I feel you. Don’t be sorry for being depressed. It’s like a terrible accident, you get hit by it. It’s nothing you can control. I’m just happy you are in a better state of mind. That’s all that matters :)
OH IVORY, I'm so happy Steve found a new job. That's ABSOLUTELY AMAZING and such a blessing in disguise. YOU'RE AMAZING, We're all here for you. LOVE YOU TOO PIECES ❤❤❤
Ivory, please don't feel like you have to apologize for anything! Depression doesn't always have a rhyme or reason to it. It can hit out of no where, and can be so debilitating. Self care is everything! I'm so sorry to hear about Steve (although it sounds like things are looking much brighter!), that's such a stressful thing to go through. You are loved, you are special, and you are worth it. We'll be here to welcome you back from whenever you need a break!!! Take care of yourself ❤️❤️
Thank you so so much 💕 I totally agree you never know when depression or anxiety will hit and it sucks because it really gets in the way of me doing even menial tasks sometimes. But I am definitely feeling better and so happy to be back!
You are human. You have the right to cope and deal with your feelings and private matters how you want to do it. We, as the community, should just be patient and be supportive. XOXO Amanda (big fan)!
Thank you for your support! I agree some people don't know boundaries or think it's okay to be pushy about me telling my business before I'm ready to talk about it. I am SO glad that almost everyone was so respectful here. Y'all are freaking amazing ❤️❤️
Ivory! My dear friend! You are a beautifully kind soul! When I hear someone open up about their depression I just want to give them a hug. I know first hand that it’s incredibly lonely to go through depression. I’m sorry you were going through that. It broke my heart to see you cry and say you felt like a burden. You are a wonderful light and I hope you remember that! I know income loss is such a big stressor. Know you are an incredible partner and amazing human especially when you mentioned you were trying to offer support to Steve. I am so sad you and your hubby were going through all this on your own. But know you guys are team and though hardships are bound to happen you two have each other.💗 What a great blessing to have a new job opportunity come up so soon! 💗 Sending you so many hugs! And I’m happy you are feeling better now. If you ever need a friend I am only a dm away 💗🥺!
listening to you talk about your depression really made me feel so seen, i go through the exact same thing and feel so terrible because it often just hits me for no reason. please know that you're not alone in your struggles and you offer so much to this world even when you feel your lowest. i'm so sorry you had such a rough patch, but i'm glad things are looking up and that steve was able to find a new job. sending lots of love to you ivory!! all the best
Ivory thank you for making this video and allowing yourself to show how you feel. You are very brave for doing so. I just want to say that you are not alone and I want to truly thank you for showing this side of yourself. It makes me feel less alone. Seeing you break down like that really broke my heart but it also reminded me of exactly how I feel at times. Your emotions resembled mine. And for the longest time I thought that wasn't normal since Ive never seen someone break down like I do. I can relate to how you feel. Everything you were describing sounded just how I feel at times. Its weird but I knew exactly of the pain you were talking about. When you cried my heart ached because I know how it feels. Just remember you are truly loved and we all admire you. I cant thank you enough for making videos on youtube. It really does mean a lot to me seeing someone with the same skin texture as me on here. All over social media you see these girls with perfect skin trying to sell you a product. I dont know how people dont get tired of it. But anyways, I hope you continue to feel better and take care.
thank you so much for your kind words 💗 feeling this way can really hinder my ability to even do simple tasks, so i spent most of those weeks just laying around trying to get out of the funk. but slowly I started doing small tasks and being proud of even just those small accomplishments. And today I feel pretty much 100% so things are back on track (: I hope you're doing well and know that you matter and are loved too (: Have a wonderful weekend love 😘
Totally understand you have the right to fell the way you do I was diagnosed with bipolar depression and all of the symptoms that you are saying is exactly what I have I am a mother I am a wife I am a sister I am a friend and sometimes I feel like I'm the worst of everything and you're right you never know when it's going to happen but you're strong you'll push through it
yes exactly! I feel like I'm mediocre in all those categories all the time and it sucksss. definitely working on realizing that's not the case, despite what my head thinks lol. I'm forever a work in progress haha
You don't need to be sorry for anything we love you we understand you 💕 I'm glad you're at a better state of mind now and also happy to hear things are falling back into place. Definitely things happen for a reason, like you said a blessing in disguise. We're here with you!
You are not alone in this! every word you said I can feel and relate to👋 That’s so cool, little miracles happen when you least expect! Lots of luck and prosperity to your family ❤️ I really like your channel, such thoroughness, diligence, your sense of humor and charming self - all that makes it special and different from others👏 no matter how often you upload ❤️
What you're saying about withdrawing and depressive states is so relatable. Hope you start making videos consistently again. Miss your foundation reviews. ❤
Thanks for sharing your updates, it is so good to take time for yourself and do what you need to do. I know how it is sometimes with youtube but I"m glad you took time. Blessings to everyone, you are exactly where you need to be 💠💖🙏
Girl....Ive been there...and still struggling with depression/anxiety. It has taken me years to understand that I am worthy . First of all...kudos to you for publicly admitting it...and we got you...Love you!!
We love you girl! You def don't have to share anything personal on the internet .... I don't have a youtube channel and it looks like it can be really scary sometimes. People are crazy and mean! I get the same "self-worth attacks" and it's awful feeling that way.
