Thank you for posting this, I am currently going through my second miscarriage and it’s a odd but also deep type of comfort to know I’m not going through it alone. thank you thank you thank you. this life is so precious and i’m so thankful for God working through it all🤍
I’ve experienced 4 losses this year it is the most challenging thing I’ve ever been through this video was extremely moving I’m praying for you too! I hope to have our miracle baby soon so my one and a half year old will be a big sis God is so good and his plan is greater then our own
I am so so sorry for all the losses. I truly can’t imagine that much heartbreak in such a short time. Praying for your faith to be filled, you would experience God’s comfort and peace on a new level, and that your miracle baby would be protected in your womb from conception and you would feel no fear 🙏🏼
I’m sorry for your heartbreak Kian💔 please know that you are valid in hurting over your miscarriage no matter how far along you were. Praying for you❤️🩹
I am so sorry for your loss. I love this video and how you shared about the value of life. God Bless you and your little family. Keep doing God’s work. I can see how God is using you and it is so beautiful.
I'm so sorry for your loss. But so thankful for your vulnerability, courage and transparency, it's inspiring. May the Lord bless you, keep you and comfort your heart daily.
Kian I am lifting you and your family up in prayer 🙏🏻 Our first baby was stillborn at 33 weeks and our second pregnancy ended in miscarriage at 10 weeks. No matter how small they are, each little life matters. I know there will be a day I get to hold them in heaven. 💜
You reading the blog post had me crying but I'm so glad that you're sharing this so people don't feel alone. I pray that I don't have to go through this when I'm older but if I do I know that I can come back to this a process with you again
Thank you 🤍🤍 it’s a reminder I need to validate when I think to myself other people have had it harder. Which is true, but doesn’t take away from my own loss.
@Kian_Wolfgang i understand the feeling! When I was pregnant with my daughter, I found out at 6 weeks that we had a twin, but unfortunately lost the twin at the 8 week mark. You are allowed to grieve your pain!!
Watching this video at 6:30 this morning while feeding my daughter. When you were going through your first miscarriage, I was also going through my first miscarriage. Your videos were such a comfort and an encouragement during that time. After my first miscarriage, I had my daughter. While the trauma and heartbreak is real, I am excited to meet the little one in heaven one day. You are in my thoughts and prayers 🩷💙
Kian, thanks so much for sharing this. I experienced a miscarriage of our first baby in July. I was almost 10 weeks and I felt the same way about losing the baby so early. Thanks for sharing the blog post- cried with you and felt a warm hug with it too❤️. Thanks girl!
Thanks for sharing! I'm sorry for your loss.😢 I had a very similar experience a few months ago. I sometimes wonder what this baby would have been like. However, I feel so much peace in knowing God has a plan through it all and some day I will meet my baby in heaven. Thanks again for being so vulnerable with us. It's comforting to know you're not along.
Dear Sister, I grieve with you. I just want to thank God for your life and the inspiration you are and your sharing this. I can 100% percent relate to you in this stage. Your Legend is just a month and a bit older than my son, first born and I have watched your journey. I truly feel you are like a close sister going through new motherhood together. My heart weeps with you and I have prayed for you and your family during this time. Loss is real and more than just the physical loss, it is loss for things hoped for. It is okay to grieve and also okay to hope. I am praying that God in His sovereign grace grows your beautiful family. That you be the precious and amazing woman in Jesus that He leads you to be. I pray for your healing from this time and a season of refreshment as you process everything. God bless you and I cannot wait to see what He does!
I had a "chemical pregnancy" last month. I totally relate to the confusion and the rollercoaster of emotions. Also not knowing if and how I deserve to grieve. Thanks for sharing ❤️
Thank you for your vulnerability and your heart to help others❤️ I’m a mother of 2 and never experienced loss in this way, but this video even impacted me very much. Especially your prayer at the end. You are a gift. ❤
Thank you for being so vulnerable to share this! I don’t have any kids yet but had a similar experience happen recently but I never was confirmed as pregnant. However, I had that same deep deep feeling that I knew I was. At first I just shrugged it off as being a late period and tried to move on but this video has reminded me of what could have been. Thank you for sharing your story and that writing, it is so comforting that Christ is holding all lost babies! Sending love and hugs ❤️
I'm so so soo sorry for your loss. It sucks and it's so hard. I had a missed miscarriage in August at 8 weeks pregnant. It's sad and confusing. Your feelings are valid, a loss is a loss no matter how far along you were. I hope your heart heals and you feel better soon ♥️ I'm thankful my baby is not alone but with Jesus. Much love
Hello Kian. Im so sorry for your loss. I went through a similar thing this month. Our baby was 8 weeks when it stopped growing and there was no heartbeat on the ultrasound sound. We were so scared when we found out we were pregnant, but then became excited. When we found out the news, we were heartbroken and in fact, the baby passed through today. It’s been a roller coaster. This was supposed to be our second baby, we currently have a one year old. So a very similar stage in life to you and Kyle.
I know I’m a month late but God bless you Kian! Thank you for your prayers for others even though you’re the one going through this loss. Your last miscarriage video came out around the same time as my “chemical pregnancy” (as they call these super early miscarriages) in December 2022. It really helped me back then and I’m so grateful for you & your videos. This was also very validating as I never came across ANY influencers who have talked about chemical pregnancy in these past two years. It’s something that took me a year to get over because I had never had a miscarriage before, nor gotten pregnant before. I would grieve every month, knowing I would be a certain month into the pregnancy. The days around when the baby should have been born, I grieved knowing I could’ve given birth in one of those days. It hurt so badly even though I also didn’t have a confirmed pregnancy from the doctor. God gave me lots of signs after it happened, and that helped me so much knowing that God knew the baby and brought him/her to heaven to be with Him!! I never knew baby’s name but God knew, Isaiah 43:1 ❤ I would love to be a mom soon eventually too! You’re so inspiring in every way, because God works through you!!
