You are one of the rare people who talk about your sobriety who I actually just get such a good vibe from. The amount of people on the internet who shame anyone who drinks alcohol, who try to make anyone who drinks feel like they just MUST be an alcoholic just because they drink! You're just such a warm non judgmental person and I think you ACTUALLY get it
Also “something holy about a dive bar” yessss I’ve been a bartender for almost a decade and work in nicer cocktail bars now but still love a good dive bar
I was a daily weed smoker since I was 13 and I’m 24 now…I never once since I was 13 let my brain develop without some kinds of substance. My memory of things before literally doesn’t exist, people I met, the things I did…blank. I was a HEAVY smoker in high school and I can not remember literally anything I learned in those four years. I even smoked throughout my pregnancy which was actually helping me a ton with sickness and eating… my kid is now 3 and I was working full time and was just so burned out by everything. I was constantly smoking just to cope with the stress. The weed never affected my abilities as a mother or a wife and homemaker, but it had a huge influence on my body and mind. I decided to stop just to see how it goes and man it’s really hard to quit after all those years. I couldn’t sleep, eat, I was extremely depressed, exhausted, I was anxious and angry all the time, I had these episodes where I couldn’t control my emotions…I figured the weed numbed me every single day that I just couldn’t process any emotions like a normal person…it’s been couple of months and the only side effect I still have is literally BOREDOM….weed was so much fun and I wish I could have fun all the time 😂 but that’s just not realistic. I’m a stay at home mom now and watching yt is my new entertainment 😅😊
You inspired me to quit drinking! I'm about two months with the exception that on the 27th day of my sober journey I had a stressful day so I had a hard kombucha! So technically it's only been 5 weeks! But I'm still super proud. Cuz now I don't miss it!
I binged your videos the week before July 4th and decided it was a sign for that to be my sober date as our backstories are so similar. I’m in an isolation phase so this video came at a great time. I’m so proud of you, you’re truly an inspiration 💖
My sober date is July 4th and I just calibrated my 5 years. It was a hard year because my mom passed this past year but still going strong. Stay strong babes.
One week from ❄️ and alcohol now and it’s so hardddd. Def relate to having an awful memory and brain issues. My depression and anxiety are better but it’s up and down
I've commented before, but I want to thank you again for sharing your sober journey with us. I'm 1 year 8 months sober, and I've never been closer to relapse than I've been today and yesterday, so this video popped up at a great time. Your words really helped and I found myself crying throughout the video. I'm the same age as you, I live with my mom and I just lost my job....let me stop with the trauma dumping haah bottom line is this really helped me calm down and thank you
You’re really inspiring me to start solo traveling and focus on my healing and redefine “who that girl is.” I’ve been binging your videos and really relate in ways. Social anxiety, bad memory from drugs, moved in with family when working on sobriety after kind of ruining my life, my personality was made up of partying, raving, and night life and being unstable. Thank you for making your videos! It really makes me feel less alone and inspires me to finally find myself.
lmaoooooooo "holes in the noggin" im dead .. im currently in that bit of a struggle on trying to make new friends, been sober for a year and 8 months but just started to feel the like shift of like oh wow i actually dont have that many real friends right now i needa go make some lmao. cant wait for yellowstone !!
Ugh i just hit rock bottom and really fucked up (again) after working so hard to rebuild my life. I figured out how to finish my dental hygiene degree and school starts tuesday and i got a dwi the other night after 2 glasses of wine. Im so disappointed in myself but your videos are helping. Thanks
we have almost an identical story , I drank from 14 years old till 26 until I landed in the hospital with seizures and like pyscosis basically. I am sending you so much love I am 2 years sober this October. SOOO MUCH LOVE
so grateful for you being willing to share your sobriety journey as openly. This video is coming to me as a sign to stop drinking. Ive been sober up until now and it was going on a good 5 months but i decided to surround myself with a group of people who were drinking and just overall i did not respect my own boundaries ive set and i take accountability for that. Im only 19 going to be 20 and its truly difficult to stay sober when a majority of people my age just want to party. Hope that you keep on your sobriety journey and I wish the same for all the people on this same path.
