Your suggestion that you died on the surgery table, and are now living a very different life reminded me of this quote: “You've got to let go of who you were, to become who you will be.” ― Janet Fitch I wish you the very best boogie, you are a positive influence on youtube and countless individuals. Hang in there. :)
Hey Boogie... I too have been suffering from a form of depression lately and have been doing my best to work through it. I just want to let you know that I love you. You are a genuine inspiration, whether you think so or not--it's not for you to decide. You'll pull through this and we are here to help. Let's game together some time!
I know exactly what you mean. Over the past few years I have been through a lot of things, and in result I've gotten severe anxiety that makes it so I can't speak much or at all, as well as many other problems and health issues. The big reason all of this happening (or at least what I think is the reason) made me feel the way you do, like I died about 2-3 years ago and only my body remains. I feel nothing like myself, like it's just gone and never coming back. I am still trying to fight for a better future, but I can't seem to find much if anything positive about going on. I've just been run down so much that I feel there's nothing left but pain and emptiness. You have done so well with dealing with things and keeping your journey going, and I'm so proud of you. You are a true inspiration Boogie.
Dad took the same surgery, he got depressed, could not enjoy food, could not drink whine and did not know who he was at times. This lasted for 1 year Boogie, but it gets better! Trust me, you will be able to eat and drink again and get sleep! And Boogie, look up stoicism! That pilosophy helps me everyday!
I'm a labourer and do very hard work, but I think the stuff that you go through would be way harder. You can't go home at night and relax. I can. Keep fighting your fight how you are Boogie, you're doing well and you're a beautiful human. ❤️
FrostedJr Respect to you for your labor. Even if people don't say it your work is appreciated by the communities that take advantage of it and don't even know it
I can truly sympathize. Even our dream jobs can become a grind from time to time. When I worked at Industrial Light & Magic I felt the same way. At times it was the best job in the world creating movie magic, and at other times it was tedious nerve-wracking frustration. This too shall pass. I know TH-cam is your livelihood, but don't be a slave to the algorithm or anyone's expectations. When yah need to take a break then yah need to take a break. Well all need a breather once in a while so breathe when necessary. Keeping you in my prayers. Blessings to you.
I work in the 3D industry too and I completely agree! It's amazing to create movies, but it doesn't always go well, and some projects are definitely harder than others! Taking some time off inbetween periods of stress is the best gift someone can give to himself!
Feel free to Google me. I assure you I am legit. My name is C. Andrew Nelson. I spent 4 years at Industrial Light & Magic as a compositor, rotoscoper, matte painter, and texture artist working on the Star Wars prequels, Galaxy Quest, Jurassic Park III, The Perfect Storm and other films. Before that I was at LucasArts Entertainment company for 6 years where I was a visual effects supervisor and senior artist working on many Star Wars & non-Star Wars games. After leaving ILM I ran the VFX Department at the Academy of Art University for several years before becoming a freelance visual effects supervisor & animation consultant for companies such as Disney, Fox, Nickelodeon, MTV, Electronic Arts, PBS, Hasbro Interactive and many others. I have also served multiple terms on the Board of Directors of the Visual Effects Society. Here on TH-cam I run a fish tank channel called Aquatasy because keeping tropical fish is the hobby that keeps me sane while working in the high pressure business of film, television, and games. By the way there is even a videos on my channel called "The Fish Awakens" that was shot in the lobby of Industrial Light & Magic. I did not bring up my career here in the comments in order to grandstand. I merely used an example from my own life in order to encourage Boogie because I greatly admire him. Now if after you have Googled my name, watched my Aquatasy channel videos, checked out my C. Andrew Nelson channel, looked me up on IMDb and Wikipedia, or visited my official website you still find yourself skeptical then there isn't much more that I can do for you. I would, however, respectfully request that you not hurl expletives and accusations at people you do not know simply because you doubt what they say. As stated, my original comment was one of empathy directed solely at Boogie in support of what he is going through, drawing a parallel from my own career purely to establish that I know firsthand the kind of pressure he is under as a creator. I'm not sure why you are so upset by that. I hope this clears things up for you.
+CustardGanet Well, it was a bit of a disappointment when we had the company screening for The Phantom Menace. Expectations were so high. I remember there being dead silence at the end of the screening with a collective feeling of, "Uh...is that it??" I had much lowered expectations working on Attack of the Clones. I also saw a lot more of that film ahead of time because I was working on multiple sequences, whereas with Episode 1 I worked mostly on the Gungan ground battle. So I had a much higher opinion of Ep2 due to my cautious expectations. By the time Revenge of the Sith rolled around I had already left ILM and dodged that bullet. I truly like George. I may not have agreed with all his decisions regarding plot & characters, however when it comes to visuals he knows his stuff. Working for him was like a master class in that sense. Soul-crushing would be all my ILM co-workers who were assigned to Wild Wild West. Incredible effects work, hideously awful movie.
+Aquatasy I was a kid when both came out in cinema (I was around 10-12 from memory) and I loved both x) Growing up I definitely saw the flaws but you and your coworkers should still be proud, kids loved their work :P Working with Lucas must have been such a great experience! I hope I get to work with people with such a vision in my artist career!
Hang in there man. Your videos to me are like coming home and having conversations with an old friend. You have a big inpact on alot of people and you make this world a better place.
Maybe something that makes it hard for him, is that it is only a one way conversation. He puts in so much, but doesn't get the same back. I think it's an issue with many vloggers.
Sorry to hear about your struggles Boogie, but I know me and other fans are so incredibly appreciative of your honesty and ability to face adversity. Keeping you in my thoughts!
Yea, totally on point! Boogie puts his heart out here to me and I really appreciate and can relate to so much he says. Our lives couldn't be more different on the outside, but inside we have the same doubts and pain and conflicts and have to work through them. It's therapudic to watch as I'm sure it is for him to make.
I love your dog! so cute! My own dog is a great comfort to me :) I hope you read this Boogie: Thank you for being so transparent and open. I can empathize with you, truly. We all go through hard winter seasons in our life. Sometimes if feels like months. Sometimes it takes years...but a new season does arrive and when it does it brings joy on that arising morning. Never lose the hope. I haven't. And thank you for sharing the hope you hold within yourself. The way I look at it, because I've had to deal with a lot of mental health issues and physical ones as well...is that there are all these weeds in life and they choke up all the good stuff sometimes and take up space for more potential growth and good. Sometimes you have to pull those weeds out to get the good stuff growing. It can be painful going through that change, getting molded and overcoming the trials of life...but a new season does arrive. One filled with peace, hope, and a good future. Sending you all the positive vibes and thoughts to you sir.
I see some people telling Boogie to smoke weed. He's said he doesn't like how it makes him feel, and that it would fuck up his healthy eating. As a weed smoker, I definitely agree about the eating.
yeah i smoke pot off and on but theres a lot of people where weed isn't even enjoyable. Like sometimes when I smoke it just makes me all quiet and self conscious if I'm around people and also certain strains just make my heart pound and give me anxiety.. its like not even enjoyable lol. The opposite of euphoric basically. There is certain strains though that I actually like. And i know plenty of other people who get these same effects from it. Also I'm pretty sure weed is still illegal in the state boogie lives in I remember him talking about in another video he said doesn't really like the effects and plus its illegal there.. something like that.
BOOGIE BOOGIE BOOGIE. You probably won't see this, but don't worry about the community and don't worry about fueling the monster. You may never meet all of us, and we may never even be acquaintances, but you make 4.4 million people lives better every day and continue to do so even through all of the crap that life has thrown at you. That is a LOT of happiness generated across the world. You may not think much of what you've accomplished through this so far, but you are seriously kicking ass and finding who you are and making decisive changes for the better. Keep believing in yourself and your future, because you will make it, and it will be fucking awesome. You have more perseverance and courage to follow through on your intentions than most people in this world boogie. Hang in there. We'll be here too. 🙌
Thank you for posting this meaningful video. I know many people struggle with the exact same thoughts and feelings you do and I am happy you are keeping a realistic attitude and not giving up. We love you Boogie!
Going through a rough time myself. Your video reminded me of a quote from Viktor Frankl's book, Man's Search For Meaning: “To draw an analogy: a man's suffering is similar to the behavior of a gas. If a certain quantity of gas is pumped into an empty chamber, it will fill the chamber completely and evenly, no matter how big the chamber. Thus suffering completely fills the human soul and conscious mind, no matter whether the suffering is great or little. Therefore the "size" of human suffering is absolutely relative.” I don't think you need to qualify your expressions of pain in comparison to that of your audience. There is no comparison. Suffering is suffering. Good luck bud.
Wise words! However, in this day and age, where ppl get triggered by ridiculous things, it's probably a necessity to include a disclaimer like this :/ But again, very wise words...
