I'm a large guy, I started needing to shave when I barely turned 13 and I have body hair over pretty much my whole body. When I was in high school I was basically forced to do a sport, and since I sucked at hand-eye coordination with my astigmatism I went into wrestling. Part of our practice, our coach would sometimes have us do a game where we were crawling (to practice ground control) and getting a ball to an opposite side goal. As all little games with balls go, we did shirts vs skins. Since I was the hairiest (and also sweated easily) it was deemed I only play skins. I got mocked and sneered at for being that way, the gross comic relief nobody wanted to touch. I was that scene from Along Came Polly, the gross out one with Ben Schneider playing basketball. I was already shoehorned into the "funny kid" role for being fat so I had to play along with this now. I feel way more comfortable being a furry than I do a human person. As a big binturong I'm more wanted and attractive being fat and fluffy. Folks don't feel disgusted about me being hairy, I don't have to be funny to keep myself safe from ridicule bout my body (now I can just be funny because I want to make bad puns). I didn't make a fursona to give myself a body type that's conventionally attractive, I made a fursona that's just me but as a binturong, and that feels far better than the human one.
Hey, my fursona is a mouse. And I’m Jewish. It wasn’t on purpose at first, but it became meaningful when I realized how often mice are Jewish in media. The first vocally Jewish animated character was a mouse in An American Tail with Fievel. It makes sense to me that we would relate to vermin, as we are constantly compared to such. …Im also on the spectrum… Damn this video…
Everytime I watch your channel more of that internalized cringe I have from being a teen on the internet in the 2010s disappears and my autism multiplies
my theory is cringe culture unironically set society back a good 30 years because trans and autistic people being unmasked is what pulls society forward.
@@Rosemorgana1312 yes exactly cringe culture SUCKS and it's just disguised hate, it's mostly ableism and anti lgbtq and they just put it as erm but it's weird and cringe which = bad apparently (it doesn't)
@@NeonLabsss being cringe is objectively good!! theres nothing better than embracing and loving your whole self even if you grow to regret some parts of who you were. Loving yourself in a loveless society is one of the most radical things a person can do
I think this was in a post on the dead bird when she still used that, but I recall her saying something about distinctly textually imagining the feeling of yoga pants causing fur to matte to her ass and I was like Woah Holy Shit
Stumbling into this video as a non-autistic, non-furry, non-therian, non-trans was definitely… an experience. Was it good? Was it bad? I can’t tell you. But it was certainly very informative. Very fascinating stuff even if don’t necessarily understand it.
I'm neither a furry nor autistic, but this has, I think, probably helped me conceptualize a little better my own feelings about being almost machine-like. I am still neurodivergent (ADHD) and often end up feeling not animalistic but mechanistic - something built _by_ humans and reliant on them. I need my tasks scheduled, I need to be refueled and can only sometimes remember to do that on my own, I need cooling to avoid overheating durin routine operations, I need maintenance and care on so many levels before I function optimally but when I am functioning optimally I can do the work of four other normal people because Im hyperfocused and going full steam ahead. I don't always feel divorced from humanity socially, but at the same time, I do best with explicit instructions and honest and forthright conversations about needs and wants. I view things analytically and think of my perspective as a sorting or filing system, applying little flags to my conceptions of people or things that make people ask why I feel the need to categorize when everyones just their own unique person and you shouldn't try to pigeonhole people but thats not what im doing I need these flags to be orderly for my own ability to understand you and you will not take them away just because you think I can't view things beyond the layers and layers of basic categories. I don't know that I'll ever really 'get' being a furry in the visceral sense, but I do relate to feeling something other than human like everyone else seems to be.
Buddy, I mean this in the nicest possible way, but you might be autistic. You just described a lot of autistic traits and if you already have ADHD, there’s a high likelihood of crossover between the two.
I'm a little surprised BoJack Horseman never comes up in these kinds of discussions. I wonder if it's just too mainstream so nobody wants to think of it as having furry qualities? It doesn't fit your assessment of furry media needing a sensory aspect, but it does fit into the ideas you expressed with anthropomorphic animals representing fundamental aspects of people. The creators talked about how they made characters human if those characters struggled with aspects of their identity or had a changing selfhood, while if a character had a set of strict character traits they'd be an animal. For example, Diane constantly struggles with her sense of self, while Todd deals with big questions about his identity, meanwhile BoJack is almost trapped as the person he is - so he's unchangingly a horse with a long face. Also, as a side note, people turning into animals due to their own innate qualities is a fairy tail staple
I just gotta say i love how the initial implied question of "what is the morality of furry porn?" is quickly eschewed for the much more interesting question of the "ethics" of it in a narrow sense. Not is it ok but how does it work and what does it mean. Frankly for a genre (?) with so much material, it's shocking how little analysis there is of the genre itself and this contribution is amazing.
Fun fact-The person who created the original Harkness test is still active, and is a really chill person. They never expected it to get as insanely popular as it did.
He is? Does he know that there's people out there, like this guy who misunderstand it so critically... it would be funny if it weren't so sad? I mean, of course he knows. But so what if Scooby-Doo and Mr. Peabody pass the Harkness Test? GlaDOS passes the Harkness Test, and nobody gets weirded out about that. The reason Zoophilia is immoral is because you cannot get consent, the reason pedophilia is immoral is because children cannot fully comprehend what they are supposedly "consenting" to, individuals under the influence of drugs and/or alcohol can't consent. Does this guy honestly think that Zoophilia is wrong because humans and animals are different species? Because judging from Maus and his other examples, he seems to think the only "valid" furries are the ones who are basically just humans with an aesthetic. So he's not only wrong, he wants to gatekeep everyone who thinks different.
@@econartist_therealest It was a reference to Harkness himself, but it was created by a furry. It's not actually serious, more of a tongue-in-cheek thing :0
@@econartist_therealestits kinda serious. Its main purpose is to establish a baseline within the world of make-believe so monsterfuckers cant be accused of bestiality. Also, theres no one version; some use different wordibg, sone specify verbal consent (even though that disqualifies many Real Human Adults)
my mind is completely blown right now. I was so close to scoffing and just stopping this video within the first minute or two… fortunately I chose to continue watching instead, and I now understand my own (non-furry) neurodivergent personality on a profoundly deeper level and I am grateful. I am surprised I never considered the furry community more seriously in the past, since there is an important aspect to this that occurs on a deeper shamanic, spiritual layer that I am already familiar with - such as the animal/human hybrid forms prevalent in pre-religious, pre-dogmatic iconography of ancient cultures and within indigenous shamanism
it's actually very fascinating to think about how long humans have had a spiritual relationship with animals. Did you know the oldest anthropomorphic figure is that of a human with a lion's head?
Can I comprehend this as a non-autistic neurodivergent? Only barely. Am I still enthralled and hanging off every word? Absofuckinglutely. More of this pretty please
i looked at the video and went "oh a video on the sexual side of furries? i dont think i trust a random reviewer to cover tha- oh wait no its patricia! thats fine" and was near immediately blessed with alpha and omega footage so i know this review is going to be GREAT
its been seventh months since i first saw this video and made this comment, however upon every rewatch i am plagued with one single thought while i enjoy it as one of my favorite videos of all time after i noticed something i can never unsee, the thought being "why do me and patricia own the same fucking cat ears"
Patricia. I don’t know if you are reading this but I cannot explain how much you explained something I couldn’t explain my whole life. I am a seventeen year old lesbian girl. I suffered most of my childhood in an elementary school that couldn’t handle my meltdowns and outbursts, I have memories of being left alone and ignored in the corner of the classroom crying and trashing around, when my age didn’t even have two numbers. For the huge majority of my life, the only way I could’ve described myself was through the memory of when I was nine years old and I saw a fox eating eggshells in the grass in the pitch dark of night, hissing at me because I flashed her with my phone torch. I feel like an animal on the side of the road. I always felt like an animal on the side of the road, waiting to be run over. You are the first person ever who was able to describe this. A lifetime of being treated like shit for simply existing, for simply processing things differently than others, an entire life of being careful at how you act, how you talk, how you present yourself. How to be human. How to coexist with humanity. I cannot count the amount of times I wanted to bite and hiss the ones I hated, and whine of happiness at the one I loved (and bite them with love). What you described has helped me realise how I feel about my body, my mind, my evident autism that has been always there ever since I was a little girl. Thank you from the very bottom of my heart. Thank you so much for giving words to things I wasn’t able to tell even to myself. I still have a lot to think about and how to process it, but you made me cry tears of realisation. Never in my life I felt more understood than now. Thank you so much.
@@dion8202 I just read the comment above and was thinking like, _'Damn, this girl must've passed through some hard moments in her life and could be still, alternatively, it could just written by a person of the kind that are of little rationality and sometimes suffer from mental illness, maybe even both to some extent, or perhaps something else entirely because in the Internet you never know for sure. But if this is accurate to reality then she should probably just strive to accept herself for she is, make amends with the past and if unwell psychologically go to see professional help, i guess.'_ I go to check the answers in curiosity and then burst out laughing at your comment, it honestly caught me so off guard. Hilirious funne momen' Have a nice day, Dion. And to anyone who reads this comment; wish you too a good day.
As a non furry, that's old enough to have come of age before the community was really a thing outside of itself, someone that has never sought out furry content, and could happily go the rest of my life without it, even from that standpoint, the only part of this whole thing that I find confusing is how confused everyone else is about it. It's an aesthetic. Often the aesthetic and the sexual overlap. You might be into cottage core, to the point that it gets your motor running, because there's themes and ideas and physical things to touch that all overlap in the same wild slurry of intimacy and objectification that makes up sex in general. That same person isn't necessarily any more or less interested in fornicating with a small rural abode than a furry would be with dog. And, like with cottage core, some people just like it, and it's not a sex thing. If you wanted to do the math, you could figure out the ratio and do a comparison between the two aesthetic subcultures, but why would you do that? The real answer is, it's fine. If you like it, participate, and choose your level of participation. If you don't, don't worry about it. It's just not for you. Simple.
you're really fucking cool, you know that? i mean that genuinely, i love seeing people like you sharing their really well balanced perspectives :) keep doin you man, this is one of my favorite comments ive ever read
This was mostly intended to express my own bewilderment at how people outside the furry community, among other communities, are often so obtuse about it. But a handful of people also seem to feel seen by my comment, and that's cool too :)
ngl tender lovemaking on the creaking wooden dining table in a cottage in the middle of the woods surrounded by the smells of herbs and the music of birdsong sounds like a great time
Art, Furries and God really fucked me up and this video picked up right where it left off. The impromptu tanuki meetcute fanfic made me tear up because there it is, that's what it's all about for me. Othered people recognizing each other, learning that they're not alone, finding a place where they can be themselves. Bonded and emboldened through dehumanization. It's just so powerful and it resonates with me on so many levels. I'm so glad you made this video and made such a thoughtful reflection on topics that a lot of people experience, but are too embarassed or shy or beaten down to talk about.
Personally, I watched Art, Furries, and God just earlier this night, and I think I've got my answer to the question at the end. "What are you?" I'm a human deep down. In spite of my differences, in spite of the world around me seeming alien at times, I am cut from the same, grand cloth as everyone else. It is my uniqueness and individuality that makes me human. I choose to yearn for a different form not because it is truer to myself, but because I simply like it. This does not make me any less a furry, either.
i met a girl about a month ago and she told me to watch this video and it honestly really changed me and made me admit that im definitely a furry and now her and i draw our fursonas and the feeling i got in my heart when she drew ours together was amazing. i think im falling in love with her
For my own benefit, all of the musical 'do dogs have brains' segments: 0:00 - dogs are freaky 6:27 - dogs can't talk 9:55 - do dogs have brains 30:41 - they're human 32:59 - what happens when the world ends
Oh yes they would, I mean the stuff Diogenes would do is comparable to this. Diogenes holding a bald chicken and says to Plato who states the definition of man as a featherless biped says “Behold-a man!” Plato not getting the point then changes his definition to “featherless biped with flat, broad nails.” The main point is, oh yes they would, I bet that they would make even crazier videos then this one. This is pretty tame compared to the stuff they were doing back then. @@anti-furry-socialist
Listening to you speak about your relationship to the sensory and animal is very interesting. It's basically the inverse of my experience. My early teen fantasies were of distancing myself from the animal and the sensory. I found flesh, skin, and hair gross. The texture, the smells, the sounds... a lot of it was just grating and unpleasant. I had fantasies of being made of metal, or being a disembodied spirit, or fuck it, being a floating glass pyramid or something. Still, decidedly inhuman. I viewed it as being free of certain unwanted constraints, as well as being more "pure" and "clean". The elimination or "toning down" of sensory I found overwhelming and unpleasant. Being free of "bodily" passions. Back then, I might have been the "anti-furry". Don't worry though, I seek no quarrel with humble dogs who just want to live their lives.
REAL. Since I was a child I hated having a physical body so much. Its so distracting and annoying for me. I always imagine myself as like a smoke or a spirit that can go through different mathematical dimensions. I related to this video so much, but I seem to not go to the furry route as my identity. I am more of a shadow person than an animal person really.
What's funny is this is not the first time i've heard that. The robot thing I mean. It feels like every Autistic person either falls into realting to robots, furries, or eldritch monster. And these aren't mutually exclusive either.
i cannot imagine the courage it takes to just put a video about the philosophical implications of your love of furry porn on the internet. seriously just knowing this video exists has boosted my confidence in my public speaking abilities significantly
@@AnnDVine Writing about stuff like that is a piece of cake for me. _Speaking_ it? Now that’s just torturously awkward (I’m getting better about it though)
It would be very easy for the Big TH-camr to say a generic supportive comment but like. That second sentence. Like. I can perceive that You Get It and just being able to perceive it makes me feel good
Important video. Here are some important timestamps. 3:16 "Do that to ME!" 4:59 "If your argument doesn't leave room for that, you aren't my fucking ally!" 5:27 Talking about 18+ Furry VN Authors: "[...] the Prose [...]" 5:33 "God makes no mistakes" 9:52 "Can you leave me in a room with your cat?" 13:20 "It is precisely Maus's refusal to explain or justify its furry characters that makes it furry, because the imagery is self-justifying" I'm writing that one on my wall, Holy Shit 14:00 "The assumed symbolic desirability of animal imagery, is one of the core facets of furry fandom media" 26:00 "Human art made by animals. Furry." 32:04 "On all levels except physical, I am your dog" 35:00 "Vocoders are a fundamentally autistic process" 38:58 "Why was it understood as erotic for a man to also be a swan? Because it's the supreme masculine form embodied in a feminine symbol of grace and beauty. Not in conflict, but taken simultaneously." 40:53 "[censored] Raccoons ass." 40:54 "I was treated like a failed human my entire life and you're surprised that my response was to become a dog and fuck other dogs? Fuck you!" 41:03 "The unceasing yearning to romance the inhuman is not mere a permissible quirk, it's fucking universal!" 41:49 "What if you're just a gamer and you have to hang around normies all day. Don't you feel like you're a do~ogy? You can tell me." Fuck timestamps, the last sentences are all important. "I - don't - care - about finding the secret normal way to be attracted to - or identified with - animal symbology because it's LITERALLY ALREADY FUCKING NORMAL" "So - to answer your question - is horny furry art morally comparable to bestiality? No, because horny furry art is the most human thing on earth." "No threat of being labelled a zoophile by normies should overwrite the blinding truth of the transcendental furryness in us all. It's not worth it." "The quality of being simultaneously human and inhuman transcends any line drawn in the sand of exactly what amount of animism is morally permissible."
How did I go this long without knowing your mother is an award-winning author who wrote a novel directly inspired by you? My goodness the talent is bountiful in your family
"Represented in this cast is every kind of autism accent there is. You know it when you hear it. It's the voice of someone who conceptualizes every word in the sentence as its own event." Fuck the DSM-5, THESE are the kind of descriptions of autism that we really need. As an autistic person who works with several other autistic people, I haven't "Aha'ed!" this hard in a long time. Only quibble: you forgot the "overly-articulate, probably homeschooled know-it-all" accent, which is the one I happen to boast.
i knew the name sounded familiar and was flabbergasted to realize she made eeaaoo song and also did a video essay ive had on my watch later for ages def gonna check out more stuff from her!
Society has indoctrinated us into believing that should we feel inhuman, we are broken. And you know what? My scales cracked. I'm fine with that. I'm proud of that.