I'm so glad to hear the layoff was short lived and things are now looking up for you all!! I'm also glad that you put yourself first and took some time away from the camera, and you didn't try to force yourself to film. But I'm looking forward to your upcoming videos!
I have been feeling the exact same way lately! Maybe there is something going on in the universe. I haven't been watching any beauty videos at all. Just haven't been feeling it. I am glad that Steve found a new job so quickly! That has to be a relief. Depression and anxiety sucks but I think more people have it then don't and just know you are not alone!
omg SAME! I watch smaller channels to support but as far as the big channels that I follow, no one's video has been very interesting to me. but maybe it's also because there are not a lot of interesting products coming up too? either way I hope you're doing okay!! 💗💗
Thanks for being so open regarding your mental health struggles…SO many people struggle (including me) and it needs to be less of a taboo topic. BTW I love your thorough reviews!!
I agree, I think that the topic of mental health has definitely come a LONG way, but it can still be improved. So many people think that just because you don't "look sick" means you don't need time off and that's just unreasonable and unrealistic
I definitely missed you because you are legit my favorite TH-camr and you have helped me soooo much. I wanted to tell you to try a combo but it’s a foundation you already love!
I've been through a sudden job loss myself. Even when it has nothing to do with your job performance, it's still such a feeling of rejection. So glad the new opportunity worked out for him!
yes ABSOLUTELY! even if it's purely for business and cost reasons, at the end of the day you're losing your job and it still stings so I totally sympathize
I feel like that almost every day I just have to push though it. That’s why I never started my channel. Everyone is human and needs time to their selfs. Never apologize for need that and it’s really not anyone’s business to know every detail about someone else’s life ❤️
I hope you're okay!! I know what that feeling is to just push through things and little by little you feel sadder or more worn down. sending you lots of love!! 💋
So sorry you and Steve had to go through that - that is so stressful! Congrats to Steve to the new opportunity - sounds like this was a blessing in disguise! You’re awesome at what you do and your videos are A+. Absolutely no one does wear tests like you do - I absolutely love watching them even if if I don’t wear foundation :)
yes steve is super excited about this new opportunity!! and thank you so much I really try my best with my videos so I'm glad you find them helpful, or at least entertaining (:
Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry you've been going through this. I get depression with similar things, like I'm a burden and I withdraw. It sucks so much. And logic is like completely absent when I get like that. Anyway, I'm glad you're feeling better!
yes exactly! there was nothing specific that happened when I was thinking I'm a burden or that I'm worthless, it just crept into my mind and brought me down. but definitely on the upswing of things! I hope you're feeling better gorgeous!
Girl, i know exactly how you feel about those times where you're just depressive and cant explain why. Im sorry some people were being nosy and rude wanting to know why when you weren't ready to film. I think it was a blessing om disguise! I'm glad you're doing better now! I've been so busy with work but I'm working my way through your videos after this one since I'm off today! Love you always ♡♡
@@IvoryCherry hehe, your videos and other friends videos are all in a separate playlist I run while I edit / clean, etc! So i might not comment on all, but you get the views and watch time😘😘
I 100% empathize with how you have been feeling because I can say that I have totally felt that way and do feel that way a lot. I'm so sorry people reacted negatively. Good luck with the hubby's new job, selling the house, getting in the new house, etc! Please take care of yourself 🧡
Yea I can't control everyone's behaviors. But thankfully pretty much everyone was very respectful of my need for time off which I am VERY thankful for. Thank you so much we are sooo excited for all the new things coming up for us!
Guarding our heart & minds is paramount. So many of us fight the struggle, it's ok. People need to stay in their lane & mind their business. You & Steve take care of yourselves ✌🏾❤️🔆
Girl I KNOW. I knew it was coming too so I actually warned everyone ahead of time that I would be either unresponsive, or I would be short with my response or sometimes I just wouldn't respond if I didn't have the energy and thankfully all my real friends were totally understanding and cool about it 😊☺️
@@IvoryCherry oh good! Yeah my friends have been with me long enough to know I have cave creature times but I'll eventually reply lol. Glad your friends are understanding even if random people on the internet are nosy and entitled 🙃
Nice to see/hear from you again, Ivory! Pls do not feel you have to apologize. You were dealing with some personal stuff...we will be okay 👍Congrats on your hubby's new job...one door closed but another opened! 😁🤗
I personally missed you and your videos but I know you needed your space so I’m happy everything is going good for you now! And no matter how long the wait, I’m sure me and people who support you were going to wait what’s necessary for you to feel better! 💕
thank you SO much for understanding! yes it's hard because I am usually so happy to make videos but sometimes, like any job, it's good to take a break to reset and recharge and it was MUCH needed. So excited for the next videos to come!
Hi Ivory, lovely to see you back. And i'm so very sorry that you and Steve had to go through all of that. HUGE Congrats to him on his new job. As a fellow YTuber, I can understand not only how much work goes into each video, but its definitely hard to do all the content creation when you are not in the best mental state. I feel like I have so many ups and downs still navigating this world with everything else that's life. Supporting you ALWAYS❤❤ glad you took a break and are back loads better now😘
I have literally been in this exact situation. My husband and I bought a home and then he lost his job a couple months later. We ended up having to sell our home and moved across the country with our two kids only for him to get a job that made him the senior engineer. Life is funny sometimes, but it works out in mysterious ways! Hang in there Ivory!
