And in one recent interview, or an older interview that I recently watched, he admitted his favourite moniker is Choi tenderheart, however they say it in Korean.
"my way of saying goodbye isn't like that" that's exactly right. depression doesn't define a person and neither does their death. I will remember him not as someone who left us suddenly, but as a kind, sweet, funny, energetic, talented human
having been a dedicated fan for over 7 years, I can say with absolute confidence that Jonghyun would not lie to us. When he said he'd come back...he meant it. for years, he's been battling his inner demons but he worked so hard to overcome them. this week, the demons won and stole our Jonghyun from us. He didn't leave us, he was taken...it is our duty, as people who loved and cared for him deeply, to make sure those demons never take anybody else. RIP Jonghyun. You worked so hard and I'll always be proud to call myself your fan.
Finally a comment that makes sense, thank you. I can't stand people who didn't even care about him before and now come here to talk about things they know nothing about, which is like 95% of this comment section...
Jonghyun stepped down from his position as a DJ in Blue Night radio due to busy schedules and health. Jonghyun really treasures Blue Night and attached to it since he did it for more than 3 years. This video is the last broadcast for Jonghyun as DJ and Minho went to support his hyung because he knows Jonghyun will cry a lot. A lot of shawols streamed the last day of Blue Night broadcast and hoping for Minho to come and yeah, he did it. I'm thankful someone hugged Jong that day.
Jonghyun stepped down in his position as DJ because of health? Means his depression was already worsening since April? I’ve been watching his videos to find out when his depression got worsened. From his cheerful, chatty self in 2013 to his very sad last solo concert Inspired. He said he would definitely come back but he didn’t...:(
@@victoriahuang8809 He left because SM forced him to. Radio created stability and a healing environment. 8:44 Listen to what he says. It all went downhill after that.
-"you really can come back right?" -"of course. I will definitely come back" I'm in shock and unable to process the reality... All i can do is pray nothing but the best for your afterlife... ❤
Even I am over 50 year old, I cried and pray for him. I am so sad after listening his pass-away. As a mother of two kids (20's and highteen), I am really concerned other young talented souls. Please love yourselves! All your bodies and souls are our treasures for the future which should be shared by all generations.
He did give us time to prepare. All the signs were there in his songs. He cries the most in all concerts but he didn't shed a tear at his last concert- all the warning signs were there. Still, losing him has struck me like a bolt of thunder. I'm not afraid of death anymore, when the time comes, I'll get to see Jonghyun. Thank you for everything you have done and I love you so much.
The way he brushed it off when Minho started talking about his health 😭 but, he did want to come back, and he did try to get better, I'm sure he did. I'm not over it, but I know he's still somewhere out there, and I truly hope he knows he did so so well. Rest in peace Jjong, you're so loved and remembered.
You know what I’ve noticed from watching this? Minho was genuinely confused as to why Jonghyun was ending his time with Blue Night. Throughout the last broadcast Minho mentions how much he loved listening to Jonghyun and that he knew how much Blue Night meant to Jonghyun. It felt like he was trying to find some understanding as to why Jonghyun wanted to leave something he loved so much. Especially after Minho mentioned his wish for Jonghyun’s health, you can tell he knew something was wrong. :(
He was still fighting hard at this point. I don't think he would make empty promises. I'm sorry Jonghyun, that it got too difficult at the end. Sleep well.
6:02 Minho just want his Jonghyun to take care of his health but Jonghyun doesnt want to talking about that. So sorry if we dont know that you had suffered a lot in your life. 7:02 Your wordssss told much clues but we dont know:( RIP Jonghyun. I'm really really sad to hear the news bout your last day, I hope u get ur best way in there.
Minho is such a thoughtful, supportive soul. Its nice to see how the members support each other and their individual projects. Saranghae Jonghyun. Be well. Be blessed.♥♥♥♥
When I first got into SHINee, I though Minho was kinda scary, and always looked like he wanted to kill someone. But then I took a closer look at him, and he is just a big marshmallow. A lot of people say Minho is useless in SHINee, but without him, SHINee wouldn't be such a wonderful group.
Ikr, he plays such a big role to make SHINee as a wonderful and amazing team. Haters said he can’t sing, only visual, BUT he’s definitely better than a lot of us in terms of heart ughhh I love him so much
"what is this? I'm already 28." Who knew you'd leave us... Now you'll forever be 28 in our hearts... Poor Minho and the rest of his members, friends, family, colleagues. Suddenly they're left behind. So surreal. I wish you a safe journey Jonghyun-ssi, wherever you are now.
i don't know if it was way before this time but i could tell... he already was feeling tired and troubled. he was already battling demons in his head that lead him to this eight months later. :( it gave me chills listening to what he's saying about saying goodbye. i'm sorry no one knew what you were dealing with or how you felt. i hope this happens to no one else. and if you're reading this, reach out. for goodness sake, please want to be saved.
Verna Vanessa Garbin I'm sure it's been way longer, like before his solo album... I understand his decision, I just wish I could have hugged him and told him thank you and that he's done well, and that I'm sorry because it should have been obvious, the signals were there. I'm glad he finally found rest. He'll always be in our hearts 💓
He actually struggled with depression all his life. Even as a child he had seasonal affective disorder. Because of how long he struggled it's clear that he was clinically depressed. I only wish depression wasn't generalised as something you can just get over, or that you'll feel better if you keep busy and do the things you like. For a few people it's just something you're born, a chemical imbalance with that gets worse over time if it's not treated. Because no matter how much you try and how much support you have your brain can't sustain the feeling of happiness.
