please don't kill yourself

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  • @meadowperkins3520
    @meadowperkins3520 4 ปีที่แล้ว +17989

    "People will miss you"
    I dont need people to miss me when im dead. I need them to miss me when im alive.

    • @thecshowdown184
      @thecshowdown184 4 ปีที่แล้ว +381

      Lol f yeah !!!! But Don't u think its going to be such a lost to the world losing someone brilliance as u ? My friend

    • @wertylasky2344
      @wertylasky2344 4 ปีที่แล้ว +98

      i miss you too

    • @wertylasky2344
      @wertylasky2344 4 ปีที่แล้ว +109

      Tsukuyovi you deserve to go to hell

    • @AK-jo8fd
      @AK-jo8fd 4 ปีที่แล้ว +241

      I understand how you feel and yes. People don't care until something big happens. I'm battling with the decision as well but I try to set up goals that I want to achieve or just little things that I want to experience. For example the next season of a show that I'm watching, the next album of an artist that I like. Hell even waiting to see the firework show that is held every 2-3 months. These little things are enough to keep me going. So maybe you could try it?

    • @vyalint
      @vyalint 4 ปีที่แล้ว +44

      Wertyla Sky we’re already on hell so...

  • @waltzing5
    @waltzing5 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4775

    "Dead people receive more flowers than living ones because regret is stronger than gratitude"
    ~Anne Frank

    • @nicolesmith43
      @nicolesmith43 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Yep

    • @androidgamerz9955
      @androidgamerz9955 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Yep that true but gives......☹️

    • @lord6411
      @lord6411 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      God this is cringe. Find a better hobby than being edgy on the internet.

    • @passtheboof8738
      @passtheboof8738 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      And then she died of typhus

    • @magicslave3066
      @magicslave3066 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      unfournately!

  • @arpanbhandari209
    @arpanbhandari209 2 ปีที่แล้ว +936

    "People don't commit suicide because they want to die, they do it cuz they want the pain to be stopped."

    • @theabominator2152
      @theabominator2152 2 ปีที่แล้ว +29

      True, no one kills them self for curiosity

    • @ariq109k2
      @ariq109k2 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      yh

    • @theabominator2152
      @theabominator2152 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@gabbyhmm5700 Sure! No problem

    • @TheFracturedfuture
      @TheFracturedfuture ปีที่แล้ว +9

      It's like being in a burning building and just wanting to jump.

    • @Audrey-mc4zp
      @Audrey-mc4zp ปีที่แล้ว +7

      @@TheFracturedfuture that’s how it feels for me right now..

  • @kirayamato6128
    @kirayamato6128 3 ปีที่แล้ว +233

    The sad part is that when your alive and your emotionally sad, no one notices and cares. But if you're already dead or commited suicide, people will only notice that you've been sad, alone, and deep down inside it hurts. Then they would care a lot. You know it's too late.

    • @isabellamccann7395
      @isabellamccann7395 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Exactly. Even if you just move out of town, suddenly EVERYONE cares. No one gave a damn when you were there......

    • @hdjksa52
      @hdjksa52 ปีที่แล้ว

      That's because none of the reasons not to commit suicide is true. Staying around in absolute misery until you die of natural causes makes no sense.

    • @BigJonahJ
      @BigJonahJ ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Hindsight is 20/20, they say

    • @xyzpeace7814
      @xyzpeace7814 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I think people should be more kind to others in real life, they will post about how u should seek help, to talk to someone,n the same people will let u down when u expect some kind of kindness from them so I have decided why to die for those who don't cares about your well-being n r ready to see your downfall n make u feel pathetic, will have to live for yourself

  • @Jessamine90
    @Jessamine90 7 ปีที่แล้ว +6465

    "Suicide doesn't take away the pain, it gives it to someone else".

    • @Jun-TheCosmicTraveller
      @Jun-TheCosmicTraveller 6 ปีที่แล้ว +351

      What if someone has no one in this world?

    • @SofiaSofia-we5lj
      @SofiaSofia-we5lj 6 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      Akhi Chakma Ranjuni exactly

    • @SofiaSofia-we5lj
      @SofiaSofia-we5lj 6 ปีที่แล้ว +72

      What if you don't have anyone

    • @wezzlyn
      @wezzlyn 6 ปีที่แล้ว +502

      living for other people isn't living

    • @h3834
      @h3834 6 ปีที่แล้ว +35

      Jessamine90 But sometimes it's worth it.

  • @gigii.m
    @gigii.m 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6605

    I wish i could give my life to someone who really wants to live.

    • @sake-bc5ul
      @sake-bc5ul 3 ปีที่แล้ว +148

      Yeah right! I wish I could give my life to my sister and brother and I die instead of them. It would have been much more ideal for my family

    • @hannahbanana7183
      @hannahbanana7183 3 ปีที่แล้ว +58

      I wish I could give my life to my great grandpa so he could see how much my mom hates me. Because I bet she wouldn’t be at my funeral

    • @langzhi1873
      @langzhi1873 3 ปีที่แล้ว +39

      Susmita Gurung hey there. I don’t know you but you’re more valuable than you think. Please live for your sister and brother, they would’ve wanted you to live a happy life

    • @langzhi1873
      @langzhi1873 3 ปีที่แล้ว +25

      Hannah Banana I’m so sorry to hear that about your mom but hey, you’re your own person and you deserve a good life, whether or not how your mom treats you

    • @anuranjana5927
      @anuranjana5927 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@sake-bc5ul donate your organ.lol jk...

  • @eak7895
    @eak7895 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +29

    I watch this the first time at 12 years old now rewatching at almost 22 so thank for keeping me around for 10 more years

  • @holly.sketches.melancholy
    @holly.sketches.melancholy 2 ปีที่แล้ว +244

    Why doesn't anyone ever think about how hard it is for the person who commits suicide.. why doesn't anyone ever think about their pain and how unbearable it is...

    • @MJ21295
      @MJ21295 ปีที่แล้ว +42

      Exactly, and why is there such a lack of compassion and empathy for what got them into that desperate position in the first place?

    • @Chiyloko
      @Chiyloko ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Exactly.. my family could give 2 fks abt me . I have not a single soul here for me . But I’m supposed to think about how they would feel ? How narcissistic.

    • @johnmurphy588
      @johnmurphy588 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Jesus loves you and wants to set you free from any bondages in your life! Call upon His name and He will save you!
      Believe in His death and resurrection and accept Him as your Lord and Saviour and be saved and abandon your sins and turn to Him!!!!

    • @johnmurphy588
      @johnmurphy588 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@Chiyloko Jesus loves you and wants to set you free from any bondages in your life! Call upon His name and He will save you!
      Believe in His death and resurrection and accept Him as your Lord and Saviour and be saved and abandon your sins and turn to Him!!!!

    • @Chiyloko
      @Chiyloko ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@johnmurphy588 I already believe In Jesus and have a relationship with Him love .. that dosent mean I don’t struggle with the spirit of suicide at times .. but thank you .

  • @jessysang1265
    @jessysang1265 7 ปีที่แล้ว +6981

    The line "I'm jealous of everyone who has a sister" really made the tears fall.

    • @emmahausler6138
      @emmahausler6138 7 ปีที่แล้ว +78

      Jessie Sang same. I can't imagine life without my sister and watching this just makes me appreciate her so much more. 😢

    • @nonono777
      @nonono777 7 ปีที่แล้ว +48

      Yeah I have a sister and a brother and it's always been the three of us, just imagining how sad they'll be makes me really sad

    • @PatrickCha13
      @PatrickCha13 7 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Jessie Sang man...

    • @alannacarlson6715
      @alannacarlson6715 7 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      That's exactly where I started crying too.

