You Can Recover Too! My Life Story!
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- A walk through my story of recovery from sexual abuse, self-harm, religious beliefs, to where i am now.
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I won't lie, I wanted to give him a hug.
+LadyOfBroadway333 Me too.
Me too tbh
fuck you SoFlo
Same
dont we all
your dad is blind in one eye but he can see clearer than ever
This is officially the best comment on TH-cam
PendulumFTW Definitely agree
Mangabros101 what the fuck we need more smart people like you in this world
Mangabros101 I love this it reminds me of the quote "The only thing worse than being blind is having sight but no vision."
Words can not describe how much i want this guy's future to be nothing but good points.
I'm going to show my girlfriend this video. she has struggled since age 11 severe depression, stemming from years of struggle with mental issues. She needs to see this because you know how she feels. I can give her all the love and kindness and hope I can but you, Daniel, you can give her the one thing I can't. proof. proof that she isn't going to be depressed forever. proof that she can make it and be happy.
thank you for making this video, thank you so fucking much. I've been subbed to your channel for a while now and I am so glad I am. I owe you one, Daniel!
You're a really good person.
As are you, I imagine! Thanks :)
Did it work?
Man I'm slightly jealous of your girlfriend haha
Not talking about the abuse that started happening to me when I was about 6 years old by a man who was a family member almost cost me my life. I never told a soul about what happened to me until I was in my thirties. Instead I took as many drugs as I possibly could for many years to numb the pain. Thank goodness I was able to get the help I needed from a good therapist before I had a fatal overdose. As men we are told not to talk about our feelings. Thanks for being brave enough to talk about what happened to you. You are going to save lives.
I'm sorry you went through that. I understand.
IvyPoison
Thanks
Oh honey I’m so sorry. That’s horrible. I just want to say you should be proud of yourself for getting through those things and got sober. I’m coming up on 6.5 years clean so I know how hard it is and what it’s like to face those demons. Just remember the greatest revenge you can get on someone is being successful despite their horrible acts. I know your comment is from 3 years ago but, I felt the need to comment anyway. I hope you are doing well
Asking questions is crucial, why that's offensive is beyond me.
Exactly. In some churches though the people in charge are in it for the power they get from the hierarchy and questions are a threat to that power.
Religion is based only in belief and faith. Questioning is a form of doubt. Once the seed of doubt is planted you start to figure out that things are not what they seem. My theory would be that the person in charge saw the doubts coming and tried to isolate Daniel's questions so his doubts would not pass into the other kids. Asking the questions was not offensive, but they were challenging their beliefs and control over them.
Because they don't have answers
Hi Laura, didn't know you were a rep fan! Love your vids too
Because some people put all their feelings and beliefs in something or a power structure and they never question it and they attach to it so strongly it [mistakenly] becomes part of their self identity, not just something that they stand for, that makes those people really insecure and they tend to screen things out that don't support it, and when an opposing view or reality comes up they externalize it at all costs and its a threat, they fight it as if their lives depend on it because to them its part of their self identity. It can come along with a lot of other screwed up psychological complexes with it.
The subconscious can be strange, it does not always do rational things that make sense.
While I usually end up disagreeing with him, I've always had a lot of respect for MrRepzion.
wllmbr There is nothing you can disagree on in this video.
***** I know I know, I just meant that throughout most of your other videos I don't really like how you can present things but I still have a lot of respect for you since (to me at least) you help to promote logic and reasoning. Keep doing what you do!
***** I support you Rep :) I was bullied in school from 1st year to the end of 9th year, and that made me stronger just as you. Started watching your videos a few days ago and I agree with almost everything you say, would love to have a discussion about religion with you some day! All the love from Sweden dude :D Peace out
Rickard exakt samma här, haha, (utom mobbade delen)
nice hi
I'm a Catholic, but I believe in evolution as well- it's a proven fact. I think a lot of people have doubts in their religion because they've received vague information or they were only told one side of the story. When you're told both sides of the story, you can choose for yourself what you believe. You can't force someone who doesn't agree with your views to think the same way you do, and I think that when people do that, it only makes the person you're trying to convince think negatively of what you're trying to get them to believe.
I also don't appreciate it when people bash religion on the sole reason that they think religion is stupid or whatever. I believe in God but I don't go about publicly hating on atheism, maybe other people do but that's their uneducated choice.
:)
You're a good person.
Love this comment.
Leik button = pressed
I believe in believing in yourself and admitting your ignorant to what's beyond our conciseness something religion fails to do
Take psychedelics and you'll see how silly it is to subscribe to one notion such as religion
I'm a Christian, I grew up in an agnostic and atheists family so I'm not indoctrinated or anything and I hate religion. Religion is what Jesus hated, the Pharisees were religious and into rituals etc and Jesus rebuked that.
I'm sorry you grew up in such a horrible church, and such a legalistic family. I'm glad you have a relationship with them again, love and care for them.
