What happens when we die - Midnight Mass Ending Conversation [Audio]

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  • @JessiTheBestiGaming
    @JessiTheBestiGaming 3 ปีที่แล้ว +599

    You're here because it resonates so deeply with you, that you'll never forget it.

    • @JessiTheBestiGaming
      @JessiTheBestiGaming 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @Katie Brusveen 💜💜💜

    • @TheSoldier0fortunE
      @TheSoldier0fortunE 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @Katie Brusveen And put into words so beautifully at that.

    • @TheSoldier0fortunE
      @TheSoldier0fortunE 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I think this resonates so much with those of us that came here to find this because like Katie below said, we've kinda always known it.

    • @JessiTheBestiGaming
      @JessiTheBestiGaming 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@TheSoldier0fortunE yesss, exactly

    • @curtisnucmed
      @curtisnucmed 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I have had 3 near death experiences, and have experienced ayahuasca, and all of them showed this account to be true to me. And it’s beautiful, and sweetly sad, as well as transcendent all at once. More than I’ve ever been able to put into words as eloquently as this single scene. ❤️

  • @EdricHsu
    @EdricHsu 3 ปีที่แล้ว +602

    This is so beautiful. It’s unfortunate that so many people had commented (elsewhere) about the many monologues in this show and even fast forwarded through them. They are truly missing out on so much truth and wisdom and life lessons…

    • @TaxemicFanatic
      @TaxemicFanatic 3 ปีที่แล้ว +40

      This was my favourite scene. It gave me goosebumps and eloquently put into words exactly how I feel about my own existence.

    • @bnm7990
      @bnm7990 3 ปีที่แล้ว +22

      its sad to me too, especially when ive seen some say they fast forward because it is the same. If they didn't fast forward they would know that it is not the same monologue that we had gotten before. The monologues are honestly my favorite part of Flanagan's work.

    • @Concernedgoat
      @Concernedgoat 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      People have admitted to fast forwarding through them?! 💀

    • @EdricHsu
      @EdricHsu 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      @@Concernedgoat Yeah in every review or reaction video there'll always be some who claim they did that. Oh well, it's their loss...

    • @Concernedgoat
      @Concernedgoat 3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      @@EdricHsu Totally, those speeches were the high points of the episodes. The Sherrif's monologues about Islam, the ones about what happens when we die, all really beautiful.

  • @vk69525
    @vk69525 3 ปีที่แล้ว +269

    No one gonna talk about how perfect Kate expressed all this? She deserves an Oscar.

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Wholeheartedly agree. Her performance is amazing!

    • @cgknoxmd
      @cgknoxmd 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I have heard murmurs already of this being award-winning. It’s certainly at the top of my list of all time.

    • @kthstefani
      @kthstefani 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      She was basically saying the same thing Reilly had already said. She had gone from a traditional religious viewpoint on death with all the clouds and heaven to a realistic view.

    • @aurora9252
      @aurora9252 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      An Emmy*

    • @lucidrifter
      @lucidrifter 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@kthstefani i think the religious viewpoint was for her dead baby and her realistic view was for herself.

  • @ZoesZoo
    @ZoesZoo 3 ปีที่แล้ว +539

    Myself. My self. That's the problem. That's the whole problem with the whole thing. That word: self. That's not the word. That's not right, that isn't ... That *isn't.* How did I forget that? When did I forget that?
    The body stops a cell at a time but the brain keeps firing those neurons, little lightning bolts like fireworks inside and I thought I'd despair, or feel afraid, but I don't feel any of that, none of it because I'm too busy. I'm too busy in this moment, remembering.
    Of course. I remember that every atom in my body was forged in a star. This matter, this body is mostly just empty space after all and solid matter? It's just energy vibrating very slowly and there is no Me. There never was. The electrons of my body mingle and dance with the electrons of the ground below me and the air I'm no longer breathing, and I remember there is no point where any of that ends and I begin. I remember I am energy, not memory, not self. My name, my personality, my choices all came after me. I was before them and I will be after and everything else is pictures picked up along the way. Fleeting little dreamlits printed on the tissue of my dying brain, and I am the lightning that jumps between. I am the energy firing the neurons and I am returning. Just by remembering, I'm returning home. It's like a drop of water falling back into the ocean of which it has always been a part. All things a part. All of us a part. You, me, my mother and my father, everyone who has ever been, every plant, every animal, every atom, every star, every galaxy. All of it. More galaxies in the universe than grains of sand on the beach and *that's* what we're talking about when we say God. The One. The Cosmos and its infinite dreams. We are the cosmos dreaming of itself. It's simply a dream that I think is my life, every time. But I'll forget this. I always do. I always forget my dreams.
    But now, in this split second, in the moment I remember, the instant I remember I comprehend everything at once: there is no time, there is no death, life is a dream. It's a wish made again and again and again and again and again and again and on into eternity. And I am all of it. I am everything, I am all.
    I am that I am.

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +36

      Thanks for transcribing it, Zoe, much appreciated! If you don't mind, I can put it in the video description. :)

    • @daniellevaillant4650
      @daniellevaillant4650 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I couldn’t have said it better myself ❤️

    • @deannaweber3832
      @deannaweber3832 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Thank you so much!!!

