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Innocent until proven guilty???
She was cruelly and unjustly destroyed……. Appalling!
A really important area, Tasha. Have been involved with this process some years ago, and related advocacy. And so relevant to what they'd done to Lucy Letby before they dragged her into that torture chamber masquerading as a court.
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Great video Tasha!
That torturer in chief, Johnson, capitalised on Lucy's trauma, on the ravages they'd already caused over years, mocked and derided her. That soulless wretch should never have another peaceful night.
Johnson is a more evil version of Matthew Hopkins . Two of the most evil creatures to have walked this planet .
Love this comment- here here
Yes that was traumatising to watch! Man’s an utter bullying monster!!✊❤️😔
@@JulieLevinge His behaviour would not be tolerated anywhere else is society . I am amazed that such bullying misogyny is acceptable in , of all places , a Court of Law !
Right through his cross examining one of his methods was to keep deferring, "we will come back to that later". In the end Lucy didnt know if it was day or night. Was it really any contest? What was Moritz's take on it. "She kept tieing herself in knots".
Some really important arguments here, Tasha. Thank you so much.
@hopeisthething1965 thanks Mark
Tasha, I will do a long comment later on one of your posts…..your video brought tears to my eyes…..you advocated for those with mental disabilities…..the kindest most loving human being I ever encountered was my brother in law…..nearly died at birth, his mother also….both left with some brain damage….he was high functioning and so didn’t need a guardian…..died far too young….will explain….I am sending you my email address…..any time you advocate for these loving human beings….let me help in any way I can…….miss you Tommy, you gave me more than I ever gave you…you taught me what true love was…..you left us far too young through no fault if your own for you were the victim of a cruel and uncaring world
Thanks Tasha , a very important presentation .
@@paula7084 thank you for watching
I can't begin to imagine what she went through, but remember the media frenzie at the time and the presumtion of guilt during the trial.
the media was plugging her giult WHY. it a big red flag the media never been our friend.
Sorry Tasha, nearly missed this one, so spotted you & put the kettle on👍
Have found similar problem attempting to confirm this fact, think it’s being withheld on purpose?
No you definitely didn’t misremember it, because I was waiting for trial to start, as I wanted to know how she got away with such a heinous crimes??
Only to find out there was no evidence against her at all & no crimes!!
Police doing a press conference outlining prosecution case just before trial began? Thought there was a news blackout?
This would also explain why Lucy’s defence didn’t call an expert witness?
She was suffering from severe PTSD, which I happen to know completely scrambles your brain.
Thanks for this Tasha✊❤️
@@JulieLevinge hope you enjoyed your tea.... I actually remember hearing a media piece... sort of subtly mocking the fact the trial was delayed.....
I have some ideas about what should happen when information is restricted in this way.... tbc....
Excellent video about an important matter. Well done Tasha! ❤
@@amandagazidis cheers Amanda 🍻
Thanks for a great video Tasha 🙏
@@cupofteawithpoetry hi Liz 👋 thanks for watching 🌺
@@tasha24-7 Hi Tasha 👋
I think the judge should have stepped in & insisted on one expert witness for the defence.
But as we now know Judge Goss was especially picked as he obviously believes like Evans that all accused are guilty.
@@JulieLevinge I dont know much about Goss - but I cant help but also think even if he was concerned about the expert evidence - what routes were available for him to take? Maybe more homework for me
And even if he could.... the whole media and public would have gone bonkers about it..... it really was a hostile environment for everyone involved....
I'm not saying I support him, just that I can at least understand the difficulties and pressures of a case like this
But ultimately our main focus has to be a wonderful young nurse, loved by her family and friends suffered an incredible miscarriage of Justice - she stood alone
( im shaking my head because I can hardly believe that happened)
Thank you so much for always raising brilliant points Julie - truly thought provoking. Have a great day 🌺
Justice Goss is the only judge in British history to sack the jury and oversee/decide on the case himself.
@ginnythwaite wow!!!
@ I only know that from reading Cathy Starforth on Substack. Whilst I don't agree with her particular personal biases, she does dish up some wonderful dirt on the characters in play in the case against Lucy Letby.
@ginnythwaite you are absolutely correct... I was so fascinated I looked it up. In 2017 he discharged a jury on the grounds of Jury Tampering.. ' crash for cash' he used a law that was only enacted in 2007.
