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Lyrics: Oh, you like to watch me bleed? Well you bleed too. Funny that I ever thought, that I'd need you. They say "no call, no foul" that's bullshit. If you cross me, cost me- combo hit. I'mma M.K you, cold, Sub-Zero. Frozen in time, can't be a hero. Thought I'd bounce back, but I always relapse. Take another sip, till I once again collapse. Pray on my own downfall, like everybody else. Pay up all my sorrow, like whiskey till the hells. Take me back to my own past, it wasn't good but better than- The conclusion of all that I cast into, my life, ain't bettering. Break my soul or break my spine. I couldn't care, don't got that time. I feel numb to all I feel- it won't seem real, man what's the deal. I just know all what I feel, but can't perceive it, best believe it. I feel paranoid and I'm suicidal! If I drop dead, fuck the suit and tie tho! I'm going nowhere, I'm always staying idle. Already too many dead, man I lack my idols. Try to leave my mind. Leave it all behind. But gotta stay alive. For my friends I'll stick around. (Huh) Well at least until I take a round. (Pew) Wanna leave, one final sound. Oh, you like to watch me bleed? Well you bleed too. Funny that I ever thought, that I'd need you. They say "no call, no foul" that's bullshit. If you cross me, cost me- combo hit. I'mma M.K you, cold, Sub-Zero. Frozen in time, can't be a hero.

Lyrics: In this darkened night. You seem terrified. Nightmares solidified. All alone I still hear them cries.. (Those cries...) Crisis in my head. It got me feeling dead. That I may just be losing my mind... (My mind...) Rewind, i'm stuck in here. Can't leave my rotting flesh. Made numbness of my fear. Near collapse, my blood be turning into a mesh... (A mesh..) My mind is playing tricks. My mind is haunting me. Turns me into- who I don't want to be... In this darkened night. You seem terrified. Nightmares solidified. All alone I still hear them cries.. (Those cries...) They're never leaving me. Until I come and see. I seek light but I'm just stuck in the darkness..(the darkness...)

Lyrics: Please... Revive... My soul... I feel... Myself... Loosing control... Nothing's feeling real no more. Everytime I see myself, don't know what I'm fighting for. Downward spiral, got no hope, like all the time think bout the rope. Downing bottle after bottle, feeling numb, just wanna cope. Please... Revive... My soul... I feel... Myself... Loosing control... Don't wanna read headlines no more. Every night I got those visons of all of the gore. I'll be crashing on the pavement, life be testing on my patience. Whisky honey as my fragrance, I just suffer up in silence. Need a gun but got no license. Gonna die until the night ends. I think I can hear the sirens. Please... Revive... My soul... I feel... Myself... Loosing control... Oh you monster, I'm a witness. Fuck what you did, you're so witless. And to think that I was hoping- you didn't want to- I was coping. You're a liar, all my life long. Cry my pain out, cuz of your wrongs. Write another- fucking sad song. Soon you are where- you now belong. Try to cope with truth, but just see the noose. So sick of the news, murder trial for you. Everyday's feeling blue, if only I knew- You were such a traitor, should have picked up the clues. I'm just looking for closure, feel cold as the ice. Try to put trust into people, but get flooded with lies. Everything seems so evil, they all are disguised. Disgusted how deeds like those get romanticized. Man I ain't suprised. How are you supposed to put love in your life? How can people be happy, I struggle to survive. I hate that I'm still here, I stay for my friends. Live for my people, till my life soon ends. It's t minus one, oh my countdown soon sinks. Stick around, another year, oh my ends getting near... Please... Revive... My soul... I feel... Myself... Loosing control...

Lyrics: Deadline. People worry bout their death, I am like " that's fine." I'm with one foot in the grave, backbone like rats spine. Always feel like all my life is such a bad time. (Bad time...) Can't be the only one that's feeling fucking helpless. My mind on fire, my skin peeling, torture's endless. Suit and tie, but well oh my, got as a tie a Slipknot as my necklace. Can't even lie, why live a life? I'm feeling reckless. Can't close my eyes, my heart turned ice and every night I'm feeling restless. Even after all you said and did I hope you get this message. Deadline. People worry bout their death, I am like " that's fine." I'm with one foot in the grave, backbone like rat's spine. Always feel like all my life is such a bad time. (Bad time...) They said once you get your shit together, things will change all for the better. And I hate to be the batter, but all I see will always shatter. Loveless. I can't feel this shit no more, you made me bloodless. Hollow body with no soul, the oceans crushed this. All I got is pain and sorrow, got a death wish. Try to shut all my friends out so they won't see me vanish. (Death wish...I got a got a got a death wish wi-wish, deathwish...)