I def feel this comment in my core tbh but also I’m one who believes that “what is humanity/a human” is a great artistic question and that monstrosity is most definitely a social construct. “If we feel inhuman, we are broken” but society is also the thing that says many of us *ARE* inhuman. Some of us just choose to embrace it.
this has honestly become one of my favorite video essays as of late and i like to thank you for making it since i do genuinely appreciate hearing your thoughts on this matter and giving me a new perspective on things. i'd love to see you make more like it! 👍
"How can you adequately express a nonbinary identity in a society that only recognizes male and female? You just need to bark really loud." I think this video altered my brain chemistry.
@TheTownHeifer somehow not that long after i posted that i realised im a furry, a full ass cat but not in the way that i thought, honestly Patty explains it a lot better than me.. this is literally a video explaining a lot about furry existence BUT, im a cat in the way im an enby, im feminine and androgynous, im not anything in particular im a multitude of things simultaneously, namely an almost-human and a mostly-cat
I cannot describe how the line "put me in a Blare White video - see if i care" made me feel due to myself having a shutdown not even two days ago because of one of her videos which took a person like me and identified them as not valid. God thank you so much, you have legitimately made me feel joy
@@Haunted_PlushBlaire White is a trans commentary youtuber who makes a lot of political content, specifically from a conservative and bigoted perspective
@@Haunted_Plushsome people honestly think that cuddling up to the people who hate you will somehow soften thier hatred. They don't understand that poison doesn't stop when it's welcomed in.
"Doggy interlude" literally led to me witnessing in real time the death of an unconscious bias that caused me to feel "cringe" about you cause i couldnt understand why anyone would be into this type of thing (but i take a let people live how they want to approach to life long as it doesnt hurt anyone so i try to ignore the cringe as a rule) but idk the way you described it killed that bias which prevented me from seeing how youre actually a cute dog who deserves and SHOULD be treated as such.
as a trans man i relate to this like i think there is so much normal deviation in peoples experience of their own body that is just pathologized or denied. like there is value in the experience of wishing for a new body and im not exactly sure where im going with this but if they invented hormones that turned people into furries id hope that they would give it out via informed consent
As a fellow trans guy (and a scalie) I'm with you lol, that would rule I feel pretty comfortable and happy with my human body most of the time, but like also if I could instantly become an anthro dragon I would cause the expression of "dragon" externally fully encapsulates my feelings of intrinsic identity including my gender and masculinity
@@nicolasnamed Your pfp, I can't. Now I'm just imagining a spongebob episode where Patrick gets turned into a dragon by one of plankton's schemes and just vibes.
it kinda concerns me that out of every argument and viewpoint i’ve heard on transgenderism, some guy telling me “well, what if you were your fursona” is the one i find the most convincing
@spilogale_putorius what the fuck is transgenderism. do you mean being trans? theres no need to argue in favor of me being trans because you cant stop me 👍🏼
I've been in the fandom for over a decade, but I've been so hesitant over making a fursona because I'm stressed out over interacting as something intrinsically tied to me. Watching this and realizing that I'm just a scaredy cat trying to make sure an environment is safe while masking as a human is incredibly cathartic.
"I'd say the real weirdos are the ones who managed to make it through life without being made to feel inhuman in some way, shape, or form!" Good god... I literally began identifying as a dragon because of the way I was treated as a child. I grew up on fairy tales, and in fairy tales dragons are portrayed as embodiments of evil, generally due to their inability to resist temptation. They're intelligent creatures that are slaves to their baser instincts. They’re attracted to shiny objects and hoard loot in their dens. They eat whatever happens to catch their eye, kidnap humans suddenly and for no discernible reason, and basically suffer from the same kind of impulse control that I struggle with thanks to ADHD. Dragons are also solitary creatures. When I was little, I was very lonely due to a lack of people my age in the neighborhood I grew up in, and when I did get to school where there were people my age, I had a lot of trouble making friends and was picked on by the majority of my peers. The bullying lasted a very long time and spread to people I didn’t even know. It was like I was on some kind of unseen blacklist. I wore an invisible kick me sign for a lot of my youth and I still have issues with self-esteem and social awkwardness. I was picked on mainly because, with ADHD, you don’t get the opportunity to proofread yourself. You do things on impulse and frequently speak before you’ve even got what you want to say lined up in your head. So, of course, I often made an ass of myself. When I’m provoked I have trouble telling myself to calm down, and (again, on impulse) fight back. Which usually only makes things worse. I was picked on because I was me, because there’s this thing about me that I can’t control very well that makes me look like a freak. Dragons are attacked just for being dragons. They live alone, they're hunted by humans, they find solace in hoarding objects. Just like me. I need everyone to understand how deeply affected I was by the song "100 Years" by Florence and the Machine. Didn't comprehend the lyrics for months or even years, didn't need to. I imagined myself as a dragon atop a mountain, drawn out by the sound of humans playing drums in a nearby field. It was magical. I still listen to that song and imagine myself leaping through the grass, catching the air on my wings. I don't care if that makes me cringe. I'm a fucking dragon.
"The Preachfuzz emerges when I open my fucking mouth" Everyone knew something was wrong with me, but no one had the word, it wasn't until I was in my early twenties that I was finally diagnosed with autism. my life was peach fuzz. thank you for articulating that in a way that makes me feel so incredibly seen and understood.
Sometimes my boyfriend bites me and makes funny animal-like noises - not barks or meows but the kind of grumbly snuffling gobliny mewling that critters like raccoons, possums, rats or skunks make - it's not even anything sexual to him, it's just...part of being furry (something we both very much are). I kinda thought it was weird because it's not a thing I do myself to stim but now I really get it. Thank you so much for helping me understand!
OH MY GOD I love hearing you describe media as Autistic in a nice way and explaining how its so relatable. Like the difference between autistic(insulting) and Autistic (Complimentary and Media Theory). This is so good
after years of being a furry and talking about how uncomfortable i am with playing human characters in games, earlier this year i finally started identifying as a dog, and i've genuinely been way happier than i've ever been, even amidst the rest of my mental health struggles. everything you say in this video about being a dog resonates with me so much. as someone who's autistic and trans and was in the closet for nearly a decade i've become so dissociated from humanity and from my own physical body that i can't recognize myself in humans anymore. calling me a dog is more true to who i am than the body i inhabit could ever represent. one of my partners (who is a cat) bought me a customized collar with my name (basil) on it and i can't wait for them to visit soon and pet me and call me a good boy. this video is the first thing i've seen that really explains this aspect of my identity, and it does it way better than i ever could. thank you :3
@@Iskou307 i'm being completely earnest here! the video resonated with me a lot, and i think if you maybe rewatched the video, especially the interlude in the second half, it would be a bit easier to understand where i'm coming from. some people just have a different relationship with humanity because of things like disability and the circumstances of their life. i think it's cool how people are able to find joy in their own way, even if that means falling outside of what's typically considered "normal" by society. it's better to be happy and free than be forced to act normal, right?
I've always tried to be respectful of my friends who identify as nonhumans, but it never really... clicked, for me. I guess it's not something I've experienced. This video honestly helped me understand the idea way better, so thanks!
@@swiftrebooted7704 Sometimes I see comments like this and wonder what you'd expect professionals to do. It doesn't sound like the friends are doing anything actually dangerous toward themselves or others, they just feel/believe something you think is wrong. It's like when I read people saying someone needs professional help because they believe Jesus existed as the son of God, walked on water, and rose from the dead, etc. Like, I don't agree with Christians on that and do think those are absurd beliefs and I don't believe Christians are right when they say they can feel God with them. But I also don't think medical professionals would be alarmed or do anything. Sometimes people just believe or feel things that don't really make sense to you and it's fine. In fact, it's normal.
@@genericname8727 , from my perspective, any mental health professional who necessarily conflates "normality" with health and/or who considers it their "job" or raison d'etre to merely "help" clients to be "normal" is *dangerously* behind the curve by about a hundred years. Yes, part of the job does absolutely entail helping clients to adjust to reality and challenging their counterproductive and delusional beliefs and assumptions, but you really can't reason or lecture people out of their deeply-rooted feelings about or fundamental sense of themselves, and I think it can be incredibly damaging and disrespectful to even try. A person who literally thinks they're Napoleon or Jesus due to a thought disorder and who can't function in the world or take care of themselves as a result of that delusion is meaningfully different from a person who feels "different" or non-human at some level, fully realizes that this feeling is "weird," and can generally function in the world and do what they need to do to survive and get by. The people who glibly declare that "weirdos" need "professional help" would be or are usually disappointed to learn that *good* therapy doesn't actually consist of a Dr. Phil-type sitting a person down and lecturing or scolding them, and that's the point when such people usually throw up their hands and declare therapy to be snowflakery and quackery. I reckon a truly seasoned and savvy therapist would usually target a therian client's feelings of alienation and disenfranchisement and maybe help them with life and social skills to help them to feel more competent in navigating interactions and the world at large. Just telling your therian client that they're not actually a dog or a dragon isn't going to do anything.
I think it took me this video to finally realize why I get into *legitimate distress* over the fact that I'm not a dragon. You describing furries as *being* their species in some part, connecting to it in a way that "normal" people just don't, but most other furries have an animal thats real. They know what that animal is like. I don't. There's no dragon to look at in the real world to say "you're like this!" So I try to project myself onto a concept that I think feels right but I can't know for certain if that's the concept that *is* right. There's probably a better way to word what I'm trying to say but I think the best way of saying it is that I can't project my essence onto something, so I instead project it onto myself, and it freaks me out
@@suspiciouslyBee I'm not sure. From what I've heard from other people, being otherkin means that they fully believe that they're that species. Not just that, but they have some attributes that they're able to take away from said species (i.e. a clever/mischievous fox, headstrong cat, etc.). I can't really believe that I'm a dragon since they don't exist and there's not really a consistent personality that they have. Western depictions of dragons see them as ferocious beasts that horde wealth, while Eastern dragons are usually divine beings of wisdom and fortune. I certainly wish that I could *be* a dragon, but I can't really say that I'd know what that would look like. Hell, I've often joked to my friends that were I to put on a fursuit of my sona that I'd get some sense of "gender euphoria", mind you I'm a cis man that's fully confident in his status as a man.
I've been in the furry fandom for close to 15 years, and this is the best and most specific articulation of what it means to be furry that I've ever heard. Like, there was always this unexplainable "something" that made furry art/media what it was. It always felt different from other things that were simply "cartoon animals." I always thought it was the fact that it was created by self-identified furries. But you've articulated that "something" in a way that makes a lot of sense. I struggled with the last part, about the ties to autism, because it can very easily sound like a pejorative. Like, calling something "autistic" is usually shorthand for "this is bad in an ableist way". But you are specifically talking about the EXPERIENCE of being someone on the autism spectrum, and seeing that experience reflected back at you in the media you mentioned. And I kinda dig that. So, thanks for the awesome thoughtful analysis. I enjoyed this. Keep up the good work!
@@theothertonydutch "having" autism means that its a small facet of yourself, and "being" autistic is that its an important part of yourself. for the former, some people have it be just another character trait. for the latter, being autistic is an integral part of your likes, needs and kinship with others. at least thats how i see it
"The idea of possessing a human body yet remaining inextricably an animal: that's autism." I felt this so hard. I lived my entire life feeling nonhuman and eventually discovering I was a blue jay therian/furry made much more sense. It's totally linked to my Autism and this sentiment is what I've been feeling for the past However Long of my life.
I can’t explain how eye opening this video was from me like. I feel like some brain chemistry has been altered, and a part unlocked. It makes me want to be unapologetically me as well, but then some part of me is hanging onto “no be normal” I don’t know how to explain. It feels like I’m eating some forbidden fruit yk. Everything could stay in paradise, and sure, every once in a month I’ll have a gut harrowing “I don’t feel human” episode, and then go back to ignorance, but. This video feels like some invitation to a bite of the apple. Good lord I don’t know where to go from here, and I’ll probably look back and feel like crying when I think to myself “my eye opener was a video named ‘on the ethics of blinking animal people’”, but this video definitely HAS done something. Something about it feels like home. Feels right. I SOUND LIKE IM BEING INVITED INTO A CULT UHM o(-( I love your humour btw :,)
Hey, how are you doing now? I think every creature who's recognised and reconciled with their nonhuman alignment has been where you are. You are weird, and that's okay. We're all weird. There are some times (a lot of times) you'll have to be human and appear human to interact with the world as it is, but take it as if it's a type of gender- you're dysphoric because of your lack of animal/creature traits. That's hard. Sometimes you just wanna grieve the tail and paws you didn't get.
This is the most compelling argument I've ever heard for why my furriness need not be justified to those who necessarily see me as subhuman. Thank you for articulating the logical and emotional conclusion to literally tens of thousands of peoples' inner turmoil Patricia, very good fuckin BOY
gurl im literally making a thesis about furires and to me you woke up one day and said "i'm gonna make a wholeass carrer for a mexican furry i've never met" thank you SO much
I’ve never been a huge furry, but I always liked viewing myself like a Fox. Something charming, clever, and devious in a non malicious manner. They’re also both loved and hated for being tricksters (source: mythology for Japan and Native Americans) and I related to feeling like the funny friend who everyone loves, but feeling incredibly alone when I go home. I also liked how genderless they felt, like a handsome woman or a pretty man. Cut to several years later, I’m an autistic trans man. Go figure 😂✨
I dunno if I would say I identify as an animal but I'm definitely a cat autistic. When I was a kid I used to try to fall asleep in a position like a cat hoping I'd wake up as one. I think there's definitely a good reason why autism is overrepresented in the furry community and that's definitely whatever this is. The feeling of difference from other people and alienation and familiarity in such a different way to most allistics. I definitely wish I was a cat person sometimes.
@@pinkajou656 You're obviously mentally ill. It's one thing to be autistic, which isn't something you can do anything about, but wishing you were a cat is beyond the pale. Stop listening to the enablers on the internet, go and get help. It may not seem like anything major now, but it's only going to get worse if you fixate and focus on it for the rest of your life.
Me, autistic, who spends most of my disabled life cuddled up with my cat son who doesn't understand he's a cat because he was raised by humans... I feel like we meet in the middle and understand each other better than humans understand me and cats understand him
"I was treated like a failed human my entire life and you're surprised that my response was to become a dog"...That changed my brain chemistry in a way I'm not ready to unpack
The statement itself is an obvious admittance that this behavior is simply coping. They weren't treated the way they wanted/expected, so... they became a dog? This is obviously someone who felt they were abnormal, because they were and so instead of trying to adapt to normal social life, instead decided to cope by becoming extremely abnormal. It's one thing to do it in your personal, private life. It's another to do it openly and shout it from the rooftops. Goodluck to this person, I hope they don't have to wait for there to be a sale on rope before they buy it.
THIS video was a flash bang let off 3 inches from my face. I'm an autistic trans guy and while I'm not a furry I'm just sorta adjacent as a monster/ horror enthusiast, and for the longest time I didn't even KNOW that being trans or autistic was a thing- like at all, and for the longest time I just never understood why I felt so wrong and different and well dehumanized by others now that I look back at it. The unwitting and undeniable connections between the horrors and any marginalized group is is painful but explains why I can see myself in monsters like changelings or Jason Voorhees, the insidious rhetoric and dehumanization that people who are different from the norm are bad and evil; but I've found comfort in reclaiming that monstrosity, defining it by my terms and frankly scaring cis people. While I'm not someone who particularly identifies with a non-human identity, I feel like I almost viscerally understand it, its almost like seeing someone who's basically a doppelgänger of you but a little to the left.
I need to bring two beanbag chairs to Patricia's house, sit in one, put the other in the book corner, and just continue saying "go on..." until genius happens.
As an autistic trans intersex therianthropic extranthic label label label label vocal synth music producer I think you’re the only being who should be able to talk ever again.