You have nothing to apologize for. I’m glad you are feeling better and that your husband found another job. Just know that whenever I’m feeling down, I watch your videos because you have such a good energy it always helps me feel better and you make me laugh. I love watching your videos and adore your personality.❤️
You make me happy each time I watch a new video of yours! You’re great. Love how you talk fast and do your makeup. And so sorry about your husband losing his job. These are terrible times, trust me I know as Im a business owner. Im happy he found another job. 💕
yes we got so lucky thank goodnesss!!! I hope your business is okay! i know for many people they really lost a big chunk of income or had to close down during covid so I hope that isn't case for you!
I am so happy you’re back and feeling a bit better. I understand how stressful life was for you and why you needed a break. Please never apologize, people forget youtubers have real lives and emotions outside the internet. Also you deserve everything and more!!!
I missed your community post about taking a break, and was just wondering where you've been, I missed your videos! Glad everything worked out well for your family and that you are feeling better.
Dear Ivory , don’t ever look down on yourself! You definitely deserve all the love and support! You’ve come so far ! ❤️ please remember, be a confident young lady and you don’t need to feel confident to BE confident!! 🤗 Depression never make any sense , I am sure we all can relate to the feeling !! 🤗 xoxo
I'm so happy you are back and feeling better!! This is going to sound very sappy and maybe silly, but this song by Garth Brooke's always pop in my head when I hit a low or it feels hopeless..its called: Some of Gods greatest gifts are unanswered prayers, it just always seems to get me through those low moments because it's so true. Your very loved and you are DEFINITELY worth it all! 😘😘😘
I'm so sorry that you had to deal with the awful situation, depression and the nasty, entitled people. **sends lots of hugs and support** Congratulations to Steve on the new job! I hope that the good news lets you enjoy the new house even more. 🙂
awe dear ivory you are just a sweetie ! i think you did the right thing of drawing back and taking time for yourself! its ok to do that!! and then with the news of steve of course i can only imagine how it added to everything ! but i am happy that steve got another job and yes maybe it was a blessing in disguise for him now that he is the lead. i wish you all the best of luck in selling the house and the new house! i think when change comes sometimes it does increase our anxieties and fears. i know i aint change's bestie ! yet i know that self care is so important and some times that pulling away is needed to take a minute to take care of yourself x x x sending many hugs dear ivory, you are amazing and you are loved x
Ivory I am so happy to see that you are doing fine and you are all well. Always remember that things happen for a reason. I know it is hard not to stress out but that is what I always tell myself. Something better always comes after a bad thing like losing a job. I hope you are doing better and happy to see you back on youtube. Congratulations to Steve for his new job. Have a wonderful sunny day. ❤️🥰
I'm so glad u are back. We are all human, sometimes we have to take a step back and take care of ourselves. Stop apologizing for something that u can't control, u are amazing human. I cant wait to see the videos u have coming. Oxox Janelle
thank you janelle! I know it's okay to feel this way, I just feel bad sometimes because I love creating videos and I want to be consistent for you guys so when I fall out of routine I can't help but feel a little guilty sometimes. But everyone has been so kind and understanding which I really appreciate!
I'm so sorry ivory, I didn't even see the community post. I was wondering if you were okay. I definitely understand not wanting to film due to depression. And although being laid off is absolutely horrid, it's so good to hear that Steve got a better job. Happened to someone else I know; sometimes it's a blessing very much in disguise
Nice to see you smile and happy for both of you that your husband found a new job! And never feel like you "owe" an explanation, because you don't! Sending sunshine from the Netherlands🇳🇱!😊
I'm just so happy that everything turned out for the best. Remember your life is very precious and you are worth so much. We all appreciate you very much. So happy your husband was able to find a job so quickly, I know that period of uncertainty is very stressful. Take care Ivory😘
Ivory, only sending you love and good wishes. You are so very worthy of everything! I want you to know that I found your channel during my cancer treatments which included chemo, radiation and multiple surgeries. You don’t know this but your videos helped me immensely. You made me laugh, you helped me buy good makeup which I love! For example: the essence hydrating foundation. If you ever have another episode, please think of this. Please know you gave someone light in a very dark time and that is always worth it! Thank you 💜 To the nosey, entitled people: Shame on you!!! You are disgusting! Over the moon happy for you and Steve!!!!! (And the doggies - btw: ‘Homeless people have dogs’ comment is the best 🤣😂 Love That!!! Steve is awesome 😆
this comment really pulled at my heart strings it just makes me so happy to know that my videos make someone happy during such a dark time. I hope you are okay and I wish you a swift and speedy recovery! Sending you LOTS OF LOVE 💗💗💋💋
Not gonna lie I was worried. Everyone goes through depressive states where you don’t know the root cause and it’s hard to come out of those states of mind. You are not alone in this ❤️
Screw those bitches that demanded details. Your private life is just that - private. I'm glad it's not going to happen but if it ever did - you, Steve, and the dogs would rock that cardboard box on the street corner 😆 I'm saying that with nothing but humour and love. I'm looking forward to seeing your next videos. Bring it! 💘
yes exactly! people need to understand that some people aren't ready to talk about certain things and THAT'S OK. but pushing them to blurt it out just to be nosey or act like it's "because they care" seems so insincere and rude. And LOL thank goodness it never came to that, but of course my dramatic ass thought that we'd be homeless instantly 😂😂
I get it - makes sense. If you know why it comes, what it makes, how it feels, you wouldn't feel the way it feels. Job loss is also THE MOST stressful event for anyone and everyone. I am glad things are looking up for you. Btw 'normal' is a baaaad word, there's no such thing as 'normal'.....we are human! 🙋
it really is SO stressful. especially since all you can do is apply to places and just sit there and wait. there's really nothing else you can do except HOPE someone responses and just waiting is SO anxiety inducing. not to mention the interview process is so nerve wracking, only to eventually hear "we've decided not to move forward with your application" UGH just talking about it is making my heart race lol
@@IvoryCherry all I can say is KEEP GOING! Don't think about what might/might not happen but what else you can do during waiting around. America is doing great having to avoid mass lockdowns so you can seek jobs in different techniques (not just internet based - too limiting). My friend found 3 contract jobs in the last 2 months alone using the word of mouth/net working method..I hope you all the best!!
