1 “There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: 2 a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, 3 a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, 4 a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, 5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, 6 a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, 7 a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, 8 a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.” Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8 Just reminds me of this
I don't know what's wrong with me anymore.im still in a shitty place. I still feel shitty but it's almost like my brain has tricked me into feeling beter about it.everything still hurts the same but all I can do is smile
I'm literally in the same situation I don't know if I'm depressed because of it I tell myself I'm not but yet I still feel like shit because of where I'm at in my life especially after turning 18. I keep telling myself that it'll eventually get better but months and months go by having to deal with the same shit as I tell myself it'll change. everyone tells me it takes time but it feels like an eternity, I have random breakdowns and I confide in people randomly but I never get help or comfort in the end. I'm scared to share because last time I did it was with a woman I first fell in love who ended up embarrassing me in the end. I've always had trust issues but they're even worse now and I push people away because I usually avoid bad things thinking they'll go away knowing they won't but I still do it because it's a comfort thing. I go day by day hiding in my headphones listening to songs like this and sit in my own head at home, work, and school. I really don't know what's going to happen to me when I grow up but I pray to God I'm in a better place than where I'm at.
@@Steve_8 love u bro keep it up, this is life dont belive u stay like this forever. this is a just a phase in ur life and most important thing dont close ur hearth because ur mother spent 9 month for create ur heart, dont let anyone broke u again. Dont ever forget ❤
@@Nononononosisisisisi Help yourself, that's what I can tell you based on my experience. Talk To people, improve your looks, get healthy and prosperity will flow eventually.
This is an exerpt from Nietzsche's Thus Spoke Zarathustra, reading upon his concept of the Last Man makes me terrified. It goes as follows: Lo! I show you THE LAST MAN. “What is love? What is creation? What is longing? What is a star?”- so asketh the last man and blinketh. The earth hath then become small, and on it there hoppeth the last man who maketh everything small. His species is ineradicable like that of the ground-flea; the last man liveth longest. “We have discovered happiness”-say the last men, and blink thereby. They have left the regions where it is hard to live; for they need warmth. One still loveth one’s neighbour and rubbeth against him; for one needeth warmth. Turning ill and being distrustful, they consider sinful: they walk warily. He is a fool who still stumbleth over stones or men! A little poison now and then: that maketh pleasant dreams. And much poison at last for a pleasant death. One still worketh, for work is a pastime. But one is careful lest the pastime should hurt one. One no longer becometh poor or rich; both are too burdensome. Who still wanteth to rule? Who still wanteth to obey? Both are too burdensome. No shepherd, and one herd! Every one wanteth the same; every one is equal: he who hath other sentiments goeth voluntarily into the madhouse. “Formerly all the world was insane,”- say the subtlest of them, and blink thereby. They are clever and know all that hath happened: so there is no end to their raillery. People still fall out, but are soon reconciled- otherwise it spoileth their stomachs. They have their little pleasures for the day, and their little pleasures for the night, but they have a regard for health. “We have discovered happiness,”- say the last men, and blink thereby.-
As I sit on my cold, old and rugged leather couch, clutching my father's Colt .45 tighter in my hand, staring down into the barrel as if I were watching the fireworks on the Fourth of July, wondering if this is truly the answer. Slowly, I come to my senses, tears coming to my eyes as the gun falls from my grasp, clattering onto the floor. I tell myself that this isn't the solution, that this will only cause more hurt than relief on those closest to me. I cry myself to sleep. Only then that very morning, do I attempt to live a happy life. From that day on, I improve myself every day, to make sure I don't follow through on my foolish beliefs from so many years ago. Disclaimer, I have not done any of these actions myself, nor do I plan to.
We all go through struggles, even myself. But we must understand the season we go through. If it’s going to be hard then damn keep going. If it’s a beautiful journey, enjoy it. I have felt what you felt, maybe not the exact gun or moment, but I have been through that pit. Threw my revolver over the ocean that my friend had gifted me. I still question my existence, but if my Lord has blessed me one more day to live, then there’s purpose. Idk what it is but someone can be needing you like you needing someone my friend.
