I believe that there is no such thing as "creating too much, not enough living". Creating, even for ourselves, even badly, feels to me as a way to be mindful of life, to engage in life...
"I'm expert at talking about nothing in a lost effort to talk about The Thing, the thing at the heart of it all"... so true + real. this is the first of ur videos i've seen + i was struck by the sweet mundanity!! someone once described annette peacock's music as "it sounds like a person thinking" and i think the same could be said of your films, such peace in letting things come together and shape up as they do... also crazy contemporary 21st literary canon cameo normal ppl-everything i never told you-my year of rest and relaxation-infinite jest-zadie smith shelf don't think u go unnoticed........
i loved reading your comment omg :) so thoughtful, i feel very seen (haha, those books included). i LOVE that that is the feeling you got from the video, "sweet mundanity." it's what i love, the simple stuff, so i'm so glad the vibe is felt. i'm glad you found your way here, and hope you're well~
Loved this. The thumbnail headshot of you reading was exquisite and the night shots were wonderful, my favorites. I really like the contemplating, stream-of-consciousness parts, i always relate to these and they help me reach new resolutions about my own concerns, i don't think you think too much at all 😅, we're just at a very liminal age of early adulthood and we need to answer a lot of basic questions about ourselves. And the last monologue had such a poetic quality to it, just *chef's kiss* 👌🏼 I need to read To the Lighthouse, i've heard so much praise about Woolf but have never gotten to read her works
I watched twice. Do you realize you’ve got a body of high quality work already? And I think it's directly related to what you call “chronic dreaming”. I looked it up (to be sure) and I see chronic is not necessarily negative. Def not in this case. I got to the end and went right back to the beginning. You finish so so so strong with these…So much to react to as usual. First, synchronicities - I stop and consider them when they happen. Take today. This morning I read the introduction to Slow Productivity by Cal Newport (an author and a book I think you will love especially given your comment that you felt stumped and things were not going fast enough. There’s some wonderful insights on how slowing down makes one get further, faster and with more satisfaction). Anyway, the introduction of the book relates the story of a man at Princeton (Princeton), lying on a picnic table (you with the basket, popping grapes) staring up into branches and leaves (you had the shots of the sun through the branches) for nearly two weeks he did this, fighting fear and creative panic. After taking this break and allowing for it, he exploded with productivity. Just noting the parallels. It feels like something. A couple of quick things: “blood feels like electricity” over the visual you gave us? You could have dropped the mic right there imo. What a line. // Your interactions with your mom - so kind, so loving, so considerate in both directions. And I love how it seems like you can have real conversations - her saying the way you are doesn’t match what you say you want to be - that’s real - that's such an ally. we need people like that, very impressed that Mom says it and you take it with openness // i love the shots of the bookshelves// One point you said how you want to stay present and I always used to say, of course we need to focus on staying present. But always? This is Proust related, sorry I always go there, but something I learned last year from Proust is that perhaps, with our minds, we don’t move horizontally through time. That’s an illusion. We all have an interior life that moves in all kinds of directions at the same time. Sometimes you’re in the past and that can help inform the present…and the future. They’re all part of the same tapestry. The way you used footage from princeton and other places to create this episode. I’m getting in over my head now but it’s a thought. Present is good but ok to stray a little. Oh and your Mom says you shouldn't be tired because you're 20. You’re tired and because you’re giving the interior life a lot of attention right now. That’s real work! That interior stuff that gets hashed out on walks and journaling sessions and editing these episodes pulling from past, present thinking about future - and reading and connecting things in our life with what we read in books - that’s all real hard work that many don’t have the ability or courage to do. You’re not playing with lofty pretentions. Why worry if you take your eye off the rain or the sun for a while - your eyes are on things we can’t see. But these things inside you think about and think about and the sun nad rain, when the thinking and exterior world align after reflection like you're doing oh I have to believe that’s the sweet spot. I see that all over your films. You're going there. And, you’re bringing a lot of us along for a very important ride. And the nature of your stuff is that we are spectators but also we can’t help but get dragged (happily) in and some of us are being nudged to pay attention to our own interior life and try to align it with the exterior world. Only good can come from that I think. Anyway, tangent again. Over. One last thing. I forget what the poem is but something you said today reminded me of it - I only have the first few lines memorized because they’re what I carry with me - I feel like it sums up what you’re working on: To see a world in a grain of sand, and heaven in a wild flower, hold infinity in the palm of your hand, and Eternity in an hour… infinity, right? Synchronicity? Your work always makes me think about deep and meaningful things, I feel like I grow from each film and your work inspires me as well. Thank you again! One last thing. The title: beautiful, endless over thinking - I take it based on what you say in the episode by over thinking you mean you think too much - analysing things to a fine powder, more than you want to… but… it seems to also mean…based on the content today…are you saying you are also over thinking. That is, done with thinking. Like the man on the picnic table after his time staring at the branches, processing all his research...…done. And now ready to create something else wonderful. I for one will stay tuned!
this is a very belated reply for such a THOUGHTFUL comment. when i first read your comment two months ago i felt SO SEEN. you've dissected my video with as much consideration as i feel i've made it, which is an astounding thing for me to receive, to have someone view my stuff with such sharpness. thank you so so much. i am very lucky. i hope to keep creating stuff you enjoy~
@@inafinity. flannery O'Connor wrote that she has to write to know what she thinks. Some of us, many of us I'd say out here in internetland, me for sure, we watch your films and it helps us articulate things that prior to your film were just knots in our stomach. that's special work. That is rare. This is one season. I know your content won't always be of this nature and tone. You clearly have a voice that will go a lot of places in a lot of ways. i along for the ride wherever you take us!