So sorry for your loss. I have had several of these. I was able to be confirmed by the doctor and then I would miscarry right away. I feel your pain and I will keep you in my prayers.💜✝️
oh my goodness I felt like you were here with me while you were sharing this heartbreaking news; I cried and felt your emotions. I am praying God will answer your prayers at His perfect timing and may He continue bringing peace during this time. Amazing prayer for all those mommies who have gone through their own heartbreaks. God bless you and your family always!
My second miscarriage was like this. Super early, negative tests, but I knew it wasn't just a period. The uncertainty was so hard....I'm so sorry you went through this. 😢 That blog post you shared was amazing, made me cry too.
Kian, you are so loved❤️and chosen by God, any story is worthy to be shared. Praying along side you❤️Thank you for you’re openness and vulnerability, I know this helps so many others who are struggling
I had a very similar situation in July. I kept getting negative tests but I just knew when it happened that it was a chemical pregnancy. It was so weird because I felt like I couldn’t tell anyone that I had had a miscarriage because I never had a positive test. But God has meanings behind it all. I know that someday when I have my first baby earthside I will be that much more grateful. Sending love and hugs 🫶
I'm sorry darling for your loss. 🤍🤍🤍 Amen to your sweet compassionate prayer. May Jesus be near to your heart & make His face shine upon you & your family. 🤍🤍🤍
My heart is with you, currently experiencing our second miscarriage (chemical as well). My heart aches but I choose Joy in Christ. It’s hard but I trust Him.
Thank you for sharing this ❤️ I was crying when you read those words. Currently in my third trimester and my heart goes out to all the women suffering loss. Your prayer was very moving, i appreciated you mentioning babies lost to abortion as well. Coming alongside you and praying for those dealing with all of the above and the grief of infertility ❤️
I had 2 miscarriages this year. In April and July. It was so hard and so sad. But God. I’m grateful that he loves me so much. He is my comfort. I have a deep longing for my sweet rainbow after this storm. Just trusting God. So sorry for your loss. Praying for your family.
Hi Kian. Thank you for being vulnerable. I had a chemical miscarriage in Sept '22 and I had known for only a night before I miscarried. I feel that I disassociate from it like "I only knew for a night" or "I was barely pregnant" and etc. It's still hard for me to accept the fact that I was pregnant. it's hard for me to even say it. Every September me and my husband take time to remember. The baby that was lost was still a soul and a life that I hope to see in eternal life. I dont think I will fully accept what happened until I am pregnant again and know that I am long enough to feel connected to the child.
I loved watching this. I thought initially it wasn't for me; I have never experienced miscarriage. Then you prayed for those who have experienced abortion and I burst into tears; this video was all for me and thank you for your prayers xxx
It's so nice of you to share this so that others know they aren't alone ❤❤❤. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Handsome wanted to pray with you too 😢
Praying for you and Kyle, Kian!! I had a similar experience a year ago - I was convinced I was pregnant and got a very faint line and then they passed an hour and a half later 💔 such a hard thing. Praying for comfort and peace over you!!
Heartbreaking news Kian, I’m so sorry for your loss 💔 I had a similar experience happen, where I knew I was pregnant. But something didn’t feel right. Then similar events followed as you expressed. I just knew I had lost a little life. Felt so heavy about it for a little while. You are not alone! When the blog started talking about seeing these little babies in heaven that’s where I lost it 😢 what a wonderful thing to look forward to. God has purpose in this pain and a “happy ending” for us if you will! The song “fly away” speaks a little about this would recommend if you process things through music.
Last year in august I had a chemical pregnancy but I never really emotionally dealt with it because I got a positive test with some spotting. I’ve never really recognised it as a life, but this video is challenging me on that because I feel like I never recognised the life in order not to emotionally go there. I’m at peace with it because I got pregnant a few months later and now have my second baby girl, and she has added such a layer of joy to my life. But this video has challenged me to wonder and think about that tiny little baby. About who they are. Maybe I will meet them in heaven one day. God bless you Kian. I pray for healing for you and time and space to grieve the way you need to for both you and Kyle. Thank you for sharing this vulnerable thing with us.
Oh Kian, I’m so so sorry for your loss ❤ miscarriage is a loss of a child, no matter how early. What a blessing to know that you have someone so precious waiting for you on the other side. So much love to you! ❤
I literally adore you for this video. Before I got my bubba who is 2 months old I had two miscarriages. One very similar to yours in this video. I had positive pregnancy test and was late. My first time thinking about being a mom and so excited. Five days of being late sitting on a positive test I started bleeding. I am not sure what happened but for some reason it wrecked me beyond belief even more so than my second miscarriage 5 months later at 7 weeks. This one I did pass the baby and it was very real and my hormone levels of the HCG were even rising during it and at that point I think I pushed the sadness away but very aware that this was now a second time this happened. When I got pregnant a third time 5 months later it was after my wedding and I was so ready and so happy but so scared it would end in heartbreak. I now am holding my son who is just two months old and I’m so thankful to God Almignty for this blessing and miracle. Watching your video I was very aware of how much I related but I always just pushed off my feelings especially of my 7 week miscarriage but listening to that blog post and holding my son. As you were crying I was crying and acknowledging my very real losses that I tried to science away but as a Christian I know they were real children and it broke my heart and I finally grieved properly. Thank you for this and Jesus is so good and lead me to watch this for a reason. Praying for you and just know God is using all loss for a purpose and for our good. Love you girl! ❤️❤️❤️
Dearest Sweet Kian, I pray the Lord continues to wrap your arms around you and your family, I admire your supernatural God-given strength! Your resilience is remarkable and noteworthy to the utmost! In all of this I believe the Lord has more in store for the fruit of your womb and I pray he brings full redemption In His Perfect timing
Awe so sorry Kian! Praying for you as you grieve! I usually don’t comment but I also miscarried this month, days before my 30th! Thanks for sharing your story ❤
Kian, I’m so sorry for your loss. Right as you were going through your first miscarriage, I was going through my first at around 4 weeks and 5 days, then when you found out you were pregnant with Legend, I was going through a miscarriage at 3 weeks. Right after that I finally got pregnant with my precious daughter. My husband and I felt heavily that those first two were boys so with prayer, we named them Josiah and Peter. Over almost two years later now, I still grieve every October and November when they would have each had a birthday. I’m so sorry for your loss, and I understand what you’re going through. ❤
@ are you still nursing? My son is 1 1/2 and I’m still nursing him more so for comfort. My cycle has not come back yet. Did you get pregnant with no cycle? Only share if comfortable thanks!!
