent instead of pretending that his show was perfect. This clip is just another reminder of one of the reasons this Man is my hero 🫡

"It was my birthday." Yeah, Tony, it was my birthday the day you killed yourself. 8th June. You were significant for me. Your words resonated. You convinced me to travel far and wide. And here I am, in Buriram, Thailand, really happy, and it's nearly all because of you.

Hey

It’s crazy, me and my friends and family always said he had the best job in the world, travelling and eating. I respect him a lot for being an open book about his on mental health and his earlier struggles with drug addiction. RIP

He got his wish.

Why do so many funny and charming people commit suicide? That is life sometimes, you never how people are actually feeling beneath the surface.

I agree. I worked in television as a producer for 18 years, but the only portion of that that I was truly happy was the 2 years that I was working on a travel show, learning about and helping others learn of other cultures. Bourdain’s show exemplified the exact idea that I always strived for, not only going to the non-mainstream places, but finding the good in every person and location. Sometimes in a very tongue-in-cheek way. But I’ve dealt with a lot of dark times myself, unemployment, loneliness, total lack of money, etc, and been clinically depressed for a good 15-16 years now. So I understand where he was coming from. Even if I can’t from the standpoint of his having a successful show, career, fame, etc. I understand that suicide also affects those around you after you die, and that’s the main reason that I’ve never gone that route. But I really do think that it’s anyone’s right to take their own life if they truly want. So while I miss Anthony a whole whole lot, I also respect his decision.

he committed suicide 17 days before his birthday. apparently birthdays put him at risk.

It looked like that woman hexwas dating was abandoning him and his daughter sounded awfully disconnected. May not have been but sounded that way. I feel bad for the guy.

People shouldn't look at videos like this and get the green light to commit suicide. But at the same time the more awareness of how the human mind works and what cause depression would lead to solving these problems.

Why were they throw dead ocpous in the water? Were they fishing? Dont get it

Nut job

As a few others on here have said, this man changed my life. He's the only celebrity whose death really hit me. As I saw someone else post one time, I hope he's not really dead -- he's just on a beach somewhere far away where we can't find him, sipping a pina colada. There has been no better traveler, no better guest, in our lifetime. His memory and influence will be with me forever.

Heartbreaking. His integrity and honesty is otherworldly. God bless you Chef.

Homosexuality is no joke. Spiritual warfare is real

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Really miss him 😢 wish he hadn't.

In the end, Noone cares, and it doesn't even matter...

rest in peace brother

but WHY did it make him want to hang himself? I get the outrage, esp at producers who were in on it and wanted him to play along...but why didn't he just yell at everyone, get some people fired, and then move on from it? What about this said to him: YOU ARE A TERRIBLE PERSON WHO NEEDS TO DIE. I would like to understand what goes inside depression a little better

No intention of justifying Asia and her behavior. However, Tony overreacted many times and he was obsessed with her. The Sicily scene on the dead octopus is hilarious, no need to overreact to the point that he mentions "mental breakdown", "hanging in the shower" and so on... There was clearly something wrong with him and no woman could have fixed his demons. He needed to get some professional help and therapy. Another aspect of his relationship with Asia is that they both agreed that they would have an open relationship. The distance did not help, they should have discussed her moving to NYC. I do not know if that was ever part of their dreams, however I believe that she could not do that anyway as her children have their own lives in Italy. Two troubled souls met and deteriorated each other's lives. That is really what has happened to Tony and Asia.

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This is what it looks like to gain the whole world but to lose one’s soul. r.i.p Anthony ! I love you!! 💕 Your spirit lives on in all the travel you inspired.

This is a very accurate description of depression. I always think it’s like the weather. A cloud will appear all of a sudden and rain onto you and you feel your whole body getting wet from the rain. You can put up an umbrella but you’re already wet, and it’ll be some time until you’re dry again. That’s how I feel with depression. Sometimes you can just be looking out the window and a memory will come to you or even just daydreaming, and it will hit you and you think there it is again. RIP Anthony.

I think that production team he had sucked and while he gave his life to them and put his face plastered and was their dancing monkey, they did not genuinely listen to him or supported his truth. This is my take.

He definitely needed to lighten up a little bit.

No, you are not a better human being. You suck and you are an attention whore. You want drugs, gambling and sex. You can't feel guilt, shame or anything. Only the poor can I know. I am poor

I'm disgusted by humanity as well

Bourdain was a good guy despite the gruff "too cool for school" façade. His aspirations to an ideal world of perfect authenticity and decency in humans were noble but ultimately unrealistic. And his realisation of that was too much for him. He was too delicate to cope with the insanity of life. The nuggets of beauty he found during the filming of his shows weren't enough to alleviate his feelings of despondency. His suicide was tragic and there wasn't anything anyone could've done to stop it. There's little we can learn from it other than to try and hang in there as much as we realistically can. The beauty he saw in things may not have been enough for him but it can be for others, and therefore save their lives. There's no magic secret to a good life, just do the best you can and accept that life isn't perfect.

I will probably kill myself at some point …….I don’t like it here ..

To anyone out there who is very depressed, feels lost, hopeless or feels nobody cares: please seek help...nowadays there are so many places to turn. Maybe find a good psychiatrist or counselor, or confide in a trusted friend. If you're self conscious about this, don't be. If you don't want anyone to know you went for help, you don't have to tell others (you can keep it between you & your professional). Besides, nowadays, seems like more people go for therapy than not. Others DO CARE! Please stay well. 🙏 Love to all ❤

I miss his him.

Aww you know what ? You just miss him . He was one of those guys that you could picture yourself walking or hanging out with him in some of those Awesome places he took us to . 🌺

Very talented neurotic man who has absolutely no feeling for animals

Like Adele said, Take it easy on him.What he felt was real

When I found out that he left us I was genuinely devastated. Huge loss. No one compares to him.

He said so many times that he should go hang himself in the shower. People think you're joking.

he said he wanted to murder everyone and then hang himself. aren't we glad that in his case, we didn't end up with yet another angry man on a rampage with so many innocent lives left in his wake? maybe he spared us that with the way he chose to go out.

Sometimes it's the most kindest, senstive people that have the worst battle with demonic depressions. It's hard to always shine the light in darkness being too aware of the situation. this world is cruel, murderous almost by suicide because of the evils. people who need to stay the most always seem to leave early.

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The power of negativity and self loathing