Thank you for this. I really needed it. Btw, I see u visited 21-21 design sight at mid garden 9:12. Did u get a chance to step inside that architecture? Words can’t describe how good that building is.
gilmore girls!!!!i used to set a rule of not talking about feelings. i quit that rule lol! i often talk about bad feelings of mine to my mom and my mom said she is kinda ノイローゼ when hearing about my bad feelings lol I wish I could be your therapist lol I think it is good to talk about your feelings or journal about them. good luck and thanks for making a video!! you having a physical book inspired me and led me to buy a english book in Kinokuniya recently. i read it in odakyu line on my way to home!!!
hi! thank you always for your comments and support! haha yes, i think talking about feelings is ultimately good. i'm so happy you've picked up reading! i've been wanting to practice reading a Japanese book, too. and props to you for reading on the train! cellphones everywhere.....
you never miss but this one REALLY, really hit. "painting worlds with my eyes closed" pleaseee write a memoir
thank you so so much :) your words mean a lot............:)
I believe that there is no such thing as "creating too much, not enough living". Creating, even for ourselves, even badly, feels to me as a way to be mindful of life, to engage in life...
wow, love how you put that into words. 🤍
@@ChelseaFlows thank you 🌼 I'm happy it resonated with you!
such a beautiful sentiment. i so agree with you :)
your videos are sublime. please never stop making them
thank you so so much. what a word, "sublime"
"I'm expert at talking about nothing in a lost effort to talk about The Thing, the thing at the heart of it all"... so true + real. this is the first of ur videos i've seen + i was struck by the sweet mundanity!! someone once described annette peacock's music as "it sounds like a person thinking" and i think the same could be said of your films, such peace in letting things come together and shape up as they do... also crazy contemporary 21st literary canon cameo normal ppl-everything i never told you-my year of rest and relaxation-infinite jest-zadie smith shelf don't think u go unnoticed........
i loved reading your comment omg :) so thoughtful, i feel very seen (haha, those books included). i LOVE that that is the feeling you got from the video, "sweet mundanity." it's what i love, the simple stuff, so i'm so glad the vibe is felt. i'm glad you found your way here, and hope you're well~
Book, sky, wall, love your editing!
Loved this. The thumbnail headshot of you reading was exquisite and the night shots were wonderful, my favorites. I really like the contemplating, stream-of-consciousness parts, i always relate to these and they help me reach new resolutions about my own concerns, i don't think you think too much at all 😅, we're just at a very liminal age of early adulthood and we need to answer a lot of basic questions about ourselves. And the last monologue had such a poetic quality to it, just *chef's kiss* 👌🏼
I need to read To the Lighthouse, i've heard so much praise about Woolf but have never gotten to read her works
thank you so much for your thoughtful comment. i so agree with you. this is such a period of questions and uncertainty, and it's all good stuff~
I watched twice. Do you realize you’ve got a body of high quality work already? And I think it's directly related to what you call “chronic dreaming”. I looked it up (to be sure) and I see chronic is not necessarily negative. Def not in this case. I got to the end and went right back to the beginning. You finish so so so strong with these…So much to react to as usual. First, synchronicities - I stop and consider them when they happen. Take today. This morning I read the introduction to Slow Productivity by Cal Newport (an author and a book I think you will love especially given your comment that you felt stumped and things were not going fast enough. There’s some wonderful insights on how slowing down makes one get further, faster and with more satisfaction). Anyway, the introduction of the book relates the story of a man at Princeton (Princeton), lying on a picnic table (you with the basket, popping grapes) staring up into branches and leaves (you had the shots of the sun through the branches) for nearly two weeks he did this, fighting fear and creative panic. After taking this break and allowing for it, he exploded with productivity. Just noting the parallels. It feels like something. A couple of quick things: “blood feels like electricity” over the visual you gave us? You could have dropped the mic right there imo. What a line. // Your interactions with your mom - so kind, so loving, so considerate in both directions. And I love how it seems like you can have real conversations - her saying the way you are doesn’t match what you say you want to be - that’s real - that's such an ally. we need people like that, very impressed that Mom says it and you take it with openness // i love the shots of the bookshelves// One point you said how you want to stay present and I always used to say, of course we need to focus on staying present. But always? This is Proust related, sorry I always go there, but something I learned last year from Proust is that perhaps, with our minds, we don’t move horizontally through time. That’s an illusion. We all have an interior life that moves in all kinds of directions at the same time. Sometimes you’re in the past and that can help inform the present…and the future. They’re all part of the same tapestry. The way you used footage from princeton and other places to create this episode. I’m getting in over my head now but it’s a thought. Present is good but ok to stray a little. Oh and your Mom says you shouldn't be tired because you're 20. You’re tired and because you’re giving the interior life a lot of attention right now. That’s real work! That interior stuff that gets hashed out on walks and journaling sessions and editing these episodes pulling from past, present thinking about future - and reading and connecting things in our life with what we read in books - that’s all real hard work that many don’t have the ability or courage to do. You’re not playing with lofty pretentions. Why worry if you take your eye off the rain or the sun for a while - your eyes are on things we can’t see. But these things inside you think about and think about and the sun nad rain, when the thinking and exterior world align after reflection like you're doing oh I have to believe that’s the sweet spot. I see that all over your films. You're going there. And, you’re bringing a lot of us along for a very important ride. And the nature of your stuff is that we are spectators but also we can’t help but get dragged (happily) in and some of us are being nudged to pay attention to our own interior life and try to align it with the exterior world. Only good can come from that I think. Anyway, tangent again. Over. One last thing. I forget what the poem is but something you said today reminded me of it - I only have the first few lines memorized because they’re what I carry with me - I feel like it sums up what you’re working on: To see a world in a grain of sand, and heaven in a wild flower, hold infinity in the palm of your hand, and Eternity in an hour… infinity, right? Synchronicity? Your work always makes me think about deep and meaningful things, I feel like I grow from each film and your work inspires me as well. Thank you again!