The way you said your outro “and remember, Jesus loves you more”. Some days those words mean more, especially when the pain and tears are real. As my dad always says in the face of trial “give thanks to the Lord for what he’s done. You may not know why on this side of heaven, but one day you will testify of his goodness”.
Almost the exact situation happened to me. After a bunch of negatives being 5 days late , I got a single positive (and two faint ones the days the followed). Told my family, then miscarried the next day before I even had my confirmation appt. When I went in for my appointment everything was clear and all my bloodwork said not pregnant. It was so heartbreaking because I knew I was and never had that affirmed. You mentioned a suspicion that it mad have been nursing, I was still breastfeeding my first when it happened to me. Had a chemical pregnancy the month before as well. My doctor told me breastfeeding could’ve affected it and I ignored it continued trying and although I was still ovulating nothing stuck. When I started to wean to nursing once a day only i got pregnant with my second daughter and stopped nursing immediately. I had gut feelings that breastfeeding (which people have used a BC in the past) was affecting my body despite how many of my friends were able to conceive while nursing still because when my kids would cluster feed and nurse a lot while sick my period would come late by a day or two. I know I can’t do that now without risk. Sharing this to maybe help others who have been told time and time again they can get pregnant no problem while still nursing. That is not everyone’s story. And every baby matters and is real no matter how many days they were with you. ❤
I'm really sorry for your loss, Kian and Kyle. The Lord sees your pain. He writes the beginning and end to every story. I pray He continues to show his strength in your lives.
I’m so sorry Kian. It’s so strange, my sons are 2.5 years old and 11 months old. We just experienced an early miscarriage as well with a similar storyline. Gods plan is always sovereign but I pray for our heavy hearts.
Wow. This just goes to show that life is life no matter how developed the baby is. i’m so sorry for your loss Kian💔 just a side note: that red color suits you so well, you look stunning!
His name was August; we lost him last Christmas. I hope our little ones are dancing together! What an amazingly heartbreaking homecoming party. Thank you for sharing, we are together in this grief. 💔
So sorry for your loss💔 I had a miscarriage a week ago and I already feel much better spiritually 🕊️ we will meet our sweet babes one day. God is so good, His wisdom is unparalleled and only He knows why those babies need go home so quickly. God bless you and your beautiful family❤️
Hello you beautiful soul 💕 So sorry to hear you are grieving this lost. I really do understand what you have/are going through. I've had 7 miscarriages so far and have been told that there is a 48% chance of being pregnant and staying pregnant and a 56% chance with IVF. I am currently going through a similar situation to yours and am also 8 days late with negative pregnancy test. God is so good and my husband and I know that in order for us to have a healthy and miracle bub that his hand will 100% be over it and I know that'll be the same for you as it has been in the past for you. May God's peace and comfort continue to be upon you and for your trust to continue to be in him and his plans for you. Thinking of you, lovely lady. My heart is feeling for you 🩷
I’m so sorry Kian. I experienced a biochemical miscarriage otherwise known as a chemical pregnancy this past May and it was devastating. My husband and I were trying for our second baby for 9 months at the time and our hopes were crushed after getting a positive pregnancy test and starting my period three days later…
Interestingly enough I also had this happen right around my birthday and still celebrated with my friends but it was really emotionally draining for me because I had hoped to be celebrating both my birthday and my pregnancy, but then I lost it. So it was mostly just a lot of me crying and being emotionally vulnerable… the goodness of God is that I am now pregnant with a baby that is due right around the time I lost the other one.
so sorry for your loss Kian. i found out i was having my 3rd recurrent miscarriage on my birthday in 2022. it's a unique experience to feel so much pain on a day that's meant to celebrate life. in 2023 i gave birth to my daughter, our triple rainbow baby, just hours after my birthday. praying God gives you comfort and healing❤ thank you for sharing your story - i love following along with you and your family.
So sorry for your lost. praying for you all. Thank you for your beautiful prayer - it give me confront. I had a abortion about 10 years ago and now am going though the process of seeing if I have cervical cancer. Am in fear that I do and will lost the chance of having children in the future.