You are completely right to watch a whole variety of information and opinion Ginny.... I wish everyone would just take the time to research things for themselves.... even a little bit
I confess I got a bit cross today as the result of hearing 2 people I respect quite a lot try to distance themselves from something they called ' conspiracy theorists'..... which i just don't understand....what constitutes a conspiracy theorists when it comes to Lucy Letby ... the biggest conspiracy theorists potentially could turn out to be the mainstream who vilified her to begin with...we have people who have questions and reservations having studied the case and have felt so strongly that they have given their time to try to raise awareness...... its totally wrong to call people names when many have worked really hard and have resisted conspiracy..... it sort of felt like demeaning citizens who care about our services simply because they are brave enough to ask questions..... I could go on..... and its quite likely im just a bit hormonal...... 🤣..... im so pleased that the global experts gave of their time but equally concerned that it got this far.... blah blah blah.... thank you so much for being here ginny 🌺
This was a modern day Salem type witch hunt. They destroyed Lucy’s life and took everything including her honor & any self worth. There is literally noting they can give her back now or compensate her with that will make up for the 10yrs of hell they put her through or the trauma they put the parents of the babies through. Bad enough losing your baby because of gross medical errors but to be led to believe an innocent nurse was a murder .. the nurse that was empathetic and kind and it was twisted into a psychopathic behavior that she was somehow enjoying watching their pain and suffering.
Lucy is going to need a lot of help mentally when she is released to get over such a huge traumatic event that has gone in years . I don’t know if it’s possible to get over that and recover mentally from. They have literally destroyed her life or any prospects of a normal life .. meting someone/ marrying /kids /her home / he career /her reputation and a whole 10yrs of her life caught in it with false accusations and people/friends/colleagues all turning against you with hate and hurtful remarks all in full view of the public and published in the media . Even her arrest and behavior was judged critically and harshly and she was polite /cooperative / timid and quiet .. she wasn’t surprised because she knew she was being investigated and questioned for a few years at that point .. but people judged in every reaction and response cruelly having her guilty before any trial or hearing of evidence. She couldn’t win .. the whole world has literally turned against her. I really do not know how she has surprised until now.
Even that “celebrity married dr” who was obviously flirting with her that she thought was her friend.. they threw that her her yet she was single and free , he was the one married and also in a position of authority above her and much older ! He was also the one that made huge gross medical errors that definitely were the cause of at least one of the babies deaths that he had to have been aware of and decided to pin it on lucy .got on the stand with a fabricated story about alarms and Lucy standing at the cot it was like a game of cluedo and not a medical scientific explanation of how she was responsible.. turns out the liver laceration wasn’t caused by Lucy and blunt force trauma with sone un named medical instrument but rather his unskilled blind needle aspirate done without X-ray guidance on the right rather than the left ! Not a very good dr there doesn’t even know his right from his left ! She was criticized for shedding a tear and he lied under oath about her ! He pretended to be her friend and then stabbed her in the back who wouldn’t be deeply hurt over that. I wouldn’t be surprised if he was getting vengeance back because she wasn’t giving in to his inappropriate advances . He had a least 2 parents seeing him for wrongful deaths .. who better to use to clear your name and continue to be a bad dr going under the radar of any investigation.. and get rid of the nurse he fancied that rejected his advances after all she was getting smarter now and calling out bad practices on the unit .. she was dangerous for his career and his marriage to keep around . Now he doesn’t look as much of hero portrayed by the media does he .. not after the world renowned neonatal Drs called out his failings and bad medical care .. makes all he said on the stand look exactly like what they were fabricated lies. A narcissistic, manipulative, liar and really unskilled bad dr . I hope he is charged with perverting the course of justice and lying under oath. I also hope he loses his medical license for the really poor medical decisions he made that caused the death. He needs to be held accountable as does the so called “expert “ witness Dewi evans .. another disgraced dr .
@@gillianstapleton8566 I totally agree with you Gillian and thank you for sharing such an in depth an thought provoking comments 🌺
Wow Gillian that was epic… indeed, it will be a long road, but with God’s grace Lucy will be home in the foreseeable future, and then the road to recovery can begin. Poor young woman. I hope they give her her cats back.
I watched her whole Police Interview, all her answers were honest, I saw and heard no deception.
