Crystal Meth Addict interview-Eli (follow up)
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- Soft White Underbelly follow up interview and portrait of Eli, a crystal meth addict living on Skid Row.
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When a spouse loses their significant other they're called a: widow; when a child loses their parents they're called an: orphan; but when a parent loses a child there is no name for it, it's just too painful. There are no words to describe the loss.
My bff who lost her son in a car accident said nothing can compare to the pain of losing a child. Not even the lost of a spouse.💔
I lost my 21 y/o son to a fentanyl overdose. He was only 21. He was extremely smart, maybe too curious. He turned 25 on Halloween. We had to visit him in the graveyard. It is like living a nightmare everyday. The what ifs will kill you
@@moswiney2737 I'm sorry. We spent years wondering what we could have done and how we didn't see any signs. It's been over 20 years and we still talk about his suicide.
@@moswiney2737 I am estranged from my 23 yr old son- his doing, with no explanation. Can't reach him. 😪
I have so much empathy for you. I believe in prayer.
I certainly will keep you, in mine.
I'm so sorry you are going through this. Sending warm thoughts.
Sincerely,
Michelle💞
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Eli, your description of your son sounds like he was a righteous, good person. By him having a few drinks with you the eve before; regardless that he wasn’t a drinker tells me he had empathy for you and your addiction just as you explained. You were and are loved.
Eli, if you're reading this thank you for being open and sharing apart of you to us. Im sorry for your loss and i hope you find closure. Trust the struggle and eyes to the horizon. Be well. One Love
When he said Mark was the first person I told my heart smiled. Mark, you’re doing amazing things. Eli, you’re so strong
Eli, my brother tried to commit suicide many years ago and I was beside myself. A counselor told me that if someone is determined to take their own life there is absolutely nothing anyone else can do about it. That was a huge relief to me. You are not to blame. We lost him years later and my mom’s grief is endless. You are not alone.
You know Eli, your son didn’t leave you a note but he made sure to spend his last night with you because you were the most important person to his heart ❤️
So well said..thank you
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so beautifully said!❤️
I just hope he realizes he deserves to be happy, I hope he makes it out this situation
It's so hard to believe Eli does meth. He is so clear minded and speaks beautifully so self aware and worldly wise. He defo isn't a tweaker!!
Some are high functional users over decades
It seems like his son had already mind up to do what he did, but he wanted to spend his last night with his dad. Depression is an awful illness.
he is thoughtful and passionate. That's what it is.
I completely agree. He’s so calm. Well spoken. Not all over the place… it’s crazy.
This was a tear jerker. Tough one to get through. His love for his son is pouring from his heart out of his eyes. His pain is palpable. And it sucks we lost a good cop!! We need them.
Oh my heart breaks for him. He deserves so much more, he’s a wonderful human being.
He's absolutely right about that first part. Your environment is an enormous factor to your behavior. Surround yourself with people who care about you and you'll have an easier time caring about yourself.
Something about him that I love listening to. He seems so down to earth.
EDIT: Man I really feel for this guy. I'm a young dude but I can somehow really empathize with him. One of those people you wish you could meet and just talk to.
There are Eli's all around us.
Eli my heart goes out to you...big hugs and i wish you lots of strength to deal with all the trauma youve endured💕💕💕
Aww, Mark is the best person to talk to, ya got me all teary eyed over here
I love you Eli. Tight hugs and my wish is you go to San Fran. I love you Mark for being a compassionate soul. What we put out, positive or negative, comes back. That is Karma. Thanks so much for being authentic you two, Glenna🔷
Eli, if you're reading this you are very strong. I admire you tenacity and I really hope things get better for you. That's a lot of pain to go through and the mourning will never be finished, but you deserve comfort and warmth. Everybody deserves that. Stay strong! Thank you for sharing you're story. You're an incredible person.
