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Having manic depression sure is great half the time

Hope I make it another year

Bro how did someone from 10 months ago comment on a video 3 minutes ago? 👇👇

Today i felt useless , well im a useful guy to everyone but not infront of parents and they scolded me to death , i failed as a son and when im outside and my friends are saying why you arent going home , me thinking inside like " home ??? " I dont wanna go home because its very nightmarish for me to witness the consistent quarrels between mom and dad and after that they are showing their anger on me even if i aint done any mistake , hoping no-one deserves a life like me 🙂

I'm waiting for it to end. 26 years of nothing to be proud of and nothing to look forward to. I hoped I'd die before the last election, but here I am... more scars than before.

Extraño a mis perros, en paz descansen todos.

Well…they call me wierd.

I'm a teensy tiny late (a year late lmao) im here to vent :D I'm a 13 Year old male who has lost a ton in 2024, my Wela (Wela = Grandma) died from cancer, one of my best friends from suicide, my parents split up, and my pet chickens that I've had for a year (they were the cutest you should've seen them) were killed at night. Let me break down what these people are to me and our experiences with each other My Wela was a great person, she raised my for a portion of my life, she knew me ever since I was a baby, and was the nicest person ever. I am not able to type a lot about this, since I was with her mostly when I wasn't conscious lol One of my best friends, Captain Lear Walker, was the smartest person I knew who had the same age as me. I was a special child throughout my school life, I was smarter than the others, I had to go to a different school in a different area due to my mom's work being close though, I had to wake up earlier to accommodate for how far it is from where I am. Anyways, me being special changed until I met him, we both got all A's. After about 1 and a half years of knowing him, we were great friends, best friends. He had to move away to Florida, the friend group (consisting of Captain, some other people, and I) made some jokes and some laughs about it, mostly talking about hurricanes. After he left, about a week passes. Now, it is Halloween. Counselors go to our AD Texas History class, and they told us that Captain killed himself by suicide. I am not the one to usually cry in the friend group, hell, that was the second time they saw me cry. (I forgot to mention most of my friends from my friend group were in this class.) The first time I cried I will explain in a bit. Anyways, after they told us the news, I don't know what came over me, I just didn't want to continue anymore, as if nothing mattered anymore. This was new for me, I never saw the world like this. The counselor's picked out people to tell how Captain was there for them, or their times with him. He was there for, with me, a ton. Whenever my parents split up, my birthday, and even the field trip we went to because we had all A's. What if I was a better friend, what if I called him and asked if he was good, or if he was happy? Why am I so goddamn fucking idiotic? My parents sometimes got into fights, but sometime on February, I woke up and just walked to brush my teeth, parents were fighting, but It's okay, they normally make it up after and then are happy. Keep in mind, my parents room was next to the restroom. The restroom was down the hallway. Anyways, after some fighting my mom leaves to her moms house (I think.) Whenever my mom leaves, my dad explains to me why they were fighting. A friend of his told him that she was cheating on him recently. I started to... bawl to say the least. (It wasn't ugly crying, I already knew how to prevent myself from doing that.) I viewed my mom as a villain, she broke the family. After a month or two go by, my mom moves in with my stepdad. He is a police officer. It took me awhile to get used to him. On November, my stepdad tells me to go with him for a surprise for his mom. I was curious what it was. I thought it was fireworks, or like a present. He told me to hold a sign. that said "Will you." My little brother held a sign that said "marry me." There we big glowing letters, fog emitters, fireworks, everything. It wasn't official yet, the real marriage would be soon after that. The stinker that I am said "happy birthday mom!" as a joke. I was silent crying whenever I saw "Marry me" It was so fast. EVERYTHING was SO FAST. I used to think that my stepdad was a villain too, but, now I know that my mom was the one who broke the family. Here I am, typing this at my Stepdad and Mom's house. Finally, my cute chickens. They were about a foot big, fatasses lmao. They were used to me, just like how I was used to them. I would say "Chickies, GOBBLE GOBBLE GOBBLE!" I knew those were turkey noises, but it was funny. Whenever I said that, they'd come running. Whenever I said that, it meant that I was gonna give them food, water, or snacks. They LOVED goldfish. Now, the fateful night they died, I was young, and this was the first major bad thing that happened to me. So, I forgot to put them in their coop one night. I woke up in the middle of the night, thought about how they were not in their coop yet, looked outside, and they were on their coop, just sleeping. I thought, "They're good, I don't need to put them in their coop for tonight. I was going to get ready to go to school the next morning, go outside and say the FORBIDDEN SAYING "CHICKIES!!!" There was no running, no response, not even a peep. However, I did see a lot of feathers on the floor. I was a little bit concerned, but I just went with the thought that they were molting. I went to check their coop to see if they went inside to lay eggs, or went in there to sleep for some reason. Nothing. I look around the backyard, no chickens, only feathers. They were gone. They were probably eaten by a predator that entered through 1/2 foot hole in the corner of the fence. We had cameras, I didn't want to see them, I just went to the part where I was a opossum, I just stopped there. My dad and I went to the store to set up a trap. It was a weekend, so I waited there for about 2 hours until I heard noises in the grass, near the hole in the fence. I try to stay as still as I can. Keep in mind it was around midnight when this was taking place. The opossum goes into the trap, and I run at it at full speed, trying to make it unconscious, I read that they do that to confuse predators prior to that. I wanted to make it's life hell. I went to the kitchen, grabbed a knife, and started stabbing the opossum while it was unconscious, I didn't want to kill it, so I didn't stab deep. After it'd wake up, I'd kick the trap around, full force. After awhile, I just killed it with a couple stabs to the head and eye. On paper, I was a teensy tiny too overkill. I cope by laughter and comedy, my friends are practically a generator for that. Hell, they are the reason I'm alive typing this. Edit: OH MY GOD I DIDN'T ORDER A YAPPACHINO JUST PUT THE FRIES IN THE BAG!!!

