Finally! A song that talks about something that everyone including myself can relate to. It's so deep I actually cried because I'm dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts too.
rated princeton you're not alone. Don't let those thoughts control you. I'm dealing with it too. I feel the exact same way you do about this song. Just know you're not alone!! Keep ya head up homie, people like me need people like you, like us. Just so we know we're not alone. I gotchu homie.
I struggle through the same myself... I'm here if anything, we are all here to help each other in this world some struggle with the issues mentioned in the sing, those need an extra bit of help like myself
Team Breezy. i feel. i used to but my friends stand there for me i used to get bullied but my friends help i hope u feel better your not alone ❤❤❤❤❤😭😭😭😭😭😭
The thing most people dont know about deep depression is you reach a point beyond feeling sad you go numb and sadness is a release because it just feels good to feel something
Yep, I'm there and its only when something hits you so strongly that you can feel emotion. It happened the other day but even though I was incredibly saddened by it, I could only shed 2 or 3 tears, couldn't even properly cry. Nobody should let it reach this point, so don't. It's a point of no return, so get help while you can.
Apathy is always the last stage before suicide. When someone who's dealing with depression suddenly starts to act 'happy', it usually means that they've already decided to kill themselves.
My friend committed suicide not long ago, I listen to it everyday because it’s relatable to those who are having trouble dealing with depression. Man it's so unfair! It's unfair how people can put someone down so much that they don't wanna be on the earth anymore. I hope everybody going through depression gets better and lives a happy and joyful life This songs so deep and meaningful.
I don't know who needs to hear this, but the sun will rise tomorrow. Its rough, it feels horrible, but feelings are temporary. Don't let this feeling define you, live for the sunrise tomorrow. It's hell but I know you have the strength to push through until it doesn't hurt so much anymore. You can do this
Them and my son! Before my son I had no purpose. In your situation don’t forget about YOU. Don’t leave this earth ever. You are worth it. Better days will always come.
Keep thinking that way. Hold on to everything that's keeping you here. Ik some people try, and push people they care about away in Hope's they wont miss you, but they will. My dad was always there and put up with so much shit, just to see me better. Now I'm doing ok and moving on from those dark times. I hope someday you, and everybody else will too.
Apathy is always the last stage before suicide. When someone who's dealing with depression suddenly starts to act 'happy', it usually means that they've already decided to kill themselves.
It is true though. When you try to reach out to others instead of getting understanding you get this pity from them that's so disgusting and what's even more disgusting is that they have the gall to bring you up to other ppl and actually laugh about it. How is that ok? Don't tell me that you are praying for me that I'm on your mind and in your heart when it isn't true. The lyrics in this song hits home for me because I know the feeling that horrible sinking out of sadness and anger feeling. All doctors want to do is drug you up but does that really solve the issue? Just like the song just leave me be.
carolz88 i think it's worse when all you want is someone to talk to but people are afraid to talk because of what you might/could do. Like you feel so lonely inside and you think that talking to people might just help but no one else understands and think you just need alone time, when in fact that's proably worse.
The fact that you don't believe people who say they're praying for you is sorta selfish. You claim that others don't understand you, well then you understand them either. You don't know how they actually feel about you if you don't try to get to know them. I'm just saying, there's two sides to this coin.
Sad thing is I don't even get the pity. I would rather the pity over what I get even from my own family. I hear things like bro why you depressed? There ain't no shit wrong with you. There are people out there with far worse problems than you. You've had it easy. That's what I get from everyone. Right down to my own mother. But they all tend to forget I was bullied growing up because I was different (I'm autistic). I was beaten and raped by my adopted father for 13 years. Had to drop out of college to join the army to get away from my families wide spread drug use that's was dragging me into their legal issues. And a bunch more that has simply just made me tired of everything. Meds never worked in fact things got worse on meds. And again nobody ever wants to listen to me. And the ones that do listen it's hard to Express myself in words because of the social anxiety that stems from the autism. I would even take pity from people over living in silence any day because away least it means my loved ones would be somewhat listening even if they didn't really care.
I used to listen to music like this in silence (using earbuds). But from the beginning of 2016 I've been playing it out loud trying to get my parents attention on being depressed. I would just tell through talking to them, but I'm just scared. I want to give up on life but I'm just to scared and don't have enough courage. Everyday I think about things that a person shouldn't think of. I just want to be happy, I haven't had that feeling since 2011.
Don't be scared. There is always someone who will help. Please, get some help. It's okay to tell them. Everyone that loves you will be distraught if you left this world, and they'd probably end up feeling the way you do now. Please. Tell someone. Get help, friend. ❤
What you need to focus on in this song is the second part of this song. People will miss you when your gone whether you did it to yourself now or in many moons of old age. Thats fact, everyone has a light and someone who care about them. Think of how people would react to it. Would you wanna be the cause of that much pain. I assume you feel deep and pain is the last thing you wanna cause but thats what that choice would do. Think of how much peopel care about you to hurt as bad as they would if you went. That gives you value right there. You are important and are needed by people and the world needs people who feel that deep and care about em enough to go through such pain and not discount it but actually feel it to that level. Thats whats missing right now. You have a lot to share just in the depth of what depression and suicide is. I say this all because I have been fighting a part of myself which wants me to end for over a decade. I see you posted this ayear ago and i hope to all that is out there that your still with us.
