I sit alone in my room as I do every night. Alone. It’s to the point where I don’t even get notifications on snap or text anymore. It hurts but still somehow I prefer this way. It’s like I’m not meant to be with others because when i try to be around people my anxiety fires up, like a steam engine pummeling down a route on a cold winter’s morning. Being alone allows me to be myself. The judgement given in this world is sickening. No one is perfect but still some don’t seem to see their own issues and it angers me. Being alone is great but I just want someone to care about me sometimes. Someone. Someone who I can actually trust and love. I’ve come to think I’ll never find those things in this cold cruel dirty world we live in. All I’ve ever received from others including family is anger and disappointment when all I try to do is make others lives better. Apparently I can’t. So I’ve just shut up. When I try to communicate my feelings to others it never goes well. So I don’t do that anymore. Can I just please find that someone if you are really out there?Please. 1 year later I’ve found that someone and now I’m more happy than I’ve ever been. Thank you to all the people who replied with encouragement. I appreciate you all and hope you all are doing well and progressing in your lives.
There are people out there that care brother don’t be afraid to reach out and talk to Anyone, literally anyone. People care trust me people care about you
I feel different af. I’m just sitting in my room and my window’s open, I’m listening to this and just.. reminiscing. The breeze is warm and inviting, the scent of summer is in the air.. I love moments like these.. 9:37 pm June 23rd 2023
@@TheLiquidEdit I know you're probably just saying this as a general thing but this made me laugh so hard. like stay safe from what? the breeze? the scent of summer ?😭😭
I’m not okay Lord, I don’t know why I keep seeing the other days ahead. I’m just waiting for you to take me willingly because I don’t want to go to hell due to killing myself. To the person who made this slowed version thank you, I cried with a heart that’s trying to heal from all the past traumas and wants be happy in 2022.💔
I will pray for you. I know the Lord will bless you with strength to get through it. It may seem so impossible but every waking moment you are breathing is a chance. Promise you it will get better. Hang in there❤️ the world needs you
She was my first. Looking back feels like a dream, or a movie. The tears from laughter, happiness, sadness, anger, love, I can still feel them sliding down my face. Everything was so simple.
I hope ur doing ok....man...ever down jus talk to me.... I cant truly feel what u have been feeling lately but could resonate to ur feeling for the least... Stay safe buddy
Well.. it’s finally summer 2023. Spring went by so fast.. I just don’t understand. I love the summer so much, I never want it to end. Everything is so warm and inviting, those warm summer nights.. 4 am.. and if I felt like it, sneaking down to the pool and having an early morning dip. I’m currently sitting in my bed.. it’s 3:41 pm. I hear the cicadas calling and a storm is brewing, I hear the thunder. Summer has never always been my favorite season, but since 2021.. I’ve grown to love it.
This makes me think it being in a clear ocean, with different shades of blue flowing around me. Listening to the sounds the creatures make. With closed eyes i just meditate,and think.
Everyone has something in their lives going on, reading them in the comments as I have a story too like you all, here this music sets comfort and a deep reflection trance state. To overthink, to cry, to resonate of something we love or hate or miss or just about anything, lonely yet alone internally.
bro what this song got me feeling like 🫢 You in your room, home alone, the TV is on.. it’s raining.. you get a blanket, go to the window, and watch the rain next to your bed. It starts to calm you, you feel sleepy and start to lay on the bed and flick ur eyes closed. Now, goodnight.
I can produce original music in my mind when awake( more like a remix) . But I've never tried doing it while sleeping, come to think of it I've never heard music while in dreams.
You ever just feel so tired of life that you just lay in bed and think about every good memory you’ve ever had and just visualize reliving them all? I do. It’s so comforting and painful at the same time knowing that I have to eventually move on and create more. Why can’t the old original ones just be enough?
i remember scrolling through Tiktok at midnight cause i couldn't sleepIn 2020-2021 then years later (Now) hear this song its very slow and im in a moment of peace years later ive known to find peace within myself thank you for posting this so i can remember it again💖💖🥳🥳......Time sure does Fly Ive changed so much
I lay in my room eveynight and I listen to this with headphones and think abt life and how my mom was still here before she died but I’m happy now cuz it’s a special day for her so happy Mother’s Day to my lovely mother
I smoke N drink to this I just look back at all the should’ve,would’ve and could’ve I had in my life then I realize it will all come again just not the way I want you know…life comes full circle at the end this is peace this really puts my soul at peace ☮️ ❤️🔥
I’m so tired of myself dude. I pray that God just takes me away because I can’t fathom the feelings I’m pouring out right now. I feel so alone and so empty all I want is happiness. I’ve lost so much. Even people I’ve loved most. I’m sitting in my room talking to God about how I feel and I can’t help but to beg to be taken home. I don’t want to be here. I’m not suicidal but I just wish I was simply… gone.
I miss being happy yknow. Being a joy filled little kid. I remember the days I smiled and the days I didn’t. It feels like I don’t smile as much anymore. I can’t even focus anymore I feel so lost. I’m lacking in school already, I can’t sleep, I pass out as soon as I get home. I’m such a mess and I don’t know what to do with myself. I’ve realized I’ve bottled up things without even realizing. Thought of things I didn’t know I thought about. And all of it’s pouring out right now. I have so much love to give but nobody to give it to except for God. It makes my heart ache so much feeling like this. I want this feeling to go away. I wanna be happy like I once was. I can’t do this anymore.
@@sinti1079 Im so sorry that you’re feeling that way :( trust me everything will eventually get better over time and god is listening to you ! He’s with you and understands exactly what you’re feeling. Please don’t give up there’s so much ahead of you that you have yet to live. You will find happiness
Joy and happiness will come and go throughout life. The same goes with sadness and depression. You can take steps in either direction whenever you want, nothing is stopping you and nothing ever will. Start in the right direction sooner rather than later friend, for time is never on our side.
God loves you, God hears you and God can heal you, he cares for you and did way before we even existed, Allow him into your life and watch the beauty of his Grace and Love transform your life, Stay blessed, you got this brother ❤️
Lord Jesus help me soul forgive me of my wrongs and evils give me your love and mercy I thank you for everything you do and have done for me. Forgive my hypocrisy and legalism and let be trust you and you alone amen
This makes me feel like I'm drifting in space with a limited amount of oxygen knowing I'm going to die. Cycling through all my memories, the time wasted, the gratitude I have for having lived, all while drifting toward a vibrant nebula appreciating its colorful beauty as I slowly lose oxygen and join the void
I just wish I was pretty so that people would treat me better. I wish I could look at my self without feeling disgusted with myself. I wish that someone would look at me and tell me how pretty I am.