    • @Samoboo
      @Samoboo 7 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      I started sobbing at that part :'(

  • @kwispykwunchxoxo589
    @kwispykwunchxoxo589 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4393

    If only I weren't born. Then nobody would miss me because I never would've existed

  • @radovansurlak7445
    @radovansurlak7445 3 ปีที่แล้ว +178

    Suicidal people need to feel understood, cared about and have their emotional needs met - what causes someone to be suicidal is a high amount of emotional pain.
    This rational approach of saying "don't kill yourself, you'll hurt others" will create more pain and doesn't help the person feel understood or cared about.

    • @armybeef68
      @armybeef68 2 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      "Suicidal people need to feel understood, cared about"
      Can you please tell that to all the people I've talked to, no really, all the social workers, mental health workers, a psychologist, a psychiatrist, two veteran's groups, a VSO, I've had a social worker roll her eyes at me, I've had another one huff at me, I've had a veteran's group say they were going to fast track my information in, at my next appointment a month later they asked me what I've done so far, that's the place where I went to three orientations, that's after sitting there in tears not knowing how I was going to pay my rent, that's also the same place where I left a suicide letter on their door, never to hear back from them again, I also met a new social worker who said he wasn't going to let me fall through the cracks, he asked about the mold in my bathroom but never offered a solution, in fact I was told by the director, when I asked for help with my rent, said that because of the mold they might not be able to help me, but once again, no offer of help fixing the problem, I also begged from the new social worker, and I quote, "Please don't give up on me" only to not hear back from him in over a month, he also introduced me to a new counselor, he said she was great, that she would be able to help me out, that was on August 25th 2021, and never heard back from her again, no phone call, no email, no snail mail, absolutely, even after mentioning this to the counselor who introduced me to her in the first, I still have yet to hear anything.
      So yea, no one actually cares.

    • @Kick0a0cat
      @Kick0a0cat ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@armybeef68 how are you doing right now?

    • @M.j.7
      @M.j.7 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@armybeef68 I hope you’re still alive, or at peace.

    • @johnmurphy588
      @johnmurphy588 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@armybeef68 Jesus loves you and wants to set you free from any bondages in your life! Call upon His name and He will save you!
      Believe in His death and resurrection and accept Him as your Lord and Saviour and be saved and abandon your sins and turn to Him!!!!

    • @johnmurphy588
      @johnmurphy588 ปีที่แล้ว

      Jesus loves you and wants to set you free from any bondages in your life! Call upon His name and He will save you!
      Believe in His death and resurrection and accept Him as your Lord and Saviour and be saved and abandon your sins and turn to Him!!!!

  • @restlesswings9120
    @restlesswings9120 ปีที่แล้ว +101

    I'm tired of everyone putting pressure on me by telling me how others would feel if I'm dead. This is not about others, never has been. Pain is mine alone and nobody understands..

    • @sofiasammy6683
      @sofiasammy6683 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      You are right it is about you, you are the one with the feelings, you are the owner of the company and you are the one to make the decisions. But what will happen to the people that work at your company?

    • @sofiasammy6683
      @sofiasammy6683 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      The people that love you so much and care about you and think about you all the time? I am not trying to tell you how to feel but if you look at it as pressure instead of hope and happiness for those who care about you than you might put yourself in a deeper hole. It is YOUR pain and YOUR feelings, but those who love and care for you are there to help you through them.

    • @johnmurphy588
      @johnmurphy588 ปีที่แล้ว

      Jesus loves you and wants to set you free from any bondages in your life! Call upon His name and He will save you!
      Believe in His death and resurrection and accept Him as your Lord and Saviour and be saved and abandon your sins and turn to Him!!!!

    • @bpiya8743
      @bpiya8743 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      "Pain is mine alone and nobody understands." Not true. This--this very reason--is why humans came up with the idea of group therapy. I hope you pursue that option. Other people empathizing with you and working with you towards solutions in your life is the most natural thing possible.

    • @MariaRodriguez-we3dh
      @MariaRodriguez-we3dh 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      @@johnmurphy588 What if you´ve been calling upon His name for years but He hasn´t saved you?

  • @lacedpaw
    @lacedpaw 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1584

    ''I'm scared to live but i'm scared to die.'' -NF

    • @Andrea-jv3ur
      @Andrea-jv3ur 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Can i get a UwU. YEP I KNOW

    • @nathanwelch8383
      @nathanwelch8383 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Don't do it for has alot of good doors that will open up and you will walk in and have a good time.God bless you🙏

    • @PedroGoncalves-en8qp
      @PedroGoncalves-en8qp 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Get over your fear to live and have a good life

    • @petergriffin6152
      @petergriffin6152 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      @Pedro Goncalves
      Well gee I never thought of that

    • @sadycore__
      @sadycore__ 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I think I know you from an app called webcomic

  • @maddyharvey7414
    @maddyharvey7414 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2490

    Wanting to die but not being able to hurt your family...feeling even more trapped.

    • @Darts-kh2rs
      @Darts-kh2rs 6 ปีที่แล้ว +34

      Hey I am going through the same thing I have the Sam issues mabey we could chat and see if we could help eachothew it would be great to chat to someone else who understands. Please reply

    • @Dnd-Versatility
      @Dnd-Versatility 6 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Lee Nettleton idk if you got a connection. But if you don't mind. I wouldn't mind. Else I wish you all the good things I can wish you

    • @Darts-kh2rs
      @Darts-kh2rs 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      What ?

    • @Darts-kh2rs
      @Darts-kh2rs 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      What do ou mean

    • @Dnd-Versatility
      @Dnd-Versatility 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Lee Nettleton to chat and help each other. Idk if that offer is still on the table

  • @whatwasthereason1852
    @whatwasthereason1852 3 ปีที่แล้ว +94

    Not all of us have good family and not all of us have good friends :)

    • @vinaynambiar5836
      @vinaynambiar5836 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Yeah

    • @jamesmay8740
      @jamesmay8740 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@vinaynambiar5836 are you okay brother? I'm in a lot of pain myself so I definitely can't solve your problems but we can talk about what's going on if you want...

    • @oceanprincess8886
      @oceanprincess8886 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Yup same

    • @youranamvs8351
      @youranamvs8351 ปีที่แล้ว

      Well then the solution is simple. Love yourself. I promise things will change after you see yourself differently stop the pity party it won’t solve anything

    • @talaniel
      @talaniel 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@youranamvs8351Yeah, start with yourself and others might appear. And if they don't, well, then so be it!

  • @TheUnhappyporky69
    @TheUnhappyporky69 2 ปีที่แล้ว +39

    i dont think people realize how strong you have to be to pull yourself from that abyss, again and again. so if you have, im proud of you, and if you haven't, i believe in you.

    • @RyanBrockey
      @RyanBrockey หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      It is so. much. work. Over and over again. Just to return to that place and pull yourself back, solely for the sake of others.

  • @Jessie-cz8wx
    @Jessie-cz8wx 8 ปีที่แล้ว +2301

    The only reason I don't commit suicide is because I don't want my family to feel the pain I am constantly in

    • @elibjo01
      @elibjo01 8 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      +chanyeolseemysoul (i AM multi-fandom) me too

    • @just_lexys3970
      @just_lexys3970 8 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      same

    • @Gooner184
      @Gooner184 8 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      +Celler Door That's not exactly very helpful is it?

    • @Unknownuser15160
      @Unknownuser15160 8 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Saaaame

    • @Andrew-rz9hc
      @Andrew-rz9hc 8 ปีที่แล้ว +58

      +KurratRichard when I was 14 a girl in my grade had killed herself. I had only talked to this girl once, she said I was funny. I remember when I heard she died I checked Facebook to see if it was true and to my horror it was. It was a Saturday. That same monday I had school. And that Monday was the worst monday I have ever seen. Everyone, and I mean everyone was in tears. I have never cried in school before, but that day was the closest i was to tears. In my school of 1500 kids, it was dead silent all day. Huge football players stayed in the bathroom all day wiping there eyes because we literally ran out of tissues. This girl wasn't popular, she didnt have a ton of friends, but when she died, everyone mourned. So ik rite now u feel like the whole world is against you and if u were gone who would even care, but remember that person you said was funny, or smart, or handsome. They care. Their family cares. Their friends care. Their school cares. Someone cares. And theyloveyoumorethanuknow

  • @joots4342
    @joots4342 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2285

    if it weren’t for the one person who cared about me and loved me this comment wouldn’t be here

    • @Noah-lo9vb
      @Noah-lo9vb 3 ปีที่แล้ว +65

      Amen. It only takes one person.