    • @ChelseaFC_7
      @ChelseaFC_7 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      This speech along with the song in Midnight Mass "Nearer My God To Thee", One word.....wow.
      Just powerful and moving, Erin's speech and everyone joining in to sing they're final moments away.
      Again Midnight Mass is a definite 10/10 👍

    • @asgharali316
      @asgharali316 3 ปีที่แล้ว

  • @SMewett
    @SMewett 3 ปีที่แล้ว +506

    As soon as I finished the series last night I searched for this. This is one of the most perfect descriptions of what life and death is, something we forget at birth and throughout our lives. Truly beautiful and I've listened to this many times.

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Wholeheartedly agree, Simon!

    • @englishatheart
      @englishatheart 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      No one knows what death is, not truly. Only those who are dead know, and they can't tell us crap.

    • @zen-hq1wj
      @zen-hq1wj 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@englishatheart Each experience is unique to own..

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @Christine - true, although an impossible question to answer, I think most of us haven't been able to get it out of our minds in certain periods of our lives. And after all... it's about what makes sense to you rather than what it truly is, isn't it? Not like we have any power over something that we can't define. :)

    • @JessiTheBestiGaming
      @JessiTheBestiGaming 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I am. I have it tattooed on my collar bone. It's the truth.

  • @djcsant
    @djcsant 3 ปีที่แล้ว +139

    I come here everyday now to remind myself this universal truth. This monologue is so beautiful.

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      You are welcome daily, Denver. Grab a cuppa and join us! :)

    • @GasemJuuden
      @GasemJuuden 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      What facts were provided here that makes u feel u have gathered some evidence of logic or truth?
      I personally like terminator 2 best. The truth of awesome robots time travelling is a pretty awesome truth to me

  • @winterblommetjie
    @winterblommetjie 3 ปีที่แล้ว +171

    I cried as I listened to this during the episode and two days later my mother passed away after a lengthy battle with Alzheimer's and this came back to me immediately. I listened to it and I cried even more. It felt like the show was speaking to me and speaking of my mother. I miss her terribly and this is now forever attached to her and what we went through. Thank you for uploading it.

    • @talibanwithaplan-_-62
      @talibanwithaplan-_-62 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I’m sorry to hear of your mother’s passing, Alzheimer’s is horrible and I hope your mother’s at peace.

    • @bossmonz5712
      @bossmonz5712 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I'm sorry for your loss.

    • @kyletheduck4713
      @kyletheduck4713 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      She simply returned home, to the state of which she has always been.. as you will someday return home with her ❤️

    • @winterblommetjie
      @winterblommetjie 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@kyletheduck4713 thank you so very much for the kind words I really appreciate it ❤

    • @winterblommetjie
      @winterblommetjie 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@talibanwithaplan-_-62 Thank you, yes Alzheimer's is terrible it was very difficult to watch her memories fade away of us and doing things for herself. I believe she is at peace I just miss her a lot.

  • @Concernedgoat
    @Concernedgoat 3 ปีที่แล้ว +117

    As soon as she turned her head and she was back in her cottage with Riley, I just couldn’t stop crying and then this knockout monologue? Everyone brought their A games to this show and it shows in spades. The writing, Katie’s delivery, the music, oh my days it was a stunningly bittersweet finale.

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Happy you loved it as much as I did, James! ^_^

    • @dominicwilson3
      @dominicwilson3 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      🖤

    • @Dubya3030
      @Dubya3030 ปีที่แล้ว

      It had me ballin too. Was not expecting it to cut to that scene and blend them. Seems pretty reasonable that that would be the first thing she thinks about when she dies too Or I suppose more. Importantly the first “person” she’d communicate with. Her love who just sacrificed himself to save her. Making me tear up just typing it.

  • @keelz83
    @keelz83 3 ปีที่แล้ว +105

    I've connected with this idea of life/death etc for a few years now. But hearing these words out loud, felt like someone reached into my heart and pulled out those very words. I found myself silently crying. Not necessarily tears of sadness or happiness. But of some kind of peace and knowing. Such an unexpected moment that I never expected when I started this series. Beautiful. Just beautiful 💕

    • @SaironBusatto
      @SaironBusatto 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      same here

    • @bossmonz5712
      @bossmonz5712 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Same 👍

    • @jordan4078
      @jordan4078 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I completely agree! It was so unexpected and my jaw was on the floor when i got to this scene. So beautifully described. And so validating.

    • @nataliesmith7423
      @nataliesmith7423 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Me too. I was watching it the first time and found myself sobbing, but I wasn't sad. It was remembering. It was relief. It was connecting all of these dots that I've been gathering, and here so perfectly and eloquently stated. I cry every time I listen, and my heart feels relief.

    • @tlvdatsi12
      @tlvdatsi12 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Ditto to everything you said. Everything.

  • @astrolabphotography3936
    @astrolabphotography3936 3 ปีที่แล้ว +107

    I've never had words speak to me so powerfully and hit me with such truth. I can't get them out of my mind, actually I don't really want to..I'm just going to cry this out.

    • @JessiTheBestiGaming
      @JessiTheBestiGaming 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Because it's the truth. And that's why nothing else has ever made sense or felt so real. This... This is the truth.

  • @captaincluster316
    @captaincluster316 3 ปีที่แล้ว +55

    A reasonable answer to the meaning of life and the concept of God in one monologue. I’m blown away.

    • @jonathanguzman3044
      @jonathanguzman3044 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      @Northern Wolf imagine giving up critical thinking and questioning the universe because you think your religion has all the answers

    • @Kolderup2
      @Kolderup2 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @Northern Wolf Bev Keane? Is that you?!

