"I've never admitted this before, but For a long time I've been Just a very lonely guy And it's my fault, yeah But, anyway that's all gonna be behind me Kinda soon Cause I'll be moving away Starting something new But, my main point is I just wish... I just wish that I could've been Closer to you all" Those are the lyrics.
I've never told a soul this... This song was on repeat for several weeks, months when I was at the lowest point in my life. This song was always on play while I walked to work and I believe its what got me thru the darkest days. I won't get into too many details but the light shines the brightest after the darkest storms. I'm past that darkness but this song is my reminder that I can even be grateful for those dark days for they brought me to a better place in the end. Keep going if you feel stuck, don't give up.
lyrics: "I've never admitted this before, but For a long time I've been Just a very lonely guy And it's my fault, yeah But, anyway that's all gonna be behind me Kinda soon Cause I'll be moving away Starting something new But, my main point is I just wish... I just wish that I could've been Closer to you all" -Janus Balignasay
I'm sitting here repeating this song... and it's not even the kind I would normally listen to. I like the fast beats and energizing rhythms, but in this song, the emotion just rolls over you like a surfer in a breaking wave... You just lay there and let it carry you, until you lay down in the sand, underwater. I can barely come up with the words to describe the feelings in this piece, and great job to Mapps for making this, and the first song that I can enjoy and obsess over that doesn't make me feel like I want to run in circles for an hour.
Sheepy, I have to say I love all your uploads but sometimes you upload very special pieces like this one and I sit here repeating it over and over again. Thank you for this masterpiece.
Reminds me of the voice message my dad left for me the day before he passed away. He said he wanted to see me but it was too late and that he loves me. I left my phone at home that day before work 😔
Day 4 of trying to find good music... All outta cheetos and mountain dew. Starting to see things... Mom is that you? Day 5 after many hours of searching, finally found something that I can really enjoy. Thanks you wool ridden music uploader.
+Goodbye Lullaby If it weren't for family I would probably be a hermit. In my early years I lived in a town with only 12 houses with my grandparents. In my teens/goth days I would just walk in the woods and just disappear for a while. Maybe find a creek or pond and fish. I'm fairly certain there was a cult near my part of my woods. There was an old school house from the 1800's neighboring our property. When I neared the school I could often hear drums and flutes.
+Goodbye Lullaby " [...] and loneliness isnt rare. But you turned yours into a weapon; you used your despair as the edge of your sword, the poison of your blade - the helplessness upon your fear, and burnt it as a fire to power your soul."
Especially on these rainy days, I wish I could have been closer to you. Rest in peace Mother and all those that I have lost...May we meet again in the next life...
+Immo Reminds me more of sitting on my front porch gazing at the stars at night when a cool winter-ish wind blows and the leaves of the trees rustle in its wake. Idk.
I feel this song connect to me so much. I'm a single guy that managed to fuck up every relationship I've been in. The good and the bad, I always found a way to self destruct and leave people getting hurt. Never have a problem in finding the girls, yet I'm always so empty inside. Just a "very lonely guy." "And it's my fault yeah.." I wish someone out there would be able to relate to this, and appreciate this amazing song for the true price of art it is.
every time i hear this song i close my eyes and i imagine that im high up on a build sitting on the edge, looking down to the colorful lights of cars and sights taking a deep breath and enjoying the view while the wind blows slowly through my cloths and hair
This song reminds me of my dad. He was lonely after my mum and dad divorced, and then in the song the guy says hes moving away, well my dad moved away a few years ago too.. To heaven. He didn't get much of a chance to know me or my sisters better. Sad song. Hits me hard.
Funny...I found this music about one week ago and I have recently broken up off a 5 year relationship and my first thought when sitting alone quietly was the lyric of this song. I don't see the need to come here and write this pointless comment but usually this is the time we spend together but now there's nothing...and today is the first day I try this famous american Twinkie and it taste shyte......erm....nothing make sense atm but time will heal I know....
"Think about it when it's dark, and cold, and quite. Complete. Serenity. You question if you're lonely or if this is how it needs to be. The music is your heart beat, and like the song, you too will go on." -Elsie Locks
You can't have it worse than me. I got sick this year with vertigo for months and developed tinnitus(No cure). Then lost my dog.. :( Got dumped yesterday... 6 year relationship.
+Bella Mirkwood Storms come and Storms pass. If you believe in the immortal soul what is this mortal existence but shadows and dust drifting through sunrays....that dust that at one point was the star.....
@K Wonderer Telling someone why their pain isn't as deep as someone else seems a bit cruel... I hope you find some more happiness soon. *sending a tub full of hugs*
"Hey, I wish we could hangout like we used to. Remember when we were kids, pushing against each other at the seesaw. From that day we had a connection. Now, look at us. We are all grown up, being who we dreamed of... But we have to go our separate ways to dream we wanted. Sadly, the hardest part was not knowing you were my dream to be with. We are a force to be reckon with. Us against the World.
