This song was pure emotion. You could feel that. There's a bunch of people out here believing in you Cal, myself included. Never stop homie, you got this.
real talk I hope he finds sobriety and makes it through this, it sounds like he's struggling with addiction a lot. dude keeps releasing killer track after track, hope he stays around a long long time.
Only problem then is he will find god and change into every other artist 'its not just artists' I felt his pain for real Never had a song yet that spoke to me on this level. This is real...
its really fucking hard lol he mentions both xanax n opiates frequently but also uppers. the uppers are mental n make ya feel shitty n hallucinate a lil etc, the opis will have u ready to rip ur skin off puking ur guts out, and the benzos can kill u w seizures if u don’t wean off exactly correct… this shit aint a game for some. Personally I beat all em at once except i wasn’t a big fan of uppers, but it took over 8 yrs
@@philmissy1God is not the only way or correct way, there’s no correct way. Whatever works for that person. I hated NA/AA for all those reasons but mostly the people there n how they judge etc. SMART recovery for a few months worked along w Inpatient for me, but I didn’t need anything after that. Plus I can keep my Medical Marijauna Card and drink alcohol on occasion, neither effect me, but I can recommend that for anyone because everyone is didn’t and that might lead some to a different addiction or right back to the original n relapse. Religion and recovery are not intertwined unless you WANT them to be.😊 Best of luck!
Never felt a stronger connection to another hip-hop artist. Cal is speaking for the people that don't know how they feel, for us who feel unstoppable some days and stagnant the next. Thanks for being the same Cal from Best Foot Forward yet evolving into the artist you've become today. 👊✊🔥⏰
Been feeling the same man, so glad i found this artist at a time in my life that i really needed to hear this msg, it's like he is saving me years of making mistakes.
Man, I've been going through a lot of changes in the last few months, shit's been rough. I'm just really glad I found your music cause somehow your songs make me feel like I'm not going through this alone. I know it sounds weird, but you make sense of a lot of stuff I struggle to articulate. Thank you for that.
@@TheDsRequiem sometimes you really just have to open up. I know it's hard but it's worth it for your mental wellbeing. If you have the option therapy is also a really helpful tool.
I hope cal never gives up, honestly I love every single song I hear from him, I already lost my favourite artist edubble and it hurts knowing ill never hear a new song from him again, I would hate to loose anymore favourite artists that help me stay sane, I hope one day I get to see him live before he ever passes🙏🙌💙
I've only been listening to your music for the last few months, and I gotta say, I find your music to be intoxicating, and so intellectual. Keep up the great work, I'm rooting for you 🖤
Cal has a way of hitting my emotions every time. There’s a lot going on in my life that I struggle with, but Cal makes me feel like I’m not alone in that struggle. Continue touching lives, my man. We hear you.
This hit home bro. I can relate to ever word in this song and it hurts. God damn Cal, I've always liked your music but this track...this is the one that punches me in the gut. Your a very talented musician, I hope you blow up because you deserve it more than anyone I've ever listened to. Thank you for this gift. For putting down in my opinion, the best, most emotionally relatable song I've ever heard. Keep making music like this please, you have no idea how much it effects people and how much people like myself need to hear songs like this. I cant tell you how much its appreciated!