A terrible period has started again in my life, everything is pedos, I don't understand anything and it's hard for me to think about anything other than these things, this music is the only one that relaxes me and allows me to arrange everything in my head, thank you for everything, and I still have a lot to do and think about, I want to live the way I want and not the way it's received, be strong and do everything for your happiness
Im fallin apart, cant do something about it, depression anxiety and overthinking I just wanna get through this things in my life changed after 2020 for the bad godddd just take me back to the night that all this was just started i can mange i can do all the things that i couldn’t do back there
I hope you doing better man, and I just want to let you know that when I was my lowest in life, it was the love of Jesus that saved me. I don't mean to be inconsiderate, because I don't know what you're going through, but I can't express to you how much he loves you and wants you to be with him. Seek him and you will find comfort. God bless you.
If you were awake for all the hours you were asleep, you would have figured out a lot of things. Edit 2024: i see so many people talking about how being around people is stressful and they love alone time. Does it not strike you that life does not need to be lived so loudly? Appreciate the company of others, the joy, the laughter, and every emotion. But do not retreat to your solidarity and complain of the draining nature of socialization. I’m an extrovert, i love greeting people and initiating conversation and being loud. When i return home to be alone, I’m not texting and calling and being always social. Silence is natural, and not a thing only you partake in because people are draining
Sinto um vazio enorme. Sinto me sozinho mesmo acompanhado, sinto que houve um abismo em meus pensamentos, como se nada fosse importante. Medicamentos são as maiores merdas que eu já consumir para poder me aliviar. É foi isso que está me matando desde o início. Essa música me faz pensar se algum dia eu vou querer conquistar algo ou simplesmente desistir.
Vinicius meu querido, tenha esperança de que as coisas vão melhorar, seja gentil contigo, o sofrimento é muito, mas se tivermos compaixão conosco dá pra amenizar, e outra dica importante, viva um dia de cada vez. Espero que esteja bem
this song would be the music playing through those memories I've had with my friends, when things were normal. when things weren't so empty cold and dark, when they were with me and we'd laugh the whole day as everyone else would wish they were us, but look at me, what am I withough them? they just dumped me like I never cared, like I never tried to make things right when they were in the wrong, when I had to sacrifice my loved ones' trust for them. everythings' ruined, I have nobody to talk to, nobody to laugh, to care about or with. I'm not capable of living in this world without friends, trust me I've tried being independent but that hole of loneliness still aches for friends, but now it's getting deeper and nothing is filling it up. I'm just asking for someone who'd look at me and see that i'd be there for them, but if they're willing to do the same. i wish they'd come back to me, somehow.
Im so thankful I met her. Im so glad that all the choices both me and her made have led to us becoming something. We’re in a tough spot right now but I know that hopefully one day we’ll continue our everlasting journey :) I love you so much
it's 10:45 at night rn. i have my first biology gcse paper tomorrow morning and i'm petrified. i really want to do radiography or sonography when i'm older and i really need to make these grades. i've worked my ass off but i feel like it's all going to come crashing down on me. i heard this sound for 3 seconds on tiktok and immediately started welling up with tears. i've got one shot and the pressure i have put on myself is only starting to hit me and i don't want to let my future self down. i'm scared
To everyone out there YOU matter. And im proud of you all for everything you've been through and making it this far im proud of you for eating im proud of you for getting up im proud of you for waking up this morning im proud of you for brushing your teeth im proud of you for cleansing yourself im proud of you for cleaning your room. You are just as important as anyone else out there and if anyone says anything about you dont be afraid to cuss them out they deserve it. You may not think this now but latter on in life you might find something or someone that interests you and you'll be thinking back like my younger self would have never thought that i would've made it this far and found the one thing that could actually make me happy. Sometimes you just need to get out of the mess itself and find ways to cope with it take a walk go eat something that you enjoy or talk to someone you know will listen and if they wont i will. Dont waste your time on people who dont care about you. Just know you will get past these things and i believe in you stay safe loves and enjoy your life while it lasts you on live once
I want to accept the fact I am who I am but it hurts. It's appalling that I may never change. What if I stay miserable and insecure and incapable of doing anything? I don't want to be like this.
This makes me think about all my trauma that happened to me….makes me feel a different type of pain….how am I supposed to tell ppl what happened to me when they got the wrong picture
I js want everything to be better, u know i always believe in God that everything will be better but somehow i still kept waiting im js here in my room crying waiting im js here wiping my tears so if ever my family comes up or someone they wont see me crying in pain i js want everyting to be better but still this world keeps messing me up keeps talking bad things about me but still i love them and i should pray them, i hope everything gets better i dont want to stay here on my room crying all night every single day i keep getting anxiety worry and fear and once its all gone another thing came up and yet again anxiety worry and fear. God bless you all i hope everything somehow gets better in all of your life. As i read the comments im not alone and as i read it got me encouraging on what pain im feeling right now and commenting it here thank you guysss. God bless you all and be safe to all of you and your loved ones
Imagine hearing harsh words from your mom and feel like your mom hates your presence and knowing all this at young age how do except me to stay happy knowing that I’m the reason my mom is sad k
I've been struggling with an eating disorder for the past 6 months. Its been on and off recently and everyday I have to make a choice between recovery and ⭐ving myself. I know that I cant go on like this forever, or else I'll be dead. I haven't told anyone about it yet because i don't want people to worry about me. But living in this body is so exhausting, and it seems like the only way for me to be happy with my looks. I know I can't change my face, but I thought that at the very least, i would be able to change my body. I've been forcing myself to eat because i know that if i dont, i wouldn't be here much longer. But seeing myself gain weight and no longer look like my 'sick self' is terrifying. Im so sick of my brain and my body. I want to dissapear.