  • @mollyyeah
    @mollyyeah 3 ปีที่แล้ว +43

    I am literally so f**king obsessed with this. I listen to it multiple times every day. Soooo goooood.

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      We welcome you here every day, Molly! ^_^

  • @spanishhobo5622
    @spanishhobo5622 3 ปีที่แล้ว +42

    I honestly want this read at my funeral, truly beautiful.

    • @tnickknight
      @tnickknight 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I hear you

    • @Gingernat089
      @Gingernat089 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      It’s my request too xx

    • @ericamarcroft8025
      @ericamarcroft8025 ปีที่แล้ว

      Same. Trying to convey how beautiful this is to those who don't watch the show & it's not about the overall arc if you're not into the storyline. It's just the most flat out lovely description of life & death.

  • @priscillaszurley6629
    @priscillaszurley6629 3 ปีที่แล้ว +41

    Honestly my favorite part. I felt like this whole series was so poetic in a weird horror yet beautiful way

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I think it made it all the more enjoyable. The thrill of it kinda opened us up more to the beauty of it.

  • @angeltan3622
    @angeltan3622 3 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    I’m going home. Like a drop of water, I’m back to the ocean. I’m a part of a bigger thing, the universe. Good is the universe. We are a part of it. Mike Flanagan has described everything and exactly how I have always been believing. Only he wrote it and explained it all so well. Along the way we had all forgotten where we were. Thank you.

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Happy you liked it, Angel!

    • @JCarrera_ll
      @JCarrera_ll 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Like tears in the rain 🧐

  • @SMewett
    @SMewett 3 ปีที่แล้ว +146

    I cried when I heard this 20 min ago, as it was if they were reading my mind.

    • @atumseed8208
      @atumseed8208 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      i cried SO hard. immediately reminded me of my one and only mushroom trip. this is EXACTLY it. couldn’t have explained it better

    • @zen-hq1wj
      @zen-hq1wj 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@atumseed8208 again..
      Unbelievable lol. To each his own ..

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @lauren floyd - isn't that the beauty of it? :)

    • @atumseed8208
      @atumseed8208 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@zen-hq1wj if you do not believe we are all apart of one consciousness, what do you believe ? Do you believe we go to a heaven and see our families for eternity? id love to hear

    • @zen-hq1wj
      @zen-hq1wj 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@atumseed8208 Not sure what you're asking or why, as my response was none other than an exclamation in response to your shared experience of your mushroom trip and It's relation to this given monologue audio clip. So, I say simply..."to each his own" :)

  • @FreedomSince1776
    @FreedomSince1776 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    How awesome is it to have someone put into words how you feel about life?! And how awesome is Kate Siegal for such a beautiful delivery?! Thank you Kate for making life bearable... ❤😍🥰

  • @slobwithoutaname3714
    @slobwithoutaname3714 3 ปีที่แล้ว +168

    I need a video on Mike Flanagan’s perspective on life and death connecting all three shows and its monologues so I can watch and ugly cry

    • @englishatheart
      @englishatheart 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Its* monologues.

    • @Microorganism18
      @Microorganism18 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      This and Nell’s monologue about time when everybody is in the red room together 😩✋🏻

    • @JessiTheBestiGaming
      @JessiTheBestiGaming 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Same

  • @mountainman0221
    @mountainman0221 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Here again two years later. Still hits home.

  • @Kolderup2
    @Kolderup2 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    This is not just some television series dialogue - This is pure art.
    My father passed away last night and now that I‘m sitting here alone in the living room, he used to spend so much time in and never will again, I had to come back to this text, because for me it really touches the essence of life. And I hope, that maybe he felt at least some of the things mentioned in this and went with his mind in peace…

  • @johnpalacio5705
    @johnpalacio5705 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    It is so refreshing to see all of your comments. It's hard to find people that assimilate life, death and purpose in the same way as I do not only because I'm surrounded by a religious family but because it is just hard to find people that are logical and that find beauty in the cosmos and what we are as human beings. So much blur, fanatism and uneducated hateful people fuled by social media and prejudice that it seems worthless to express oneself.... And then comes this gem of a series. What a masterpiece. The hole thing. But specially this monologue. What a beautiful, peacefull, logical poem. I am obsessed with her delivery and I completely relate. So good. "We are the cosmos dreaming of itself"

  • @neoscencez
    @neoscencez 3 ปีที่แล้ว +100

    When I first heard this I just sat for about ten minutes afterwards with a wee tear or three. Its so wonderfully written and acted.

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      That seems to be a common reaction with most of us, Jack, welcome to the club! ^_^

    • @jadefillmore97
      @jadefillmore97 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I’m so happy I’m not the only one who cried! I literally had goosebumps and just felt pure peace and joy about dying (not that I want to - but coming from someone who used to fear death this was huge!)

    • @pepumarius2006
      @pepumarius2006 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I tried to hide my tears, but somehow those onion-cutting ninjas had the best of me. During this scene and the one when Riley and Erin are on the boat and he sacrifices himself

  • @guiportella5514
    @guiportella5514 3 ปีที่แล้ว +41

    This Riley character was brilliant! I'm going through a very tough moment myself and when I heard him saying how he was really doing to Erin on the first episode that made me cry and it felt like I was saying those words myself..
    This show has real impacting moments

    • @Dubya3030
      @Dubya3030 ปีที่แล้ว

      Keep your head up my friend. I felt the same things. Sometimes it’s easier for a character to say it for you. I mean if your consciousness is projecting the show is the message not directly from YOU to YOU anyway? The amount of films and tv shows I watch where the main character is named Steven is staggering. It’s because the message is to me. It’s not a coincidence. It’s the higher self communicating

  • @celiarosario5241
    @celiarosario5241 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    I felt this so deeply in my soul. I’ve never heard it so well put, most beautiful thing I've ever heard.

