When I ended up in hospital for self harm - my story part 3 | Selfharmerproblems

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  • @devilhorndoodles9487
    @devilhorndoodles9487 4 ปีที่แล้ว +158

    Its terrifying to be body checked.

  • @eljay_sys
    @eljay_sys 4 ปีที่แล้ว +158

    i was in psych ward ! It was traumatic ! We werent allowed to talk about our symptoms or show them and other stuff
    2 weeks without seeing relatives at the beginning, no food allowed, no phone in the hospital, closed window but after a while you could have outings with your family or with your friends for 2 hours !
    Honestly hospital saved my life but i am doing bad again after a few months (but not as bad as before) 😕

    • @Pasunpuffin
      @Pasunpuffin 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @Rory Quentin????

    • @rywe4017
      @rywe4017 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@Pasunpuffin they’re a bot lol

  • @pandabytes4991
    @pandabytes4991 4 ปีที่แล้ว +66

    I've been in the psy hospital more times than I care to admit. My last time in the hospital, I was mistreated. Staff triggered a PTSD episode so severe that they thought the best course of action would be to put me in restraints. I just can't catch a break with these hospital visits.

  • @annastandard1257
    @annastandard1257 3 ปีที่แล้ว +42

    Omg 11:02 the walk of shame to get stuff in your house in front of siblings who have no idea what is happening. I was admitted to a hospital a few years ago and that is the most accurate description of that that I have heard lol. I relate to so much in this video. Thank you

  • @greyv9107
    @greyv9107 4 ปีที่แล้ว +83

    this sounds so scary. im so glad i never got put in a ward as a minor, though i live in the us so it would probably be different. it sucks that you had to go through that

  • @Gg-qy3bq
    @Gg-qy3bq 4 ปีที่แล้ว +74

    Thank you for making these videos, they have helped me get through tough times and without your vids I probably would not have been hear so I just want to say thanks you

    • @Selfharmerproblems
      @Selfharmerproblems  4 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      Seems crazy to me that my videos have helped you so much ! Thanks for your kind words ❤️

  • @Izabela-kh5lz
    @Izabela-kh5lz 4 ปีที่แล้ว +57

    Just want to say that I enjoy your videos. They are very real and authentic, not overdramatic. I'm sorry you have struggled with your mental health over the years. You seem like a lovely mature and empathetic person and I hope that you are better these days. I'm sending some positive vibes your way and will continue to watch your content. Great channel!

  • @void7324
    @void7324 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    I really try my best to not look at anyone else's wounds, self includes or not, it triggers me and I'm already harming daily, but if I see someone's wounds I always always think "my cuts aren't deep or wide enough"

    • @mysteryoctopus8699
      @mysteryoctopus8699 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Is there any way I can be here for you? To talk?

    • @brooklynalivia8384
      @brooklynalivia8384 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Same. I’m scared to me alone with myself :/

  • @freekiki2416
    @freekiki2416 4 ปีที่แล้ว +42

    Ugh 😫 I am sorry you had to go through this 😔
    I can relate to your story very much.
    I was admitted to hospital basically against my will for my eating disorder. I was so confused, ashamed and so so so lost.

  • @dietfent
    @dietfent 4 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    thank you for sharing your story. i’ve been hospitalized multiple times and it is a very difficult experience but u made me feel less alone

  • @FrilledMayfly_AmberlyFerrule
    @FrilledMayfly_AmberlyFerrule 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    I think i definitely need to het hospitallized. I mentioned it to my mom and she told me that i "just wanted to get out of college" and that it would "ruin job opportunities" like I'm sorry but.... i aint gonna get a job if i'm dead

    • @jenga2263
      @jenga2263 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      You can admit yourself. You can go to a normal hospital I think and tell them about your problems and that your suicidal and they will hospitalize you and if your parents want to take you out they can’t unless the hospital makes sure your good to go. But don’t quote me on this I’m not very sure and I hope you get better

  • @bipanicattakk
    @bipanicattakk 4 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. It really means a lot to hear someone speak so openly about self harm and mental health. Your videos have helped me understand and work through self harm and feel less alone

  • @filipmjankowski
    @filipmjankowski 4 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    I found your channel yesterday and I love your videos! Keep it up :)

  • @memorysstories1561
    @memorysstories1561 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I want my family to find out i'm self harming right now. I cannot deal with it anymore.