everyday whenever i enter my room i feel just a wave of loneliness i used to love being alone ever since i met this girl shes my best friend my closest she has always been supportive i tell her everything she helped me through the year all ive been doing is checking up on her because im scared and anxious to see if she's okay or not she is okay but why do i still feel anxious i tell my self its because im scared of loosing her as my friend she's everything to me i cant be at peace i overthink not all the time but when i do its bad real bad. I always blame things on me, i always think its my fault when i haven't done anything i cant accept myself. I wake up feeling empty staring at the floor not a single thought. I have only one person whos supportive and when's she's busy or doing something i get anxious because i miss her presence shes my comfort. i like being alone i dont like feeling alone i know she cares for me loves me deeply ive always been there for her. I am cared for but why do i still feel alone.
i try to make other happy more than i can do for myself i still get treated badly sometimes its been a year ive been feeling like this its really hard. I lay on my bed just thinking i almost lost my dad to covid i barely talk to the guy but i know he still loves me. My mom cant get mad or argue because it hurts her heart and im afraid im going to lose her because of it. My brother was in a car accident a few months ago the right side of the car was so badly damage literally crushed but the left side of the car where my brother was is okay i almost lost him that night. nothing in my life goes good everything i love goes away it never lasts. i just want to be happy
@@temp-x8518 God loves you, God hears you and God can heal you, he cares for you and did way before we even existed, Allow him into your life and watch the beauty of his Grace and Love transform your life, Stay blessed, you got this brother ❤️
I hurt her. She wants to restart and go slow. The pain this brings is like no other. I’m still in love. I still feel the same way as I have this whole time. I made a mistake and I accept the consequences. I was wrong and take full accountability. Watching someone fall out of love and trust you less, no longer care for your feelings or if your hurting is gut wrenching. I don’t want her to know how I’m feeling because she’s the one who’s been hurt because of my trust issues and shutting down on her. I have to acknowledge no matter what, I caused this. I caused her pain and I now caused my own pain. I pray we make it through this. I see my future with her. I know and can see she’s done. I just don’t know why she hasn’t told me to go. She says she no longer cares what I do anymore.
I am thinking about the feelings i used to waste on people i knew a girl once she was my best friend we would always hang out but turns out that she has a crush on someone that i also had a crush on so she used me to get closer to that person and then just left me . I never realized how stupid the problem was like at the end this world is just a test from god and we well all die soon and no one well remember
I escaped the one thing that has haunted over my entire life sense i was only just born. I made it out, I was happy until I wasn’t. My mother ruined me, you will never escape a parent because you are them in your own form. I feel sad even though I am mad, and I feel mad even though I am sad. When I put the two of those feelings in a combination it turns into happy, though I am not in fact happy. Mad has sad, and sad has mad. Happy has nothing, when I’m happy, I’m nothing. Although people will keep believing, believing I’m okay, believing I am happy, believing I love life. I wish I could act the way I act online, in real life. I would have friends and I would, be happy.
Ay man I was in a situation just like yours. Matter a fact still kinda am and I’m still trying to find an escape. But think of it like this. Your put into this situation to find out who you are really Meant to be. Like your really trying to find out your meaning in this world. I’m doing that rn and it seems like it’s starting to finally take a toll on my life and the good is starting to fade slowly into my life. The light starting to shine bright. It’s really just a really long waiting game. People wont come into your life maybe for years months days, decades, or maybe never. But that’s why you have yourself to grow . At the end of the day there are people out there for you. But there’s no point on giving up on yourself because you won’t step a single step into the path your wanting. You saying your going to shut up and just keep to yourself… won’t get you to that person that is haply talking to atleast that one person. You staying in your shell and forcing yourself to think that it will be impossible to crawl out of the hole that you dig for yourself it really won’t help man. From experience to it’s really hard. But you just have to take that step or else nobody can help you. It sucks to hear but it’s the truth. But at the end of the tunnel you’ll be looking at yourself thankful for everything you have done to yourself. Weather your enjoying life, with a girl, your rich, your in peace, your happy with your fam, it could be anything and all those situations are waiting for you and they are all just simply watching to see if you’ll own up to that challenge. This world is sick. It makes me want to throw up everyday but this world isn’t the world we are supposed to look at. The world is the beauty that surrounds us. The stuff that we don’t pay attention to. Like that tree and it’s leaves blowing in the wind. Or that butterfly landing on a flower. Those things is what you might possibly be missing. Take some time to admire stuff man. Can tell you that it’s helped me. Gives me a sense of the beauty that I am able to live in, the beauty that gave my soul a place to rest, a place to breathe, a place to close my eyes, a place to be thankful for the clothe on my skin, the hair in my head, and the eyes I see thru. There’s more to it man then the cruel world you let your eyes see. It’s time to open them. Open them enjoy it and show yourself what you hid from. And if I could tell you one thing right now man. Is that I love you. We don’t know eachother at all but I love you with my whole heart. Your doing your best to go day by day even when it feels like the world is caving in on you. And that takes a lot to do even that. And I’m proud of you. Keep pushing yourself to be the best you. Show yourself what you can truly be cause in the inside of that hurt soul is a strong, disciplined, beautiful, happy, funny, loving person just eating to burst out of you. I know you can let that person out but the road is what you need to travel to get to that point. One step or one day. You got this whoever you are. You have all these people that care for you. You have me, and weither your religious or not. You got God, Jesus, and He the Holy Spirit watching over you. They are here to give you the peace and strength you deserve. And they will guide you into success. I know you got this and God knows it to. Step by step and you’ll make it. Ok. That’s all I have to say for rn. You got this!!! This is the start of something great!! Much love! Jesus and I love you!! Show them who’s boss!!!
I may have lost you, but I will be a better man because of you. My trust issues from my past are buried. My mouth is closed to listening ears who may have an evil eye on my relationship, my approach when I need reassurance will be gentle and I’m never shutting someone out when I’m hurting ever again. I’m sorry my love. I accept I hurt you. I will be a better man even if that means you won’t be around. You wished me happiness. You wished me well. It pains me to know I had to realize this now that you lost everything for me. That’s the choice I made. My defensiveness and pain took hold. That wasn’t fair to you. Before you I lived life with no regrets. I will regret this for the rest of my days. You meant the world to me.