"Detroit: Become Nonverbal" made my brain rotate at 300km/h and the goblins that live in there are having a great time about it. I've never felt so valid
I do feel like the feeling of being the "animal in the room" vibe is something that I've definitely feel like I needed in my hierarchy of needs. Like, for me, I love the idea of being someone's Digimon or Pokemon much more than being someone's partner or spouse, and if that isn't furry as all hell then I don't know what is. To be seen as non-human while still retaining mental human capabilities and feelings is the ultimate ideal for my furry-ness and what differentiates myself from being a therian, in my own opinion. Also, being asexual I can't totally relate to everything you said, but I feel like the "vibe" is generally the same as what I feel. While I don't want to boink, I do want to bite and make noises at people I love :>
If it helps, my ace and autistic roommate has expressed a similar sort of thing! Like he doesn't want to be a catboy or anthro cat or anything, he's said that he wants to just be a little cat, or in the case of being someone's pokemon he's expressed wanting to be Rika's (I think that's her name? Elite 4 androgynous lady) clodsire. He's even also expressed wanting to bite people lol So I hope this helps you feel a little less alone my friend!
@@bobsbrain397Hello Bob's Brain, an obtainable item from the hit videogame franchise "The Binding of Isaac", a roguelike videogame themed around christianity and a child named "Isaac", very closely referencing the Bible (a part of such religion). You are clasified as a "companion" item, which means you follow the main character as a seperate entity in the gameworld. When such character fires tears (or other), you will move towards the direction the character is facing until you hit something, if its a wall, you will simply return back, if not, you will explode and deal damage in a area, this can damage the character itself however, after this, you will have to wait a certain time before you can appear to move and explode again.
The ending of Pom Poko is such a powerful moment. I think about it all the time, and I think this is the first time I’ve seen someone other than myself acknowledge what a good metaphor for autism it is.
Then there's me - a person that just can't mask at all. I guess I would be a Tankui that can't do magic? Never watched that movie but I guess that there weren't any like that in it. It was kinda surreal for me to read about experiences of autistic people learning to not mask and just be themselves despite what society thought them. I always feel kinda left out as the only thing I can do is wonder about how would my life look like If I could mask.
@@AleksoLaĈevalo999Honestly, might be a good thing that you can't Mask. Masking (in the Autism sense) is something only really done out of necessity of survival which can really fuck you up over time. Like, I Mask a bit, but I don't think it's nearly as much as other people have to. It took me a lot of therapy in my early childhood to learn how to socialize though, and I can do it fairly normally without masking. But you can still absolutely tell if you pay attention. Point is, you're not missing out on much.
I love this gal, she can take any topic and wrap it around into the most thought provoking philosophical epic of your entire life, only for you to remember the topic and its BANGING FURRIES
"I was treated like a failed human being and you're surprised that my response was to become a dog and fuck other dogs?!" ..i.. Can't say i relate, but that's fair. Update: Nevermind, turns out i was just treating myself as a failed human and started wanting to be a funky robot instead. Can relate and that's fair.
@@dirtydan9785 ok I will be fair that was just a gut reaction to "I want to **** other dogs". I'll probably just delete my older comment. Sorry about that
@@dirtydan9785 sorry about that imma just delete it real quick. I think that one specific statement gave me a bit of whiplash. Thinking about it now I kinda see what she was getting at.
the comment section on this is filled with a lot of people with zero critical thinking skills whatsoever and it's fascinating. thank you for this video, by the way, enjoyed it very much
i did not expect this video to be the thing to free my sense of self expression the way that it just did. your way of speaking is truly something magical, i feel like you’ve just put all my most confusing and indescribable thoughts and feelings into words.
Magical is an apt way to describe it. Only a week ago I rediscovered and watched a couple of Patricia's video essays (notably "Celeste's Biggest Mod (and why it's interesting)") and like, my views on my identity and how I express myself on the internet have not recovered since. doghood be damned this girl can work a script!
I kept going back to rewatch every 10 seconds of this video as they passed, either to fully take in your amazing analysis or to center myself after spluttering at a gag. Phenomenal work.
I’m going to have “the most f-ed up stuff can become not only permissible but also comforting and wholesome” stuck in my head for a long time, as someone who has been through some really messed up abuse and also engages in such things with friends in private I love this entire essay but the intro was especially powerful, because like you I’ve also felt a lot of the common deflections don’t entirely adequately address the core issues of what does the aesthetic MEAN Also the part about wanting to be able to sniff and bite partners made me realise I’ve had absolutely no compunctions about doing exactly that since I was 16. Literally I’m like “oh did you change your HRT dose?” bc of subtle sweat scent changes and so on. So I really relate to all that, except catte instead of dawwg. Also “pop the puppy endorphins” is a banger lyric
The journey from discovering your channel 2hrs ago (through a video on microtonality) to hearing that you identify as dog has been something truly unique.
Going from an hour of talking about the random marble game I only knew existed because of a demo on my grandparents' xbox 360 to this was just as interesting, even if it was over a longer period of time
the section about her being a dog and wanting to be petted was very relatable to me but like in the reverse. as a robot girl, my chassis is highly sensitive equipment and if you touch me the wrong way i might blue-screen. non-human solidarity ❤️❤️❤️
not personally none human identifying (i am kinda a fox boy though?) but as part of a system that has multiple non human people i support all of y'all 💕
Not a furry but wow, this made me rethink why i choose to represent myself the way i do through certain characteristics and how that correlates to how i feel completely inhuman and othered. For reference, im a trans guy (he/him) with cptsd. My friends and i joke about me being a backrooms monster lmfao but ive always been told i was more mature, i was independent, i learned things way too fast for a normal child, i looked and behaved as though i had been here much longer than my body, etc etc etc. i choose to represent myself in fictional works as a being that was once human -- innocent and loved -- to something uncanny after a bout of horrible trauma, painful transformation, awakening surrounded by bodies of forgotten people, covered in their blood. slowly forgetting what it meant to be human and having to relearn love and trust and peace. And... this video made me realize why. I understand now, both why furries represent themselves the way they do and why i represent myself in the way i do. A monster, trying so desperately to be what it once was, human. Flooded with thoughts of pain and sorrow and death, and facing them with no feeling. Wondering why i am so broken, why i cant just be what i once was, why i cant remember what it feels like _to_ feel. And also i think the future devil from chainsaw man FUCKS!!! I would bed that mf in an instant, hes silly with it and knows what he wants. And hes an ancient being older than anything that we could ever know, just like me. This video tore me open and was really introspective, thank you, you'll probably never see this.
I do recall the strong desire to be pet but the fear of optics as a black person 💀💀💀 also thanks for mentioning Ken lol, he & max blackrabbit were integral to my own style growing up as a twelve-year-old with unfettered access to the internet lol , furry stuff was probably the least offensive content
ah that reminds me of a little personal anecdote of mine. now i started out with unrestricted internet access as a kid and then had that SHARPLY reduced around late middle school/early highschool as some scare story put some primal fear in my dads heart something terrible may happen to me if i tip-toe into any corner of the internet too Weird and Horny. with that he restricted my access to most if not all things that were directly labeled as furry. he had no problem with animal characters and things like that i still had a fursona i just couldnt like call it that. furaffinity and similar were blocked. the works. all this to say im still extremely aggressively furry and none of this stopped me from finding hardcore anime torture porn in highschool so like. thanks dad you tried. least offensive content indeed
@@s.e.vasquez1274omg this, i want. to be pet but like i don’t want anyone to do it because they want to be weird about touching my hair or something.. (i’m black btw 💀)
I have to imagine this isn't the same thing, but I'm Latine and I have incredibly thick dark hair. It's not at all uncommon to have white people want to pet me, I-I mean *feel my hair* because I feel like there's an almost jealousy at times. White women who are jealous that my hair isn't stringy, white men that are far, far more at risk at baldness than I am, etc. The difference being that, assumedly unlike with y'all, they don't want to touch my hair because "ooOoOOooh wEiRd~~~!" Even with my Black furry friends, I'm always cautious before petting them because I don't want to be accidentally cringe.
@@CrystalDoggoIsMissing The classic struggle. I don't identify as a non-human animal so I can't truly comment on that part, but I am a black person with dreads and...whoo boy, the number of times white people have wanted to touch my hair or straight up touched it is too many, especially those who have never seen a black person in person. I can only imagine the frustration with wanting to be petted out of the desire to be pet but not wanting to be pet due to experiencing racism. If that makes any sense. It's fucked up.
hearing someone with an actual internet following describe what a “barney error” is is so surreal to me, good lord i was obsessed with those as an 8 year old. and yeah, the video itself genuinely spoke to me as an autistic and convinced me of multiple things that really had my brain working more than it should’ve been on, but the barney error just has to be the main thing i point out😼
hi. other autistic furry here. i didnt want this video to be true but unfortunately it awoke something in me. im going to go be a pig now, and not be so worried about what people think.
Oh my god I literally teared up and just sat in silence because of this video. I am a cat girl with NPD and probable autism. I have always felt utterly disconnected from everyone else, othered, judged, and misunderstood because well I'm autistic as all hell. This led to my naturally hyperempathetic self to turn off all empathy and human compassion in order to protect myself against my abusers - after all, if I am better than everyone else and perfect in every way, how could they possibly get to me? Except that led to me being more isolated than ever (only one person can fit on a throne, after all) and now I had a whole NEW target on my back because of pop psychology claiming every narc is super mega duper evil and insane or whatever. I just... I feel inhuman. I'm something with proximity to humanity, but otherwise entirely different. Most people are dull and I can't stand them. The world feels uninviting and hopeless. So I am simply... a cat. I wanna be a cute lil guy, I wanna get belly rubs, I wanna get head pats and just be a little pet with no worries. I want that tactile sensation of fur and cute little ears and a collar with a little bell. At the core of it all is my pervasive otherness in a world of what I perceive to be cardboard cutouts. So yeah I'm a cat therian, a lil kitty guy, and I am also neurodivergent as fuck and this video really spoke to me WOW
BPD for me but similar experiences. (Like, my “shell” wasn’t an idea of personal perfection but the exact inverse, that I was just a wretched little thing with zero redeeming qualities. But it still served as a wall to insulate myself from abusers.) Learning how to be vulnerable again after leaving an abusive household took me 10 years but it’s definitely worth it
People are really lousy to folks with Cluster B stuff going on. I hope that you both currently have support networks of people who love and care about you and treat you well.
@@ConvincingPeople thank you, that means a lot to me! I do thankfully have people like that in my life, though also due to some disability stuff I’m still a bit more isolated than I’d like to be - being abruptly bed-bound for days or weeks with no warning does get in the way of doing things, even many online ones. And covid stuff certainly hasn’t helped. But on the flip side, everyone in my life accepts those considerations and likes me for me rather than just what I can do for them. So in a way the disability stuff has helped dispel a lot of my BPD triggers - stuff like “they only like me because of x and y, if they found someone else who did x and y they’d throw me away”. Well, I certainly can’t think that way anymore! I can’t reliably do x, let alone y, anymore but that hasn’t led to any of the outcomes I used to catastrophise about. So that’s quite comforting.
I relate a lot to what you said about people being dull. Like how people don't have wildly weird obsessions that take you down midnight rabbitholes is beyond. @@kaitlyn__L
Halfway Thru This Video I Had to Stand Up and Put on My Fursuit Tail and Dog Collar So I Could Properly Be In Uniform. For Real Though This Video Nails a Lot About Just the General Appeal of Autistic Inhumanity. I am a Furry and Therian But I'm Also Super Present in the Object Show Community Where This Sentiment is SUPER Present, Albeit in Less Refined Forms Than Works Like Ad Astra. It's Impressive How You Articulate Sensations I've Experienced But Never Knew How to Phrase.
Something I'm surprised you didn't mention about the Harkness test- Consenting adults in REAL LIFE can fail the Harkness test. I fail the harkness test by being nonverbal sometimes. I'm literally 20.
Yeah that's one of the flaws of the Harkness Test, it takes a neurotypical-centric/verbal-centric approach to communication, and ignores other forms of communications' *existence* let alone use. I have to address that every time I bring it up in regards to one of the characters I'm most autistic (affectionate) about, Perry the Platypus from Phineas and Ferb, because he doesn't talk either. That's a core character trait of his, being basically completely nonverbal. And it never stops him from communicating, he's perfectly capable of making his consent, or lack thereof, known, he just doesn't use words in particular to communicate that. And he never *needs* to, because people who care about him and his feelings will make the effort to understand. (Spoken) Words are not the be-all end-all of communication and it's about time we stopped treating them like it.
Mental maturity should be added to the list. Crows that have been taught to speak words could just about squeeze into passing the Harkness test, since a study in New Zealand suggest they have spacial reasoning skills equivalent to that of a typical seven-year-old. Yes, it's a word-but-not-spirit interpretation, but it's very important to set down what defines intelligence for the purposes of consent.
the Harkness test is used for explicitly mythical creatures or otherwise Not Real. Despite being nonverbal sometimes, you can still communicate with another human... Idk about neurotypical-centric or verbal-centric but language is the most clearest form of communication, AND the test itself has an addendum for if attempted language communication fails so like... 😭 huh
Uh... If someone's nonverbal (and isn't communicating in any other way either), pretty sure that, at least for the current moment, you _definitely shouldn't_ boink them
@@gaminggeckos4388 "Nonverbal" and "unable to communicate" are different things, though. The problem is that the former is frequently treated as, or assumed to stand in for, the latter without regard for the distinction; this flaw is present in the Harkness Test.
My only criticism is how there's no mention of the friggin' ANCIENT horny furry art that humans have been drawing in caves since forever. Or the fact that lots of old human cultures had rituals that involved dressing up in sacred fursonas and doing horny passion plays so that the sun would remember to shine, the grass would remember to grow, and life would remember to be good. These are just nitpicks though, which I only bring up out of a desire to share information.
Well, there are a lot of people who say that the cave paintings were inspired by drug trips. And ,considering how often neurodivergent people get accused of being on drugs whenever they do something creative, I'd call that good evidence for the existence spectrum cave painters.
I had a shitty day, and the thoughts about "am I therian? do i just like furry stuff? why do I want to be treated like a puppy when I get exhausted?" came back to me. I said "well, I don't have enough energy to think right now" so I came to TH-cam and decided to search for my favorite furry content creator because that's what you do when you have a cold and don't want to sleep. Needless to say that by the end of this video I had more clarity on my life experience than I've had in months. Like, you just explained my whole life in almost 43 minutes AND made me laugh a couple of times. Thank you, Patricia :))
I know that realistically this was scripted like a normal video but I do like the idea that Patricia just leaped into frame and started saying all of this EDIT: fourth watchthrough and I may be a fox.
It sounds exactly like how I want to sound when speaking with friends about some topic, but I don't have a script and can't cut out the longest rants about smallest details like the tier list of colours for towels and why i choose certain ones 😩
as someone with autism who sits sort of on the edge between being a "normal human" and furry, this video struck a chord with me in a way very few videos have, even those specifically about autism. the parallels you draw between wanting to be a furry and how other people see you was genuinely mindblowing in a way i cant put into words. the contrast between how simultaneously profound and insane your statements were feels exactly like my own autistic ramblings i sometimes have with myself, yet even more personal despite not even being me. im genuinely crying while writing this, i know it sounds stupid but this video genuinely changed how i look at myself. thank you. mrreow~ - Kona
"The furry aesthetic as a whole is a concession towards the symbolic, the sensory, the ever so slightly autistic." Even since the first time I heard that I knew it was the biggest takeaway from the video... plus all the other fantastic takeaways I quote almost daily.
Ight fellas I'm gonna speak from experience with furries before before watching this. From outside this community is either massively overanalyzed or boiled down and is always ultimately totally misunderstood. So I joined it bc damnit I was curious and I was interested, especially since I consider it being a subset of the broader sci-fi/fantasy community. Anyway the "cuddle" aspect of this culture is absolutely a thing. Fur is cuddly, and anything cuddly is great for releasing oxytocin. Why? We're social beings and it's what forms bonds, we've evolved these needs and yet we live in a severely upsidedown alienating society nowadays where loneliness has become a serious epidemic issue. Furry culture ain't about sex. Yes, it provides an atmosphere of sex-positivity in terms of the expression of one's self, but it also reaches much more prominently for a very much more intimate platonic experience in relationships. Seriously, hugging is a universal greeting/parting gesture in the community in my experience. The big three reasons people are into this: 1) It's an incredibly tight-knit yet decentralized community that basically acts as a fraternal society / third place. An incredibly reliable social network in my experience. 2) It provides an outlet which encourages arts, crafts, hobbies. Can even function as a professional network for said things, especially for artists and tech workers and enthusiasts. Much more important though is the fact that, again, this community functions as a creative outlet. 3) It provides a medium for the exploration of identity via self-expression through alter-egos (fursonas) in a generally very open-minded environment. Tl;Dr for these reasons there's a lot of haven this community provides especially for neurodivergent people and lgbtq people. It's a shame to see it get boiled down to a kink of all things (or worse yet conflated with a shameful philia) in the eyes of the general public and subsequently get trashed on.