Wonderful that Steve has gotten a job where his opinion will have more weight (it must have been endlessly frustrating to have his very accurate observations ignored, that would drive me nuts). Depression is a pretty lousy thing and I'm sorry you have to deal with it. Though you do very much deserve the support you get. ❤️❤️❤️
I'm surprised steve doesn't have an ulcer from all the stress he gets from people not listening to him, despite him being right EVERY TIME. it amazes me how hard headed people can be. Thank you very much for your love and support, it really means the world to me 💗💗
@@IvoryCherry I will never understand why bosses always seem to refuse to listen to anyone else, especially when that person has been proven right again and again! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
That’s bad, such is life sometimes. And that’s just how it is with jobs , no boss is gonna like his employee pointing out what’s wrong. They will take the credit once they decide to take care of the issue. Nothing new under the sun, you guys are young and will learn from this experience. It’s a good thing are falling back into the right track. Best of luck.
I'm so sorry about your depression, I can definitely relate to you. Please know that you matter and honestly seem like such a kind person. Since the pandemic, I've graduated from college and have had no lucky job searching. I'm constantly depressed and crying because I have no clue what I want to do in life. Side note, if your husband's company is hiring, my boyfriend really needs a job in his field. He graduated with his degree in computer engineering last year.
I am so sorry! I know how stressful that is not getting a job out of college! my husbands company is no longer hiring since he is took on his new role, but there are SO many software dev jobs out there to apply for! check monster, linkedin, indeed, and stackoverflow. All go on official pages of companies! like chase bank or US bank, then go to their career tabs because last time I checked last week there are A LOT of software positions. I hope this helps! Best of luck to both of you!!!
I relate 100% to everything that you said. I have the exact same issue and I know how hard and emotionally draining it can be to go through those depressive episodes constantly. It's okay to take time off until you feel like yourself again. You're the only makeup channel that I watch every single video of, even if I'm not interested in the products. I really love your personality, you seem so nice and genuine and not to mention hilarious. Please know that you're loved and appreciated not only by the people in your life but also by your subscribers.❤️
I feel you. Don’t be sorry for being depressed. It’s like a terrible accident, you get hit by it. It’s nothing you can control. I’m just happy you are in a better state of mind. That’s all that matters :)
OH IVORY, I'm so happy Steve found a new job. That's ABSOLUTELY AMAZING and such a blessing in disguise. YOU'RE AMAZING, We're all here for you. LOVE YOU TOO PIECES ❤❤❤
LOVE YOU TARA!! and yes we are SO relieved everything worked out in the end!!
You deserve all the happiness and to be loved, Ivory.
I am glad you are so much better and that your husband got a wonderful job.
Ivory, please don't feel like you have to apologize for anything! Depression doesn't always have a rhyme or reason to it. It can hit out of no where, and can be so debilitating. Self care is everything!
I'm so sorry to hear about Steve (although it sounds like things are looking much brighter!), that's such a stressful thing to go through.
You are loved, you are special, and you are worth it.
We'll be here to welcome you back from whenever you need a break!!! Take care of yourself ❤️❤️
Thank you so so much 💕 I totally agree you never know when depression or anxiety will hit and it sucks because it really gets in the way of me doing even menial tasks sometimes. But I am definitely feeling better and so happy to be back!
"Ivory! Homeless people have dogs! We're gonna be fine!" XD
Lmao I never even considered that but he right he right 🤣🤣
We went through a lay off during covid also, i totally understand the depression and fear!
omgg I am sorry you went through that! I hope things are better now!
@@IvoryCherry yup it just took a few months, but I was where you were and I completely understand how tough and scary it was!
We love you!! Glad you're feeling better!!
So glad to hear things are going better for you & Steve!! No apology necessary! We will wait as long as it takes.
you're the best! 💗
You are human. You have the right to cope and deal with your feelings and private matters how you want to do it. We, as the community, should just be patient and be supportive. XOXO Amanda (big fan)!
Thank you for your support! I agree some people don't know boundaries or think it's okay to be pushy about me telling my business before I'm ready to talk about it. I am SO glad that almost everyone was so respectful here. Y'all are freaking amazing ❤️❤️
@@IvoryCherry ❤️❤️❤️
I struggle with depression too. I’ve been having such a bad time these last couple of weeks.
THANK YOU for your story, I NEEDED this today!
I hope you're okay!! sending you lots and lots of love 💗💗
Ivory! My dear friend! You are a beautifully kind soul! When I hear someone open up about their depression I just want to give them a hug. I know first hand that it’s incredibly lonely to go through depression. I’m sorry you were going through that. It broke my heart to see you cry and say you felt like a burden. You are a wonderful light and I hope you remember that!