I slip, fell down and drown in the puddle of my own tears I never learn my lesson man, infested all my own fears And Columbus, I was buzzing like four beers And four years later, I'm just drunk Maybe I'm not close, maybe I'm just stuck Started blowing lines thinking, maybe I just suck Maybe it's hard work, maybe it's just luck All the shit I think I need, maybe I just want Maybe it's just me, but baby, it's just us And maybe it's not love, maybe it's just lust Now it got me thinking all the people I can't trust And how I don't believe in anything that we discuss, like- How are we supposed to build, when you tryna' tear me down Wear me out like some hand-me-downs Don't seem very proud of the man I am You don't seem to care, I carry pounds That shit weighing on me, taking my energy every ounce But I bounce back, a sad movie with a soundtrack Low amounts in my accounts, I don't announce that Maybe if I did, you would understand Some people hit below the belt to get the upper-hand I didn't spend a dollar, still I owe a hundred grand This con-artists contracts wrote in Comic Sans Now I'm free, I'm on a run, but I'm a wanted man And I just let it happen naturally, it wasn't planned I wasn't playing when I told you I was done playing games They wanted me to change in a one wearing chains Had a Plain Jane Rollie before it became a thing But only because I couldn't afford it to get it to blang I'm navigating terrain, got a make it back Crack like an artifact, heart is staying intact Imma call the play like Harden, Wayne, Shaq Gave my heart away, then I saw it fade to black
And it's real, very real, very very real It's a true story no this ain't no fairy tale I remember very well, very very well And that's real, very real, very very real It's a true story no this ain't no fairy tale I remember very well, very very well [Verse 2] I feel like everybody tryna' fuck up my business I guess that could be how I burnt a couple of my bridges So I'm trying to rebuild, I'm trying to make it better Trying pull my self together like butterfly stitches But damn that's a lot of blood, damn that's a lot of rain Damn that's a lot of mud, damn that's a lot of money But damn that's a lot of drugs, how is it not enough I get a buzz then I miss the pain 'Cause I can play the victim I can point the finger, I can shift the blame I can ruin my day in a second Then I can manifest it, ruin the rest of me if I let it I'm good at fucking up, 'cause I did it my whole life I been to hell and back so I'm willing to go twice And three time's the charm so I might get a gun and a knife When I look in the mirror, it's on sight And off the record I can off myself at any second Mamma called to check up on me like it's all intervention I don't talk about it often, I don't wanna draw attention I just add it to list that shit I just forgot to mention Inadequate in the trenches, the habit get expensive And if you ask about it, Imma laugh and get defensive And get an attitude, and then get sad and apprehensive And I ain't even mad at you, I'm mad at my reflection
And it’s real, very real, very very real It’s a true story no this ain’t no fairy tale I remember very well, very very well And that’s real, very real, very very real It’s a true story no this ain’t no fairy tale...
Know this Cal, there's more than a million people feeling this same shit, with no platform. Keep on going You got mad love out here. Haven't heard a flow as real and impeccable since the late great Mac Miller. This is everything I try to do in my music. Just speaking my point of view on life. Its amazing how many people resonate with the same shit. But were all extension's of one. One love -Vahrii
I'd like to know why I had to find this man on my own in 2022. How has TH-cam not recommended this guy to me!? I just listened to everything you have available on TH-cam music and haven't heard one song I didn't like yet. You got my subscription!!
Cannot be too mad at your reflection. Your eyes are opening towards the idea of the broken being able to evolve more. Solid results on this one here. "Below the belt to get the upper hand" -Wet
Comments are good for Cal! Literally always impressed with the quality, wordplay, beats (S/O to your guy Corbett) and just everything with every drop. Keep them coming!!!
I am just now hearing of Cal. I have listened to about a dozen songs now and am blown away. I love the simplistic and not over produced beats and lyrics are on point. Keep up the good work, Sir.
Thank you Cal. your pain spoke to me. I love you bro..maybe we'll cross paths..one day. till then \please take care of yourself. I've cried a million tears just like you..i understand KNOWING you're great but no one else seeing it. to be honest, unsigned was good not great. I don't wanna hype up your ego personality. and i know that was your PERCEIVED BEST EFFORT BUT YOU'VE GOT AN INFINITE MORE SONGS IN YOU THAT WILL speak to everyone. Never change up. peace
@Cal Scruby This is one of your best songs, when you use your emotion, your life and, your truth, then your art resonates with people. Honestly I listen to captain America a lot right now because it's new and catchy to me, I just discovered it. Alternatively I think your talents shine when you're keeping it real and raw. Art is different when you can see someone's soul. I'm not going to preach but be careful what drugs you do, they can take everything from you even your sanity, for real. I just stick to bud, CBD, my prescription Klonopin and the occasional pain pill, when needed. I used to use hard stuff for years. Thanks for performing, may your flow keep evolving, and it will because you don't give up, and you deserve more than you have given yourself up until this point. Keep it real brother.