I'm looking for that to Tasha, I remember reading it to, and that Lucy was suffering from PTCD.
Your last comment about the case not being mentioned in places it should be mentioned, PM/parliament. It is the same by the BBC, very little reported by them after Tuesday's meeting. Iv'e always been a defender of the corporation. But recently its honesty as began to diminish. That is sad, why as truth gone out of the window. Why will no one take the blame and own up to any bollocks they have made? Why does there have to be an enquiry after any slip-ups. But there isnt anything learned from them except how people carry on being shifty and blameless. The Post Office being a great example, along with Grenfell and now Thirlwall, all of which deny any truth ever becoming known.
@@jamesrigby6061 we really need to start to make our own way... they're not listening.... not even pretending to!
Tasha you did not misremember…..it’s in the New Yorker magazine article…..do you need me to send u links ?
@@jar942 yes please Jenny could you email them.... thank you so much... ridiculous really that I should have any issue locating the truth 😘
I've looked at the NY report and it menntions LL being incoherent but I couldn't see anything about a delay, that's not to say there wasn't a delay.
@ncooper8438 I remember our own media reporting that the trial was delayed for a week because she couldn't speak properly- her own barrister couldn't interact with her or get any sense out of her..... but its nowhere to be found online... which I think is very wrong without an explanation of why its been removed ( which would give us the opportunity to challenge the decision) and this is another example of the law not being equal online to offline 🤔 😉 😕
@ my goodness…..beyond sad…..criminal…..shouldn’t the prosecutor face some sort of punishment?
@@tasha24-7 I emailed link to you. Via your blog…let me know if goes thru…
I’m sure Lucy’s defence couldn’t get anyone to stand as an expert witness and they had they tried , an expert for the defence wouldn’t stand up in court for fear of being the expert witness that thought a serial killer was innocent if she was found guilty . It would ruin their reputation and career, It was way easier for the international team of experts from the recent inquiry as they were a group working together and not an individual.
@@nathan35uk yeah I heard that too but couldn't remember who told me.... that is absolutely abhorrent too... how on earth can the court and legal team provide adequate service if this sort of thing happens?.... I think the expert witness panel who are only interested in finding out the truth is the only way forward from here.... and they should absolutely be entitled to anonymity in carrying out such specialist and potentially dangerous work....
You know I'm really not trying to demean the process just simply identifying chinks in the armour that can still be repaired.... after all they did get the 1st best decision completely right ✅ including making it as least restrictive as possible.....
And they are not personally responsible for any of the skull duggery that has occurred to bring this case in the first place.
Sometimes I think that we the citizens need to speak up because its the only way they might know we care about it all and want it to be the best it can be..... thanks Nathan 🌺
Yes. Also, experts in UK are too scared to testify for the defence where babies are involved, due very much to what happened to Dr Waney Squier.
Working together. Not based in UK. Too eminently expert to be affected by any flak.
Given what's already taken place, talk of a retrial is ridiculous imo because LL would probably not be able to defend herself or stand cross examination. The only fair outcome imo is to free LL on appeal or declare a mistrial with no case to answer.
@@ncooper8438 but I think there needs to be some unveiling of what happened and went wrong to put her in that position to begin with - which look a lot like lies to me.... perjury... but I'm no legal expert. I think its quite wrong that our own PM hasn't said a word about it - nor has it been brought up at PM question time..... that clearly tells the public those in power don't care about justice.
( well a rare few do - we know who they are) cheers sunshine 🌞
I agree but not without a finding of negligence on the part of the trust.
@@tasha24-7 I totally agree that there needs to be some unveiling
What happened and who is really responsible?
But I don’t think putting Lucy on trial again is the answer
Subjected to them again - no way
She was so psychotic she was incoherent ?
She should never been put on trial part of any defence is the ability or mental capacity to be able to assist and instruct in your own defence
You can’t do that if you’re psychotic or heavily sedated with anti psychotic meds
From that aspect (and many others) this is completely unsafe and unjust conviction
@@citizenphaid1880 I don’t blame the trust and I certainly don’t blame management. They tried to stand up for Lucy. And have Repetitively stated there was no evidence
Even when they asked the doctors who ‘’are” making claims against Lucy for evidence of anything there was and has been none
Some managers have said in the current enquiry they were actually trying to move out two particular doctors
Pointing the finger at some non-person big blob of an organisation is effective for The true culprits who will hide behind that approach
I truely believe there needs to be investigation into actual, real breathing people not an organisation
@@louisejeffries7155Who diagnosed psychosis and what were her symptoms? Which " anti psychotic" medication was she taking?