After the news of his death, I happened to stumble upon this video, and i dont know if its because now I know that he was dealing with depression, but i feel like everything in this video pointed to how lonely and sad Jonghyun was. His eyes are so sad, and even the conversation between him and Minho you can tell theres an underlying tone there. How Jonghyun was reminding him of the days before when he had spark and life and how Jonghyun looked like he was reminiscing those times and then how Minho tells Jonghyun to take care of his heallth but Jonghyun quickly cuts him off... How he talks about telling everyone he's leaving and farewell... omg :'(
You nailed it quite well, Kim Tran. I believe that Jonghyun was more his true self on his radio show than what he would otherwise show on public media (except for the moments he couldn't hold back the tears), but at the same time it was a trap of isolation and the late airing hours into late night contributed to it. He said his retreat to radio had become a way to handle stress and he also said this: “I came running to radio in order to escape. I don’t really like going outside. And I don’t really like having to meet a lot of people. I’m also afraid of trying new things. The radio now felt like my own personal space. It had become an escape hatch for me to greet new things without feeling awkward. It became a mental refuge for me, but it also enveloped me with physical fatigue. You could say it was a space of love and hate.” So one can see how much it meant to him when one of his loved ones stepped into his lonely bubble by paying him a visit there and keeping him company in his lonely hours.
Aww Minho is so sweet. I love how supportive and caring he is of his hyung and jjong being his usual emotional crybaby makes this even sweeter. Shinee fighting!
I always loved their relationship. There was a time when Jonghyun used to post a lot on twitter and lke half of his twitter picture uploads were something related to Minho.
It feels good to watch these videos of him being with his brothers laughing, crying and randomly talking..this is what I miss the most, just seeing him being alive.
Looking back at his past videos you can clearly tell he's going through something. 😭😭😭 I have depression myself and many times I've thought about just ending the pain NOW, but one question I got from a close friend that really stuck with me was "so would you rather end things now and never live the rest of your life OR lose a few/many years having bad moments then get all that back after while living a better life?" I really, really wish he took a break instead of ending it all... But I'm guessing SM wouldn't give him a break so easily. It also doesn't help that Korea has majorly shitty attitude towards mental health problems. After everything, I truly hope and believe he's in a much better place now. He will remain in our hearts and minds forever.
Blue Night created such a beautiful space for people and Jonghyun, himself, to unwind and just talk about their troubles...I think talking and meeting people who also went through a lot in this radio programme, helped Jjong hold on for as long as he could...I was so sad when he had to step down as the DJ...
Blue Night broadcasts everyday and at the time SHINee was really busy preparing for their world tour, including tours in Japan and North America...the production team said, jonghyun decided to step down because of their very busy schedule and he didn't have the time to commit to Blue Night. I think he also mentioned something about conserving his health for the tour. :( He definitely said he was gonna come back to radio though, he just wasn't sure when. :(
When I first watched this back then I cried with Jonghyun and since that moment on I started to have an immense admiration for Minho. I am glad Minho was always there for him and is for his members he’s such a lovely person. Now watching this is a bit bittersweet but a precious moment that I will cherish.
when he said he'd come back for blue night i remember when there was that blue moon in the sky during the morning of jonghyun funeral...he did come back.
The way he talk at 6.23 - 7.40 make me realise what he's doing to get 'well prepared' for his own farewell. You're really wanted to heard this right? 'YOU DID WELL, YOU WORK HARD!!' #RIP
Jonghyun never wanted to leave Radio, but SM forced him to leave. They said it was a tough negotiation. Jonghyun said Radio brought him healing. Notice his heath deteriorated after he stepped down until he died. The sadness at 5:06-5:07 and 8:44
"Health always comes first. I hope JjongD can take care of his health well from now on." Minho must've had an inkling and it's what brought him there at nearly 2 am.
watching this really pained me physically. you can tell from his responses and even his eyes alone how deeply he thinks of things. i think minho could tell something was off, he's always there to support the members but the fact that he came all the way to support him for the last episode and comforted him with his words :( maybe i'm overanalyzing things and giving it way too much meaning given the situation but it really seemed like something other than blue night ending was troubling him here
this is the reason why i really love shinee so much..they really cared and support each other..Esp. to minho he really the kindhearted person i ever known..he mkes sure to comfort his hyung even he's busy..i really love him so much..thats ws really touching..Jonghyun tears are genuine and minho heart are awesome and real..❤❤I really hope shinee will last forever ..
At least he knew there were people who would always love him... He's in every SHINee moment, we'll keep his memory alive - I hope he can feel it wherever he is ❤️
Jonghyun, you were a true source of happiness to all of us shawols, and to those citizens who listened to your broadcast every night and weren't necessarily your fans. Your voice warmed our hearts, you were one of the most precious gifts to this world. I'm sorry for not helping you with your difficulties. Thank you. As you heard from Minho, you worked hard. Your words will not be forgotten, and your broadcasts will always be available so we can listen to your voice and kind thoughts anytime.
Jonghyun was such a sweet and beautiful soul...I never realized how big his heart is and it breaks my heart to learn of his passing. I was a fan since their debut and Jonghyun and I are of similar ages...sad to see a young man go like this. I am at a loss and my heart is heavy. I'm praying for him, his family and all of the fans.
There's too much pain in his eyes, voice and smile for me too handle :'( I can't imagine how sorry the ones who love him are for not taking care of him sooner .. But still, Jonghyun did everything for the world to realize he needed help. I mean, he didn't hide his sadness and loneliness. He obviously was waiting for someone to notice, but didn't want to be a burden at the same time, i guess. Jonghyun oppa did everything to fight against depression and that shows how admirable he was. Everyone at the Paradise must be happy to have this new angel by their side ..All I hope is that he can now smile again without any pain
I still can’t believe that Jonghyun is gone. I still can’t accept the fact and here I am just listening to his voice and telling myself that he is still here. 😭 And I have exam in the morning but I can’t even study anymore . I’m just sitting here listening to his voice and not knowing what to do . 💔 R.I.P Jonghyun oppa
"This isn't my way to say goodbye, because we're going to meet again, we should be prepared rather than making it a sudden goodbye" J: Goodbye Minho-ssi. M: Goodbye hyung. I'm so broken right now, I can't hold back my tears, I miss you so much Jjong, I love you with all my heart and soul! ❤💎🌜
I don't wanna even imagine how minho is doing right now it seems like he was the most close member to him at his last days . he was also the only member was there at his last concert and he even filmed with him an episode for variety show just 2 weeks before he died that should had been aired at 25/12 When i watch shinnee being together last year you could see that something was wrong you could see that they were different you could see that they were always extremely tired not having fun with each other as before you could see that they distant from each other i wish they could just try to rebuild their relationship as before to be source of strength to each other because they need each other to be stronger
There are rumors that he filmed a comeback MV before his passing. Apparently, he was preparing 2 solo tracks. Hopefully, his family will agree to release them. The theme was how much Jonghyun loves music.
