Thank you for sharing. Doing such work can be hard emotionally and physically. But the rewards are the love you get from the animals and people you are helping.
반려견과 함께 사는 사람으로서 처음부터 그냥 눈물 펑펑 흘리면서 봤어요ㅠ_ㅠ다 하나같이 예쁘고 사랑스러운데 모두다 품어줄 수 없는 현실도 슬프고, 애기들이 애초에 저기 있다는 것도 너무 슬프고.. 그러네요.. 그리고 우리집 똥강아지는 본견이 얼마나 행복한 지 꼭 자각하길 바란다..!!
유이님 다시봤어요~~ 이렇게 마음이 예쁘시다니!! 저도 평소에 유기견에 생각이많고 봉사활동도 해보고싶단 생각도 많이하는데 이렇게 많은 유기견들 보며 마음이 많이 아프지만.. 그래도 조금이라도 그곳에서 편안하고 쾌적하게 생활할수 있었으면 하는 좋겠네요.. 암튼 이렇게 좋은일도 하시니 너무보기좋아요 👍 👍
Oink Oink.. And If there is a Note written back to Me.. so many empty bottles are laying all around.. hoping that YOU have received the Message in the Bottle.. the Letter.. the Love Letter I wrote to YOU when I was in the Room.. sitting by the desk.. I would be looking at Your Picture.. for the first time in my life.. I have never felt the way I do now.. waiting for YOU by the Beach.. so many days passed by.. which became weeks down the Line.. and Now.. I been waiting for Your Answer.. hoping that YOU wrote me something back.. as I am standing around.. the Last time I came to this same beach.. Not even ONE bottle.. an empty Bottle was here.. but at this very Night.. there are just too many empty bottles laying around.. which I am thinking.. at least there must be One.. but My Heart would sank as I would be looking at each empty Bottle.. I don't see any of it with any notes or Letters coming back.. I feel so Sad.. maybe the Bottle.. the Love Letter I wrote to YOU.. putting inside the empty Bottle.. I am feeling.. and losing hope.. what if the Message in the Bottle has went to the wrong location.. what if YOU have never received it.. maybe it is still in the Ocean Waters floating through the Water.. unable to reach YOU.. what if it went to the Other side.. to someone else who I never wrote too.. I am just confused at this Point because I have written the Letter.. Love Letter to YOU.. I even looked UP to the Sky.. I looked at the MOON.. asking in prayers to guide the Message in the Bottle.. if that MOON has an ear.. and able to hear my voice and can listen to my words.. would IT help to guide the Message in the Bottle and send it to Your direction.. I would ask.. will you please Help me.. because YOU know that I am in love.. I want to share this open Heart.. My Heart has been opened to share and to tell YOU what is in me.. hoping that YOU feel the same as what I feel right NOW.. I been looking UP to the Moon.. asking.. Looking at it.. I would say to the MOON.. would you lend me Your Hand.. if YOU have a Hand.. If YOU have an ear.. can YOU please listen to my words.. Can you hear my voice because I really Need something from YOU.. it is YOUR Help.. as YOU can see.. I have written a Letter.. a Love Letter and I have PUT the Letter.. rolled into and put into this An Empty Bottle and I would show the MOON.. the Empty Bottle.. Love Letter rolled up and stick it into the An empty Bottle and I would walk up closer to the waves of Water coming into the Beach sand and I would toss the Message in the Bottle IN to the Water.. as I would stand still in the Night.. I would LOOK UP to the MOON.. finger pointing to the Message in the Bottle.. IF you can hear me this very night.. If YOU can hear my Voice.. if you hear my words.. Please do me a favor.. Guide that Message IN the Bottle.. Please.. Help that Message in the Bottle to travel to the right Place.. and I have a Picture of YOU and I would pull it out and I would SHOW the Face.. the Picture of YOU up to the MOON.. if you have eyes.. Please Open Your eyes wide and take a LOOK.. take a good Look of this Picture.. I am asking YOU.. LOOKING UP to the MOON.. I am asking YOU.. this Message in the Bottle belongs TO the One I am showing you the Picture.. Please Help me.. guide it through so it can go carefully to the right person which is YOU.. It took me a long hours of thinking.. picking UP a Pencil.. finding a clean sheet of Paper.. trying to brain storm at first.. trying to find the right words to write.. thinking over and over what to write.. as I would be staring at the Blank Sheet of Paper.. I would sit alone.. but cannot put the Words to write on that Blank sheet piece of Paper.. I would sit alone by the desk.. trying to pick and choose the right Words to share from my Heart.. ideas would Not come so fast and I had to write and stop.. try to write again and I would stop.. I would be angry with myself because I would write on that Clean Blank sheet of paper.. I would try to read it.. re read it over and over.. did NOT sound right.. grab the paper which been written and I would roll into the Ball with that Paper and toss it into the Trash can in the room.. I would be struggling through the Night.. struggling with Hours what to write.. as I would look at the Time.. looking at the watch in the room.. only thing I see is the TIME ticks so fast.. One hour goes by.. another clean blank sheet of paper I would pull out to write YOU.. a Letter.. a Love Letter.. only thing that I can think in that night is the TIME.. the Time flies so fast.. but I am sitting alone by the desk.. Unable to fulfill what I wanted to do by telling YOU.. sharing YOU.. writing YOU.. the first three letter Hits and I would write.. I LOVE YOU.. and trying to fill in the Blank.. asking myself.. what am I doing.. so much time is passing BY.. making my Heart to skip.. making it skip twice and three times.. because only the Three Letter words I am able to tell YOU and Nothing More.. am I getting Old.. am I losing memories.. what is happening to myself.. and I would open the Bottle.. and starts to Pour into the Shot Glass.. as I place the Bottle Down.. I would pick up the shot Glass and take a Shot.. I want to cry because I know there are so much words I want to say to YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU so much but.. sitting by the desk Alone for about the Hour that went by.. I feel like I just can't write.. I can't write but My Heart has so much to say.. because I know that deep inside.. I love YOU.. I would grab the Bottle and pour more into the Shot Glass.. putting the Bottle Down.. grabbing the Shot Glass.. I open my mouth and take a shot.. slamming into me.. I feel so stressful now.. I want to tell YOU.. but what am I suppose to say.. I can't just put I love YOU on this Big Pieces of Blank Paper.. I know that I needs to fill in the Blank as much as Possible so that YOU Know my Heart.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to tell YOU MORE.. I just don't want to say three little words and put the period at the end.. I want to tell you much more than Just the three words I love YOU or I miss YOU.. just too vague and makes me feel like I have NO words to say.. and I turn around.. LOOKING behind me is the Bed.. and there is something that is sitting on the TOP of the Bed.. it is the Giant Teddy Bear.. and Next to the Giant Teddy Bear is the Pillow.. the shape of the Heart color Pink.. before I would turn to look back again to look.. I would pull the Picture of YOU.. and Place it right next to the Blank Sheet piece of Paper.. and I would take a closer LOOK at your Picture and my words would say looking at your picture.. why do I keep on missing YOU.. why do I keep on looking at your Picture.. why can I just stop everything.. it would not hurt me this Much.. the pain and the ache of Missing YOU.. the More I miss YOU the more I think of YOU.. the More I think of YOU.. I just want to say.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would turn around to look back again.. the Wall and the bed next to the Wall.. the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on the TOP of the Bed.. I would close Both eyes and tried to imagine.. tries to envision YOU sitting on the TOP of the Bed and your Arms.. arms.. YOUR arms Holding.. wrapping around the Giant Teddy Bear.. I open both eyes.. Are you there.. I am trying to ask if I see YOU.. are you there yet.. and I can feel my Heart.. so I turn around.. facing the Piece of paper.. my hand grabs the Pencil and I start to write YOU a letter.. a Love Letter that only can comes from My Heart.. can I feel my Heart crying.. can I feel my eyes wants to shed some tears because I begin to write.. I see my hand.. as the pencil starts to write on the Paper.. I would tell YOU.. I am missing YOU.. and YOU have left behind the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. many nights when I sit alone and I would be sitting by the Desk.. I would turn to look back.. it is the Giant Teddy Bear which brings so much memories to me.. even though for the Hour went by.. I sat alone.. could not put any words on the Pieces of Paper.. only thing is that My Hand grabs and holds unto the pencil tightly.. I would tell my hand to write.. I want to see the Words written on the Paper.. but it is My Brain.. the thought stops and locks up.. even though my hand wants to move and to write.. My thoughts seems like it just wants to stop.. holding it still.. even though I feel it in my heart and has so much to say to YOU.. I wonder why I can't write on this Very night.. I would open the Bottle of a Whiskey I bought and started to pour on the shot glass.. the pain and the ache in my Heart and my soul.. just killing me because I miss YOU so Much and only words that was stuck and has been written was the three letter words.. I love YOU.. I wanted to scream.. I wanted to cry because I know that in my Heart.. I needs to say something.. I needs to tell YOU what is really going on in me.. to tell YOU that I love YOU and how much I miss YOU.. when I started to take some more Shot from the Shot glass.. I started to Miss YOU.. all over again I started to miss YOU more as I would pour and taking shot from the Whiskey Bottle.. as I would watch the Bottle being emptied.. missing YOU started to Hurt me more.. as I would pull out and place Your Picture in front of Me.. as I would look at YOU through this Picture.. two lines of tears.. tear drops starts to run down my eyes because I wanted to be with YOU.. just missing YOU and unable to do anything.. that is when I turn to LOOK back.. I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted YOU to be there.. Your Presences.. even I turn to LOOK back.. I found nothing but the Giant Teddy Bear sitting alone.. just like me sitting here alone.. I even had to try to close.. I even closed my both eyes because I wanted to see YOU.. when I closes both eyes.. I saw YOU there.. I saw YOU smiling and holding Oink
Oink Oink.. I am in the Room.. Looking out the window.. I see the rain showering down.. I would like to walk in the rain.. but it be nice If I take this Piano with Me.. I have written YOU another Letter.. I wonder if YOU can Hear Me Now.. I know that just standing Out alone.. and Turning to LOOK up.. LOOKING at the Moon and just speaking to the MOON.. that Moon does Not Hear Me.. so I am trying something New.. something different so that Maybe the MOON can catch the glimpse of Me.. and Can turn to LOOK at Me.. and Hear me.. I am trying to grab and get the attention of that MOON.. so maybe I can bring Out this Little Piano that I bought.. and PUT it outside.. and I can Hit the Keys.. making the Sounds.. and with the Recorder in my hand.. and Push the Recording Button as I can open this Letter.. which I have written just for YOU and share it.. If YOU can Hear Me.. Can the Moon hear me Now.. if I can get the MOON to get closer to Me.. I can ask the MOON.. and show the MOON the Picture of YOU.. and ask the MOON.. if YOU see this Person.. in the Picture.. can YOU do something for Me.. will you send me an Angel.. call an Angel for Me.. and I will show the Angel the Picture of YOU.. and I would open the Recorder.. and give the Angel the Tape I have recorded and If the Angel can do me a favor.. that I have One Wish.. to give this Tape to YOU.. and YOU can hear my Voice.. YOU can hear me say and tell YOU what is deep in my Heart.. as I would speak to the recorder to tell YOU.. HOW much I miss YOU.. How Much I want to be close to YOU.. I know that if I just appear out of the Blue.. I don't want to scare YOU.. I don't want YOU to think that I am stalking YOU because I am Not.. so Maybe the MOON.. which hears me Press the Key notes and making the Sounds of pressing the Key bars can turn to Hear and Notice me that I am here down Below.. and If the MOON comes closer.. I will ask.. DO you know any angels who can do me favor.. because I have One wish.. Not asking Much but just for ONE wish.. so I will tell the MOON.. Please get me an Angel to come at my aid.. and If I see the Angel.. I will give HIM the picture of YOU and the tape which I have recorded over and also if YOU need the Letter.. I will give this Angel the Letter too.. just in case YOU want to read this Letter of Mine.. as I am looking out the window.. looking at the rain pouring down.. I have the Piano.. the Little Piano with Me.. I want to take it Out.. I want to go out side and play the Piano.. of course I don't know how to Play.. so If you hear the back ground and It does Not sound right.. YOU know that it is Me.. it is Me who is pressing the Key bars.. just pressing because I want YOU to hear me.. Please hear Me.. Please hear me what I needs to say and to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. why do I love you this way.. I love you in a way YOU can say.. I am creative with what I do.. I am looking at the Little Piano.. Looking at Your Picture.. and I would say to my self.. I miss YOU.. I really really Miss YOU.. just watching the rain fall and the shower of the rain coming down from the sky.. It makes me more miss YOU.. I wish that I did not have to Miss YOU.. but for some reason.. this very Night I really miss YOU.. the way my Heart truly feels is this.. grabbing an Empty Glass Jar.. I want to pull out My Heart from my chest.. grab a Knife and stab my Heart right in the Middle and put the wounded Heart.. the One with the scars.. Put it inside the Glass jar.. watching my Heart be bleeding.. I feel like I am slowly dying instead.. as I look at the Blood gushing Out of my Heart and I see my own blood filling UP the Glass Jar with my Heart still inside it.. I be looking at it.. and I would take the Little Piano Out side.. does Not matter How wet I get.. But I feel like I am dying inside for YOU.. because I miss YOU.. as I am out side.. standing in the rain.. getting wet by the Rain.. I would also bring the Glass Jar.. with My Heart and the Blood filled.. and let YOU see It.. I would ask the Moon.. do YOU not feel sorry for Me.. Do you not see How much I am in pain and that I am suffering so much right Now.. and I would push the recording Button of the recorder.. pressing with my fingers of the key Bars.. telling YOU what I wrote.. I would memorize the Letter I wrote to YOU.. in the Rain.. I am calling Out for YOU.. crying Out for YOU.. can YOU see my Heart.. DO you want to see My Heart.. if YOU can't see it.. I have brought the Glass Jar.. with my Heart inside.. I am missing YOU so much right Now.. I just don't know what to do.. what am I suppose to do when I miss You like this.. Please tell Me.. I have the tape with me.. with My Voice and words speaking into the recorder.. I am reading the Letter which I wrote.. I am reading as I am looking at the Heart.. LOOKING at my Heart inside the Glass Jar covered in Blood.. Please Help me to recover from this Wound and from the scars I feel in my Heart when I be missing YOU.. I just can't take this pain any more.. Please help me to Love again.. If I don't see YOU.. this is how My Heart feels right Now.. as I would look UP.. looking at the MOON.. I be pressing the key Bars of the Little Piano.. and I am crying.. crying because I want More than just this.. I want More of YOU.. I want to say it to your ears.. and tell YOU as I hold you near.. hold you near in my arms.. telling YOU.. why can't I tell YOU.. why can't I say it to YOU in person.. give me the chance to speak to YOU so that YOU can hear me clearly what is IN my Heart.. help me to love YOU more.. only way to can help me.. only way I can get to YOU.. Please Open Your Heart to me.. show me that YOU care.. show me that YOU are truly listening.. because many nights I am Not sure if YOU are or Not.. as My fingers are hitting.. banging on the Key Bars making sounds on this Little Piano.. I want to hear from YOU.. I needs to hear from YOU.. that YOU are listening on the Other side.. I only see the MOON.. but I can't see YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to see YOU near.. and as I would press the stop button of the tape recorder.. I stand still.. getting more wet by the rain.. showers of water of rain on me.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens out.. towards the MOON.. How can I get to YOU.. How can I get Your attention.. How do I get YOU to notice Me.. I know that I am very small as a person.. but the way I love YOU.. the size of How much I love YOU.. If YOU can come Outside at Night.. My Heart of loving YOU can be as big as the MOON I am looking at.. if YOU look at the MOON.. the same Moon I am looking at.. that is HOW MUCH I love YOU.. that is How much I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. even though my Heart breaks.. I can feel my Heart be breaking on the Night like this because I love YOU.. and because I miss YOU.. why don't you ever see Me.. why don't you ever notice Me.. YOU know that I been hear all this Long.. I been here all this Time telling YOU that it is real.. it is true that I be loving YOU.. YOU needs to see that and believe it too. Please give me a chance to Love YOU.. Please give me One Chance.. One shot is all I am asking for.. Not even a day but even few minutes of the time is all I am asking for.. But I am asking YOU.. that Only YOU can make me smile.. as I see the Rain stopped.. and I am standing alone out side.. I am soaked wet because of the shower of rains would pour down on me.. I would pull out the Letter.. of course the Letter is soaked wet too.. but I can still see the writings.. and I would look at the wet recorder and press the Button of the recording.. and the little Piano has a stand.. so I would place the Glass jar on top of the Little Piano.. and after Opening the Letter.. I would lift UP my head towards and I would look at the MOON.. DO you hear Me.. can YOU Please hear me.. ON this very Night.. I am want to speak to YOU.. would you let me speak because this is the Only thing I can do for right Now.. I want to show YOU this Glass Jar.. I want to take this Glass jar and give it to YOU.. and if you can listen.. I want to tell YOU that I been loving YOU for so Long.. I been loving YOU that I have lost the count.. I started to count in the beginning but I guess I just had to stop.. because the More I love YOU.. the less I counted.. as I am looking at this Glass Jar.. I have stabbed my Heart with the Knife.. it Hurts when the Blade plunged into the center of the Heart.. I felt the Pain.. and started to suffer because of If.. as I watch my Heart struggle for air.. I saw the Blood pouring Out.. and I would say.. It must be Love because I miss YOU.. I started to miss YOU over and over.. that I felt the tears just running down my two eyes.. I can't take it any more because I love YOU.. I can't take this Pain because I be missing YOU like crazy.. when can I see YOU.. is it going to be soon.. Please tell me when can I see YOU.. will you let me see YOU.. or is it going to be never on your end.. I been waiting for YOU.. for a long time I been waiting and just kept on missing YOU.. every time I write YOU a Letter.. and I think of YOU and every time I take a Look at your Picture.. I can feel something inside of me wants to cry.. I want to cry More as I keep on missing YOU.. holding YOU in my arms is my first Wish.. and the second is to tell YOU how much I love YOU and how much I missed you.. that I know one day it needs to stop.. that I do not have to miss YOU any more.. I am standing Out here.. LOOKING UP at the MOON.. when would that TIME BE.. when I can stop be missing YOU.. I would be wiping these tears.. most of the nights are very harsh for Me.. because my arms.. my arms wants to hold YOU.. hold you close and hold you still.. just to feel you close and that I get to call YOU mine forever.. will you Let that Happen to me.. Please tell me that I do have a hope still.. that I still have a chance.. a hope to tell you that I need YOU.. I miss YOU and that I love YOU.. Please give me the hope so that I can dream being US together for ever.
I knew that I had to do something.. that One day YOU will know that I love YOU.. maybe not at the Point but some day YOU will know how much I love YOU by sharing what YOU have given Me and what you have done to Me.. as I would look.. the Work Shop.. Looking at the Paper.. the Art sketch.. the drawing of the Sun Flower.. back is the Garden.. and Now.. there are More than Thousand Sun Flowers in the Back.. in the Garden.. ready to be given and ready to be sold.. when YOU came into the Work Shop.. I was blown into pieces because YOU looked a lot like someone who I loved.. but did NOT wanted to ask you if YOU were.. because YOU could of been someone else but NOT YOU.. when YOU shared the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing of the Sun Flower and I turn to face the Wall.. the same drawing YOU given me when I was a young Boy.. who was hurting.. who just read a Letter of the Lost and dead family.. YOU were like an Angel who gave me Life to live again.. I do remember when YOU asked me if YOU could work here.. I told YOU NO at first.. I did Not want you to come close because I know that something could happen.. I wanted you close deep in my Heart.. but.. I did not want you too close.. I am already Hurt.. I do not want to be hurt again but I did miss YOU so much that My Heart was crying inside.. I did Not want to tell YOU this at all.. because I did Not want to see you go.. I remember YOU told me that YOU will be back.. and I had to let YOU go that day you came.. YOU just do not know how heavy I felt inside.. It broke me down into tears again.. asking myself.. why did I let YOU go like this.. what if YOU will never show UP.. what if I will not see YOU again.. what if I end up dying like this instead.. and I just could not help myself and blamed myself for letting you walk away like this.. what if YOU never come back to me.. and I be dumb like this of letting YOU go when I know deep inside I love YOU.. I was just too afraid to let YOU IN because I loved YOU just too much.. I am looking through the Window.. In the Work Shop.. I see YOU.. I remember I grabbed your wrist.. and I told YOU.. I love YOU.. for a Long time.. I just could Not take my Mind Off of YOU.. asking YOU.. can I be the One who can Love you for the rest of My Life.. will you let me.. I know that I made the situation worst when I grabbed your wrist.. I just wanted to express my Heart but did not mean to come out that strong to You.. I saw you turning your Head away from Me.. and Looking towards another direction.. I knew that I had to let Go.. YOU told me that YOU did not want to work here any more.. of course I knew the answer clearly.. as I open my hand and let go of your wrist.. you wanted to tell me something.. and told me that YOU were seeing someone else.. but I knew that person well.. and my Heart.. I just knew that My confession of telling you came too late.. But I was holding in for so long.. why did YOU not wait.. why did you tell me that YOU wanted to be loved by someone else.. But.. I know that I bee here all along.. YOU knew that I felt something towards YOU.. even though I did Not have to say the words.. by the smile and my actions should of told YOU already.. but Now.. is it really late for me to tell YOU that I love YOU.. can you please receive My Love.. can you please open your heart just a little for Me.. I need to know.. I need a chance you know.. if I am the One for YOU.. did YOU not ever think about that.. I can really be the One who can love you for so long.. but if you do not give me that Chance.. you will never know How far I can truly love YOU and tell YOU how much I love YOU.. are you really going to let this Chance go.. and I would turn.. trying to look at YOU.. but.. I see that YOU are moving and pushing me away.. but.. I know I can too love YOU.. WHY can't you just reconsider.. and please give a time for yourself.. Let me know that I can too love YOU.. is it that Hard for you to know.. I know that I can Love YOU too.. maybe I can be a Better Lover.. I can love you more because YOU brought this Inspiring of Love to Me.. will you please consider and think about what I have said to YOU.. I see you turning away and telling me you have already made it known and made it clear to me that YOU love another man.. and I would watch you walking away.. and I would turn away toward your Direction.. wait.. do you have to end it like this.. can you not give me a Chance too.. if you do not open your heart.. if you keep it close.. you will know that I have loved you More.. so Please.. open your heart.. I know I can Love you better.. I can Love you More.. only please.. stop and wait.. I watch the Door open.. and I see you walk out the Door and the door closes.. I am thinking about the day you left me.. I was building this work Shop just for YOU.. YOU told me that YOU loved Flowers.. I asked you what is your Interest.. what makes you smile.. what do you like to see.. what makes you cry.. what makes you happy and as a friend you told me many things.. I collected and gathered.. YOU told me that YOU wanted to see a lot of Flowers.. Out of the woods.. some of the trees had to be cut Down.. and the builders came and helped me to build this Work Shop out of the woods.. and I would ask what kinds of seed would bring Flowers to Life in the Garden.. and I asked few of the Plant specialists and they helped me to get these seeds and started to help me to plant.. Once these things were established I remember I asked you if you wanted to work.. and YOU told me where.. and I gave you the address.. it is a Flower Shop.. and I work there too.. and I do remember you did take the offer and started to work.. I would show you different flowers.. I would think about the flowers you loved.. when we were young.. when YOU came to the Orphan House.. I do remember you coming with your parents.. and they would always bring you Flowers.. and share to the children who had NO Parents.. I member I would see the kinds of flowers in your Hands.. each time you would bring a New Flower in your hand.. I would look at the flower.. going into my room.. I have me a Note Book.. and start to write down flowers you would bring.. it be so different.. and I have kept the Note Book for a Long time.. from Page to page.. I would smile.. as I would feel my tears roll down.. my hand touch the words of the Names of each Flower.. and I would ask the Specialist can any of these Flowers.. do you have the seeds of these flowers so that I can plant in the garden too.. I do remember some of the farmers who lived around the Area comes to help.. I would be asking if they can help me to Plant these seeds and help me to grow.. and the older People started to help as I would watch the Plants.. I saw Flowers blossom time after time.. and when the Flowers would grow.. I would think of YOU.. each has a special place in my Heart.. I would touch my Chest looking at each Unique Flowers and I wanted to show YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU something.. But I was afraid to ever tell YOU.. Just like what has happened.. YOU told me that YOU love someone else.. YOU telling me that I am Not the One.. that I am Not allowed to Love YOU.. how can YOU tell me this when I been thinking of you all this TIME.. you brought so much tears in my eyes.. My Heart was breaking.. I could not see you from the distance.. I could not believe you would say.. and just walked away.. Now I am here.. back at the Work Shop.. I have left the work Shop because of these memories causing me to Die inside.. but.. what am I suppose to do what YOU are the Love of my Life who brings me back here.. and I would stand here.. the room is dark.. I know that It is time to start over.. I am going to build this Shop again.. this Flower shop because I know that I love YOU.. does Not matter if you ever return back to me or Not.. But.. I know that I love this Place.. why because I always loved YOU.. your scent still is here.. I can still smell your scent.. and I just wanted to hold YOU near when I smell you.. so sweet and so beautiful.. as I am looking at the Window.. and I look through.. I see the tree I was standing.. and I am not sure.. but I see someone.. I am hoping it is YOU.. I want it to be YOU.. but Not YOU who breaks my Heart.. YOU who is coming back to Me.. YOU who knows how much I love YOU.. YOU who knows that I have build this work Shop.. this Flower Shop because I was inspired by Loving YOU.. to show you how much I love YOU.. and as I am getting closer toward the window and I look through.. I see YOU.. but.. is it YOU who loves another man.. because YOU should always know that I love you first.. I watch YOU turning around and I see you looking.. I am standing by the window.. YOU are standing by the tree and My tears.. it starts to flow down.. two lines.. I know I missed YOU.. YOU know how much I miss YOU.. and YOU should now that this whole place.. It is because of YOU.. How much I love YOU.. LOOK at the flower Shop.. Look at the farmers who and helping the flowers to grow.. look at the each Flowers which has been planted.. if YOU can go back.. Do you not remember when we were young.. YOU came to a house like this.. I was at the Orphan House.. YOU came with your parents.. but you brought flowers.. different times YOU came to visit.. I would stand there.. I see you smile so Big and YOU would tell me.. too look at the Flower.. and YOU would run straight direction toward me and with a BIG SMILE.. showing me the name of the Flower.. where YOU got it.. and you be moving the Flower around.. telling me that Some day YOU are going to have your Own garden.. and In that garden grow Your flowers.. and begin to show me the different kinds of flowers you wanted to plant to grow.. of course.. I would run to the room.. and would write that on the Note Book.. and I would tell myself.. One Day I want to give you a Garden with full of flowers YOU showed me.. and give you the gift of this Garden and that is WHY I am here..