  • @rishkagamineXD
    @rishkagamineXD 3 ปีที่แล้ว +61

    Idk why i feel so sad yet at peace when i heard this without me knowing tears suddenly flowed out of my eyes. I really like how they ended it just the sound of waves crashing as the credit rolls. It made me think about erins monologue even more

    • @zen-hq1wj
      @zen-hq1wj 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      And the fire 💯 🔥...

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I thought leaving those sounds in might make it more atmospheric. The movie is SO well done and written...

    • @JessiTheBestiGaming
      @JessiTheBestiGaming 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Because you know it's true

  • @curtisnucmed
    @curtisnucmed 3 ปีที่แล้ว +34

    It’s the most beautiful and true scene I’ve seen in such a long time. This touched me, deeply. So much love for all you out there. It’s all going to be okay. Even when it’s not. We are exactly where we were meant to be. Hang in there.

    • @treesareme
      @treesareme 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Exactly I say those exact words often.

  • @Snomo
    @Snomo 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Even now, months later, I'm still listening to this at least once a day. Or being wrapped up warm in bed with earbuds in my ears and listening to this and tearing up. I'm constantly in awe and forever will be.

  • @Niko12657
    @Niko12657 3 ปีที่แล้ว +66

    Christmas has come early, I can’t get this monologue outta my head, thank you!!

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      I know, right? It's perfect! :)

    • @heres3bucksafterfees.buyso549
      @heres3bucksafterfees.buyso549 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      I couldn’t agree more, I was searching for this minutes after the show ended. I cried so hard to this monologue. I felt every single word of… it was everything I was always thinking, that I could never put into words. And when I heard it out loud I just sobbed. Because it made me feel peace. And no more fear. I was here as energy before my body became, and will be, after my body gives out.

    • @florian929
      @florian929 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Indeed it is a great monologue, It is a soothing, warm and welcome idea of what it is to die, to fade back into energy ..... the energy in which we thrive and in which we became aware .
      The same energy from the stars where we all came from. To go ' back' into it, to make it whole again.

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Completely agree. I had the exact same reaction. Felt like sharing this with everyone, didn't find it and thought I should upload it. I don't care if they demonetise it since it's not my work, I just hope they don't take it down.

    • @whereismymind1
      @whereismymind1 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      i think its heavily inspired by Alan Watts lectures. its amazing.

  • @amoghkh
    @amoghkh 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    i Listen to this whenever i feel sad or like i'm not good enough .It makes me cry but also makes me feel better.

  • @karenrichard1758
    @karenrichard1758 3 ปีที่แล้ว +33

    I can’t stop wanting to hear this over and over. Thank you for putting this up. I think many people felt the truth of this and need to hear it again.

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Happy you liked it as much as I did, Karen. Good to have you here!

    • @extofer
      @extofer 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @Northern Wolf your 2000 year old book in a world that is billions of years old is pure fiction.

    • @xoarama7817
      @xoarama7817 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I'd rather be in hell than in heaven listening to this guy lol

    • @zackforbing
      @zackforbing 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @Northern Wolf heaven and hell are right here, right now. only a matter of perspective.

    • @zackforbing
      @zackforbing 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @Northern Wolf guess we will find out when we die, won't we?

  • @brybry8955
    @brybry8955 3 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    Man THIS is exactly how i felt about death i just couldnt put it into words. Thank you to Mike Flanigan for doing that for me. This show, as well as his other shows, definitely fucked me up. I never understand why ill ever be scared watching his shows. Scared maybe in a different context. But for sure all of his shows has made me cry, laugh, and think. I will definitely watch anything Mike will ever create. 10/10 all of his content

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Wholeheartedly agree!

  • @biscaya08
    @biscaya08 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Wow. This show just keeps up these amazing dialogues. This one was just breathtaking and I cried and had to pause the show just to let it all sink in.

    • @vivekmishra7940
      @vivekmishra7940 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Right. Also the soundtrack of this show is 🌹

  • @BG-mj1wp
    @BG-mj1wp 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    The most exquisitely transcendent and important thing for human beings to hear about the nature of life.

  • @keithredacted8154
    @keithredacted8154 3 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    I'm so sad that many people didn't like the monologue when I they were the BEST aprts of the show for me. Years ago, I would have found them boring but now they are the most captivating thing to me.

    • @eduardogutierrez3753
      @eduardogutierrez3753 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I think people who don't appreciate the monologs are probably not the most introspective among us

    • @kthstefani
      @kthstefani 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      I liked them as well. I appreciated the series even better after a second viewing.

  • @ComeOnGe
    @ComeOnGe 3 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    I go through long periods of time when I’m unable to cry… unable to truly feel a sadness that’s inside. And it sucks and I have to wait it out and it can take months… maybe more… I was in one of those episodes and watching that scene and hearing those words made me start bawling.

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Damn, some strong stuff there... I guess it just popped the cap, which seems to be something that was very much needed. Sending good vibes over, mate.

