I just lost my son to cancer 1~3~25 ; went in hospital in October , diagnosed with stage 4; went thru so much tests, pain level at 14, he was 45; he was the best son who always had my back and I know he us with Jesus and no longer in so much pain but I am 78 and I never imagine my child going before me; it is a difficult journey and I hold on tight to my Savior😔🙏
Kyle you are doing amazing. I am a widow of 17 years. My husband had colon cancer and fought the fight for 5 years. He was diagnosed at 42 and passed at 47. We had two children 6&7 at the time of his death. They are now 23&24 college graduates and now will be graduating with their masters degree. I was not a good Mom in the beginning. I fell into a depression for a time, which was not good for the kids. I spoiled my kids and myself to fill the void of their Dads and husbands loss. I sit here with so many regrets. The money I spent to fill the void, is now kicking me in the ass. Kids are doing great, living on their own. I am struggling daily to survive financially. The anger I feel is strong. How I was left with raising the kids, supporting a home and day to day life issues has been difficult. You have such a great attitude towards grief and the kids. I could go on and on…. I just wanted you to know how great you are doing with the kids and handling your grief. Please feel free to message if you need to talk about anything. I feel my purpose is to help others going through grief. Have a great day!! Know you are doing amazing!! Life is tough, one day at a time. Linda.
I can understand how you went into debt to fill the void in your life. Hopefully you were left with good memories with your children and found some relief from the overwhelming grief and just trying anything to just get through it! My heart goes out to you and others facing life without their loved one.❤
Kyle didn’t go into debt because he exploited Jenny’s death and vet bills etc and the community pays for his BS. Think about it: what teacher can afford to go on camping trips every weekend and to Disney Land constantly. None! Guess who pays for all of that? His followers do! A YEAR LATER!
I watched a old Jenny video recently… and she says just “remind kyle when he is really missing me to grab a big pillow and hug it and pretend it’s me” that made me sooo emotional! 😭
My wife also died of lung cancer in December and only two months after detection. Right now I feel like the Tasmanian Devil. I take it one day at the time but it's terribly difficult. Great video.😇
Going through this now 4 months in. I knew grief was bad but you don't realize how bad until someone that's been in your life so long and such a big part of it is gone.
Gentle hugs your way 🫂 you will get thru this, I promise. I always think of the expression it will pass, it might pass like a kidney stone with lots of pain, but it will pass. You will learn to live with your grief and one day you will catch yourself smiling when talking about your loved one rather than crying and that will be a great day.
It's so hard to deal with loss, I lost my husband to suicide in 2006 I was a single parent to my boys at 2 year old and a 2 month old. And have lost my mum and many family members to cancer. My boys are 18 and 20 now and have have accomplished apprenticeships. I still struggle with my mental health. But I take each day as it comes. Take care 💙
I’m so full of admiration for you, Kyle. You’re finding your way and giving Ellis and Winnie exactly what they need. Did you ever stop to think that Jenny isn’t ‘out there somewhere’, but inside you, accompanying you everywhere, quietly sharing everything with you? She’s with you more than ever ❤🕊️
" learning to be comfortable with uncomfortable" ... appreciate this perspective. As a side note, doing this, a little at a time time, keep this in the land of the living. Even though our life is not the life we had planned, life is a gift. I pray for gratitude.
ive lost three babies, two children, my husband and my mom, dad, and special needs brother_ the pain is always there, it hides in bittersweet memories.
Self-awareness is truly a gift. Knowing yourself and giving yourself what you need to go on and be the best you you can be is so wise. Rooting for you and your children.
Thank you Kyle. My son was being treated at COH while I was following Jenny’s courageous battle. He passed away to be with the Lord on 9/21. My dog Lola passed away two days later; we think Christian wanted her with him. My father passed away 8 days later. I don’t have any words to effectively describe the level of grief, but by the grace of God I along with my family are taking each step, every day and just keep going. Your videos help so much. God bless you and thank you 🙏❤️✝️
Marissa, I read your post and I am so very sorry for the loss of your son, Lola and your father!! I know it is unbearable to go through!!! I will be praying for you!!!
She was a very special woman. You were blessed to have her. Even at the end, she said she wanted you to be happy and to meet someone new. I don’t know if I could ever be that strong.❤
Great video! Maybe someday think about being a motivational speaker. You speak so well and you have shared so much of your grieving process I think you'd be an exceptional speaker to grief groups.....but only when you are ready! You are a true testament of working and sharing what you've been through with this journey you are on
I can remember Jenny saying that she was terrified at speaking publicly but Kyle loves it so I do hope that Kyle gets some opportunities speaking to live audiences beyond the TH-cam platform.
Thank you for your videos, I am not grieving a loss in the same way as you, rather a different kind of loss/pain. I am personally going through a lot with my kids, and their medical struggles. Grieving the privilege of having healthy children, and it’s hard, sad, lonely and heartbreaking to watch my children struggle, sorry for the ramble, my point of this comment is just to say thank you for vlogging, honestly everytime I see you uploaded a new video, I have just a little bit of stress come off my shoulders. You are SO STRONG, brave and an amazing father/human. Your strength gives me strength and your videos alway teach me to be grateful for what and who I have in my life. Even though I cannot relate to your heartbreaking loss, I can relate to deep pain and just trying to find the strength to keep going each and everyday for my kids. So again thank you! ♥️ Hope you keep sharing your journey! And I hope the New Year brings you and your beautiful family as much joy as possible!