    • @astrius4125
      @astrius4125 3 ปีที่แล้ว +65

      That person needs to be yourself. It's not a good idea to be emotionally dependant on others. Having friends, family, a partner who care is of great help of course, but ultimately, the only person who is never going to leave you is yourself.
      So, in order to get by, the best advice someone gave me was: speak to yourself as you would to someone you love. Start caring for yourself like you would for someone you love. Cheer yourself up, push yourself to overcome challenges, etc, as you would for someone you love. If you need to speak to yourself as if you were another person, so be it. Soon you'll realize you don't feel weak and alone anymore.

    • @smileyface8434
      @smileyface8434 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Same. They started crying- no, straight up bawling when I told them I was considering doing it. I don’t give a damn how anyone else will react

    • @smileyface8434
      @smileyface8434 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Oh and I created a hangout if anyone needs someone to talk to and let all the heavy feelings out :)
      hangouts.google.com/group/C8yHf2QigkZokPPW6

    • @supadrew932
      @supadrew932 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      What to do when you dont even 1 person who cares about you ..?

  • @HeyLiLiBaby
    @HeyLiLiBaby ปีที่แล้ว +18

    I’ve always struggled w the fact that i have to keep suffering so that the people who hurt me don’t have to

    • @tandzakhoza1086
      @tandzakhoza1086 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      The pain some ppl cause makes you think if you are worth anything anymore. They should know they caused it, and live w/ it

  • @TheFracturedfuture
    @TheFracturedfuture ปีที่แล้ว +165

    9 years later and I'm worse than when I thought I was at my lowest. Just remember ladies and gentlemen: when you hit rock bottom there's always a trap door that can take you even lower.

    • @imperfect880
      @imperfect880 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      So true man. There are a billion never ending layers.

    • @martabaski8967
      @martabaski8967 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      8 years here, there are bad days and there are good days. Survive the bad, enjoy the good.

    • @pyrykajan1921
      @pyrykajan1921 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Sorry, just don't give up!!

    • @pyrykajan1921
      @pyrykajan1921 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I Have also struggle a alot. It is good that you meet people and tell about your strugles
      so that you can get that huge rock from your back, because there are people that care about you. If nowbody else I Will 😄

    • @gael44444
      @gael44444 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      It always gets worse

  • @eatwurms69
    @eatwurms69 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5887

    no one cares until something big happens

    • @doragotdeportedbootsgotsad7561
      @doragotdeportedbootsgotsad7561 5 ปีที่แล้ว +199

      Thank you for saying this when no one else understood. I respect you

    • @mrwallen
      @mrwallen 5 ปีที่แล้ว +32

      Give somebody something to care about or stop whining.

    • @domrat1550
      @domrat1550 5 ปีที่แล้ว +156

      No one *shows* that they care*

    • @mrwallen
      @mrwallen 5 ปีที่แล้ว +42

      Wolfie no people really don’t care outside of immediate friends and family cause they have their own lives to live.

    • @domrat1550
      @domrat1550 5 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      @@mrwallen I know, I saying that family and friends care, it just isn't easy for everyone to show

  • @christ7545
    @christ7545 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1609

    “Im jealous of people who have a sister”
    I’m crying so hard right now.

    • @humanbeing2955
      @humanbeing2955 5 ปีที่แล้ว +28

      Suicide is different from all the other kinds of death, cuz you feel guilty of the way you acted every single moment towards them that may or may not be the reason of their death. The unanswered question of what the reason is leaves people devastated

    • @hmmmno9511
      @hmmmno9511 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I have a sister and she's so annoying

    • @simp8966
      @simp8966 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      I hate my sister she hates me too

    • @gachamustache6166
      @gachamustache6166 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Same my sister died only when she was in my mom stomach And There was me....

    • @redfather5342
      @redfather5342 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Trus me ya really don't

  • @ispeekdaword7612
    @ispeekdaword7612 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Watching this again in 2022. It still helps me change my mind, (thinking of my dad, wife and children) helps me reconsider. Gives me the strength and encouragement to keep living. Thank you

  • @nathiecher
    @nathiecher 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I still watch this every now and again to help me get perspective... thank you so much. Really, thank you

  • @diananjeri3608
    @diananjeri3608 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1422

    Do you ever get jealous of someone who's dead?
    You hear that someone died and you just wish it was you instead

    • @yosephine1722
      @yosephine1722 3 ปีที่แล้ว +90

      I heard a baby or a child died and thought to myself, how lucky they are to leave this world without have to suffer first. And ofcourse, it is easier for them to go to heaven cause they are still pure and clean without sin

    • @aldoushuxley5953
      @aldoushuxley5953 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@yosephine1722 most people do not suffer though.
      I have thought for a long time, that they just did not show it outwardly, but now I really am convinced, that most people are happy.
      And it makes sense, really there is no reason for me not to be.
      I just am not happy somehow

    • @yosephine1722
      @yosephine1722 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@aldoushuxley5953 I believe that no one living this life without suffering. And as you grow older, it just feels more real. But sometimes, it is a choice. To be happy or not. Sometimes you just feels so blue, you just want to cry. And it is okay. Some other times, you feel so happy, so hopefullnes, you believe you can live through this. And that is life. Actually, people not only laugh because they are happy. And also not only cry because they are sad. They do it because life goes on. To survive.

    • @optimusprime1848
      @optimusprime1848 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      yes.

    • @narayupita
      @narayupita 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I was so jealous to my dead dad

  • @WhittJanay
    @WhittJanay 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2798

    I watch this every time I’m close to the edge.

    • @lindsaymaroon9177
      @lindsaymaroon9177 5 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      W. Yell i hope you’re doing better❤️

    • @Diegocobos
      @Diegocobos 5 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Just dont do it!

    • @shazana2
      @shazana2 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I hate you.You are just lying to get attention.
      YOU FAKER! If you want a like from me like MY comment!!!

    • @EaglePlaneAnchor
      @EaglePlaneAnchor 5 ปีที่แล้ว +56

      @@shazana2 how do you know that person is faking the only mind you have control of and direct observation of is your own.
      FYI, there is something called psychological projection that people do all the time and many of us are aware of it.
      so you might want to stop doing this if you value your friend's career wherever you live because people know what you're doing.

    • @leavemealone5390
      @leavemealone5390 5 ปีที่แล้ว +31

      @@shazana2 Why would you hate someone when you don't even know them? You don't know what they're going through.

  • @monicas2461
    @monicas2461 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you, Anna.
    Your message has helped me more than you can imagine. I’m deeply grateful!

  • @benedictifye
    @benedictifye 2 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    Thank you so much for recording this, and for putting it up

  • @sooobiie
    @sooobiie 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1727

    6 years later and still, thank you a lot Anna.

  • @Cloverdb
    @Cloverdb 8 ปีที่แล้ว +3991

    I watch this when I feel shitty

  • @kateb7689
    @kateb7689 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    ive watched this a hell of a lot of times. still kicking. thank you.

  • @number-gz4vm
    @number-gz4vm 3 ปีที่แล้ว +66

    Kid: wants to die
    Schools: ur selfish
    Mom: mentally makes it worse
    Grandma: starves kid, doesnt let it go out etc.
    Granpa: rapes the kid
    Others: bullying and cyberbullying
    Kid: commits suicide
    Everyone: OML HOW WE DID ALL WE COULD HOW COULD SHE DO THIS FOR US SHES SO SELFISH

    • @Void_Dweller7
      @Void_Dweller7 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      Society: How could we possibly have missed the signs?