Lover.. who can Love you more.. are you giving me a Chance.. and I would close my eyes.. and when I open.. I look through the window across.. I don't see you any more.. I would look one more time.. and I see that YOU are gone.. as I look at your Picture.. I would smile.. I know that YOU are happy.. of course who don't want to love YOU.. I know that you have many young men who wants to love YOU.. but.. I know that I can love YOU more.. I can love you better.. because I know my Heart.. I understand my Heart knowing what Love truly is.. and to Let YOU know how much I love YOU.. I just wanted to share and tell YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. Only YOU who I love.. YOU are the Only One who I think of the Most.. always on my mind.. and always loving YOU first.. I just wanted to say I love you.. and always I will love YOU.. I am waiting at the Doctor's office.. I am getting sick.. something has happened to my Heart.. I am wondering if My Heart is broken.. as I am sitting down.. waiting for the Doctor.. I am holding your Picture in my Hand.. I have been looking at this Picture for a Long time.. since I have lost you.. and it is the Picture of YOU.. you are standing by the Wall.. with a beautiful Smile.. I gave YOU a flowers and YOU are holding in your hand.. showing me in the picture of you.. I was so happy when I gave you those flowers in the work shop.. I surprised you that night.. it was before I wanted to ask YOU out.. I wanted to ask if we can be lovers.. and before the questions came about.. and I gave YOU the flowers.. I would watch you holding in your hand.. and I saw you smelling the flowers.. it touched my Heart.. Your nose so close and I saw both of your eyes closing when YOU brought the Flowers closer to your nose.. and right after.. you opened your eyes.. I be holding the camera.. zooming in to get a closer Picture.. I asked if YOU could just smile for me.. YOU are the Most Beautiful when I see you smile.. so I asked.. looking through the lens of the Camera.. I saw you holding the flowers closer and my finger presses and it clicked to take that Picture.. I would put the camera down and I came closer to YOU and I wanted to say but.. YOU told me Not to say it.. Because YOU knew what I was going to say and told me that YOU already have some one who you love.. and that I knew the person well.. I would just stand there.. No words to tell YOU because.. I have been holding this for a long time.. I wanted to tell YOU for a long time.. but I guess holding too long.. and I just could not hold it back.. I want to know.. DO you love Him.. do you think that man can love you more than Me.. if He can love you more than me.. I can back off and just pretend I never told you this.. I want to know what if I can love you More.. I know that I can love you where YOUR Heart can be truly touched.. I know that I can love you because I am already loving YOU.. but pushing me away is not going to solve anything.. but if you know that He can love you more and can make you more happier.. than I have nothing more to say.. But How about my Heart.. how about the Love I have for YOU.. will you please consider this before you can.. and it is the Picture before I wanted to ask.. but I do remember you be telling me that YOU love some one else.. I wanted to walk out of that work shop.. I wanted to leave at that moment because My Heart couldn't handle this kind of pain.. and to heal it takes a long time for me to get over it.. but.. I felt like I should stay.. that may be you would change your mind.. so I just stood and waited.. but I saw YOU looking at me.. giving me back the flowers and I saw YOU walking out of that work shop.. I heard the door behind me shutting down.. holding the flowers in my hands.. why am I holding these flowers for.. I am the one who gave you these flowers.. these are not for me and when I turned my head to look back.. I stood there.. the door was closed and YOU left.. I wanted to cry.. but I wanted to hold my own emotions in and I kept it inside for a while before I wanted to lead it out.. I stood there in the silence.. holding the flowers in my hands.. just did not know what to do any more.. as I am sitting on the chair.. just waiting for the doctor to call my name.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. holding the flowers and just smiling.. Now I am thinking.. and wondering.. what if I did Not say anything.. did Not mention and just stood there and smiled back.. I know that YOU would not left the work shop that night.. you could of still be there with me.. but would I ever be happy just watching you on the side line.. just loving YOU alone.. while YOU have someone who loves YOU and you be loving him back.. What am I suppose to do if I am just another shadow of passing through.. It would be breaking my heart into pieces.. I remember I open my hands and the Flowers all fell to the floor.. hitting the ground.. I dropped to my knees.. beating against my chest and started to cry loud.. wailing louder because of the pains of hitting me so Hard that night.. I did not even leave that work shop.. I would be crying for hours.. just feeling the pain deep within me.. sitting by the wall.. I would be leaning.. and I would sit until the Sun would rise Up.. I just could not work any more.. and wanted to take some time off.. but I could not get up.. sitting there.. looking at the flowers all over the floor of the ground.. I can't believe that this Hurts.. it hurts me much more.. why did I even mentioned if it going to end UP like this.. hurting me like this.. this ache.. this pain of just loving you.. why can't you love me back.. I would yell.. out loud.. why can't you love me back.. what must I do for YOU to notice HOW much I love YOU.. and I would sit still.. could not get up.. just did not want to move.. I did not want to eat anything.. even though I was hungry.. but I sat there.. leaning against the wall.. just thinking of YOU.. am I going crazy.. am I losing my mind.. what is wrong.. matter with me is what I would be thinking.. and I would suddenly lay on the floor.. maybe sleeping will help me.. get me better.. and I lay on the floor.. both eyes closes.. and it hurts so bad that I just could not sleep.. as I am still waiting for the doctor.. the door opens and I am looking at your Picture.. I hear foot steps and someone sits next to me.. and I put the picture down.. I am wondering.. who is sitting next to me and as I turn to look.. I see you next to me.. I am thinking.. all this time.. did you know that I am here so you came.. or you just came because YOU are sick too.. and I looked at YOU.. why are you here.. Why are you sitting next to me.. YOU told me that YOU have someone who loves YOU.. you told me you love him.. but why are you here.. I am here because I love you too much.. I think I can't bear this pain.. take this pain any more.. I am going to get me a New Heart.. I don't like the Heart I have with me.. this Heart is always hurting me so I want a new Heart.. a Heart who does Not know you any more.. as I looked at YOU.. are you hurt just like me.. or is it for something else.. as I raised my arm.. my hand is holding your Picture.. and I would show YOU this picture and I turned to look at YOU and I would say.. do YOU remember this time.. Do you remember the day I gave you those flowers.. I am so sorry that I told you that I loved YOU.. I did not meant to say it in a way that YOU wanted to walk off.. but Do you want to see this Picture.. I think you never got the chance to look at it because the Picture came after YOU left.. Do you know how many times I cried looking at this Picture.. I would tell myself.. I regret letting YOU know.. I would tell myself many times.. I regretted because.. If I never mentioned it to YOU.. you would of stayed with me a little longer right.. and I would look at you.. and I see you smile.. as I am waiting for the doctor.. I would look at the picture again.. looking at YOU.. when I would turn my head to look.. I don't see you any more.. I am wondering.. was this just a dream.. why did I saw you here.. maybe I do miss you just too much.. I am aching in my Heart.. I feel like I am dying inside.. the door opens.. and I see the doctor.. I hear the Doctor calling my Name.. I get UP out of the chair and I would walk into the patient room.. and I would sit on patient chair.. I would show the picture to the Doctor.. and the Doctor looks at the picture.. and I am telling the doctor.. I need a new Heart.. if you can give me a New Heart.. I think I can live again.. I am suffering just too much with the Heart who is inside of me.. if YOU can please take my Heart.. put that heart away.. and replace with a New Heart.. I think I can live again.. I just can't live with this Heart.. it is killing me and driving me insane.. Please.. can you do a surgery so that I can breathe again.. to live again.. something is wrong with the Heart I am having.. giving me just too much pain.. and my eyes gets watery and I turn to look.. looking at the doctor in the eyes.. when I looked at the eyes.. it looks like your eyes.. and I would look.. and you are holding the picture in your hand.. and I can't believe I am asking YOU to get rid of my heart.. I am wondering.. and of course.. I remember you told me when we were young.. that YOU had dreams.. you wanted to be a Heart doctor and help healing wounds.. you told me once.. your dreams was to be a doctor who would save lives.. and I am sitting down.. as Your hand is holding that picture.. this is the picture YOU never saw.. but it was when YOU were working with me at the Work Shop.. and do you not remember.. the flowers I gave YOU.. and Yes.. you gave me the flowers back and I dropped the flowers on the floor.. as I looked at YOU.. I would smile at you.. I am glad that YOU have fulfilled your dreams of becoming a Doctor.. at least I came to the right person because if I were to die tonight.. at least YOU are the last person I got to see before I die.
Of tears would drop.. I just can't live without you.. or please let me have a chance to love YOU.. you can make a choice.. be the One to do the surgery to my Heart.. or let me please just keep on loving YOU.. because I just want to love you more and more.. tell me why can't I love you more.. as I am looking at you as the doctor.. I see you turning away.. with the picture in your hand.. I see you leave the patient room.. why can't you get rid of my Heart.. get rid of this Heart so that I don't love you any more.. make a choice for me.. Please.. tell me which way for me to go.. I am looking at you.. I just could not believe that YOU are now a doctor.. a Heart surgeon.. of course I came here to get my Heart to be removed.. I wanted another Heart Surgeon because.. Can you handle doing the surgery.. planting into a different Heart.. a Heart from someone else.. What would you do if I don't recognize YOU any more.. what will you do if I start to love another whose Heart has been loving.. But.. I don't want to lose YOU.. How can I live without YOU.. How can I breathe if I can't love YOU any more.. but all this Time.. I have been only loving YOU.. YOU are the Only One who I been missing.. I been crying over looking at the empty wall.. walking into the Work Shop.. I been missing YOU.. missing your Presence.. just missing your smile.. can YOU handle me.. putting me into the deep sleep.. as YOU cut my chest wide open.. I know that YOU are more experience in this kind of work.. If you are the Doctor.. because I asked for a well experienced.. well established with multiple years of experience.. I don't want my Heart to be broken.. I don't want my Heart to be dropped on the floor.. It has been with me all of my life.. ever since I was born.. ever since I was a young Boy.. when I first saw YOU.. I cried.. I started to cry after YOU left.. YOU promised me that YOU will be back.. and I felt my Heart.. I did not know what it was at the first touch.. I just could not stop.. but I would kept on crying through the Night.. that is when I could Not sleep.. I kept on thinking of YOU.. over and over.. turning and tossing.. all of the children at the Orphan House.. they were all sleeping good.. I sat on top of the bed.. wondering.. why couldn't I sleep like the Other children.. I do remember you gave me your picture.. I saw both of your parents with YOU.. and I do remember.. being so Poor.. without any parents.. living with bunch of poor children.. who had No homes.. only could gather with each other.. I looked at YOU.. I would smile.. I could never smile living with bunch of these children.. they were all dirty like Me.. pushing and shoving.. kicking and screaming.. and there was No peace.. When I heard the Old Woman.. the Care taker says to the Children.. a Missionary family is coming.. to help Us.. to help educate and give Us books to read.. and toys to play with.. of course.. it was YOU and your Parents who came.. I knew that I should of stopped myself right when I met YOU.. I don't know why I asked for your picture that day.. before YOU were leaving.. and as I was crying.. I wanted to be a Part.. so I asked for YOUR picture.. when YOU told me that YOU are going to give me One.. and That smile.. you pulled out and told me that this is the Only One.. the best Picture you have taken.. I saw your Smile.. and YOU told me.. behind the Picture is your Address.. and If I wanted a friend to share my Heart.. to write YOU a Letter.. I do remember watching YOU leave.. Your Father and Mother holding your Hands as YOU leave.. I would be waving with tears in my eyes.. I felt so Alone.. I felt so cold.. I felt so Poor.. and I would fall both on my knees.. and Weeping as I take a Look at your Picture.. why do you have to leave so Soon.. Are you going to come to visit me and the children.. and both hands holding the side of the Picture.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I be looking with tears.. wiping my tears with my hand.. I feel so Alone.. I feel so sad because My Heart.. is it going to break like this.. My Heart keeps on breaking because YOU know how much I love you right.. and I do remember that Night.. I just could not sleep.. and sitting on the top of the Bed.. I pulled out Your Picture.. and I would look.. and I do remember what YOU said.. to write YOU when I needed a friend.. and I would get Out of the Bed and I walked to the desk.. and I sat down to write.. as I am laying.. I am looking at YOU.. as a Doctor.. as the Heart Surgeon.. I should of Not come to this Hospital.. What are you going to do with My Heart.. I don't want you to take my Heart away.. if I can't love you any more.. I rather ask for another Doctor.. I guess the main reason is to forget YOU.. and Let my Heart be taken away and Let someone else have My Heart.. But when I saw YOU.. if YOU were another Doctor.. another Heart Surgeon.. then I think it would been so much easier to go with the proceed to do the surgery but.. I feel like My Heart Now just can't go.. it has been such a Long time since I saw YOU.. and for the longest Time.. I have been missing YOU.. but Now.. I just can't give My Heart away with YOU becoming the Doctor.. the Heart Surgeon.. I been to the Work Shop lately.. and started a Project.. to rebuild that Work Shop.. it has been broken and abandoned for a Long time.. I just could Not work there any more.. for some reason I would see YOU.. even though YOU were never there.. there would be a Lot of pictures I would put on the walls.. that is before YOU left.. taking many pictures of YOU.. a lots of laugh.. lots of crying but more smiles On my face when YOU were there with Me.. I wanted to go back.. I started to miss you ever since I left because I kept on thinking of YOU.. I would go into the Home that I live.. in a small box.. I would put all of your letters you wrote Me.. When I was at the Orphan House.. when I felt the Most Hardest Place.. I felt cold and lonely when I was there.. One Night I when into the Closet and I saw the Small Box.. after a long day of work.. I pulled the small box Out and I would open the top of the Lid.. and I would sit on the Top of the Bed.. I would look at all of the Letters you wrote me when I was young.. and I started to read the Letters.. filled my eyes with Tears again.. I would go back when I was young at that age.. and I do remember when I received the Letter.. I would open it.. and it was from YOU.. and I just could Not believe that YOU would write back.. and It felt like the same way.. I started to feel my eyes.. I just couldn't breathe because it was YOU.. YOU are the One who put time to write.. it got to my Heart.. and I started to cry.. My Heart was broken.. and it kept on breaking but looking at the Letters.. I would read it few more times.. and I started to think about YOU at the Work Shop.. what If you would be back.. even though I knew that YOU would never come around.. but I kept on thinking.. YOU could just visit.. but if YOU walked into the Work Shop all Broken and Abandoned.. then I know that YOU will Not come around ever again.. because NO ONE knows what will happen next.. so I started to make a Plan.. to remodel.. and to re build that Building.. just in case One day.. some day soon you can come.. and YOU will know that it has never been broken down.. as I gathered some workers.. spend days.. spend weeks and into the months.. new paintings.. putting UP the fences.. and even started to go back into the garden.. planting new seeds to bring into the life.. after it was all completed.. and the work shop was back on business.. I went in to work again.. of course there was something missing as I started to work in that shop.. it was YOU.. it felt like I cannot never get YOU back.. since you left long ago.. How can I bring YOU back if YOU have already left.. I would look at the wall.. the Wall with Your Pictures.. many of the Pictures I would post to share.. as I would start to look at Your Pictures.. Just memories of YOU came flashing through my Mind.. I knew that if I wanted to continue to run this Business.. I needed to get Rid of My Heart.. I knew that only if My Heart goes.. I can work in this Work Shop without missing YOU so Much.. that is the Only way I knew that I can continue.. that is when I decided to go into the surgery.. that I wanted to let My Heart to go.. I asked for the Best Doctor.. the Heart Surgeon with the Best experience.. of course never thought that It would be YOU walking into this Room.. even though I want YOU to do the Surgery.. I just can't Lose YOU.. after I see YOU now.. and How well YOU are in Life.. I think I just can't let My Heart go.. and I am looking at YOU.. I do need My Heart to be replaced.. but what would happen if I don't love you any More.. I am sure Now you are doing good with another Man.. can YOU still do the Heart surgery.. Now the Person who is going to exchange with my Heart comes into the Room and sits on another Bed.. and I turn to look at the Person.. I just can't believe it.. the Man turns to look at me.. I am not sure if I know this Man but the Man looks at me.. He is the friend who has taken YOU away.. I am wondering.. why is this Man in the same bed.. He wants his Heart to be removed just Like me.. and I am wondering.. I don't want His Heart.. I rather keep My Heart.. He has a Broken Heart too.. and I look at YOU.. I am wondering.. what is going On and Now YOU are telling me.. the relationship has ended on Both.. and that YOU are single.. and I am thinking.. Am I suppose to be happy or suppose to be Sad.. are YOU sad.. is that WHY you have become a Heart Surgeon.. WHO has Not been loving YOU well.. YOU know that If YOU are removing all Kinds of Hearts.. is it because someone has broken YOUR HEART or are you breaking Hearts and switching Hearts to different People.. because I don't want Another Broken Heart.. can I have YOUR HEART instead.. How about YOU can do the surgery
Would say to YOU.. this was why I started to Love YOU.. you wrote when I was at the Most Lowest of the time of my Life and has fixed this Broken Heart by telling me all of this.. I been waiting for YOU.. but YOU never came.. the door was never locked because it is YOU who I been waiting for.. I would be working in the Flower Shop.. waiting if YOU would ever show UP.. but you would never come.. It broke my Heart because what If YOU would stop by.. even just for Once.. I was Not asking for a long time.. even just for few seconds.. it would been enough for Me.. but YOU never came.. working in the Flower Shop without YOU was the most difficult thing for Me because I would be waiting.. even though I knew deep in my Heart that YOU would never show UP.. just hoping that it would be you who would knock on the door.. asking for me to open that door in the Work Shop.. in that flower Work Shop.. I would cry many nights of thinking of YOU.. just remembering all of the memories we shared together in that Shop.. I would watch YOU with the camera.. lights flashes as YOU would take pictures of the Flowers.. asking me about how it grew.. the place where I would planted in the soil.. I would even take you to the spots.. back in the garden.. where YOU would see the flowers in full bloom.. matured and sprung UP for YOU to take a look.. YOU would smile.. I would watch YOU holding that camera in front.. as I would watch YOU looking through the camera Lens and taking pictures of the flowers back in the Garden.. I wanted to Hold YOU.. I wanted to Pull you closer to me.. around my arms I wanted to feel YOU inside.. but I would stop myself of getting closer to YOU.. I wanted to get close.. I wanted to walk and stand beside YOU.. just to feel for seconds.. How you would feel in my arms.. How would you breathe.. How about the sound of the beating of Your Heart.. can I hear it.. will my Heart also make the same sound of Your Heart.. I wanted to get close.. just to see how it would feel.. YOU in my arms.. I wanted you near.. I wanted you close.. I was so close because I would walk but I would stop to step back.. It hurts me because I wanted to feel YOU in my arms.. But I just could not get closer.. Because I knew that YOU would push me to say Back Off.. Just Now How it feels.. Just thinking about YOU.. brings so Much Joy and happiness.. I would smile a lot.. My Heart be moving in a way I just can't control.. my emotions just wants to pour Out to YOU.. I want to stop.. I can't control myself because It has been Hard lately.. Missing YOU is so Hard.. at the same Time.. it brings me a lot of tears.. that I can't stop myself crying.. I don't want to show YOU any more tears.. but It hurts to know that YOU don't want to come close.. so Far.. so Near.. so Close.. the distance between Us.. leaving me to Be hurt.. missing YOU all the time.. but I want to get close.. NO Matter How I feel.. as long as it is YOU.. I will always Love YOU.. don't ask me why do I keep on hurting myself but still loves YOU.. as I am sitting on the Chair.. I am looking at Your Picture.. it is YOU when YOU were with me at the Flower Shop.. holding a flower in Your Hand.. with such a Beautiful Smile.. I remember that it was the day I wanted to show YOU the New Flowers that has been reached the Full Bloom stage.. it was back in the Garden.. the Same camera you were using to take many pictures of the flowers.. I would ask YOU.. take one of the Flowers from the Bed in the back of this Garden.. I watched you lower yourself.. grabbed and pulled the Flower Out.. and telling me that it is this One.. that it is the Most Beautiful One.. Your Favorite and I do remember leading YOU back into the Flower Work Shop.. YOU were standing by the wall.. and Holding the flower in your Hand.. I would have the Camera in my hands.. My eye would look through the lens of the Camera.. I would see YOU.. my finger stopped at the Button.. because what if this be the last picture I could take from this Camera.. this Fear came all over me.. shaking and trembling from the Inside.. I stopped my finger to press.. YOU were wondering why I could not click the Button.. My Heart would skip.. trying to find if there is a Beat.. I would take a deep breathe and my finger presses the Button and the light switches and it takes the Picture of YOU.. when I put the Camera Down.. I am looking at the Wall.. in the Flower Work Shop.. I only see the wall.. I don't see YOU there.. and with me is the Same Picture.. it was the last time I took the picture of YOU because the Next day.. YOU told me that YOU are not going to work with me at the Flower Shop.. that YOU have find someone that YOU love.. and that YOU are going with Him.. and I felt my world turn upside down.. I felt that everything be crumbling.. I saw YOU leave as the Door closes behind me.. I would sit on the Floor.. I would cry Loud and wail More.. I just couldn't control these emotions when it is torn apart.. I would Beat with my hand on my Chest.. I would Hit it so Hard.. I just couldn't stop hitting my Chest.. wanting to Pull my Heart out.. It hurts me because all I see is YOU.. YOU leaving me behind and I am left alone at the Flower Work Shop.. everything began to fall apart.. I started to drink a lot.. heavy into drinking.. crash and burn.. falling apart and falling down.. I just don't wanted to get UP any more.. I just couldn't handle this Kind of Pain.. it was killing me from the Inside.. How can I erase this Pain that is eating me from the Inside.. How can I get rid of this Kind of Hellish Pain.. I just wanted to Die.. for years I felt this way.. I felt like I wanted to give UP.. but.. for some reason.. if I truly love YOU.. I know that I needs to get back UP and try to live.. try to live the best I can.. so that One day I am able to see YOU again and the Day I see YOU.. I will never let YOU GO.. I decided to go and get my Heart check.. if something is wrong with me.. is it My Heart who has the Problem.. or is it just Me.. I came to the Clinic.. just to check my Heart.. I feel so ill.. I feel so Sick.. because I been thinking about YOU too much lately.. I wanted to forget.. I wanted to erase YOU off my Mind so I called to make an Appointment.. so that I can get a Heart surgery.. and I been sitting down on this chair.. waiting for the Doctor to call my Name.. for the Doctor to see me.. I wanted the Doctor to Know that I want to get rid of this Heart.. I put my name on the List.. had many people waiting in the line sitting on the chairs.. the assistant calls My name to go into a room.. NOW.. I go into the Room.. waiting for the doctor.. and as I sit patiently waiting for the Doctor.. I am looking at your Picture.. Looking at YOU holding the flower in your hand.. standing by the wall.. Before I came to this Clinic Office.. I went over this Moring to the Flower Work Shop.. as I walked inside the Work Shop.. I would stand there alone.. LOOKING at the Wall where YOU would stand.. I would look at the empty Wall.. looking at the picture of YOU holding.. the same spot.. you were standing with a smile holding the flower.. the Last time I saw YOU is when I took this Picture.. it hurts Me more.. I would.. the Flower Work Shop was dark and I would be standing alone.. crying looking at the Picture of YOU.. which it was the last time YOU stood by this Wall.. and I just can't let YOU go.. WHY is it me who has to let it Go.. why is it YOU who has to hurt Me.. why can't I ever hurt you and I would look at the Wall.. where YOU would stand the last time and I would scream because my Heart.. It wanted to shatter into pieces.. WHY did YOU have to leave me for someone else.. WHY can't YOU ever know how much I love YOU.. why don't you see me.. WHY can't you see me as the Person who loves you the Most.. and I would again cry.. looking at the wall.. after looking at the Picture of YOU where YOU once stood by this wall.. I would fall to the ground.. and I just can't.. why can't I just let YOU GO.. it is killing me so Bad.. why can't I let YOU GO.. what is it about YOU holding unto me.. like a stronghold.. and I would cry loud.. wailing.. hitting my hand against my chest.. It hurts me just too much because I want to be loved by YOU.. why can't YOU see me for once.. HOW ABOUT ME.. you know that I can love YOU better.. YOU know that I can love YOU more.. I can even love you stronger.. just please give me a chance.. just one chance.. as I am waiting in the Room in the clinic Office.. I know that I may not live for Long.. because My Heart is broken.. It has been shattered into many little pieces.. YOU have broken my Heart.. If I can't fix my Heart.. what am I going to do with this Shattered of pieces broken Heart that is in me.. If I can't fix it.. Maybe the Doctor can help me to fix IT.. what if the Doctor can't fix my Heart.. I am going to ask the Doctor to go me a Surgery.. because what am I going to do with this Broken Shattered Heart.. I can at least donate it to someone else.. give me a New Heart.. someone else can take my Place.. can Have this Heart.. that someone else can Love YOU instead because I know that I can't.. I don't even know where YOU at so how can I love YOU when YOU are NO where to be found.. and I am lost somewhere.. and I would be sitting on this Chair.. LOOKING at the Picture of YOU.. I sit in silence just thinking of the Flower Work Shop.. I want to go back with YOU.. can YOU please go back with me to this Flower work Shop.. I want to live again.. I want to feel that I am alive again.. I want to breathe again because without YOU.. just look at me at this Point in my Life without YOU.. and as I am looking at the picture.. waiting for the doctor to come into this room.. I am looking at your Picture and speaking to the Picture.. the door Opens but it stops.. I am thinking.. maybe it is another patient who just came into the wrong room and I would open my Mouth.. as I am looking at the picture of YOU.
