From sadness, to frustration, to lying to yourself about the truth, but denying it, becoming anger, a deep down fury never released, to simply a numbness all over the body. What a rollercoaster of emotions... And it hurts because I feel it in a personal level.
@@nicydarko552yeah... Painful, isn't it? But, hey, I'll tell you. It gets better. There is no shaming in helping yourself, cutting off the evil by it's roots. I did that. It got better.
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I grew up with an amazing mom. She raised 3 kids alone, shitty paying job, no alimony, kept the house clean, made food, always smiling and never complaining... It's easy to take that for granted when you've never known any different and this song grounds me. It's a humbling experience that reminds me not everyone has been this fortunate. I love my mom and I hope one day I'll be as good of a parent as she is.
Ya what hurts more is when you realize all the lies and the masks your(my) mom wore. When you realize how bad everything is; it hurts so much. Then the anger slips in, and you realize that it is in fact NOT normal to have intense stress when someone walks in the room.
@nicydarko552 I thought I had wonderful parents until I was 18 when my grandma told me they were functioning drug addicts and I was the only person in our small town that did not know. My siblings knew, my friends knew, everyone did. I should probably start working on healing that, 20 years later. 🫠🫠 best of luck to you!
Me, my brother and little sister lived under a mother who emotionally abused us all. Pitted us against each other using the hope of avoiding her wrath. She lied to me , made me hate my father. I loss so many years with him because I was angry. Turns out she hurt him too. My brother and I are trying to heal. My little sister will never get the chance to. I miss her everyday.
I can relate when my father doesn't take pills or see what his disorder is, except he did Verbal abuse to me, it hurt like spears just hitting my toes seeing what my mom can do to protect us! Otherwise, he does love me & his wife so it a whirlwind of troubles
It's hard to live with a narcissistic Mother who always blames her fault on me. It hurts like hell. Thank you for that song Lø ❤ Much love from Germany ❤
Can completely relate to this song. So many of us end up broken adults because of abusive parents. We all heal with God and with time. Doesn't stop the pain or nightmares though. Great song man!
"Your pain is someone elses scar that they gave to you." Everyone's built broken. Especially those who believe they're not. I can't even be mad at my mom for the way she is. Someone did that to her.
this song had me balling and im 39... i guess childhood trama does fallow us.... i was always the kid that was the escape goat in the family and even when they laied into me for being mad at what ever they were mad about for the day i would still be there knocking on thier door trying to fix what ever it was or say whatever i could to make THEM happy again and not so angry or upset with me. as i got older i realized that led me into a 13 year abusive relationship with my kids father one with special needs ... i could go on n on as to how this song even to this day has resonated with me.. u dont hear many songs like this ... thank you for being someone that actually understands.. i dont meet many people that do... love your music! someone times the thing that doesnt push u over the edge is knowing someone gets it and ur not alone .... again ... thank you!
Word for word. I am going thru this.. it hurts so fucking much because it’s my mother. But at the same time, I’m 26 with a 2 year old little girl.. I’m sick and tired of being bullied. I’m sick of being walked on. I’m sick of being the easy target. This man’s music hits me so god damn hard that I can’t help but cry.
you have no clue how healing songs like this are. i had an absentee father, so the only parent i ever knew was my mother. but she was abusive, so much so that i'm now completely no contact with her, have been for years. and it took me YEARS of my adult like to heal and find peace and work through my stuff. and even though i'm doing better now, music like this is still a safe space for me, still something that makes me feel so seen, so understood, and so much less alone. it's cathartic, healing, and it's just genuinely awesome music too. it's everything i love and want in the music i listen to. so from the bottom of my heart, thank you SO MUCH. you will never know how much it means to me that i get to listen to your music, but i appreciate it more than words can ever express. thank you
There aren't even enough words to describe how healing all your songs have been for me. I first discovered you when I was at one of the lowest places in my life and every song you've created has helped pull me back to the surface and feel through the trauma. Be honest and open. Thank you muchly. You truly are a one of a kind artist. Keep on being you.