That's so true kyle. When we're in a dark place, we think it's only us going through it but most ppl are experiencing it. I think you're doing remarkable in your growth and healing. That's why I like watching you so much. You're very kind, humble and emotionally intelligent. Def funny
I haven't watched your videos in a couple months, I also was going thru grief after losing my younger sister in March 2024 which has been a very difficult time and crying almost every day.. but man I just seen this video and I'm so happy to see what healing looks like. U seem so much better not saying u don't have bad days but it's a relief to know what I have to look forward to. I thought after losing my sister I couldn't live anymore without her i almost wanted to be with her. I was in my darkest place cause shes my best friend. But I feel like I can breathe alittle bit better. But there's times I feel lost again. And God gave me so much to live for and God definitely is helping me thru this🙏 Thank you so much for this video. It helps alot❤
I hope and pray that you are safe from all the fires out in California. I'm originally from Orange County, now live in Kentucky. I'm not sure where you are, but praying for your safety.
I've learned we live life in chapters & God only loans our loved ones. Make the best of every moment God grants us. This life is a blink. Live, love, laugh, & keep going ❤❤
Take each day as it comes .You are a amazing father .Your children are a great reflection of Jenny and yourself. Kind thoughtful .I lost my husband at age 30 it been nearly 30 years .Iknow grief. Your not alone .
Kyle..I mean this in a good way...being a widow at 44 myself now 63 I remember all the things you are feeling..and I think you are subconsciously preparing yourself and those around you for that um...change...You got this!!!!!!
I’ve sat here in my own space holding your hand as you and Jenny so courageously brought us along on your cancer journey, your love journey, your parenting journey and now your grief and healing journey. Little did I know that I would loose my own daughter just a few short months ago. I’ve been practicing self care like never before - yet recognizing that this experience is so unlike anything I could have ever been prepared for. It’s one step at a time. One deep breath at a time. One miserable night sleep at a time. All with thought after thought. Pain and internal suffering that I wear daily on the outside for all to see. I stay inside where it feels safe. My important message on this day is for everyone to just please, please exercise kindess. For those of us suffering as our hearts are broken and the last thing anyone needs who struggles to wake up in the morning is judgement and lack of kindness. Kyle, I’m holding you close in grief and your messaging reminds me I’m not alone yet loosing my child feels like the most empty isolating experience that I can’t put words to. Please keep up with your vlogs. You’re helping strangers one sentiment and tear at a time - thank you for that. Xo
Your growth has been an honor to watch. Im so proud that you took this year to prioritize you and the kids, to make new memories, to grieve openly together, to open up, to survive this absolute tragedy and coming into a new year knowing yourself and kiddos better. You got this Kyle, you are great. Gentle hugs to all of you 🫂
You are a very strong person, my uncle lost my aunt very recently and he's feeling absolutely lost right now. But seeing that you have been able to get it together and keep going gives reassurance that everyone is capable of surviving even through the worst of the worst, its heartbreaking but life has to go on. What we can take from it is the memories and the honor to have been able to love our loved ones until the very end
Have a plan and commit to it. When your direction changes you know what needs to change. A holistic approach is intensive, but it covers your spiritual, family, mental, physical, and social needs.
I'm full of admiration for you continuing to update The Apple family community on you tube, and you're doing great with managing to look at the positives and build on them and not letting grief drag you down into the pits for too long! I strongly believe there is a way of feeling and processing grief without letting it kill you and everyone around you! Life is short even when it appears to be long at times. Life is for living and making the best of all you have been given.
I feel like the running to anything .. that’s exactly what I was doing and grief will wait on you when you’re done … it’s been 8 months now since my husband died .. ❤
Happy New Year “Kylie”! Jenny’s cute pet name for you that I always loved☺️ I have been rewatching all of Jenny’s videos lately and I miss her! I miss her and I didn’t even know her personally, although I felt like I knew her🥰 She had a way of making us feel that way which was amazing. I loved how vulnerable and open she was about everything she was going through. You were by her side through it all and it was a beautiful thing to watch. My dad passed away in October of 2021 and he had been put on a very high dose of prednisone towards the end as a kind of Hail Mary but it didn’t really work😢 The thing about Prednisone that was so awful was how cranky it made him. He was not himself and I know that is a common side effect of the drug. Jenny handled it like a BOSS. If she was ever crabby, I certainly never saw it. She is an angel. I saw a penny today in Whole Foods (a store you and Jenny would like) and thought of her❤ Last night I watched an old live that you did where you answered questions and you were only 3 months into your grief journey but you said you were sleeping on the couch. Can I ask if you are able to sleep in your room again yet? You seem really good in today’s video almost a year later which makes me happy to see. I’m rooting for you as I’m sure we all are and you’re doing great!! Ellis and Winnie are so lucky to have such an amazing dad❤️ I know Jenny is with you always and so proud of you.
Kyle, You are doing awesome. My family went through the exact samething. My mom passed when I was 9. I watched and was there for my dad through it all. He raised 3 girls in his own. He did awesome. Look don't do anything you don't want to. Take breaks rest just focus on now. Jenny would want you to be happy again eventually. Take your time. You will know when the time is right. You are very young and have a lot of years left. Focus on you and the kids. I understand you have to relearn how to live again. You will I promise you that. God bless you and your family. P.S You got this take your time & learn to say NO!!!!