In the end he lied to us :( Still our Jonghyun worked hard... He worked hard and needed to rest now... Even though his rest will take forever :( Only if he knew how much we're gonna miss his warm and cheerful voice :(
wow, its chilling to watch this now because you can feel all his emotion in his farewell and talking about health. that being said, I'm happy that he was able to have this goodbye on radio with a table covered in cards filled with love, his member by his side and a bunch of fans outside cheering him on. Rest well Jonghyun
Coming back after a while rewatching Blue Night now that there are more subbed episodes and I just want to say thank you to Jonghyun for continuing to be a guiding light for new and old Shawols. You’ve touched so many through your talents and love for art. I’m always in awe of how amazing Shinee is. 🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵
"My way of saying goodbye isn't like that. Because we're going to meet again someday. It's better to be prepared rather than making it a sudden farewell. It definitely will hurt." ... but then again... *sigh
First of all: Thank you so, so much for subbing! 😊💜 Secondly...I think Minho is one of the most kind-hearted, thoughtful and loving persons I've ever "met". He really has a big heart and never fails to amaze me with his kindness. Seriously, the world needs more people like him. People who simply care. It's so sweet to watch how he cares about every single groupmate of his, how he supports them in group and single projects, how he comforts them in times of need and how he simply stays by their sides for as long as they need his shoulder to lean on. It was so cute how he comforted Jonghyun and how he dried his tears and made this a memorable goodbye. I think I'm rather crying now because of how sweet this was, instead of the fact that Jonghyun will pause BlueNight for a while. 😊💙 Seriously, I love those guys❤️ They have such an incredibly sweet relationship with each other...😊☺️ 샤이니 사랑해 😍
I love Ming so so much. He is so so sweet and all the members just have such a strong bond with each other..I love them all so much I can't even put it into words❤️😭
Oh Jonghyun :'( Im still in denial that you're really gone...watching this interview, I can see the hurt and pain written all over your face and I can hear it in your voice :'( But like you said, we're going to meet again someday. I truly hope that you've found the peace and happiness you weren't able to find in this lifetime. I love you so much
This... this is the definition of Love. If I were to explain what true love is to somebody, I would show them this video. They just love each other so much. Everything in this video is perfect ♥ Minho running to the radio station as fast as he could when he saw Jonghyun crying because he couldn't stand just watching him cry in such an important day, he needed to comfort him. Jonghyun's deeply touched face when he first saw Minho and their embrace.. he didn't want to let go of his little brother. Bluenight was not only important to Jonghyun, but to Minho too. You can easily tell that. Especially at 3:30, Jonghyun's voice broke when he said "He [Minho] likes Blue Night that much" and Minho hid his face and (I'm sure) he wiped some tears. I love Jonghyun and Minho relationship. It's too precious. I'll keep rewatching this video till the end of my days. It's really comforting. I was also there too. Outside the studio. I remember my heart sinking watching Jonghyun cry, as the end approached. My boys... I'm so glad Minho was there when Jonghyun needed him most.
OMG THANK YOU FOR THIS!!! and Minho is so sweet I love him more and more, it's amazing that anyone has such a personality do you know how rare that is?!?!? beeing able to show others honest and pure love without it becoming awkward, wow, love them so much, and cutie Jjong my heart was breaking from him crying, and then Minho showed up like a fcking ANGEL. he show be know as Choi Angel from know on. just saying.
"But my way of saying goodbye isn't like that. Because we're going to meet again someday, it's better to be prepared rather than making it sudden farewell." 😢 you left many hints of your last goodbye, I'm truly sorry that I didn't notice it... But I know Jonghyun worked hard to battle his demons and asked help, he wasn't really alone and somehow I think he knew he had people here for him. He was just too tired to live... 😔 I'm truly sorry that he had to go through this and I will always regret to not figured out what he tried to say during his last moments... I will always love you Jonghyun ❤️️
kyootnshort and he finished filming a lot of things as well. Definitely feels like he was getting things in order for one last hurrah before he would leave for good 😭
I just rewatched this after finding out about Jong-hyun’s death and potential suicide and I think this was one of the things that drove him over the edge, having to leave one of the things he loved so dearly. I wish he could’ve seen how much he was worth though. Words can not describe how much I love you Jonghyun Rest In Peace my angel.
@@arandomtvchannel2075 I suffered from depression and going to work was the last thing I wanted to do. All I wanted to do was be left alone. Even Minho could tell JJONG wanted to be left alone so he left. Also see 8:21-8:23. Isolation is what depression builds. It's complicated. He chose to end the show.
NYARKANJIRA perhaps, but I also had depression for a long time and I found that being in touch with friends and family constantly was better than being left alone with my thoughts. Even just a text or call was enough This is a heavy subject. He did do live streams in the early mornings when he couldn’t sleep and talked to many people, this may have been to decompress and not to let things build inside. Don’t forget, he tried to get help. Most people are too afraid they’ll be turned away and don’t get help. Unfortunately mental health is a stigma there. We’ll never know for sure but judging by what we know of his last day, I think he just wanted someone to come in the final moments and somehow stop him. They even said he was revving his car engine very loudly and driving back and forth on the street before hand. I’ve been told when some people choose to end their life, they look for a sign to stop and carry on living. I’ve had a few friends take their lives sadly, and luckily some decided to stop before the last moments and that comes from what they’ve told me. He survived all that time and he deserves recognition for working so hard while feeling like you’re in the deepest hole with no way out. I hope everyone who has depression gets the support and help they need. Remember, it’s hard to see your own self-worth when you’re fighting yourself internally - but so many people do care about you. Stay strong, you deserve to be here to enjoy the good times that are coming to you after all of this struggling.
"Because we're gonna meet again someday, it's better to be prepared rather than making it a sudden farewell" Thinking of the fact that he has planned it for months and what he actually meant saying these words really hurts a lot !!!