I love this man. He's honest, truthful, and real. I hope he can find healing and peace
Eli I'm so glad you did this interview with Mark again. A lot of us are "functional addicts" out here. Not a lot of people I have ever talked to have nightmares like these with our deceased loved ones. Hard doesn't even begin to describe it. I know a lot of people are cut-throat and shit, but trust you have touched a lot of people through just these two interviews. I believe you when you say you don't have mental health issues and still hear your son. I wish with all my heart that if you come to San Francisco I can find you! I am an eligibility worker for Food Stamps, Medi-Cal, general assistance right here across the bay in Oakland and I'd be more than happy to help you get to the right places in the city for some assistance. And if you're not interested in those programs maybe I can at least direct you to a safer tent city in SF. I have friends and connections both on the street and behind the desk. I'd love to help in any way I can.
I lost my dad to suicide and it’s a pain that literally never leaves you. But now that I’m a father myself, I couldn’t imagine doing that to my little boy. Also I can’t even begin to comprehend the pain of losing a child. Especially in that way. I feel for this man.
I'm sorry about your dad. I've been there. He was the Most wonderful man, in a class with Mark. Sure do miss him.
Same here Jay, my father killed himself out of the blue too. Last guy you would ever expect. That was 111 years ago, life does get better. I have a beautiful family of my own now.
Mr. Eli you said what I needed to hear today, " I've survived this far I can survive a bit more". Stay strong and safe out there and Thank You for your Truth.🙏☮️❤️ Please stay in touch with Mark and come back and talk with us again real soon.
I love this man. He is fascinating and totally pure. Beautiful person❤️
Eli, you're a gem of a human. I hope you make it to San Francisco and I hope sharing your story is the start of a new chapter of good things to come.
Sending good thoughts to you, Eli. Regardless of whether you get out of there, or stay, you have value, and you deserve quality of life.
Eli it’s so nice to see your face again. First, I love your hat lol suits you very well! I’m sending you love and warmth from Canada.
I never noticed his hat until you mentioned it. It is nice.👋
Wish there was somebody in canada doing these kind of videos , there are so many similarities yet huge differences betwen the two countries.
He's definitely more of a San Francisco style guy. Plus you can sleep in Golden Gate park and there are squats. I believe his son does call out to him from a dimension we can't see. Hopefully it brings him comfort so he can realize it's not his fault.
his son is right beside him all the time. our loved ones dont go and we dont havethem around us their souls still hang out with us
I believe him too 🙏❤
I think people in Elis life let him down. When his son let him down it broke him. Please leave Skid Row and surround yourself with caring people. Good people are out there. Be patient and have faith!
@@michelleberger7747 For real, this dude should be hanging out with the rainbow family or some cuddly biker types.
Eli, I’m so sorry you lost your son. My heart goes out to you and him. I wish he was able to consider you before his final time on earth. You have a bigger purpose. Your pain is a learning tool for you and your audience. Your soul is beautiful and I truly hope you find some peace with the grief.
So hard, suicide. No note. So sorry. It is a hard thing to talk about. It never goes away, the unanswered questions, so hard to understand. I feel your pain. 🙏 Thank-you for showing us your emotional struggle with your son's actions. Maybe someone's thinking they want to end their life and seeing your suffering could make them realize how it would effect those who love them. Make them think twice. Thank-you.💐
Yes..what an awesome thought, he could literally be saving someone else from this tragedy.
I SWEAR, I WAS JUST THINKING I REALLY DON'T WANT TO DO THAT TO MY FAMILY, AFTER SEEING WHAT ELI HAS TO GO THROUGH. I HAVE PTSD. (AND OTHER ISSUES) SO I'VE TRYED TO COMMIT SUICIDE ONCE BEFORE BY SWALLOWING FORTY CRUSHED UP OXY'S. AFTER THAT FAILED ATTEMPT 12 YEARS AGO I HAVEN'T HAD THE URGE TO TRY IT AGAIN, UNTIL THESE LAST COUPLE OF MONTHS. HOWEVER, EVEN THOUGH I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH SEVERE DEPRESSION FOR THE LAST COUPLE OF YEARS, WATCHING ELI TODAY OPENED UP MY EYES A LITTLE AND IS DEFINITELY MAKING ME THINK TWICE ABOUT HOW MY ACTIONS MAY AFFECT THOSE AROUND ME.