I'm a furry, but it had mainly just been "I like animal people" and nothing else. I didn't interact with the fandom or that much furry media, I've never been to any meetups or convections, I had a fursona, but I changed it so frequently that i stopped caring about it. The older I got the more isolated I felt from even the most inclusive of spaces, for the past year I have felt the least furry ever. but this video genuinely made me rethink the way I perceive being a furry, and the way I perceive myself. Zootopia was my inro into the furry fandom, so now that I think about that it makes alot of sense that I felt a disconnect. When I say this video made me passionate and proud to be a furry I meant it. I'll say it, humanity sucks ass dick and balls, and the want to be a big fluffy animal person is so real. the experience of being dehumanized and saying "fuck it, furry", this inherent neurodivergence to furry media, the sensations that come with it all, it's all just clicked for me. thank you so much for making this video, I cant wait to invest more time and energy into furry media
When this isn't even close to "your section of TH-cam," but you decide to invest 40 minutes of your life learning about the psychology and philosophical rationals behind furry culture, because (much like that one episode of Ru Paul's Drag Race that you watched out of curiosity) you know this will not be anything you could have anticipated.
Not a furry (although was big in the brony fandom, i guess that counts a little bit?) and also not autistic, although highly neurodivergent (that early line about OCD and policing one's own morals PIERCED MY SOUL), I constantly conceptualize myself as agender monsters with features that are considered stereotypically ugly - skin peeling off, swollen joints, toothless mouth, empty eye sockets. I guess that's my way of coping with trauma - if I'm not desirable in a very literal sense, no one would harrass me, right? Right?.. So thank you Patricia for showing us all that combining human and inhuman is normal and omnipresent. It lifted a huge weight off my shoulders
I have been drawing furry boinking for about five years now, and I honest to god never expected to watch a video that had me questioning whether I was a furry, even if I came back with a resounding "yes". The descriptions here were incisive to me in a way I have literally never felt before. I was forced to question who I was both as a human and as whatever the fuck else I am. A bird? A kobold? A dragon? But also, something that struck a chord with me is right around 32:30, where the idea of the dogginess as a metaphor comes up, and the idea of being a furry to convey "non-human" desires and habits. At least, I hope I'm interpreting that correctly, as I agonize over how this TH-cam comment might be perceived for five millenia. And, like. Yeah. I'm not a bird as in I literally have feathers and eat grubs from the ground and will probably get killed by an outdoor cat. But I am sometimes a bird in that I chew over language and echo it back, and that I like to have a nest, and that I have the very fun sort of intelligence where I love games... but not in a human way, where they're oft viewed as frivolities. I'm sometimes a kobold in that I want to help and serve someone with borderline deific reverence for them. I'm sometimes a dragon in that I desire absolute dominion over a hoard that I'll guard with vicious jealousy. It is symbolic and sensory and a means of conveying that I am not a human in every way that the average human I would run into would expect. Personal feelings aside, I do, on a technical level, really like the way you've defined being furry. It accurately explains the inclusion of things like aeromorphs, as well as the exclusion of certain anthropomorphized animals.
I don't think im a therian, but the want to wake up someday as a cat is definitely there inside me. Sometimes when ive had a really bad day I'll daydream about becoming a cat and living as someone's pampered little pet, with no stress and no hardships to be found. Just bliss and being taken care of by someone who loves me. I think theres an animal desire in everyone to not have to worry about everything that comes with being human. I'm definitely a furry though, and probably autistic but im waiting on the doctors to confirm or deny that part of me. Edit: Turns out I am in fact autistic, not surprising.
You know what? Fuck it. I'm a Leafeon. Leafeon ain't even REAL but you've convinced me. That sensory feeling of being a plant dog fox cat rabbit thing is just too damn enticing to ignore. This creature doesn't exist but I still feel like I understand it on a level more than I understand my own body. Bravo Patricia. I think you've released the beast in a lot of us, at the very least you did for me.
"I might look like a human, you can squeeze my upper arm and it'll feel a bit like human skin, but the peach fuzz emerges when I open my mouth." I love this quote. It so succinctly describes the experience of feeling nonhuman in a human body. I relate to it so much and I have a love/hate relationship with that fact. Edit: this now has a double meaning to me because JOKE'S ON ME I GUESS, I figured out I'm trans.
I am so out of my depth being here, but good video? I guess? No, really, I think humanity as a whole needs these kinds of pure unfiltered examinations of the human condition.
It's funny I'm not a furry, and yet I remember try to describe how I felt going to a school where I was a religious minority and I described feeling like I was a talking dog. On the one hand no one was overtly mean to me, there were even times where I got along with people pretty well, but any time there was any friction I was dismissed out of hand. At the end of the day if I disagreed with someone their response was basically "you can't tell me what to do, you're just a dog." Again most of my interactions weren't really antagonistic, but a lot of that came from them not seeing me as human enough to matter. It might be novel or emotionally validating to talk to me, but it was not the same as talking to a person. I had several people who trauma dumped on me because they basically felt like telling me that they were in an abusive relationship wasn't actually telling anyone. I wasn't one of them so telling me wasn't the same as them complaining about the relationship that they had sworn to uphold in front of their god.
Okay but seriously. Um. Listen. This video really resonated with me. We still have small human sort-of-political disagreements like how much we care about approval or people understanding us and how that extends to things such as “identifying” or “gender” or whatever but it’s mostly just semantics, i love trans people and want them to fucking squeal with happiness and feel accepted look watching this is just I have found my people this is it i AM unabashedly autistic, and, beautiful, and awesome, and it is because I have a disability, and i am okay with that i am a fucking human being, i am a dog, i am a cat, fuck it, it just feels right the only real big super ultra thing bothering normal people is this feeling that they want to be in on the fun too but they aren’t allowed or something. Or, they just ARE okay with people like us doing our thing even though from a surface level judgement based on an assumption from their appearance and mannerisms, you would assume otherwise. I spend a lot of my time trying really hard to appeal to people and befriend people instead of being as viciously independent as i want to be, because my goals financially, at least at the moment, somewhat rely on the approval of a lot of old people who will absolutely never approve of any of this for me, and videos exactly like this used to trigger me but now i watch with yearning thinking simply, “I always wished that I could have this attitude” Whiz…BANG! I would love to just forget inhibitions and be a dog, still having standards and tastes and hopes and dreams, but just, them being my own, not decided by some seen or unseen other, some force I just want to exist and be allowed to have my desires and emotions manifest as whatever way will make it most pleasurable, you know? But, I feel a certain resistance to fully embracing this and just calling it my autism. Because, on some level, I understand that a lot of these intense differences are merely biological, and kind of mundane and ugly in reality. And while making myself out to be alien, or wildly different, would certainly be wonderful for my confidence and help me exude power in public, I also just kind of don’t want to antagonize people. Largely because I don’t really understand what I’m antagonizing. Whenever I get to know the average person, I think they’re pretty cool, so I just feel compelled to act (publicly) in ways that would not make them uncomfortable. But goddamnit, when that constitutes masking on a massive scale, it really does beg the question, is my purpose from the universe to just be a fucking dog? Woof? or a cat? Meow? But I WANT to put some effort in to help people understand where I’m coming from. If people are gonna hate or dislike me, I’m honestly okay with that, I guess I just want to know they hate ME for REALLY ME, and not just whatever they think about me or however they interpret my actions. Many people say that it’s other people’s problem if they assume about you, but I think a lot of people who are very different, like us, sometimes fail to see that “normal people” often struggle like us all the same. And face a lot of that “othering” pressure that they wouldn’t normally have to feel if there just wasn’t this arbitrary boundary between all of us. Like, I wish we all could just embrace whatever makes us real and express it. Like, you said yourself you’ve experienced “being treated like a failed human” and, well, i didn’t really experience that, AND i’m not trans the only similarities between us are that we are autistic, queer, and furries. But my point is that that kind of implies to me that the whole thing is only so different as an act of aggressive defensiveness, a way of saying FUCK YOU to the entire world at once. And like, I’ve always seen that as kind of counter productive, and further divisive, but, there’s a dimension to it that i like. That I’m drawn to when’s other people aren’t afraid to act that way. It’s sexy, I always wished that I could have that attitude. All I know, is that, when you, made this video, and talked about all this stuff, and mentioned that anime, and these pieces of media, that Pixar movie Turning Red, none of which I’ve seen, i just, loved life. I felt like I just want to be in a big happy family with the person through the screen and all the people who agree with her. I TOO want to fucking rub my face against a big red panda’s fur. I TOO want to fucking cuddle and f*** a consenting bulging furry-album-cover-art character I TOO WANT TO SHED MY FAKE HUMAN FORM AND DANCE IN A FIELD AS TANOOKIS Like, this channel with under 100k subscribers of a person who would probably disagree with me about a lot of stuff, and whose channel used to piss me off years ago, but i still subbed to, for reasons present me can only speculate, has nevertheless, created 3 videos which have spoken directly to me through the screen and made me feel like God is Real And I Am Understood. I love my fellow autistic people, I love symbolism and my fuckin sensory experiences more than basically anything else, Furries make the best art and are fucking God and I want to be Saved Thabk you if you made it to the end of my unhinged rant, I want to hug every person who wants it, worldwide, constantly, and feel their thick fur on my body of indeterminate surface type Basically I want to hug the red panda and i want to hug you 4 years ago I was religious and identified as straight. 2 months ago I was activating my societally trained empathy to say I don’t want kids getting hormone blockers and hrt, and it still scares me and there’s still a lot I don’t know, but, Now I am an autistic bisexual furry dating a trans girl and i have never been more alive in my fucking life. when i got to that part with Patricia talking about Turning Red and the Tanooki movie I just fell backwards on my floor laughing maniacally, and saying, I have found it. These are my people. Even if no one reads this, Thank you.
I accept all blame for spreading the beauty and joy of the rodfellows movie
Slightly unrelated, with all the various references I keep seeing of you playing echo, I honestly would be interested in a video about it.
Should've just made her watch Battle for Dream Island
Okay but why DID you lean on TJ
@@austinfletchermusicPresumably because he's soft. I mean, look at that boy. That was my thinking.
@@MeNowDealWIthItBFDI mentioned?
"MS Paint fetish art, one autism's main cultural exports" is a line that belongs on a shirt.
more like source filmmaker fetish art tbh. one username: “BlastoiseAnimator2”
The Millhouse
xenopavilia you are saving my life
I know what i'm off to do today
It took me slightly too long to realize "boinking" was an innuendo and the video wasn't about the ethics of bonking furries on the head.
too relatable
real
same
same
OH SHIT
"Put me in a blaire white video,, see if I care" is such a banger line to say while talking about autism and the ethics of furry porn
I'm a large guy, I started needing to shave when I barely turned 13 and I have body hair over pretty much my whole body. When I was in high school I was basically forced to do a sport, and since I sucked at hand-eye coordination with my astigmatism I went into wrestling. Part of our practice, our coach would sometimes have us do a game where we were crawling (to practice ground control) and getting a ball to an opposite side goal.
As all little games with balls go, we did shirts vs skins. Since I was the hairiest (and also sweated easily) it was deemed I only play skins. I got mocked and sneered at for being that way, the gross comic relief nobody wanted to touch. I was that scene from Along Came Polly, the gross out one with Ben Schneider playing basketball. I was already shoehorned into the "funny kid" role for being fat so I had to play along with this now.
I feel way more comfortable being a furry than I do a human person. As a big binturong I'm more wanted and attractive being fat and fluffy. Folks don't feel disgusted about me being hairy, I don't have to be funny to keep myself safe from ridicule bout my body (now I can just be funny because I want to make bad puns). I didn't make a fursona to give myself a body type that's conventionally attractive, I made a fursona that's just me but as a binturong, and that feels far better than the human one.
This was so sweet to read I'm so happy for you aaaaa💕💕✨
binturongs are my favourite animals + i have never seen a binturong fursona which means you are officially my favourite furry
binturongs are so cool, you’re a popcorn king fr
holy shit astigmatism from undertale
I learned about an animal I never heard of before because of this comment, thank you :D
Hey, my fursona is a mouse. And I’m Jewish. It wasn’t on purpose at first, but it became meaningful when I realized how often mice are Jewish in media. The first vocally Jewish animated character was a mouse in An American Tail with Fievel. It makes sense to me that we would relate to vermin, as we are constantly compared to such.
…Im also on the spectrum…
Damn this video…
Thoughts on Israel vs Palestine?
@@raygetard500jewish does not automatically mean israeli
And here I was thinking it had to do with Maus
Everytime I watch your channel more of that internalized cringe I have from being a teen on the internet in the 2010s disappears and my autism multiplies
I don’t have autism (probably) but omg this is SO real
my theory is cringe culture unironically set society back a good 30 years because trans and autistic people being unmasked is what pulls society forward.
@@Rosemorgana1312 yes exactly cringe culture SUCKS and it's just disguised hate, it's mostly ableism and anti lgbtq and they just put it as erm but it's weird and cringe which = bad apparently (it doesn't)
@@NeonLabsss being cringe is objectively good!! theres nothing better than embracing and loving your whole self even if you grow to regret some parts of who you were. Loving yourself in a loveless society is one of the most radical things a person can do
@@Rosemorgana1312 thanks!!
i can't believe i never actually thought about how it would feel to have fur until just now. you've opened my eyes.
really, this entire video was just me going "huh, i never thought about it like that before" over and over again
I think this was in a post on the dead bird when she still used that, but I recall her saying something about distinctly textually imagining the feeling of yoga pants causing fur to matte to her ass and I was like Woah Holy Shit
@@cosmic3004Now imagine that was your default fucking human experience. Congratulations, you imagined autism
Bruv I had the hairiest chest for a while, I didn't have to imagine it
So... What options are you considering for your fursona?
Stumbling into this video as a non-autistic, non-furry, non-therian, non-trans was definitely… an experience. Was it good? Was it bad? I can’t tell you. But it was certainly very informative. Very fascinating stuff even if don’t necessarily understand it.
get out
@@etasjo noOoo let me back IN im QUEER
@@mikathepersonyou're allowed
@@mikathepersonscratching at the back door are you? Like some kind of dog maybe? (/J)
Does it feel like a national geographic photographer encountering an uncontacted tribe? @@mikatheperson
I'm neither a furry nor autistic, but this has, I think, probably helped me conceptualize a little better my own feelings about being almost machine-like. I am still neurodivergent (ADHD) and often end up feeling not animalistic but mechanistic - something built _by_ humans and reliant on them. I need my tasks scheduled, I need to be refueled and can only sometimes remember to do that on my own, I need cooling to avoid overheating durin routine operations, I need maintenance and care on so many levels before I function optimally but when I am functioning optimally I can do the work of four other normal people because Im hyperfocused and going full steam ahead. I don't always feel divorced from humanity socially, but at the same time, I do best with explicit instructions and honest and forthright conversations about needs and wants. I view things analytically and think of my perspective as a sorting or filing system, applying little flags to my conceptions of people or things that make people ask why I feel the need to categorize when everyones just their own unique person and you shouldn't try to pigeonhole people but thats not what im doing I need these flags to be orderly for my own ability to understand you and you will not take them away just because you think I can't view things beyond the layers and layers of basic categories.
I don't know that I'll ever really 'get' being a furry in the visceral sense, but I do relate to feeling something other than human like everyone else seems to be.
Buddy, I mean this in the nicest possible way, but you might be autistic. You just described a lot of autistic traits and if you already have ADHD, there’s a high likelihood of crossover between the two.
Holy shit, are you me?
The way I could have written this lol
Ok, setsuna.
We get it, you're a Gundam.
obsessed with the opening: "I'm neither a furry nor autistic, but..." lmao
I'm a little surprised BoJack Horseman never comes up in these kinds of discussions. I wonder if it's just too mainstream so nobody wants to think of it as having furry qualities?
It doesn't fit your assessment of furry media needing a sensory aspect, but it does fit into the ideas you expressed with anthropomorphic animals representing fundamental aspects of people. The creators talked about how they made characters human if those characters struggled with aspects of their identity or had a changing selfhood, while if a character had a set of strict character traits they'd be an animal. For example, Diane constantly struggles with her sense of self, while Todd deals with big questions about his identity, meanwhile BoJack is almost trapped as the person he is - so he's unchangingly a horse with a long face.