I hope this tragedy will help people recognise the ‘FIVE SIGNS OF DEEP, DEEP DEPRESSION’ ... (1st) Crying a lot even over silly little things - (2nd) Tired and fatigued due to lack of sleep - (3rd) Telling sad jokes or writing sad poetry or songs (like Jong Hyun’s ‘LONLEY’) or getting a tattoo (like Jong Hyun’s ‘BLACK DOG’ tattoo) because they don’t feel they have anyone they know deeply enough to speak with directly and who won’t judge them if they do (a physiatrist is almost always the last resort) - (4th) - Avoiding people and staying at home as much as possible (but that just increases their isolation from the world and finally (5th) Planning how they will die and where they will do it (the timing usually depends on how depressed they are feeling after they ha e made their plans). RIP JONG HYUN 💔
This is both so sad and yet heartwarming.. Aw Mino and Jonghyun's love it so pure like brothers TT I wish he didn't had to stop the radio show, this show meant so much to him just the look in his eyes. New year gonna be so hard for his friend & family but I am sure they don't leave him alone. RIP Jonghyun ❤
Both are very sweet !! I hadn’t seen this before, thank you for posting it . Jonghyun was very emotional on this. - I wonder if he didn’t really want to end the radio show broadcast . Very soothing voice .
As long as 2017, he almost took a picture while closing his eyes... He didnt let anyone know his tiredness, sadness.. Rest in peace, my dear bias... You'll never be forgotten... Your angelic side, your kindness, your bright smile, your fragile side, your mood maker side, your talent, your hard work, will always be in our heart... You did well You did very well :')
I miss you so much, JjongD. I'm so appreciative of Minho, who was (& is) always showing his support. I'm so grateful to have known the beautiful group that is 5HINee. They helped me continue living and growing throughout the years. I will always love and support them. Thank you for this video and the English subs. It means more to me than I could ever explain to be able to watch and rewatch this moment in time and I want to express my immense gratitude.
Oh this is so hard.. I'm crying. You're such a very talented artist Jonghyun, and have good friends. I can only hope you talked to them about your problems. I already miss you. May you rest in peace, Jonghyun.
My goodness even here he was giving us a sign to not feel upset we'd meet again soon, his way of goodbye was really forever Ohhh noooo baby I can't. T- T
That Choi Minho might be a Flaming Charisma on stage but deep inside he's such a tender thoughtful soul who gonna support other members all the way.
And in one recent interview, or an older interview that I recently watched, he admitted his favourite moniker is Choi tenderheart, however they say it in Korean.
"Because we are going to meet again some day, it's better to be prepared than making it a sudden farewell."
Pat and I teared when he said this. It was all too sudden.
my heart is broken i'm can't stop to cry
Pat He's prepared everything already before he leave us. But not for us as well. His gone its just too sudden to us. 😢
@Eyra Cutie - Yes, truly sad .
In a way Jonghyun prepare us for worse... I realy miss Him!💙
"my way of saying goodbye isn't like that" that's exactly right. depression doesn't define a person and neither does their death. I will remember him not as someone who left us suddenly, but as a kind, sweet, funny, energetic, talented human
That phrase got me
''we are going to meet again someday''
''it's better to be prepared rather than making it a sudden farewell''
''it will definitely hurt'' TT_TT
Indeed!
🌹🌹🌹🌹🌹
#RIPJonghyun
#RosesForJonghyun
#StayStrongShawols
#StayStrongShinee
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Aejeong Jones me too...
The Innocent scary🤐sad
having been a dedicated fan for over 7 years, I can say with absolute confidence that Jonghyun would not lie to us. When he said he'd come back...he meant it. for years, he's been battling his inner demons but he worked so hard to overcome them. this week, the demons won and stole our Jonghyun from us. He didn't leave us, he was taken...it is our duty, as people who loved and cared for him deeply, to make sure those demons never take anybody else. RIP Jonghyun. You worked so hard and I'll always be proud to call myself your fan.
Finally a comment that makes sense, thank you. I can't stand people who didn't even care about him before and now come here to talk about things they know nothing about, which is like 95% of this comment section...
@@alfarer2107 true... some so called NEW fans who knew nothing.. tried to put the blame on the members, his family, SHAWOL and friends...
THIS!!
@@larie27
He is a literal inspiration
he really need the comfort from his members and minho really came..everyone know ming will come
what happened to jonghyun? :(
Jonghyun stepped down from his position as a DJ in Blue Night radio due to busy schedules and health. Jonghyun really treasures Blue Night and attached to it since he did it for more than 3 years. This video is the last broadcast for Jonghyun as DJ and Minho went to support his hyung because he knows Jonghyun will cry a lot. A lot of shawols streamed the last day of Blue Night broadcast and hoping for Minho to come and yeah, he did it. I'm thankful someone hugged Jong that day.
awww that;s so sweet of minho:(
Jonghyun stepped down in his position as DJ because of health? Means his depression was already worsening since April?
I’ve been watching his videos to find out when his depression got worsened. From his cheerful, chatty self in 2013 to his very sad last solo concert Inspired.
He said he would definitely come back but he didn’t...:(
@@victoriahuang8809 He left because SM forced him to. Radio created stability and a healing environment. 8:44 Listen to what he says. It all went downhill after that.
At 6:00 when Minho said "I hope Jjong will take care of his health" Jonghyun quickly changed the subject... This is so fucking sad, my poor baby...
-"you really can come back right?"
-"of course. I will definitely come back"
I'm in shock and unable to process the reality... All i can do is pray nothing but the best for your afterlife... ❤
Even I am over 50 year old, I cried and pray for him. I am so sad after listening his pass-away. As a mother of two kids (20's and highteen), I am really concerned other young talented souls. Please love yourselves! All your bodies and souls are our treasures for the future which should be shared by all generations.
your children are blessed to have a mother kind you. stay safe, madam♥️
"It's better to be prepared rather than making it a sudden farewell."