The door and when I open the door to that Flower Work shop and WHEN I open to see who it is.. I wanted to smile to see YOU there.. standing there.. just giving me even few seconds of your presences.. just to say I love YOU.. just to say I missed YOU.. or to say welcome back.. because I just can't let YOU GO.. Because I never stopped loving YOU.. even now I love you still.. I been waiting so that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. as I look up.. I hear the door closed.. and I am thinking.. this whole time the door was opened.. I wonder who it is who hear me speaking to Your Picture.. I wonder who it is.. and the door Opens.. my hand opens and the picture falls to the ground because it is YOU who is standing by the door.. That YOU are the Doctor.. My Doctor there.. Feeling alone and lonely.. I just wanted to be happy.. be filled with Love and Joy.. YOU came out of nowhere.. and YOU came to surprise me.. But gone like the Wind that I wanted to look for YOU.. I was just too young to do anything back Then.. But when I hit 18 years old.. I did leave that Orphan Home and started to travel Out.. and I started to wonder about YOU.. where can I find YOU.. where would YOU be.. please tell me.. I remember a Flower Shop was hiring.. and the Owner of the Flower shop started to show Me.. How to raise the Seeds and into flowers it became.. teaching me about the soils and water.. how deep to be planted.. and time and hour to water it.. I wanted to be the Best Flower shop in town.. so I would work day and Night until I made my own mark.. I started to look for YOU after.. When I saw Your Picture.. and Knew that YOU are the One.. I wanted you to be the Only One in my life.. so that I can Love YOU.. I can love you More and More.. the way I love these flowers.. watching from the smallest seeds and it grows and produces and Blooms.. the Most Beautiful Flowers are when YOU Love the Flowers from the Heart.. YOU care of its beings to see the Next to produce.. I fell in love with the Flower Shop and these Flowers.. But.. My Heart.. still was missing.. and I knew that I was missing YOU.. I wanted to be with YOU.. My friend would come to check on me.. He saw me very sad.. and Knowing My Heart.. I would speak of YOU.. even though it was years ago.. many years ago.. But I never shared about the Orphan HOME that I met you.. because I just did not want HIM to get involved searching for YOU.. How could I be with YOU.. How can a Lowly Person.. who is so poor and has Nothing in his Life.. How can I ask for YOU.. but ALL I can share is about Love.. just loving YOU.. How much.. I don't know how much.. But as much as I can with ALL my Heart.. that I love YOU.. He told me about a Young lady.. that Young lady is looking for a Man too.. And He told me that YOU were too sad as well.. When I saw Your Picture.. it was something like Are we meant to Be.. I was blown into pieces.. WHEN he took out the picture.. of YOU being YOUNG and YOU recently Picture.. I sat there.. taking a Deep breathe.. MY tears.. It just could Not hold back.. I had to share this Tears of Joy.. How long I wondered.. when will I see YOU again.. It has taken me so Long.. so long to find YOU.. My breathe was taken after.. and I told him about YOU.. the Orphan Home.. When I saw YOU.. I was very YOUNG.. losing my family broke me into pieces.. When I saw YOU.. I knew YOU were the One who can Heal what was broken inside of Me.. I wanted to be a Part of Your Life.. and Just to Love YOU.. I am Not sure why.. or How this Can Happen but it did.. and I looked at my Friend and He was too jaw dropping after.. I told Him.. I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to meet YOU again.. I can't help but fall in love with YOU again.. because I love YOU.. As I am looking at your Picture in the Work shop.. and just watching YOU go.. and I would ask.. WHY couldn't I stop you from Leaving.. If I know that I can love YOU more.. I should of told YOU Not to leave me.. But to ask YOU to stay.. I can't lose YOU twice.. I have lost YOU once when I was young.. But of course I just couldn't do anything back then.. But Now.. I know that I can't let YOU go.. because I love YOU.. I know that I love YOU more Now then Ever.. I just can't believe YOU walked Out when I had the chance to Stop YOU.. if I truly love YOU.. I know I can do something.. I know that I can tell YOU.. Please don't go.. stay with me inside.. I can make YOU more happier than ever.. I know you be asking.. How can I make YOU more happier.. If YOU love Me.. If Your Own Heart loves Me.. I know YOU have the answers because only Your Heart knows the truth.. if YOU really felt something for me.. and It is Not friendship or brotherly love.. or Not just like me.. Only YOU KNOW what is IN your Heart.. I wrote a Note in the back.. saying I love YOU.. ever since I saw YOU the first Time.. I was truly amazed and truly blown to pieces.. there is something about YOU.. I just can't forget.. because I loved you then.. I love YOU now.. and I will always Love you forever.. I guess YOU have say the Note I wrote on the back.. I walked to the center of the Floor.. I lowered.. putting all the Flowers laid on floor back into the Box.. I put the Lid on the TOP.. I know that someone will come to get the Boxes of Flowers.. as I am holding the Box in my hands.. YOU have always been the One.. I am not sure what made me felt something in my Heart.. I am not sure what it was.. but it was the First time.. I put my hand on my Chest.. I started to hear a Beat.. a Beat that was getting Louder and Louder inside.. telling me.. It must be YOU.. of course.. I know that YOU are so Beautiful.. the Most Beautiful Flower.. even more beautiful than any of these flowers in the Work Shop.. that it is Not only me who loves YOU.. that Another MAN do love you too.. YOU must be truly amazing.. Amazing to be loved.. who does Not want to love YOU anyways.. But.. I never stopped loving YOU.. I started to think about the Friend.. I know he never shares anything.. so this Must be someone so Special.. I know that YOU are truly special.. because I know that My Heart loves YOU.. it does not matter because I know I love YOU.. Please come back.. Please come to this Work Shop.. Come so that I can tell YOU.. how much I love YOU because I just do.. as I put my hand on my Chest.. I can feel my Heart beat.. it is beating fast.. I close both of my eyes.. and I can go back to the TIME when we first met.. YOU are my Angel.. YOU are my Sunshine.. YOU are my everything that a MAN can ask for because YOU are the real deal that NO MAN can ask FOR.. you are just everything.. my forever Love to me.. As I am standing on the Line.. waiting for a Cup of Coffee.. I turn my head to look back.. I see someone sitting on the chair by the Window.. There you were.. sitting down.. having a COFFEE.. and reading a BOOK.. I love YOU.. these are the Only words I can tell YOU.. But.. WHY is is so hard to Love YOU.. I wish that Loving You could be more easier.. but.. It seems like things are getting more harder.. Please tell me that I can Love YOU.. how am I suppose to Love YOU.. when YOU are so Far.. as I am standing in the Line.. I remember another Friend of Mine told me that YOU would be here.. and ALL I could do is Look for YOU.. as I am waiting to get a Cup of Coffee.. I pull Out Your Picture in the back Pocket.. as I am looking at Your Picture.. I am asking.. WHY are YOU so Beautiful.. I have been waiting for a Long time for a Woman Like you to be In my Life.. All my life.. I waited.. and waited until Another Friend of Mine telling me.. If I wanted to meet you.. and Showed me the Picture of YOU.. I was blown into Pieces as he gave me the Picture.. it was like a Month before the Meeting time.. and I would be wondering about YOU.. of course looking at Your picture is the Only thing I can do.. But.. Meeting YOU and being a Part.. it is something that I would never thought would ever happen to me.. I would be laying on the bed.. Just wondering How you would be like when I saw YOU and meeting you face to face.. as person to person.. Just could not get enough of patiently waiting for The Day.. it seems a lot longer when YOU are wondering.. and just pondering the day.. only I could do is look at your Picture.. and wishing for the Day to come sooner.. the clock would tick.. the time on the clock would go by so slow because I wanted to meet YOU much sooner.. the Other friend told me to be patient because No matter how Long I waited.. the Time would come anyways.. of course the Other Friend was right.. Time did come and Now.. I am waiting on this Line.. so many people enjoy drinking a Cup of Coffee.. as I would look around.. I am looking at the Picture of You.. if YOU came.. I would turn my head to look back.. There were YOU.. YOU were by the Window.. and I would LOOK at the Picture of YOU.. and I saw YOU.. reading a Book.. as I was getting closer.. and the person in front of me gets a coffee and the person leaves.. It was My Turn.. and I even got me a Cup of Coffee.. As I turn.. I saw YOU.. by the window.. and YOU were smiling reading a book
Oink Oink.. I am missing you so much right Now.. sometimes I just don't know what to do.. it feels like the Chair.. Your Chair which you have left behind here with Me.. My Heart is dying inside because I want to see you Now.. and of course.. I want to see you Sit on the empty Chair.. Only just for One Day if you really have to Go.. if you really have to Leave me Behind and I be staring at this Empty Chair.. as I would LOOK at the Phone.. and I would LOOK at the camera attached on this Phone.. I would ZOOM the Lens to LOOK at your Chair.. the Empty Chair that YOU have left behind here with Me.. I would Click the Button to take a Picture of Your Chair.. the Empty Chair and send it to Your Phone.. and letting you Know HOW I am feeling about this Situation.. that YOU are truly Hurting Me.. that I always wanted you close to Me and for some reason at this Very Night.. I am truly Missing YOU.. It feels so AWEFUL because I know that Deep in my Heart I truly Love YOU.. I wish that YOU knew.. I wish that YOU can truly understand my Heart.. the More I look at your Chair.. the Empty Chair in the House in the DINING ROOM.. the More I keep on thinking of YOU.. and last Night.. I do remember walking Out at Night.. and I was holding the Bottle in my Hands.. and I saw this Bridge.. It was a Big Bridge when I got there.. and drinking about a whole Bottle of Whiskey and I walking across this Big Bridge.. and I am crying.. Just can't help it because it was hurting me because YOU did Not want to come back HOME to me.. I been waiting for you and waiting over and over and wanting to see you again.. but such the TIME is not my friend.. would not help me to see YOU.. the More I wanted to see YOU.. the delay of your COMING kept on hurting Me.. that I just could Not take it any more.. what DO I do to let YOU know that I am waiting.. what do I must do for YOU to see my Heart of HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. and I would tell YOU.. as I took a picture on the Phone with the camera attached and I would send the Picture of the CHAIR.. your EMPTY CHAIR you have left with me and wrote YOU a Message about what I was feeling.. what I was dealing.. I wrote the Message saying.. I miss YOU.. look at the Chair.. look at the Picture that I have send to YOU and It is your Chair.. now I see that sitting on the Dining ROOM.. the Chair looks so empty without YOU.. it is waiting for YOU just like I have been patiently waiting for YOU to come back HOME to me.. Please tell me that I am still allowed to wait for YOU.. NO MATTER how much time flies.. can YOU please promise me one thing.. YOU can take as long as YOU want away from Me but Please tell me that YOU will be coming back HOME to me.. that I am NOT waiting for you for Nothing.. LOOK at the Picture.. Please when YOU see a Picture going to Your SCREEN and you see the Chair being Empty.. and I am NOT sitting on your Chair because ALL along it is YOUR CHAIR.. which when YOU LOOK at the picture I send to YOU.. it means this is HOW MY HEART feels.. that I am feeling so empty inside without you being here with me.. I can't even wake UP right any more.. it becomes more and more dreadful to get UP because when I walk OUT of the ROOM and I look across toward the dining ROOM and LOOKING straight is your CHAIR.. your EMPTY CHAIR.. I remember you would sit there.. even before I would get UP.. I would open the door of the room where I would sleep in my bed and I would remember when I look across and SEE you there sitting on that Chair.. your Chair and I would smile looking at YOU.. how you be holding that Big Teddy Bear and wave your Hands with it and letting me know you are doing GOOD.. and I would think of those days where I would smile the Most because YOU my Love just being there meant everything.. NOW I Know that it is the most smallest.. the Little things YOU showed Me that I would smile the Most and make me feel the Loved the Most.. just your Presences.. just you being YOU and being just there to know I was there for YOU.. and Now.. knowing that I only can SEE.. when I open the ROOM where I would sleep in the Bed.. NOW it is nothing but the Best of the TIMES of having the Memories.. if I knew that this is all going to be Nothing but Memories.. I should of treated you GOOD.. I should of treated you better.. Now I am regretting everything because If I can only turn the Clock back.. I would now do Better and treat you must better Now.. it is so Hard.. it is so difficult because NOW I know that I really Love YOU.. I knew that I did love you then but NOT as much as I do Now and if you were to give me another Chance.. just One more chance I am asking of YOU.. asking YOU to please re consider my request.. it is because I miss YOU NOW and I love you more than yesterday and today I know that I can love you more.. I can love you better than before.. I am begging you please come back Home.. I just could Not take it.. last Night.. I send you the Picture of Your Chair.. the Empty Chair.. If I can't toss the Chair into the trash.. How about I trash myself into the Waters.. I would look up this Big Bridge and I would drink the Hard whiskey.. drank the whole Big Bottle.. I be missing YOU so crazy I just did Not care any more.. so I would drive to the Big Bridge.. and I would walk across the Big Bridge.. as I would stop and I turn and walk.. there is this Bar and when YOU LOOK down on this Big Bridge.. I can see the Ocean waters flowing under this BIG BRIDGE.. It was late deep into the Night and I saw the MOON appear before Me.. I was thinking about jumping over the Bar and into the Waters because I just could Not take this Pain anymore of Missing YOU.. I would tell YOU many times and sending you Messages on the Phone.. YOU would Never reply back to Me.. and I would LOOK at the Phone.. and I would LOOK UP and take the Picture of this Big Bridge and I would send it to YOU.. letting you know what I was going to do because YOU know that I love YOU.. How much More do I must say to YOU that I love YOU and that I miss YOU just too much.. and I would LOOK over and right I was about to JUMP over this Big Bridge I hear a BEEPING sound on the Phone.. means I received the Message and It was from YOU.. and I would LOOK at the screen of the Phone.. and I wrote on the Message on the Phone.. I just can't take it anymore because I am in love with YOU.. that I love YOU so Much.. that I love you so Much that I know that Some one has to go.. at least let me GO.. and I will go and I send it to YOU on the Phone.. and YOU would reply Back.. which I stood there.. tears in my eyes.. is this How much I love YOU.. is this the way I must tell YOU that I love YOU.. why can't you see me through without this Kind of Pain that I am going Through.. If I can only JUMP over this Big Bridge I know that I can let YOU go and I can just go some where I don't have to Love YOU anymore.. But all I would hear is Beeping Noises and I know that YOU are sending the Messages to Me.. and I am LOOKING at the Phone screen just standing still crying.. my tears just keeps on running down from my eyes.. and I would type on the Message about the Chair.. about Your Chair.. how empty that Chair is without YOU being here with Me.. why do YOU have to hurt me like this.. if YOU are going to send me messages Now.. why put me through so Much pain like this.. this Ache.. that It is HURTING me more and More.. I am already hurting because I can't be with YOU.. why add more Pain into this what I am going through.. why can Love be Fair.. why can't Love be more real just the way I always is to YOU.. to telling YOU that I love YOU.. as I would walk the Other way from the Big Bridge.. I did Not jump Over because I heard from YOU.. after hearing from you through the Messages you would sent Me.. I felt better that YOU are doing fine.. that is ALL I needed to hear from YOU.. that everything is good on your side.. even though for Me.. I am taking it very Hard right Now.. just missing YOU.. missing you to be in my arms.. Just YOU sitting on your Chair.. even though it is Empty right Now.. I started to Hope and believe that YOU are coming Home soon.. even though I may Not know when or How long you want to be alone.. But I would stand LOOKING UP.. LOOKING at the MOON.. only thing I can say to the MOON.. because I can't be there with YOU.. I can't even protect YOU and can't even defend YOU.. I know that the MOON who is watching YOU knows who you are and will be the ONE to be there for YOU.. even though I wish that it be Me instead.. I want to be the One to be there for YOU.. to show YOU and to tell YOU that I love YOU and I miss you so Much.. wondering when YOU are coming Home back to Me.. as I came Home and I would walk toward the Dining Room.. I would stand beside your Chair.. the Empty Chair that YOU use to sit.. I do remember there would be a Knock at the DOOR and it be the Time you be coming Home.. I would open the Door knowing that IT is you who came.. I would PULL your Chair.. the Empty Chair Out so that You can just go and sit.. I would always walk on the Other side.. and stand beside the Chair I would sit.. I would LOOK at you and I would Smile.. putting my Phone UP and Letting you see the Camera Lens.. I would ask YOU if I can take a Picture of YOU sitting on your Chair.. and YOU would smile.. and I would say.. WHY are you so Beautiful.. Please tell me why do you look so GOOD.. that I know I must take a Picture of YOU.. and I would see you SMILE as I would LOOK at the Button on the screen of the Phone and touch to click It.. I would walk over to YOU to show you the screen which it has taken a Picture of YOU and show YOU.. that this is what my Eyes always sees when YOU come HOME and when YOU would come to sit in your
MAH MAH.. I am looking at the MOON rise UP before Me.. In my right hand Holding the strings of Bow and on the floor lays some arrows.. I am standing alone in the training Ground.. Looking down is the Target with the red Dot.. my eyes.. full of tears.. and I do remember.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. It is YOU who has been there for Me.. there is NO ONE who gave me this Kind of a chance.. to Live for is to Die in the End but to Love YOU.. I have Never lost my Heart of always Loving YOU.. MAH MAH.. I do remember.. when I first came to this Training Ground.. the Target that is set before Me.. How much I had to SHOOT these Arrows before the Testing and the exams that came before Me.. and How much I had to stand here.. through the Night.. Long Nights I had to stand still LOOKING at the rising of the MOON that was there LOOKING down on Me.. and I would LOOK down.. grabbing a Arrow.. and the END of the Arrow.. I would put on the Strings of this BOW and I would stretch it Far.. ONE eye closes and Aiming at the TARGET.. LOOKING at the Red DOT.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I will do my best to Fight in this Battle to WIN this war for YOU.. this is the reason WHY I came to this Palace.. this is the real Reason WHY I am here to breathe and to LIVE again.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. it is because of YOU and it is because I want to say HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. I wish that I can SEE YOUR HEART HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. this ARROW.. means my Love to SHOOT into your Heart to say that I love YOU.. MY QUEEN.. I am breathing Hard.. inhale to exhale and my hand releases the strings of the Bow and I see the ARROW flies fast and IT HITS the red Dot.. I would raise UP my Right Hand.. MAN SAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. without YOU open the DOOR for me to come into the training GOUND.. How can I even come with the Strings of Bow and arrows to Practice shooting.. NOW it hits right on the Red DOT because I had to practice through Many Nights long ago when I first came into this training GROUND.. My hand grabs another Arrow.. on the end of the Strings of the BOW.. pulling the Arrow back and I would close One eye to LOOK and to AIM and my hand releases the strings of the Bow.. the second ARROW flies and It hits right on the red DOT again.. My Heart.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I remember YOU were sitting on the Horse.. Before the Test.. before the final Exam for the Military Arts.. I was standing here alone in the Cold.. Watching the FULL MOON set before Me.. I would turn to LOOK back and I saw YOU there.. sitting on the Horse in the white Dress.. LOOKING at me alone.. I was in this same position.. but I would LOOK UP and I started to feel thankful and just could Not let YOU DOWN.. I would say.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I know that YOU gave me this chance.. YOU have opened this DOOR FOR ME because I truly believe you do believe in something that I have even though I did Not know why.. I would turn to LOOK back and I saw YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH and I turn.. and YOU would smile.. My hand was bleeding because I been practicing shooting these arrows.. COULD NOT even sleep through the Night because I knew that the FINAL exam was coming up the Next Day.. and I had to get In some How.. I had to pass and show YOU.. your TIME means everything to Me.. giving me this Chance means everything to Me.. as I am standing here Out alone.. My Heart has never changed.. even though the Battle would be fierce and I can't promise YOU that I can come back safe.. I can't make you any promises because I have chosen this path that Even I can die in the War.. in this Battle.. many Men fights for their Country and many will lose their Lives for their Country and I am NO different.. but I can FIGHT and defend and to Protect YOU is this.. I can stay through the Night.. and Practice shooting until it reaches the new Day.. the Battle.. the War will start very soon.. and I am here trying to prepare to Fight in the Battle for YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. for your Country and for the People YOU love and for the Little SONS for their UP bringing.. and I would pick UP the third Arrow and I would put the end of the arrow on the Strings of the BOW and PULLS it Back.. CLOSE one Eye and I aim toward the RED DOT and my hand Lets go of the strings and It flies and It hits on the red DOT the third TIME.. I would raise UP my RIGHT ARM.. holding the BOW in my Hand.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MAN SAE for giving me this Chance to fight in the war.. I will do MY BEST to WIN this War for YOU.. and I turn to Look back.. There is someone walking.. and Has a GOLD ARMOR and has something in His Hand.. I have never seen any one here wearing a GOLD ARMOR.. I am wearing a silver Armor and the Men all wear the silver.. the MAN comes closer and seems like He is a General and stands still.. I would turn to LOOK at this man.. and I know something is Not right.. and I have the Sword in my hand and He looks at me and Pulls Out the Sword.. and the Letter drops on the Floor.. I would yell Out Loud.. Protect the QUEEN.. Protect HWANG WOO MAH MAH and I would jump In the air and I would swing the Sword in my hand and It hits His blade.. I would go back as the Man swings the Sword at me and He misses the swing.. I would run UP and I would swing the Sword forward and on the Side and I would JUMP UP and Kick.. and back kick hitting the GOLD Armor.. I would hear.. the Seven Friends of MINE are all running coming to the training CAMP.. and I would tell the Seven friend of MINE.. Protect the QUEEN.. Protect HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would jump and do a sick Kick and Jump back Kick and Hit the man on the Face.. Protect the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. ENEMY is here and I see YOU.. the QUEEN on the HORSE riding and More Men.. the Seven Generals all comes with the 2nd top rank and the 1st top rank.. and his seven generals all comes to surround.. and I AM looking at HIM.. the Man swings the Sword at me and I would go back.. and Block with the edge of the Sword and I would do a front slide kick and Jump back Kick and swing the sword to Bring the man to the Ground.. and I place the Sword on the Neck.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what shall I do with this man.. and there are two men running from the Gates and they are Guards of the gates and two of them falls and Kneels.. two knees down.. arm stretch forward and Heads looks to the ground.. and I see you sitting on the Horse and the horse get closer.. the CLOSE friend of mine grabs the Letters.. HE falls before YOU.. TWO KNEES down.. arm stretches forward and Head LOOKS DOWN and your SWORD points at him.. He reads the letter.. this man dies and the WAR will begin and I would LOOK UP.. the QUEEN has showed Mercy.. Not to kill the MEN.. so I would pull away the sword from his Neck.. the man with the GOLD armor get up and He walks off.. and I look UP at YOU sitting at the Horse and I fall before YOU.. My two knees goes down.. Arm stretched forward and my Head looks on the ground.. YOU point your Sword at Me and I would say.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. How can you show mercy.. He came to fight and to KILL.. he wanted to rage War and I would think about How you have showed Mercy ON me and I would say.. Of course.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Your Kindness.. your Big Heart is the reason why I am allowed to be here today.. because YOU are so Gentle and so Kind in a way even the Enemy goes free when He came to fight with the SWORD.. But I have NO words to say.. because I do also remember that I came from the Garden.. and How you showed Mercy for all People who lived in that Garden rebuilding their Lives to Live once again.. and even when I was standing at the training Ground.. and I was looking at the Target.. LOOKING at the red DOT.. holding the strings of BOW in my right Hand and thinking about the Letter.. I was being rejected by the Guard who was sitting at the table.. telling me that I can't go IN.. and How you stood to check who was making all these commotions and YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH looked at the Letter and LOOKED at me.. ad YOU COULD of told me that I could NOT come in and knowing who I was.. I can't forget that day and tonight.. before this enemy came to fight Me.. I was standing at the training Ground.. LOOKING at the Practices I had to take before the FINAL exam for the Military Arts and swordsmanship.. if YOU did not take my Word or did not take the Letter when I was by the fences of the training Ground.. How was it for me to be here this very Day and I would think about Your Mercy.. It reminds me because I am not suppose to be here today.. my father told me to Promise HIM not to go to the Training Ground because that is the Gates to Death.. that so Many people will Die when you enter that Gates and Yes.. I have chosen this Path.. a Path where I know that Any Minute I can die but.. I wanted to tell YOU this.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. this is where my Life begins.. this is where everything has changed in my Life forever because it made me realize HOW MUCH I Love YOU.. when I love you this Much.. it has to mean something More than just living this Life right.. because I have never given UP loving YOU.. I am NOT afraid to Die.. because I know that at least before I do DIE.. I get to tell YOU one more day.. or even it can be the last Day that How much I love YOU.. that means so much more to me than to Live in fear for the rest of Life.. but I have chosen this because I love YOU.. I cannot live without you HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. NOW.. I have come so DEEP.. I have come just too Far to ever walk away or walk off.. until my last breathe I take.. I know that I will hold you Dear into my
MAH MAH.. Because I open my eyes with the thinking of YOU and just loving YOU to death.. that is the only way I was about to walk into the training Ground and LOOKING at the red DOT.. Looking at the target.. holding the Strings of BOW in the right hand with ARROWS laying all over the floor.. thinking about YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. thinking about I needs to Pass.. I needs to get In some How so that I can Love YOU more.. that I can One day tell YOU this Heart of MINE.. How much I really Love YOU.. that what it takes for a Man to have this kind of drive and determination for the day to come near to tell YOU when you are CLOSE that I love YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I always wanted to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. that is the reason why I left the Garden and came to the training ground.. just to see YOU.. MY QUEEN.. that to tell YOU what is deep in my Heart.. but I had to prove myself by showing YOU.. I love YOU.. and to tell you these words are NOT going to be easy at all but Now.. since I have come this much.. I wanted to say to YOU.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I love YOU.. the two men who was guarding at the Gates.. I would pull the Sword OUT.. the two men was sleeping on their Post.. I know How it was Like to be at the Post.. guarding the Gates.. NO ONE sleeps on their DUTY.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what shall I do with these two Men.. and I would see that.. the QUEEN shows Mercy again and let the two Men lives.. my Heart.. YOU are just too kind.. but it is because they did Not do their Duties Right.. this Happen HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and ALL the Men who has gathered together.. falls to the ground.. two knees on the ground.. Arms stretches Forward and Heads all LOOK to the ground.. and I see you.. the QUEEN raising UP the Sword on your RIGHT ARM.. and I know it is time to GO and Fight.. Fight to Protect YOU.. Fight to defend this COUNTRY and fight for behalf of your People because YOU are HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the QUEEN.. I am thinking about the Meeting Board.. and watching the Moon that has come UP before me.. the Black smiths are all Hitting the swords with a Stone Hammer and I am waiting for My sword to be more sharpen and More stronger.. as the Master of the Black Smith is inside the place where He is at work.. and with the Seven Friends of Mine standing at the back of the training Ground.. waiting for the Swords.. and the 2nd Top rank General with the seven Generals are all with Me as they are too waiting for their Swords as many Black Smiths are using the Stone Hammers.. I can hear the hammers hitting Hard on the Blades of the swords as I am waiting for the Next Great War that is coming.. as I cannot believe that the 2nd top rank General has joined me as friends.. I have turned to LOOK up at the Moon and I am thinking of YOU.. the Queen.. who has approved the United Hands to work together.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you know that It has been since Long.. I have been loving YOU.. and as I am Looking UP at the Moon.. I just can't stop with a big Smile.. and I would think Back.. when I saw YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. My Father would be pulling the horse.. and I would be sitting on the TOP of the Horse.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would be begging my Father.. Just to take me Once to see YOU.. and I would be looking at the Art Sketch paper.. my arms around the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would Not eat.. I would Not sleep.. but in the Little ROOM.. after the Garden was restored and was Build UP.. My Father would take a LOOK at me.. finally I would collapse and Fell into a Deep Sleep.. and I did Not wake UP for three days and slept.. I remember my Father would be by my side.. he knew if He did Not take me to see YOU.. I might end UP dead Like my Mother.. when I woke UP finally.. my Father in tears looks at Me.. almost lost me there.. and told me that He was going to see YOU.. I just could not stop.. but My Heart kept on beating Louder and Louder as I grew to Love YOU.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I don't know why but I just can't stop.. my Heart just can't stop Loving YOU.. Please tell me why.. what have you done to Me.. to My Heart.. and My Father.. with the Horse.. He carried Me and Put on the Back of the Horse.. I am thinking.. am I dreaming.. please don't wake Me UP.. if I am dreaming.. if I shall Never wake UP in the Dream.. Please.. I just don't want to get UP.. as My Father would be pulling on the ropes of the Horse and I am sitting on the TOP of the Horse.. I remember my Father asking me.. WHY do I love the QUEEN so Much.. WHY do I love HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what Makes you so Special that even I could Not eat for many days.. and even went into a deep coma for few days and been begging my Father for a long time that I must go to see YOU.. and what if I get caught by the Law.. which a servant Boy cannot Love a Royal BLOOD LINE.. that I can be put into death.. it can cost my own Life.. isn't my Life more precious than to Love and I would be sitting on the Top of the Horse as my Father would be asking me these things.. I would say.. I only live Once.. and I will just die if it means to Die.. but to Love is just Once in a Life time.. I can't just love anyone.. must be because I know that I have a BIG HEART.. even though I may be so small.. may be nothing.. has NO NAME.. be a slave Boy.. to LOVE is to love the QUEEN.. if my Heart can only love the QUEEN and NO ONE else and even it means my Life is on the Line.. I don't care what happens to Me.. even I went into Coma.. and does Not that tell YOU enough.. that I can only Love Once and when I love.. I want to love so Big that It be impossible and for Other MEN to say.. that is HOW a Real MAN should Love.. to Love His ONE TRUE QUEEN.. and My Father stops.. and He turns to LOOK back at me.. and he smiles.. but pauses because my Grandfather was close to the King.. which is Your Father.. PEH HA who just passed away.. Must mean something there.. He was the TOP COMMANDER.. to the Highest.. the Chief Commander He was is what my Father would say.. Must be something that I am connected to HIM because My Father never dreamed anything but just to be a Head of the servant.. and I am nothing like my Father.. I want to love My QUEEN.. I want to love my HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and when I put my mind and Heart into something that means something Real and BIG.. I will Never give UP.. until my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH sees me and believes that I may be so small what Others may be thinking.. but My Heart.. my Dreams and VISIONS are much more greater and in a SUCH HIGHER PLACE.. and My Father looks at me.. and asks.. what if I die because of this.. am I not afraid.. am I not scared and I would tell him.. if I was afraid or too scared.. I would never tried it in the first Place.. I would of never started something that I just could not finished.. I believe in Love.. and My Heart is very BIG even though I am a small person.. I am so small but my Heart and my Vision.. my Dreams of.. I will never stop until I know that my QUEEN.. which is YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH knows it the best in your Heart.. I don't care what anyone says.. but It has never stopped me to come this very far and still I have so much more to go.. and my Father laughs Out Loud and He pulls on the strings of the Horse and He begins to walk as he pulls the strings of the Horse. I am siting on the Back of the Horse.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I see the MOON appear before me.. I see the twinkles of the stars across the Sky and I am smiling as I am looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would say.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am coming to YOU.. I will see you soon.. it takes few days to arrive to the Palace and My Father shows the Card that HE is the Head of the Servant.. the Guards by the gate opens.. and He walks while pulling on the Strings of the Horse and He goes to the training Ground.. I am looking from a distance.. and I see you standing there.. the Chief Generals with the Commanders.. even the Chief Commander is there watching YOU Practice.. I am seeing YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. as my Father keeps on walking ahead pulling on the strings of the Horse and gets closer and closer.. and He stops.. bows HIS Head to you.. and I see you Looking UP.. I am sitting on the top of the Horse.. in my hands is the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. when I see YOU holding the Bow.. in one hand.. the Other is the Arrow.. My Heart.. WHY does it keep on beating.. My Heart.. looking at you closer.. I can't believe that I am seeing YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. it has been a long time.. after YOU came to rebuild the garden.. few months has gone by.. maybe it could been years.. I really missed YOU.. I wish that I could tell YOU this.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that I could not sleep for days.. I started Not to eat.. missing YOU has been so Hard lately.. and I remember one early Morning.. after I would beg my father.. asking him to take me to YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and my father would Not listen.. telling me NO.. that I should never Love YOU.. I just could not handle this Pain of missing YOU.. I started to starve myself to death.. maybe when I am dead and gone.. he can finally see how much I loved YOU.. anyways I just could Not live with this Pain of keep on missing YOU.. my Heart kept on aching and breaking.. I would sit in the Little ROOM.. I even asked my Father again because I wanted to say something to My QUEEN.. to my HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I had NO little ROOM.. I had No shelter to put over my Head.. I had to sleep outside or at