THANK YOU ELI, IF YOU'RE WATCHING AND SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS!
I tried that with my son and he still overdosed and died leaving 4 kids behind.
@@kellykelly9521 I'm SO VERY SORRY FOR YOUR LOSS KELLY, MY CONDOLENCE'S TO YOU AND YOUR FOUR GRANDKIDS MAY HE REST IN PEACE!
@@Lexington-Felix Nobody tells you about how long it takes to recouperate after a suicide attempt. It's like any physical injury. You have to be gentle and cautious at first then build yourself back up. It's not an overnight healing! It requires Time and Lots of work. I felt beat up and at the bottom. I had a mountain before me and for a while, I could barely stand let alone walk. It takes a toll on you.
❤ the hat Eli, it really suits you to a tee. Move to San Fran and live an easier life.
Your son loved you and would never want you to be feeling so badly. He chose to spend his last day with you of all the people in the world. That speaks volume. 🙌 to you that you can find peace ✌
I literally cannot stop watching these stories. I'm just in awe of what Mark has created here. It's great for these individuals to tell their stories and for us, the viewers, to see that everyone has a story. A real, truthful story. As for Eli....I' just tearing up here at work. I have three kids of my own and resonate with everything he's saying. I feel you Eli. I really do. I'd say the best part about this channel is finding the similarities in some of the people Mark interviews, even though my life is perfectly "normal" by societal standards.
Eli, I understand. It’s so hard, I received a note and I still needed answers. Don’t beat yourself up sweetie. ❤️
Even a note leaves you with questions.💔
Eli, I'm so happy you're beginning to take to heart our responses. We're on your side and want you to overcome.
Suicidal people Don't let on what we're going to do. I didn't when I tried. Myself and 2 of my sisters have dealt with ongoing depression but we did not see it
coming that the most wonderful father was going to kill himself.
There are support groups for people who've lost someone to suicide, parents who've lost a child, parents who've lost a child to suicide. With that variety, there should be a group to help. They Don't make you talk. Please consider this.
Good luck in San Fransisco.♥️
Eli I can totally relate to the screw it all and just get high mentality when things go wrong. Especially something as tragic as losing a child! Don’t give an addict a reason bc we’ll take it every time! But I want you to know as someone who is now almost six years sober…. It is worth putting the time in and getting clean. Dealing with your trauma and understanding how that effects your addiction. LIFE IS WORTH LIVING. Sobriety is beautiful! And it’s the TRUE freedom you are looking for! Sending you so much love and so much grace!
Eli, it's heartbreaking 💔 to see you so sad. You obviously did an excellent job raising your son otherwise he never would have been as successful as he was. You did a great job, but don't blame yourself. Mental illness is so unexplainable and most never talk about it. You're a good, kind, person, and I'm glad you found Mark to talk to and help you get to San Francisco when you're ready. There's a lot of people who care about you and will love to see a follow-up. Sending hugs from Nova Scotia, Canada. 🇨🇦 🍁
Ah Eli..my heart goes out to you. You are a fine man. I cant believe what you have been thru but I believe you'll find peace and a new love for life. I want to wrap my arms around you and tell you its gonna be alright.
2.4M congratulations Mark! 💗
I would love to see Eli enjoy what life he has left on this earth. Great human ❤❤
My heart goes out to you Eli. I can feel how much you miss and love your son. I’m crying with you; suicide is never easy to deal with, especially when they don’t leave you a note. I always try to find solace in knowing that they are no longer in pain, and they’ve finally found peace. One day, you’ll see him again.
I normally don't comment but if you see this Eli please know that you're right, there are good people out here and your loved. I'll be praying for you.