I have struggled since 2019 to know whether or not to grieve what I am not certain was a loss or a wonky hormone reaction combined with an evaporation line. I was on one kind of birth control pill for a couple years when I first got married. This happened when the pharmacy switched it out WITHOUT telling me, to it's generic form. Most of the time that makes zero difference. But I have autoimmune issues, and it jacked me up. I believe my period was late, but I can't remember for certain what it was that led me to test, it's as if my mind has blocked a lot of that out subconsciously to protect me...idk. But I tested and I remember seeing faint line that I had never seen with a test before. I was excited, shocked, and scared because we had only recently gotten married and were not planning to have a baby yet. I did start bleeding a couple days later, and that was the heaviest, most clotty and most painful period I had had in a long time, maybe ever. I have chalked it up to just being wonky hormones and the off-brand version of the pill getting to me, but I have never been able to convince myself that it was not a baby. Nothing like that had ever happened to me before with my cycles, and it never happened again. I went off of the pill after that and we used other forms of contraception. But every once in a while, that memory just hits me, and I cannot shake the feeling that I have a little one in heaven waiting for me. I have had days where I have cried and been really sad over it, and days where I am more convinced it was just wonky stuff. But, it was SOMETHING to me. I got excited over what I thought might be a baby, and what very well could have been.
I am so sorry for the baby that you lost, my heart is broken for you. I have also lost a baby and possibly more, I long for the day we will be united with our babies ❤️
I went through the same thing after we were trying for 5 years. It was my first and only pregnancy. 4 years later I had to have my tubes and ovaries due to stage 4 breast cancer.
So so sorry for your loss. As someone who has also walked through a similar loss, one where all the positive I had was on one pregnancy test, thank you for this. It was very meaningful and a beautiful reminder and balm to my soul. Prayers and love! 🩷
Hey Kian…. So sorry to hear of your loss. May Jesus comfort you…. Was trying to find your channel as thought would send this to you. Have you ever read in the Bible where it states that we are to put up the Ten Commandments at the doorposts and gateways of our dwellings/properties? Aswell as anointing the home with olive oil. It’s like a hedge of protection. It’s in Deuteronomy 6:1-9…. May Jesus be with you….
Praying for Kian! I commented on one of your videos a couple months ago, I don’t remember which one it was. In My comment I mentioned about me repenting from getting a Tubal Ligation 17 years ago. How the Lord Revealed to me that is not something He Calls Men and Women to do! I totally believe Birth Control is not something that Lord wants either! As a Christian The Lord has Really helped me to pay attention to wording of Things. “Birth Control” that is from Man! Not Jesus! The Word (KJV Bible) (Our Saviour, The True Kings Landscape) says, “Be Fruitful and Multiply”. It is In The Lord’s Hands! We are not to Control It! Praying for The Lord to cause Christian Couples, to hear Him speaking to them and have an understanding in their Hearts and Spirits about what His Word Says about Family Planning! Especially while all the Political stuff is going on! We need to hear What Jesus says! Not The Government or The Medical System! So much Blessing in Repenting and Being Obedient to Jesus! Prayers for all those that have Babies and Children in Heaven!
Hi Kian, I am so sorry for your loss. I am walking through my 3rd miscarriage right now. Ive lost at 17 weeks, 20 weeks and 9 weeks with my current angel. No matter how little they were they were still a precious baby and you have a right to grieve for this loss. I didnt get a positive with my current angel baby until my period was missed or 14 days later. I thought this one would be different for my husband and I. Im so sorry you are walking through this pain again, but you are not alone. Prayers for all you loss mamas out there.
Like you said you guys aren’t trying, esp with a one year old so much easier with one babe. Just saying. ❤️🩹 love the pop of color and you look so healthy!
angel boy Handsome holding your hand†Hallelujah. Kian, your nonjudgement and strength is notable special and awesome...(a blanket statement "knowing" you and your walk over years)xoo He is so very Faithful. We love You Lord..most. thankYou for Loving us and letting us love You. We need You always..Your strength..all of You. Praise You Lord God Almighty♡†🕊 Forever and always👑thankYOU. Jesus Christ is Lord..of all.
Kian, that orange color is so great on you!!!!
I’m so sorry for your loss! Thank you for sharing this with us and for being vulnerable. May God heal & restore your hearts and bless you
Thank you for posting this, I am currently going through my second miscarriage and it’s a odd but also deep type of comfort to know I’m not going through it alone. thank you thank you thank you. this life is so precious and i’m so thankful for God working through it all🤍
So glad it made you feel less alone. I’m so sorry for your loss 😭🤍🙏🏼
It’s also my second miscarriage so sorry ❤❤
I’ve experienced 4 losses this year it is the most challenging thing I’ve ever been through this video was extremely moving I’m praying for you too! I hope to have our miracle baby soon so my one and a half year old will be a big sis
God is so good and his plan is greater then our own
I am so so sorry for all the losses. I truly can’t imagine that much heartbreak in such a short time. Praying for your faith to be filled, you would experience God’s comfort and peace on a new level, and that your miracle baby would be protected in your womb from conception and you would feel no fear 🙏🏼
I’m sorry for your heartbreak Kian💔 please know that you are valid in hurting over your miscarriage no matter how far along you were. Praying for you❤️🩹
Thank you 🤍🤍🤍
You are so beautiful and so is this video. That blog post hit hard 😢 but was incredibly powerful. Thanks for sharing babe. I love you!
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious baby.
Praying for comfort as you and your husband mourn.
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Thank you so much for your prayers 🙏🏼
I am so sorry for your loss. I love this video and how you shared about the value of life. God Bless you and your little family. Keep doing God’s work. I can see how God is using you and it is so beautiful.
Kian,
Thank you for sharing this. I’m so so sorry for your loss🤍 This post brings me so much comfort and healing.
I'm so sorry for your loss. But so thankful for your vulnerability, courage and transparency, it's inspiring. May the Lord bless you, keep you and comfort your heart daily.