Those words are haunting now. Rest in Peace
He did give us time to prepare. All the signs were there in his songs. He cries the most in all concerts but he didn't shed a tear at his last concert- all the warning signs were there. Still, losing him has struck me like a bolt of thunder. I'm not afraid of death anymore, when the time comes, I'll get to see Jonghyun. Thank you for everything you have done and I love you so much.
that's a beautiful thought :) when the day comes for you then Jonghyun will be there to welcome you :)
that was beautiful. One day I get to see him. Look for him and heaven and give me a little long painful hug that he never got as human
@@cynthieful awww that's sweet 💙😇
You can see the sadness in Jonghyun's eyes :( But Minho is so sweet, he's always there for his members.
gazmot yeah you can see that he is so sad,so depressed. He cried in the beginning when he saw Minho. 😞
because he is leaving blue night
The way he brushed it off when Minho started talking about his health 😭 but, he did want to come back, and he did try to get better, I'm sure he did. I'm not over it, but I know he's still somewhere out there, and I truly hope he knows he did so so well. Rest in peace Jjong, you're so loved and remembered.
When they took a picture closing his eyes..i just can't stop myself crying😭.
yong palli so strange. *Teary-eyed
He often take pictures with his eyes closed....
He did that a lot.
You know what I’ve noticed from watching this? Minho was genuinely confused as to why Jonghyun was ending his time with Blue Night. Throughout the last broadcast Minho mentions how much he loved listening to Jonghyun and that he knew how much Blue Night meant to Jonghyun. It felt like he was trying to find some understanding as to why Jonghyun wanted to leave something he loved so much. Especially after Minho mentioned his wish for Jonghyun’s health, you can tell he knew something was wrong. :(
Ashley King you are right! Minho was very concerned for him..this video is telling us the story...💔😢
"you've worked hard" he's always said that. he's always wanted to hear that. i guess he didn't often hear what he needed and wanted most.
“ goodbye Minho “
“ you’ve worked hard”
“ goodbye hyung “
:”(
ashley wong Minho lol what do you mean?
😭😭the way they said goodbye to each other and when he was closing his eyes while taking photo with minho, just..😭😭😭😭..
Okay I get you so sad
He was still fighting hard at this point. I don't think he would make empty promises. I'm sorry Jonghyun, that it got too difficult at the end. Sleep well.
6:02 Minho just want his Jonghyun to take care of his health but Jonghyun doesnt want to talking about that. So sorry if we dont know that you had suffered a lot in your life.
7:02 Your wordssss told much clues but we dont know:(
RIP Jonghyun. I'm really really sad to hear the news bout your last day, I hope u get ur best way in there.
Minho is such a thoughtful, supportive soul. Its nice to see how the members support each other and their individual projects. Saranghae Jonghyun. Be well. Be blessed.♥♥♥♥
He supported him till the end😢
When I first got into SHINee, I though Minho was kinda scary, and always looked like he wanted to kill someone. But then I took a closer look at him, and he is just a big marshmallow. A lot of people say Minho is useless in SHINee, but without him, SHINee wouldn't be such a wonderful group.
Thea Bruun true! 😍😍
Without Minho shinee wouldn't be shinee.... I got to shinee because of him...He is a very warm hearted person...he is beautiful inside out.
big marshmallow 🥺
Who said what 🤼♂️
Ikr, he plays such a big role to make SHINee as a wonderful and amazing team. Haters said he can’t sing, only visual, BUT he’s definitely better than a lot of us in terms of heart ughhh I love him so much
"i hope jjong D can take care of his health well from now on" 😢
Rest In Peace Jonghyun❤ You will forever be remembered.
"what is this? I'm already 28." Who knew you'd leave us... Now you'll forever be 28 in our hearts... Poor Minho and the rest of his members, friends, family, colleagues. Suddenly they're left behind. So surreal. I wish you a safe journey Jonghyun-ssi, wherever you are now.
This whole interview he had such teary eyes. He really loves his brother Minho for coming to see him
i don't know if it was way before this time but i could tell... he already was feeling tired and troubled. he was already battling demons in his head that lead him to this eight months later. :(
it gave me chills listening to what he's saying about saying goodbye.
i'm sorry no one knew what you were dealing with or how you felt.
i hope this happens to no one else.
and if you're reading this, reach out.
for goodness sake, please want to be saved.
Verna Vanessa Garbin Those demons will suffer one day...
Verna Vanessa Garbin I'm sure it's been way longer, like before his solo album... I understand his decision, I just wish I could have hugged him and told him thank you and that he's done well, and that I'm sorry because it should have been obvious, the signals were there. I'm glad he finally found rest. He'll always be in our hearts 💓
He actually struggled with depression all his life. Even as a child he had seasonal affective disorder. Because of how long he struggled it's clear that he was clinically depressed. I only wish depression wasn't generalised as something you can just get over, or that you'll feel better if you keep busy and do the things you like. For a few people it's just something you're born, a chemical imbalance with that gets worse over time if it's not treated. Because no matter how much you try and how much support you have your brain can't sustain the feeling of happiness.
He may have been tired. He had just came back from a concert in Dallas, TX which was March 26th I think.
After the news of his death, I happened to stumble upon this video, and i dont know if its because now I know that he was dealing with depression, but i feel like everything in this video pointed to how lonely and sad Jonghyun was. His eyes are so sad, and even the conversation between him and Minho you can tell theres an underlying tone there. How Jonghyun was reminding him of the days before when he had spark and life and how Jonghyun looked like he was reminiscing those times and then how Minho tells Jonghyun to take care of his heallth but Jonghyun quickly cuts him off... How he talks about telling everyone he's leaving and farewell... omg :'(
Kim Tran yeah I noticed how he cut him off and I just felt so sad ☹️
Kim Tran omg I also wanted to talk about that, when minho started talking g about his health he cut him of so fast
You nailed it quite well, Kim Tran. I believe that Jonghyun was more his true self on his radio show than what he would otherwise show on public media (except for the moments he couldn't hold back the tears), but at the same time it was a trap of isolation and the late airing hours into late night contributed to it.
He said his retreat to radio had become a way to handle stress and he also said this:
“I came running to radio in order to escape. I don’t really like going outside. And I don’t really like having to meet a lot of people. I’m also afraid of trying new things. The radio now felt like my own personal space. It had become an escape hatch for me to greet new things without feeling awkward.
It became a mental refuge for me, but it also enveloped me with physical fatigue. You could say it was a space of love and hate.”