Your 19 ? I seen 5 months so I kept reading cuz I’m 59 and also coming on 5 months…I’ve got 100’s of regrets drinking and I’ve had 100’s of good times drinking, it will change who you are over the years, I’ve drank for just over 3 decades(coping mechanisms)and finally this time I’ve given sobriety a very good amount of time to start healing my shrunken brain, I can’t remember soooooo many things, two concussions from drinking, my short term memory is almost nil… it took @ 80 days for me and something shifted in my thoughts, going for 6 mos, then a year 🎉I’m so exhausted from drinking, it took up so much of my bandwidth, thinking about drinking,thinking about not drinking, and mostly recovering from drinking, the hrs were endless…be proud and experience life sober if you can❤️blessings
Hell yeah speak your truth. Thanks for the recovery tips. Funny I also broke up with my bf almost 2 weeks ago and lost my dog bc I wasn’t strong enough for him anymore (long story having to do with accident). Your video helped me so much, I’m about to binge watch them all lol! I’m the opposite I wanna get into night life / stay out later. I hate that I wanna go to bed at 9 and I’m 28 lmfao?
Nothing wrong with wanting to go to bed at 9 at 28! I’m 27 and drank and did ❄️ daily and stayed up for 2 days on end you gotta reprogram your sleep schedule ! Fitness and 3 good meals a day too. I’m also 1 yr sober now
It really helped to listen to you share your journey and know of someone who’s sober 4 years. This year I went sober from cannabis and it was one of if not the hardest things to let go of. I’m getting to know myself more each day, and kindness is HUGE towards self and others. After realizing that cannabis was my connection to my past identity, letting it go was a lot easier. There’s so much I can comment on and express gratitude towards that you’ve said.. one of my goals being recovering my health through medical medium 369 cleanses/information and traveling in an Rv with my dog Elbee. All in all, thank you for the reminder of what’s possible 🫶🏼
thank you for sharing! congrats on 4 years! i'm 2 years sober myself and i always find it comforting and inspiring to hear you speak about it. much love ♥️
I love hearing your story and I love how excited about life you are and the way you look at things. While I’m not sober, I have slowed down my life significantly. I stopped hard drugs about 7 years ago, and within the last 2 years I have slowed my drinking to just a couple on the weekends. It really does change your perspective on things and your life becomes so much more meaningful and deep in ways you didn’t know before.
This is an amazing video. Thank you for sharing . I don't know if you've ever considered being an additional counselor, but this video is beautiful and I needed this.
hi hi first week sober here after 6 years of binge drinking everyday and mostly alone at home. this kind of video really helps and i'm so grateful for you. thank you for being a part of the help ♥ baby steps
You’re so awesome Emily! So proud of you, your story helped me have the introspection to get clean and check out AA. It’s actually saved my life and I thank you so much for being transparent. ❤
our stories are similar and i resonate alot with what youve said. ive started my sobriety journey plenty of times but this time feels different. you are such an inspiration and very encouraging. im happy to have found you 🤍💫
You're beautiful and very real. I truly appreciate this video. I love how you talked about how hard it is the first year. I'm 200+days in and have had a few glasses of wine on two occasions. I didn't beat myself up over it and I actually made a conscious decision. One was my daughter's graduation. And I was fine. I want my new persona to be a non-drinker. I still do have cannabis but very lightly and I'm taking things one at a time . After I have a year of alcohol free under my belt, I will see where Im at and maybe address the cannabis. I too had a lot of mental adjustments after stopping alcohol one because we use it as a distraction and a coping mechanism, but also I've learned that the brain physically needs to readjust the chemicals that it either over produced or under produced. Healing from alcohol is a very physical journey as well. Thank you for your video 🩵🦋
Congratulations and Bravo, I ended my connection to drugs and alcohol more than a decade ago. Stay strong and you will experience a freedom that cannot be described. To release yourself of that feeling you’re missing something is priceless. There’s no religious intent and I’m not a religious person. Life is just more without artificial stimuli. Just awesome. Garret
1 year sober from alcohol and drugs . Went to bonoroo last year that was my last “hurrah” and went really hard. It was a long time coming but I knew it was my time to be done with it. Gotta do it for yourself. Cut out all bad influences and found a girl that’s also sober and I don’t go out at all. Much better and healthier overall! Still have a lot of damage to repair!