Thank you man I grew up with a mentally abusive stepmother and this shit hits home so fucking hard thank you Lo your voice is freaking amazing brother never stop
Josh, My Son & I listened to this together and it hits hard! Emotional & Beautiful All at once! The thoughts that are running in my head of my mom that I can no longer Express and repair as she's no longer alive. I will have to heal with God & without her. Thank you for this song! Many Blessings to you! 😊🤗🖤🔥
As a person who grew up and still lives around abusive parents, this encapsulates my mother, biological dad and my dad in some ways, thank you Josh and God bless you, this makes me tear up and helps me get through my struggles. You deserve a LOT more attention dude
It's hard to understand how to feel when physically your parents are the best, but the emotional neglect has left you with a complete lack of self-worth 🖤 Thanks for the music, I needed the emotional release^ ^
Your music has kept me company through the darkness, when the shadows feel like they’re eating me alive. As I lie here alone, hiding with the blankets pulled over my head I use your music to drown out the screams of depression, anorexia, OCD. I hope you and everyone in that same place can get some peace as we fight alone, together.
Every words in this song speaks of my childhood and who it has made me. It kills me to know that you suffer the same way. I just want you to know that you are the perfect you. If she can’t see it that’s her loss, no matter how much it hurts to never be what they wanted. 🖤🖤🖤
All I can do is silently cry😢, I felt every word of that song. My mom doesn't have control of me anymore, huuuuuuugs to your little you and to the adult you as well.
Just don’t understand how this song doesn’t have a million views already. One of my favorite singers. Hope you get the recognition that you deserve!!!!
My mother abused me physically and emotionally as well as my dad and brother. They are narcissists and don't care for the pain and damage they have caused me. I'm 37 and still suffering. This song relates a lot.
Relate to this so much with my relationship with my mum. Being the youngest, I was always stuck in my older brothers and sister's shadows and my mum just loved to treat me with high expectations, as if I couldn't be a kid and had to be put on a pedestal while still being compared to my siblings. Handwriting, art projects, grades, politeness, etc etc.
I'm so sorry😢, i can relate to this too much!Being adopted, as i grew up my mom made it seem like i had to repay her thats why the "Took of my voice like i owed it to ya" struck me so much!I'm no saint but my mom has a special way of making you feel like shit and guilty and like i know she tried the best that she could and is trying but im so tired🥲
This was so much better than I imagined it would be after listening to the clips… you are an incredible artist. This song is so personal and still, us fans can still find a personal connection in our own lives. This hits so hard. I haven’t cried in a long time..I am now. I try so hard to have a relationship with my mom, but it also hurts.. thank you for this song, is in my Apple Music now
As a person who grew up with an abusive mother this song hits me hard. She took the rest of the light I had left when she took her life in 2012.....I've never been enough for her and I'll never get the chance to be
Thanks. All I needed was a good cry today. 🥺 I painted smiles over all the abuse....... this was beautifully bittersweet, healing.......gosh instant follow. And I am so sorry, what a ride of emotions.
It’s been 9 months since I last seen and heard from my biological mother. The last 6 months before I moved, left everything I knew behind, and started new just to safe was an absolute nightmare before I packed my things and my roommate picked me up to drive 1000+ miles. My mother was mentally ill and had a severe drug problem. I was the main target of her abuse for 24 years. In those last six months she had me arrested, put in a institution, and stole so much from me. In those six months I was an alcoholic and suicidal. She lied, manipulated, leeched, stole, gaslit to get whatever she wanted. Though I’m still healing from all the abuse and there will be scars I’ll have to live with for the rest of my life, I’m doing better now. Drivers license, my own truck, and I’m now a electrician apprentice. This is something I needed, the words and feelings trapped inside me. Thank you for this. The tears I shed while listening makes me know it means something.
The worst part of understanding is when it reminds you of your pain. This song is phenomenal and speaks the truth so we’ll. Thank you for making this song. One day we will heal from our trauma and be stronger for it
Wow this song really hit me hard!!!! I moved in with my mother. Now I am depressed cause she is so controlling and it’s so depressing and stressful. Thank you so much for this song!!! Your amazing
Dude i love your music and the feelings you bring into the lyrics❤️ and to everyone.. no matter what you're going through always remember that there will always be someone or something that'll be there for you and never ever ever forget that the sun WILL rise again no matter how long the night may seem.