I'm sorry about your dad and that you find it hard thinking about the times you disagreed and argued, make the most of the time you have with him now, it'll make him the happiest man on earth!
I love you and I wish the best for you and your family!
Teaching kids religious bullshit should be illegal. I think it's basically mental child abuse.
Preach
well it's not abuse it's brainwashing they are putting our society back with there god bullshit.
It depends on how they teach it. If they are honest and are willing to admit that most of the Bible is BS (I'm a catholic and even I know that. Its stupid to say otherwise) then I don't see anything wrong with it but a lot of Religious authorities don't tend to do that (although my mum did I was lucky and my dad was an atheist) but my school was the total opposite, the would threaten us with hell and talk about the Bible as if it was fact. No one should feel forced into it either. Although I am a strong Catholic I have so many complaints about how people still perceive the bible today.
Fran Hynes I think the reason it's mental child abuse is because you're telling a young child that they're going to be tortured for eternity. And if any parent was to tell their child they're going to be tortured, and it wasn't because of religion, that parent would be considered abusive. So just because you're telling your child they're going to be on fire for eternity because of your religion, it shouldn't be exempt from being considered mental child abuse. (Side note: I mean "you" in a general sense, not specifically you.)
And also that's not even a part of how it's taught either. The belief of hell is a core belief of Christianity and all its denominations, so it's not something that can really be affected by the way it's taught.
zBorderPatrol yeah I see where you're coming from, I commented separately earlier (my own post not a reply to you) saying how I guess I was fortunate that I escaped all that BS with my parents since although they believed in god they didn't believe in help. As ignorant as it may seem of me (which I don't mean it to) I often forgot what it can actually be like. But yeah I totally see your point.
"You take my truck I'm gonna beat you the fuck up"
~MrRepzion 2015
Lol
He should put that on a shirt.
Why not both?
But what if Illuminati was kill?
Knowledge attack!
I just want to give Daniel a big hug
He's very huggable.
Yeah me too.
me too.
I cried during this video
You know what? Well I had this video in the "watch later" list for a loooong time. Because I knew it was important, I knew I should have watched it entirely in the right moment.
And I did it, today, more than one year later.
But I don't regret this waiting: instead, I'm sorry I had to wait all this time, before dedicating to this.
Well, although an entire year has passed by, I'd like to tell you a single word: «Thanks».
And I know this might sound so stupid, "yeah, an italian dude watched 48 minutes of video and then went out with a ludicrous 'thanks', how dare he?"
I know it, still it's the only thing I can say. Because I'd like to thank you for sharing your terrifying experience, thank you for how tough was the life you were able to deal with, thank you for your strenght, and for your best wishes to all of us about a happy new year, too.
I'm glad to be a long-time subscriber to your channel, but let me tell that I'm also glad to consider you not only an inspring youtuber, but a friend.
Keep going, Daniel.
I WATCHED THE FULL VIDEO! THANK YOU SIR U GAVE ME SOME CONFIDENCE I AM GLAD U MADE THIS VIDEO. THANK YOU SO MUCH :-)
thanks for agreeing!!! :)
"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."
unless it puts u on life support
1jaymost Or when you are fatally ill.
Eating Macdonalds doesn't kill me but, makes me a ton weaker
Minerva Blake
terminal is a term
Minerva Blake holy shit i was thinking of commenting the same thing XD
4:26 "You know, if you take my goddamn truck, i'm gonna beat you the fuck up." I DIED LMAO
You're a kawaii potato.. Just, yes.
I am indeed, a kawaii potato. Thank you for noticing, Senpoopi.
I love you kawaii potato
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Love you too, stranger. xo
Ew, vegetables.
bullying dosent make me stronger. it breaks me.
You're not the only one who had such a reaction to that statement of his. I echo your sentiment 100%. It's okay to not be "made stronger" by such a thing; you are allowed to hurt, friend. Hope you're doing better all these years later.
W-what I-I'm not crying- My eys are just- ....sweating.
;-;
Don't cry, craft!
"I'm not crying, there's just something in my eyes."
"what?"
"TEARS!"
It's those invisible ninjas cutting onions again!
+Be N S O N undertale?
"Don't blame yourself for things you can't control" is an amazing quote! Thank you so much for sharing
"You know, you take my God damn truck, I'm gonna beat you the fuck up."
Oh, man. That's fucking funny right there.
One of my favorite quotes ever
i cried during this video.. im currently going through the hardest moment in my life right now, i suffer from agoraphobia and depression. because of this all of my friends and all of my family just stopped interacting with me or have anything to do with me i havnt seen or spoken to some of my closest friends in a long time.., i dont have anyone or anything at the moment but.. watching this gives me hope and really made me happy because not to long ago i tried to kill myself because i didnt expect things to change.. but now my mum tells me we are moving, and im currently going to see a phsychiatrist and poeple that are going to help me... the change for me hasnt happened yet but it will... thank you mrrepzion :) i love your videos
+Jesus H. Christ What does H. stand for?