    • @Halal_Chadistan
      @Halal_Chadistan 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      @@Void_Dweller7 more like we wanted to miss the signs\

    • @theabominator2152
      @theabominator2152 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@Void_Dweller7 Also Society: anyways, let’s talk about the business and stuff.

  • @rafael_dp92
    @rafael_dp92 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2512

    The thing is, they only make you feel alive when you’re gone. They miss you, they love you, when it’s all too late.

    • @somiproductions
      @somiproductions 3 ปีที่แล้ว +24

      Exactly😭

    • @somiproductions
      @somiproductions 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@chupletyt fr,but it ain't our fault bro

    • @davidk7529
      @davidk7529 3 ปีที่แล้ว +88

      Because they don’t really miss _you,_ it’s only regret. They’re completely selfish. Spending emotional energy thinking about those kinds of people is what prevents you from finding the good ones. Break free and live _your_ life.

    • @rafael_dp92
      @rafael_dp92 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      @@davidk7529 exactly. It will eat them up, but they wouldn’t recognise it until it’s too late. The all they can do is regret about it.

    • @rafael_dp92
      @rafael_dp92 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I wanna disappear rn.

  • @rosefulton1197
    @rosefulton1197 4 ปีที่แล้ว +701

    I genuinely believe that my mother would not care if I died tomorrow.

  • @annibam7421
    @annibam7421 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Thank you for putting this out there Anna, this is exactly how I feel too ❤️❤️ I wish she had seen this.

  • @Leoniteowl
    @Leoniteowl 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    I came across this vid years ago when I was feeling pretty low, and didn't feel I had much to live for. I ended up watching some of your other videos and they were really funny. You helped me through a dark time but I never commented or said anything. For some reason I thought about you today and I just wanted to say, Thank You Anna! ❤

  • @Jul1ssa7
    @Jul1ssa7 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1137

    I’m jealous of everyone who has a sister
    I’m jealous of everyone that has people who care about them

    • @mrichmond459
      @mrichmond459 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      panthers 4ever same

    • @user-ln1bk6jd1f
      @user-ln1bk6jd1f 4 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      I care about you, you are a human being and were born for a reason 🙂

    • @jaypay1252
      @jaypay1252 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Same

    • @te_dhyzi4488
      @te_dhyzi4488 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I'm honestly debating

    • @gussy2103
      @gussy2103 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Me too. Some of us just have a shitty personality. Some of us arent attractive. Some of us are the scum of humanity. Theres level and I'm at the bottom. And I cant stand being there anymore.

  • @user-vc5rp7nf8f
    @user-vc5rp7nf8f 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2949

    Those suicide hotlines are worthless. I’ve called one once before when I felt there was no where to turn and I was on hold for twenty minutes. Eventually I just hung up. Better off calling Microsoft support or something.

    • @CrazyChaosClara
      @CrazyChaosClara 6 ปีที่แล้ว +381

      wow that comment made me laugh at first, but this is actually very troubling! hope you're doing ok?

    • @starhill6792
      @starhill6792 6 ปีที่แล้ว +268

      .m. So next time I want to die I should just call Microsoft?

    • @yivmaiden
      @yivmaiden 6 ปีที่แล้ว +92

      maybe they are taking care of someone that needs really urgent attention.

    • @user-el7xe8mt8w
      @user-el7xe8mt8w 6 ปีที่แล้ว +70

      i hope you’re okay. please be strong ❤️

    • @thegirl2405
      @thegirl2405 6 ปีที่แล้ว +147

      Ifkr! I was on the verge of snapping and just needed someone to talk to. Called three lines,each one was busy and one hung up on me while I was bawling my eyes out.

  • @danmosley4387
    @danmosley4387 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you for the courage in this message.

  • @yashiguptaa
    @yashiguptaa 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Sending love. This is so brave. And Thank you for making this. 💕

  • @LTHBful
    @LTHBful 7 ปีที่แล้ว +506

    My 11 year old nephew recently said to me "Aunty, don't die okay?" . This stem from his trauma with his mother who is mentally ill.

    • @ka-im5nd
      @ka-im5nd 6 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Damn. Give that kid a hug from me.
      My father is mentally ill and had been for most of my childhood. Hug him and tell him he isn't alone in that pain.

    • @annopdioatnieplpeeo4440
      @annopdioatnieplpeeo4440 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      There you go th-cam.com/video/nskj3uhv30Y/w-d-xo.html

  • @JaedenVic
    @JaedenVic 4 ปีที่แล้ว +307

    Death is an ugly truth and Life is a pretty lie.

  • @jungleng
    @jungleng 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I'm sorry for you loss. But thank you… i really needed this

  • @melodytaporco4133
    @melodytaporco4133 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    This is so raw and so real. I feel your pain fully. and I can see it will never go away. And that breaks my heart with you. Thank you for sharing your feelings anna, I pray for you and your family.

  • @lorisigl1977
    @lorisigl1977 8 ปีที่แล้ว +470

    you are a brave woman. thank you for sharing the pain of suicide of a loved one.

    • @michellema9644
      @michellema9644 8 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      +daustin8888 You're an idiot!

    • @noxiebobo
      @noxiebobo 7 ปีที่แล้ว

      +daustin8888 *beautiful

    • @duckiib
      @duckiib 7 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      daustin8888 not upset, just concerned what happened to you as a child that gave you permanent brain damage, now that is sad

    • @chaselucas4150
      @chaselucas4150 7 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Daustin is obviously a troll.

  • @abigailmundy4362
    @abigailmundy4362 6 ปีที่แล้ว +323

    I started sobbing when she said she’s jealous of everyone who has a sister

    • @jeepers6676
      @jeepers6676 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Abby Mundy I was already crying but same

  • @TheHazelBowden
    @TheHazelBowden 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you so much for posting, Anna. I really appreciate your openness.
    I’m sorry for your loss. ❤

  • @no-zs9yp
    @no-zs9yp 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    i just watched this for the first time and i know i’m going to be watching it literally like everyday

  • @HanBuuui
    @HanBuuui 8 ปีที่แล้ว +596

    Killing yourself doesn't ease your pain, it simply passes it onto someone else. A quote that I've heard someplace somewhere

    • @3m0k1d4evr
      @3m0k1d4evr 8 ปีที่แล้ว +24

      Life is pain. There is no escaping that.

    • @humanape4401
      @humanape4401 8 ปีที่แล้ว

      +Ralph Livingston theffuck you talking bout?! it's pain if you make it so, it's all up to you m8

    • @John-tg5vn
      @John-tg5vn 8 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      If I'm in pain and I shoot myself dead I'd no longer be in pain because I'd be dead

    • @banjoleb
      @banjoleb 8 ปีที่แล้ว

      +tinmedulin ?? his comment is totally true ... suicide does not ease the "pain" .. it just passes it onto someone else

    • @warren6977
      @warren6977 8 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Totally self-centered. Doesn't have a thing to do with someone else.

  • @johntakamashi6684
    @johntakamashi6684 7 ปีที่แล้ว +438

    With all due respect some people commit suicides because of their family

    • @evershumor1302
      @evershumor1302 7 ปีที่แล้ว +21

      They "think" they don't love them.

    • @elsaeffe7364
      @elsaeffe7364 7 ปีที่แล้ว +153

      +Evers Humor Some parents don't actually love their children.

    • @lsansb
      @lsansb 7 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      +Berry North Loving a child is human nature. But some don't know how to show it properly. NO parent in the world would be glad if their child was dead.

    • @nonono777
      @nonono777 7 ปีที่แล้ว +67

      Lol you know some people kill their kids?

    • @lsansb
      @lsansb 7 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Nonono I was talking about parents that are well mentally and psychologically. Of course sometimes a parent (just like any other person) can suffer from a psychological illness that would make them do unbalanced acts.

  • @javierelizalde4653
    @javierelizalde4653 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    So raw. Thank you for sharing. This is the good work you're doing here. So awesome...