Jeffey’s Mom - I am so sorry for what you have gone through, and continue to go through. I have a child who battles sadness and depression every day. I almost lost her to medication toxicity due to too many doctors. I hope you are doing better. 😟💙
This song hits me so hard, every time I listen to it, I start to tear up. One of my best friends couldn't deal with the depression. I'd talk to him about it because I dealt with it all my life as well. We would talk every day about life what we want and how if we had kids, how we would raise our kids to be kind and respectful. One day I got a call from his number and it was our other friend crying. I instantly knew why... I fell to my knees crying... I immediately drop what I was doing and scheduled a flight to go half way through the country to see him... I miss him dearly I wish he was still here.. but I know that he's at peace now and not suffering from the demons that tortured his heart. I'm tearing up writing this... but I hope, no i pray whoever deals with those same demons. Prevails and finds something worth living for. You have people that love you deeply. Don't ever think otherwise 😢🙏🥺
I always get emotional the first verse, especially the part " *I don't wanna die like this, I never pictured my life like this,* But they dont know what its like, like this. *Pretending im happy so i can smile like this, and laugh like you. Sometimes i wonder if i ever act like you.* Could i finally fit in and maybe relax like wooh. *Or would you feel lost without me, cuz honestly i think the world is better off without me* "
hey random person reading this, i don't know what you going through but if there's only thing i know then i know that after evey dark night, you'll see the sunrise, no matter what!! i know life can be really hard sometimes, maybe most of time but you can make it it better because you are ALIVE THATS SO FUCKING WONDERFUL there are so many things you can do, just have the faith in yourself. SAVE YOURSELF, "its not a war easily, but its a war worth having". there's so much strengh inside you. its okay if you feel like to be not okay sometimes just know this won't last forever and it doesnt have to last forever. you're much stronger than that. find your own light, make your own light, be your own light!! ❤ you're wonderful and i suck im sorry-
you dont suck... you are an amazing person for saying this... i have been going through too much rn and you just helped me feel better... i hope you can get the same messege from anyone who cares. you are wanted. you are loved. please dont leave. you matter.
This song came out during a dark time in my life, the barrel was looking mad friendly. My cousin sent it to me because she didn't know how to tell me how she felt about it. I'm still here. For her. And the people that need me. Yall are stronger than you think. There's always a ear ready to listen. I'll pray for yall fr 💯
listening to this song helps me when i'm going through a depression episode. it keeps me going. bipolar disorder is just another one of life's obstacles i must face.
I recently came across this song because i was in a horrible mental state. I wanna let anyone who’s depressed or feel like giving up, youre amazing. You have flaws but thats what makes you fit in, youre beautiful, amazing, special, and unique. The emotional pain u feel rn wont last forever, that happiness you crave will make its way to u. Let’s not encourage people to take their lives, but encourage people not to, you can be the reason someone’s happy. You live 1 short life, dont make it a 30 sec ad, demons would do anything to hurt you, dont focus on that. I love you all, stay strong
I listen to this nearly every day and I get chills every time. As someone who nearly took his life twice, I saw both sides. I've been suicidal since I was 8, and I used to always try and find my way out. I just thought it would be easier, and I also see the other side as someone who has saved people who have tried to kill themselves. This song speaks to a lot of people and I'm so happy that rappers and other artists are finally speaking out about something the world has been shunning for so many years. Suicide and depression are big things in this world and there are many people out there who just need help, whether it be counseling, medicine, or just a friend.
My uncle and dad and two of my best friends committed suicide over the years...this song makes me cry everytime. I love how he has verses from both point of views and expresses the emotions, anger, and sadness perfectly when someone you love takes their own life.. RIP dad..RIP Uncle Glen.. RIP Aaron...RIP Gomez.. rest easy no more pain..
ANYONE listening to this and feeling this way.. I LOVE YOU! WORLD NEEDS YOU. Since a tour overseas i have found myself many times thinking yesterday outweighed tomorrow. trust me, it never does. Keep at it family, you got this. Life GETS BETTER!
I relate so hard to this song, even after all of these years of listening to it - both sides of the story, too. I am both the person thinking that the world is better off without me, and also the angry/devastated/ashamed/lost/confused older sister who’s little sister ended her own life. I can feel both what it’s like to be the person that’s a mass of emotions, weighted down by grief and a broken heart, with so many words still left to say to her, questions I’ll never get to ask anyone, but the universe - but I also know what it feels like to be her and feel the type of things that she felt and how sometimes I can’t even think about how severely it really does impact those you leave behind, because I’m so numbed by it all. This song is POWERFUL.
I'm so sorry for your loss, I hope you can heal from her loss and heal from the depression that plagues your mind. The world is a better place with you in it, never forget that
I was thinking the exact same thing. I’ve felt depressed and helpless like the first verse, and upset like the second verse because now I know what it’s like to lose someone that same way.
I was drinking alone one night under the patio and this song came on, on spotify. It was like a wave of everything I've ever kept bottled up inside went through me. I threw that bottle at the ground as hard as I possibly could. I started crying so hard. The first half of this song is everything I could ever possibly think of to say, to anyone summed up in a few powerful sentences. I'm 21, I turned 21, June 2019. I have a 9 month old daughter as of today typing this. To this day I think about leaving this place. I think about how everyone will hurt, but I also think about how much I've hurt and how much I've put up with. At the end of it all I tell myself someone has it way worse. I feel like my problems are beyond any comprehension. I keep everything to myself. I try to talk to my daughters mother about how I feel but she doesnt care and I dont expect her or anyone to. I never did. It just hurts a lot and sometimes there's no relief.
My ❤️ goes out to ALL of you going through it, I went through it and one day I got another chance to be a mom and this little girl saved me, this song went out to my family once and I died once and was mad at the person who brought me back. Today I thank him. I’m sober I have a little girl and her daddy with me, god walks with me and that’s all we need ❤️🙌
Bullied for 8 years straight ever since I was 8. No one ever stood up for me and for the longest time I thought I was worthless. I tried ending it in 8th grade by jumping in front of a fast car on a highway. Selfish of me? Yes, it was very selfish. It would've traumatized the person in the car but at the time I didn't think of that. The car slowed down and I only got minor bruises and a dislocated shoulder. I took it as a sign that maybe it wasn't my time to go yet. Though I'm still depressed and all the emotional and physical scars are still there, I still feel worthless and hopeless and really hate myself but at least things are a bit better now. I might not have a lot of friends right now and I might not be getting the emotional support I need I'm still in a better place now. This song really capsulized how I've felt for the longest time. I love it
To anyone who reads this, please stay alive. You're wanted on this earth. I may not know you personally but I still care about you & want you to be here on this earth. I love you & I know that things are hard but please keep going. You're enough, I know you're tired but please keep pushing.