I know income loss is such a big stressor. Know you are an incredible partner and amazing human especially when you mentioned you were trying to offer support to Steve. I am so sad you and your hubby were going through all this on your own. But know you guys are team and though hardships are bound to happen you two have each other.💗 What a great blessing to have a new job opportunity come up so soon! 💗 Sending you so many hugs! And I’m happy you are feeling better now.
If you ever need a friend I am only a dm away 💗🥺!
you are so sweet thank you so much sharon 💗💗
What a beautiful channel you got here. Keep it up ! Love your content 🥰🥰❤️❤️
listening to you talk about your depression really made me feel so seen, i go through the exact same thing and feel so terrible because it often just hits me for no reason. please know that you're not alone in your struggles and you offer so much to this world even when you feel your lowest. i'm so sorry you had such a rough patch, but i'm glad things are looking up and that steve was able to find a new job. sending lots of love to you ivory!! all the best
thank you sam!! I know it really sucks when it hits you and it's sometimes hard to convince yourself that you have worth, but I'm working on it!
Ivory thank you for making this video and allowing yourself to show how you feel. You are very brave for doing so. I just want to say that you are not alone and I want to truly thank you for showing this side of yourself. It makes me feel less alone. Seeing you break down like that really broke my heart but it also reminded me of exactly how I feel at times. Your emotions resembled mine. And for the longest time I thought that wasn't normal since Ive never seen someone break down like I do. I can relate to how you feel. Everything you were describing sounded just how I feel at times. Its weird but I knew exactly of the pain you were talking about. When you cried my heart ached because I know how it feels. Just remember you are truly loved and we all admire you. I cant thank you enough for making videos on youtube. It really does mean a lot to me seeing someone with the same skin texture as me on here. All over social media you see these girls with perfect skin trying to sell you a product. I dont know how people dont get tired of it. But anyways, I hope you continue to feel better and take care.
thank you so much for your kind words 💗 feeling this way can really hinder my ability to even do simple tasks, so i spent most of those weeks just laying around trying to get out of the funk. but slowly I started doing small tasks and being proud of even just those small accomplishments. And today I feel pretty much 100% so things are back on track (: I hope you're doing well and know that you matter and are loved too (: Have a wonderful weekend love 😘
Totally understand you have the right to fell the way you do I was diagnosed with bipolar depression and all of the symptoms that you are saying is exactly what I have I am a mother I am a wife I am a sister I am a friend and sometimes I feel like I'm the worst of everything and you're right you never know when it's going to happen but you're strong you'll push through it
yes exactly! I feel like I'm mediocre in all those categories all the time and it sucksss. definitely working on realizing that's not the case, despite what my head thinks lol. I'm forever a work in progress haha
You don't need to be sorry for anything we love you we understand you 💕 I'm glad you're at a better state of mind now and also happy to hear things are falling back into place. Definitely things happen for a reason, like you said a blessing in disguise. We're here with you!
Thank you so much!!
im so glad everything worked out in the end!!
Thank you!!
You are not alone in this! every word you said I can feel and relate to👋 That’s so cool, little miracles happen when you least expect! Lots of luck and prosperity to your family ❤️ I really like your channel, such thoroughness, diligence, your sense of humor and charming self - all that makes it special and different from others👏 no matter how often you upload ❤️
thank you so much eleanor!! I am really happy to hear that you are enjoying my videos! and yes absolutely, when one door closes, another opens!!
Glad you are doing better. ❤️
Excited for the Covergirl!
What you're saying about withdrawing and depressive states is so relatable. Hope you start making videos consistently again. Miss your foundation reviews. ❤
Thanks for sharing your updates, it is so good to take time for yourself and do what you need to do. I know how it is sometimes with youtube but I"m glad you took time. Blessings to everyone, you are exactly where you need to be 💠💖🙏
Thank you beautiful! 😘
Girl....Ive been there...and still struggling with depression/anxiety. It has taken me years to understand that I am worthy . First of all...kudos to you for publicly admitting it...and we got you...Love you!!
love you too!! yes I am still finding it hard to see my worth but I am so grateful that so many of you see it in me!💗
We love you girl! You def don't have to share anything personal on the internet .... I don't have a youtube channel and it looks like it can be really scary sometimes. People are crazy and mean! I get the same "self-worth attacks" and it's awful feeling that way.
yea having a channel is a double edge sword. usually though people are so nice and supportive, which I'm VERY appreciative of
I'm so glad to hear the layoff was short lived and things are now looking up for you all!! I'm also glad that you put yourself first and took some time away from the camera, and you didn't try to force yourself to film. But I'm looking forward to your upcoming videos!
Yes the break was very much needed and definitely helped me both focus on myself but also to excite me when I did come back!
Love you! No need to explain anything. Those who cant understand should just leave.
love YOU!! and yes I agree, the people that don't get it can get to steppin 👋
I have been feeling the exact same way lately! Maybe there is something going on in the universe. I haven't been watching any beauty videos at all. Just haven't been feeling it. I am glad that Steve found a new job so quickly! That has to be a relief. Depression and anxiety sucks but I think more people have it then don't and just know you are not alone!
omg SAME! I watch smaller channels to support but as far as the big channels that I follow, no one's video has been very interesting to me. but maybe it's also because there are not a lot of interesting products coming up too? either way I hope you're doing okay!! 💗💗
Thanks for being so open regarding your mental health struggles…SO many people struggle (including me) and it needs to be less of a taboo topic. BTW I love your thorough reviews!!
