Haley Heynderickx - The Bug Collector
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Lyrics:
there's a centipede naked in your bedroom
and you swear to god the fucker's out to get you
and i digress
i must make you the perfect morning
i try my best
to scoop the slugger out the window
there's a praying mantis prancing in your bathtub
and you swear it's a priest from a past life out to getcha
and i digress
cause i must make you the perfect morning
i try my best
to put the priest inside a jam jar.
there's a millipede angry on your carpet
and i must admit he's staring with a vengeance
and i digress
i must make you the perfect morning
i try my best
to prove that nothing's out to get you.
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I wish there was a whole genre that just covered songs like this. Like dark and yet comforting indie songs, with this exact vibe.
Black Eyes by David Wirsig fits that feeling, I think
Vashti Bunyan- here before
has the same vibe
we can make a list here in the comments :) I'll find one and bring it back
Since I Saw Vienna by Wilbur has the same vibe
Andromeda - weyes blood ✨
This one goes out to my boy Ahmad from Egypt that I met on Omegle chat he made me listen to this song before we sadly got disconnected you the real MVP Ahmad.
@@ThatBoyRocks101 uh
Ya go Ahmad!
Fuck yes. To the memory of Ahmad.
Cheers lads 🍻
who knows, maybe he'll see this :>
awww
This sounds like that indie song they play in the movie when everything is going to shit in the protagonist’s life and they have to self-reflect and revaluate their decisions
Percy Jackson yep. Or after the resolution of the super messed up horror movie after almost everyone is dead from the serial killer and it's the morning after and everything is F'd and everyone's scared. But they( the towns people)have to continue their lives
Like. Sitting on a car, wearing glasses and hair tousled, taking off to the uncertain future
I was going to like this comment, but I wanted to leave it at 69😂
Ahaha yes, I cant think of the exact movie but I can see the scene in my head. Something with Anna Kendrick maybe
Percy Jackson yes it could be in the Movie „Dean“...
These lyrics make me fucking cry.
When did I become so unimaginative? When did I become so jaded and cynical? When did I lose my sense of wonder?
I want what this lady has so badly.
god this comment resonates with me so much holy fuck :(
Dude it’s super simple! Have patience with your critical mind and be aware of when you are most creative
@@mysecretexperiments I think I might be what the kids call "shot" lol
@@laur-unstagenameactuallyca1587 I don't think it's that uncommon eh? Must be something in the air 🥸
Wonder is cultivated, and nurtured. It is like a muscle that needs to be flexed ❤
You can get there!
Had my first kiss with a girl I’ve loved for over a year to this song.
good for u💓
thank you for making my day stranger
:)
How’s that going
@@user-vn2mu7js8q Been dating since, very much in love!
2:21 whoever sneezed there, bless you
how high were you when you heard that?
Hey! an incredible observation well done! x
Love this
You must’ve been on acid my guy I could barely hear it when u pointed it out
Why y'all associate good hearing with being high?
This song is helping me get through my opioid addiction. I shed a happy tear when I hear it. It also reminds me of my grandma who refuses to kill any insect, no matter how disgusting, because she believes everything has a soul. :')
AlyssaQ420 your grandma is special. good look in your recovery
Thank you.
it's helping me deal and support my family to take care of the mental illness of my brother. It helps me be in contact to the infinite sadness seeing my brother like he is now, the blood of my blood, my partner in youth, the living mirror and witness of my growth.
"i try my best
to prove that nothing's out to get you."
good luck and good on you. i know im ten months late on this comment but if you ever need or want to talk to a total stranger my door is always open. instagram- t.miche or cell#- 4143361033
I know you posted this a while ago, I hope life is going good for you. It's a vicious beast to tame. The same beast that has taken my best friend from me and his family. I wanted you to know that even though I am a stranger to you, I hope you are happy and living life the way you were meant to.