Ima be honest with everyone. At this point I don't know what to do. I sit studying all day, try my best at school hoping that at a the end of the day I will be able to actually do something for my self and then I have my parents saying that I go to the gym 2 times a week and I only care about my muscles and how to get big and nothing more. I am criticised all day for what? I literally try my best. After school I have 2 more hours every day of lessons just to get a better grade at school and after all is this worth it? I'll get 40 and I'll have a good job yes but I will have a childhood full of studying and nothing more. I wanted to improve my self and to be fair I don't think all this stress is worth it. My girl left me 1 month ago so yea that gave me more motivation and I got into the gym with my whole heart. I changed schools this year which lead me into having less and less friend groups so yea I am not really able to go out at the weekends or smth. Then when I try to talk with my friends when I am at home I have my mother saying that they are bad to me and they hold me back. I really don't know what to do. It's been 2 weeks. I have totally f*cked up my died, I sit home all day studying and watching series or other movies and I hate my life. Idk if my parents do this cause they "love" me or smth but I really do not enjoy it. For everyone that read this so far, I hope you have a great life and that you can actually enjoy the things that make you happy while living. I hope one day when I have my own kids that ill let them enjoy their years. Have a nice day
Keep it up brother. You are strong MAN!!!! I support you, don't let anyone destroy you goals! In my opinion go secretly to a friend's or uncle's house and stay thee for so e days. I'm hoping you're okay
Im not the best of advisors but most people of this generation aren't happy. We live day to day doing things we dont want to do with agonising depression killing us. The thing about depression is its not an emotion its a warning, like a signal to the body telling us that something is wrong. But its your decision to acknowledge that in that perspective and you must know that there is something you need to do to fix it. Just like how the body tells us were sick with raising the temperature and making us vomit yes it fucking hurts but its a warning for us so that we can rest take medicine and take care of our selfs. Your burnt out and your doing things you dont love of course your not going to be happy. But dont let that discourage you, we have to do things in life we dont want to do so that we can survive. For example people in war fighting they get PTSD and limbs chopped of but the end result was probably worth it, their kids can smile and live good lifes because of them. If you feel forced in doing something and there's no other solution maybe you need to remind yourself that its a sacrifice and remind yourself that these things were never said to make you happy. Sacrifice for what you may ask? That's up to you to decide. But from your depression your probably uncertain of it. If you say to a man who sells apples and makes 3 cents per minute that he's going to be millionaire in the next 20 years selling these apples he'll probably smile every single day selling those apples even though its not something he may not like. If you tell the same person he's going to be broke and live unhappy in the next 10 years lets be honest he's not selling those apples happy the same as the millionaire. Remind yourself that these sacrifices are for your benefit and you'll thank yourself in the next couple of years maybe living a better life. Once you start being happy you'll attract things that make you happy maybe a sport a hobby a friend or a girl.
@@Notwassi971 Thanks a lit for this response. To be fair, i have to enjoy things that i dont like like certain subjects cause yk my parents pay and work just for me and its not fair if i just sit. Sometimes tho it gets annoying man. Cant sit there and study for 3 hours sstraight ill jist get up in the first 30 minutes. I guess its something i gotta work on. I got btter with my parents. My mom left tho so i am living with my dad rn. Quite peacefull. As for the girls… lets not talk about that. The last one made it really clear for me not to follow that path again. Have a nice day man
a lot of us have those thoughts i did too i still sometimes do but you have to keep pushing i let weights and other activities push those thoughts i let these thoughts empower me through my work outs i’ve only found comfort in working out and trying to better my self i let whatever bring me down to empower me i let the pain fuel my weight training ofc mentally i’m still not we’ll but suicide is never the answer i think about my little sister how she would feel about her older brother who she barley got to see during the summer kill himself i could not die knowing my sister would have to live through my selfish actions. “ men do not pray for easier lives but pray to be stronger men” let the pain be your pushing factor to better yourself suicide is never the answer im alone i don’t talk to anyone about my feelings i don’t share my thoughts i don’t show my emotions i want to grow and better myself with no one’s help i want to live not depending on anyone’s support. Better yourself change the way you live prove others wrong search for that ambition that you have and let it push you. Do not commit suicide .Commit to you.
@@Pavonis7 thanks man but life really been hard these days, and the only girl i used to talk to about ny day turned her face from me. I dont know if it was my mistake, even if it was i want to repay but dont know how. I dont know if i should go back and talk to her or let things be.