How are you Alex?
It's 4 years later. I hope you've gotten better. Have you?
Daniel, the strength you have shown throughout your life is inspiring. This must have been hard for you to talk about having to bring back up all these different emotions. But you might have saved some lives with this video. My life has not been nearly as hard as yours but this helps me to look ahead instead of fester in my negative feelings that I have now.
All the luck to you MrRepzion
I am so scared to leave religion. As I've gotten older, I've began to come to the realization that religion is confusing me, however my Mother forces it on me. She'll come up to me and tell me I'm a bad person because I don't pray ever. She calls me bad because I haven't even read out of our religious book. She constantly screams at me, calls me bad words, and even tells me I need to lose weight (despite me being a normal BMI :/). Daniel's channel has not made me change my views on religion, it's me who has been wanting to change for 2 years now. I suppose I'm a bit young, fifteen, but Daniel's channel has encouraged me to break out of my shell more, but I still remained scared.
Do whatever makes you feel safe its up to you to know when and who to tell good luck
stormy iiams Oh, no I appreciate hearing your story. To be honest, I lean more towards agnostic than athiest, but I still strongly disagree with the stuff that goes into my religion, or really any religion. Like, whenever my Mother sees anything suggesting homosexuality she'll get all disgusted, and I get made at her and I say something like "Who the hell cares what they want to do?!" Then she gets mad at me for being supportive of homosexuality or whatever. And then we'll disagree on topics like abortion saying stuff like, the woman deserved to get raped or whatever, and she'll call rape victims stupid and deserving of rape for never coming forward. Her reasons also include them being drunk, or wearing revealing clothing, that means "they deserved it". This is the bullshit I put up with. She said that I was a bad person and I never even pray anymore and stressed the importance of praying I scoffed, and then she got mad and asked me why I was laughing. Your story did help me, it made me realize other people have gone through the same problems I have. I wouldn't say I hate religion itself, but the way it's forced upon me.
Well, if you want to come out of religion, tell your family the you're an atheist/agnostic/whatever and that since they're your family, you hope that they can love and accept you for who you are. Hope this helps. :)
thing is, when my mum shouts and screams i shout and scream and swear right back.
I strongly believe in god even though I was not exactly raised in a religious house and I always try to defend this sort of things but I just came to the conclusion that your mother is just crazy and if she would be an atheist she would just equally bash you with scientific shit.
i feel bad for laughing when u said machine gun spanking
And when he said the girl was really horny, and it was hard
+Onisions Uncle Billy That name 😂
I laughed because I related to that. My mama was a machine gun spanker.
Is this referencing the dude who dated Megan fox? /jk
You are awesome! Talking about this stuff is really hard and being able to openly admit and talk... You deserve to be loved! *Big hugs for MrRepzion* :)
I'm sad. I've tried to help 2 people out of suicide. I saved 1. The other one is not alive. I've helped people that were raped as a child. I'm an atheist and that is the reason; why would this so called "god" let people rape, be depressed, kill themselves. I get bullied for my beliefs. People bully me because I think their is no God. They bully me because of my sexuality. This made me cry. And on top of it; my parents got divorced. I'm going to take your word. I will be a stronger person because of you. You are an amazing person. THANK YOU.
***** thank you for sharing that with me. i know i am just a random person on the internet, but this helped me and i hope that you have became more happy in your life. Also, i haven't kicked depression. but thank you for sharing you story
***** but are you still suicidal? if you have kik? i want to talk there
***** do please
***** wholly shit. THAT is why i don"t believe in that corrupt religion (with other things). I'm really confounded that this happened to your family. do you have a place you call home yet? are you sill with your bro? also could i post this on ifunny. i want people to see what religion does to people. if you tell me no i wont post it. okay?
***** yah. i wont post it
"He will probably be dead in 5 years."
Don't be so sure! My father had a stroke and they put him on hospice care and told us not to expect him to live longer than 4 months.
Those 4 months turned into 10 years.
Daniel, I'm Daniel. I suffer from depression as well and I'm at a similar age. To hear of your recovery is very uplifting. Thank you for sharing.
I'm speechless. you're so brave, I'm very glad you got out of all that negativity
Hi, my name is Sam and I am 17 years old and I have recently found your channel. I have been watching a few of your videos and they have made me laugh and made me happy because someone else has the same views as I do. I came across this video today and it hit me so deeply because I have had such a similar childhood as you have, given that I still am a kid but whatever, and your story has given me an outlook on life and everything that I thought was awful that is completely different to what I had thought before. I now know that I'm not alone with what I have gone through and I can move on with what has happened to me. I cannot thank you enough for this and for being so strong and courageous to share your story. Thank you.