  • @felixking2697
    @felixking2697 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    This is what I try to explain to people when I’m asked what I think happens… I can just show them this video now, so true

  • @atumseed8208
    @atumseed8208 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    so so beautiful….
    morphing, bending, evolving, breathing, being.
    being awake dissolving into the dream state.
    there is no order.
    it is order in the disorder.
    sense in the nonsense.
    sanity in the insanity.
    accepting what is.
    i am you, you are me, everyone is everything
    inner worlds and outer worlds
    it’s a balancing act.

  • @Sselena3395
    @Sselena3395 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    We had to put my 12-year old pup to sleep on Monday and as I was processing how horrible it was to lose him, this monologue was super helpful in saying goodbye. Thanks for posting this audio. I'm sure I'll come back to it many times over the next several weeks.

    • @Dubya3030
      @Dubya3030 ปีที่แล้ว

      Your doggy can hang with my doggy Griz in the K9 light realm.

  • @bailesie
    @bailesie 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    3-4 years ago I would have probably scoffed at this, thinking I knew all the answers. After stumbling onto the path of Buddhist/Hindu philosophy, this resonates so much with me. It's spiritual beyond words, realizing we are in this cosmos, we are of this cosmos, and most importantly, we are the Cosmos.
    It's easy to forget and think of ourselves as separate from everything else. But the moment we come back to realizing that everything is one and connected, there's a sense of elation and goosebumps.
    It's always a pleasant surprise to encounter little gems like these ♥️

  • @fabiane7399
    @fabiane7399 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    It is just a real wonder to read all these comments...I was just thinking how I needed someone able to understand it with all its depth, someone I can cry with at the sheer beauty this monologue is and after reading it over and over and over, I found this video and all you guys. Thank you so very much. I feel I'm not alone❤❤❤

  • @kyle1137
    @kyle1137 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I can't get enough of this monologue. Speaks to me in ways I can't describe.

  • @loboboho7841
    @loboboho7841 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    The Hindus, Buddhists, Toltecs and other cultures were aware of this truth and have shared it and taught it for 1000s of years. But this monologue hits so deeply. I have had experiences with psychedelics and even deep meditation that were exactly the words she spoke. On the one hand it helped me to appreciate this experience and puts me right in the moment and every little happening is noticed, with no need to be "doing" anything or be anywhere else but where I am. While on the other hand it makes it challenging to be in this world with the societal structures that are in place. With all the ignorance, hatred and war, mostly over material things and ideologies. If this truth went to everyone's core, nobody would be fighting over anything anymore. Not over land and resources. Not over money. Not over religious and political ideologies. Rather than the shared nightmare it has become. It would be a shared dream and a beautiful one.

    • @heySam514
      @heySam514 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      A shared dream.
      i so agree.

  • @tarfielarchelone2674
    @tarfielarchelone2674 3 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    The "what happens question" hit me for the first time 3 weeks ago... even though i had lost my faith years before... this helped.

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Here's one possible answer... I struggled with quite a few myself. For me, this is the one that made most sense in the grand scheme of things.

    • @tnickknight
      @tnickknight 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      I think reality is so much more incredible than any thing man can think of

  • @PumpkinRouge
    @PumpkinRouge 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    My cat was losing his battle with cancer while I watched this series in bed with him. This whole series was extremely cathartic for me during a truly desperate time. My cat passed shortly afterwords and I have to come back to this periodically to feel connected to him, that moment and our lives together. A beautifully written and preformed monologue. A series that handled grief so perfectly in its perfectly messy reality. I’ll love you forever Ragetti.

    • @Dubya3030
      @Dubya3030 ปีที่แล้ว

      Your kitty will always be with you. The love in your consciousness is infinite.

  • @goinbossnova
    @goinbossnova 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This is basically how I try my hardest to look at life. Everyday you're a new memory of the universe. The only thing that can't be biased about any of its own creations; its dreams. Disliking anyone is a waste of time. We are all, what we are. The sooner we accept that, the better this world becomes.

  • @danahodges7850
    @danahodges7850 3 ปีที่แล้ว +47

    I grew up in a Christian cult that told me I would be resurrected after I died, they said it would happen so quick you wouldn't even know you died. I left the cult 3 years ago and since I've struggled very hard with my concept of death especially recently. When I got to this part of the show, I cried my eyes out and anytime I think of this monologue I cry again. It's brought me peace. Instead of imagine my bloated corpse serving no purpose, missing out on life and leaving my loved ones, I now feel like I'll be going home. I won't serve a purpose, because I am that purpose, I am everything.

    • @kthstefani
      @kthstefani 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @Northern Wolf Because you know!!!!

    • @MrSarevok187
      @MrSarevok187 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Everything in this cosmos exists is a cyclical existent from stars to black holes, and we are part of this again and again and again, if all people how are in faith would go to "heaven" how long would this "heaven" stay a "heaven" ? Not very long

    • @lopezbill6132
      @lopezbill6132 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      It's pointing to spiritual enlightenment or aka the 3rd eye

  • @shaunacardwell
    @shaunacardwell 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    this part honestly made made cry. one of the best shows I have seen.

  • @duvade1
    @duvade1 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I’m not religious but this one monologue had me in tears. Hearing this speech instantly brings me back to rehab. We were told to find a ‘power greater than yourself’.
    I kept searching for a God. Someone who could hear me. Hear my prayers.
    This speech reminds me of when I found out that my own higher power is just…everything.
    We don’t know what happened before we lived, so why be scared when we die?
    Great show, great concept.