I’d say she had to disassociate herself with help of the medications on the stand in order to try survive. That’s a normal response to severe trauma .
Her defense team were 💩. Really shocking defense. Lucy was only 3yrs qualified as a nurse she wouldn’t have had the knowledge to properly defend herself against senior Drs out to save their own necks . I cannot understand why they had no expert Drs on the defense team look a the medical notes.. it’s really inexcusable they didn’t ..
@@gillianstapleton8566 I must admit that I am struggling to understand Dr Evans interpretation of the evidence
As well as quite cynical that she was accused by slap dash and incompetent seniors.
Of course they have also painted pictures of exactly who they are/ were simultaneously 🌺
I can't remember the source, but I definitely remember the speaker saying that Myers KC told the judge that Miss Letby was incoherent, and so asked for one week's delay of the hearing.
@@hemlyns9916 me too ✋
this is what chatgpt: I couldn't find any specific records indicating that Lucy Letby's defense team requested a one-week postponement of her trial. However, it's worth noting that trial schedules often undergo changes due to various legal and procedural reasons. Such adjustments might not always be prominently reported in public records.
If you have a particular date or context in mind regarding this postponement, providing more details could help in locating specific information.
@@daveJohn-n4g terrible..... the trial was definitely postponed..... which means someone has made a best interest decision on our behalves.... and online law is different to offline law because it seems there is no way to challenge it!
I made a comment earlier but saying this again: The evidence didn't point at LL but it was LL that pointed to the 'evidence' against her
she was told to write down her feelings .feeling giult for a baby dying in your care is a normal responce.manament neaded a patsy to exuse all the cuts to child care and the nhs .
@andydudley1775 I agree with you.
@andydudley1775 they have tried to argue these are confession notes. But they are clearly not.
In America, I googled Lucy letby incoherent before trial…..nothing came up
The levenson report
with the number of political attacks at the time from politicians wading in on attacks against her saying how guilty she looks if that then formed a part of the response i can easily see it being walked back .
one could say the initial defence was to limit and get some cant prove guilt forcing the political view to re try then guilty because how bad the case looks not by actual provable evidence because its all complex statistics that docent all make sense easier to let her be convicted because over time with the inquiry and as the statistics are proved wrong the conviction would be deemed unsafe because how emotive the case then becomes you cant get an impartial jury it had also to an extent become political .
So to come back to you cant find stuff that you remember seeing . political leaders , media , social media companies with search engines pushed the guilty narrative to the max removing or hiding the ability to find things happens all the time unless you have a direct page link i can see alot of them facing legal problems that may get expensive so they are starting to limit exposure that means things may still be on the internet its just hard to find them remember ai is a programmed response .
@@paul-br2fs Google sort of lets you know its not allowed to.... a missing point is we are told online law is the same as offline law..... this isn't... because we should have some explanation of why what we are looking for no longer exists.... so we can challenge the best interest decision made on our behalves to remove it..... without our consent or knowledge and not in the least restrictive manner in line with legal requirements
I think she transferred to a different prison, they didn't take her meds, so she was unwell without them. Don't remember where I saw this, but definitely did
@@bobbielang5685 that's Disgraceful 💯
This poor young lady 😢
There's still a Guardian story available "Lucy Letby, the ‘beige’ and ‘average’ nurse who turned into a baby k!ller" which says the trial was delayed by a week in October 2022
@@magnusPurblind magnus.... you are a genius and I love you!
This case, along with other cases in recent years and months, has left me with the view that our criminal justice system is a joke. Just not a very funny joke.
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My personal feeling is Lucy may be on the autistic spectrum (undiagnosed). Through that lens, Lucy becoming almost non-verbal prior to the trial makes sense. Also, stress and overwhelm causes 'shut downs' in many autustic people - when Lucy comes out with one word answers when being cross examined, it reminds me of a shut down. It's impossible to think clearly or formulate answers. It's even difficult to have an argument with someone during a shut down for this reason - let alone be questioned by an aggressive prosecutor!
@@cupofteawithpoetry great points Liz thank you.