Thank you for this great video and all your wonderful advice for the new year. It sure is helpful as I am grieving my mother. She passed on 5-22-22. Hardest day of my life. You made several good points and I just love your positive outlook. Kindness is for sure key! Thanks again! I wish you all the best of happiness, love, joy, peace in the new year to come.
Thank you for sharing things from your life, sadness, grief, efford... Thank you. Feeling am not alone in this ❤ Greatfull for your words and work on chanel
Came here to check in ...I always watch TH-cam from fire TV so I rarely comment but these fires have me so worried I'm in NY but heard the name of their town 😢 check in when you can Kyle 🙏 praying you guys are not in harms way
Jenny would be so proud of what you have accomplished Kyle. She knew it would be hard but I feel you have found your inner strength. Wishing you the best of luck in the New Year.
Kyle, you are such an inspiration, just as Jenny was ❤️!! You have helped so many of us while going through your own grief. You always put Ellis and Winnie first! You're a phenomenal Dad and an amazing person 🙏. I wish you only goodness for you and the kids 💞- You're an amazing source of strength! I applaud you for being a leader and sharing your vulnerability with us. I look up to you and wanted to let you know you're doing an amazing 👏 job!!! Remember to hug those pillows when needed! Sending hugs, love, peaceful vibes, and blessings 🙏 to you and the kids ❣️💕🫶❤️
Thanks for sharing. I have a son with special needs so I grief “normal” for him. He is still here and that’s a blessing but it is so hard to deal with sometimes. So thank you for the reminder. Grief is hard and everyone deals with it in some way!
You are a natural born speaker, Kyle. What an amazing gift Jenny left us when she asked you to film your grief journey. You are helping so many of us navigate our grief. As you said their is no right or wrong way to grieve, but everything you said is spot on.
I'm not sure where you live Kyle but really hope you, your children and extended family are all well, safe and not impacted by the terrible fires in California currently in progress.
I lost my mother December 4th 2023 to end-stage COPD now I've always been a struggling teen I'm 23 now and when I heard my mom was put on hospice the beginning of January of 2023 I didn't really think she was going to die I thought she was going to overcome this because she's had several near-death experiences but I guess her body was just tired but it really did something to me when I found out she passed away so the beginning of 2024 was hard but then we found this puppy and named him Alfie he was the world to me my mom would have loved him he helped me cope with my mom's death until September 28th of 2024 when he suddenly passed away from parvo he was only 10 months old I miss my mother and my puppy more than life and sometimes I just think if I could trade my life to bring them back I swear I would in a instant 🙏🏼😢
Beautifully said Kyle. You’ve been through so much and you have a natural ability to process information and communicate so well. The world needs you to nurture them, after you nurture yourself first, always! Day by day. We adjust our sails as we go, sometimes running to things to keep distracted and our brains busy, coping mechanisms kicking in. Some days five steps forward then two steps back. Thank you for reminding yourself and everyone that doing our best can look very different on different days and all of it is good enough. Take care of yourself, give yourself permission to be uncomfortable, keeping kindness and gratitude in your heart💚 Love you, XO
Seeing the devastation of the wildfires and hoping that you and your family are safe. My heart goes out to all that have been affected by this. What a nightmare.
This brings tears because I know a lot of those ring true for me. It's been 5 years since my husband died of cancer. Ryan was only 8 or almost 9. Now he's 15. Teenage years are tough and he's going through his struggles. I've let myself go and I gotta try to get back to where I was before he died. Thanks Kyle for the share.
I've been watching you and Jenny from a far. You are doing a good job handling everything. I am now a caregiver to my husband, 52, from an ultra rare form of cancer that required a total amputation of his left leg, his hip, and 1/2 of his pelvis. He also did 6 rounds of chemo and the day he was finished with chemo, his boss called him on the phone (he was laying in the hospital bed having the final flush out of the chemo) and fired him. It's been a rough year for us but I have really been encouraged by your strength in how you have picked up and continued LIVING. It's been a year of uncertainty for us for sure. Thank you for allowing us in to your life.
You have been a blessing to me in more ways than you can imagine. I just want to say thank you and you are an absolutely moral of a man and father. You have a common friend to me and I thank you from the bottom of my heart, dear Kyle.😊😊😊😊
You had and still have a beautiful love story. Its been a hard year for sure, but it is really comforting to know youre trying your best to improve yourself and take notes on lessons learned. You have a really nice voice and is very clear you have a kind heart too. Im taking notes as i listen to you because i find them useful (even though our lives are so different) Thanks Kyle, lets keep going 💪
Hi Kyle I have no idea where you are in L.A. but seriously concerned how you, the children and your family and friends are coping. Sending love, hugs and prayers 💖💖💖🤗🤗🤗🙏🙏🙏 Lynne U.K. Xxx
Kyle you are awesome. God wants you to be happy and find love as needed. Death do us part and its hard. Think that you and the kids need love also. God bless.
Lost my wife last year. I am doing the same, things out of my comfort. I also am coaching my 2 kids. Keeping my mind busy and concentrating on my health. Good stuff and I wish you well.