This song feels like the scene where two brothers or sisters play in a garden and slowly grow up more distant, separated but yet still the same bloods
This comment section is filled with the most positive stuff omg
Fr omg
Listening to this while softly crying. I kinda relate to this song in a way. This summer i was diagnosed with ocd and some of the song's lyrics kinda remind me of what i go through. To me, the bugs represent intrusive and disturbing thoughts that cause me to have anxiety and fear. I fear that the thoughts may mean something about me as a person. However, the reason ocd sufferers get anxiety from these thoughts is exactly because they don't want to do the things their thoughts tell them to do. In fact, they are less likely to ever hurt or cause harm to anyone and are generally kind and gentle people (hence the lyrics "and I digress, 'cause that must make you the perfect morning"). We fear the thoughts (bugs) because we arent what they say we are. Then, the singer goes on to sing about how they'll get rid of the bug in gentle ways, not violently killing them/hurting them. To me, i see this as me having to calmly accept these thoughts simply for what they are. Just thoughts that likely don't mean a thing to me. In the end, I have to accept that just because I have these thoughts, doesnt mean I am what they say. And I have to learn to not be afraid of them. The final lyrics to the song "I'll try my best to prove that nothing's out to get you" kinda expresses that. I'm not sure if the song even has an actual meaning, but either way, the song still resonates with me and I appreciate that.
This is such a beautiful thing to read. There's nothing like a new perspective imo. It is its own high.
My interpretation is slightly similar in the sense that it is not wholly positive or good. For me, the lyrics are all the things I am not anymore. They are parts of me that I have lost, neglected, had taken from me, casted aside. Wonder, imagination, empathy, innocence, thoughtfulness, et cetera. It's not that I'm utterly lacking in any of these things, just that they have been diminished. I see an old part of me in this song that is hardly recognizable. Something vaguely familiar and nostalgic, but something I can never fully relive or get back.
But I'll try my best to remember and hang onto these things.
I feel this and I love what you wrote. I have OCD and I typically get intrusive thoughts that the more I try to push out the more I experience. This is so well written. ❤️
So much love to you ❤️🔥
I'm so proud of you. Best of wishes and similar thoughts from somebody who also struggles with an anxiety disorder and perhaps even OCD as well
I have suffered from OCD and I appreciate your interpretation, mine was triggered by some traumatic events but I do not suffer from those thoughts anymore. Be kind to yourself I have faith you will get through this, my heart goes out to you ❤
Yo I wrote like 5 chapters of a book to this song.
Can I read it?
@@seannawatters It's not done yet :( life has a tendency to get in the way of everyone's goals
That's alright!! I hope life doesn't get too in the way of things, hope u have a good day man
Out of curiosity, what kind of story is it? I've looked to this song for creative inspiration a lot myself.
Relatable
This song is really special to me. I am in a period of my life where I am facing my biggest fears. And almost all of them went well. I have been depressed and anxious for a long time. Listening to this song is like having a conversation with myself. Afterall, there was nothing out to get me, I am proving myself that.
Proud of you ❤️
I am so proud of you. You're doing so well, and you're going to continue going way farther than you could ever imagine. You're worth it./gen
I hope you're ok friend, I love you and I'm so proud of you ❤
This song sounds like love. All of it. The pain, the understanding, the fondness, the kindness, all of it.
And there's a centipede
Naked in your bedroom
Oh and you swear to God
The fucker's out to get you
And I digress
'Cause I must make you the perfect morning
I try my best
To scoop the slugger out the window
And there's a praying mantis
Prancing on your bathtub
And you swear it's a priest
From a past life out to getcha
And I digress
'Cause I must make you the perfect evening
I try my best
To put the priest inside a jam jar
And there's a millipede
Angry on your carpet
Oh and I must admit
He's staring with a vengeance
Oh and I digress
'Cause I must make you the perfect morning
And I try my best
To prove that nothing's out to get you
To prove that nothing's out to get you
This song makes me want to bawl my eyes out, my dad has dementia and is slowly losing his memory but the one thing he keeps with him is his love for animals and his guitar playing. As a little girl whenever I saw a bug and got scared he’d always come get it and tell me it’s not scary and they are wonderful creatures. And at night he would make me hot cocoa and play his guitar for me. I love him so much
Your dad sounds lovely
I often think about how much this song has affected my life, the lyrics "and I try my best to put the priest inside a jam jar" always hit me as peculiar, but now I understand, to put every worry away for a while, and just be. U can twist the lyrics of this song to be whatever you want, and thats what makes it beautiful. To me this sounds like a lover who tries their best to content their partner, but nothing works. Truly an amazing song
That's what I interpret it as too!