@@Pavonis7 i cant forgive myself i hurted her so bad that now she had to block me, i dont want anything in my life but her looking in my eyes and saying i forgive you. Man i cant forgive myself. I feel like my chest is burning. I hurted the most loyal and loving person i ever found in my life.
@@AnkitKumar-ql8xc Remember, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I don't exactly know how you're feeling so I won't try and tell you how to feel. But I do know that everyone screws up and dwelling on mistakes will only make you hate yourself even more. Just don't give up on yourself, you are the only person who can make things right. Hard times are shitty but if you let the hardness harden you, you can overcome. I pray that you will find the right path and that you will forgive yourself. Life is too short. I have faith in you. Keep moving forward and don't ever stop.
If you wake up this morning, there is purpose of you living. I struggled too, you encourage me even I may not know you, but I’m glad you were here to comment.
gotta say, that levi image is dope
1 “There is a time for everything,
and a season for every activity under the heavens:
2 a time to be born and a time to die,
a time to plant and a time to uproot,
3 a time to kill and a time to heal,
a time to tear down and a time to build,
4 a time to weep and a time to laugh,
a time to mourn and a time to dance,
5 a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,
a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing,
6 a time to search and a time to give up,
a time to keep and a time to throw away,
7 a time to tear and a time to mend,
a time to be silent and a time to speak,
8 a time to love and a time to hate,
a time for war and a time for peace.”
Ecclesiastes 3: 1-8
Just reminds me of this
The loneliness came back worse than I remembered
real
Real.
the question is why us?
is that a specific disease the company did it to our brains? the company
start 2016
test 2017
worked
same
I love the little sound “dudu” sound 0:17
i wish i could could him, he deserves the world, i just want to see him happy once more.
When I listen to this music, I always cry because I feel like I'm being embraced by an angel....Mom, I love you!
😅
I don't know what's wrong with me anymore.im still in a shitty place. I still feel shitty but it's almost like my brain has tricked me into feeling beter about it.everything still hurts the same but all I can do is smile
Real
I'm literally in the same situation I don't know if I'm depressed because of it I tell myself I'm not but yet I still feel like shit because of where I'm at in my life especially after turning 18. I keep telling myself that it'll eventually get better but months and months go by having to deal with the same shit as I tell myself it'll change. everyone tells me it takes time but it feels like an eternity, I have random breakdowns and I confide in people randomly but I never get help or comfort in the end. I'm scared to share because last time I did it was with a woman I first fell in love who ended up embarrassing me in the end. I've always had trust issues but they're even worse now and I push people away because I usually avoid bad things thinking they'll go away knowing they won't but I still do it because it's a comfort thing. I go day by day hiding in my headphones listening to songs like this and sit in my own head at home, work, and school. I really don't know what's going to happen to me when I grow up but I pray to God I'm in a better place than where I'm at.
@@Steve_8 love u bro keep it up, this is life dont belive u stay like this forever. this is a just a phase in ur life and most important thing dont close ur hearth because ur mother spent 9 month for create ur heart, dont let anyone broke u again. Dont ever forget ❤
it never gets better. you just get stronger -somebody prob
real
something to listen to when im doing curls
i’m literally elliot alderson
More like Elliot gayderson
Real
Real ( love the mr.robot reference )
all the girls he trusted died.. sad
I find myself lost at night lifting weights until my arms are on the verge of tearing...
The feeling I get when I know they will all die. and I too will someday leave this place.
the downfall might be heavy but the comeback gonna be a beast
"Everyone was a slave to something" - Kenny Ackerman
a lot of you guys commenting, please seek *professional* help :/
I did, it didn't work. Turns out telling someone your problems doesn't fix them.
@@The_Indo_Aryani am never asking for help
@@Nononononosisisisisi Help yourself, that's what I can tell you based on my experience. Talk To people, improve your looks, get healthy and prosperity will flow eventually.
2 months ago I got out of the psychiatric hospital and I think I'm going back. 😂😂😂
Take me with you brother 🤣🥲
real
why not, we can be roomies. 😂😂@@lukewr2465
I’m literally guts
i'm literally nobody
This is an exerpt from Nietzsche's Thus Spoke Zarathustra, reading upon his concept of the Last Man makes me terrified. It goes as follows:
Lo! I show you THE LAST MAN.