I still remember having the one nd only sleepover nd me greenish out but having a panic attack but still driving to school in the morning sadly my ex friend had to explain why I was tweaking out
eu amo ser sozinho, eu amo me sentir sozinho, fico em paz, sem essa humanidade ridícula, aonde o amor e piada, aonde beber e fumar e ser legal, credo tenho nojo no mundo em q inf vivo, a solidão me seguiu a vida td, ruas, casas, vários lugares, aonde me sinto fora desse planeta e nos gramados, academia, e principalmente no meu quarto aonde crio cenários, aonde e uma paz imensa, aonde n tem ninguém julgando vc cm olhares sombrios, sem conhecer vc, vivo em mundo totalmente diferente do cenário da minha mente, eu particularmente n gosto de humanos, essa geração fútil, n gosto de conversar cm ninguém, literalmente ninguém, fds, oq eu realmente qr, e n posso por conto do medo q tenho dentro do meu coração totalmente quebrado e frio, cheio de remedos, existe uma pessoa a qual eu daria minha vida, ela se chama maria fernanda, porém, ela n sabe q eu amo ela, ela n sabe q eu sou totalmente obcecado por ela, ela particularmente n quer ninguém na vida dela, eu entendo eu tbm n, porém a questão, ela e a única mulher nessa terra a qual eu me casaria. se deus coloco ela na minha vida e pq a um propósito!, posso está iludido, porém e oq parece, ja reagi cm vários recadinho delas, curtindo coisas q tem aver cm gymratcasal, obs: nós fazemos academia juntos, juntos qr dizer na msm academia, ontem msm falei cm ela abracei ela, conversei cm ela, mais mal sabe ela, que eu tenho uma visão de futuro cm ela, a troca de olhares entre eu e ela, porem nenhum reage, acho q e pq temos medo do amor, o real motivo e, amor nos temos, so basta o amor acredita em nos. n sei mais oq falar, o real e isso, n há ninguém nesse planeta além dela! q eu estou disposto a amar, porém n vou tomar iniciativa alguma, jamais vai ter q acontecer cm Deus planeja. .. mais saiba n ha outra mulher nessa terra em qual eu posso me apaixonar, além de vc “ maria fernanda “ eu sou fanático e lunático por ti!, qm sabe nossas almas se conecta um dia, pq eu sinto uma galáxia dentro de me assim q vejo vc, e toco em vc , ss pareço a raquel de através da minha janela, aonde ela e obcecada no ponto doentio por ares deus grego, ss eu sou essa obsessão, Deus vai me dizer a hora em qual eu vou falar dos meus sentimentos pra vc, pessoalmente, nd de cll, essa geração so sabe de cll, vão ler um livro q e melhor!, e isso, o amor está escondido em me, pd ser q ele fique preso ae por mt e mt tmp, porém assim q vc sentir nossas galáxias se conspirando entre nós ele abre ate vc! n sei mais oq dizer 🥀 e isso MARIA FERNANDA. 🫀haverá o dia? 🫀🌙 i love you. serio e tantas coisas pea ilhe dizer q é impossível eu terminar de digitar, digitaria milhões e milhões de bíblias pra mostra o meu amor por ti, em escrito, pq o real amor é o que se demonstra, n oq fala.. MF, quarta-feira de 29/03/2023 as 2:49 da madrugada, volto aqui quando tiver em relacionamento sério cm vc, cm aprovação dos seus pais, e cm meus buquês de flores 💐, hj em dia mulheres n recebe flores, agr bebidas, festas ss, eu n tenho isso a oferecer jamais… eu tenho certeza que vc aceitaria minhas flores apesar que eu nunca dei buquê de flores pra nenhuma mulher, vc sera a primeira e única… maria fernanda. qm sabe vc ver isso um dia
She left me because she didn’t want to date than a week later I find out she’s dating some other guy. I don’t know what I did or what I do but I just want to be happy and for someone to love me.
I'm in the process of starting my life. At least a more successful attempt than previous ones. At the very same time... I just want to retire.. from all this at 22. Appropriate song I suppose as some days it just seems I just want to truly want to live.
![retire (final) - alvedon [1 hour]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/8teMRWlI5T8/mqdefault.jpg)
I uploaded the 1 hour normal speed of this song!!
This video is nice on all levels but thank you for that honestly.
before searching for true friends,
we should probably learn how to be a true friend first
I sit alone in my room as I do every night. Alone. It’s to the point where I don’t even get notifications on snap or text anymore. It hurts but still somehow I prefer this way. It’s like I’m not meant to be with others because when i try to be around people my anxiety fires up, like a steam engine pummeling down a route on a cold winter’s morning. Being alone allows me to be myself. The judgement given in this world is sickening. No one is perfect but still some don’t seem to see their own issues and it angers me. Being alone is great but I just want someone to care about me sometimes. Someone. Someone who I can actually trust and love. I’ve come to think I’ll never find those things in this cold cruel dirty world we live in. All I’ve ever received from others including family is anger and disappointment when all I try to do is make others lives better. Apparently I can’t. So I’ve just shut up. When I try to communicate my feelings to others it never goes well. So I don’t do that anymore. Can I just please find that someone if you are really out there?Please.
1 year later I’ve found that someone and now I’m more happy than I’ve ever been. Thank you to all the people who replied with encouragement. I appreciate you all and hope you all are doing well and progressing in your lives.
There are people out there that care brother don’t be afraid to reach out and talk to Anyone, literally anyone. People care trust me people care about you
i pray that you will find someone that will make your world a good place, i am sorry for everything that you ever been threw but dont give up!
things will get better, you will find that person i promise
Damn Man u sound just like me at least I’m not the only one experiencing this
I understand how u feel well and truly I’m here for u bro
I feel different af. I’m just sitting in my room and my window’s open, I’m listening to this and just.. reminiscing. The breeze is warm and inviting, the scent of summer is in the air.. I love moments like these.. 9:37 pm June 23rd 2023
stay safe (:
do you miss it now ?
