I am listening back, and I meant to say venn diagram* - plus, I may be mispronouncing “catatonia.” Please excuse the very human messiness that is me. 💕
@@HalenNelah i can understand that. Its a very intimate story. I hope you dont get to much negative response. 🙏 thank you for spreading awareness around mental health, its very much needed.
Deeply challenging experiences in the lives of schizophrenics. It is hard to comprehend how God accepts a presence in the 3D and manifests a challenged soul in such a manner. The Blue Rose is the paradigm of extraordinary and impossible love. He has had and shared an impossible experience for one person to imagine let alone survive on their own. So many lives are destroyed by it as they grips their lives. It is impossible for those of us without the experience, to grasp their lives and the magic you describe. It is likely the essence of their lives lived in the impossible solitude and in the fragments of the souls they manifest. It sounds like a proverbial blessing and a curse. Your story is beautiful and touching. A blessing to have experienced and heartbreak to witness as he left. Bless you Halen and thank you for sharing.
I always appreciate when you add your refreshing voice to the conversation. Thank you for sharing your wisdom and offering your compassion. 🙏 I have to say… I still believe in Gray. What are we here for, if not to simply be willing to believe in the “impossible dream” and in the extraordinary? The catch is that we must do so with zero expectations and unconditional love for the outcome of our lives. And that takes maturity…which takes time, and temperance.
You are truly absolutely beautiful Halen. Your friend has been very lucky to have you in his life. You sound like you have done far better dealing with your schizophrenic friend than I have with my mother. I gave up trying to make any sense of it long ago and definitely have never seen any "magic" in any of it. Someone who suffers the delusions of Schizophrenic will do anything to protect the illusion at all costs. It's their reality and it is absolute, to them we are the crazy ones and they will tell you that. It's interesting and mind boggling to horrifying to watch the lengths they will go to in order to protect their "reality". Watching someone you care about go from, in the beginning, "shutting down" when reality threatens their "reality" to making the needed shifts, on the fly, in the story of their reality in order to keep the delusions moving along as seamlessly as possible is interesting and heartbreaking at the same time. Over time you see the true creative power of the human mind working to keep the narrative of the delusions going in order to save itself from having to face the reality the rest of us do every day. You my dear are a true Angel. ❤
I understand. And I’m so sorry for what you’ve experienced… Have you ever seen that movie Shutter Island? It’s totally like the ending to that movie. "Which would be worse, to live as a monster or to die as a good man?" The mind is an incredible thing. Wish I could give you a big hug.
@@HalenNelah Haven't seen Shutter Island. My mother read the book after her schizophrenia had started. She incorporated bits of it into her early delusions which is another thing on how anything/anyone can and does get added/used to fuel the delusion, keeping their story going. Hugs always welcome ❤
@@brianmyers157 wow. I’m so sorry!! 😢 The whole idea of that story, is that the mind will happily slip into full-fledged delusion in order to protect itself from what is too difficult to look at here in reality.
@@brianmyers157 completely. The wisdom of the body and the heart is so much simpler than the so-called knowledge of the mind. The mind is like the symbol of the ouroboros, going round and round and not necessarily getting anywhere.
Thank you… It is devastating. I didn’t describe the full scope of his suffering because it’s not my place, but I did my best to speak upon the collective issues I’ve witnessed. The families and friends of people with this illness also suffer deeply, because there’s almost no way to help. We unfortunately have nowhere for them to exist for free, with real help, within our society…at least not here in the states. Not to mention the importance of the spiritual aspect of this illness that no one seems to want to talk about! It’s a lot! I appreciate your compassion. 🩷
@HalenNelah yes I have long been noticing the correlation between mental illness and spiritual awakening/spiritual symptoms. What some term illness are actually gifts. Not every single case of course, but some. There needs to be more spiritually awakened people in the mental health research and treatment fields.