  • @rebalstar9470
    @rebalstar9470 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    The beautiful anna akana you helped me alot through my depression and suicidal thoughts and i took tge time to listen to alot of your videos , you have a wonderful soul who gives alot to tge horrible world but in the end i beleive the thoughts of death and suicide are always there...waiting and now they have come for me...after a cheating wife and multiple hardships in my life at 40 i choose to exit this horri le world
    Thank you for trying your beat everyday anna to make people a little more happier

    • @Quackery415
      @Quackery415 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      dude, I know this is a long shot, but are you still there

  • @JessicasASMR
    @JessicasASMR 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1743

    I don’t necessarily want to die I guess, I just want to like not exist yknow?

    • @fyb_breanna
      @fyb_breanna 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

      I know..

    • @essewilliams
      @essewilliams 3 ปีที่แล้ว +28

      I feel you

    • @flowrepins6663
      @flowrepins6663 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      unfortunate we have to die and it will hurt unless you use drugs before. it is going to happen anyway the only thing that we got after birth is pain before death, only thing we get for sure in life

    • @tjbratcher6034
      @tjbratcher6034 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      @@flowrepins6663 Actually death isn't painful unless you die of painful means. I knew (still know but we don't talk as often) a guy who actually had a heart attack and died before being revived. I don't remember how long he said it was. He said he felt really calm and peaceful and after he passed (apparently he could tell) he just saw darkness, consciousness and darkness was his experience. Other people report a heaven-like experience while others report a hell-like experience. I feel like what you see after your death is entirely what you want to see and dependent on your beliefs.

    • @tropicalcandyland6266
      @tropicalcandyland6266 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      ME

  • @SyanIsBored
    @SyanIsBored 7 ปีที่แล้ว +4170

    Thank you.

    • @hhhilde_
      @hhhilde_ 6 ปีที่แล้ว +25

      This is the perfect top comment

    • @MYKI33334
      @MYKI33334 6 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      how is that helped you? it is just makes me wanna die even more.

    • @tutip0n
      @tutip0n 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      +MYKI well rip u

    • @chloeparent3044
      @chloeparent3044 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      MYKI please dont. I dont know you, but i care about you. Please get help if you are thinking of suicide. Please.

    • @mrwallen
      @mrwallen 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      SETTINGxSUN Just one less loser on this world.

  • @kylekeen3497
    @kylekeen3497 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I'm so sorry for your loss. Prayers sent 🙏 ❤

  • @Antolynch1000
    @Antolynch1000 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Thank you for your honesty. I think people don't realise the pain they cause their family and friends when they do that. I'm sorry it happened to your family and you.

  • @cristineromero2223
    @cristineromero2223 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2430

    still watching this in 2017 because these have the thoughts that help me live through life

    • @secret291
      @secret291 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Cristine Romero me

    • @omer0173
      @omer0173 6 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      i have them too :/ but we booth have to stay strong and fight right? promise me

    • @galleryg998
      @galleryg998 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Yeah, too true

    • @justinyes7005
      @justinyes7005 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      my situation is that when i was 17 yr old i complete my high school from Boston in us and then i decide to go to college but recently i got a call from hospital that my family-dad, mom and a brother are died in car accident ,now i see no hope, i want to kill myself

    • @aries6663
      @aries6663 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Hm do u have a chemical imbalance?

  • @RayserSilver199X
    @RayserSilver199X 4 ปีที่แล้ว +381

    "I'm jealous of everyone who has a sister"
    I'm jealous of everyone who has a loving family.

    • @christiangreen9125
      @christiangreen9125 4 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      Same
      Everyday I feel worthless and a distraction to everyone around me. My parents were talking me buying my own food even though Im 11. I might as well make not have to pay for me.

    • @davidhanna3453
      @davidhanna3453 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      You can have my sisters they hate me.

    • @RayserSilver199X
      @RayserSilver199X 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@davidhanna3453 I don't have sisters, so heck yeah I'm gonna take them!

    • @RayserSilver199X
      @RayserSilver199X 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@ilhamdarmasatriautama8016 I don't know about the others here, but I can tell you with a 100% certainty that I'm not okay!

    • @RayserSilver199X
      @RayserSilver199X 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@ilhamdarmasatriautama8016 I'm going to be honest, trust is what lead me down this road, thanks for trying anyway

  • @the_names_Lauren
    @the_names_Lauren ปีที่แล้ว

    I needed to see this.
    Thank you.
    Thank you for entering into my algorithm 💕

  • @sylvesterl.9617
    @sylvesterl.9617 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2160

    Wow I was NOT expecting to cry but boy oh boy

    • @Anerol3.2
      @Anerol3.2 6 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Sylvester L. Same

    • @mrwallen
      @mrwallen 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Maybe try toughening up a little. If a loser wants to off themselves there are still plenty of us left who want to succeed in their lives.

    • @taylorpower3862
      @taylorpower3862 5 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      mrwallen666 wtf is wrong with you

    • @dannyhere7013
      @dannyhere7013 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@mrwallen Do you think you are a Winner? You're definitely not.

    • @Parbruek
      @Parbruek 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Cool people don't try to be cool. And tough people know it's right to cry. There are things which should make you cry. If they don't, your emotions will die, and you'll have deeper mental problems than tears.

  • @raine791
    @raine791 4 ปีที่แล้ว +673

    I want help but I don’t want anyone to know that inside I’m dying

    • @bsbse1314
      @bsbse1314 4 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Same im cutting myself i dont have any friends or a caring family

    • @braelonwest6446
      @braelonwest6446 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Same

    • @bsbse1314
      @bsbse1314 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Braelon West do u have tiktok or sum to be my only friend

    • @tatianaelbeiktatianaelbeik6308
      @tatianaelbeiktatianaelbeik6308 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I understand u but plz do not harm ur self it will not make u any good it will make it worse believe me I tried it I harmed myself in different ways and it did not make anything much better

    • @tatianaelbeiktatianaelbeik6308
      @tatianaelbeiktatianaelbeik6308 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@bsbse1314why ur family died I cut myself cuz I hate myself and I got nobody but plz do not commit suicide

  • @simlist1706
    @simlist1706 2 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    My sister is in insentive care right now and I just can't understand anything. She made her first friend, she wore a beautiful dress... everything was really good cuz this little things was so hard to do for her. But she made it! She did her best. We were alone in home together when she overdosed. She came so happy to our home. And she lock the door. She was writing something so I didn't disturb her. And she said she will sleep. And my family came to house. And after 3 ours she came to my mom to take her hospital. I learned the truth when my mom came to the home. And her note was not for school, for her family. She says in the note that we are good people and we must taking care for our dog (her most precious thing is our dog. She loves her so much but I can't believe she leaves her.) She didn't write that she loves us. That note was just wrote for our dog.
    I don't know what I wrote. I just want her back. I want to come to my room and tells funny things and I want to laugh with her. I want to sleep with and watching old cartoons. I miss her so much. I want her back

    • @Yourlovelyslaughterer
      @Yourlovelyslaughterer 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I feel terrible and sorry for you, maybe one day you're gonna see her again in heaven, i hope you overcome the disturbing feelings, it's just the way every family member feel after losing one, i might be next but I'll try my hardest to keep strong and so do you, even though I don't really know you but i love you. you have to keep moving on in life, forget what happened in the past, even though it's hard to get rid of the thoughts about the worst that happened to her, but now a year later after writing this comment i really really hope you have overcome it. We are all in this together💜

  • @danapablaza
    @danapablaza 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you. Thanks for uploading this.

  • @fwvipra
    @fwvipra 4 ปีที่แล้ว +646

    They only care when you’re gone

  • @Bunny-qm9ns
    @Bunny-qm9ns 6 ปีที่แล้ว +157

    when she said she was jealous of people who have sisters I burst into tears. Anna, I am so sorry for your loss

    • @morenoreno3389
      @morenoreno3389 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      grashle solaman Same, I never realized how much my sister means to me until now.