Thank you for sharing your voice on this topic. I personally have not had any substance abuse issues myself, but am surrounded by people who do. I am currently in a transitory period of my life where i'm fully reevaluating who I choose to surround myself with. This video has brought me so much clarity on how I can move forward towards becoming the person I am meant to be. You sharing your story and experience is extremely inspiring. Keep up the wholesome content, I love seeing others spread important topics such as this one!
Hi Emily! first of all: you are my favourite youtuber💖 i love your vlogs, they are very relatable and cozy🌠 I love when you share information about your sobriety and recovery because my bf is in recovery and he is doing very well. I met him 7 months ago, so when I met him he was already sober and in therapy and he talks a lot about the same triggers that you mention, like avoiding certain situations that are stressfull or social(this things I avoid naturally because I have social anxiety and Im always at home lol)but Im so thankful for the information in this video because sometimes I worry about sad things that can happen in the future and what his reaction will be or other things that you mentioned here and your story is very reassuring🌠thank youuu!!! Greetings from the north of spain🌸
Thank you ❤️ I’m 3 years sober and it’s so nice to hear someone relate and resonate with on so much of what you shared. I have also connected with a multitude of sober individuals on social media and that has helped me so much along the way - along with therapy. So much love! 🫶🏻✨
Coming up on 5 weeks! Hopefully this is the last time. So f'n fed up and done with relapsing. Social anxiety is by far the biggest trigger. Anyone thats beaten social anxiety without meds please tell me how!
Thank you for this it’s intelligent and very insightful. You’re a lovely honest lady. Congratulations on all that you have achieved. Love your necklace ❤
I swear we’re the same person lmaoo I quit ❄️ and alcohol about 3 years ago too. It was really bad because i have such bad social anxiety and alcohol was my crutch. Moved to my moms basement and got sober 😂
Congratulations on 4 years i totally get the bad memory i still have it after 6 years. I was using everything heroin, crack, benzodiazepines, mdma, 2cb, dmt, weed well anything i could gwt my hands on. Thankfuly my main friend group were not into class As like heroin and crack, you dont have friend in thst world you have people who use you tonget their fix and i include myself in that, but my friends were so supportive. I now have chronic anxiety so i do smoke weed but my drug worker is fine with that. I dont judge people for going put wither its just not for me anymore i like quiet.
You are one of the rare people who talk about your sobriety who I actually just get such a good vibe from. The amount of people on the internet who shame anyone who drinks alcohol, who try to make anyone who drinks feel like they just MUST be an alcoholic just because they drink! You're just such a warm non judgmental person and I think you ACTUALLY get it
Also “something holy about a dive bar” yessss I’ve been a bartender for almost a decade and work in nicer cocktail bars now but still love a good dive bar
I was a daily weed smoker since I was 13 and I’m 24 now…I never once since I was 13 let my brain develop without some kinds of substance. My memory of things before literally doesn’t exist, people I met, the things I did…blank. I was a HEAVY smoker in high school and I can not remember literally anything I learned in those four years. I even smoked throughout my pregnancy which was actually helping me a ton with sickness and eating… my kid is now 3 and I was working full time and was just so burned out by everything. I was constantly smoking just to cope with the stress. The weed never affected my abilities as a mother or a wife and homemaker, but it had a huge influence on my body and mind. I decided to stop just to see how it goes and man it’s really hard to quit after all those years. I couldn’t sleep, eat, I was extremely depressed, exhausted, I was anxious and angry all the time, I had these episodes where I couldn’t control my emotions…I figured the weed numbed me every single day that I just couldn’t process any emotions like a normal person…it’s been couple of months and the only side effect I still have is literally BOREDOM….weed was so much fun and I wish I could have fun all the time 😂 but that’s just not realistic. I’m a stay at home mom now and watching yt is my new entertainment 😅😊
You inspired me to quit drinking!