Drawing on my Libra foundational need for balance, I would suggest that the Yin/yang symbol of dark and light making the whole. You need darkness to understand light and viceversa. It’s when we become imbalanced as in more darkness or too much light, that we become ‘lost’ . Also, outside of the allopathic universe, for every illness there is a cure. He has probably spent so long in his darkness and fear that to draw him out now would be extremely difficult if not impossible, but as the desiderata says, ‘You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and stars, you have a right to be here and wether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should’ Oh and electricity isn’t going to be around for much longer…another 5 years or so then we are going back to medieval times…so prepare😊👍🏼
@@HalenNelah look up the 1859 Carrington event. It melted copper telegraph lines across the US…there was no electricity grid to speak of back then. Our magnetic shield is about 25% weaker now and declining at a rate of 5% a decade. If we get a CME of similar size in next few years, and planet is overdue, then everything electrical is going to be the biggest loser…I believe humanity is heading into a reset that’s not in the control of any Economic Forums…it’s going to treat us all equally. I could be craycray….but I don’t think I am.
I haven't listened through.. I'm figuring this would be very difficult for me and I would probably resonate a lot. I have not wish to look backwards more than I need. I hope you understand 💔
@@HalenNelah in Yoga Cara terms. It's in my store cupboard. I know it's there but I'm not going to take it out and look at it. That would feed it more power. I wonder what Gray's view would be? Probably more like mine I imagine.. although we are unlikely to know... Sleep tight little one
@@Swine-O-Sonic trust me, I get it. Always keep your health and safety as the number one priority! As far as Gray goes… he told me he climbed Jacob’s ladder as high as he could to find me, “the moon”…but then “got frozen out in space” and never made his way back down. I think in order for us to help people, such as yourself and Gray, to climb back down the metaphorical ladder, we need to venture to where they are…and then show them how to climb back down slowly. One step at a time. I see you’ve made your way back down! Thank you for staying here with us simple folk 😂🙏
I am listening back, and I meant to say venn diagram* - plus, I may be mispronouncing “catatonia.” Please excuse the very human messiness that is me. 💕
Thank you for sharing, Halen
Aw, that’s got to be one of the best compliments. I wanted to be a philosophy major when I was younger! Thank you. 🙏
@@HalenNelah Your philosopher’s soul shines through 🦋
@@starrygory thank you, sweet soul ✨
Thats a treasure of experiences of magic you have with Gray. Thank you for sharing 🍀
Thank you for responding with kindness. I’ve been quite afraid to share for a very long time. 🙏
@@HalenNelah i can understand that. Its a very intimate story. I hope you dont get to much negative response. 🙏 thank you for spreading awareness around mental health, its very much needed.
@@TheWizardsPath 💙
Deeply challenging experiences in the lives of schizophrenics. It is hard to comprehend how God accepts a presence in the 3D and manifests a challenged soul in such a manner. The Blue Rose is the paradigm of extraordinary and impossible love. He has had and shared an impossible experience for one person to imagine let alone survive on their own. So many lives are destroyed by it as they grips their lives. It is impossible for those of us without the experience, to grasp their lives and the magic you describe. It is likely the essence of their lives lived in the impossible solitude and in the fragments of the souls they manifest. It sounds like a proverbial blessing and a curse. Your story is beautiful and touching. A blessing to have experienced and heartbreak to witness as he left. Bless you Halen and thank you for sharing.
I always appreciate when you add your refreshing voice to the conversation. Thank you for sharing your wisdom and offering your compassion. 🙏 I have to say… I still believe in Gray. What are we here for, if not to simply be willing to believe in the “impossible dream” and in the extraordinary? The catch is that we must do so with zero expectations and unconditional love for the outcome of our lives. And that takes maturity…which takes time, and temperance.
What an experience. Thank you for sharing and making us aware 🙏
Thank you for listening. I know it was long! ❤️
Thank you for shairing.
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You are truly absolutely beautiful Halen. Your friend has been very lucky to have you in his life. You sound like you have done far better dealing with your schizophrenic friend than I have with my mother. I gave up trying to make any sense of it long ago and definitely have never seen any "magic" in any of it. Someone who suffers the delusions of Schizophrenic will do anything to protect the illusion at all costs. It's their reality and it is absolute, to them we are the crazy ones and they will tell you that. It's interesting and mind boggling to horrifying to watch the lengths they will go to in order to protect their "reality". Watching someone you care about go from, in the beginning, "shutting down" when reality threatens their "reality" to making the needed shifts, on the fly, in the story of their reality in order to keep the delusions moving along as seamlessly as possible is interesting and heartbreaking at the same time. Over time you see the true creative power of the human mind working to keep the narrative of the delusions going in order to save itself from having to face the reality the rest of us do every day. You my dear are a true Angel. ❤
I understand. And I’m so sorry for what you’ve experienced… Have you ever seen that movie Shutter Island? It’s totally like the ending to that movie. "Which would be worse, to live as a monster or to die as a good man?" The mind is an incredible thing. Wish I could give you a big hug.
