This is hard to watch. As a former addict who ran overtown for 5 years, I did this same exact shit. IV fent and coke, and Xanax, every single day. I understand what he’s saying about the feeling of relieving the sickness, but I disagree with him about it being the best feeling in the world. I did all that shit, I lived that life, and I honestly think that living a sober, productive life, being able to eat what you want, buy what you want and most importantly sleep next to someone you love, beats the feeling of any drug. I did all that shit. It’s fake. It’s sad some people believe they can’t acquire a better feeling without drugs. I wouldn’t trade anything for the feeling of being able to come home from work, fuck my girl, and fall asleep with her in my arms. Nothing beats that. Sad people can’t see that.
Thank you for that perspective. I hope Sean will realize the same thing in the near future. Was there a point in your life when you did agree with what he said? You making it out of that life gives me hope for everyone still out there in active addiction.
I can attest to this. I am an IV heroin addict. This past June 9th was my 16-year clean anniversary. I shot dope for 6 years every single day, several times a day. I called myself a functioning addict. I have three kids, and they are grown now who are the reason for my sobriety. I knew I would never stay clean in the same environment so I put the kids and the dog in the car at 1 am and drove 6 1/2 hours to a state where I knew noone but my childhood best friend whose never done drugs in her life. I went straight to a methadone clinic that same morning and never looked back. Methadone saved my life. I am convinced I would be dead if I was still using with heroin non existent, and fentanyl replacing it because i was using enormous amounts. I pray for everyone still stuck in addiction. There is NO better feeling than having my grand babies climbing all over me, putting up my autumn, Halloween and Christmas decorations, seeing my kids being kind and gracious human beings, watching my daughter graduate from USC Columbia with a bachelor in science degree, watching her flourish as an RN, watching my other daughter be an amazing Mama, watching my son go to work every day and be a good man to his fiancee, buying my family gifts, taking vacations to Hawaii and Siesta Key this year, etc. We DO recover, and I couldn't be more grateful.
When he said “ when your dope sick like a mf and u take that hit and all the pain goes away instantly” I really felt that. Going on 4 years clean, this is the longest I’ve pulled clean since the whole 12 years addicted on and off and till now that is still the best feeling I have ever felt
Proud of you bro for been clean for so long..Ive never tried hard drugs in me life only a few fun get me partying kind. I think it takes a real strong determined person to recognize they're addicted and need help. much love have an amazing week ahead
Thanks for this crazy video! As someone who’s done a ton of drugs but no longer I m still amazed at watching these people do their thing. I ve never done the needles thank god. I believe in not judging these people, it happens to people in all walks of life.
It’s shocking to see how deeply people can fall into the abyss of drug addiction. The man in the video tells a tragic story of pain, trauma, and addiction. What is particularly striking is how he describes the short-term 'relief' effect of opioids as if it’s a moment of divine intervention, while the real horror is the long-term destruction of his health. This video highlights the dark and devastating impact of meth and fentanyl on a person’s life. I hope more people can recognize the consequences of drugs through content like this and seek help before it’s too late.
Bless Ol Dirty for allowing you into his bubble., Its crazy how fast after the first hit he lost his ability to talk properly. That was so much drugs for 2Hundy holy. Much love to Dirty I hope one day he can clean up and live a life he truly deserves. Living not just surviving. Hes a interesting character to listen to..
I was a herion addict 20 + years know I'm sober for 2 years and my drug of choice is cannabis ill never go back I love me life know that God God did it I couldn't I pray for this guy its so sad I hope he finds his peace God bless him
Dude is getting choked up from the pleasure he feels. This guys days routine probably consists of an hour or two a day of euphoria here and there when the rest of his 24 hours its probably ridiculous what he goes through just to get him to his moment of relief. Kind of what's it's actually like.hussling all day and waiting for hours just for a bit of dope and the high is always short lived compared to withdrawal Never did needles but hung in
Few of my comments are deleted, again. I don't understand why YT is doing this. Why bother discussing this interesting object or replying to what others say if your comments are deleted :(
This poor guy, tough to watch someone struggle like this. I mean i was strung out, but this is another level of being STRUNG OUT, i hope he gets around to a more productive "greatest feeling" before he snuff's himself out.
PLEASE READ MAN: Suggest to the guys who have these issues to get checked for parasitic infections. I recently discovered a parasite was causing similar issues, huge infected gapping holes that take months to heal, inside out blood blisters turning into holes in places that had nothing to do with anything. These worms that are thinner than hairs hate any drugs, and infection is INSANELY RAMPANT amoung EVERYONE, especially if ur unable to keep clean. I got it some 20yrs ago and recently took OTC meds which have STOPPED THE FLESH HOLES & INFECTIONS. Id also suggest you yourself get tested for parasites or take a course of general otc parasite meds, most ppl can live yrs without realising. Pets can cause the spread too. If you have pets be aware that the worming meds may not stop gestation and could still cause owners infection. Stay safe guys 🙏🏻 Peace ✌🏻🕊️
Speedballing is very common among IV users. The drugs don't cancel, you feel both. But this is a good question for me to dive deeper into. I'll ask about specifics the next opportunity I get.