Also, as a side note, people turning into animals due to their own innate qualities is a fairy tail staple
I just gotta say i love how the initial implied question of "what is the morality of furry porn?" is quickly eschewed for the much more interesting question of the "ethics" of it in a narrow sense. Not is it ok but how does it work and what does it mean. Frankly for a genre (?) with so much material, it's shocking how little analysis there is of the genre itself and this contribution is amazing.
I started screaming at the end
I feel like outsider art resists analysis because the people making it don't know themselves what it means.
All I know about furries and is that they got a lot of money to buy their costumes.@@CrownedAnarchy
Fun fact-The person who created the original Harkness test is still active, and is a really chill person. They never expected it to get as insanely popular as it did.
He is? Does he know that there's people out there, like this guy who misunderstand it so critically... it would be funny if it weren't so sad? I mean, of course he knows. But so what if Scooby-Doo and Mr. Peabody pass the Harkness Test? GlaDOS passes the Harkness Test, and nobody gets weirded out about that. The reason Zoophilia is immoral is because you cannot get consent, the reason pedophilia is immoral is because children cannot fully comprehend what they are supposedly "consenting" to, individuals under the influence of drugs and/or alcohol can't consent. Does this guy honestly think that Zoophilia is wrong because humans and animals are different species? Because judging from Maus and his other examples, he seems to think the only "valid" furries are the ones who are basically just humans with an aesthetic. So he's not only wrong, he wants to gatekeep everyone who thinks different.
is the harkness test not a joke in the dr who fandom and never rlly meant to be serious criteria for.. furry sex ?? or am i just lost
@@econartist_therealest It was a reference to Harkness himself, but it was created by a furry. It's not actually serious, more of a tongue-in-cheek thing :0
@@RaptieFeathers ohh okay!
@@econartist_therealestits kinda serious. Its main purpose is to establish a baseline within the world of make-believe so monsterfuckers cant be accused of bestiality. Also, theres no one version; some use different wordibg, sone specify verbal consent (even though that disqualifies many Real Human Adults)
my mind is completely blown right now.
I was so close to scoffing and just stopping this video within the first minute or two… fortunately I chose to continue watching instead, and I now understand my own (non-furry) neurodivergent personality on a profoundly deeper level and I am grateful.
I am surprised I never considered the furry community more seriously in the past, since there is an important aspect to this that occurs on a deeper shamanic, spiritual layer that I am already familiar with - such as the animal/human hybrid forms prevalent in pre-religious, pre-dogmatic iconography of ancient cultures and within indigenous shamanism
it's actually very fascinating to think about how long humans have had a spiritual relationship with animals. Did you know the oldest anthropomorphic figure is that of a human with a lion's head?
This comment is exactly how I felt too
Can I comprehend this as a non-autistic neurodivergent? Only barely. Am I still enthralled and hanging off every word? Absofuckinglutely. More of this pretty please
i looked at the video and went "oh a video on the sexual side of furries? i dont think i trust a random reviewer to cover tha- oh wait no its patricia! thats fine" and was near immediately blessed with alpha and omega footage so i know this review is going to be GREAT
No yeah literally
Lmao ye I didn’t immediately realize this was her either
its been seventh months since i first saw this video and made this comment, however upon every rewatch i am plagued with one single thought while i enjoy it as one of my favorite videos of all time after i noticed something i can never unsee, the thought being "why do me and patricia own the same fucking cat ears"
alpha and omega is cursed on every level
Patricia. I don’t know if you are reading this but I cannot explain how much you explained something I couldn’t explain my whole life.
I am a seventeen year old lesbian girl. I suffered most of my childhood in an elementary school that couldn’t handle my meltdowns and outbursts, I have memories of being left alone and ignored in the corner of the classroom crying and trashing around, when my age didn’t even have two numbers.
For the huge majority of my life, the only way I could’ve described myself was through the memory of when I was nine years old and I saw a fox eating eggshells in the grass in the pitch dark of night, hissing at me because I flashed her with my phone torch. I feel like an animal on the side of the road. I always felt like an animal on the side of the road, waiting to be run over.
You are the first person ever who was able to describe this. A lifetime of being treated like shit for simply existing, for simply processing things differently than others, an entire life of being careful at how you act, how you talk, how you present yourself. How to be human. How to coexist with humanity. I cannot count the amount of times I wanted to bite and hiss the ones I hated, and whine of happiness at the one I loved (and bite them with love).
What you described has helped me realise how I feel about my body, my mind, my evident autism that has been always there ever since I was a little girl.
Thank you from the very bottom of my heart. Thank you so much for giving words to things I wasn’t able to tell even to myself. I still have a lot to think about and how to process it, but you made me cry tears of realisation. Never in my life I felt more understood than now. Thank you so much.
I see you, nobody knows how hard it is to be a girl with autism who can’t mask well as a kid
This is hilarious
@@dion8202 I just read the comment above and was thinking like, _'Damn, this girl must've passed through some hard moments in her life and could be still, alternatively, it could just written by a person of the kind that are of little rationality and sometimes suffer from mental illness, maybe even both to some extent, or perhaps something else entirely because in the Internet you never know for sure. But if this is accurate to reality then she should probably just strive to accept herself for she is, make amends with the past and if unwell psychologically go to see professional help, i guess.'_
I go to check the answers in curiosity and then burst out laughing at your comment, it honestly caught me so off guard. Hilirious funne momen'
Have a nice day, Dion. And to anyone who reads this comment; wish you too a good day.
As a non furry, that's old enough to have come of age before the community was really a thing outside of itself, someone that has never sought out furry content, and could happily go the rest of my life without it, even from that standpoint, the only part of this whole thing that I find confusing is how confused everyone else is about it. It's an aesthetic. Often the aesthetic and the sexual overlap. You might be into cottage core, to the point that it gets your motor running, because there's themes and ideas and physical things to touch that all overlap in the same wild slurry of intimacy and objectification that makes up sex in general. That same person isn't necessarily any more or less interested in fornicating with a small rural abode than a furry would be with dog. And, like with cottage core, some people just like it, and it's not a sex thing. If you wanted to do the math, you could figure out the ratio and do a comparison between the two aesthetic subcultures, but why would you do that? The real answer is, it's fine. If you like it, participate, and choose your level of participation. If you don't, don't worry about it. It's just not for you. Simple.
you're really fucking cool, you know that? i mean that genuinely, i love seeing people like you sharing their really well balanced perspectives :)
keep doin you man, this is one of my favorite comments ive ever read
this is exactly it, thank you
absolutely yes, well said!
This was mostly intended to express my own bewilderment at how people outside the furry community, among other communities, are often so obtuse about it. But a handful of people also seem to feel seen by my comment, and that's cool too :)
ngl tender lovemaking on the creaking wooden dining table in a cottage in the middle of the woods surrounded by the smells of herbs and the music of birdsong sounds like a great time
Art, Furries and God really fucked me up and this video picked up right where it left off. The impromptu tanuki meetcute fanfic made me tear up because there it is, that's what it's all about for me. Othered people recognizing each other, learning that they're not alone, finding a place where they can be themselves. Bonded and emboldened through dehumanization. It's just so powerful and it resonates with me on so many levels. I'm so glad you made this video and made such a thoughtful reflection on topics that a lot of people experience, but are too embarassed or shy or beaten down to talk about.
Personally, I watched Art, Furries, and God just earlier this night, and I think I've got my answer to the question at the end. "What are you?"
I'm a human deep down. In spite of my differences, in spite of the world around me seeming alien at times, I am cut from the same, grand cloth as everyone else. It is my uniqueness and individuality that makes me human. I choose to yearn for a different form not because it is truer to myself, but because I simply like it. This does not make me any less a furry, either.
i met a girl about a month ago and she told me to watch this video and it honestly really changed me and made me admit that im definitely a furry and now her and i draw our fursonas and the feeling i got in my heart when she drew ours together was amazing. i think im falling in love with her
Awwww
This better have a good ending, damn it.
I can't take any more sadness.
@@dr.cheeze5382 we dated for a bit but it ultimately didn't work out, still friends though
For my own benefit, all of the musical 'do dogs have brains' segments:
0:00 - dogs are freaky
6:27 - dogs can't talk
9:55 - do dogs have brains
30:41 - they're human
32:59 - what happens when the world ends
Thank you :)
commenting so this stays higher at the top lol
Those bits are hysterical and slightly unnerving.
I like how at the start of the second one, it’s just Patricia yelling bitch at the camera.
This tickles my brain ooze
If ancient Greek philosophers were alive today I'm sure this is exactly the type of video they would upload to TH-cam. Great work.
Ancient Greek philosophers are alive today and they are US
Diogenes would be like, for real
ancient greek philosophers would probably be fascists today, we really shouldnt idolize them.
no they wouldnt
Oh yes they would, I mean the stuff Diogenes would do is comparable to this.
Diogenes holding a bald chicken and says to Plato who states the definition of man as a featherless biped says “Behold-a man!”
Plato not getting the point then changes his definition to “featherless biped with flat, broad nails.”
The main point is, oh yes they would, I bet that they would make even crazier videos then this one. This is pretty tame compared to the stuff they were doing back then.
@@anti-furry-socialist
Listening to you speak about your relationship to the sensory and animal is very interesting. It's basically the inverse of my experience. My early teen fantasies were of distancing myself from the animal and the sensory. I found flesh, skin, and hair gross. The texture, the smells, the sounds... a lot of it was just grating and unpleasant. I had fantasies of being made of metal, or being a disembodied spirit, or fuck it, being a floating glass pyramid or something. Still, decidedly inhuman.
I viewed it as being free of certain unwanted constraints, as well as being more "pure" and "clean". The elimination or "toning down" of sensory I found overwhelming and unpleasant. Being free of "bodily" passions. Back then, I might have been the "anti-furry". Don't worry though, I seek no quarrel with humble dogs who just want to live their lives.
REAL. Since I was a child I hated having a physical body so much. Its so distracting and annoying for me. I always imagine myself as like a smoke or a spirit that can go through different mathematical dimensions. I related to this video so much, but I seem to not go to the furry route as my identity. I am more of a shadow person than an animal person really.
same
Just be fire y'all, it has all the qualification to be an animal, minus the body.
You weren't anti-furry (that's the term for furry haters). You were a reverse furry.
What's funny is this is not the first time i've heard that. The robot thing I mean. It feels like every Autistic person either falls into realting to robots, furries, or eldritch monster. And these aren't mutually exclusive either.
This video is actively rewriting my brain chemistry. I feel myself growing angel wings and bunny ears as we speak.
the autism speaks edit was one of the funniest editing jokes I've seen in years
ey! good to see you here :3
AHHHHHH I love you(r videos!!!)
@@lightyagami4541 oh no... who wants to tell 'em
Love how the first example of Therian media shown was Warrior Cats. That series literally turned me into a cat and I wish I was joking.
Warrior cats and wolf quest made me a bird somehow
@@user-burner
Same thing happened to me lol
dang I heard of the warrior cats fan into furry pipeline but never into a therian. Tho it kinda makes sense since most of us used to rp as cats lol
real as fuck dude
we stan cats on yt
i cannot imagine the courage it takes to just put a video about the philosophical implications of your love of furry porn on the internet. seriously just knowing this video exists has boosted my confidence in my public speaking abilities significantly
I've written several essays about my own, uh, "special" sexual interests. My platform isn't nearly as big, but it is on my... video game blog
@@AnnDVine
Writing about stuff like that is a piece of cake for me. _Speaking_ it? Now that’s just torturously awkward
(I’m getting better about it though)
@@AnnDVine Where may I find such a blog, if you would be inclined to answer?
@@AnnDVine Where is that blog?
tbh i wish she did go more into those implications. but it was mostly what it might say about you as a person.
this rocks. this is full stink
this is pretty stupid actually
@@xgl0983 you're wrong its good actually
It would be very easy for the Big TH-camr to say a generic supportive comment but like. That second sentence. Like. I can perceive that You Get It and just being able to perceive it makes me feel good
Thank you larger than average joel
Important video.
Here are some important timestamps.
3:16 "Do that to ME!"
4:59 "If your argument doesn't leave room for that, you aren't my fucking ally!"
5:27 Talking about 18+ Furry VN Authors: "[...] the Prose [...]"
5:33 "God makes no mistakes"
9:52 "Can you leave me in a room with your cat?"
13:20 "It is precisely Maus's refusal to explain or justify its furry characters that makes it furry, because the imagery is self-justifying" I'm writing that one on my wall, Holy Shit
14:00 "The assumed symbolic desirability of animal imagery, is one of the core facets of furry fandom media"
26:00 "Human art made by animals. Furry."
32:04 "On all levels except physical, I am your dog"
35:00 "Vocoders are a fundamentally autistic process"
38:58 "Why was it understood as erotic for a man to also be a swan? Because it's the supreme masculine form embodied in a feminine symbol of grace and beauty. Not in conflict, but taken simultaneously."
40:53 "[censored] Raccoons ass."
40:54 "I was treated like a failed human my entire life and you're surprised that my response was to become a dog and fuck other dogs? Fuck you!"
41:03 "The unceasing yearning to romance the inhuman is not mere a permissible quirk, it's fucking universal!"
41:49 "What if you're just a gamer and you have to hang around normies all day. Don't you feel like you're a do~ogy? You can tell me."
Fuck timestamps, the last sentences are all important.
"I - don't - care - about finding the secret normal way to be attracted to - or identified with - animal symbology because it's LITERALLY ALREADY FUCKING NORMAL"
"So - to answer your question - is horny furry art morally comparable to bestiality? No, because horny furry art is the most human thing on earth."
"No threat of being labelled a zoophile by normies should overwrite the blinding truth of the transcendental furryness in us all. It's not worth it."
"The quality of being simultaneously human and inhuman transcends any line drawn in the sand of exactly what amount of animism is morally permissible."
The long awaited sequal to the pair of videos, 'Autism' and 'Furries', Patricia Taxxon brings us the amazing video 'Autism and Furries'!
A worthy culmination of a classic trilogy
A trilogy that rivals the Dark Knight
@@rinkagamindbut the Third part isn't a piece of shit this time around
How did I go this long without knowing your mother is an award-winning author who wrote a novel directly inspired by you? My goodness the talent is bountiful in your family
holy shit I saw this and my brain brained so I read it as “how I met your mother (the show) is based off patricia”
"Represented in this cast is every kind of autism accent there is. You know it when you hear it. It's the voice of someone who conceptualizes every word in the sentence as its own event." Fuck the DSM-5, THESE are the kind of descriptions of autism that we really need. As an autistic person who works with several other autistic people, I haven't "Aha'ed!" this hard in a long time. Only quibble: you forgot the "overly-articulate, probably homeschooled know-it-all" accent, which is the one I happen to boast.
Personally, my autistic accent is the one where my tone changes with every single word that I say
Mine is nasal and overly-articulate
Mine is the one where you never stop having that weird intonation you have when you're like. 5.
And overly-articulate.
mine's what an ai thinks a theatre kid and or human would sound like. so much drama, no actual emotion.
I somehow have that accent even though I most certainly was not homeschooled
Patricia is both unnaturally prolific musically AND incredibly literate when it comes to media.
It's awesome.
i knew the name sounded familiar and was flabbergasted to realize she made eeaaoo song and also did a video essay ive had on my watch later for ages
def gonna check out more stuff from her!
Society has indoctrinated us into believing that should we feel inhuman, we are broken.
And you know what?
My scales cracked. I'm fine with that. I'm proud of that.
I def feel this comment in my core tbh but also I’m one who believes that “what is humanity/a human” is a great artistic question and that monstrosity is most definitely a social construct. “If we feel inhuman, we are broken” but society is also the thing that says many of us *ARE* inhuman. Some of us just choose to embrace it.
Nice poem😊
Hello Blaze from Wings of Fire! Wonderful to see someone else who loves it so :>
@@bit_crushed WoF gang :3
@@justdark863 Oh hello! WoF gang :>
this has honestly become one of my favorite video essays as of late and i like to thank you for making it since i do genuinely appreciate hearing your thoughts on this matter and giving me a new perspective on things.
i'd love to see you make more like it! 👍
"How can you adequately express a nonbinary identity in a society that only recognizes male and female? You just need to bark really loud."