Once again, this man managed to make a song I relate to on a painfully personal level. I went through some similar experiences with my mom and it left me scarred mentally, emotionally and physically. Keep up the great work man! 👍👍👍🔥🔥🔥
This hits too close to home and I cried like a baby the first time I listened, then I understood that we have to be strong and we have to be vulnerable. My mother has since apologized for the abuse, and I still have no clue who she is anymore or where she is. I always wish her the best. It's a hard life to live when the ONE person you inherently love turns on you from time to time. Weather verbal or physical, I had both, I'm not a happy person till this day and I still have panic attacks and breakdown here and there. Life leaves you leaches that just suck that life out of you. I have learned to smile, I got away. I do still talk to my mother she still doesn't tell me where she is. Thats fine. As long as she's okay. I'm alright.
This song hits so hard! 😭❤️ As someone that still receives verbal abuse and condescending comments from their mother, this is emotional, powerful and relatable. Absolutely love it.
Just let the comments bounce off of you eventually they will stop do not react my dad was always spewing transphobic insults and more at me i just stoped replying he stopped the hate comments if you can ignore the abuse do it it might just stop hold on friend its worth it in the end.
@@Im-just-VeI think its more of that they fear for you, i think rather than living in sadness; take what they say with grain of salt and look at from a more positive outlook. At least now you have someone who cares. when your parents die there will be no one who looks at you and that more sad😅
I absolutely love every song you guys come out with and what your songs mean to me? The words the way the songs are played. You guys are phenomenal. Much love, Cody.
What’s cool about this is that it seems like more of a victory anthem than a sad song given the journey you have been on and where you are now. This coming out after so long dealing with health and past trauma and moving is super powerful! Keep the great songs coming!
I love this song with every fiber of my being. I'm a trans man who grew up with a very abusive mother and it's hard to find songs about abusive mothers. Thank you for seeing me
Lyrics: Mama I know this wasn’t part of the plan I’m not the son you wanna show to your friends I know you think that I’m less of a man But you won’t say it… Say it. I know you think you do the best that you can I think there’s parts of you, you don’t understand You make me question everything that I am Till I can’t say it… Say it. You took my voice like I owed it to you Buried the boy that I still hold onto Take the rest of me, why don’t you? You close the door I held open for you Made me ashamed of who I’ve turned into Take the rest of me, why don’t you? Yeah, why don’t you.. Mama, this house you made was never a home Did you love us or love the control? Maybe it’s best we all learn to let go But we can’t say it.. So I’ll say it. I painted smiles over all the abuse Cause I was young and that’s what kids do I was protecting my mom from the truth But now I’ll say it. Say it. You took my voice like I owed it to you Buried the boy that I still hold onto Take the rest of me, why don’t you? You close the door I held open for you Made me ashamed of who I’ve turned into Take the rest of me, why don’t you? God knows we know ‘almost’ God knows we know ‘almost’. I worked so hard to be your gentleman Left so many things unsaid Tried to be your best friend Until the walls were fucking caving in Closets, spilling skeletons When does it ever end? Mama, mama, mama, When does it end? Mama? Mama! You took my voice like I owed it to you Buried the boy that I still hold onto Take the rest of me, why don’t you?
You've really out done yourself with this one Joshua, thank you once again for sharing your art with us, it means the world to me , much love to you man keep it up 🖤🖤🖤
You just have the most amazing voice and the most amazing lyrics. I love everything about your songs. I found you yesterday and you already are one of my favorites.
Absolutely Beautifest and Greatest song, Way To Say It, So PERFECT, THANK YOU LO SPIRIT ❤😢😢😢😢❤❤❤❤Damn it Still Hurts AFTER soooo many YEARS AGO 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢
I am not a mother yet Lo, but you and this song made all the innate motherly feelings to come out. I had to write a comment and tell you that I am proud of you.
I am a mother of 2 almost adult children. And I hope that even dough I have my own problems I never gave them this feeling. This song makes me cry and all I wanna do is give you a hug and tell you you can be anything you wanna be. You are loved. Never think that you are alone
From someone that has no connection to his mom and that’s wanting it but it will never happen, this song is just perfect!! Everything that I think is sung in this song!!
Man this song right here. Ended up on your Spotify playlist, just finally crying and letting out all that damn harbored pain. Then this song comes on, and its like he we have same damn mother. You are the 1st artist who can bring a tear to eyes, while sober no less. Im sure you probably wont see this, but on the off chance you do. Thank you. Ive never been good with feelings and voicing them. Its been almsot 2 weeks and i just keep coming back for more. So again. THANK YOU!