Very well said. Once you truly experience what's it's like to be in a state of suffering, I find that you are much more empathetic to those that are in that state.
I really appreciate it when you're willing to open up like this, it's helps me connect with someone else who has been through their own struggles. Don't beat yourself up for feeling like life is hard, it sure can be for anyone and you've been through more than your fair share of rough times. You care greatly for others and want the best for the world and we can all see that clearly (with the exception of some super cynics out there). I really appreciate everything you do, it makes the world a better place to be in. Much love, man! Take care of yourself :)
- boogie, remember that 200,000 people watched this video. 200,000 people think you are worth their time. I dont think anyone can actually truly conceive that number in its entirety. Keep that in mind when you feel like quitting youtube. - you didnt die on the operating table. We are all still here. My guess is that the stress/anxiety is causing you to feel that way. - do you ever just say screw the algorithm? take me for who I am or not at all? upload the review damn it. If you cant enjoy the job at least a little bit it will just get worse and worse so you need to make this job more enjoyable for yourself. How might you be able to accomplish that?
I don't want to sound like a Troll, but Boogie hasn't done a hard day's work in his entire life. There was once a time when he created websites for people and did search engine optimisation (I don't know the jargon, but he made certain searches in search engines more likely to show up for a fee). But again, he did that in the comfort of his own bedroom, and it only substituted his income, as he has always relied on Government handouts along the way. But in a reality where today's tech doesn't exist, he never would have done that (therefor he'd of done nothing), as Boogie is too lazy to get a real job. P.S. Again, I hate to sound like a Troll, but Boogie literally does very little in terms of work (he has even admitted it himself, "without the Internet, without TH-cam I'd still be on disability" and it is really sad for him to have that belief about himself (he basically gave up work a long time ago).
Boogie I know this is cliche, but how your feeling in your current situation (what you've shared with us) is probably pretty darn normal. You've made some very drastic and life altering changes in rapid succession over the past 6 month, with what i'm sure is very little time to self reflect and process them. and this is super cliche...but if you stay on your current path and continue to see your therapist and seek support where you need it most, it will start to get better. I just want to thank you for sharing, cause even if you don't know or think it....when you share your feelings with your audience, there are hundreds, if not thousands of people that might be feeling similarly, and it lets them know....they're not alone in feeling how they do.
Don't let TH-cam's programming bring you down. You once said that you would keep making the kind of content you wanted to make no matter what TH-cam did. You always told aspiring TH-camr's to do the same thing as well. Let your creative juices flow, Boogie. Express yourself through Francis, bring Jessy back occasionally, make videos that you want to see. The viral videos will return once you make something that inspires everyone to share it. You have talent, don't be afraid to use it.
Keep on winning that fight, keep on seeing your friends dude. That whole 'died on the table' thing could be a fun way to mark a new chapter in your life, like a figurative new start, rather than a morbid fear.
I think TH-cam has decided it's not a platform where you can express your personal opinion. It's a platform for music videos, bubble pop vlogs and people that pay the "extra" to get noticed
As you probably have read many times, I find you very aspiring. Your emotional wisdom and overflowing compassion that you are able to convey, while still being authentic and so human, is just so wholesome. You send very important messages, like how help and support from friends or generally relationships is something to strive for, and not something weak. For better or worse, the things you have expierenced have made you WHO you are. And it gives me hope that I too can grow and learn with my problems, as serious or unserious they are. Thanks :) byeeeeeeee.
I don't want to sound like a Troll, but Boogie hasn't done a hard day's work in his entire life. There was once a time when he created websites for people and did search engine optimisation (I don't know the jargon, but he made certain searches in search engines more likely to show up for a fee). But again, he did that in the comfort of his own bedroom, and it only substituted his income, as he has always relied on Government handouts along the way. But in a reality where today's tech doesn't exist, he never would have done that (therefor he'd of done nothing), as Boogie is too lazy to get a real job. P.S. Again, I hate to sound like a Troll, but Boogie literally does very little in terms of work (he has even admitted it himself, "without the Internet, without TH-cam I'd still be on disability" and it is really sad for him to have that belief about himself (he basically gave up work a long time ago).
Don't say that you're "going to be ok". It keeps that feeling in the future and out of reach. Say instead "I am ok. Today is going to be a great day!" It works for me and turns my day around. :)
Hey Boogie, thanks for the video. I hope things work out for you. I think you're doing a great job as you go through with your transformation post-surgery. Keep talking, we'll keep listening.
I'm 44 you're never going to be that person you were. I'll never be that 19 year old again which is when I got married the first time. You've learned, you've changed, and in the future there will be a new you. If you stop learning and stop changing you age. Maybe a part of you did die on that table. The old you and the exciting thing is you get to choose who you're going to become. I'm glad you're still here on the youtube. We're here for you just on the other side of the screen.
I don't want to sound like a Troll, but Boogie hasn't done a hard day's work in his entire life. There was once a time when he created websites for people and did search engine optimisation (I don't know the jargon, but he made certain searches in search engines more likely to show up for a fee). But again, he did that in the comfort of his own bedroom, and it only substituted his income, as he has always relied on Government handouts along the way. But in a reality where today's tech doesn't exist, he never would have done that (therefor he'd of done nothing), as Boogie is too lazy to get a real job. P.S. Again, I hate to sound like a Troll, but Boogie literally does very little in terms of work (he has even admitted it himself, "without the Internet, without TH-cam I'd still be on disability" and it is really sad for him to have that belief about himself (he basically gave up work a long time ago).
just because he isn't doing manual labor doesn't mean he isn't working hard. very few people do manual labor jobs. ill bet you don't even do a manual labor job, and if I'm wrong, oh well. but don't try to say he hasn't worked hard to earn a gold play button, or worked hard to earn every single view, subscription, dollar and sponsor he has. its insulting the work he has done to get to this point.
The ending of the video legitimately made me crack up. In a metaphorical sense Boogie you are right though, a PART of you died in the table. I think that when people go through a life changing event for the better or worse they leave a piece of themselves behind. Whether that's a good or a bad thing however is up to you.
I'm a perfect example. My life changing event was when I had to leave a whole WORLD behind (friends, family, way of life etc.) when I moved countries... But I was awake during MY "operation" of a life changing event - I distinctly remember that horrible, depressing and painful feeling of something [A PART OF ME] *crushing* inside me and dying, one certain morning of my reminiscing my past life... to which I am ever so nostalgic to this very day... I actually died TWICE in my lifetime so far... What's left of me.........
The !st Winner what's left? After all that, your here on TH-cam helping people in the comments.... A good person, that's what's left. Be proud of yourself you seem nicer than most.
I believe the feeling of a "dream state" that you're describing is disassociation. this is common for people with PTSD or those undergoing multiple new and stressful situations. I have felt that same feeling for years and I always thought I was crazy until I mentioned it to my sister one day and she was the only one in my life that could relate to it and described to me what it was. I kind of think of it as a way of the brain to cope with what is going on by "taking you out" of the situation mentally. I don't necessarily think of it as a bad thing, but it is an extremely strange feeling for sure. nonetheless, disassociation is 110% understandable with all of the immense changes that you have endured recently, and no, you did not die on that operating table haha. anyways, just some food for thought that may help you a little I hope. much love
DP/DR, Depersonalization or Derealization. Having dealt with it myself, being stuck in a dream state is a good way to describe it. It's pretty much everything you described above.
Maybe he means that his old self died. So his old personality or subpersonality, dependent on food and what not, died. It is not necessarily a bad thing, it happens to people all the time. Sometimes it is more severe than others. Sometimes you just have to do one thing differently, and sometimes you're cracked open like a nut and can't move on. You will need to get to know yourself again and probably shed a lot of things you identified with. That's what he said as well, he's in his biggest free fall. So that is what I think he means with dieing.
Change is scary, its terrifying to me. I have a great fear of what the future holds. I can relate to thinking I died and this is the dream. I tried killing myself almost 20 years ago and I still think, what if this isn't real? I would say for you, you didn't die on that table, not exactly. An old part of you died and a new you was born. You have another chance at a new life and it's scary. I'm honestly rambling and idk if I'm getting my point across, but just know that people love you and that you're never alone.
Wow. I cannot believe how great you look Boogie. I hope you can get some rest your body is going through a lot. Keep it up and you're motivating me to shed some pounds!
I don't know him so I can't form an opinion or argue your points with any valid facts. I was just speaking as one overweight person to another. Not really anything else. Maybe some one else would be able to speak about this.
I really don't think it's the behavior of a manipulative egomaniac. On youtube, he's restricted by the terms of service creators have to abide by, so he has to censor himself to a certain degree. Also, pretty much everybody has a professional demeanor that's different from how they act outside of work. I think you're being too quick to make assumptions.