  • @joelanderson5287
    @joelanderson5287 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    With a looming expiration date. This really resonates. I love this take on things. I could completely buy into it.

  • @gabrielborjas7923
    @gabrielborjas7923 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    How precious it is seeing everybody in the comment section being deeply moved and connected by this monologue. How beautiful when a piece of truthful art binds us all together, making us feel the same in unison, regardless of distance, regardless of time.

  • @calkitt
    @calkitt 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I have had so much pent-up emotion from grief over the last few years, and I've realized I never allowed myself to feel my pain. They say, you just got to keep fighting, and put on your best face. I am so thankful that these words gave me the cry and the true release that I needed. I felt my ego died for a moment, and I am so thankful it did, as it's always been my ego that stopped me from healing.

  • @chillwhale241
    @chillwhale241 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Starting 2022 with this undescribable beauty of a speech

  • @kthstefani
    @kthstefani 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I have friends and relatives, both Catholics and Christians that would watch this and not get it or relate to it at all and they would think it was offensive and sacrilegious. They couldn't even begin to comprehend or consider the deepness of this, much like some of the characters in the series. The dogma is so ingrained in them, whereas this explanation is so much richer, rewarding, and satisfying than anything I could ever get from a bible or a sermon. It's comforting on so many levels, this version of the eternal.

    • @HauntedMask24
      @HauntedMask24 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      It’s so interesting you bring this up! I was literally thinking the same thing. When I go to mass Erin’s monologue always brushes my mind. I can’t help but look at what she says and what faith says and combine them into being one in the same. It really is a deep speech and personally as a Catholic I feel like it resonates so much even though the church and others would say otherwise.

  • @joeybaker8866
    @joeybaker8866 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I lost my grandmother a couple weeks back so just recently I was talking to some friends about life, death, consciousness and what it all means. Some of the monologues in this series were so relatable and really hit home. This one though was the Cherry on top and really delivered on my thoughts of what happens when we die. This series released when I needed an escape the most and Flanagan did it again.

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Happy it came to you in a tough time, Joey. Sending good vibes over to ya. I'm sure you'll reunite with your grandma in a more pleasant surrounding sooner or later.

  • @disregardingsanity2890
    @disregardingsanity2890 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    We’re all made of the same subatomic particles as everything else. As with all the life forms which were made of preceding lifeforms, we’re made of preceding lifeforms… and one day we’ll make up other lifeforms. Chemical and quantum reactions doing what they’ve always done… and will always do. In a sense we’ve always existed and will always exist.
    The dream which thought it was real.
    “We live in a universe whose conditions are right to make molecular machines such you and I.” And
    “We’re made of star stuff. And we are the way that the cosmos gets to know itself.” ~Carl Sagan.

  • @SieNoel
    @SieNoel 3 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    thanks for putting this up. i can't stop thinking about this scene. so good.

  • @angelicahunter5781
    @angelicahunter5781 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Just finished the final episode and I'm still crying from this monologue. Kind of happy to read other people were as touched by it as I was, but I don't want to be that happy to hear other people bawling out to it! Haha it really is so amazingly written and acted, I really hope Kate wins awards for this!

  • @Skdhsjsjajaj
    @Skdhsjsjajaj ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I love Mike Flanagan and his shows. Not even sure if he writes all the lines but the lines in his shows are the best I’ve seen in TV series. If you love this monologue make sure you check out his other works-the Haunting of the Hill House and the Haunting of the Bly Manor

  • @cgknoxmd
    @cgknoxmd 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you, Samuel. I think this is the most important monologue I’ve ever seen Hollywood produce. I’m so glad someone noticed!!

  • @orcaowlwizco369
    @orcaowlwizco369 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    One of the best ending speeches I've ever heard in a show. What a freaking gem. This resonates with my religion. My own religion.

    • @tnickknight
      @tnickknight 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      You mean lack of religion, as it's atheist

  • @lauriannlumby8384
    @lauriannlumby8384 3 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    Breathtaking! Thank you for taking the time to create this clip. It speaks to my soul. Such a good show!

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Pleasure! Happy to see it resonated with more people than just me. ^_^

    • @zen-hq1wj
      @zen-hq1wj 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@SamuelHaret you are not the only one ♥️ ! this particular part, has resonated with me in a way that no show has ever done before. Resonates like a perfect song. Thank you for sharing 😊♥️

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Pleasure, Lauren! Happy to have you here!

  • @caliberccxvii
    @caliberccxvii 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Didn’t know I needed to hear this when I heard it. I felt peace as she kept explaining

  • @jerryrader7335
    @jerryrader7335 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I don't do social media but this one time I have to say I have never heard anything like this to the writer it's the one thing I will never forget thank you it means more than you can ever know

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Happy it resonated so deeply, Jerry!

    • @jerryrader7335
      @jerryrader7335 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@SamuelHaret don't know if you're the writer or someone touched by like my self but either way thank you my friend

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@jerryrader7335 Just a fellow lover of the words. My pleasure, mate! ^_^

  • @aeteno703
    @aeteno703 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Incredibly powerful, massive respect for Flanagan and the actors for bringing their all to this.
    The most amazing part for me about this monologue is that there isn't a word wasted. Flanagan is a very talented man.

  • @TampaKush
    @TampaKush 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    Such incredible writing, had me cutting onions!!