Lyrics: Oh I don't know how I got here. The dread it feels way too near. In the dark place, manifesting all my fear. I feel trapped, know nobody'll ever hear- My cries remain as echoes in my walls. Bouncing back, it feels like screaming calls. Try to rewrite the manuscript like I am Alan Wake. I drown inside this ocean, got no air intake. Been stuck here so long that I lost every track of time. The dark presence shapes my life, I should have seen the sign. Lost my hope that writing might reshape my story. The darkness shade, it guts me out, it's getting gory. Back in the loop, so try again to feel some glory. My lights go out, I down the bottle, Jacky forty. My cries remain as echoes lingering in my own withered walls. Bouncing back, it feels like screaming sounds, feels like I'm in bright falls. Try to rewrite the manuscript like I am Alan Wake. I drown inside this dark ocean, got no air intake, it's not a lake. Is it a loop? Is it a spiral? Tell me am I sinking deeper? Try to find some light in life, but can't find it, yet I'm still a seeker. The writer room, my trusty home, there ain't no way out. Cause my own doom, fuck up my dome, feel like a pain scout. Sometimes I wonder, who am I? Am I really in control? Or the product of a story, where I take a forced on role? Yet I still try, stillstuck in the same writer room. Try to change shit, but I just see chaos bloom. Feel like the dark presence is getting closer to take me over. End. Me. Now- My mind is bleeding out, my body getting colder. My cries remain as echoes lingering in my own withered walls. Bouncing back, it feels like screaming sounds, feels like I'm in bright falls. Try to rewrite the manuscript like I am Alan Wake. I drown inside this dark ocean, got no air intake, it's not a lake.

Lyrics: The waves crash so somberly and I can smell the storm. Out on the ocean, a being with ever shifting form. Been out at the sea for weeks, the rations getting shorter. At the horizon I still see the mountain peeks or maybe an illusion. Don't know where we are, the storm get's stronger, filled with confusion. Look down into darkened water, I can't see much more than black. I think I might saw a creature, giant with a fin at back. Told my men, but they're just laughing, I can smell a big attack. I might seem disturbed, I know, but awareness I don't lack. Out of nothing it now rose, it's true form it finally shows. With it came outlandish madness, unknown creature, big as a palace. My men gon' sick, they turned menace. Time feels frozen, time feels endless. As it crushes my crew and ship, time rewinds and so it fit. Looking at the water pit, felt the loop, back down I sit. Look down into darkened water, I can't see much more than black. I think I might saw a creature, giant with a fin at back. Told my men, but they're just laughing, I can smell a big attack. I might seem disturbed, I know, but awareness I don't lack. I know I've seen this before. Felt disturbance in my core. Am I crazy, is this real. Oh, it's presence I can feel. Wrath upon us, oh I know. Soon again it's face shall show. I can't take it need a way out, Need a bullet there ain't no doubt. There it is, again it rose, it's true form, again it shows. With it came outlandish madness, unknown creature, big as a palace. My men gon' sick, they turned menace. Time feels frozen, time feels endless. Had my flintlock, here it goes. At point blank, my thoughts went woes. Felt my life fade, but time reversed. I'm back, looped and ever cursed. My men gon' sick, they turned menace. Time feels frozen, time feels endless Had my flintlock, here it goes. At point blank, my thoughts went woes. Felt my life fade, but time reversed. I'm back, looped and ever cursed. ------------------------------------------------------ I tried a more metaphorical heavy style..let me know what you think about it.