You must at all times be ready to sacrifice who you are, for the person you will become. If you feel like a part of you has died, don't beat yourself up about it, your evolving , and obviously for the best. Embrace it my friend, change is not meant to make you comfortable. You have lost 200 pounds boogie your getting your life back! When it comes down to it the most important think is your health buddy. Whats happening is that your not used to being a winner yet. All the uncertainty is a normal symptom that comes with evolution. Own it Boogie.
Hang in there! You’re coming in for a landing! That huge gastric bypass success is moving into a different phase and the pace and type of change will be different. But you know that!
Hey, Boogie. Don't worry about TH-cam. You're in a position where you can get work in broadcasting now. Or maybe public speaking. Or maybe video game executive. Or life coach.
You're holding up well against the odds, buddy. I am happy to see how much you've managed to accomplish. I am 36, I've also been through a lot, panic disorder, fibromyalgia, I went from an active, good looking young man who worked out everyday and practised three martial arts to a sick guy who felt like an old man with so much pain that it was very difficult to move from my bed to the bathroom. I've gone through that suffering for a few years, then life changed again and I'm almost back to my regular life now, still feel some pain but it's bearable. Change is inevitable, losses and hardships too, but we can have the strength to adapt if we really put our hearts into it and keep optimistic and hopeful. I know it's easier said than done, I've been there, but trust me buddy, you're not living a nightmare. You are presenting yourself with the opportunity of change, of waking up living a new life and looking back through all the hardships and thinking to yourself: "How good it is to recognize how much I've grown as a human being, how much I've learned and got stronger through those daring times." It is amazing how much we are able to learn from suffering, through adversity and through our own weaknesses. One day you'll realize how much of a better man you've become, how much better you'll be to also be able to experience your life with someone who will also have grown to be so much better over her own bad experiences, only to be able to, from that moment on, share that positive energy and love. Sometimes we feel adrift and lost in what seems to be a wrong and never ending track that leads nowhere, only to find out that we've been there so we do not get lost again when we do find the right one.
jeommy kin yeah but with somebody like him he will never be happy with himself he's just a person that's always gonna find something wrong with himself that's why he needs all the love he can get from other ppl its so obvious
You're the man bro! Try not to let the negative things get you down. We love ya. Focus on the positives (easier said than done) but needs to be done. Heaps of health issues myself and trying to deal with everything that comes with it . Overeating included unfortunately. All the best Buddy
Also, if you talk about your griefs and troubles that may be negative, lots of people including me get joy and fulfillness out of helping others through their issues and talking about said issues, don't be afraid to be and show yourself.
We love you Boogie. Well done on the journey thus far. Everything happens for a reason, even if it makes no sense to us. Keep doing you and enjoy being you. From one person to another who suffers depression, some days are better than others. It helps to focus on the things that make us smile to get through the dark. Keep your head up man!
Pulling for you, Boogie. I'm dealing with a relapse in my own mental health (anxiety and depression) at the moment and in some ways it's harder than overcoming my issues the first time, but in others it's easier. As you said in the video, keep on looking towards the future. Love ya dude. Keep it up :)
You took the words right outta my mouth. Glad to see you’re still keeping up the good fight man. The craziest changes happen when one change opens the flood gate. Ever since I got broken up with in January I’m now finding myself doing what I used to do and doing new stuff also. Like I’m working at a fucking tax office now and do I like it nah but I guess that’s just the cards for me right now. Things are ultimately gonna get so much better for ya boogs. Keep it up bro proud of you.
The AI that imposes it will upon Boogie is coming for all of us. Soon this beast will be in all our homes and telling us how to please it so we can live our lives without pain or discomfort. Hidden knowledge, you have known this for some time now.
I'm seeing that there is definitely some pain coming through here. I hope you come to some relief. In some ways you did die on that table, and following your divorce and when you became a full-time TH-cam maker. The boogie today is becoming different from the boogie before the surgery. That's normal for everyone. I am not the person I was ten years ago. I won't be the same person ten years from now. It's life, and it's growth. It's OK to mourn the loss of who you were before, just keep in perspective that you're always working on who you will become.
We love you so much! We're so glad to see how much hope you have and your progress. We're praying for you, and we look forward to seeing further progress and further ways in which you continue to be blessed for continually spreading hope and good karma!
The fact that u compared it to washing dishes shows that u aren't very happy right now. I wish u well my friend. Cheer up, it could always be worse. Once u truly honestly feel u hit rock bottom, you're only 50 percent there in reality
I'm sorry you're going through a bit of a rough patch right now, hard to know what to say much as one of your many many commenters but we genuinely wish you all the best every day, do whatever keeps you in the highest of spirits and look after yourself!
You're not alone Boogie, we all go through problems, my 2018 so far: - I lost my job. - I never sleep. - I had to put my dog, my best and only friend, down. - I sold everything I own to pay my debts. - I had to move back in with my mum. My life is fucking awful, I'm depressed and I never leave the house due to my anxiety. Be grateful for any support you have because some don't have any.
So sorry to hear that dude. Hope you get back on your feet soon. Checked out your channel and you make great content so I know you've got the talent to find a good job soon. Take care.
This Vid just popped up for me today and I’m a Red Subscriber. :( Love your Channel very much Boogie! I hope for the best in your state of sorrow! I have followed this channel for a few years and have very much enjoyed everything from Rambling, Movie Reviews, To Francis’ crazy antics ( :D
Boogie, have you heard of Depersonalisation? A (usually) trauma-caused affliction which makes everything feel unreal and like you're in a bubble or a dream 24/7. Untreated or unacknowledged, it can last a lifetime.
AXF yep! If I remember correctly Ethan had also been experiencing depersonalization disorder for a few years. Boogie's is a defence mechanism of sorts spawned by his ptsd.
Chin up brother I’m going through a lot of similar things stay strong! Saw a quote that I keep telling myself “fate whispers to the warrior you can not weather this storm. The warrior whispers back “I am the storm”
I'm glad you can talk these things out. So many big changes for you and the end of a relationship is like a bereavement. Give it time, it will get easier. That feeling that your life is not real - I had that for years because of depression. I remember my 'real' life feeling more vivid, more present, but things are hazier through the fog of depression. If it continues to feel that way for you, please do speak to a doctor not just your therapist, because it could be screwy seratonin levels or something? Especially with your anxiety kicking off more. Sending you good vibes.
I like the msg that you put out overall in this video about spreading happiness and hopefulness in comparison to negativity good job, Boogie for anyone with problems or going through a bad patch your an inspiration to us as well as myself with anxiety, you inspire us to always keep going and look forward to the good days just because today is shity doesn't mean tomorrow will be. Hope you have a feel-good day soon =)
I went under the knife 3 years ago on my back surgery was 8 hours and I always think what if I died that day. So I think it’s normal to have those thoughts in your head. We’re not crazy
I think this video has given me mixed feelings. I've been having a rough time myself. Recently I've been getting really stressed at the school work I have, and I'm closer than ever to failing 1 or 2 classes. I was a straight A student back in highschool, and not being able to get the stuff in my class bothers me to no end. I've been feeling absolutely shitty about school and almost everything else. That's why I've been hyping up spring break for myself. I'm hoping the stress relief of being out of school for a week can help me out. So I watch this and I see you taking things as they come and continuing to fight on, and I try to think am I able to carry on like that? What's driving me to continue? Why do I feel so bad, when so many others have it worse? What kind of person does it make me to not have the drive to fix myself physically? Should I even worry about me physically, I mean my mind doesn't seem to be working right. I can't even score well on my statistics test after studying so hard over the course of the class. Will I really recover from whatever funk this is and keep a decent GPA so I can stay in school? Should I stay in school? I'm not really smart enough for it. What would I even do if I weren't in school? Where would I work? Anywhere willing to hire me I suppose. How would I transition into becoming a real adult after that? I'm still practically a child by the standards of taking care of oneself. But then again, look at Boogie he's got it rough and he keeps going forward. Look at the people who have found their slot in life. Someday I could do that. I could find a job where I could help out and make enough to support myself. Which means someday I could get my degree. Which means I have to get through my classes. Low grade or not. I need to pass. I'm not sure where I went with this, and I think I just vented things completely unrelated to this vid, but it felt good. I guess that's kind of what this video was to you, Boogie. Just a few statements to get some thoughts out and freshen your head a bit. Thanks for that
Ghqebvful hang in there buddy. we are all struggling. college is getting really tough for me too. we just have to do our best with what we've got and make decisions that will benefit us the most for the future. hang in there!
You can't force yourself to do things, as I'm sure you've figured out. But you can use your physiology to trick yourself into it. When you get rewarded for something, the pleasure centers of your brain get a nice shot of dopamine. You're more likely to do things if you get dopamine for it. Figure out what kind of reward would be worth doing the work to pass your classes. Break it down into small goals that you're 90% sure you'll do, and follow up with a reward. Boom, dopamine. Do it enough, and you've made yourself a good habit. And be honest with yourself. This "i'm not smart enough" bullshit is more likely to twist you in knots than to straighten you out. You did it before, you can do it again. Good luck.