I believe the lost ones have are addicts we walk through the fire every day draining the soul of the the life force.. believe that a new light on us.. support from West by God Virginia 🙏
Cal you are truly the reason why I started making music last Month, ever since, my life has literally changed so much. I fux with you my guy always have always will. One day we will be slaying tracks together
Been bumping your ish non-stop since I found out about you. Unsigned is one of the best albums out. True poetry in your art Cal Scruby, never stop dropping that fire.
yo you underrated dawg you deserve more recognition man you're music is fire a friend of mine showed me on of you're songs dead end and first time listening to it its fire already love you're music
Every single song he’s put out in the last year or so has been truly incredible! I hope these more recent drops mean that we’ll get an album soon. Cal is SOOO slept on!! I’m rooting for you Cal, keep burning down the house man!!🔥🔥
20 plus years of addiction here. Half of my life wasted. I stopped for 9 months while back but now the devil is back and got me In deep depression. I gotta change before I lose everything again. I don't have the strength to rebuild
YEAHHHHHHH more new music from one of the best right now! we need a whole album right now - i have your current content on spotify on repeat all day and night.
I know you don't like how people want my anxiety back and your growing and I live all your music. But damn I love this emotional shit cal cause I'll never get out of my rut. You are my favorite rapper ever
It’s crazy watching his music videos from 4 years ago with short hair and fake verses. Then you come here as his hair starts growing as he reinvents himself and his music becomes more than fake. He’s the goat this year for sure. Everything long hair scruby has dropped is fire.
This song was pure emotion. You could feel that. There's a bunch of people out here believing in you Cal, myself included. Never stop homie, you got this.
This shit perfectly reflected what I've been feeling for ages. What a legend
Fr fr.
Totally agree. One of the best in a grass of snakes. Keep it up Cal. We're all still watching man.
We Love you in Columbus. We're proud of you.
@@TheAlphaMale2271 hj
don't you ever get bored of releasing bangers..?
Homies using a whole conscious mind and till makes that shit bump.
This comment describes him so well
We do
Year later, he released another one today and many before it and after this...
@@r-kellyspeesheets908 she too!!!
real talk I hope he finds sobriety and makes it through this, it sounds like he's struggling with addiction a lot. dude keeps releasing killer track after track, hope he stays around a long long time.
Only problem then is he will find god and change into every other artist 'its not just artists' I felt his pain for real Never had a song yet that spoke to me on this level. This is real...
its really fucking hard lol he mentions both xanax n opiates frequently but also uppers. the uppers are mental n make ya feel shitty n hallucinate a lil etc, the opis will have u ready to rip ur skin off puking ur guts out, and the benzos can kill u w seizures if u don’t wean off exactly correct… this shit aint a game for some. Personally I beat all em at once except i wasn’t a big fan of uppers, but it took over 8 yrs
@@philmissy1God is not the only way or correct way, there’s no correct way. Whatever works for that person. I hated NA/AA for all those reasons but mostly the people there n how they judge etc. SMART recovery for a few months worked along w Inpatient for me, but I didn’t need anything after that. Plus I can keep my Medical Marijauna Card and drink alcohol on occasion, neither effect me, but I can recommend that for anyone because everyone is didn’t and that might lead some to a different addiction or right back to the original n relapse. Religion and recovery are not intertwined unless you WANT them to be.😊
Best of luck!
Never felt a stronger connection to another hip-hop artist. Cal is speaking for the people that don't know how they feel, for us who feel unstoppable some days and stagnant the next. Thanks for being the same Cal from Best Foot Forward yet evolving into the artist you've become today. 👊✊🔥⏰
Been feeling the same man, so glad i found this artist at a time in my life that i really needed to hear this msg, it's like he is saving me years of making mistakes.
Alot of artists like that. CalenRaps, Ray Vaughan, Poodieville to name a few
I've been in this place for a while, but we gotta keep the hustle!
not since eyedea and sadistik
Yoo Foreal man
The low moments in life make the highs better. Depth is important in order to appreciate your journey.
Yup “I’ve been to hell and back so I’m willing to go twice”- facing fear is sometimes the only way to overcome it. Only way out of hell is through it
beat : fire
flow : amazing and with a lot of changes
bars : very good
hotel : trivago
This is how we know you're actually god
Trivago L0L
Cal is definitely one of the most underrated rn...
THE most
Amen Bruv 🙏
Still.
Man, I've been going through a lot of changes in the last few months, shit's been rough. I'm just really glad I found your music cause somehow your songs make me feel like I'm not going through this alone. I know it sounds weird, but you make sense of a lot of stuff I struggle to articulate. Thank you for that.