MAH MAH.. Friend's house.. felt like a Homeless Poor Boy.. but now I had a Little ROOM that I can put my Head over.. can sleep.. and I would hear my father telling me NO NO NO.. it is just too dangerous for me to get close to YOU.. and he did not want to see his son dying before his eyes but I am already dying.. I feel like I am going to die if I don't see YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. and One early Morning.. I would had two full buckets of water walking back to the Home.. and I fell on the ground.. some one saw me laying on the road and knew who I was.. knew my father and called him to get me.. the doctor looks at me while I was in the coma.. because I did Not sleep for days and did not bother to eat for few days either.. I just did Not want to live any more.. missing YOU drives me crazy.. it really kills me instead and the doctor asks my father.. do I love any one.. because the doctor knew the cause of this Pain.. this suffering came because my Heart was aching inside.. of course my father did Not say WHO I loved or was loving.. but knew this is because of YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. it is because I never stopped loving YOU since the day I first saw YOU.. ever since I met you at the Garden.. and How you came to visit and you heard about this Garden.. the first time I saw YOU.. you were sitting On the TOP of the Horse.. but had a large gathering of people surrounded you.. I came here sitting on the Top of the Horse.. only One person who brought me over is my Father.. who serves YOU as the Head servant.. I know that I have put my father through many pains.. but I am suffering too.. for loving YOU I had to cross many rivers.. looking at many oceans.. through the travel of the feet.. even getting this Horse Back ride.. but My father knows now that I love you just too much that he does Not want me to give UP.. my father told me when the doctor came to see me.. He told me because my Heart was suffering.. in so much pain of missing YOU.. as I would look at you holding the Bow in your hand.. the Other is the arrow.. and YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH would turn the head looking at the Target.. I don't know why I am here.. but I wanted to see YOU.. I missed YOU so Much my QUEEN.. it took many many days to come here.. and did Not eat much coming.. putting my father through so much pain.. of course I feel so bad but.. I knew If I can't see YOU.. I rather die.. I made that choice to die.. when My Father said NO.. and kept on telling me NO.. I could Not see YOU.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I can't see YOU.. I made a CHOICE that I am going to end my Life.. I just could not eat.. I would be looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I could not sleep.. this pain inside.. this Pain in my Heart.. this Ache kept on coming UP to me because I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to get close to YOU but How.. I knew if I only begged.. my father would say No.. if I die.. then He will know that I love YOU.. that is when I knew.. I really loved YOU this much that NOW I am here on the back of this HORSE with him.. as I would watch YOU looking at the Target on the training Ground.. it was at the back of it.. the Black smiths are behind the generals and commanders.. behind the Chief Commander.. and I am looking at YOU.. as YOU would PULL back the strings of the Bow with the back of the arrow and YOU would aim and hand releases.. I see the arrow goes fly and It hits right on the Red Dot.. the Guard by the Target stands and waves the White Flag.. shouting Out BULLS EYE.. and I would look at YOU.. even though YOU are my QUEEN.. you are also trained to be a fighter.. I would hear the Chief Commander shouting Out Loud and Clear.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to my QUEEN.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. all of the military soldiers would shout Out.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU are wondering why do I love YOU so Much.. it has nothing to do with Me.. but it is because YOU are my True QUEEN.. because I know that YOU are the real HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and there is NO ONE who can take your place in my Heart but YOU.. I knew when I first saw YOU.. it came out of you being a real Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. and How you flourish to become the CROWN PRINCESS.. then when I saw the poor People.. people from the Garden who came.. from far distances.. long distances they have traveled to the Palace.. just to see you and always came before the King.. PEH HA.. asking Your Father for YOU to be the Next Ruler in Line.. they have come from such a far long place.. just to talk to the King.. that the People.. they wanted YOU to take HIS PLACE as the RULER.. when I saw That.. before even this would ever happened.. I knew when you came to the Garden and to rebuild the Garden into New Homes for the People.. I wanted to join and be a Part of.. serving and protecting the Nation YOU are going to build for the future.. I knew YOU were chosen to be the QUEEN.. MY HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the real TRUE QUEEN.. I see YOU sitting on the King's Throne Chair.. and YOU stand UP.. pointing the Sword at the 1st top General and in the Outer court.. behind is a Place where YOU spar.. and I am looking at YOU.. Your Sword Points at me.. and I am wondering what does this Means.. and I turn to Look at YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. and I would go down on two Knees.. My arms stretch forward.. and My Head LOOKING at the Ground.. YOU point the King's Sword at Me giving me the Permission to speak.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what does this Means.. WHY are you pointing the Sword to Me and the 1st Top general.. and there is the Messenger in the Back.. and I see YOU pointing your Sword at the Message at the back to Speak.. and the Messenger who has the scroll unfolds and shares about what is Going On.. the Enemies of the War is drawing Near and the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH wants me to challenge to Fight the 1st Top General.. and WHO WINS will take that Seat.. and I turn to Face YOU.. and my Head looks down to the Ground.. Your Sword Points at me to speak and I would say.. HOW can I fight the Best.. I am truly UNWORTHY to fight the TOP GENERAL.. I have NO training of Wars in combat.. this General wins battles at Wars and has helped this Nation.. I have heard that HE can KILL many armies with the Sword.. and I am Not much of that experienced of wars.. ONLY thing that I am good at right now is Loving YOU as My QUEEN.. the QUEEN of my Heart.. and I see YOU still pointing that sword and Pointing that Sword back to the TOP.. the 1st General.. and I would hear.. the Seven friends of Mine all comes behind Me.. two knees on the ground.. arms stretch forward and Heads looks to the Ground.. Please.. I can't fight the first.. the TOP General.. and I see YOUR sword still Pointing.. and It seems like the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is Not having it at all.. and I see you stepping down the Steps to the Ground.. and the Sword on my Neck.. and I would say.. if you need to Cut me.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please do so.. it is better for me to DIE by that sword.. I rather Die by your Sword because the Sword belongs to the ONE WHO I Love the Most.. if YOU would LIKE to end my Life right here.. Please so it Fast and Quick MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would lift UP my head and close Both eyes.. and I wanted to see you strike my down with the edge of the Sword.. I be the Most Happiest to even die by that sword because YOU KNOW that I am dead by the ONE WHO I love the Most.. I would watch the 2nd Top General and He comes behind the Seven friends of mine and two knees to the Ground.. arms stretch forward and Head looking to the ground with the Seven Generals who walks with HIM.. they all goes.. two knees hit the Ground.. arms stretch forwards and Heads all LOOK to the Ground and shouts together.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. SHOW MERCY.. SHOW MERCY ON US.. strike all of US together.. and I am thinking.. what is happening.. and I open both eyes.. and I see YOU back Off and I just can't believe what I am here.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOUR sword is close to My neck.. and It is ready to take my BLOOD.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. please strike Me down Now.. I am ready to Die.. ready to die by your Sword but before YOU strike me with that Sword.. remember HOW MUCH I Love YOU.. I don't care any More.. NOW the 1st general.. the Top best walks UP and He kicks Me on the chest.. without getting the permission from YOU the QUEEN.. and It makes me so Made for NOT HONORING who YOU are.. and HOW rude is that to do it without the CONSENT of the QUEEN.. YOU are Not the Princess any More.. but the One TRUE RULER NOW and I fall on the ground.. and I see YOU angry at the situation.. as I am laying on the Ground.. I would get UP from the GROUND.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. because of WHAT this MAN has done without your WORD.. without your CONSENT.. without your PERMISSION I will take this Challenge.. and I get UP.. Now the Men would make a Big circle around and He walks to the Back where the sparring ground takes Place.. and without.. kicking me in front of YOU when He did Not ask for the Permission when YOU are standing there against my word.. I don't like that at ALL.. so I would walk to the Sparring Ground and the 1st TOP GENERAL stands there with the Sword.. and I am just.. How can he do this when YOU are speaking with me.. and did NOT even ask the permission or have the Word consent and I would pull the Sword Out of the sheath and I would LOOK at this General
MAH MAH.. I see you walking back UP the steps and YOU stand.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you POINTING the KING'S sword and YOU swing that sword to Fight.. and I look at Him and I just run UP with the Sword in my Hand.. HOW dare YOU to act rudely in front of the QUEEN.. Our QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Show some respect by Honoring and I would jump UP AND swing the Sword in my hand and the 1st General counter Blocks with his Sword and the Blades hit each Other and my two feet lands on the ground and I swing the Sword side way and Would JUMP UP doing the back Kick and I would kick HIS face with a round HOUSE kick.. the 1st General falls to the ground.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU MY QUEEN.. I will Not lose for YOU.. I know that the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH has chosen this Fight with a Purpose in the Mind.. I know that there is a reason why YOU have chosen us to do this.. BUT I just do Not like to show anything.. But just to remain close to YOU.. to just to Love YOU by your side.. I hate to Fight but if it is needed I MUST defend it for YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and the 1st General gets UP holding the Sword and HE swings the sword left right left.. right left right at Me as I am going back countering Blocking the Sword.. hearing the Blades Hitting.. IF I lose today My QUEEN.. if I lose I know that I must die.. just the way it Goes But I just can't Die.. I need more years so that I can love you More.. I just got started to Love YOU MORE.. I can't just die like this right.. I need More years to see HOW FAR I can love you so that IT can Out grow from NOW.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN and I would grab the Sword Tight and I would Jump UP forward and I would start to swing back at the 1st TOP General.. and the Blades Keeps ON hitting each Other.. and I would side KICK and then move forward with the Back KICK and able to HIT him in the chest.. and I would Jump UP and do the SIDE kick and strike him on the chest again.. at least One thing that I have fully grown to Do in my Heart.. TO LOVE you when YOU were the Little princess.. I started to Love you since you were so YOUNG.. and I always dreamed of Keep on loving YOU till the End.. Now YOU are my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. my QUEEN and I still Love you as strong as I did when I was YOUNG.. this never changed.. My Heart of loving YOU have always remained faithful because NOW I KNOW how much I love you.. the 1st General looks at me.. hearing me speaking as I would turn too LOOK at YOU.. he just freezes watching me.. and knowing that I have loved YOU for such a Long time and I turn my Head to face Him and I would look at the 1st General.. the TOP Warrior and I would say.. if you know what a Love Is.. it does NOT matter How many people YOU have killed on the battle field if YOU do NOT even know what it means to Love a WOMAN.. it does NOT matter if it is the QUEEN.. I know that I must be punished.. and I will die for the crimes.. if the Law says I can't Love the QUEEN and I am going against the law.. I will stand in the court and will be trialed for the case.. If I should be charged to Die.. I am ready to DIE for the Heart of My QUEEN.. if I am a dead Man walking.. at least I had the once in a Life to LOVE.. to LOVE YOU my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. if people in the court wants to punish me and this is a Crime to Love YOU.. I am standing and I know I am ready.. I have take so Many years to Love YOU.. and if I die today.. Please Bury Me with my parents.. and I would look at the 1st General and I would run UP and I jump UP and swing the Sword at HIM the Swords HITS.. the blades Hits and His sword falls to the Ground.. and the 1st General.. his two knees goes down and I put the sword on his Neck.. and I can hear the cheers of the Military troops shouting Out and I turn my Head to look at YOU.. and I see that YOU have pointed your Sword NOT TO KILL him.. your head telling me NOT TO strike Him and I raise UP the sword into the Air.. and I would shout.. and I turn around.. TWO KNEES hit the ground.. dropping the sword to the ground.. my arms stretch forward and Head looks to the ground.. and I am crying.. because YOU are standing there.. the Messenger behind is promoting me to be the 1st top General.. and I am just weeping and mourning in Joy.. and I see your Sword.. pointing at me.. and knowing that you want me to speak.. But my Words.. it is because the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH believes in me.. it is because YOU have given me a chance.. how can I come this Far.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. YOU even gave me this Permission to speak and to tell YOU about what it means to Love YOU.. even this is the Once in a LIFE time chance you give me.. I am suppose to be punished.. either be stoned to death.. die by the sword or hanged by the ropes.. YOU gave me the chance to share HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. I can be arrested and be thrown into prison and also it can be a treason for the Nation.. and I know that without Your consent.. without YOUR PERMISSION.. how can I dare to open my Heart to share this Heart of MINE to YOU.. I know that if the law stated.. a LOW BORN like myself cannot LOOK at the ROYAL BLOOD LINE because it means treason.. I am a traitor of because I was born from the Lowest Class.. I am the son of a SLAVE MAN.. BUT to give me a Chance to walk into the training Ground.. and I had NO learning.. but only skills I was given was from the Old Man.. the teacher and also from my Father.. who gave me what they know but Nothing More.. when YOU LOOK at the birth right.. I am NOT suppose to be here.. and It is because when YOU saw me.. with the Official seal.. you could of still reject me because of the back ground of where I came From.. many Noble YOUNG MEN were only allowed to come into the training Camp and the ground into the Royal Palace.. LOOK at the chances of How much the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH gave me.. even this was a Once in a life time.. without your Permission.. without your consent of the Word How can I even challenge the 1st Top General.. it is IMPOSSIBLE.. but YOU have allowed and granted a WISH but I am NOT even allowed to be here.. NOT even as a PALACE GUARD.. I cried and Cried when YOU looked at the Official seal and YOU LOOKED at me and gave me the Permission to come into the Training ground.. when I saw YOU and How you looked at the Guard who was by the back gates which IT lead to the training ground.. I just could NOT believe because I was waiting for many days.. MANY people had to go home and were NOT ALLOWED.. but when YOU saw me.. YOU looked at me and told me I can come IN.. I cried that NIGHT.. because I needed only ONE CHANCE.. just a ONE SHOT and started to Love YOU because why would you even care about this Low Born.. a SON who was born to a SLAVE MAN.. why would you even give me this kind of chance.. and I would cry looking UP at the MOON.. that just for this ONE CHANCE in a LIFE TIME.. I will never disappoint YOU but show YOU what a REAL MAN.. who is from the most lowest Place can DO.. NOW.. YOU are the QUEEN of the Nation.. in the highest position taking on the highest chair.. and MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. YOU have given me the chance to fight.. just to raise me UP to the 1st TOP general.. and I would be looking at the Ground with my tears falling down.. giving me dreams to dream BIG.. How can a MAN dream like this without YOU giving me this kind of permission.. this kind of chance to be here.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. I wanted to thank YOU so Much for believing in Me.. Not just the miracle of life.. but even How much I love YOU.. I never stopped dreaming but kept on dreaming that Dreams can come true as long as YOU love.. I have never stopped loving YOU still.. this is the main reason why I am so driven and so determine.. so that YOU can see the Heart of MINE that I still LOVE YOU.. that watching YOU taking your Father's Place.. which HE once ruled as the KING.. NOW you are ruling in his Place as the HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would see the Seven friends of MINE.. they come behind me.. two knees goes to the FLOOR.. arms stretch forward and HEADS all look at the Floor.. the 2nd Top General and even the 1st top General with their generals all.. two knees Hit the floor.. arms all stretch forwards and Heads all look on the ground and tears of these Men weeping before YOU showing HOW much YOU mean to Us.. as the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE!! and My hand grabs the Sword and I raise it UP to the Air and SHOUT LOUD and Clear.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE!! the voices of the Men behind me all raises UP.. HOORAY to My QUEEN.. MANSAE TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN.. YOU are the true QUEEN of MY HEART and shouts so LOUD it shakes the ground together.. MANSAE to my QUEEN.. HOORAY TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH and we all cry together in tears.. as I would look at YOU sitting on the THRONE.. the King's Chair as YOU raise UP the King's Sword in the Air and tears falls the eyes and tears falls from the sky.. IT IS raining in joy in tears because YOU are the ONE TRUE QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am looking at the Bars.. I need to see you HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. as I am sitting on the Prison Floor.. and Behind me is the Art Sketch Paper.. in these dark times when I can't be with YOU.. and without Your Presences and Only way for my Heart to get through the days is when I have the Art Sketch paper.. Drawing Picture of YOU
MAH MAH.. I am just waiting in the silent.. I know that the Prime Minister and Other Council of Noble Men is putting the Case against Me.. saying that it is TREASON.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. I know that if I must Die tonight.. if they press the Charge against me.. please let my name be known that I am the One who Loves YOU the Most.. if YOU want to write something about me.. please let it be known that I have always Loved You.. and that you have saw everything what a Man can do when it comes out of Heart when a MAN truly Loves YOU.. and as I would be holding with Both Hands the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU and I would be looking at your Beautiful Face.. I would say and whisper.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO.. you are the True QUEEN of my Heart.. my Love.. my Queen.. who I have been loving for a Long TIME.. and I am Not sure where did It all start.. if I can go back when I first saw YOU.. when I took that first glance and How you shook my Heart.. and as I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would be walking with my Father.. and I would be sitting on the top of the Horse.. and my father pulling the strings and He is smiling walking ahead while the Horse is following and I am sitting on top.. and on the right side is the waters.. the ocean and I would to LOOK at the Sun.. and the Horse stops.. and my Father stops and he turns his Head looking at the SUN.. on the Other side.. the King.. PEH HA is pulling the Horse string.. and I can hear a Big Laughter as the strings of the Horse behind the King.. so many People from the Palace are walking behind the Horse.. the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH when YOU were young sitting on the TOP.. and the KING.. PEH HA Stops.. and the Horse stops.. and my Father turns too look ahead.. the KING who is standing there.. my Father walks faster towards HIM and falls on both Knee.. Head looking to the Floor and I would get Out of the Horse and I would walk faster AND also falls on both knees and Head to the ground.. and I hear the Voice to get UP.. and My father gets UP before the King and I was allowed to lift UP my Head UP and as I would stand UP.. I am standing next to my father.. I see YOU sitting on the TOP of the Horse and YOU turn Your Head.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH turns the Head to Look down and when I saw YOU for the first time.. I don't know what it is.. but My Heart.. I can feel my Heart beating but faster it kept on beating.. and I would fall on both knees.. and my father turns to LOOK down with the King.. and I see you sitting on the TOP of the Horse and YOU look.. I wanted to give you a Flower.. back in the garden is where I can find this ONE flower.. who reminds so much of YOU.. the Most Beautiful Flower to My Queen.. But I am Not sure.. if I pick the Flower from the Garden.. will you receive the Flower that I give that only can comes from my Heart.. what if I give it to YOU but you dismiss it.. and it can cause my Heart to break.. should I take the chance to give you the Flower.. it is a Flower that my Mother gave to my Father.. the Seed and told my Father before she died to plant the seed where she be buried and watch how the Seed will grow and produce into this Flower.. and I remember my Father planting the seeds she gave HIM and by the tree and it grew after a certain time.. I would walk with my father into the Garden.. going UP the Hill top where the Tree is there and the Flower grew there.. that it is her Heart.. when I love someone.. that this Flower can truly transfer and once that Love transfer through the giving of this Flower that Dreams can be made and Dreams of Love can come true.. it is in the Garden but on the TOP.. the Hill top where the Tree stands alone.. there is a bed where the Flowers started to grow from the Seeds that was planted and I wanted to give you this One Special Flower that came from the Seeds of Flowers and I know that it means.. the Flower is the QUEEN of my Heart.. only One Heart that I have and can give to YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. when I first saw YOU at the Ocean.. and How the King.. PEH HA.. He was the One who was walking ahead.. and HE was the One who was pulling on the strings of the Horse.. all the Noble men and generals.. the Prime Ministers.. all the high Officials were standing behind as the KING.. PEH HA was introducing the Next new Ruler to Be.. and How he was walking on bare feet and the High Officials were giving distance as HE.. PEH HA.. the KING wanted to be alone with YOU.. and How he wanted to show YOU that ONE Day.. you are going to take his Place because Other SONS were all behind with the HIGH OFFICIALS of the ROYAL PALACE.. but He has chosen YOU that Day.. I was riding on the top of the Horse.. my Father wanted to tell me Something.. He wanted to share a story to Me and has something very Important message to tell me that day.. On this day.. for the first time as My Father was pulling on the Horse and He was sharing about my grandfather.. which was his father.. that is when YOUR FATHER the KING.. PEH HA comes by himself.. bare feet and walking down alone.. and I believe he was telling YOU a story too and I met you there at the Ocean.. my Father loved the Ocean just like my Grandfather.. and I too love the Ocean waters.. and I am thinking.. Maybe HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN loves the Ocean waters as well.. I remember that day.. the Doctors of the ROYAL Palace came.. your Father's Feet.. PEH HA'S FEET was bleeding walking on the rocky road.. and I saw YOU watching.. but my Heart to saw you for the first Time and I knew.. YOU are going to be My QUEEN.. not just the QUEEN but also the QUEEN of my Heart who I can only Love YOU.. so Please.. I want to show YOU and take YOU to the Garden.. so that when you do go to the garden.. I want to show you that special Flower.. which is located in the Garden.. on the Hill Top of where the Tree still stands.. and I want to give you this Flower.. Now I am thinking of this Flower which I could Not give to YOU Yet.. it has been so long since I was at the Garden and Now.. WHEN I am sitting in this Prison.. and able to think about you More deeply.. this FLOWER.. I am wondering.. is that ONE SPECIAL FLOWER still there.. it is from the Seeds that my Father planted long ago.. but it is the biggest flower that came from many seeds when My Father planted at the bed by the Tree.. I called the Flower My QUEEN.. which means the Most Beautiful Flower stands Out from the rest because the other Flowers are much more smaller.. as I am Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. is it too Late to Know about this Flower.. am I just too Late to give you this Flower.. I want to give this Flower because I remember what my Father told ME because it came from my Dying Mother when she gave the seeds of flowers to my Father before she died.. to give the Flower when it grows bigger and when I grow older.. when I meet someone WHO I love the Most and WHO I believe is the One I call my QUEEN of my Heart.. the ONE WHO I been loving.. to plant it and let the seeds to grow so that when I find the ONE WHO I LOVE.. I can give you the Flower to tell YOU.. it has taken me so Long to remember.. because I have lost the focus of this Flower for many long years.. I just want to go back to the Garden to see that ONE SPECIAL FLOWER.. before I die here in the Palace.. I want to make One true wish before I go to tell YOU my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HOW much I love YOU and that I should of given you this Flower much sooner.. then I believe by now.. something could of happened right.. but I don't want it to be Never either.. just to take this ONCE last chance.. to tell YOU that what I heard and how it was passed down to me by my Mother.. if she is right.. I believe that Dreams of Love can be made and Dreams can come true because I do believe in this Love that it is very special.. just like YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that YOU are so Special to Me.. has been all this time and still YOU are.. age to age do Not matter because as long as it is My Heart who loves YOU.. I know that If it means to happen.. something to happen.. in that Garden.. on the HILL TOP where the Tree stands.. there is a bed of Roses there.. and when YOU LOOK at the Bed of Flowers.. YOU WILL find One special Flower that stands OUT alone.. that Flower.. her name is YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. as I am given this Paper with the Ink.. asking the guard by the Prison Door.. gives me my request and I am sitting down.. writing with the Ink as it dips.. on this Paper I am writing the Instructions and telling YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. my QUEEN.. if I die here in Prison.. I know that I won't be able to tell YOU.. but with this Message I am writing.. YOU can go there to see it for yourself to see if it is true.. that ONE FLOWER belongs to YOU.. that it is YOURS.. I have been waiting for that Flower to be KNOWN to you but it has taken me so long to tell you this.. I believe Life gives YOU a story which so much things are happening that sometimes YOU DO forget to TELL YOU what is the Most Important.. as I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I really wanted to go with YOU.. it does Not matter if I die here in the Prison because at least in my life time I get the chance to tell YOU many times How much I love YOU.. watching you grow over time.. NOW you are the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and HOW you have succeeded after your Father.. PEH HA.. and I am just thinking back that HOW your FATHER.. PEH HA knew all this TIME.. He had to pass for the NEXT TO SUCCEED after HIM.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA already Knew that YOU.. his DAUGHTER will become the QUEEN.. will conqueror
!["소문으로만 들었는데.." 한국 시집 온 외국인 아내가 한국 길거리에서 충격받은 이유 [국제결혼 아제르바이잔 움만 1부]](/img/n.gif)
素晴らしい ガンバッテ❤
감사합니다 유이님 예쁜얼굴 좋은일까지
uee a nice kind of person because you're a dog lover a truly kind person.
Thank you for sharing. Doing such work can be hard emotionally and physically. But the rewards are the love you get from the animals and people you are helping.
ຮຮຈ
역시 내 이상형 유이님
실물도 이쁘시던데 마음씨는 더 이쁘시네요 역시
와.. 마음도 예쁜 유이님! ❤❤
Lovely video. Its great to see celebrities help with charity! 😊
Uee eonni saranghae ❤ From Turkiye
わんちゃん達、愛してくれる飼い主に、貰われて、幸せに、なってほしいなぁ😊
Uee is so kind and beautiful ❤
반려견과 함께 사는 사람으로서 처음부터 그냥 눈물 펑펑 흘리면서 봤어요ㅠ_ㅠ다 하나같이 예쁘고 사랑스러운데 모두다 품어줄 수 없는 현실도 슬프고, 애기들이 애초에 저기 있다는 것도 너무 슬프고.. 그러네요.. 그리고 우리집 똥강아지는 본견이 얼마나 행복한 지 꼭 자각하길 바란다..!!
What a good person 👏👏
Oh it Breaks my Heart. Everyone of them dogs deserves to be Loved, cared for. Uff. I would leave with half of them and get my self in trouble.
They seem to like her. 🥰
유이 누나 진짜 강아지에 진심이네
강아지들을 정말로 사랑하시는군요♡ 응원할게요^^~^^❤
강아지 든ㆍ 너무 귀여워 ^^
유기견 보호센터 방문기 잘 볼게요
Uie ❤❤❤❤❤❤
Unnie, you have a good heart. You're the best! 🙏💙💙💙
유이님 다시봤어요~~ 이렇게 마음이 예쁘시다니!! 저도 평소에 유기견에 생각이많고 봉사활동도 해보고싶단 생각도 많이하는데 이렇게 많은 유기견들 보며 마음이 많이 아프지만.. 그래도 조금이라도 그곳에서 편안하고 쾌적하게 생활할수 있었으면 하는 좋겠네요.. 암튼 이렇게 좋은일도 하시니 너무보기좋아요 👍 👍
좋은 일하시네요ㅡ
봉사하는 모습을 보면 가슴이 찌르르~
유이님 다시 보여요ㅡ
화이팅입니다ㅡㅎ😊
효심이도 잘 보고있는데ㅡ
오늘도 효심이하는 날
기다리고 있어요ㅡ
너무 예쁜 아이들이 저렇게나 많이 버려졌다니 속상하네요ㅜㅜ
바쁜일정에도 쉽지 않은 일을 하고 오셨네요. 역시 멋져요❤
6:33 別這樣～至少…我們喜歡妳呀！☺️🤣
お疲れ様でした。。。！！！ 素敵な活動ですね…^:^ 素敵な命を大切にしたいですね・・・💛💛💛💛
착하고 선한 마음을 가지 유이님♡ 고생하셨어요~ 강아지 봉사 쉽지 않은데 마음. 행동. 감사합니다♡ 드라마 연기도 잘하시고 응원할께요❤
lovely dogs need loving homes ❤
유기견들 너무 불쌍하다..ㅜㅜ
착한 마음씨 효심이 유이언니 짱!👍💕💕
유기견이라고는 믿기지 않는 미친 외모!!