Wow this really hit me in the feels. Amazing interview. This is the best one i've seen
Hi Eli! If you read this you remind me so much of my dad. He had a huge heart, was cool, and always put us kids before himself. He's gone now but I can't fathom how he would have handled losing one of us before he passed. It's not supposed to happen that way. But I hope with time and a move to San Fran you can live a safe and happy life with people who care. Because you deserve that. It was not your fault Eli made that decision and I'm so sorry he made that choice. Get that ticket from Mark! Start over now that you feel the love and kindness. We're all rooting for you to make that move!
Eli even though you are going through a very dark time, you are a light to so many of us hearing your story. The true love for your son is evident and I am sure if we can feel it never meeting you, your son felt it always. You are not the reason your son took his life and some how you have got to lay that guilt down and learn to let the joyous memories of your son push you to begin to love the rest of the days God has given you. Your strength amazes me and it is so good to see you are still hanging in there. Your soul, that American grit, cannot be stolen. Good luck to you buddy!!
Eli, nice to see you again. I hope you can go to SF, the change of scene will probably help. I hope you can achieve some space and healing for the grief of your sons death. Peace to you sir.
He loves his son so much. Closing your heart to love is not the answer. You have a beautiful soul and deserve love and happiness. Don’t punish yourself to mask your pain.
I wish you could know that your sons passing is not your fault.
When we are battling our demons we don’t think about what not being here will do to those around us or think anyone would notice or care. We can’t think beyond what we are feeling in that spiral
My oldest brother took his life 5 years ago and my mom still struggles with it.
He had he’s demons and they won. I think he’s at peace now. I was lucky to have his ashes for three years, his daughter has them now.
Eli, your son is in your heart talk to him he will Send you sights.
I have been watching all these interviews and it literally changes your life. Eli is so precious. I’m so sorry he went through this heartache. God bless him, and his future.
He really is absolutely precious and I don’t think he knows how special he is ❤
Mark, you’re doing good work here. People need people. ❤️
Eli I hope San Fransisco offers you a better life. The praise that you gave to Mark was heartfelt. So glad that talking about your life is therapeutic to you. Try not to dwell on the death of your son too much if you can. I know that is asking a lot but I truly think your son wouldn’t want you to be unhappy. There’s no way that you could have predicted his suicide. You need to drop those thoughts from your mind. Those thoughts are terrorizing you. Your son would like you to be free from them, I am sure. I wish you all the best Eli. Stay in touch. We all want to hear how things are going for you.
Its not your fault brother. I hope you find peace inside yourself.
Hi Eli, my heart goes out to you brother. I hope time will heal this for you. I hope you get to San Fran and meet new people who will allow you to open your heart again. Take care brother.
To succeed in quitting an addiction it’s great to have simple goals, start a daily routine, 5 minutes of exercise before the 1st hit of the day, which has tangible results after 1 week, increase duration slowly over time. The 1st hit becomes more rewarding but less important because we feel better already and before long we’ve traded destructive routines for truly healthy rewarding ones. This is infectious to others because they see our light brightening which creates a positive feedback loop. And look, we’ve already forgotten about the drug for the past minute😊
Love never ends. The pain you feel is your temporary separation on this realm. The depth of your grief shows how deeply you loved. We never know what is in someone else's mind. Your son will explain when you meet again, surrounded in love.
Eli,Please let Mark get you that ticket,and some warm clothes 😁😁!!! Get off skidrow and start enjoying life. You have thousands of people that care about you, were looking forward to your next update.
I lost my adult son to suicide as well Eli. Just like that. It's the hardest pain, losing a child. I buried my brain in drugs as well. I feel your pain Eli. U r spouting my life of the last 9 years. If only.....
💜🙏
Losing a child is bad enough all on it's own. Losing a child to suicide carries it's own special pain
Eli you are such a kind soul. I hope you're able to find peace. Sending hugs to you sir.