Ive dealt with suicidal thoughts since i was 11 im 29 now and i srill struggle daily i feel like im not good enough. My buddy took his life in 2019 and i miss him daily. It has gotten worse since he passed, i keep thinking maybe if i reaxhed out hed srill be here. He convinced me to get sober in 2018 right before i had my daughter and he never got to meet her. Shell never know rhe bright light he was. I truly understand both sides of rhis song in my heart i believe eveyone would be better off without me and i also hold so much anger and grief over his passing. One day ill meet you again David and ill tell you all rhe things i want to now. Ill tell you how much i love you and how wven though youve been gone for years your my brother.
i used to listen to this three years ago when i really wanted to end it all but this song kept me from doing it and now im here in 2020 and listened to this after a long time & sang to the whole thing no mistakes.... i'm glad to be alive and if youre reading this and are thinking about it, dont do it. you will miss out on a lot you have a lot to live for and people here love you.
Getting into Joyner, saw this when I looked him up, wanted to see the lyrics, and I see that a lot of you all are relating to him, and to that I say: I’m not in the same boat, and I’ve never been suicidal, but I hope you know someone’s out there thinking of you, and I hope you feel better soon. :)
My son Manny committed suicide exactly 3 weeks ago Oct 11th 2023. This song relates to his letter and his brother Rick and he is going through a ruff time him and his sister. Prayer
You'll get through it. Everyone will. It will get better. It just takes a minute. Love yourself more than you love other people. You need to love yourself more. Trust me, it will help.
This song hits home for me since, trying to take my own life I’ve been fighting a demon & I still have him on my shoulders everyday telling me I’m not good enough & now that I’m living a normal life that it’s not normal anymore, and whispering things in my ear that others are saying but I sit there & pray 🙏🏼 to God I’m sorry for all my sins, give me the strength, the wisdom & the courage to fight him off he leaves me for a little but he always comes back even harder. Just know there are others going through the fight, Your never alone. He’s just one prayer away ❤️💯🙏🏼
This song usually helps but I guess I've become so numb, the pain from my throat being squeezed and my body going out of consciousness feels like a long awaited dream and I'm ready to go. Keep your heads up homies💯 I hope you all rid of your depression coming out alive
Hey Vance I know this comment was made 3 weeks ago. But I really hope you’re okay reading your message I can tell you need the support You may feel that nobody cares about you anyway but there are people who will care if you allow them to care for you. I care deeply that you are thinking of ending your life, that you see no hope, no alternative, but something so final as death. I’m not sure what country you live in but please get the suicide prevention hotline I really hope you’re okay I’m sorry you’re going through this I promise there’s always light at the end of the tunnel you were made for this world for a reason you just need to find it we can go on that journey together I wish you the best brother I really do please reply to this so I know you’re okay. If you have any social media please lmk so I can talk to you and understand why you feel this way, I promise it’ll get better please stay safe much love ❤️
Get your head out of the bullshit music. Music affects us in all different ways. Depression and life circumstances are hard, but so u feel like killing yourself?
I’m so grateful this song exists, depicting both sides. Makes me thank the universe all my attempts failed. Sending love to everyone having thoughts like this like I am, remember they’ aren’t true. You are loved.
Such a good song. My best friend committed suicide bc she thought that her mom and dad didn't like her, but they cried when I showed them a text that said I'm done with my life tell my mom to check my room 😓😓😓😓😔😭😭
[Dusk NightwingxRainwing] why u gotta make me cry. thats so messed up. (check my room) if i was u..... i would have been 24 hours crying. im sorry for your lose... love from UAE
Im going to miss you bro, you didn't deserve the life that was given too you and I wish I could have brought you out of that darkness, I wish I could have said more..... I wish we could have finished those plans that we made, you was like a lil brother to me man... I know you are living on through me and my memories so ill keep pushing through the darkness because you wasn't given the opportunity to do that yourself. Im so tired of loosing people ugh... I should have been a better friend, now im standing alone wishing I done more and I cant let that happen again. Fly high brother, I thought the world of you and knew you where just fighting your demons but I never hated you, I always told you id be here for you but I should have taken more initiative... damn.
for those who don’t know and being negative ..this song is told in the view of his friend who took his life as well as his emotions on how he felt about what happened
This song really hits home for me. It's feels sometimes that people are affread of diffrent people. When really being diffrent is a good thing and we should incourage it and not half to hide it and who we are
Someone once told me something that truly spoke to my soul. Even though I battle demons every day I'm still as kind, understanding and forgiving as I can be, even to complete strangers. He told me "Why would you be so selfish to take a love like that away from this world?"
Crying dont make you weak. It show you have true emotion, it releases everything in you, anger, sadness, etc. It makes you feel better, to be out there. Its ok to shed a tear or two.
Came to this video so i could learn the song 100%. I get so wrapped up listening to Jyoner that I forget what the words are. Thanks for putting this together to give me something visual to go off of. Definitely going to follow this dudes career and see what kind of magic he creates through the years.
Three years later and this song couldnt be more relevant than ever. Its Extremely relatable on both sides of the story of suicide. Hearing this for the first time it hits deep and brought feelings to the surface I've tried for so long to keep down. Puts feelings that are impossible to say into words eloquently. Much love to you all out there going through the pain and struggle of depression ❤ let's get through this
Stay strong everyone....even if you don't feel loved or even supported to someone you're so special!! You just don't see it...BUT YOU ARE LOVED! Tell Yourself someone loves you.....give yourself a hug....cry....you have every right to.....You are the best thing that has ever happened to someone in your life I promise you!
As someone who deals with feelings like this, I need to put this message out there. The world is too big to be better or worse off without you. You aren't a big deal to the world. You are a big deal to the people close to you though. Let them love you, and allow yourself to live for their sake if you can't do it for yourself right now. Don't be as selfish as I nearly was. Be better today than you were yesterday, and better still tomorrow than today. Persevere, because I know you can, because you know that you have to for them.