So, my mother was abused in a pretty big way, which isn't really my story to tell, but it did impact how she raised us. She has trauma and undiagnosed mental health issues, and likely ADHD and/or autism too; as a result the way she raised us was unusual in ways that negatively impacted myself and my sibling. Hesitant to call it "abuse," but that's the conclusion everyone seems to come to whenever I talk about how we were raised in more detail. I'm in my 30s and disabled and still stuck at home under her (and to a lesser extent, my father's) control, so I really feel this song. In the confines of what I am allowed to do, we're basically like best friends, but that's the thing, I have to shrink and hide big parts of myself in order to keep her comfortable. Not sure there's anything I can really do to escape, and I think I'm at a point in my life where it feels impossible so what's the point in even trying to fight for change. It's like I've accepted it, and in a way I'm "happier" because there's less friction, but my life is so limited because of my health, but also because of her.
I love this song so much.. I really relate to it growing up with a toxic adoptive mother who let my foster brother do whatever he wanted even if it hurt me. She never once tried to protect me from him. From the rape when I was 7 to the countless beatings he gave me while she wasn’t around that started when I was about 10. I always had to protect myself because in her eyes nothing he did was ever wrong. I isolated myself from everyone in my room for years because it was the only time I felt safe and even then I had countless nights of no sleep because I was worried he would come into my room to hurt me. Because of the trauma I have bad social anxiety, ptsd and depression. And I still have trouble sleeping when my depression and ptsd get bad.
I love this song. I can definitely relate to it. The vocals and music in this are amazing. I was a daughter that dealt with this from my mama. Thank you
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From sadness, to frustration, to lying to yourself about the truth, but denying it, becoming anger, a deep down fury never released, to simply a numbness all over the body. What a rollercoaster of emotions... And it hurts because I feel it in a personal level.
Man, that was I was when I learned about everything that happened to me.
@@nicydarko552yeah... Painful, isn't it? But, hey, I'll tell you. It gets better. There is no shaming in helping yourself, cutting off the evil by it's roots. I did that. It got better.
@@BlueTextingStories Ya my mom was TOXIC! I was able to get out and help myself and start cleaning up my act so.
@@nicydarko552glad to hear it mate
saya juga merasakan hal yang sama seperti anda....berpura-pura kuat di depan padahl lemah dihati dan pikaran serta fisik berpura-pura bahagia didepan keluarga padahal rapuh
I grew up with an amazing mom. She raised 3 kids alone, shitty paying job, no alimony, kept the house clean, made food, always smiling and never complaining... It's easy to take that for granted when you've never known any different and this song grounds me. It's a humbling experience that reminds me not everyone has been this fortunate. I love my mom and I hope one day I'll be as good of a parent as she is.
Ya what hurts more is when you realize all the lies and the masks your(my) mom wore. When you realize how bad everything is; it hurts so much. Then the anger slips in, and you realize that it is in fact NOT normal to have intense stress when someone walks in the room.
@nicydarko552 I thought I had wonderful parents until I was 18 when my grandma told me they were functioning drug addicts and I was the only person in our small town that did not know. My siblings knew, my friends knew, everyone did. I should probably start working on healing that, 20 years later. 🫠🫠 best of luck to you!
gah, sounds just like my mom.. we lost her in 2016, I watched her take her last breath... wouldn't wish this on anyone. ever.
Me, my brother and little sister lived under a mother who emotionally abused us all. Pitted us against each other using the hope of avoiding her wrath. She lied to me , made me hate my father. I loss so many years with him because I was angry. Turns out she hurt him too. My brother and I are trying to heal. My little sister will never get the chance to. I miss her everyday.
I can relate when my father doesn't take pills or see what his disorder is, except he did Verbal abuse to me, it hurt like spears just hitting my toes seeing what my mom can do to protect us! Otherwise, he does love me & his wife so it a whirlwind of troubles
Wish I could send this to her. Wouldn’t do any good. But this song has played non stop for me. Thanks man
It's hard to live with a narcissistic Mother who always blames her fault on me. It hurts like hell.
Thank you for that song Lø ❤
Much love from Germany ❤
This guys songs will always have a way to move me. His voice and lyrics compliment each other so well. Great song as always.
creepy6563 listen to citizen soilder amazing band you will like them i promise
Yeah man inspiring as Fk❤❤
He's grabbed my ❤️heart..
