Slow Damage - Lullaby / Kiri (Fujieda's good end OST No.2 ; Maya theme)

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  • @izumiyoko789
    @izumiyoko789 ปีที่แล้ว +135

    Been nearly a year I played the game but I think about it everyday. It keeps me sad everytime I think about Towa's life and what he went through.

    • @adelisperez1580
      @adelisperez1580 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Que le hicieron?? 😢

    • @BlackRoseDying
      @BlackRoseDying 22 วันที่ผ่านมา +3

      @@adelisperez1580his mother sold his body to people at parties but his trauma blocked all this out. And there was a girl he was close with as a kid that went through the same things as him and was killed for trying to escape. And he never knew his dad who was the boss of the yakuza who dies in present time when the story starts. And then lots of shit goes down in each route, like getting the shit beaten out of him, SA, kidnapping, getting drugged, etc. but at the end of this route, he remembers everything that happened to him as a kid and he starts breaking down mentally. And at the end of the game, when this song plays, he reads his moms journal admitting she is a terrible mother for what she put him through and she will always be alone

  • @vyckygy6626
    @vyckygy6626 ปีที่แล้ว +122

    It was "iiyo" at first.
    Now it's just daijoubu.

  • @xVadRay
    @xVadRay 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +34

    I started bawling my eyes out when I say that picture of new born Towa
    Just to imagine that little baby will go through hell because he was born from a monster is absolutely heartbreaking

  • @EL-hm2lz
    @EL-hm2lz ปีที่แล้ว +205

    "Every now and then, I think to myself:
    I'm broken.
    I can't love anyone or feel affection.
    I'm all alone, and I hate it.
    But I can't suppress the cold,
    dark urge I feel inside me.
    I can't kill the monster that lurks within.
    I'm powerless.
    So this is the only way I know how to live.
    If I could have killed that monster...
    ...would I have learned how to love?
    Could have I been a better mother for my son?
    I love him very much...
    At least, I think I do.
    As far as I'm aware, I gave him my everything.
    But I just don't understand.
    I can't make it work.
    No matter how hard I try...
    I can't get through to him.
    I am alone."
    When I first started this game, I never expected that it would make me so emotional. When Maya's diary is revealed, with the "I am alone" line coinciding with the cg of Fujieda holding Towa, it made me want to cry. The execution of the foreshadowing from previous routes and scenes were wrapped up so nicely in this final ending, I'm happy that Towa finally manages to confront his past and get the support he so desperately needed. As I was playing the game, I wondered how it was going to address Towa's self-destructive tendencies and obviously poor coping mechanisms, if it was even going to in the first place. It far exceeded my expectations. This game is undoubtedly one of the best I've ever played.

    • @angelheart_
      @angelheart_ ปีที่แล้ว +19

      Bruh like frl maya hit hard I was even touched by that woman

  • @Caroop23
    @Caroop23 ปีที่แล้ว +48

    When I finished this VN I almost get up from the chair and start clapping while sheding tears, but the door was open and I didn't want to scare my parents so I sit still watching the credits and thinking "They did an amazing job, they truly did"

  • @TakumiLucius
    @TakumiLucius ปีที่แล้ว +21

    I just finished all of the game today and it was...an emotional rollercoaster.
    While I'm not as traumatized as Towa, I understand his pain. Feeling as if your broken and looking for someone who understands your pain. In the end, through twists and turns, pain and agony, he found Fujeida. Someone who comforted him when he felt death was what he deserved for ruining the guy...he had what his mother didn't. Love, acceptance, someone by his side. No matter what Towa might've thought, he was better than his mother and won over. But he still wished he had her love, something she could not provide and so it took him a long time to find it, but he did. It makes his character perfect in my opinion.

