its one of the signs that you are alive and still going strong. its only human to feel like that, just dont let the feeling bring you down into that abyss with no return
I sent this song to my best friend and partner, because it reminded me of him. He means everything to me, and he's been through a lot. I'm proud of him.
When listening to this song I felt a moment where I thought it was meant for me and that's happened in the past for those who read this, remember that everything will get better never forget the reason why you keep fighting every day
It’s so hard to not be ok my life is so tough I can really relate to this song I blame myself for a lot of things from my past and now it’s hard when you feel not good enough Ik everyone has promblems I do to but we should all be their for each other because it’s hard to fight your life and in situations we were never met to be in😭🖤🫂🥺🎧
Why doesn’t it feel like I’m breathing then, why do I feel a constant weight on my chest preventing me from exhaling, why does it feel like I’m falling without any way to get back up, why do I feel like even my emotions are masked when people are around, why do I feel like a ghost; watching everything around me without the ability to do anything, to FEEL anything, why can’t I find who I am under all these masks 🎭, sorry if that didn’t make sense or if offended anyone, the title just got to me for a second
I fully understand how you feel. Even though I have been battling mental health illnesses for as long as I can remember and at 42 I still have more days of what's the point than not. I found that if you can find one reason, no matter how petty, to keep going it helps. I have a few but the one that really kicks me into gear is the fact that I refuse to let my stepmother have the satisfaction of not having to deal with me. I know it's petty and probably a little on the evil side but she single handedly caused my family, the entire family, to turn their back on me so I make her life as hard as possible whenever I can 😈
@@evelynwiberg1955 my brother and helping mom with money is the only reason I’m alive, most of the time it works but even though the depression has been gone for two years I still get days where even that doesn’t seem enough, those feelings will never go away will they, I’m so tired of feeling this way, tired of second guessing everything I do and think, most of all I’m tired of being a prisoner to my mind and I don’t get it, everything has been getting better this year but the weight on my chest won’t leave, it won’t let me breathe, what do you do when the reason you fight doesn’t seem to be working, sorry if that didn’t make sense or if I offended you, also sorry for complaining, how are you? Also I’m surprised anyone has even seen this comment
@@shadowhawk4164 when my inner demons (depression, anxiety, and ptsd) get to be too much, I find a song that quiets them down and listen to it on repeat until they give up. For me there is no end to it because I can't take any of the meds for treatment, they make the suicidal tendencies reality instead of thought. I've tried therapy but they tell me being abused and poisoned by a parent, multiple molestation and attempted r*pes,, the loss of my 1st child at 17 and a lot of other stuff was my fault. I believed it for a while then promptly told them where to go and started trying to find the best way to cope on my own. As for why I saw your comment, I have the ability to see the ones that are needing the help, if that makes sense. Stress is a major trigger for me and having someone to talk to about it always helps me. I'm always here if you want to talk about it. I'm weird because I can't help myself but can help others. Sometimes I honestly think I've survived such that I shouldn't have because I'm ment to help others out of the darkness as that's one of the very few things I'm ok at lol.