    • @kaybee2798
      @kaybee2798 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      grashle solaman I’ve always wanted a sister just someone in my life that I can talk to and relate to have never had a real friend horrible boyfriend or even a real family member but I accept that fact because you only live once

  • @PolskaChild
    @PolskaChild 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Surviving Suicide was very eye opening to read, never have I or most likely other people thought of how deeply others would deal with loss not just the days after but months and the effects too.

  • @alyciaexmachina
    @alyciaexmachina 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    thank you for making this

  • @208Snik
    @208Snik 10 ปีที่แล้ว +126

    "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem."

  • @franfilms2313
    @franfilms2313 7 ปีที่แล้ว +1002

    I know this was really hard to make and upload but I'm so glad you did I really needed to here this and I know many others needed it to

    • @nohwas7746
      @nohwas7746 7 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Is that you in the picture if so you are a beautiful person god bless you

    • @klarajurisic4717
      @klarajurisic4717 7 ปีที่แล้ว

      Rua Rua

    • @peacefitnesspassion9163
      @peacefitnesspassion9163 7 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Fran Films I really needed this tonight .✌🏻️🤕

    • @brreelu5005
      @brreelu5005 7 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      *hear

    • @mooketsidichabe9145
      @mooketsidichabe9145 7 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      i am in botswana.but you so nice i want to be your frend

  • @LoveSickel
    @LoveSickel 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    whenever anyone tries to commit suicide and fails, they're typically made fun of for it, or their mental health is ignored. But when someone commits suicide and succeeds, everyone all of a sudden cares about them.

    • @SuperVladdrakula
      @SuperVladdrakula 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      "everyone all of a sudden cares about them." They _pretend..._

    • @godisonegodhaswon5957
      @godisonegodhaswon5957 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      LOGICAL Reasons against suicide
      FACTS TRUTHS and REALNESS
      1.) WHAT- None of us chose to be born what makes us think we can choose when to die?
      2.) WHO- nobody gets to choose their parents (trust me there is always someone with worse parents and better parents maybe Bill Gates parents?)
      3.) WHEN-nobody gets to choose when they were born (renaissance seemed cool)
      4.) WHY-Nobody gets to choose why they were born (to be a boddhisattva seems pretty noble)
      5.) WHERE- nobody gets to choose where they were born (Hawaii? Maybe fiji?)
      6.) HOW- nobody gets to chose how they were born (test tube baby is pretty original and rare)
      But we get to choose when we die? Doesn't logically follow sorry no religious reasons here only facts and logic
      THEO-LOGICAL Reasons against suicide
      Universal Spiritual Truths and Realness
      1.) Life could be a test experiment game or simulation either way even in the game the lemmings point is to save life not kill it
      2.) According to Hinduism the longest practicing religion in the world karma is real it is a universal law of the universe therefore if one kills himself it's exposing themselves to the negative cycle of reincarnation of rebirth and redeath or samsara one will never be able to achieve Moksha or liberation Simply put if you thought you had it bad in this life according to this belief system wait until your next incarnation
      3.) According to Islam if you kill one person it's as though you've killed all of humanity and if you save one person it's as though you've saved all of humanity killing oneself is not suicide but rather a homicide because you killed someone's son or daughter or brother or sister or mother or father that means murder
      4.) According to Sufism God loves us so much that he gives us today and tomorrow to make things right yesterday is gone but we still have a 2/3 to do better to hope for better and to try to live day by day
      5.) According to Buddhism life wants to live it just wants to end suffering the Buddha said the main way to end suffering was to let go of all of your wants and desires you want to be rich wanna be more beautiful you want to be smarter you want these things and you may not get those the Buddha said if you just focus on your needs you will find the end of suffering you need to have food you want lobster you need to have water you want cherry coke you need to have a roof over your head you want a mansion you need to have decent clothes over you want to be draped in prada silk you need to have love in your life you want lust
      endless wants will lead to suffering but if we focus on our needs we can lead to something manageable and sustainable.

  • @bethccj1886
    @bethccj1886 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I love the candor. Thank you, Doll. you kept me from hanging myself. Thank you.

  • @user-zk1fu7le4j
    @user-zk1fu7le4j 4 ปีที่แล้ว +192

    I wanna hug Anna Aknna. Imagine the pressure of people commenting and messaging you saying what should I do I want to die

  • @squidynk_
    @squidynk_ 6 ปีที่แล้ว +852

    Anna you saved my life
    Thank you

    • @nalajohnson1698
      @nalajohnson1698 5 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Same

    • @sofi9932
      @sofi9932 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      who gave u permission to make me cry?

    • @m4dison508
      @m4dison508 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Alexandro Hancock shut up?

    • @m4dison508
      @m4dison508 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Alexandro Hancock and ..

    • @jacklee9628
      @jacklee9628 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      I want to die

  • @gal5402
    @gal5402 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    TH-camr MELANIE MURPHY plagiarized Anna's pain and experience.

  • @Ryder44992
    @Ryder44992 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I needed this

    • @anonymousanonymous944
      @anonymousanonymous944 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      This message is even more inspiring: th-cam.com/video/j-kgtcTZEUE/w-d-xo.html

  • @jacquiemorataya248
    @jacquiemorataya248 4 ปีที่แล้ว +218

    When I think about suicide
    I think about my dog and how she will never stop waiting for me or understand that I'm gone, how she actually loves me and depends on me.
    I hug her and I just stay there for a while.
    It always works

    • @mamathemeat
      @mamathemeat 4 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      J. Morataya this is everything. That’s truly painful to think about your pets expecting you.

    • @belleniiut6034
      @belleniiut6034 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Soooooo trueeee that hits me hard when I think my dog. And even I felt I’m not what he derserve I don’t want to make him alive that confuse. Want to cry so hard

    • @syqi7573
      @syqi7573 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Same

    • @ulasonal
      @ulasonal 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      this is kinda a thin strand to hold on to. when she passes, please get a new puppy if this is your way of being happy. and you will help dogs too

    • @unuruupurewjaw2432
      @unuruupurewjaw2432 4 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      thats it dude you have a reason to live

  • @finery22
    @finery22 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1130

    Staying alive hurts because I’m unhappy and depressed most days but ending my life would hurt my family so much, they wouldn’t know what to do with themselves. The struggle is real.

    • @lumagabriela9315
      @lumagabriela9315 3 ปีที่แล้ว +29

      I understand you and your reason, but that isn't going to make u feel better. Find a reason to live life for you, and not for the others. Find something you enjoy that can't be taken away, therapy helps us to see things clearly and understand ourselves better to see that exists something that worth's ur time and dedication. Stray strong

    • @Freya1412
      @Freya1412 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      My family would be better off. I hold them back. They tell me I hold them back. I should just do it but I'm scared. I'm a coward. I'm selfish. I lie to myself that I can be of value but I can't do anything right. 😢

    • @blessing2577
      @blessing2577 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@Freya1412 hey if you would like to talk about it, you can snap me @whoami232. I just want to say, that you are of value and matter so much even if your family doesnt see it. Your friends will, your coworkers will and if you believe in God, the lord of host will. Every single innocent life is valuable and your life is one of value no matter anything.

    • @Shofargirl1
      @Shofargirl1 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Bin obsessed....
      I am sorry for what you are going through. I have been there but JESUS CAME INTO MY LIFE, and it changed everything! I am happy I lived.💕💕💕💕💕💕

    • @azzurrecloudshell9923
      @azzurrecloudshell9923 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Your life is a very valuable gift
      And you arent a burden to your family
      There will be great days ahead that arw worth living for

  • @kerriganqueenofblades7128
    @kerriganqueenofblades7128 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I’m so sorry for the position you’ve been put in, but thank you so much I, and many others I’m sure, really needed to hear the hard truth

  • @Wendy-dk1wu
    @Wendy-dk1wu 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    i’m sorry about your sister, i’ve lost a sister to a stabbing she was helpless, i also thought of suicide but would never want to transfer my pain to those that can’t handle it. sometimes just feels like i’m living to suffer so no one else does. maybe your sister just didn’t want to live in that type of mental state. i can see your pain and i’ll feel the same about my sister. just know she loves you and she was suffering deeply like we do now. just live for her and find the happiness she couldn’t i’m so sorry

  • @losijana
    @losijana 7 ปีที่แล้ว +1519

    "Everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it's not the end."