  • @KATinBLACK
    @KATinBLACK ปีที่แล้ว +69

    This song is so beautiful and heart- wrenching, especially knowing the lyrics. I feel so ambivalent about Maya
    She was the embodiment of pure evil, but she was still human. She was some kinda psychopath or sociopath who never got help, who never sought help, and thus became this "monster." She was all alone and deservedly so. But in her final moments, she hoped that Towa would turn out differently. I don't know if I would say Maya loved him, but she didn't want him to turn out like her. That's just so conflicting

    • @aslantac7385
      @aslantac7385 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      I mean...didn't she want him to be a second copy of her? Thus the bad ending

    • @KATinBLACK
      @KATinBLACK ปีที่แล้ว +23

      @@aslantac7385 I think Maya initially wanted that so that she didn’t feel alone, but after the accident she realized that it was useless and kinda regretted all this. Being that they were so similar, she saw Towa as second chance to have a different future than she did. That’s why they pan down on Towa with Fujieda, while Maya says she was all alone. He was the version of her that got help and didn’t end up alone.
      Also, it was Sakaki pushing this so hard cuz he interpreted that she literally wanted to be reincarnated into Towa. Or maybe that’s just what he wanted cuz he was so crazy about her. I don’t think she wanted that, cuz then why did “she” kill him in the bad end y’know

  • @francy.plus.
    @francy.plus. ปีที่แล้ว +58

    I was sobbing throughout the WHOLE ENDING. Then this song started playing, and I literally died. I've never been SO invested in someone's story, but man, Towa's hit me SO HARD.
    I finished playing the game in only one week or so, and I kinda regretted it. Not because the story was bad, but because I wanted to savor it more and actually take my time to enjoy it at the fullest. But yeah, it was so good that I finished it in so little time... It wasn't a bad experience at all, tho. I really loved this game despite me not handling gore that well, but I got used to it anyway.
    Fujieda's route is the best one out of all four, and not only because we get more info about Towa's past, but also because we get to see Towa himself being finally happy after a long long time being a "Okay, whatever" kind of guy.
    I love NitroChiral games a lot, I could text and talk about them for hours, but I gotta admit they outdid themselves with this masterpiece of a game.
    I remember being hit by the famous "post-game depression" as soon as the ending credits finished running on the screen.
    This is really a 10 out of 10 game. Thank you, NitroChiral, for bringing into this world such an amazing game.

    • @fruittypun799
      @fruittypun799 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Goshh samee I totally get the 'wanting to savor this game more' and I'm even worse bcs I finished it in like 5 days and now I'm listening to OSTs and read the comments to reminiscence :')
      I think this is the kind of game that I'd replay in a few months when I remember it in passing ToT

    • @kara.drawss126
      @kara.drawss126 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      honestly I have the opposite problem. I’ve been playing this game for.. more than six months now and I think I’m not as interested anymore :(( I can’t find enough time because whenever I play it’s for max 30 minutes which is like no time at all..

    • @rinneamagay
      @rinneamagay 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      currently going through post game depression myself. i fucking love this vn so much i sobbed a lot when i saw towa genuinely feel happiness (which intensified when the end credits were done and returned to the home screen to see everything bright.) (speaking of, the bgm even had a minor change. originally before finishing fujieda's route, the default bgm was "nightmare" which sounded all eery and dark, but now it's "joy" and as the name suggests, it's definitely much lighter and softer, with the creepy vocals gone too. it really made me emotional when i noticed the change.) (so sorry for the ramble i just love this vn so much, i can't believe i kept on putting off playing it.)

    • @xVadRay
      @xVadRay 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Feeling that post game depression right now

  • @Qnu6c
    @Qnu6c ปีที่แล้ว +101

    I have to admit, I never expected this visual novel, which attracted me solely with its erotic content at first, to get me deeply invested in its story and make me sob uncontrollably at the end. and I'm the farthest from the emotional type.
    (Towa, please be happy...)