@@evelynwiberg1955 you have ptsd too and anxiety too, me too unfortunately, sometimes music is only think quiets the thoughts and voices, that’s one of the reasons I am never going to therapy, that and I’m pretty sure they have to ability to take me away from my family “for my own good”, I’m really sorry you have to go through all that and you can talk to me if you want too, I probably won’t understand much because of the age difference but I will help in any way I can, it makes sense, people on TH-cam are basically the only people I can talk to about what’s truly on my mind so thank you and the same goes for you, no you’re not weird I do the same thing, mood, I hope you’re getting better now, sorry if that didn’t make sense or if I offended you, also sorry for replying so slow, I’m writing this with my left hand
@@shadowhawk4164 unless you are actively trying to harm yourself or others they don't take you away, in my case even if I'm trying to harm myself lol. They may recommend it but as long as you're alert and oriented you can refuse. In all honesty, I learned as a child to never ask for help and never speak about what happens in the house. It took me years to understand that the system actually failed me and I didn't deserve what happened to me so I try to help the ones the system failed or has caused fear to get help because they failed so many others. My husband's ptsd is war related but mine isn't and how you go about helping each type is totally different. I have many things that can set off my episodes but he has few. His are a lot more dangerous than mine are. I'll either stay in the corner or get aggressive but he's actually back in the war in his mind. We're all kinds of messed up mentally but we also balance each other out. I do hope everyone can find their balance in this world no matter what it is. I've been able to find ways to help me with my anxiety but it doesn't always help others. When I'm anxious I take the motion sickness medicine dramamene, probably misspelled. If I take one every night I'll have fewer panic attacks during the day. If you can handle it there are herbal teas that can help with anxiety and depression as well. I can't remember which ones they are, brain damage sucks, at this moment but you should be able to research it easily.
I don't know why but it feels good, to feel bad... I feel happy to be broken and it's the best feeling I've ever felt :).
its one of the signs that you are alive and still going strong. its only human to feel like that, just dont let the feeling bring you down into that abyss with no return
My bf hates me so rn It does feel good
@@dawnrenegade8110 why already did it put me in a hospital for a few but. I miss the darkness
Music like this is therapeutic and allows you to get through these emotions in a healthy way and allow you to continue with your day
It's kinda like loving pain , it's a weird feeling. Like pain is supposed to be avoided but I just love it ❤
why did this make me cry 😢
This song made me feel like you're singing about my life experiences. It hit like a brick to the face but you're right, we all made it.
this isn't their song. go support the original singer Citizen Soldier
@@SolarPlasma already did. I like theirs as well
You know their a legend when not even 24 hours after being posted they have a nightcore cover
Edit: love it btw
I sent this song to my best friend and partner, because it reminded me of him. He means everything to me, and he's been through a lot. I'm proud of him.
To who ever sees this I’m proud of you for standing still through all the pain and hardships and your worth it
Thanks
When listening to this song I felt a moment where I thought it was meant for me and that's happened in the past
for those who read this, remember that everything will get better never forget the reason why you keep fighting every day
thismakes me so happy because i relate to this song so much thx for this
Wow, 1 day to make a nightcore. Amazing product
awesome song it feels so good like a emotional magic
Love it, keep doing good work, < 3
If your heart is still beating your gonna b ok-I kp replaying it...just those words
But your still alive and that's not a mistake - i nd this
Helps me going through my relationship, thanks!
It’s so hard to not be ok my life is so tough I can really relate to this song I blame myself for a lot of things from my past and now it’s hard when you feel not good enough Ik everyone has promblems I do to but we should all be their for each other because it’s hard to fight your life and in situations we were never met to be in😭🖤🫂🥺🎧
wow, sounds great
Thank you!!!
Thanks I needed to hear that. I'm feeling a bit better now.😞😐😁
Me too, It help that song, Who write it understend how we feel 😊
Cool channel 😎
You deserve so much more for your perfect work ⭐
Thank you!!!
@@DefianceCore For your perfect work I give you a 10/10 🤩 You are just perfect in what you do ⭐
Love it ♥️
Thanks!!!
I love it ❤ :)
nice i love it
Thanks!!!
@@DefianceCore you welcome
I love it!
Thanks!!!
good song
Thanks!!!
🤣🤣🤣 if you are breathing then more painful days are coming . Be ready for it. If it stops your pains are done
LIFE IS ALWAYS A WAR!!!
- PANTHEON
How is the war in my head a story to tell?
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Which character from Arknights is this?