@@manwhateverdudeyes
@@TheLiquidEdit I know you're probably just saying this as a general thing but this made me laugh so hard. like stay safe from what? the breeze? the scent of summer ?😭😭
@@catradorasprmanager7728 hahahaha breeze is a mad thing
I’m not okay Lord, I don’t know why I keep seeing the other days ahead. I’m just waiting for you to take me willingly because I don’t want to go to hell due to killing myself. To the person who made this slowed version thank you, I cried with a heart that’s trying to heal from all the past traumas and wants be happy in 2022.💔
i may not know u but i want you to know u are loved. your presence is loved. your soul is loved. there will always be a light at the end of the tunnel
I will pray for you. I know the Lord will bless you with strength to get through it. It may seem so impossible but every waking moment you are breathing is a chance. Promise you it will get better. Hang in there❤️ the world needs you
you will be happy in 2022. i promise
I wish you the best, hurting stranger
You'll be okay
I wish you a happy life
She was my first. Looking back feels like a dream, or a movie. The tears from laughter, happiness, sadness, anger, love, I can still feel them sliding down my face. Everything was so simple.
real.
this hurts so much
I don’t want to date anymore, I don’t want to get married, I don’t want to ever know a woman again. I just want to be alone.
Crazy how time numbs pain but leaves scar’s, it’s always apart of you.
It gets better. It actually does.
This song connects a lot my dad died just 3 days ago, i feel like is just a dream and he is still here… hope he finds peace in his journey..
u good?
Sorry for your loss. Hope you’re doing ok
Mine passed away May 2022, but same feelings as yours
I’m sorry about that and I wish the best for your dad
I hope ur doing ok....man...ever down jus talk to me.... I cant truly feel what u have been feeling lately but could resonate to ur feeling for the least...
Stay safe buddy
Well.. it’s finally summer 2023. Spring went by so fast.. I just don’t understand. I love the summer so much, I never want it to end. Everything is so warm and inviting, those warm summer nights.. 4 am.. and if I felt like it, sneaking down to the pool and having an early morning dip. I’m currently sitting in my bed.. it’s 3:41 pm. I hear the cicadas calling and a storm is brewing, I hear the thunder. Summer has never always been my favorite season, but since 2021.. I’ve grown to love it.
This makes me think it being in a clear ocean, with different shades of blue flowing around me. Listening to the sounds the creatures make. With closed eyes i just meditate,and think.
Everyone has something in their lives going on, reading them in the comments as I have a story too like you all, here this music sets comfort and a deep reflection trance state. To overthink, to cry, to resonate of something we love or hate or miss or just about anything, lonely yet alone internally.
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I just graduated and this song makes me think about all of the times I’ve had there and the next chapter ahead of me
bro what this song got me feeling like 🫢
You in your room, home alone, the TV is on.. it’s raining.. you get a blanket, go to the window, and watch the rain next to your bed. It starts to calm you, you feel sleepy and start to lay on the bed and flick ur eyes closed. Now, goodnight.
pain hitting hard rn
Ikr
Always
I might just overdose rn I need your opinion guys
@@amongebar1894its not worth it in the end. ik ur hurting i still am as well but we gots to see it thru
This sounds like if you asked your subconscious to play music in a lucid dream.
I can produce original music in my mind when awake( more like a remix)
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But I've never tried doing it while sleeping, come to think of it I've never heard music while in dreams.
Such a beautiful sentiment…….. I feel it exactly the same way………ethereal……….✨✨✨
@@saintsocramnymaia5511 I always hear music in my dreams and when I wake up I wish I could recreate it but I know nothing about making music.
You ever just feel so tired of life that you just lay in bed and think about every good memory you’ve ever had and just visualize reliving them all? I do. It’s so comforting and painful at the same time knowing that I have to eventually move on and create more. Why can’t the old original ones just be enough?
Realizing that you can never get it back hurts tho
@@user-gb1bv3pt9d it really does man it really does
i can’t keep doing this it is mentally exhausting
i remember scrolling through Tiktok at midnight cause i couldn't sleepIn 2020-2021 then years later (Now) hear this song its very slow and im in a moment of peace years later ive known to find peace within myself thank you for posting this so i can remember it again💖💖🥳🥳......Time sure does Fly Ive changed so much
I lay in my room eveynight and I listen to this with headphones and think abt life and how my mom was still here before she died but I’m happy now cuz it’s a special day for her so happy Mother’s Day to my lovely mother
at my lowest and i don’t think i can cope anymore
I smoke N drink to this I just look back at all the should’ve,would’ve and could’ve I had in my life then I realize it will all come again just not the way I want you know…life comes full circle at the end this is peace this really puts my soul at peace ☮️ ❤️🔥
🙂
I’m so tired of myself dude. I pray that God just takes me away because I can’t fathom the feelings I’m pouring out right now. I feel so alone and so empty all I want is happiness. I’ve lost so much. Even people I’ve loved most. I’m sitting in my room talking to God about how I feel and I can’t help but to beg to be taken home. I don’t want to be here. I’m not suicidal but I just wish I was simply… gone.
I miss being happy yknow. Being a joy filled little kid. I remember the days I smiled and the days I didn’t. It feels like I don’t smile as much anymore. I can’t even focus anymore I feel so lost. I’m lacking in school already, I can’t sleep, I pass out as soon as I get home. I’m such a mess and I don’t know what to do with myself. I’ve realized I’ve bottled up things without even realizing. Thought of things I didn’t know I thought about. And all of it’s pouring out right now. I have so much love to give but nobody to give it to except for God. It makes my heart ache so much feeling like this. I want this feeling to go away. I wanna be happy like I once was. I can’t do this anymore.
@@sinti1079 Im so sorry that you’re feeling that way :( trust me everything will eventually get better over time and god is listening to you ! He’s with you and understands exactly what you’re feeling. Please don’t give up there’s so much ahead of you that you have yet to live. You will find happiness
Joy and happiness will come and go throughout life. The same goes with sadness and depression. You can take steps in either direction whenever you want, nothing is stopping you and nothing ever will. Start in the right direction sooner rather than later friend, for time is never on our side.
God loves you, God hears you and God can heal you, he cares for you and did way before we even existed, Allow him into your life and watch the beauty of his Grace and Love transform your life, Stay blessed, you got this brother ❤️
2024 ,yall we got this, god bless you all!!! ❤❤❤
I've been waiting for this one)))
Loneliness lead me to this.
this.
Feels like the end of everything.
Lord Jesus help me soul forgive me of my wrongs and evils give me your love and mercy I thank you for everything you do and have done for me. Forgive my hypocrisy and legalism and let be trust you and you alone amen
My prayer tn , thank you 💙
This makes me feel like I'm drifting in space with a limited amount of oxygen knowing I'm going to die. Cycling through all my memories, the time wasted, the gratitude I have for having lived, all while drifting toward a vibrant nebula appreciating its colorful beauty as I slowly lose oxygen and join the void
I just wish I was pretty so that people would treat me better.