I've been depressed for so long now and now that I found this song I listen to it everyday and it somehow makes me stronger each day letting me know there's always a light at the end of the tunnel even though it gets longer and longer as I take more steps for me to finally be HAPPY again
The lyrics and music definitely put tears in my eyes because of the shit that personally been through. And that's why I don't want no friends because I'm too depressed and I know that they would talk shit about someone who doesn't have anything 😭
Anyone who is going through depression or any mental disorder or are having suicidal thoughts, please do not give in to the devil’s thoughts. There are people who love you so much it may seem hard to believe but trust me if you just open your heart you will find someone that cares so much for you. There is over a billion people on this Earth there will be a handful of people who care so much about you, don’t just freeze your heart from everyone bc you’re afraid of getting betrayed because we grow stronger from the pain caused that is how we heal from accepting the pain inflicted by moving forward from the past to the present and the future. If you ever need someone to talk to confide in a suicide hotline, a friend, a family member, or me because I will make sure to answer even if I don’t know you. Bc i have gone through things and have experience things I wish I hadn’t but these events made me who I am so I’m growing from it slowly but surely. Thxs for reading this 💋
anyone struggling with mental health: you are more loved than you can possibly imagine. the world is better with you in it. please keep going. ask for help. u deserve to create a wonderful life for yourself. sending u all the love.
i just lost my brother today do to a very unexpected OD that nobody had any idea about and now this song is weighing on me heavier than anything right now.... i didnt think this emotion could be captured into a few rapagraphs but then again, youre a lyrical genius.....god bless joyner and i hope i can find some peace soon...
I know it'll prob never happen but joyner man I pray some day I can sit down with you and thank you. You for real saved me with this song man. And my kids from growing up without a father. You're a blessing and I want you to know you saved a lot of people with this and I'm so grateful for you. Keep up the great work 🙏🙏🙏🙏
If it wasn’t for my little brother or the people that need me I wouldn’t be here but it’s getting harder and harder to fight depression everyday and continue to act happy.
God damn this hits deep. I hate all these youtube comments, honestly. But I just wanted to put my 2 cents in. There's a reason to keep going, but it's different for everyone. This song really brings out those feels. Right now for me it's music. Tomorrow it's explroing the the world. The day after? We'll see. Imma take it one day at a time.
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Finally! A song that talks about something that everyone including myself can relate to. It's so deep I actually cried because I'm dealing with depression and suicidal thoughts too.
rated princeton you're not alone. Don't let those thoughts control you. I'm dealing with it too. I feel the exact same way you do about this song. Just know you're not alone!! Keep ya head up homie, people like me need people like you, like us. Just so we know we're not alone. I gotchu homie.
I struggle through the same myself... I'm here if anything, we are all here to help each other in this world some struggle with the issues mentioned in the sing, those need an extra bit of help like myself
Team Breezy. i feel. i used to but my friends stand there for me i used to get bullied but my friends help i hope u feel better your not alone ❤❤❤❤❤😭😭😭😭😭😭
Team Breezy I can relate I listen to this everyday I have really bad depression I feel you
What about 1-800-273-8255
The thing most people dont know about deep depression is you reach a point beyond feeling sad you go numb and sadness is a release because it just feels good to feel something
Idk if I'm there but I've gotten past the point where I'm just sad but most nights I'm sad for no reason and it feels good to feel something
I dont feel anything at all. My thoughts is really f up i can't think straight.
When u go through this your mind gets fu ked up i am going through this
Yep, I'm there and its only when something hits you so strongly that you can feel emotion. It happened the other day but even though I was incredibly saddened by it, I could only shed 2 or 3 tears, couldn't even properly cry. Nobody should let it reach this point, so don't. It's a point of no return, so get help while you can.
Apathy is always the last stage before suicide. When someone who's dealing with depression suddenly starts to act 'happy', it usually means that they've already decided to kill themselves.
My friend committed suicide not long ago, I listen to it everyday because it’s relatable to those who are having trouble dealing with depression. Man it's so unfair! It's unfair how people can put someone down so much that they don't wanna be on the earth anymore. I hope everybody going through depression gets better and lives a happy and joyful life This songs so deep and meaningful.
Unlucky man, I feel bad for you, losing a friend must be tragic honestly
I'm sorry for your loss 😢
Im sorry for your loss it must be so tragic to loss a friend, stay strong
My stepdad sent me this just before he committed suicide so I know how it feels so sorry for your loss x
Thank you everyone
i cried... its good to let your feelings out every once in a while
David Cuellar hell yeah
the lyrics hurt more than the song itself I hope someone didn't commit suicide when they hear this song
David Cuellar most of the time when I do I get pushed around people at my school tell me to kill myself before
Braden Sharpensteen dude I'm sorry to hear that
so did i
I don't know who needs to hear this, but the sun will rise tomorrow. Its rough, it feels horrible, but feelings are temporary. Don't let this feeling define you, live for the sunrise tomorrow. It's hell but I know you have the strength to push through until it doesn't hurt so much anymore. You can do this
Saved my life thank you ❤
You ever feel like ending it but you can’t bcz of your parents or your family 😔
Them and my son! Before my son I had no purpose. In your situation don’t forget about YOU. Don’t leave this earth ever. You are worth it. Better days will always come.
Stephanie Rodriguez everyday.
I only stay cuz of my grandma and sister.
Keep thinking that way. Hold on to everything that's keeping you here. Ik some people try, and push people they care about away in Hope's they wont miss you, but they will. My dad was always there and put up with so much shit, just to see me better. Now I'm doing ok and moving on from those dark times. I hope someday you, and everybody else will too.
since i was 1
It hurts even more when you can't cry.
I swear to god , the tears fall in the inside
Yh, it really takes so much more to be able to show your sadness when you cant cry. Not showing it just makes you feel so much worse too.
Apathy is always the last stage before suicide. When someone who's dealing with depression suddenly starts to act 'happy', it usually means that they've already decided to kill themselves.
I cry almost 4 times a week if I can but there's times I wanna cry and won't. Those are the worst parts.
For real I have had a lot of things happen in the past months that have made me numb I literally can't cry and I want to so bad
The swinging between being angry and being compassionate when he's talking to him is beautifully accurate.
Joyner Lucas is opening up people's minds. #Knowledge
It is true though. When you try to reach out to others instead of getting understanding you get this pity from them that's so disgusting and what's even more disgusting is that they have the gall to bring you up to other ppl and actually laugh about it. How is that ok? Don't tell me that you are praying for me that I'm on your mind and in your heart when it isn't true. The lyrics in this song hits home for me because I know the feeling that horrible sinking out of sadness and anger feeling. All doctors want to do is drug you up but does that really solve the issue? Just like the song just leave me be.
carolz88 i think it's worse when all you want is someone to talk to but people are afraid to talk because of what you might/could do. Like you feel so lonely inside and you think that talking to people might just help but no one else understands and think you just need alone time, when in fact that's proably worse.