@@otherside305 Speedballing when i was using was heroin and coke, certainly not mixing heroin with meth or speed. Nasty combi, H+meth. Heroin and coke though feels great. I never liked meth.
@@otherside305 I've never injected, it's always been an oral dose. But what I loved about it was that it gave me a 'chill while wide awake' feeling. It's like being dreamy but sharp at the same time. It makes it so that all the creative ideas I got would also be turned into actual artworks instead of just having ideas that I then forget ten seconds later because I got new ideas or was too drowsy. I did have to quit at a certain point because it messed heavily with my circadian rhythm. Earlier this year I did cultivate some poppies again, which kinda got me interested again, but still I chose to stay away from it after I ran out. It helps a lot with pain and it's better than zenes and nyls in terms of side-effects and addiction. Right now I only do cannabis a few times a week and this is what helps me the most with pain and with minimal impact and my friends and family are all non-users so the chances of me relapsing are quite slim. Luckily, in my country, those prescription painkillers are guarded a lot stricter. I can see how it's a much bigger problem in the US.
@@otherside305its quite possibly one of the most euphoric feelings a human can feel from substances. That being said, I’m happily years into sobriety. You feel the warm hug of the opiates, with the happy boost from the uppers, combined, you could not feel more on top of the world.
I'm not trying to censor the drugs I'm censoring him making what he injects. TH-cam doesn't allow showing how to do drugs and I was trying to avoid getting restricted but it got restricted anyway. Now I know for the next video.
Man if you make it blur whats the point ??? Isn’t this awareness kinda video ? I mean there might be someone who’s doing it but a rookie and stuff like that… this could help or safe them from doing it wrong and die eventually
Guys is sucked up….weak..to reduce habit cost & put on some weight we use to PV custody time..a year at least to put on muscle pounds & to feel human again..
I can’t understand if this person doesn’t want to be out of this addiction. I think there should be Miami Dade counselors trying to convince him to rehabilitate.
Hell exists, so repent now, or be sorry later! Gratitude is key to christian life. God wants a relationship with all humans. KJV Bible! Last Days are now! Heed these warnings! Greater modesty is for the blessed!
This is hard to watch. As a former addict who ran overtown for 5 years, I did this same exact shit. IV fent and coke, and Xanax, every single day. I understand what he’s saying about the feeling of relieving the sickness, but I disagree with him about it being the best feeling in the world. I did all that shit, I lived that life, and I honestly think that living a sober, productive life, being able to eat what you want, buy what you want and most importantly sleep next to someone you love, beats the feeling of any drug. I did all that shit. It’s fake. It’s sad some people believe they can’t acquire a better feeling without drugs. I wouldn’t trade anything for the feeling of being able to come home from work, fuck my girl, and fall asleep with her in my arms. Nothing beats that. Sad people can’t see that.
Thank you for that perspective. I hope Sean will realize the same thing in the near future. Was there a point in your life when you did agree with what he said? You making it out of that life gives me hope for everyone still out there in active addiction.
I can attest to this. I am an IV heroin addict. This past June 9th was my 16-year clean anniversary. I shot dope for 6 years every single day, several times a day. I called myself a functioning addict. I have three kids, and they are grown now who are the reason for my sobriety. I knew I would never stay clean in the same environment so I put the kids and the dog in the car at 1 am and drove 6 1/2 hours to a state where I knew noone but my childhood best friend whose never done drugs in her life. I went straight to a methadone clinic that same morning and never looked back. Methadone saved my life. I am convinced I would be dead if I was still using with heroin non existent, and fentanyl replacing it because i was using enormous amounts. I pray for everyone still stuck in addiction. There is NO better feeling than having my grand babies climbing all over me, putting up my autumn, Halloween and Christmas decorations, seeing my kids being kind and gracious human beings, watching my daughter graduate from USC Columbia with a bachelor in science degree, watching her flourish as an RN, watching my other daughter be an amazing Mama, watching my son go to work every day and be a good man to his fiancee, buying my family gifts, taking vacations to Hawaii and Siesta Key this year, etc. We DO recover, and I couldn't be more grateful.
@FloridaMan786 congratulations on your recovery
I have to do it single, fcking sucks
@@marcimonroe7352congrats i jist hit 3 years clean yesterday
This is a great educational video to anyone who doesn’t believe that addiction is a real disease.