    • @EL-hm2lz
      @EL-hm2lz ปีที่แล้ว +26

      Literally “came for the porn stayed for the plot” lmao

  • @Amely_Ai
    @Amely_Ai 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +14

    I didn't think this game would hit so hard, but it really did. I finished it a few days ago and came back to listen to this wonderful song. I can already feel tears in my eyes. Towa's story had me crying way more than I expected, which is good in my opinion ಥ‿ಥ. I love Slow damage so SO much and I can't put into words all the emotions it made me feel. It even made me want to draw again). So if you haven't played it yet, I highly recommend it!

  • @jaffapodplex
    @jaffapodplex 2 ปีที่แล้ว +122

    the ending of this game hit me hard...
    (spoilers below)
    the way it lets you read maya's last entry with no additional commentary aside from this beautiful song was just perfect. especially the last line about being alone, while you see towa being held and supported by someone who loves him. after all the unhealthy terrible things in all the routes we get an ending that encourages healing and love :') honestly made me want to work harder on repairing my own mental health. fantastic game

    • @jaffapodplex
      @jaffapodplex ปีที่แล้ว +15

      a little update, it's definitely oversharing so don't read if you hate that kind of thing.
      my own abusive mother passed away a few months ago. listening to this song now, the lyrics are so painful. i don't know if there's any official interviews or statements about the meaning of this song, but i feel like the lyrics are from both towa and maya's perspectives at the same time. they are both mourning their pasts and what they've lost, as well as the relationship they should have had. alternatively, the song is from towa's perspective, but maya's influence and voice can be heard through his words since she passed her same pain onto him.
      "Even if the love returned now, It will never reach you again" is such a painfully true line for anyone whose abusive parent died without any resolution to the relationship.

    • @rainvv
      @rainvv 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      you’re so strong! i hope you’re getting the healing you deserve, and that everything is working out for you. i finished this vn around a month ago and towa really impacted me. he’s such a wonderfully written character, no wonder he’s inspiring all of us to improve our mental health lol. i agree with you! i do think this song is from maya’s perspective as well, especially because of the “I was always, always alone” line.

  • @ivana2609
    @ivana2609 ปีที่แล้ว +131

    I'm sort of embarrassed to admit it, but goddamn the last route hit me hard. Like HARD. I've never sobbed so hard at any media-- ever.
    Spoilers below:
    I've become so attached to Towa and seeing him cry and laugh and achieve his own happiness with Fujieda was just AAAAAH
    I'm honestly in post-series depression after this game (and I haven't been in one after playing Hashihime- like two years ago). I've grown so invested in Towa's story that after I finished it, I just feel empty inside. I know there's apparently a spin off, but I don't think that's been translated yet. I'm very much looking forward to that.

    • @bubattom5720
      @bubattom5720 ปีที่แล้ว

      wait, there's spin off??? o.o

    • @ivana2609
      @ivana2609 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@bubattom5720 There is, yes! It's called Clean Dishes!

    • @gaenarix
      @gaenarix ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I feel the same way. During the game, I got so used to not only Towa but also to other characters. It was as if they had become my family or even someone closer. Towa became incredibly precious and important to me. When I finished the game I cried for so long..I felt like I had lost everything I had, I felt an unimaginable emptiness..and despite this I was happy. I don't remember the last time in my life I was this happy about something. These were real emotions..This game is too good and I didn’t want to say goodbye to it..

    • @kyra3479
      @kyra3479 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@gaenarix Never related to something more. It's been awhile but Slow Damage sticks in my head, at random moments I will find myself thinking everything about it, the characters, story, and especially Towa. It makes me both happy and sad at the same time. Would do anything to replay it again for the first time

  • @soramafuforlife7247
    @soramafuforlife7247 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    I've been avoiding listening to this bc GOD it makes me cry!!!!!
    It's been months since I finished this game but i literally think about this route almost everyday.
    I'm in love how they depicted Maya in this scene. She's terrible, one of the worst in mankind. But it shows that even a disgusting woman like her still had (a little) good intentions and wanted to love her son. Because of her personality, she didn't understand what it meant to love her son properly and thats why she did what she did to him. I still think she's rotten and Towa(and Mei) deserved so much more bc she ruined him completely and robbed him of childhood. But I appreciate that they depict her reasons to her actions.
    Slow Damage was a beautiful game and Towa was a wonderfully written character ❤️