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Lyrics: (Tick- tick- tick- tick) Late at night, the clock cracks into my skull. Put up a fight and now the sound gets dull. The demons get closer and the thoughts start racing. Every damn night, the same dreads I'm facing. Pop promethazine, but no I'm not lacing. Shit don't do anything, prescribed, so ain't no tracing. I be taking meds so much, but honestly they don't even change a thing. The demon shreds through my brain, but I don't feel the pain, nothing. Every time I lay down, my head is flooded with unwanted memories. We've come so far with physical health, but mental we don't have no remedies. My head ain't silencing down, used to have headaches every day. Got numb to that, don't feel it now, but don't think it's away. My mind-state never changes and I push all help away from me. Don't want to talk about my past from face to face, that won't ever be. I just grab the bottle, need that whiskey taste. Don't take things laced, yeah whiskey ain't replaced. Only times I fall asleep fast is when I'm drunk to dangerous levels. Even tho my thoughts get more, I don't feel like they're the devils (at those times). I don't know how to cope no more. I drink and cry until my mind gets sore. Need to feel the booze fill up my core. Every time I drink, man I pour more. Pop promethazine, but no I'm not lacing. Shit don't do anything, prescribed, so ain't no tracing. I be taking meds so much, but honestly they don't even change a thing. The demons shreds through my brain, but I don't feel the pain, nothing. No drugs or therapy get me out of this. Waiting till my body fails, oh don't dismiss. I won't miss my life, it's always pain and at this rate I just can't stay sane. Used to drink like every day, but money caused me to now switch lane. It's not easy 'cause this makes me reignite my pain. I won't ever feel well, well but that's to be expected. There won't be so much time left until I get dissected. I've not been doing well for years and yeah that is the message. I'm just hoping for the end of all, for my own final passage.

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Lyrics: Try to swear off the booze, but I'm never quitting. Live close to the noose, the feelings stay hitting. Sick from the news, the pain of a murder in my own lines. Now I'm stuck blaming myself, should've seen the signs. (Man fuck this world) I know I'll never get over the pain of what you have done. Sit alone in the rain, look at my own gun. So stuck in my head, but I can't ever run. The past can't be changed, just so you know- there will never be new words between us getting exchanged. Man I know, I've been running circles in my head now. Time stands still here, can't think about what's ahead now. My eyes won't close I'm awake like every night. My thoughts I dread, fill me up with all the fright. Try to get out of my mind, but there's no light in sight. I don't sleep, oh my eyes be turning red. Devils in disguise, too many of them burning through the dread. I don't close my eyes at night, oh I can't stop the thinking. All the twisted lies and gain, of the things, they don't feel shame. People think monsters ain't real, but they're in human skin, you just need to peel. Murders, liars, all the kind, look at history, you will find. All seems distant till you feel- loss like that, and oh it's real. Pain takes over, sadness stays. Now you wait till the monster pays. But all this won't change the past. All their deeds will ever last. Got no mercy for they are evil, can't forgive a deed that's leathal. Friends, they die and I gon cry. Hope at least in heaven you fly. I miss the much simpler times, never thought about those crimes. People change and they change you. I just wish you didn't do- What you did still haunts us all. Hope she haunts you in your wall. I don't sleep, oh my eyes be turning red. Devils in disguise, too many of them burning through the dread. I don't close my eyes at night, oh I can't stop the thinking. All the twisted lies and gain, of the things, they don't feel shame.(x2)

Damn bro i love the love of my life to i hope she finds happy ess and stops trying to cotrol people love is more then that

Lyrics: I hate you, I love you, I hate when you smile. Every time I look at you, I'm right back in denial. Demons tank my soul, like I look right at Belial. I don't want to look at you, I know you are a liar. Personify my booze, Jacky's always by my side. We gon take a cruise, yeah, we gonna take a ride. Two wrongs don't make a right and I admit that, I don't hide. My body's taking damage, feel it right under my hide. Woah. I feel like the booze is wearing down. My energy is leaving me and now I'm feeling low. I don't wanna be this way, I act like I'm a clown. While honestly just wanna drop dead, I just wanna go. I don't got no energy, yeah I just always fake it. Down way too much Hennessy, every drop I take it. Won't somebody break me now, cuz I just lost my soul. Feel like I burn down to cinder, yeah, I gon take this role. They say there's so much beauty in life, but I can't see it. And they say with some duty in life, you gonna feel it. But I can't relate to all that, no I don't feel shit. Only thing I feel in this life, is being pulled into the pit. They say love improves your life, but all it ever did to me was traumatize. Since years feel so apathetic, with all my memories it's no suprise. Wish you never were a part of my life with all your lies. Witch took control upon my soul and now I crave solace, that's my price. It's crazy to think, that after all you did to me, from time to time I yet still blame myself. My mental was always a problem, but you made it worse yourself. Now I'm always downing bottles that I stack upon my shelf. I don't care no more, 'bout nothing, I don't care about my health. (It got me thinking) I hate you, I love you, I hate when you smile. Every time I look at you, I'm right back in denial. Demons tank my soul, like I look right at Belial. I don't want to look at you, I know you are a liar. (x2)