I want to see different types of bugs crawling around some girl’s house in stop-motion as a music video to this.
this song to me represents somebody who is struggling with mental health issues and someone close to them who is just trying to support them. especially the "i try my best to prove that nothings out to get you" absolutely ruins me and i cry everytime i hear it
"Priest from a past life" 😥
priest inside a jam jar
im having a bad week but i keep thinking about this comment and laughing. priest inside a jam jar will get me through
i NEED the tabs to this right now
Same hahaha!
Hey, just wondering... Did you find them? I want to learn it too.
@@EstebanRestrepo0 Ben May has a fantastic tutorial online. Fun song! th-cam.com/video/HXRKGqTTYM8/w-d-xo.html
watch our its in a funky tuning, really fun song to play btw
bump
I love how the bugs have their own instruments
7 seconds into it and I already know I'm going to love it.
omg...this feeling. Is RARE and so beautiful, i also have felt it with her music
penalcrack yo wtf
this lifted me get out of my art block
and inspired me to write a book
thank you
i know i’m like 2 years late but congratulations, that’s amazing!!
that’s amazing! I hope you kept writing
LET’S GOOOOO I HOPE IT’S BEEN GOING GREAT
I suffer from intrusive thoughts and depression , a really bad combination lol. I really just love this song so much bc it reminds me of how like every time there a ‘ bug ‘ or for me , a suicidal thought , ‘I try my best to put the priest back in a jam jar’ like omg I love this song sm . Ty
this song makes me feel like i live in a big victorian house, i always wear big long dresses, i have a huge garden in the front of the house, i study flowers, and i spend my days with my girlfriend where no one can bother us
It fascinates me when I come across examples of how unique and varied perceptions other than mine are.
I think this is a beautiful image and I thank you for sharing it.
@@AdaptiveApeHybrid thank you :-)
Imagine you're driving In a car and it's raining on your window through which you're looking in the distance into a forest with a serious face and this song is playing in the background
I think it's really beautiful that almost everyone in the comment section interprets the song and its lyrics differently and relates to them. It really shows how music can heal a person and bring people together. My heart goes out to anyone struggling with mental health issues, including addiction, you are all so strong 💜 this song makes me think of my mum who is mentally ill so sometimes I feel unloved (not her fault) and it reminds me of the nice moments when I was little (she was in a better headspace) when she would pick me up when I would cry or stroke my hair to sooth me to sleep and the lyrics "and I try my best to prove nothing's out to get you" really hit hard everytime. overall this song is bitter sweet it has a feelings of gloomy nostalgia and I love it.
fuck this made me IMMEDIATELY BAWL 😭😭😭😭😭
You put exactly what I was thinking about how I interpret this song in words thank you
For the longest time in my life, I pictured myself singing this to someone. Like a child, elder, or partner. I felt a strong need to shield a loved one from all that scared them. But suddenly in my life I realized that everything scares me. Somewhere along the line, I began to believe that everyone is out to get me with a fiery hatred. I turned angry, sorrowful, and afraid of everyone turning against me. So suddenly I started picturing me comforting myself and the little kid I was "to prove that nothing's out to get you."
He played this to me tonight reunited after three years, I wanted to kiss him then in that moment... I think I’ll always love him
Fuck where do you find love like that😭❤️
That’s so romantic
Aw stop. My lover showed me this song and it makes me think of him
Based
Mbn
I wrote the line "For I must make you the perfect morning" in a poem, this song came on my Spotify and I realized I accidentally stole it
y’know, an old wise turtle once told me “there are no accidents”
I don't know what it is about this song, but somehow it can make me go from completely straight-faced and emotionless to bawling my eyes out in 10 seconds flat. I don't know if it's the metaphorical lyrics or how the instruments are perfectly arranged to elicit this primal feeling of sorrow deep inside me, or maybe both, who the fuck knows.
This song is the perfect thing for many occasions and moments to create with yourself or with someone else.I honestly discovered it while walking and sit in a grass field and watched the sun set for a while....was perfect....so I shared it to this who are close to me.....play this while sitting in a sun spot coming into your room and plug in....early in the morning in bed or curled up in the living room or by a window with your hot cup of coffee or tea....just one of those rare masterpieces in my opionion that I can play again and again and never get tired of it...never gets old...just what exactly awaits is future nostalgia awaiting for me to come across this again. Hope you all enjoy this art and cherish every moment and just smile for no damn reason or for some reason.