  • @Laurenbdavis
    @Laurenbdavis 3 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    Perfect. As a writer, I am scalded with envy. ;-)

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Hey... it's all in that moment of inspiration, isn't it? And it seems they made the most of it. :)

  • @SaironBusatto
    @SaironBusatto 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    So good to know that are people out there thinking exaclty like me, those words iv been reapeating to everyone that knows me for so long, and now i just see that on NETFLIX! so good to know that im following a logic thinking as some people at least!

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      That was the EXACT same reaction I had. Welcome to the family, Sairon!

  • @Dubya3030
    @Dubya3030 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This scene was so fuckin powerful. Gave me intense goosebumps

  • @brandonkey8065
    @brandonkey8065 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    My grandmother died on July 30, 2022 from lung cancer. My father also has terminal cancer, and my grandfather has been battling cancer as well. Without this monologue, I don't know what kind of solace I could even begin to search for. Thank you, Mike Flanigan. Thank you, Midnight Mass.

  • @uttam6192
    @uttam6192 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    It feels so strangely amazing when i was hearing this part by part again and again transcribing it on my phone. It hits hard. What a monologue...!

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      We have it transcribed in the description, mate. Hope it helps. ^_^

  • @MrPhife333
    @MrPhife333 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This is hands down the most beautiful vampire story I have ever seen (if a vampire story can be called beautiful). The writing was SPOT ON in its approach to believers, to non-believers, and to those in recovery. There was no agenda here. Just a beautifully told story that was completely honest and heart felt. "Chef's Kiss" to this series.

  • @Diablo7811
    @Diablo7811 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    This is beautiful. I don’t think I have ever heard anything quite like it.

  • @stitchesstories2587
    @stitchesstories2587 3 ปีที่แล้ว +40

    We are energy, no this physical body. We are part of the universe and life is a constant repetition. Although, I know the real me didn’t want to come back, why we have to come back? Maybe because we are energy flowing around, we find a pregnant mommy who caught our energy. When humans understand what we really are, this planet would become a better home to live .

    • @atumseed8208
      @atumseed8208 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      ✨🤍✨

    • @eleveneleven6638
      @eleveneleven6638 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      No money to be made in this. They want that tax free Joel Osteen kind of money for their ferrari's and yachts.

  • @marwellie
    @marwellie 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Mike Flanagan really put into words how a lot of us feel about life and death. I've listened to this a dozen times now and it still gets me every time. Might be because I lost someone very close and dear to me earlier this year, but still. This is probably the most beautiful and sorrowful monologue I've ever heard.

  • @FynePr1ntWilliamsMUS1C
    @FynePr1ntWilliamsMUS1C 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    I just finished the last episode, and just like all of you I searched for this. I wondered how many people would feel those words as deeply as I did. Man, life is amazing.💯👑

  • @tomtagliente1464
    @tomtagliente1464 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This was a beautiful moment! The instrumental of WERE YOU THERE by The Newton Brothers is beautiful, too!

  • @merle3924
    @merle3924 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Our brains, our consciousness are like the universe looking inward to itself, experiencing the creations of it's effort.

  • @leo.barbette
    @leo.barbette 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    she just expressed everything my mind was trying to tell me, i'll never forget this speech. I cannot stress enough how this resonated through my soul.

  • @RMrOdGy
    @RMrOdGy 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Most perfect description of life and death and everything in between and after. So deep, yet so simple. I would love to meet the person that wrote this.

  • @SuperThisen
    @SuperThisen 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    This show might be my favorite ever. It hit me in such a different way, that no other show has done before and i'm not even religious in any way. I love this show so much, it was brutal but beautiful at the same time.

    • @kthstefani
      @kthstefani 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      I see it as anti-religious.

  • @rogerdavis5142
    @rogerdavis5142 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This is magnificent writing. We are essentially empty space and electrical forces engaged in a temporary formation.

  • @J.Rylance
    @J.Rylance 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Honestly my favourite part and a great ending to the story.
    I don’t know why but the “and again and again and again” always hits me. She sounds almost childlike and excited to start the cycle over again and again.

  • @michaelbrewer2411
    @michaelbrewer2411 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Just finishjed watching it. First time. Loved the religious and theology ideas put on screen to make you think! I really felt for Riley's character and his suffering. At the time of his death, to hear him say "I did my best" and he sees Tara-Beth whole - I was in tears! Grown man...
    I suppose Lisa's line at the end makes us think that the Angel is dead. If we go by modern lore about such things.

  • @Tracimoon2222
    @Tracimoon2222 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    Watching right now.. tears are flowing 😭 the truth absolute 💯 🙌🙏🌠🌌☄❤❤❤

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Happy you like it, Traci-Anne! Take care! ^_^

    • @Tracimoon2222
      @Tracimoon2222 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@SamuelHaret The best 🙏🙌💜🕎🌠🌌

    • @Tracimoon2222
      @Tracimoon2222 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@SamuelHaret I was actually watching the episode and did a search so that I could send these words everywhere.. this resonated 100% Thankyou God Bless 🙌🙏💞💜🕎🌠🌌🌻🍀🍃🍂🌈🌈🌈

    • @JessiTheBestiGaming
      @JessiTheBestiGaming 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      100% the answer everyone has always been looking for. It resonates on a SOUL level. Back to the very beginning of time. And your soul screams.. "Yes! That's IT! THAT'S the truth"

  • @aleccrocker9463
    @aleccrocker9463 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This was such an amazing show. This is the most beautiful way to describe death and the after-life. I hope she is right.