My girlfriend is currently cheating on me with my friend as I'm typing this she didn't know I know but I do I love her and she loves me back that's why I believe she doesn't break up with me and I don't wanna because she's the only thing I have.

May god bless us all,I just hope we all can be happy again

waking up for me is just a pain Everyday is the worst

I will be sad and empty today but I will never give up until I finger this life and show it what I got IM DETERMINED TO WIN

Solo.

warthunder grind never stops.

I hate my life. I already wanna die my freinds are fake, my family hates me, everyone hates me, i wanna kill myself right now but im still thinking about my life before i kill myself.

I really like this girl. She is dating my friend and we have gotten on good lately,she even said she likes me. She said she LOVES me. But she stayes with her boyfriend that makes her cry and says he wants to leave her and date his ex. Am i not good enough? They were talking and laughinh,even cuddling.

People really depressed hopes it get better I’m just hear for something to go to sleep to I ain’t know it was depressing people in here

Real

Real...

I wish I knew what to do with my life. What to do with my heart I do nothing all day boredem settles in look at the sky so I can feel even smaller than I already feel and my mind is poisoning itself uselessly. I'm afraid that I'm not solid but hollow. I feel behind my eyes a numb a pit of hell a mimicking nothingness. I don't know who I am where I am going and I'm the one who needs to decide to answer to this hideous questions. I long for a noble escape from freedom. I am weak, tired I buried my head in the darkness of the pillow i had nothing to look forward to there is nowhere to go when they asked me. What I wanted to be i said I didn't know I waited... As if the sea could make my decisions for me. I wanted to be nobody I knew could ever come.

11:06 studying for midterms stressing and my friends are starting to not like me anymore so I’m just going to work on myself until I’m popular for me not for others

take care of your self

real

It reminds me of how useless I was in the past and no one even bothered to come check up on me It’s because my friends keep blaming me for what they did

damn what a playlist

As a center back in soccer I use this song either to push me or sorrow because I did my absolute best to win my soccer final yesterday and we lost to pens 4-2 I made mine but my teammates just couldn’t 😢 and if I being honest my team isn’t the best so if we won this I’d be the happiest man alive but once I made my shot I knew we were going to lose so if I’m being honest this hurts more then a breakup or anything else I experienced bc I did my hardest and we lost..

This is the saddest comment section I ever seen and I can relate to some of them…

Man , i would just wat to have never borned , just it

I am not sad, i just think sad music relaxing

all of this is just a sick fucking game... the dreams keep telling me to wake up from this damn game.. I just don't know how. I'm calling for help, from anything at this point.. I've seen things no human should have ever seen. I've seen what we really are. We are just NPCS in a game we can never win. I want to wake up. I want to wake up. I want to wake up. I want to wake up. LET ME WAKE UP.

хуйня

Why did my teacher want to bring up my trauma?

I'm lonely and depressed and I'm ugly af and I will be single forever

i keep falling into the same sin over and over

It's sad seeing everyone around me find love and I'm just alone barely even talked to anymore

I don't have a sad story I just like the music

Play some postal 2 guys, it'll cheer ya up❤

Age 24 ans. Ma vision de l'humanité : 1% gouvernement 99% des habitants de cette planète. Les "modèles sociétaux" et "économique" ont emprisonnés 99% des humains dans un système de vie qui n'est pas la Vie et qui pourtant ces 99% sont prêt a tuer pour garder ces systèmes en place. L'argent, se simple bout de papiers à pris le contrôle de tout les humains. L'argent est l'origine des guerres, des conflits, de la non réparation équitable des ressources. Les humains ont détruit la plupart des autres espèces vivantes sur cette planète. Les gouvernements sont responsables de la dégradation de notre planète et ne subissent aucune conséquence de leurs actes. La plupart des humains vivent avec une étiquette Social coller sur leurs inconscience. La diable à réussi a hisser l'ignorance en religion et la religion comme un effet de mode plutôt qu'un mode de vie. Les nouvelles générations sont perdues pour la majorité préférant se construire une identité numérique plutôt qu'une identité réelle. Les valeurs et le bon sens morale se perd ainsi que la spiritualité qui est mise en retrait pour beaucoup d'humains. Ma vision des choses n'est ni triste ni dramatique c'est juste réel et ce qui me choque le plus c'est le déni total des gens face a la situation catastrophique face a laquelle notre espèce se prépare a faire face dans les décennies à venir. Cela me fait peur. Je ne sais même pas si l'être humain sera encore l'espèce la plus intelligente sur terre après que nous avons inventé l'intelligence artificielle et les bombes nucléaires. Tout ces milliards investis inutilement plutôt que dans des projets mondiaux pour élever notre espèce plus haut. Force est de constater que non, les humains préfèrent s'entretuer dans des guerres inutiles, laisser mourir de faim et de soif une partie des humains pendant que l'autre partie en gâche en quantité astronomique. Les être humains sont a mon sens en train de creuser sa propre tombe. Si ce n'est pas la guerre, les maladies, ou l'intelligence artificielle, serait ce plutôt notre soif démesurée de détruire notre planète qui nous éteindra tous ? Je me pose la question....

Honestly bro I ask myself before I go to bed why was I born I hate myself

Are you all okay?

Bro my cat shes died

When I feel like shit I try to feel better. This proves that people don't want to feel better. People life to suffer.

9:32 what the song name???