It's weird just how much I can relate to EVERYTHING she said (except being famous ofc). I know very well I had a bad and frightening childhood, but whenever people (including CPS, the police and such during my teen years) asked me what was so wrong, what had happened, why I was so scared and such, I had no coherent answer. I just put up a brick wall, or started crying and sobbing hysterically, almost as if I went back to a very vulnerable child like-state, just like how I was as a (very) young child. I knew deep within that something was wrong, that something had happened. I just couldn't figure out what it was. So, people thought I was just another run away-teen, doing rebellious "teen-stuff". That hurt me so bad and made me doubt myself and my entire existence, only making everything worse. I ended up homeless, severly addicted to drugs including injecting heroin. I OD'd several times, one time I barely made it. Someone found me, cracked all my ribs doing CPR (which is really good - it means they really did it right. I was dead anyway, so I was blessed af being able to wake up at all, despite being on life support for a few days). I am forever grateful to the people that saved my life. I even jokingly thanked them for breaking all my ribs. I was fortunate enough to meet them, and they were fortunate enough to meet me again - not because I'm special or whatever, but so that they could see living proof of their hard work and heroism considering that I'd be dead if it wasn't for them acting fast and logically. Trust me when I say that group hug we had lasted for a loooooooong time with loads of tears and sobbing from all of us. Anyway. I'm not diagnosed with DID, but it's reckognized medically that I do suffer from childhood trauma as well as severe adult trauma. PTSD, anxiety, depression and drug addiction. Possibly more, I'm working with a pshychiatrist on possible diagnoses. Not just to put yet another label on me, but so that I can get the help I need. DID is in fact a possibility. We don't know for sure yet. Due to my long term, hardcore drug usage, it's a lot harder to separate one experience and/or symptom from the other. It's a work in progress. I hope I don't have any more psychological issues than I already have, but if I do, I absolutely want to know so that I can understand myself better, and make life better in the long run. It just baffled me how relatable her story is to mine, despite our differences. If anyone bothered reading this, thank you so much. If anyone reading this are struggling with whatever it may be, I hope that you get help. I hope you have, or get support. I wish you well, and a good life. I wish you'll be able to feel like you're thriving, not just surviving. You deserve it. You really do. Best wishes from me 💚💚💚👊
Ida Larsen you are a strong and courageous person. Thank you for telling your testimony. It means you are doing well today esp when you can help others like you are doing now. You deserve all the love, peace, and happiness as well. Keep on keeping on🤟❤️
@@2GENDERS_MAN_WOMEN_CRY_ABOUTIT Awwe. You poor thing. Try to find some love in your heart to care about others. I promise that if you do, then your life will get better. When you do bad things or put bad energy out in to the world, it will come right back to you and bad things can happen to you. Please work on yourself. You don't have to be that way because it isn't doing you any good. ...and I mean that with all sincerity.
Same. From the way that I deal with things and the things that I have dealt with I feel like there are things that I’m just not able to remember and honestly I’m kind of OK with that because I don’t really want to remember.
She is amazing. I looked up to her as a kid and just thought she was so pretty. I remember thinking her hair like perfect curly or straight & she’s just so skinny and so pretty. I wished I would look like her when I grew up. I kinda forgot about that honestly I just hadn’t seen her in anything on tv in so long but I see this and still look up to her but for another reason now. She’s so brave and I can rly relate to this. Thank you sm for sharing!!
I remember when she was on 90210, watched it when I was a teenager. Some of these actors have a past of abuse but I also keep in mind that these ppl are actors, they sign a contract and r given money, a house, a car, liquor and drugs. Just part of the job. If anybody wants to challenge what I'm saying I can provide a laundry list of famous ppl who were in rehab or died from overdoses. They aren't looked at like regular ppl cuz they have "money" 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄
I feel like something similar to this has happened to me. I suffer from extreme anxiety and PTSD. I’ve been having panic attacks since I was seven years old and no one really knew why. I’ve had many people tell me that I have some sort of repressed trauma that I need to dig up and deal with but honestly if I’m not aware of it now I’m not sure how much good it would do for me to become aware of it. My brain did that for a reason. I’ll keep it there.
@@2GENDERS_MAN_WOMEN_CRY_ABOUTIT how dare you? She is not . This is real. Have respect for her she is a victim and she is a fighter. She got me through so much
@@nicolewhite4248 how dare you? Lmfaooooooooooooooooo. Victim, right! Victim of not receiving publicity so now coming out with "a disease" Same road every wannabe celebrity takes. Made up disorders so the Western people can keep buying drugs. Sheep!