  • @ryukwalker8969
    @ryukwalker8969 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +26

    Spoilers!!
    This was an emotional roller coaster, I thought the game wasn't going to be deep and emotional, yet this route was truly something. I was hoping to see Towa's backstory because of his whole thing, I would always say, "Towa no, don't even think about it." Whenever he chose pain on himself and I always wondered why would he do this to himself? Then I got to this chapter and played it. It really hit me, I thought Maya was just a kind character, but nope, not everything is what it seems. When he was going to off himself. I was like screaming at my screen, lol. When the diary was shown, it was saddening to see what she wrote in her diary. It doesn't really change what she did. I cried when this song started. I didn't really expect this much from a BL game, it was truly something. When Towa said how he could see things in true colours and when I saw the CG of the 2 happy. It made me feel really happy but at the same time saddened when I realised this would be the end for Slow Damage. This Route was by far the best, especially since it lets you talk and meet the characters during the last exploration, and it shows how Towa is different and when he talked to them, it seemed he appreciated them being there, I feel like it might have to do with Maya's note saying how she was lonely. The route I hated would most definitely be Madarame's, the way Towa acted as if he didn't really need them pissed me off, this route was the opposite, Towa learned the truth of his past and he appreciated those around him. Playing this game was a great decision, I want to give this game a standing ovation. I cried in this route. This is also my first BL game ever. I hope NitroChiral will bring out more amazing games like this, I will also play the other games they have.

    • @ryukwalker8969
      @ryukwalker8969 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      Damn I wrote a lot, lol😂 This game just gave me a lot of emotions I had never felt before.

  • @bubattom5720
    @bubattom5720 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    I have completed this game over 2 months ago and I'm still struggling to not cry because of this song :') Best story I have read in a while.

  • @bia5141
    @bia5141 2 ปีที่แล้ว +68

    My frozen memories were never able to thaw
    And disappeared without ever touching you
    Like the sand you scooped up
    My heart is soft
    Please don’t break it in your hands
    I pray to the sky for your future
    Resounding from the distance, the lullaby of that day
    Even if I wish for just one more time
    It will never be granted again, the warped lullaby
    I hear your voice in the distance
    Held back by my mistakes, I fall
    I continued wishing
    For just a sliver of happiness
    Quietly, the memory came back to me somewhere
    I was always, always alone
    Not knowing anything, the lonely lullaby
    Even if the love returned now
    It will never reach you again, you’re always
    so far away
    I pray to the sky for your future
    Resounding from the distance, the lullaby of that day
    Even if the love returned now
    It will never reach you again, you’re always
    so far away
    good night, good night
    so far away
    good bye, good bye…

  • @knarkyy__
    @knarkyy__ 2 ปีที่แล้ว +43

    I was sobbing through the whole ending
    honestly didnt expect this novel to be this good
    and the ost. .. man
    Maya was a monster, but her theme is so beautiful

  • @はじめ-h9j
    @はじめ-h9j ปีที่แล้ว +14

    歌詞です
    凍てついた記憶は 溶けぬまま
    あなたに触れずに 消えて行く
    掬った砂の様に
    柔らかい心
    どうかその手で 壊さないで
    空に祈る あなたの未来
    遠く響く あの日のララバイ
    もう一度だけと 願ったとしても
    二度と叶わない 歪んだララバイ
    遠くで あなたの声がする
    過ちが阻んで 堕ちて行く
    一縷の幸せを
    願い続けた
    そっとどこかで 思い出して
    ずっと ずっと 私は一人
    何も知らない 孤独なララバイ
    愛しさが今 戻ったとしても
    二度と届かない あなたはずっと
    so far away
    空に祈るあなたの未来
    遠く響くあの日のララバイ
    愛しさが今戻ったとしても
    二度と届かない あなたはずっと
    so far away
    good night, good night
    so far away
    good bye, good bye…