Masterpiece, soul touching!😢
Can completely relate to this song. So many of us end up broken adults because of abusive parents. We all heal with God and with time. Doesn't stop the pain or nightmares though. Great song man!
"Your pain is someone elses scar that they gave to you." Everyone's built broken. Especially those who believe they're not. I can't even be mad at my mom for the way she is. Someone did that to her.
this song had me balling and im 39... i guess childhood trama does fallow us.... i was always the kid that was the escape goat in the family and even when they laied into me for being mad at what ever they were mad about for the day i would still be there knocking on thier door trying to fix what ever it was or say whatever i could to make THEM happy again and not so angry or upset with me. as i got older i realized that led me into a 13 year abusive relationship with my kids father one with special needs ... i could go on n on as to how this song even to this day has resonated with me.. u dont hear many songs like this ... thank you for being someone that actually understands.. i dont meet many people that do... love your music! someone times the thing that doesnt push u over the edge is knowing someone gets it and ur not alone .... again ... thank you!
Word for word. I am going thru this.. it hurts so fucking much because it’s my mother. But at the same time, I’m 26 with a 2 year old little girl.. I’m sick and tired of being bullied. I’m sick of being walked on. I’m sick of being the easy target. This man’s music hits me so god damn hard that I can’t help but cry.
@@Kazazzy just know ur not alone 💞
you have no clue how healing songs like this are.
i had an absentee father, so the only parent i ever knew was my mother. but she was abusive, so much so that i'm now completely no contact with her, have been for years. and it took me YEARS of my adult like to heal and find peace and work through my stuff.
and even though i'm doing better now, music like this is still a safe space for me, still something that makes me feel so seen, so understood, and so much less alone. it's cathartic, healing, and it's just genuinely awesome music too. it's everything i love and want in the music i listen to.
so from the bottom of my heart, thank you SO MUCH. you will never know how much it means to me that i get to listen to your music, but i appreciate it more than words can ever express. thank you
There aren't even enough words to describe how healing all your songs have been for me.
I first discovered you when I was at one of the lowest places in my life and every song you've created has helped pull me back to the surface and feel through the trauma. Be honest and open.
Thank you muchly.
You truly are a one of a kind artist.
Keep on being you.
Thank you man I grew up with a mentally abusive stepmother and this shit hits home so fucking hard thank you Lo your voice is freaking amazing brother never stop
Josh, My Son & I listened to this together and it hits hard! Emotional & Beautiful All at once! The thoughts that are running in my head of my mom that I can no longer Express and repair as she's no longer alive. I will have to heal with God & without her. Thank you for this song! Many Blessings to you! 😊🤗🖤🔥
WOW... this is an amazing song.
As a person who grew up and still lives around abusive parents, this encapsulates my mother, biological dad and my dad in some ways, thank you Josh and God bless you, this makes me tear up and helps me get through my struggles. You deserve a LOT more attention dude
It's hard to understand how to feel when physically your parents are the best, but the emotional neglect has left you with a complete lack of self-worth 🖤
Thanks for the music, I needed the emotional release^ ^
This hit home. I could feel it to my very core.
Your music has kept me company through the darkness, when the shadows feel like they’re eating me alive. As I lie here alone, hiding with the blankets pulled over my head I use your music to drown out the screams of depression, anorexia, OCD.
I hope you and everyone in that same place can get some peace as we fight alone, together.
Same 🫂is hard when those around you don’t understand it
This song had me in tears. It describes my relationship with my narcissistic mother perfectly.
Every words in this song speaks of my childhood and who it has made me. It kills me to know that you suffer the same way. I just want you to know that you are the perfect you. If she can’t see it that’s her loss, no matter how much it hurts to never be what they wanted. 🖤🖤🖤
All I can do is silently cry😢, I felt every word of that song. My mom doesn't have control of me anymore, huuuuuuugs to your little you and to the adult you as well.
Just don’t understand how this song doesn’t have a million views already. One of my favorite singers. Hope you get the recognition that you deserve!!!!
My mother abused me physically and emotionally as well as my dad and brother. They are narcissists and don't care for the pain and damage they have caused me. I'm 37 and still suffering. This song relates a lot.