The fact that you don't believe people who say they're praying for you is sorta selfish. You claim that others don't understand you, well then you understand them either. You don't know how they actually feel about you if you don't try to get to know them. I'm just saying, there's two sides to this coin.
carolz88 well said..... Well fucking said
I can relate! They don't even care when I tell them, so I don't bother telling them anymore.
Sad thing is I don't even get the pity. I would rather the pity over what I get even from my own family. I hear things like bro why you depressed? There ain't no shit wrong with you. There are people out there with far worse problems than you. You've had it easy. That's what I get from everyone. Right down to my own mother. But they all tend to forget I was bullied growing up because I was different (I'm autistic). I was beaten and raped by my adopted father for 13 years. Had to drop out of college to join the army to get away from my families wide spread drug use that's was dragging me into their legal issues. And a bunch more that has simply just made me tired of everything. Meds never worked in fact things got worse on meds. And again nobody ever wants to listen to me. And the ones that do listen it's hard to Express myself in words because of the social anxiety that stems from the autism. I would even take pity from people over living in silence any day because away least it means my loved ones would be somewhat listening even if they didn't really care.
I love how he puts 2 sides in one story 😭❤️
I used to listen to music like this in silence (using earbuds). But from the beginning of 2016 I've been playing it out loud trying to get my parents attention on being depressed. I would just tell through talking to them, but I'm just scared. I want to give up on life but I'm just to scared and don't have enough courage. Everyday I think about things that a person shouldn't think of. I just want to be happy, I haven't had that feeling since 2011.
TheGamingSheep Suicide is never the answer. Keep your head up, you're never alone.
Blackdrian tell them if something goes wrong you have people following you and standing next to you
Don't be scared. There is always someone who will help. Please, get some help. It's okay to tell them. Everyone that loves you will be distraught if you left this world, and they'd probably end up feeling the way you do now. Please. Tell someone. Get help, friend. ❤
that is very good to know
What you need to focus on in this song is the second part of this song. People will miss you when your gone whether you did it to yourself now or in many moons of old age. Thats fact, everyone has a light and someone who care about them. Think of how people would react to it. Would you wanna be the cause of that much pain. I assume you feel deep and pain is the last thing you wanna cause but thats what that choice would do. Think of how much peopel care about you to hurt as bad as they would if you went. That gives you value right there. You are important and are needed by people and the world needs people who feel that deep and care about em enough to go through such pain and not discount it but actually feel it to that level. Thats whats missing right now. You have a lot to share just in the depth of what depression and suicide is. I say this all because I have been fighting a part of myself which wants me to end for over a decade. I see you posted this ayear ago and i hope to all that is out there that your still with us.
This is WAAAAY better than Logic's 1-800 in my opinion.
Sean Sanders Jr. FACTS¡
They both amazing
These songs ain't for being compared
Yes
More rap
More words
More feelnhs
Waaaaayyyy better
Sitting here sobbing. I lost my son Jeff Maurer to suicide. RIP Jeffey! 3/6/89-10/8/16
MsDawn Burton I'm sorry for your loss. ❤💔
Thankyou.
Your son was only 11 days older than me. My condolences.
Jeffey’s Mom - I am so sorry for what you have gone through, and continue to go through. I have a child who battles sadness and depression every day. I almost lost her to medication toxicity due to too many doctors. I hope you are doing better. 😟💙
@@krznarbg if you ever need to talk message me on Facebook Dawn A Burton ie Jeffey's Mom
this song makes myself feel guilty for ever having the thoughts of leaving.
I'm An Actual Cancer Cell My Mother Should've Aborted holy shit your name 😂
awes0mee (: i
awes0mee (: same sometimes I just wanna die and then I think of how devastated my mom would be
I feel the same way.
Stay stong, everyone's here for you 💯
This song hits me so hard, every time I listen to it, I start to tear up. One of my best friends couldn't deal with the depression. I'd talk to him about it because I dealt with it all my life as well. We would talk every day about life what we want and how if we had kids, how we would raise our kids to be kind and respectful. One day I got a call from his number and it was our other friend crying. I instantly knew why... I fell to my knees crying... I immediately drop what I was doing and scheduled a flight to go half way through the country to see him... I miss him dearly I wish he was still here.. but I know that he's at peace now and not suffering from the demons that tortured his heart. I'm tearing up writing this... but I hope, no i pray whoever deals with those same demons. Prevails and finds something worth living for. You have people that love you deeply. Don't ever think otherwise 😢🙏🥺
who else cried ?
Me ):
✋
me
*tried
This reminds me of someone very close... And the verses are on point about everything I want to say and felt when I lost them
I always get emotional the first verse, especially the part
" *I don't wanna die like this, I never pictured my life like this,* But they dont know what its like, like this. *Pretending im happy so i can smile like this, and laugh like you. Sometimes i wonder if i ever act like you.* Could i finally fit in and maybe relax like wooh. *Or would you feel lost without me, cuz honestly i think the world is better off without me* "
1:09 same.
The last line of that for sure, I just relate to it too much
Me too. Everyone close to me would be better
I cry every time I hear this. His brother's whole first verse fucking kills me. Hits too close to home.
The second verse is the ONLY reason why I haven’t killed myself 💁🏽♂️
Michael Shields hope you’re okay fam
To this day, that remains true for me too
Stay up.
It’s been a year, are u doing better friend ?
@@xanuell what if he commited suicide and wasn't able to reply
This is deep as fuck
hey random person reading this, i don't know what you going through but if there's only thing i know then i know that after evey dark night, you'll see the sunrise, no matter what!! i know life can be really hard sometimes, maybe most of time but you can make it it better because you are ALIVE THATS SO FUCKING WONDERFUL there are so many things you can do, just have the faith in yourself. SAVE YOURSELF, "its not a war easily, but its a war worth having". there's so much strengh inside you. its okay if you feel like to be not okay sometimes just know this won't last forever and it doesnt have to last forever. you're much stronger than that. find your own light, make your own light, be your own light!! ❤ you're wonderful and i suck im sorry-
Thank you.