One last thing. The title: beautiful, endless over thinking - I take it based on what you say in the episode by over thinking you mean you think too much - analysing things to a fine powder, more than you want to… but… it seems to also mean…based on the content today…are you saying you are also over thinking. That is, done with thinking. Like the man on the picnic table after his time staring at the branches, processing all his research...…done. And now ready to create something else wonderful. I for one will stay tuned!
this is a very belated reply for such a THOUGHTFUL comment. when i first read your comment two months ago i felt SO SEEN. you've dissected my video with as much consideration as i feel i've made it, which is an astounding thing for me to receive, to have someone view my stuff with such sharpness. thank you so so much. i am very lucky. i hope to keep creating stuff you enjoy~
@@inafinity. flannery O'Connor wrote that she has to write to know what she thinks. Some of us, many of us I'd say out here in internetland, me for sure, we watch your films and it helps us articulate things that prior to your film were just knots in our stomach. that's special work. That is rare. This is one season. I know your content won't always be of this nature and tone. You clearly have a voice that will go a lot of places in a lot of ways. i along for the ride wherever you take us!
This video is Amazing, Ina :)
“That’s what literature and art and stuff can do”
I need to get creative like you because I am stuck right now.
i feel this all the time. be kind to yourself~
@@inafinity. thank you 😁
wow I just got completely sucked into this vid. The way you edited it all together I find very inspiring!
i'm so happy to hear it. thank you for watching and enjoying!
i relate so much to you and found this deeply inspiring. thank you for creating and existing!
i am so happy to hear you can relate! thank you for watching, and existing!!!!
I don't know what this vibe is, but I like it
why thank you :)
Another masterpiece! This was such a beautiful reflection
uuubbberrr late reply, but thank you always, Trivan :) your support means so so much!
This video deserves an Oscar Award , period.
oh my !
something about this brought me to tears
fondly inspired, thanks for making and thinking and sharing, its great
thank you so much, i'm happy you enjoyed :)
the way you talk is so sublime and beautiful
thank you haha. i love that word, "sublime"
Thank you for this. I really needed it.
Btw, I see u visited 21-21 design sight at mid garden 9:12. Did u get a chance to step inside that architecture?
Words can’t describe how good that building is.
Love this video❤
amazing
I am in love with your work! Keep it up❤
thank you so much !!
every single video is a film and masterpiece and a collection of such meaning and beauty
thank you always, Anna :)
i came from insta hehe!! you have such a way with words and i enjoyed all of your vids so much
thank you so much! this makes me really happy to hear.
this is brilliant.
Love it 🤍
I love your work and would love to know what camera you use and how you come up with all these ideas!
thank you so much! it's a mix of canon g7xii, a big lumix and my iPhone and sometimes this old camera !
Nice one 😊
You’ve got a cool sounding voice! Cool vid too :)
What are your favorite movies?
I want to make a guess and say, In The Mood For Love
First
talk a lot about nothing in an effort to talk of the thing - wow
gilmore girls!!!!i used to set a rule of not talking about feelings. i quit that rule lol! i often talk about bad feelings of mine to my mom and my mom said she is kinda ノイローゼ when hearing about my bad feelings lol I wish I could be your therapist lol I think it is good to talk about your feelings or journal about them. good luck and thanks for making a video!! you having a physical book inspired me and led me to buy a english book in Kinokuniya recently. i read it in odakyu line on my way to home!!!
hi! thank you always for your comments and support! haha yes, i think talking about feelings is ultimately good. i'm so happy you've picked up reading! i've been wanting to practice reading a Japanese book, too. and props to you for reading on the train! cellphones everywhere.....
@@inafinity. thx for replying!! every time it makes me really happyyeah true. my favorite Japanese author is 養老孟司! gl!