Lyrics: I don't feel real and the world around me keeps reshaping. The memories still stay burned in my mind, I ain't escaping. I don't feel save in my own skin, think I'm my own worst enemy. I just down the Hennessy, I know I got that tendency. It feels like I now lost the loose connection to affection. Oh I dread the cost of all the drugs, but with no plugs, it won't turn action. The only shit I take is tons of booze, that I abuse. Jacky is my best friend, in times of need, yeah near the end, my only muse. The funeral was hard for me, too hard to see, my eyes turned into oceans. Filled with hate and sorrow, part of me flowed through emotions. I don't ever felt the same, since you were taken from us all. I always feel the pain, I wasn't there to help you, now I always recall. Nowadays I always drown myself in all the booze. One day imma grab the rope and tie the noose. It feels like every glimmer of hope I had, is loose. Remember being paranoid, always checked the news. It feels like I now lost the loose connection to affection. Oh I dread the cost of all the drugs, but with no plugs, it won't turn action. The only shit I take is tons of booze, that I abuse. Jacky is my best friend, in times of need, yeah near the end, my only muse. I had many traumas before, but this one is bound to get the best of me. This one rips old scars open, and reveals the rest of me. If there was a higher power, is this you testing me? I don't stand for all this bullshit, I don't believe in your existence you see. Fuck all of this, I can't internally realize all this can be. I've went through pain too many times, Lost loved ones and friends too many times. Just want the rain to wash away the blood of my decaying body. Hope it'll all end, I hope it's very soon. Don't want life, can't cope, I'm stuck in a monsoon. I don't feel real and the world around me keeps reshaping. The memories still stay burned in my mind, I ain't escaping. I don't feel save in my own skin, think I'm my own worst enemy. I just down the Hennessy, I know I got that tendency.(x2)

Lyrics: I just gotta overdose. I drink until I comatose. No easy way out, I suppose. I'm getting there, I'm getting close. With the Reaper by my side. Take everything, take all my pride. So take me on my final ride, until I'm out of every sight. What am I...what am I doing? Everybody stays moving- while I'm.. Stuck in my cursed mind. I can't leave the past behind. I feel the weight on my shoulders, that's suffocating me. Small rocks turn into boulders, I'm blaming me for what I see. When I'm at the end of my wits, I'll be decoration for a tree. There's no way my life turns around, this is all I gonna be. I hope the Reaper takes me home, to somewhere with no burden. Take me into the shadows, where I won't feel a thing. I know that death is so uncertain. Take me to the gallows, I don't need to have some wing. Bottles in my room that never leave my vision. Drink until I'm fine, that's my own decision. I know the Reaper's always calling, but I am not alarmed. Pull me down until I'm falling, the only one to get harmed. I feel the weight on my shoulders, that's suffocating me. Small rocks turn into boulders, I'm blaming me for what I see. When I'm at the end of my wits, I'll be decoration for a tree. There's no way my life turns around, this is all I gonna be. I hope the Reaper takes me home, to somewhere with no burden. Take me into the shadows, where I won't feel a thing. I know that death is so uncertain. Take me to the gallows, I don't need to have some wing. Bottles in my room that never leave my vision. Drink until I'm fine, that's my own decision. I know the Reaper's always calling, but I am not alarmed. Pull me down until I'm falling, the only one to get harmed. (The only one to get harmed)