I am a Christian, but I started watching you for your viewpoint. While I like those videos this 1 touched me. I went through alot and it brought me hope. I am glad atheism saved your life, even if I don't agree with it because everyone needs something to lie on. For me it was my religion. Thanks for rejuvenating my spirit. It's nice to hear from someone who's recovering because it shows maybe I can too.
This was very brave to talk about rep!! Stay strong you have been through so much you're so inspirational
Watched the whole thing!!
I am so glad I was bullied, I wouldn't be the same person I am today. it's a necessary part of life. There will always be people out there who don't like you or try to bring you down. bullying forces you to learn how to deal with it.
I've never been bullied, but i just ignore/laugh at people mocking me, if they do. I never take shit.
***** Kids are killing themselves over bullying because not everyone is emotionally capable of handling it. You being bullied was good for you? Good for you, it's not good for everyone. Some people end up becoming violent offenders or shoot up schools so are you ok with all of these outcomes? Bullying is done from damaged kids to damage other kids and it's not right by any stretch of the fucking imagination and rep himself is a perfect example of why bullying and sexual abuse is a terrible thing.
The guy is going to be damaged forever and it shows and your warped sense of this world shows.
MmmmmApplesauce I never said in any form that sexual abuse wasn't a terrible thing so dont try and string the 2 things together, theyre very different. and people who kill themselves or kill other people because of bullying were never mentally stable to begin with. thats life, sometimes people are defective.
TheCrippledEgg exactly my point.
TheRetnet what you described is bullying, and it doesnt seem to affect you. which is good.
I haven't cried in about a year or so. But the part about the second stroke was just so beautiful I came very close.
You are an amazingly strong person. Thank you for sharing your story.
He gotta be strong to survive those spankings
(Sigh) religion,
The cause of more deaths every year than TF2 cosmetics, League of Legends and Sharks combined
Don't you even dare. I'll admit religion has it's problems especially organized one, but do not give me that crap that atheism is the cure for all and isn't as messed up as religion.
Beliefs are just beliefs. What people do with them is what causes death, especially when they fail to interpret them in any positive way.
geekgreek427 Um, I said "League of Legends and TF2 cosmetics", it was a fucking joke, don't get all butthurt
GlitchyShadow137 Sorry about that. My apologies. I just thought that you were one of those people that blamed religion for all the evil in the world and so on.
GlitchyShadow137 you look familiar
You, sir , are a genius.
My parents use to hit me over the backside with a belt. They eventually stopped when I started to pretend to like it.
Ikr I did the same thing!
Haha, I remember when my parents hit me I just started laughing and that stopped it
Kinky bitch
Is it bad that I'm cracking up right now?
pure genius.. we should have been school buds.... could have tried on my teachers...
I still have the scars spelling "stupid" on my left arm. Thank you for opening up like this. You are totally right about compartmentalizing, it turned me into a hateful, spiteful, miserable person. I'm working against it as best I can now.
I loved the video. I love that you opened up, for me it felt like a skype call from a friend just venting it all out and it just made it so much more relatable to me
That's exactly how I've experienced it as well, Tyler. It's so powerful!
I'm several years late, but, lots of love my dude. You've come so far.
You say to talk about your feelings, but my friends get upset with me and leave me if i try to talk about my problems. They say my negativity is upsetting them, when all I'm trying to do is talk to somebody. There's nobody I can trust anymore. My friends don't like me talking about my issues, and almost anybody else I've tried talking to only will half listen or spill all of my secrets and personal thoughts for everybody to know.
i can understand and relate ;(( im fighting back tears right now i keep thinking of things that happened to me while watching this
I don't know how old you are or your situation.But if they wont listen they are not your friends.If you are still in school like middle school or high school then go talk to the school counselor or go talk to your parents or siblings or if you have a teacher you trust.And if you are an adult go talk to your parents or sibling as well or start going to therapy.
bluebble gummy I understand, I'm sorry and just know that even though you're a random person on the internet, I support you ^.^
yamcha65 I'm a high school freshman. To be honest, since I'm a freshman, I'm new to the staff and things, and have only once spoken to our counselor for a long period of time. She seems nice enough, but I have a hard time opening up to people i don't know her so well. My issue is learning to trust people.
Sometimes is hard to open up to people you don't know. But try a psychologist, I know is a total stranger but once you try to open up a little you will see how easy it gets. One thing that really helps me is writing it down every time you think of something that upsets you, then show it to your psychologist. He can guide you so you get better at dealing with stuff.
Congrats on becoming a stronger reptile!
I was bullied from the start of middle school up until senior high. To me it feels weird since in other people's eyes I haven't recovered one bit since then, but in my own way I have.
Let me explain: I mostly sit at home watching movies, TV-series, read comic books/manga and play games. I have no friends irl that I go out with or talk to for that matter. Sounds pretty sad right? The thing is that it doesn't bother me at all. In fact, I enjoy my lifestyle, although it's a pathetic one in most people's eyes.