You've got to develop your coping skills. The best way to get better at calming yourself down is to practice doing it. If you notice you're relaxed, think about something that makes you a little anxious. When your heart beat picks up, focus on your breathing until you calm back down. Work yourself up and calm yourself down a few times, then let yourself stay relaxed. The more you practice, the better you will get at it. The better you get at it, the more you can trust yourself to handle stress. Hope you see this -- it's easy to do, and it works. Good luck.
I think I’m the opposite to your normal follower. Your ramblings videos are the only ones I watch, as I’m not into gaming much (although I love fifa, which is the only game I own on my PS4) but keeping up with your life and being constantly reminded of the correct attitude to live by is really inspiring and grounding. Keep on keeping on boogie, thankyou for living ❤️
Boogie, we love you brother if this platform and these types of videos are a form of therapy then I support you whole-heartedly. Do what makes you happy man.
I want to give Sammy a belly rubs and treats. He's such a good dog. I bet he helps your mental health. A friend of mine had suicidal thoughts and the only thing that kept him going was his puppy. Think about it if he killed himself tomorrow who would look after the puppy? And if the puppy loves him he can't be that bad. I want to clarify that I have no psychiatric training and this is mostly informed by my personal experience. Have a good day and take your dog for a walk if you have one. Or play with your cat. Or let your snake warm itself from your body heat. Whatever makes you happy.
I can relate to this, my wife passed 98 days ago and whenever I thought about popping my clock I kept thinking "who'll take care of my cat if I do" it's kind of funny what forms a tether can take.
That's a very good point, Boogie. I was asking the same thing as a viewer. Why am I not the first one who gets to see when one of my channels, that I had been subscribed to for ages, uploads a video? That is something (fairly) new. It used to be the first thing we saw ON THE TOP when TH-cam openend. Not anymore. In fact I have to search for it (every once in a while) and still, a video would appear from 5 years ago.. Annoying to say the least. You know you have 2 audiences: the gamers and another group of people who only tuned in to your 'real life' videos. 'Til last year we had to look for it with a 'magnifying glass' but thankfully you decided to give updates weekly this year, so it should appear on top of the list every week, right? That would be logical, but nope. If I don't click on it right away (if/when I accidentally see it), then it won't re-appear on its own. Every once in a while I have to remember myself to 'oh ja, where was the video again from such and such'. I usually listen to a few while doing house chores. Well, TH-cam is not the same as it used to be... ~ Happy Easter Weekend, Boogie!! xxx
Praying for you Boogie, don't let your problems and the world get you down, your going to be alright, your a strong, brave young man, I salute you with the highest respect one can possibly give.
Boogie your gonna have to change your thumbnail man that doesnt even look like you any more u handsome beast! keep fightin the good fight and keep that head high!
Boogie : ) - For u 8) Parable of the Chinese Farmer:- Farmer in field Equanimous Farmer Once there was a Chinese farmer who worked his poor farm together with his son and their horse. When the horse ran off one day, neighbors came to say, “How unfortunate for you!” The farmer replied, “Maybe yes, maybe no.” When the horse returned, followed by a herd of wild horses, the neighbors gathered around and exclaimed, “What good luck for you!” The farmer stayed calm and replied, “Maybe yes, maybe no.” While trying to tame one of wild horses, the farmer’s son fell, and broke his leg. He had to rest up and couldn’t help with the farm chores. “How sad for you,” the neighbors cried. “Maybe yes, maybe no,” said the farmer. Shortly thereafter, a neighboring army threatened the farmer’s village. All the young men in the village were drafted to fight the invaders. Many died. But the farmer’s son had been left out of the fighting because of his broken leg. People said to the farmer, “What a good thing your son couldn’t fight!” “Maybe yes, maybe no,” was all the farmer said.
Hi Beth I am not sure I understand your comment but the universe and it sliding doors theory still holds fast. - You dont get drafted, you may become the greatest coach. - You dont get drafted, you start a business you become a Billionaire - You dont get drafted you meet the women of your dreams you have a wonderful and you miss out on a life of play off misery and gold digging hoes. There is no good or bad, just an interpretation of it. Happiness is method of travelling, not a destination. : ) - have a safe journey.....
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175 pounds lost? damn good job boogie
Red Racer you mean good job doctor
big meech 😂 so true!
Yeah, that is really good, Boogie.
He didn't lose a single pound himself because he ain't got the nuts to lmao
its the truth. he put in about 3 weeks of work then stopped for the surgery.
Your suggestion that you died on the surgery table, and are now living a very different life reminded me of this quote:
“You've got to let go of who you were, to become who you will be.” ― Janet Fitch
I wish you the very best boogie, you are a positive influence on youtube and countless individuals. Hang in there. :)
Marlon Mendez I think kylo ren said that.
FroztiProductions If he did, he was quoting Janet Fitch.
Hey Boogie... I too have been suffering from a form of depression lately and have been doing my best to work through it. I just want to let you know that I love you. You are a genuine inspiration, whether you think so or not--it's not for you to decide. You'll pull through this and we are here to help. Let's game together some time!
Hey mate, you're going to pull through too. Whatever you're doing, it will pass. Things will get better.
I know exactly what you mean. Over the past few years I have been through a lot of things, and in result I've gotten severe anxiety that makes it so I can't speak much or at all, as well as many other problems and health issues. The big reason all of this happening (or at least what I think is the reason) made me feel the way you do, like I died about 2-3 years ago and only my body remains. I feel nothing like myself, like it's just gone and never coming back. I am still trying to fight for a better future, but I can't seem to find much if anything positive about going on. I've just been run down so much that I feel there's nothing left but pain and emptiness. You have done so well with dealing with things and keeping your journey going, and I'm so proud of you. You are a true inspiration Boogie.
Dad took the same surgery, he got depressed, could not enjoy food, could not drink whine and did not know who he was at times. This lasted for 1 year Boogie, but it gets better! Trust me, you will be able to eat and drink again and get sleep! And Boogie, look up stoicism! That pilosophy helps me everyday!
Just don't die on the toilet. That's my mantra.
NintendoCapriSun someone should have told Elvis that...
That would be a shitty way to die
Nitresz _ Zing!
Oh hey, Tim! Wasn't expecting to see you here.
he died in the bathroom not on the toilet ...... lol
I'm a labourer and do very hard work, but I think the stuff that you go through would be way harder. You can't go home at night and relax. I can. Keep fighting your fight how you are Boogie, you're doing well and you're a beautiful human. ❤️
FrostedJr Respect to you for your labor. Even if people don't say it your work is appreciated by the communities that take advantage of it and don't even know it
I can truly sympathize. Even our dream jobs can become a grind from time to time. When I worked at Industrial Light & Magic I felt the same way. At times it was the best job in the world creating movie magic, and at other times it was tedious nerve-wracking frustration. This too shall pass. I know TH-cam is your livelihood, but don't be a slave to the algorithm or anyone's expectations. When yah need to take a break then yah need to take a break. Well all need a breather once in a while so breathe when necessary. Keeping you in my prayers. Blessings to you.
I work in the 3D industry too and I completely agree! It's amazing to create movies, but it doesn't always go well, and some projects are definitely harder than others! Taking some time off inbetween periods of stress is the best gift someone can give to himself!
@Pixar the great wtf dude lol.
Feel free to Google me. I assure you I am legit. My name is C. Andrew Nelson. I spent 4 years at Industrial Light & Magic as a compositor, rotoscoper, matte painter, and texture artist working on the Star Wars prequels, Galaxy Quest, Jurassic Park III, The Perfect Storm and other films. Before that I was at LucasArts Entertainment company for 6 years where I was a visual effects supervisor and senior artist working on many Star Wars & non-Star Wars games. After leaving ILM I ran the VFX Department at the Academy of Art University for several years before becoming a freelance visual effects supervisor & animation consultant for companies such as Disney, Fox, Nickelodeon, MTV, Electronic Arts, PBS, Hasbro Interactive and many others. I have also served multiple terms on the Board of Directors of the Visual Effects Society.
Here on TH-cam I run a fish tank channel called Aquatasy because keeping tropical fish is the hobby that keeps me sane while working in the high pressure business of film, television, and games. By the way there is even a videos on my channel called "The Fish Awakens" that was shot in the lobby of Industrial Light & Magic.