Lyrics: No I can not remember, what the happy feelings are like. Heart feels cold, like it's December, it's been breaking down my psych. Hard to tell when was the last time I felt truly free, at ease. My heads about to kill me, I will never feel at peace. Got a thousand unfixed traumas, all relating to fucked up people- that I felt for way too close and now I know I'll never find an equal. Got maybe a hundred people, I might never get to know. Because I can't bond with no new evil, all my problems will reshow. I'm far from good, I am aware of that, I never claimed to be a saint. Feels like I got blood on my hand, the crimson, my own floor I paint. I push everybody away from me, because I don't want them to see me suffer. Even with my friends I feel so lonely, even from them I take cover. For that, man I am so ashamed. Trust them the most, yet I don't trust em. My brain won't keep on moving, like a movie that's been freeze-framed. Don't gain any hope in myself, proofing I'm just a cause of mayhem. I wish I could just forget the past, past the memories we had. With all the fucked up things, don't sleep, I'll be dropping dead. Want it all to end so badly, I ain't save in my head. I aim for my own dome, that keeps on torturing me. Wandering thoughts that shouldn't ever be. I remember times where I could be talking 'bout "we". Now I'm always wondering, if the next day I see. I didn't always want to be so pessimistic. But honestly, I think I'm just being realistic. It's so much safer in solitude, but you gotta have people. My mind is a cage, that I won't ever escape. The thread to my life, it's always feeling so feeble. I know that one day, it's gonna be way too late. Got a thousand unfixed traumas, all relating to fucked up people- that I felt for way too close and now I know I'll never find an equal. Got maybe a hundred people, I might never get to know. Because I can't bond with no new evil, all my problems will reshow.

Lyrics: I be killing bottles, oh I'm feeling it. (yuh) Go full throttle till I'm hearing shit. (yuh) Man I thought I've been doing all this for fun. (nah) I bought my own lies, but now I wanna pull the gun. (yuh) Drag myself down -deep into the pit. Brag ain't my thing, no I- ain't feeling it. When the bottle's down, my mind state raising so much higher. Feel my throat burn inside, the booze igniting, I spit fire. Say what you want bout me, but don't you ever call me liar. Oh my brain's fucked up, I guess I just gotta rewire. Man I spill my guts, but people actin all the same. I'm so sick of this, yet I always take the blame. Just you make fun of me, but deep down know that you feel shame. I know you question your own choices, like what the fuck have you became. This is a monologue, man I'm just talking to myself. Well is it really me, can I just talk to my on shell? I know at the end of it, I'll be burning down in hell. Where I can't inhale, yet I be feeling oh so well. Well what ya' thinking now? I know you plotting a new plan. My wrist ain't blinking now, broke as ever, what a shame. Feel the heat in my mind, frying like inside a pan. What am I thinking, wow, feels like I'm my own worst bane. I feel it sinking down, the booze be running in my vain. I ain't thinking now, because the whiskey numbs the pain. Oh man, I've done fucked up, I feel my body booting down. Embrace the end of all, my mind will finally leave this town. Wish my body weren't too weak, to handle all those drugs. Man I won't ever tweak, got no connections, got no plugs. And I will never peak, cuz nobody cares for my damn music. Crazy to think it's my only way to vent, I really think it is amusing. With no plug in sight, the only thing that I'm abusing- Is the 40vol. ,yeah I am always boozing. I be killing bottles, oh I'm feeling it. (yuh) Go full throttle till I'm hearing shit. (yuh) Man I thought I've been doing all this for fun. (nah) I bought my own lies, but now I wanna pull the gun. (yuh)

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Lyrics: They say time heals all wounds, but honestly I can't relate. I pray the feels may gon' fade, but at this rate it gon be to late. It's either sorrow or feeling numb, feels like I can't decide. Intake the smell of the rain, as it covers up my pain. I can't be taking those drugs, end as another O.D. suicide. Always think about the jump, I ain't fit for suit and tie. The only tie I want is the one choking my throat. Solely die on my own, provocing thoughts in my dying dome. And endless rifts I might roam, Won't lie, I never feel at home. Hope I might wake up, another life, a world that may be mendet. But I don't take up with this bullshit, just want it all to end and- I don't want this life no more, because my mind be getting sore. Feels like I live my life like ain't this just a snippet till I end it, I adore nevermore. All people do is chase for bigger figures. Just like Neo, see through the numbers, it's depressing, pull the triggers. Feel like Jason, I might drown, in the tide of my emotions. Like the smallest wave at all starts to crash at cities near the oceans. I don't want to do all this no more I just hope y'all understand. That I'll fade away as I'm pill taking. Take my life, feel my body shaking. I say oh I- really wanna die. I can't take much more than this, like every night I wanna cry. I say oh I- intake the feeling of the storm. (yuh) Everyday I wonder when all my demons have been born. All the guilt I carry in me always weighs me down. I can count with no hands the amount of days that I I don't frown. I say oh I- really wanna die. I can't take much more than this, like every night I wanna cry.