And bless you Mark for being you.
i watched my grandmother lose all 3 of her children. she was alone and went thru hellish pain till she passed. i feel for u sir. ur intelligent,dignified and raised a Good son to become a deputy sheriff and did right by people. i pray u find some peace in ur life.
I am so sorry for all of your pain that you carry Eli. I hope you know there are many of us who truly care about you and your story. Thank you for sharing your life with us.... I hope you can find peace in all of this chaos. Much love from Canada
Eli is cool. The substance doesn’t make the person. I have tremendous amounts of empathy for people. And I work with people that have different problems but you always get to know them and find out they are humans just like you and me. We all just want to get through life.
Key words “ Get through life “ 💆🏻♂️ wish we all could just enjoy it. There is so much pain in this world it’s wild.
Amen!! I No that's right , but I couldn't have said it so well.
Great insight
Eli, parents can't see everything that's inside their child. I can imagine the frustration of him not leaving a note, but his suicide is definitely not your fault. I'm so glad that you found Mark to talk to. Eli, there are some people that just aren't meant for this world. It's too hard for them. I'm so sorry that you've had to go thru this. My younger sister died almost a year ago. I talk to her everyday (sometimes all day) and it helps me. Go to San Francisco. Live your life and be grateful for the time that you had with your son.
I find myself talking to my son that recently overdozed and died October 4. I felt his touch on my back recently and I talk to him, cry about him leaving us and his 4 kids. Talking to him helps and I hope his spirit stays with me often and his children as well.
Maybe your son doesn’t even no why and he would take it back in a second especially knowing how difficult it is for you. My wish is that you are able to breathe through your pain. Know that your son is with you every second of every day, in every beautiful sunrise, sunset, warm smile, warm hug. He is with you. ♥️
Eli,i’m so deeply sorry for
your lost!I have two small children and i can’t imagine loosing them !Just please don’t thing all this happens because of you!Im sure he loved you very much and he is watching over you!
I wish i had someone like you in my life!Love from Milena from Bulgaria ❤️
I hope he gets better, we need people like him sober and making this world a better place. Eli! The world needs you!
Eli,
Thank you so much for sharing your story with us!
So very sorry about your son. It sounds like your son loved you very much but must have been carrying a load of hidden pain. Warm hugs to you in your grief.
Hope you make it to San Fran.
Wishing you nothing but the very best down the road!
Hope we hear from you again, soon!
what a remarkable man. thank you eli & mark
Ah l love you dude!!!
I'd be honored to be in your family ✌🏼💖
The offer stands.I'm glad you decided not to go, this is important for people to hear, myself included. You are a beautiful soul and your light is necessary in a world that has forgotten many a lesson of our predecessors.
The suffering is not in vain.
My son grabbed me by my hands the other day and hugged me. I'll hold that forever.
I too have been desperate and utterly alone. My heart feels like a desolate graveyard and a beautiful garden all at the same time.
Guaranteed,if your son could take it back ,he would , undeniably if he knew how bad he hurt you.
Hugs Eli 🫂
(Kate)
Mark just wanted to say. Thinking of you and sending my warm regards. Just like you said having to work in SR each and everyday. I take my hat off to you, it's not an easy gig.
So from me to you. Pls take care.
Your human too and out of all the humans you are just wonderful. Thank you I really appreciate what you do for your fellow Americans ☺️
There is always one and your it.
Eli, I lost my Mother to suicide when I was 15. She also left no note. Working w/ a Counselor, he helped me to see that she was overwhelmed w/ the circumstances of life. More than that, I will not know or understand because suicide is an irrational act & you can't rationalize the irrational.
Eli if i ever see you in sf i am buying you lunch . It’s not your fault at all . Your son is telling you he’s ok . He’s your guardian angel. We love you
Mark- you are such a gift. Thank you for doing these. Thank you for listening to these amazing, resilient, strong, determined and very loved human beings.