I love that really harsh snappy snare, contrasting so starkly with the soft evocative flow of the rest of the track. The intro also reminds me of a Paradise Lost death metal track where Charles Manson is talking...very haunting (can't remember the name of the track). I also LOVE the intricate high hat pattern, yummy. Edit: Paradise Lost - Forever Failure is the name of the track.
Yep quite sad actually mainly cus I remember my class...lost contact or fought with many great friends that got out of my school... if only I could go back
Andre Caetano In my case it reminded me of my friend who died in a car accident this year and people that moved away from my country that I'll probably never see again, also a lot more things but mainly this. This part of the lyrics fits perfectly : I just wish that I could've been, Closer to you all.
+Sk_Salted I have a very similar situation. Last year a friend of mine died during a horrific accident while working part time to earn money to study in his desired university. He had a really bright future ahead of him, just finished college and had a really amazing girlfriend who was planning on moving in with him. Every now and then I think of him and this song reminded me of him.
When I hear this song I imagine it's a voicemail sent to the widowed spouse of a soldier. The man sending the message hated the guy but slowly grew to like him. He was able to return home but forever blamed himself for the death of his comrade.
"I've never admitted this before, but
For a long time
I've been
Just a very lonely guy
And it's my fault, yeah
But, anyway that's all gonna be behind me
Kinda soon
Cause I'll be moving away
Starting something new
But, my main point is
I just wish...
I just wish that I could've been
Closer to you all"
Those are the lyrics.
+Windex Thank you!
Windex you are the greatest human ever, keep doing this on videos I couldn't find the lyrics anywhere not even yahoo
Windex thank you
You make everything clear...
#so relatable :,)
I've never told a soul this... This song was on repeat for several weeks, months when I was at the lowest point in my life. This song was always on play while I walked to work and I believe its what got me thru the darkest days. I won't get into too many details but the light shines the brightest after the darkest storms. I'm past that darkness but this song is my reminder that I can even be grateful for those dark days for they brought me to a better place in the end. Keep going if you feel stuck, don't give up.
lyrics:
"I've never admitted this before, but
For a long time
I've been
Just a very lonely guy
And it's my fault, yeah
But, anyway that's all gonna be behind me
Kinda soon
Cause I'll be moving away
Starting something new
But, my main point is
I just wish...
I just wish that I could've been
Closer to you all"
-Janus Balignasay
I can't recall another song that hit me directly in the feels like this one does. :|
+DubstepIsWhat Some Electus songs.
+DubstepIsWhat Try out some Koda stuff ;)
+Vojtěch Novotný I agree Koda will do that sort of thing as well
It's so freaking sad
Mapps - Untitled.als
I'm sitting here repeating this song... and it's not even the kind I would normally listen to. I like the fast beats and energizing rhythms, but in this song, the emotion just rolls over you like a surfer in a breaking wave... You just lay there and let it carry you, until you lay down in the sand, underwater. I can barely come up with the words to describe the feelings in this piece, and great job to Mapps for making this, and the first song that I can enjoy and obsess over that doesn't make me feel like I want to run in circles for an hour.
It's truly a masterpiece. I don't think I'll ever get tired of hearing :)
Same!
**Everyone's praising sheepy but none are praising the artist.**
+KiIlerKiwi Let's find them and hug them! :D ;)
arent you supposed to be fighting somewhere?
The beat and rhythm of this song make me want to burst into tears, without reason.
This song is so deep it reached the depth of my soul
The lyrics upset you, and then the slow music makes you think about it even more and oh god tears
Sheepy, I have to say I love all your uploads but sometimes you upload very special pieces like this one and I sit here repeating it over and over again. Thank you for this masterpiece.
Reminds me of the voice message my dad left for me the day before he passed away. He said he wanted to see me but it was too late and that he loves me. I left my phone at home that day before work 😔
+MrSupBruh that's so sad :(
This persuaded me to message my dad that I haven't talked to in a few years now. Thanks :) and may your dad rest in peace
vivaglamnadia Thank you so much. I hope everything went well with you and your dad :)
MrSupBruh actually i learned some pretty devastating news, but I'm grieving and trying to work through it
vivaglamnadia I'm real sorry to hear that. Just remember to keep your head up and stay positive :/
I've been looking for this song for 6 months and I FINALLY found it. Still as amazing as i remember it
chills. didnt think i'd experience goosebumps like that again over a song.
Day 4 of trying to find good music... All outta cheetos and mountain dew. Starting to see things... Mom is that you?
Day 5 after many hours of searching, finally found something that I can really enjoy. Thanks you wool ridden music uploader.