Lyrics: I've been feeling anxious, I feel like they own me. Got me kneeling, got some tension in my soul. Lost in a state of disbelief and I might lose control. So please tell me how to, yeah tell me how to- Breathe! Cuz I can't exhale! Laying painstruck on the ground and feel my face getting pale.. Breathe! Feel my thoughts racing by! This ain't the way I wanna go. Wanna die while I happy cry. So just show me how to- breathe! Because the panic takes over. Makes me feel outta space with no suite and no damn rover. Please! Take me out of my sorrow. The gun to my head, I'll give it back, I'll just borrow. My body and home, full of demons that leech onto my soul. They way that I'm feeling makes me step out of role. Feel my brain catching fire, watch it burn till it's coal. Miss the times you were guiding me, my bright shining star. Now I feel like Jack Torrence, playing the shining star. My breath is freezing to ice, I feel my body turn colder. The way that I live, I won't get to be much older. Some times when I think, I start to think about old her. The things that she said, and all the things that I told her. The images that I've seen, stuck in me, fucking me over. Back then was so blind, felt like she's my lucky clover. Now I wish to turn back time and skip the point where I met you. Want to burn all I've known of you, while I loved, you planned a coup. Had trust issues before, but then you made them raise higher. So crazy to think, that back than I just admired, You were all that I had, at points that had me thinking 'bout the cut! I felt so save with you it took me long to see that you were fucking me up! And yet I think back...wonder why I turned so cold.. Wondering if I'm at fault for all that happened and the things you told. Well congratulations, I now will love no more, no, nevermore. I'm just waiting- for fate to take me and make me to gore, cuz in a world like this there's nothing that is worth fighting for, not anymore. I've been feeling anxious, I feel like they own me. Got me kneeling, got some tension in my soul. Lost in a state of disbelief and I might lose control. So please tell me how to, yeah tell me how to-

Lyrics: Yeah, know I'm hopeless and know that I am bitter. (just facts) Know I got more toxic traits than people on twitter. (it's x) The way that you pass me, I see you're the queen I'm the litter. All I can see now, is not for me, is for something bigger. Stick around for friends that I know would be better of without me. They can tell me what they want, but I will never stop to doubt me. I'm so stuck in my damn past. Left it's mark like iron cast. Try to move on, yet it feels ever closer. Try to act like I'm fine, yet I lose my composure. Since I try to be clean I think more of guns(to my head) Don't even want to do anything for the fund and stay (in my bed) Oh i know the way I frame me's sounding real bad. But I know- I'll be at ease when my head'll be full of lead. Looking down the double barrels like binoculars. Already planing how it'll end, while people my age try renting cars. Or people selling their souls to act like they're big stars. I know the last part is borderline me, but I stay grounded. Got no self worth, can't tell me you found it. You either have it somewhere burried in you, waiting to be awakened, Or you are like me, cursed from birth, already knowing the way it'll end it. Try to push on, but know one day I'll send it.. Looking down the double barrels like binoculars. Already planing how it'll end, while people my age try renting cars. Or people selling their souls to act like they're big stars. There will always be the things reminding me of the past, my mental scars.

Really cool brother!

Lyrics: They all act different, till they rip out your still beating heart. And when you tell them that you're done they act like they are being wronged. Man and yet I always wonder why we always grow apart. No way I get out of blaming myself even tho I'm not at fault. (we belonged) Try to leave the past behind, but it keeps creeping back. Hits me way too much, I fight for keeps in my bag. Hope my job will work out fine, cuz Confidence, man I lack. Hope that one day, all of my pain will leave me. But it's been stuck with me for years, it won't ever be gone. Keeps laying stones in my way, keeping me from who I want to be. I see no way out, I'm not sane, the gun to my head will soon be drawn. Every time I stumble on a bump of my life. I feel the wall shoot out the ground that won't stop to rise. Stuck in the room that holds all of the pain that i've- Endured for way too long, wondering when I'll pay the price. All my past relationships just made me stop even trying. All the manipulation, all the times that you were lying. I said, all that I need from you is honesty and honestly by now. I shouldn't even expect you to pull through with it, yet I took your word as vow. Every time that you failed, I felt like a clown. You just kept on playing me and I just played along. Nowadays I don't have a sense of where I'm supposed to belong. Yet people keep on asking me why I always seem down. (You just kept on failing me and I just played along. I don't have a sense no more of where I belong.) All my past relationships just made me stop even trying. All the manipulation, all the times that you were lying. I said, all that I need from you is honesty and honestly by now. I shouldn't even expect you to pull through with it, yet I took your word as vow. (x2)