So one can see how much it meant to him when one of his loved ones stepped into his lonely bubble by paying him a visit there and keeping him company in his lonely hours.
Kim Tran i also noticed that he cut Minho while minho's saying to take care of his health. So strange in the beginning.
Aww Minho is so sweet. I love how supportive and caring he is of his hyung and jjong being his usual emotional crybaby makes this even sweeter. Shinee fighting!
I always loved their relationship. There was a time when Jonghyun used to post a lot on twitter and lke half of his twitter picture uploads were something related to Minho.
It feels good to watch these videos of him being with his brothers laughing, crying and randomly talking..this is what I miss the most, just seeing him being alive.
Looking back at his past videos you can clearly tell he's going through something. 😭😭😭
I have depression myself and many times I've thought about just ending the pain NOW, but one question I got from a close friend that really stuck with me was "so would you rather end things now and never live the rest of your life OR lose a few/many years having bad moments then get all that back after while living a better life?"
I really, really wish he took a break instead of ending it all... But I'm guessing SM wouldn't give him a break so easily. It also doesn't help that Korea has majorly shitty attitude towards mental health problems. After everything, I truly hope and believe he's in a much better place now. He will remain in our hearts and minds forever.
7:10 our jonghyunie says " it's better to be prepared than a sudden farewell" we weren't prepared to your lost😭
This man deserved the world. May he shine the brightest in the night sky for eternity. Rest in peace Jonghyun. We will miss you.
Jonghyun: Goodbye Minho Shi
Minho: You've worked hard. Bye Hyung.
😭
That by Hyung just---
Blue Night created such a beautiful space for people and Jonghyun, himself, to unwind and just talk about their troubles...I think talking and meeting people who also went through a lot in this radio programme, helped Jjong hold on for as long as he could...I was so sad when he had to step down as the DJ...
iamroselle why did he step down from DJ?
Blue Night broadcasts everyday and at the time SHINee was really busy preparing for their world tour, including tours in Japan and North America...the production team said, jonghyun decided to step down because of their very busy schedule and he didn't have the time to commit to Blue Night. I think he also mentioned something about conserving his health for the tour. :( He definitely said he was gonna come back to radio though, he just wasn't sure when. :(
Sometimes people just need to be comforted often. Given a hug and constantly hear “everything will be alright, I’ll be here for you.”
this makes me cry so hard.
the fact that minho fainted after jonghyun died makes it even worse.
The way they reached over and held hands and Jonghyun squeezing Minho's hand...I'm not crying someone is cutting onions. 😭😭😭😭
their conversation really meant something that day. TT_TT
"I hope he can take care of his health well from now on".. RIP Jonghyun ♥
When I first watched this back then I cried with Jonghyun and since that moment on I started to have an immense admiration for Minho. I am glad Minho was always there for him and is for his members he’s such a lovely person. Now watching this is a bit bittersweet but a precious moment that I will cherish.
Sad. He is too sweet. All of them in this group. They are so sweet
when he said he'd come back for blue night i remember when there was that blue moon in the sky during the morning of jonghyun funeral...he did come back.
The way he talk at 6.23 - 7.40 make me realise what he's doing to get 'well prepared' for his own farewell. You're really wanted to heard this right? 'YOU DID WELL, YOU WORK HARD!!' #RIP
ANY 77 that time also hit me.
Jonghyun ! Rest in peace ! YOU DID REALLY WELL!
Jonghyun never wanted to leave Radio, but SM forced him to leave. They said it was a tough negotiation. Jonghyun said Radio brought him healing. Notice his heath deteriorated after he stepped down until he died. The sadness at 5:06-5:07 and 8:44
where did he say that? he said he left because of his schedules (japan & american tours) & how he needed to work on his health.
It really still hurts.. But he'll come back after getting enough rest.
The fan's song is so awesome n special.
Najia Kashcool p
"Health always comes first. I hope JjongD can take care of his health well from now on." Minho must've had an inkling and it's what brought him there at nearly 2 am.
watching this really pained me physically. you can tell from his responses and even his eyes alone how deeply he thinks of things. i think minho could tell something was off, he's always there to support the members but the fact that he came all the way to support him for the last episode and comforted him with his words :( maybe i'm overanalyzing things and giving it way too much meaning given the situation but it really seemed like something other than blue night ending was troubling him here
this is the reason why i really love shinee so much..they really cared and support each other..Esp. to minho he really the kindhearted person i ever known..he mkes sure to comfort his hyung even he's busy..i really love him so much..thats ws really touching..Jonghyun tears are genuine and minho heart are awesome and real..❤❤I really hope shinee will last forever ..
ChoiMinhoMyLove are u ok?
Minho always surprise showing up for his members.
At least he knew there were people who would always love him... He's in every SHINee moment, we'll keep his memory alive - I hope he can feel it wherever he is ❤️
Jonghyun, you were a true source of happiness to all of us shawols, and to those citizens who listened to your broadcast every night and weren't necessarily your fans. Your voice warmed our hearts, you were one of the most precious gifts to this world. I'm sorry for not helping you with your difficulties.
Thank you. As you heard from Minho, you worked hard.
Your words will not be forgotten, and your broadcasts will always be available so we can listen to your voice and kind thoughts anytime.
Jonghyun was such a sweet and beautiful soul...I never realized how big his heart is and it breaks my heart to learn of his passing. I was a fan since their debut and Jonghyun and I are of similar ages...sad to see a young man go like this. I am at a loss and my heart is heavy. I'm praying for him, his family and all of the fans.
Fans outside, his brother inside and he still didn't see his worth. Truly sad.