Amazing how much emotion and how many memories a song can bring out. Love Music.
I've never admitted this before, but
Forever I've been
Just a very lonely guy
And it's my fault or I think It is.
Same here dude
Loners are the best bro
+Goodbye Lullaby If it weren't for family I would probably be a hermit. In my early years I lived in a town with only 12 houses with my grandparents. In my teens/goth days I would just walk in the woods and just disappear for a while. Maybe find a creek or pond and fish. I'm fairly certain there was a cult near my part of my woods. There was an old school house from the 1800's neighboring our property. When I neared the school I could often hear drums and flutes.
+Goodbye Lullaby " [...] and loneliness isnt rare. But you turned yours into a weapon; you used your despair as the edge of your sword, the poison of your blade - the helplessness upon your fear, and burnt it as a fire to power your soul."
+Paradoxe that sentence made me think about my life at the moment
Oh man, this song is gorgeous. Gonna be on repeat for a while..
this has to be the most beautiful song I've ever heard. my jaw dropped. completely speechless.
Fantastic. Just really, really fantastic. Thank you, Mapps!
Idk why but vibes from this song is so satisfying ♥
Especially on these rainy days, I wish I could have been closer to you. Rest in peace Mother and all those that I have lost...May we meet again in the next life...
Saw this from a video and this caught my attention, this song is like.....nostalgic....calm.....and deep.. in its own ways.
I'm looking at all these comments and the song is just starting, I'm counting on you all.
did we deliver?
This is why I love this channel more than MrSuicideSheep. This is so much more lovely
This song makes me so relaxed even though it sends so much emotion through me. I love it. ♡
I have cried to this multiple times, and I will continue to do so.
This song is perfect for a rainy day in the summer. Is it just me or.....?
+Immo well i mean its the middle of fall for me but i feel you
+qubeFunGamer >_>?
It's just raining and I'm hearing this music.. It's really bizarrely beautiful moment.. One of the finest tracks on this channel
turbo111777 Just wait until the summer and listen to this on a rainy day. ;D
+Immo Reminds me more of sitting on my front porch gazing at the stars at night when a cool winter-ish wind blows and the leaves of the trees rustle in its wake. Idk.
What a great song! Great atmosphere, kinda gives a nostalgic feeling.
I feel this song connect to me so much. I'm a single guy that managed to fuck up every relationship I've been in. The good and the bad, I always found a way to self destruct and leave people getting hurt. Never have a problem in finding the girls, yet I'm always so empty inside. Just a "very lonely guy." "And it's my fault yeah.." I wish someone out there would be able to relate to this, and appreciate this amazing song for the true price of art it is.
Thanks for another great upload Sheepy and Mapps.
Breathtaking Love it !!!!
Mapps
i've been waiting for more songs like this. hnnng soo good
So deep, beautiful and relaxing..:)
I was waiting for Mapps to hit me with some more good ones and finally he released soulstice
The vocals seem so distant. I love it.
This song is truly amazing
Yess! Go Mapps :D
Okay just hear me out...add rain and thunder to this omg so amazing it fits in well.
Absolutely love this.
This song seems to really capture the essence of Regret / loneliness. It's beautiful and easy to get lost in...
mapps get this song so deep adele trying to do the vocals for it.. perfect :)
i love this mystic,relaxing atmosphere of this song
This song is amazing...I love it.
this song makes me feel really sad even w/o listening to the words and stuff, it's odd i love it
we all love you sheepy and mapps.
+Thelunatic Loggers See...?That can be much more fulfilling...just saying...think about it next time k? :)
Savage *420* WTF!!! how! btw though I just prefer when people use the correct grammar and spelling.... :)
Sheepy barely uploaded this masterpiece and I've already listened to it 10 times. :'(
Lyrics and general feel remind me of Interstellar
+Pickle Jar Ok
I felt the same way
+0207xander Yeah, kinda, but it needs more murph (?
yes it is
0207xander this exactly the comment I was looking for
Amazing like always..
Thank you for this Sheep !
Beautiful.
every time i hear this song i close my eyes and i imagine that im high up on a build sitting on the edge, looking down to the colorful lights of cars and sights taking a deep breath and enjoying the view while the wind blows slowly through my cloths and hair
So relaxing and chilly :)
This song reminds me of my dad. He was lonely after my mum and dad divorced, and then in the song the guy says hes moving away, well my dad moved away a few years ago too.. To heaven. He didn't get much of a chance to know me or my sisters better. Sad song. Hits me hard.
The perfect time listening to this is on your bed hearing the rain late at night close your eyes and just think
This dope is so good, such a great song
Hello i’m back here to listen to this masterpiece❤
Funny...I found this music about one week ago and I have recently broken up off a 5 year relationship and my first thought when sitting alone quietly was the lyric of this song.