this is so right
exactly my thoughts. thank you my friend, this is beautiful
i have such a wildly different interpretation of this song. haley heynderickx really did an amazing job with this song. it’s comforting, painful, emotional, and passive. i’ll write down my interpretation later but it’s basically how i relate this to my relationship with my father: helping him cope with his delusions to a point that it hurts me. this song means a lot to a lot of people. i just find it beautiful how different that meaning can be
I interpret it the same way but with my mother
You can't convince me that this song isn't about OCD. It's so beautiful and relatable. Anyone who's experienced OCD or lived with someone who suffers from OCD knows what I'm talking about.
yes 100%
And that's the most beautiful part of this song is my mind never went to OCD, I've had periods of my life where I have pychosis-esque symptoms, periods of persecutory delusions where I believed organisations and people where, for lack of a better phrase, out to get me. This song makes me think of the singers partner being in a state of psychosis or delusions.
To write a song about something so specific that can then be interpreted elsewhere is really amazing.
For me it's about psychosis. You won't get it though, it's only for people with psychosis
My past partner/bd I was with for years struggles with psychosis, and i have lots of practice with stubborn reassurance, though it was extreme and got really scary, for the both of us, i found this song after we split up and it brings me peace to hear the experience expressed in such a innocent way.
I'm a paranoid schizophrenic, and to me, this seems like a song about someone trying their best to love someone who is living with schizophrenia. The fact that the subject is terrified that everything is out to get them, or assigning baseless properties to objects (I.E the reincarnated priest in the praying mantis) and how the singer needs to try and convince the subject that nothing is while simultaneously trying their best to remove the threat. It's probably not what the singer had in mind, but I guess it's open to interpretation, and that's the way I see it.
Maybe it's just me trying to relate but I feel like this is about being a people pleaser and getting that painstaking feeling like you have to fix everything for everybody, maybe even for somebody specific who's constantly upset and finding ridiculous things to worry about (like the harmless bugs) but you try your best to ease the tension at all costs.. my life story really
Im tired. I get up late nowadays. I have bags under my eyes that wont go away. I cant remember the last time i was excited, happy, or enthusiastic about anything. I come here to listen to this song occasionally to remind myself what its like to still be human. Hello, humans. I hope your lives are going better rhan mine. I long for that hopefulness, that enthusiasm and bright innocence. I want to feel again. Please. please... im just so tired.....
Are you feel better ?
I can’t describe how much I love this song, the way it makes me feel. I think it’s the last thing I’d want to hear before I die
Omg- I feel the same way.
Felt the same thing ❤
This song feels like when I was in primary school and the teachers would isolate me from the other students because of my behaviour, and I’d just be sitting by myself constantly while everyone else was having fun
My partner sent me this along with a few other songs in this playlist saying that this song reminded them of me. Now everytime I listen to this, I just imagine them. Holding their hand and playing with their hair and laying in a grass field while staring up at the sky. I would give up the whole world just for them.
"..and, I try my best,
to prove that nothing's out to get you."
hhhahejfiaosjd 🌺💖
This song is beautiful. It feels like the human tendency to blame our internal sufferings or ailments on others who have done nothing inherently bad but have encountered us at the wrong moments.
Im sorry to all of the innocent people in my life who have fallen victim to my anger and frustration.
i forgive you.
This song makes me think of my girlfriend. I’m someone who’s struggled to trust people, and struggled to feel safe because I’ve been hurt by a lot of people. But whenever I talk to her I feel safe. I know she won’t hurt me. I know she’ll be there to ease my worries. I love her so much.
i was looking at a bee and i was wondering if people like fuckin collected them or some shit so i looked up “bug collector” and all that popped up was this song. i love it so much.