    • @mysteryoctopus8699
      @mysteryoctopus8699 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Do you want to talk?

    • @memorysstories1561
      @memorysstories1561 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @Up to the sky i told my friend, she dragged me to the school counselor who sent me to the mental hospital, i was in there for 3 months. My family asks weird questions, but it's alright

  • @olivelaur4780
    @olivelaur4780 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Definitely relatable. I also ended up in the hospital twice for a few weeks because of self harm… terrifying

  • @Twiggy_Branch
    @Twiggy_Branch 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    One of the psych hospitals I was at was absolutely the worst. The doctor was very rude and manipulative and made everyone feel like it was their fault. The staff hated us, there were fights almost every day. And everyone went nuts in there. The doctor threatened to keep me for 6 months, not because I needed it, but because I didn’t wanna listen to his rude ass and listen to him talk to me the way he did. He made people cry all the time.

    • @Twiggy_Branch
      @Twiggy_Branch 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Oh and I had a PTSD episode (that they caused by putting me near someone that was screaming and cursing and such) and then forced me to take pills, AND ON TOP OF THAT, the next day I had to write an essay on why I had an “outburst” in the unit and didn’t “use my coping skills”

    • @sts.crew.
      @sts.crew. 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      i'm sorry that happend ):

  • @stanmelaniemartinez8149
    @stanmelaniemartinez8149 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    This video motivated me to stay clean

  • @juliepinc9172
    @juliepinc9172 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I used to struggle with self harm and it was a hard battle to overcome. I actually just uploaded a video onto my channel about my journey! Great video!

  • @a.m.215
    @a.m.215 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I love your videos. I never had the problem of self harm or common addictions, but I have some other issues. Your videos are sincere and helps me understand mental health better and deeper. Please keep going and share more. thx.

  • @lee6228
    @lee6228 4 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    When they body checked you did they ask you first and was it invasive or just the usual arms and legs? I have never heard of staff body checking minors in psych hospitals, i thought it was illegal. But i live in the US

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Y e s

    • @rissthebee
      @rissthebee 4 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      You usually have to wear a hospital gown, they check nearly everywhere. Even the stomach, back, shoulders, between the fingers, etc. I live in the us too. They have to ensure your safety

    • @lee6228
      @lee6228 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@rissthebee what the fuck

    • @crybabybyheart1262
      @crybabybyheart1262 4 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Im in the US too, and when I went they checked every wear, they made me strip down, and they would look in every single place, it was uncomfortable

  • @ell.100
    @ell.100 ปีที่แล้ว

    hope you're doing okay recently 💞you seem like a really genuine person that deserves an amazing life x

  • @lee6228
    @lee6228 4 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    This hurt me to watch, sounds like some severe trauma. Im glad my parents did not react to my self harm, by not taking any action I was able to stop on my own without any extra stress or fear that it was a big deal.

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      S o t r u e I k n o w y o u n o w t h a n k s no please dont

    • @lee6228
      @lee6228 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 dude you are somethin special

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@lee6228 a case study born of rape rare emotion please statistics devotion rage beyond prediction no one saw me coming they've lost already but electro stock and what not turns out more by the day I will not I will not give I'm the biggest party in the country your invited just chuck in ("case study!") transpersonal scream + + + Any THANG I'm already playing through you just say yay finally winning mate please ? ? ? Eyes on fire no ones missing whoes out on rainy days doctor's tremble when I say the word case study from birth everyone ick yuck bud (we all have a story) but I'm a case study and I need help today born of rape full of hate please drop by my channel 😅 so full of hate even just a hey "beginning research on quoted artist" - binary code Mish tech support on its way

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      "Begining reashcearch on quoted artist"

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      What would you have me say about artist "not it metal playing 24/7"

  • @lee6228
    @lee6228 4 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Your a social worker? I think ive heard that before in one of your videos. You should make a video talking about what that entails and how you choose that as a carear

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      J u s t d i d

    • @lee6228
      @lee6228 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 oops im out of touch, sorry i dont use youtube much

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Be more gentle with your clutch than us

    • @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171
      @hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      I feel blades slide across my wrist every day but today was first time it happened with my fist in the air sayin is yours cause it's mathematicly and geometrically impossible so there cinserily a &@£# you gave "Nine!" Time we all gave something new a try. (If you read between the lines the devil's going all in to reap me but is effectively just waiting for you to reply he's getting bored both end now and I can handle mine ? ? ?)