“What is love? What is creation? What is longing?
What is a star?”-
so asketh the last man and blinketh.
The earth hath then become small,
and on it there hoppeth the last man
who maketh everything small.
His species is ineradicable like that of the ground-flea;
the last man liveth longest.
“We have discovered happiness”-say the last men,
and blink thereby.
They have left the regions where it is hard to live;
for they need warmth.
One still loveth one’s neighbour and rubbeth against him;
for one needeth warmth.
Turning ill and being distrustful,
they consider sinful: they walk warily.
He is a fool who still stumbleth over stones or men!
A little poison now and then: that maketh pleasant dreams.
And much poison at last for a pleasant death.
One still worketh, for work is a pastime.
But one is careful lest the pastime should hurt one.
One no longer becometh poor or rich;
both are too burdensome.
Who still wanteth to rule?
Who still wanteth to obey?
Both are too burdensome.
No shepherd, and one herd!
Every one wanteth the same;
every one is equal:
he who hath other sentiments goeth voluntarily
into the madhouse.
“Formerly all the world was insane,”-
say the subtlest of them, and
blink thereby.
They are clever and know all that hath happened:
so there is no end to their raillery.
People still fall out, but are soon reconciled-
otherwise it spoileth their stomachs.
They have their little pleasures for the day,
and their little pleasures for the night,
but they have a regard for health.
“We have discovered happiness,”-
say the last men, and blink thereby.-
I'm lterally kevin levrone
"Mama had always told me that daddy was on vacation."
That one mosquito
mas triste que acabar contigo mismo es haber acabao con el sueño de alguien que estaba a punto de conseguirlo
W
As I sit on my cold, old and rugged leather couch, clutching my father's Colt .45 tighter in my hand, staring down into the barrel as if I were watching the fireworks on the Fourth of July, wondering if this is truly the answer.
Slowly, I come to my senses, tears coming to my eyes as the gun falls from my grasp, clattering onto the floor. I tell myself that this isn't the solution, that this will only cause more hurt than relief on those closest to me.
I cry myself to sleep. Only then that very morning, do I attempt to live a happy life. From that day on, I improve myself every day, to make sure I don't follow through on my foolish beliefs from so many years ago.
Disclaimer, I have not done any of these actions myself, nor do I plan to.
We all go through struggles, even myself. But we must understand the season we go through. If it’s going to be hard then damn keep going. If it’s a beautiful journey, enjoy it. I have felt what you felt, maybe not the exact gun or moment, but I have been through that pit. Threw my revolver over the ocean that my friend had gifted me. I still question my existence, but if my Lord has blessed me one more day to live, then there’s purpose. Idk what it is but someone can be needing you like you needing someone my friend.
Fé🙏🏻
Ima be honest with everyone. At this point I don't know what to do. I sit studying all day, try my best at school hoping that at a the end of the day I will be able to actually do something for my self and then I have my parents saying that I go to the gym 2 times a week and I only care about my muscles and how to get big and nothing more. I am criticised all day for what? I literally try my best. After school I have 2 more hours every day of lessons just to get a better grade at school and after all is this worth it? I'll get 40 and I'll have a good job yes but I will have a childhood full of studying and nothing more. I wanted to improve my self and to be fair I don't think all this stress is worth it. My girl left me 1 month ago so yea that gave me more motivation and I got into the gym with my whole heart. I changed schools this year which lead me into having less and less friend groups so yea I am not really able to go out at the weekends or smth. Then when I try to talk with my friends when I am at home I have my mother saying that they are bad to me and they hold me back. I really don't know what to do. It's been 2 weeks. I have totally f*cked up my died, I sit home all day studying and watching series or other movies and I hate my life. Idk if my parents do this cause they "love" me or smth but I really do not enjoy it. For everyone that read this so far, I hope you have a great life and that you can actually enjoy the things that make you happy while living. I hope one day when I have my own kids that ill let them enjoy their years. Have a nice day
Keep it up brother. You are strong MAN!!!!