02:45am in Africa and It's just me and Cal...
I've literally been telling people close to me to listen to his music because I dont know any other way to ask for help
@@TheDsRequiem Bro I posted My Anxiety's vid on my FB too, no caption... says it all. Stay strong bro!
@@TheDsRequiem sometimes you really just have to open up. I know it's hard but it's worth it for your mental wellbeing. If you have the option therapy is also a really helpful tool.
The way i became a fan the minute i heard donnie darko and now I'm searching for all your songs.
Dead ass you’re in my top 5 favs bro, one of the greatest tbh
May I ask about the other 4?
@Sir Kham Syizhin This is a highly underrated comment.
@Sir Kham Syizhin lmao
"I can ruin my day in a second, then I can manifest it, ruin the rest of me if I let it.." (best relatable bar in the song)
I ain’t even mad at you, I’m mad at my reflection
Evolve or reincarnate in paradise
"When I look in the mirror it's on sight" REAL VERY REAL shit there.❤
I thought I was alone I appreciate your work brother keep up fam tough times we living
That line... "And I ain't even mad at you, I'm mad at my reflection" ... that's 6 feet right there Cal.
I hope cal never gives up, honestly I love every single song I hear from him, I already lost my favourite artist edubble and it hurts knowing ill never hear a new song from him again, I would hate to loose anymore favourite artists that help me stay sane, I hope one day I get to see him live before he ever passes🙏🙌💙
@Seahawks Zone ik, personally I love every single one of his songs, his death still makes me upset ngl
The flow is impeccable
I've only been listening to your music for the last few months, and I gotta say, I find your music to be intoxicating, and so intellectual. Keep up the great work, I'm rooting for you 🖤
early sqaud, lets gooo
* Insert Fire Emoji Here *
Unheard Finest lets goooooo 🔥🔥🔥
👏
Still on repeat squad
@cardo Facts 💯
Cal has a way of hitting my emotions every time. There’s a lot going on in my life that I struggle with, but Cal makes me feel like I’m not alone in that struggle. Continue touching lives, my man. We hear you.
i’ve been listening to this guy for over a year now, maybe even a year and a half and he’s never made a bad song
HOW! how the fuck isn't Calvin more popular already, he has shown multiple times he has talent, more than 90% or the rap game atm!
All of his songs are so real and straight up one of my favorite rappers since unsigned came out.
Damn that second verse hit home
This hit home bro. I can relate to ever word in this song and it hurts. God damn Cal, I've always liked your music but this track...this is the one that punches me in the gut. Your a very talented musician, I hope you blow up because you deserve it more than anyone I've ever listened to. Thank you for this gift. For putting down in my opinion, the best, most emotionally relatable song I've ever heard. Keep making music like this please, you have no idea how much it effects people and how much people like myself need to hear songs like this. I cant tell you how much its appreciated!
I follow him since 2015, he's the best 🔥
Same
God damn dude every single track is a banger
Man he been popping off this year
god damn, this is fire sheeesh
"These con artist's contracts wrote in comic sans"
Damn!
Cal you’re taking storytelling to the next level. The honesty in your songs is incredible. Best of luck for the future, you deserve a great one!
How do u not have millions of subs. Literally some of the best music every.
Was waiting so long for some new sh*t!!!
This is your hardest track man 🔥
So talented, it's unbelievable
One of my favorite underground artists back at it again
Straight Outta Cal Scruby
really awesome man, end of the song makes me quite sad. hope you're good
Just found this guy, and can’t stop playing all his songs!!! Very refreshing !! 🔥👌👌
Dude is TOOOOO GOOD!!!!!!
Damn bro this deep that last verse was dope af.