  • @nikki1806
    @nikki1806 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Absolutely the most bittersweet and beautiful ending I’ve ever played through. This route was just amazing - I loved the business relationship to mutual love and support theme, it was so unlike the other routes where we essentially solve the other character’s problems.
    The last diary entry and the line ‘I’m alone’ being put along side the last CG… Towa may carry a lot of his mother’s traits but at least he has someone to support him through it… lorddd

  • @liminalrot
    @liminalrot 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +8

    this game makes me suicidal in the best way possible

  • @eriscarlet2158
    @eriscarlet2158 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Itetsuita kioku wa tokenu mama
    Anata ni furezu ni kieteyuku
    Sukutta suna no you ni
    Yawarakai kokoro
    Douka sono te de kowasanaide
    Sora ni inoru anata no mirai
    Tooku hibiku ano hi no lullaby
    Mou ichido dake to negatta to shite mo
    Nido to kanawanai yuganda lullaby
    Tooku de anata no koe ga suru
    Ayamachi ga habande ochiteyuku
    Ichiru no shiawase o
    Negai tsuzuketa
    Sotto doko ka de omoidashite
    Zutto zutto watashi wa hitori
    Nani mo shiranai kodoku na lullaby
    Itoshisha ga ima modotta to shite mo
    Nido to todokanai anata wa zutto
    so far away
    Sora ni inoru anata no mirai
    Tooku hibiku ano hi no lullaby
    Itoshisha ga ima modotta to shite mo
    Nido to todokanai anata wa zutto
    so far away
    good night, good night
    so far away
    good bye, good bye…

  • @luoricats
    @luoricats 3 ปีที่แล้ว +86

    I still haven´t played the game yet, but I already in love with Fujieda :cc

    • @vanished6431
      @vanished6431  3 ปีที่แล้ว +22

      Sadly, I liked him before I played the game and now I really dislike him ;) Although his ending songs are really amazing.

    • @kyou562
      @kyou562 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@vanished6431 but why you dislike him?

    • @somelove9872
      @somelove9872 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      What’s the name of the game??

    • @luoricats
      @luoricats 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Slow Damage

    • @somelove9872
      @somelove9872 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      luoricats thanks!

  • @ryuisvillemaster8076
    @ryuisvillemaster8076 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    While she indeed abuse Towa and want him to be a version of herself, she also fighting a monster inside her. Confused and yet sociopath, deeply she want Towa to led a happy life.
    AND YET I CAN'T AND WON'T FORGIVE HER

  • @shantabear9577
    @shantabear9577 18 วันที่ผ่านมา

    It’s insane, because they make it clear Maya is an absolute monster. Nothing will change that, nor the way Towa despises her, but the way the game gives some “grace” for her, by showing that note that she too had probably gone through trauma, “I’m powerless” and how that was the only way she knew how to live life just gives what happened to Towa, and his mother so much more depth. Trauma can be a cycle, and in this route Towa reclaimed it, and broke the cycle.

  • @bladespouse0202
    @bladespouse0202 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    El hecho de que Maya haya sido una horrible persona y le pongan una canción tan bonita, me genera un conflicto interno. Sumado a las palabras de la carta, ahhhhh, simplemente no puedo con todas las emociones de este final. TnT

  • @louisaabdi2525
    @louisaabdi2525 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Monstre où pas ce qui est important c'est ce qu'on ressent, l'empathie,les émotions.✨💞🙏

  • @GiornoGiovannaGangstar
    @GiornoGiovannaGangstar 2 ปีที่แล้ว +44

    god this ending ruined me...... i know she did some horrible shit but fucking hell.... the note she left.... idk how to feel anymore other than daijobu

