tw (cigar, sh) easily influenced

no i don't smoke. i'm not encouraging it. i don't plan on smoking
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i feel like total shit tbh 😞 this will be me in 20 years if i don't fucking pull myself together and suck it up, idk what's wrong with me atp. i need help idk where to go. i'm internet addicted. easily influenced. my friend vapes. i don't wanna go down that rabbit hole but i feel like i'm getting close and closer and i'm trying to run away from it's tight grip on my mind.