I think that the defence may have also advised her to only give one word answers too.... because those prosecutors are able to tie people in knots.... thanks so much 🙏
@tasha24-7 Whenever Lucy's 'lack of emotion' or 'expressionless face' etc are mentioned, I always think autism. As an autistic woman myself, I've lost count of the amount of times people have misinterpreted my flat affect resting face. We have lots of emotion inside- but it doesn't show on our face. Also, when something sad is happening, we don't often cry until later. I think the theory is that the overwhelm in the moment of all the senses prevents us from processing the sadness. Later on when our nervous systems are regulated again, is when the tears come. I always think that when Lucy's accused of not crying about the babies in court.
@cupofteawithpoetry I must admit I have struggled with the autism theory simply because of the photos of her before this happened and the testimony of her closest friends.... mental health issues and certain medications can also produce the same effect - although if you are autistic i must listen carefully to what you say as you possibly may have a far deeper insight than I
Its definitely a consideration and to be honest Blacksquarable also had the same thoughts as you regarding Autism. Really insightful thanks Liz 😊
@@tasha24-7 If you check out the female phenotype, you'll see there are differences to the stereotypes (which were all based on males). One big difference is that autistic girls / young women usually mask more to fit in with their peers - so often at that age we're sociable and as animated as anyone else - we mask and cover our autistic traits, although our quirkiness is usually visible - just as Lucy was described. Also, we can come over to those who don't know us as being quite beige - just as Lucy has been described. Also, autistic people are statistically more likely to be bullied and scapegoated. And we often make unintentional inappropriate comments when stressed - like Lucy did with colleagues and parents. But because we generally appear neurotypical, when these things happen, we're seen as rude or arrogant - like Lucy. And we're more likely to make complaints if we feel something is wrong - we don't see or understand the notion of hierarchy, so we're more likely to do something like report consultants. We don't think about the consequences often until it's too late...
@@tasha24-7 Sorry to go on and on Tasha, but there's an American lady called Carol Weinman who has videos on TH-cam about how autistic people present in court and the challenges of police interviews and cross examination...
Tasha….again….i think this was your best video I’ve seen…..slept in it and thought about it…..that hypothetical woman coukd have been anyone….anyone suffering from a form of trauma disorder. There is a term they are putting all these under ( ie PTSD, complex PTSD, and there are more)….I am not sure they label these trauma disorders…it might be called something else….need to do more research
But basically, there are biological reasons why those who suffer from it act and think the way they do…..PTSD used to be thought if an anxiety disorder, and you got anti anxiety meds for it…..now it’s under the trauma heading and you should only get enough anti anxiety meds to lightly dampen your symptoms and maybe none at all….it totally depends on the individual and is not a cookie cutter method….you need to get to the root or cause of the disorder to treat it….you need to do certain types of exercises per say….such as talk therapy, cognitive behavioral therapy or others to create or dampen certain neural pathways so you think better. The trauma can lead to depression and so maybe small amounts of ant depression medication may or may not help……..it’s exciting new research, much of it done following the experience of soldiers…..trauma changes the parts of the brain that are more pathways from lower to higher levels of brain…..ie limbic system which controls a lot if memory, behavior, emotions…..Lucy appears to have the signs of something related to trauma…..the New Yorker magazine tells it quite well…little noises set her off…think of what a cat does with a noise or disturbance……cats are also studied to understand human emotions in a primitive way……they haven’t been changed by humans the way dogs have been
All mammals to some degree respond to an immediate threatening situation in the following manner…..it will save your life…yiu can’t use your higher human brain functions to think it thru, no time, you would be dead….you must use sort if your midbrain, in conjunction with adrenal glands and peripheral nervous system…..think of being startled as an example
All mammals respond with the following 4 manners…..I think they maybe adding a 5th one soon…..flight, fight, fawn, freeze …..with fawn meaning acting like a baby deer that hides when mom is away…….many times when women were assaulted by men they would extinctively either fawn (give in) or freeze….they can’t help themselves, it’s biological and probably saved their lives…..if a woman would to fight back….the man is stronger and could have become more violent….sadly though women are told that it was their fault they did not fight back……I think it’s a good example of what happens to women who are accused of something, if they don’t act like a man or in the way a “ normal” woman would do, people dont like it…..sadly we woman don’t have the strength of men and fawning to some degree is a protective adaptation…..another great point you brought up….. yes, this person can’t use higher brain functioning to think it through….its stuck in the halfway part called the limbic system….sorry about long post….but it got me to think…..you hit it , bulls eye…..she should not have been put on trial until she coukd process the trauma…..unfortunately many in the psychiatric community just throw pills at people and are not up to date……I doubt they gave her the necessary therapy and maybe yes….light sleeping pills, light anti depressants……if that girl became incoherent so quickly by missing a few days of her drugs, she wouldn’t have been on mild stuff….i bet heavy stuff…….even if fully medicated in a week….no way coukd she even function then….thank u for providing me a place to voice my opinions
@@jar942 wonderful comment Jenny, thank you so much. You are so on point.