I agree, I think that the topic of mental health has definitely come a LONG way, but it can still be improved. So many people think that just because you don't "look sick" means you don't need time off and that's just unreasonable and unrealistic
We love you here Ivory! And we appreciate you sharing your journey and tribulations!
it took me a minute to share but I wanted to be candid and you all have been so understanding and kind. it really melts my heart 💗
I definitely missed you because you are legit my favorite TH-camr and you have helped me soooo much. I wanted to tell you to try a combo but it’s a foundation you already love!
you are so sweet I am so happy to hear my videos are helpful to you!!
I've been through a sudden job loss myself. Even when it has nothing to do with your job performance, it's still such a feeling of rejection. So glad the new opportunity worked out for him!
yes ABSOLUTELY! even if it's purely for business and cost reasons, at the end of the day you're losing your job and it still stings so I totally sympathize
Great to hear that you and your husband doing well now! And I can't wait for the new upcoming videos. Take care Ivory!
Thank you! You too!💋
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Thankful that everything came together for the better for you and your family💕💕💕
Yes! Thank you!
I feel like that almost every day I just have to push though it. That’s why I never started my channel. Everyone is human and needs time to their selfs. Never apologize for need that and it’s really not anyone’s business to know every detail about someone else’s life ❤️
I hope you're okay!! I know what that feeling is to just push through things and little by little you feel sadder or more worn down. sending you lots of love!! 💋
So sorry you and Steve had to go through that - that is so stressful!
Congrats to Steve to the new opportunity - sounds like this was a blessing in disguise!
You’re awesome at what you do and your videos are A+. Absolutely no one does wear tests like you do - I absolutely love watching them even if if I don’t wear foundation :)
yes steve is super excited about this new opportunity!! and thank you so much I really try my best with my videos so I'm glad you find them helpful, or at least entertaining (:
I’m so happy you are in good spirits now !!
Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry you've been going through this. I get depression with similar things, like I'm a burden and I withdraw. It sucks so much. And logic is like completely absent when I get like that.
Anyway, I'm glad you're feeling better!
yes exactly! there was nothing specific that happened when I was thinking I'm a burden or that I'm worthless, it just crept into my mind and brought me down. but definitely on the upswing of things! I hope you're feeling better gorgeous!
I'm great! Antidepressants ftw! 🤣🤣
Girl, i know exactly how you feel about those times where you're just depressive and cant explain why. Im sorry some people were being nosy and rude wanting to know why when you weren't ready to film.
I think it was a blessing om disguise! I'm glad you're doing better now!
I've been so busy with work but I'm working my way through your videos after this one since I'm off today!
Love you always ♡♡
haha noo you don't need to go through my videos! we've been supporting each other for years so that's enough for me (:
@@IvoryCherry hehe, your videos and other friends videos are all in a separate playlist I run while I edit / clean, etc! So i might not comment on all, but you get the views and watch time😘😘
I'm so glad you're back and better 💛💛, can't wait for your videos !!
I 100% empathize with how you have been feeling because I can say that I have totally felt that way and do feel that way a lot. I'm so sorry people reacted negatively.
Good luck with the hubby's new job, selling the house, getting in the new house, etc! Please take care of yourself 🧡
Yea I can't control everyone's behaviors. But thankfully pretty much everyone was very respectful of my need for time off which I am VERY thankful for. Thank you so much we are sooo excited for all the new things coming up for us!
Please don’t apologize for taking some time off! I’m so happy for you and Steve!! Sending you a big virtual hug 💕
thanks beautiful!!😘
Love you and so happy you’re at a good spot again 🙌🏼❤️
Thank you! You are the best! 😘
Guarding our heart & minds is paramount. So many of us fight the struggle, it's ok. People need to stay in their lane & mind their business. You & Steve take care of yourselves ✌🏾❤️🔆
thank you love!! 😘
Totally understand, the worst part of my depression isolations are the apology tours I have to do after 🙃🤣 glad you're back to a better place 🥰
Girl I KNOW. I knew it was coming too so I actually warned everyone ahead of time that I would be either unresponsive, or I would be short with my response or sometimes I just wouldn't respond if I didn't have the energy and thankfully all my real friends were totally understanding and cool about it 😊☺️
@@IvoryCherry oh good! Yeah my friends have been with me long enough to know I have cave creature times but I'll eventually reply lol. Glad your friends are understanding even if random people on the internet are nosy and entitled 🙃
@@CheshyreKitten haha "cave creature times" 🤣
Nice to see/hear from you again, Ivory! Pls do not feel you have to apologize. You were dealing with some personal stuff...we will be okay 👍Congrats on your hubby's new job...one door closed but another opened! 😁🤗
yes we are very fortunate that things worked out! thank you so much 💋
I personally missed you and your videos but I know you needed your space so I’m happy everything is going good for you now! And no matter how long the wait, I’m sure me and people who support you were going to wait what’s necessary for you to feel better! 💕
thank you SO much for understanding! yes it's hard because I am usually so happy to make videos but sometimes, like any job, it's good to take a break to reset and recharge and it was MUCH needed. So excited for the next videos to come!