  • @seekercpt
    @seekercpt 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    in the scene... our true nature is explained... will resonate within all, especially those that are present/aware...beautiful

  • @brinbearable
    @brinbearable 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you for posting this!!! It makes me weep each time, I’m so glad others felt it too.

  • @streetlevelaudio4388
    @streetlevelaudio4388 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you for posting this :) I think about this monologue constantly and how much it resonates with my own beliefs. I could listen to it again and again and again…….

  • @DaveLandis
    @DaveLandis 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I was frozen watching this speech. Thanks to them for putting it into words, and to you for preserving it here.

  • @arvinbelmonte8418
    @arvinbelmonte8418 3 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    I love how the show incorporates biblical references to the lore. “I am that I am” is what God said to Moses via the burning bush when asked who He was.

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      That's fascinating, did not know that.

    • @joeserianz6205
      @joeserianz6205 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Also this.
      John 8:58: "Jesus said to them, “Truly, truly, I say to you, before Abraham was, I am.”"

    • @arvinbelmonte8418
      @arvinbelmonte8418 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @Northern Wolf relax Bev lol. I don't believe in reincarnation too. I just love how the show incorporates their biblical point of views, after all what you have been said are just another interpretation of the bible.

    • @kthstefani
      @kthstefani 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      @Northern Wolf Your book is better than someone else's book. Your god is better than someone else's god. You know more than I, you know more than anyone else. Only you are right, only your views and only your religion. Do you see a problem with that line of thinking? No, you probably do not, because your way is the only way because after all, YOU do know. YOU know it, YOU feel it, YOU'VE read it, YOU believe it, YOU could not possibly be wrong.

    • @kthstefani
      @kthstefani 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @Northern Wolf I am very familiar with Dawkin(s), Chris Hitchens and many other atheists. Just because you found god doesn't mean anything. It's just you. Constantly throwing bible verses out and calling people liars is never a way to convert or convince people. Just because you found it doesn't make it true, it never will. Extraordinary claims require extraordinary evidence. I don't go with what feels good. I read it, didn't change my view at all. All of this talk of fear yet you say love. Just more of the contradictions bible believers always make excuses for and twist to fit the lords mysterious ways. No accountability whatsoever. The bible just another way to control people and tell them how to live and what to think. I am not buying it. I am smarter than that, but hey if you believe it, that's a good thing for you, just don't spew all that out to other people and condemn them and call them names for not believing that sounds awfully arrogant to me and that is a human emotion, not one that should be godlike.

  • @muhammadrazahaidery5941
    @muhammadrazahaidery5941 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    The final was heartbreaking and this monologue leaves me in tears eveytime..The expressions of Kate while dying and picturing herself with Riley is heart-wrenching

  • @JulesA5266
    @JulesA5266 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Not gonna lie, I was watching this show as a sort of show in the background while I do other things. But then this conversation happened. It made me stop and pay attention. I realized that I need to rewatch this series and pay attention this time because of how impactful the entire series really is.

  • @Snomo
    @Snomo 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    The most beautiful part about this monologue is that it’s just simply the truth.
    Some people may listen to this and think it’s cheesy or cliche, but they don’t realise that this is the reality that we all face. So us being here in the comments and being totally obsessed with this… that’s as real as it gets. And it sucks that some people don’t resonate with it because the irony of it all is that… they do whether they want to or not.

  • @nataliesmith7423
    @nataliesmith7423 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    This is the most beautiful monologue. It makes me weep and smile. It lifts up my heart and I feel these words. I have shared this with everyone I know because I hope it gives them the same feeling. It is so profound. I love this.

  • @darlamae9876
    @darlamae9876 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Thank you for posting this monologue 🙏🖤

    • @SamuelHaret
      @SamuelHaret  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Pleasure, Darla! Happy to have you here!

  • @wolfil8019
    @wolfil8019 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I love this. I am a radical individualist when it comes to how I wish to be treated by others on this planet, but I am such precisely because I know that each one of us is the whole of the ... universe? ... cosmos? ... pluriverse? (my prefered term) ... for ourselves ... Each one of us is "the cosmos dreaming itself". And no god is necessary for this, not any "laws", not even natural "laws", only the dreaming and its habits which can change at any time. And, yes, "I am all of it. I am everything. I am all." And in this moment, I am me, me as eyes, ears, skin, tongue, nose, brain to take in all the beauty, all the wonder, and, yes, all the horror, all the pain, that is life and love and being ...

  • @HauntedMask24
    @HauntedMask24 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This speech always gets me. It was the perfect wrap to the series in my opinion. I’m catholic but very spiritual and I felt like this speech really conveyed the mystery that life is, and no matter what happens when we die at least we are at peace. Whether we go to a heaven or return to the cosmos like Erin we are truly at peace. This show is a masterpiece! 💯

  • @kermite-frog5281
    @kermite-frog5281 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    our path is paved by his wisdom. U don't have to do anything..he already gave you everything. its called life. In his image..and his love!

  • @Intellectualcuriocity
    @Intellectualcuriocity 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Speaking for *myself * that's when I realised it's going to be phenomenal ......

  • @arishinichi7358
    @arishinichi7358 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I've converted this monologue to mp3, so i can listen to this, everytime i want to.. I have religion, i know where will i go when i die.. I mean heaven or hell.. But this monologue calm me down.. Glad to hear this.. The meaning of life and die from erin's angle..