I think the biggest thing for me was what a massive change in physical appearance from older photographs and clips taken in happier times.... as well as testimonials from her friends and loved ones who had known her for an entire lifetime.....
In the first police footage I saw.... the one where she said she'd had knee surgery, she looked a bit zonked out... I presumed painkillers.....
This issue is completely complex and utterly profound.... and as you say is about so much more than Lucy’s case.
Big love... and nice to see ya
Thanks for being so kind, I think this video may have come across better because I'm more confident in the subject matter... my last role was in social services
Have an amazing day 💛
@ explains it all……you worked in social services. I think I know how your brain functions….may I ask what your capacity was?
My last job wasn’t just a chart reviewer….i also had to be part nurse, part social worker…..no bedside nursing….instead I had to meet with families, talk with patient, assess the situation….how safe would it be for them to return home? Any physical or psychiatric issues? Have any potential medical or equipment needs, transportation needs, financial needs, language barriers,,,,etc etc etc…. In other words…I had to anticipate discharge needs way ahead of time…..get them thru the hospitalization in a timely matter……would like to know what u did….would love to compare notes….i take it…you were out in the field ? While I was hospital….
@ another great point u just said,,,,she’s changed in appearance….I am upset that they just put out an article….interviewed a prisoner who is in prison with her now,,,,,she’s changed says Lucy’s a bit weird…..my god….who wouldn’t be, after going thru that….i think I would be violent….lucy appears to be sort of fawning…..again…..that’s why I like cats…..they are so mammalian….so primitive….explains human behavior on a basic level…
@ thanks again….you pose great ethic points….i sleep on them….there is a biological explanation for it…..your subconscious works on the issues and you wake up with the answer…….lucy was probably so zonked out….she was sleeping but not really sleeping….with sleeping meds and psychotic meds….you can’t get the correct type of sleep that allows your brain to do certain things in sleep or aware subconsciously…..no way she was thinking with a full deck……no way did she have real capacity….shame on them….they so took advantage of the situation….thise bastard cops and prosecutors…..hope u don’t mind the swear words….light sleeping pill or light anxiety pill now and then okay…,sometimes you have too just calm down,,,,but unless you are bipolar or schizophrenia…psych meds should be used with great caution…,,they are even finding that antidepressants meds don’t deliver like they say they do…..finding out depression, it’s a brain chemical thing that’s causing the depression is total BS…..it’s more complicated
@jar942 we seem to have similar backgrounds... I started in science switched to health including rehab, then education then social services.... I started my journey in social services in a 'pilot scheme role' which was geared at keeping people out of hospital and especially as emergency admissions by utilising some of the fantastic community teams...then Adult social services older people and mental health.. I finished by landing my dream job working in safeguarding ( there was a reorganisation so I was lucky)( I was also still 50% in the community too)...so I didn't lose skills and was shared across 2 teams but I loved safeguarding so much..... I thought id really made it... it was such a privilege to hold that position even though I was still considered the rookie.... then I got mugged..... then I got sick ..... it took such a long time to access health services that I left.... I should've hang on in there and maybe I would have been pensioned off... but 8 didn't know just how ill I would become, then my parents got cancer, ...... I got divorced.... my life fell apart a bit.... and I decided I would make myself useful in another way..... so here I am.... but I'm not done yet..... and im recovering and getting stronger everyday......
I imagine I must have at least 30 years left please God..... so I intend to finish this life in style..... as a thank you for being gifted such an extraordinary life path..... honestly its been intense 🤣🤣🤣....... after such a long time in the game it sort of starts to become second nature......... 🌺