I'm about two months with the exception that on the 27th day of my sober journey I had a stressful day so I had a hard kombucha! So technically it's only been 5 weeks! But I'm still super proud. Cuz now I don't miss it!
I binged your videos the week before July 4th and decided it was a sign for that to be my sober date as our backstories are so similar. I’m in an isolation phase so this video came at a great time. I’m so proud of you, you’re truly an inspiration 💖
My sober date is July 4th and I just calibrated my 5 years. It was a hard year because my mom passed this past year but still going strong.
Stay strong babes.
One week from ❄️ and alcohol now and it’s so hardddd. Def relate to having an awful memory and brain issues. My depression and anxiety are better but it’s up and down
3.5 years clean from 🧊 and alcohol and it gets better! You're doing amazing 😊
That’s amazing, congratulations
I've commented before, but I want to thank you again for sharing your sober journey with us. I'm 1 year 8 months sober, and I've never been closer to relapse than I've been today and yesterday, so this video popped up at a great time. Your words really helped and I found myself crying throughout the video. I'm the same age as you, I live with my mom and I just lost my job....let me stop with the trauma dumping haah bottom line is this really helped me calm down and thank you
It will get better. I promise. Thinking of you and sending you so much love.
You’re really inspiring me to start solo traveling and focus on my healing and redefine “who that girl is.” I’ve been binging your videos and really relate in ways. Social anxiety, bad memory from drugs, moved in with family when working on sobriety after kind of ruining my life, my personality was made up of partying, raving, and night life and being unstable. Thank you for making your videos! It really makes me feel less alone and inspires me to finally find myself.
you are sooo beautiful!!! huge congrats to you ❤
I have social anxiety too!
lmaoooooooo "holes in the noggin" im dead .. im currently in that bit of a struggle on trying to make new friends, been sober for a year and 8 months but just started to feel the like shift of like oh wow i actually dont have that many real friends right now i needa go make some lmao. cant wait for yellowstone !!
Ugh i just hit rock bottom and really fucked up (again) after working so hard to rebuild my life. I figured out how to finish my dental hygiene degree and school starts tuesday and i got a dwi the other night after 2 glasses of wine. Im so disappointed in myself but your videos are helping. Thanks
congratulations on 4 years 💘 these yearly videos mean a lot to me. thank you for your openness and love 🦋
we have almost an identical story , I drank from 14 years old till 26 until I landed in the hospital with seizures and like pyscosis basically. I am sending you so much love I am 2 years sober this October. SOOO MUCH LOVE
so grateful for you being willing to share your sobriety journey as openly. This video is coming to me as a sign to stop drinking. Ive been sober up until now and it was going on a good 5 months but i decided to surround myself with a group of people who were drinking and just overall i did not respect my own boundaries ive set and i take accountability for that. Im only 19 going to be 20 and its truly difficult to stay sober when a majority of people my age just want to party. Hope that you keep on your sobriety journey and I wish the same for all the people on this same path.
Your 19 ? I seen 5 months so I kept reading cuz I’m 59 and also coming on 5 months…I’ve got 100’s of regrets drinking and I’ve had 100’s of good times drinking, it will change who you are over the years, I’ve drank for just over 3 decades(coping mechanisms)and finally this time I’ve given sobriety a very good amount of time to start healing my shrunken brain, I can’t remember soooooo many things, two concussions from drinking, my short term memory is almost nil… it took @ 80 days for me and something shifted in my thoughts, going for 6 mos, then a year 🎉I’m so exhausted from drinking, it took up so much of my bandwidth, thinking about drinking,thinking about not drinking, and mostly recovering from drinking, the hrs were endless…be proud and experience life sober if you can❤️blessings
Hell yeah speak your truth. Thanks for the recovery tips. Funny I also broke up with my bf almost 2 weeks ago and lost my dog bc I wasn’t strong enough for him anymore (long story having to do with accident). Your video helped me so much, I’m about to binge watch them all lol! I’m the opposite I wanna get into night life / stay out later. I hate that I wanna go to bed at 9 and I’m 28 lmfao?