    • @marianisrocha
      @marianisrocha 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Nice profile picture.

    • @joanyhester1737
      @joanyhester1737 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      CappyBara OMG that's a quote from ed sheeran right?!? He is the best

    • @bernardosax
      @bernardosax 6 ปีที่แล้ว +40

      Sadly life doesn't work like that. Get real.

    • @user-dx6nv2on8h
      @user-dx6nv2on8h 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      CappyBara Quote to live by.

    • @divyasasidharan2960
      @divyasasidharan2960 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Lol so her sisters the end was ok?

  • @Esan.
    @Esan. 4 ปีที่แล้ว +569

    “I’m jealous of everybody who has a sister”
    I’m jealous of everybody who has a dad.

    • @minim8407
      @minim8407 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Me too... every time I see a guys with a kid hugging them I cry and cry...

    • @Mistfighter88
      @Mistfighter88 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      stfu u make no sense u dont wanna have a sister

    • @TCB630
      @TCB630 4 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Im jealous of everyone who has a mom

    • @crystalstar927
      @crystalstar927 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I'm jealous of everyone who has a brother.

    • @bigyikes8698
      @bigyikes8698 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Wow I’m really sorry to everyone here :(

  • @alexxw1697
    @alexxw1697 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    you are one of the bravest and strongest people out there. the guts it must've taken to make this would be enough to fill an ocean(not trying to be gross with that metaphor, but really, thank you so much)

  • @LordRuinous
    @LordRuinous 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +20

    It's ultimately that person's choice. Respect to those who go out on their terms

  • @jellyfish_pup
    @jellyfish_pup 3 ปีที่แล้ว +441

    This isn’t the first time I’m watching this and it won’t be the last. I’m at my lowest right now. Even wrote a letter. But there’s so many I’d need to write and even then, I’d miss people and ... you’re always right. You shock my mind into knowing how bad this idea is. Thank you... thank you for saving my life a handful of times.

    • @uwulegend7924
      @uwulegend7924 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      same with all of this
      hope you get thru it but i hope i have to die

    • @thex6860
      @thex6860 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      😂

    • @nikkimiddlekillsday5161
      @nikkimiddlekillsday5161 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Remember these very simple and important words: "Don't give up!"

  • @LUCKYBROOKS
    @LUCKYBROOKS 8 ปีที่แล้ว +446

    '' Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.'' - Robert. Schuller

    • @Deadflower20xx
      @Deadflower20xx 8 ปีที่แล้ว +36

      If you're like me and have clinical depression and deal with suicidal thoughts your entire life, then no, it's not a temporary problem. You either live your life suffering, or end it on your own terms. Yes, some people really do have it that bad. I hate that quote so much.

    • @LUCKYBROOKS
      @LUCKYBROOKS 8 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Shana - Thank-You for your insightful and well written response. I do not want to beguile you out of your very real pain with the thought that tomorrow all will be 'sunshine and roses'. I've
      experienced and felt the loss of depression and addictions. Yet, I have also seen and felt very real recovery and healing ..... My brother was about to be Institutionalized for psychosis and bipolar disorder when the 'miracle' drug clozaril arrived in the 1990's .
      Still, depression is so common in my family that we call it ''Irish Flu''! We've learned that when all Hope is lost that it don't hurt to 'Hope for Hope' and take things one day at a time.
      Remember that as it says in 'The Desiderata',
      . 'You are a child of the universe, no less than the trees and the stars; you have a right to be here. '
      Peace,
      Boston Jack .

    • @Deadflower20xx
      @Deadflower20xx 8 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Boston Jack Wow, I see. Well forgive my somewhat harshly worded comment then, I just get moody when I'm in that dark state of mind. Thank you for sharing that, that really is a beautiful quote.

    • @LUCKYBROOKS
      @LUCKYBROOKS 8 ปีที่แล้ว

      The Desiderata also advises us to 'nurture strength of spirit ....' please try to do this for yourself when you can and things are going OK. Just knowing there are people out there 'like us' can help a lot . Most 12 step meetings are 'open' and you may benefit ; if not just chalk it up to experience and move on .
      Many people have benefited by books like 'Man's Search for Meaning ' by Victor Frankl .
      I have sent copies to people in prison and have been greatly helped myself , over the years ... Although I am from an older generation - I enjoy the creative positive energy of folks like Anna Akana .
      Ichi Bon !!
      Peace,
      Boston Jack

    • @LUCKYBROOKS
      @LUCKYBROOKS 8 ปีที่แล้ว

      Change happens ...not always when , or as much as we would like, but some things DO get better. Try doing something positive ... A friend of mine from Chicago used to tell me to just 'take baby steps ' at first, yet he always seems to take things 'in-stride' and I wondered why ? - Turns out he is a CUBS fan !

  • @anarobloxandpicsart6138
    @anarobloxandpicsart6138 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you for this

  • @Zackerix
    @Zackerix 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    thank you so much for showing me the light.

    • @Zackerix
      @Zackerix 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      but i am still gonna kms

    • @Zackerix
      @Zackerix 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      hold up maybe i wont kill myself I just need to win this game of fall guys first

    • @Zackerix
      @Zackerix 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      WE UP

  • @hunitsteatime1201
    @hunitsteatime1201 3 ปีที่แล้ว +718

    “I don’t want to die , but I don’t want to live like this anymore” 🥺Is this just me🥺

    • @cronicaquaman9641
      @cronicaquaman9641 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Just remember you have the strength to get threw it nobody cares if you think about your thoughts or what you have done you can make up for it in the future you are loved you have a purpose god forgives ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @cronicaquaman9641
      @cronicaquaman9641 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      onisha oporajita read what I said

    • @healthylife8991
      @healthylife8991 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Me too

    • @cronicaquaman9641
      @cronicaquaman9641 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      HEALTHY LIFE plz read what I put

    • @amandaforrester7636
      @amandaforrester7636 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      No honey, it's not. I have felt it so many times, and it's been a struggle to pull myself out of the dark place. But i did. It's okay to live for something else for a while if you can't live for yourself at the moment. I lived for my dogs, because my dogs needed me and they wouldn't understand if I was suddenly gone. Its okay to take it one day at a time, as you put one foot in the front of the other. You can pull out of it, I promise. I didn't think I could but I did. Please stay. ❤❤❤

  • @MelodyLovelace
    @MelodyLovelace 7 ปีที่แล้ว +444

    I want to say: there was a suicide at my school a couple of months ago. For all of you down in the comments saying that your family wouldn't miss you and you have no friends who care about you - barely anyone knew this girl, but the entire school was shaken by her suicide. Everyone started seeing the evidence of mental illness around them. We all wish we could have gotten to know her a little better. I'm just saying, you are important. Everyone is important. Your life could touch another's for just a minute, but you could leave a lasting impact. And you're not alone. Just glancing at the internet tells you that there are so many people who feel the way you do, like they don't matter. But they do. You do. Think about all the miracles that had to happen for you to be born and to survive until this moment. I don't believe in coincidences: you are here for a reason. And I believe you can change the world someday, if you just believe you're enough.

    • @AppleyJuiceable
      @AppleyJuiceable 7 ปีที่แล้ว

      To go on living. For you. And to leave yourself dwelling in death, wasn't the best things for you. Honor the dead by celebrating life. It seem to help that person.

    • @billybones1050
      @billybones1050 6 ปีที่แล้ว +48

      Yeah, everyone cared about her... when it was too late

    • @taranbirsingh2927
      @taranbirsingh2927 6 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      BodyBeautyBrains I'm grateful to have read this. So insightful. May we all be blessed with the strength to keep trying.

    • @dolphinlover7001
      @dolphinlover7001 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      BodyBeautyBrains Thank You. Very inspirational and a similar situation happened at my school aswell.