  • @Sewer.R4tz
    @Sewer.R4tz ปีที่แล้ว +14

    This game was the first game after Omori that gave me post game depression

    • @vyckygy6626
      @vyckygy6626 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      best games imo. i recommend END ROLL for more post game depression if you happen to be interested 👍

    • @Sewer.R4tz
      @Sewer.R4tz ปีที่แล้ว

      @@vyckygy6626 thanks! I will look into it

    • @shiroiokami5246
      @shiroiokami5246 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Me too omg, I'm so sad, I don't feel like I can overcome this sadness

  • @tasya_nabila
    @tasya_nabila 2 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    The more I listen to other Slow Damage music, the more my impatient grow.... But I DON'T UNDERSTAND JAPANESE AAA

  • @maelzzz4187
    @maelzzz4187 3 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    NO LLORES, TOWAAAA :((

  • @fruittypun799
    @fruittypun799 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Fuckk I shouldn't have listen to this in class now I have to hide that I'm crying ToT
    Good thing I'm wearing a mask tho lol

  • @___5966
    @___5966 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I’ve been wanting to get into this game, does anyone have a simple plot summary and who potentially best boy is? Cause currently, I really like the main character.

    • @FlowerEmblem
      @FlowerEmblem 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Summary by Blerdy (mild spoilers)
      "Slow Damage tells the story of Towa, a hedonistic artist living in a yakuza-controlled city of the near future. Intent on painting people’s darkest desires, Towa seeks out extreme sensation and seedy underworld connections. But in exposing the truths of those around him, Towa may have uncovered more than he bargained for…"
      The 4 love interests are Taku, Rei, Madarame, and Fujieda. You must finish Taku's/Rei's routes to access Madarame's, then Madarame's to finish Fuijeda's. Fuijeda is considered the true route for a reason.

    • @___5966
      @___5966 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@FlowerEmblem Thank you!!!

    • @leon7957
      @leon7957 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      ive not played the game yet but i read a blog about it snd theres like no one i would consider as 'best boy' for plot reasons.. Ig the best boy would be towa 😭😭

    • @tundrance
      @tundrance 2 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      rei and fujieda are best boys

    • @EL-hm2lz
      @EL-hm2lz ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@tundrance^^ agreed

  • @mc5043
    @mc5043 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Picture so good what is the name? I want to read

    • @ploploplop2349
      @ploploplop2349 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      the game is called slow damage!

    • @mc5043
      @mc5043 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      I've been found that... but what? This is a game?? Than can u help me, how i must download this game

    • @izumiyoko789
      @izumiyoko789 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@mc5043 buy it

    • @poppytewix
      @poppytewix ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@mc5043 You can buy the English version from Jast Blue.

  • @jesse3714
    @jesse3714 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Does it have an english version?

    • @user-he8nj6fy7p
      @user-he8nj6fy7p 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @NyanJuice they didn't yet zadd :((

    • @田桃-c7g
      @田桃-c7g 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@user-he8nj6fy7p they're finished with the QA testing now. it should be out in english in the next few months i think?

  • @aslantac7385
    @aslantac7385 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    To be honest, I'm a little upset about the story trying to paint Maya in a good light at the end. She tried to murder Towa when he rebelled against her, how is that forgivable? Not to mention using her son as a merchandise his entire life. Not every villain needs to be redeemed for the sake of the story arc! >:(

    • @natakumakuraka
      @natakumakuraka ปีที่แล้ว +59

      that's not a redemption tho, just a glimpse at her mind. Everyone got their story and their feelings, whether or not they're villains. Maya was definitely terrible, but she still felt things, and the game just wanted to remind us of that.

    • @xielitos
      @xielitos 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +29

      I don’t think they were trying to redeem her. I think they were just trying to convey that a person, no matter how cruel, no matter how monstrous, is still just a person at the end of the day. her evil actions don’t negate her human emotions, just as those emotions don’t absolve her of her unforgivable sins. humanity is a lot more complex than that, and if anything, I loved the game all the more for blurring those lines.