Lyrics: I told you many times, that I don't know what I'm doing. Stumble through my own life, with no sense of where I'm going. All the mental scars that I hide, they now reappear, starkly showing. And growing, while I'm stuck in my own pit full of dispair. Stuck so deep, that I'm feeling way beyond repair. Yeah, know the past is behind me, yet i still can't see. Cuz' all those memories still bind me, still blind me. (Keep me stuck in my place) Tried so many times to rid my thoughts of it. But every time I try, I fly back into the pit. And honestly I don't even want to try no more. Cuz' everytime I do I fall back to the floor. Been here for many years with no light in sight. Don't even know if I even have any left inside. (well I might) Feels like when I'm back and kickin' My next step goes in the brick (in)- The next wall infront of me, Makes me feeling so sickened. Why do I try, when I know how much I wanna die. Most times I just wanna cry, But there's no chance when I fly, Back to the place where I'll always end. The loop won't let me escape (and) Pulls me on my knees, my mind bends, To all the sorrow, that never leaves, not tomorrow (or any other day) Because there is just no way, That I'll see much more than gray, On the horizon, on the bay. I think I'm losing more hope, the longer that I gon' tread along, There just ain't a reason, to torture myself so long. Spread out all my feelings on another damn hollow song, And honestly repeat so much, but you gotta understand. That's the way it's in my head, all day with no better end. If you hand me certain death, painless and forgiving. I'll gladly take it, hundred times over my living. Gut me all out, make use of what you can take. Yeah I know I won't need it, if I no more'll be awake. Abandon my flesh and abandon my spirit too, As long as afterlife is just nothingness, that's just like a gift to me. Don't think about it too much, I don't wanna just worry you. Go destined apart, that's the way I want it to be. (That's just like a gift to me. Go destined apart. The way I want it to be)

Lyrics: Stuck in a dark place, writing story's to bail me out. Tried for so many years, yet my old ink won't drought. My story's are just the way I see, Metaphorically my reality. Been stuck here so long and can't find the key. To finally feel like I want to be. There's no light in sight, beside the one inside my flashlight. How do I get out, what it take? The darkness burnout, Alan Wake. (How do I get out, what it take? The darkness burnout, Alan Wake.) All I do feels like trial and error, I can feel the terror. Of the thoughts too many times. Try to numb them with all the kinds. Just like Wake I am a dick. Pull in other people, make them sick. They got their baggage and I give them mine. Can't cope at all, like most the time. Smoking dope never helped me, 40 vol bottle, instead of smoking tree. Yeah the whiskey's on the rise. You know well, the money ain't the price. All the time you were playing nice, I saw through your cheap disguise (disgusting) Got me feeling like Alan Wake. Isolate and use everything, I take- all the substances I can get. Just to paralyze, for a time, my head. Shine a light into my eyes, Nobody home, drink on the ice. I dive in like Cauldron lake, I feel rotten, like the plague. Search the crow mask, grab the tape. When I find it, it's Opaque. Can't see shit down in the dark place. Grab the flashlight, feel my thoughts race. The dark presence shrouds me in. Makes me realize that I can't win. Mister Scratch is my dark twin. Well is he really, or is it just a part of me. It's my own fault that all I love just grows apart from thee. Am I the shadow of myself or who I always was? The light burns through my skin like I should know the cause- Of all the thoughts I suppress evermore. Back in the loop I'll always end up stranded at the shore. So back to the writes room to finish writing up my own demise. Stuck in the loop again and honestly it's no suprise. What one day I'll just have to wake up and internally realize. It's not a loop, it's a forsaken spiral that shall never rise. And like the spiral I too shall sink ever deeper. 6 Feet deep, the only person caring are the gravekeeper. And when I'm gone, will I be back stuck in the writer room? Only time will tell how things will be beyond my doom. (But for now i'm-) Stuck in a dark place, writing story's to bail me out. Tried for so many years, yet my old ink won't drought. My story's are just the way I see, Metaphorically my reality. Been stuck here so long and can't find the key. To finally feel like I want to be.