Nothing wrong with wanting to go to bed at 9 at 28! I’m 27 and drank and did ❄️ daily and stayed up for 2 days on end you gotta reprogram your sleep schedule ! Fitness and 3 good meals a day too. I’m also 1 yr sober now
It really helped to listen to you share your journey and know of someone who’s sober 4 years.
This year I went sober from cannabis and it was one of if not the hardest things to let go of.
I’m getting to know myself more each day, and kindness is HUGE towards self and others.
After realizing that cannabis was my connection to my past identity, letting it go was a lot easier.
There’s so much I can comment on and express gratitude towards that you’ve said.. one of my goals being recovering my health through medical medium 369 cleanses/information and traveling in an Rv with my dog Elbee.
All in all, thank you for the reminder of what’s possible 🫶🏼
Congrats on 4 YEARS!!!! And thank you for sharing!
thank you for sharing! congrats on 4 years! i'm 2 years sober myself and i always find it comforting and inspiring to hear you speak about it. much love ♥️
I love hearing your story and I love how excited about life you are and the way you look at things. While I’m not sober, I have slowed down my life significantly. I stopped hard drugs about 7 years ago, and within the last 2 years I have slowed my drinking to just a couple on the weekends. It really does change your perspective on things and your life becomes so much more meaningful and deep in ways you didn’t know before.
Failure will forever be the greatest of teachers!
This is an amazing video. Thank you for sharing . I don't know if you've ever considered being an additional counselor, but this video is beautiful and I needed this.
You’re beautiful ❤I’m 75 days sober and I will carry on this journey for the rest of my life, great content Thankyou.
YOU JUST HELPED SOOOO MANY PEOPLE!!!
This was such a beautiful video thankyou for sharing and congratulations on 4 years sober.
hi hi first week sober here after 6 years of binge drinking everyday and mostly alone at home. this kind of video really helps and i'm so grateful for you. thank you for being a part of the help ♥ baby steps
Keep up the good work!
You’re so awesome Emily! So proud of you, your story helped me have the introspection to get clean and check out AA. It’s actually saved my life and I thank you so much for being transparent. ❤
our stories are similar and i resonate alot with what youve said. ive started my sobriety journey plenty of times but this time feels different. you are such an inspiration and very encouraging. im happy to have found you 🤍💫
You're beautiful and very real. I truly appreciate this video. I love how you talked about how hard it is the first year. I'm 200+days in and have had a few glasses of wine on two occasions. I didn't beat myself up over it and I actually made a conscious decision. One was my daughter's graduation. And I was fine. I want my new persona to be a non-drinker.
I still do have cannabis but very lightly and I'm taking things one at a time . After I have a year of alcohol free under my belt, I will see where Im at and maybe address the cannabis.
I too had a lot of mental adjustments after stopping alcohol one because we use it as a distraction and a coping mechanism, but also I've learned that the brain physically needs to readjust the chemicals that it either over produced or under produced. Healing from alcohol is a very physical journey as well.
Thank you for your video 🩵🦋
Happy for you !
Congratulations and Bravo, I ended my connection to drugs and alcohol more than a decade ago. Stay strong and you will experience a freedom that cannot be described. To release yourself of that feeling you’re missing something is priceless. There’s no religious intent and I’m not a religious person. Life is just more without artificial stimuli. Just awesome. Garret
So beautiful Emily & so incredibly inspiring! Thank you for sharing your story and experiences with us!♥️🥰
1 year sober from alcohol and drugs . Went to bonoroo last year that was my last “hurrah” and went really hard. It was a long time coming but I knew it was my time to be done with it. Gotta do it for yourself. Cut out all bad influences and found a girl that’s also sober and I don’t go out at all. Much better and healthier overall! Still have a lot of damage to repair!