this song made me cry at work today, i suffer from ocd and ptsd among other things and had a bit of a rough time growing up and just, agh. this song is so beautiful and touching but also makes me feel kind of lonely and sad about a lot of things i’ve missed out on. i hope one day ill live with someone kind and gentle who’ll scoop bugs out the window and prove nothings out to get me
it’s really just such a good metaphor both for being around with ocd and also someone dealing with trauma . it hurts, sob. but also thank you
Sitting in a classroom with 13 people
They come and go slowly
They talk of sports
They talk of calories
They talk of feelings
They talk of life
I see a bug crawl on the hanging plant that droops to be floor
I cant prove anything
I can say anything you want
I can hold your hand if you ask
I can be what you want me to be
I love this :)
I have ocd, and I can’t really vent to anyone; my family cares about me but they do not understand. It’s not unusual for us not to listen each other…however I depersonalize due to my compulsions, “superstition” if you will; worry for absolutely no reason. The priest from the past life line is a funny example to what i experience. Even though this song has a haunting melody, its comforting. The singer seems to be looking out for, a person who seems irrational or silly bc of their “fears” however no matter what the singer is trying to comfort them in whatever way they can which is lovely. :)
This song makes me think of my dad, who loved more the idea of me and my siblings than us as individuals. I tried so hard to make his life easier and act more in line with what he wanted, or to make him understand that my differences are not an attack on him but just who I am, but I've just about given up
i think this song is supposed to be my spirit song or whatever BECAUSE i was listening to it while working on homework and i saw a leftover fortune cookie from chinese food a couple days ago so i opened it and it said "The universe without music would be madness" and i almost d i e d
(EDIT: TODAY (about 1 or 2 days later) I FOUND A DEAD BUTTERFLY SO I BROUGHT IT INSIDE BUT IT TURNS OUT IT'S STILL BARELY ALIVE SO I PUT IT ON A SPONGE WITH SUGAR WATER SO I AM THE BUG COLLECTOOOOOOR)
give me updates on the butterfly pls
this is sweet :)
U make me smile so hard rn :')) much love
My God, I love the #trumpet in this song. 😍 It's magnificent. It breaks the tension caused by the preying mantis dancing on your tub somewhat comically.
Listening to this while digging for bugs. This song makes me think about my love for bugs, and how I often try to share my love of them with others to no avail. They are the most beautiful creatures god ever made. It makes me wanna cry nobody else can see that.
I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR THIS SONG FOR DAYS
me and my boyfriend used to share a earbud and listen to this song. Hold each others hands and smile at each other, promising we’ll always be together. He broke up with me yesterday. the pain is unbearable and I don’t know how I’ll live further with a hope that he might come back.
Depression and anxiety haunt me in the confinements of a cold car, lone and still amid the moonlight.
NotSoTypical depression? Hey that fuels meee:P
Dude your the sexiest man alive But said NO ONE ever with depression.
I cry whenever I hear this. I relate to the person being tormented by the "bugs" so bad. Sometimes I just hate myself and my life and I want to make everything better but that's too scary so I just keep being shitty, and I feel like I don't deserve any of the good things that happen to me. That's my "bug."
this song makes me so unbelievably emotional,
thank you.
and to alex,
i love you.
i still love you.
do you still love alex
@@bellahadidnt. yep :) we’re not best friends anymore but i still love her
@@ravenw2281 now?
@@w0rmc0re still do! seeing her this summer :)
This is way too beautiful. Thank you for posting this.
I was listening to this song while i happened to fall asleep once. It made a mundane occurrence feel like i was slowly dying, taking my last breath and that this song played as the end credits. At my funeral I truly wouldn't mind if this song was played
I saw her live in Iowa and it was so beautiful.
Life is beautiful, but it’s also sad. I remember running along my parents’ lawn with my brother. Now the house is long gone and so is my brother. I’ll love you forever, Brandon
It always feels special to hear this song. I've had OCD and paranoia all my life and I finally found someone who can deal with it all and supports me through everything. Hearing those last lines makes me think of him.
This song never fails to fill me with a sense of duty and winding, beautiful terror at the same time. I don't have much family that I really trust or don't have an overly complicated relationship with due to trauma. Most of my close friends suffer from some form of severe anxiety and a variety of other disorders, but we're all bug lovers to some extent. It's one of the few things that I'm pretty brings us all some comfort sometimes.
This song reminds me of wanting so badly to hold their hands and guide them through every scary thing they'd ever have to experience, to be able to protect them to some extent and "prove that nothing's out to get them". Just to hear that smile in their voices at the end of it all. Just to know that they can feel safe and loved for once. This song fills me with purpose and a longing to hold them and to be held myself at the same time. To find comfort and safety from a cruel jaded world that doesn't take for folks like us much in those I love- In protecting them when they need it and loving them along the way.
The love of my life told me I reminded her of this song. I remember the feeling of pure joy, the tenderness in that moment. This song will always be dear to me because of her. She's the most beautiful thing in the world, and I hope she knows it. Even if I'm not to her.