Beautiful talk about you and your journey forward. I ran to from feeling the same as you said on the grief journey. I really am happy to see you grow in such a positive status.
you should put this all into a book. The Apples. It will be a New York Times Best Seller. It will be written by you and Jenny and it will be lovely and help heal the world. That is what I see :)
Happy New Year, Apple family! You're doing such an amazing job, Kyle.Jenny is so proud of you and your beautiful children. You're so right, you have to take care of yourself. You can't pour from an empty cup.❤ Lydia
Kyle....no improvement required!! Maybe in your mind but to all of us you're above and beyond what a single parent should and could ever be capable of or what is necessary to bring up children. You're awesome my friend. Hugs.
Such a great video Kyle, I’m sure Jenny is watching and beaming with pride at how far you and your kids have come this year 😊 I have no doubt this will help so many people. I wish you, Ellis, Winnie and the pets a wonderful 2025 and that the things you wish to accomplish this year come true 🩷🩷🐞
Are you or your and Jenny’s family in path of the fires? My prayers are with everyone there. I lived in Stockton for 9 years but didn’t go to southern California very often.
Kyle your self reflection is amazing.! You have come so far in the past year and I’m sure you will continue on the best path for you and your beautiful family. Thank you for sharing your journey, you’re an amazing parent and person! Love and hugs to you Ellis and Winnie!❤
My love was taken from me of Metastatic BC on Mothers Day 2024 😢 #Jennifer Walden she always said, “one foot in front of the other.”Thank you for sharing this. Your Wife is awesome and is missed by many from her videos. Stay strong sir.
Kyle, I see why you are a teacher. You have a way of explaining and breaking things down beautifully. This is truly a great video. Please know that you are amazing and it’s quite clear that you are doing a phenomenal job with Ellis and Winnie!
Your summary of dealing with a multitude of challenges is excellent. Also well articulated is how you work with loss over time. Sending you love & wishing you & the kids & pets a healthy new year.
it's so great the way you articulate your experience....excellent. i'm so impressed....you are so lovely. no wonder Jenny fell in love with you and LOOK what you two made together!! BRAVO~~
It was so hard to deal with loss, but you’re doing a great job. I did it for seven years. You can do it. I’ll see you in your next video. Have a blessed Tuesday.❤❤❤
Wow. Kyle your insights are spot on for me and I am sure for so many others. What is really cool is that your insights and advice fit so perfectly in many people’s lives who are going through their own personal struggles. You have come a long way and thank you for sharing your wisdom with us.
I just lost my son to cancer 1~3~25 ; went in hospital in October , diagnosed with stage 4; went thru so much tests, pain level at 14, he was 45; he was the best son who always had my back and I know he us with Jesus and no longer in so much pain but I am 78 and I never imagine my child going before me; it is a difficult journey and I hold on tight to my Savior😔🙏
I’m so sorry for your loss, you have my condolences❤
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I'm so sorry for your loss🙏
I am so sorry, cancer is horrid. I’m glad your faith is giving you comfort.
I'm still going through grief. You all have my condolences
Kyle you are doing amazing. I am a widow of 17 years. My husband had colon cancer and fought the fight for 5 years. He was diagnosed at 42 and passed at 47.
We had two children 6&7 at the time of his death. They are now 23&24 college graduates and now will be graduating with their masters degree.
I was not a good Mom in the beginning. I fell into a depression for a time, which was not good for the kids.
I spoiled my kids and myself to fill the void of their Dads and husbands loss.
I sit here with so many regrets. The money I spent to fill the void, is now kicking me in the ass. Kids are doing great, living on their own. I am struggling daily to survive financially.
The anger I feel is strong. How I was left with raising the kids, supporting a home and day to day life issues has been difficult.
You have such a great attitude towards grief and the kids.
I could go on and on…. I just wanted you to know how great you are doing with the kids and handling your grief.
Please feel free to message if you need to talk about anything.
I feel my purpose is to help others going through grief.
Have a great day!! Know you are doing amazing!! Life is tough, one day at a time.
Linda.
I can understand how you went into debt to fill the void in your life. Hopefully you were left with good memories with your children and found some relief from the overwhelming grief and just trying anything to just get through it! My heart goes out to you and others facing life without their loved one.❤
Kyle didn’t go into debt because he exploited Jenny’s death and vet bills etc and the community pays for his BS. Think about it: what teacher can afford to go on camping trips every weekend and to Disney Land constantly. None! Guess who pays for all of that? His followers do! A YEAR LATER!
What ever you say Kyle i am very impressed how you reflect everything! Just WOW! 🩵💙🩵🥰🙏🐞🐞🐞🐞
I watched a old Jenny video recently… and she says just “remind kyle when he is really missing me to grab a big pillow and hug it and pretend it’s me” that made me sooo emotional! 😭
I just watched that too. Hug that pillow Kyle.
Absolutely!! Maybe Spritz it with a little bit of her favorite perfume. And keep praying for strength. Sending ❤️🙏
True, i remember that too. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
Keeping you and the kids always in my prayers. 😘😘😘😘😘🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏
Oh my word I rewatched her old videos and that was one of them and I was gonna tell Kyle the same thing grab a pillow when you miss her Kyle ❤❤
My wife also died of lung cancer in December and only two months after detection. Right now I feel like the Tasmanian Devil. I take it one day at the time but it's terribly difficult. Great video.😇
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So truly sorry for your loss
God so sorry
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Sorry for your loss
Going through this now 4 months in. I knew grief was bad but you don't realize how bad until someone that's been in your life so long and such a big part of it is gone.