    • @no-kf8yy
      @no-kf8yy 6 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      When the only notice you, is when you’re gone... But I’m sure no one will notice me when I’m dead.

  • @josh-yg4xo
    @josh-yg4xo 2 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    electric black man

    • @enricodev
      @enricodev 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      *YOU SHOULD (REDACTED) NOW!*

  • @chocolatepookie4792
    @chocolatepookie4792 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I’m so sorry you are going through this

  • @candy1315
    @candy1315 6 ปีที่แล้ว +488

    you explaining what losing someone to suicide feel like is literally how the suicidal person actually felt

    • @lianicole6456
      @lianicole6456 6 ปีที่แล้ว +105

      Exactly. Killing yourself doesn’t kill the pain, it just passes it on to the next able body. It expands it tenfold. It makes so many others hurt like you did, hurt so much that it makes them want to take their own lives too.

    • @itskarlasway5594
      @itskarlasway5594 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      True...

    • @ilovepizzavideo3364
      @ilovepizzavideo3364 6 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Candai No it's way worse trust me a year a ago I wanted to commit suicide I was cutting and i had eating disorders I cried myself to sleep every night then this year at January my mom committed suicide and trust me pain is not even enough to describe that it's way way way worse I don't think there is words to describe it. if you want to talk about it we can

    • @ilovepizzavideo3364
      @ilovepizzavideo3364 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Hannibal when someone you love die you can't even see the present not only the future

    • @nelsonvontitfuk1471
      @nelsonvontitfuk1471 6 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      If it was as bad, then you probably wouldn't be alive. Think about it. People are in so much pain they kill themselves. It's worse. Severe depression is so much worse.

  • @KidTama
    @KidTama 7 ปีที่แล้ว +603

    I don't want to die I just want the pain to end

    • @patriciamorrisclark6326
      @patriciamorrisclark6326 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Roy Gao i know the felling i want the pain to go away. I so want to die

    • @evelynrose2257
      @evelynrose2257 6 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Ive felt this way too. Its horrid. Bit when i was at my worst, waited one more day. And i was glad i did. Now years later i am married. I do have chronic depression, but i take medicine that helps. Its wonderful. I dont feel numb. I am not depressed. The numb to everything is when i was on the wrong depression medication, because like many things, one size does not fit all.
      So it may take some time, and you may not see it or feel it, but like the atoms that make up us and the stars, your potential is waiting for you to gather the strength to claw your way out of this black pit you have fallen in and althought you can hardly see the light, i can promise you that the day will come. You will get out of your pit. You may need help, and thays okay. Doctors, therapists, and support systems of family and friends are your rescue team and they will find a way down to get you. If they dont know you arw stuck, shout! Ask for help!
      And with that I wish you well. I do hope you are having a better day than yesterday. And hopefully tomorrow is bettwr. If not, well lets hope for the best. My thoughts are with you

    • @lina3932
      @lina3932 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      HEADSHOT just the way I feel ... sorry

    • @evelynrose2257
      @evelynrose2257 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      lina Elmasri Hey there Lina! I am sorry you feel that way. :( I would love to ask thought If you would not phrase it is a suicide positive light in reply to people who want to kill themselves? Thank you! Sometimes people come to videos like this as a last desperate cry for a reason to stay. And and They need love and a acceptance amd strength to push through the hard times.

    • @lina3932
      @lina3932 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      HEADSHOT thank you ❤️

  • @the.lorax.fan7
    @the.lorax.fan7 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    seeing you cry made me cry. im so sorry about your sister.

  • @jayjayswash2729
    @jayjayswash2729 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Even though I don't know your sister which was a wonderful person I could more than imagine. (Rip)I was thinking about it myself and truthfully some this opened my eyes abit, I don't really think anyone else would miss me but my son is 6 and I think he will not be the same if I did it. To feel invisible, or rejected, not really have a social life to go out with friends. To know that no one really loves you. I mean it does hurt alot and I thought by doing this it would be the easy answer thankyou so much for sharing your story about your sister I know I cannot not imagine what it's like cos I don't have siblings but I know it must of been the fcking toughest thing ever to be open about. wishing you could comfort them and say don't do it before they go and do it. Thankyou your the first person that actually made sense which is weird cos we don't know each other lol.

  • @remichloelewis6657
    @remichloelewis6657 4 ปีที่แล้ว +194

    Has anyone here ever heard of this quote from a song before? “Funny when you’re dead how people start listening.”

    • @saskiak4957
      @saskiak4957 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      If i die young...I hear this song a lot and this line is true. Something big has to happen so they start looking for signs they missed.

    • @the_username_is_taken
      @the_username_is_taken 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Which?

    • @remichloelewis6657
      @remichloelewis6657 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Bryan Ponce the song is called If I Die Young - The Band Perry. Look the song up on here if you’ve never heard of it before.

    • @lorainebejar2837
      @lorainebejar2837 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      I love that song.

  • @hidinginmyroom2656
    @hidinginmyroom2656 7 ปีที่แล้ว +385

    I don't want to hurt people
    But I am hurting .

    • @The_Skrongler
      @The_Skrongler 7 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Then lets find a way to make you feel better so nobody involved is hurt or dead. It's harder, sure but worth it especially for you.
      Maybe part of it could be telling the people who you are helping by staying alive, maybe they can help you right back.

    • @hidinginmyroom2656
      @hidinginmyroom2656 7 ปีที่แล้ว +28

      Thank you :)
      I got so depressed
      To the point I wanted to
      Commit suicide today
      But- I watched a suicide video.I saw a lady jump from a 500ft hotel building.
      It scared me.It broke my heart.
      I can't do it.I don't want to do it.
      I promised my pets I would always be there for them.
      Last night i wrote a 5page suicide note to my sister.
      Shel never get to see it because,I won't die.I want to live.

    • @kentakunai
      @kentakunai 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Live life to its fullest. Enduring pain and conquering hardship is what makes you whole.

    • @LuisaRiviera
      @LuisaRiviera 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I hope the pain has stopped for you.

    • @nightcrow3920
      @nightcrow3920 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Hiding in my room same thing I said when I was on it

  • @jrv559
    @jrv559 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    She's fucken strong to come out here talk about something so hard to touch up on 🙏 God bless her 🙏

  • @terrancejohnson4361
    @terrancejohnson4361 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    "All of those people who love you"
    So no one? Got it.

    • @ismaelmarksteiner
      @ismaelmarksteiner ปีที่แล้ว

      Hey, how are you? :)

    • @johnmurphy588
      @johnmurphy588 ปีที่แล้ว

      Jesus loves you and wants to set you free from any bondages in your life! Call upon His name and He will save you!
      Believe in His death and resurrection and accept Him as your Lord and Saviour and be saved and abandon your sins and turn to Him!!!

  • @Ejejesksjs
    @Ejejesksjs 3 ปีที่แล้ว +763

    Isn't life pointless? No one knows why were here.
    Another thing is we didn't ask to be here, so we shouldn't be forced to live here.

    • @vic3451
      @vic3451 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      Deep.

    • @pixie9255
      @pixie9255 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Very true

    • @lisar252
      @lisar252 3 ปีที่แล้ว +59

      What?? Noo!! That’s exactly why you’re here. To find your purpose. To find out why you were put on this planet. And once you find that reason you’re supposed to live through it! Please don’t dwell in negativity and self pity, it’s not worth it and it’s a waste of time (this is coming from someone who was severely depressed and hit rock bottom but is thriving now)

    • @azzurrecloudshell9923
      @azzurrecloudshell9923 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      I used to think that way too
      But i relized that the less i thought about that and focused on the current i started feeling much better. Just focusing on anything else made me feel better but what really did the trick was going out and actually doing things. Volounteering, hanging out with people, going to the red cross, taking walks while paying attention to natures little details, working out, doing any sort of artsy diy stuff etc..

    • @arnolda2823
      @arnolda2823 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@lisar252 thank you so very much for this , you don't know how much it helped me