This song is so valuable to me, idk exactly what it means but yet the lyrics hit me so hard. The guitar getting louder in the beginning makes me think of my partner and how many feelings I have for her. How much she cares for me. The whole song reminds me of me, how I am trying to figure out myself and why I'm so screwed up. How it's all my fault really, and how I blamed everyone else but yet the hurtful truth was that it was me. I am ruining myself and I have no trauma I have no hurt it was me who was the problem. I made myself insecure, I made myself sad. Now I can't even brush my teeth in the morning because I'm so unmotivated. I'm not depressed I think but I do have many symptoms and that's okay by me. I don't care because it was truthfully me. And the "nothings out to get you" hurts so much because yeah no one is trying to hurt me. I'm trying to hurt me
And also how I admire bugs so much.
I wanna help myself I want help. I just wanna fully figure out what's wrong with me and why I feel fake and unreal at times. I'm only 13 I know but I put myself through too much and blamed others for it, and for that I apologize to my mom, my dad, and my stepdad. Now I cant even say sorry because I'm too weak too. I'm too scared of looking weak. I'm so rude and idk why! I wish I wasn't. One thing I wish though is that I wish my mom and stepdad accepted me for being bisexual and nonbinary, I wish they didn't kick me out for that. Now I can't see my sisters or talk to them because I'm a bad influence and I'm gonna make them gay apparently. That's all I wish. Is to at least talk to my sisters again
The song feels like life. It feels like life is out to get me sometimes. But in the end, I remember how I felt and how everyone treated me and I laugh about it. I’m completely normal, yet special in my own way. I wish people accepted that but instead I’m going to go out and play with the bugs that understand.
You are on the right track, because the first thing to do is always to acknowledge the situation you are in. You might be only 13 yo, but you deserve the same seriousness you would give an adult, maybe even more. It is possible to figure out yourself, even if it's difficult. Try to talk with people that are your family. And by your family I mean people that you have an intimate bond with and will listen to you. Your partner, your sisters and others.
I feel sooooooooooo GRATEFULL for this song. It's crazy, how much love it's possible to feel for a song. This is it. It can't get better!
i discovered this song yesterday and i've played it on repeat since. what a beautiful song, i've not found something so special in ages.
This song resonates so deeply within...I don't know what the intentional meaning behind it is suppose to be but it really fits into my life perfectly.. my partner has schizophrenia and any insect that stumbles into our home always has a meaning and message to share..stinkbugs are the bane of his existence. "I must make you the perfect morning" is such a light,delicate way of saying it. During episodes his visual hallucinations are usually people's faces physically transforming into slight demons or they're always glaring at him with red eyes if they do something that displeases him.. if we aren't getting along absolutely perfectly I am usually seen as the devil to him. Even if I have a serious ailment and have slight irritation from it I become this character to him and the reaction is always so heartbreaking. I love this person with all my heart, some days I feel like I crawled into a dark abyss of a hole but there are months when I'm thriving with the bestest friend I could ever find. thank friggin you for creating this, it is really comforting and just mystical in challenging times
I really feel like this is what the song is about. Helping a partner cope with delusions/unreality. I have DID and during flashbacks it often gets like this. The bugs are any trigger on any morning, producing terrifying thoughts. It makes such a difference to have a loved one supporting you through these times. But God is it sad, for both partners.
This is absolutely heart breaking, and I get your feeling but from the other side, in my relationship I'm the one with schizophrenia and I used to have a severe fear of bugs and horrible hallucinations with them. My boyfriend who was my friend back then used to always comfort me and try to find a solution. I used to stop eating because the voices always told me there were bugs in my food or someone posioned it. He always reassured me that it wasn't like that and that I should at least eat something to keep going, even if it wasn't a whole mea. I'm sure your partner is really thankful for having someone as lovely as you, I'm really thankful for having someone like him.
I listened to this song for the first time almost a year ago. I remember it was the night before school started and I was so anxious I couldn’t sleep. I remember the dissonant summer evening, all golden and warm, yet the strange thread of autumn woven through the wind that told me that this is what’s coming, what’s next. My room smelled like cold air and as the light faded here I was. On a precipice. And here I am. The soulful trombone gets me every single time, the cicadas rise and fall and make me hurt. And I have to do it all again. Watch the summer disappear before I even got a chance to catch its name. Face the harrowing autumn, turned into slow freezing winter. And maybe next year, this beautiful song will still be here. Maybe I’ll listen to it this time, maybe I’ll be able to believe that nothings out to get you. Maybe this time I can stop remaking myself, whittling away at my soul to squeeze myself into the room. Maybe this time, I might just heal. Grow. Love.