Eli, I cannot imagine losing one of my children. It would be like ripping my soul out. Your perspective is so genuine and heartfelt, it make me cry. Everyone that is down and out has a story of why they landed there. God bless you and hope you stay safe.
I smiled and shed a tear at 6:30. I hope you find your answer. Mark at 2.4 million subs, the amount of people that believe in your work just keeps growing.
I’ve watched many of these interviews, because everyone deserves to be heard, but THIS one (as well as the 1st with Eli) touched my heart so deeply, as well as spoke to my soul. My only sibling (little brother) took his own life in 2013, left no note or reason why, and listening to Eli, his voice even!, mannerisms and wording, I feel like I’m listening to my own Father, who passed in 2017, talk about my brother. It was beautiful yet so deeply devastating at the same time. Eli, bless you for bringing a little happiness and also a little rememberence of them both (my family for me as well as yours), I wish I could give you a hug and tell you the choice made was made by them, then alone, and please dont doubt the love and joy,I’m almost positive you brought to your son. You were the good part in his life, the bad just won this time. Your in my prayers💜
"It's a dog-eat-dog world, but don't kick a three-legged dog to the ground." That hit my heart. Live to understand others, and not take advantage of the poor hands people are handed. Mark, your interviews are so impactful. I struggle with an addictive personality, and hearing others helps me understand myself, and others. Love how real and upfront you are with questions. We need to detach from victim mentality, and the people you interview experience so much life, there's no room for victim mentality.
I doubt you’re gonna read this mark, but thank you so much for doing what you do! You give a voice to the voiceless and help millions of people get a new perception on the problems of America. Eli, I hope you find happiness and forgive yourself and hopefully you make it to San Francisco!
He seems like a decent man 🙏🏻 I cried with him. I felt his whole energy hit me. 😢❤️
We love you Eli!!! Love and hugs across the miles 💗
Eli ❤️ so happy to see you again ❤️ your story touches my heart. Praying for you.
Sending all the love and healing! I couldnt imagine the pain you are/have experienced. Keep hanging on and know you are not alone. I hope to see you on here more!
Good Morning to everyone. I pray everyone has an amazing day. Another great interview Mark. Eli you’re an awesome man! Im sorry for your loss. Know that I love you and will pray for you along with a lot of other great people on Marks channel. ♥️ honestly I never wanted this interview with Eli to stop. He was kind, true to himself, heard mark out. Eli is a guy I’d love to sit down and have a coffee or screw it maybe a drink with and just chat with him. Great guy Mark.
Oh Eli,
I'm so sorry for your pain! Sounds like your son was someone to be proud of.
Just think, you can live a life honoring what he wanted for you, too. Even while choosing to live homeless.
I’m so sorry for your loss but you couldn’t stop your son from doing what he did! He was mentally struggling like a lot of us and instead of reaching out for help he made a rash decision and so sorry for that
Since watching Eli’s first interview I felt a connection with him as I needed to hear someone else describe the heaviness inside their heart carrying around inexplicable grief and sadness coping daily with the loss of their beloved best friend (his son). My heart is broken too and I cry every night missing my boy. It doesn’t work to believe we will get over a shock of suicide but its necessary to have tools to heal and I pray Eli resources more help for his soul.
I am so grateful for Eli’s sharing his feelings and Mark’s platform to keep us human. Thank you 🙏 god bless.
It’s not your fault big dawg. God bless your son. Hope one day you can get clean and live the rest of your life in peace. I know it’s easier said than done, but I can see it in your eyes that you can do it. Peace man
The deepest people often struggle with their feelings. They care for people which often hurts.
I hope one day Eli find peace within himself about his son. Im sorry for your loss.
I can’t imagine your pain Eli ..just soul crushing. Hang in there and good luck in SF praying for you ❤️❤️❤️
My heart goes out to you brother. Last November my best friend from high school took his own life. He had recently become a police officer and was an amazing one. Being a former drub abuser himself, i think he brought a sense of sympathy and duty to his job as a police officer. He was doing so well. Two AMAZING kids, was going to
church (he was a badass drummer and drummed in the praise and worship band)…. To say i was shocked and completely heartbroken when i got the news would be a huge understatement. He always dealt with mental health issues but for the first time in a VERY long time he seemed to be in a very good place.