유이누나 너때문에 부터 최애로 좋아했던 29살 남동생 팬이에요
쟤네는 너무 귀여워 !! 유기견이 너무 많아서 저도 깜짝 놀랐어요 ! 다행히 이 보호소에서는 잘 보살핌을 받고 있습니다 ❤
잘되길바라는마음이천사
같습니다
사람이할수있는일과
감당할수없는일이 있다는걸
아셨겠습니다
소중한경험을통해 소확행
하셨으면해요
유이처럼 채널홧팅
애기들 넘 예뻐서 더 짠하다 ㅠ
❤
유이님, 너무 좋은일하시고 멋집니다! 바쁘실텐데 ㅠㅠㅠㅠ 응원합니다
사랑이 가득한 사람!
행복하세요
I'm so sad that so many abandoned lovely dogs😭 Uie really did a great job! You win my respect👍💕💖👸
Godbless💚
봉사하는 마음이 이쁩니다. 외모뿐만 아니라 마음도 아름답네요~
언니 짱👏👏👏👍👍👍
UIE心善人美
🦮🦮🦮🐕🐶🐕🐕🦺🐕🦺🐕🦺
마음이 짠하면서도 따수워지는 영상이네요
뭉클해요,,,,행복햇음 좋겠어요 천사들,,
유이님 너무 멋져요❤❤ 아가들도 꼭 좋은가족 만나길 ㅠㅠㅠ
세상 스윗하신 유니언니ㅠ 애기들이 행복했으면 좋겠네요 ㅠ
Uee❤❤❤
👍👍👍
❤❤❤
슈퍼스타들은 원래 마음도 착한건가
안녕하세여 유이님 우결에서 보고 인사드립니다 ~^^
오늘밤내일 밤 나는그대 생각나 ~ 디바
반려견을 유기견으로 견주들 너무하네요.좋은데 입양되서 사랑받길 바래요
もっと掃除しやすい環境にしたらいいのになあ
ワンコたちみんなかわいい🐶
Oink Oink.. And If there is a Note written back to Me.. so many empty bottles are laying all around.. hoping that YOU have received the Message in the Bottle.. the Letter.. the Love Letter I wrote to YOU when I was in the Room.. sitting by the desk.. I would be looking at Your Picture.. for the first time in my life.. I have never felt the way I do now.. waiting for YOU by the Beach.. so many days passed by.. which became weeks down the Line.. and Now.. I been waiting for Your Answer.. hoping that YOU wrote me something back.. as I am standing around.. the Last time I came to this same beach.. Not even ONE bottle.. an empty Bottle was here.. but at this very Night.. there are just too many empty bottles laying around.. which I am thinking.. at least there must be One.. but My Heart would sank as I would be looking at each empty Bottle.. I don't see any of it with any notes or Letters coming back.. I feel so Sad.. maybe the Bottle.. the Love Letter I wrote to YOU.. putting inside the empty Bottle.. I am feeling.. and losing hope.. what if the Message in the Bottle has went to the wrong location.. what if YOU have never received it.. maybe it is still in the Ocean Waters floating through the Water.. unable to reach YOU.. what if it went to the Other side.. to someone else who I never wrote too.. I am just confused at this Point because I have written the Letter.. Love Letter to YOU.. I even looked UP to the Sky.. I looked at the MOON.. asking in prayers to guide the Message in the Bottle.. if that MOON has an ear.. and able to hear my voice and can listen to my words.. would IT help to guide the Message in the Bottle and send it to Your direction.. I would ask.. will you please Help me.. because YOU know that I am in love.. I want to share this open Heart.. My Heart has been opened to share and to tell YOU what is in me.. hoping that YOU feel the same as what I feel right NOW.. I been looking UP to the Moon.. asking.. Looking at it.. I would say to the MOON.. would you lend me Your Hand.. if YOU have a Hand.. If YOU have an ear.. can YOU please listen to my words.. Can you hear my voice because I really Need something from YOU.. it is YOUR Help.. as YOU can see.. I have written a Letter.. a Love Letter and I have PUT the Letter.. rolled into and put into this An Empty Bottle and I would show the MOON.. the Empty Bottle.. Love Letter rolled up and stick it into the An empty Bottle and I would walk up closer to the waves of Water coming into the Beach sand and I would toss the Message in the Bottle IN to the Water.. as I would stand still in the Night.. I would LOOK UP to the MOON.. finger pointing to the Message in the Bottle.. IF you can hear me this very night.. If YOU can hear my Voice.. if you hear my words.. Please do me a favor.. Guide that Message IN the Bottle.. Please.. Help that Message in the Bottle to travel to the right Place.. and I have a Picture of YOU and I would pull it out and I would SHOW the Face.. the Picture of YOU up to the MOON.. if you have eyes.. Please Open Your eyes wide and take a LOOK.. take a good Look of this Picture.. I am asking YOU.. LOOKING UP to the MOON.. I am asking YOU.. this Message in the Bottle belongs TO the One I am showing you the Picture.. Please Help me.. guide it through so it can go carefully to the right person which is YOU.. It took me a long hours of thinking.. picking UP a Pencil.. finding a clean sheet of Paper.. trying to brain storm at first.. trying to find the right words to write.. thinking over and over what to write.. as I would be staring at the Blank Sheet of Paper.. I would sit alone.. but cannot put the Words to write on that Blank sheet piece of Paper.. I would sit alone by the desk.. trying to pick and choose the right Words to share from my Heart.. ideas would Not come so fast and I had to write and stop.. try to write again and I would stop.. I would be angry with myself because I would write on that Clean Blank sheet of paper.. I would try to read it.. re read it over and over.. did NOT sound right.. grab the paper which been written and I would roll into the Ball with that Paper and toss it into the Trash can in the room.. I would be struggling through the Night.. struggling with Hours what to write.. as I would look at the Time.. looking at the watch in the room.. only thing I see is the TIME ticks so fast.. One hour goes by.. another clean blank sheet of paper I would pull out to write YOU.. a Letter.. a Love Letter.. only thing that I can think in that night is the TIME.. the Time flies so fast.. but I am sitting alone by the desk.. Unable to fulfill what I wanted to do by telling YOU.. sharing YOU.. writing YOU.. the first three letter Hits and I would write.. I LOVE YOU.. and trying to fill in the Blank.. asking myself.. what am I doing.. so much time is passing BY.. making my Heart to skip.. making it skip twice and three times.. because only the Three Letter words I am able to tell YOU and Nothing More.. am I getting Old.. am I losing memories.. what is happening to myself.. and I would open the Bottle.. and starts to Pour into the Shot Glass.. as I place the Bottle Down.. I would pick up the shot Glass and take a Shot.. I want to cry because I know there are so much words I want to say to YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU so much but.. sitting by the desk Alone for about the Hour that went by.. I feel like I just can't write.. I can't write but My Heart has so much to say.. because I know that deep inside.. I love YOU.. I would grab the Bottle and pour more into the Shot Glass.. putting the Bottle Down.. grabbing the Shot Glass.. I open my mouth and take a shot.. slamming into me.. I feel so stressful now.. I want to tell YOU.. but what am I suppose to say.. I can't just put I love YOU on this Big Pieces of Blank Paper.. I know that I needs to fill in the Blank as much as Possible so that YOU Know my Heart.. I want to tell YOU.. I want to tell YOU MORE.. I just don't want to say three little words and put the period at the end.. I want to tell you much more than Just the three words I love YOU or I miss YOU.. just too vague and makes me feel like I have NO words to say.. and I turn around.. LOOKING behind me is the Bed.. and there is something that is sitting on the TOP of the Bed.. it is the Giant Teddy Bear.. and Next to the Giant Teddy Bear is the Pillow.. the shape of the Heart color Pink.. before I would turn to look back again to look.. I would pull the Picture of YOU.. and Place it right next to the Blank Sheet piece of Paper.. and I would take a closer LOOK at your Picture and my words would say looking at your picture.. why do I keep on missing YOU.. why do I keep on looking at your Picture.. why can I just stop everything.. it would not hurt me this Much.. the pain and the ache of Missing YOU.. the More I miss YOU the more I think of YOU.. the More I think of YOU.. I just want to say.. to tell YOU that I love YOU.. I would turn around to look back again.. the Wall and the bed next to the Wall.. the Giant Teddy Bear sitting on the TOP of the Bed.. I would close Both eyes and tried to imagine.. tries to envision YOU sitting on the TOP of the Bed and your Arms.. arms.. YOUR arms Holding.. wrapping around the Giant Teddy Bear.. I open both eyes.. Are you there.. I am trying to ask if I see YOU.. are you there yet.. and I can feel my Heart.. so I turn around.. facing the Piece of paper.. my hand grabs the Pencil and I start to write YOU a letter.. a Love Letter that only can comes from My Heart.. can I feel my Heart crying.. can I feel my eyes wants to shed some tears because I begin to write.. I see my hand.. as the pencil starts to write on the Paper.. I would tell YOU.. I am missing YOU.. and YOU have left behind the GIANT TEDDY BEAR.. many nights when I sit alone and I would be sitting by the Desk.. I would turn to look back.. it is the Giant Teddy Bear which brings so much memories to me.. even though for the Hour went by.. I sat alone.. could not put any words on the Pieces of Paper.. only thing is that My Hand grabs and holds unto the pencil tightly.. I would tell my hand to write.. I want to see the Words written on the Paper.. but it is My Brain.. the thought stops and locks up.. even though my hand wants to move and to write.. My thoughts seems like it just wants to stop.. holding it still.. even though I feel it in my heart and has so much to say to YOU.. I wonder why I can't write on this Very night.. I would open the Bottle of a Whiskey I bought and started to pour on the shot glass.. the pain and the ache in my Heart and my soul.. just killing me because I miss YOU so Much and only words that was stuck and has been written was the three letter words.. I love YOU.. I wanted to scream.. I wanted to cry because I know that in my Heart.. I needs to say something.. I needs to tell YOU what is really going on in me.. to tell YOU that I love YOU and how much I miss YOU.. when I started to take some more Shot from the Shot glass.. I started to Miss YOU.. all over again I started to miss YOU more as I would pour and taking shot from the Whiskey Bottle.. as I would watch the Bottle being emptied.. missing YOU started to Hurt me more.. as I would pull out and place Your Picture in front of Me.. as I would look at YOU through this Picture.. two lines of tears.. tear drops starts to run down my eyes because I wanted to be with YOU.. just missing YOU and unable to do anything.. that is when I turn to LOOK back.. I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted YOU to be there.. Your Presences.. even I turn to LOOK back.. I found nothing but the Giant Teddy Bear sitting alone.. just like me sitting here alone.. I even had to try to close.. I even closed my both eyes because I wanted to see YOU.. when I closes both eyes.. I saw YOU there.. I saw YOU smiling and holding Oink
좋은곳 빨리 입양이ㅠㅠ 갔으면 좋겠네요ㅜㅜ 사람들아~제발좀 책임못지면 .키우다 그만버리세요!
유이님!! 메일 확인 꼭 부탁 드려요!!!!!!!!
Oink Oink.. I am in the Room.. Looking out the window.. I see the rain showering down.. I would like to walk in the rain.. but it be nice If I take this Piano with Me.. I have written YOU another Letter.. I wonder if YOU can Hear Me Now.. I know that just standing Out alone.. and Turning to LOOK up.. LOOKING at the Moon and just speaking to the MOON.. that Moon does Not Hear Me.. so I am trying something New.. something different so that Maybe the MOON can catch the glimpse of Me.. and Can turn to LOOK at Me.. and Hear me.. I am trying to grab and get the attention of that MOON.. so maybe I can bring Out this Little Piano that I bought.. and PUT it outside.. and I can Hit the Keys.. making the Sounds.. and with the Recorder in my hand.. and Push the Recording Button as I can open this Letter.. which I have written just for YOU and share it.. If YOU can Hear Me.. Can the Moon hear me Now.. if I can get the MOON to get closer to Me.. I can ask the MOON.. and show the MOON the Picture of YOU.. and ask the MOON.. if YOU see this Person.. in the Picture.. can YOU do something for Me.. will you send me an Angel.. call an Angel for Me.. and I will show the Angel the Picture of YOU.. and I would open the Recorder.. and give the Angel the Tape I have recorded and If the Angel can do me a favor.. that I have One Wish.. to give this Tape to YOU.. and YOU can hear my Voice.. YOU can hear me say and tell YOU what is deep in my Heart.. as I would speak to the recorder to tell YOU.. HOW much I miss YOU.. How Much I want to be close to YOU.. I know that if I just appear out of the Blue.. I don't want to scare YOU.. I don't want YOU to think that I am stalking YOU because I am Not.. so Maybe the MOON.. which hears me Press the Key notes and making the Sounds of pressing the Key bars can turn to Hear and Notice me that I am here down Below.. and If the MOON comes closer.. I will ask.. DO you know any angels who can do me favor.. because I have One wish.. Not asking Much but just for ONE wish.. so I will tell the MOON.. Please get me an Angel to come at my aid.. and If I see the Angel.. I will give HIM the picture of YOU and the tape which I have recorded over and also if YOU need the Letter.. I will give this Angel the Letter too.. just in case YOU want to read this Letter of Mine.. as I am looking out the window.. looking at the rain pouring down.. I have the Piano.. the Little Piano with Me.. I want to take it Out.. I want to go out side and play the Piano.. of course I don't know how to Play.. so If you hear the back ground and It does Not sound right.. YOU know that it is Me.. it is Me who is pressing the Key bars.. just pressing because I want YOU to hear me.. Please hear Me.. Please hear me what I needs to say and to tell YOU.. that I love YOU.. why do I love you this way.. I love you in a way YOU can say.. I am creative with what I do.. I am looking at the Little Piano.. Looking at Your Picture.. and I would say to my self.. I miss YOU.. I really really Miss YOU.. just watching the rain fall and the shower of the rain coming down from the sky.. It makes me more miss YOU.. I wish that I did not have to Miss YOU.. but for some reason.. this very Night I really miss YOU.. the way my Heart truly feels is this.. grabbing an Empty Glass Jar.. I want to pull out My Heart from my chest.. grab a Knife and stab my Heart right in the Middle and put the wounded Heart.. the One with the scars.. Put it inside the Glass jar.. watching my Heart be bleeding.. I feel like I am slowly dying instead.. as I look at the Blood gushing Out of my Heart and I see my own blood filling UP the Glass Jar with my Heart still inside it.. I be looking at it.. and I would take the Little Piano Out side.. does Not matter How wet I get.. But I feel like I am dying inside for YOU.. because I miss YOU.. as I am out side.. standing in the rain.. getting wet by the Rain.. I would also bring the Glass Jar.. with My Heart and the Blood filled.. and let YOU see It.. I would ask the Moon.. do YOU not feel sorry for Me.. Do you not see How much I am in pain and that I am suffering so much right Now.. and I would push the recording Button of the recorder.. pressing with my fingers of the key Bars.. telling YOU what I wrote.. I would memorize the Letter I wrote to YOU.. in the Rain.. I am calling Out for YOU.. crying Out for YOU.. can YOU see my Heart.. DO you want to see My Heart.. if YOU can't see it.. I have brought the Glass Jar.. with my Heart inside.. I am missing YOU so much right Now.. I just don't know what to do.. what am I suppose to do when I miss You like this.. Please tell Me.. I have the tape with me.. with My Voice and words speaking into the recorder.. I am reading the Letter which I wrote.. I am reading as I am looking at the Heart.. LOOKING at my Heart inside the Glass Jar covered in Blood.. Please Help me to recover from this Wound and from the scars I feel in my Heart when I be missing YOU.. I just can't take this pain any more.. Please help me to Love again.. If I don't see YOU.. this is how My Heart feels right Now.. as I would look UP.. looking at the MOON.. I be pressing the key Bars of the Little Piano.. and I am crying.. crying because I want More than just this.. I want More of YOU.. I want to say it to your ears.. and tell YOU as I hold you near.. hold you near in my arms.. telling YOU.. why can't I tell YOU.. why can't I say it to YOU in person.. give me the chance to speak to YOU so that YOU can hear me clearly what is IN my Heart.. help me to love YOU more.. only way to can help me.. only way I can get to YOU.. Please Open Your Heart to me.. show me that YOU care.. show me that YOU are truly listening.. because many nights I am Not sure if YOU are or Not.. as My fingers are hitting.. banging on the Key Bars making sounds on this Little Piano.. I want to hear from YOU.. I needs to hear from YOU.. that YOU are listening on the Other side.. I only see the MOON.. but I can't see YOU.. I want to see YOU.. I want to see YOU near.. and as I would press the stop button of the tape recorder.. I stand still.. getting more wet by the rain.. showers of water of rain on me.. My arm stretches Out.. my hand opens out.. towards the MOON.. How can I get to YOU.. How can I get Your attention.. How do I get YOU to notice Me.. I know that I am very small as a person.. but the way I love YOU.. the size of How much I love YOU.. If YOU can come Outside at Night.. My Heart of loving YOU can be as big as the MOON I am looking at.. if YOU look at the MOON.. the same Moon I am looking at.. that is HOW MUCH I love YOU.. that is How much I want to tell YOU that I love YOU.. even though my Heart breaks.. I can feel my Heart be breaking on the Night like this because I love YOU.. and because I miss YOU.. why don't you ever see Me.. why don't you ever notice Me.. YOU know that I been hear all this Long.. I been here all this Time telling YOU that it is real.. it is true that I be loving YOU.. YOU needs to see that and believe it too. Please give me a chance to Love YOU.. Please give me One Chance.. One shot is all I am asking for.. Not even a day but even few minutes of the time is all I am asking for.. But I am asking YOU.. that Only YOU can make me smile.. as I see the Rain stopped.. and I am standing alone out side.. I am soaked wet because of the shower of rains would pour down on me.. I would pull out the Letter.. of course the Letter is soaked wet too.. but I can still see the writings.. and I would look at the wet recorder and press the Button of the recording.. and the little Piano has a stand.. so I would place the Glass jar on top of the Little Piano.. and after Opening the Letter.. I would lift UP my head towards and I would look at the MOON.. DO you hear Me.. can YOU Please hear me.. ON this very Night.. I am want to speak to YOU.. would you let me speak because this is the Only thing I can do for right Now.. I want to show YOU this Glass Jar.. I want to take this Glass jar and give it to YOU.. and if you can listen.. I want to tell YOU that I been loving YOU for so Long.. I been loving YOU that I have lost the count.. I started to count in the beginning but I guess I just had to stop.. because the More I love YOU.. the less I counted.. as I am looking at this Glass Jar.. I have stabbed my Heart with the Knife.. it Hurts when the Blade plunged into the center of the Heart.. I felt the Pain.. and started to suffer because of If.. as I watch my Heart struggle for air.. I saw the Blood pouring Out.. and I would say.. It must be Love because I miss YOU.. I started to miss YOU over and over.. that I felt the tears just running down my two eyes.. I can't take it any more because I love YOU.. I can't take this Pain because I be missing YOU like crazy.. when can I see YOU.. is it going to be soon.. Please tell me when can I see YOU.. will you let me see YOU.. or is it going to be never on your end.. I been waiting for YOU.. for a long time I been waiting and just kept on missing YOU.. every time I write YOU a Letter.. and I think of YOU and every time I take a Look at your Picture.. I can feel something inside of me wants to cry.. I want to cry More as I keep on missing YOU.. holding YOU in my arms is my first Wish.. and the second is to tell YOU how much I love YOU and how much I missed you.. that I know one day it needs to stop.. that I do not have to miss YOU any more.. I am standing Out here.. LOOKING UP at the MOON.. when would that TIME BE.. when I can stop be missing YOU.. I would be wiping these tears.. most of the nights are very harsh for Me.. because my arms.. my arms wants to hold YOU.. hold you close and hold you still.. just to feel you close and that I get to call YOU mine forever.. will you Let that Happen to me.. Please tell me that I do have a hope still.. that I still have a chance.. a hope to tell you that I need YOU.. I miss YOU and that I love YOU.. Please give me the hope so that I can dream being US together for ever.
I knew that I had to do something.. that One day YOU will know that I love YOU.. maybe not at the Point but some day YOU will know how much I love YOU by sharing what YOU have given Me and what you have done to Me.. as I would look.. the Work Shop.. Looking at the Paper.. the Art sketch.. the drawing of the Sun Flower.. back is the Garden.. and Now.. there are More than Thousand Sun Flowers in the Back.. in the Garden.. ready to be given and ready to be sold.. when YOU came into the Work Shop.. I was blown into pieces because YOU looked a lot like someone who I loved.. but did NOT wanted to ask you if YOU were.. because YOU could of been someone else but NOT YOU.. when YOU shared the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing of the Sun Flower and I turn to face the Wall.. the same drawing YOU given me when I was a young Boy.. who was hurting.. who just read a Letter of the Lost and dead family.. YOU were like an Angel who gave me Life to live again.. I do remember when YOU asked me if YOU could work here.. I told YOU NO at first.. I did Not want you to come close because I know that something could happen.. I wanted you close deep in my Heart.. but.. I did not want you too close.. I am already Hurt.. I do not want to be hurt again but I did miss YOU so much that My Heart was crying inside.. I did Not want to tell YOU this at all.. because I did Not want to see you go.. I remember YOU told me that YOU will be back.. and I had to let YOU go that day you came.. YOU just do not know how heavy I felt inside.. It broke me down into tears again.. asking myself.. why did I let YOU go like this.. what if YOU will never show UP.. what if I will not see YOU again.. what if I end up dying like this instead.. and I just could not help myself and blamed myself for letting you walk away like this.. what if YOU never come back to me.. and I be dumb like this of letting YOU go when I know deep inside I love YOU.. I was just too afraid to let YOU IN because I loved YOU just too much.. I am looking through the Window.. In the Work Shop.. I see YOU.. I remember I grabbed your wrist.. and I told YOU.. I love YOU.. for a Long time.. I just could Not take my Mind Off of YOU.. asking YOU.. can I be the One who can Love you for the rest of My Life.. will you let me.. I know that I made the situation worst when I grabbed your wrist.. I just wanted to express my Heart but did not mean to come out that strong to You.. I saw you turning your Head away from Me.. and Looking towards another direction.. I knew that I had to let Go.. YOU told me that YOU did not want to work here any more.. of course I knew the answer clearly.. as I open my hand and let go of your wrist.. you wanted to tell me something.. and told me that YOU were seeing someone else.. but I knew that person well.. and my Heart.. I just knew that My confession of telling you came too late.. But I was holding in for so long.. why did YOU not wait.. why did you tell me that YOU wanted to be loved by someone else.. But.. I know that I bee here all along.. YOU knew that I felt something towards YOU.. even though I did Not have to say the words.. by the smile and my actions should of told YOU already.. but Now.. is it really late for me to tell YOU that I love YOU.. can you please receive My Love.. can you please open your heart just a little for Me.. I need to know.. I need a chance you know.. if I am the One for YOU.. did YOU not ever think about that.. I can really be the One who can love you for so long.. but if you do not give me that Chance.. you will never know How far I can truly love YOU and tell YOU how much I love YOU.. are you really going to let this Chance go.. and I would turn.. trying to look at YOU.. but.. I see that YOU are moving and pushing me away.. but.. I know I can too love YOU.. WHY can't you just reconsider.. and please give a time for yourself.. Let me know that I can too love YOU.. is it that Hard for you to know.. I know that I can Love YOU too.. maybe I can be a Better Lover.. I can love you more because YOU brought this Inspiring of Love to Me.. will you please consider and think about what I have said to YOU.. I see you turning away and telling me you have already made it known and made it clear to me that YOU love another man.. and I would watch you walking away.. and I would turn away toward your Direction.. wait.. do you have to end it like this.. can you not give me a Chance too.. if you do not open your heart.. if you keep it close.. you will know that I have loved you More.. so Please.. open your heart.. I know I can Love you better.. I can Love you More.. only please.. stop and wait.. I watch the Door open.. and I see you walk out the Door and the door closes.. I am thinking about the day you left me.. I was building this work Shop just for YOU.. YOU told me that YOU loved Flowers.. I asked you what is your Interest.. what makes you smile.. what do you like to see.. what makes you cry.. what makes you happy and as a friend you told me many things.. I collected and gathered.. YOU told me that YOU wanted to see a lot of Flowers.. Out of the woods.. some of the trees had to be cut Down.. and the builders came and helped me to build this Work Shop out of the woods.. and I would ask what kinds of seed would bring Flowers to Life in the Garden.. and I asked few of the Plant specialists and they helped me to get these seeds and started to help me to plant.. Once these things were established I remember I asked you if you wanted to work.. and YOU told me where.. and I gave you the address.. it is a Flower Shop.. and I work there too.. and I do remember you did take the offer and started to work.. I would show you different flowers.. I would think about the flowers you loved.. when we were young.. when YOU came to the Orphan House.. I do remember you coming with your parents.. and they would always bring you Flowers.. and share to the children who had NO Parents.. I member I would see the kinds of flowers in your Hands.. each time you would bring a New Flower in your hand.. I would look at the flower.. going into my room.. I have me a Note Book.. and start to write down flowers you would bring.. it be so different.. and I have kept the Note Book for a Long time.. from Page to page.. I would smile.. as I would feel my tears roll down.. my hand touch the words of the Names of each Flower.. and I would ask the Specialist can any of these Flowers.. do you have the seeds of these flowers so that I can plant in the garden too.. I do remember some of the farmers who lived around the Area comes to help.. I would be asking if they can help me to Plant these seeds and help me to grow.. and the older People started to help as I would watch the Plants.. I saw Flowers blossom time after time.. and when the Flowers would grow.. I would think of YOU.. each has a special place in my Heart.. I would touch my Chest looking at each Unique Flowers and I wanted to show YOU.. I wanted to tell YOU something.. But I was afraid to ever tell YOU.. Just like what has happened.. YOU told me that YOU love someone else.. YOU telling me that I am Not the One.. that I am Not allowed to Love YOU.. how can YOU tell me this when I been thinking of you all this TIME.. you brought so much tears in my eyes.. My Heart was breaking.. I could not see you from the distance.. I could not believe you would say.. and just walked away.. Now I am here.. back at the Work Shop.. I have left the work Shop because of these memories causing me to Die inside.. but.. what am I suppose to do what YOU are the Love of my Life who brings me back here.. and I would stand here.. the room is dark.. I know that It is time to start over.. I am going to build this Shop again.. this Flower shop because I know that I love YOU.. does Not matter if you ever return back to me or Not.. But.. I know that I love this Place.. why because I always loved YOU.. your scent still is here.. I can still smell your scent.. and I just wanted to hold YOU near when I smell you.. so sweet and so beautiful.. as I am looking at the Window.. and I look through.. I see the tree I was standing.. and I am not sure.. but I see someone.. I am hoping it is YOU.. I want it to be YOU.. but Not YOU who breaks my Heart.. YOU who is coming back to Me.. YOU who knows how much I love YOU.. YOU who knows that I have build this work Shop.. this Flower Shop because I was inspired by Loving YOU.. to show you how much I love YOU.. and as I am getting closer toward the window and I look through.. I see YOU.. but.. is it YOU who loves another man.. because YOU should always know that I love you first.. I watch YOU turning around and I see you looking.. I am standing by the window.. YOU are standing by the tree and My tears.. it starts to flow down.. two lines.. I know I missed YOU.. YOU know how much I miss YOU.. and YOU should now that this whole place.. It is because of YOU.. How much I love YOU.. LOOK at the flower Shop.. Look at the farmers who and helping the flowers to grow.. look at the each Flowers which has been planted.. if YOU can go back.. Do you not remember when we were young.. YOU came to a house like this.. I was at the Orphan House.. YOU came with your parents.. but you brought flowers.. different times YOU came to visit.. I would stand there.. I see you smile so Big and YOU would tell me.. too look at the Flower.. and YOU would run straight direction toward me and with a BIG SMILE.. showing me the name of the Flower.. where YOU got it.. and you be moving the Flower around.. telling me that Some day YOU are going to have your Own garden.. and In that garden grow Your flowers.. and begin to show me the different kinds of flowers you wanted to plant to grow.. of course.. I would run to the room.. and would write that on the Note Book.. and I would tell myself.. One Day I want to give you a Garden with full of flowers YOU showed me.. and give you the gift of this Garden and that is WHY I am here..