In my own way I am both broken and whole if you could put it that way.
I have entered a state of apathy, well not quite apathy, but I care less about other people's emotions. I do understand them and I know how most people feel, but I lack empathy for them.
The funny thing is that the less empathy I have the more I see what a person thinks and feels.
In retrospect: I must seem like a violent sociopath.
***** indeed
Dude, I'm the same. Glad I'm not alone haha.
Screentime It's even more fun hearing about drama between people, because I get to sit there and watch the whole thing from the outside, analyze people's behaviour and understand how animal-like they really are.
That's an ok lifestyle i guess, but when you are older you will regret it, I would recommend you try to make friends, it would help later in life.
Screentime Arn't I a stronger reptile?
Comic books, dogs, and death metal is all you need to live a happy life.
I agree with that statement! add cats aswell and I'm fully on board ;)
If the latter two are not options, cats and power metal are perfect substitutes.
@@huntrovherobrin Manga is an alternative for comic books
I’m struggling tonight, my dad committed suicide when I was 13. I’m feeling really terrible and guilty about it, and I’ve been watching your videos and came across this. It made me put down the second bottle. Thanks.
Im sorry for your loss. 💜🌹
I am so proud of you for the courage it takes to share (especially as a male who has been sexually abused) I also grew up in a religious family...actually had a very strict and insane upbringing all in the name of G-d/Jesus and was very angry at him. I was sexually abused starting at age 4/5 yrs old by an adult family member and then later in my teens and into my adult life. My father was actually a pastor who physically(not sexually) abused myself, my siblings and my mother. I still struggle with religion and other things but not as bad as it used to be. I have come a long way from where I was but it took me many years to finally seek help. I also have struggled with self harm. A few years back I made a few videos about my life, physical and sexual abuse as well...So thankful you were able to get learn so much so early. Advocating and bringing awareness about sexual abuse is one of the most courageous things a survivor can do. HUGS
I had a bullying issue, so my parents made me go to counseling, but I was too closed off to tell the truth to the therapist. For around 6 months I acted like I was fine and lied to everyone I was around even though I started becoming more and more hateful every week.
This made me want to give you a hug. Love you man, keep making your videos i love them too!
My sister and I were sexually abused by our father, her from 5 to nearly 8 myself from 2 to nearly 5. I was then sexually abused by my uncle from 5 until I was nearly 8. My Mum found out and it stopped, but she asked for guidance from our church.
The priest told her that my sister and I were no longer welcome at that church, because and I quote 'we'd engaged in sexual relations outside of marriage'.
Yes I'm an atheist, my Mum eventually went back to the church but only when she was diagnosed as terminal. Even then she made sure it was a different priest in charge, her faith helped her deal with dying at 40 I'd never take that away from her even if I don't believe any of it, xAndyx.
I spent my whole week watching your response videos about any subject and now I'm on this one. Well, this made me sad but I could have expected something so sad happening to you (I don't know, I felt it). Keep up, I really think this video is useful to people that are struggling !
you're one of the realest people on this platform. thank you for sharing your personal struggles and how you overcame them.
I don't know why, but even though I am following you for a year or so, I have just found out this video and oh my god... I am so sorry you have to go throgh all of this! You are so strong and couragous and I wish you nothing but all the luck in the world for your future! It is very inspirational as well and I am sure that by posting this, you have already helped a lot of people! Love you man sending you virtual hug !
This made me cry when I finished the video. I can relate to so many things with the depression, and self harm, and attempted suicide. Depression feels horrible. It takes so much effort and willpower to do anything. It's ruining my GPA and my relationships. It makes me feel absolutely worthless. Recently I've been coping with my depression somewhat. You are an amazing person, and my role model. It is truly amazing how you have gone through so much and managed to get back up. I want to sincerely thank you for putting up this video, and I hope you have a great day.
I'm so glad you're so real on your channel. I can relate to a lot of your life story. You are so strong, Daniel. :)
Thank you, Daniel, for this. This helped me. I watched the entire thing, and the end just about brought me to tears. Thank you.
Daniel, you're a special person. It took me a while to watch this and nearly half a day to finish it. Triggering is all I can say, the abuse, relationship with your father, church bullying, etc. I know a lot of people who've had similar experiences and unfortunately I relate to most including yours. I wish I'd had the courage to deal with it all when I was younger as it nearly killed me and I don't mean figuratively. Thank you for telling your story and as hard as it was for me, and probably others, to listen to, child sexual abuse, emotional abuse and psychological abuse is too common and kept too quiet particularly in churches. It needs to be brought into the light. So thank you for shining some much needed light on these issues. You have a mountain of courage in you and I admire that. You take care of yourself and know you are loved. Cheers!
Dude, I applaud you for being so open! Very inspiring! I too came from a Christian background and came to similar conclusions.
While I usually end up disagreeing with him, I've always had a lot of respect for MrRepzion!