I’m so very sorry for your loss ❤
Mark, you’re a blessing to this man. Or probably to the other people you’ve spoken to. A casual talk like this helps them ease of the burdennoff their shoulders which theyve probably been carrying for eternity. God bless you and please keep doing this. I do hope Eli finds peace on this earth we live in as he’s still trying to find answers he may never find. Let it all out, Eli. Let it all out.
was just thinking about this man the other day, nothing but love for him
Sorry for your loss of your Son..
Cherish the time you had with him.
He will be with you forever in your heart. ❤
Living alone in one's pain is hell. You have a wonderful lifetime of memories with your son. You hear his voice. He lives on through you. Carry his memory proudly. Sending love, hugs and healing your way.
People in Skidrow are just surviving. There’s a big difference between thriving and surviving. You will see the worst sides of people that are just trying to survive. They do the worst things and tend to not care about who they affect.
I hope you're checking these comments again. You are worthy. You are not nuts. My late husband calls my name all the time. I just try to live my best life in honor of him. Sending you lots of love and light.
This touches me no father or mother should ever bury their child I've known several who've lost their child
Much love to you Eli! You are very special and have a good heart. I’m a 35yo woman and I’ve tried taking my life at least a dozen times by the age of 30, and I probably wrote a letter to my family maybe once or twice. It’s not because I don’t love them, because let me tell you that my family is the loves of my life and the reason why I’m still Alive and no longer try to take my life it’s because of them! But the reason why I didn’t leave a note it’s because I didn’t want them to think it was their fault. I believe your sons letter was him spending his last moments with YOU! I’m praying for you Eli & I also live in Los Angeles but my dream is to move to Oregon or somewhere where there’s more nature than ppl! God bless you Eli and I pray you find happiness again
I was so happy to see an update on Eli! My heart went out to you in your last interview, and still does now. You are a strong man. I think these conversations with Mark are probably the best thing that has happened to him since his son's tragedy. Eli, none of it is your fault, not in the slightest. Stay strong. ❤
That part about San Francisco being easier was really interesting. I’ve visited both skid row and tenderloin multiple times and I always felt more scared in SF. My perspective has definitely changed after watching this
I believe Eli’s son is telling his father from his new dwelling that he’s okay. How do I know? Because I died in the hospital after a suicide attempt and I left my body and my spirit or whatever, my energy, maybe, and soul, or whatever I was and I floated above the hospital room where the doctor and nurses who were trying to revive me and my heart and were in the room with both my parents who were tight “compadres” with the doctor, so they got to stay in. All I wanted before I was sucked back into my body, which was a bummer, was to tell my mother that I was fine from where I was at because I could see/feel her sorrow. Maybe that’s the price for suicide, is that we worry about those who love us. Blessing to Eli, Mark, and all Good People here and all around.
Eli, I didn't watch your first interview, but my heart goes out to you 💔. I agree with you and Mark: *Get a fresh start in SF ASAP.* Yes, strangers do care - oddly enough. A (broke) chick in the desert cares. Weird, huh?✌
A 50 year old in Oklahoma cares too ❤
Unfortunately there’s also a lot of people that pretend to care. Words are usually empty and most people practice fake humility. That’s where the problem is.
@@Jay-hp6pu Agree. That's why I volunteer.
This breaks my heart, you can tell he loved his child with every single cell in his body.
Eli, we care. And we love you. Mark, we care. And we love you.
Eli, My wish is you’re able to release yourself from the burdens you carry. Your son was carrying a mountain of unexpressed emotion in order to carry out what he did. Sadly, that pain was given to you. I’m glad to see the bravery in sharing yours so you can walk a little lighter through life. He did not die in vain.