Relate to this so much with my relationship with my mum. Being the youngest, I was always stuck in my older brothers and sister's shadows and my mum just loved to treat me with high expectations, as if I couldn't be a kid and had to be put on a pedestal while still being compared to my siblings. Handwriting, art projects, grades, politeness, etc etc.
I'm so sorry😢, i can relate to this too much!Being adopted, as i grew up my mom made it seem like i had to repay her thats why the "Took of my voice like i owed it to ya" struck me so much!I'm no saint but my mom has a special way of making you feel like shit and guilty and like i know she tried the best that she could and is trying but im so tired🥲
This was so much better than I imagined it would be after listening to the clips… you are an incredible artist. This song is so personal and still, us fans can still find a personal connection in our own lives. This hits so hard. I haven’t cried in a long time..I am now. I try so hard to have a relationship with my mom, but it also hurts.. thank you for this song, is in my Apple Music now
As a person who grew up with an abusive mother this song hits me hard. She took the rest of the light I had left when she took her life in 2012.....I've never been enough for her and I'll never get the chance to be
Thanks. All I needed was a good cry today. 🥺 I painted smiles over all the abuse....... this was beautifully bittersweet, healing.......gosh instant follow. And I am so sorry, what a ride of emotions.
Lø Spirit I Know you probably dont read all your comments but man your music speaks to me, KEEP IT UP! you are an amazing artist
Any day a new Lo Spirit song comes out is a day I have a High Spirit❤
It’s been 9 months since I last seen and heard from my biological mother. The last 6 months before I moved, left everything I knew behind, and started new just to safe was an absolute nightmare before I packed my things and my roommate picked me up to drive 1000+ miles. My mother was mentally ill and had a severe drug problem. I was the main target of her abuse for 24 years. In those last six months she had me arrested, put in a institution, and stole so much from me. In those six months I was an alcoholic and suicidal. She lied, manipulated, leeched, stole, gaslit to get whatever she wanted. Though I’m still healing from all the abuse and there will be scars I’ll have to live with for the rest of my life, I’m doing better now. Drivers license, my own truck, and I’m now a electrician apprentice. This is something I needed, the words and feelings trapped inside me. Thank you for this. The tears I shed while listening makes me know it means something.
The worst part of understanding is when it reminds you of your pain. This song is phenomenal and speaks the truth so we’ll. Thank you for making this song. One day we will heal from our trauma and be stronger for it
Did we grow up in the same "home" must have repressed those memories too. This is powerful, thank you
I know this wasn't easy for you to release 🥺 but I am SO SO SO proud of you!!! For letting this out because it's healing you! 🩵
Man I love this guys vocals for real impreses me everytime 🔥
Wow this song really hit me hard!!!! I moved in with my mother. Now I am depressed cause she is so controlling and it’s so depressing and stressful. Thank you so much for this song!!! Your amazing
I have never.... Screamed a song louder... With all of my being behind it... Thank you
Dude i love your music and the feelings you bring into the lyrics❤️ and to everyone.. no matter what you're going through always remember that there will always be someone or something that'll be there for you and never ever ever forget that the sun WILL rise again no matter how long the night may seem.
Love all your music man, you have a great voice for real, it hits hard. I’ve been waiting for this song for so long
I wish my mum was still alive so I could play this to her..!!
Once again, this man managed to make a song I relate to on a painfully personal level. I went through some similar experiences with my mom and it left me scarred mentally, emotionally and physically. Keep up the great work man! 👍👍👍🔥🔥🔥
This hits too close to home and I cried like a baby the first time I listened, then I understood that we have to be strong and we have to be vulnerable. My mother has since apologized for the abuse, and I still have no clue who she is anymore or where she is. I always wish her the best. It's a hard life to live when the ONE person you inherently love turns on you from time to time. Weather verbal or physical, I had both, I'm not a happy person till this day and I still have panic attacks and breakdown here and there. Life leaves you leaches that just suck that life out of you. I have learned to smile, I got away. I do still talk to my mother she still doesn't tell me where she is. Thats fine. As long as she's okay. I'm alright.
This broke my heart. Beautifully done but I'm so sorry - give that little boy that is still in there a hug from me please 💕
This hits home....