I think this video altered my brain chemistry.
holy shit
it definitely has that power.. i reeeaaally think i might just be a therian.. not just a girl who is a cat like an actual full ass cat holy wacamole
@@k_girlieI came to the realization recently that I’m in fact a full ass cow lol, so if no one supports you in being therian, I sure do Ɛ:
@TheTownHeifer somehow not that long after i posted that i realised im a furry, a full ass cat but not in the way that i thought, honestly Patty explains it a lot better than me.. this is literally a video explaining a lot about furry existence BUT, im a cat in the way im an enby, im feminine and androgynous, im not anything in particular im a multitude of things simultaneously, namely an almost-human and a mostly-cat
@@TheTownHeifer my brain cannot process the backwards :3. Its like writing with your left hand but for eyesight
I cannot describe how the line "put me in a Blare White video - see if i care" made me feel due to myself having a shutdown not even two days ago because of one of her videos which took a person like me and identified them as not valid. God thank you so much, you have legitimately made me feel joy
i cant beleive i used to watch her content when i was younger. now i’m proud to say i’ve become the autistic alien furry trans person she’d hate.
May I ask who this person is?
@@Haunted_PlushBlaire White is a trans commentary youtuber who makes a lot of political content, specifically from a conservative and bigoted perspective
@Chef_Edurad how can you even be those things and be a trans person lmao... like buddy the side you're on is against you
@@Haunted_Plushsome people honestly think that cuddling up to the people who hate you will somehow soften thier hatred. They don't understand that poison doesn't stop when it's welcomed in.
"Doggy interlude" literally led to me witnessing in real time the death of an unconscious bias that caused me to feel "cringe" about you cause i couldnt understand why anyone would be into this type of thing (but i take a let people live how they want to approach to life long as it doesnt hurt anyone so i try to ignore the cringe as a rule) but idk the way you described it killed that bias which prevented me from seeing how youre actually a cute dog who deserves and SHOULD be treated as such.
Character development, we love to see it
as a trans man i relate to this like i think there is so much normal deviation in peoples experience of their own body that is just pathologized or denied. like there is value in the experience of wishing for a new body and im not exactly sure where im going with this but if they invented hormones that turned people into furries id hope that they would give it out via informed consent
As a fellow trans guy (and a scalie) I'm with you lol, that would rule
I feel pretty comfortable and happy with my human body most of the time, but like also if I could instantly become an anthro dragon I would cause the expression of "dragon" externally fully encapsulates my feelings of intrinsic identity including my gender and masculinity
@@nicolasnamed
Your pfp, I can't. Now I'm just imagining a spongebob episode where Patrick gets turned into a dragon by one of plankton's schemes and just vibes.
it kinda concerns me that out of every argument and viewpoint i’ve heard on transgenderism, some guy telling me “well, what if you were your fursona” is the one i find the most convincing
@@NUISANCE_ANIMAL I think that says a lot more about you than the "transgenderism" you're talking about
@spilogale_putorius what the fuck is transgenderism. do you mean being trans? theres no need to argue in favor of me being trans because you cant stop me 👍🏼
I've been in the fandom for over a decade, but I've been so hesitant over making a fursona because I'm stressed out over interacting as something intrinsically tied to me. Watching this and realizing that I'm just a scaredy cat trying to make sure an environment is safe while masking as a human is incredibly cathartic.
same.
"I'd say the real weirdos are the ones who managed to make it through life without being made to feel inhuman in some way, shape, or form!"
Good god... I literally began identifying as a dragon because of the way I was treated as a child. I grew up on fairy tales, and in fairy tales dragons are portrayed as embodiments of evil, generally due to their inability to resist temptation. They're intelligent creatures that are slaves to their baser instincts. They’re attracted to shiny objects and hoard loot in their dens. They eat whatever happens to catch their eye, kidnap humans suddenly and for no discernible reason, and basically suffer from the same kind of impulse control that I struggle with thanks to ADHD.
Dragons are also solitary creatures.
When I was little, I was very lonely due to a lack of people my age in the neighborhood I grew up in, and when I did get to school where there were people my age, I had a lot of trouble making friends and was picked on by the majority of my peers. The bullying lasted a very long time and spread to people I didn’t even know. It was like I was on some kind of unseen blacklist. I wore an invisible kick me sign for a lot of my youth and I still have issues with self-esteem and social awkwardness.
I was picked on mainly because, with ADHD, you don’t get the opportunity to proofread yourself. You do things on impulse and frequently speak before you’ve even got what you want to say lined up in your head. So, of course, I often made an ass of myself. When I’m provoked I have trouble telling myself to calm down, and (again, on impulse) fight back. Which usually only makes things worse.
I was picked on because I was me, because there’s this thing about me that I can’t control very well that makes me look like a freak.
Dragons are attacked just for being dragons. They live alone, they're hunted by humans, they find solace in hoarding objects. Just like me.
I need everyone to understand how deeply affected I was by the song "100 Years" by Florence and the Machine. Didn't comprehend the lyrics for months or even years, didn't need to. I imagined myself as a dragon atop a mountain, drawn out by the sound of humans playing drums in a nearby field. It was magical. I still listen to that song and imagine myself leaping through the grass, catching the air on my wings.
I don't care if that makes me cringe. I'm a fucking dragon.
"The Preachfuzz emerges when I open my fucking mouth"
Everyone knew something was wrong with me, but no one had the word, it wasn't until I was in my early twenties that I was finally diagnosed with autism.
my life was peach fuzz. thank you for articulating that in a way that makes me feel so incredibly seen and understood.
peach fuzz has a lot of good nutrition in it, same as the rest of the peach.
Oh, it isn't that there's anything _wrong._ But there is something.
Sometimes my boyfriend bites me and makes funny animal-like noises - not barks or meows but the kind of grumbly snuffling gobliny mewling that critters like raccoons, possums, rats or skunks make - it's not even anything sexual to him, it's just...part of being furry (something we both very much are). I kinda thought it was weird because it's not a thing I do myself to stim but now I really get it. Thank you so much for helping me understand!
OH MY GOD I love hearing you describe media as Autistic in a nice way and explaining how its so relatable. Like the difference between autistic(insulting) and Autistic (Complimentary and Media Theory). This is so good
after years of being a furry and talking about how uncomfortable i am with playing human characters in games, earlier this year i finally started identifying as a dog, and i've genuinely been way happier than i've ever been, even amidst the rest of my mental health struggles. everything you say in this video about being a dog resonates with me so much.
as someone who's autistic and trans and was in the closet for nearly a decade i've become so dissociated from humanity and from my own physical body that i can't recognize myself in humans anymore. calling me a dog is more true to who i am than the body i inhabit could ever represent. one of my partners (who is a cat) bought me a customized collar with my name (basil) on it and i can't wait for them to visit soon and pet me and call me a good boy.
this video is the first thing i've seen that really explains this aspect of my identity, and it does it way better than i ever could. thank you :3
Ew
I'm sorry I seriously can't tell if you're being satirical or not 😭
least obvious fed post
@@Iskou307 i'm being completely earnest here! the video resonated with me a lot, and i think if you maybe rewatched the video, especially the interlude in the second half, it would be a bit easier to understand where i'm coming from. some people just have a different relationship with humanity because of things like disability and the circumstances of their life. i think it's cool how people are able to find joy in their own way, even if that means falling outside of what's typically considered "normal" by society. it's better to be happy and free than be forced to act normal, right?
Seek help
I've always tried to be respectful of my friends who identify as nonhumans, but it never really... clicked, for me. I guess it's not something I've experienced. This video honestly helped me understand the idea way better, so thanks!
Dear lorde u are rare 😭 ty for caring
Absolutely agree here!! Something about the descriptions of feeling inhuman clicked me in the same indescribable form as I feel with gender euphoria
Your friends need professional help
@@swiftrebooted7704 Sometimes I see comments like this and wonder what you'd expect professionals to do. It doesn't sound like the friends are doing anything actually dangerous toward themselves or others, they just feel/believe something you think is wrong. It's like when I read people saying someone needs professional help because they believe Jesus existed as the son of God, walked on water, and rose from the dead, etc. Like, I don't agree with Christians on that and do think those are absurd beliefs and I don't believe Christians are right when they say they can feel God with them. But I also don't think medical professionals would be alarmed or do anything. Sometimes people just believe or feel things that don't really make sense to you and it's fine. In fact, it's normal.
@@genericname8727 , from my perspective, any mental health professional who necessarily conflates "normality" with health and/or who considers it their "job" or raison d'etre to merely "help" clients to be "normal" is *dangerously* behind the curve by about a hundred years. Yes, part of the job does absolutely entail helping clients to adjust to reality and challenging their counterproductive and delusional beliefs and assumptions, but you really can't reason or lecture people out of their deeply-rooted feelings about or fundamental sense of themselves, and I think it can be incredibly damaging and disrespectful to even try.
A person who literally thinks they're Napoleon or Jesus due to a thought disorder and who can't function in the world or take care of themselves as a result of that delusion is meaningfully different from a person who feels "different" or non-human at some level, fully realizes that this feeling is "weird," and can generally function in the world and do what they need to do to survive and get by.
The people who glibly declare that "weirdos" need "professional help" would be or are usually disappointed to learn that *good* therapy doesn't actually consist of a Dr. Phil-type sitting a person down and lecturing or scolding them, and that's the point when such people usually throw up their hands and declare therapy to be snowflakery and quackery.
I reckon a truly seasoned and savvy therapist would usually target a therian client's feelings of alienation and disenfranchisement and maybe help them with life and social skills to help them to feel more competent in navigating interactions and the world at large. Just telling your therian client that they're not actually a dog or a dragon isn't going to do anything.
I think it took me this video to finally realize why I get into *legitimate distress* over the fact that I'm not a dragon. You describing furries as *being* their species in some part, connecting to it in a way that "normal" people just don't, but most other furries have an animal thats real. They know what that animal is like. I don't. There's no dragon to look at in the real world to say "you're like this!" So I try to project myself onto a concept that I think feels right but I can't know for certain if that's the concept that *is* right. There's probably a better way to word what I'm trying to say but I think the best way of saying it is that I can't project my essence onto something, so I instead project it onto myself, and it freaks me out
are you otherkin?
@@suspiciouslyBee I'm not sure. From what I've heard from other people, being otherkin means that they fully believe that they're that species. Not just that, but they have some attributes that they're able to take away from said species (i.e. a clever/mischievous fox, headstrong cat, etc.). I can't really believe that I'm a dragon since they don't exist and there's not really a consistent personality that they have. Western depictions of dragons see them as ferocious beasts that horde wealth, while Eastern dragons are usually divine beings of wisdom and fortune. I certainly wish that I could *be* a dragon, but I can't really say that I'd know what that would look like. Hell, I've often joked to my friends that were I to put on a fursuit of my sona that I'd get some sense of "gender euphoria", mind you I'm a cis man that's fully confident in his status as a man.
@@baguetteboy8976 "mind you I'm a cis man that's fully confident in his status as a man"
**Vsauce music begins to play**
I've been in the furry fandom for close to 15 years, and this is the best and most specific articulation of what it means to be furry that I've ever heard. Like, there was always this unexplainable "something" that made furry art/media what it was. It always felt different from other things that were simply "cartoon animals." I always thought it was the fact that it was created by self-identified furries. But you've articulated that "something" in a way that makes a lot of sense.
I struggled with the last part, about the ties to autism, because it can very easily sound like a pejorative. Like, calling something "autistic" is usually shorthand for "this is bad in an ableist way". But you are specifically talking about the EXPERIENCE of being someone on the autism spectrum, and seeing that experience reflected back at you in the media you mentioned. And I kinda dig that.
So, thanks for the awesome thoughtful analysis. I enjoyed this. Keep up the good work!
Still struggling with the difference and usage of someone "having" autism or "being" autistic.
@@theothertonydutch "having" autism means that its a small facet of yourself, and "being" autistic is that its an important part of yourself.
for the former, some people have it be just another character trait. for the latter, being autistic is an integral part of your likes, needs and kinship with others.
at least thats how i see it
"The idea of possessing a human body yet remaining inextricably an animal: that's autism."
I felt this so hard. I lived my entire life feeling nonhuman and eventually discovering I was a blue jay therian/furry made much more sense. It's totally linked to my Autism and this sentiment is what I've been feeling for the past However Long of my life.
me but im a dog except i dont think im a therian? i just feel like a dog kinda
@@virusDETECTED that's what therianthropy is; people experience it in a different way yk?
@@virusDETECTEDtherian is also called otherkin , and there’s a fuzzy line between identifying with your fursona and properly identifying as an x y z
@@CANINETHEROPY zamn
EEEEE someone else who is a biiiiird !! I’m a golden plover chick. Little mossy baby
I can’t explain how eye opening this video was from me like. I feel like some brain chemistry has been altered, and a part unlocked.
It makes me want to be unapologetically me as well, but then some part of me is hanging onto “no be normal” I don’t know how to explain. It feels like I’m eating some forbidden fruit yk. Everything could stay in paradise, and sure, every once in a month I’ll have a gut harrowing “I don’t feel human” episode, and then go back to ignorance, but. This video feels like some invitation to a bite of the apple.
Good lord I don’t know where to go from here, and I’ll probably look back and feel like crying when I think to myself “my eye opener was a video named ‘on the ethics of blinking animal people’”, but this video definitely HAS done something.
Something about it feels like home. Feels right.
I SOUND LIKE IM BEING INVITED INTO A CULT UHM o(-(
I love your humour btw :,)
Hey, how are you doing now? I think every creature who's recognised and reconciled with their nonhuman alignment has been where you are. You are weird, and that's okay. We're all weird. There are some times (a lot of times) you'll have to be human and appear human to interact with the world as it is, but take it as if it's a type of gender- you're dysphoric because of your lack of animal/creature traits. That's hard. Sometimes you just wanna grieve the tail and paws you didn't get.
This is the most compelling argument I've ever heard for why my furriness need not be justified to those who necessarily see me as subhuman. Thank you for articulating the logical and emotional conclusion to literally tens of thousands of peoples' inner turmoil Patricia, very good fuckin BOY
I think you mean good girl! Since that's what they said about themselves.
@@Sunny_Haven I believe she said both work because of the whole dog thing
@@bluebeartired Ah, I must've overlooked that then.
Okay, but do you find animals sexually attractive?
@@jorami4838 Animals? no. Animal people? yes
gurl im literally making a thesis about furires and to me you woke up one day and said "i'm gonna make a wholeass carrer for a mexican furry i've never met" thank you SO much
Best of luck to you. Hope it all goes well.
@@ronald1416 thank you so much!!
Hope the essay was recieved well dude.
Still working on it? How did it go?
madrina al final que paso????
I’ve never been a huge furry, but I always liked viewing myself like a Fox. Something charming, clever, and devious in a non malicious manner. They’re also both loved and hated for being tricksters (source: mythology for Japan and Native Americans) and I related to feeling like the funny friend who everyone loves, but feeling incredibly alone when I go home. I also liked how genderless they felt, like a handsome woman or a pretty man. Cut to several years later, I’m an autistic trans man. Go figure 😂✨
I dunno if I would say I identify as an animal but I'm definitely a cat autistic. When I was a kid I used to try to fall asleep in a position like a cat hoping I'd wake up as one. I think there's definitely a good reason why autism is overrepresented in the furry community and that's definitely whatever this is. The feeling of difference from other people and alienation and familiarity in such a different way to most allistics. I definitely wish I was a cat person sometimes.
Hoping you’d wake up as one definitely is a common therian/otherkin experience
I used to do this too! Actually, I still sometimes sleep like a cat, it's just so comfy to me still.
this is so real
@@pinkajou656
You're obviously mentally ill. It's one thing to be autistic, which isn't something you can do anything about, but wishing you were a cat is beyond the pale. Stop listening to the enablers on the internet, go and get help. It may not seem like anything major now, but it's only going to get worse if you fixate and focus on it for the rest of your life.
Me, autistic, who spends most of my disabled life cuddled up with my cat son who doesn't understand he's a cat because he was raised by humans... I feel like we meet in the middle and understand each other better than humans understand me and cats understand him
"I was treated like a failed human my entire life and you're surprised that my response was to become a dog"...That changed my brain chemistry in a way I'm not ready to unpack
you're missing the fact that the next part of the sentence is "and fuck other dogs" ??????????