When he said “ when your dope sick like a mf and u take that hit and all the pain goes away instantly” I really felt that. Going on 4 years clean, this is the longest I’ve pulled clean since the whole 12 years addicted on and off and till now that is still the best feeling I have ever felt
I’m like that ona. Few things need them to not be sick and using them keeps me sick
Proud of you bro for been clean for so long..Ive never tried hard drugs in me life only a few fun get me partying kind.
I think it takes a real strong determined person to recognize they're addicted and need help.
much love have an amazing week ahead
🎉🎉🎉 way to go!!!
@@nahteAlexander gotta slowly lower dosage until you can go longer without withdrawal etc. I used morphine orally to get clean.
Amazed that he let you film him!
Sad thing is I probably grew up with this guy. Addiction is hard to overcome. Praying for the sick and suffering addict. 😢 🙏 ❤
Part of the addiction is the primal chase. To hunt and gather. Find the money, find the drugs, get well, rinse and repeat. No time to feel.
What a horrible life to live for . Thats hell .
Thanks for this crazy video! As someone who’s done a ton of drugs but no longer I m still amazed at watching these people do their thing. I ve never done the needles thank god. I believe in not judging these people, it happens to people in all walks of life.
It’s shocking to see how deeply people can fall into the abyss of drug addiction. The man in the video tells a tragic story of pain, trauma, and addiction. What is particularly striking is how he describes the short-term 'relief' effect of opioids as if it’s a moment of divine intervention, while the real horror is the long-term destruction of his health. This video highlights the dark and devastating impact of meth and fentanyl on a person’s life. I hope more people can recognize the consequences of drugs through content like this and seek help before it’s too late.
Great comment 🌟 This is the realest addiction video I have ever seen
When you're going through withdrawals, you're dehydrated, so its hard to find a vein!
Bless Ol Dirty for allowing you into his bubble.,
Its crazy how fast after the first hit he lost his ability to talk properly.
That was so much drugs for 2Hundy holy.
Much love to Dirty I hope one day he can clean up and live a life he truly deserves.
Living not just surviving.
Hes a interesting character to listen to..
I was a herion addict 20 + years know I'm sober for 2 years and my drug of choice is cannabis ill never go back I love me life know that God God did it I couldn't I pray for this guy its so sad I hope he finds his peace God bless him
He was going... going... GONE!! After he hit the second time. Holy shit!!
Dude is getting choked up from the pleasure he feels. This guys days routine probably consists of an hour or two a day of euphoria here and there when the rest of his 24 hours its probably ridiculous what he goes through just to get him to his moment of relief.
Kind of what's it's actually like.hussling all day and waiting for hours just for a bit of dope and the high is always short lived compared to withdrawal
Never did needles but hung in
Hung in for the vicariois crack toke
That was my doc none of the other shit
And he didn't even smoke any crack
Few of my comments are deleted, again. I don't understand why YT is doing this. Why bother discussing this interesting object or replying to what others say if your comments are deleted :(
@@MarkGelderland I had the same issue.. What a bummer.
This poor guy, tough to watch someone struggle like this. I mean i was strung out, but this is another level of being STRUNG OUT, i hope he gets around to a more productive "greatest feeling" before he snuff's himself out.
Thirteen minutes in and he went from talking normally to a mumbling machine! Man i pray he gets clean
He is like barthender, but he mixing drugs, not drinks
PLEASE READ MAN:
Suggest to the guys who have these issues to get checked for parasitic infections.
I recently discovered a parasite was causing similar issues, huge infected gapping holes that take months to heal, inside out blood blisters turning into holes in places that had nothing to do with anything. These worms that are thinner than hairs hate any drugs, and infection is INSANELY RAMPANT amoung EVERYONE, especially if ur unable to keep clean.
I got it some 20yrs ago and recently took OTC meds which have STOPPED THE FLESH HOLES & INFECTIONS.
Id also suggest you yourself get tested for parasites or take a course of general otc parasite meds, most ppl can live yrs without realising.
Pets can cause the spread too. If you have pets be aware that the worming meds may not stop gestation and could still cause owners infection.
Stay safe guys 🙏🏻
Peace ✌🏻🕊️
Garlic 🧄 is a MIRACLE WORKER for killing parasites & their worms 🪱! I use it in everything!! 3 bulbs every 2 weeks.
Health stores are the only places I have seen cleanses..
It's not parasites it's the xylzine
Sending this man EXTRA DIVINE LOVE and LIGHT and healing energy. 🙏
👏Thank you for sharing my dear friend❤️. Hope you have a happy and healthy weekend . 👍👍👍👍
This was a great experience watching
This please make more of these and thank you so much for sharing awesome video man
He kinda looks like Charles Manson, which is a compliment, poor guy , so grateful I made it out before the fetty hit the streets !
3:15 one of the most suicidal things I've ever seen !
There is nothing in the world that would that would have me take any kinds of drugs.