From the bottom of my heart I want to say I am so sorry for unfortunate experience in life and while growing. Truly nobody deserves such fate I am really happy for you that you are coming out of all this as a winner, a survivor. I wish you only fortune to favor you from here on out, your wounds to heal and the scars to fade as much as they can. I wish you only happiness and fortune and as my opinion on the matter - you are not worthless, you are not disgusting, you are not ugly. I wish you all the best and keep making people happy with your content, like me (being happy of your content I mean :-)).
I have depression, and your story meant a lot to me. I can especially relate to compartmentalizing, and it was nice to hear that I was valuable coming from you. Thank you!
Thank you so much for opening up like this I know it can be hard. I'm still recovering from my past abusive relationship although it's been almost two years I'm still recovering . I realized from this experience that respect is essential to a relationship and that I deserve to be loved. It took forever to realize that and it took alot of therapy as well.
We should teach kids at a very young age about sexual abuse because they aren't confused on what the hell is going on!
Yeah, but Christians doesn't talk about that...
TheRetnet Well mostly, I am catholic and I got taught about it at school.
***** hmm, Idk why religions are different in different places.
CoolDude For basicly the same reasons that animals are different in different areas, they had evolutionary branching points.
CoolDude by practicals?
I just watched this whole video and I'm so glad i did because you are such an amazing person. I can really relate to you and its nice to know that I'm not alone. I love how you take long pauses when you speak and how you left this unedited. I think its just so raw and beautiful. I hate when youtubers use a lot of jumpcuts and background music and i was so happy to see that you didn't have that in this video. Anyways, I love your channel and i hope you have a fabulous day!
Watching this video all the way through was such a treat. It brought me to tears and made me happy at the same time, I thought it would come across preachy or self-victimizing(based on the title) but I couldn't be more wrong. It just made me like you so much more Daniel. Seriously man, this was a great video.
Dear Daniel. I've watched your channel for a while now but never saw this. I just want to say that you are an awesome young man. I sadly am old enough to be your mother but I would love for my son who is 16 to turn out to be the man you are. His father was never in his life but he has a lot of great men like you in his life. You are a super hero you have come thru so much to be were you are today in almost 2020. And rather than allow it to take you down and keep you there you came thru it and became stronger for it. I know this will sound empty from a stranger but I am very proud of you. You are helping a lot of people that you may not even realize. [I started watching you when my daughter send me a link as her way of saying she needed help, you saved her life and I am not being dramatic) Keep fighting, keep growing and keep succeeding. 💜
Thanks for sharing your story, Daniel. I'm so glad you're still around to tell it. You've helped me grow as a person, so I value you and your videos immensely.
Thanks Dan, This was a fantastically honest video and must have taken some incredible bravery to make.
well done, so much respect x
how can anyone dislike? some heartless and fucked up people in the world
Just watched this again after watching your dear ex girlfriend video you just posted and I just wanted to let you know that you are so loved Daniel. I’m so happy you have overcame all of this and have come out even stronger than ever. Thank you for being so open and transparent. It lets others know that they’re not alone.
💫 You are so incredibly encouraging..
Tysvm.. 💫 I am continuously watching this playlist of “Self - Help..” 💫 Been watching for many years, keep being your beautiful self.. 💫
Your video made me create a new playlist "Inspire". I feel like I have watched a very strong film: educational, right, an example.
"your dad is blind in one eye but he can see clearer than ever"- Mangabros101
The Perks Of Being A Wallflower is amazing...
I was also abused around the same age as you and did not tell a soul for many, many years. The impact of that abuse caused ripples in my adult life and eventually influenced my mental breakdown. I finally got help at age 30 and dealt with the trauma of my past. I’m sorry you had to go through this too 😢 sexual abuse is insidious. I thought it had not impacted me in life until I finally woke up to the nightmare I was living.
Daniel You really are a powerful speaker and excellent life story teller. I am so happy for you that you have a relationship with someone who loves you you have so much value I am happier you are still on the planet
I know I'm kinda late on this video, but thanks for it. I kind of need the message from this video right now. It's hard, but it can only get better.
***** Thanks man, really appreciate the kind words.
You can make it, even if it doesn't seem like it, you can make it. I might be a little young, but I've had my fair share of life dicking me over, but I try to blast through it. Keep going man, you can and will do it.
i ask questions at my church and the elders are fine with it and actively address everyone's questions on evil suffering etc. my church is full of people who have a wide variety of views with some being creationist, evolutionist, Calvinists etc. it seems the church you went to sadly was apart of the bad side of "Christianity" that is very judgmental/fundamentalist which jesus would be against :/
Rep was sadly a victim of extremist ideology. Not sure what branch of Christianity he was apart of (I'm a Catholic) but my church is nowhere near that level of extremism.