@@yearstoolongyou understand the point of the video right
He is still a failed human.
Plays "good boy" by dog park dissidents
The statement itself is an obvious admittance that this behavior is simply coping. They weren't treated the way they wanted/expected, so... they became a dog? This is obviously someone who felt they were abnormal, because they were and so instead of trying to adapt to normal social life, instead decided to cope by becoming extremely abnormal. It's one thing to do it in your personal, private life. It's another to do it openly and shout it from the rooftops. Goodluck to this person, I hope they don't have to wait for there to be a sale on rope before they buy it.
I'm not a furry but i am very literally a cat. Patricia taxxon is my fucking hero
I am literally leo alvarez
Another cat therian?
Hell yeah
@@droptherapy2085 cat nation rise up 😸😸😸
LITERALLY a cat
=^.^=
THIS video was a flash bang let off 3 inches from my face. I'm an autistic trans guy and while I'm not a furry I'm just sorta adjacent as a monster/ horror enthusiast, and for the longest time I didn't even KNOW that being trans or autistic was a thing- like at all, and for the longest time I just never understood why I felt so wrong and different and well dehumanized by others now that I look back at it. The unwitting and undeniable connections between the horrors and any marginalized group is is painful but explains why I can see myself in monsters like changelings or Jason Voorhees, the insidious rhetoric and dehumanization that people who are different from the norm are bad and evil; but I've found comfort in reclaiming that monstrosity, defining it by my terms and frankly scaring cis people. While I'm not someone who particularly identifies with a non-human identity, I feel like I almost viscerally understand it, its almost like seeing someone who's basically a doppelgänger of you but a little to the left.
I need to bring two beanbag chairs to Patricia's house, sit in one, put the other in the book corner, and just continue saying "go on..." until genius happens.
Please make it three, because I wanna join!
She's on my "people i'd pay exorbitant amounts of money to have tea with" list.
@@JuniperHatesTwitterlikeHandles That is true!
@@JuniperHatesTwitterlikeHandlesthis.
@@JuniperHatesTwitterlikeHandlesso real. I'd up-end my life for that lol
"You guessed it, and you are correct" is gonna stick with me
As an autistic trans intersex therianthropic extranthic label label label label vocal synth music producer I think you’re the only being who should be able to talk ever again.
i love ur way with words
Real!
vocal synth music producer went hard
you forgot attack helicopter
@@Phoenix.Sparkles That was covered under “label label label” 😇 If you’re trying to eat maybe show up before the buffet closes
"Detroit: Become Nonverbal" made my brain rotate at 300km/h and the goblins that live in there are having a great time about it. I've never felt so valid
mention of ocd made me feel seen for once. zocd and pocd have taken up a lot of my time and this video really made me feel better
I do feel like the feeling of being the "animal in the room" vibe is something that I've definitely feel like I needed in my hierarchy of needs. Like, for me, I love the idea of being someone's Digimon or Pokemon much more than being someone's partner or spouse, and if that isn't furry as all hell then I don't know what is. To be seen as non-human while still retaining mental human capabilities and feelings is the ultimate ideal for my furry-ness and what differentiates myself from being a therian, in my own opinion.
Also, being asexual I can't totally relate to everything you said, but I feel like the "vibe" is generally the same as what I feel. While I don't want to boink, I do want to bite and make noises at people I love :>
If it helps, my ace and autistic roommate has expressed a similar sort of thing! Like he doesn't want to be a catboy or anthro cat or anything, he's said that he wants to just be a little cat, or in the case of being someone's pokemon he's expressed wanting to be Rika's (I think that's her name? Elite 4 androgynous lady) clodsire. He's even also expressed wanting to bite people lol
So I hope this helps you feel a little less alone my friend!
I like hearing people talking about furries in an embracing way
Shoutouts to Mangoruby🙏
@@bobsbrain397are you the real Bob’s Brain from hit game The Binding of Isaac
@@Numbabu💥
@bobsbrain397 one of the bosses of all time
@@bobsbrain397Hello Bob's Brain, an obtainable item from the hit videogame franchise "The Binding of Isaac", a roguelike videogame themed around christianity and a child named "Isaac", very closely referencing the Bible (a part of such religion).
You are clasified as a "companion" item, which means you follow the main character as a seperate entity in the gameworld. When such character fires tears (or other), you will move towards the direction the character is facing until you hit something, if its a wall, you will simply return back, if not, you will explode and deal damage in a area, this can damage the character itself however, after this, you will have to wait a certain time before you can appear to move and explode again.
The ending of Pom Poko is such a powerful moment. I think about it all the time, and I think this is the first time I’ve seen someone other than myself acknowledge what a good metaphor for autism it is.
Then there's me - a person that just can't mask at all. I guess I would be a Tankui that can't do magic? Never watched that movie but I guess that there weren't any like that in it.
It was kinda surreal for me to read about experiences of autistic people learning to not mask and just be themselves despite what society thought them. I always feel kinda left out as the only thing I can do is wonder about how would my life look like If I could mask.
And all this from the goddamn tanooki balls movie
@@AleksoLaĈevalo999Honestly, might be a good thing that you can't Mask. Masking (in the Autism sense) is something only really done out of necessity of survival which can really fuck you up over time. Like, I Mask a bit, but I don't think it's nearly as much as other people have to. It took me a lot of therapy in my early childhood to learn how to socialize though, and I can do it fairly normally without masking. But you can still absolutely tell if you pay attention.
Point is, you're not missing out on much.
I love this gal, she can take any topic and wrap it around into the most thought provoking philosophical epic of your entire life, only for you to remember the topic and its BANGING FURRIES
"I was treated like a failed human being and you're surprised that my response was to become a dog and fuck other dogs?!"
..i.. Can't say i relate, but that's fair.
Update: Nevermind, turns out i was just treating myself as a failed human and started wanting to be a funky robot instead. Can relate and that's fair.
we love some character development
@@Jerome_M_0 Don't make me tap the sign.
@@dirtydan9785 ok I will be fair that was just a gut reaction to "I want to **** other dogs". I'll probably just delete my older comment. Sorry about that
@@dirtydan9785 sorry about that imma just delete it real quick. I think that one specific statement gave me a bit of whiplash. Thinking about it now I kinda see what she was getting at.
the comment section on this is filled with a lot of people with zero critical thinking skills whatsoever and it's fascinating. thank you for this video, by the way, enjoyed it very much
@@j.kkidding9764 maybe if you could read you could figure it out
@@j.kkidding9764on the side of the video
i did not expect this video to be the thing to free my sense of self expression the way that it just did. your way of speaking is truly something magical, i feel like you’ve just put all my most confusing and indescribable thoughts and feelings into words.
Magical is an apt way to describe it. Only a week ago I rediscovered and watched a couple of Patricia's video essays (notably "Celeste's Biggest Mod (and why it's interesting)") and like, my views on my identity and how I express myself on the internet have not recovered since.
doghood be damned this girl can work a script!
I kept going back to rewatch every 10 seconds of this video as they passed, either to fully take in your amazing analysis or to center myself after spluttering at a gag. Phenomenal work.
Of course you'd be here! Wave
This video has given me the courage to bring my deck where I must use Luxior to attach Basilisk Collar to Windgrace in order to win to commander night
Holy shit is that famous mtg content creator spicing a rack?
Hi spice
I’m going to have “the most f-ed up stuff can become not only permissible but also comforting and wholesome” stuck in my head for a long time, as someone who has been through some really messed up abuse and also engages in such things with friends in private
I love this entire essay but the intro was especially powerful, because like you I’ve also felt a lot of the common deflections don’t entirely adequately address the core issues of what does the aesthetic MEAN
Also the part about wanting to be able to sniff and bite partners made me realise I’ve had absolutely no compunctions about doing exactly that since I was 16. Literally I’m like “oh did you change your HRT dose?” bc of subtle sweat scent changes and so on. So I really relate to all that, except catte instead of dawwg.
Also “pop the puppy endorphins” is a banger lyric
The journey from discovering your channel 2hrs ago (through a video on microtonality) to hearing that you identify as dog has been something truly unique.
people on the internet can be dogs. nbd.
Going from an hour of talking about the random marble game I only knew existed because of a demo on my grandparents' xbox 360 to this was just as interesting, even if it was over a longer period of time
sounds like the average microtonalist idk
the section about her being a dog and wanting to be petted was very relatable to me but like in the reverse. as a robot girl, my chassis is highly sensitive equipment and if you touch me the wrong way i might blue-screen.
non-human solidarity ❤️❤️❤️
This connects something for me, thank you c:
That's nice, ive actually considering if i may be a wooden marionette for the longest time lol
I never thought I'd find another robot person out of the blue
Gears and starters,,,, i haven't met any other robots on the internet so this is actually really really cool
not personally none human identifying (i am kinda a fox boy though?) but as part of a system that has multiple non human people i support all of y'all 💕
Not a furry but wow, this made me rethink why i choose to represent myself the way i do through certain characteristics and how that correlates to how i feel completely inhuman and othered. For reference, im a trans guy (he/him) with cptsd. My friends and i joke about me being a backrooms monster lmfao but ive always been told i was more mature, i was independent, i learned things way too fast for a normal child, i looked and behaved as though i had been here much longer than my body, etc etc etc. i choose to represent myself in fictional works as a being that was once human -- innocent and loved -- to something uncanny after a bout of horrible trauma, painful transformation, awakening surrounded by bodies of forgotten people, covered in their blood. slowly forgetting what it meant to be human and having to relearn love and trust and peace. And... this video made me realize why. I understand now, both why furries represent themselves the way they do and why i represent myself in the way i do. A monster, trying so desperately to be what it once was, human. Flooded with thoughts of pain and sorrow and death, and facing them with no feeling. Wondering why i am so broken, why i cant just be what i once was, why i cant remember what it feels like _to_ feel. And also i think the future devil from chainsaw man FUCKS!!! I would bed that mf in an instant, hes silly with it and knows what he wants. And hes an ancient being older than anything that we could ever know, just like me. This video tore me open and was really introspective, thank you, you'll probably never see this.
TLDR; monster fucker realizes why he always draws himself as an uncanny ancient inhuman being
I do recall the strong desire to be pet but the fear of optics as a black person 💀💀💀 also thanks for mentioning Ken lol, he & max blackrabbit were integral to my own style growing up as a twelve-year-old with unfettered access to the internet lol , furry stuff was probably the least offensive content
ah that reminds me of a little personal anecdote of mine. now i started out with unrestricted internet access as a kid and then had that SHARPLY reduced around late middle school/early highschool as some scare story put some primal fear in my dads heart something terrible may happen to me if i tip-toe into any corner of the internet too Weird and Horny. with that he restricted my access to most if not all things that were directly labeled as furry. he had no problem with animal characters and things like that i still had a fursona i just couldnt like call it that. furaffinity and similar were blocked. the works. all this to say im still extremely aggressively furry and none of this stopped me from finding hardcore anime torture porn in highschool so like. thanks dad you tried. least offensive content indeed
Fr! Petting has been ruined for me because white ppl used to pet my hair because it was so "fluffy looking"
@@s.e.vasquez1274omg this, i want. to be pet but like i don’t want anyone to do it because they want to be weird about touching my hair or something.. (i’m black btw 💀)
I have to imagine this isn't the same thing, but I'm Latine and I have incredibly thick dark hair. It's not at all uncommon to have white people want to pet me, I-I mean *feel my hair* because I feel like there's an almost jealousy at times. White women who are jealous that my hair isn't stringy, white men that are far, far more at risk at baldness than I am, etc.
The difference being that, assumedly unlike with y'all, they don't want to touch my hair because "ooOoOOooh wEiRd~~~!" Even with my Black furry friends, I'm always cautious before petting them because I don't want to be accidentally cringe.
@@CrystalDoggoIsMissing The classic struggle. I don't identify as a non-human animal so I can't truly comment on that part, but I am a black person with dreads and...whoo boy, the number of times white people have wanted to touch my hair or straight up touched it is too many, especially those who have never seen a black person in person. I can only imagine the frustration with wanting to be petted out of the desire to be pet but not wanting to be pet due to experiencing racism. If that makes any sense. It's fucked up.
hearing someone with an actual internet following describe what a “barney error” is is so surreal to me, good lord i was obsessed with those as an 8 year old. and yeah, the video itself genuinely spoke to me as an autistic and convinced me of multiple things that really had my brain working more than it should’ve been on, but the barney error just has to be the main thing i point out😼
hi. other autistic furry here. i didnt want this video to be true but unfortunately it awoke something in me. im going to go be a pig now, and not be so worried about what people think.
I am also just a pig!! Join the squad of silly little pigs
oink oink oink oink oink oink oink!!!!!! @@gremlinfriend6956
Oh my god I literally teared up and just sat in silence because of this video. I am a cat girl with NPD and probable autism. I have always felt utterly disconnected from everyone else, othered, judged, and misunderstood because well I'm autistic as all hell. This led to my naturally hyperempathetic self to turn off all empathy and human compassion in order to protect myself against my abusers - after all, if I am better than everyone else and perfect in every way, how could they possibly get to me? Except that led to me being more isolated than ever (only one person can fit on a throne, after all) and now I had a whole NEW target on my back because of pop psychology claiming every narc is super mega duper evil and insane or whatever.
I just... I feel inhuman. I'm something with proximity to humanity, but otherwise entirely different. Most people are dull and I can't stand them. The world feels uninviting and hopeless. So I am simply... a cat. I wanna be a cute lil guy, I wanna get belly rubs, I wanna get head pats and just be a little pet with no worries. I want that tactile sensation of fur and cute little ears and a collar with a little bell. At the core of it all is my pervasive otherness in a world of what I perceive to be cardboard cutouts.
So yeah I'm a cat therian, a lil kitty guy, and I am also neurodivergent as fuck and this video really spoke to me WOW
BPD for me but similar experiences. (Like, my “shell” wasn’t an idea of personal perfection but the exact inverse, that I was just a wretched little thing with zero redeeming qualities. But it still served as a wall to insulate myself from abusers.) Learning how to be vulnerable again after leaving an abusive household took me 10 years but it’s definitely worth it
People are really lousy to folks with Cluster B stuff going on. I hope that you both currently have support networks of people who love and care about you and treat you well.
@@ConvincingPeople thank you, that means a lot to me!
I do thankfully have people like that in my life, though also due to some disability stuff I’m still a bit more isolated than I’d like to be - being abruptly bed-bound for days or weeks with no warning does get in the way of doing things, even many online ones. And covid stuff certainly hasn’t helped.
But on the flip side, everyone in my life accepts those considerations and likes me for me rather than just what I can do for them.
So in a way the disability stuff has helped dispel a lot of my BPD triggers - stuff like “they only like me because of x and y, if they found someone else who did x and y they’d throw me away”. Well, I certainly can’t think that way anymore! I can’t reliably do x, let alone y, anymore but that hasn’t led to any of the outcomes I used to catastrophise about. So that’s quite comforting.
cluster b (aspd) and alterhuman, this really spoke to me
I relate a lot to what you said about people being dull. Like how people don't have wildly weird obsessions that take you down midnight rabbitholes is beyond. @@kaitlyn__L
Halfway Thru This Video I Had to Stand Up and Put on My Fursuit Tail and Dog Collar So I Could Properly Be In Uniform.
For Real Though This Video Nails a Lot About Just the General Appeal of Autistic Inhumanity. I am a Furry and Therian But I'm Also Super Present in the Object Show Community Where This Sentiment is SUPER Present, Albeit in Less Refined Forms Than Works Like Ad Astra. It's Impressive How You Articulate Sensations I've Experienced But Never Knew How to Phrase.
Something I'm surprised you didn't mention about the Harkness test- Consenting adults in REAL LIFE can fail the Harkness test. I fail the harkness test by being nonverbal sometimes. I'm literally 20.
Yeah that's one of the flaws of the Harkness Test, it takes a neurotypical-centric/verbal-centric approach to communication, and ignores other forms of communications' *existence* let alone use.
I have to address that every time I bring it up in regards to one of the characters I'm most autistic (affectionate) about, Perry the Platypus from Phineas and Ferb, because he doesn't talk either. That's a core character trait of his, being basically completely nonverbal. And it never stops him from communicating, he's perfectly capable of making his consent, or lack thereof, known, he just doesn't use words in particular to communicate that. And he never *needs* to, because people who care about him and his feelings will make the effort to understand.