Hi Ivory, lovely to see you back. And i'm so very sorry that you and Steve had to go through all of that. HUGE Congrats to him on his new job. As a fellow YTuber, I can understand not only how much work goes into each video, but its definitely hard to do all the content creation when you are not in the best mental state. I feel like I have so many ups and downs still navigating this world with everything else that's life. Supporting you ALWAYS❤❤ glad you took a break and are back loads better now😘
thanks monica!!
I have literally been in this exact situation. My husband and I bought a home and then he lost his job a couple months later. We ended up having to sell our home and moved across the country with our two kids only for him to get a job that made him the senior engineer. Life is funny sometimes, but it works out in mysterious ways! Hang in there Ivory!
I am so sorry that happened to you!! I am so glad it ended up working out for you and your family though!
You have nothing to apologize for. I’m glad you are feeling better and that your husband found another job. Just know that whenever I’m feeling down, I watch your videos because you have such a good energy it always helps me feel better and you make me laugh. I love watching your videos and adore your personality.❤️
awww you are too kind thank you!!
Glad things have turned around for you ❤️ looking forward to your upcoming videos!
thank you!
You make me happy each time I watch a new video of yours! You’re great. Love how you talk fast and do your makeup. And so sorry about your husband losing his job. These are terrible times, trust me I know as Im a business owner. Im happy he found another job. 💕
yes we got so lucky thank goodnesss!!! I hope your business is okay! i know for many people they really lost a big chunk of income or had to close down during covid so I hope that isn't case for you!
I am so happy you’re back and feeling a bit better. I understand how stressful life was for you and why you needed a break. Please never apologize, people forget youtubers have real lives and emotions outside the internet. Also you deserve everything and more!!!
Thank you so much! I am so excited to get back into the swing of things!
I missed your community post about taking a break, and was just wondering where you've been, I missed your videos! Glad everything worked out well for your family and that you are feeling better.
Thank you so much!😘
sending you good vibes 💌 hope you’re okay ❤️
definitely feeling a lot better this week thank you!
We love you Ivory!
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Thank you Kaci!! 💖
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I'm so happy to BE BACK!!
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Dear Ivory , don’t ever look down on yourself! You definitely deserve all the love and support! You’ve come so far ! ❤️ please remember, be a confident young lady and you don’t need to feel confident to BE confident!! 🤗
Depression never make any sense , I am sure we all can relate to the feeling !! 🤗 xoxo
yess it definitely never makes sense and can come outta no where 😒but thank you so much!
I'm so happy you are back and feeling better!! This is going to sound very sappy and maybe silly, but this song by Garth Brooke's always pop in my head when I hit a low or it feels hopeless..its called: Some of Gods greatest gifts are unanswered prayers, it just always seems to get me through those low moments because it's so true. Your very loved and you are DEFINITELY worth it all! 😘😘😘
thank you laura!! you are so sweet and OMG I saw you on allies video CONGRATS!! so freaking excited for you!
@@IvoryCherry I'm just so happy everything worked out as it should be for you guys! Yes, I was SHOCKED she did that! What a complete angle she is 😘❤
I'm so sorry that you had to deal with the awful situation, depression and the nasty, entitled people. **sends lots of hugs and support** Congratulations to Steve on the new job! I hope that the good news lets you enjoy the new house even more. 🙂
thank you love!! I will send the congrats along to steve (:
awe dear ivory you are just a sweetie ! i think you did the right thing of drawing back and taking time for yourself! its ok to do that!! and then with the news of steve of course i can only imagine how it added to everything ! but i am happy that steve got another job and yes maybe it was a blessing in disguise for him now that he is the lead. i wish you all the best of luck in selling the house and the new house! i think when change comes sometimes it does increase our anxieties and fears. i know i aint change's bestie ! yet i know that self care is so important and some times that pulling away is needed to take a minute to take care of yourself x x x sending many hugs dear ivory, you are amazing and you are loved x
Nothing ever to apologize for! We love you so much!!!
Ivory I am so happy to see that you are doing fine and you are all well. Always remember that things happen for a reason. I know it is hard not to stress out but that is what I always tell myself. Something better always comes after a bad thing like losing a job. I hope you are doing better and happy to see you back on youtube. Congratulations to Steve for his new job. Have a wonderful sunny day. ❤️🥰
thank you!! yes we were so worried about what to do next but we got really lucky and are sooo grateful about that
I'm so glad u are back. We are all human, sometimes we have to take a step back and take care of ourselves. Stop apologizing for something that u can't control, u are amazing human. I cant wait to see the videos u have coming. Oxox Janelle
thank you janelle! I know it's okay to feel this way, I just feel bad sometimes because I love creating videos and I want to be consistent for you guys so when I fall out of routine I can't help but feel a little guilty sometimes. But everyone has been so kind and understanding which I really appreciate!
I'm so sorry ivory, I didn't even see the community post. I was wondering if you were okay. I definitely understand not wanting to film due to depression. And although being laid off is absolutely horrid, it's so good to hear that Steve got a better job. Happened to someone else I know; sometimes it's a blessing very much in disguise
yes I am so so happy things ended up working out!! things feel like they're falling into place and it's such a huge relief.
Love ya, lady! ❤️👍💪💪💪❤️
Love you too gorgeous! ❤️
Nice to see you smile and happy for both of you that your husband found a new job! And never feel like you "owe" an explanation, because you don't!
Sending sunshine from the Netherlands🇳🇱!😊
thank you gorgeous!!