Gentle hugs your way 🫂 you will get thru this, I promise. I always think of the expression it will pass, it might pass like a kidney stone with lots of pain, but it will pass. You will learn to live with your grief and one day you will catch yourself smiling when talking about your loved one rather than crying and that will be a great day.
Your 100% right
God Bless you 🙏 your Amazing ❤ you guys are going to be ok 💞 it's hard but God helps with each step ❤❤❤love you ❤❤
Big hugs Kyle🤗 you are amazing love the way you openly spoke 🥳
@@RandiMarie_1983Well said
It's so hard to deal with loss, I lost my husband to suicide in 2006 I was a single parent to my boys at 2 year old and a 2 month old. And have lost my mum and many family members to cancer. My boys are 18 and 20 now and have have accomplished apprenticeships. I still struggle with my mental health. But I take each day as it comes. Take care 💙
I see you helping & teaching others with their grief! 💖🙏
@@deborahmckay8451 I see that for Donna too. And helping other people get through their tragedy, can be very therapeutic. ❤
God Bless you. Sounds like you did a fantastic job with your sons.❤❤
I’m so full of admiration for you, Kyle. You’re finding your way and giving Ellis and Winnie exactly what they need. Did you ever stop to think that Jenny isn’t ‘out there somewhere’, but inside you, accompanying you everywhere, quietly sharing everything with you? She’s with you more than ever ❤🕊️
I love that thought!
@@eh6454 very well said ❤️❤️❤️
The kids just need stability and that is you in their world.
It's still amazing Jenny's sister comes over each day to do Winnie's hair.
" learning to be comfortable with uncomfortable" ... appreciate this perspective. As a side note, doing this, a little at a time time, keep this in the land of the living. Even though our life is not the life we had planned, life is a gift. I pray for gratitude.
ive lost three babies, two children, my husband and my mom, dad, and special needs brother_ the pain is always there, it hides in bittersweet memories.
Self-awareness is truly a gift. Knowing yourself and giving yourself what you need to go on and be the best you you can be is so wise. Rooting for you and your children.
Prayers that you and the kids are safe from the fires. 🙏
Thank you Kyle. My son was being treated at COH while I was following Jenny’s courageous battle. He passed away to be with the Lord on 9/21. My dog Lola passed away two days later; we think Christian wanted her with him. My father passed away 8 days later. I don’t have any words to effectively describe the level of grief, but by the grace of God I along with my family are taking each step, every day and just keep going. Your videos help so much. God bless you and thank you 🙏❤️✝️
Marissa, I read your post and I am so very sorry for the loss of your son, Lola and your father!! I know it is unbearable to go through!!! I will be praying for you!!!
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Omg that’s a lot I am so sorry 😢❤
She was a very special woman. You were blessed to have her. Even at the end, she said she wanted you to be happy and to meet someone new. I don’t know if I could ever be that strong.❤
Saying prayers for your families safety from the fires and wind. Please let us know you are OK. It's so devastating.
I'm so worried, I wish I had his email🙏🏼
Do you live close to the fires be safe
Yes. I hope Kyle and his kids are safe from the fires. ❤
Great video!
Maybe someday think about being a motivational speaker. You speak so well and you have shared so much of your grieving process I think you'd be an exceptional speaker to grief groups.....but only when you are ready!
You are a true testament of working and sharing what you've been through with this journey you are on
I can remember Jenny saying that she was terrified at speaking publicly but Kyle loves it so I do hope that Kyle gets some opportunities speaking to live audiences beyond the TH-cam platform.
Hoping you and the kids and dogs are safe and sound from the fires! ❤️
thank you. you are helping me right now...thank you.
I hope you are safe and away from the wildfires in CA. Prayers for you and your family!
I hope you and the kids are safe and your extended family and friends are ok. Devastating watching from Australia 😞💜
I hope you all are safe 🙏 ❤️ from the fires. I'm praying for your safety
Yes, me too. I’m not sure where they live but I know they go to a street with Christmas displays and the news is talking about that. ❤🙏
Thank you for your videos, I am not grieving a loss in the same way as you, rather a different kind of loss/pain. I am personally going through a lot with my kids, and their medical struggles. Grieving the privilege of having healthy children, and it’s hard, sad, lonely and heartbreaking to watch my children struggle, sorry for the ramble, my point of this comment is just to say thank you for vlogging, honestly everytime I see you uploaded a new video, I have just a little bit of stress come off my shoulders. You are SO STRONG, brave and an amazing father/human.
Your strength gives me strength and your videos alway teach me to be grateful for what and who I have in my life.
Even though I cannot relate to your heartbreaking loss, I can relate to deep pain and just trying to find the strength to keep going each and everyday for my kids.
So again thank you! ♥️
Hope you keep sharing your journey!
And I hope the New Year brings you and your beautiful family as much joy as possible!