Cal's preaching true shit
Preach baby boy!! ❤️🔥💥🎶💃🏽
I slip, fell down and drown in the puddle of my own tears
I never learn my lesson man, infested all my own fears
And Columbus, I was buzzing like four beers
And four years later, I'm just drunk
Maybe I'm not close, maybe I'm just stuck
Started blowing lines thinking, maybe I just suck
Maybe it's hard work, maybe it's just luck
All the shit I think I need, maybe I just want
Maybe it's just me, but baby, it's just us
And maybe it's not love, maybe it's just lust
Now it got me thinking all the people I can't trust
And how I don't believe in anything that we discuss, like-
How are we supposed to build, when you tryna' tear me down
Wear me out like some hand-me-downs
Don't seem very proud of the man I am
You don't seem to care, I carry pounds
That shit weighing on me, taking my energy every ounce
But I bounce back, a sad movie with a soundtrack
Low amounts in my accounts, I don't announce that
Maybe if I did, you would understand
Some people hit below the belt to get the upper-hand
I didn't spend a dollar, still I owe a hundred grand
This con-artists contracts wrote in Comic Sans
Now I'm free, I'm on a run, but I'm a wanted man
And I just let it happen naturally, it wasn't planned
I wasn't playing when I told you I was done playing games
They wanted me to change in a one wearing chains
Had a Plain Jane Rollie before it became a thing
But only because I couldn't afford it to get it to blang
I'm navigating terrain, got a make it back
Crack like an artifact, heart is staying intact
Imma call the play like Harden, Wayne, Shaq
Gave my heart away, then I saw it fade to black
And it's real, very real, very very real
It's a true story no this ain't no fairy tale
I remember very well, very very well
And that's real, very real, very very real
It's a true story no this ain't no fairy tale
I remember very well, very very well
[Verse 2]
I feel like everybody tryna' fuck up my business
I guess that could be how I burnt a couple of my bridges
So I'm trying to rebuild, I'm trying to make it better
Trying pull my self together like butterfly stitches
But damn that's a lot of blood, damn that's a lot of rain
Damn that's a lot of mud, damn that's a lot of money
But damn that's a lot of drugs, how is it not enough
I get a buzz then I miss the pain
'Cause I can play the victim
I can point the finger, I can shift the blame
I can ruin my day in a second
Then I can manifest it, ruin the rest of me if I let it
I'm good at fucking up, 'cause I did it my whole life
I been to hell and back so I'm willing to go twice
And three time's the charm so I might get a gun and a knife
When I look in the mirror, it's on sight
And off the record I can off myself at any second
Mamma called to check up on me like it's all intervention
I don't talk about it often, I don't wanna draw attention
I just add it to list that shit I just forgot to mention
Inadequate in the trenches, the habit get expensive
And if you ask about it, Imma laugh and get defensive
And get an attitude, and then get sad and apprehensive
And I ain't even mad at you, I'm mad at my reflection
And it’s real, very real, very very real
It’s a true story no this ain’t no fairy tale
I remember very well, very very well
And that’s real, very real, very very real
It’s a true story no this ain’t no fairy tale...
@@JustIcey22 manifested all my own fears
*hardaway n Shaq but good lookin out!!💯💯🙌🙌🙌
I have added Cal as part of my daily routine for 3 years now.. much love man. Thank you.
Know this Cal, there's more than a million people feeling this same shit, with no platform. Keep on going
You got mad love out here.
Haven't heard a flow as real and impeccable since the late great Mac Miller.
This is everything I try to do in my music. Just speaking my point of view on life.
Its amazing how many people resonate with the same shit. But were all extension's of one.
One love
-Vahrii
big fan of cal's foot at 1:41
I'd like to know why I had to find this man on my own in 2022. How has TH-cam not recommended this guy to me!? I just listened to everything you have available on TH-cam music and haven't heard one song I didn't like yet. You got my subscription!!
Cannot be too mad at your reflection. Your eyes are opening towards the idea of the broken being able to evolve more.
Solid results on this one here.
"Below the belt to get the upper hand"
-Wet
You are saving my life man.. 2020 has been tough, but you are fire and its helping.
Hes going somewhere high and he isnt gonna stop rising
Felt every word.
Thank you for giving those of us that are hurting this gift. It hurts a little less knowing others can relate.
His flow and wordplay are on another level
Comments are good for Cal! Literally always impressed with the quality, wordplay, beats (S/O to your guy Corbett) and just everything with every drop. Keep them coming!!!
Bro your music has helped me so much! Thank you! Know there's a guy in Florida that loves you!
That last verse hit home cal
This makes me wanna buy your whole Mirch store
I am just now hearing of Cal. I have listened to about a dozen songs now and am blown away. I love the simplistic and not over produced beats and lyrics are on point. Keep up the good work, Sir.