I support you, don't let anyone destroy you goals! In my opinion go secretly to a friend's or uncle's house and stay thee for so e days. I'm hoping you're okay
@@None22820 thank you man
Im not the best of advisors but most people of this generation aren't happy. We live day to day doing things we dont want to do with agonising depression killing us. The thing about depression is its not an emotion its a warning, like a signal to the body telling us that something is wrong. But its your decision to acknowledge that in that perspective and you must know that there is something you need to do to fix it. Just like how the body tells us were sick with raising the temperature and making us vomit yes it fucking hurts but its a warning for us so that we can rest take medicine and take care of our selfs. Your burnt out and your doing things you dont love of course your not going to be happy. But dont let that discourage you, we have to do things in life we dont want to do so that we can survive. For example people in war fighting they get PTSD and limbs chopped of but the end result was probably worth it, their kids can smile and live good lifes because of them. If you feel forced in doing something and there's no other solution maybe you need to remind yourself that its a sacrifice and remind yourself that these things were never said to make you happy. Sacrifice for what you may ask? That's up to you to decide. But from your depression your probably uncertain of it. If you say to a man who sells apples and makes 3 cents per minute that he's going to be millionaire in the next 20 years selling these apples he'll probably smile every single day selling those apples even though its not something he may not like. If you tell the same person he's going to be broke and live unhappy in the next 10 years lets be honest he's not selling those apples happy the same as the millionaire. Remind yourself that these sacrifices are for your benefit and you'll thank yourself in the next couple of years maybe living a better life. Once you start being happy you'll attract things that make you happy maybe a sport a hobby a friend or a girl.
@@Notwassi971 Thanks a lit for this response. To be fair, i have to enjoy things that i dont like like certain subjects cause yk my parents pay and work just for me and its not fair if i just sit. Sometimes tho it gets annoying man. Cant sit there and study for 3 hours sstraight ill jist get up in the first 30 minutes. I guess its something i gotta work on. I got btter with my parents. My mom left tho so i am living with my dad rn. Quite peacefull. As for the girls… lets not talk about that. The last one made it really clear for me not to follow that path again. Have a nice day man
@@Channel-pc3gghow's your physique and diet been
Im literally travis bickle
This song always reminds me of the 1980s mode of yan sim
Please anime name?
It’s attack on Titan
23:57
I wish I knew my friends were fake. Leaving me on sent is way worse than read
You lifted me a little longer from suiciding.
a lot of us have those thoughts i did too i still sometimes do but you have to keep pushing i let weights and other activities push those thoughts i let these thoughts empower me through my work outs i’ve only found comfort in working out and trying to better my self i let whatever bring me down to empower me i let the pain fuel my weight training ofc mentally i’m still not we’ll but suicide is never the answer i think about my little sister how she would feel about her older brother who she barley got to see during the summer kill himself i could not die knowing my sister would have to live through my selfish actions. “ men do not pray for easier lives but pray to be stronger men” let the pain be your pushing factor to better yourself suicide is never the answer im alone i don’t talk to anyone about my feelings i don’t share my thoughts i don’t show my emotions i want to grow and better myself with no one’s help i want to live not depending on anyone’s support. Better yourself change the way you live prove others wrong search for that ambition that you have and let it push you. Do not commit suicide .Commit to you.
@@Pavonis7 thanks man but life really been hard these days, and the only girl i used to talk to about ny day turned her face from me. I dont know if it was my mistake, even if it was i want to repay but dont know how. I dont know if i should go back and talk to her or let things be.
@@Pavonis7 i cant forgive myself i hurted her so bad that now she had to block me, i dont want anything in my life but her looking in my eyes and saying i forgive you. Man i cant forgive myself. I feel like my chest is burning. I hurted the most loyal and loving person i ever found in my life.
@@AnkitKumar-ql8xc Remember, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I don't exactly know how you're feeling so I won't try and tell you how to feel. But I do know that everyone screws up and dwelling on mistakes will only make you hate yourself even more. Just don't give up on yourself, you are the only person who can make things right. Hard times are shitty but if you let the hardness harden you, you can overcome. I pray that you will find the right path and that you will forgive yourself. Life is too short.
I have faith in you.
Keep moving forward and don't ever stop.
If you wake up this morning, there is purpose of you living. I struggled too, you encourage me even I may not know you, but I’m glad you were here to comment.
😕
Bro i think im doomer
0.75x
dude take this video down before too many people get it