I did not bring up my career here in the comments in order to grandstand. I merely used an example from my own life in order to encourage Boogie because I greatly admire him. Now if after you have Googled my name, watched my Aquatasy channel videos, checked out my C. Andrew Nelson channel, looked me up on IMDb and Wikipedia, or visited my official website you still find yourself skeptical then there isn't much more that I can do for you. I would, however, respectfully request that you not hurl expletives and accusations at people you do not know simply because you doubt what they say. As stated, my original comment was one of empathy directed solely at Boogie in support of what he is going through, drawing a parallel from my own career purely to establish that I know firsthand the kind of pressure he is under as a creator. I'm not sure why you are so upset by that. I hope this clears things up for you.
+CustardGanet Well, it was a bit of a disappointment when we had the company screening for The Phantom Menace. Expectations were so high. I remember there being dead silence at the end of the screening with a collective feeling of, "Uh...is that it??" I had much lowered expectations working on Attack of the Clones. I also saw a lot more of that film ahead of time because I was working on multiple sequences, whereas with Episode 1 I worked mostly on the Gungan ground battle. So I had a much higher opinion of Ep2 due to my cautious expectations. By the time Revenge of the Sith rolled around I had already left ILM and dodged that bullet. I truly like George. I may not have agreed with all his decisions regarding plot & characters, however when it comes to visuals he knows his stuff. Working for him was like a master class in that sense.
Soul-crushing would be all my ILM co-workers who were assigned to Wild Wild West. Incredible effects work, hideously awful movie.
+Aquatasy I was a kid when both came out in cinema (I was around 10-12 from memory) and I loved both x) Growing up I definitely saw the flaws but you and your coworkers should still be proud, kids loved their work :P
Working with Lucas must have been such a great experience! I hope I get to work with people with such a vision in my artist career!
Boogie, please take care of yourself, please. You're important to a lot of people.
Ray Norman that is Rilly nice of you. And ya you are important to lot of people.
Hang in there man. Your videos to me are like coming home and having conversations with an old friend. You have a big inpact on alot of people and you make this world a better place.
Maybe something that makes it hard for him, is that it is only a one way conversation. He puts in so much, but doesn't get the same back. I think it's an issue with many vloggers.
I feel the same
Rachael Marks I agree. That's why I wrote what I did so that if he sees my comment he'll feel better
That's soo nice and I second that literally making the world a better place, he certainly is doing it's amazing how much progress he's made!
Sorry to hear about your struggles Boogie, but I know me and other fans are so incredibly appreciative of your honesty and ability to face adversity. Keeping you in my thoughts!
Well said👍
So true
Yea, totally on point! Boogie puts his heart out here to me and I really appreciate and can relate to so much he says. Our lives couldn't be more different on the outside, but inside we have the same doubts and pain and conflicts and have to work through them. It's therapudic to watch as I'm sure it is for him to make.
I love your dog! so cute! My own dog is a great comfort to me :) I hope you read this Boogie:
Thank you for being so transparent and open. I can empathize with you, truly. We all go through hard winter seasons in our life. Sometimes if feels like months. Sometimes it takes years...but a new season does arrive and when it does it brings joy on that arising morning. Never lose the hope. I haven't. And thank you for sharing the hope you hold within yourself.
The way I look at it, because I've had to deal with a lot of mental health issues and physical ones as well...is that there are all these weeds in life and they choke up all the good stuff sometimes and take up space for more potential growth and good. Sometimes you have to pull those weeds out to get the good stuff growing. It can be painful going through that change, getting molded and overcoming the trials of life...but a new season does arrive. One filled with peace, hope, and a good future.
Sending you all the positive vibes and thoughts to you sir.
I see some people telling Boogie to smoke weed. He's said he doesn't like how it makes him feel, and that it would fuck up his healthy eating. As a weed smoker, I definitely agree about the eating.
Oh shit Joey, I didn’t know you watched boogie vids!! Hope you’re doing great, miss all your dip reviews :)
yeah i smoke pot off and on but theres a lot of people where weed isn't even enjoyable. Like sometimes when I smoke it just makes me all quiet and self conscious if I'm around people and also certain strains just make my heart pound and give me anxiety.. its like not even enjoyable lol. The opposite of euphoric basically. There is certain strains though that I actually like. And i know plenty of other people who get these same effects from it. Also I'm pretty sure weed is still illegal in the state boogie lives in I remember him talking about in another video he said doesn't really like the effects and plus its illegal there.. something like that.
JoeyLeddzDippin94 Bro, how has ur health been seen ur last video?
JoeyLeddzDippin94 he should try kratom for the pain
I lived in the past and constantly dwelled on depressing things when I smoked every day.
BOOGIE BOOGIE BOOGIE. You probably won't see this, but don't worry about the community and don't worry about fueling the monster. You may never meet all of us, and we may never even be acquaintances, but you make 4.4 million people lives better every day and continue to do so even through all of the crap that life has thrown at you. That is a LOT of happiness generated across the world. You may not think much of what you've accomplished through this so far, but you are seriously kicking ass and finding who you are and making decisive changes for the better. Keep believing in yourself and your future, because you will make it, and it will be fucking awesome. You have more perseverance and courage to follow through on your intentions than most people in this world boogie. Hang in there. We'll be here too. 🙌
YOU TOOK THE WORDS OUT OF MY MOUTH !!!!
Metal For Breakfast i agree my friend
True bro lol 😁 boogie is a good person i want to see him happy
Metal For Breakfast boogie boogie boogie can't you see
Boogie, you're a good man with an even greater heart and soul. Never stop being awesome.
Thank you for posting this meaningful video.
I know many people struggle with the exact same thoughts and feelings you do and I am happy you are keeping a realistic attitude and not giving up. We love you Boogie!
Going through a rough time myself. Your video reminded me of a quote from Viktor Frankl's book, Man's Search For Meaning:
“To draw an analogy: a man's suffering is similar to the behavior of a gas. If a certain quantity of gas is pumped into an empty chamber, it will fill the chamber completely and evenly, no matter how big the chamber. Thus suffering completely fills the human soul and conscious mind, no matter whether the suffering is great or little. Therefore the "size" of human suffering is absolutely relative.”
I don't think you need to qualify your expressions of pain in comparison to that of your audience. There is no comparison. Suffering is suffering. Good luck bud.
Passion of the Nerd nice words, all my best to you
Wise words! However, in this day and age, where ppl get triggered by ridiculous things, it's probably a necessity to include a disclaimer like this :/
But again, very wise words...
Very well said. Once you truly experience what's it's like to be in a state of suffering, I find that you are much more empathetic to those that are in that state.
Passion of the Nerd good shit right here. I will steal this and sound smart tomororw. Thanks. Also gonna get this book. Sound like a good read
Great book, I should read it again.
People are here. You need to talk? We're here. Don't think you're alone.
people on the internet aren't real people.
LOL. The last people you should talk to about personal issues are anonymous randoms in the youtube comment fields.
@ Daniel Gyllenbreider, True. I learned that lesson the hard way years ago.
Villordsutch Lol shut up nobody
Gerg C you know he doesn’t care right😂😂
"Spreading misery creates more misery. Spreading hope creates hope, and hope is great. Hope is awesome!" -- Boogie 2988
I really appreciate it when you're willing to open up like this, it's helps me connect with someone else who has been through their own struggles. Don't beat yourself up for feeling like life is hard, it sure can be for anyone and you've been through more than your fair share of rough times. You care greatly for others and want the best for the world and we can all see that clearly (with the exception of some super cynics out there). I really appreciate everything you do, it makes the world a better place to be in. Much love, man! Take care of yourself :)
- boogie, remember that 200,000 people watched this video. 200,000 people think you are worth their time. I dont think anyone can actually truly conceive that number in its entirety. Keep that in mind when you feel like quitting youtube.
- you didnt die on the operating table. We are all still here. My guess is that the stress/anxiety is causing you to feel that way.
- do you ever just say screw the algorithm? take me for who I am or not at all? upload the review damn it. If you cant enjoy the job at least a little bit it will just get worse and worse so you need to make this job more enjoyable for yourself. How might you be able to accomplish that?
Maverick5588 i totally agree
make that 300,000 people
That is literally an *entire CITY/TOWN!*
Maverick5588 your at 250,000 now
I don't want to sound like a Troll, but Boogie hasn't done a hard day's work in his entire life.
There was once a time when he created websites for people and did search engine optimisation (I don't know the jargon, but he made certain searches in search engines more likely to show up for a fee).
But again, he did that in the comfort of his own bedroom, and it only substituted his income, as he has always relied on Government handouts along the way.
But in a reality where today's tech doesn't exist, he never would have done that (therefor he'd of done nothing), as Boogie is too lazy to get a real job.
P.S. Again, I hate to sound like a Troll, but Boogie literally does very little in terms of work (he has even admitted it himself, "without the Internet, without TH-cam I'd still be on disability" and it is really sad for him to have that belief about himself (he basically gave up work a long time ago).