This reminds me of the bridge to terabithia in such a sad nostalgic beautiful way I can’t even describe it
Oh my god yes
I am completely engulfed in this song. The imagery is so beautifully written. I think this song is about tirelessly loving someone with mental illness. Every little scary thing is the worlds end. She works morning, evening, and morning again to prove that everything ok and the monsters are gone. Though the fear of the praying mantis is a priest from a past life seems outlandish and silly, she’s careful not to invalidate that fear, and calls it a priest anyway. The dark rattling when she mentions the centipede, the horn to illustrate the prancing mantis.
what i find odd is that the centipede isn't the aggressive one, compared to the vengeful millipede. From my experience, centipedes will bite as a warning while millipedes just passively ooze some toxin or something. Then again, centipedes have very simple (or sometimes no) eyes (depending on the species).
This song reminds me of helping someone through their irrational fears. As a mother of 2 teenage girls I am always trying to “chase the bugs away” in order to calm their fears and make sure they are happy girls. Growing up, their dad wasn’t very nice and since then they have developed some fears. to those that didn’t experience a chaotic home growing up it may seem like “small bugs” but to those that did, even a small bug can feel like a threat to personal safety. I’ll catch as many bugs as I have to for them, literally and figuratively ❤ I love this song.
I would very much dedicate this to my mother. I remember my mother staying up all night with me while I cry my life out. Feeding me, making me live when I was giving up on life. Its like she would do anything, twist the reality just to get me out of the shit.
I kissed my best friend a couple days ago. It was late, and she laid in my arms, and we talked for hours even when we were too tired to keep our eyes open. Now I feel like she’s avoiding me. She doesn’t want to acknowledge what happened, and I feel like she regrets it. This song just reminds me of how good everything felt in the moment. How everything was just so simple and vulnerable and calm.
This song brings out my inner child so much in a weird way i dont understand how its such a beautiful feeling.
It's so unfortunate that I've only heard this beautiful song now. It's so amazing and the instrumental and lyrics both work to dig up emotions and past memories. It makes everyone relate their life back to this song. For me it was something I've only just realized:
I've always been curious, ready to learn, and "gifted", ever since I was a small child. I was interested in things others weren't and I normally kept to myself, even as the excited child I was. Everyone at school wouldn't play with me or become friends with me. I was ostracized and left alone by the world- my older sisters including. Even now, as I'm a teenager, I only have one or two true friends I can trust, and one is starting to treat me worse. What I mean to say is that always being ignored and labeled as the "weird smart kid" has made it so no one understands me. No one has ever tried to understand my interests or my personality or my life. This has caused me to be hesitant and to watch myself more. The feeling of not being understood by anyone in the world is terrible, but it's what I grew up feeling constantly. But lately, I've been feeling quite better. Finally having a best friend that- albeit very small advances- tries to understand me more and will always be there has made me more happy and trusting. All this is great, but something I've always truly loved is astronomy and specifically astrophysics. Ever since I first went to a planetarium, I've loved stargazing, learning about our universe, and now I'm planning on going to college to get a doctorate in Astrophysics. This song reminds me of when I would sit under the stars and just watch them. I would feel so happy and safe, but I didn't understand how to explain it until now. Learning about the universe, understanding how everything works, and especially stargazing, has made me feel *understood*. The one thing I've longed for all my life was right there, I was just blind to seeing it. I don't know how to rationally explain how understanding the universe and stargazing makes me feel so understood, but it's such a rush of positive emotions. My life hasn't been the best. My parents aren't the best, my school life ever since kindergarten has been the same sucky way, and I'm not doing the best mentally. All of this melts away, though, when I'm reading about astrophysics or stargazing. I now listen to this song while stargazing, and I'm very excited to take my best friend to stargaze soon in the next week or so. I've learned that maybe I don't have to be understood by people, because I'm already understood by the stars, by the ever-expanding universe.
This is so fucking long, I apologize 😭
This made me tear up...
@@jsbxjJuwjdjq I'm sorry to make you tear up. I hope you aren't too sad. Thank you for reading all the way through, though!
@@phyynot1040 I read through all of it and I want to say that I am 25 and that feeling has not gone away for me and it's just so painful.