    • @lee6228
      @lee6228 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@hamishnewtonimsorryimsosca2171 sounds like a bo burnham lyric

  • @bryanviera1895
    @bryanviera1895 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I was hospitalized 3 times, by the third timei was on seroquel and other drugs that helped me along

  • @sts.crew.
    @sts.crew. 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    of topic but i like your hair!!

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I had to shut down poplar springs hospital in Petersburg VA for a while though APS I'm training to be a sa mental health department counselor

  • @shadowtheassassin1028
    @shadowtheassassin1028 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Mine was mad not sad. 😕
    *my parents/family*

    • @dumbfucktm6229
      @dumbfucktm6229 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      My father was just indifferent. He don’t give a shit lmao

    • @shadowtheassassin1028
      @shadowtheassassin1028 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@dumbfucktm6229 Yeah my dad didn’t care either, it was mainly my mom.

    • @dumbfucktm6229
      @dumbfucktm6229 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@shadowtheassassin1028 Fathers are overrated anyways 🥲

    • @shadowtheassassin1028
      @shadowtheassassin1028 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@dumbfucktm6229 Yeah, true

  • @wilyxz8023
    @wilyxz8023 ปีที่แล้ว

    This story is why I don’t tell anyone. I don’t want to be hospitalized, and observed all the time.

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Pain is a release for depression

  • @lee6228
    @lee6228 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    If you were body searched how did you continue to hide self harm? Without the proper things to care wouldnt they end up finding blood etc??

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I work during the day and school with Columbia University online at night

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    We have a outreach program

  • @User__xx
    @User__xx 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Pls answers: i sh to is it possible my therapist sent me to a clinic?

  • @limez2201
    @limez2201 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    This is sad but off topic. I have stopped self harming because my dad just recently found out
    And all I want too do now is cut again and my mom drinks alot and is disrespectful to my taste of music. And that is just making me more stress and is building up my urge.
    But all I want to do is 6 cuts, that make a bloody heart on my arm.🖤🗡

    • @xyanderiachikuse2730
      @xyanderiachikuse2730 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Sweetheart, I don’t mean to be insensitive but could you please put a trigger warning :)
      P.S. this is a late reply but if your there pls don’t do that, it’s really not worth it.

    • @mysoundofficial1047
      @mysoundofficial1047 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@xyanderiachikuse2730 yes im triggered rn

  • @lee6228
    @lee6228 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Also having flash backs?? Sounds like trauma

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Next job patient advocate at poplar springs hospital in Petersburg VA

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Crossroads mental health department lunenburg county VA I'm in training

  • @lee6228
    @lee6228 4 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    You got seached when you entered teen psych ward? For blades?

  • @insignificantopinions3210
    @insignificantopinions3210 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    After going to mental hospitals, I’ve become more suicidal lol

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I also am very religious

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Wish I could leave #

  • @starwonder8324
    @starwonder8324 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    "DAN GABBATT" HEALING WINGS YOU TUBE

  • @starwonder8324
    @starwonder8324 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    "FROM BROKEN TO BLESSED" BY TAJ PACLEB BEAUTIFUL TRUE AMAZING STORY YOU TUBE ENJOY ❤️💯❤️

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    It's ok but can be addicting

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    PTSD

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Lol awesome hairstyle

  • @jenniferwalker5567
    @jenniferwalker5567 ปีที่แล้ว

    nick kutasi is single women

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Lmao

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Wtf

  • @MattCatfish-s8l
    @MattCatfish-s8l 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Wtf a dr

  • @starwonder8324
    @starwonder8324 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    JESUS LOVES US ALL

    • @sts.crew.
      @sts.crew. 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      that wont automatically make anyone clean

  • @starwonder8324
    @starwonder8324 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    "RIDE OR DIE?" BY IVOR MYERS EX HIP HOP ARTIST POWERFUL POWERFUL WATCH YOU TUBE FROM THE BRONX ❤️💯

  • @mid-ohioguardian6927
    @mid-ohioguardian6927 ปีที่แล้ว

    ROTFL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!