Lappland
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Lapland
Patient 0 - I love life too
Much and my wife and kid 💎
Hi
Why doesn’t it feel like I’m breathing then, why do I feel a constant weight on my chest preventing me from exhaling, why does it feel like I’m falling without any way to get back up, why do I feel like even my emotions are masked when people are around, why do I feel like a ghost; watching everything around me without the ability to do anything, to FEEL anything, why can’t I find who I am under all these masks 🎭, sorry if that didn’t make sense or if offended anyone, the title just got to me for a second
I fully understand how you feel. Even though I have been battling mental health illnesses for as long as I can remember and at 42 I still have more days of what's the point than not. I found that if you can find one reason, no matter how petty, to keep going it helps. I have a few but the one that really kicks me into gear is the fact that I refuse to let my stepmother have the satisfaction of not having to deal with me. I know it's petty and probably a little on the evil side but she single handedly caused my family, the entire family, to turn their back on me so I make her life as hard as possible whenever I can 😈
@@evelynwiberg1955 my brother and helping mom with money is the only reason I’m alive, most of the time it works but even though the depression has been gone for two years I still get days where even that doesn’t seem enough, those feelings will never go away will they, I’m so tired of feeling this way, tired of second guessing everything I do and think, most of all I’m tired of being a prisoner to my mind and I don’t get it, everything has been getting better this year but the weight on my chest won’t leave, it won’t let me breathe, what do you do when the reason you fight doesn’t seem to be working, sorry if that didn’t make sense or if I offended you, also sorry for complaining, how are you? Also I’m surprised anyone has even seen this comment
@@shadowhawk4164 when my inner demons (depression, anxiety, and ptsd) get to be too much, I find a song that quiets them down and listen to it on repeat until they give up. For me there is no end to it because I can't take any of the meds for treatment, they make the suicidal tendencies reality instead of thought. I've tried therapy but they tell me being abused and poisoned by a parent, multiple molestation and attempted r*pes,, the loss of my 1st child at 17 and a lot of other stuff was my fault. I believed it for a while then promptly told them where to go and started trying to find the best way to cope on my own. As for why I saw your comment, I have the ability to see the ones that are needing the help, if that makes sense. Stress is a major trigger for me and having someone to talk to about it always helps me. I'm always here if you want to talk about it. I'm weird because I can't help myself but can help others. Sometimes I honestly think I've survived such that I shouldn't have because I'm ment to help others out of the darkness as that's one of the very few things I'm ok at lol.
@@evelynwiberg1955 you have ptsd too and anxiety too, me too unfortunately, sometimes music is only think quiets the thoughts and voices, that’s one of the reasons I am never going to therapy, that and I’m pretty sure they have to ability to take me away from my family “for my own good”, I’m really sorry you have to go through all that and you can talk to me if you want too, I probably won’t understand much because of the age difference but I will help in any way I can, it makes sense, people on TH-cam are basically the only people I can talk to about what’s truly on my mind so thank you and the same goes for you, no you’re not weird I do the same thing, mood, I hope you’re getting better now, sorry if that didn’t make sense or if I offended you, also sorry for replying so slow, I’m writing this with my left hand
@@shadowhawk4164 unless you are actively trying to harm yourself or others they don't take you away, in my case even if I'm trying to harm myself lol. They may recommend it but as long as you're alert and oriented you can refuse. In all honesty, I learned as a child to never ask for help and never speak about what happens in the house. It took me years to understand that the system actually failed me and I didn't deserve what happened to me so I try to help the ones the system failed or has caused fear to get help because they failed so many others. My husband's ptsd is war related but mine isn't and how you go about helping each type is totally different. I have many things that can set off my episodes but he has few. His are a lot more dangerous than mine are. I'll either stay in the corner or get aggressive but he's actually back in the war in his mind. We're all kinds of messed up mentally but we also balance each other out. I do hope everyone can find their balance in this world no matter what it is. I've been able to find ways to help me with my anxiety but it doesn't always help others. When I'm anxious I take the motion sickness medicine dramamene, probably misspelled. If I take one every night I'll have fewer panic attacks during the day. If you can handle it there are herbal teas that can help with anxiety and depression as well. I can't remember which ones they are, brain damage sucks, at this moment but you should be able to research it easily.