@@nicolewhite4248 Every female is a victim apparently. Unless you think youre a man. Then what? Men cant be victims in your eyes. How does that work in reality?
I strongly believe that that this is an excuse or a cop out by ALM to justify some of her.....questionable choices and actions when she was on "90210". I was a big fan of the show back in the day, and I thought she was a phony to a certain degree, especially when compared to her female costars on that show, like Jessica Stroup, Jessica Lowndes, Shenae Grimes (neé Beech), etc. Or, then again, maybe I am bias against her.
@Joy Georgina Looks like I am going to have to defend myself from a millenial, whom which I have forgotten more than they know! I forget even ever having this conversation. However, emotional and psychological trauma is the result of extraordinarily frightening or distressful events that shatter your sense of security or make you feel helpless and can lead to challenges in functioning or normally coping afterward. For women, it has been found to be exaggerated. What evokes such a feeling you ask? I will get to that millenial. Just wait your turn.... Individuals with PTSD, a history of trauma, or depression are at risk for producing false memories when they are exposed to information that is related to their knowledge base........ Driving false memories is a real thing that real women do. Mic Drop
It's weird just how much I can relate to EVERYTHING she said (except being famous ofc).
I know very well I had a bad and frightening childhood, but whenever people (including CPS, the police and such during my teen years) asked me what was so wrong, what had happened, why I was so scared and such, I had no coherent answer. I just put up a brick wall, or started crying and sobbing hysterically, almost as if I went back to a very vulnerable child like-state, just like how I was as a (very) young child.
I knew deep within that something was wrong, that something had happened. I just couldn't figure out what it was. So, people thought I was just another run away-teen, doing rebellious "teen-stuff".
That hurt me so bad and made me doubt myself and my entire existence, only making everything worse. I ended up homeless, severly addicted to drugs including injecting heroin. I OD'd several times, one time I barely made it. Someone found me, cracked all my ribs doing CPR (which is really good - it means they really did it right. I was dead anyway, so I was blessed af being able to wake up at all, despite being on life support for a few days). I am forever grateful to the people that saved my life. I even jokingly thanked them for breaking all my ribs. I was fortunate enough to meet them, and they were fortunate enough to meet me again - not because I'm special or whatever, but so that they could see living proof of their hard work and heroism considering that I'd be dead if it wasn't for them acting fast and logically. Trust me when I say that group hug we had lasted for a loooooooong time with loads of tears and sobbing from all of us.
Anyway. I'm not diagnosed with DID, but it's reckognized medically that I do suffer from childhood trauma as well as severe adult trauma. PTSD, anxiety, depression and drug addiction. Possibly more, I'm working with a pshychiatrist on possible diagnoses. Not just to put yet another label on me, but so that I can get the help I need. DID is in fact a possibility. We don't know for sure yet. Due to my long term, hardcore drug usage, it's a lot harder to separate one experience and/or symptom from the other. It's a work in progress. I hope I don't have any more psychological issues than I already have, but if I do, I absolutely want to know so that I can understand myself better, and make life better in the long run.
It just baffled me how relatable her story is to mine, despite our differences.
If anyone bothered reading this, thank you so much.
If anyone reading this are struggling with whatever it may be, I hope that you get help. I hope you have, or get support. I wish you well, and a good life. I wish you'll be able to feel like you're thriving, not just surviving. You deserve it. You really do. Best wishes from me 💚💚💚👊
OMG !! God bless you 🙏❤️
i read it 😿
Ida Larsen you are a strong and courageous person. Thank you for telling your testimony. It means you are doing well today esp when you can help others like you are doing now. You deserve all the love, peace, and happiness as well.
Keep on keeping on🤟❤️
Stfu. Nobody cares!
@@2GENDERS_MAN_WOMEN_CRY_ABOUTIT Awwe. You poor thing. Try to find some love in your heart to care about others. I promise that if you do, then your life will get better. When you do bad things or put bad energy out in to the world, it will come right back to you and bad things can happen to you. Please work on yourself. You don't have to be that way because it isn't doing you any good. ...and I mean that with all sincerity.
When she just described herself that's exactly how I see myself. This has me worried something happened to me I don't remember 😫
Same. From the way that I deal with things and the things that I have dealt with I feel like there are things that I’m just not able to remember and honestly I’m kind of OK with that because I don’t really want to remember.