There's too much pain in his eyes, voice and smile for me too handle :'( I can't imagine how sorry the ones who love him are for not taking care of him sooner .. But still, Jonghyun did everything for the world to realize he needed help. I mean, he didn't hide his sadness and loneliness. He obviously was waiting for someone to notice, but didn't want to be a burden at the same time, i guess. Jonghyun oppa did everything to fight against depression and that shows how admirable he was. Everyone at the Paradise must be happy to have this new angel by their side ..All I hope is that he can now smile again without any pain
I came here just after listening Lonely whole day! and now I am dying crying again😭😭
this is currently my lifestyle listening to lonely, reading articles and watching videos about Jonghyun :(
The way he embraced Minho was like don't leave me I just want to rest in your arms. I need you. And I'm happy to see you.😢
I still can’t believe that Jonghyun is gone. I still can’t accept the fact and here I am just listening to his voice and telling myself that he is still here. 😭
And I have exam in the morning but I can’t even study anymore . I’m just sitting here listening to his voice and not knowing what to do . 💔
R.I.P Jonghyun oppa
we all need a friend like minho
"This isn't my way to say goodbye, because we're going to meet again, we should be prepared rather than making it a sudden goodbye"
J: Goodbye Minho-ssi.
M: Goodbye hyung.
I'm so broken right now, I can't hold back my tears, I miss you so much Jjong, I love you with all my heart and soul!
❤💎🌜
I don't wanna even imagine how minho is doing right now it seems like he was the most close member to him at his last days . he was also the only member was there at his last concert and he even filmed with him an episode for variety show just 2 weeks before he died that should had been aired at 25/12
When i watch shinnee being together last year you could see that something was wrong you could see that they were different you could see that they were always extremely tired not having fun with each other as before you could see that they distant from each other i wish they could just try to rebuild their relationship as before to be source of strength to each other because they need each other to be stronger
I wasn’t prepared for your last goodbye 😔
"I definitely will comeback." 😭😭😭 TT
There are rumors that he filmed a comeback MV before his passing. Apparently, he was preparing 2 solo tracks. Hopefully, his family will agree to release them. The theme was how much Jonghyun loves music.
In the end he lied to us :(
Still our Jonghyun worked hard... He worked hard and needed to rest now... Even though his rest will take forever :( Only if he knew how much we're gonna miss his warm and cheerful voice :(
Victoria Dinh no..he doesnt lie...he wants to....but he cant...
I cried. I don't like seeing Jonghyun like this. :( I love the bond between him and Minho though. :*
Ara Prado ?
wow, its chilling to watch this now because you can feel all his emotion in his farewell and talking about health.
that being said, I'm happy that he was able to have this goodbye on radio with a table covered in cards filled with love, his member by his side and a bunch of fans outside cheering him on. Rest well Jonghyun
"since it's jjong-d's last day" 😢😢😭😭 RIP
Aww...Minho is so sweet. He made jjong's last night on air even more special!! ❤️❤️❤️
Coming back after a while rewatching Blue Night now that there are more subbed episodes and I just want to say thank you to Jonghyun for continuing to be a guiding light for new and old Shawols. You’ve touched so many through your talents and love for art. I’m always in awe of how amazing Shinee is. 🩵🩵🩵🩵🩵
"My way of saying goodbye isn't like that. Because we're going to meet again someday. It's better to be prepared rather than making it a sudden farewell. It definitely will hurt."
... but then again...
*sigh
Thank you for the sub. My heart feels heavy watching this. Minho is so sweet to give his hyung the support needed.
First of all: Thank you so, so much for subbing! 😊💜
Secondly...I think Minho is one of the most kind-hearted, thoughtful and loving persons I've ever "met". He really has a big heart and never fails to amaze me with his kindness. Seriously, the world needs more people like him. People who simply care.
It's so sweet to watch how he cares about every single groupmate of his, how he supports them in group and single projects, how he comforts them in times of need and how he simply stays by their sides for as long as they need his shoulder to lean on.
It was so cute how he comforted Jonghyun and how he dried his tears and made this a memorable goodbye.
I think I'm rather crying now because of how sweet this was, instead of the fact that Jonghyun will pause BlueNight for a while. 😊💙
Seriously, I love those guys❤️ They have such an incredibly sweet relationship with each other...😊☺️
샤이니 사랑해 😍
I love Ming so so much. He is so so sweet and all the members just have such a strong bond with each other..I love them all so much I can't even put it into words❤️😭
watching this after his death really explains a lot of things #ripjonghyun #staystrongshinee #staystrongshawol
My Heart Is Broken In Pieces Right Now. RIP , Angel.
Oh Jonghyun :'( Im still in denial that you're really gone...watching this interview, I can see the hurt and pain written all over your face and I can hear it in your voice :'( But like you said, we're going to meet again someday. I truly hope that you've found the peace and happiness you weren't able to find in this lifetime. I love you so much
This... this is the definition of Love. If I were to explain what true love is to somebody, I would show them this video. They just love each other so much. Everything in this video is perfect ♥ Minho running to the radio station as fast as he could when he saw Jonghyun crying because he couldn't stand just watching him cry in such an important day, he needed to comfort him. Jonghyun's deeply touched face when he first saw Minho and their embrace.. he didn't want to let go of his little brother. Bluenight was not only important to Jonghyun, but to Minho too. You can easily tell that. Especially at 3:30, Jonghyun's voice broke when he said "He [Minho] likes Blue Night that much" and Minho hid his face and (I'm sure) he wiped some tears. I love Jonghyun and Minho relationship. It's too precious. I'll keep rewatching this video till the end of my days. It's really comforting. I was also there too. Outside the studio. I remember my heart sinking watching Jonghyun cry, as the end approached. My boys... I'm so glad Minho was there when Jonghyun needed him most.
OMG THANK YOU FOR THIS!!! and Minho is so sweet I love him more and more, it's amazing that anyone has such a personality do you know how rare that is?!?!? beeing able to show others honest and pure love without it becoming awkward, wow, love them so much, and cutie Jjong my heart was breaking from him crying, and then Minho showed up like a fcking ANGEL. he show be know as Choi Angel from know on. just saying.
"But my way of saying goodbye isn't like that. Because we're going to meet again someday, it's better to be prepared rather than making it sudden farewell." 😢 you left many hints of your last goodbye, I'm truly sorry that I didn't notice it... But I know Jonghyun worked hard to battle his demons and asked help, he wasn't really alone and somehow I think he knew he had people here for him. He was just too tired to live... 😔 I'm truly sorry that he had to go through this and I will always regret to not figured out what he tried to say during his last moments... I will always love you Jonghyun ❤️️
It feels like this year, Jonghyun was just saying goodbye. Ending what he needed to do. Having his last concert just a week prior.
kyootnshort and he finished filming a lot of things as well. Definitely feels like he was getting things in order for one last hurrah before he would leave for good 😭
kyootnshort in here I really feel like he just want to do alot of things but he is too tired. n what to say my heart aches
I just rewatched this after finding out about Jong-hyun’s death and potential suicide and I think this was one of the things that drove him over the edge, having to leave one of the things he loved so dearly. I wish he could’ve seen how much he was worth though.