(Spoken) Words are not the be-all end-all of communication and it's about time we stopped treating them like it.
Mental maturity should be added to the list. Crows that have been taught to speak words could just about squeeze into passing the Harkness test, since a study in New Zealand suggest they have spacial reasoning skills equivalent to that of a typical seven-year-old.
Yes, it's a word-but-not-spirit interpretation, but it's very important to set down what defines intelligence for the purposes of consent.
the Harkness test is used for explicitly mythical creatures or otherwise Not Real. Despite being nonverbal sometimes, you can still communicate with another human...
Idk about neurotypical-centric or verbal-centric but language is the most clearest form of communication, AND the test itself has an addendum for if attempted language communication fails so like... 😭 huh
Uh... If someone's nonverbal (and isn't communicating in any other way either), pretty sure that, at least for the current moment, you _definitely shouldn't_ boink them
@@gaminggeckos4388 "Nonverbal" and "unable to communicate" are different things, though. The problem is that the former is frequently treated as, or assumed to stand in for, the latter without regard for the distinction; this flaw is present in the Harkness Test.
My only criticism is how there's no mention of the friggin' ANCIENT horny furry art that humans have been drawing in caves since forever. Or the fact that lots of old human cultures had rituals that involved dressing up in sacred fursonas and doing horny passion plays so that the sun would remember to shine, the grass would remember to grow, and life would remember to be good.
These are just nitpicks though, which I only bring up out of a desire to share information.
I've always wondered if the people doing cave paintings were on the spectrum.
Well, there are a lot of people who say that the cave paintings were inspired by drug trips. And ,considering how often neurodivergent people get accused of being on drugs whenever they do something creative, I'd call that good evidence for the existence spectrum cave painters.
Furry culture is the next step in the pagan revival and its rejection of capitalist systems
I had a shitty day, and the thoughts about "am I therian? do i just like furry stuff? why do I want to be treated like a puppy when I get exhausted?" came back to me. I said "well, I don't have enough energy to think right now" so I came to TH-cam and decided to search for my favorite furry content creator because that's what you do when you have a cold and don't want to sleep.
Needless to say that by the end of this video I had more clarity on my life experience than I've had in months. Like, you just explained my whole life in almost 43 minutes AND made me laugh a couple of times.
Thank you, Patricia :))
I know that realistically this was scripted like a normal video but I do like the idea that Patricia just leaped into frame and started saying all of this
EDIT: fourth watchthrough and I may be a fox.
It sounds exactly like how I want to sound when speaking with friends about some topic, but I don't have a script and can't cut out the longest rants about smallest details like the tier list of colours for towels and why i choose certain ones 😩
@black-nails heyhey you uh, you should tell us about the towel tier list. I want to hear about the towel tier list please tell me about the towels.
@@black-nails PLEASE tell us about the towles!!!
@@black-nails I would also like to know about the towel color tierlist. at least give us the best and worst
@@black-nailsI also ask for the towel tier list
I wonder if there’s something left over in our evolution about wanting to groom fur but now we’re naked and have no fur to groom.
I mean we not only groom and style our hair but we also do it with others' hair, which is basically allogrooming.
Just grow your hair out my dude
as someone with autism who sits sort of on the edge between being a "normal human" and furry, this video struck a chord with me in a way very few videos have, even those specifically about autism. the parallels you draw between wanting to be a furry and how other people see you was genuinely mindblowing in a way i cant put into words. the contrast between how simultaneously profound and insane your statements were feels exactly like my own autistic ramblings i sometimes have with myself, yet even more personal despite not even being me. im genuinely crying while writing this, i know it sounds stupid but this video genuinely changed how i look at myself. thank you.
mrreow~
- Kona
"The furry aesthetic as a whole is a concession towards the symbolic, the sensory, the ever so slightly autistic." Even since the first time I heard that I knew it was the biggest takeaway from the video... plus all the other fantastic takeaways I quote almost daily.
OMG YIPPY NEW PATRICIA TAXXON VIDEO IM SO HAPPY *Growles in autisum*
"Honey come quick!!"
@@tawumpas BABE WAKE UP PATRICIA TAXXON JUST POSTED"
Ight fellas I'm gonna speak from experience with furries before before watching this. From outside this community is either massively overanalyzed or boiled down and is always ultimately totally misunderstood. So I joined it bc damnit I was curious and I was interested, especially since I consider it being a subset of the broader sci-fi/fantasy community.
Anyway the "cuddle" aspect of this culture is absolutely a thing. Fur is cuddly, and anything cuddly is great for releasing oxytocin. Why? We're social beings and it's what forms bonds, we've evolved these needs and yet we live in a severely upsidedown alienating society nowadays where loneliness has become a serious epidemic issue.
Furry culture ain't about sex. Yes, it provides an atmosphere of sex-positivity in terms of the expression of one's self, but it also reaches much more prominently for a very much more intimate platonic experience in relationships. Seriously, hugging is a universal greeting/parting gesture in the community in my experience.
The big three reasons people are into this:
1) It's an incredibly tight-knit yet decentralized community that basically acts as a fraternal society / third place. An incredibly reliable social network in my experience.
2) It provides an outlet which encourages arts, crafts, hobbies. Can even function as a professional network for said things, especially for artists and tech workers and enthusiasts. Much more important though is the fact that, again, this community functions as a creative outlet.
3) It provides a medium for the exploration of identity via self-expression through alter-egos (fursonas) in a generally very open-minded environment.
Tl;Dr for these reasons there's a lot of haven this community provides especially for neurodivergent people and lgbtq people. It's a shame to see it get boiled down to a kink of all things (or worse yet conflated with a shameful philia) in the eyes of the general public and subsequently get trashed on.
I'm a furry, but it had mainly just been "I like animal people" and nothing else. I didn't interact with the fandom or that much furry media, I've never been to any meetups or convections, I had a fursona, but I changed it so frequently that i stopped caring about it. The older I got the more isolated I felt from even the most inclusive of spaces, for the past year I have felt the least furry ever. but this video genuinely made me rethink the way I perceive being a furry, and the way I perceive myself. Zootopia was my inro into the furry fandom, so now that I think about that it makes alot of sense that I felt a disconnect.
When I say this video made me passionate and proud to be a furry I meant it. I'll say it, humanity sucks ass dick and balls, and the want to be a big fluffy animal person is so real. the experience of being dehumanized and saying "fuck it, furry", this inherent neurodivergence to furry media, the sensations that come with it all, it's all just clicked for me.
thank you so much for making this video, I cant wait to invest more time and energy into furry media
When this isn't even close to "your section of TH-cam," but you decide to invest 40 minutes of your life learning about the psychology and philosophical rationals behind furry culture, because (much like that one episode of Ru Paul's Drag Race that you watched out of curiosity) you know this will not be anything you could have anticipated.
Not a furry (although was big in the brony fandom, i guess that counts a little bit?) and also not autistic, although highly neurodivergent (that early line about OCD and policing one's own morals PIERCED MY SOUL), I constantly conceptualize myself as agender monsters with features that are considered stereotypically ugly - skin peeling off, swollen joints, toothless mouth, empty eye sockets. I guess that's my way of coping with trauma - if I'm not desirable in a very literal sense, no one would harrass me, right? Right?.. So thank you Patricia for showing us all that combining human and inhuman is normal and omnipresent. It lifted a huge weight off my shoulders
this isnt the video i was expecting but its the video i got. im not ungrateful
I have been drawing furry boinking for about five years now, and I honest to god never expected to watch a video that had me questioning whether I was a furry, even if I came back with a resounding "yes". The descriptions here were incisive to me in a way I have literally never felt before. I was forced to question who I was both as a human and as whatever the fuck else I am. A bird? A kobold? A dragon? But also, something that struck a chord with me is right around 32:30, where the idea of the dogginess as a metaphor comes up, and the idea of being a furry to convey "non-human" desires and habits. At least, I hope I'm interpreting that correctly, as I agonize over how this TH-cam comment might be perceived for five millenia.
And, like. Yeah. I'm not a bird as in I literally have feathers and eat grubs from the ground and will probably get killed by an outdoor cat. But I am sometimes a bird in that I chew over language and echo it back, and that I like to have a nest, and that I have the very fun sort of intelligence where I love games... but not in a human way, where they're oft viewed as frivolities. I'm sometimes a kobold in that I want to help and serve someone with borderline deific reverence for them. I'm sometimes a dragon in that I desire absolute dominion over a hoard that I'll guard with vicious jealousy. It is symbolic and sensory and a means of conveying that I am not a human in every way that the average human I would run into would expect.
Personal feelings aside, I do, on a technical level, really like the way you've defined being furry. It accurately explains the inclusion of things like aeromorphs, as well as the exclusion of certain anthropomorphized animals.
I don't think im a therian, but the want to wake up someday as a cat is definitely there inside me. Sometimes when ive had a really bad day I'll daydream about becoming a cat and living as someone's pampered little pet, with no stress and no hardships to be found. Just bliss and being taken care of by someone who loves me. I think theres an animal desire in everyone to not have to worry about everything that comes with being human. I'm definitely a furry though, and probably autistic but im waiting on the doctors to confirm or deny that part of me.
Edit: Turns out I am in fact autistic, not surprising.
You know what? Fuck it.
I'm a Leafeon. Leafeon ain't even REAL but you've convinced me. That sensory feeling of being a plant dog fox cat rabbit thing is just too damn enticing to ignore. This creature doesn't exist but I still feel like I understand it on a level more than I understand my own body. Bravo Patricia. I think you've released the beast in a lot of us, at the very least you did for me.
I'm so happy for you to realize your true self!!! [I'm an umbreon and a vaporeon, and a lot more lmao]
Ok but do realize you can't be one
So true so true (mostly feel like mew but i get a little silly w it. but im plural so that changes things LOL)
Puppy iz also a Sylveon n says hi :3
@@furrymemelady622 so many eeveelutions here lmao
"I might look like a human, you can squeeze my upper arm and it'll feel a bit like human skin, but the peach fuzz emerges when I open my mouth."
I love this quote. It so succinctly describes the experience of feeling nonhuman in a human body. I relate to it so much and I have a love/hate relationship with that fact.
Edit: this now has a double meaning to me because JOKE'S ON ME I GUESS, I figured out I'm trans.
I am so out of my depth being here, but good video? I guess?
No, really, I think humanity as a whole needs these kinds of pure unfiltered examinations of the human condition.
It's funny I'm not a furry, and yet I remember try to describe how I felt going to a school where I was a religious minority and I described feeling like I was a talking dog. On the one hand no one was overtly mean to me, there were even times where I got along with people pretty well, but any time there was any friction I was dismissed out of hand. At the end of the day if I disagreed with someone their response was basically "you can't tell me what to do, you're just a dog." Again most of my interactions weren't really antagonistic, but a lot of that came from them not seeing me as human enough to matter. It might be novel or emotionally validating to talk to me, but it was not the same as talking to a person. I had several people who trauma dumped on me because they basically felt like telling me that they were in an abusive relationship wasn't actually telling anyone. I wasn't one of them so telling me wasn't the same as them complaining about the relationship that they had sworn to uphold in front of their god.
the way you put this into words is so relatable to me while i was never able to fully articulate what this treatment was like in words, thank you
would love to see a deep dive into autism accents or something. this is the first time i've heard of it and now i wanna know what my autism accent is
Okay but seriously. Um. Listen. This video really resonated with me. We still have small human sort-of-political disagreements like how much we care about approval or people understanding us and how that extends to things such as “identifying” or “gender” or whatever but it’s mostly just semantics, i love trans people and want them to fucking squeal with happiness and feel accepted
look
watching this is just
I have found my people
this is it
i AM unabashedly autistic, and, beautiful, and awesome, and it is because I have a disability, and i am okay with that
i am a fucking human being, i am a dog, i am a cat, fuck it, it just feels right
the only real big super ultra thing bothering normal people is this feeling that they want to be in on the fun too but they aren’t allowed or something. Or, they just ARE okay with people like us doing our thing even though from a surface level judgement based on an assumption from their appearance and mannerisms, you would assume otherwise.
I spend a lot of my time trying really hard to appeal to people and befriend people instead of being as viciously independent as i want to be, because my goals financially, at least at the moment, somewhat rely on the approval of a lot of old people who will absolutely never approve of any of this for me, and videos exactly like this used to trigger me but now i watch with yearning thinking simply, “I always wished that I could have this attitude”
Whiz…BANG!
I would love to just forget inhibitions and be a dog, still having standards and tastes and hopes and dreams, but just, them being my own, not decided by some seen or unseen other, some force
I just want to exist and be allowed to have my desires and emotions manifest as whatever way will make it most pleasurable, you know?
But, I feel a certain resistance to fully embracing this and just calling it my autism. Because, on some level, I understand that a lot of these intense differences are merely biological, and kind of mundane and ugly in reality. And while making myself out to be alien, or wildly different, would certainly be wonderful for my confidence and help me exude power in public, I also just kind of don’t want to antagonize people. Largely because I don’t really understand what I’m antagonizing. Whenever I get to know the average person, I think they’re pretty cool, so I just feel compelled to act (publicly) in ways that would not make them uncomfortable. But goddamnit, when that constitutes masking on a massive scale, it really does beg the question, is my purpose from the universe to just be a fucking dog? Woof? or a cat? Meow?
But I WANT to put some effort in to help people understand where I’m coming from. If people are gonna hate or dislike me, I’m honestly okay with that, I guess I just want to know they hate ME for REALLY ME, and not just whatever they think about me or however they interpret my actions. Many people say that it’s other people’s problem if they assume about you, but I think a lot of people who are very different, like us, sometimes fail to see that “normal people” often struggle like us all the same. And face a lot of that “othering” pressure that they wouldn’t normally have to feel if there just wasn’t this arbitrary boundary between all of us. Like, I wish we all could just embrace whatever makes us real and express it. Like, you said yourself you’ve experienced “being treated like a failed human” and, well, i didn’t really experience that, AND i’m not trans the only similarities between us are that we are autistic, queer, and furries. But my point is that that kind of implies to me that the whole thing is only so different as an act of aggressive defensiveness, a way of saying FUCK YOU to the entire world at once. And like, I’ve always seen that as kind of counter productive, and further divisive, but, there’s a dimension to it that i like. That I’m drawn to when’s other people aren’t afraid to act that way. It’s sexy, I always wished that I could have that attitude.
All I know, is that, when you, made this video, and talked about all this stuff, and mentioned that anime, and these pieces of media, that Pixar movie Turning Red, none of which I’ve seen, i just, loved life. I felt like I just want to be in a big happy family with the person through the screen and all the people who agree with her. I TOO want to fucking rub my face against a big red panda’s fur. I TOO want to fucking cuddle and f*** a consenting bulging furry-album-cover-art character
I TOO WANT TO SHED MY FAKE HUMAN FORM AND DANCE IN A FIELD AS TANOOKIS
Like, this channel with under 100k subscribers of a person who would probably disagree with me about a lot of stuff, and whose channel used to piss me off years ago, but i still subbed to, for reasons present me can only speculate, has nevertheless, created 3 videos which have spoken directly to me through the screen and made me feel like God is Real And I Am Understood. I love my fellow autistic people, I love symbolism and my fuckin sensory experiences more than basically anything else, Furries make the best art and are fucking God and I want to be Saved
Thabk you if you made it to the end of my unhinged rant, I want to hug every person who wants it, worldwide, constantly, and feel their thick fur on my body of indeterminate surface type
Basically I want to hug the red panda and i want to hug you
4 years ago I was religious and identified as straight. 2 months ago I was activating my societally trained empathy to say I don’t want kids getting hormone blockers and hrt, and it still scares me and there’s still a lot I don’t know, but, Now I am an autistic bisexual furry dating a trans girl and i have never been more alive in my fucking life.
when i got to that part with Patricia talking about Turning Red and the Tanooki movie I just fell backwards on my floor laughing maniacally, and saying, I have found it. These are my people.
Even if no one reads this, Thank you.
Wanna leave a comment to say that I read what you said. and that text to speech addons for web-browser are super useful.
Despite my massive Dyslexia, I read all of it
It was brutal, it was passionate, it was raw and it was so real
I loved it, every word
:) 👍
feels like the opposite of me. or different enough to me that it feels like the opposite.
I want to hug you too! You're all so wonderful!