I don't see the need to come here and write this pointless comment but usually this is the time we spend together but now there's nothing...and today is the first day I try this famous american Twinkie and it taste shyte......erm....nothing make sense atm but time will heal I know....
There's always someone out there who has it worse, its an infinite chain if you come to think about; dont mind me im just tossing my two-cents mate.
"Think about it when it's dark, and cold, and quite. Complete. Serenity. You question if you're lonely or if this is how it needs to be. The music is your heart beat, and like the song, you too will go on." -Elsie Locks
You can't have it worse than me. I got sick this year with vertigo for months and developed tinnitus(No cure). Then lost my dog.. :( Got dumped yesterday... 6 year relationship.
+Bella Mirkwood Storms come and Storms pass. If you believe in the immortal soul what is this mortal existence but shadows and dust drifting through sunrays....that dust that at one point was the star.....
@K Wonderer Telling someone why their pain isn't as deep as someone else seems a bit cruel...
I hope you find some more happiness soon. *sending a tub full of hugs*
Give Sheepy and Mapps some love guys, they deserve it
Thank you for this :), gratitude!!!
I get the feel of an astronaut talking to some one he misses on earth.
I've hurt people in the past... Friends that I would call family.. Now it's too late, now I'm the one that's alone..
Impecable... 😍💪🐑
This is pure Bliss
This is so damn chill
"Hey, I wish we could hangout like we used to. Remember when we were kids, pushing against each other at the seesaw. From that day we had a connection. Now, look at us. We are all grown up, being who we dreamed of...
But we have to go our separate ways to dream we wanted. Sadly, the hardest part was not knowing you were my dream to be with.
We are a force to be reckon with. Us against the World.
awesome like always
I love that really harsh snappy snare, contrasting so starkly with the soft evocative flow of the rest of the track. The intro also reminds me of a Paradise Lost death metal track where Charles Manson is talking...very haunting (can't remember the name of the track).
I also LOVE the intricate high hat pattern, yummy.
Edit: Paradise Lost - Forever Failure is the name of the track.
Oldie but goodie.
So glad this song is free
Beautiful thank you
that's real perfection!! :)
Am I the only one who sees himself in these lyrics ? :|
+Sk_Salted u not alone
Angels son Thanks bro
Yep quite sad actually mainly cus I remember my class...lost contact or fought with many great friends that got out of my school... if only I could go back
Andre Caetano In my case it reminded me of my friend who died in a car accident this year and people that moved away from my country that I'll probably never see again, also a lot more things but mainly this. This part of the lyrics fits perfectly : I just wish that I could've been, Closer to you all.
+Sk_Salted I have a very similar situation. Last year a friend of mine died during a horrific accident while working part time to earn money to study in his desired university. He had a really bright future ahead of him, just finished college and had a really amazing girlfriend who was planning on moving in with him. Every now and then I think of him and this song reminded me of him.
Best Song Ever !!!
I just wish that i could of been...
+KingStix EU > NA
WanderinHawk xD idk about that but Korea>all
+KingStix KR > all
+KingStix JOHN CENA!
Justice Moore mby
NIIIGGGAA THIS SHIT IS TOOOO DEEEP ... A NIGGA GOT THE FEEELS BRUH
Bruh...layke too real bruh...u know bruh? xD
ShowMe TheSugarWalls
Bruh wuh?Wuh wuh even bruuuuh
+unknown this shit's too real man
+WhenYouNut AndSheKeepOnSuckin nooo what happened to sugar walls?!
Okay
The feels...
Splendid upload my friend.
I need more songs like this in my life. anyone have suggestions?
si beau !
This song gives me such a deep sadness. I love it but I can barely listen to it
Sheepy you beast bro!!!
Excelente canal, parabéns!😉
o canal e foda mesmo my respect
Really impressive! :)
Im crying lol
Lovely :)
Our song 😊 my baby Axcel 💘
Yes baby girl I love you sm😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
this song is just AMAZING...THANKS A LOT to mapps for the free download...i would even have bought it if it should had to be so *_*
amazing
Well, this is... Interesting! 3:00 to ending is my favorite part
lyriks would be nice. I just enjoy reading them while listening ^^.
łooooo this is awesome ! Perfect song =D
Great track my dear sheepy sensei .3
wow. just wow.
IVE BEEN SEARCHING FOR THIS SONG FOR 2 HOURS (because I forgot the name) and couldn't figure it out until now at 1am XD)
When I hear this song I imagine it's a voicemail sent to the widowed spouse of a soldier. The man sending the message hated the guy but slowly grew to like him. He was able to return home but forever blamed himself for the death of his comrade.
Love it
reminds me of Transistor. Hell of a game, hell of a song XD
I used this song on my montage and it fit perfectly
This is Song Perfect👌 :")
hooly shit what is this masterpiece