Kian I am lifting you and your family up in prayer 🙏🏻 Our first baby was stillborn at 33 weeks and our second pregnancy ended in miscarriage at 10 weeks. No matter how small they are, each little life matters. I know there will be a day I get to hold them in heaven. 💜
I’m so sorry for your loss. Please know I am praying for you. Sending my love and prayers for comfort and peace. ❤️🙏🏻
You reading the blog post had me crying but I'm so glad that you're sharing this so people don't feel alone. I pray that I don't have to go through this when I'm older but if I do I know that I can come back to this a process with you again
You are not alone Kian! We are here for you 🫶🏼
I am so sorry Kian! Miscarriage in any capacity is so so so painful! Sending love and prayers ♥️
Thank you 🤍🤍 it’s a reminder I need to validate when I think to myself other people have had it harder. Which is true, but doesn’t take away from my own loss.
@Kian_Wolfgang i understand the feeling! When I was pregnant with my daughter, I found out at 6 weeks that we had a twin, but unfortunately lost the twin at the 8 week mark. You are allowed to grieve your pain!!
Watching this video at 6:30 this morning while feeding my daughter. When you were going through your first miscarriage, I was also going through my first miscarriage. Your videos were such a comfort and an encouragement during that time. After my first miscarriage, I had my daughter. While the trauma and heartbreak is real, I am excited to meet the little one in heaven one day.
You are in my thoughts and prayers 🩷💙
Beautiful story even in the heartbreak. Thank you for sharing your journey, the sad and the hope ❤
Kian, thanks so much for sharing this. I experienced a miscarriage of our first baby in July. I was almost 10 weeks and I felt the same way about losing the baby so early. Thanks for sharing the blog post- cried with you and felt a warm hug with it too❤️. Thanks girl!
Thanks for sharing! I'm sorry for your loss.😢 I had a very similar experience a few months ago. I sometimes wonder what this baby would have been like. However, I feel so much peace in knowing God has a plan through it all and some day I will meet my baby in heaven.
Thanks again for being so vulnerable with us. It's comforting to know you're not along.
Dear Sister, I grieve with you. I just want to thank God for your life and the inspiration you are and your sharing this. I can 100% percent relate to you in this stage. Your Legend is just a month and a bit older than my son, first born and I have watched your journey. I truly feel you are like a close sister going through new motherhood together. My heart weeps with you and I have prayed for you and your family during this time. Loss is real and more than just the physical loss, it is loss for things hoped for. It is okay to grieve and also okay to hope. I am praying that God in His sovereign grace grows your beautiful family. That you be the precious and amazing woman in Jesus that He leads you to be. I pray for your healing from this time and a season of refreshment as you process everything. God bless you and I cannot wait to see what He does!
I had a "chemical pregnancy" last month. I totally relate to the confusion and the rollercoaster of emotions. Also not knowing if and how I deserve to grieve. Thanks for sharing ❤️
Thank you for your vulnerability and your heart to help others❤️ I’m a mother of 2 and never experienced loss in this way, but this video even impacted me very much. Especially your prayer at the end. You are a gift. ❤
Also, so sorry for your loss🙏🏼
Thank you for being so vulnerable to share this! I don’t have any kids yet but had a similar experience happen recently but I never was confirmed as pregnant. However, I had that same deep deep feeling that I knew I was. At first I just shrugged it off as being a late period and tried to move on but this video has reminded me of what could have been. Thank you for sharing your story and that writing, it is so comforting that Christ is holding all lost babies! Sending love and hugs ❤️
my heart hurts with you Kian ❤️ praying for healing
Thank you for sharing your story Kian. Sending you so much love.
Thank you so much, your support means a lot 🤍
Praying for peace and encouragement, your life is precious, Kian and your husband too ❤🙏🏼
I'm so so soo sorry for your loss. It sucks and it's so hard. I had a missed miscarriage in August at 8 weeks pregnant. It's sad and confusing. Your feelings are valid, a loss is a loss no matter how far along you were. I hope your heart heals and you feel better soon ♥️
I'm thankful my baby is not alone but with Jesus.
Much love
You are beautiful and have a beautiful testimony. God is using your joys and sorrows to reach so many people. Thank you for sharing ❤❤❤
Hello Kian. Im so sorry for your loss. I went through a similar thing this month. Our baby was 8 weeks when it stopped growing and there was no heartbeat on the ultrasound sound. We were so scared when we found out we were pregnant, but then became excited. When we found out the news, we were heartbroken and in fact, the baby passed through today. It’s been a roller coaster. This was supposed to be our second baby, we currently have a one year old. So a very similar stage in life to you and Kyle.
I know I’m a month late but God bless you Kian! Thank you for your prayers for others even though you’re the one going through this loss. Your last miscarriage video came out around the same time as my “chemical pregnancy” (as they call these super early miscarriages) in December 2022. It really helped me back then and I’m so grateful for you & your videos. This was also very validating as I never came across ANY influencers who have talked about chemical pregnancy in these past two years. It’s something that took me a year to get over because I had never had a miscarriage before, nor gotten pregnant before. I would grieve every month, knowing I would be a certain month into the pregnancy. The days around when the baby should have been born, I grieved knowing I could’ve given birth in one of those days. It hurt so badly even though I also didn’t have a confirmed pregnancy from the doctor. God gave me lots of signs after it happened, and that helped me so much knowing that God knew the baby and brought him/her to heaven to be with Him!! I never knew baby’s name but God knew, Isaiah 43:1 ❤
I would love to be a mom soon eventually too! You’re so inspiring in every way, because God works through you!!