That's so true kyle. When we're in a dark place, we think it's only us going through it but most ppl are experiencing it. I think you're doing remarkable in your growth and healing. That's why I like watching you so much. You're very kind, humble and emotionally intelligent. Def funny
I haven't watched your videos in a couple months, I also was going thru grief after losing my younger sister in March 2024 which has been a very difficult time and crying almost every day.. but man I just seen this video and I'm so happy to see what healing looks like. U seem so much better not saying u don't have bad days but it's a relief to know what I have to look forward to. I thought after losing my sister I couldn't live anymore without her i almost wanted to be with her. I was in my darkest place cause shes my best friend. But I feel like I can breathe alittle bit better. But there's times I feel lost again. And God gave me so much to live for and God definitely is helping me thru this🙏 Thank you so much for this video. It helps alot❤
I hope and pray that you are safe from all the fires out in California. I'm originally from Orange County, now live in Kentucky. I'm not sure where you are, but praying for your safety.
I've learned we live life in chapters & God only loans our loved ones. Make the best of every moment God grants us. This life is a blink. Live, love, laugh, & keep going ❤❤
You are AMAZING! Your growth is phenomenal for it being just a little over a year.
Kyle, you have many important words of wisdom in this video. Thank you and we love you too.
Take each day as it comes .You are a amazing father .Your children are a great reflection of Jenny and yourself. Kind thoughtful .I lost my husband at age 30 it been nearly 30 years .Iknow grief. Your not alone .
Kyle..I mean this in a good way...being a widow at 44 myself now 63 I remember all the things you are feeling..and I think you are subconsciously preparing yourself and those around you for that um...change...You got this!!!!!!
Wonderful analysis...gonna pass this on to my niece. She lost her 18 yr old daughter to cancer last year...
Hugs from us all
Kyle you are doing an amazing job! You are such an inspiration to me! Sending love and light to you and your precious children.
I’ve sat here in my own space holding your hand as you and Jenny so courageously brought us along on your cancer journey, your love journey, your parenting journey and now your grief and healing journey. Little did I know that I would loose my own daughter just a few short months ago. I’ve been practicing self care like never before - yet recognizing that this experience is so unlike anything I could have ever been prepared for. It’s one step at a time. One deep breath at a time. One miserable night sleep at a time. All with thought after thought. Pain and internal suffering that I wear daily on the outside for all to see. I stay inside where it feels safe. My important message on this day is for everyone to just please, please exercise kindess. For those of us suffering as our hearts are broken and the last thing anyone needs who struggles to wake up in the morning is judgement and lack of kindness. Kyle, I’m holding you close in grief and your messaging reminds me I’m not alone yet loosing my child feels like the most empty isolating experience that I can’t put words to. Please keep up with your vlogs. You’re helping strangers one sentiment and tear at a time - thank you for that. Xo
So sorry for your loss. 🙏❤️
🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
God’s got you man be strong. You sound like a great father and really good dude! Mad respect true role model.
Your growth has been an honor to watch. Im so proud that you took this year to prioritize you and the kids, to make new memories, to grieve openly together, to open up, to survive this absolute tragedy and coming into a new year knowing yourself and kiddos better. You got this Kyle, you are great. Gentle hugs to all of you 🫂
You are a very strong person, my uncle lost my aunt very recently and he's feeling absolutely lost right now. But seeing that you have been able to get it together and keep going gives reassurance that everyone is capable of surviving even through the worst of the worst, its heartbreaking but life has to go on. What we can take from it is the memories and the honor to have been able to love our loved ones until the very end
Have a plan and commit to it. When your direction changes you know what needs to change. A holistic approach is intensive, but it covers your spiritual, family, mental, physical, and social needs.
J'ai trouvé tellement vrai ce que tu dis dans cette vidéo.❤
I'm full of admiration for you continuing to update The Apple family community on you tube, and you're doing great with managing to look at the positives and build on them and not letting grief drag you down into the pits for too long! I strongly believe there is a way of feeling and processing grief without letting it kill you and everyone around you! Life is short even when it appears to be long at times. Life is for living and making the best of all you have been given.
I feel like the running to anything .. that’s exactly what I was doing and grief will wait on you when you’re done … it’s been 8 months now since my husband died .. ❤
Happy New Year “Kylie”! Jenny’s cute pet name for you that I always loved☺️ I have been rewatching all of Jenny’s videos lately and I miss her! I miss her and I didn’t even know her personally, although I felt like I knew her🥰 She had a way of making us feel that way which was amazing. I loved how vulnerable and open she was about everything she was going through. You were by her side through it all and it was a beautiful thing to watch. My dad passed away in October of 2021 and he had been put on a very high dose of prednisone towards the end as a kind of Hail Mary but it didn’t really work😢 The thing about Prednisone that was so awful was how cranky it made him. He was not himself and I know that is a common side effect of the drug. Jenny handled it like a BOSS. If she was ever crabby, I certainly never saw it. She is an angel. I saw a penny today in Whole Foods (a store you and Jenny would like) and thought of her❤ Last night I watched an old live that you did where you answered questions and you were only 3 months into your grief journey but you said you were sleeping on the couch. Can I ask if you are able to sleep in your room again yet? You seem really good in today’s video almost a year later which makes me happy to see. I’m rooting for you as I’m sure we all are and you’re doing great!! Ellis and Winnie are so lucky to have such an amazing dad❤️ I know Jenny is with you always and so proud of you.