Proud Luedizer
THANK YOU ❤️
@proud luedizer thank you your comment really helped me
You do not suck your comment really has helped me and my cousin thank you. God bless you and your family.
you dont suck... you are an amazing person for saying this... i have been going through too much rn and you just helped me feel better... i hope you can get the same messege from anyone who cares. you are wanted. you are loved. please dont leave. you matter.
This song came out during a dark time in my life, the barrel was looking mad friendly. My cousin sent it to me because she didn't know how to tell me how she felt about it. I'm still here. For her. And the people that need me. Yall are stronger than you think. There's always a ear ready to listen. I'll pray for yall fr 💯
listening to this song helps me when i'm going through a depression episode. it keeps me going. bipolar disorder is just another one of life's obstacles i must face.
If you Google the lyrics of this song, the first thing that appears is the number to the suicide hotline.
That's not true I just tried it
Imma tey
That's not true
This comment is 2 year old, OFC IS NOT GONNA SHOW UP NOW.
@@t6w233 ohhhhhhh 9k
I recently came across this song because i was in a horrible mental state.
I wanna let anyone who’s depressed or feel like giving up, youre amazing. You have flaws but thats what makes you fit in, youre beautiful, amazing, special, and unique. The emotional pain u feel rn wont last forever, that happiness you crave will make its way to u. Let’s not encourage people to take their lives, but encourage people not to, you can be the reason someone’s happy. You live 1 short life, dont make it a 30 sec ad, demons would do anything to hurt you, dont focus on that. I love you all, stay strong
💯
I listen to this nearly every day and I get chills every time. As someone who nearly took his life twice, I saw both sides. I've been suicidal since I was 8, and I used to always try and find my way out. I just thought it would be easier, and I also see the other side as someone who has saved people who have tried to kill themselves. This song speaks to a lot of people and I'm so happy that rappers and other artists are finally speaking out about something the world has been shunning for so many years. Suicide and depression are big things in this world and there are many people out there who just need help, whether it be counseling, medicine, or just a friend.
My uncle and dad and two of my best friends committed suicide over the years...this song makes me cry everytime. I love how he has verses from both point of views and expresses the emotions, anger, and sadness perfectly when someone you love takes their own life.. RIP dad..RIP Uncle Glen.. RIP Aaron...RIP Gomez.. rest easy no more pain..
hey man are u okay?
"Cause honestly, I think the world is better off without me" honestly everyday i think this.
larissa Andrews same
Me too I'm crying my eyes out
You're beautiful! You have things to accomplish!
I hope you’re okay. Please stay strong💛
I’ve thought that since I was a kid
ANYONE listening to this and feeling this way.. I LOVE YOU! WORLD NEEDS YOU. Since a tour overseas i have found myself many times thinking yesterday outweighed tomorrow. trust me, it never does. Keep at it family, you got this. Life GETS BETTER!
Coming back to this song & crying because life feels extremely hopeless & pointless.
:(
Alyssa Flemming I feel you
Always pray
@@mcdoneitcrago4722 I personally don't believe in prayer, but I appreciate the suggestion anyway.
Stay strong! You’re not alone. Your life has meaning❤️
i like this song. not only because i can relate to it somehow but also because its a really good song with how he sings it
rapping not sing ;)
In this type of music u rapping not sing
mooremoore yeah
Every single emotion and feeling, I felt on the deepest level. I cry every time I hear this.. I wish people knew how to just be nice.
This song saved me from myself so many times, I always seem to come back. I wouldn’t wish this feeling on anyone. Keep your head up. 💚 Much love
I relate so hard to this song, even after all of these years of listening to it - both sides of the story, too. I am both the person thinking that the world is better off without me, and also the angry/devastated/ashamed/lost/confused older sister who’s little sister ended her own life. I can feel both what it’s like to be the person that’s a mass of emotions, weighted down by grief and a broken heart, with so many words still left to say to her, questions I’ll never get to ask anyone, but the universe - but I also know what it feels like to be her and feel the type of things that she felt and how sometimes I can’t even think about how severely it really does impact those you leave behind, because I’m so numbed by it all. This song is POWERFUL.
I'm so sorry for your loss, I hope you can heal from her loss and heal from the depression that plagues your mind. The world is a better place with you in it, never forget that
This song reminds me of Jonghyun deeply and how I feel about his passing. I'm still so distraught from it, thank god for this song.
ATHIN I just saw this comment. I feel that way too. I'm so sorry
I was thinking the exact same thing. I’ve felt depressed and helpless like the first verse, and upset like the second verse because now I know what it’s like to lose someone that same way.
"fuck"
That whispered word at 3:35 broke me down to tears.
I was drinking alone one night under the patio and this song came on, on spotify. It was like a wave of everything I've ever kept bottled up inside went through me. I threw that bottle at the ground as hard as I possibly could. I started crying so hard. The first half of this song is everything I could ever possibly think of to say, to anyone summed up in a few powerful sentences. I'm 21, I turned 21, June 2019. I have a 9 month old daughter as of today typing this. To this day I think about leaving this place. I think about how everyone will hurt, but I also think about how much I've hurt and how much I've put up with. At the end of it all I tell myself someone has it way worse. I feel like my problems are beyond any comprehension. I keep everything to myself. I try to talk to my daughters mother about how I feel but she doesnt care and I dont expect her or anyone to. I never did. It just hurts a lot and sometimes there's no relief.
Stay strong, you and your daughter need it
Are you still here?
My ❤️ goes out to ALL of you going through it, I went through it and one day I got another chance to be a mom and this little girl saved me, this song went out to my family once and I died once and was mad at the person who brought me back. Today I thank him. I’m sober I have a little girl and her daddy with me, god walks with me and that’s all we need ❤️🙌
Bullied for 8 years straight ever since I was 8. No one ever stood up for me and for the longest time I thought I was worthless. I tried ending it in 8th grade by jumping in front of a fast car on a highway. Selfish of me? Yes, it was very selfish. It would've traumatized the person in the car but at the time I didn't think of that. The car slowed down and I only got minor bruises and a dislocated shoulder. I took it as a sign that maybe it wasn't my time to go yet. Though I'm still depressed and all the emotional and physical scars are still there, I still feel worthless and hopeless and really hate myself but at least things are a bit better now. I might not have a lot of friends right now and I might not be getting the emotional support I need I'm still in a better place now. This song really capsulized how I've felt for the longest time. I love it
It's great to hear that ur still around, keep in mind that just because your life is hard rn doesn't mean itll be that way forever. Stay strong :)
To anyone who reads this, please stay alive. You're wanted on this earth. I may not know you personally but I still care about you & want you to be here on this earth. I love you & I know that things are hard but please keep going. You're enough, I know you're tired but please keep pushing.