I want u in Portugal! Keep it huge b
Thank you Cal. your pain spoke to me. I love you bro..maybe we'll cross paths..one day. till then \please take care of yourself. I've cried a million tears just like you..i understand KNOWING you're great but no one else seeing it. to be honest, unsigned was good not great. I don't wanna hype up your ego personality. and i know that was your PERCEIVED BEST EFFORT BUT YOU'VE GOT AN INFINITE MORE SONGS IN YOU THAT WILL speak to everyone. Never change up. peace
you always evolve. Been with you since 2016 and I promise your day is coming
Don't mind me... Back for my daily watch... So much emotions
I feel you man.for real..
@Cal Scruby This is one of your best songs, when you use your emotion, your life and, your truth, then your art resonates with people. Honestly I listen to captain America a lot right now because it's new and catchy to me, I just discovered it. Alternatively I think your talents shine when you're keeping it real and raw. Art is different when you can see someone's soul. I'm not going to preach but be careful what drugs you do, they can take everything from you even your sanity, for real. I just stick to bud, CBD, my prescription Klonopin and the occasional pain pill, when needed. I used to use hard stuff for years. Thanks for performing, may your flow keep evolving, and it will because you don't give up, and you deserve more than you have given yourself up until this point. Keep it real brother.
This reminds me soooo much of the beats from the 1990s
Cal been killin shit. Boy bars & Delivery nice af.
I done almost watched every music video you have and not one has crappy cinematics, S.O you and them film teams!!
Cal we love you!! Try story... You are harass keep em coming!!!
love it. When I’m feeling down I listen to your music. Feels good to see you continuing to do what you love. Keep it up Cal. ❤️💕
Please let this blow so we can get more like this. So damn good. Upvote this video.
His songs are so real. There is not a single song where I haven’t felt what he is saying for at least one bar. Amazing stuff.
This might be my new favorite song
I believe the lost ones have are addicts we walk through the fire every day draining the soul of the the life force.. believe that a new light on us.. support from West by God Virginia 🙏
The lyrical prowess...💯
Your edits are always so cold
My g Cal is too good for this world.
Cal you are truly the reason why I started making music last Month, ever since, my life has literally changed so much. I fux with you my guy always have always will. One day we will be slaying tracks together
Nope lol
@@Kristoker420 lol music been paying my rent every month, might not ever go any further than that but I’m more than okay with what I got goin on
Ayye str8 🔥🔥 keep it up g
Been bumping your ish non-stop since I found out about you. Unsigned is one of the best albums out. True poetry in your art Cal Scruby, never stop dropping that fire.
yo you underrated dawg you deserve more recognition man you're music is fire a friend of mine showed me on of you're songs dead end and first time listening to it its fire already love you're music
Every single song he’s put out in the last year or so has been truly incredible! I hope these more recent drops mean that we’ll get an album soon. Cal is SOOO slept on!! I’m rooting for you Cal, keep burning down the house man!!🔥🔥
whoa
This song still hits ❤️🔥
This guy is my favorite artist. Mind is maid up.
Felt every bar twin
More Cal on West Coast tinged beats please? :)
You Going Toppppp💯
"when I look in the mirror it's on sight "
💯💯💯
20 plus years of addiction here. Half of my life wasted. I stopped for 9 months while back but now the devil is back and got me In deep depression. I gotta change before I lose everything again. I don't have the strength to rebuild
YEAHHHHHHH more new music from one of the best right now! we need a whole album right now - i have your current content on spotify on repeat all day and night.
I know you don't like how people want my anxiety back and your growing and I live all your music. But damn I love this emotional shit cal cause I'll never get out of my rut. You are my favorite rapper ever
It’s crazy watching his music videos from 4 years ago with short hair and fake verses. Then you come here as his hair starts growing as he reinvents himself and his music becomes more than fake. He’s the goat this year for sure. Everything long hair scruby has dropped is fire.
Been a fan since my anxiety. Keep on doing it cal! True story
In my opinion one of realest and best around right now
youtube finally recommended something good
Cal i love your music homie. Its a real breath of fresh air to hear some real music. Keep on writing lines please.
Person vs self aint easy at all; salute to you Cal🙏🏿
Tunessss are phat
Keep killing it cal.
this song hits me right in the feels!
I can't think of a creative comment.... But Cal killing it again. 🔥💨
LOVE YOU MAN