Kyle,
You are doing awesome. My family went through the exact samething. My mom passed when I was 9. I watched and was there for my dad through it all. He raised 3 girls in his own. He did awesome. Look don't do anything you don't want to. Take breaks rest just focus on now. Jenny would want you to be happy again eventually. Take your time. You will know when the time is right. You are very young and have a lot of years left. Focus on you and the kids. I understand you have to relearn how to live again. You will I promise you that. God bless you and your family.
P.S
You got this take your time & learn to say NO!!!!
Thank you for this great video and all your wonderful advice for the new year. It sure is helpful as I am grieving my mother. She passed on 5-22-22. Hardest day of my life. You made several good points and I just love your positive outlook. Kindness is for sure key! Thanks again! I wish you all the best of happiness, love, joy, peace in the new year to come.
Your family is on my heart with the wildfires in CA. Praying you are safe 🙏🏼
I hope you guys are safe from the fires. Praying for you and Calfornia
Thank you for sharing things from your life, sadness, grief, efford... Thank you. Feeling am not alone in this ❤
Greatfull for your words and work on chanel
Hi kile I hope you guys are ok .I hope your all safe and not near this fire .love and prayers from England.❤
Came here to check in ...I always watch TH-cam from fire TV so I rarely comment but these fires have me so worried I'm in NY but heard the name of their town 😢 check in when you can Kyle 🙏 praying you guys are not in harms way
Thank you for opening up on the things with your children "coaching" sounds positive.
Good words.... I can relate.. I lost my close brother in November 2023. Unexpected! The hardest thing to go through...
That year is the Mile marker . You realize that God has got you through it and it’s time to move on to your own destiny. Go for it !
I agree!
Jenny would be so proud of what you have accomplished Kyle. She knew it would be hard but I feel you have found your inner strength. Wishing you the best of luck in the New Year.
I hope you and your family is safe from the fires. Praying for you and California
Cheering you on KYLE!!! You are doing great!!! You are on the right path!! YOU GOT THIS!!!
New year, time to move on❤️
Kyle, you are such an inspiration, just as Jenny was ❤️!! You have helped so many of us while going through your own grief. You always put Ellis and Winnie first! You're a phenomenal Dad and an amazing person 🙏. I wish you only goodness for you and the kids 💞- You're an amazing source of strength! I applaud you for being a leader and sharing your vulnerability with us. I look up to you and wanted to let you know you're doing an amazing 👏 job!!! Remember to hug those pillows when needed! Sending hugs, love, peaceful vibes, and blessings 🙏 to you and the kids ❣️💕🫶❤️
Hi Kyle, love you too friend! Still here with you through you and the kids’ journey. Wishing you all a year of further growth, health and happiness!
🤗🤗🤗 praying for you still.... Happy new year. ❤
Thanks for sharing. I have a son with special needs so I grief “normal” for him. He is still here and that’s a blessing but it is so hard to deal with sometimes. So thank you for the reminder. Grief is hard and everyone deals with it in some way!
You are a natural born speaker, Kyle. What an amazing gift Jenny left us when she asked you to film your grief journey. You are helping so many of us navigate our grief. As you said their is no right or wrong way to grieve, but everything you said is spot on.
Thank you for sharing your experiences.☮️🌺
Thank you, Kyle.
I'm not sure where you live Kyle but really hope you, your children and extended family are all well, safe and not impacted by the terrible fires in California currently in progress.
He lives near Disneyland orange county I think so fairly close😮
You are inspirational!! Go forward knowing you are a great dad. You are healing.
you + your kids are so strong & she’s always with you🩵
You would make a great grief councillor.. or a councillor in general. Hugs to you Kyle, Jenny was truely a remarkable person.
I lost my mother December 4th 2023 to end-stage COPD now I've always been a struggling teen I'm 23 now and when I heard my mom was put on hospice the beginning of January of 2023 I didn't really think she was going to die I thought she was going to overcome this because she's had several near-death experiences but I guess her body was just tired but it really did something to me when I found out she passed away so the beginning of 2024 was hard but then we found this puppy and named him Alfie he was the world to me my mom would have loved him he helped me cope with my mom's death until September 28th of 2024 when he suddenly passed away from parvo he was only 10 months old I miss my mother and my puppy more than life and sometimes I just think if I could trade my life to bring them back I swear I would in a instant 🙏🏼😢
Beautifully said Kyle. You’ve been through so much and you have a natural ability to process information and communicate so well. The world needs you to nurture them, after you nurture yourself first, always! Day by day. We adjust our sails as we go, sometimes running to things to keep distracted and our brains busy, coping mechanisms kicking in. Some days five steps forward then two steps back. Thank you for reminding yourself and everyone that doing our best can look very different on different days and all of it is good enough. Take care of yourself, give yourself permission to be uncomfortable, keeping kindness and gratitude in your heart💚
Love you,
XO
I Hope you an your Familie are Safe and No where near the wildfires.
Praying your safe from the horrific fires.
Seeing the devastation of the wildfires and hoping that you and your family are safe. My heart goes out to all that have been affected by this. What a nightmare.
Are you all safe from the fires?? Worried about you all? Praying for California 🙏
I pray that it is all far away from you guys. Praying for California.