This song hits so hard! 😭❤️ As someone that still receives verbal abuse and condescending comments from their mother, this is emotional, powerful and relatable. Absolutely love it.
Just let the comments bounce off of you eventually they will stop do not react my dad was always spewing transphobic insults and more at me i just stoped replying he stopped the hate comments if you can ignore the abuse do it it might just stop hold on friend its worth it in the end.
@@Im-just-VeI think its more of that they fear for you, i think rather than living in sadness; take what they say with grain of salt and look at from a more positive outlook. At least now you have someone who cares. when your parents die there will be no one who looks at you and that more sad😅
I absolutely love every song you guys come out with and what your songs mean to me? The words the way the songs are played. You guys are phenomenal. Much love, Cody.
What’s cool about this is that it seems like more of a victory anthem than a sad song given the journey you have been on and where you are now. This coming out after so long dealing with health and past trauma and moving is super powerful! Keep the great songs coming!
I love this song with every fiber of my being. I'm a trans man who grew up with a very abusive mother and it's hard to find songs about abusive mothers. Thank you for seeing me
Lyrics:
Mama I know this wasn’t part of the plan
I’m not the son you wanna show to your friends
I know you think that I’m less of a man
But you won’t say it…
Say it.
I know you think you do the best that you can
I think there’s parts of you, you don’t understand
You make me question everything that I am
Till I can’t say it…
Say it.
You took my voice like I owed it to you
Buried the boy that I still hold onto
Take the rest of me, why don’t you?
You close the door I held open for you
Made me ashamed of who I’ve turned into
Take the rest of me, why don’t you?
Yeah, why don’t you..
Mama, this house you made was never a home
Did you love us or love the control?
Maybe it’s best we all learn to let go
But we can’t say it..
So I’ll say it.
I painted smiles over all the abuse
Cause I was young and that’s what kids do
I was protecting my mom from the truth
But now I’ll say it.
Say it.
You took my voice like I owed it to you
Buried the boy that I still hold onto
Take the rest of me, why don’t you?
You close the door I held open for you
Made me ashamed of who I’ve turned into
Take the rest of me, why don’t you?
God knows we know ‘almost’
God knows we know ‘almost’.
I worked so hard to be your gentleman
Left so many things unsaid
Tried to be your best friend
Until the walls were fucking caving in
Closets, spilling skeletons
When does it ever end?
Mama, mama, mama,
When does it end?
Mama? Mama!
You took my voice like I owed it to you
Buried the boy that I still hold onto
Take the rest of me, why don’t you?
I lost my mother at the hands of my father, and this song touches too deep down lø spirit 💔 I try to get ahead because it inspires me!
I ❤ this... Such raw emotion.... You can literally feel it in his voice. Thank you for this.
This actually reminds me of my dad
This is criminal this only has 200k views 😢
Love it!! Your songs always hit home ❤
You can't write a bad song homie. I love everything you make!
You've really out done yourself with this one Joshua, thank you once again for sharing your art with us, it means the world to me , much love to you man keep it up 🖤🖤🖤
This songs hits me so personally. All of your songs have. Thank you for the beautiful songs you've created.
You just have the most amazing voice and the most amazing lyrics. I love everything about your songs. I found you yesterday and you already are one of my favorites.
Absolutely Beautifest and Greatest song, Way To Say It, So PERFECT, THANK YOU LO SPIRIT ❤😢😢😢😢❤❤❤❤Damn it Still Hurts AFTER soooo many YEARS AGO 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢
This is painfully beautiful and beautifully painful!!! Def hits home♥️
Much love and mad respect ❤️❤️ #LøSpirit
This is beautiful along with all his other songs. Why isn't he blowing up??!
I am not a mother yet Lo, but you and this song made all the innate motherly feelings to come out. I had to write a comment and tell you that I am proud of you.
This is an incredible song, I honestly love it. U did a great job, Spirit 👍
💖😇 love it
I don’t have a relationship with my mama! What a beautiful song!! Thank you Lo Spirit 💯
I am a mother of 2 almost adult children. And I hope that even dough I have my own problems I never gave them this feeling. This song makes me cry and all I wanna do is give you a hug and tell you you can be anything you wanna be. You are loved. Never think that you are alone
I changed mama to grandma when i was singing along and i just started balling
Bro you fucking said it all 💯💯💯💯🙏🏻❤️❤️❤️❤️
One of my favorite voices at the moment. So much emotion in his voice and music. Kinda reminds me of Oli Sykes a little bit.