Boogie I know this is cliche, but how your feeling in your current situation (what you've shared with us) is probably pretty darn normal. You've made some very drastic and life altering changes in rapid succession over the past 6 month, with what i'm sure is very little time to self reflect and process them. and this is super cliche...but if you stay on your current path and continue to see your therapist and seek support where you need it most, it will start to get better.
I just want to thank you for sharing, cause even if you don't know or think it....when you share your feelings with your audience, there are hundreds, if not thousands of people that might be feeling similarly, and it lets them know....they're not alone in feeling how they do.
Don't let TH-cam's programming bring you down. You once said that you would keep making the kind of content you wanted to make no matter what TH-cam did. You always told aspiring TH-camr's to do the same thing as well. Let your creative juices flow, Boogie. Express yourself through Francis, bring Jessy back occasionally, make videos that you want to see. The viral videos will return once you make something that inspires everyone to share it. You have talent, don't be afraid to use it.
The discussion of the algorithm and how it has dominance... that is such an insightful realization. So many layers to that.
Great vid
Keep on winning that fight, keep on seeing your friends dude. That whole 'died on the table' thing could be a fun way to mark a new chapter in your life, like a figurative new start, rather than a morbid fear.
I think TH-cam has decided it's not a platform where you can express your personal opinion. It's a platform for music videos, bubble pop vlogs and people that pay the "extra" to get noticed
And gaming, and weird toy channels and clickbait kids channels
Boogie, think about this, if your dead and this is after life, you're stuck with 4.4 million of us ;)
you´re*
Kinda like 72 virgins
I think the afterlife would be kinder to Boogie. Just saying.
As you probably have read many times, I find you very aspiring.
Your emotional wisdom and overflowing compassion that you are able to convey, while still being authentic and so human, is just so wholesome. You send very important messages, like how help and support from friends or generally relationships is something to strive for, and not something weak.
For better or worse, the things you have expierenced have made you WHO you are.
And it gives me hope that I too can grow and learn with my problems, as serious or unserious they are.
Thanks :)
byeeeeeeee.
I wanna see that ready player one review boogie! Keep your head up mate!
I don't want to sound like a Troll, but Boogie hasn't done a hard day's work in his entire life.
There was once a time when he created websites for people and did search engine optimisation (I don't know the jargon, but he made certain searches in search engines more likely to show up for a fee).
But again, he did that in the comfort of his own bedroom, and it only substituted his income, as he has always relied on Government handouts along the way.
But in a reality where today's tech doesn't exist, he never would have done that (therefor he'd of done nothing), as Boogie is too lazy to get a real job.
P.S. Again, I hate to sound like a Troll, but Boogie literally does very little in terms of work (he has even admitted it himself, "without the Internet, without TH-cam I'd still be on disability" and it is really sad for him to have that belief about himself (he basically gave up work a long time ago).
300k now
Love you Boogie!
Don't say that you're "going to be ok". It keeps that feeling in the future and out of reach. Say instead "I am ok. Today is going to be a great day!" It works for me and turns my day around. :)
Hey Boogie, thanks for the video. I hope things work out for you. I think you're doing a great job as you go through with your transformation post-surgery. Keep talking, we'll keep listening.
I'm 44 you're never going to be that person you were. I'll never be that 19 year old again which is when I got married the first time. You've learned, you've changed, and in the future there will be a new you. If you stop learning and stop changing you age. Maybe a part of you did die on that table. The old you and the exciting thing is you get to choose who you're going to become. I'm glad you're still here on the youtube. We're here for you just on the other side of the screen.
Don’t usually watch a vid immediately after seeing the notification, but always got time for you dude.
I'm so proud of you Boogie. I really mean it.
I don't want to sound like a Troll, but Boogie hasn't done a hard day's work in his entire life.
There was once a time when he created websites for people and did search engine optimisation (I don't know the jargon, but he made certain searches in search engines more likely to show up for a fee).
But again, he did that in the comfort of his own bedroom, and it only substituted his income, as he has always relied on Government handouts along the way.
But in a reality where today's tech doesn't exist, he never would have done that (therefor he'd of done nothing), as Boogie is too lazy to get a real job.
P.S. Again, I hate to sound like a Troll, but Boogie literally does very little in terms of work (he has even admitted it himself, "without the Internet, without TH-cam I'd still be on disability" and it is really sad for him to have that belief about himself (he basically gave up work a long time ago).
Wears name
just because he isn't doing manual labor doesn't mean he isn't working hard. very few people do manual labor jobs. ill bet you don't even do a manual labor job, and if I'm wrong, oh well. but don't try to say he hasn't worked hard to earn a gold play button, or worked hard to earn every single view, subscription, dollar and sponsor he has. its insulting the work he has done to get to this point.
im happy somone has the balls to say it
At least the youtube comments' algorithm is based of silly humans and not a broken and stubborn ai.
I find it inspirational how courageous you are and your messages of positivity, you're very wise.
The ending of the video legitimately made me crack up.
In a metaphorical sense Boogie you are right though, a PART of you died in the table. I think that when people go through a life changing event for the better or worse they leave a piece of themselves behind. Whether that's a good or a bad thing however is up to you.
It could also be right in a sense if we are living in a universe determined by a metaphysical indefinite reoccurence.
Well said :)
Uchiha no duh
I'm a perfect example. My life changing event was when I had to leave a whole WORLD behind (friends, family, way of life etc.) when I moved countries... But I was awake during MY "operation" of a life changing event - I distinctly remember that horrible, depressing and painful feeling of something [A PART OF ME] *crushing* inside me and dying, one certain morning of my reminiscing my past life... to which I am ever so nostalgic to this very day...
I actually died TWICE in my lifetime so far... What's left of me.........
The !st Winner what's left? After all that, your here on TH-cam helping people in the comments....
A good person, that's what's left. Be proud of yourself you seem nicer than most.
I believe the feeling of a "dream state" that you're describing is disassociation. this is common for people with PTSD or those undergoing multiple new and stressful situations. I have felt that same feeling for years and I always thought I was crazy until I mentioned it to my sister one day and she was the only one in my life that could relate to it and described to me what it was. I kind of think of it as a way of the brain to cope with what is going on by "taking you out" of the situation mentally. I don't necessarily think of it as a bad thing, but it is an extremely strange feeling for sure. nonetheless, disassociation is 110% understandable with all of the immense changes that you have endured recently, and no, you did not die on that operating table haha. anyways, just some food for thought that may help you a little I hope. much love
haleynicolewbu marry me
Dont be creepin on people in comments and shit trying to marry people you dont know lol
DP/DR, Depersonalization or Derealization. Having dealt with it myself, being stuck in a dream state is a good way to describe it. It's pretty much everything you described above.
Maybe he means that his old self died. So his old personality or subpersonality, dependent on food and what not, died. It is not necessarily a bad thing, it happens to people all the time. Sometimes it is more severe than others. Sometimes you just have to do one thing differently, and sometimes you're cracked open like a nut and can't move on. You will need to get to know yourself again and probably shed a lot of things you identified with. That's what he said as well, he's in his biggest free fall. So that is what I think he means with dieing.
+naters pataters Major lol thank you for that!!
Well, this video is doing exceptionally well for its first hour!
EckhartsLadder yoooo I'm subbed to u!
Oh shit the boi eckarts
ECKHARD
people thrive on negativity
eylo
You kill me, sir. Much love your way as you continue on your journey. Thank you for sharing, as always
Love you, love your progress, love what you stand for. A lot of people see you as a role model and I can see why. Keep your head up.
Change is scary, its terrifying to me. I have a great fear of what the future holds. I can relate to thinking I died and this is the dream. I tried killing myself almost 20 years ago and I still think, what if this isn't real? I would say for you, you didn't die on that table, not exactly. An old part of you died and a new you was born. You have another chance at a new life and it's scary. I'm honestly rambling and idk if I'm getting my point across, but just know that people love you and that you're never alone.
Wow. I cannot believe how great you look Boogie. I hope you can get some rest your body is going through a lot. Keep it up and you're motivating me to shed some pounds!
I love your transparency and honesty !
Hey man just keep pushing forward! Congratulations on all your progress and I look forward to see you making it past your goal and what comes next!
I don't know him so I can't form an opinion or argue your points with any valid facts. I was just speaking as one overweight person to another. Not really anything else. Maybe some one else would be able to speak about this.
I really don't think it's the behavior of a manipulative egomaniac. On youtube, he's restricted by the terms of service creators have to abide by, so he has to censor himself to a certain degree. Also, pretty much everybody has a professional demeanor that's different from how they act outside of work. I think you're being too quick to make assumptions.
It’s a rambling series for a reason if you don’t like it then leave.