That 1st verse tho. Dope
I need extra love, and that ain’t even enough...
Most powerful line imo
Ive dealt with suicidal thoughts since i was 11 im 29 now and i srill struggle daily i feel like im not good enough. My buddy took his life in 2019 and i miss him daily. It has gotten worse since he passed, i keep thinking maybe if i reaxhed out hed srill be here. He convinced me to get sober in 2018 right before i had my daughter and he never got to meet her. Shell never know rhe bright light he was. I truly understand both sides of rhis song in my heart i believe eveyone would be better off without me and i also hold so much anger and grief over his passing. One day ill meet you again David and ill tell you all rhe things i want to now. Ill tell you how much i love you and how wven though youve been gone for years your my brother.
i used to listen to this three years ago when i really wanted to end it all but this song kept me from doing it and now im here in 2020 and listened to this after a long time & sang to the whole thing no mistakes.... i'm glad to be alive and if youre reading this and are thinking about it, dont do it. you will miss out on a lot you have a lot to live for and people here love you.
Thank you for keeping me alive with this song for years.
Getting into Joyner, saw this when I looked him up, wanted to see the lyrics, and I see that a lot of you all are relating to him, and to that I say:
I’m not in the same boat, and I’ve never been suicidal, but I hope you know someone’s out there thinking of you, and I hope you feel better soon. :)
Thank you...❤
Your blessed, truly blessed
My son Manny committed suicide exactly 3 weeks ago Oct 11th 2023. This song relates to his letter and his brother Rick and he is going through a ruff time him and his sister. Prayer
😢
damn man. im so sorry:( rip
He preformed this last night in NYC. Fantastic show
You'll get through it. Everyone will. It will get better. It just takes a minute. Love yourself more than you love other people. You need to love yourself more. Trust me, it will help.
Awe 🖤🥀
Nah it goes downhill
okay right in the feels. im just gonna go cry now
I'm crying.
Rite me too
same
still listening...almost 2018😻
almost 2019!!
Is 2019!
2020✌
nearly end of 2020
This song hits home for me since, trying to take my own life I’ve been fighting a demon & I still have him on my shoulders everyday telling me I’m not good enough & now that I’m living a normal life that it’s not normal anymore, and whispering things in my ear that others are saying but I sit there & pray 🙏🏼 to God I’m sorry for all my sins, give me the strength, the wisdom & the courage to fight him off he leaves me for a little but he always comes back even harder. Just know there are others going through the fight, Your never alone. He’s just one prayer away ❤️💯🙏🏼
If you’re listening to this in 2021 you’re a legend ✝️
thank you! I've been waiting for this.
No problem!
Very accurate feelings 😢😢
this song is powerful
“ i don’t wanna live to see another day I’m sorry” damn.
This song usually helps but I guess I've become so numb, the pain from my throat being squeezed and my body going out of consciousness feels like a long awaited dream and I'm ready to go. Keep your heads up homies💯 I hope you all rid of your depression coming out alive
Hey Vance I know this comment was made 3 weeks ago. But I really hope you’re okay reading your message I can tell you need the support You may feel that nobody cares about you anyway but there are people who will care if you allow them to care for you. I care deeply that you are thinking of ending your life, that you see no hope, no alternative, but something so final as death. I’m not sure what country you live in but please get the suicide prevention hotline I really hope you’re okay I’m sorry you’re going through this I promise there’s always light at the end of the tunnel you were made for this world for a reason you just need to find it we can go on that journey together I wish you the best brother I really do please reply to this so I know you’re okay. If you have any social media please lmk so I can talk to you and understand why you feel this way, I promise it’ll get better please stay safe much love ❤️
Get your head out of the bullshit music. Music affects us in all different ways. Depression and life circumstances are hard, but so u feel like killing yourself?
@@lukebr7610I'm still here man, I hope you're doing good yourself. I forgot I made this comment but reading your reply again helped a lot thank you
I’m so grateful this song exists, depicting both sides. Makes me thank the universe all my attempts failed. Sending love to everyone having thoughts like this like I am, remember they’ aren’t true. You are loved.
Two of my favorite people committed suicide... this hit me on an emotional level. For real...
Cheyenne Autumn I feel you, three of mine have and this song just makes me think of them :(
Oof
Michael Norh the same day you wrote this shit comment my friend did. Think about what disrespect you propagate.
Lukas Balestracci lol
Michael Norh you sound like some one I know named Michael
Listening to this with my eyes closed and I haven’t ever gotten chills like this before in my life.
I'm reading the comments and they are rough like damn lots of people can relate to this. I just hope everyone is ok and not depressed. :(
True, i just feel sick for these people. I Hope it's not bad as they say
same bro hope no one is sad be happy and positive everything is OK promise
Honestly everyone is depressed now
you dont know the half of it.
RealFakeDoors! Damn wtf is your problem
Such a good song. My best friend committed suicide bc she thought that her mom and dad didn't like her, but they cried when I showed them a text that said I'm done with my life tell my mom to check my room 😓😓😓😓😔😭😭
[Dusk NightwingxRainwing] i pray for you (:
[Dusk NightwingxRainwing] I feel sorry and sorry for your lost
[Dusk NightwingxRainwing] I'm so sorry to hear that. I almost committed the same listening to this song. relates so well
[Dusk NightwingxRainwing] why u gotta make me cry. thats so messed up. (check my room) if i was u..... i would have been 24 hours crying. im sorry for your lose... love from UAE
That's really heartbreaking. i cant believe how you feel...