From someone that has no connection to his mom and that’s wanting it but it will never happen, this song is just perfect!! Everything that I think is sung in this song!!
Daughter of deceased addict. I miss her every day, these lyrics hit so hard.
Absolutely amazing! My heart breaks with and for you! I'm proud of your journey and your strength!!! ❤❤❤️🩹❤️🩹
I haven't heard a voice like this in years!! My guy, your absolutely a blessing. Thanks so much for the relatable music. It definitely helps 🥲
Bro your music has carried me so far through therapy. They never stop hitting hard. Keep it up!
Wow. This is heartbreaking and absolutely gorgeous at the same time.
Man this song right here. Ended up on your Spotify playlist, just finally crying and letting out all that damn harbored pain. Then this song comes on, and its like he we have same damn mother. You are the 1st artist who can bring a tear to eyes, while sober no less. Im sure you probably wont see this, but on the off chance you do. Thank you. Ive never been good with feelings and voicing them. Its been almsot 2 weeks and i just keep coming back for more. So again. THANK YOU!
This hits home so hard. It's beautiful and yet so painful.
This hits hard
You sing from your ❤ of experience...
Bless your heart kiddo 🤗
Such honest lyrics. Thanks for sharing, you help people like me heal.
I’ve waited for the full release since last year, been playing this on repeat all day long 🥺
Wow... I've never heard a song that hits so close to home for me😅. Thank you for sharing such a beautiful song?
holy shit that’s some powerful writing
So, my mother was abused in a pretty big way, which isn't really my story to tell, but it did impact how she raised us. She has trauma and undiagnosed mental health issues, and likely ADHD and/or autism too; as a result the way she raised us was unusual in ways that negatively impacted myself and my sibling.
Hesitant to call it "abuse," but that's the conclusion everyone seems to come to whenever I talk about how we were raised in more detail. I'm in my 30s and disabled and still stuck at home under her (and to a lesser extent, my father's) control, so I really feel this song. In the confines of what I am allowed to do, we're basically like best friends, but that's the thing, I have to shrink and hide big parts of myself in order to keep her comfortable.
Not sure there's anything I can really do to escape, and I think I'm at a point in my life where it feels impossible so what's the point in even trying to fight for change. It's like I've accepted it, and in a way I'm "happier" because there's less friction, but my life is so limited because of my health, but also because of her.
Yet another banger that hits me to my core. Love you and your music man.
Just incredible!!! Hope it helps in healing all the souls who feel like this. Well done, my friend👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻🤍🖤♥️
Wow!! Ngl, this made me cry! I was really looking forward to hearing the rest of this song and it did not disappoint!! Beautiful song!! ❤
I love this song so much.. I really relate to it growing up with a toxic adoptive mother who let my foster brother do whatever he wanted even if it hurt me. She never once tried to protect me from him. From the rape when I was 7 to the countless beatings he gave me while she wasn’t around that started when I was about 10. I always had to protect myself because in her eyes nothing he did was ever wrong. I isolated myself from everyone in my room for years because it was the only time I felt safe and even then I had countless nights of no sleep because I was worried he would come into my room to hurt me. Because of the trauma I have bad social anxiety, ptsd and depression. And I still have trouble sleeping when my depression and ptsd get bad.
Goosebumps the whole song. Wonderful work, as always.
I love this song. I can definitely relate to it. The vocals and music in this are amazing. I was a daughter that dealt with this from my mama. Thank you
You are very brave! Thank you for your voice and for your music!
This really hits home, and it helps. I need to share this with my brothers. 😢
My god… this song really just had me in tears and now I have to go to work. Awesome job.
This voice hit so hard. Hope we hear from you much more.
I wanna be able to bring people together emotionally with my music the way you do 🖤 amazing song as always 🔥🔥🔥🤧🤧🖤🖤
Sorry for your life experiences man. I can't relate and this makes me thankful. Love you.
Ugh! The chorus!!!! 💥
"tried to be your best friend..."
That sinks deep and I wish I'd let myself get closer to my mom.. but I can't..
bro ,this is the best ,favorite song i ever heard !!!! Thanks for it
Thank you so much for your Music.
proud of you, friend 🥹