Raul Rodriguez I think in all denominations you get a proportion of churches in which they just don't practice what they preach. It is their way or the highway, no matter what the issue. Anyone who questions those in the in crowd and the way they do things (even if it's not directly about scriptures) is a threat and must be quieted. The church is their own little world in which they hold the power and cannot be challenged. The church I went to wasn't particularly conservative but it was very controlling.
It would be more christian than yours.
I agree. I think it's disappointing when churches take Christianity and turn it into something it's not. That's why I enjoy going to more casual churches where they're open to having anyone come ask questions and don't judge people.
Ryiot Jones plz no just no. if you want to see christian in its truest form just look at jesus
Daniel, I took the time and watched the whole video without skipping. I've been watching your channel for a while, I love your videos and your humor(even though it's rare). This might sound weird but I'm very religious but you have a lot of points against religion and I don't ignore that stuff. Everyday I wake up, breakfast and then I start watching your videos(no life). I still remember the first video I saw of yours(Re: I'm So Fat) and I was in love with your videos and I subscribed right after I finished that video. I'll never stop watching. I can tell you've been through hard times but all I gotta say is, good job in all your videos, keep doing your thing, be strong and good luck in the future. I hope that fucking priest or whoever goes to hell(though you don't even believe in that lol)
Yep my old pastor told me that I was abused because God wanted / wants me to be the person I'd be after going through that !?.... He then said I should ask for forgiveness for doubting god, I obviously haven't been in a church since. Thank you Daniel for this video, it took a lot of courage to film it I know, always remember... Keep growing, keep looking forward, and keep being you, we can't change the past but we can choose to make our future better, at times its not easy far from easy, but listen to your thoughts and feelings and promise yourself that you'll do your best to not ignore them. Thank you so so much for this Daniel, sending best wishes
I watched this entire video, it is currently 2018 and it helped me a lot. I doubt you'll ever see this, but I know how a lot of that feels. I can relate so much. I'm quite nervous to comment. I went through similar things as well, and I went through different things as well. Not everyone's experiences are the same. I will be the first to admit that. Having that said knowing you understand a thick portion of what happens (even though everything is different for everyone, thoughts and all) it makes me feel better. Less alone if you will. I am very appreciative of the entire message you gave out and for creating this video. Thank you.
I've compartmentalized my whole life, up to the point where I even have myself convinced there's nothing wrong a lot of the time. But there really isn't anything wrong with my life, I feel like it's all aftermath.
I'm so detached from reality, it's like I'm stoned 24/7 and just feel zoned out. I really spend most of my time with distractions. It's annoying as fuck, but I can distinguish what's real as opposed to me worrying about stupid shit now that I'm older (19). Then again, that's caused me to feel like I'm two different people, and it doesn't help that I've been alone through it all. No one has understood so I stopped trying.
I don't know man. On the other side I feel like I should just stop being a bitch and get on with it because dwelling on the past is pointless and it's only a thought, just as the future; all that matters is the present moment.
It sounds like you suffer from depersonalization. It's like living behind a foggy glass window and nothing ever quite feels real. The issue develops most often from PTSD and is triggered by a drug(weed is usually the trigger) or traumatic event, it can also develop from anxiety. I suffered from this horribly for about 3 years. My emotions shut down, my memory was non-existent, and I was numb all the time. Nothing in the world mattered to me so I had no sense of urgency and often hoped for death. When antagonised my emotions would suddenly come back with a vengeance making me incredibly hostile. My case came about from severe social anxiety and social isolation so it developed as a defence mechanism for living in constant fear so the best way to treat the condition is to conquer the mechanism which set it in place. I'm now about 80% recovered.
Here are some tips. Sunglasses are your friend, anytime you feel the symptoms getting worse throw on some shades and it will greatly reduce the effect. Eat high in protein, protein will give you more energy and lessen the effects. Gets the advised amount of sleep, too little sleep and the effects will completely overpower you, get too much sleep and the symptoms duration will increase drastically. Get scheduled and organised, order will help you accomplish day to day tasks. Keep your mind active, do little task that help get your mind off the symptoms(exercise is also great) . Personally my effects were worse in heat and sunlight so I tried to do everything at night, the colder the better, the darker the better.
LogicBeforeFaIth Yeah, I've known that I've had depersonalization for awhile. I just wish it would go away because I've came far from that point in my life and if anything I should be happy with how things are going because it's all positive. Believe me I've tried everything to make the dreamy feeling go away and I can't shake it. I sound a lot like you though, it mostly came from social anxiety and isolation rather than PTSD or drugs, I still go brain dead around people in real life except my girlfriend but that's mostly because we're both fucked up in our own special ways, but she still doesn't really understand it. You said it ended? What events led up to that? I've had the feeling for about 3-4 years now. I have days once in a blue moon where it disappears and it fucking astonishes me.
Sigma My social anxiety is better because I forced myself into unwanted social interactions and eventually became more comfortable around large groups of people, but I'm still a bit paranoid around a lot of people. I also got big into fitness hitting the gym 5 days of the week. DPD is directly connected to your anxiety, I've had it for 4 or 5 years now although I'm mostly recovered.