I wish I could look at my self without feeling disgusted with myself.
I wish that someone would look at me and tell me how pretty I am.
you are pretty
The peace I never knew I needed 💆🏾♀️☮️🤍!
Omg…. Smoking a zkittlz blunt right now and this shit is amazing
im doing this
weed is love, music is life
THANK YOU SO MUCH I LOVE YOU
🌌🫂🌌 Thank you…
@palomar We love you 💙🌃
A terrible period has started again in my life, everything is pedos, I don't understand anything and it's hard for me to think about anything other than these things, this music is the only one that relaxes me and allows me to arrange everything in my head, thank you for everything, and I still have a lot to do and think about, I want to live the way I want and not the way it's received, be strong and do everything for your happiness
Pedos?
you’re a pedo?
Thank you so much!! I love it!!
Bro I felt loved , I was happy when I saw her,now she leaving and I’m never seeing her again
the photo is from Chungking Express directed by Wong Kar Wai
Im fallin apart, cant do something about it, depression anxiety and overthinking
I just wanna get through this things in my life changed after 2020 for the bad godddd just take me back to the night that all this was just started i can mange i can do all the things that i couldn’t do back there
I hope you doing better man, and I just want to let you know that when I was my lowest in life, it was the love of Jesus that saved me. I don't mean to be inconsiderate, because I don't know what you're going through, but I can't express to you how much he loves you and wants you to be with him. Seek him and you will find comfort. God bless you.
If you were awake for all the hours you were asleep,
you would have figured out a lot of things.
Edit 2024: i see so many people talking about how being around people is stressful and they love alone time. Does it not strike you that life does not need to be lived so loudly? Appreciate the company of others, the joy, the laughter, and every emotion. But do not retreat to your solidarity and complain of the draining nature of socialization. I’m an extrovert, i love greeting people and initiating conversation and being loud. When i return home to be alone, I’m not texting and calling and being always social. Silence is natural, and not a thing only you partake in because people are draining
I would have figured out a way to trade Klay Thompson
I miss her. We were supposed to get married this year. She really isnt coming back...
In the end we only have ourselves. Sad but true. Much love where ever you are in this small world.
i come back to this video every single night.
literally
@@lannagoldin8312 i posted that comment a year ago, you brought me back
literally
literally
I miss him.
I’m here bc she was cold, she always hated the cold
Yk who else was cold today Klay Thompson
Sinto um vazio enorme. Sinto me sozinho mesmo acompanhado, sinto que houve um abismo em meus pensamentos, como se nada fosse importante. Medicamentos são as maiores merdas que eu já consumir para poder me aliviar. É foi isso que está me matando desde o início. Essa música me faz pensar se algum dia eu vou querer conquistar algo ou simplesmente desistir.
Vinicius meu querido, tenha esperança de que as coisas vão melhorar, seja gentil contigo, o sofrimento é muito, mas se tivermos compaixão conosco dá pra amenizar, e outra dica importante, viva um dia de cada vez.
Espero que esteja bem
this song would be the music playing through those memories I've had with my friends, when things were normal. when things weren't so empty cold and dark, when they were with me and we'd laugh the whole day as everyone else would wish they were us, but look at me, what am I withough them? they just dumped me like I never cared, like I never tried to make things right when they were in the wrong, when I had to sacrifice my loved ones' trust for them. everythings' ruined, I have nobody to talk to, nobody to laugh, to care about or with. I'm not capable of living in this world without friends, trust me I've tried being independent but that hole of loneliness still aches for friends, but now it's getting deeper and nothing is filling it up. I'm just asking for someone who'd look at me and see that i'd be there for them, but if they're willing to do the same. i wish they'd come back to me, somehow.
i hope they don’t.
Im so thankful I met her. Im so glad that all the choices both me and her made have led to us becoming something. We’re in a tough spot right now but I know that hopefully one day we’ll continue our everlasting journey :) I love you so much
this is so cute
are y’all still together?
it's 10:45 at night rn. i have my first biology gcse paper tomorrow morning and i'm petrified. i really want to do radiography or sonography when i'm older and i really need to make these grades. i've worked my ass off but i feel like it's all going to come crashing down on me. i heard this sound for 3 seconds on tiktok and immediately started welling up with tears. i've got one shot and the pressure i have put on myself is only starting to hit me and i don't want to let my future self down. i'm scared
just remember god is there always with you! Love you!
i love him so very deeply. i pray he stays forever❤️
Life isn’t worth it anymore
J’ai rencontrer une bonne personne mais les chose font qu’il ne restera que des souvenirs
To everyone out there YOU matter. And im proud of you all for everything you've been through and making it this far im proud of you for eating im proud of you for getting up im proud of you for waking up this morning im proud of you for brushing your teeth im proud of you for cleansing yourself im proud of you for cleaning your room. You are just as important as anyone else out there and if anyone says anything about you dont be afraid to cuss them out they deserve it. You may not think this now but latter on in life you might find something or someone that interests you and you'll be thinking back like my younger self would have never thought that i would've made it this far and found the one thing that could actually make me happy. Sometimes you just need to get out of the mess itself and find ways to cope with it take a walk go eat something that you enjoy or talk to someone you know will listen and if they wont i will. Dont waste your time on people who dont care about you. Just know you will get past these things and i believe in you stay safe loves and enjoy your life while it lasts you on live once
I like this guy sm idk why
I want to accept the fact I am who I am but it hurts. It's appalling that I may never change. What if I stay miserable and insecure and incapable of doing anything? I don't want to be like this.
This makes me think about all my trauma that happened to me….makes me feel a different type of pain….how am I supposed to tell ppl what happened to me when they got the wrong picture
The slowed song gives me some *hyper light drifter* kind of vibes.
sounds like something unreal...
That's because we are.
im tired really tired
u guys need to stop depending on one single person to be ur only source of happiness it only makes it worse
I realized that I love her when I lost her
lost the moon whilst counting the stars........
What If it doesn't work?
What if I ruin our friendship?
All that hard work for none
Please let us work
He's all I want
I can't do it without him
Good luck! Go for it! You'll forever be haunted by the 'what if' else
you deserve way more attention
when i listen to music like this i think back to when i was in elementary school and when life was easy
The peace I never knew I needed ️️!. Thank you so much!! I love it!!.