@@HalenNelah Haven't seen Shutter Island. My mother read the book after her schizophrenia had started. She incorporated bits of it into her early delusions which is another thing on how anything/anyone can and does get added/used to fuel the delusion, keeping their story going. Hugs always welcome ❤
@@brianmyers157 wow. I’m so sorry!! 😢 The whole idea of that story, is that the mind will happily slip into full-fledged delusion in order to protect itself from what is too difficult to look at here in reality.
@@HalenNelah Even a healthy fills in details so there are no it gaps that has to deal with. Mentally ill or not we seem to need a complete story.
@@brianmyers157 completely. The wisdom of the body and the heart is so much simpler than the so-called knowledge of the mind. The mind is like the symbol of the ouroboros, going round and round and not necessarily getting anywhere.
Wow that is so magical ❤
I am sorry for his suffering tho and the lack of human compassion from the medical system and the criminal justice system.
Thank you… It is devastating. I didn’t describe the full scope of his suffering because it’s not my place, but I did my best to speak upon the collective issues I’ve witnessed. The families and friends of people with this illness also suffer deeply, because there’s almost no way to help. We unfortunately have nowhere for them to exist for free, with real help, within our society…at least not here in the states. Not to mention the importance of the spiritual aspect of this illness that no one seems to want to talk about! It’s a lot! I appreciate your compassion. 🩷
@HalenNelah yes I have long been noticing the correlation between mental illness and spiritual awakening/spiritual symptoms. What some term illness are actually gifts. Not every single case of course, but some. There needs to be more spiritually awakened people in the mental health research and treatment fields.
@@RiverofSouls I couldn’t agree more ❤️
Drawing on my Libra foundational need for balance, I would suggest that the Yin/yang symbol of dark and light making the whole. You need darkness to understand light and viceversa. It’s when we become imbalanced as in more darkness or too much light, that we become ‘lost’ . Also, outside of the allopathic universe, for every illness there is a cure. He has probably spent so long in his darkness and fear that to draw him out now would be extremely difficult if not impossible, but as the desiderata says, ‘You are a child of the universe no less than the trees and stars, you have a right to be here and wether or not it is clear to you, no doubt the universe is unfolding as it should’
Oh and electricity isn’t going to be around for much longer…another 5 years or so then we are going back to medieval times…so prepare😊👍🏼
I really hope not, because I am in love with electricity ⚡️😂
@@HalenNelah look up the 1859 Carrington event. It melted copper telegraph lines across the US…there was no electricity grid to speak of back then. Our magnetic shield is about 25% weaker now and declining at a rate of 5% a decade. If we get a CME of similar size in next few years, and planet is overdue, then everything electrical is going to be the biggest loser…I believe humanity is heading into a reset that’s not in the control of any Economic Forums…it’s going to treat us all equally. I could be craycray….but I don’t think I am.
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I haven't listened through.. I'm figuring this would be very difficult for me and I would probably resonate a lot. I have not wish to look backwards more than I need. I hope you understand 💔
I understand. If or whenever you’re ready, it’ll be here. It’s a messy impromptu video, but one I felt I needed to make. ❤️
@@HalenNelah Yup. All power to you!! No.. I have no wish to look backwards. I remember well enough. Have a great weekend you two ♥️
@@HalenNelah in Yoga Cara terms. It's in my store cupboard. I know it's there but I'm not going to take it out and look at it. That would feed it more power. I wonder what Gray's view would be? Probably more like mine I imagine.. although we are unlikely to know... Sleep tight little one
@@Swine-O-Sonic trust me, I get it. Always keep your health and safety as the number one priority! As far as Gray goes… he told me he climbed Jacob’s ladder as high as he could to find me, “the moon”…but then “got frozen out in space” and never made his way back down. I think in order for us to help people, such as yourself and Gray, to climb back down the metaphorical ladder, we need to venture to where they are…and then show them how to climb back down slowly. One step at a time. I see you’ve made your way back down! Thank you for staying here with us simple folk 😂🙏
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