LogicBeforeFaIth Yeah, I did notice when I was addicted to lifting it wasn't as prevalent, but then I had an episode and stopped.
I guess there's no easy way out of this shit huh, thanks.
Holly shit
But yeah, is depersonalization recognized now?
You're so brave and strong, I sort of can relate to how you feel, compartmentalisation and constantly need affection and to feel loved. But yeah Thank you for sharing your story, it made me feel like I'm not alone ♥️ xx
It is not bad to be weak sometimes.
like when you can't climb up a cliff just to jump off of it
Beck Rockriver no, i mean like you have noodle arms and can't lift yourself three feet off the ground, and therefore you can't hop off a small ledge and break open your skull.
Beck Rockriver how is being weak a strength? what if you were trying to climb the cliff to escape a rabid group of ass-eating dogs? truly something that philosophers ponder in their free time.
Beck Rockriver joke.exe has stopped working, Beck Rockriver has cancelled program.
I know its be 4 years since this video came out but I just want to say how much this video helped me. I've had a similar sort of things happen to me and i'm in a really bad place right now and all I can say is this video helped. Thank you. I get the constant need for love and validation and its somewhat good to know other people understand and i'm not alone. Thank you again
Daniel, this was amazing.
I know you probably won't read this comment, but fuck, this video helped me so much.
I was literally going to kill myself tomorrow.
And I'm in tears right now from your story.
I've attempted suicide four times.
I'm not going to kill myself now.
Thank you so much.
🖤 here 12-14-2019 Thank you for doing this
this made me cry
when he said its not your fault
honestly thank you for this video.
you made me cry, but you also made me think about how to turn my bad feelings into strength.
Thanks for sharing... and for the positive closing remarks. Happy 2015 to you, as well.
Never knew you were part Finn. Have you ever been to Finland?
Elias Jokela Nope!
I didn't know either! :) Yey! Greetings from Finland!
Part Finn? Finland for the win LOL. We on the map again
*****
Do you ever want to go there.
I wonder has he ever been in a sauna...
You remind me of Gaara from Naruto for some reason.
Oh my gosh yes!! Same
But Rep has eyebrows
Wtf lol
And he doesn't have a tattoo on his forehead
But gay
I don't know how or why I stumbled back on this 5 yrs later after watching your video about Onision taking you to court but dismissing the case, but a lot of what you said echoes much more strongly with me now than before. I've had similar but not quite as harsh problems with my dad, basically having almost no working relationship for a long time after moving out due to our differences, we've recently sort of reconnected and began to reconcile after he had a stroke in August last year and got paralyzed on his left side, he's thankfully recovering slowly now being able to move his arm and leg again although he is still very limited in what he can do.
Same with the compartmentalization, I have this problem myself to this day, still struggling with depression and blaming myself for everything. Still haven't managed to turn that around. Hopefully I'll get there at some point. Either way, I've got a ton of respect for you bro (if you'll allow me to call you that ofc ;) )
Had this playing while cleaning my room. There are now tears on my pencils.
You're one of the few youtubers I've kept watching throughout the years. Forever will love you and what you do.
Thanks for thas messege, Stay strong, man.
Even with all the hardships, life is worth liveing, and with the right chances and moves, you can make it awesome
After watching almost 50 minutes of your face theres just one thing i have to say. Dude, youre strong.
Wow. I am Jewish and we are encouraged to debate and question.
This is why the religion of Judaism is more reasonable than Christianity
Lol wonder what George carlin would think about this.....
Really? I grew up Jewish and was always discouraged from asking questions.
Is that an actual fact I mean I was in Jewish middle school for nine years and I didn’t learn shit so I don’t know about that law but I got kicked out for questioning the laws of lgbt in the Torah
George Ehret - Not really. There are different sects if Judaism as there are of Christianity. Some are more tolerant, some are less, most are intolerant to the point of hateful ignorance, when it comes to all religions.
I love him and his views so much!!!
Wow. This was by far one of the best 48 minutes I've ever spent. This video was so inspirational, and I thank you for that. I haven't gone through anything nearly as bad as you have, but this video still helps a lot. So thank you, thank you for being the amazing person that you are.
Hey, way to go
I do have to say, I absolutely love the part about your dad watching the perks of being a wallflower, my dad is very similar, it's great to see him being excepting, so I totally understand
I got through your entire video, it was long yes, but worth the watch. I even heard you eating your munchies
Glad you're enjoying life, and from a fellow introverted person who likes to compartmentalize, don't worry, even though it can be tough when you get sad, and stuff sneaks up on you, there are plenty of people who would be willing to understand you. So keep fighting, you can do it
Note, I'm visually impaired, so sorry if there are weird typos I dictate my posts
Amazing storey big love and mad respect