Shush grandpa
Its actually a rambing video, read the title
Sean Savage Rambing* I think you mean
Don't listen to the haters Boogie, if you wanna spell it Rambing than you spell it Rambing
Mick Mickymick
Does the same apply to using "than" instead of the more correct "then?"
TroutButter it was funny; let's keep it that way, ight?
That made my day 😂
TroutButter lol! True! Both are funny.
Hang in there. I relate to so much of what you're dealing with. Boy, do I empathize.
Fancy seeing you here :D
Gotta watch Boogie 🤓🖖
Old Nerd Reviews divorce happy sad love hate its a tale as old as time we get it
When you said you felt like you died on the table and this felt like a dream that tripped me up.
You must at all times be ready to sacrifice who you are, for the person you will become. If you feel like a part of you has died, don't beat yourself up about it, your evolving , and obviously for the best. Embrace it my friend, change is not meant to make you comfortable. You have lost 200 pounds boogie your getting your life back! When it comes down to it the most important think is your health buddy. Whats happening is that your not used to being a winner yet. All the uncertainty is a normal symptom that comes with evolution. Own it Boogie.
Hope you get better soon :)
Skankhunt 42 OMG it's skankhunt 42! Lol
Skankhunt 42 wow it's you...
Hey Boog, we’ll always love and support you. Keep doing what makes you happy and like you said, keep your eyes on the goal. You’re looking great!
Hang in there! You’re coming in for a landing! That huge gastric bypass success is moving into a different phase and the pace and type of change will be different. But you know that!
Keep your head up Boogie. My fiance died 10 years ago, and I still can't sleep in my bed without her, I sleep on my couch. It'll get better.
Hey, Boogie. Don't worry about TH-cam. You're in a position where you can get work in broadcasting now. Or maybe public speaking. Or maybe video game executive. Or life coach.
You're holding up well against the odds, buddy. I am happy to see how much you've managed to accomplish. I am 36, I've also been through a lot, panic disorder, fibromyalgia, I went from an active, good looking young man who worked out everyday and practised three martial arts to a sick guy who felt like an old man with so much pain that it was very difficult to move from my bed to the bathroom. I've gone through that suffering for a few years, then life changed again and I'm almost back to my regular life now, still feel some pain but it's bearable. Change is inevitable, losses and hardships too, but we can have the strength to adapt if we really put our hearts into it and keep optimistic and hopeful. I know it's easier said than done, I've been there, but trust me buddy, you're not living a nightmare. You are presenting yourself with the opportunity of change, of waking up living a new life and looking back through all the hardships and thinking to yourself: "How good it is to recognize how much I've grown as a human being, how much I've learned and got stronger through those daring times." It is amazing how much we are able to learn from suffering, through adversity and through our own weaknesses. One day you'll realize how much of a better man you've become, how much better you'll be to also be able to experience your life with someone who will also have grown to be so much better over her own bad experiences, only to be able to, from that moment on, share that positive energy and love. Sometimes we feel adrift and lost in what seems to be a wrong and never ending track that leads nowhere, only to find out that we've been there so we do not get lost again when we do find the right one.
I was separated from my wife for 3 years and it was tough the entire time. It does get easier, hang in there.
tonster181g all you gotta do is find a woman better than her but for him I don't see that
jeommy kin - This guy knows what's up.
jeommy kin yeah but with somebody like him he will never be happy with himself he's just a person that's always gonna find something wrong with himself that's why he needs all the love he can get from other ppl its so obvious
You're the man bro! Try not to let the negative things get you down. We love ya. Focus on the positives (easier said than done) but needs to be done. Heaps of health issues myself and trying to deal with everything that comes with it . Overeating included unfortunately. All the best Buddy
Also, if you talk about your griefs and troubles that may be negative, lots of people including me get joy and fulfillness out of helping others through their issues and talking about said issues, don't be afraid to be and show yourself.
We love you Boogie. Well done on the journey thus far. Everything happens for a reason, even if it makes no sense to us. Keep doing you and enjoy being you. From one person to another who suffers depression, some days are better than others. It helps to focus on the things that make us smile to get through the dark. Keep your head up man!
Pulling for you, Boogie. I'm dealing with a relapse in my own mental health (anxiety and depression) at the moment and in some ways it's harder than overcoming my issues the first time, but in others it's easier. As you said in the video, keep on looking towards the future. Love ya dude. Keep it up :)
You took the words right outta my mouth. Glad to see you’re still keeping up the good fight man. The craziest changes happen when one change opens the flood gate. Ever since I got broken up with in January I’m now finding myself doing what I used to do and doing new stuff also. Like I’m working at a fucking tax office now and do I like it nah but I guess that’s just the cards for me right now. Things are ultimately gonna get so much better for ya boogs. Keep it up bro proud of you.
True, however I only get paid like 11 a hr but yano im not complaining.
I don't care that we've never met, nor spoken to one another. Boogie, I speak for the other 4.4 million of us when I saw, we love you!
I agree he’s a great guy. I wouldn’t listen to anyone else ramble
Dude, I went through a year where I felt like I was in a waking dream. That stuff sucks. You will get through this!
Keep your head up Boogie. I couldn't watch the whole video, I feel bad all this is happening to you. Just hang in there.
The AI that imposes it will upon Boogie is coming for all of us. Soon this beast will be in all our homes and telling us how to please it so we can live our lives without pain or discomfort.
Hidden knowledge, you have known this for some time now.
I'm seeing that there is definitely some pain coming through here. I hope you come to some relief.
In some ways you did die on that table, and following your divorce and when you became a full-time TH-cam maker. The boogie today is becoming different from the boogie before the surgery. That's normal for everyone. I am not the person I was ten years ago. I won't be the same person ten years from now. It's life, and it's growth.
It's OK to mourn the loss of who you were before, just keep in perspective that you're always working on who you will become.
luckily you are recommended for me otherwise i would not have seen the vid. Thank you for upploading even if you are not feeling well boogie❤
We love you so much! We're so glad to see how much hope you have and your progress. We're praying for you, and we look forward to seeing further progress and further ways in which you continue to be blessed for continually spreading hope and good karma!
You got a whole lot of fans who love you Boogie, in person or not we'll give support one way or another. I hope you get better within the coming days
The fact that u compared it to washing dishes shows that u aren't very happy right now. I wish u well my friend. Cheer up, it could always be worse. Once u truly honestly feel u hit rock bottom, you're only 50 percent there in reality
Shag - 504 tell a depressed person to cheer up. That'll do the trick.
AyyDeeHD what else did I say? Do u remember?
Hey there Dr.Phil, didn't know you were into youtube.
Larry Chauncey Stop being a negative fucktard.
Just Random look I hate to say it but encouragement doesn't help true depression
I'm sorry you're going through a bit of a rough patch right now, hard to know what to say much as one of your many many commenters but we genuinely wish you all the best every day, do whatever keeps you in the highest of spirits and look after yourself!
I understand the struggle and honestly just once wish i could just force myself to be happy. I just can't.
This calls for a group hug
*opens arms*
You're a lovely guy.
Yer boi replace the v with an n.
😢
You're not alone Boogie, we all go through problems, my 2018 so far:
- I lost my job.
- I never sleep.
- I had to put my dog, my best and only friend, down.
- I sold everything I own to pay my debts.
- I had to move back in with my mum.
My life is fucking awful, I'm depressed and I never leave the house due to my anxiety. Be grateful for any support you have because some don't have any.
So sorry to hear that dude. Hope you get back on your feet soon. Checked out your channel and you make great content so I know you've got the talent to find a good job soon. Take care.
Jesus Christ and I thought I was in a fucked position. Good luck dude. I hope you eventually get back on your feet.
Ethan Cox that's been my life for the past 5 years
Jak thanks mate.
Fullmetal 323 thank you.
This Vid just popped up for me today and I’m a Red Subscriber. :(
Love your Channel very much Boogie! I hope for the best in your state of sorrow!
I have followed this channel for a few years and have very much enjoyed everything from Rambling, Movie Reviews, To Francis’ crazy antics ( :D
Boogie, have you heard of Depersonalisation? A (usually) trauma-caused affliction which makes everything feel unreal and like you're in a bubble or a dream 24/7. Untreated or unacknowledged, it can last a lifetime.
AXF I was going to say the same thing. It's also very common with depression.
He talked about experiencing Depersonalization in depth on the H3 podcast.
Souplespoon Did he really? I must’ve missed that/forgotten about it
AXF yep! If I remember correctly Ethan had also been experiencing depersonalization disorder for a few years. Boogie's is a defence mechanism of sorts spawned by his ptsd.
Chin up brother I’m going through a lot of similar things stay strong! Saw a quote that I keep telling myself “fate whispers to the warrior you can not weather this storm. The warrior whispers back “I am the storm”
Boogie, you sound depressed man. Be honest with yourself. Just remember that tomorrow is a new day and good things happen with time and patience.