Thank you for sharing your voice on this topic. I personally have not had any substance abuse issues myself, but am surrounded by people who do. I am currently in a transitory period of my life where i'm fully reevaluating who I choose to surround myself with. This video has brought me so much clarity on how I can move forward towards becoming the person I am meant to be. You sharing your story and experience is extremely inspiring. Keep up the wholesome content, I love seeing others spread important topics such as this one!
One of my favorite videos. Very helpful ❤
Hi Emily! first of all: you are my favourite youtuber💖 i love your vlogs, they are very relatable and cozy🌠 I love when you share information about your sobriety and recovery because my bf is in recovery and he is doing very well. I met him 7 months ago, so when I met him he was already sober and in therapy and he talks a lot about the same triggers that you mention, like avoiding certain situations that are stressfull or social(this things I avoid naturally because I have social anxiety and Im always at home lol)but Im so thankful for the information in this video because sometimes I worry about sad things that can happen in the future and what his reaction will be or other things that you mentioned here and your story is very reassuring🌠thank youuu!!! Greetings from the north of spain🌸
Congrats on 4 years! That’s incredible, truly. ❤❤
I’m so proud of you! You’re amazing girl! ❤
I love your content…always have, always will❤. You are a good, loving, feeling and open person…All great qualities❤.
Thank you ❤️ I’m 3 years sober and it’s so nice to hear someone relate and resonate with on so much of what you shared. I have also connected with a multitude of sober individuals on social media and that has helped me so much along the way - along with therapy. So much love! 🫶🏻✨
Congratulations I’m so proud of you and who you are today so happy your healthy💗💗
congratulations on 4 years! Thank you for sharing, you are amazing ❤
Incredibly proud of you! Thank you for sharing and being vulnerable🫶🏻
You've come a long way! Nail polish deets??
I resonate with your story so much and I’m proud of you
22.2K Subscribers ❤🎉
Would love to see a van tour~ :,)
Coming up on 5 weeks! Hopefully this is the last time. So f'n fed up and done with relapsing. Social anxiety is by far the biggest trigger. Anyone thats beaten social anxiety without meds please tell me how!
You are so special! Thank you for sharing your soul & journey with us
Thank you for this it’s intelligent and very insightful. You’re a lovely honest lady.
Congratulations on all that you have achieved.
Love your necklace ❤
Love you so much, so proud of you.
Why you so beautiful tho 🤍 I'm new here and I can see you are so wise!
I swear we’re the same person lmaoo I quit ❄️ and alcohol about 3 years ago too. It was really bad because i have such bad social anxiety and alcohol was my crutch. Moved to my moms basement and got sober 😂
Same! Moving in with my parents some how helped me get sober!
Forever Grateful ❤
So proud of you! Sending love from Missouri🧡
love this video so much, so relatable, helpful and kind, THANK YOU & congratulations ❤💫
This video helped me a lot today.
Thank you. 🙏🏻🤍
So glad for you ❤
Great video. I miss Grocery Outlet!!
You’re an earth angel ❤️🩹❤️
Congratulations on 4 years i totally get the bad memory i still have it after 6 years. I was using everything heroin, crack, benzodiazepines, mdma, 2cb, dmt, weed well anything i could gwt my hands on. Thankfuly my main friend group were not into class As like heroin and crack, you dont have friend in thst world you have people who use you tonget their fix and i include myself in that, but my friends were so supportive. I now have chronic anxiety so i do smoke weed but my drug worker is fine with that. I dont judge people for going put wither its just not for me anymore i like quiet.
Thank you
is that an H20 necklace? 🤩✨
no lol it was a gift awhile back i think but love that you thought that. it does look like it here but it’s actually a rainbow
Off topic but where is this necklace from? 🙏🏻
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r u in AA??
Did you struggle with quitting weed?
Never mind you answered that, weed is going to be hard for me to quit but I feel like I maybe should
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you look like Trisha paytas so much!
Don’t see it
Loved this ❤I’ve been with you since the beginning finding you on TicTok I’m so happy for you 🎉🎉🎉🎉