Lover.. who can Love you more.. are you giving me a Chance.. and I would close my eyes.. and when I open.. I look through the window across.. I don't see you any more.. I would look one more time.. and I see that YOU are gone.. as I look at your Picture.. I would smile.. I know that YOU are happy.. of course who don't want to love YOU.. I know that you have many young men who wants to love YOU.. but.. I know that I can love YOU more.. I can love you better.. because I know my Heart.. I understand my Heart knowing what Love truly is.. and to Let YOU know how much I love YOU.. I just wanted to share and tell YOU.. I never stopped loving YOU.. Only YOU who I love.. YOU are the Only One who I think of the Most.. always on my mind.. and always loving YOU first.. I just wanted to say I love you.. and always I will love YOU.. I am waiting at the Doctor's office.. I am getting sick.. something has happened to my Heart.. I am wondering if My Heart is broken.. as I am sitting down.. waiting for the Doctor.. I am holding your Picture in my Hand.. I have been looking at this Picture for a Long time.. since I have lost you.. and it is the Picture of YOU.. you are standing by the Wall.. with a beautiful Smile.. I gave YOU a flowers and YOU are holding in your hand.. showing me in the picture of you.. I was so happy when I gave you those flowers in the work shop.. I surprised you that night.. it was before I wanted to ask YOU out.. I wanted to ask if we can be lovers.. and before the questions came about.. and I gave YOU the flowers.. I would watch you holding in your hand.. and I saw you smelling the flowers.. it touched my Heart.. Your nose so close and I saw both of your eyes closing when YOU brought the Flowers closer to your nose.. and right after.. you opened your eyes.. I be holding the camera.. zooming in to get a closer Picture.. I asked if YOU could just smile for me.. YOU are the Most Beautiful when I see you smile.. so I asked.. looking through the lens of the Camera.. I saw you holding the flowers closer and my finger presses and it clicked to take that Picture.. I would put the camera down and I came closer to YOU and I wanted to say but.. YOU told me Not to say it.. Because YOU knew what I was going to say and told me that YOU already have some one who you love.. and that I knew the person well.. I would just stand there.. No words to tell YOU because.. I have been holding this for a long time.. I wanted to tell YOU for a long time.. but I guess holding too long.. and I just could not hold it back.. I want to know.. DO you love Him.. do you think that man can love you more than Me.. if He can love you more than me.. I can back off and just pretend I never told you this.. I want to know what if I can love you More.. I know that I can love you where YOUR Heart can be truly touched.. I know that I can love you because I am already loving YOU.. but pushing me away is not going to solve anything.. but if you know that He can love you more and can make you more happier.. than I have nothing more to say.. But How about my Heart.. how about the Love I have for YOU.. will you please consider this before you can.. and it is the Picture before I wanted to ask.. but I do remember you be telling me that YOU love some one else.. I wanted to walk out of that work shop.. I wanted to leave at that moment because My Heart couldn't handle this kind of pain.. and to heal it takes a long time for me to get over it.. but.. I felt like I should stay.. that may be you would change your mind.. so I just stood and waited.. but I saw YOU looking at me.. giving me back the flowers and I saw YOU walking out of that work shop.. I heard the door behind me shutting down.. holding the flowers in my hands.. why am I holding these flowers for.. I am the one who gave you these flowers.. these are not for me and when I turned my head to look back.. I stood there.. the door was closed and YOU left.. I wanted to cry.. but I wanted to hold my own emotions in and I kept it inside for a while before I wanted to lead it out.. I stood there in the silence.. holding the flowers in my hands.. just did not know what to do any more.. as I am sitting on the chair.. just waiting for the doctor to call my name.. I am looking at the Picture of YOU.. holding the flowers and just smiling.. Now I am thinking.. and wondering.. what if I did Not say anything.. did Not mention and just stood there and smiled back.. I know that YOU would not left the work shop that night.. you could of still be there with me.. but would I ever be happy just watching you on the side line.. just loving YOU alone.. while YOU have someone who loves YOU and you be loving him back.. What am I suppose to do if I am just another shadow of passing through.. It would be breaking my heart into pieces.. I remember I open my hands and the Flowers all fell to the floor.. hitting the ground.. I dropped to my knees.. beating against my chest and started to cry loud.. wailing louder because of the pains of hitting me so Hard that night.. I did not even leave that work shop.. I would be crying for hours.. just feeling the pain deep within me.. sitting by the wall.. I would be leaning.. and I would sit until the Sun would rise Up.. I just could not work any more.. and wanted to take some time off.. but I could not get up.. sitting there.. looking at the flowers all over the floor of the ground.. I can't believe that this Hurts.. it hurts me much more.. why did I even mentioned if it going to end UP like this.. hurting me like this.. this ache.. this pain of just loving you.. why can't you love me back.. I would yell.. out loud.. why can't you love me back.. what must I do for YOU to notice HOW much I love YOU.. and I would sit still.. could not get up.. just did not want to move.. I did not want to eat anything.. even though I was hungry.. but I sat there.. leaning against the wall.. just thinking of YOU.. am I going crazy.. am I losing my mind.. what is wrong.. matter with me is what I would be thinking.. and I would suddenly lay on the floor.. maybe sleeping will help me.. get me better.. and I lay on the floor.. both eyes closes.. and it hurts so bad that I just could not sleep.. as I am still waiting for the doctor.. the door opens and I am looking at your Picture.. I hear foot steps and someone sits next to me.. and I put the picture down.. I am wondering.. who is sitting next to me and as I turn to look.. I see you next to me.. I am thinking.. all this time.. did you know that I am here so you came.. or you just came because YOU are sick too.. and I looked at YOU.. why are you here.. Why are you sitting next to me.. YOU told me that YOU have someone who loves YOU.. you told me you love him.. but why are you here.. I am here because I love you too much.. I think I can't bear this pain.. take this pain any more.. I am going to get me a New Heart.. I don't like the Heart I have with me.. this Heart is always hurting me so I want a new Heart.. a Heart who does Not know you any more.. as I looked at YOU.. are you hurt just like me.. or is it for something else.. as I raised my arm.. my hand is holding your Picture.. and I would show YOU this picture and I turned to look at YOU and I would say.. do YOU remember this time.. Do you remember the day I gave you those flowers.. I am so sorry that I told you that I loved YOU.. I did not meant to say it in a way that YOU wanted to walk off.. but Do you want to see this Picture.. I think you never got the chance to look at it because the Picture came after YOU left.. Do you know how many times I cried looking at this Picture.. I would tell myself.. I regret letting YOU know.. I would tell myself many times.. I regretted because.. If I never mentioned it to YOU.. you would of stayed with me a little longer right.. and I would look at you.. and I see you smile.. as I am waiting for the doctor.. I would look at the picture again.. looking at YOU.. when I would turn my head to look.. I don't see you any more.. I am wondering.. was this just a dream.. why did I saw you here.. maybe I do miss you just too much.. I am aching in my Heart.. I feel like I am dying inside.. the door opens.. and I see the doctor.. I hear the Doctor calling my Name.. I get UP out of the chair and I would walk into the patient room.. and I would sit on patient chair.. I would show the picture to the Doctor.. and the Doctor looks at the picture.. and I am telling the doctor.. I need a new Heart.. if you can give me a New Heart.. I think I can live again.. I am suffering just too much with the Heart who is inside of me.. if YOU can please take my Heart.. put that heart away.. and replace with a New Heart.. I think I can live again.. I just can't live with this Heart.. it is killing me and driving me insane.. Please.. can you do a surgery so that I can breathe again.. to live again.. something is wrong with the Heart I am having.. giving me just too much pain.. and my eyes gets watery and I turn to look.. looking at the doctor in the eyes.. when I looked at the eyes.. it looks like your eyes.. and I would look.. and you are holding the picture in your hand.. and I can't believe I am asking YOU to get rid of my heart.. I am wondering.. and of course.. I remember you told me when we were young.. that YOU had dreams.. you wanted to be a Heart doctor and help healing wounds.. you told me once.. your dreams was to be a doctor who would save lives.. and I am sitting down.. as Your hand is holding that picture.. this is the picture YOU never saw.. but it was when YOU were working with me at the Work Shop.. and do you not remember.. the flowers I gave YOU.. and Yes.. you gave me the flowers back and I dropped the flowers on the floor.. as I looked at YOU.. I would smile at you.. I am glad that YOU have fulfilled your dreams of becoming a Doctor.. at least I came to the right person because if I were to die tonight.. at least YOU are the last person I got to see before I die.
Of tears would drop.. I just can't live without you.. or please let me have a chance to love YOU.. you can make a choice.. be the One to do the surgery to my Heart.. or let me please just keep on loving YOU.. because I just want to love you more and more.. tell me why can't I love you more.. as I am looking at you as the doctor.. I see you turning away.. with the picture in your hand.. I see you leave the patient room.. why can't you get rid of my Heart.. get rid of this Heart so that I don't love you any more.. make a choice for me.. Please.. tell me which way for me to go.. I am looking at you.. I just could not believe that YOU are now a doctor.. a Heart surgeon.. of course I came here to get my Heart to be removed.. I wanted another Heart Surgeon because.. Can you handle doing the surgery.. planting into a different Heart.. a Heart from someone else.. What would you do if I don't recognize YOU any more.. what will you do if I start to love another whose Heart has been loving.. But.. I don't want to lose YOU.. How can I live without YOU.. How can I breathe if I can't love YOU any more.. but all this Time.. I have been only loving YOU.. YOU are the Only One who I been missing.. I been crying over looking at the empty wall.. walking into the Work Shop.. I been missing YOU.. missing your Presence.. just missing your smile.. can YOU handle me.. putting me into the deep sleep.. as YOU cut my chest wide open.. I know that YOU are more experience in this kind of work.. If you are the Doctor.. because I asked for a well experienced.. well established with multiple years of experience.. I don't want my Heart to be broken.. I don't want my Heart to be dropped on the floor.. It has been with me all of my life.. ever since I was born.. ever since I was a young Boy.. when I first saw YOU.. I cried.. I started to cry after YOU left.. YOU promised me that YOU will be back.. and I felt my Heart.. I did not know what it was at the first touch.. I just could not stop.. but I would kept on crying through the Night.. that is when I could Not sleep.. I kept on thinking of YOU.. over and over.. turning and tossing.. all of the children at the Orphan House.. they were all sleeping good.. I sat on top of the bed.. wondering.. why couldn't I sleep like the Other children.. I do remember you gave me your picture.. I saw both of your parents with YOU.. and I do remember.. being so Poor.. without any parents.. living with bunch of poor children.. who had No homes.. only could gather with each other.. I looked at YOU.. I would smile.. I could never smile living with bunch of these children.. they were all dirty like Me.. pushing and shoving.. kicking and screaming.. and there was No peace.. When I heard the Old Woman.. the Care taker says to the Children.. a Missionary family is coming.. to help Us.. to help educate and give Us books to read.. and toys to play with.. of course.. it was YOU and your Parents who came.. I knew that I should of stopped myself right when I met YOU.. I don't know why I asked for your picture that day.. before YOU were leaving.. and as I was crying.. I wanted to be a Part.. so I asked for YOUR picture.. when YOU told me that YOU are going to give me One.. and That smile.. you pulled out and told me that this is the Only One.. the best Picture you have taken.. I saw your Smile.. and YOU told me.. behind the Picture is your Address.. and If I wanted a friend to share my Heart.. to write YOU a Letter.. I do remember watching YOU leave.. Your Father and Mother holding your Hands as YOU leave.. I would be waving with tears in my eyes.. I felt so Alone.. I felt so cold.. I felt so Poor.. and I would fall both on my knees.. and Weeping as I take a Look at your Picture.. why do you have to leave so Soon.. Are you going to come to visit me and the children.. and both hands holding the side of the Picture.. YOU are so Beautiful.. and I be looking with tears.. wiping my tears with my hand.. I feel so Alone.. I feel so sad because My Heart.. is it going to break like this.. My Heart keeps on breaking because YOU know how much I love you right.. and I do remember that Night.. I just could not sleep.. and sitting on the top of the Bed.. I pulled out Your Picture.. and I would look.. and I do remember what YOU said.. to write YOU when I needed a friend.. and I would get Out of the Bed and I walked to the desk.. and I sat down to write.. as I am laying.. I am looking at YOU.. as a Doctor.. as the Heart Surgeon.. I should of Not come to this Hospital.. What are you going to do with My Heart.. I don't want you to take my Heart away.. if I can't love you any more.. I rather ask for another Doctor.. I guess the main reason is to forget YOU.. and Let my Heart be taken away and Let someone else have My Heart.. But when I saw YOU.. if YOU were another Doctor.. another Heart Surgeon.. then I think it would been so much easier to go with the proceed to do the surgery but.. I feel like My Heart Now just can't go.. it has been such a Long time since I saw YOU.. and for the longest Time.. I have been missing YOU.. but Now.. I just can't give My Heart away with YOU becoming the Doctor.. the Heart Surgeon.. I been to the Work Shop lately.. and started a Project.. to rebuild that Work Shop.. it has been broken and abandoned for a Long time.. I just could Not work there any more.. for some reason I would see YOU.. even though YOU were never there.. there would be a Lot of pictures I would put on the walls.. that is before YOU left.. taking many pictures of YOU.. a lots of laugh.. lots of crying but more smiles On my face when YOU were there with Me.. I wanted to go back.. I started to miss you ever since I left because I kept on thinking of YOU.. I would go into the Home that I live.. in a small box.. I would put all of your letters you wrote Me.. When I was at the Orphan House.. when I felt the Most Hardest Place.. I felt cold and lonely when I was there.. One Night I when into the Closet and I saw the Small Box.. after a long day of work.. I pulled the small box Out and I would open the top of the Lid.. and I would sit on the Top of the Bed.. I would look at all of the Letters you wrote me when I was young.. and I started to read the Letters.. filled my eyes with Tears again.. I would go back when I was young at that age.. and I do remember when I received the Letter.. I would open it.. and it was from YOU.. and I just could Not believe that YOU would write back.. and It felt like the same way.. I started to feel my eyes.. I just couldn't breathe because it was YOU.. YOU are the One who put time to write.. it got to my Heart.. and I started to cry.. My Heart was broken.. and it kept on breaking but looking at the Letters.. I would read it few more times.. and I started to think about YOU at the Work Shop.. what If you would be back.. even though I knew that YOU would never come around.. but I kept on thinking.. YOU could just visit.. but if YOU walked into the Work Shop all Broken and Abandoned.. then I know that YOU will Not come around ever again.. because NO ONE knows what will happen next.. so I started to make a Plan.. to remodel.. and to re build that Building.. just in case One day.. some day soon you can come.. and YOU will know that it has never been broken down.. as I gathered some workers.. spend days.. spend weeks and into the months.. new paintings.. putting UP the fences.. and even started to go back into the garden.. planting new seeds to bring into the life.. after it was all completed.. and the work shop was back on business.. I went in to work again.. of course there was something missing as I started to work in that shop.. it was YOU.. it felt like I cannot never get YOU back.. since you left long ago.. How can I bring YOU back if YOU have already left.. I would look at the wall.. the Wall with Your Pictures.. many of the Pictures I would post to share.. as I would start to look at Your Pictures.. Just memories of YOU came flashing through my Mind.. I knew that if I wanted to continue to run this Business.. I needed to get Rid of My Heart.. I knew that only if My Heart goes.. I can work in this Work Shop without missing YOU so Much.. that is the Only way I knew that I can continue.. that is when I decided to go into the surgery.. that I wanted to let My Heart to go.. I asked for the Best Doctor.. the Heart Surgeon with the Best experience.. of course never thought that It would be YOU walking into this Room.. even though I want YOU to do the Surgery.. I just can't Lose YOU.. after I see YOU now.. and How well YOU are in Life.. I think I just can't let My Heart go.. and I am looking at YOU.. I do need My Heart to be replaced.. but what would happen if I don't love you any More.. I am sure Now you are doing good with another Man.. can YOU still do the Heart surgery.. Now the Person who is going to exchange with my Heart comes into the Room and sits on another Bed.. and I turn to look at the Person.. I just can't believe it.. the Man turns to look at me.. I am not sure if I know this Man but the Man looks at me.. He is the friend who has taken YOU away.. I am wondering.. why is this Man in the same bed.. He wants his Heart to be removed just Like me.. and I am wondering.. I don't want His Heart.. I rather keep My Heart.. He has a Broken Heart too.. and I look at YOU.. I am wondering.. what is going On and Now YOU are telling me.. the relationship has ended on Both.. and that YOU are single.. and I am thinking.. Am I suppose to be happy or suppose to be Sad.. are YOU sad.. is that WHY you have become a Heart Surgeon.. WHO has Not been loving YOU well.. YOU know that If YOU are removing all Kinds of Hearts.. is it because someone has broken YOUR HEART or are you breaking Hearts and switching Hearts to different People.. because I don't want Another Broken Heart.. can I have YOUR HEART instead.. How about YOU can do the surgery
Would say to YOU.. this was why I started to Love YOU.. you wrote when I was at the Most Lowest of the time of my Life and has fixed this Broken Heart by telling me all of this.. I been waiting for YOU.. but YOU never came.. the door was never locked because it is YOU who I been waiting for.. I would be working in the Flower Shop.. waiting if YOU would ever show UP.. but you would never come.. It broke my Heart because what If YOU would stop by.. even just for Once.. I was Not asking for a long time.. even just for few seconds.. it would been enough for Me.. but YOU never came.. working in the Flower Shop without YOU was the most difficult thing for Me because I would be waiting.. even though I knew deep in my Heart that YOU would never show UP.. just hoping that it would be you who would knock on the door.. asking for me to open that door in the Work Shop.. in that flower Work Shop.. I would cry many nights of thinking of YOU.. just remembering all of the memories we shared together in that Shop.. I would watch YOU with the camera.. lights flashes as YOU would take pictures of the Flowers.. asking me about how it grew.. the place where I would planted in the soil.. I would even take you to the spots.. back in the garden.. where YOU would see the flowers in full bloom.. matured and sprung UP for YOU to take a look.. YOU would smile.. I would watch YOU holding that camera in front.. as I would watch YOU looking through the camera Lens and taking pictures of the flowers back in the Garden.. I wanted to Hold YOU.. I wanted to Pull you closer to me.. around my arms I wanted to feel YOU inside.. but I would stop myself of getting closer to YOU.. I wanted to get close.. I wanted to walk and stand beside YOU.. just to feel for seconds.. How you would feel in my arms.. How would you breathe.. How about the sound of the beating of Your Heart.. can I hear it.. will my Heart also make the same sound of Your Heart.. I wanted to get close.. just to see how it would feel.. YOU in my arms.. I wanted you near.. I wanted you close.. I was so close because I would walk but I would stop to step back.. It hurts me because I wanted to feel YOU in my arms.. But I just could not get closer.. Because I knew that YOU would push me to say Back Off.. Just Now How it feels.. Just thinking about YOU.. brings so Much Joy and happiness.. I would smile a lot.. My Heart be moving in a way I just can't control.. my emotions just wants to pour Out to YOU.. I want to stop.. I can't control myself because It has been Hard lately.. Missing YOU is so Hard.. at the same Time.. it brings me a lot of tears.. that I can't stop myself crying.. I don't want to show YOU any more tears.. but It hurts to know that YOU don't want to come close.. so Far.. so Near.. so Close.. the distance between Us.. leaving me to Be hurt.. missing YOU all the time.. but I want to get close.. NO Matter How I feel.. as long as it is YOU.. I will always Love YOU.. don't ask me why do I keep on hurting myself but still loves YOU.. as I am sitting on the Chair.. I am looking at Your Picture.. it is YOU when YOU were with me at the Flower Shop.. holding a flower in Your Hand.. with such a Beautiful Smile.. I remember that it was the day I wanted to show YOU the New Flowers that has been reached the Full Bloom stage.. it was back in the Garden.. the Same camera you were using to take many pictures of the flowers.. I would ask YOU.. take one of the Flowers from the Bed in the back of this Garden.. I watched you lower yourself.. grabbed and pulled the Flower Out.. and telling me that it is this One.. that it is the Most Beautiful One.. Your Favorite and I do remember leading YOU back into the Flower Work Shop.. YOU were standing by the wall.. and Holding the flower in your Hand.. I would have the Camera in my hands.. My eye would look through the lens of the Camera.. I would see YOU.. my finger stopped at the Button.. because what if this be the last picture I could take from this Camera.. this Fear came all over me.. shaking and trembling from the Inside.. I stopped my finger to press.. YOU were wondering why I could not click the Button.. My Heart would skip.. trying to find if there is a Beat.. I would take a deep breathe and my finger presses the Button and the light switches and it takes the Picture of YOU.. when I put the Camera Down.. I am looking at the Wall.. in the Flower Work Shop.. I only see the wall.. I don't see YOU there.. and with me is the Same Picture.. it was the last time I took the picture of YOU because the Next day.. YOU told me that YOU are not going to work with me at the Flower Shop.. that YOU have find someone that YOU love.. and that YOU are going with Him.. and I felt my world turn upside down.. I felt that everything be crumbling.. I saw YOU leave as the Door closes behind me.. I would sit on the Floor.. I would cry Loud and wail More.. I just couldn't control these emotions when it is torn apart.. I would Beat with my hand on my Chest.. I would Hit it so Hard.. I just couldn't stop hitting my Chest.. wanting to Pull my Heart out.. It hurts me because all I see is YOU.. YOU leaving me behind and I am left alone at the Flower Work Shop.. everything began to fall apart.. I started to drink a lot.. heavy into drinking.. crash and burn.. falling apart and falling down.. I just don't wanted to get UP any more.. I just couldn't handle this Kind of Pain.. it was killing me from the Inside.. How can I erase this Pain that is eating me from the Inside.. How can I get rid of this Kind of Hellish Pain.. I just wanted to Die.. for years I felt this way.. I felt like I wanted to give UP.. but.. for some reason.. if I truly love YOU.. I know that I needs to get back UP and try to live.. try to live the best I can.. so that One day I am able to see YOU again and the Day I see YOU.. I will never let YOU GO.. I decided to go and get my Heart check.. if something is wrong with me.. is it My Heart who has the Problem.. or is it just Me.. I came to the Clinic.. just to check my Heart.. I feel so ill.. I feel so Sick.. because I been thinking about YOU too much lately.. I wanted to forget.. I wanted to erase YOU off my Mind so I called to make an Appointment.. so that I can get a Heart surgery.. and I been sitting down on this chair.. waiting for the Doctor to call my Name.. for the Doctor to see me.. I wanted the Doctor to Know that I want to get rid of this Heart.. I put my name on the List.. had many people waiting in the line sitting on the chairs.. the assistant calls My name to go into a room.. NOW.. I go into the Room.. waiting for the doctor.. and as I sit patiently waiting for the Doctor.. I am looking at your Picture.. Looking at YOU holding the flower in your hand.. standing by the wall.. Before I came to this Clinic Office.. I went over this Moring to the Flower Work Shop.. as I walked inside the Work Shop.. I would stand there alone.. LOOKING at the Wall where YOU would stand.. I would look at the empty Wall.. looking at the picture of YOU holding.. the same spot.. you were standing with a smile holding the flower.. the Last time I saw YOU is when I took this Picture.. it hurts Me more.. I would.. the Flower Work Shop was dark and I would be standing alone.. crying looking at the Picture of YOU.. which it was the last time YOU stood by this Wall.. and I just can't let YOU go.. WHY is it me who has to let it Go.. why is it YOU who has to hurt Me.. why can't I ever hurt you and I would look at the Wall.. where YOU would stand the last time and I would scream because my Heart.. It wanted to shatter into pieces.. WHY did YOU have to leave me for someone else.. WHY can't YOU ever know how much I love YOU.. why don't you see me.. WHY can't you see me as the Person who loves you the Most.. and I would again cry.. looking at the wall.. after looking at the Picture of YOU where YOU once stood by this wall.. I would fall to the ground.. and I just can't.. why can't I just let YOU GO.. it is killing me so Bad.. why can't I let YOU GO.. what is it about YOU holding unto me.. like a stronghold.. and I would cry loud.. wailing.. hitting my hand against my chest.. It hurts me just too much because I want to be loved by YOU.. why can't YOU see me for once.. HOW ABOUT ME.. you know that I can love YOU better.. YOU know that I can love YOU more.. I can even love you stronger.. just please give me a chance.. just one chance.. as I am waiting in the Room in the clinic Office.. I know that I may not live for Long.. because My Heart is broken.. It has been shattered into many little pieces.. YOU have broken my Heart.. If I can't fix my Heart.. what am I going to do with this Shattered of pieces broken Heart that is in me.. If I can't fix it.. Maybe the Doctor can help me to fix IT.. what if the Doctor can't fix my Heart.. I am going to ask the Doctor to go me a Surgery.. because what am I going to do with this Broken Shattered Heart.. I can at least donate it to someone else.. give me a New Heart.. someone else can take my Place.. can Have this Heart.. that someone else can Love YOU instead because I know that I can't.. I don't even know where YOU at so how can I love YOU when YOU are NO where to be found.. and I am lost somewhere.. and I would be sitting on this Chair.. LOOKING at the Picture of YOU.. I sit in silence just thinking of the Flower Work Shop.. I want to go back with YOU.. can YOU please go back with me to this Flower work Shop.. I want to live again.. I want to feel that I am alive again.. I want to breathe again because without YOU.. just look at me at this Point in my Life without YOU.. and as I am looking at the picture.. waiting for the doctor to come into this room.. I am looking at your Picture and speaking to the Picture.. the door Opens but it stops.. I am thinking.. maybe it is another patient who just came into the wrong room and I would open my Mouth.. as I am looking at the picture of YOU.