Words can not describe how much I love you Jonghyun Rest In Peace my angel.
Alex Rose I thought the same thing. Maybe if he would have gone back to this, he wouldn’t have felt so isolated ?
I thought so too. If he’s still doing his radio shows, maybe he wouldn’t feel so lonely.
@@arandomtvchannel2075 I suffered from depression and going to work was the last thing I wanted to do. All I wanted to do was be left alone. Even Minho could tell JJONG wanted to be left alone so he left. Also see 8:21-8:23. Isolation is what depression builds. It's complicated. He chose to end the show.
NYARKANJIRA perhaps, but I also had depression for a long time and I found that being in touch with friends and family constantly was better than being left alone with my thoughts. Even just a text or call was enough
This is a heavy subject.
He did do live streams in the early mornings when he couldn’t sleep and talked to many people, this may have been to decompress and not to let things build inside.
Don’t forget, he tried to get help. Most people are too afraid they’ll be turned away and don’t get help.
Unfortunately mental health is a stigma there.
We’ll never know for sure but judging by what we know of his last day, I think he just wanted someone to come in the final moments and somehow stop him. They even said he was revving his car engine very loudly and driving back and forth on the street before hand.
I’ve been told when some people choose to end their life, they look for a sign to stop and carry on living. I’ve had a few friends take their lives sadly, and luckily some decided to stop before the last moments and that comes from what they’ve told me.
He survived all that time and he deserves recognition for working so hard while feeling like you’re in the deepest hole with no way out.
I hope everyone who has depression gets the support and help they need. Remember, it’s hard to see your own self-worth when you’re fighting yourself internally - but so many people do care about you. Stay strong, you deserve to be here to enjoy the good times that are coming to you after all of this struggling.
"I will come back" :( So painful to watch. But I am also so grateful for this video and that we get to see him expressing his feelings about goodbye's
Being here after he passed away gives me soo much pain
"Because we're gonna meet again someday, it's better to be prepared rather than making it a sudden farewell"
Thinking of the fact that he has planned it for months and what he actually meant saying these words really hurts a lot !!!
"Rest a little and make a comeback" jjong-d was probably so stressed with work 😢
Minho is so sweet
I hope this tragedy will help people recognise the ‘FIVE SIGNS OF DEEP, DEEP DEPRESSION’ ... (1st) Crying a lot even over silly little things - (2nd) Tired and fatigued due to lack of sleep - (3rd) Telling sad jokes or writing sad poetry or songs (like Jong Hyun’s ‘LONLEY’) or getting a tattoo (like Jong Hyun’s ‘BLACK DOG’ tattoo) because they don’t feel they have anyone they know deeply enough to speak with directly and who won’t judge them if they do (a physiatrist is almost always the last resort) - (4th) - Avoiding people and staying at home as much as possible (but that just increases their isolation from the world and finally (5th) Planning how they will die and where they will do it (the timing usually depends on how depressed they are feeling after they ha e made their plans). RIP JONG HYUN 💔
@Moon Beam okay, surprised nobody has responded to this in six months but are you okay? Feeling any better these days?
I thought I'd cry but actually this made me smile so much!!!
This is both so sad and yet heartwarming.. Aw Mino and Jonghyun's love it so pure like brothers TT
I wish he didn't had to stop the radio show, this show meant so much to him just the look in his eyes.
New year gonna be so hard for his friend & family but I am sure they don't leave him alone.
RIP Jonghyun ❤
thank you for subbing this, i'm so freaking grateful :((( i'm so happy that minho was there to comfort our poor jjongD. i love them so much 💚
"i will definitely come back"😭😭 you can rest now dont worry cause we won't forget you
This is why jiong called him "loyal" ! He is the best boy
BLESS THE ENG SUBS !! Ty so much for doing this, it made my day ❤️
I can't stop crying. It's just so unbearable to see how broken he looked already. Rest in peace Jonghyunnie ❤
"Annyeong hyung" 😍😍😍 I fucking adore this precious moment.
:'( aigooo
Both are very sweet !!
I hadn’t seen this before, thank you for posting it .
Jonghyun was very emotional on this. - I wonder if he didn’t really want to end the radio show broadcast .
Very soothing voice .
As long as 2017, he almost took a picture while closing his eyes...
He didnt let anyone know his tiredness, sadness..
Rest in peace, my dear bias...
You'll never be forgotten...
Your angelic side, your kindness, your bright smile, your fragile side, your mood maker side, your talent, your hard work, will always be in our heart...
You did well
You did very well
:')
I miss you so much, JjongD. I'm so appreciative of Minho, who was (& is) always showing his support. I'm so grateful to have known the beautiful group that is 5HINee. They helped me continue living and growing throughout the years. I will always love and support them. Thank you for this video and the English subs. It means more to me than I could ever explain to be able to watch and rewatch this moment in time and I want to express my immense gratitude.
Love the part at 0:12 when Minho saw him crying than hugged him again, so sweet~
Oh this is so hard.. I'm crying. You're such a very talented artist Jonghyun, and have good friends. I can only hope you talked to them about your problems. I already miss you. May you rest in peace, Jonghyun.
I have been crying all day. Just falling. Im so sad.
진짜매일매일종현오빠 영상찾아보는거같아요..봐도봐도 너무 보고싶고 너무그립네요 오빠부디거기선 편하게 행복하길바래요 다시만나자고오빠가말한것처럼 나중에 꼭 봐요..그때까지 잘지내셔야해요ㅎ 그동안오빠덕분에 고맙고 많이 웃고울었네요 감사해요..
My goodness even here he was giving us a sign to not feel upset we'd meet again soon, his way of goodbye was really forever
Ohhh noooo baby I can't. T- T