Stumbled across this on the good ol tik tok and now im crying. Today i properly mourned my childhood and god im lucky
It was the birthday
my most opaque ghost
the daylight might mean he's hearkening
ears bud under a stone: white sheets
out the bottom between those ankles
come hear the hymns I told the grasses
let's dance like we're falling
I'll light the candles on your window
this house was the biggest cake
we ever made
can i use this poem in a drawing? it has such a nice vibe 🥺
this is beautiful
this is such a beautiful song, i can barely express how it makes me feel. that sort of nostalgia that feels dampened by all the bad that happened in your childhood, though your still yearning for it, for a simpler time.
this song is just heartbreaking to me
this is exactly what I feel when I hear this. Adulthood has been something that has weighed so heavily on me, it has been so very painful and there are days that all I want is to be a kid again. I never ever wanted to grow up.
The horn in this song adds so much I absolutely adore this song and i found it 5 minutes ago
Today was the 1st time I heard this song. Or maybe it was yesterday, either way I’m so glad I heard it
It's been ages since a song hooked me up like this.
To me this song is about loving someone through all their fears, mental illnesses, and past trauma. The guitar sounds hectic - like someone anxiously scrambling to ease their partner's triggers before it's too late. And the trumpet sounds like this inevitable dread - helpless and uneasy. Almost calling out for someone. I don't know.
This is already in my top ten favorites of all time and usually I have a hard time picking favorites.
Had low expectations but geez this is gorgeous
Love this. Reminds me so much of Daughter's voice
My aunt sent me this song in October when I saw a centipede in my apartment. (I’m terrified of bugs to a point where it’s irrational.) I did dance for 13 years and would’ve loved to see a small group or duet or even a solo to this song.
ahhh the descending minor chord progression is so great in this song.
After looking through a lot corners of TH-cam I finally found a gem again
I lost my Father when I was 3 months old and everyday I just wonder what would my life be like if I had a father. I want to say I miss him but how can I say I miss someone who I’ve never had memories with
i had only heard the live acoustic version before this and now I’m crying ty
i relate this song to my paranoia. i take everything as a sign or a threat. such as the praying mantis line, as an example, i thought that my dreams were a sign of something horrible happening, or someone saying something in a specific tone being a sign that they were going to harm me. its also funny because bugs make me very paranoid, to an extreme amount. so it’s weird i like this song. i don’t know if what i’m writing makes sense currently, sorry if it doesn’t.
Its so hard to find a song to play after this. It gives you a certain feeling and theres no other song that matches that feeling.
This song makes me think of all my past loves and how im sorry I wasn't good enough for them
You only have to be good enough for yourself, and when you reach self recognition of your own success you can share your life without being dependent of someone else.
There's no such thing as not being good enough my friend
you sound like a sweet person, i know nothing of you or your relationships. but past loves can make you grow, and i hope you know you are always good enough
How melodramatic can you get?
why the hell would anyone dislike this?
boring as hell yo
fred whats boring about it dude
fred if you're bored, you're boring
F bomb, not my cup of tea- not that I'm clicking on dislike though
Loved this song for forever
This song feels like being with someone with and illness and u get why and u want to do all you can to soothe their pains away because you love them ever so much but you're just human and u can only do so much
The perfect song using bug analogies as people that did you wrong or bug you?!?!
Nothin’s out to get you.❤️🎼
Can anyone recommend me similar songs of this, with the singing style and the guitar playing id love it!
Look up Sibylle Baier! She doesn’t have a lot of music but it sounds very similar to this 💛
So it doesn't sound THAT similar but Solitary Daughter by Bedouine is an absolute gem. I've had that and this song on repeat all year
It's not similar but I bet you will love The magician by Andy Shauf
Milk and honey by Billie Marten
Run- Daughter
All blacked out- Girlpool
I’m so tired of feeling so unwanted.
Pretty pathetic I know but all I want is to feel like someone is thinking of me the way I think about them.
this song is absolutely gorgeous, about the third time i heard it i analyzed the lyrics and realized what it is about. this song has so much meaning. if any song, i would like this song to play in the background of my life forever.
I'd be interested to know what you think about this song's meaning if you don't mind. It seems to mean a lot of things and someone else's insight would be welcome to me
@@charliev.9231what i was thinking when i analyzed was that she does everything for her lover and tries everything just to make them happy and the bugs represent the problems the lover is having but she removes them one by one to make her lover happy.