The door and when I open the door to that Flower Work shop and WHEN I open to see who it is.. I wanted to smile to see YOU there.. standing there.. just giving me even few seconds of your presences.. just to say I love YOU.. just to say I missed YOU.. or to say welcome back.. because I just can't let YOU GO.. Because I never stopped loving YOU.. even now I love you still.. I been waiting so that I can tell YOU how much I love YOU.. as I look up.. I hear the door closed.. and I am thinking.. this whole time the door was opened.. I wonder who it is who hear me speaking to Your Picture.. I wonder who it is.. and the door Opens.. my hand opens and the picture falls to the ground because it is YOU who is standing by the door.. That YOU are the Doctor.. My Doctor there.. Feeling alone and lonely.. I just wanted to be happy.. be filled with Love and Joy.. YOU came out of nowhere.. and YOU came to surprise me.. But gone like the Wind that I wanted to look for YOU.. I was just too young to do anything back Then.. But when I hit 18 years old.. I did leave that Orphan Home and started to travel Out.. and I started to wonder about YOU.. where can I find YOU.. where would YOU be.. please tell me.. I remember a Flower Shop was hiring.. and the Owner of the Flower shop started to show Me.. How to raise the Seeds and into flowers it became.. teaching me about the soils and water.. how deep to be planted.. and time and hour to water it.. I wanted to be the Best Flower shop in town.. so I would work day and Night until I made my own mark.. I started to look for YOU after.. When I saw Your Picture.. and Knew that YOU are the One.. I wanted you to be the Only One in my life.. so that I can Love YOU.. I can love you More and More.. the way I love these flowers.. watching from the smallest seeds and it grows and produces and Blooms.. the Most Beautiful Flowers are when YOU Love the Flowers from the Heart.. YOU care of its beings to see the Next to produce.. I fell in love with the Flower Shop and these Flowers.. But.. My Heart.. still was missing.. and I knew that I was missing YOU.. I wanted to be with YOU.. My friend would come to check on me.. He saw me very sad.. and Knowing My Heart.. I would speak of YOU.. even though it was years ago.. many years ago.. But I never shared about the Orphan HOME that I met you.. because I just did not want HIM to get involved searching for YOU.. How could I be with YOU.. How can a Lowly Person.. who is so poor and has Nothing in his Life.. How can I ask for YOU.. but ALL I can share is about Love.. just loving YOU.. How much.. I don't know how much.. But as much as I can with ALL my Heart.. that I love YOU.. He told me about a Young lady.. that Young lady is looking for a Man too.. And He told me that YOU were too sad as well.. When I saw Your Picture.. it was something like Are we meant to Be.. I was blown into pieces.. WHEN he took out the picture.. of YOU being YOUNG and YOU recently Picture.. I sat there.. taking a Deep breathe.. MY tears.. It just could Not hold back.. I had to share this Tears of Joy.. How long I wondered.. when will I see YOU again.. It has taken me so Long.. so long to find YOU.. My breathe was taken after.. and I told him about YOU.. the Orphan Home.. When I saw YOU.. I was very YOUNG.. losing my family broke me into pieces.. When I saw YOU.. I knew YOU were the One who can Heal what was broken inside of Me.. I wanted to be a Part of Your Life.. and Just to Love YOU.. I am Not sure why.. or How this Can Happen but it did.. and I looked at my Friend and He was too jaw dropping after.. I told Him.. I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to meet YOU again.. I can't help but fall in love with YOU again.. because I love YOU.. As I am looking at your Picture in the Work shop.. and just watching YOU go.. and I would ask.. WHY couldn't I stop you from Leaving.. If I know that I can love YOU more.. I should of told YOU Not to leave me.. But to ask YOU to stay.. I can't lose YOU twice.. I have lost YOU once when I was young.. But of course I just couldn't do anything back then.. But Now.. I know that I can't let YOU go.. because I love YOU.. I know that I love YOU more Now then Ever.. I just can't believe YOU walked Out when I had the chance to Stop YOU.. if I truly love YOU.. I know I can do something.. I know that I can tell YOU.. Please don't go.. stay with me inside.. I can make YOU more happier than ever.. I know you be asking.. How can I make YOU more happier.. If YOU love Me.. If Your Own Heart loves Me.. I know YOU have the answers because only Your Heart knows the truth.. if YOU really felt something for me.. and It is Not friendship or brotherly love.. or Not just like me.. Only YOU KNOW what is IN your Heart.. I wrote a Note in the back.. saying I love YOU.. ever since I saw YOU the first Time.. I was truly amazed and truly blown to pieces.. there is something about YOU.. I just can't forget.. because I loved you then.. I love YOU now.. and I will always Love you forever.. I guess YOU have say the Note I wrote on the back.. I walked to the center of the Floor.. I lowered.. putting all the Flowers laid on floor back into the Box.. I put the Lid on the TOP.. I know that someone will come to get the Boxes of Flowers.. as I am holding the Box in my hands.. YOU have always been the One.. I am not sure what made me felt something in my Heart.. I am not sure what it was.. but it was the First time.. I put my hand on my Chest.. I started to hear a Beat.. a Beat that was getting Louder and Louder inside.. telling me.. It must be YOU.. of course.. I know that YOU are so Beautiful.. the Most Beautiful Flower.. even more beautiful than any of these flowers in the Work Shop.. that it is Not only me who loves YOU.. that Another MAN do love you too.. YOU must be truly amazing.. Amazing to be loved.. who does Not want to love YOU anyways.. But.. I never stopped loving YOU.. I started to think about the Friend.. I know he never shares anything.. so this Must be someone so Special.. I know that YOU are truly special.. because I know that My Heart loves YOU.. it does not matter because I know I love YOU.. Please come back.. Please come to this Work Shop.. Come so that I can tell YOU.. how much I love YOU because I just do.. as I put my hand on my Chest.. I can feel my Heart beat.. it is beating fast.. I close both of my eyes.. and I can go back to the TIME when we first met.. YOU are my Angel.. YOU are my Sunshine.. YOU are my everything that a MAN can ask for because YOU are the real deal that NO MAN can ask FOR.. you are just everything.. my forever Love to me.. As I am standing on the Line.. waiting for a Cup of Coffee.. I turn my head to look back.. I see someone sitting on the chair by the Window.. There you were.. sitting down.. having a COFFEE.. and reading a BOOK.. I love YOU.. these are the Only words I can tell YOU.. But.. WHY is is so hard to Love YOU.. I wish that Loving You could be more easier.. but.. It seems like things are getting more harder.. Please tell me that I can Love YOU.. how am I suppose to Love YOU.. when YOU are so Far.. as I am standing in the Line.. I remember another Friend of Mine told me that YOU would be here.. and ALL I could do is Look for YOU.. as I am waiting to get a Cup of Coffee.. I pull Out Your Picture in the back Pocket.. as I am looking at Your Picture.. I am asking.. WHY are YOU so Beautiful.. I have been waiting for a Long time for a Woman Like you to be In my Life.. All my life.. I waited.. and waited until Another Friend of Mine telling me.. If I wanted to meet you.. and Showed me the Picture of YOU.. I was blown into Pieces as he gave me the Picture.. it was like a Month before the Meeting time.. and I would be wondering about YOU.. of course looking at Your picture is the Only thing I can do.. But.. Meeting YOU and being a Part.. it is something that I would never thought would ever happen to me.. I would be laying on the bed.. Just wondering How you would be like when I saw YOU and meeting you face to face.. as person to person.. Just could not get enough of patiently waiting for The Day.. it seems a lot longer when YOU are wondering.. and just pondering the day.. only I could do is look at your Picture.. and wishing for the Day to come sooner.. the clock would tick.. the time on the clock would go by so slow because I wanted to meet YOU much sooner.. the Other friend told me to be patient because No matter how Long I waited.. the Time would come anyways.. of course the Other Friend was right.. Time did come and Now.. I am waiting on this Line.. so many people enjoy drinking a Cup of Coffee.. as I would look around.. I am looking at the Picture of You.. if YOU came.. I would turn my head to look back.. There were YOU.. YOU were by the Window.. and I would LOOK at the Picture of YOU.. and I saw YOU.. reading a Book.. as I was getting closer.. and the person in front of me gets a coffee and the person leaves.. It was My Turn.. and I even got me a Cup of Coffee.. As I turn.. I saw YOU.. by the window.. and YOU were smiling reading a book
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Oink Oink.. I am missing you so much right Now.. sometimes I just don't know what to do.. it feels like the Chair.. Your Chair which you have left behind here with Me.. My Heart is dying inside because I want to see you Now.. and of course.. I want to see you Sit on the empty Chair.. Only just for One Day if you really have to Go.. if you really have to Leave me Behind and I be staring at this Empty Chair.. as I would LOOK at the Phone.. and I would LOOK at the camera attached on this Phone.. I would ZOOM the Lens to LOOK at your Chair.. the Empty Chair that YOU have left behind here with Me.. I would Click the Button to take a Picture of Your Chair.. the Empty Chair and send it to Your Phone.. and letting you Know HOW I am feeling about this Situation.. that YOU are truly Hurting Me.. that I always wanted you close to Me and for some reason at this Very Night.. I am truly Missing YOU.. It feels so AWEFUL because I know that Deep in my Heart I truly Love YOU.. I wish that YOU knew.. I wish that YOU can truly understand my Heart.. the More I look at your Chair.. the Empty Chair in the House in the DINING ROOM.. the More I keep on thinking of YOU.. and last Night.. I do remember walking Out at Night.. and I was holding the Bottle in my Hands.. and I saw this Bridge.. It was a Big Bridge when I got there.. and drinking about a whole Bottle of Whiskey and I walking across this Big Bridge.. and I am crying.. Just can't help it because it was hurting me because YOU did Not want to come back HOME to me.. I been waiting for you and waiting over and over and wanting to see you again.. but such the TIME is not my friend.. would not help me to see YOU.. the More I wanted to see YOU.. the delay of your COMING kept on hurting Me.. that I just could Not take it any more.. what DO I do to let YOU know that I am waiting.. what do I must do for YOU to see my Heart of HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. and I would tell YOU.. as I took a picture on the Phone with the camera attached and I would send the Picture of the CHAIR.. your EMPTY CHAIR you have left with me and wrote YOU a Message about what I was feeling.. what I was dealing.. I wrote the Message saying.. I miss YOU.. look at the Chair.. look at the Picture that I have send to YOU and It is your Chair.. now I see that sitting on the Dining ROOM.. the Chair looks so empty without YOU.. it is waiting for YOU just like I have been patiently waiting for YOU to come back HOME to me.. Please tell me that I am still allowed to wait for YOU.. NO MATTER how much time flies.. can YOU please promise me one thing.. YOU can take as long as YOU want away from Me but Please tell me that YOU will be coming back HOME to me.. that I am NOT waiting for you for Nothing.. LOOK at the Picture.. Please when YOU see a Picture going to Your SCREEN and you see the Chair being Empty.. and I am NOT sitting on your Chair because ALL along it is YOUR CHAIR.. which when YOU LOOK at the picture I send to YOU.. it means this is HOW MY HEART feels.. that I am feeling so empty inside without you being here with me.. I can't even wake UP right any more.. it becomes more and more dreadful to get UP because when I walk OUT of the ROOM and I look across toward the dining ROOM and LOOKING straight is your CHAIR.. your EMPTY CHAIR.. I remember you would sit there.. even before I would get UP.. I would open the door of the room where I would sleep in my bed and I would remember when I look across and SEE you there sitting on that Chair.. your Chair and I would smile looking at YOU.. how you be holding that Big Teddy Bear and wave your Hands with it and letting me know you are doing GOOD.. and I would think of those days where I would smile the Most because YOU my Love just being there meant everything.. NOW I Know that it is the most smallest.. the Little things YOU showed Me that I would smile the Most and make me feel the Loved the Most.. just your Presences.. just you being YOU and being just there to know I was there for YOU.. and Now.. knowing that I only can SEE.. when I open the ROOM where I would sleep in the Bed.. NOW it is nothing but the Best of the TIMES of having the Memories.. if I knew that this is all going to be Nothing but Memories.. I should of treated you GOOD.. I should of treated you better.. Now I am regretting everything because If I can only turn the Clock back.. I would now do Better and treat you must better Now.. it is so Hard.. it is so difficult because NOW I know that I really Love YOU.. I knew that I did love you then but NOT as much as I do Now and if you were to give me another Chance.. just One more chance I am asking of YOU.. asking YOU to please re consider my request.. it is because I miss YOU NOW and I love you more than yesterday and today I know that I can love you more.. I can love you better than before.. I am begging you please come back Home.. I just could Not take it.. last Night.. I send you the Picture of Your Chair.. the Empty Chair.. If I can't toss the Chair into the trash.. How about I trash myself into the Waters.. I would look up this Big Bridge and I would drink the Hard whiskey.. drank the whole Big Bottle.. I be missing YOU so crazy I just did Not care any more.. so I would drive to the Big Bridge.. and I would walk across the Big Bridge.. as I would stop and I turn and walk.. there is this Bar and when YOU LOOK down on this Big Bridge.. I can see the Ocean waters flowing under this BIG BRIDGE.. It was late deep into the Night and I saw the MOON appear before Me.. I was thinking about jumping over the Bar and into the Waters because I just could Not take this Pain anymore of Missing YOU.. I would tell YOU many times and sending you Messages on the Phone.. YOU would Never reply back to Me.. and I would LOOK at the Phone.. and I would LOOK UP and take the Picture of this Big Bridge and I would send it to YOU.. letting you know what I was going to do because YOU know that I love YOU.. How much More do I must say to YOU that I love YOU and that I miss YOU just too much.. and I would LOOK over and right I was about to JUMP over this Big Bridge I hear a BEEPING sound on the Phone.. means I received the Message and It was from YOU.. and I would LOOK at the screen of the Phone.. and I wrote on the Message on the Phone.. I just can't take it anymore because I am in love with YOU.. that I love YOU so Much.. that I love you so Much that I know that Some one has to go.. at least let me GO.. and I will go and I send it to YOU on the Phone.. and YOU would reply Back.. which I stood there.. tears in my eyes.. is this How much I love YOU.. is this the way I must tell YOU that I love YOU.. why can't you see me through without this Kind of Pain that I am going Through.. If I can only JUMP over this Big Bridge I know that I can let YOU go and I can just go some where I don't have to Love YOU anymore.. But all I would hear is Beeping Noises and I know that YOU are sending the Messages to Me.. and I am LOOKING at the Phone screen just standing still crying.. my tears just keeps on running down from my eyes.. and I would type on the Message about the Chair.. about Your Chair.. how empty that Chair is without YOU being here with Me.. why do YOU have to hurt me like this.. if YOU are going to send me messages Now.. why put me through so Much pain like this.. this Ache.. that It is HURTING me more and More.. I am already hurting because I can't be with YOU.. why add more Pain into this what I am going through.. why can Love be Fair.. why can't Love be more real just the way I always is to YOU.. to telling YOU that I love YOU.. as I would walk the Other way from the Big Bridge.. I did Not jump Over because I heard from YOU.. after hearing from you through the Messages you would sent Me.. I felt better that YOU are doing fine.. that is ALL I needed to hear from YOU.. that everything is good on your side.. even though for Me.. I am taking it very Hard right Now.. just missing YOU.. missing you to be in my arms.. Just YOU sitting on your Chair.. even though it is Empty right Now.. I started to Hope and believe that YOU are coming Home soon.. even though I may Not know when or How long you want to be alone.. But I would stand LOOKING UP.. LOOKING at the MOON.. only thing I can say to the MOON.. because I can't be there with YOU.. I can't even protect YOU and can't even defend YOU.. I know that the MOON who is watching YOU knows who you are and will be the ONE to be there for YOU.. even though I wish that it be Me instead.. I want to be the One to be there for YOU.. to show YOU and to tell YOU that I love YOU and I miss you so Much.. wondering when YOU are coming Home back to Me.. as I came Home and I would walk toward the Dining Room.. I would stand beside your Chair.. the Empty Chair that YOU use to sit.. I do remember there would be a Knock at the DOOR and it be the Time you be coming Home.. I would open the Door knowing that IT is you who came.. I would PULL your Chair.. the Empty Chair Out so that You can just go and sit.. I would always walk on the Other side.. and stand beside the Chair I would sit.. I would LOOK at you and I would Smile.. putting my Phone UP and Letting you see the Camera Lens.. I would ask YOU if I can take a Picture of YOU sitting on your Chair.. and YOU would smile.. and I would say.. WHY are you so Beautiful.. Please tell me why do you look so GOOD.. that I know I must take a Picture of YOU.. and I would see you SMILE as I would LOOK at the Button on the screen of the Phone and touch to click It.. I would walk over to YOU to show you the screen which it has taken a Picture of YOU and show YOU.. that this is what my Eyes always sees when YOU come HOME and when YOU would come to sit in your
MAH MAH.. I am looking at the MOON rise UP before Me.. In my right hand Holding the strings of Bow and on the floor lays some arrows.. I am standing alone in the training Ground.. Looking down is the Target with the red Dot.. my eyes.. full of tears.. and I do remember.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. It is YOU who has been there for Me.. there is NO ONE who gave me this Kind of a chance.. to Live for is to Die in the End but to Love YOU.. I have Never lost my Heart of always Loving YOU.. MAH MAH.. I do remember.. when I first came to this Training Ground.. the Target that is set before Me.. How much I had to SHOOT these Arrows before the Testing and the exams that came before Me.. and How much I had to stand here.. through the Night.. Long Nights I had to stand still LOOKING at the rising of the MOON that was there LOOKING down on Me.. and I would LOOK down.. grabbing a Arrow.. and the END of the Arrow.. I would put on the Strings of this BOW and I would stretch it Far.. ONE eye closes and Aiming at the TARGET.. LOOKING at the Red DOT.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I will do my best to Fight in this Battle to WIN this war for YOU.. this is the reason WHY I came to this Palace.. this is the real Reason WHY I am here to breathe and to LIVE again.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. it is because of YOU and it is because I want to say HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. I wish that I can SEE YOUR HEART HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. this ARROW.. means my Love to SHOOT into your Heart to say that I love YOU.. MY QUEEN.. I am breathing Hard.. inhale to exhale and my hand releases the strings of the Bow and I see the ARROW flies fast and IT HITS the red Dot.. I would raise UP my Right Hand.. MAN SAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. without YOU open the DOOR for me to come into the training GOUND.. How can I even come with the Strings of Bow and arrows to Practice shooting.. NOW it hits right on the Red DOT because I had to practice through Many Nights long ago when I first came into this training GROUND.. My hand grabs another Arrow.. on the end of the Strings of the BOW.. pulling the Arrow back and I would close One eye to LOOK and to AIM and my hand releases the strings of the Bow.. the second ARROW flies and It hits right on the red DOT again.. My Heart.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I remember YOU were sitting on the Horse.. Before the Test.. before the final Exam for the Military Arts.. I was standing here alone in the Cold.. Watching the FULL MOON set before Me.. I would turn to LOOK back and I saw YOU there.. sitting on the Horse in the white Dress.. LOOKING at me alone.. I was in this same position.. but I would LOOK UP and I started to feel thankful and just could Not let YOU DOWN.. I would say.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I know that YOU gave me this chance.. YOU have opened this DOOR FOR ME because I truly believe you do believe in something that I have even though I did Not know why.. I would turn to LOOK back and I saw YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH and I turn.. and YOU would smile.. My hand was bleeding because I been practicing shooting these arrows.. COULD NOT even sleep through the Night because I knew that the FINAL exam was coming up the Next Day.. and I had to get In some How.. I had to pass and show YOU.. your TIME means everything to Me.. giving me this Chance means everything to Me.. as I am standing here Out alone.. My Heart has never changed.. even though the Battle would be fierce and I can't promise YOU that I can come back safe.. I can't make you any promises because I have chosen this path that Even I can die in the War.. in this Battle.. many Men fights for their Country and many will lose their Lives for their Country and I am NO different.. but I can FIGHT and defend and to Protect YOU is this.. I can stay through the Night.. and Practice shooting until it reaches the new Day.. the Battle.. the War will start very soon.. and I am here trying to prepare to Fight in the Battle for YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. for your Country and for the People YOU love and for the Little SONS for their UP bringing.. and I would pick UP the third Arrow and I would put the end of the arrow on the Strings of the BOW and PULLS it Back.. CLOSE one Eye and I aim toward the RED DOT and my hand Lets go of the strings and It flies and It hits on the red DOT the third TIME.. I would raise UP my RIGHT ARM.. holding the BOW in my Hand.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MAN SAE for giving me this Chance to fight in the war.. I will do MY BEST to WIN this War for YOU.. and I turn to Look back.. There is someone walking.. and Has a GOLD ARMOR and has something in His Hand.. I have never seen any one here wearing a GOLD ARMOR.. I am wearing a silver Armor and the Men all wear the silver.. the MAN comes closer and seems like He is a General and stands still.. I would turn to LOOK at this man.. and I know something is Not right.. and I have the Sword in my hand and He looks at me and Pulls Out the Sword.. and the Letter drops on the Floor.. I would yell Out Loud.. Protect the QUEEN.. Protect HWANG WOO MAH MAH and I would jump In the air and I would swing the Sword in my hand and It hits His blade.. I would go back as the Man swings the Sword at me and He misses the swing.. I would run UP and I would swing the Sword forward and on the Side and I would JUMP UP and Kick.. and back kick hitting the GOLD Armor.. I would hear.. the Seven Friends of MINE are all running coming to the training CAMP.. and I would tell the Seven friend of MINE.. Protect the QUEEN.. Protect HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would jump and do a sick Kick and Jump back Kick and Hit the man on the Face.. Protect the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. ENEMY is here and I see YOU.. the QUEEN on the HORSE riding and More Men.. the Seven Generals all comes with the 2nd top rank and the 1st top rank.. and his seven generals all comes to surround.. and I AM looking at HIM.. the Man swings the Sword at me and I would go back.. and Block with the edge of the Sword and I would do a front slide kick and Jump back Kick and swing the sword to Bring the man to the Ground.. and I place the Sword on the Neck.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what shall I do with this man.. and there are two men running from the Gates and they are Guards of the gates and two of them falls and Kneels.. two knees down.. arm stretch forward and Heads looks to the ground.. and I see you sitting on the Horse and the horse get closer.. the CLOSE friend of mine grabs the Letters.. HE falls before YOU.. TWO KNEES down.. arm stretches forward and Head LOOKS DOWN and your SWORD points at him.. He reads the letter.. this man dies and the WAR will begin and I would LOOK UP.. the QUEEN has showed Mercy.. Not to kill the MEN.. so I would pull away the sword from his Neck.. the man with the GOLD armor get up and He walks off.. and I look UP at YOU sitting at the Horse and I fall before YOU.. My two knees goes down.. Arm stretched forward and my Head looks on the ground.. YOU point your Sword at Me and I would say.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. How can you show mercy.. He came to fight and to KILL.. he wanted to rage War and I would think about How you have showed Mercy ON me and I would say.. Of course.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Your Kindness.. your Big Heart is the reason why I am allowed to be here today.. because YOU are so Gentle and so Kind in a way even the Enemy goes free when He came to fight with the SWORD.. But I have NO words to say.. because I do also remember that I came from the Garden.. and How you showed Mercy for all People who lived in that Garden rebuilding their Lives to Live once again.. and even when I was standing at the training Ground.. and I was looking at the Target.. LOOKING at the red DOT.. holding the strings of BOW in my right Hand and thinking about the Letter.. I was being rejected by the Guard who was sitting at the table.. telling me that I can't go IN.. and How you stood to check who was making all these commotions and YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH looked at the Letter and LOOKED at me.. ad YOU COULD of told me that I could NOT come in and knowing who I was.. I can't forget that day and tonight.. before this enemy came to fight Me.. I was standing at the training Ground.. LOOKING at the Practices I had to take before the FINAL exam for the Military Arts and swordsmanship.. if YOU did not take my Word or did not take the Letter when I was by the fences of the training Ground.. How was it for me to be here this very Day and I would think about Your Mercy.. It reminds me because I am not suppose to be here today.. my father told me to Promise HIM not to go to the Training Ground because that is the Gates to Death.. that so Many people will Die when you enter that Gates and Yes.. I have chosen this Path.. a Path where I know that Any Minute I can die but.. I wanted to tell YOU this.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. this is where my Life begins.. this is where everything has changed in my Life forever because it made me realize HOW MUCH I Love YOU.. when I love you this Much.. it has to mean something More than just living this Life right.. because I have never given UP loving YOU.. I am NOT afraid to Die.. because I know that at least before I do DIE.. I get to tell YOU one more day.. or even it can be the last Day that How much I love YOU.. that means so much more to me than to Live in fear for the rest of Life.. but I have chosen this because I love YOU.. I cannot live without you HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. NOW.. I have come so DEEP.. I have come just too Far to ever walk away or walk off.. until my last breathe I take.. I know that I will hold you Dear into my
MAH MAH.. Because I open my eyes with the thinking of YOU and just loving YOU to death.. that is the only way I was about to walk into the training Ground and LOOKING at the red DOT.. Looking at the target.. holding the Strings of BOW in the right hand with ARROWS laying all over the floor.. thinking about YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. thinking about I needs to Pass.. I needs to get In some How so that I can Love YOU more.. that I can One day tell YOU this Heart of MINE.. How much I really Love YOU.. that what it takes for a Man to have this kind of drive and determination for the day to come near to tell YOU when you are CLOSE that I love YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I always wanted to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. that is the reason why I left the Garden and came to the training ground.. just to see YOU.. MY QUEEN.. that to tell YOU what is deep in my Heart.. but I had to prove myself by showing YOU.. I love YOU.. and to tell you these words are NOT going to be easy at all but Now.. since I have come this much.. I wanted to say to YOU.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I love YOU.. the two men who was guarding at the Gates.. I would pull the Sword OUT.. the two men was sleeping on their Post.. I know How it was Like to be at the Post.. guarding the Gates.. NO ONE sleeps on their DUTY.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what shall I do with these two Men.. and I would see that.. the QUEEN shows Mercy again and let the two Men lives.. my Heart.. YOU are just too kind.. but it is because they did Not do their Duties Right.. this Happen HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. and ALL the Men who has gathered together.. falls to the ground.. two knees on the ground.. Arms stretches Forward and Heads all LOOK to the ground.. and I see you.. the QUEEN raising UP the Sword on your RIGHT ARM.. and I know it is time to GO and Fight.. Fight to Protect YOU.. Fight to defend this COUNTRY and fight for behalf of your People because YOU are HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the QUEEN.. I am thinking about the Meeting Board.. and watching the Moon that has come UP before me.. the Black smiths are all Hitting the swords with a Stone Hammer and I am waiting for My sword to be more sharpen and More stronger.. as the Master of the Black Smith is inside the place where He is at work.. and with the Seven Friends of Mine standing at the back of the training Ground.. waiting for the Swords.. and the 2nd Top rank General with the seven Generals are all with Me as they are too waiting for their Swords as many Black Smiths are using the Stone Hammers.. I can hear the hammers hitting Hard on the Blades of the swords as I am waiting for the Next Great War that is coming.. as I cannot believe that the 2nd top rank General has joined me as friends.. I have turned to LOOK up at the Moon and I am thinking of YOU.. the Queen.. who has approved the United Hands to work together.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. you know that It has been since Long.. I have been loving YOU.. and as I am Looking UP at the Moon.. I just can't stop with a big Smile.. and I would think Back.. when I saw YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. My Father would be pulling the horse.. and I would be sitting on the TOP of the Horse.. Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would be begging my Father.. Just to take me Once to see YOU.. and I would be looking at the Art Sketch paper.. my arms around the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would Not eat.. I would Not sleep.. but in the Little ROOM.. after the Garden was restored and was Build UP.. My Father would take a LOOK at me.. finally I would collapse and Fell into a Deep Sleep.. and I did Not wake UP for three days and slept.. I remember my Father would be by my side.. he knew if He did Not take me to see YOU.. I might end UP dead Like my Mother.. when I woke UP finally.. my Father in tears looks at Me.. almost lost me there.. and told me that He was going to see YOU.. I just could not stop.. but My Heart kept on beating Louder and Louder as I grew to Love YOU.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I don't know why but I just can't stop.. my Heart just can't stop Loving YOU.. Please tell me why.. what have you done to Me.. to My Heart.. and My Father.. with the Horse.. He carried Me and Put on the Back of the Horse.. I am thinking.. am I dreaming.. please don't wake Me UP.. if I am dreaming.. if I shall Never wake UP in the Dream.. Please.. I just don't want to get UP.. as My Father would be pulling on the ropes of the Horse and I am sitting on the TOP of the Horse.. I remember my Father asking me.. WHY do I love the QUEEN so Much.. WHY do I love HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what Makes you so Special that even I could Not eat for many days.. and even went into a deep coma for few days and been begging my Father for a long time that I must go to see YOU.. and what if I get caught by the Law.. which a servant Boy cannot Love a Royal BLOOD LINE.. that I can be put into death.. it can cost my own Life.. isn't my Life more precious than to Love and I would be sitting on the Top of the Horse as my Father would be asking me these things.. I would say.. I only live Once.. and I will just die if it means to Die.. but to Love is just Once in a Life time.. I can't just love anyone.. must be because I know that I have a BIG HEART.. even though I may be so small.. may be nothing.. has NO NAME.. be a slave Boy.. to LOVE is to love the QUEEN.. if my Heart can only love the QUEEN and NO ONE else and even it means my Life is on the Line.. I don't care what happens to Me.. even I went into Coma.. and does Not that tell YOU enough.. that I can only Love Once and when I love.. I want to love so Big that It be impossible and for Other MEN to say.. that is HOW a Real MAN should Love.. to Love His ONE TRUE QUEEN.. and My Father stops.. and He turns to LOOK back at me.. and he smiles.. but pauses because my Grandfather was close to the King.. which is Your Father.. PEH HA who just passed away.. Must mean something there.. He was the TOP COMMANDER.. to the Highest.. the Chief Commander He was is what my Father would say.. Must be something that I am connected to HIM because My Father never dreamed anything but just to be a Head of the servant.. and I am nothing like my Father.. I want to love My QUEEN.. I want to love my HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and when I put my mind and Heart into something that means something Real and BIG.. I will Never give UP.. until my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH sees me and believes that I may be so small what Others may be thinking.. but My Heart.. my Dreams and VISIONS are much more greater and in a SUCH HIGHER PLACE.. and My Father looks at me.. and asks.. what if I die because of this.. am I not afraid.. am I not scared and I would tell him.. if I was afraid or too scared.. I would never tried it in the first Place.. I would of never started something that I just could not finished.. I believe in Love.. and My Heart is very BIG even though I am a small person.. I am so small but my Heart and my Vision.. my Dreams of.. I will never stop until I know that my QUEEN.. which is YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH knows it the best in your Heart.. I don't care what anyone says.. but It has never stopped me to come this very far and still I have so much more to go.. and my Father laughs Out Loud and He pulls on the strings of the Horse and He begins to walk as he pulls the strings of the Horse. I am siting on the Back of the Horse.. Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I see the MOON appear before me.. I see the twinkles of the stars across the Sky and I am smiling as I am looking at the Art sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU and I would say.. MY QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am coming to YOU.. I will see you soon.. it takes few days to arrive to the Palace and My Father shows the Card that HE is the Head of the Servant.. the Guards by the gate opens.. and He walks while pulling on the Strings of the Horse and He goes to the training Ground.. I am looking from a distance.. and I see you standing there.. the Chief Generals with the Commanders.. even the Chief Commander is there watching YOU Practice.. I am seeing YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. as my Father keeps on walking ahead pulling on the strings of the Horse and gets closer and closer.. and He stops.. bows HIS Head to you.. and I see you Looking UP.. I am sitting on the top of the Horse.. in my hands is the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing picture of YOU.. when I see YOU holding the Bow.. in one hand.. the Other is the Arrow.. My Heart.. WHY does it keep on beating.. My Heart.. looking at you closer.. I can't believe that I am seeing YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. it has been a long time.. after YOU came to rebuild the garden.. few months has gone by.. maybe it could been years.. I really missed YOU.. I wish that I could tell YOU this.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that I could not sleep for days.. I started Not to eat.. missing YOU has been so Hard lately.. and I remember one early Morning.. after I would beg my father.. asking him to take me to YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and my father would Not listen.. telling me NO.. that I should never Love YOU.. I just could not handle this Pain of missing YOU.. I started to starve myself to death.. maybe when I am dead and gone.. he can finally see how much I loved YOU.. anyways I just could Not live with this Pain of keep on missing YOU.. my Heart kept on aching and breaking.. I would sit in the Little ROOM.. I even asked my Father again because I wanted to say something to My QUEEN.. to my HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I had NO little ROOM.. I had No shelter to put over my Head.. I had to sleep outside or at