So sorry for your loss. I have had several of these. I was able to be confirmed by the doctor and then I would miscarry right away. I feel your pain and I will keep you in my prayers.💜✝️
oh my goodness I felt like you were here with me while you were sharing this heartbreaking news; I cried and felt your emotions. I am praying God will answer your prayers at His perfect timing and may He continue bringing peace during this time. Amazing prayer for all those mommies who have gone through their own heartbreaks. God bless you and your family always!
My second miscarriage was like this. Super early, negative tests, but I knew it wasn't just a period. The uncertainty was so hard....I'm so sorry you went through this. 😢 That blog post you shared was amazing, made me cry too.
I’m so sorry Kian. My heart is with you and I’ll be praying for you and that God would give you peace. Ilysm and I hope you’re having a good day 💕💕
thank you so much for the prayers 🫶🏼
Love you so much Kian! Sending you and your family the biggest hug ❤
Kian, you are so loved❤️and chosen by God, any story is worthy to be shared. Praying along side you❤️Thank you for you’re openness and vulnerability, I know this helps so many others who are struggling
I’m so sorry Kian🤍 praying with you🙏🏽
I had a very similar situation in July. I kept getting negative tests but I just knew when it happened that it was a chemical pregnancy. It was so weird because I felt like I couldn’t tell anyone that I had had a miscarriage because I never had a positive test. But God has meanings behind it all. I know that someday when I have my first baby earthside I will be that much more grateful. Sending love and hugs 🫶
so sorry for your loss. may God hold you and kyle in perfect peace💗
I'm sorry darling for your loss. 🤍🤍🤍 Amen to your sweet compassionate prayer. May Jesus be near to your heart & make His face shine upon you & your family. 🤍🤍🤍
My heart is with you, currently experiencing our second miscarriage (chemical as well). My heart aches but I choose Joy in Christ. It’s hard but I trust Him.
Thank you for sharing this ❤️ I was crying when you read those words. Currently in my third trimester and my heart goes out to all the women suffering loss. Your prayer was very moving, i appreciated you mentioning babies lost to abortion as well. Coming alongside you and praying for those dealing with all of the above and the grief of infertility ❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss Kian ❤ thank you for making people feel less alone
I had 2 miscarriages this year. In April and July. It was so hard and so sad. But God. I’m grateful that he loves me so much. He is my comfort. I have a deep longing for my sweet rainbow after this storm. Just trusting God.
So sorry for your loss. Praying for your family.
Thinking of you and praying for your healing and all the other mom's going through this❤️🩹🪽🙏🏻
Hi Kian. Thank you for being vulnerable. I had a chemical miscarriage in Sept '22 and I had known for only a night before I miscarried. I feel that I disassociate from it like "I only knew for a night" or "I was barely pregnant" and etc. It's still hard for me to accept the fact that I was pregnant. it's hard for me to even say it. Every September me and my husband take time to remember. The baby that was lost was still a soul and a life that I hope to see in eternal life. I dont think I will fully accept what happened until I am pregnant again and know that I am long enough to feel connected to the child.
I loved watching this. I thought initially it wasn't for me; I have never experienced miscarriage. Then you prayed for those who have experienced abortion and I burst into tears; this video was all for me and thank you for your prayers xxx
It's so nice of you to share this so that others know they aren't alone ❤❤❤. I'm so sorry you're going through this. Handsome wanted to pray with you too 😢
Praying for you and Kyle, Kian!! I had a similar experience a year ago - I was convinced I was pregnant and got a very faint line and then they passed an hour and a half later 💔 such a hard thing. Praying for comfort and peace over you!!
Heartbreaking news Kian, I’m so sorry for your loss 💔 I had a similar experience happen, where I knew I was pregnant. But something didn’t feel right. Then similar events followed as you expressed. I just knew I had lost a little life. Felt so heavy about it for a little while. You are not alone! When the blog started talking about seeing these little babies in heaven that’s where I lost it 😢 what a wonderful thing to look forward to. God has purpose in this pain and a “happy ending” for us if you will! The song “fly away” speaks a little about this would recommend if you process things through music.
Praying for your heart, Kian 💜
Last year in august I had a chemical pregnancy but I never really emotionally dealt with it because I got a positive test with some spotting. I’ve never really recognised it as a life, but this video is challenging me on that because I feel like I never recognised the life in order not to emotionally go there. I’m at peace with it because I got pregnant a few months later and now have my second baby girl, and she has added such a layer of joy to my life. But this video has challenged me to wonder and think about that tiny little baby. About who they are. Maybe I will meet them in heaven one day. God bless you Kian. I pray for healing for you and time and space to grieve the way you need to for both you and Kyle. Thank you for sharing this vulnerable thing with us.
Oh Kian, I’m so so sorry for your loss ❤ miscarriage is a loss of a child, no matter how early. What a blessing to know that you have someone so precious waiting for you on the other side. So much love to you! ❤
I literally adore you for this video. Before I got my bubba who is 2 months old I had two miscarriages. One very similar to yours in this video. I had positive pregnancy test and was late. My first time thinking about being a mom and so excited. Five days of being late sitting on a positive test I started bleeding. I am not sure what happened but for some reason it wrecked me beyond belief even more so than my second miscarriage 5 months later at 7 weeks. This one I did pass the baby and it was very real and my hormone levels of the HCG were even rising during it and at that point I think I pushed the sadness away but very aware that this was now a second time this happened. When I got pregnant a third time 5 months later it was after my wedding and I was so ready and so happy but so scared it would end in heartbreak. I now am holding my son who is just two months old and I’m so thankful to God Almignty for this blessing and miracle. Watching your video I was very aware of how much I related but I always just pushed off my feelings especially of my 7 week miscarriage but listening to that blog post and holding my son. As you were crying I was crying and acknowledging my very real losses that I tried to science away but as a Christian I know they were real children and it broke my heart and I finally grieved properly. Thank you for this and Jesus is so good and lead me to watch this for a reason. Praying for you and just know God is using all loss for a purpose and for our good. Love you girl! ❤️❤️❤️
I pray God gives you and your husband peace and strength in this time.