I never understood taking something like fent and then meth. Don't they cancel each other out? Upper and downer?
Speedballing is very common among IV users. The drugs don't cancel, you feel both. But this is a good question for me to dive deeper into. I'll ask about specifics the next opportunity I get.
@@otherside305 Speedballing when i was using was heroin and coke, certainly not mixing heroin with meth or speed. Nasty combi, H+meth. Heroin and coke though feels great. I never liked meth.
Can you describe the feeling of injecting both simultaneously?
@@otherside305 I've never injected, it's always been an oral dose. But what I loved about it was that it gave me a 'chill while wide awake' feeling. It's like being dreamy but sharp at the same time. It makes it so that all the creative ideas I got would also be turned into actual artworks instead of just having ideas that I then forget ten seconds later because I got new ideas or was too drowsy.
I did have to quit at a certain point because it messed heavily with my circadian rhythm. Earlier this year I did cultivate some poppies again, which kinda got me interested again, but still I chose to stay away from it after I ran out. It helps a lot with pain and it's better than zenes and nyls in terms of side-effects and addiction. Right now I only do cannabis a few times a week and this is what helps me the most with pain and with minimal impact and my friends and family are all non-users so the chances of me relapsing are quite slim.
Luckily, in my country, those prescription painkillers are guarded a lot stricter. I can see how it's a much bigger problem in the US.
@@otherside305its quite possibly one of the most euphoric feelings a human can feel from substances. That being said, I’m happily years into sobriety. You feel the warm hug of the opiates, with the happy boost from the uppers, combined, you could not feel more on top of the world.
That shit turned his hand crippled
No, his hand is like that from a motorcycle accident.
Very educational 👌🏻
That cellulitis on his leg he showed is scary looking
Lord help me say clean!!! Thanks for saving my life!!! Ugh i don't miss those days
4:20 oh man just imagine how that would feel is he missed that in his neck!!! Ugh
I’m gonna Pray for Him and everyone else suffering from substance abuse
I do every day,.
Licking the needles is on another level 😮😢
So damn sad...
If he doesnt get sober he prolly die of that sh*t sooner or later
Super informative 👌
Just the other day, i was wondering how low an old junkie's balls hang. Ty for that.
I hear a pink thong does wonders
Quelle misère !
Things got weird at the end there.
You don't censor the stuff when first videoing but the you censor it when he's mixing it? I don't get it?
I'm not trying to censor the drugs I'm censoring him making what he injects. TH-cam doesn't allow showing how to do drugs and I was trying to avoid getting restricted but it got restricted anyway. Now I know for the next video.
Why ever blur it out😂
TH-cam
What are those big pills??
Methadone
damn he gonna party. what a collection
Man if you make it blur whats the point ??? Isn’t this awareness kinda video ? I mean there might be someone who’s doing it but a rookie and stuff like that… this could help or safe them from doing it wrong and die eventually
I was trying to avoid the age restriction
Why blur it out and not the rest it just looks like powder or like baking soda lol.
TH-cam does not allow content that shows how to do drugs. So I blurred the cap that shows how he mixed and prepared his shot to be safe.
@@otherside305 Other channels do show it though, and because it is an age restricted video it should be shown imo.
I was trying to avoid the age restriction but TH-cam did it anyway. Now I know for next time.
Guys is sucked up….weak..to reduce habit cost & put on some weight we use to PV custody time..a year at least to put on muscle pounds & to feel human again..
Speedballing is fantastic high
This is hard to watch man.
Don't do drugs kids
Awesome interesting
Bro was loaded
thats someones kid bro
Mucha charla, poca accion.
Goofballin
Se non riesce più a farsi perché non la fuma crack and eroin
Crazy
Straight to the jugular wtf
I can’t understand if this person doesn’t want to be out of this addiction. I think there should be Miami Dade counselors trying to convince him to rehabilitate.
Unfortunately you cannot convince someone to stop using drugs if they are not ready to stop.
Astaghfirullah... sama sekali ora kapok/ jera padahal tangane ws penCor...be..ka.. eseh mbeler..mbadung Ws..Jan wurukane angel
waw what a wonderful soul
OMG. Humanity suffering.
Che senso ha non riuscire più a farsi
😮 mind going 2 million miles per sec
Get on methadone
Juice bars dont help everyone…..some people prefer the street dope show…till they die
is what it is.
Org jenis ni kebanyakkan dia mati mengejut
This is wild. 🙏🏻❤️🩹🙏🏻❤️🩹
Hell exists, so repent now, or be sorry later! Gratitude is key to christian life. God wants a relationship with all humans. KJV Bible! Last Days are now! Heed these warnings! Greater modesty is for the blessed!
thats crazy you can do both an upper and downer at the same time without something exploding inside of the human body
alcohol + caffeine is the most common version of that
WTF?