The peace I need is a warriors win
I js want everything to be better, u know i always believe in God that everything will be better but somehow i still kept waiting im js here in my room crying waiting im js here wiping my tears so if ever my family comes up or someone they wont see me crying in pain i js want everyting to be better but still this world keeps messing me up keeps talking bad things about me but still i love them and i should pray them, i hope everything gets better i dont want to stay here on my room crying all night every single day i keep getting anxiety worry and fear and once its all gone another thing came up and yet again anxiety worry and fear. God bless you all i hope everything somehow gets better in all of your life. As i read the comments im not alone and as i read it got me encouraging on what pain im feeling right now and commenting it here thank you guysss. God bless you all and be safe to all of you and your loved ones
Imagine hearing harsh words from your mom and feel like your mom hates your presence and knowing all this at young age how do except me to stay happy knowing that I’m the reason my mom is sad k
I've been struggling with an eating disorder for the past 6 months. Its been on and off recently and everyday I have to make a choice between recovery and ⭐ving myself. I know that I cant go on like this forever, or else I'll be dead. I haven't told anyone about it yet because i don't want people to worry about me. But living in this body is so exhausting, and it seems like the only way for me to be happy with my looks. I know I can't change my face, but I thought that at the very least, i would be able to change my body. I've been forcing myself to eat because i know that if i dont, i wouldn't be here much longer. But seeing myself gain weight and no longer look like my 'sick self' is terrifying. Im so sick of my brain and my body. I want to dissapear.
Ɛ> this has gotten me through a lot
Emotional 😭
Thanks 🎧😌
this song is so snowy winter day in the suburbs
here I am, always find myself coming back.
Thanks jman
Time will always destroy more than it creates.
sunday night. I don't wanna go back there
I'm used to the pain
Today my love don't love my any more💔😔
everyday whenever i enter my room i feel just a wave of loneliness i used to love being alone ever since i met this girl shes my best friend my closest she has always been supportive i tell her everything she helped me through the year all ive been doing is checking up on her because im scared and anxious to see if she's okay or not she is okay but why do i still feel anxious i tell my self its because im scared of loosing her as my friend she's everything to me i cant be at peace i overthink not all the time but when i do its bad real bad. I always blame things on me, i always think its my fault when i haven't done anything i cant accept myself. I wake up feeling empty staring at the floor not a single thought. I have only one person whos supportive and when's she's busy or doing something i get anxious because i miss her presence shes my comfort. i like being alone i dont like feeling alone i know she cares for me loves me deeply ive always been there for her. I am cared for but why do i still feel alone.
i try to make other happy more than i can do for myself i still get treated badly sometimes its been a year ive been feeling like this its really hard. I lay on my bed just thinking i almost lost my dad to covid i barely talk to the guy but i know he still loves me. My mom cant get mad or argue because it hurts her heart and im afraid im going to lose her because of it. My brother was in a car accident a few months ago the right side of the car was so badly damage literally crushed but the left side of the car where my brother was is okay i almost lost him that night. nothing in my life goes good everything i love goes away it never lasts. i just want to be happy
@@temp-x8518 God loves you, God hears you and God can heal you, he cares for you and did way before we even existed, Allow him into your life and watch the beauty of his Grace and Love transform your life, Stay blessed, you got this brother ❤️
I hurt her. She wants to restart and go slow. The pain this brings is like no other. I’m still in love. I still feel the same way as I have this whole time. I made a mistake and I accept the consequences. I was wrong and take full accountability. Watching someone fall out of love and trust you less, no longer care for your feelings or if your hurting is gut wrenching. I don’t want her to know how I’m feeling because she’s the one who’s been hurt because of my trust issues and shutting down on her. I have to acknowledge no matter what, I caused this. I caused her pain and I now caused my own pain. I pray we make it through this. I see my future with her. I know and can see she’s done. I just don’t know why she hasn’t told me to go. She says she no longer cares what I do anymore.
Lonely is only the way to run away from human problem 😓
Everybody gansta till this shit comes on
I am thinking about the feelings i used to waste on people i knew a girl once she was my best friend we would always hang out but turns out that she has a crush on someone that i also had a crush on so she used me to get closer to that person and then just left me . I never realized how stupid the problem was like at the end this world is just a test from god and we well all die soon and no one well remember
I escaped the one thing that has haunted over my entire life sense i was only just born. I made it out, I was happy until I wasn’t. My mother ruined me, you will never escape a parent because you are them in your own form. I feel sad even though I am mad, and I feel mad even though I am sad. When I put the two of those feelings in a combination it turns into happy, though I am not in fact happy. Mad has sad, and sad has mad. Happy has nothing, when I’m happy, I’m nothing. Although people will keep believing, believing I’m okay, believing I am happy, believing I love life.
I wish I could act the way I act online, in real life. I would have friends and I would, be happy.
I just wish someone would notice that I'm in pain.