@@nftbandit9645 agreed
She is amazing. I looked up to her as a kid and just thought she was so pretty. I remember thinking her hair like perfect curly or straight & she’s just so skinny and so pretty. I wished I would look like her when I grew up. I kinda forgot about that honestly I just hadn’t seen her in anything on tv in so long but I see this and still look up to her but for another reason now. She’s so brave and I can rly relate to this. Thank you sm for sharing!!
I remember when she was on 90210, watched it when I was a teenager. Some of these actors have a past of abuse but I also keep in mind that these ppl are actors, they sign a contract and r given money, a house, a car, liquor and drugs. Just part of the job. If anybody wants to challenge what I'm saying I can provide a laundry list of famous ppl who were in rehab or died from overdoses. They aren't looked at like regular ppl cuz they have "money" 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄
When I was younger she was the one girl I was literally like you are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen!!!
I feel like something similar to this has happened to me. I suffer from extreme anxiety and PTSD. I’ve been having panic attacks since I was seven years old and no one really knew why. I’ve had many people tell me that I have some sort of repressed trauma that I need to dig up and deal with but honestly if I’m not aware of it now I’m not sure how much good it would do for me to become aware of it. My brain did that for a reason. I’ll keep it there.
I have DID. I have known forever but in 2015 is when I realized. Thank you
YESSS I WAS LITERALLY SEARCHING FOR DID OR OSDD EPISODES -K
Wow you never know what's happening with people you admired. I always thought she was so freaking gorgeous.
And now she isn't?
@@lulo4712 She's still very beautiful. I just think sometimes we forget that looks don't have anything to do with me mental or physical health.
Bless her. I feel for her.
Shes faking this. Youre a gullible fool
@@2GENDERS_MAN_WOMEN_CRY_ABOUTIT how dare you? She is not . This is real. Have respect for her she is a victim and she is a fighter. She got me through so much
@@nicolewhite4248 how dare you? Lmfaooooooooooooooooo. Victim, right! Victim of not receiving publicity so now coming out with "a disease" Same road every wannabe celebrity takes. Made up disorders so the Western people can keep buying drugs. Sheep!
@@nicolewhite4248 Every female is a victim apparently. Unless you think youre a man. Then what? Men cant be victims in your eyes. How does that work in reality?
I don't. These people ( like narcissists) are all their life jist a bunch of lies.
That is why I dont seek help. I can not remember my childhood and I'm bloody grateful for it :/
This is scary how close this resembles my life. She gets it.
The only 90210 babes I remember are Shannon Doherty, Jenny Garth, Tori Spelling & the one with glasses-Gabby something I think.
She was in the remake of 90210.
She was on the new version i think it was on the cw
Gabrielle Carteris
All of these famous ppl have been abused..very odd..
Ikr so weird
@@lyykeli by whom is what I wonder? Is this all satanic abuse ?
Just a coincidence
There’s abuse everywhere. Some people are more vocal than others.
1/4 women and 1/9 men.
I strongly believe that that this is an excuse or a cop out by ALM to justify some of her.....questionable choices and actions when she was on "90210". I was a big fan of the show back in the day, and I thought she was a phony to a certain degree, especially when compared to her female costars on that show, like Jessica Stroup, Jessica Lowndes, Shenae Grimes (neé Beech), etc. Or, then again, maybe I am bias against her.
First
She looks like jackie kennedy
What? You need your eyes checked...
@@mirabella2154 kinda
@@mirabella2154 also I'm not blind the hair makes her like like it
Not at all. She is much more lovely.
who is this? don't recognize at all.
She was The CW's "90210", "Nip/Tuck", and her character in "Lucifer" is the catalyst for the series.
-You're welcome 😉
Acting! Nobody forgets 6 years of something. She is acting on Dr.Phil.
@Joy Georgina Listen. My education Trumps any off hand, non educated opinion you have. What we have here is failure to communicate.
@Joy Georgina Looks like I am going to have to defend myself from a millenial, whom which I have forgotten more than they know! I forget even ever having this conversation. However, emotional and psychological trauma is the result of extraordinarily frightening or distressful events that shatter your sense of security or make you feel helpless and can lead to challenges in functioning or normally coping afterward. For women, it has been found to be exaggerated. What evokes such a feeling you ask? I will get to that millenial.
Just wait your turn....
Individuals with PTSD, a history of trauma, or depression are at risk for producing false memories when they are exposed to information that is related to their knowledge base........ Driving false memories is a real thing that real women do.
Mic Drop
I met her at a bar one night in LA . She blew me in the back alley . Never saw her again
Gross
Wow talk about disrespectful especially with the topic she’s on here for!
@@partygurl21 don’t judge bruh
You wish...
@@mirabella2154 I’m for real tho
She talks way too much.