This brings tears because I know a lot of those ring true for me. It's been 5 years since my husband died of cancer. Ryan was only 8 or almost 9. Now he's 15. Teenage years are tough and he's going through his struggles. I've let myself go and I gotta try to get back to where I was before he died. Thanks Kyle for the share.
Bless you…I can’t imagine trying to raise a teen in this world alone. I do pray you have family support and friends! Be Kind to yourself!😊
I've been watching you and Jenny from a far. You are doing a good job handling everything. I am now a caregiver to my husband, 52, from an ultra rare form of cancer that required a total amputation of his left leg, his hip, and 1/2 of his pelvis. He also did 6 rounds of chemo and the day he was finished with chemo, his boss called him on the phone (he was laying in the hospital bed having the final flush out of the chemo) and fired him. It's been a rough year for us but I have really been encouraged by your strength in how you have picked up and continued LIVING. It's been a year of uncertainty for us for sure. Thank you for allowing us in to your life.
What an amazing job you are doing for your kids. And you (and Jenny) are helping so many others by sharing your journey❤
You have been a blessing to me in more ways than you can imagine. I just want to say thank you and you are an absolutely moral of a man and father. You have a common friend to me and I thank you from the bottom of my heart, dear Kyle.😊😊😊😊
Jenny said you are allowed to find love and she will be with you always!
Kyle, you have become an excellent grief counselor. These videos are wonderful. I hope they give you a sense of purpose in helping others.
great wisdom. happy new year!!
You had and still have a beautiful love story. Its been a hard year for sure, but it is really comforting to know youre trying your best to improve yourself and take notes on lessons learned. You have a really nice voice and is very clear you have a kind heart too. Im taking notes as i listen to you because i find them useful (even though our lives are so different) Thanks Kyle, lets keep going 💪
Happy New Year, Kyle. May this year bring healing & progress for your entire family ❤
Hi Kyle
I have no idea where you are in L.A. but seriously concerned
how you, the children and your family and friends are coping.
Sending love, hugs and prayers
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Lynne U.K.
Xxx
Kyle you are awesome. God wants you to be happy and find love as needed. Death do us part and its hard. Think that you and the kids need love also. God bless.
Lost my wife last year. I am doing the same, things out of my comfort. I also am coaching my 2 kids. Keeping my mind busy and concentrating on my health. Good stuff and I wish you well.
Beautiful talk about you and your journey forward. I ran to from feeling the same as you said on the grief journey. I really am happy to see you grow in such a positive status.
you should put this all into a book. The Apples. It will be a New York Times Best Seller. It will be written by you and Jenny and it will be lovely and help heal the world. That is what I see :)
That is a beautiful idea!
Happy New Year, Apple family! You're doing such an amazing job, Kyle.Jenny is so proud of you and your beautiful children. You're so right, you have to take care of yourself. You can't pour from an empty cup.❤
Lydia
Kyle....no improvement required!! Maybe in your mind but to all of us you're above and beyond what a single parent should and could ever be capable of or what is necessary to bring up children. You're awesome my friend. Hugs.
Such a great video Kyle, I’m sure Jenny is watching and beaming with pride at how far you and your kids have come this year 😊 I
have no doubt this will help so many people. I wish you, Ellis, Winnie and the pets a wonderful 2025 and that the things you wish to accomplish this year come true 🩷🩷🐞
running as fast as i could towards anything......yeah that is totally normal. I GET that.
Are you or your and Jenny’s family in path of the fires? My prayers are with everyone there. I lived in Stockton for 9 years but didn’t go to southern California very often.
Kyle your self reflection is amazing.! You have come so far in the past year and I’m sure you will continue on the best path for you and your beautiful family. Thank you for sharing your journey, you’re an amazing parent and person! Love and hugs to you Ellis and Winnie!❤
My love was taken from me of Metastatic BC on Mothers Day 2024 😢 #Jennifer Walden she always said, “one foot in front of the other.”Thank you for sharing this. Your Wife is awesome and is missed by many from her videos. Stay strong sir.
Kyle, I see why you are a teacher. You have a way of explaining and breaking things down beautifully. This is truly a great video. Please know that you are amazing and it’s quite clear that you are doing a phenomenal job with Ellis and Winnie!
Your summary of dealing with a multitude of challenges is excellent. Also well articulated is how you work with loss over time. Sending you love & wishing you & the kids & pets a healthy new year.
it's so great the way you articulate your experience....excellent. i'm so impressed....you are so lovely. no wonder Jenny fell in love with you and LOOK what you two made together!! BRAVO~~
Kyle, you have come so far in the past year! I am so proud of you. You are doing an amazing job and the kiddos are very blessed to have you.
It was so hard to deal with loss, but you’re doing a great job. I did it for seven years. You can do it. I’ll see you in your next video. Have a blessed Tuesday.❤❤❤
So proud of you we can all see why Jenny loved/ loves you so much she is beaming on your and your children's journey
Happy and Blessings for this New Year! Good growth video Kyle. ❤
Wow. Kyle your insights are spot on for me and I am sure for so many others. What is really cool is that your insights and advice fit so perfectly in many people’s lives who are going through their own personal struggles. You have come a long way and thank you for sharing your wisdom with us.
Just reading the comments, you are being inspirational to so many people, it’s beautiful watching you be so honest and analyse your grief journey.