Im going to miss you bro, you didn't deserve the life that was given too you and I wish I could have brought you out of that darkness, I wish I could have said more..... I wish we could have finished those plans that we made, you was like a lil brother to me man... I know you are living on through me and my memories so ill keep pushing through the darkness because you wasn't given the opportunity to do that yourself. Im so tired of loosing people ugh... I should have been a better friend, now im standing alone wishing I done more and I cant let that happen again. Fly high brother, I thought the world of you and knew you where just fighting your demons but I never hated you, I always told you id be here for you but I should have taken more initiative... damn.
I love this song it's so powerful
Whoever is reading this ..just know you got love from me if not anyone else ...cause whatever brought you to this song means you need a bit of love ❤
Thank you
No you
Thank you🥺❤️
I cry while singing this. Thank you Joyner you’ve helped many with this song.
this ... i mean just.... like ... it´s so deep ♥ :O
who can dislike this?
attention seekers do.... people who simply dont give a F about real music
or they had their screen upside down
People who put pineapples on pizza
People who hate rap
for those who don’t know and being negative ..this song is told in the view of his friend who took his life as well as his emotions on how he felt about what happened
This song really hits home for me. It's feels sometimes that people are affread of diffrent people. When really being diffrent is a good thing and we should incourage it and not half to hide it and who we are
I cry every time I hear this song because the lyrics are so strong and so true and relatable.
Absolute banger.. the production is _so_ tight on this track
Someone once told me something that truly spoke to my soul. Even though I battle demons every day I'm still as kind, understanding and forgiving as I can be, even to complete strangers. He told me "Why would you be so selfish to take a love like that away from this world?"
Crying dont make you weak. It show you have true emotion, it releases everything in you, anger, sadness, etc. It makes you feel better, to be out there. Its ok to shed a tear or two.
I can relate to this very deep but yet still a great song love it
Came to this video so i could learn the song 100%. I get so wrapped up listening to Jyoner that I forget what the words are. Thanks for putting this together to give me something visual to go off of. Definitely going to follow this dudes career and see what kind of magic he creates through the years.
Three years later and this song couldnt be more relevant than ever. Its Extremely relatable on both sides of the story of suicide. Hearing this for the first time it hits deep and brought feelings to the surface I've tried for so long to keep down. Puts feelings that are impossible to say into words eloquently. Much love to you all out there going through the pain and struggle of depression ❤ let's get through this
Stay strong everyone....even if you don't feel loved or even supported to someone you're so special!! You just don't see it...BUT YOU ARE LOVED! Tell Yourself someone loves you.....give yourself a hug....cry....you have every right to.....You are the best thing that has ever happened to someone in your life I promise you!
As someone who deals with feelings like this, I need to put this message out there. The world is too big to be better or worse off without you. You aren't a big deal to the world. You are a big deal to the people close to you though. Let them love you, and allow yourself to live for their sake if you can't do it for yourself right now. Don't be as selfish as I nearly was. Be better today than you were yesterday, and better still tomorrow than today. Persevere, because I know you can, because you know that you have to for them.
I've been depressed for so long now and now that I found this song I listen to it everyday and it somehow makes me stronger each day letting me know there's always a light at the end of the tunnel even though it gets longer and longer as I take more steps for me to finally be HAPPY again
This is the song that kept me alive when nothing else did
The lyrics and music definitely put tears in my eyes because of the shit that personally been through. And that's why I don't want no friends because I'm too depressed and I know that they would talk shit about someone who doesn't have anything 😭
Anyone who is going through depression or any mental disorder or are having suicidal thoughts, please do not give in to the devil’s thoughts. There are people who love you so much it may seem hard to believe but trust me if you just open your heart you will find someone that cares so much for you. There is over a billion people on this Earth there will be a handful of people who care so much about you, don’t just freeze your heart from everyone bc you’re afraid of getting betrayed because we grow stronger from the pain caused that is how we heal from accepting the pain inflicted by moving forward from the past to the present and the future. If you ever need someone to talk to confide in a suicide hotline, a friend, a family member, or me because I will make sure to answer even if I don’t know you. Bc i have gone through things and have experience things I wish I hadn’t but these events made me who I am so I’m growing from it slowly but surely. Thxs for reading this 💋
“Trynna offer me pity and throw jabs at me” hits hard. I feel that
I never cry. I hold everything in. But when I’m depressed I somehow find my way to this song and the tears pour out of me
This is real music. Music trys to hide the truth this is *real*
This song is so relatable. Thank you for making music ordinary people can relate to. I love you joyner ❤️ 💙
anyone struggling with mental health: you are more loved than you can possibly imagine. the world is better with you in it. please keep going. ask for help. u deserve to create a wonderful life for yourself. sending u all the love.
so many feels my feels are feeling feels
this,is my New, favorite song so good this is,what rap is suposed to be
I listen to this song too much. I tear up everytime..
i just lost my brother today do to a very unexpected OD that nobody had any idea about and now this song is weighing on me heavier than anything right now.... i didnt think this emotion could be captured into a few rapagraphs but then again, youre a lyrical genius.....god bless joyner and i hope i can find some peace soon...
I know it'll prob never happen but joyner man I pray some day I can sit down with you and thank you. You for real saved me with this song man. And my kids from growing up without a father. You're a blessing and I want you to know you saved a lot of people with this and I'm so grateful for you. Keep up the great work 🙏🙏🙏🙏
I Have Felt like this for years ;l
_iTzRiazPvP ツ probably should delete the comment. If he/she actually does it you can go to jail for 10 years minimum
SpeedyTracks - Nightcore me too and im 10
SpeedyTracks - Nightcore me to
You should not feel like that
everyone needs to love one another even after hearing this song
If it wasn’t for my little brother or the people that need me I wouldn’t be here but it’s getting harder and harder to fight depression everyday and continue to act happy.
God damn this hits deep. I hate all these youtube comments, honestly. But I just wanted to put my 2 cents in. There's a reason to keep going, but it's different for everyone. This song really brings out those feels. Right now for me it's music. Tomorrow it's explroing the the world. The day after? We'll see. Imma take it one day at a time.
I honestly think this really helped a lot of people and it's so great because it tells a great story and is so powerful.
All I can say is THANK YOU!!! You pretty much said everything I been holding inside for most of my life.