Lyrics: The pain of my thoughts, it's paralysing. I use my own lyrics, to analyze 'em. Feels like rain that's breaking your roof. And the meds that fail me are proof, I am beyond fixing, waiting for my next fixing. I ain't doing no mind tricking, Just so I'm thinking, I like wrists blinking and enjoy youth (such bullshit) Went to psychiatry with hope of getting better, but deep in me I already knew I ain't even scratch the surface of what I have inside. All the fucked up things I saw and lived through. I closed it all in and tried to hide- Everything about the time the family of my ex, yuh- Freaked out about me and then send a text. Talking 'bout how I'm the reason their daughter was harming herself. Grabbing bottles from her momma's shelf. Her cousin talked to me and said: "It's either you or me, but if you don't leave her I gon' kill ya or I kill myself!" (What the fuck?) All the pictures in my head of her self-harm, of her cut arm, of all the blood that spilt because of my existence. They really did a good job to Gaslight me to accept this so called truth with no resistance. And every time since then when I look in the mirror. I don't know who I am, if I'm the monster or the victim.(x3) Some years go by and I find trust again in someone with such a pure heart. Loved every minute with 'em, spend as much with 'em as was on the card. But then my brain started seeing correlations. With the memorys of past humiliations. And I started to freak out, destroyed everything we ever had. All of this because I seek out the traumas in my head. It took me long to accept, I will no more be worth of loving... Was codependent on all of them, without em felt like nothing. Without them felt so lost without the person that I'd trust. Pushed away everyone close to me, so they won't see I rust. So tell me am I even worth to have the good friends that I have. Left way too many broken, because of my wreckless paths. Man I am so damn done with all the matters in my brain. Want to spread em on the forest ground, so in time it'll be taken by the rain. I am such a shame and just- Want it all to end. See no hope in therapy or medication cause my brain just don't gon' bend. Nowadays I forgot everything, but past memorys feel so burned in. Lost my will to do what I love cause I feel like I can't ever feel the way I've been. Take these pills every day, don't even know what for. The way I live my life I'll end up stranded before my door. But there's no point in going in because It feels like- The pain of my thoughts are paralysing. I use my own lyrics, to analyze 'em. Feels like rain that's breaking your roof. And the meds that fail me are proof, I am beyond fixing, waiting for my next fixing. I ain't doing no mind tricking, Just so I'm thinking, I like wrists blinking and enjoy youth (such bullshit)

Sounds amazing brother!

Lyrics: We're all stuck here in this realm. But which side are you on? You either kill for the thrill or you are dead by daylight. My dead hard pushes me on. Leave you behind, I know it's wrong. But he got noed, man I know it, so you gotta understand. I got empathy, fight for the people. Mettle of men, I think I see Bill. Hope he's getting you out, but honestly I doubt it. Oh, we sniping with axes now? Hit the crouch to dodge it, perfect timing, now you take a bow. Plottwist, I fake the hit and counter it. Got tenacity, crawl out the way. Under a pallet, you'll catch a stray. Have my flip flops on. I struggle with much power so just move along. The guidance of my parents will make me hard to find. I could almost start to feel sorry, but honestly I don't mind. We're all stuck here in this realm. But which side are you on? You either kill for the thrill or you are dead by daylight. Hit you again with this dumb hook. I chill with Bubba, let him cook. We need no Netflix and chill. We make the BBQ and Grill. Sending chills down your whole spine. Hook up with Yun-Jin to write a rhyme. Got links with pinhead like his chain. Opened the box and now he came. But you gotta see the gain, even tho it will be pain. (You opened the box, and we came) Got lots of potential energy. Exploiters, my enemy. Report them so they see, they done fucked up, don't let them be. We are monsters, but keep it fair in square. Kicking the gen right over there. And I say pop pop pop goes the weasel. Legion got more family than Vin Diesel. And when I think I need some buddy's by my side. I just have to be the knight, You guys have nowhere to hide, if I dive you like a kite. Oh, whatcha say? Ok, I'm all ears. Got the mask, I am the hunter and I stalk you like some deers. And when you see the blight, You get hit, infectious fright. Buckle up, we take a ride. Play with my food, oh well I might. We're all stuck here in this realm. But which side are you on? You either kill for the thrill or you are dead by daylight. We got the champion of light, Rewrite the story, hope he might. Look at his pages in still sight. Gotta make it through the night. Are they dead by daylight? Or do they fight through the night. The horror, they wanna wake up. But they just get send back to the hub.