Dearest Sweet Kian, I pray the Lord continues to wrap your arms around you and your family, I admire your supernatural God-given strength! Your resilience is remarkable and noteworthy to the utmost! In all of this I believe the Lord has more in store for the fruit of your womb and I pray he brings full redemption In His Perfect timing
Awe so sorry Kian! Praying for you as you grieve! I usually don’t comment but I also miscarried this month, days before my 30th! Thanks for sharing your story ❤
Your hair looks beautiful ❤️
Kian, I’m so sorry for your loss. Right as you were going through your first miscarriage, I was going through my first at around 4 weeks and 5 days, then when you found out you were pregnant with Legend, I was going through a miscarriage at 3 weeks. Right after that I finally got pregnant with my precious daughter. My husband and I felt heavily that those first two were boys so with prayer, we named them Josiah and Peter. Over almost two years later now, I still grieve every October and November when they would have each had a birthday. I’m so sorry for your loss, and I understand what you’re going through. ❤
Thanks for sharing!! It helps so many of us ❤ it’s sooooo common and there shouldn’t be any shame around it. Wish more people talked about it.
I agree, it's so important to talk about!
@ are you still nursing? My son is 1 1/2 and I’m still nursing him more so for comfort. My cycle has not come back yet. Did you get pregnant with no cycle? Only share if comfortable thanks!!
The way you said your outro “and remember, Jesus loves you more”. Some days those words mean more, especially when the pain and tears are real. As my dad always says in the face of trial “give thanks to the Lord for what he’s done. You may not know why on this side of heaven, but one day you will testify of his goodness”.
I’m so sorry! I’ve also went through a chemical pregnancy last month, and another one just couple months before that😔
It’s a very tough road😔
I am so so sorry 😭😭 praying for your heart that it would hold onto hope and you would be so comforted by Jesus
Almost the exact situation happened to me. After a bunch of negatives being 5 days late , I got a single positive (and two faint ones the days the followed). Told my family, then miscarried the next day before I even had my confirmation appt. When I went in for my appointment everything was clear and all my bloodwork said not pregnant. It was so heartbreaking because I knew I was and never had that affirmed.
You mentioned a suspicion that it mad have been nursing, I was still breastfeeding my first when it happened to me. Had a chemical pregnancy the month before as well. My doctor told me breastfeeding could’ve affected it and I ignored it continued trying and although I was still ovulating nothing stuck.
When I started to wean to nursing once a day only i got pregnant with my second daughter and stopped nursing immediately.
I had gut feelings that breastfeeding (which people have used a BC in the past) was affecting my body despite how many of my friends were able to conceive while nursing still because when my kids would cluster feed and nurse a lot while sick my period would come late by a day or two. I know I can’t do that now without risk.
Sharing this to maybe help others who have been told time and time again they can get pregnant no problem while still nursing. That is not everyone’s story. And every baby matters and is real no matter how many days they were with you. ❤
I'm really sorry for your loss, Kian and Kyle. The Lord sees your pain. He writes the beginning and end to every story. I pray He continues to show his strength in your lives.
Kian...I'm so sorry. I will pray that the Lord gives you both peace that surpasses all understanding. Love you, but GOD LOVES YOU MORE ❤❤❤
Oh Kian. Prayers for during this time.
GodBless you and your family. May the Lord comfort you and give you your hearts desire.
I’m so sorry Kian. It’s so strange, my sons are 2.5 years old and 11 months old. We just experienced an early miscarriage as well with a similar storyline. Gods plan is always sovereign but I pray for our heavy hearts.
Wow. This just goes to show that life is life no matter how developed the baby is. i’m so sorry for your loss Kian💔 just a side note: that red color suits you so well, you look stunning!
His name was August; we lost him last Christmas. I hope our little ones are dancing together! What an amazingly heartbreaking homecoming party. Thank you for sharing, we are together in this grief. 💔
So sorry for your loss💔 I had a miscarriage a week ago and I already feel much better spiritually 🕊️ we will meet our sweet babes one day. God is so good, His wisdom is unparalleled and only He knows why those babies need go home so quickly. God bless you and your beautiful family❤️
Hello you beautiful soul 💕
So sorry to hear you are grieving this lost. I really do understand what you have/are going through. I've had 7 miscarriages so far and have been told that there is a 48% chance of being pregnant and staying pregnant and a 56% chance with IVF.
I am currently going through a similar situation to yours and am also 8 days late with negative pregnancy test.
God is so good and my husband and I know that in order for us to have a healthy and miracle bub that his hand will 100% be over it and I know that'll be the same for you as it has been in the past for you.
May God's peace and comfort continue to be upon you and for your trust to continue to be in him and his plans for you.
Thinking of you, lovely lady. My heart is feeling for you 🩷
Sending you so much love 🙏🏽❤️
I’m so sorry Kian. I experienced a biochemical miscarriage otherwise known as a chemical pregnancy this past May and it was devastating. My husband and I were trying for our second baby for 9 months at the time and our hopes were crushed after getting a positive pregnancy test and starting my period three days later…
Interestingly enough I also had this happen right around my birthday and still celebrated with my friends but it was really emotionally draining for me because I had hoped to be celebrating both my birthday and my pregnancy, but then I lost it. So it was mostly just a lot of me crying and being emotionally vulnerable… the goodness of God is that I am now pregnant with a baby that is due right around the time I lost the other one.
❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ Thank You for sharing & that amazing prayer for us all♥️🫶Thank You Jesus
That blog post made me cry 😭
so sorry for your loss Kian. i found out i was having my 3rd recurrent miscarriage on my birthday in 2022. it's a unique experience to feel so much pain on a day that's meant to celebrate life. in 2023 i gave birth to my daughter, our triple rainbow baby, just hours after my birthday. praying God gives you comfort and healing❤ thank you for sharing your story - i love following along with you and your family.
So sorry for your lost. praying for you all. Thank you for your beautiful prayer - it give me confront. I had a abortion about 10 years ago and now am going though the process of seeing if I have cervical cancer. Am in fear that I do and will lost the chance of having children in the future.
I have struggled since 2019 to know whether or not to grieve what I am not certain was a loss or a wonky hormone reaction combined with an evaporation line. I was on one kind of birth control pill for a couple years when I first got married. This happened when the pharmacy switched it out WITHOUT telling me, to it's generic form. Most of the time that makes zero difference. But I have autoimmune issues, and it jacked me up. I believe my period was late, but I can't remember for certain what it was that led me to test, it's as if my mind has blocked a lot of that out subconsciously to protect me...idk. But I tested and I remember seeing faint line that I had never seen with a test before. I was excited, shocked, and scared because we had only recently gotten married and were not planning to have a baby yet.
I did start bleeding a couple days later, and that was the heaviest, most clotty and most painful period I had had in a long time, maybe ever. I have chalked it up to just being wonky hormones and the off-brand version of the pill getting to me, but I have never been able to convince myself that it was not a baby. Nothing like that had ever happened to me before with my cycles, and it never happened again. I went off of the pill after that and we used other forms of contraception. But every once in a while, that memory just hits me, and I cannot shake the feeling that I have a little one in heaven waiting for me. I have had days where I have cried and been really sad over it, and days where I am more convinced it was just wonky stuff. But, it was SOMETHING to me. I got excited over what I thought might be a baby, and what very well could have been.
I am so sorry for the baby that you lost, my heart is broken for you. I have also lost a baby and possibly more, I long for the day we will be united with our babies ❤️
I went through the same thing after we were trying for 5 years. It was my first and only pregnancy. 4 years later I had to have my tubes and ovaries due to stage 4 breast cancer.
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. (Psalm 34:18)✝️❤️
Prayers to you .
Thank you 🙏🏼
Thank you for sharing ❤️
So Sorry 😢❤
God bless you 🙏🏼
May the Lord Jesus give you His Peace and his Joy in the midst of your storm and AMEN to your beautiful prayer⚘🕊💕🙏🌈
So sorry😢😢😢
Oh I'm so sorry 🤍
thank you angela 🤍
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So so sorry for your loss. As someone who has also walked through a similar loss, one where all the positive I had was on one pregnancy test, thank you for this. It was very meaningful and a beautiful reminder and balm to my soul. Prayers and love! 🩷
Hey Kian….
So sorry to hear of your loss. May Jesus comfort you….
Was trying to find your channel as thought would send this to you.
Have you ever read in the Bible where it states that we are to put up the Ten Commandments at the doorposts and gateways of our dwellings/properties? Aswell as anointing the home with olive oil. It’s like a hedge of protection. It’s in Deuteronomy 6:1-9….
May Jesus be with you….
Praying for Kian!
I commented on one of your videos a couple months ago, I don’t remember which one it was.
In My comment I mentioned about me repenting from getting a Tubal Ligation 17 years ago. How the Lord Revealed to me that is not something He Calls Men and Women to do!
I totally believe Birth Control is not something that Lord wants either!
As a Christian The Lord has Really helped me to pay attention to wording of Things. “Birth Control” that is from Man! Not Jesus!
The Word (KJV Bible) (Our Saviour, The True Kings Landscape) says, “Be Fruitful and Multiply”. It is In The Lord’s Hands!
We are not to Control It!
Praying for The Lord to cause Christian Couples, to hear Him speaking to them and have an understanding in their Hearts and Spirits about what His Word Says about Family Planning!
Especially while all the Political stuff is going on!
We need to hear What Jesus says! Not The Government or The Medical System!
So much Blessing in Repenting and Being Obedient to Jesus!
Prayers for all those that have Babies and Children in Heaven!
Hi Kian, I am so sorry for your loss. I am walking through my 3rd miscarriage right now. Ive lost at 17 weeks, 20 weeks and 9 weeks with my current angel. No matter how little they were they were still a precious baby and you have a right to grieve for this loss. I didnt get a positive with my current angel baby until my period was missed or 14 days later. I thought this one would be different for my husband and I. Im so sorry you are walking through this pain again, but you are not alone. Prayers for all you loss mamas out there.
I’m so so sorry Taryn 😭😭 praying for you and your husband
Like you said you guys aren’t trying, esp with a one year old so much easier with one babe. Just saying. ❤️🩹 love the pop of color and you look so healthy!
Sounds like you weren't actually pregnant, then?
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angel boy Handsome holding your hand†Hallelujah.
Kian, your nonjudgement and strength is notable special and awesome...(a blanket statement "knowing" you and your walk over years)xoo
He is so very Faithful.
We love You Lord..most. thankYou for Loving us and letting us love You.
We need You always..Your strength..all of You. Praise You Lord God Almighty♡†🕊
Forever and always👑thankYOU.
Jesus Christ is Lord..of all.
Pcos also delays periods but I know you don't have that
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