Ay man I was in a situation just like yours. Matter a fact still kinda am and I’m still trying to find an escape. But think of it like this. Your put into this situation to find out who you are really
Meant to be. Like your really trying to find out your meaning in this world. I’m doing that rn and it seems like it’s starting to finally take a toll on my life and the good is starting to fade slowly into my life. The light starting to shine bright. It’s really just a really long waiting game. People wont come into your life maybe for years months days, decades, or maybe never. But that’s why you have yourself to grow . At the end of the day there are people out there for you. But there’s no point on giving up on yourself because you won’t step a single step into the path your wanting. You saying your going to shut up and just keep to yourself… won’t get you to that person that is haply talking to atleast that one person. You staying in your shell and forcing yourself to think that it will be impossible to crawl out of the hole that you dig for yourself it really won’t help man. From experience to it’s really hard. But you just have to take that step or else nobody can help you. It sucks to hear but it’s the truth. But at the end of the tunnel you’ll be looking at yourself thankful for everything you have done to yourself. Weather your enjoying life, with a girl, your rich, your in peace, your happy with your fam, it could be anything and all those situations are waiting for you and they are all just simply watching to see if you’ll own up to that challenge. This world is sick. It makes me want to throw up everyday but this world isn’t the world we are supposed to look at. The world is the beauty that surrounds us. The stuff that we don’t pay attention to. Like that tree and it’s leaves blowing in the wind. Or that butterfly landing on a flower. Those things is what you might possibly be missing. Take some time to admire stuff man. Can tell you that it’s helped me. Gives me a sense of the beauty that I am able to live in, the beauty that gave my soul a place to rest, a place to breathe, a place to close my eyes, a place to be thankful for the clothe on my skin, the hair in my head, and the eyes I see thru. There’s more to it man then the cruel world you let your eyes see. It’s time to open them. Open them enjoy it and show yourself what you hid from. And if I could tell you one thing right now man. Is that I love you. We don’t know eachother at all but I love you with my whole heart. Your doing your best to go day by day even when it feels like the world is caving in on you. And that takes a lot to do even that. And I’m proud of you. Keep pushing yourself to be the best you. Show yourself what you can truly be cause in the inside of that hurt soul is a strong, disciplined, beautiful, happy, funny, loving person just eating to burst out of you. I know you can let that person out but the road is what you need to travel to get to that point. One step or one day. You got this whoever you are. You have all these people that care for you. You have me, and weither your religious or not. You got God, Jesus, and He the Holy Spirit watching over you. They are here to give you the peace and strength you deserve. And they will guide you into success. I know you got this and God knows it to. Step by step and you’ll make it. Ok. That’s all I have to say for rn. You got this!!! This is the start of something great!! Much love! Jesus and I love you!! Show them who’s boss!!!
I just need someone to talk to
Same
I read the comments here… and… damn…. I’ve changed
I may have lost you, but I will be a better man because of you. My trust issues from my past are buried. My mouth is closed to listening ears who may have an evil eye on my relationship, my approach when I need reassurance will be gentle and I’m never shutting someone out when I’m hurting ever again. I’m sorry my love. I accept I hurt you. I will be a better man even if that means you won’t be around. You wished me happiness. You wished me well. It pains me to know I had to realize this now that you lost everything for me. That’s the choice I made. My defensiveness and pain took hold. That wasn’t fair to you. Before you I lived life with no regrets. I will regret this for the rest of my days. You meant the world to me.
I still remember having the one nd only sleepover nd me greenish out but having a panic attack but still driving to school in the morning sadly my ex friend had to explain why I was tweaking out
WHAT THE FUCK IS LIFE
I hate my life
yes 2
eu amo ser sozinho, eu amo me sentir sozinho, fico em paz, sem essa humanidade ridícula, aonde o amor e piada, aonde beber e fumar e ser legal, credo tenho nojo no mundo em q inf vivo, a solidão me seguiu a vida td, ruas, casas, vários lugares, aonde me sinto fora desse planeta e nos gramados, academia, e principalmente no meu quarto aonde crio cenários, aonde e uma paz imensa, aonde n tem ninguém julgando vc cm olhares sombrios, sem conhecer vc, vivo em mundo totalmente diferente do cenário da minha mente, eu particularmente n gosto de humanos, essa geração fútil, n gosto de conversar cm ninguém, literalmente ninguém, fds, oq eu realmente qr, e n posso por conto do medo q tenho dentro do meu coração totalmente quebrado e frio, cheio de remedos, existe uma pessoa a qual eu daria minha vida, ela se chama maria fernanda, porém, ela n sabe q eu amo ela, ela n sabe q eu sou totalmente obcecado por ela, ela particularmente n quer ninguém na vida dela, eu entendo eu tbm n, porém a questão, ela e a única mulher nessa terra a qual eu me casaria.
se deus coloco ela na minha vida e pq a um propósito!, posso está iludido, porém e oq parece, ja reagi cm vários recadinho delas, curtindo coisas q tem aver cm gymratcasal, obs: nós fazemos academia juntos, juntos qr dizer na msm academia, ontem msm falei cm ela abracei ela, conversei cm ela, mais mal sabe ela, que eu tenho uma visão de futuro cm ela, a troca de olhares entre eu e ela, porem nenhum reage, acho q e pq temos medo do amor, o real motivo e, amor nos temos, so basta o amor acredita em nos.
n sei mais oq falar, o real e isso, n há ninguém nesse planeta além dela! q eu estou disposto a amar, porém n vou tomar iniciativa alguma, jamais vai ter q acontecer cm Deus planeja. .. mais saiba n ha outra mulher nessa terra em qual eu posso me apaixonar, além de vc “ maria fernanda “ eu sou fanático e lunático por ti!, qm sabe nossas almas se conecta um dia, pq eu sinto uma galáxia dentro de me assim q vejo vc, e toco em vc , ss pareço a raquel de através da minha janela, aonde ela e obcecada no ponto doentio por ares deus grego, ss eu sou essa obsessão, Deus vai me dizer a hora em qual eu vou falar dos meus sentimentos pra vc, pessoalmente, nd de cll, essa geração so sabe de cll, vão ler um livro q e melhor!, e isso, o amor está escondido em me, pd ser q ele fique preso ae por mt e mt tmp, porém assim q vc sentir nossas galáxias se conspirando entre nós ele abre ate vc! n sei mais oq dizer 🥀
e isso MARIA FERNANDA. 🫀haverá o dia? 🫀🌙 i love you. serio e tantas coisas pea ilhe dizer q é impossível eu terminar de digitar, digitaria milhões e milhões de bíblias pra mostra o meu amor por ti, em escrito, pq o real amor é o que se demonstra, n oq fala..
MF, quarta-feira de 29/03/2023 as 2:49 da madrugada, volto aqui quando tiver em relacionamento sério cm vc, cm aprovação dos seus pais, e cm meus buquês de flores 💐, hj em dia mulheres n recebe flores, agr bebidas, festas ss, eu n tenho isso a oferecer jamais… eu tenho certeza que vc aceitaria minhas flores apesar que eu nunca dei buquê de flores pra nenhuma mulher, vc sera a primeira e única… maria fernanda. qm sabe vc ver isso um dia
Real
She left me because she didn’t want to date than a week later I find out she’s dating some other guy. I don’t know what I did or what I do but I just want to be happy and for someone to love me.
i hope everyone is doing okay
I'm in the process of starting my life. At least a more successful attempt than previous ones. At the very same time... I just want to retire.. from all this at 22. Appropriate song I suppose as some days it just seems I just want to truly want to live.
Thanks a lot, I’m fina sleep good for a change🥲
real
I need an escape