MAH MAH.. Friend's house.. felt like a Homeless Poor Boy.. but now I had a Little ROOM that I can put my Head over.. can sleep.. and I would hear my father telling me NO NO NO.. it is just too dangerous for me to get close to YOU.. and he did not want to see his son dying before his eyes but I am already dying.. I feel like I am going to die if I don't see YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. and One early Morning.. I would had two full buckets of water walking back to the Home.. and I fell on the ground.. some one saw me laying on the road and knew who I was.. knew my father and called him to get me.. the doctor looks at me while I was in the coma.. because I did Not sleep for days and did not bother to eat for few days either.. I just did Not want to live any more.. missing YOU drives me crazy.. it really kills me instead and the doctor asks my father.. do I love any one.. because the doctor knew the cause of this Pain.. this suffering came because my Heart was aching inside.. of course my father did Not say WHO I loved or was loving.. but knew this is because of YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. it is because I never stopped loving YOU since the day I first saw YOU.. ever since I met you at the Garden.. and How you came to visit and you heard about this Garden.. the first time I saw YOU.. you were sitting On the TOP of the Horse.. but had a large gathering of people surrounded you.. I came here sitting on the Top of the Horse.. only One person who brought me over is my Father.. who serves YOU as the Head servant.. I know that I have put my father through many pains.. but I am suffering too.. for loving YOU I had to cross many rivers.. looking at many oceans.. through the travel of the feet.. even getting this Horse Back ride.. but My father knows now that I love you just too much that he does Not want me to give UP.. my father told me when the doctor came to see me.. He told me because my Heart was suffering.. in so much pain of missing YOU.. as I would look at you holding the Bow in your hand.. the Other is the arrow.. and YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH would turn the head looking at the Target.. I don't know why I am here.. but I wanted to see YOU.. I missed YOU so Much my QUEEN.. it took many many days to come here.. and did Not eat much coming.. putting my father through so much pain.. of course I feel so bad but.. I knew If I can't see YOU.. I rather die.. I made that choice to die.. when My Father said NO.. and kept on telling me NO.. I could Not see YOU.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I can't see YOU.. I made a CHOICE that I am going to end my Life.. I just could not eat.. I would be looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU.. I could not sleep.. this pain inside.. this Pain in my Heart.. this Ache kept on coming UP to me because I wanted to see YOU.. I wanted to get close to YOU but How.. I knew if I only begged.. my father would say No.. if I die.. then He will know that I love YOU.. that is when I knew.. I really loved YOU this much that NOW I am here on the back of this HORSE with him.. as I would watch YOU looking at the Target on the training Ground.. it was at the back of it.. the Black smiths are behind the generals and commanders.. behind the Chief Commander.. and I am looking at YOU.. as YOU would PULL back the strings of the Bow with the back of the arrow and YOU would aim and hand releases.. I see the arrow goes fly and It hits right on the Red Dot.. the Guard by the Target stands and waves the White Flag.. shouting Out BULLS EYE.. and I would look at YOU.. even though YOU are my QUEEN.. you are also trained to be a fighter.. I would hear the Chief Commander shouting Out Loud and Clear.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to my QUEEN.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. all of the military soldiers would shout Out.. MANSAE.. HOORAY to the QUEEN.. MANSAE to HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOU are wondering why do I love YOU so Much.. it has nothing to do with Me.. but it is because YOU are my True QUEEN.. because I know that YOU are the real HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and there is NO ONE who can take your place in my Heart but YOU.. I knew when I first saw YOU.. it came out of you being a real Princess.. CONG JU NIM.. and How you flourish to become the CROWN PRINCESS.. then when I saw the poor People.. people from the Garden who came.. from far distances.. long distances they have traveled to the Palace.. just to see you and always came before the King.. PEH HA.. asking Your Father for YOU to be the Next Ruler in Line.. they have come from such a far long place.. just to talk to the King.. that the People.. they wanted YOU to take HIS PLACE as the RULER.. when I saw That.. before even this would ever happened.. I knew when you came to the Garden and to rebuild the Garden into New Homes for the People.. I wanted to join and be a Part of.. serving and protecting the Nation YOU are going to build for the future.. I knew YOU were chosen to be the QUEEN.. MY HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. the real TRUE QUEEN.. I see YOU sitting on the King's Throne Chair.. and YOU stand UP.. pointing the Sword at the 1st top General and in the Outer court.. behind is a Place where YOU spar.. and I am looking at YOU.. Your Sword Points at me.. and I am wondering what does this Means.. and I turn to Look at YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. and I would go down on two Knees.. My arms stretch forward.. and My Head LOOKING at the Ground.. YOU point the King's Sword at Me giving me the Permission to speak.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. what does this Means.. WHY are you pointing the Sword to Me and the 1st Top general.. and there is the Messenger in the Back.. and I see YOU pointing your Sword at the Message at the back to Speak.. and the Messenger who has the scroll unfolds and shares about what is Going On.. the Enemies of the War is drawing Near and the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH wants me to challenge to Fight the 1st Top General.. and WHO WINS will take that Seat.. and I turn to Face YOU.. and my Head looks down to the Ground.. Your Sword Points at me to speak and I would say.. HOW can I fight the Best.. I am truly UNWORTHY to fight the TOP GENERAL.. I have NO training of Wars in combat.. this General wins battles at Wars and has helped this Nation.. I have heard that HE can KILL many armies with the Sword.. and I am Not much of that experienced of wars.. ONLY thing that I am good at right now is Loving YOU as My QUEEN.. the QUEEN of my Heart.. and I see YOU still pointing that sword and Pointing that Sword back to the TOP.. the 1st General.. and I would hear.. the Seven friends of Mine all comes behind Me.. two knees on the ground.. arms stretch forward and Heads looks to the Ground.. Please.. I can't fight the first.. the TOP General.. and I see YOUR sword still Pointing.. and It seems like the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH is Not having it at all.. and I see you stepping down the Steps to the Ground.. and the Sword on my Neck.. and I would say.. if you need to Cut me.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Please do so.. it is better for me to DIE by that sword.. I rather Die by your Sword because the Sword belongs to the ONE WHO I Love the Most.. if YOU would LIKE to end my Life right here.. Please so it Fast and Quick MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would lift UP my head and close Both eyes.. and I wanted to see you strike my down with the edge of the Sword.. I be the Most Happiest to even die by that sword because YOU KNOW that I am dead by the ONE WHO I love the Most.. I would watch the 2nd Top General and He comes behind the Seven friends of mine and two knees to the Ground.. arms stretch forward and Head looking to the ground with the Seven Generals who walks with HIM.. they all goes.. two knees hit the Ground.. arms stretch forwards and Heads all LOOK to the Ground and shouts together.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. SHOW MERCY.. SHOW MERCY ON US.. strike all of US together.. and I am thinking.. what is happening.. and I open both eyes.. and I see YOU back Off and I just can't believe what I am here.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. YOUR sword is close to My neck.. and It is ready to take my BLOOD.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. please strike Me down Now.. I am ready to Die.. ready to die by your Sword but before YOU strike me with that Sword.. remember HOW MUCH I Love YOU.. I don't care any More.. NOW the 1st general.. the Top best walks UP and He kicks Me on the chest.. without getting the permission from YOU the QUEEN.. and It makes me so Made for NOT HONORING who YOU are.. and HOW rude is that to do it without the CONSENT of the QUEEN.. YOU are Not the Princess any More.. but the One TRUE RULER NOW and I fall on the ground.. and I see YOU angry at the situation.. as I am laying on the Ground.. I would get UP from the GROUND.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. because of WHAT this MAN has done without your WORD.. without your CONSENT.. without your PERMISSION I will take this Challenge.. and I get UP.. Now the Men would make a Big circle around and He walks to the Back where the sparring ground takes Place.. and without.. kicking me in front of YOU when He did Not ask for the Permission when YOU are standing there against my word.. I don't like that at ALL.. so I would walk to the Sparring Ground and the 1st TOP GENERAL stands there with the Sword.. and I am just.. How can he do this when YOU are speaking with me.. and did NOT even ask the permission or have the Word consent and I would pull the Sword Out of the sheath and I would LOOK at this General
MAH MAH.. I see you walking back UP the steps and YOU stand.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I see you POINTING the KING'S sword and YOU swing that sword to Fight.. and I look at Him and I just run UP with the Sword in my Hand.. HOW dare YOU to act rudely in front of the QUEEN.. Our QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. Show some respect by Honoring and I would jump UP AND swing the Sword in my hand and the 1st General counter Blocks with his Sword and the Blades hit each Other and my two feet lands on the ground and I swing the Sword side way and Would JUMP UP doing the back Kick and I would kick HIS face with a round HOUSE kick.. the 1st General falls to the ground.. and I turn to LOOK at YOU MY QUEEN.. I will Not lose for YOU.. I know that the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH has chosen this Fight with a Purpose in the Mind.. I know that there is a reason why YOU have chosen us to do this.. BUT I just do Not like to show anything.. But just to remain close to YOU.. to just to Love YOU by your side.. I hate to Fight but if it is needed I MUST defend it for YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. and the 1st General gets UP holding the Sword and HE swings the sword left right left.. right left right at Me as I am going back countering Blocking the Sword.. hearing the Blades Hitting.. IF I lose today My QUEEN.. if I lose I know that I must die.. just the way it Goes But I just can't Die.. I need more years so that I can love you More.. I just got started to Love YOU MORE.. I can't just die like this right.. I need More years to see HOW FAR I can love you so that IT can Out grow from NOW.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN and I would grab the Sword Tight and I would Jump UP forward and I would start to swing back at the 1st TOP General.. and the Blades Keeps ON hitting each Other.. and I would side KICK and then move forward with the Back KICK and able to HIT him in the chest.. and I would Jump UP and do the SIDE kick and strike him on the chest again.. at least One thing that I have fully grown to Do in my Heart.. TO LOVE you when YOU were the Little princess.. I started to Love you since you were so YOUNG.. and I always dreamed of Keep on loving YOU till the End.. Now YOU are my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. my QUEEN and I still Love you as strong as I did when I was YOUNG.. this never changed.. My Heart of loving YOU have always remained faithful because NOW I KNOW how much I love you.. the 1st General looks at me.. hearing me speaking as I would turn too LOOK at YOU.. he just freezes watching me.. and knowing that I have loved YOU for such a Long time and I turn my Head to face Him and I would look at the 1st General.. the TOP Warrior and I would say.. if you know what a Love Is.. it does NOT matter How many people YOU have killed on the battle field if YOU do NOT even know what it means to Love a WOMAN.. it does NOT matter if it is the QUEEN.. I know that I must be punished.. and I will die for the crimes.. if the Law says I can't Love the QUEEN and I am going against the law.. I will stand in the court and will be trialed for the case.. If I should be charged to Die.. I am ready to DIE for the Heart of My QUEEN.. if I am a dead Man walking.. at least I had the once in a Life to LOVE.. to LOVE YOU my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. if people in the court wants to punish me and this is a Crime to Love YOU.. I am standing and I know I am ready.. I have take so Many years to Love YOU.. and if I die today.. Please Bury Me with my parents.. and I would look at the 1st General and I would run UP and I jump UP and swing the Sword at HIM the Swords HITS.. the blades Hits and His sword falls to the Ground.. and the 1st General.. his two knees goes down and I put the sword on his Neck.. and I can hear the cheers of the Military troops shouting Out and I turn my Head to look at YOU.. and I see that YOU have pointed your Sword NOT TO KILL him.. your head telling me NOT TO strike Him and I raise UP the sword into the Air.. and I would shout.. and I turn around.. TWO KNEES hit the ground.. dropping the sword to the ground.. my arms stretch forward and Head looks to the ground.. and I am crying.. because YOU are standing there.. the Messenger behind is promoting me to be the 1st top General.. and I am just weeping and mourning in Joy.. and I see your Sword.. pointing at me.. and knowing that you want me to speak.. But my Words.. it is because the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH believes in me.. it is because YOU have given me a chance.. how can I come this Far.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. YOU even gave me this Permission to speak and to tell YOU about what it means to Love YOU.. even this is the Once in a LIFE time chance you give me.. I am suppose to be punished.. either be stoned to death.. die by the sword or hanged by the ropes.. YOU gave me the chance to share HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. I can be arrested and be thrown into prison and also it can be a treason for the Nation.. and I know that without Your consent.. without YOUR PERMISSION.. how can I dare to open my Heart to share this Heart of MINE to YOU.. I know that if the law stated.. a LOW BORN like myself cannot LOOK at the ROYAL BLOOD LINE because it means treason.. I am a traitor of because I was born from the Lowest Class.. I am the son of a SLAVE MAN.. BUT to give me a Chance to walk into the training Ground.. and I had NO learning.. but only skills I was given was from the Old Man.. the teacher and also from my Father.. who gave me what they know but Nothing More.. when YOU LOOK at the birth right.. I am NOT suppose to be here.. and It is because when YOU saw me.. with the Official seal.. you could of still reject me because of the back ground of where I came From.. many Noble YOUNG MEN were only allowed to come into the training Camp and the ground into the Royal Palace.. LOOK at the chances of How much the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH gave me.. even this was a Once in a life time.. without your Permission.. without your consent of the Word How can I even challenge the 1st Top General.. it is IMPOSSIBLE.. but YOU have allowed and granted a WISH but I am NOT even allowed to be here.. NOT even as a PALACE GUARD.. I cried and Cried when YOU looked at the Official seal and YOU LOOKED at me and gave me the Permission to come into the Training ground.. when I saw YOU and How you looked at the Guard who was by the back gates which IT lead to the training ground.. I just could NOT believe because I was waiting for many days.. MANY people had to go home and were NOT ALLOWED.. but when YOU saw me.. YOU looked at me and told me I can come IN.. I cried that NIGHT.. because I needed only ONE CHANCE.. just a ONE SHOT and started to Love YOU because why would you even care about this Low Born.. a SON who was born to a SLAVE MAN.. why would you even give me this kind of chance.. and I would cry looking UP at the MOON.. that just for this ONE CHANCE in a LIFE TIME.. I will never disappoint YOU but show YOU what a REAL MAN.. who is from the most lowest Place can DO.. NOW.. YOU are the QUEEN of the Nation.. in the highest position taking on the highest chair.. and MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. YOU have given me the chance to fight.. just to raise me UP to the 1st TOP general.. and I would be looking at the Ground with my tears falling down.. giving me dreams to dream BIG.. How can a MAN dream like this without YOU giving me this kind of permission.. this kind of chance to be here.. MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MY QUEEN.. I wanted to thank YOU so Much for believing in Me.. Not just the miracle of life.. but even How much I love YOU.. I never stopped dreaming but kept on dreaming that Dreams can come true as long as YOU love.. I have never stopped loving YOU still.. this is the main reason why I am so driven and so determine.. so that YOU can see the Heart of MINE that I still LOVE YOU.. that watching YOU taking your Father's Place.. which HE once ruled as the KING.. NOW you are ruling in his Place as the HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and I would see the Seven friends of MINE.. they come behind me.. two knees goes to the FLOOR.. arms stretch forward and HEADS all look at the Floor.. the 2nd Top General and even the 1st top General with their generals all.. two knees Hit the floor.. arms all stretch forwards and Heads all look on the ground and tears of these Men weeping before YOU showing HOW much YOU mean to Us.. as the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH MANSAE!! and My hand grabs the Sword and I raise it UP to the Air and SHOUT LOUD and Clear.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. MANSAE!! the voices of the Men behind me all raises UP.. HOORAY to My QUEEN.. MANSAE TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HOORAY TO MY QUEEN.. YOU are the true QUEEN of MY HEART and shouts so LOUD it shakes the ground together.. MANSAE to my QUEEN.. HOORAY TO HWANG WOO MAH MAH and we all cry together in tears.. as I would look at YOU sitting on the THRONE.. the King's Chair as YOU raise UP the King's Sword in the Air and tears falls the eyes and tears falls from the sky.. IT IS raining in joy in tears because YOU are the ONE TRUE QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. I am looking at the Bars.. I need to see you HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. as I am sitting on the Prison Floor.. and Behind me is the Art Sketch Paper.. in these dark times when I can't be with YOU.. and without Your Presences and Only way for my Heart to get through the days is when I have the Art Sketch paper.. Drawing Picture of YOU
MAH MAH.. I am just waiting in the silent.. I know that the Prime Minister and Other Council of Noble Men is putting the Case against Me.. saying that it is TREASON.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN.. I know that if I must Die tonight.. if they press the Charge against me.. please let my name be known that I am the One who Loves YOU the Most.. if YOU want to write something about me.. please let it be known that I have always Loved You.. and that you have saw everything what a Man can do when it comes out of Heart when a MAN truly Loves YOU.. and as I would be holding with Both Hands the Art Sketch Paper.. the drawing Picture of YOU and I would be looking at your Beautiful Face.. I would say and whisper.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HWANG WOO.. you are the True QUEEN of my Heart.. my Love.. my Queen.. who I have been loving for a Long TIME.. and I am Not sure where did It all start.. if I can go back when I first saw YOU.. when I took that first glance and How you shook my Heart.. and as I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I would be walking with my Father.. and I would be sitting on the top of the Horse.. and my father pulling the strings and He is smiling walking ahead while the Horse is following and I am sitting on top.. and on the right side is the waters.. the ocean and I would to LOOK at the Sun.. and the Horse stops.. and my Father stops and he turns his Head looking at the SUN.. on the Other side.. the King.. PEH HA is pulling the Horse string.. and I can hear a Big Laughter as the strings of the Horse behind the King.. so many People from the Palace are walking behind the Horse.. the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH when YOU were young sitting on the TOP.. and the KING.. PEH HA Stops.. and the Horse stops.. and my Father turns too look ahead.. the KING who is standing there.. my Father walks faster towards HIM and falls on both Knee.. Head looking to the Floor and I would get Out of the Horse and I would walk faster AND also falls on both knees and Head to the ground.. and I hear the Voice to get UP.. and My father gets UP before the King and I was allowed to lift UP my Head UP and as I would stand UP.. I am standing next to my father.. I see YOU sitting on the TOP of the Horse and YOU turn Your Head.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH turns the Head to Look down and when I saw YOU for the first time.. I don't know what it is.. but My Heart.. I can feel my Heart beating but faster it kept on beating.. and I would fall on both knees.. and my father turns to LOOK down with the King.. and I see you sitting on the TOP of the Horse and YOU look.. I wanted to give you a Flower.. back in the garden is where I can find this ONE flower.. who reminds so much of YOU.. the Most Beautiful Flower to My Queen.. But I am Not sure.. if I pick the Flower from the Garden.. will you receive the Flower that I give that only can comes from my Heart.. what if I give it to YOU but you dismiss it.. and it can cause my Heart to break.. should I take the chance to give you the Flower.. it is a Flower that my Mother gave to my Father.. the Seed and told my Father before she died to plant the seed where she be buried and watch how the Seed will grow and produce into this Flower.. and I remember my Father planting the seeds she gave HIM and by the tree and it grew after a certain time.. I would walk with my father into the Garden.. going UP the Hill top where the Tree is there and the Flower grew there.. that it is her Heart.. when I love someone.. that this Flower can truly transfer and once that Love transfer through the giving of this Flower that Dreams can be made and Dreams of Love can come true.. it is in the Garden but on the TOP.. the Hill top where the Tree stands alone.. there is a bed where the Flowers started to grow from the Seeds that was planted and I wanted to give you this One Special Flower that came from the Seeds of Flowers and I know that it means.. the Flower is the QUEEN of my Heart.. only One Heart that I have and can give to YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. when I first saw YOU at the Ocean.. and How the King.. PEH HA.. He was the One who was walking ahead.. and HE was the One who was pulling on the strings of the Horse.. all the Noble men and generals.. the Prime Ministers.. all the high Officials were standing behind as the KING.. PEH HA was introducing the Next new Ruler to Be.. and How he was walking on bare feet and the High Officials were giving distance as HE.. PEH HA.. the KING wanted to be alone with YOU.. and How he wanted to show YOU that ONE Day.. you are going to take his Place because Other SONS were all behind with the HIGH OFFICIALS of the ROYAL PALACE.. but He has chosen YOU that Day.. I was riding on the top of the Horse.. my Father wanted to tell me Something.. He wanted to share a story to Me and has something very Important message to tell me that day.. On this day.. for the first time as My Father was pulling on the Horse and He was sharing about my grandfather.. which was his father.. that is when YOUR FATHER the KING.. PEH HA comes by himself.. bare feet and walking down alone.. and I believe he was telling YOU a story too and I met you there at the Ocean.. my Father loved the Ocean just like my Grandfather.. and I too love the Ocean waters.. and I am thinking.. Maybe HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. My QUEEN loves the Ocean waters as well.. I remember that day.. the Doctors of the ROYAL Palace came.. your Father's Feet.. PEH HA'S FEET was bleeding walking on the rocky road.. and I saw YOU watching.. but my Heart to saw you for the first Time and I knew.. YOU are going to be My QUEEN.. not just the QUEEN but also the QUEEN of my Heart who I can only Love YOU.. so Please.. I want to show YOU and take YOU to the Garden.. so that when you do go to the garden.. I want to show you that special Flower.. which is located in the Garden.. on the Hill Top of where the Tree still stands.. and I want to give you this Flower.. Now I am thinking of this Flower which I could Not give to YOU Yet.. it has been so long since I was at the Garden and Now.. WHEN I am sitting in this Prison.. and able to think about you More deeply.. this FLOWER.. I am wondering.. is that ONE SPECIAL FLOWER still there.. it is from the Seeds that my Father planted long ago.. but it is the biggest flower that came from many seeds when My Father planted at the bed by the Tree.. I called the Flower My QUEEN.. which means the Most Beautiful Flower stands Out from the rest because the other Flowers are much more smaller.. as I am Looking at the Art Sketch paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. is it too Late to Know about this Flower.. am I just too Late to give you this Flower.. I want to give this Flower because I remember what my Father told ME because it came from my Dying Mother when she gave the seeds of flowers to my Father before she died.. to give the Flower when it grows bigger and when I grow older.. when I meet someone WHO I love the Most and WHO I believe is the One I call my QUEEN of my Heart.. the ONE WHO I been loving.. to plant it and let the seeds to grow so that when I find the ONE WHO I LOVE.. I can give you the Flower to tell YOU.. it has taken me so Long to remember.. because I have lost the focus of this Flower for many long years.. I just want to go back to the Garden to see that ONE SPECIAL FLOWER.. before I die here in the Palace.. I want to make One true wish before I go to tell YOU my QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. HOW much I love YOU and that I should of given you this Flower much sooner.. then I believe by now.. something could of happened right.. but I don't want it to be Never either.. just to take this ONCE last chance.. to tell YOU that what I heard and how it was passed down to me by my Mother.. if she is right.. I believe that Dreams of Love can be made and Dreams can come true because I do believe in this Love that it is very special.. just like YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. that YOU are so Special to Me.. has been all this time and still YOU are.. age to age do Not matter because as long as it is My Heart who loves YOU.. I know that If it means to happen.. something to happen.. in that Garden.. on the HILL TOP where the Tree stands.. there is a bed of Roses there.. and when YOU LOOK at the Bed of Flowers.. YOU WILL find One special Flower that stands OUT alone.. that Flower.. her name is YOU.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. as I am given this Paper with the Ink.. asking the guard by the Prison Door.. gives me my request and I am sitting down.. writing with the Ink as it dips.. on this Paper I am writing the Instructions and telling YOU HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. my QUEEN.. if I die here in Prison.. I know that I won't be able to tell YOU.. but with this Message I am writing.. YOU can go there to see it for yourself to see if it is true.. that ONE FLOWER belongs to YOU.. that it is YOURS.. I have been waiting for that Flower to be KNOWN to you but it has taken me so long to tell you this.. I believe Life gives YOU a story which so much things are happening that sometimes YOU DO forget to TELL YOU what is the Most Important.. as I am Looking at the Art Sketch Paper.. the Drawing Picture of YOU.. I really wanted to go with YOU.. it does Not matter if I die here in the Prison because at least in my life time I get the chance to tell YOU many times How much I love YOU.. watching you grow over time.. NOW you are the QUEEN.. HWANG WOO MAH MAH.. and HOW you have succeeded after your Father.. PEH HA.. and I am just thinking back that HOW your FATHER.. PEH HA knew all this TIME.. He had to pass for the NEXT TO SUCCEED after HIM.. but YOUR FATHER.. PEH HA already Knew that YOU.. his DAUGHTER will become the QUEEN.. will conqueror
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