I'd be depressed if some bitch took half my money(450K in Boogie's case)
I'm glad you can talk these things out. So many big changes for you and the end of a relationship is like a bereavement. Give it time, it will get easier.
That feeling that your life is not real - I had that for years because of depression. I remember my 'real' life feeling more vivid, more present, but things are hazier through the fog of depression. If it continues to feel that way for you, please do speak to a doctor not just your therapist, because it could be screwy seratonin levels or something? Especially with your anxiety kicking off more.
Sending you good vibes.
comment to prove to youtube that i interact with these types of videos and want to see more like it.
Boogie you are the best TH-camr in my eyes. I wish you could get the viewes you so badly deserve.
lol you what, i think he gets plenty views
I like the msg that you put out overall in this video about spreading happiness and hopefulness in comparison to negativity good job, Boogie for anyone with problems or going through a bad patch your an inspiration to us as well as myself with anxiety, you inspire us to always keep going and look forward to the good days just because today is shity doesn't mean tomorrow will be. Hope you have a feel-good day soon =)
I went under the knife 3 years ago on my back surgery was 8 hours and I always think what if I died that day. So I think it’s normal to have those thoughts in your head. We’re not crazy
I don't mind if it turns out I'm a figment of boogie's imagination. That would be quite an honour.
I think this video has given me mixed feelings.
I've been having a rough time myself. Recently I've been getting really stressed at the school work I have, and I'm closer than ever to failing 1 or 2 classes. I was a straight A student back in highschool, and not being able to get the stuff in my class bothers me to no end. I've been feeling absolutely shitty about school and almost everything else. That's why I've been hyping up spring break for myself. I'm hoping the stress relief of being out of school for a week can help me out.
So I watch this and I see you taking things as they come and continuing to fight on, and I try to think am I able to carry on like that? What's driving me to continue? Why do I feel so bad, when so many others have it worse? What kind of person does it make me to not have the drive to fix myself physically? Should I even worry about me physically, I mean my mind doesn't seem to be working right. I can't even score well on my statistics test after studying so hard over the course of the class. Will I really recover from whatever funk this is and keep a decent GPA so I can stay in school? Should I stay in school? I'm not really smart enough for it. What would I even do if I weren't in school? Where would I work? Anywhere willing to hire me I suppose. How would I transition into becoming a real adult after that? I'm still practically a child by the standards of taking care of oneself.
But then again, look at Boogie he's got it rough and he keeps going forward. Look at the people who have found their slot in life. Someday I could do that. I could find a job where I could help out and make enough to support myself. Which means someday I could get my degree. Which means I have to get through my classes. Low grade or not. I need to pass.
I'm not sure where I went with this, and I think I just vented things completely unrelated to this vid, but it felt good. I guess that's kind of what this video was to you, Boogie. Just a few statements to get some thoughts out and freshen your head a bit. Thanks for that
Ghqebvful hang in there buddy. we are all struggling. college is getting really tough for me too. we just have to do our best with what we've got and make decisions that will benefit us the most for the future. hang in there!
Jack Harkness Thanks. It's nice to feel some encouragement when you are stressed and a bit scared.
Ghqebvful :)
You can't force yourself to do things, as I'm sure you've figured out. But you can use your physiology to trick yourself into it. When you get rewarded for something, the pleasure centers of your brain get a nice shot of dopamine. You're more likely to do things if you get dopamine for it.
Figure out what kind of reward would be worth doing the work to pass your classes. Break it down into small goals that you're 90% sure you'll do, and follow up with a reward. Boom, dopamine. Do it enough, and you've made yourself a good habit.
And be honest with yourself. This "i'm not smart enough" bullshit is more likely to twist you in knots than to straighten you out. You did it before, you can do it again. Good luck.
Good habits make good health.
Good health makes good habits.
inverse is true too
You've got to develop your coping skills. The best way to get better at calming yourself down is to practice doing it. If you notice you're relaxed, think about something that makes you a little anxious. When your heart beat picks up, focus on your breathing until you calm back down.
Work yourself up and calm yourself down a few times, then let yourself stay relaxed. The more you practice, the better you will get at it. The better you get at it, the more you can trust yourself to handle stress. Hope you see this -- it's easy to do, and it works. Good luck.
I think I’m the opposite to your normal follower. Your ramblings videos are the only ones I watch, as I’m not into gaming much (although I love fifa, which is the only game I own on my PS4) but keeping up with your life and being constantly reminded of the correct attitude to live by is really inspiring and grounding. Keep on keeping on boogie, thankyou for living ❤️
Boogie, we love you brother if this platform and these types of videos are a form of therapy then I support you whole-heartedly. Do what makes you happy man.
You’re the most selfless person when it comes to TH-cam - you deserve this and definitely shouldn’t apologise!
I want to give Sammy a belly rubs and treats. He's such a good dog.
I bet he helps your mental health. A friend of mine had suicidal thoughts and the only thing that kept him going was his puppy.
Think about it if he killed himself tomorrow who would look after the puppy? And if the puppy loves him he can't be that bad.
I want to clarify that I have no psychiatric training and this is mostly informed by my personal experience. Have a good day and take your dog for a walk if you have one. Or play with your cat. Or let your snake warm itself from your body heat. Whatever makes you happy.
I can relate to this, my wife passed 98 days ago and whenever I thought about popping my clock I kept thinking "who'll take care of my cat if I do" it's kind of funny what forms a tether can take.
It's true. Many people get therapy pets. They help more than people know, mentally and physically.
Another great rambling video Boogie. These are my favorite of your videos.
Keep Positive ☺
That's a very good point, Boogie. I was asking the same thing as a viewer. Why am I not the first one who gets to see when one of my channels, that I had been subscribed to for ages, uploads a video? That is something (fairly) new. It used to be the first thing we saw ON THE TOP when TH-cam openend. Not anymore. In fact I have to search for it (every once in a while) and still, a video would appear from 5 years ago.. Annoying to say the least. You know you have 2 audiences: the gamers and another group of people who only tuned in to your 'real life' videos. 'Til last year we had to look for it with a 'magnifying glass' but thankfully you decided to give updates weekly this year, so it should appear on top of the list every week, right? That would be logical, but nope. If I don't click on it right away (if/when I accidentally see it), then it won't re-appear on its own. Every once in a while I have to remember myself to 'oh ja, where was the video again from such and such'. I usually listen to a few while doing house chores. Well, TH-cam is not the same as it used to be... ~ Happy Easter Weekend, Boogie!! xxx
Very goog
Haha... thanks. I fixed it. Didn't notice it. : D X
The way you described the TH-cam algorithm was funny, creepy, weird, and yet still entirely true.
Love you man. I’m sorry it’s tough I hope it gets easier hunny
_Very sweet message. I hope he reads this!_
Praying for you Boogie, don't let your problems and the world get you down, your going to be alright, your a strong, brave young man, I salute you with the highest respect one can possibly give.
Boogie your gonna have to change your thumbnail man that doesnt even look like you any more u handsome beast! keep fightin the good fight and keep that head high!
Calm down Boogie, you'll be fine. All is well. You look good and if you feel good that's what is important.
Boogie : ) - For u 8)
Parable of the Chinese Farmer:-
Farmer in field
Equanimous Farmer
Once there was a Chinese farmer who worked his poor farm together with his son and their horse. When the horse ran off one day, neighbors came to say, “How unfortunate for you!” The farmer replied, “Maybe yes, maybe no.”
When the horse returned, followed by a herd of wild horses, the neighbors gathered around and exclaimed, “What good luck for you!” The farmer stayed calm and replied, “Maybe yes, maybe no.”
While trying to tame one of wild horses, the farmer’s son fell, and broke his leg. He had to rest up and couldn’t help with the farm chores. “How sad for you,” the neighbors cried. “Maybe yes, maybe no,” said the farmer.
Shortly thereafter, a neighboring army threatened the farmer’s village. All the young men in the village were drafted to fight the invaders. Many died. But the farmer’s son had been left out of the fighting because of his broken leg. People said to the farmer, “What a good thing your son couldn’t fight!” “Maybe yes, maybe no,” was all the farmer said.
MATTINO LEGGERO maybe yes maybe no maybe sex i don't know
this is some good shit hahaha
Hi Beth I am not sure I understand your comment but the universe and it sliding doors theory still holds fast. - You dont get drafted, you may become the greatest coach. - You dont get drafted, you start a business you become a Billionaire - You dont get drafted you meet the women of your dreams you have a wonderful and you miss out on a life of play off misery and gold digging hoes.
There is no good or bad, just an interpretation of it.
Happiness is method of travelling, not a destination. : ) - have a safe journey.....
Love you Boogie, keep fighting man. Get busy living or get busy dying. Shawshank redemption quote.