I'm just so happy that everything turned out for the best. Remember your life is very precious and you are worth so much. We all appreciate you very much. So happy your husband was able to find a job so quickly, I know that period of uncertainty is very stressful. Take care Ivory😘
thank you maricela!! really appreciate that 💗
Ivory, only sending you love and good wishes. You are so very worthy of everything! I want you to know that I found your channel during my cancer treatments which included chemo, radiation and multiple surgeries. You don’t know this but your videos helped me immensely. You made me laugh, you helped me buy good makeup which I love! For example: the essence hydrating foundation. If you ever have another episode, please think of this. Please know you gave someone light in a very dark time and that is always worth it! Thank you 💜
To the nosey, entitled people: Shame on you!!! You are disgusting!
Over the moon happy for you and Steve!!!!! (And the doggies - btw: ‘Homeless people have dogs’ comment is the best 🤣😂 Love That!!! Steve is awesome 😆
this comment really pulled at my heart strings it just makes me so happy to know that my videos make someone happy during such a dark time. I hope you are okay and I wish you a swift and speedy recovery! Sending you LOTS OF LOVE 💗💗💋💋
@@IvoryCherry thank you!! 💗 I am doing much better 🤗
Not gonna lie I was worried. Everyone goes through depressive states where you don’t know the root cause and it’s hard to come out of those states of mind. You are not alone in this ❤️
I am so sorry if I worried you. Definitely feeling much better now!!
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@@IvoryCherry good morning ☀️☀️
Great videos dear
Screw those bitches that demanded details. Your private life is just that - private.
I'm glad it's not going to happen but if it ever did - you, Steve, and the dogs would rock that cardboard box on the street corner 😆 I'm saying that with nothing but humour and love.
I'm looking forward to seeing your next videos. Bring it! 💘
yes exactly! people need to understand that some people aren't ready to talk about certain things and THAT'S OK. but pushing them to blurt it out just to be nosey or act like it's "because they care" seems so insincere and rude. And LOL thank goodness it never came to that, but of course my dramatic ass thought that we'd be homeless instantly 😂😂
I get it - makes sense. If you know why it comes, what it makes, how it feels, you wouldn't feel the way it feels. Job loss is also THE MOST stressful event for anyone and everyone. I am glad things are looking up for you. Btw 'normal' is a baaaad word, there's no such thing as 'normal'.....we are human! 🙋
it really is SO stressful. especially since all you can do is apply to places and just sit there and wait. there's really nothing else you can do except HOPE someone responses and just waiting is SO anxiety inducing. not to mention the interview process is so nerve wracking, only to eventually hear "we've decided not to move forward with your application" UGH just talking about it is making my heart race lol
@@IvoryCherry all I can say is KEEP GOING! Don't think about what might/might not happen but what else you can do during waiting around. America is doing great having to avoid mass lockdowns so you can seek jobs in different techniques (not just internet based - too limiting). My friend found 3 contract jobs in the last 2 months alone using the word of mouth/net working method..I hope you all the best!!
Having my lockdown in NZ for a while so I am a sitting duck until we can go back to work/do the things that all of us took for granted... 😬...🙏🦆
Wonderful that Steve has gotten a job where his opinion will have more weight (it must have been endlessly frustrating to have his very accurate observations ignored, that would drive me nuts).
Depression is a pretty lousy thing and I'm sorry you have to deal with it. Though you do very much deserve the support you get. ❤️❤️❤️
I'm surprised steve doesn't have an ulcer from all the stress he gets from people not listening to him, despite him being right EVERY TIME. it amazes me how hard headed people can be. Thank you very much for your love and support, it really means the world to me 💗💗
@@IvoryCherry I will never understand why bosses always seem to refuse to listen to anyone else, especially when that person has been proven right again and again!
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I know how you feel sometimes I get that way when things are not going the way I want
That’s bad, such is life sometimes. And that’s just how it is with jobs , no boss is gonna like his employee pointing out what’s wrong. They will take the credit once they decide to take care of the issue. Nothing new under the sun, you guys are young and will learn from this experience. It’s a good thing are falling back into the right track. Best of luck.
I'm so sorry about your depression, I can definitely relate to you. Please know that you matter and honestly seem like such a kind person. Since the pandemic, I've graduated from college and have had no lucky job searching. I'm constantly depressed and crying because I have no clue what I want to do in life.
Side note, if your husband's company is hiring, my boyfriend really needs a job in his field. He graduated with his degree in computer engineering last year.
I am so sorry! I know how stressful that is not getting a job out of college! my husbands company is no longer hiring since he is took on his new role, but there are SO many software dev jobs out there to apply for! check monster, linkedin, indeed, and stackoverflow. All go on official pages of companies! like chase bank or US bank, then go to their career tabs because last time I checked last week there are A LOT of software positions. I hope this helps! Best of luck to both of you!!!
I relate 100% to everything that you said. I have the exact same issue and I know how hard and emotionally draining it can be to go through those depressive episodes constantly. It's okay to take time off until you feel like yourself again. You're the only makeup channel that I watch every single video of, even if I'm not interested in the products. I really love your personality, you seem so nice and genuine and not to mention hilarious. Please know that you're loved and appreciated not only by the people in your life but also by your subscribers.❤️
thank you so so much 💗 you are seriously the sweetest! I am thankful everything worked out in the end and I feel SO much better this week!
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